#loved this video can’t wait for A1!!!!!!

[zetareticulanhitchhiker]

[eurydicees]

trick pls!! surprise me with whatever you want!! :)))

iwaoi / a glimpse of what you weren’t there for 

2016: views from an old, familiar place 

Oikawa is coming back to Japan. Just for a week, while the Argentinian Serie A1 league is on a brief break between seasons. Iwaizumi has been looking forward to this trip for months. For years. For a lifetime. He’s always waiting for Oikawa’s homecoming. It never comes soon enough and it never lasts long enough. 

Oikawa has posted a photo of him on his Instagram story, just of him in the Tokyo airport. In the photo, he’s waiting at baggage claim. There’s no caption, nothing to say where he is. But Iwaizumi knows; he recognizes the spot Oikawa is sitting in, the ads on the board by the baggage drop, the first of two bags that Oikawa has already collected. 

Iwaizumi likes the post from where he waits in his car in the pick up/drop off area of the airport, and he waits. Oikawa will be there soon. Soon. Soon. 

2017: views from the sky 

In the post, the sky is a gorgeous light silver mist, and the sea below is a brilliant deep blue, and the wing of the plane is a dusted gray, and the window of the plane frames the photo in a neat oval. It’s a beautiful photo. Oikawa has always cared so much about his Instagram presence, about what he looks like in the photos he posts. He’s not in this one, but Iwaizumi can almost hear his voice complaining about the barest hint of his reflection in the glass of the window. 

In the next photo on the post, Oikawa is off of the plane, taking a mirror selfie in a bathroom in an airport somewhere in Argentina. He holds up two fingers in a peace sign. The phone is covering his face, but Iwaizumi remembers his smile so well. Had it only been a day ago that they had been together for real? It feels like a lifetime past. 

Iwaizumi stares at the photo for a long time. He’s not there. He’s not in Argentina. He’s not going to be in Argentina any time soon. It’s been a year since they’ve seen each other, and they don’t have another reunion planned for any time soon. 

Somehow, he manages to swallow his longing, likes the post, and keeps scrolling. 

(interlude: views from facetime) 

Oikawa is staring at him carefully over the video call, studying him. Iwaizumi has always been an open book under his eyes. 

“If I say I miss you,” Oikawa says tentatively, “would you say it back?” 

Iwaizumi stares at him, disbelieving. How could he not? How could he have ever, in any world, not missed his best friend when he went halfway across the globe? How could he have not missed Tooru Oikawa? 

You made me, he wants to say. I missed you as if you were a part of me. As if I had lost myself. 

He wants to say, You unraveled me when you left and missing you is the worst understatement you could make. 

He says, instead, “I missed you. I miss you. I’m always missing you.” 

“Oh,” Oikawa breathes out. “You really loved me, didn’t you?” 

Iwaizumi shrugs, stiff and uncomfortable. Oikawa is still staring at him, he can feel it, but he refuses to look back. “Yeah. I do.” 

He doesn’t realize he’s used the present tense until Oikawa makes a hitched, breathless noise in the back of his throat, as if he’s about to let out a sob. 

“Iwa,” Oikawa murmurs. “Look at me.” 

Iwaizumi stubbornly keeps staring at the spot on the wall just above his webcam. He doesn’t need to see the pity in Oikawa’s eyes, much less the guilt. And he doesn’t want Oikawa to see the hurt in his own face. 

“Hajime,” Oikawa says, and the name sounds like a prayer on his lips. “I love you too. You know that. You have to know that.” 

“I guess,” Iwaizumi murmurs. 

Oikawa is quiet for a long moment. Slowly, Iwaizumi drops his gaze to look at him. Then, Oikawa murmurs, “That’s not enough, is it? Not with the distance. It’s not enough.” 

He sounds angry, frustrated, tired, hopeless. Iwaizumi wants to take all of that and unspool it, unravel it, pull it out of him and make it go away. But he can’t. 

Oikawa takes a heavy breath. “Okay. I understand, Iwa. I understand.” 

2019: views from the beach 

Matsukawa and Hanamaki are in Argentina. Oikawa has posted a photo of the three of them at the beach, laughing under the light weight of the sunshine. Iwaizumi is not jealous. He’s not. He chose to stay at work for the week that the other two made the trek across the world. He chose this. He knows this. They asked him to join, and he said he couldn’t. He has no right to feel jealous. 

But the sun is caught on Oikawa’s face, hesitating at his lips like even the gorgeous Argentina daylight can’t soak up enough of his smile. And Iwaizumi isn’t there. He remembers what it had felt like to kiss those lips, just once, in the airport before Oikawa’s first departure; the sun had been bright then, too, and Oikawa had been warm in his hands just before slipping away with the ease of the dusk—

2020: views from the podium 

Oikawa’s club team wins the league in 2027, just a year before the next Olympics—their next planned reunion. Oikawa posts a picture of the team, crying and laughing, holding each other. He posts a picture of his latest boyfriend holding up the medal, Oikawa kissing his cheek. Iwaizumi likes the photo, then gets back to work. The Japanese team has to step up their game. That’s all there is to it. He has to work harder. There’s nothing else to do. 

2021: views from the podium, part 2 

Day 12 of the Olympics, Japan versus Argentina. 

The night prior to the game, Oikawa posts an old photo on his Instagram story: Seijoh, circa 2013. Oikawa and Iwaizumi are front and center. Iwaizumi has his arm slung around Oikawa’s shoulder and Oikawa is leaning into his side, beaming. There’s no caption, no reminiscing to be had. Just the photo, speaking for an old memory. 

On the next slide is a long block of text with a photo of the Argentinian national team laughing at practice. It’s probably a speech about this match bringing back memories, probably with something about giving it his all, probably with something about not holding back no matter what his past had been. Iwaizumi can guess all that easily; he still knows Oikawa so well. 

But he doesn’t read it. Right now, he has things to focus on that aren’t the past. He can’t afford to be thinking about memories that can’t be undone. He can’t afford to linger on heartbreak. Not anymore. Today, he doesn’t need any of it. 

[josepheconnell]

#shorts #minecraft #minecraftshorts Minecraft Villagers Favorite Game Revealed!

Discover the surprising game that Minecraft villagers love to play! From hide-and-seek to tag, we’ll uncover their secret pastime. Join us for a fun and informative adventure! #Minecraft #Villagers #Gaming #shorts #minecraft #minecraftshorts Minecraft Villagers’ Favorite Game Revealed! | #shorts #minecraft #minecraftshorts Welcome back to our channel, fellow Minecrafters! In today’s exciting short, we’re diving into the whimsical world of Minecraft to uncover a secret that has puzzled players for ages: What is the favorite game of our beloved villagers? Join us as we explore the charming lives of these pixelated residents and discover their hidden passions! From trading emeralds to farming crops, villagers have a lot going on, but there’s one game that truly captures their hearts. Could it be a thrilling round of hide and seek? Or perhaps a friendly competition in building the best farm? You’ll have to watch to find out! This quick yet captivating video is packed with fun visuals and delightful surprises that will leave you chuckling and wanting more. Whether you’re a seasoned player or just starting your Minecraft journey, this short is sure to entertain and enlighten you about the quirky side of village life! Don’t forget to subscribe for more amazing Minecraft content! Hit that bell icon so you never miss an update from our channel. Join our growing community of Minecraft enthusiasts and be part of the adventure! Subscribe here: [https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCde68JxF6O9SG00Ll3IE6vg?sub_confirmation=1](https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCde68JxF6O9SG00Ll3IE6vg?sub_confirmation=1) So grab your pickaxe, gather your friends, and let’s embark on this fun-filled journey together! We can’t wait to see what you think about the villagers’ favorite game. Leave your thoughts in the comments below, and let’s chat about all things Minecraft! Happy crafting! #Minecraft #MinecraftShorts #GamingFun #VillagerSecrets #SubscribeNow #abc123 https://gabbyandmercy.wordpress.com/2024/09/18/shorts-minecraft-minecraftshorts-%f0%9f%8e%ae-minecraft-villagers-favorite-game-revealed-%f0%9f%8f%a1/

[dendrite-blues]

Thanks to @jivewise for tagging me!

Rules: Tag 9 people you want to know better.

Three Ships: You can see my main ships pretty clearly on the blog, so how about something less common knowledge. ;p

AniObiDala, the Prequel Trash specialty! Bonus points if it’s an Empire Wins AU and Obi and Padme are Anakin’s consorts trying to pull him back from the dark side. Yeeeeep gimme the angst! Gimme the pain! I’m here for it.

Leon/Cloud, Kingdom Hearts 💕 This one goes all the way back to middle school for me, but I’ll always have fond memories of it. If anyone else remembers the fic One for the Band I will scream.

Tamaki/Kyouya from Ouran High School Host Club. Does anyone even talk about Host Club anymore? Ah well, this was my OTP for several years! It was my first real angst ship too, with the family pressures on them to get married and the common plot line of Kyouya pushing Tamaki to date Haruhi even though he’s desperately in love with Tamaki. Mmmm delicious. It gave me a taste for tragedy and hidden feelings that still manifests in my stories to this day! (And it was actually the first fic I ever wrote!)

