#maia I am really sweet in person I promise

[a-world-of-whimsy-5]

Hi! Requesting Namo x reader please! “are you sure? once i start i don’t think i’m able to stop” and “you feels so good” and spice level: 🔥🔥🔥

"Pleasurable respite"

Pairing: Námo x Fem. Reader (Maia/Second person POV)

Themes: Smut (Lemon)

Warnings: Throne room sex | Kissing | Hickies | Mild dirty talk | Nicknames  | Explicit language | Penetrative Sex | Rough Sex | Cream Pie

Summary: Námo and you find a very pleasant way to spend some time together in the throne room.

Word count: 1.5K

Rating: 🔥🔥🔥 Minors DNI | 18+

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Námo sat upon his throne. Fëa after Fëa came to him, pleading their cases, listening to his judgments, his counsel. They would then depart for the Halls of Awaiting to spend their allotted time in prayer and reflection.

The Vala was weary. He wanted proceedings to be over and done with, and soon. Even he, the Doomsman, needed respite to gather his thoughts and clear his mind. When the last of the fëar finally departed for the halls, he dismissed the others, insisted that he not be disturbed, and called you to him.

"Are you weary, sweet raven?" He inquired, not unkindly. His veil, a confection of sheer gray lace and amethyst beads, fluttered with every breath he took.

"No, my lord, I am not," you replied. You stood by the foot of the throne, awaiting his invitation. Námo called out to you, beckoning you with a curled finger as he did so. Blushing furiously, you gathered your skirts, walking up the polished stone steps to his dark, lofty throne. You dipped into a deep curtsy when you reached him. Námo sighed.

"You know I do not ask for such deference from you, sweet raven." Námo held out his hand, and you took it, flushing when you felt a gentle squeeze. "Why do you persist?"

"You have asked; it is true." You inched closer, pulled by the tug on your hand. "But you are still our lord, and one of the Aratar besides. It is only right that I show you deference."

Námo sighed again but accepted your choice. He did not want to argue. He knew you could be stubborn when you chose to be, and right now, after spending days and weeks and many a turn of the moon judging fëar, he wanted to enjoy the precious moments he had with you.

"Come," he urged, and patted his thigh.

You looked around and licked your lips. "But my lord, the others…"

"Come," he insisted. "Come sit on my lap. The others will not disturb us. I promise."

Your eyes were still on the doors when you made yourself comfortable on his lap. Námo studied you, and the doors closed and sealed themselves shut in the blink of an eye.

"Is that better?" He said, his fingers curling around your hair, "Sweet raven?"

Námo said no one would disturb either of you, and he had the power to make it so. Now, anyone who came upon those closed doors knew those within could not be disturbed unless the matter was grave. You felt more than a little foolish for your fears. "Yes. Much better. How are you, really?"

"Weary," Námo sighed and pushed back his veil, revealing tired inky black eyes. "My duties never end."

You felt for him. "I am sorry."

His hand brushed over your hair, your eyelids, and your cheeks. Námo ran the tips of his fingers over every bump and line. It was a ritual the both of you shared, something you looked forward to whenever you were alone with him. A soft, gentle thumb brushed over your lips. You shivered and sighed when that thumb kept tracing its way around your lips, over and over and over again. Heat slowly gathered in your core when Námo grew more daring, and that thumb slipped into the warmth of your mouth. Unable to help yourself, you gently sucked on it before pulling away.

Námo moaned, the sound low in his throat. He glanced at the locked doors and thought of his orders not to be disturbed. He turned to you, his fana flushing with heat when you looked at him and smiled coyly, your eyes bright with need.

"Perhaps, we could do more?" You looked at him with bashful eyes.

"Are you sure?" His eyes seemed to darken even more. "Once I start, I do not think I will be able to stop."

"Yes," you purred sweetly, squealing when he pulled you even closer. Before you had time to even blink, his lips possessed yours with a kiss that burned you to your core. "I am sure."

His mouth opened over yours, his lips sweet like honey and cloves. The welcomed taste of him washed down your throat when his tongue dipped into the warmth of your mouth, greedy and eager. And his kisses were frantic, full of hunger and longing. It had been so long, so very long, since the two of you had a moment like this. His hands were all over you, grabbing you, delving into your hair, hiking up your dress. They glided up your thighs and tore at your small clothes, leaving you bare and exposed to his touch.

"You look so beautiful," he cooed softly against your ear. "Even more so when you are exposed to me."

"But I am not fully exposed, my lord." You trembled with anticipation when a deft hand glided to the apex of your thighs.

"Not yet," Námo groaned. He trembled when you addressed him with deference, and he shivered even more when he found you already slick and wet. "Wait till we are truly alone. I will rip that dress right off of you."

"But I like this dress, my lord."

"Fuck the dress…. And keep calling me my lord. I insist."

You splayed your hands against his chest when he pressed his thumb against your clit, your breath hitching when his lips possessed yours again. You could not think; you could not even breathe. All you could do was feel. And you felt so much: soft lips crushing yours, a powerful arm holding you flush against him, skilled fingers toying with your clit, a sweet, heady scent filling you with each breath you took. When Námo slipped a finger inside you, raw and unbridled lust coursed through your veins, making your head spin.

"Such a sweet songbird," he grunted when you moaned helplessly and ground against his hand. "Pray how do I get you to sing even more?"

"Perhaps by using something other than your fingers, my lord?" You dared him. Your hands flew to your mouth and you giggled, shocked by your boldness. Námo smiled—a slow, wicked smile— before he took your hands and pulled them away.

"Undress me," he ordered, his voice thick and hoarse. "And we will see."

His next kiss was slow and lazy, his tongue licking at the seams of your mouth before dipping in. You fumbled with his belt, the clasps on his breeches. Still, it didn’t take long to undo them. Námo moaned and cursed under his breath when you slipped your hand beneath his robes and wrapped it around his cock.

"Oh…" He muttered when you stroked his cock. "Oh my stars… oh fuck…"

His weariness and the tediousness of everything vanished, and all he could feel was an unimaginable pleasure shooting up his spine. He slumped into his throne, his mouth half-open in a silent moan. He wanted to stay there and take his time with you. He yearned to prolong this delightful interlude for as long as he could. Alas, he did not have the luxury of time. The others would return soon, and he would have to be ready to take up his duties again.

"Come, sweet raven." Námo took your hands into his and kissed them repeatedly. "We need to hurry."

Hurry. The doors may have been locked, but the others could still return. You guided him inside of you, whimpering helplessly when his cock sheathed itself inside your throbbing cunt.

"You feel so good," he breathed, and grabbed your hips. "So fucking good."

You slipped your arms around his shoulders, pulling him closer. The kiss that followed was long and passionate. The throne room soon filled with the sounds of your moans, of his thighs slapping against yours. Námo eagerly dipped his head, his mouth latching onto the curve of your neck. Your nails dug into his robes when teeth and tongue made dark patches bloom all over your throat.

"Touch me," you whimpered, craving more. "Please, my lord."

He palmed your breast, toying with your nipple through your silks. Skilled fingers pinched and teased, reducing you to a mewling mess.

"When we are in our chambers," he promised, "My lips are going to be all over you, sweet raven."

"I shall hold you to it, my lor… oh my stars…" You cried when Námo thrust deeply, finding that place that gave you pleasure, the kind you had never felt before. He pulled you in for a kiss, one that was violent and bruising.

"Yes, my lord," you moved your hips in tandem with his thrusts, your knees chafing against velvet cushions. "Like that, my lord. Harder. Please go harder. Please."

Námo growled, his thrusts rough and fast. A few moments were all it took before he shuddered violently when his orgasm ripped through him. He held you tight, growing drunk on your cries when you climaxed, grunting deeply when your cunt milked his cock. He refused to let go of you, peppering you with kisses while he spilled his seed inside you.

Clarity came slowly. Námo sighed and slumped into his throne, smiling indulgently when you tucked your head beneath his chin. He wanted to savor that moment of you and him together, before duty called him again.  

tags: @cilil @edensrose @asianbutnotjapanese @fictionfordays

[hypokeimena]

if you're going to roll up and bite me about my op tags please read the whole tag and chew the whole thing thoroughly first. for reference, the tag is: #emotion of eg goblin emperor book villainizes protomarxism and acts as if worker rebellions and strikes only exist to make maia's life hard

my issue isn't so much maia himself - he's a young man who's pretty impossible to criticize, really, as he is so transparently Doing His Best at all times. as you say. however a pretty basic part of lit crit is not just taking stuff from the book you're examining at face value. so let's look at a couple of things you seem to have missed on your 3 rereads, for you to consider whenever you get around to your fourth - questions that would be a better faith engagement with my tags and with the point i'm actually making.

why did the author invent this fabulous and genuinely rich and richly illustrated world, only to focus it on the internecine struggles of the ultrawealthy? what might that suggest about what the author values?

why is one of maia's personal arcs 'learning to accept the voluntary servitude of others?' what narrative and metanarrative purpose does that serve?

what is the political or structural utility of unwavering kindness by an absolute monarch? does it produce any real societal change?

were the workers who assassinated maia's family justified, morally or politically? does the work agree with you? does the work permit you to disagree with it, or is it pulling some marvel movie villain shit?

what is the book's attitude towards the discontented lower classes? does it treat common people with respect for the wholeness of their personhood, or does it treat them as narrative obstacles whom maia merely needs to win to his side with his sweet and thoughtful personality?

is this book about exploring structural racism against part goblins in an elf supremacist kingdom, or is it about one individual boy being so nice that no one can hate him? is racism a problem of the individual or a problem of the society?

is the absoluteness of maia's rule in any way tempered within his society? what narrative function do such limitations perform - does it make it impossible to criticize him? the concept of empire?

how is the author attempting to shape your political sympathies? what deaths does she present as violence requiring a solution, and what violence and deaths does she present as natural or only to be expected?

is the absolute ruler of such structures in any way personally liable for their harm, or is the entire book designed around maia's ability to keep his hands clean?

anyway i recommend that you step outside the diegetic when attempting to engage with media in future.

smarter people than i have written more cogent / trenchant analyses of maia's politics as well which i recommend you look into as unfortunately i am pretty annoyed at you and i'm aware that comes through in this reblog.

also also: the idea of goblin bolshevik anti-monarchist terrorists ROCKS, and i will freely admit that some of my frustration with this genre is that i'd much rather have that book. but instead it's all princes you have to be so nice to.

edit: if you would like to discuss this further in a genuine way that doesn't assume i don't know what i'm talking about, i am open to that, but i cannot handle more random strangers being bad faith in my notes rn so i've locked the post. feel free to send me an ask or DM or make a post and tag me in it and i'm happy to reply privately or publicly and i promise i will try to be less annoyed.

i think actually that it's hysterically funny how much of the so-called hopepunk oeuvre is like "but he's a GOOD hereditary monarch"

[shidouryusm]

idk but ur like such a v cool person n idk why but i get intimidated with cool people so i just sat here and my shy ass just liked and rb ur works instead of interacting w u 😭😭😭

I am the last person probably in this universe anyone would ever get indimidated of.

Pls do interact with me. I love LOVE it when people do.

Some uwu of me for you to not get scared👆

Everyone say MashaAllah for my little munchkin.

[beclynn-herondale]

jace + taking care of baby son alone for the first time please!!

Thank you, I love writing dad Jace

This is long but worth it

"well buddy it's just me and you, mommy took your sisters to the store," Jace said to his 6 month old son. And he smiled at Jace, that sweet innocent smile that babies and kids have, the smile of them not yet knowing the hardships of life, Jace and Clary swore they would give their kids the best life they could and they would make it easier for them.

And one of Jace's favorite thing about being a dad is his kids smile at him with the smile of knowing exactly who he is, He's dada

Jace read many books about pregnancy when Clary was pregnant with their first baby and he knew Clary would get super emotional but so did he.

He let his son grap his finger and swing it around like babies do, it's funny how at one point in your life all you want is constant fighting and being a hero and then after all that all you wanted was a family and once you have that family there really isn't anything more important.

Clary and the kids were Jace's world now and they are a world he would protect and love until dies.

"you know I love you right bud," Jace said. Stephen squealed and blew raspberries at Jace "I'll take that as a yes," Jace said with the loving and gentle smile he had for the ones he loved, he kissed his son on the cheek

Jace stuck his tongue out at him, and Stephen giggled, Jace started laughing as well, this is why being a parent made him feel so fulfilled, those laughs your kids gave you when you were being silly

The way they trusted you and loved you without a second thought and in return you give them love and take care of them and make sure they know their trust is safe with you, Jace wouldn't be anything less to his kids, he would always make sure they knew he loved and supported them no matter what, and that they can always trust him.

"listen chickpea, you need to stop being so cute and getting bigger, I want to snuggle you forever," Jace told his son while tearing up cause Stephen was already six months and he doesn't know how it's already been six months since he came into the world and they added another precious light to their life.

When Jace and Clary found out they were having another kid they were both overjoyed, Jace got Clary to agree to a big family, after they had their first kid and Celine started getting bigger, Clary came to Jace with tears saying 'she's getting so big it's not fair' at first Jace thought Clary was hurting and his instincts were to take her into his arms but then he found why and he started crying 'i know it seems like yesterday she was a newborn'

And then they met Eleanora who's parents had been killed on a mission and they took her in, Jace and Clary made sure she knew that she was just as much their daughter as Celine was, Jace having an adopted family himself didn't hesitate taking her in, and then a year later Clary found out she was pregnant with their son

And now Jace was here married with the most amazing and beautiful wife he could ever ask for, who is also the best mom ever in his opinion, and with 3 amazing kids who he will give all the love he can to, he had to admit he was nervous, he knew how to be a dad to girls but not a son yet, sure Max and Rafe are boys but that's different, their his nephews, Jace now had a son and he knew he will teach him to be a good man, he will teach his children to be better then he has been and make sure that they know how proud he is of them no matter what.

Jace decided to take Stephen to the greenhouse, "see chickpea, all these plants are beautiful, they all have a purpose and they all are different," Jace was telling his son as he bent down by a Basil plant "see this you use to cook with to give good flavor, one day dada will make you something with it," Jace said beamingly.

"one day I will teach you how to do all kinds of things, but for now you need to stay little," Jace said as he tickled his son, and was given that adorable baby laugh in return.

"you know, you really are precious, and I swear I will be the best dada I can be to you and your sisters, mommy will too, she's great you know, she also loves to the moon and would do anything for you, and she is the strongest person I know," Jace told his son

"oh, and then there's your uncle Alec, he is amazing and he's making the world a better place for the babies like you, he is the truest person I know and he loves you very much, Alec is a very important person to me and he doesn't get enough recognition, but I know you will look up to him just like I do," he said with a fond smile "also if anyone ever hurts you, your aunt Izzy will fight them, she loves you so much as well and she is one of the most amazing women you will ever meet, tho I suppose I am biased, but most of all Izzy will protect you no matter what," Jace said as sat down with his son in his arms and looked him in the eyes, they were Clary's green eyes.

"and your uncle Magnus will teach you how to put eyeliner on some day, and I want you to know that no one else can show you how to do it better, he'll also give you glitter and you will probably make a mess but you'll have a lot of fun doing that, you get that from me, I like to cause trouble," he said teasingly "and your uncle Simon will get you into all kinds of Mundane movies and comic books and I have no idea what they are about, but I'll listen when you come to tell me about them," he said with a smile

"and then there's grandma Maryse, she is another amazing woman, your surrounded by amazing women, she'll sing to you and play with you and spoil you, she'll read to you and make sure you feel safe, she is my mom and she tried her best to make me feel safe, so I know she will for you too," he said as he was starting to tear up.

"and now we talk about Max and Rafe, your cousins, Max is gonna get you into trouble and Rafe will get you both out of it, and you all will have many stories to tell and you'll be close and always have each other's backs, and they love you so much as well."

"and there's Tessa and Jem they are beautiful people who are so kind and loving you wonder if they are real, you know if you ever need them they'll come with hesitation, and they love you, then we have Kit and Mina, Kit will always make sure you have cookies and Mina will play with you and give you bandages if you need one," he said and saw that Stephen was staring at him like he was listening "and there's aunt Emma, she's gonna spoil you along with your sisters, she calls you and your sisters super angel babies, and she will smoother you in kisses so you better watch out, but she is kind and badass and you'll love her."

"and aunt Lily will say she'll eat you cause your so cute but she won't really I promise, aunt Lily is another amazing woman, and she is a savage, trust me she'll teach you things, and there's aunt Maia, I was not so nice to her when we first met but I grew on her and I apologised, and she loves you, she says she doesn't know how I made such cute babies, but i have to admit your mama had a big part in that," he said with a laugh.

"oh and there's Aline and Helen, they'll love you as well, Aline is another badass and amazing woman and Helen is fierce and kind, Aline will also show you how to throw a good lunch but don't tell mama I told you that, and Helen will make your oatmeal with love," Jace said with fondness.

