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These are a few of my favourite things. 🖤 Words. Yes, the alien 👽 is smokin’ a doob. Courtesy of a friend who visited Roswell. Writing. Writing. Writing. #words #poetry #poetrycommunity #poetryofinstagram #poet #poetsofinstagram #instapoetry #poems #poem #writerscommunity #writersofinstagram #lovelylavenderpages #roswell #aliens #galaxygirl #myownworld (at York, Pennsylvania) https://www.instagram.com/p/ByR0LVpHmL6/?igshid=g4lo1ty9xxe1

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Roses 🥀 && how I love them.. like sadness on a summer day. ~SWiest • • • Damage Control 6.28.19 . Your love made it’s way.. . Like an appearance on a stage.. . Not breaking any legs, but breaking the foundation of my entire existence.. . . Everything is Shattered. . “I just want to go home.” • • ~SWiest #lovelylavenderpages (at Broken Hearts) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzTE13JnsQW/?igshid=11pc69xnx7epn

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Don’t tell me I didn’t try when you’re the reason my tears won’t dry. Strength isn’t in numbers, it’s what you hold in 1. You’re the one who reaches for me when you refuse to see what is done. You confuse the issues && mix reality with fantasy. So tell me now what you think will be. ~ SWiest #lovelylavenderpages https://www.instagram.com/p/ByN63MvnMkj/?igshid=1leub7sqcuv5l

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If you catch yourself on shaky ground, jump so your feet land where there supposed to. ~ SWiest ▪ ▪ ▪ #shakyground #jump #land #resilience #lovelylavenderpages #lifequotes #writerscommunity (at Lancaster, Pennsylvania) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn-HbG2D_T6/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=16d6zd953sccz

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🫖 #lovelylavenderpages #poetry #writerslife #poetrycommunity #angel #physics #quantumphysics #lovequotes #lovers #poetic #teatime #home (at Dauphin County, Pennsylvania) https://www.instagram.com/p/CULjtm2ph8v/?utm_medium=tumblr

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6 Years Ago. The inversioned perceptions of multiple realities as the mind expands leaves more and more left behind on understanding. Yes I made that word up to fit the philosophy. #lovelylavenderpages (at Pennsylvania) https://www.instagram.com/p/CSan5ljHG5kpERAZgVspY9R38YgnjbD76dNoaM0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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ⓈⒸⓇⓄⓁⓁ • I’m busy. • #newblogpost #writingagain #scroll #lovelylavenderpages #blog #writersmind #blog #tumblr #bloggerstyle #flowers #flowersofinstagram #writtenpieces (at Wrightsville, Pennsylvania) https://www.instagram.com/p/B9OawiLHXUS/?igshid=w51krpz5nr4f

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New. New. New. • Fear. Loathing fear. • • Fear keeps us breathing stagnant air but sometimes the Universe uses forces that don’t even exist yet [FORCES THAT DON’T EVEN EXIST YET] to drive us forward into our future. It’s crazy; Absolutely insane actually.. Life, this life.. This wild ride.. Angry I get sometimes. Tired. I’m tired. Of dealing, of healing, of processing, of feeling.. Sometimes I am the sail that guides && other times I am the storm. • Everything got tossed up. Everything 180ed out. It’s like a fucking snow globe, upside down, right - left, shaking around all those tiny fragments of whatever.. Can ya relate?? Well imagine that snow globe flying out of the hands that hold it, shattering as it hits the surface to which it lands, sending glass && tiny snow fragments to scatter everywhere, fluid to drain out, a cracked base && even maybe the pretty little world held so safely inside the globe in which it existed gets damaged. No more lying (to the self) No more denying (of the truth) How about more trying (to get through.. life). Picking up the pieces, salvaging what you can. Deciding whether to discard the pieces that no longer fit && keep only what’s worth taking forward or packing them in a bag and carrying them wi.. No. Not to the future. The past can stay the past && I’ve managed to make peace with that. • I’ve recreated damn near everything.. new residence, new car, new friends, new jobs, new boundaries, new freedoms, redirected goals && outlook on wants && desires, a new life path, health routine, a new marital status.. New. New. New. New. New. && it’s bullshit all this work to have done && to keep going, keep pushing, dragging, moving myself forward.. but shit.. this different I feared && disguised as the wrong path for me, this different of taking my hands out of things and ‘let it be’, this new level of open mindedness and healing.. has birthed opportunities needed in order to redefine what love is, && what it’s not; What happiness is, && what it’s not. What truth is, a&& what it’s not. • • #chances #change #challenges #growth #forward #new #beginagain #lifelessons #opportunity #happiness #love #fear #lovelylavenderpages https://www.instagram.com/uncharted_mind_of_madness/p/BxbulQAHw3T/?igshid=s9rycvbb48ct

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📸: @bradley_michael_photography 🏙: #harrisburg • • • • @bradley_michael_photography still coming in strong with these shots! Always good to be back in the "studio" aka workin anywhere with this guy. #teamwork #makesthedreamwork • • • "Nothing I could ever do would be enough to prove this to you, so tell me what am I supposed to do? Tell me who's to blame for such a shame. Since you've come in my life, nothing will be the same. How can I communicate to you, this is not just a game?? Would you step up to your fortune or let it all wash away just to claim your fame?" ~SWiest #lovelylavenderpages ▪ ▪ ▪ #riverbank #frontstreet #pennsylvania #pa #hburg #717 #bnw #blackandwhite #photooftheday #photographers #photography #photo #portraitsofficial #portaitsdaily #portrait #sundown #studio #world #infocusAF #focus #susquehannariver #flowers #flowerstagram #floral #spring #instagoodmyphoto #instamood #potd #poetsofinstagram #poet #poeticsoul #poeticirony #poetry #writerscommunity #writersofig (at Harrisburg, Pennsylvania) https://www.instagram.com/uncharted_mind_of_madness/p/BwhgrA0HWLA/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=rbgx43q26xp2