Last song: Twisted by Missio, the ultimate Loki song. oh but Killer Queen just come on! 🥰

Last movie: you know, I actually had to think really hard about this? Usually my wife just puts things on and I either get sucked in or I play mobile games. What was the last movie I actively watched? Hrm… I think it was The Last Blockbuster, embarrassingly enough lol. It’s a really dated, cheesy documentary about the last Blockbuster in the world and their struggle to keep the doors open to a totally obsolete video rental business.

Currently reading: The Origins of Creativity by Edwardo O. Wilson. It’s a book by a bioilogist examining the history of human creativity through the lens of anthropology and the humanities. It sounds complicated but it’s written really well, really simple language and evocative metaphors to help non-scientists like me follow along. I’m enjoying it a lot!

Currently watching: What If, obviously haha. Can’t wait for this week’s A1 episode, and SO MUCH TONY to look forward to! Omg. Ecstatic. Other than that, the ongoing Jeopardy meltdown is highly entertaining. If we don’t get Lavar Burton as a permanent host, we riot! The vox “Explained” series is also a family favorite, although some episodes can trigger that pesky existential dread if you’re not careful.

Can you tell I really like nonfiction? 😅 All my answers so far are documentaries or nonfiction haha

Currently consuming: This really amazing apple honey bundt cake my wife made. It’s amazing!

Currently craving: more cake! seriously I can’t stop eating it, this is my third slice today!

@work-your-loki @ghost-bat-annon @heisconfusedaf @spectroscopes @variantoutcast @wandaloki @janetleako @simuran @bifrostiron

[gojosgoddess]

Carpet Burn

Pairing: Jonathan Lyndale “DaBaby” Kirk x Black! Thicc reader

A/N: Hello again guys!! I wanted to kind of make a continuation to Finally but you don’t�� have to read it before reading this one. I was re-watching his music videos and remembered how funny Carpet Burn was so I imagined if the girl in the video was his girl AKA you. Enjoy my gorgeous sister.

Warnings: NSFW (18+), Smut, Thick Reader, Regular Nasty Nasty, unprotected sex (Don’t be silly, wrap that willy)

Jon was crazy. You were a 100% certain that Jon was insane. But damn you love this fool. Here you were in a sexy black teddy, putting on your makeup and waiting for Jon to tell you that you were about to start filming.

You see, Jon thought up this brilliant idea to recreate the whole Cam Coldheart situation. He sat you down and explained the entire video which made you two crack up laughing to the point where your stomach hurt. And his bright idea? Add his gorgeous fiancé in the video.

You were going to film the backyard scene first where you’d basically be frolicking and rubbing up on each other, while you wore a sexy black bikini and he wore his overalls.  

Your thoughts were interrupted when a knock came at the door and your man poked his head through the door with a grin on his face.

“Hey Babygirl.” He said in his deep, low voice making you smile at him. “Hi Baby.” You responded as he walked further into the room and closed the door. He dramatically leaned against the door and licked his lips while looking over your figure.

“Where your fine ass think you goin’? Looking like a full course meal, just waiting to devoured?!” He said before rushing towards you and playfully nibbling on your neck, causing you to giggle and lean into him.

“Baby come on now, you wanted me to look nice for your video so I just did what Daddy told me to do.” You said sweetly. He stopped nibbling to slowly look into your eyes. “Don’t you be starting something, you can’t finish. I will tear this ass up. Right now. Don’t play me.” He growled, holding you tighter and grinding his seemingly hard dick into your core making you bite his lip and purr.

“YO!! Y/N! JON! Come on out y’all, we ready to film!!” We heard Reel yell out. Jon completely ignored him and started sucking on your neck making you arch your back as he got to your spot that made your toes curl. You tapped his shoulder making him look up at you.

“Baby, we need to go film your music video for your song about the time we fucked on the floor in the living room cause we couldn’t make it to the bedroom.” You said, lightly tracing his lips. He groaned out loud, rolling his eyes and bit his lip.

“Aight Mama, but Imma get in that ass as soon as the shoot is over.” He smacked your ass before walking out, leaving you in shock. He laughed at your shocked face. “Come on my Nubian queen.” He walked out and you shook your head, following him.

“I’m gone make this hell for him.” You thought and smirked to yourself. 

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To say Jon was horny and pissed, was a complete understatement. When he said he was going to tear your ass up, he was going to. Tear. Your. Ass. Up.

You were constantly rubbing on his dick, grinding up on him, even twerked on him once during the pool chair scene which made him had to call cut and go to the bathroom for a few minutes. You smiled as your plan to get dick was coming together.

We were now filming the final scene where we were laid up on the carpet with a blanket draped over us. You had changed into a little black teddy that accentuated your curves to the point where you looked like race car track.

 “Yessss sir.” He acted while you were rubbing on his chest as he smoked a blunt. “Oh no Daddy, I think you gave me carpet burn.” You said with a pout as he smiled at you. “Cause I was dropping it off. Dropping it off. Like uh, uh,uh.” He laughed while thrusting his hips up making you immediately look at crotch and bite your lip at the dick print that was showing through the blanket.

Reel called cut and Jon changed into that fat suit for the next scene where he played Cam Coldheart, making you giggle at him while he did wild ass poses to make you laugh. “This boy a fool.” You thought fondly to yourself.

As soon as the shoot was over, everyone clapped while you smoothed over the sheets as you were still on the floor. Jon ripped off the wig and took off the fat suit and ordered everybody to get the hell out of the house. As soon as everyone was out, he locked the door and practically flew to you.

“So you thought you was cute, huh? Teasing me with that big ass, rubbing your titties all on me…you must not want to walk tomorrow huh?” He asked, pulling your hair so you looked up at him, “Babygirl, you better answer me.” He said sternly.

“Yes Daddy!” You moaned out. He smiled and released your hair before laying down next to you and spreading out his legs. “Well you gone get what you wanted baby, but you gone work for it first.” He said gesturing down to his dick. You smiled excitedly before moving down and releasing his dick from his briefs.

You always got excited about giving Jon head. His dick was long, thick yet just the right size for you. You swirled your tongue on his head making him suck in a breath before you slid him deep down your throat. “Oh, goddamn girl, you tryna snatch my soul.” He said in a strained voice while you looked up at him sexily. You loved the fact that he was so vocal during sex, there wasn’t anything sexier than a man who wasn’t afraid of moaning and groaning in your ear.

You hollowed out your cheeks and sucked him deeper and jerking what couldn’t fit in your mouth. He groaned out loud and tucked your hair behind your ear so he could see you take his dick in your mouth. “Yeah Babygirl, take Daddy’s dick in that throat.” He growled making a waterfall appear in your teddy. You deepthroated him and while still maintaining the suction force causing his eyes to damn near roll his eyes into his head.

You continued your motion, going deeper and sucking harder till he pulled your mouth off him. “Baby I’m finna cum if you keep on throating my dick like that. I want to cum in that pussy now lay your ass down.” He said in a deep breath. You smirked to yourself, proud about your head skills while he muttered to himself. “Damn girl tryna suck the soul out my dick.” You both laughed at him before he brought you into a passionate kiss and laying you down.

He got on top of you, never breaking the kiss while unclipping the top of your teddy and sliding down the straps before pulling the rest of it down your body. Your legs slipped out of the leg holes while he bit your bottom lip and sucked it into his mouth.

His sensual kisses moved down from your lips, to your neck where he marked your neck with hickies and nicked at the skin with little bites, making you quickly jump and him chuckle on your skin. He caressed your breasts while littering them also with hickies and sucking on your nipples with a hungry vigour. You moaned as he basically french kissed your nipples with his sexy lips. The list of sinful things this man could do with his mouth is endless.

His mouth travelled lower as he peppered kisses all over your soft tummy while lovingly rubbing on your rolls that he made sure to adore, appreciate and love every single time you two were together. He then licked a trail from your bellybutton to your navel before picking up your glorious thighs and placing them up on his shoulder. He looked you straight in your eye with lust before sucking your clit into his mouth and swirling his tongue. This man really tryna take your soul now.

It was your turn for your eyes to roll to the back of your head as he licked and sucked on your clit while fingering you. This man had your back arched as if you were possessed and all this time, he kept his eyes on you, watching your reaction and smirking every time you let out a scream of pleasure. At this point, your G-spot became a rest spot for the tips of his two fingers. At this point the pleasure was starting to override you and your body started to shake as your orgasm was fast approaching. Suddenly, he tore his lips and fingers from you before licking his lips and fingers.

“Goddamn girl, you taste good. You got that sweet gushy gushy for Daddy.” He said before laying on top of you. “I want you to cum on this dick.” He said before kissing you and wrapping your thick thighs around his waist. Though mad as hell that your orgasm was taken away from you, you kissed him back passionately and wrapped your arms around his back.

He tore away from your lips and looked you in your eyes before slowly slidinghis dick in your pussy making you close your eyes and sigh in relief.

“Ooh shit Daddy.” “Damn.” You both said in each other’s face. You smiled at him before he put his hand on your throat and squeezed while he started dishing out delicious thrusts. Your moans were cut short when he kissed you again. You moaned into his mouth as he grunted in yours. Your booty was rubbing against the carpet which would’ve made you stop but just like the first time, the dick was too A1 and perfect for you to ask him to stop.