"and there's Mark and Cristina, they are in charge of the Downworlder-Shadowhunter alliance,and Mark will make you weird sandwiches but he makes them with love, and he'll give you strawberries, and Cristina will sing you to sleep with spanish lullabies, your surrounded by so many people who love you, and you'll grow up to know these amazing people," he said emotionally.

"ah, there's my boys," Clary said as she walked up to them. "What's dada telling you chickpea?" She said as she picked their son up and kissed his temple

"I was telling him he is surrounded by good people who will love him," he said

"yes, so many, sometimes I wonder if you'll even know what to do with it all," Clary said with a grateful and loving smile.

"dada! dada!," Called Cece and Nora, Jace saw them running up to him and they tackle hugged him.

"hey my girls," he said as he took them both in his arms and they told him about their visit to the store and Clary took Stephen to go feed him, cause he was now hungry.

Fatherhood was an adventure and it's a adventure he hoped to be on forever, "alright girls let's go get dinner ready while mama takes care of baby chickpea," he said to them.

And they went and made dinner and Jace would never know what he did to deserve this love he now had but he knew he would forever be grateful and make sure he gives as much love back.

Tagging @khaleesiofalicante cause I know you'll be emotions with me

This got long but I couldn't help myself and I wanted to write about them as a family nas wellz hopefully you enjoy anon and hopefully this isn't too bad 🧡💛🧡💛

[shadowhunterspolycule]

the first major snowfall in ages finally hit nyc recently and all im imaging is the Polycule attaching snowboards and the such to the back of simons van and them just being happy with snow day activities

oof, this ask is from so many months ago, i'm so sorry. i was very busy. i'm also not sure how great my answer will be because i'm a whole ass brazilian so i have no idea what snow day activies are, but i will try anyway

so, major advantages: meliorn has magic and maia is a werewolf and if i'm not mistaken it's said or implied that werewolves have a higher core body temperature than humans. or maybe i made that up, but it's canon for me

major disadvantages: raphael and simon are vampires, which means that technically they are kind of "cold-blooded" creatures? i mean they would still have other important temperature regulating mechanisms such as mitochrondrial heat production and muscle contraction, but they basically don't have a heartbeat/blood flow/arguably blood at all, which is a major way of regulating core temperature, and canonically their skin feels pretty cold, so like. they probably are more suscetible to temperature changes is what i'm saying (i'm mostly going off this source [link] for this. i'm already overthinking this answer good job me)

plus i am once again saying that raphael is from guadalajara which means that like me he is used to Worm Temperchoores, like, WAY warmer than NYC's, and he grew up without pretty much any kind of snow at all. and sure he's lived in NYC for years so he's SOMEWHAT used to the cold but he still spent his formative years in guadalajara, so like. he fucking hates the cold, is my point

but back to major advantages: meliorn and magic! which means they can do something about it. don't ask me what, but i'm sure they can do Something. i mean i'm sure to some extent the downworld has already figured out a solution to this problem cuz while it might not kill them (since they're immortal) it is very uncomfortable and probably makes them slower, which is a disadvantage to say the least. plus raphael has magnus who knows that raphael is a grumpy ass in the cold. also i think java is similarly hot so magnus Gets It, but idk what the temperatures usually are in jakarta

anyway my point is that magnus probably got some coats/vests/blankets spelled for his boy so they can keep him toasty (since they are otherwise kinda useless for vampires since they rely on trapping body heat and vampires don't have any) and vampires in general probably have access to that kinda stuff, but still, rapha gets grumpy and his face is still cold and everything is just awful and he doesn't understand how gringos do it. his complaints fly for about 2 days before the New Yorker Squad™ (particularly simon and maia, who drag clary and inevitably everyone else is there) decides that they've had enough of this and that raphael will learn how to enjoy the snow

he is like "i am not willingly going into the snow! you don't understand, i'm a vampire, i won't get back my body heat the way you do". simon: "i literally am also a vampire". raphael: "you're just a fledgeling, you wouldn't understand" "i've been a vampire for like, ten years!" "seven" "same thing" "it's so not the-" "i have gone through enough winters to be able to understand, and you, sir, are going to learn to enjoy the snow. have you EVER even made a snow angel?" "no" "well this changes today"

he literally has no excuse because meliorn has this super sweet spell that keeps him from losing heat so like. he doesn't even need a coat (he's still wearing it and preferably also a scarf and gloves because he is, first and foremost, dramatic) so he is forced to have a day off and go play in the snow, woe is him

(he tells the clan that should they need anything they should ring him, but they're like "nah simon has promised us pictures of you in the snow, we can handle ourselves" and it's not like raphael is too busy these days, really)

anyway! they have fun. simon strikes me as the winter lover kind of person altho really i think he enjoys all seasons in their own way, but like... hot chocolate and scarves and snow fights, yes? and while i think maia might prefer warmer temperatures she can double enjoy herself in the snow now that she's a werewolf because she gets less cold and like, damn, tell me that being a wolf and jumping headfirst into a pile of snow wouldn't be fun. you can't, unless you're a bad taste bitch

i also think maia is the building snow forts kind of gal because, idk, she just looks that way. and sure she's excited about kicking everyone's asses during snowball fight but FIRST she needs to have a full fort complete with towers and windows for her to throw snowballs from and shit

rapha is the one that helps her build it the most cuz he likes the motions and besides it is a little less energetic than whatever it is that the rest of these wackos are doing. again izzy didn't get any chances to play in the snow either so naturally clary is dragging her around from snow activity to snow activity and running around everywhere and holy shit they have so much energy. simon is there as well naturally and eventually they make it their goal in life to ruin maia's and rapha's fort, which ends up kickstarting the mandatory snowball fight. even tho maia only has a half complete fort

(eventually when everyone has left maia and rapha will come back and finish the fort. it's the principle of the thing. raphael also wants to build an igloo or some shit and maia rolls her eyes but actually i can see him being into building snow things? it's just soothing and nice and quiet and he can pretend there's Elegance and Finesse to it)

and meliorn is just watching them curiously the whole time because of course they know snow but they dont really know about Snow Activities these funky little non-seelies dedicate themselves too. i feel like the seelies have their own snow activities, maybe like, festivals? dances with the snowfall and games to welcome the change in the environment, that sort of thing. but they are nothing like snow angels ("it doesn't look like an angel in the slightest, just like you kept moving your legs and arms in the snow" "thats what it is" "right, so...?") or snowmen ("also doesn't look like a man" "meliorn we aren't exactly artists") or snow fights (altho that one they can appreciate) and they're really interested in like participating even though they dont understand and everyone has to keep telling them that it's Not That Deep and izzy is so amused she just kisses them one billion times

eventually they start doing it just to get more of those laugh-filled kisses of hers

also at least one of them, probably izzy of rapha or meliorn since they are the snow ignorant ones of the group, is absolutely horrible at making snowmen. probably izzy tbh because shadowhunters dont exactly have a knack for these things. like clary's snowman is all artistic and simon's is fun and creative, maia's is pretty, raphael's and meliorn's look like the Platonic Ideal Of A Snowman, and izzy's looks like A Pile Of Dirt. clary giggles at it for an embarrassing amount of time, which inevitably leads to izzy taking the snow from her snowman to throw snowballs at clary and triggering a new snowfight

and then they have some soup inside and cuddle under a blanket as they fight over what they should watch and all is well with the world

[sirenmaiakelly]

"I'd bet a good chunk of people come here for that reason. Sure I probably am not necessarily looking for answers here but I was curious." Maia lived a long enough life that she knew what she was doing with her siren form but once she heard about Greywood she had to admit she was curious, plus it came at a time where she was in hot water and needed a safe haven. She smiled softly at Avery, not used to someone genuinely worrying about her. "You're sweet, you know that?" Maia shrugged slightly. "Yeah well my nightmares happen pretty much every time I close my eyes. I've always had them, even as a kid." Which was a long time ago but it had only gotten worse once she turned. But it really meant a lot to her that Avery was so adamant that she didn't have to go through it alone.

"You always have to be on the look for new bandmates, you never know where the best ones are going to pop up." She laughed. "Wait a bear roar on a heavy metal song would be so cool, you absolutely need this now."

"Well first I assume everyone in this town is something. It seems the humans are the rare ones. But also you just have that vibe about you? You carry a lot of trauma with you that seems to come with supernaturals." Maia said with a small shrug, she's been around enough that she had seen her fair share to make assumptions. "But yeah I feel like it depends on each person. Personally I wouldn't be offended if anyone asks as well but I could see how some people might be." Maia's heart broke a little for him, clearly this has been weighing on Avery for a while. "I promise you won't hurt me, but there's a chance if you do lose control around me I could help calm you down. And I can't promise I am ever going to leave you in a dangerous position, you already mean too much to me to let that happen."

"Really?I guess that's one more thing we have in common," he tells her, after all, Avery was here because he knew there were people like him around, if Jesse never told him about it, he'd...well he didn't even know where he'd be, "Look, I don't doubt you can kick some ass, baby, just--I guess I'm a worrier," to be honest he always been, very protective of his friends too. "Aw, that's not crazy, Maia," he gently sqeezes her, "We all get nightmares, right? some more than others, I've been a restless sleeper, I don't think you have anything to feel crazy about, and I'm here at any time, okay? just call me or come knock on my door, it's fine," it was also not like he had a job to worry about waking early to get to either, so... and he wanted to be here for her, Avery had taken a liking on the girl pretty much since the day they met, it was the way he was and there was probably no changing it at this point. "See now, how didn't I think to come look for bandmates here? I'm sure the bears would be so fucking down, plus! that roar on a heavy metal song? A plus," Avery laughs as he jokes around with her, turly glad had found Maia to make things seem lighter. "So you figured I was something? how? I mean, I'm giving off some kind of vibe?" he was honestly just being curious about it, "I don't mind if anyone asks, but yeah, I can see how it can feel a bit--Off?" he looks over at her, he's glad to hear those words, though he still has that terrible fear of hurting someone he likes, "Thank you," Avery breaths out, "Just--I wanted you to know, because I--can't I have no control and while you don't make me angry, at all, I don't ever want to freak out on you, I'm just--so fucking scared I ever gonna hurt someone...just promise me you'll be careful and if ever I'm about to lose it around you, you'll leave, doesn't matter what kind of situation it is, leave me to get my ass kicked I don't care, I just--want you to be safe."

[maiaphaelsource]

Human/Modern AU where Maia is still a werewolf but Raphael doesnt know but for some reason he runs into her in wolf form and like it's this huge docile wolf and they're just staring at each other frozen and Raphael thinks, absurdly, that the wolf reminds him of Maia, something about the eyes, and he kinda blurts this out and the wolf REACTS and hes like ??? MAIA?? no I dont know where this idea came from it's 3 am

ooh that's sweet! also trust raphael to find a huge wolf on the street and be like 🤔 you remind me of someone

but really i love the idea that he would recognize her? it's sweet and feels in character. he wouldn't care about her form he would just care about... the way she acts, i guess? and so it would click in his head despite the absurdity of it, you know, being a wolf

maybe she was just upset, and needed some time alone and away from her thoughts, so she went into wolf form and just... let herself be ruled by instinct and her body and get away from her mind for a while. and she runs around (keeping to the shadows, of course, she doesn't want to scare anyone) and finds herself close to raphael's house without realizing it

i picture maybe they're already dating in that scenario, but she hasn't Done The Reveal. and she suddenly realizes that she immediately went to raphael's for comfort and she's like. shit. i probably shouldn't get too close

but oops raphael was just coming back from... something (in the middle of the night? jdndjd plot twist he's also a vampire but neither of them know about the other. oooh or maybe so this makes more sense he's mundane but knows about the shadow world because after he lost his family he was raised by magnus?? hmmm i like both options) and he finds her and she just. freezes. and lets out a little yelp of surprise. so he turns sharply and there's this big wolf just... looking at him. looking scared. hell, terrified

and he's kind of like... "hey, buddy, this is pretty far from the woods. are you lost? should i call protective services or something?" not coming close because raphael is a responsible person who won't come too close to wildlife and risk spooking them and making matters worse. but maia is just kind of tearing up and upset and her instincts were right, she does kind of need raphael's quiet voice and reassurance right now, so she goes over to him and nuzzles him and raphael is kind of shocked but sits down and starts stroking her fur and talking to her quietly, you know? and she feels better

and eventually he's like... "are you a werewolf?" because this wolf is way too docile to be a regular wolf, and she kind of starts and he's like "it's fine, i'm no mundane either, you're not in trouble. you can come in, if you want" so she comes in and he nods and is like "if you want to transform, i have some spare clothes" and she starts again and just looks at him, completely terrified, and he stops and assesses her and is like.... "i know you, don't i?" and when she doesn't say anything he goes, very softly, "are you maia?" and she almost starts crying right then

so he reassures her that it's ok and he gets why she wouldn't tell him and eventually she does accept his offer and gets dressed in his sweatpants that he leaves for her, and they feel so good and smooth against her skin, and she knows raphael picked his most comfy ones. and as soon as she emerges, looking down, ashamed, apology on her lips and a promise that she really didn't mean to just show up out of nowhere or bother him... he hugs her first and is like "listen. i figure i found you by accident. but i don't ever want you to feel like you can't come to me when you need it" and her eyes water and she goes "i'm sorry"

he tells her not to be sorry, that he just wants her to know that she'll always have a place there, that she could have come to him in human form, that he wouldn't have minded. and it's. nice. to be with him and feel accepted and taken care of in her usual form, when he knows it's her, you know?

she'll eventually ask him why the hell he knows about the shadow world, and they'll find out magnus is a friend they have in common, but for now she just allows herself to think about herself and tells raphael what happened, how she was upset, how she didn't feel safe anywhere, much less inside her own head. raphael just listens - he always does, he's always been such a good listener, and god, of course she went to him, he always makes her feel so seen, so heard, like she matters - and hugs her close, running his hands soothingly over her back, and eventually they sleep together, and he's her big spoon, and she falls asleep way easier than she could have ever imagined

[tvobsessed96]

Top 10 TV Episodes of 2019

10. Marvel’s Runaways- Season 3, Episode 10- “Cheat the Gallows”

I’ll be the first to admit that Runaways is not a perfect show. I didn’t like season 1 all that much, mostly because Pride’s motivations and ultimate goals were too poorly defined for my tastes. I’m not expecting a big expositional villain monologue, but I at least need to understand what the villains are trying to accomplish and why. Otherwise, it’s hard to get emotionally invested. Having said that, season 2 was a marked improvement, and I wound up falling in love with this scrappy bunch of kids anyway. Which makes it all the more disappointing that the season that proved Runaways could be something great if it tried ended up being its last. I enjoyed season 3 a lot. The writing was better, the performances stepped up to match, and as annoyed as I am that the evil alien family trying to kill everyone plot was dropped unceremoniously without a satisfying explanation partway through the season, the battle with Morgan le Fey was filled with enough danger and tension to make up for it. But rather than choose that climactic battle as my entry for this list, I went with the messy, emotionally fraught aftermath. “Cheat the Gallows” could have been a simple, somewhat patriarchal story about a man going back in time to rescue the woman he loves, but it ended up being about a family clawing its way back together after wrestling with a shared trauma. Which, come to think of it, is pretty much exactly how the show started! Talk about coming full circle. The episode also ended up being a bit of a meditation on time itself, as the older versions of the Runaways contemplate the fact that Gert’s death led them down the paths that made them who they are. Once that’s erased, so are they. This realization gives the Runaways, mostly Nico, a chance to think about what they would have done differently, leading to a powerful scene in which Nico talks with her past self and pleads with her not to make the same mistakes she did. I bet we’ve all wished we could do that at one point or another. I also like that the episode ends with the sense that, with Gert saved, the Runaways might just be okay. Even if the note left for Alex by his murderous older self adds an ominous note to the whole thing.

9. So You Think You Can Dance- Season 16, Epsiode 15- “Live Finale Winner Announced”

So You Think You Can Dance continues to be the best reality competition show no one’s really talking about. Cat Deely has been robbed of her Emmy for best host too many times, but I digress. This show is always the highlight of my summer, and season 16 was no exception. Another season of amazing choreography, amazing performances, and a truly deserving winner that I can’t really be mad about, even if I was rooting for other dancers just as much. It was another really fun season, and I can’t wait for season 17! There’s a reason Fox keeps renewing this show despite the ratings, is all I’m saying.

8. Emergence- Season 1, Episode 9- “Where You Belong”

It’s true that the first half of Emergence’s freshman season was a bit uneven. The writing isn’t quite as compelling as it could be, and it does rely on some sci-fi cliches. But I’m a sucker for a good found family story, so I stuck it out. And I’m certainly glad I did, because the mid-season finale was pretty great! An excellent sense of stakes, and enough tension to keep you on the edge of your seat without skimping on the sweeter moments. It culminates in one of the most brilliant twists I’ve seen on TV since The Good Place! I’m curious to see what the rest of the season will bring.