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Power-flipping-ful! • • • Current Thoughts 🤔: ▪ ▪ ▪ If not now, when? All we have is now. It's a process. I waited for years.. to move, to write, to practice spirituality more often, to have fun, to hike, to do crazy things with my hair, to dance, to create, to learn more about myself, to set myself free. Our only limits are the ones we set for ourselves. Don't trap yourself in a mental prison. You have the keys, all of them; to your own future! • • Cut toxicity: I really got honest with myself and started my own process (painfully slow) in 2015. 1st were some friends; 2nd was the job; 3rd was fear of attention; 4th was what I allowed myself to wear; 5th was my hair; 6th an unreliable vehicle I cherished dearly; 7th my love life (a sabotaged marriage, not by my hands); && I'm sure I will uncover more as I go. ▪ ▪ Love yaself. Be ya friend. Do what makes you happy. Enrich your soul. Set boundaries. Enforce them. This will show you a clearing to whatever path you are seeking! • • Much Love 💕💕 ▪ ▪ Find the link to my blog in my bio && here: My, The Lovely Lavender Pages: Unchartedmindofmadness.tumbler.com/ • • #loveyaself #setfree #awakening #boundaries #lovingkindness #stopwaiting #createthefuture #toxic #betrayal #energy #patience #bebrave #forgivemyself #puzzle #now #thetimeisnow #lovelylavenderpages #inspo #endstigma #hope #mentalillnessblogger #bloggerstyle #nami #mentalhealth #mentalillness #courage #nevergiveup #fightfear #doitafraid #selfcare (at What the Future) https://www.instagram.com/p/BtfTdQUBtv_/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ij7d9ncm2t2l

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So it's no secret I'm a patient. So I was geeking out this morning filling out my paper work for the weekly check-ins. Turns out today was also our monthly patient check-in also and I choked on my laughter. ▪ ▪ Headbanging? Me?! Naaaah. Never. 😂😭 ▪ ▪ My headbanging is intentional, kinda, if the music is good it happens, mine is not a tick. ▪ Before anyone gets up in arms, ya gotta have a humorous side with this when you can, otherwise it can kill you, literally. It's what works for me. If you do have this or any other tick or release, just hold on, it does get better. I have my own faults, I wring my hands still sometimes and I'll spend 12 minutes checking the stove/oven 7 times and the back door thrice. You're not alone. ▪ ▪ ▪ But yeah, headbanging.. naah not me. By the way, the pain in my neck (literal) is NOT associated with the car accident I was in in September per my doctor. ▪ ▪ Hell I laughed at this! @imarockstar922_ @tacoteshia69 @it.s_eden @theguccibrow @laurenplaysbass @damien2223 Totally NOT me 😂😂 ▪ ▪ ▪ #lovelylavenderpages #mentalillness #mentalillnessblog #mentalhealth #nami #checkin #psych #patient #headbanging #faults https://www.instagram.com/p/BtPCg4oBrir/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=k78bpbitl0zq

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An Open Letter: • • I think the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me was "I think what Conor Oberst would say if he was here, is....." Just the way that you opened that conversation to me that day, changed a view point of mine of the world. You are a one of a/'my' kind, a yellow bird for sure. You never shame me for the messes my life can become && are easy to be honest with, even though I know you might want to wring my neck at some of my confessions, you always share warm yellow light. It was the sweetest, probably most creative way that anyone has ever tried to reach through to me, but somehow you always have. I cannot say what the future holds for anyone, but you will always have a piece of my heart for that; to take with you wherever you go && to know that no matter what you will always have someone that can see who you are, even though you try to hide some of it, && still believes in you. "No lies, just love." Thank you for being you; Honest, open && a good listener. Your support && encouragement are always so appreciated && I hope you know the door is always open for the same for you. Thanks for being real. • • • #openletter #warmyellowlight #conoroberst #thoughts #mess #reach #getthrough #mykind #goodlistener #noliesjustlove #thankyou #opendoor #guidance #support #encouragement #lovelylavenderpages (at York, Pennsylvania) https://www.instagram.com/p/BpDhpuyDeIT/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=7180droa7jww

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A page right out of the #lovelylavenderpages !! ▪ ▪ Check out the link in my bio for more like this on my official blog page! ▪ ▪ #page #poet #writerscommunity #writersofinstagram #writer #mymind (at The Minds Journal) https://www.instagram.com/p/BnDZZ9zje2F/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1t62wdiueys4z

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EEEK!! It's finished! Libro numero uno! . . My Mind's Garden . . #lovelylavenderpages #book #bookstagram #poetrycommunity #poetsofinstagram #poet #writing #writer #writerslife #writersofig #blogger #blog (at York, Pennsylvania)

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Okay, so here goes.. #article #1 of The Lovely Lavender Pages! I'm nervous!! #lovelylavenderpages #writersofinstagram #writer #poetry #words #poetsofinstagram