He tore his lips away from yours to lean up and start delivering fast yet deep strokes. He tightened his hold on your neck as you tightened your grip on his dick. Your eyes went cross eyed and your toes curled as your first orgasm came and your practically exploded on his dick. You started to shake as he continued to give light thrusts to ride you through your orgasm. He waited for you to calm down before he pulled out and tapped his dick on your clit to make your body shake like you got electrocuted.

“Oh, I ain’t done with that ass Baby, come on now, face down, ass up.” He said licking his lips. You were still sensitive but you turned over and assumed the position. He got behind you and rubbed your ass.

“Hmm, the pussy good it had me stalking her.” He sang a lyric from his song before thrusting deep inside again. He propped his one leg up in a crunch position and started destroying that pussy. He pulled your hand with one hand and delivered harsh smacks to your ass adding on to the sensation.

“You gone tease me like that huh?! You gone shove that ass in my face with all those people staring?! You gone give Daddy his pussy like he deserves?!?” He asked, not once stopping his thrusts. Your eyes rolled over in your head as your head as practically shoved into the carpet. He grew angry and grabbed your hair and pulled you up towards him. “You gone fucking answer my questions!”

“Yes, yes, yes Daddy!!!” You yelled as you utterly felt your guts being arranged and your knees getting some carpet burn. “Ooh Daddy don’t stop!!” You moaned as your eyes crossed again and you felt that familiar tug at in your stomach. He released your hair and softly laid your upper body on the ground before he roughly took your wrists in his hands and thrusted even harder.

“Cum on this dick again Babygirl!! Drench my shit baby. Make a waterfall on this dick.” He said lowly knowing what his voice can do to you. And that seemed to the last straw as he gave one last hard thrust and both your bodies shook as you came.

“Oh Daddy!! Oh, right there, right there!! Daddy I’m cumming!!!” “Back that ass up on me ma, I’m finna cum right. Fucking. Now. Shittt!!! Babygirl!!!” You both said to each other as he filled you up and you drenched his lower abdomen and thighs.

He slipped out of you before he laid down next to you and laid you on his chest.

“I can’t believe I let your PT cruiser head ass give me carpet burn again.” You said breathily in shock. You laughed at his face as he looked at you shocked and tried to hide his laughter. “Babygirl…fuck you.” He said before laughing and playfully biting your round cheek. You laughed again before staring at his gorgeous face and lightly touching his adorable dimples.

“I love you Baby.” You said smiling at him. He softly pecked your lips. “I love you too Mama, more than you gone ever know.”

“Now lemme pick your thick ass up and get up out of this white people’s house ‘fore they come back.” He said making you both laugh.

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A/N: Hope you gorgeous goddesses like this one, I just had to do this because this man and his songs do something to me sometimes. Again, my ask box is open whether you want to talk about something or request something, as well as my messages. See y’all later and please stay safe my loves.

~Natascha

[chirpycreations]

#Memento Mori

So, I guess this is my story. I wanted to write this during the stream but my dyslexia forbays me from being able to write and listen to two completely unrealed things at the same time, and I couldn't bring myself to pull away, so here it is, nice and late ^^;

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Well, I was late to the party like most things in my life. I found the channel at 16 days to go thanks to MatPatt's theory.  I haven't watched all 369 videos. My last count put me at 100 and something, maybe 150 ish. I did concider pulling an allnighter the night before to watch all of the remaining ones but I chose against it in the end. I'm happy with the memories I have and not seeing all the videos, because those videos I did watch I'll treasure forever; bing watching them while despritly trying to finish my Level 3 Design board for school. 

Working away on Clipstudio paint, and in the corner of my eye laughing, crying, rolling my eyes at the chaios that was unfolding while my wrist screamed at me, my head hurt....I was so sure I was going to burn out again like the two years prior and not manged to finish, but you're videos gave me the strength to do the impossible.  If you guys could make over 365 videos in a year, I could finish x2 A1 pannels worth of art and...I did. To a good standard too. I won my schools Top Visual Artist award yesterday at prize giving and top of my Design class.

At first I saw the channel as nothing more than a bit of shit posting, so I wasn't too bothered. A bit of random nonses (It took me soooo long to convince my self to watch cooking with Sex toys, but it was one of the greatest laughs of my month if not longer). The last few months have been hard on me, my family have been waiting 4 and half years to get NZ residency and missing all the Uni application dates and schollarships has had me quite down the last few months listening to everyone around talking about there future plans while I can't progress with mine, because my GOD have you seen international fees???Anyway, your shit posts really helped bring a smile to my face while I was struggling, especailly the halloween stuff: I loved the edward sissors hands, it was the first one I watched and I still love it- so plan and utterly dumb. I'm doing better now. It's still hard, but I really think your videos have have helped me so much. 

 I think the video which hit hardest for me and acutally helped me to really understand what the channel was about was the hypnotist one with the lemon.  What the lady said to both of you really, really hit home hard for me- I'd be lying if I said I didn't cry my eyes out. 

Ethan, your story hit home for me because I also went through that as a kid. I was bullied so badly as a kid. Told I was nothing, would be nothing- I have dsylexia too, and I stunk in school for the longest time; bottom of every class, made to take lessons to learn how to put a wooden alphabet together forward and backwards in YEAR 6 (I was 12 and could do so just fine, but the teachers obviously didn't think so). I've been reserved, shy, had the most crippling self of steem issuse for all my life and only in the last few years since moving to NZ I've started to recover and regain some of that confidence I lost; had broken.  

"If there was a little girl inside who hurt, who had a discomfort, imagine sitting next to that younger version of you that was in pain or hurt and let her know that she's safe. That little girl looks up to you, trusting you to keep her safe: You're safe." -Unus Annus, 294:11:34:20

It really hit me so hard because I needed someone to tell me this as a kid, hold me close, tell me everything would be ok when I thought my world was crashing down and listing to these words I saw my current self giving back what she needed. And now when I'm scard, doubting myself I see her, I see both of them, current me and past me holding hands and me giving her the support she needs. I have a illustration I made on my desk with the quote, as a reminder when times get tought and that little girl forgetts she's not alone anymore.

Mark, your story also hit home with me too.  Like I mentioned, I have dyslexia and for me english -mostly writting- has always been a major problem which had held me back, like a brick chained to my leg and I have to hike up this moutain with it. I still remember disnictly this one time in science I lost out on a high mark because I couldn't spell auoghaous (oesophagus- still can't XD) and my teacher wouldn't believe that was what I had tried to write. I was so bitter about that for the longest time, I still am, 6 years on and still remeber it like yesterday. Anyway, the reason your story hit home is because it reminded me of my old english teacher and what she did to me. Made me into the person I am now. I was in Year 8 (14 years old) and at a parents meeting infront of my dad she said, "you're daughter will never ger higher than a 5- in english. This crushed me so much, because a -5 is avarage for a Year 6 and at this level I should have been getting 5+/6 (like everyone else in my class) - fucking dyslexia. It's like a brick wall of titainium when you're a kid.  

I don't know what happened but something in me snapped and I was determained to prove her wrong. I had that teacher for 2 years before I left to NZ (from the UK) and never ONCE did she give me a mark higher than 5- (mostly because the Brittish system require good spelling to reacher 5, something which again, my dyslexia was against and at the time computers weren't a thing in my school as a resorse for dyslexic kids like myself). It sucked, but I kept trying to prove her wrong. I studied, practiced, revised hard and then in my last exam, an external she didn't mark I got a 7+ for reading and 7- for writting with an 8+ being the highest. I proved her wrong.  I proved a lot of people wrong. I kept working hard and now I'm near the top of every class I take. You're story reminded me of myself and why I keep pushing myself. Why I continue to drive to achieve the best I can. Be the best person I can. 

I know this is long, so before I wrap up I wanted to say thank you. You're channel has not only helped some of my old traumas heal, but I also have a much greater appreciation for life which I guess is crazy concidering I was only apart of it for 16 days, but...it really has made an impact to me. I don't think I ever relised how valuble life is. How important every second is. Death and moving on has always scared me. Moving to NZ and leaving everything I knew and had behind has been one of my biggest trumas for the last 4 years, learning to let go and move on- I use to hate change- ,but now I think I can accept it and move on. I've just finished my last year of high school, I have to make this drastic change in mylife again, moving on, going to uni one day, but I'm ready for it. "Death gives life meaning"; the end, moving on, give the past meaning and means being able to except and be ready to imbrase the future that's coming. Whether in the next few seconds, minutes, hours, weeks, months years... I really do feel better prepared for it. 

I hate the end, I've been writting a story now for 3 years and I've been scared of how to end it, I've been avoiding it because I love the characters. I don't want them to go, to end, but now. I think I'm willing to acept the fact that maybe it's time I let them go. Write them the end they deserve and move on. Nothing last forever, all great story are great because like the channel it's the ending which gives them meaning. 

So...thank you guys, Mark, Ethan, everyone behind the camera. You're work has really made a possitive impact in my life, escpecally the hynpotist video, so thank you. I'm going to start treasuring every second, making every millifractal of a second count. I've been torn for the longest time between a stable career in science, or a dream career in art. And I'm gonna go for it. I'll take the risk, the gamble, shoot for the stars and if I miss I miss. Atleast I can say I tried to do what made me happy and when I do succed it'll be even more rewarding to know I did the impossible. So thank you, I'll treasure every memory and the page of quote I have from todays live stream. 