7. Veronica Mars- Season 4, Episode 3- “Keep Calm and Party On”

I’m willing to bet that this will be the most controversial pick on the list, for several reasons. No, season 4 of Veronica Mars was not as good as its first, and I have problems with the way Rob Thomas and Kristen Bell handled the fan response to the ending. And that’s before we get to the episode itself. Many long-time fans of the series took serious issue with the extended party scene in this episode, given that Veronica was drugged and raped at a party in high school. There’s also her mother’s own history of alcoholism to consider. But while I absolutely sympathize with those concerns, Veronica’s decision to let loose and party still feels understandable to me. Given everything that’s been going on with the bombing case, she's searching for some kind of release. And if there was a year where the desire to just forget about the world for a while, past traumas be damned, felt all too real, it was 2019. And that’s why “Keep Calm and Party On” makes the list.

6. Single Parents- Season 1, Episode 23- “Ketchup”

Will and Angie are clearly the Jess and Nick of Single Parents, which is fine. But part of me is sort of hoping they don’t get together, because their friendship is pretty great. In this episode, Will takes Angie to a terrible fast food restaurant to confront Graham’s dad about abandoning her while she was pregnant. Will ends up using a bunch of food metaphors to explain to Derek what an amazing mother and person Angie is, and it’s fantastic! Add that to Douglas and Poppy realizing their feelings for each other, and you’ve got an episode that’s as completely hilarious as it is completely sweet. If you haven’t watched this show, check it out! It’s pretty delightful. 

5. Stumptown- Season 1, Episode 3- “Rip City Dicks”

Stumptown was the best new show this fall, hands down. The first half of its first season didn’t end quite as strongly as it started, but it gave us some fantastic episodes along the way. “Rip City Dicks” is one of them. Dex is hoping to apprentice under veteran PI Artie Banks in order to earn her license, but gets a cold, hard dose of reality when he sells out their client and her child to make a quick buck. Dex does learn a valuable lesson from it, though. Exactly what kind of private investigator she doesn’t want to be. The episode ends with an amazing, very feminist monologue from Dex promising Candace that she’ll get her kid back. It’s a fantastic performance from Cobie Smulders, and I’m really looking forward to the rest of the season! If you’re not watching Stumptown, you’re missing out.

4. This Is Us- Season 4, Episode 7- “The Dinner and the Date”

America’s favorite cry-worthy family drama gave us plenty of great episodes this year, including a much-anticipated origin story for Beth Pearson. Out of all the possible options, I ended up choosing “The Dinner and the Date” as my entry for this list. On one hand, you’ve got a sweet story of young love set against the backdrop of Philadelphia. On the other hand, you’ve got a young Black kid trying to form his own identity in a way his white adoptive parents just can’t understand, no matter how hard they may try. It’s a beautiful episode, and I look forward to seeing what 2020 brings for the Pearson family.

3. Marvel’s Cloak and Dagger- Season 2, Episode 10- “Level Up”

Honestly, I could have chosen any episode form Cloak & Dagger’s stellar second season for this list. There’s the near-perfect three episode run of “B-Sides,” “Vikingtown Sound,” and “Two Player.” There’s also the dark, thought-provoking Emma Lahana showcase that is “Shadow Selves.” But I ended up choosing the finale, because it felt like such a perfect culmination of everything the show had been doing up to that point. Tandy and Ty take on every obstacle Andre throws at them with an abundance of grace and an unshakable faith in each other. The choice to have them literally fight each other’s demons was inspired! But the most powerful moment comes when Tandy gets the chance to confront her late father after everything she’s learned about him since his death. She tells him in no uncertain terms that she, and only she, gets to decide how big a part of her he is. She says that the only thing she can do in the face of adversity is level up. If there’s a lesson to take into 2020, it’s this. If you think you aren’t strong enough to face what the world sends your way, level up. Turn your dagger of light into a sword of light. Stare oppression in the face and say, with your whole being, “Not today.” Disney and Marvel made a big mistake in cancelling Cloak & Dagger. Huge.

2. Good Trouble- Season 1, Episode 8- “Byte Club”

I hope anyone who thought Good Trouble wouldn’t be as powerful as The Fosters is really embarrassed after these first 20 episodes, and I mean that in the best possible way. Good Trouble is everything a great spin-off should be. It keeps the spirit, heart, and progressive mission of the original show, while also feeling like its own distinct entity. It introduces an amazing cast of new characters to love, without forgetting to check in on the old ones every once in a while. “Byte Club” has to be the best offering the show’s given us so far. Facing rampant gender and race discrimination at work, Mariana rallies the women of Speckulate to come up with a set of tips to help them assert themselves in the workplace. The advice they come up with is solid, and actually really useful in real life. But it’s made even more powerful when Mariana points out that women in professional spaces shouldn’t have to jump through all these ridiculous hoops just to get recognized for having an idea! And that’s not the only powerful feminist moment of the episode. Callie discovers that the reason Rebecca ended up as a clerk for Judge Wilson is because her previous judge sexually harassed her, and her powerful family refused to do anything about it other than get her out of there. I’ll admit that Callie had no right to insert herself into that situation and guilt Rebecca into coming forward in the following episode, but it’s still an amazing scene featuring excellent performances from Maia Mitchell and Molly McCook. I’m so excited for more Good Trouble in the new year!

1. The Good Place- Season 3, Episode 13- “Pandemonium”

The final season of The Good Place has been fantastic so far, and several of the most recent episodes almost made this list. But at the end of the day, “Pandemonium” is the kind of episode that makes me want to make television. To make something that will touch other people the way this episode touched me. I could go on and on about the beautiful love story between Eleanor and Chidi. But instead, I want to focus on the final scene, in which a distraught Eleanor calls Janet into her office and demands the answer to, well, everything. What does it all mean? Because if there’s no greater meaning, then the universe is just made of pain, and Eleanor can’t accept that. Janet’s response is what really makes the scene sing, so I’ll quote it here. “If there were an answer I could give you to how the universe works, it wouldn’t be special. It would just be machinery fulfilling its cosmic design. It would just be a big, dumb food processor. But since nothing seems to make sense, when you find something or someone that does, it’s euphoria.” To which Eleanor replies that all she can do is “embrace the pandemonium” and “find happiness in the unique insanity of being here, now.” And then she steels herself, opens the door, and welcomes her soulmate who has no idea who she is into the afterlife. This is the same philosophical bent that made me adore Angel so much, and it works just as well here. This episode aired all the way back in January, and these sentiments got me through awful headline after awful headline in 2019. Catch up on The Good Place if you haven’t already. It will be going off the air soon, and our lives will be all the worse for it.

[carndriverrecords]

First Blog Post 3/20/20

Started CnD Records today. Feels Good.

Working on some diss tracks. Not sure if they see it coming - doesn’t matter either way.

Planning to release Car and Driver first real record this Friday 3/20/20. Driving Test Driver Fest 1. 

Self release first record - another 20 tracks next week. Compile top 10 - 15 for first release with other label - thinking Terrible, Kranky, blu ish label or Thrill Jockey. Citrus City a no-go for now. Maybe just keep building CnD records.

Be the middle man - take advantage of opportunities without sacrificing my bands’ (and those I represent) integrity.

Reach sleep destroyer.

Last night at Ted’s - great DJ set. Kidz bop remixes, Fancy. Crowd hated it. Ted disappointed we had to leave but it’s ok with everyone. Tall guy took aux right out of computer, have video. Started dancing - cucked everyone. Everyone thinks they’re the crazy charismatic guy. Am I actually? I think so. Syd thinks so. 

CnD Fest 2 , 3 , 4 at Purchase and beyond. Would like to play apartments, Scully’s den in BK (reach out) and Philly, DC etc.

Next voice memo album - 20 - 25 tracks right now. Better than the first. Danny said best album ever.

Working on “My oh Maia Reason Why” video - my favorite video I’ve ever seen. Getting good feedback.

Important to collab with certain SUNY people before I go:

Members of Lip Critic, Dawson, Neal, Gabe.

Send stuff back and forth with Joseph Kress. 

Need to write song about not sharing a stage w unstable Car and Driver - cost me 2 gigs. Ok because I had the police interaction that night. 

Things have been working out quite well. Syd is keeping me in check. Main priorities are keep the energy going while I can and make sure everyone around me is comfortable with me doing my thing, specifically mom, sofia.

Going to Only Angels tomorrow to collab with Alex.

Tues/Wed in RI with Zach Gorton. Need to see Nick Holcomb, Sofia, Will Orchard if he’s around. Riley in Boston? Would love to. 

Visit Dad soon on the way to Richmond, in a few weeks perhaps. Grandma Roberta etc. They have a BBQ place now - I bet it’s great. 

Follow up in the morning (3 hours from now) with wedding band, Kevin Daniels, drummer etc.

Film sunrise sessions at Purchase: My Ride’s Here, Splendid Isolation, Keep me in your heart, Studebaker, Cat’s in the Cradle, Everybody that you know. Don’t think twice, Boots of Spanish Leather, Someday my Prince, Teenage Dirtbag, Arthur (Woof Woof), Forget You, Signed Sealed Delivered, Superstition, The Promise, Hold me now (TT), Love on Top, Townes Van Zandt, 1-800 superstar, Evan Wright, Tom Petty, Blinded By the Light, Searching for a Heart, Mag Field’s, Barenaked Ladies, TMBG, Dolly Parton one sided love, Byrds, Beatles, Kinks, Stones, Parquet Courts, T Swift (Red, Way I loved you), Mitski, Sasami, Anything Could Happen, Beach House, He Needs Me, These Days, YLT, Beach Boys, Big Star Take Care, G500/Luna, Felt, Psychic TV, Shelia, BJM, Yellow Sarong, Over and Over, Hazel St, Heatherwood, Helicopter, He Would’ve Laughted, I wanna be your lover, The pump, Good enough (sleep destroyer), Them airs, BH (14, indian summer), help me scrape mucus off my brain), Beach Comber, DO YOUR THING, Icehead, Bobby, 1000 times, WIll Orchard, Bon Iver, MGMT, Tame impala, Instant Crush, etc. Art Vandelay, Quick Canal, Stereolab, Grouper, Broadcast, Animal Collective, Panda Bear, Bachelor Kisses, Cranberries, Cure, Pastels, MBV, I found a reason, pale blue eyes, Deerhoof, Gretel Alex G, Dancing w tears in my eyes, Elvis Costello, No age(things i did), Are ya ok, Maus, Ariel, R Stevie, Aphex Twin, Zomes, Vampire Weekend etc.

Bring Laptop for Beats on some and lyrics for all. 

Love life more than ever before. Music feels so good. Want to help, make amends, everything that moondog did. Don’t be homeless much longer.

Not sure if I like throbbing gristle - definitely like Psychic TV.

How savage should diss tracks be? Very? Match the severity of the person’s treatment of me/others. Aka - pretty bad for all except for Auto.

Listened to new Kanye today - 10x better and more influential than death grips. 

Realized today that i’ve spent my whole life wishing I was Kanye and now I am Kanye. Feels very good.

Everyone is gifted but internet makes us angst. 

I am mostly Camus right now - maybe more Kierkegaard soon. Religion and Terrence Malik. Still need to read books.

Order of Books: The graduate Portrait of the artist Consider Lobster Infinite Jest Pynchon Ulysses (At recommendation of American gamer association)

Syd is incredibly gifted. Want to help her feel comfortable doing art/work here in the chaos but also sort out the chaos for both of ours’ sake. I thrive in it, she tolerates well. Want to move to Riverdale still, maybe East Williamsburg with Backpack Chris. We’ll see about money. Philly perhaps, little too far. Jersey is good location but bad commute. Bad to RI. 

Visit RI and Boston Tues - Thurs. Sell Cigarettes at Concerts. Feels right.

Keep smoking for now - quit end of summer perhaps. 

Don’t have Corona Virus - glad we are not quarantined. Still be smart. Don’t expose mom regardless. Protect at ALL costs. 

Really though, why does Journee hate me? Write new track (Journee into forever nevermore not now not ever (Lou)) or Journee into SJW self righteous moral posturing (way too savage - maybe voice memo outro)

AR Kane album is incredible. Syd loves too. Sample everything.

Crazy - sound better at jazz than ever in my life. Exploring harmony - never practice. Teach free lessons all the time. Love the diminished scale. Might be best jazz guitarist to ever live. Time will tell. Would be cool long term. Prefer singing. 

Getting good at piano too.

I’m my favorite lyricist/comedian/actor.

Is maia right, acting isn’t hard? Weird they can’t act.

^Remember to delete^

Don’t share this on Facebook yet.

Why does Journee hate me so much? Just the Louis CK joke?

People who stay home and do nothing hate to see irreverent people doing things.

People like when you’re losing - don’t like to see you win.

^That makes me sound crazy.

F00D outsider might make me famous first.

Need to keep up with legal situation.

Hope mom and dad both live long. Call Syd, get something nice for everyone in family. Get weird jewel cases. Order jewelry from etsy. Post merch on bandcamp.

Finish album art soon. Music videos. Get better at animation etc. Pay Ben for his poster. Actually really good. Maybe album art? Duo album! Record in Wisconsin, release under his name. WIll success be good for Ben? I think so. Still can’t believe Liv told him I wasn’t ok. Wow - good content for lyrics. You truly cannot write this.

How will people react to diss tracks? Extremely negatively. Or no reaction. We shall see. Maybe no real names in the titles...... only on Oh my. 4 names in titles is too many. Don’t release Auto track. Maybe on Voice Memos. 

Track List: Good God Bed Head Rosa Reprise Oh My House Pop 1 skydive Pop 2 APhex GVO Pay 4 Take some Cherish Stars in F Are ya ok too bright Honeys Get to work Everybody That You Know Frost Bit BPC NYC New Age Heimet Helmet Deadbeat dads watermill for slitting bars romantic song david byrne Cinema study in cinema Brain ego Cherry doc marten Can’t liv w/o Venmo groceries Oh you like? Dancin DJ blues We are the State Farm robots Danny dorito is a dirty devito My funny valentine Zoomer blues The thing abt genres Blss Like minds ft dawson Lil toucha jazz Introducing car and driver The holy moment empire Ethics 101 - gma in the street Otto is sad I don’t know what it means! Operatic mellismatic Car and driver fest will be a success! Car and driver fest was a bust again! Cipha’s comedy corner Ryder Be gone evil atonal spirits!

Unreleased mental breakdown compilation ep:

I like all music! I’m a stupid pos Electric micro bike Get off your phone! John frusc Nice song Lap steel for 2 My masseuse advice Bed head wash sq Punchie John Maus yoyo interview Diminished  kinda thing

Build the NYC scene, w Blu ish, Evan, 1 800, sweet joseph, Comics Club, Dawson, Sloppy Jane, Wheatus,

See Jack Fortin in NYC soon. Either my event or his. 

Things are still good. Syd will be a great filmmaker. WIll maybe will end up with a dancer or a filmmaker - Probably not a musician. WIll have many loves. 

Things are good right now - hope they stay that way. 

Feel like Ezra Keonig - hopefully someone reads this one day and agrees. Different time in history and the internet - hope this is less cringe than Ezra’s blog , probably not. Ezra, if you’re reading this, sorry. See ya at Bernie’s rally. 

[helloalycia]

good news [two] // alycia debnam-carey

summary: Alycia leaves to film The 100 and you find a way to constantly stay in touch.

warning/s: none.

one | three | masterlist

Alycia left for filming within a month, as she'd said. It was a month of me literally spending every moment I could with her because I knew I'd miss her too much when she'd leave. We'd lived together for 2 years and in those 2 years, she'd only ever left a handful of times for roles, and never long enough to make me miss her too much.

But this was different. This part was the first proper part she had that was on an already established, successful show. It was important to her, so it was important to me. When she was gone though, I had to stop myself from wanting to ring her every two seconds. There were times when I couldn't fight it unfortunately.

"Y/N!"

I grinned when Alycia's face enlarged on my phone. "Alycia! Hey! I'm not disturbing you, am I?"

She shook her head, a toothy smile on her lips. "No, I'm on my break. I was actually just about to FaceTime you!"

I chuckled. "Great minds think alike." She rolled her eyes playfully as I asked, "So what's with the weird eye makeup? Smoky eye gone wrong?"

Another eye roll. "It's my costume, idiot."

I laughed at her suppressed smile. She had her hair pulled back into a half-up, half-braids do, and swiped across her eyes was some sort of black face paint. This 'Lexa' character must have been something.

"How is this the first time I've seen your costume?" I questioned, raising my eyebrows. "You're well into filming now."

She'd been gone almost two and a half months now, yet I'd only ever caught her on FaceTime when she was at her hotel or when she was about to get into costume. It wasn't always FaceTime calls either – that was a luxury. It was usually texts (which she didn't enjoy) and phone calls.

She sighed, offering a small, apologetic smile. "I've been pretty busy, Y/N, sorry."

I realised I'd made her feel bad and that definitely wasn't my intention. "Aly, I didn't mean it like that. I know you're busy and that's okay! I'm thrilled for you and this part. It's huge!"

Her shoulders relaxed, betraying any pent up tension she must have had. "Thank you. Now... how are you? How are things back home?"

I glanced around our flat from my position on the couch, before shrugging and looking back to a knowing Alycia. "Alright. It's not messy, I've not died from starvation and nothing has burned."