 “Every second is a chance to turn your life around." 

"When you get those ideas in your head say YES! You never know how you're going to suprise yourself."

"Death gives life meaning."

"Don't cry because its over, cry because it happened."

"Don't take any second for granted, don't waist any moment."

"It's easy to live life in wants and desires, but it's making every second count that matters. Do what makes you happy, use every second wisely, you'll never get that time back."

And my own personal quote, because I want to give back the wisdom you've shared with my own: 

"Memento Mori - Remeber death. Embrace it, don't fear it. Live life to it's fullest and take every opportunity that comes your way, because death is a promise, not a bargain. Life the life you want, so you can move on without regret. "

"Life tough and scary, 2020 for sure, but regardless I smile. Laugh in fears face, it happens. Laugh at the problems in life, they happen. Laugh at how close life comes to and continues to fail at killing you. Fill every moment with joy and positivity; we all need more of it in life."

"Bad days are like cloudy skies, they come and go. The weather can get stormy, but the sky will always clear eventually, the sun will shine again."

[laserdog10]

Personal Questionnaire

So before y’all read this, it’s a little something from Deviantart that @carlottastudios made after a friend tagged her with a set of questions, now I’m answering her set of questions after she tagged me! This is just a personal I thought’d answer hear since idk how to use DA well at all yet, but without further ado time for questions!

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Q1: How is your day going? A1: Very chill, wanted to write today but I got too caught up playing video games since this morning.

Q2: If your eyes could look however you wanted them to, what would they look? I’m not just talking eye color, I’m also talking sclera color, pupil size, eye shape and size, and even number of your eyes. A2: Tough one...if I had to, I’d choose between either teal eyes with a slit, red pupil so I can look like some Aztec demigod, or black sclera with red eyes and slit pupil, that way when I look at people when I’m pissed off, that’s their first warning to “Run the other fucking direction or I’ll bury you six feet under...”

Q3: If you could choose to be hugged by a giant fluffy sabretooth tiger or by 50 kittens, which would you choose? A3: Why...why would you put this, this impossible to choose from, BOTH ARE AMAZING SUGGESTIONS!!! IT’S ONE GIANT FLUFFY BABY VERSUS MANY SMALL FLUFFY BABIES! Uuuuugh, fine, I’d have to go with 50 kittens, I’d give the other option to one of my OCs since her boyfriend can turn into a sabertooth tiger.

Q4: How many OCs do you have? And I mean OCs as in you’ve made for certain franchises, not completely original characters whose stories take place in an original world of your making. I mean OCs for, say, shows like Storm Hawks or Voltron or RWBY or book series like Wings of Fire or Harry Potter and so on. How many OCs like that do you have? A4: Thank for specifying else this post would’ve been so much effing longer than it should have. So, for RWBY I have 36 OCs as in RWBabies, as in completely original OCs I wanna say that’s an additional 15-30 I think? For Voltron I have 5 Palakids, 5 antagonist OCs, and 1 more OC. I actually forgot how many OCs I had for my book series I love, but we’ll say it was a lot!

Q5: Who is your favorite official Disney Princess? A5: A bit of a tie between Rapunzel from Tangled, Tiana from Princess and the Frog, and Merida from Brave. Rapunzel for her journey of discovering herself and the outside world, Tiana for her overall personality, and Merida for being an funny badass angry Scottish girl breaking the norm of all Princess’ have a “Prince Charming” to save them.

Q6: Who is your favorite unofficial Disney Princess? I mean female Disney characters like Meg or Esmerelda who aren’t official Disney princesses but should be. A6: I liked Frozen when it came out and I just learned that Anna and Elsa are NOT official Disney princesses. I like Elsa since she’s a badass queen with ice magic and Anna because she’s an entire dork with half a brain cell but a heart of gold.

Q7: Do you know any 2D animated movies that are very similar to Disney but aren’t actually Disney? A7: Prince of Egypt and Sinbad: Legend of the Seven Seas definitely come to mind!!!

Q8: Out of the movies you named in the last question, which would you say is your favorite? A8: Sinbad, hands down. Name one badass that went through hell on the open seas with his crew of badass morons, a girl who could kick everyone’s asses, and dog underrated in media to this day, I’ll wait.

Q9: Do you have any crossover ships? A9: Not really but Jack Frost x Elsa seems very fuckin’ cute and I would ship it harder if they interacted!

Q10: Do you have any OC x Canon ships? If so, PLEASE TELL ME NOW! SHARE THE OC X CANON GOODNESS! A10: Cinder Fall x Vlad Caliban. Where do I even begin with them? That I like the idea of someone as cruel as Cinder mellowing out thanks to a man who’s been through a similar hell as her, and they’re trying to fill in the broken pieces of their soul? That I think Cinder deserves to be redeemed and I made an OC that hopelessly hopes to help her and gives her a reason to turn her life around? That I love the dynamic of this gorgeous woman being married to guy who looks like he’s edgier than a razor blade but is actually softer than any known Egyptian cotton and sweeter than a cinnamon roll? I’d go on but you get the picture!

Q11: This is a rather deep question, so I’m sorry if this makes you uncomfortable; have you ever gone to see a therapist or psychiatrist? A11: No, surprisingly enough! I don’t think I have any major issues that need to be sorted out, and I’ve made peace with the minor issues and demons in me, but I wouldn’t mind seeing one if that makes sense?

Q12: What did you have for breakfast this morning? A12: French Toast Sticks!!! X3

Q13: Do you have any ideas for completely original content? Like do you have any ideas for a book series or a video game franchise or a movie or a comic or whatever? A13: My dude, my gal, my buddy, my friend, my home slice, bread slice, buddy chum chum pal amigo, DAWG...you have no idea how goddamn DEEP this question goes. I’ve had several ideas since middle school, several entire WORLDS of OCs with lore, creatures, magic and superpowers, and of course pairings, the whole motherfucking sha-BANG. Since I don’t have to go into mega details for this, I’ll just name all the worlds I have and talk about them some other time:

My Cyber Life

The Underscream City

Poison City

Life of a Shinigami

Land of the Ruin

Crown of Thorns

Code of Vampyrism

These may never see the light of day or be drawn about since I can’t draw for shit lol, but I’ll be glad to talk about these whenever anyone would like to.

Aaaaaand that concludes the questionnaire! Thank you all so much for reading and thank you Carlotta for sending it to me (albeit on a different web platform)!

[crimsoncityhq]

The night has been advertised by multiple commercials in the civilian’s homes, and even dead bodies littered on some residence lawns. It’s dusk on a Thursday in February. The gates to the Fire and Ice Festival are lowered after hours of waiting in the biting Chicago tundra, and the crowd, over 4,000 strong, rushes in. Most are expecting a night of drunken freedom, cozied up by the outdoor heaters that promise a warm welcome, but some foresee the chaos bound to erupt across the lawn.

The first act takes the stage, and anyone who isn’t inebriated, courtesy of the open bar, is perceptive enough to realize that, no, that’s not Kanye West. Instead they are mesmerized by the lyrical lip syncher Dante Yeast—he looks enough like him, it’s better not to question it. One would think that the O’Sheas, Vasiles, and the Fausts all gathered in one spot would spell disaster, yet the evening rolls on without a hitch, despite the tensions slowly building in its periphery. Fausts members, too, are scattered across the ocean of bodies, but some faces are missing, figureheads who pull the strings.

 Maybe they’re absorbed by the crowd; maybe they thought better of attending, but there’s a sense of unease that settles in the air. It’s not quite right, but no one can put a finger on why. Another beer, and the thought is lost is the swell of the music—if they didn’t know any better, they’d think the bass replicates the sound of distant explosions.

You’re free to start plotting. You can start posting starters/threads tomorrow, February 20th, 2020 at 7:30PM CST !  Part II coming February 24th ( Plot Slots can be found below the cut ! )

We’re going to allow each person to choose two plot slots for two characters max .If there are any leftovers, we’ll let members know when they can sign up for thirds.

You’ll notice that some of these plots are public, so feel free to have your character react to them/ notice them even if they aren’t happening directly to your character. However, if something feels like it happened privately to another character, please check in with their Mun to see if it’s okay for your character to know.

To be clear: these are not the only things that happen to your character during this plot drop and you are more than welcome to cook up your own trouble.

To sign up for a plot slot message the main! You can start doing that as soon as right now!

CHARACTER A, CHARACTER B, CHARACTER C, are approached by the venue to play as impersonators for the opening act of the show. However, it turns out…they are the show along with other noteworthy impersonators. 

CHARACTER D & CHARACTER E end up camped out at the ticket box office on the other side of the lawn seats. They want a refund for the musical event after their cards were erroneously charged the next day on ADAM & EVE. Much to their surprise they come face to face with CHARACTER F( Faust ).

AUTUMN DAWSON is shitfaced prior to arriving at the music festival. They try to crowd surf before the opening act, and would get immediately dropped if NATHAN BURR didn’t catch their fall. 