Alycia laughed, making me smile at the sound.

"Glad to know everything's still intact," she teased, flashing me a smile, making my stomach do somersaults.

"How is everything over there? You got anything to share about this new character of yours?"

She knew I'd caught up on her show The 100 since she'd left and I was eager to have spoilers for the second season, but she was reluctant to share anything.

She pursed her lips and glanced up, thinking, probably to what she could spoil. A bright smile filled the screen as she realised something.

"There's one thing, actually," she pointed out. "I can't say what exactly–" this earned a pout from me, "–but I can say that there's something about my character that you're really gonna love."

"Alycia!" I complained like a child. "You can't tease like that."

She smirked playfully and honestly I didn't know if it was the dark Lexa makeup or what, but I had to look away because I could feel my cheeks heating up.

"You'll love it," she promised, adding what I thought was a flirty wink, but was most likely just me projecting my feelings on her actions.

It was calls like this that became a rare occurrence between us both. Timing was off, with our conflicting schedules busying us, so sometimes we'd have to work with what time we had.

For example, there was one time when I was getting ready for a party in my bedroom when she called. I was already running low on time, but I missed her too much to ignore the call, so I answered.

"Aly." I smiled, noticing her makeup-free face and messy hair. She must have just finished a shoot.

She returned the smile. "Hey, love. How are you?"

I rested my phone on my desk, leaning it against the wall so it was focused on me, before moving back to my bed to pick an outfit.

"I'm doing good," I called out whilst choosing a shirt. "How about you?"

As I held the shirt against my torso in my mirror, I heard her reply. "I'm good! A little tired, but glad I have some free time for the evening. I thought we could chat or something, but I take it you're busy?"

I turned around and lowered the shirt, smiling guiltily at the camera. "Sorry, Alycia, I don't mean to be rude. I'm just trying to find an outfit for this party I'm going to..."

She perked up a little. "Party?"

I hummed in agreement and tested out another shirt in the mirror to see how it looked. "Yeah. It's just some dumb frat party I was invited to. Nothing big."

As I decided on my flannel and ripped jeans, I heard Alycia say, "But you hate parties."

I chuckled and pulled off my shirt. I didn't mind changing in front of her since she was my best friend and I'd practically seen her naked after I'd accidentally walked in on her in the shower when she forgot to lock the door in our earlier months of friendship.

"Yes, but I have literally not left this flat aside from uni and work since you left and I need something to do." I changed into my clothes and headed back to my mirror to see if I liked it. "I'm bored without you here, Aly, what can I say?"

I smiled when I actually liked what I saw. I'd curled my hair earlier and was yet to put some jewellery on, but for now, I thought I looked pretty good.

"Okay, well have fun, Y/N," she said adorably, forcing me to turn around and see her smiling a little. "Be safe, okay? And don't do anything stupid, not that you will, but still."

I chuckled. "Gee, thanks, grandma."

She rolled her eyes playfully. "Yeah, yeah, I get it, I'm a spoil sport."

I stifled a laugh as I went back to the mirror to see whether I should tuck in my shirt or not.

"Okay, how long are you gonna be?" she asked dramatically. "I've seen your arse like five times now. Could at least look at your phone, hm."

I laughed and looked over my shoulder. "What can I say, Alycia? It's a nice ass!"

I moved forward to pick up my phone and managed to catch a quick image of a flustered Alycia. I was surprised since she rarely got embarrassed that easily.

"Whatever...," she mumbled, avoiding looking at the camera.

"You didn't deny it," I teased further, and when she looked up, I winked for added effect.

The camera quality was good enough for me to see a faint pink blush forming on her cheeks. That was enough to make me grin at how easily flustered she got.

"Come on, I can talk for a little longer before I need to leave," I said, giving her a reassuring smile. I jumped onto my bed before looking at her beautiful face. "Tell me how your day was, Leashy."

Conversations like this were shared more frequently closer to her arrival back home which made it easier for me personally. It wasn't abnormal for me to miss her as much as I did. It was just, when you get used to someone's presence for so long, it's odd and unusual when they suddenly just leave. I wasn't sure I'd ever get used to it really, but that was a thought for another time.

Alycia returned after three and a half months and I couldn't have been more thrilled. She needed to be picked up from the airport, but I had other plans.

"I'm in a lecture then, but Maia offered to give you a lift!"

Terrible excuse, I know, but she was too tired to argue so she went with it. In reality, I had set up a small welcome home party for her, consisting of Maia, Marny and Laura, (some of her friends in the industry), and her mum. Her mum had wanted to fly in for her return which was where I got the idea to do the little party. She supported the idea and agreed to surprise her daughter of her presence, too.

So that's where I found myself the Friday afternoon when her flight was coming in. Alycia's friends were helping me set out the food and drink (just some nibbles here and there, along with some wine) whilst her mum was prepping some chicken for tonight's dinner. She'd insisted, so who was I to stop her?

In no time, Maia had sent me a text, letting me know that they were walking up to our flat now. We all got into position and waited for the door to open.

"...she wanted to be here, Alycia, but she said it was an important lecture..."

Everyone grinned to themselves as they heard Alycia and Maia chatting as they opened the door. I could hear Alycia fiddling with the lock and it took a lot of self-control for me not to rush up to the door and open it to give her a giant hug. I was shaking with excitement – I missed her so much!

After what felt like forever, the door finally opened and Alycia had stumbled in the doorway with her suitcase.

"Surprise!"

We all stood up from behind the couch, grins plastered on our faces.

"Oh my god," Alycia got out between smiles. Her eyes looked between us all as she said, "Hi!"

I laughed and was the first to make a move forward. Her eyes lit up at my presence which made me grin, and I pulled her in for a hug.

"Welcome home, Aly," I mumbled into her shoulder before pulling back.

"Y/N, oh my god! I thought you had a lecture!"

"All a lie to set this up for you," Maia butted in from behind, a cheeky smile on her lips. "Sweet, right?"

Alycia chuckled and met my eyes. They were gleaming. "Right."

I waved my hand dismissively. "It's nothing, I just missed you is all. Now. Stop being rude and say hello to your other guests, Aly!"

She shot me a playful smile before moving on to her mother.

"Mum, you never told me you were coming!" she rushed out as she pulled her mum in for a hug.

"It wouldn't have been a surprise then, would it?" her mum teased, before kissing her daughter on the cheek. "I missed you, honey."

Alycia relaxed. "I missed you, too."

After reacquainting herself with Laura and Marny, the six of us took to the living-room to hear everything about Alycia's time away. She hadn't seen Maia, Laura and Marny in a while, even since before she left for her work, so she also took the time catching up with them. I didn't mind listening in to all of their conversations – I was thrilled that Alycia was back and happy and safe.

"I'm gonna go grab some water," I said, before standing up. "Anyone want anything?"

Everyone shook their heads, but Laura added, "I'll come with you."

The two of us headed to the kitchen, myself grabbing a glass of water.

"Looks like your little surprise was a success," Laura commented, offering a smile.

I smiled, too, taking a sip of my water. I glanced over Laura's shoulder to where Alycia was sitting. She was listening intently to whatever story Marny was telling, her lips pursed in thought.

"Yeah, I guess so," I agreed, looking back to Laura. "Thanks again for coming on such short notice."

She shook her head dismissively. "Of course. It's been a while since I've visited Alycia. She seems to be doing well with the upcoming roles she's got. First this, then Fear The Walking Dead. It's amazing for her."

I furrowed my brows with confusion. "What? Fear The Walking Dead?"

Laura nodded. "The new role she landed? Didn't she tell you about it?"

I chewed on the inside of my cheek as I looked to Alycia again. "Erm, no, she didn't."

Laura shot me a reassuring smile. "Don't worry too much about it. I'm sure she was waiting for the right moment."

I nodded, though I did feel a little hurt she'd kept the news from me. We told each other everything... why hadn't she told me this?

"Come on, we should get back to them," Laura caught my attention again. "God knows what'll happen if we leave the Australians to themselves."

I cracked a smile as she laughed at her own joke, before following her and joining the others again. When I sat down, Alycia's eyes flickered to me and she sent me a tired smile. I realised how exhausted she must have been since returning from her flight. It was an early flight she'd taken, which had been delayed in itself. She would have been awake for at least ten hours. Flying was tiring for anyone.

"Guys, I appreciate you all showing up on such short notice," I thanked everyone when a short silence formed, "but maybe we should leave Alycia to get some rest."

The others nodded, but Alycia was shaking her head. "No, I'm fine, honestly! You can stay!"

I stifled a chuckle as the others laughed at her obvious exhausted expression.

"We should get going anyway, Leashy," Marny reassured her. "We'll check in on you soon, okay?"

Alycia frowned but was too tired to argue. "Okay. Thank you for coming."

The girls bid Alycia, her mum and I a goodbye before leaving.

"Come on, let's get you to bed, Aly," I mumbled, helping her up off the couch.

"Wake me for dinner!" she said, though her eyes were barely staying open.

"Whatever you say, honey," her mum laughed, giving her a kiss on the cheek. She looked to me, adding, "Get her to bed or she will literally fall asleep standing up."

I smiled. "Yeah, I wouldn't be surprised."

I helped Alycia to her room and the older girl flopped onto her bed, instantly fighting to get under the covers.

"Not even gonna change, hm?" I asked, raising an eyebrow.

She mumbled an inaudible response, making me chuckle. I tucked her in and leaned down, seeing her eyes were already closed. I'd have to ask her about her new role tomorrow.

"I promise I'll help clean up later...," she mumbled tiredly.

I rolled my eyes. "Get some rest, Alycia. Goodnight." I leaned down and pressed a gentle kiss on her forehead.

She didn't reply, so I left her room and clicked the door shut behind me.

Miss Debnam-Carey and I chose not to wake up Alycia that evening for dinner, since she was fast asleep and unmoving. Instead, we ate dinner together, (it wasn't as awkward as you'd think because we had spoken and met on enough occasions for it not to be), and saved Alycia some for tomorrow.

Her mother slept in my room, which I'd cleaned and put out fresh sheets for her. I took to the couch which had an (uncomfortable) pull-out bed that I would never think to subject Alycia's mum to for the few days she was here for.

I woke up the next morning to the pressure of someone sitting beside my head. I yawned as I turned around, forcing my eyes open tiredly.

"Hey, sleepy head," Alycia's voice rang out. I realised she was sitting beside me, leaning back against the couch.

I sighed before forcing myself to sit up beside her. I noticed she was eating from a plate of pancakes.

"You didn't have to sleep here, y'know," she pointed out. "Mum could've shared room with me."

I rubbed my eyes to rid my tiredness before responding. "It's okay. I'm sure she'd do anything not to share bed with you."

Alycia rolled her eyes playfully before nudging me with her elbow.

"Y/N, honey, good morning!" Miss Debnam-Carey's cheery voice called from the kitchen. "You can go get ready and a plate of pancakes will be waiting here for you when you come back."

I mumbled a tired 'thank you' before purposely shoving Alycia out the way to get out of bed. She laughed as I groggily made my way to the bathroom. I showered and got ready quickly enough, soon finding myself at the kitchen island eating pancakes.

"These are amazing, thank you," I told Alycia's mum with a grateful smile.

She smiled in return, but didn't get chance to respond because I dropped my fork, startled when Alycia wrapped her arms around me from behind.

"Alycia, what on Earth...?" I asked, though I rested my hands on hers with a smile.

"I missed you," she mumbled into my neck.

I breathed out before turning around and pulling her in for a proper hug. "I missed you, too."

When she pulled away, I saw her mum leave for the bathroom over her shoulder and took this as my chance to ask what had been in my mind all night.

"Alycia, did you get another job opportunity on a new show?" I came right out with it, making her knit her eyebrows together with confusion. "Fear The Walking Dead?"

When she realised what I was talking about, she tensed up.

I frowned a little. "Alycia, that's amazing and I'm so proud of you, but why didn't you tell me?"

She tensed her jaw guiltily before taking a seat on the stool beside me.

"Look, I wanted to tell you, but I was waiting for the right time," she explained, avoiding my eyes. "I found out a few weeks ago. I got a call on set from my manager."

I nodded.

"I was supposed to ring you straight away, like I always do, but I felt bad because I was already away for filming and I didn't want to make you feel horrible about me possibly leaving again."

I shook my head, resting a hand on her knee. She looked up.

"Alycia, no, I don't want you to feel bad about that!" I told her, feeling guilty that it was my feelings that had stopped her sharing this amazing news. "I'm a big girl, I can handle some time without you." I offered a teasing smile. "I'm happy for you. This is huge."

She smiled with relief. "It is... It's a big role. I'm part of the main cast."

I widened my eyes with surprise. "That's even better!"

She grinned.

"Come here, idiot." I pulled her in for another hug, this time not letting go. "I'm so proud of you, Aly. You don't even know."

When she pulled away, she said, "The writers aren't sure if they're filming in L.A. or not, but there's a high chance they will be which means I may not be leaving to film. I'll be here."

The thought of her staying here made my stomach do somersaults.

"Even if you left, it would be okay," I reassured her. "And never hide something so big from me, okay? You deserve this."

Her eyes sparkled with happiness. "Thank you."

[basicshadowhuntersstuff]

This roundup covers February 1 - February 12 featuring Shadowhunters news, updates, sneak peeks, and behind the scenes. All the stuff you need to stay up to date.

Official Promotion

3x11 Sneak Peeks: Simon’s mark has become his curse.

Official Trailers: YouTube, Twitter

Blooper Reel: Part 1 of 3 of the Season 3A Blooper Reel.

Harry (Magnus) and Matt (Alec) play the newlywed game.

Shadowhunters is arriving on Itunes and Apple TV in February

Making lunges look easy. @WainwrightAE behind the scenes of #Shadowhunters season 3B. [1]

Yes, @arosende took this beauty. Yes, this is from season 3B. Behind the scenes with our dear @JadeHassoune. #Shadowhunters

Time to ring the bell. Behind the scenes of #Shadowhunters season 3B

The ladies of #Shadowhunters are as stunning as ever at the #FreeformTCA. 

.@HarryShumJr and @IsaiahMustafa looking good at the #FreeformTCA. #Shadowhunters

What could Luke be looking at? Behind the scenes of #Shadowhunters Season 3B.

You’d never guess. Behind the scenes of #Shadowhunters 3B.

Caption this. Behind the scenes of #Shadowhunters season 3B

Shadowhunters 3B Trailer Reactions

TV Guide (article): Hi, Hello, Who the hell is getting married inShadowhunters Season 3

Hypable (article): ‘Shadowhunters’ 3B trailer is here and we are not emotionally prepared to handle it

The Workprint (article): The ‘Shadowhunters’ season 3B trailer is finally here

TV Insider (article): ‘Shadowhunters’ Trailer: Season 3B returns with Malec, Sizzy, & ‘New’ Jonathan (video)

Pure Fandom (article): ‘Shadowhunters’ 3B trailer: Sizzy, Malec, and  Dark Clary take center stage

Pride (article): Malec is back in new trailer for the final season of Shadowhunters

TV Line (article): Shadowhunters Season 3B trailer: Scary Clary, ‘Sizzy action, [Spoiler]’s wedding and more in final episodes

Entertainment Weekly (article): Shadowhunters final season trailer promises a wedding and a new Clary

Cosmopolitan (article): Everything to know about ‘Shadowhunters’ season 3B and finale event

GLAAD (article): The GLAAD wrap: ‘Shadowhunters’ trailer, ‘The L Word’ returns, and more!

Digital Spy (article): Shadowhunters trailer teases Clary’s rebirth and a wedding in the final episodes

Hidden Remote (article): The complete breakdown of the Shadowhunters season 3B trailer

TV Guide (article): Shadowhunters Season 3B: Everything we know so far

Girlfriend (article): ‘Shadowhunters’ just dropped their season 3B and trailer

The Geekiary (article): Netflix trailer for Shadowhunters season 3B should be the official trailer, honestly

Anna Hopkins (Lilith) and Luke Baines (Jonathan) tweeted responses to fan comments about the 3B trailer

Luke Baines (Jonathan) tweeted “Personally, I think this is sweet. Could’ve been a couple inches lower and then we’d really be even” in response to a fan comment.

Matt Hastings (Executive Producer) was excited to share the 3B trailer with fans

Bryan Q. Miller (Writer) tweeted: “#Shadowhunters 3B has everything. Neck wounds. Glamping in the subway. Elite dog people. A zamboni. Zeke Russo.”

Isaiah Mustafa (Luke) responded to Bryan Q Miller’s (writer) tweet about 3B with his own teases: “Don’t forget about the window love, cheap motel and takeout from Tina’s Tacos”

Todd Slavkin (Showrunner) responded to our question about a mysterious character in the 3B trailer This badass gentleman was one of the many prisoners who escaped from the Gard in 3x09 during Valentine’s attempted breakout. This storyline plays a big part in 3B #alittleteaseneverhurtanyone #moretocome #shadowhunters

Shadowhunters in the News

3x11 Spoiler-Free Previews: FANdemonium, TV Fanatic, ScreenSpy.