CHARACTER I & CHARACTER J purchased tickets to meet the bands backstage. They are led by the security detail of the event to two tents filled with a scent of gunpowder. Upon further inspection, they find a crate of fireworks. Do what you will.

CHARACTER K jumps on stage to hijack the mic and accidentally falls and breaks their ankle.

CHARACTER L & CHARACTER M are dosed with PCP by a stranger serving up “free” cocktails. Everything is a blur and they both snap back to reality an hour later, but they’re in the middle of an intense fist fight.

EFFIE FAUST & CHARACTER O engage in a mud wrestling contest that is being judged by no one whatsoever. 

CHARACTER P & CHARACTER Q make out in a port-o-potty, but realize shortly after they’re locked inside. It’s up to CHARACTER R to either let them out...or tip them over.

CHARACTER S is mistaken as Pat Benatar. ASLI DEMIR drunkenly convinces them to go on stage to sing LOVE IS A BATTLEFIELD.

 CHARACTER U & CHARACTER V go hard on the alcoholic beverages & psychedelic treats  at the start of the festival, by the end of it neither of them know where their shoes or wallets are. 

CHARACTER W finds their soulmate in a drunken stupor and grinds on them for the better half of two hours, only to realize the grindee is ZHI ROU, who has been uncomfortably shifting away from them this entire time. 

CHARACTER Y breaks all of their glow sticks and covers themselves in the liquid. It’s all fun and games until that shit starts to burn. CHARACTER Z does their best to quench CHARACTER Y with every bottled water they can find.

 CHARACTER A1, CHARACTER B1, & CHARACTER C1 are hired security guards for the event. They have no clue who hired them to do it. 

INGRID VASILE  starts to overdose on COCAINE. LEV VASILE notices their struggle and assists them to the med tent. DOMINIC MURPHY is around the med tent and notices the commotion. 

 CHARACTER  F1 tries to charge their phone using the musical equipment & gets electrocuted. Also it starts to play the most recent song listened to on their phone which is SONG OF THEIR CHOICE. 

GRIFFIN DYER is held up at security when they try to enter the venue, because they tried to smuggle in a small animal. CHARACTER H1 isn’t really security and jacks the animal instead.

SERENITY MICHAELS starts to question their sanity when they see a small animal run in circles in front of them and jet off towards the direction of the port-o-potty. 

RACHEL BYRNE feels something small and furry scaling the back of their dress, and, assuming it’s someone’s hand, slaps DAHLIA CAVALLI in the mouth before the small animal scurries away and they have to apologize.

CHARACTER L1 chases the small animal and just when they are sure they’ve caught it, the animal bites them on the neck. CHARACTER M1, who is higher than a motherfucker and hallucinating, sees CHARACTER L1 cradling their neck and automatically assumes a vampiric transformation is happening. CHARACTER L1 has to survive the following attack from a stranger with a pocket knife.

CHARACTER N1 is on their fifth drink at the venue. They hear a loud slurping noise, only to find the small animal lapping their beer in hand. Out of surprise they scream which causes the animal to shit on their hand and run away. CHARACTER O1 looks on in amazement, wonder, and terror as CHARACTER N1 wipes their hand on an unknowing CHARACTER P1. CHARACTER O1 is conflicted if they should say anything but takes a Snapchat video of the whole scenario anyway. It goes viral on Tik Tok the following evening.

The small animal finally gets caught by SANTIAGO PEREZ in a battle that lasts 10 minutes. The small animal is then given to CHARACTER R1 whom they assume is the owner. 

CHARACTER S1 is lost to the world, and passes out directly in front of CHARACTER T1 that had just spent twenty minutes in line for a cup of water. The cup of water is spilled on top of CHARACTER S1.

NAOMI WASHINGTON & CHARACTER V1 become instant buddies when they chant to the sound of “SHOTS” around the crowd. IRINA KOSHKIN takes this literally and pulls out their gun ready to fire. 

CHARACTER X1, CHARACTER Y1, CHARACTER Z1 all show up to the venue wearing the same exact outfit. You have declared them your number 1 enemy for the entirety of the music festival. 

CHARACTER A2 is high as fuck and thinks they’re making a flower crown for CHARACTER B2…..except it’s a crown of shrooms instead. CHARACTER B2 wears the crown, but has to swat CHARACTER C2 away who keeps trying to eat them. 

CHARACTER D2, CHARACTER E2, CHARACTER F2 suffer from dehydration. They try to find help at the med tent, but they can’t find where it is. 

ROSA LEON gets handsy with the bartender at the open bar and leads them away for a quick fuck, allowing RYAN HAYES and CHARACTER I2 to raid the bar freely.

 CHARACTER J2 is the aforementioned bartender and realizes a moment too late their station is being cleared out. Instead of returning to their position, they throw on some neon bracelets and join the party.

 CHARACTER K2 is doing some sick backflips in the middle of the crowd and are called out by the currently performing act mid-set for drawing attention away from the stage. CHARACTER K2 does another backflip to retaliate, but accidentally kicks CHARACTER L2 in the face.

JESSE VALENCIA hijacks a ELECTRIC BLUE STRATOCASTER from the backstage, and they are not caught. 

DAVUT DEMIR feels like they’re being watched and finds a silhouette with a rifle narrowed in on them perched upon a nearby building. They quickly retreat to find OPHELIA O’SHEA and P2 and warn them about the occurrence, who realize there are multiple snipers surrounding the pavilion. 

CHARACTER Q2 swears they heard a sound of explosions over the music, being in front nearest to the stage. They grab the microphone and scream, “WE’RE ALL GONNA DIE.” CHARACTER R2 & CHARACTER S2 start to openly panic. 

CHARACTER T2 (O’Shea) gets into a physical altercation with CHARACTER U2 (Vasile). They don’t stop until one or the other is knocked unconscious. 

ANDREA REED & BIRDIE MENDOZA try to leave the event, but notice that they’re trapped in the auditorium. CHARACTER X2 makes it to their vehicle, but is stuck in place by the surrounding vehicles around them. Unable to escape fully, they return back to the venue. 

CHARACTER Y2 hates their life at this music venue, because they’re stuck behind a rather sweaty individual. Their sweat keeps hitting them in the face, and at one point, they catch it in their mouth. It incites a ferocious bout of vomiting, and CHARACTER Z2 is trying to help, thinking they’ve been drugged, but CHARACTER Y2 can’t even explain what it is that made them sick.

 TATIANA BLANTER is hit with a spare bullet, but no one is able to find where the source is. As no one around seems to have their gun out. CHARACTER B3 conceals their weapon perfectly. 

 NOVA DEVERAUX suffers a panic attack due to the crowd gathered, and clings onto CLARA DAVILLA who is unable to get them to the med tent.

 CHARACTER E3 feels something warm splash on their face. They are unsure if it’s warm beer or urine. They’re pretty sure it’s warm beer, but remain conflicted the rest of the festival. CHARACTER F3 offers the shirt off their back for CHARACTER E3 to wipe the liquid off their face. 

 CHARACTER G3 is doing photography for the event, but realizes midway through the show that the performers aren’t who they say they are. They spot a face they know to be Faust affiliated in the crowd and scurry off toward the exit, only to be stopped by CHARACTER H3 (Faust) at the door.

MILES ST CLARE is the first to notice the lack of Fausts at the start of the music venue. They make their way to the police station in hopes of figuring it out, but instead they encounter burning police cars and chaos.

[svtntntn]

hi secret carat anon again! what’s your favorite song off henggarae👀 also do you have a main bias in the group or lots of biases/bias wreckers? what are some of ur favorite moments either of individuals or the whole groups? sorry if overloading on questions lol. also I can’t wait to dive into some of ur fics!!

HI HIIIIII!! how are you doing, secret friend!! I hope all is well with you:’)

my fav track off henggarae is fearless!! liKE the whole stage performance, the choreo, the lyrics back to “fear,” eVERYTHING about it makes me wanna scream I swear on gOD but a close second is together (it fr sounds like another anime theme song haha)

my main bias is the one and only lee seokmin!! but mingyu and seungcheol are like neck and neck up there and then wonwoo is following close behind:’) but I know for sure that my heart lies with lsm ♥️ it’s just so nice writing for the other members too

my favorite moments?? that’s so hARD!! I think seeing all the news and clips of seokmin being king arthur were times I was literally swooning and dying to be in korea bc I love musicals (and lsm)! anytime svt was on idol room and weekly idol! (especially the episode seokmin and mingyu were on with coco and aji gAH) I love watching their cover/collab stages with mamamoo! another powerful group I love sm:’) their fifth year anniversary video was sO FUNNY AHHA I’ve been trying to catch up on their going svt episodes but I’m pretty behind—but their episodes in the karaoke room and playing chess were a1!

ahaha you’re completely fine with all the questions! I don’t mind it at all:’) thank you lovely!! I lOVE YOU ♥️

[trashcatte]

Never-Ending Survey || Jayley Salyt

Rules: Repost, do not reblog

Tagged by: @ayyymeric​​ (u bitch) Tagging: @catnipescapades​, @handofcards​, @othard​ (suffer with me friends)

BASICS.

FULL NAME: Jayley Salyt

NICKNAME: Jay, Beast, Asshole, whatever people decide to call her in the moment.