TV Spielfilm (article): Shadowhunters: Fan groups could save the series even before the dismissal.

Hypable (article): 5 things ‘Shadowhunters’ season 3B should do that might be controversial.

The Series Regulars (article): ‘Shadowhunters’: The fight for Jace Herondale in 3A.

TV Line (interview): Anna Hopkins teases Shadowhunters’ end (and Lilith’s Revenge?), revisits her roles on Arrow, Defiance, and more

Pure Fandom (article): #ShadowhuntersPosterChallenge Part 6: A visit to the downworld.

Digital Spy (article): Shadowhunters star thinks fans will feel “a sense of contentment” with finale.

Netflix Life (article): Netflix should STILL save Shadowhunters.

TV Guide (article):  Shadowhunters’ Harry Shum Jr. Had to Coach Matthew Daddario Through That Malec Dance Scene.

Hidden Remote (article): Shadowhunters Season 3B: Malec dancing confirmed to happen TWICE.

The Series Regulars (interview): Exclusive Interview: Getting Pumped With ‘Shadowhunters’ Trainer, Nuno De Salles!

Pure Fandom (interview):  EXCLUSIVE: Katherine McNamara talks ‘Shadowhunters’ and ‘Arrow’.

Fansided (article):  Everything we need to watch out for in Shadowhunters season 3B.

The Series Regulars (Interview): ‘Shadowhunters:’ How 3A shaped our papa wolf Luke Garroway.

TV Insider (photos): ‘Shadowhunters’ stars Harry Shum Jr., Kat McNamara, & more in the TCA 2019 studio (photos)

Pure Fandom (article): #ShadowhuntersPosterChallenge Part 8: Fan art of Team Evil.

The Series Regulars (article): How fandom changed me: Fans speak out on the importance of fandom

Hidden Remote (article): Shadowhunters season 3B: Raphael and Isabelle help SImon destroy the Mark of Cain.

Hypable (article): ‘Shadowhunters’ 3B sneak peak: Maia and Simon try to reconnect.

Matt Carter (article): Shadowhunters season 3 episode 11 video: Why is Simon hiding away?.

TV Insider (article): Check out the hilarious ‘Shadowhunters’ season 3 bloopers (video).

Entertainment Weekly (article): Meet Mia Smoak! ‘Arrow’ Star Katherine McNamara dishes on playing Oliver and Felicity’s daughter (exclusive).

Glitter Magazine (interview): Interview: Kat McNamara Dishes on Her New Role on CW’s ‘Arrow’

Entertainment Tonight (interview):  Katherine McNamara Talks ‘Arrow’ Fan Theories on Who She’s Really Playing (Exclusive)

Find Your Inner Geek (interview): FYIG chats with actor Jade Hassoune

#SaveShadowhunters

Fans paid for billboards in Los Angeles California leading up to the premier of Shadowhunters 3B. Here are some highlights:

@BoomBitchesHQ collaborated with Film Daily for the design teasers and final design reveal

Kat (Clary) & Luke Baines (Jonathan Morganstern) visited one of the billboards at launch!

TV Guide shared a photo of Kat (Clary) & Luke (Jonathan) at the first billboard.

Hidden Remote shared a photo of the first billboard

@BoomBitchesHQ revealed the second billboard location and information.

A fan visits the second billboard and shares pictures.

Freeform TCA 2019

Freeform held their panels for the Television Critics Association. Some of the main cast showed up to walk the red carpet and do interviews.

Kat (Clary) shared a photo:  Finding my inner Viking dragon princess thanks to @MaartenPhoto …  #TCA2019 #shadowhunters

Jim Halterman shared a photo with Harry (Magnus) and Isaiah (Luke) from the Freeform TCA. [2]

TV Insider shared a photo of Kat (Clary) on Instagram:  Look who showed up to our #TCA19 video suite! #Shadowhunters star @kat.mcnamaratold us so much juicy stuff about the upcoming episodes. Interview coming soon in the coming weeks on tvinsider.com.

Getty Images shared photos of Darren Swimmer and Todd Slavkinfrom the Freeform TCA.

Harry (Magnus) shared his TCA outfit on Instagram:  The brilliant @iheartmaarten behind the 📷 for the ABC/Freeform TCA’s @tvguide Styled by @lauraschuffman Suit: @stile_latino Grooming by @andreapezzillo

Twitter & Social Media

Basic Shadowhunters Stuff releases the eighth #SHTVFlockToUnlock polariod with Jade Hassoune (Meliorn): Consequences.

Basic Shadowhunters Stuff releases the ninth #SHTVFlockToUnlock polariod with Sydney Meyer (Helen Blackthorn): Test of loyalty.

ShumDario News releases the tenth #SHTVFlockToUnlock polariod with Isaiah (Luke): Loss.

Jade Hassoune (Meliorn) shared a photo of his Seelie themed coffee cup wishing fans good morning.

Kat McNamara (Clary) shared a map by @Malecficlibrary of everywhere #Shadowhunters was tweeted in the 24 hours after the 3B trailer was released.

Kat McNamara (Clary) responded to a tweet by Anna Hopkins (Lilith) commenting on Clary’s look in the 3B trailer.

Matt Hastings (Executive producer) answered a fan question on Twitter: Do you have 3 words to describe Malec?

Brian Hui (makeup artist) tweeted: When shows collide! Parallel Dom’s fight for my affection! @DomSherwood1 @Mi55Tipper

Stefanie Terzo (crew member) shared a BTS video on Instagram of a scene from season 2x08 of Magnus’ magic.

Jack Yang (Asmodeus) tweeted Something wicked this way comes in 3B. None of you are prepared #Shadowhunters #Asmodeus #Edom

Brian Hui (makeup artist) shared a video of the cast playing around between takes on set

Kat McNamara (Clary) is featured on the cover of the February issue of The Daily Shuffle Magazine

Javier Munoz (Lorenzo Rey) tweeted a video:  Given I still cannot sleep & am a friggin’ nerd/dork…here is me in my trailer on set for ⁦@ShadowhuntersTV⁩ for my very first day as Lorenzo Rey. #LorenzoRey #BTS (Y’all are the best)

Todd Slavkin (showrunner) tweeted:  A BTS blooper in words: when we saw directors cut our jaws were on the floor. @MatthewDaddario crushes the dance in ways you can only imagine and keeps up with Harry every step of the way #ajoytowatch #3b #threesixteen #shadowhunters

Darren Swimmer (showrunner) tweeted:  .@MatthewDaddario can cut a rug. @lindsayjoane, if Matt were on Dancing with the Stars he would be hard to beat. Spoiler alert - that episode will not be the last time you see Alec dance.

Jack Yang (Asmodeus) shared a photo on Instagram:  Passing the time waiting for Shadowhunters 3B. Schadenfreude is best this time of year we will let it ripen on the vine for a bit longer 😈 #shadowhunters#asmodeus #teamedom #youarenotready [3]

Brian Hui (makeup artist) wished Dom (Jace) a happy birthday with a fun photoshopped photo.

Ariana Williams (Madzie) wished Dom (Jace) a happy birthday and shared a photo of the two of them.

Jade Hassoune (Meliorn) announced that he has been nominated for the Audience Choice Award at the Canadian Screen Awards.

Lola Flanery (Young Seelie Queen) shared her favorite throwback Shadowhunters moment:  That time I played a game

ShumDario News shared their  #EXCLUSIVEFRIDAY photo of Matt(Alec).

Kat (Clary) shared a photo and wished Chai Hansen (Jordan Kyle) a happy birthday. [4]

Anna Hopkins (Lilith) responded to a fan comment regarding 3A bloopers

Matt Hastings (Executive Producer) shared two photos of Kat (Clary) and Luke Baines (Jonathon) in Paris with the captions What would you do for love? With @Kat_McNamara & @LukeBaines #Shadowhunters #Paris;and One more with @Kat_McNamara & @LukeBaines. #bloodisthickerthanwater #Shadowhunters #3B #Paris.

Brian Hui (Makeup artist) shared a BTS photo of Dom (Jace) from 3B

Todd Slavkin (Showrunner) responded to a fan question regarding Clace teasers for 3x22

Arianna Williams (Madzie) wished Isaiah (Luke) a Happy Birthday

Javier Munoz (Lorenzo Rey) posted a BTS photo of himself from 3B on his Instagram

Brian Hui (makeup artist) posted a photo of himself and Kat (Clary) between takes on set

Brian Hui (makeup artist) posted a short video of Javier Munoz (Lorenzo Rey) during filming of 3B

Kat (Clary) shared a photo of her and Anna Hopkins (Lilith) dancing on set to wish Anna Happy birthday

Other News

Business Wire (article): Panda Express presents experiential pop up house of fortune; a Lunar New Year experience

Harry (Magnus) took part in the Panda Express pop up and shared good wishes celebrating the  Lunar New Year.

JustJaredJr (article): Angela Sarafyan & Harry Shum Jr step out for ACE Eddie Awards 2019

Kat (Clary) tweeted: Tomorrow @CW_Arrow #Arrow150 Keep a sharp lookout because you may just see a certain camo clad blonde haired bad ass make an appearance…#BlackStar

Art Directors Guild (photo) tweeted @HarryShumJr joined us last night at the #ADGawards! What a beautiful night with beautiful people. #HarryShumJr #ADG800

People Magazine (article); Harry Shum Jr reveals which lessons he wants his daughter to take from Crazy Rich Asians

Jade Hassoune (Meliorn) was announced as the first guest at the Dark Shade Con in Brussels

Isaiah Mustafa (Luke) was announced as a guest at the 2019 WellyGeddon convention

Just Jared Jr (article): Jamie King joins Katherine McNamara & Kaitlyn Dever at InStyle’s  Badass Women event

[hiddlesgirl]

SH 319: Aku Cinta Kamu

I really enjoyed this episode and there were some really great moments, but there were a couple of things that I didn’t like too. I am enjoying dark Clary and the Team Evil dynamic is fun to watch; Sizzy is continuing to develop; Izzy is a weaponry badass; and Magnus is absolutely breaking my heart. Asmodeus is a fantastically complex character, Jack Yang is awesome, and he is one of the best villains.

However, I do wish that they had chosen a different episode title; we all got so excited because we knew (even non-book readers) that Aku Cinta Kamu was a Malec quote so we had high expectations for Malec scenes in this episode. We were disappointed because all the Malec scenes were flashbacks (even if they were amazing ones) and there was barely any Alec at all. I think it would have been better if the episode title had been something like ‘Glorious’ instead.

We begin the episode with Magnus walking alone down a deserted street, we presume that it must be about 5/6am in the morning; 318 took place during one night with the break up being around (I presume) 4am, just before sunrise, so it has probably been about 2 hours since then.

What hurts so much about him walking around New York like this is the fact that it’s because he literally has nowhere to go. He lost his home, he doesn’t want to burden Catarina who is sole guardian of Madzie and he can’t go back to the Institute; he feels so completely alone because there is no one there for him and there is nowhere for him to go.

Despite his loneliness right now he is still completely wary of Asmodeus and his intentions, he knows that Asmodeus only does things for his own gain and he doesn’t want to be around his toxic influence.

Asmodeus gives Magnus his magic back; I know that some people were a little disappointed with how Magnus got his magic back. I completely understand wanting Magnus to have been able to love and accept himself, to see the amazing things about himself without magic before he got it back. For him to have that journey of self discovery and acceptance; to learn something from it. But I also understand how it happened, it was completely Asmodeus using everything he could to manipulate Magnus into a vulnerable and more receptive state; to take his magic which pulled him into depression and then to force away the man he loves in order to leave him vulnerable enough to let Asmodeus back in. It was about getting Magnus into a similar state as he was when he was a child.

Harry’s acting in this moment is impeccable; you can see the happiness and relief on Magnus’ face to have his magic back, to have this part of his identity restored. But that morphs into distrust because he knows that Asmodeus never does anything for free and is scared of the consequences.

I think Asmodeus is a very intriguing character because he does seem to love Magnus in his own twisted way, a possessive kind of love. We have seen this with Lilith, they want that person to love them and only them; it is reinforced with the language they use, they hardly ever use their child’s name instead saying ‘my son’ or ‘my boy’. They refer to them in a possessive way, to call them in the way that refers to their connection to them instead of their name which infers independency.

When Alec arrives back at the Institute Izzy asks if everything is okay because she knows about the deal Asmodeus offered him; you can tell that Alec has fallen into his habit of pushing his emotions to the side and being a soldier. He has closed his emotions off and is concentrating on his job; this is his way of coping because he knows that with everything going on he doesn’t have time to be able to mourn his relationship. Plus, he is trying to avoid feeling the sadness, guilt and utter devastation by concentrating on other things.

I think that Jonathan’s reaction to Jace’s note is very interesting, he wants Clary all to himself and wants Clary to love only him; it is very similar to Lilith and Asmodeus. He wants to be the only person Clary loves and constantly reaffirms his ‘claim’ on her by calling her ‘little sister’ instead of her name, though he does use her name occasionally. This makes sense because this is how he was taught to love.

Magnus sees a couple holding hands which triggers a flashback in which Alec takes Magnus to a place in New York where couple attach locks. I really loved this scene, Alec’s excitement about wanting a lock for him and Magnus; it seems partly because he wants to experience things other couples do and partly because he wants to show Magnus and the world how permanent their love is.

It is a really beautiful moment between the two of them, once again showing us these little moments in their relationship that show just how much they care about each other. My heart breaks when Magnus destroys the lock, it is done out of hurt because they attached that lock as a sign of their eternal love but that promise has been broken; he can’t bear to see this token of love that seems false to him in that moment.

You can see that hurt and anger turn to devastation as the lock disintegrates as he realises not only what he’s done but also that the break up seems even more final. It is a visual representation of what has happened to their relationship.

I have said many times that I don’t like Jordan and explained why so I am not going to go over that again; my issue with this scene is that they kiss. With their past it was just really uncomfortable to watch and I think that them going into kiss and then Maia turning at the last second so he kissed her cheek instead would have not only worked better but would have been less uncomfortable (and maybe upsetting for those who are really affected by this storyline).

I like that Jace seems to be more active in starting conversations with Alec regarding his feelings and his relationship, in previous seasons it has felt very one sided. He is completely confused as to why Magnus and Alec have broken up; especially knowing that Alec was planning to propose. He knows how happy Magnus makes Alec and that they have a strong relationship so he doesn’t understand why this has happened and is trying to get Alec to open up to him.

Alec is trying everything to avoid talking about it, you can see him start to get choked up and upset as the conversation progresses. He can’t afford to let his emotions out right now because if he does he will break; he feels like everyone is depending on his with being the Head of the Institute and the added pressure of getting Clary back.

Jace convinces Clary to let him come with them by using the truth to cover his deception; he uses his true love and dedication to her as a guise. I quite like dark Clary, she is very intriguing and will not allow Jonathan to control her; in fact Jonathan is very deferring to her, and it’s an interesting dynamic.

The flashback of Malec getting ice cream with Madzie was very sweet, and my heart both soared and broke when they starting talking about having kids; inferring that they intended to have a family together one day. We know how much family means to Magnus, the Downworlders he takes in become his family and he will protect them with everything he has. Plus, as far as we understand no one has wanted to have a family with him before, just like no one has wanted to marry him, and you can only imagine how much it meant to him to hear someone say that they saw children in their future.

I really like Raphael, he admits his mistakes and accepts the consequences; it is really nice to see how happy he is now that he is mundane. It also warms my heart to hear about him being able to attend morning Mass and plant flowers on Rosa’s grave.

I understand why he has gone to see Maia, he feels responsible for Heidi, but I am a little confused as to why he hasn’t sought out Magnus. Magnus is like a father to him, they have a strong bond, yet they have had no scenes together this season despite everything that has happened to them.

Simon is scared of needles (I relate) but Izzy distracts him by talking about Superman; I think that this is a very sweet scene for them. Bonding more over these films and Izzy accepting that she is seeing Simon in a different light now, all this time she has seen him as a great friend but now she see’s all the attributes in him that she identifies with (doing whatever it takes to help those you love) and the potential of a romantic relationship.

I saw that some people didn’t like it because of the implied toxic masculinity related to the attractive woman liking nerdy guy with glasses after finding out he’s a superhero; I understand that and it is true of a lot of older films that are steeped in sexism, stereotypes and clichés. 

But, personally, I don’t think the scene itself was problematic; I just think they were using the Superman film to further establish that they are seeing each other in different lights now that they have been spending more time together and seeing these different sides of each other.

Outside the club Jace is trying to get through to Clary by stating how much he loves her, it seems very familiar to how Clary would try to get through to Jace when he was the Owl but it doesn’t work. It seems to me that the Twinning Rune works more like creating a second personality than possession, it’s as if this is who Clary would have been if she had been raised by Valentine. It’s very interesting but I wish we knew for definite more about how the rune worked.

The flashback montage to the song ‘Signals’ by Frey Ridings is heartbreaking because it takes you on a very condensed version of the Malec story which is very emotional; one thing I do wish though is that they had included little moments from scenes we know had been cut, such as the extended balcony scene from 207 or the hug at the end of 212. Plus in the middle of the scene when we see present time Magnus there is a very awkward and unnecessary zoom into his face, really wish they hadn’t done that and just the next time they cut back to him it was a closer shot.

I really like learning more about Magnus and Brother Zachariah’s friendship, I love that to Zachariah this conversation was important enough for him to break his vow of silence. That really shows just how important Magnus is to him.

We get another confirmation that for Magnus Alec is different than everyone he has been in a relationship with before, this has been stated or hinted at several times since they met but unfortunately Alec doesn’t seem to get the memo. Magnus has lived with the memories of the people he loved and lost for centuries but he can’t bear his memories with Alec; this was a person who opened his heart after decades of being closed off, who has shown him unconditional love and acceptance, who has been there for him during his darkest times, who has loved him despite the prejudices of his community and who he saw himself having a family with.

Zachariah refuses to take his memories because he knows Magnus will regret it, no matter how much he is hurting right now Alec is a part of him, has changed him and removing all of that would not help Magnus, it would simply return him to a closed off state and Zachariah doesn’t want that for him.

Maia and Jordan go to the Institute very upset about the fact that the serum has been destroyed, it is understandable because they were hoping that they could have a second chance at a mundane life. You can see Simon’s frustration beginning to mount because they cannot understand how difficult the situation was and how quickly they had to act in order to stop Aldertree and anyone who may have been loyal to him.

He tells them he understands wanting to go back, with everything that he has done and has happened to him he wishes more than anything that he could go back to a mundane life but saving the masses from non-consensual neutralisation was more important. Plus, using the last few vials to stop Jonathan, who is a threat to everyone, is more important than giving them to their friends.

The Bone Chandelier is a great set, Clary’s shocked face that the bones were from Shadowhunters kinda makes me laugh a little because it is no different than how Shadowhunters used to take Downworlder marks as trophies.

I really did not like the scene that follows because Jace is pressured into taking an unknown substance, which we know is probably a hallucinogenic because it’s a Seelie drug; we know that Jonathan is trying to get Jace to slip up so he can prove his disloyalty to Clary but pressuring someone to take drugs is always going to be uncomfortable.

The entire make out scene is really uncomfortable for me because it is non-consensual, in my opinion. Jace is, unwillingly, under the influence of perception altering drugs and you can see that his initial demeanour is confused and slightly resistant; so from Jace’s perspective it is definitely non-consensual. With Clary, she is also under the influence of drugs and she is currently a different person than usual, so we are not sure how much consent she can give in this state (which is why I think the rune needed more explanation). Even her line about Jace being able to say no made me uncomfortable because it was followed with ‘But you won’t’ which implies the lack of ability to refuse.

I feel bad because I know that this was from the books but for me it was so uncomfortable because the situation feels very non-consensual.

I know that the purpose was for Jace to lose concentration and for Jonathan to see the ring, but the hole in that is that Jace should have taken off the ring because he knew he had ingested drugs and I am sure they could have done it in a way that was more consensual. Maybe if it was a less powerful drug, or a non-hallucinogenic, or if Jace seemed more into it, or if Clary’s line was worded differently; I don’t know, but I just don’t like the scene how it is.

I really like that Maia took the time to think about what Simon said, she is a very mature and compassionate person; she knows that she is not the only person whose life has been destroyed by becoming a Downworlder. She knows that she doesn’t deserve it more than anyone else and that to demand it would be wrong. I love Maia so much.

Jordan on the other hand has stolen the vial; I had a gut instinct that he was going to steal it. My only problem is how, the vial was in the room with Izzy and Simon, it is a big vial so is not easy to quickly conceal and how did they not notice it was missing? Anyway, since Jordan heard about the serum he has been single minded in getting his hands on it; to me it seems very selfish in thinking that all his problems started with becoming a werewolf and that by becoming mundane again it fixes that. I may be wrong, we’ll have to wait and see.

I adore Izzy! I loved seeing the weapons master side of her, and seeing the scientist in her these past few episodes; it was amazing to see her create a new Glorious.

The fight scene in the club was well choreographed and it was a good scene; it was nice to see Clary and Jace fighting side by side again too. However, I do think that it was way too easy for Jonathan to grab the Seelie Queen, after all this time of her being built up as this powerful and untouchable character he only needed to take out one knight in less than a minute and grab her. I did see the footage of Luke dislocating his shoulder in this scene though, and that looked really painful.

After they finish fighting the Seelies Clary turns on Jace, she is clearly angry and upset that he has betrayed her trust and is trying to separate her from Jonathan. This moment is a real testimony to just how different Clary is right now, although her conviction to fight for those she cares about (that being Jonathan right now) is very Clary. Again, I just wish we knew more about how the rune worked so that we could understand its influence and Clary’s state right now.

I must say that I laughed out loud at Jace sliding along the Institute floor; it was just so comical even though it wasn’t meant to be. I really feel for Jace because you can see the devastation and almost loss of hope on his face. He can’t recognise the person Clary is right now and in that moment he feels at a loss of how to help; he feels like he has lost her all over again.

I do really feel sympathy for him because he had to suffer through thinking she had died and that he was part of the reason why; then the happiness of getting her back; watching her battle the rune’s influence over her; and now watching her become this completely different person than he knows. She is the first and only person in his life he has loved this much and to keep losing her must be absolutely soul crushing.

Watching Magnus pull his memories of Alec from his mind you can see how much they are torturing him, he cannot bear the loss of him; he loves Alec so much. Also Alec is the first person who thought his eyes were beautiful, knew who his father was and didn’t care, who he told his dark past to and he accepted. Alec has been different in so many ways and he loves him so much; to have Alec walk away from him is tearing him apart.

Asmodeus is the one to stop Magnus from destroying the memories; he wants Magnus to remember the pain that Alec caused him, he wants to use that pain to manipulate Magnus. If Magnus forgets Alec than he will no longer be in an emotionally vulnerable place and it would be much harder for Asmodeus to get back into his life. Magnus is upset and confused as to why Asmodeus is persisting; he knows that Asmodeus never truly cared about him and is trying to remind both of them of that.

Asmodeus tells Magnus to keep the memories to make him stronger and wiser; Magnus keeps the memories I think partially because of what both Zachariah and Asmodeus said, but also because looking at them there is a part of him that can’t let Alec go.

Harry’s acting in this scene is absolutely amazing, especially considering he had nothing to react to; he generated emotion purely from his imagination. He blows me away every time he performs an emotional scene like this, he is always fantastic but these emotional scenes really get me.

Magnus allows Asmodeus to comfort him, this is understandable because he is so upset and vulnerable right now that he needs comfort and support and right now Asmodeus is the only person offering that to him. Asmodeus’ smirk sends shivers down your spine because you know that his intentions are anything but good but he is such a great villain.

I know that some people were disappointed and annoyed that Magnus did not figure out the connection between Alec leaving him and Asmodeus turning up. But Magnus is completely blinded by his emotions right now and can’t think logically; all his feelings from losing his magic and the trauma surrounding that don’t just disappear when he gets it back, it is going to take time to work through those emotions still. Plus, he is swamped with the disbelief, anger, hurt, confusion and devastation of Alec leaving him; which is a continuous onslaught, whirlwind and swinging between anger and hurt with all the flashbacks he is experiencing.

Also, not only did he lose his relationship but he also lost his support system. After losing his magic (his job and his home) Alec has been the only person who has consistently been there to support him, no one else (Catarina, Raphael, Izzy, Simon, Clary, Jace) has made the effort to reach out to him.

The person he loves is gone, his support system, he has nowhere to live; right now the only person in the world who is actively seeking him out to offer support is Asmodeus. He is at his absolutely lowest right now, completely emotionally destroyed and vulnerable; he needs someone now more than ever and the only person there is Asmodeus. It’s no surprise that Magnus takes whatever support and comfort he can get.

Plus, although their relationship ended badly Asmodeus is still his father; he is still the person who took him in when he was a child and had no one else. Asmodeus was the only person who would help him as a child and he is the only person offering him help now.

I know that some people were also wondering why Magnus did not go back to Alec once he regained his magic; the answer is simple, would you? Alec confirmed Magnus’ greatest insecurity by saying that everything that is special about him came from his magic (that spark inside you was out for good). Alec left him when he was at his emotional lowest, saying that Magnus was too much for him to handle; another insecurity of Magnus’, that he is ‘too much’ for people. Why would he go back to someone who doesn’t want him?

To say it in real world terms; if you were very wealthy but suddenly lost everything and then your partner left you, would you call them to come back if you suddenly regained your wealth? No because that person left you when you had nothing, if they don’t deem you worth their time when you have nothing why do they deserve you when you regain everything?

This is why I think that Malec getting back together is going to be complicated and perhaps a bit messy. I do want them to get back together, of course I do, especially with there only being three episodes left (at the moment. #SaveShadowhunters!). But I think that the issues surrounding the break up are too important to just gloss over or forget about.

Even though Alec made the deal for Magnus’ happiness he still made a major life decision without Magnus’ knowledge or consent. They definitely need to have a conversation about this because although Magnus will understand Alec only wanted to make him happy, he still made a huge decision about Magnus’ life for him. Plus, it was a decision that left Magnus feeling at rock bottom, abandoned and unloved when he was at his most vulnerable.

I am not trying to hate on Alec at all, I love him and I understand why he made the deal; he wanted to make Magnus happy and he thought it was the only way to help him. His own insecurities about his importance, both in Magnus’ life and in general, made him believe Magnus would recover from losing him.

Plus, there is the fact that Alec worded the break up to use Magnus’ insecurities against him. This is such a complex situation and the definitely need to talk about it in order to learn, recover and move forward.

I really liked this episode, but I definitely has issues with the Maia/Jordan scene and the Clace makeout.

I loved Izzy being an absolute weaponry badass, the Sizzy bonding and Magnus’ journey was incredibly painful.

In 320, Clary and Jonathan continue their quest to get Morningstar, a battle is coming up in Idris and Asmodeus is definitely planning something. I’m really looking forward to the 3B season finale (I know there is 321 and 322 but this is the 3B finale).

Also, in the promo is looks like Magnus is back in his apartment and it will be interesting to find out how that happens but I hope that it isn’t because of Asmodeus because that will solidify Lorenzo’s belief about Magnus’ power coming from his father.

Plus, it looks like Magnus is attacking Asmodeus; whether this is because he learns about the deal or because of Asmodeus’ plans remains to be seen.

Who’s excited?

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Novaer, randír nín - Farewell, my Ranger

Rating: Teen  Fandom: Shadow of Mordor/War, Lord of the Ring, Silmarillion  Pairing:  Nazgûl Talion / Celebrimbor (if you squint)  Summery: Celebrimbor learns of Talion's fate after leaving him to die. A/N: So @p-joart wrote her own story way before I wrote this, but I was inspired by the art she had posted along side her fic, A Reversal of the Wicked. If you haven't read it yet, you should! But I started writing this at some point while she was still working on the art and after some digging through my computer, I found it and decided to post it. She had asked if I could make it longer, but I had no idea really how, which is why it was just sitting on my hard drive forever. Its lightly edited, so there may be some mistakes, but at any rate, enjoy! Beta: None.  Word Count: 2,236

Cross posted to Ao3

What a familiar scene this is,’ Sauron purred whilst placing a hand under Celebrimbor’s chin. Forcing him to look up into those golden eyes which had haunted him for countless years. The Elf made no struggle against his bonds; arms spread wide and hanging from an unseen wall while his thighs rested upon what felt like cold stone despite the fact that there was nothing he could see that resembled either.

The void which they had been banished to was both curious and terrifying. It had allowed for him to be in possession of his body again, but that was also allowed for Celebrimbor to be in the precarious position that he was in, for Sauron too was allotted a physical form and he seemed to favour wearing the familiar guise of Annatar.

‘Why do you look so displeased, Tyelpe?” the Maia mocked, and his form loomed over him, ‘I thought you had treasured the time we spent together?’

‘Why have you not already returned to your master?’ was what Celebrimbor had wanted to question. But he knew that the answer was that Sauron enjoyed his torment and would allow himself the pleasure for as long as he was able.

‘Pity,’ he thought to himself, for he wished deeply the Maia would let him go already.

Another smirk graced the deceitful, but fair face Sauron wore, and as soon as his chin was released, Celebrimbor’s eyes fell, and he stared at the blackness under his knees.

‘There is no need for that face, especially after I have gone through so much trouble to bring you one last gift.’

‘I want none of it,’ Celebrimbor meant for the words to carry more weight, but they were broken and stuck in his parched throat. The thought of what Sauron’s words could possibly entail made his eyes water and his heart pound against his chest.

‘I want none of it,’ he repeated, but the sound of his voice was softer still and his head hung even lower whilst Sauron chuckled at his defeat.

‘But I do so think you would adore this one,’ began Sauron and the sound of his voice caused a shiver to run down the Elf’s spine.

‘It was something very dear to you at one point. I must say, I am surprised you left it there. Broken and laying about on the dirty ground. So careless. So unlike you, Tyelpe.’ Sauron wagged a finger at him, as though he were scolding a child for being so thoughtless with a toy.

‘Do not call me that!’ cried Celebrimbor, shouting as loudly as he could manage. Never wanting to hear that nickname ever again and particularly from Sauron. But the Maia chuckled darkly, watching as Celebrimbor realised what exactly he was speaking of. The Elf struggled more against his bonds than he had previously with the remaining vigour he possessed.

‘He could not have meant that,��� Celebrimbor thought, and prayed that this was another trick so that he would squirm some more under Sauron’s gaze.

‘Yes, you know of whom I speak. The Ranger – Oh, what was his name – Ah, yes, Talion. I’m surprised you left him there. But fear not! I have repaired him for you,’ Sauron’s words were poison, making him uneasy with the sickly-sweet tone used. Celebrimbor’s heart pounded against his ribs although it felt to be in the pit of his stomach.

Raising his head, Celebrimbor watched as the shadow of Talion appeared into eyesight and he knew there was no mistake. That silhouette: he could never forget it. But once Talion came into view, tears began flowing from his eyes unbidden as he observed the changed wrought upon the Ranger. His skin was now ashy and grey and dark veins could be seen clearly, particularly under his eyes which now held the same murderous orange glow as Sauron. The armour Talion wore was not familiar to Celebrimbor, instead of the normal leathers bearing the Tree of Gondor, Talion now wore metals that were sharp and cruel. Crafted for sure in the depths of Minas Morgul and of similar make to what the Nazgûl wore. The fact that Talion was still in possession of his body, at least for now, made his appearance more terrifying than if he had been faceless like the rest of the Ringwraiths.

‘Talion,’ weakly he called to the Ranger, watching as his dark but colourless lips turned down in a frown, ‘What has become of you?’

Talion smirked, and it promised pain, ‘What has become of me, you ask?’ his words were bitter and chilled Celebrimbor to the bone, ‘I dare think you know the answer to your own question. Considering it was you who left me to die.’

His words bit deep, for they were not untrue, and Celebrimbor had found in the long years of his life that the truth often was more agonising than sweet lies and he had come to wish that he could have remained in the comfort of them.

‘I am sorry,’ he murmured to the Wraith before him, admitting to himself that a Wraith was exactly what Talion had become. The irony was cruel, knowing that their positions had been flipped: for here was Celebrimbor with what seemed to be a living body while Talion, his previous host, was now the one faded, damaged and losing himself to the dark whispers of the dark.

‘It is a bit too late for apologises, Celebrimbor,’ sneered Talion whilst he moved in a way that reminding the Elf of a great predator who stalked its prey and looked for the opportune moment to deliver the killing blow. Talion moved passed Sauron and the Dark Lord grinned in horrific glee.

‘It appears,’ the Maia mocked while stepping away from the pair of them, ‘That you two have some unfinished business that needs be resolved. I take my leave for the time being and shall return to see the results of your discussion, Tyelpe,’ and upon finishing his words, Sauron faded into the blackness and appeared to be gone – but Celebrimbor still felt the familiar sense of dread that the Dark Lord emitted and suspected that he would watch with joy.

Talion continued to stalk the Elf silently, circling around him like a hawk, causing Celebrimbor to become visually more upset as he was forced to comprehend the consequences of his betrayal to the man who had continued to help him even after avenging his own family. Denying death for him and lingering in the world longer than any mortal man should ever.

After the Ring they had crafted was cut from Eltariel’s hand (and in turn Celebrimbor’s spectral one) the Elf had realised his folly in leaving Talion. At first it was simply that he would have been able to take victory over Sauron if he had stayed with the Ranger. However, the remains of his heart that had not been corrupted Celebrimbor had come to realise in his struggles against Sauron that he had betrayed the one person he could have called ‘friend’ since Narvi had passed.

‘I am sorry,’ he repeated again, though this time it seemed like the words had angered Talion and his patience snapped in two as the Ringwraith tangled his fingers in the Elf’s matted long black hair, pulling roughly at his scalp to bring Celebrimbor’s eyes to meet his. His scalp stung, and he winced at the cold stare of those gloomy eyes: hard and cold and drowned in hatred as they bore into his skull as if trying to kill him with his gaze alone.