AGE:  29

BIRTHDAY: Sometime in the winter.

ETHNIC GROUP: Keeper of the Moon

NATIONALITY: Gridanian

LANGUAGE/S: Common, Sign, Snarl

SEXUAL ORIENTATION: Women

ROMANTIC ORIENTATION: Women

RELATIONSHIP STATUS: ?????

HOME TOWN / AREA: Deep, deep in the woods of the Black Shroud.

CURRENT HOME:  Still in the deep woods of the Black Shroud.

PROFESSION: Black Marketeer

PHYSICAL.

HAIR: Black

EYES: One blue eye, one solid red gemstone eye.

FACE: Sharp features, strong jawline, narrow eyes.

LIPS: Thin and often chapped, with a scar cutting overtop of them on the right side.

COMPLEXION: Ashen

BLEMISHES: None.

SCARS:  Too many. One over her left eye, one across her nose, one over her lips. Several scattered around her body with the ugliest one being centered just over her heart. 

TATTOOS: None.

HEIGHT: 5 fulms and 9 ilms

WEIGHT: 128 ponz

BUILD: Wiry muscles with broad shoulders and narrow hips. She seems incapable of building up fat.

FEATURES: Long, lanky ears. Fangs that seem almost too large to fit in her mouth. 

ALLERGIES: None.

USUAL HAIR STYLE: Cut short with a knife on the top and shaved short on the sides. Often messy and sticking up in all directions.

USUAL FACE LOOK:  A glint of amusement in her eye with her mask always present, hiding a crooked and tooth filled grin behind it. Much like an imp waiting for an opening.

USUAL CLOTHING: Leathers, jackets, and whatever people gift to her.

PSYCHOLOGY.

FEAR/S: Self-Destruction

ASPIRATION/S: Survival.

POSITIVE TRAITS: Great listening skills. Funny. Independent. (Rarely) Loyal.

NEGATIVE TRAITS:  Mischievous, no sense of consequences, hypocritical, intense.

TEMPERAMENT: Changes as often as the weather.

ANIMALS: None.

VICE HABIT/S: Fogweed, fighting, pushing buttons.

FAITH: Reverence of the Wilds.

GHOSTS?: Yes.

AFTERLIFE?: Unfortunately.

REINCARNATION?: Yes.

POLITICAL ALIGNMENT: Would really rather burn all the governments down to the ground, but otherwise doesn’t care as long as she can work ‘em.

EDUCATION LEVEL: Read, albeit slowly, and write messily. 

FAMILY.

FATHER : Hate him.

MOTHER : Is okay.

SIBLINGS : Upwards of 16-17 siblings. She’s lost count.

EXTENDED FAMILY: God, who even knows. They’re probably out there, like rats. You can’t see them most the time but you know they exist.

NAME MEANING/S: None.

HISTORICAL CONNECTION?: She’s just a forest Keeper.

FAVORITES.

BOOK: Company ledgers.

DEITY: The Wilds.

HOLIDAY: Likes Starlight. So many goodies to steal.

MONTH: October.

SEASON: Autumn.

PLACE: The darkest parts of the woods.

WEATHER: Chilled weather, perfect for jackets.

SOUND / S: Bones breaking.

SCENT / S: Smoke.

TASTE / S: Campfire-cooked meat.

FEEL / S: Gross, no thanks.

ANIMAL / S: Deer.

NUMBER: 8.

COLORS: Black, brown, red.

EXTRA.

TALENTS: Knife throwing, knife fighting, knife sharpening. Throwing hands. Climbing things. Gathering information. Tracking people, creatures or things. Spinning a story. 

BAD AT: Magic, book smarts, functioning as a normal person, using doors.

TURN ONS: Confident, flirtatious, rugged, charming (in a garbage sort of way).

TURN OFFS: Evasive, personality changes from person to person. 

HOBBIES: Wandering, hunting, giving offerings to the wilds, people watching, collecting favours and debts, some leatherworking.

TROPES: ????

QUOTES: “A price is paids when a deals is mades.”

MUN QUESTIONS.

Q1 : If you could write your character your way in their own movie, what would it be called, what style would it be filmed in, and what would it be about?      

A1 :  Probably an action anti-hero movie with a good amount of comedy.

Q2 :  What would their soundtrack/score sound like?          

A2 : Punk rock, fast paced, probably some rap as well.

Q3 :  Why did you start writing this character?        

A3 : I started writing Jayley many years ago as a teenager on world of warcraft because of the fan animated video Blind. She started out as a blood elf rogue, androgynous from the start and sort of devolved from there. When she came to FFXIV I tweaked her personality a bit to be a little less outright malicious and more chaotic.

Q4 : What first attracted you to this character?        

A4 : It was a change from writing my extremely good and just character, Kaylir.

Q5 : Describe the biggest thing you dislike about your muse.

A5 :  The trouble she causes can sometimes make her easily isolated from people.

Q6 :  What do you have in common with your muse?          

A6 :  Being gremlins.

Q7 :  How does your muse feel about you?        

A7 :  Probably wishes I would give her more trouble.

Q8 : What characters does your muse have interesting interactions with?

A8 : Jayley generally has interesting interactions with characters that are either just as chaotic as her or bashful and open to teasing.

Q9 :  What gives you inspiration to write your muse?    

A9 :  I just love her??

Q10 : How long did this take you to complete?  

A10 : So long, fuck u crow.

[whimsicalethnographies]

My Thoughts on Endgame

Major spoilers and a TL;DR on how it all collapsed under its own wibbly wobbly timey wimey logic

So, to start, it was fine.  Like, it was just fine.  There were parts I liked, parts I hated, parts I refuse to except as canon (and may not have to), and parts that just didn’t make any damn sense.

And at the bottom of it all, is how the movie was “a gift to the fans” and, while unspoken, a swan song.  The fan service was TOO heavy, and it really felt as though they thought of their fanservice moments, and then built the story around those, rather than building a story and finding fanservice moments to sneak in.

Ok, things I liked:

There were genuinely funny moments, most of which didn’t feel smushed in.  Nobody likes the stairs Hulk, and I’m glad that Steve has accepted that sometimes his Cap lines are a little Too Much.

While I hated the death, I do like that Tony Stark is literally the messiah of the universe.  He didn’t owe anybody anything anymore, but he still took the step and made the sacrifice to protect his wife and his reality and his children.  Plural.

I did like Tony being done, wanting out, yelling at the group.  He was at his end and couldn’t do it anymore, and while there are legit discussions to have about CW--I think they were both wrong in a way--but the fact is he was right about the greater threat and nobody believed him.

I can’t believe a dorky photo of Peter Parker looking like a fish and messing up bunny ears and Tony Stark not smiling saved the universe.

Tom Holland is gonna win an Oscar some day.  I knew what happened going in--I HATE not knowing--so while I got teary during several points, I started blubbering when he said, “we won, Mr. Stark.  Mr. Stark, we won.  You did it, sir.”

RDJ should win an Oscar for this.  There were moments that were OOC but he still put everything into it.  Him, Nat, and Peter were really the only ones I *felt* in this movie.  

Their reunion hug--Peter coming back and being Purely Peter, and Tony looking at him, like oh my god, he’s exactly the same and I can’t believe he’s rambling like this I missed him so much.”

“Activate Instant Kill!”  Oh, my sweet baby boy Peter.  You kept the gauntlet safer than longer than anyone.

Tony Stark has been my Pretend Superhero Dad since I first saw Iron Man in 2008 in a dollar theater while munching on a sneaked-in Whopper.  He is Iron Dad, both to Morgan and his Spider-son and he took an extra step, one he didn’t have to do, to make sure they both made it ok.

Also, and I love Carol, but Thanos yeeted her the fuck off the field with the power stone.  Tony Stark withstood the power stone using his nanotech shield on Titan.  Most Powerful Avenger.

Scott is a joy.  

Cap and Mjolnir was an okay scene I enjoyed, but it was a prime example of writing the story around fanservice.  Yeah, it was fun, but it was better to imagine he couldn’t fully lift it in AoU because he knew about Bucky and the Starks, so he wasn’t fully worthy.

Now, the things I *didn’t* like:

How did Carol find the Benetar?  And how did she get it back?!  Like, I know because she’s the embodiment of the Space Stone she technically has omnipresence and/or is capable of light speed, but does that extend to other objects?  Wouldn’t it have torn the Benetar apart?  

The time jump was *off.*  And I have a hard time believing Tony would have just moved on like that.  I think he would have tried, but it was too easy, considering.

The strange mismatch between desolation--NYC, arguably the most important city in the world, is a ghost town, while other places are fine?  More on infrastructure problems later.

Hulk dabbing.  Come on.  Was that a joke on Bruce being old and out of touch, or are people still dabbing in 2023?

Thor.  Oh Thor.  His PTSD was treated as a joke--save his convo with Frigga--and it sucked, especially since they did so well with Tony’s PTSD.  That’s the writers, who we all know have had their noses up Cap’s butt since forever.

The fact that it’s implied Pepper knew Tony wasn’t really happy when he went to talk to her about solving time travel.  That he wasn’t settled, that this still weighed on him, even when it was hopeless.  Why’d she let him build that life then?  