‘Did I not say it was too late for such useless words!’ Talion hissed and clutched at the hair even harder and pulling his head back even further. The motion strained Celebrimbor’s neck and he shifted his weight from his thighs in an attempt to keep Talion from snapping his neck clean off. His shoulders burned in protest and he silently wished that the Wraith would break his neck so that this would end quickly.

But no such fortune was allotted to him as Talion continued the mocking where Sauron had left off, ‘Where is that biting sarcasm you favoured now?’ he ran a finger down the smooth skin of Celebrimbor’s check. The touch was deathly cold even in the nothingness around them.

‘Where now is the confident Bright Lord? Where is he who was relentless in his endeavours to conquer Mordor? Where is the one who charged head first into the fields without a care for his own self?’ he spat the word Bright Lord as if it left a putrid flavour in his mouth.

‘How strange it is to see you so silent – in such a compromising position – without scathing retorts. Have you given up already?’ Talion asked as Celebrimbor said nothing and did naught but stare at him with mournful eyes.

‘Giving up suits you,’ snickered Talion as he watched the Elf’s eyes slowly shut in defeat, ‘especially in comparison to the confident façade you so enjoy wearing,’ the Wraith the released his hair and Celebrimbor fell back onto his thighs whilst his neck burned.

‘Had I known sooner, I would have made more effort to track you down.’

‘Talion,’ Celebrimbor called the Ranger’s name, though he was unsure of what he wanted to say. Not that it had mattered, Talion had struck him with an open hand, splitting his lip. Celebrimbor spat out the blood that had collected in his mouth and his stomach churned and the remaining taste of the metallic liquid while his vision blurred, and his ears rang.

‘Do not call me that!’ the Wraith repeated what Celebrimbor had said to Sauron, clearly having heard it, and clearly finding it amusing to use those words against him in this situation. Celebrimbor wished that his ears had been ringing more so that he could have missed the comment.

Avoiding Talion’s gaze, Celebrimbor hung his head as low as was possible. His entire posture showed that he had given up hope as he sat heavily on his thighs with his back curved in a defeated bow. Had his hands not been bound and holding him upright, Celebrimbor would have been on the ground, clutching at Talion’s legs as he begged to be put out of his misery.

‘Oh Tyelpe,’ the Wraith’s voice sounded amused as he used the awful nickname, wrapping his fingers around the Elf’s throat and cutting off his air. Not enough so to kill him, much to his disappointment, but only enough to keep his vision hazy.

He wanted to die here and as soon as he was able. Assuming that he was able in the Void. Celebrimbor had the creeping suspicion that he would just wake once more and be subjected to more torture. Whether it was by the hand of Sauron or Talion, Celebrimbor was unsure of who would be worse.

He concluded that Talion’s wrath was worse for he had brought this torment upon himself in breaking the man. It was all his fault, Celebrimbor concluded, and so he deserved whatever the Wraith did to him. Talion never deserved anything Celebrimbor had done to him and the Elf wished that he had realised this sooner so that he could have spared them both this grief.

Another sneer ran along Talion’s face as it he knew what Celebrimbor had been thinking, ‘Sauron is the least of your worries. The only reason you are here and alive is because I requested it.’ he said at length before crashing his lips against the Elf’s. Their teeth had crashed and clicked together painfully, and Celebrimbor winced. Talion did not seem bothered in the slightest as he bit down on his already damaged lip and causing further harm. Celebrimbor whimpered in terror filled agony as the blood ran down his chin and into the curve of his neck. Feeling Talion’s tongue lick the dripping blood and smearing it around his face with a pleased hum.

Celebrimbor wanted to ask, ‘why?’ once Talion had pulled back, but the words were caught in his throat. Instead, he stared at the Ranger blankly.

‘I had thought of this,’ Talion started, running a large finger under the Elf’s eyes and wiping away the tears that had gathered there. The motion had confused and frightened Celebrimbor, but as he stared at the Wraith, he noticed that he resembled more the man he had once known for Talion’s face had soften considerably. He saw again, the man that was once the Ranger – though he was hidden behind ashen skin and glowing eyes.

Celebrimbor wondered if this was the last he would be seeing of this proud man of Gondor.

‘His Ranger,’ he had never wanted to admit those words, even in his thoughts, but yet he had always dared to hope.

‘I had hoped – at one time,’ Talion continued again, and Celebrimbor became worried that he really could see his thoughts like he had been able to previously when they shared Talion’s body. Celebrimbor wondered if the bond was intact still. He wished Talion would continue speaking so that he could learn whether this was true of not. But Talion did not continue and his face slowly twisted back into the scowl that he had been previously wearing.

‘It doesn’t matter now. The past is the past. And the past is dead.’

Those words cut even deeper than his teeth ever could.

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Do a headcanon about Diane and Kurt babysitting Joseph Quinn-Morello

Thanks, Anon! This was such a sweet one to imagine–I so hope to see this to some extent on the show! My 2,500+ word response (oops…?) can be found under the "Keep reading”!

1. The first time Kurt and Diane babysit Joseph Quinn-Morello, it just sort of falls into place. A case calls everyone in at 8:30PM on a Thursday. Diane and Kurt, having been out to dinner, come in together, Kurt hanging around while the firm assesses the situation and Diane decides just how needed she is while also staying on call for ballistics. With Colin in D.C., the nanny out of town, and both Maia and Marissa being called in as well (and the baby’s local grandmother being an absolute last resort), Lucca packs up the diaper bag, tucks Joseph into his carseat, and brings him along with her as she heads for the office.Liz has gone straight to the crime scene to meet her husband and Jay and Marissa follow shortly after. Once given all the facts of the situation, Adrien is set to go to the police station with Maia and that leaves Diane free, though still on call. And then their’s Lucca. All of the partners feel it is important to support their associates, particularly in situations such as these—they understand the circumstances and are willing to make any necessary adjustments. She signed this client and is the one who has a developed relationship with him, but the partners are clear that she is free to be where she needs to be, without penalty, and they’ll reorganize in the morning. But it’s evident in the young woman’s features that she’s desperate to be involved now, from the start.As Lucca and Diane are the only two from the firm that remain in Diane’s office while Maia and Adrian prepare themselves to leave, there is an obvious solution. But while Diane is willing to watch the infant, she wonders how his mother would feel about leaving him in her relatively inexperienced care. And though Lucca longs to be a part of this case and would be grateful to leave her son for an hour or two with a woman whom she trusts implicitly, no matter any level of experience she does or does not have with babies, making such a proposition to her boss is not something she is about to do.If Diane is not entirely sure of the former of the other woman’s thoughts, she does at least understand the latter—Lucca will not ask. Ask so, after but a moment more of hesitation, she offers… but tentatively so, not wanting the other woman to feel at all obligated or even pressured. “Lucca, I’m sure they’ll manage—you’re more than welcome to keep in touch from here or home. But, if you’d like, I can always… watch him for you? If it’s something you’d feel comfortable with…”From his chair over in the corner, having been reading the paper, Kurt’s head shoots up.Meanwhile Lucca, too, seems to be taken a bit by surprise. But not unpleasantly so. “I… are you sure?” Diane nods. “I am.”There’s still something within Lucca holding her back, contemplating if she can allow herself to take her superior up on such an offer. But then she remembers something—Diane Lockhart does not say anything she does not mean. Her offer, she knows, is genuine (whether it is personally or professionally driven, she does not know for sure, but perhaps that is irrelevant). She nods herself then. “Okay, yes—that would be great, thank you.”The two exchange smiles briefly until Adrian and Maia poke their heads in, declaring, “We’re heading out.”“Wait!” Lucca exclaims. “I’m coming too—Diane offered to watch Joseph. I, umm, I just…” and then a mild bout of panic sets in thinking of how tight on time they are yet all there suddenly is to prepare and inform of before she leaves. “I just need to grab a few things from my office quickly.” She turns to her son in his little seat momentarily, considering, then shakes her head and moves for the door. She does not need to bring him downstairs with her, not when she’s leaving him here, with Diane, anyway. “I’ll just be a minute!” she calls out over her shoulder as she darts for the stairs. “I’ll go help her,” Maia excuses herself, too.Adrian then studies Diane for a moment with a little glint in his eye, but the remark she expects to come from him does not and he instead tells her her that he’s going to retrieve his car and asks that she have the two younger women meet him at the front of the building. “Good luck,” he says as he leaves.Finally, for the first time in the past whirl-wind two minutes, Diane looks to her husband.“So, we’re babysitting this evening?” He seems more amused than annoyed, but still, she clarifies. “I am. You’re welcome to help, but you don’t have to.”“Nah,” he shrugs, lips curled. “Sounds fun.”When Lucca and Maia return, armloads of baby gear in tow, Lucca has started rattling off information and instruction before she’s even in the door. She makes it through a reasonably lengthy spiel when she pauses, a little flushed, and places a hand to her temple—what else?Maia takes the moment to step in and assuage any doubt that her friend may have. “The precinct has service—if either of you thinks of anything else, you’ll be in touch. And I promise,” she says, placing a hand over her heart while glancing over to her godmother, “I can personally attest to the fact that Diane is babysitter extraordinaire!”They all let out a little laugh at that. And while Diane may feel a little flustered herself, she keeps it held within for the other woman’s benefit. “I will be in touch if need be,”  she confirms. “And there’s always Chumhum.”Lucca laughs again and nods. “Yes, Chumhum has certainly been my friend over the last couple of months.” She let’s out a little sigh, looking at her boy. “Okay. I should go.” She lifts her son out of his seat and holds him close, placing a kiss to his head before handing him off to her boss, who takes him decidedly without hesitation. The baby fusses momentarily in the shifting but soon settles in the older woman’s arms. “There,” she smiles, settling a little internally herself.With that, Lucca seems satisfied. Almost. “If you can’t reach me-”“I’ll try Maia or Adrian or even the precinct itself,” she finishes.“Okay. Well…” She reaches out and touches a finger to a tiny fist. “Alright, little man, I’ll see you later. I love you!” And then, to Diane, “Thanks so much, again, Diane.”“I’m happy to do it.”Before she has a chance to change her mind, Maia gently takes her friend’s arm. “Adrian’s waiting for us.”“I’m ready,” she nods. And she is. “I’ll be in touch.”“We’ll be here.”With a final smile the pair sets out. Once Mom is down the hall and has turned the corner, Diane looks between both males in the room—her husband in the corner then to the baby in her arms. “Oh dear,” she says softly. “What have we gotten ourselves into?”***They do use Chumhum. Repeatedly, in fact—how to operate the bottle warmer, to what extent they should burp him, how to assemble the pack-n-play… But they muddle through and little Joseph seems to be remarkably content in their capable if unsure hands.When it’s time for a diaper change she goads Kurt into doing it. And while he grumbles, he truly doesn’t mind all that much… until she stands over his shoulder the entire time, critiquing and directing—he’s being too rough, he missed a spot, the fastenings are crooked. She does the next one herself.And all through the evening, as they they work together to care for this little being, they feel their bond further strengthening and they feel their love for each other further growing as they watch the other interacting with the infant. But if any “what if” thoughts come to mind, they are not spoken.

2. The second time happens similarly to the first—a situation of circumstance. Lucca is still a little hesitant over the idea of a name partner being charged with babysitting her kid and informs the woman that her nanny can be there within an hour. Diane shrugs, “It’s your call, but really, I don’t mind at all.”At the end of the day when Lucca arrives back at the office to collect her child and sees her boss beaming as she coos at the baby in her arms and that her husband has joined them and looks equally delighted… it finally occurs to her that perhaps this isn’t a chore for the other woman, and that maybe it’s something she rather enjoys.***“Hey,” she greets her husband over the phone. “I am going to be here a bit longer, I’m afraid—doing some research and developing strategy while the others are out at the scene and the station.”“That’s okay,” he tells her nonchalantly before she can say anything else… though she can hear a touch of disappointment in his voice. They had been planning to spend the day together, and though nothing they intended to do was spectacular in any way—running a couple of errands together and lunch on the waterfront—they had been looking forward to it.“I’ve actually got Joseph here with me though-“Caught off guard he needs to clarify, briefly interrupting her to question,“Lucca’s kid?”“Yes. …Anyway, it’s just the two of us here and, again, I’m doing some work but nothing too pressing and was wondering if you’d like to join us—bring some work of your own or that godforsaken book you’ve been reading,” she teases, referring his Gorsuch bio.A smile spreads across his face, both from her gentle mockery as well as—and in larger part—the idea of spending a casual Saturday with his wife after all and with the addition of the little guy and at the image of her holding him in her arms once again.“Yeah, that sounds nice.”

3. The next time a similar situation arrises it’s not really discussed but, rather, almost understood.***Kurt usually plays a more passive role when they watch Joseph—he’ll hold him for a moment or two, watch him while Diane takes a call, change his diaper that one time, but mostly he’s there for company while his wife tends to play the more active one in caring for the boy as she was the one to volunteer to do so and she is the one that has a relationship with his mother.But tonight his wife is tired—exhausted, actually. It’s been a long week, she’d hardly slept the night before, and while he knows she doesn’t mind caring for Joseph as she’d be up and on call anyway, it’s apparent that she doesn’t have the energy to bring to it that she usually does. So he takes the lead this time doing the work and let’s her simply relax and enjoy and she is most grateful.An hour in, as Diane sleepily takes in the most glorious sight of Kurt on the other end of the sofa, cradling the little one as he feeds him his bottle, a calm comes over her—the stress of the week and of the night all melting away in an instant.

4. When Lucca has plans to go out with Marissa and Maia and the babysitter calls to cancel last-minute, she is admittedly disappointed. She loves her son more than anything in the world, and she loves being his mother… but it is exhausting—mentally, physically, and emotionally—and that paired with a demanding career had left her so looking forward to (and in need of) a night out with her friends. She leans back in the sofa cushions, thinking over her options, when an idea forms. She sits up then. It’s an idea that requires mulling over—she could be crossing a line. But then she thinks further on it, thinks of how her son has seemed to snuggle his way right on into a certain woman’s heart—and her husband’s too, as far as she can tell—and, after only a moment’s more hesitation, pulls out her phone and dials.“Diane, hi… is there any chance that you’re free tonight?”***It’s not the first time they’ve done this, but it’s the first time they’ve done it in a home setting. They sit next to him on the floor in the living room while he wriggles and giggles on his playmat, she bounces him on her hip in the kitchen (and goodness is he getting big) as Kurt prepares his food, they settle him into his crib in his sweet little nursery when he falls asleep in Kurt’s arms. It’s all so entirely domestic, and while perhaps this should be prompting wistfulness for the two and their missed opportunities—and likely would have a couple of years prior—it doesn’t. When Diane muses about such later, as the two are curled up on the sofa and watching the little one snooze over the monitor, Kurt agrees. The truth is, having nearly lost it all, they’ve never felt as sure in what their relationship is and what they have (faults and all) as they do now. …And they’ve never been so focused on embracing the present and the moments that are real, like this very night.

5. Aside from her nanny, Lucca doesn’t have a “go-to-babysitter.” To start with, there are few instances unrelated to work when one is needed—she does her best to plan baby-free outings for when her son is scheduled to be with his father. Further, she doesn’t like to put the “burden” entirely on any one person. But, she does have a rotation of sorts of preferred babysitters, and eight months into Joseph Quinn-Morellos’s life, Diane Lockhart and Kurt McVeigh are secure fixtures within that rotation.***Though she never had any of her own, Diane has always enjoyed having children in her life—her goddaughter as well as the children of a her cousins and a few other close friends. Likewise, Kurt always took pride and great pleasure in being Uncle Kurt. Now, Kurt and Diane play somewhat of a role in the lives of his niece’s and nephew’s children, but they’re all so far away and it’s difficult to be a regular fixture. And while Diane has always somewhat expected (and looked forward to the prospect) to play some sort of a role in the lives of Maia’s children, should she choose to have any, she knows that that time is still a few years off, at least.And so, while Joseph Quinn-Morello coming into their life—and them into his—was not at all expected, both can say for certain that it was an entirely pleasant surprise. They can also say for certain that their life is a little brighter because of it. And as Joseph grows, he does so with a particular fondness in his heart for his Aunt Diane and Uncle Kurt.