“You can rest now.”  Yeah, ok.  Suffer so much, finally get what you want in your grasp, then your reward is death.  See above.  It cheapens his sacrifice because it’s implied he was never fully immersed and happy with his life.

Nat got done dirty.  I wasn’t ok with it.  I know it was supposed to be the final, “erase the red in her ledger” moment but why?  Like Tony, she already had. 

The infrastructure issues.  The universe was halfed, then doubled, five years apart.  Even if we accept that all of Peter’s friends and Flash were snapped, still doesn’t fly.  See below for a possible out.

Cap.  Oh Cap.  My guy is dead but at least he’s The Hero.  But they ruined Cap’s character.  I don’t for a second believe he’d just sit and hide with Peggy.  And they discussed heavily what happens when you subtract something from a timeline, and the splits, but what happens when you ADD something?  I know the implication is that he was always Peggy’s husband, but it still doesn’t work, for the timelines stuff AND his character.  And who’d he steal the shield from?  He took something!  And I don’t for a single second believe he went to Vormir.  Nope.   This was Steggy fanfic.  And I don’t honestly care, but the fact is that he’s been working on moving FORWARD.  A man out of his time trying to find himself.  He literally took a step backwards.

Ok, adding on to that, the timey wimey nonsense.  The movie spent SO MUCH TIME explaining the logic of their own rules and then don’t follow them.  Here are some diagrams from my childhood bestie who gets time shit more than I do.

Apparently here is what they were trying.

They seesaw back and forth, but in the end Timeline F is the same as Timeline A, or the one they started from.

BUT, here’s her diagram of what actually happened:

It’s a big fat mess, and if the End Timeline is F, then the timeline where Tony snaps is D, and it got very confusing very fast.  She’s going to type it up for me, but apparently the last third of the movie can’t exist per their own logic, least of all the end, especially because we don’t know exactly what Tony wished for.  Was it the destruction of Thanos?  What happens when you add a past to a future then delete that past?  Where’s that timeline?  What happened with Steve’s stuff?  LOKI? A1 never ended because they literally took it. It’s not there anymore.  Steve stealing the Pym Particles?!  He took something and didn’t put it back. Another branch off.  Did Tony wish, “give me what I need to fix this?”  IF he did that, she posits, he smushed the timelines together to make everything coherent, AND potentially fix the infrastructure issues, so while A Tony’s BODY may have died, which Tony was it?  Did he have a moment in the soul stone, like Thanos?  Is that a requirement?  What did he do/say there?  (Also, just pointing out, never trust a funeral without a body, and the power of the Soul Stone is literally that no death is permanent.  That’s its canonical power!!)

There’s so much mess and I’ll have more when my friend sends along her stuff.  But I have NO problem deleting most of this from my mind, and I already have ideas to fix it, but I’ll leave those stories in the hands of people better able to tell them (I’m looking at you, @iron--spider) because I’m a dialogue bitch myself. 

I told @iron--spider last night I felt adrift, and typing this out I know why.  I’m not mourning, I’m not excited.  I’m devastated by Tony’s death but there’s so many logic holes my brain isn’t even struggling to see a way around it.  I’m livid about Steve, because he went backwards.  Thor’s trauma was played for laughs.  I have no satisfaction because of ALL THE HOLES, and because they literally wrote a story around fanservice--a huge amount of it their own--instead of writing the story and then adding fanservice to it.  

It was fine.  I’ll probably buy it when it’s released, but I don’t need to see it again.  And I’m curious about Far From Home because of the infrastructure but I don’t know if I’ll wait until it’s out on video just because I don’t have any urge to watch Peter Parker mourn another parent.

In the meantime, until the fix-its start rolling in, here’s a ready-made fix-it that Iron--spider wrote last year, to hold us through:  https://archiveofourown.org/works/15183011/chapters/35211239

It was fine.  And so full of holes it doesn’t even cement its own canon, despite what Disney officially decided to put on the big screen.  

“I recognize the council has made a decision, but given that it’s a stupid-ass decision, I’ve elected to ignore it.”

[her-kaleidescope-eyes]

Thoughts while watching Act 1 of Starship for the first time in a while

ACT 1

-The Future is Now!! (I've been saying that for years in that voice and I forgot where it came from,, I literally said it TODAY))

-I forgot it started with this video!

-AJ HolMES hAS thaT CAMeo

-joey had that haircut at one time

-lmaO the character's name is literally BUG

-this set is so complex compared to every other show wtf

-what was the budget for this

-oh yeah this was an "alien" wreck

-"I DON'T HAVE A JOB"

-don’t forget that dirt is solid and clouds can disappear

-the bug that ruins your picnic is a job lmao

-aww the mammals

-Julia's characters are so fuckin annoying no wonder she does reiki now

-aww buggette

-"you oughta make nectar cause you're so sweet!"

-ugh what a date I love tearing off a head and letting my larvae devour his body

-Veeto, Neato, and Sweetheart how iconic

-JaIMe lYN BeATty is probably the funniest person alive

-I remember thinking lauren had cut and dyed her hair when she had her hood on as Buggette lmao

-Nick Lang is so soft I love

-the overqueen is less(???) vaginal than I remember

-the overqueen and sorting hat are bffs

-"FLATTERY WILL GET YOU EVERYWHERE" I've also been saying this for years

-"quiet you, you're drunk" "NO IM DRUNK"

-I love Denise Donovan

-oxie-gen

-shyence

-I think I just heard a spooky noise

-the mammals are so cute I love them all

-"HOLY SHIT IT’S A BUG"

-the puppets what was the BUDGET

-"get your zappers, set them to pew!"

-TOOTSIE NOODLES OWNS MY HEART

-"I saw the empirical proof that science killed God" what the FUCK

-dylan I love you so much ALSO "the way I do" in the background of him explaining his name I love it

-JoMo is so great

-"He's got bear hands? Oh wow"

-the record scratch lmao who did that ?????? I don’t remember that

-he eats eagles for breakfast

-"unfudge yourself" I was the the national guard and unfuck yourself is 100% a thing they say

-Taz stabbing herself

-I DO NOT PEEPEE SITTING DOWN

-Up's whole breakdown is so funny lmao I love him so much I love every character in this goddamn show

-you're not a failure, overall

-I wanted to fuck Junior so bad when I was 13

-MEREDITH

-I really didn't like meredith at first because I was dumb and idn't like her because she was a "newcomer" but now I've been a dedicated fan of her for eight years so there you go

-ALL HAIL ASTROBOy

-"a horse ate my cousin!"

-lauren lopez was my bisexual awakening

-"hunior"

-were brian and meredith dating already? Hmmm

-act one is fucking LONG AS SHIT bug hasn't even become a human yet

-calculus was tough

-GET BACK UP IS A BOP

-what is spec's gender?

-I had completely forgotten Nick was even in this show

-why did the beginning of Life just make me cry

-darren did a great job, I find his writing a little heavy sometimes but starship is a1

-February, like the month but a person

-"A slut--no wait a dumb slut!"

-IM GOING TO SHOOT THIS METAL BITCH

-the way I do playing under tootsie talking about megagirl again

-"you can't fool me with numbers"

-I once had a flirtatious relationship with a stack of hay

-hideous creatures exists

-musicals are so long

[like-im-paralyzed-by-time]

Once upon a time a girl named Alyssa heard the song “Love Story” for the first time when it came out and fell in love with it. After that moment she spent all of her precious free time watching videos of Taylor and listening to all of her music every single day. She dreamed of seeing Taylor one day but was too young to know how to buy tickets to ask. When the Speak Now Tour happened, she couldn’t afford tickets. When the Red Tour happened, by the time she had saved up enough money, the tickets were sold out in Cleveland. Finally during the 1989 Tour she was prepared, although she didn’t get the best seats ever, she finally was able to see Taylor live and that was all that mattered. As Taylor came out on stage she remembered all the times she had been either so happy or so sad but always had Taylor’s music to get her through any situation. That night was one of the best nights of her life. A few months after that Taylor liked her post on tumblr and shortly after followed her and she cried tears of happiness knowing that Taylor might have some idea that she exists. Fast forward and the little girl who was wide eyed as she heard Love Story for the first time is now going to be a Junior in college. This time, she was really prepared and was able to buy tickets to see Taylor in Columbus, Cleveland, and Gillette Stadium!! The Columbus show happened and it’s safe to say that it was the best night of her entire life despite being in the third last row of the entire stadium. Taylor even liked her post about her slut dropping in the nosebleeds!!! Now, as the Cleveland show quickly approached, she was so excited because her dream of having floor seats (12 rows away from the stage) was finally going to happen! But wait!!!! The universe had other plans for Alyssa because she got scheduled to work and had to choose between her job and the concert. Although she would die for Taylor she had to make the practical decision to sell her tickets. She was heartbroken. She cried a lot about it because Cleveland was her hometown and her favorite city and this was supposed to be the concert of her dreams. Her mom was also very upset because she was excited to see Taylor as well and knew how much that particular concert meant to Alyssa. Her friend Cheyenne FaceTimed her during the concert so she was able to watch from her bed all the way in NY which helped her feel better about missing the concert. Luckily, she was at least able to upgrade her nosebleed tickets for the Gillette show she’s going to so her dream isn’t dead quite yet!! It won’t be the same as hearing Taylor say “Cleveland!!!” and hearing Alyssa’s hometown crowd scream back but it will still be special. Now she just has one more dream to accomplish: hugging Taylor and thanking her for everything in person. Taylor, I love you so much and I can’t wait to see you at Gillette night three (July 28th)! My mom and I will be cheering you on from Section A1 (right behind the right pit!) row 9 seats 21 and 22!! We can’t wait to see you!!! I’ll be strutting (more like trying not to fall) around the stadium in my snake print over the knee boots!!! See you soon ❤️ Love, Alyssa

[mysteryofsarah]

a love letter to taylor swift.