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        after carefully reading through all the applications we’ve received, final decisions were made. below the cut you will find those accepted, their muse descriptions, & a cute lil’ note from me because i couldn’t help myself. thank you all so much for applying. i’m so sorry i had to turn some of you away, but i only had eleven spots to give. i promise every application we received was amazing, it mainly boiled down to accepting a group of muses with diverse personalities / reasons for crashing. if your name is under the cut, congratulations ! i can’t wait to start writing with you ! you can find our checklist here with further instructions ! thank you all so much for taking the time to submit an app, it truly means a lot to me because all my hard work would have meant nothing without your interest ! xx

congratulations abby ! you’ve been accepted as the aesthete !

did jessica vu just stumble into the wedding ? wait, never mind, that’s just eden lo, the 21 year old aesthete of the crashers. i heard she is a part of the romantics now. i guess it makes sense considering they are optimistic, but also clumsy. let’s hope this competition doesn’t get in the way of her cosmetology degree. victoria secret bras, pink body sprays, small minimalist tattoos, christmas lights up always, countless blankets, oversized sweaters, white crocs, chapsticks, stacks and stacks of romance books.

       note : thank you so much for being so patient abby ! i really did enjoy your app a lot, i love how you incorporated two different artistic mediums into the aesthete ! i think eden is a dynamic muse & i can’t wait to write with you ! also the white crocs, it’s perfect ! 

congratulations veah ! you’ve been accepted as the libertine !

did cindy kimberly just stumble into the wedding ? wait, never mind, that’s just cynthia navarro, the 21 year old libertine of the crashers. i heard she is a part of the romantics now. i guess it makes sense considering they are debonair, but also imprudent. let’s hope this competition doesn’t get in the way of her anthropology degree. rosary beads passed down through generations bookmarking a newly purchased anthropology textbook. cherry red lipstick stains on collared shirts, coffee cups and cigarette buds. numerous pairs of broken or bent reading glasses strewn about a messy, cluttered bedroom.

        note : i found the reason cynthia crashes to be quite refreshing, especially given her libertine label & the way you’ve incorporated religion into her ! i enjoyed your writing a lot, so i’m looking forward to watching you further develop cynthia on the dash ! thank you for applying veah -- also if you could message the main, that would be great ! 

congratulations dianna ! you’ve been accepted as the mountebank !

did nick robinson just stumble into the wedding ? wait, never mind, that’s just sawyer hart, the 23 year old mountebank of the crashers. i heard he is a part of the romantics now. i guess it makes sense considering they are beguiling, but also impenetrable. let’s hope this competition doesn’t get in the way of his english degree. hints of a southern drawl reciting the words of e.e cummings, a desolate young man hiding behind a saccharine smile, mismatched tattoos scattered along fair skin. 

       note : wow dianna, you took the mountebank label & created a muse i would’ve never thought of -- i love it ! i love sawyer’s use of aliases at the wedding, i think it’s so interesting ! thank you for applying, i can’t wait to write with you ! 

congratulations angelina ! you’ve been accepted as the opulent !

did hailey baldwin just stumble into the wedding ? wait, never mind, that’s just juniper dixon, the 21 year old opulent of the crashers. i heard she is a part of the realists now. i guess it makes sense considering they are fearless, but also reckless. let’s hope this competition doesn’t get in the way of her mandarin, studio arts, and marketing degrees. juniper is snorted laughter, twang slipping into a terrible fake accent, stealing a groomsmen’s jacket to wear out at the end of the night. she is downcast eyes at comments of you look familiar while judging the bride’s sister based on the quality of her diamonds. the dixon way is putting centerpiece roses into wheelchair spokes and leaving too much in an unmarked envelope, wondering if the people around you are happy to see you only when you pay for the next round of drinks.

      note : angelina, thank you so much for applying ! your muse is truly unique -- i’ve never seen anyone write a muse in a wheelchair. this is such a fresh take on the opulent, & i truly am excited to begin writing with you so i can see how juniper develops !

congratulations diana ! you’ve been accepted as the paladin !

did froy gutierrez just stumble into the wedding ? wait, never mind, that’s just sebastian guerra, the 21 year old paladin of the crashers. i heard he is a part of the romantics now. i guess it makes sense considering they are nurturing, but also irresolute. let’s hope this competition doesn’t get in the way of his theatre degree. movie scripts, dreaming of something bigger, being the knight in shining armor, picking sunflowers, family dinners around the table, voice as sweet as honey, believing in signs, always having sunscreen, being the sunshine in everyone else’s life.

      note : sebastian has my heart, truly ! his reason for crashing is so perfect for the label of the paladin & i love how he had never attended a wedding before crashing ! diana, i can’t thank you enough for applying & i look forward to writing with you ! 

congratulations moe ! you’ve been accepted as the polymath !

did barbara palvin just stumble into the wedding ? wait, never mind, that’s just nora kennedy, the 22 year old polymath of the crashers. i heard she is a part of the realists now. i guess it makes sense considering they are responsible, but also bossy. let’s hope this competition doesn’t get in the way of her medical degree. nora is books with entire paragraphs highlighted because she thinks all information is essential. nora is also big sweaters tucked into denim skirts and chunky glasses. and finally, nora is shy glances and freckles across her nose.  

    note : hi moe ! thank you so much for applying, i truly did fall in love with both your muses ! i think nora is a lovely muse -- the pushover secretly beneath the bossiness is a clever take on the polymath ! i can’t wait to write with you ! 

congratulations sedona ! you’ve been accepted as the quixotic !

did shawn mendes just stumble into the wedding ? wait, never mind, that’s just everett sanders, the 22 year old quixotic of the crashers. i heard he is a part of the romantics now. i guess it makes sense considering they are persistent, but also rebellious. let’s hope this competition doesn’t get in the way of his musical technology degree. half finished bottles of alcohol, left on the counter top for anyone to see. jumpers that were freshly pulled out of the dryer, yet still smell like his cologne. notebooks filled with lyrics about things that may never happen to him. 

      note : everett is everything i could’ve hoped for given the quixotic label. i love the last line of your aesthetics, sedona -- it’s perfect ! i also love how part of the reason he crashes is to give a lil’ f you to his parents ! i can’t wait to begin writing with you & everett. thank you or applying sedona ! 

congratulations skelly ! you’ve been accepted as the reveler !

did noah centineo just stumble into the wedding ? wait, never mind, that’s just atticus morrison, the 22 year old reveler of the crashers. i heard he is a part of the realists now. i guess it makes sense considering they are charismatic, but also avoidant. let’s hope this competition doesn’t get in the way of his communications degree. a crowded dance floor with him in the eye of the chaos, losing himself to the party. a match striking in the dark, lighting a cigarette in the mouth of someone who doesn’t want to remember the past. a few far-gone giggles echoing down city streets, dazed smiles, dreamy eyes.

        note : skelly, you were one of our first apps & i couldn’t have been more grateful ! i really do love atticus or kit -- his reason for crashing is perfect for the reveler. i really loved how you wrote crashing was just partying with higher stakes ! your aesthetics are also lovely. i can’t wait to write with you & thank you again for applying ! 

congratulations maia ! you’ve been accepted as the sovereign !

did ariana grande just stumble into the wedding ? wait, never mind, that’s just sofia romano, the 21 year old sovereign of the crashers. i heard she is a part of the realists now. i guess it makes sense considering they are passionate, but also contentious. let’s hope this competition doesn’t get in the way of her criminal justice degree. pale pink roses crushed under the heel of a black louboutin. smudged eyeliner from studying all night. sipping champagne on a private jet.

        note : maia, your application was really lovely ! the competition for the sovereign was also really steep ! overall, i think the reason sofia crashes really drew me in. the divorced parents background is always an interesting backstory. thank you for applying & i can’t wait to write with you ! 

congratulations leo ! you’ve been accepted as the sycophant !

did cindy kimberly just stumble into the wedding ? wait, never mind, that’s just jovie dubois, the 21 year old sycophant of the crashers. i heard she is a part of the realists now. i guess it makes sense considering they are alluring, but also narcissistic. let’s hope this competition doesn’t get in the way of her fashion, marketing, & design degree. self harm scars hidden by colorful tattoos, a thirty dollar dress with a two hundred dollar pair of shoes, bulletproof confidence and casket white teeth, lipstick stains left on your collar so your wife knows she was there.

      note : oof, choosing the syocphant was very difficult because we had three really solid applications. ultimately, i decided to go with you because i enjoyed reading why she crashes. i really did get a darker sycophant vibe from it, which i loved ! thank you for applying & i look forward to writing with you leo -- also, please message the main !

congratulations hannah ! you’ve been accepted as the syrupy !

did danielle campbell just stumble into the wedding ? wait, never mind, that’s just juliette wilde, the 21 year old syrupy of the crashers. i heard she is a part of the romantics now. i guess it makes sense considering they are loving, but also naive. let’s hope this competition doesn’t get in the way of her early childhood education degree. a half-empty bottle of lavender perfume, overlarge sweater sleeves concealing pale pink nail-polish that is just starting to chip, smiles that seem to reach all the way to your heart, ink smudges and messy buns, fresh flowers filling a cramped apartment. 

       note : wow hannah, your writing is beautiful ! i loved reading your paragraphs on why juliette crashes, it really brought a smile to my face ! i am excited to write with you to see how you develop juliette. thank you so much for applying !

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Merry Christmas, @forensicsisabelle!

The Happiest of Holidays

“Do you celebrate,” Magnus asks randomly one night while they are out walking around the city.

“Do I celebrate what?” Alec answers softly.

“Christmas,” Magnus answers while looking at the tree in Rockefeller Center.

“Oh, no, not really.  I mean the institute puts up a tree, but I think it’s just for appearances sake, not that we get very many mundanes or anyone else who would care. Do you?” Alec, suddenly really curious.

“I do and I don’t. When I was a boy Islam was the religion where I lived, but my mother wasn’t all the interested, especially because my step father was white. But I’ve dabbled in almost every religion. There’s something magical in every faith.  Maybe that’s why I’m drawn to Christmas and the decorations. But Chanukah is also a very beautiful holiday. I’m very fond of Yul and Winter solstice.  I adapt to the situation I’m in.”

“I’ve never really cared to be honest.  We are descended from angels, and angels belong to many religions.  I know that the institutes in various countries celebrate according to the region they are in. people who have ascended celebrate what they were born into. Werewolves don’t have rules like that, Vampires have that God issue, and Seelies go with the flow, they would probably really like the whole worshipping a tree thing.”

“People don’t worship trees Alexander, it’s just a way to decorate the holiday with joy and love”

“Yes well, it’s all the same to me really.”

“I’ll have to change that.”

A week later Magnus dragged Alec to the Hotel Du Mort in search of his Catholic son and his Jewish fledgling.

“Can’t we just have met at the institute? The downworlder counsel exists for a reason Magnus.”

“I highly doubt you created it to learn about religion.”

“Well no, but it would still work.”

“Come now, this will be fun, and if nothing else you can scoff and roll your eyes at Simon as you enjoy doing.”

“Fine, but I want it known I’m doing this out of duress.”

“I’m fine with that.”

The two are granted entrance into the Vampire den and climb the stairs to Raphael’s penthouse suite.

“Does it not occur to these people to fix the elevator?”

“They have super speed Alexander, an elevator is hardly necessary.”

“Not all of us have that you know.”

“You have runes, I have magic, it equals out.”

“Then why are we walking?”

“We’re in no rush sweetness. I’m just enjoying your company,” Magnus bats his lashes at his boyfriend.

Alec rolls his eyes extra dramatically. “Okay I get it, let’s just get there already.”

Simon greets them at the door when they arrive. “This is really cool of you to ask Magnus, Clary never really cared about Chanukah because it was always so close to Christmas.  I’m excited to tell you about it.”

“Simon, let them come in before you scare them niño.”

“Right sorry, come in.”

“So Simon, why are you here celebrating instead of with Maia?” Alec asked suspiciously.

“When Magnus suggested this I figured it was easier to come here.  My stuff is portable, a tree is not.”

“Oh, yeh, right.”

“Anyway, do you want something to drink? Eat? We prepared some traditional holiday dishes.”

“Dios Mio, I prepared, he went to the store!”

“It was a group effort really.”

Magnus looked upon his children fondly, Alec was wondering around the apartment aimlessly.

“Is Izzy coming to this little get together?” He asked absentmindedly.

“Maybe, if she finishes her patrol in a timely manner, I usually don’t expect her ‘til much later,” Raphael said softly.

“Oh, that makes sense.” Alec had slowly become more comfortable with the idea of Izzy being in a relationship with the clan leader.  He made her happy.  She made him far more personable; he’s sure she is the only reason this little holiday thing was even happening.”

“Shall we get started? I don’t want to keep my night children from their night.”

Magnus and Alec sat down on the couch while Simon flitted around gather various things.

“Okay this is a menorah, they used to have ones like it in the temple-“

“Temple?” Alec looked confused.

“Right ok, um, I didn’t think this was gonna be a history lesson.”

Magnus chuckled, “it’s okay, I’ll fill in the holes later, go on.”

“Great, okay so the Temple used to use there candle/oil holders. But the one for Chanukah is called a Chanukiah.  So there was a fight. The bad guys tried to conquer the Jews, but somehow the Jews the prevailed.  But the temple was desecrated, and there was only a little bit of oil left. Somehow it burned for eight days. Most people say that was miracle of Chanukah but really it was that we won against a greater larger foe.   Anyway. We celebrate by lighting candles each night for eight night, we have games and we eat oily food, like latkes which are potatoe pancakes and donuts.”

“ That was…a lot.” Alec was trying to prcess.

“Sorry, I get excited.  If you have specific questions let me know.”

“ I think Magnus can fill in the gaps.  So this is a holy day?”

“I mean it’s not like the New Year or Yom Kippur but it is important.”

“Gotcha, I think.”

“Wait ‘til you hear Raph’s story, you’ll be begging for more of my story!”

Raph came to the living area carrying drinks for everyone, blood cocktails for himself and Simon, a martini for magus and a beer for Alec.

“Isabelle tells me you like this kind.”

“I do, very much, thank you.”

Magnus gestured for Raphael to sit and begin his Christmas lesson.

“It still pains me to talk at length about this, but I will tell the basics, if that’s alright.”

“Of course gendhakan.”

If vampires could blush Raphael would be, as he always does when Magnus uses that term of endearment for him.

“Alright, so Christmas celebrates the birth of Jesus. Who we believe to be the son of…” Raphael gets choked up and points upward. “His mother had a baby without having sex; it’s called the Immaculate Conception.”

“Yeh, even though Mary was married and clearly had sex with her husband.”

Raphael smacked him upside the head. “You had your turn!”

Simon rubbed at his head and apologized.

“As I was saying, Catholics take Christmas a little more seriously than other parts of the religion. I remember going to mass with my family. I swear I could feel…him around me.  It kept me grounded while I was growing up.  I think the tree tradition is as old as Magnus here.  It evolved from pre-Christianity. But I believe now it’s a way to outwardly celebrate what we feel inside. I usually don’t have one, too painful, but Isabelle got a small one as a gift to me and who am I to say no to her.”

Alec smiled; it was very hard to say no to Izzy.

“Okay, so someone mentioned food?” Magnus said to break the silence.

Simon jumped up and sped over to the kitchen. He rushed back with plates of potato pancakes, jelly donuts, Bacalao Navideno (Mexican Christmas salted cod) and cinnamon bunuelos(fritters).

Alec looked at everything with wide eyed, grateful he had listened to Magnus when he said not to eat much that day.

“Everything looks amazing anakku.”

“Thank you papa.”

Magnus started making plates for himself and Alec.  Simon sat watching them eat with rapt attention.

“Simon, can you stop staring?” Alec pointed his fork at him.

“Sorry! I sometimes miss food, or the first taste of holiday foods you only have once a year.” Simon looked downcast.

Raphael put a comforting hand on his shoulder. He understood.

When Magnus and Alec had eaten more than their fair share of food, they got up to go.

“What will you do with the leftovers,” Alec asked curiously.

“I’m taking some to Maia, and Raph promised Izzy he’d save her some of everything. Don’t worry; it will get eaten by those who can.”

“Thank you both for this.  It was a lot of information but I think I understand the gist of everything.”

“Of course Alec, anytime.  I’m glad I had someone to share this with.”

Alec smiled genuinely at Simon, grateful that this pesky nerd had found a way into his life.

“Portal or walk my love?”

“I think a stroll is in order.  Gotta work off all this food.”

“There are certainly other ways,” Magnus winked at Alec.

“No, not in here!” Raphael threw his hands up and fled to the kitchen to clean up.

“Love you too my boy!”

Both men left sated and peaceful.  The walk home was brisk and calm.

“Thank you for arranging this. Don’t think I don’t know what you were doing by getting Raphael and me in the same room for a considerable amount of time.”

“I have no idea what you’re talking about.” Magnus smiled while playing with his ear cuff.

Alec stopped, pulled Magnus to him with the hand he was holding.  “I love you, thank you for always taking care of me even when I don’t know I need it.” Alec leaned down slightly and kissed Magnus on his nose, smiling at how cold it was. He placed his forehead on Magnus’s and they just breathed into each other.

“Tonight was perfect. Thank you for sharing it with me.”

“I want to share everything with you.”

“And I you cinta.”

Alec backed away and the two started walking again.  As they walked home they saw trees with lights and the menorahs in the windows of apartments above them.  Alec smiled a knowing smile, and he felt like maybe these holidays were something he could start doing, because with Magnus by his side, anything was possible.

Translations:

Nino: child in Spanish

Dios Mio: oh my god in Spanish

Gendhakan: sweetheart in Javanese

Anakku: my child in Javanese

Cinta: love in Indonesian