Okay so, I’m not entirely sure where to start or what to write so i’m just going to ramble and hope that it turns into something decent that actually makes sense.

Hey Taylor ( @taylorswift , @taylornation ), my name is Sarah, I’m twenty, I’m going to your Melbourne, Australia Reputation show on October 26 2018, I’ll be sitting the closest i’ve ever been to the stage during one of your shows with my mum in section A1, Row BB, in seats 7 & 8.

I can’t fathom, let alone put into words how excited I am to see you on tour again! Every single show i’ve been to from fearless all the way through to 1989 (and now Reputation, I’m sure!) have been jaw dropping, interactive, unique and incredibly fun shows and i’ve had the time of my life at each and every tour you’ve brought down under and am entirely grateful that i got to attend them.

I think i’d be correct when i say that i’ve grown up with you pretty much my entire life and I’m so grateful and happy that i did and will continue to do so, there is no out growing you…ever! I’ll never forget how I discovered you and your music and how i was just in such awe that I had to go out that same exact day that I first heard a fifteen second snippet of Love Story and an even smaller snippet of Fifteen to buy your album. I was so fascinated and it was like love at first sight, those two snippets and the small clip of the Love Story music video was more than enough to send me spending my small amount of pocket money just so i could listen to to them over and over again!

 I still say that it was fate that my brother had a nightmare and woke me up at 6am to help calm him down and that we went and sat on the couch to watch saturday disney and an ad for Fearless came on. 

I was 9 turning 10 when i first discovered you and I was 12 turning 13 when i got to go to my first ever concert….which was Fearless at Rod Laver Arena! That show changed my life, just like your music has! I will always be inspired by you as a person and by your music. The fact that i’ve been able to grow up with you and ten years later still feel like i can connect with you and your music on such a high level is just further proof that you are one of the most amazing talents to ever grace the world.

Like every fan, you and your music have been there for me through an insane amount of trauma like losing my dad to cancer and heartache like feeling like it was the end of the world when a guy doesn’t like you back or you lose a friend who you thought was incredible but was a really bad person and just life in general and its such a special feeling when you find someone who can make you feel better and actually make you smile through those things.

You’ve also helped me create life long friendships and strengthen others that were already forming. I’ve met some really incredible people through being a fan of yours..some that live only a short forty five mins from me and some that live on the other side of the world and I wouldn’t have it any other way, these friendships are so magical and wonderful and its all because of you and the joy you bring to our lives! 

I could never, ever thank you enough for everything you’ve done for me and for your music and your speeches and in hopes that you’ve stumbled upon this and that you’re actually reading it, I would like to thank you even just a little bit for all of that and for being there for myself and every other single fan you’ve got out there, you are truely a gem and you’re so special! I love you so much and i’ll see you in October! I can’t wait!

- Sarah from Melbourne xx

P.S

It would be amazing and mean a lot to me if you played Tied Together With A Smile or Innocent on the B Stage in Melbourne!

P. P. S

I will now be seeing you in Sydney on November 2nd as well! My mum and I will be in aisle 624, row 13 and seats 16 & 17! See you then, girlie! xx

[messedupessy]

Mmh for the art raffle, rottenberry in A1 ? Maybe ? :o have a nice day/night, hope you're alright

“I-I’m just s-so fucking tired of it Berry…!”

HERE YA GO BESTEST FRENCH FRY BERRY COMFORTING A CRYING TINY SCRATCHY BOY  (͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Hey look another one of these, this pic have been done for like ages now but since I ended up writing so frikking much under the cut it has taken me weeks to get this posted xD still this is one of the requests i looked the most forward to do as I immediately knew exactly what it was I wanted to draw for it!

Really happy with how this turned out, the pose was a little hard to get right but i got there eventually, really like how Scratch’s hands turned out even though you can barely see them as they are black due for his gauntlet’s, but I sketched them darker like that so that they wouldn’t melt into Berry’s vest which I think worked out, tried to like leave some white spaces which turned out really well, Scratch’s expression is not fully how I would had liked it but still turned out good, due for his mouth not showing it doesn’t show the exact emotion which i wanted him to have which was that of a bit more despair, as he is supposed to be really upset in this, the tears turned out pretty good too I actually accidentally at first drew them on the same layer as the sketch like an idiot so had to redo them, the first tears looked better but oh well that stuff happens, maybe should had made them a tiny bit more shiny and white so they would be more visible but they still looks good yeah, so all in all real happy with this one :D

And because I can so will I now give you guys some headcanons/mini story something for this ship, as I like doing that hella lot, I do actually have a bit of a story planned based on this but knowing me i will prolly never get around to actually write it properly, so instead ya all get this instead especially since I haven’t shown/talked about my take on this ship before, and the reason for the text up above will also be explained

Also the shit down below got super, duper long like crazy long as I got so frikking carried away with the whole thing just so ya know pfft

Their first ever meeting did not go so well, Berry was excited about meeting his so called double thinking up how his double would be like etc, so when he finally meet Scratch he was a tiny bit disappointed as Scratch looked nothing like he thought he would. His disappointment didn’t last for long though as he quickly noticed how damn short Scratch is, Berry is at 5′1 aka 154 cm while Scratch is at 4′8 aka 142 cm though he is wearing a pair of  ridiculously high heeled boots but it is obvious that he is really short. 

Which Berry without thinking says out loud as a greeting which makes Scratch immediately absolutely furious as he got a  extreme height complex, so Scratch lashes out with a attack and Berry easily evades it like a boss, Berry trying to apologize as he quickly realized he hit a nerve but Scratch isn’t letting him as he is too pissed off to listen, and Berry isn’t making it better by saying his apologizes like this: “I’M SORRY OTHER ME FOR CALLING YOU SHORT BUT YOU ARE REALLY SHORT AND TINY AND I CAN’T HELP BUT FIND IT REALLY CUTE!” Berry of course can’t help but to put in some flirting as well as he is one flirty boy, waggling his brows with a flirty smile while evading a still angry but now also flustered Scratch.

Berry keeps on making stuff worse as he just can’t help himself, getting completely carried away and finding the way Scratch is flustering while also been absolutely pissed adorable. Until Stretch decides to intervene as this fight/battle has been going on long enough, grabbing hold of Scratch as he is the one attacking and also you guys are ruining the furniture like not cool while saying a pun or joke of some sort. 

Berry stops moving and chuckles at his bro’s joke and then goes oh right shit forgot we were indoors, then he makes a pun which Stretch puns back at but which Scratch just screeches at, pushing Stretch away from him with a “UNHAND ME YOU FOOL!” and then stomps away fuming af with the other two looking after him, Berry after awhile saying that that guy is just really cute when he gets all pissy like that doesn’t he which Stretch agrees with, but like bro you really should apologize to him properly because that shit you said was really hella rude, like remember when you were easily offended with people commenting on your height when you were a kid and how it made you feel.

Berry makes a face and looking a tad bit guilty, he goes like fuck you’re right I didn’t think of that, I just let my first thought slip as I hadn’t expected other me to be way shorter than I am and then I got all carried away like I always do. I guess I better go and try to fix this mess I made, think I will have to wait a bit tough for him to cool down a bit, which Stretch just nods in agreement then saying another pun which Berry puns back at.

Berry then goes to visit Scratch, knocks on the door and Scratch opens it immediately, after checking who it is, asking what the fuck does he want, Berry says he is there to apologize which just makes Scratch squint at him in disbelief. Berry then apologizes but fucks up a bit as he ends up calling Scratch short again which makes Scratch pissed and he tries to slam the door on Berry but he grabs hold off it before it slams shut completely, saying sorry again that came out wrong i’m sorry let me make it up to you. 

They fight with the door for awhile Scratch schreeching at him to fuck off and Berry shouting he just wants to make it up to him until Scratch is like fine make it up to me by leaving me the fuck alone which Berry says he can’t because that won’t make up for what he said wait I know I will let you punch me! 

Both stops fighting with the door and Scratch once again just looks at Berry in disbelief, like what kind of an idiot are you kind of way, which he also voices out loud, Berry just laughs and says since calling you sho- I mean calling you that made you angry and hurt I will let you punch me properly and not evade it at all like I did before. 

Scratch is still just looking at him trying to figure out what Berry truly is after, saying Berry really is stupid, Berry replies with come on I can take it just punch me and then we will be even, you don’t have to tell me twice Scratch says and then punches Berry without warning making the other stagger back and start to bleed from his nose, but he just shakes his head saying that was a great punch, really glad I didn’t let you hit me when we fought earlier because then i would have gotten hurt even worse. 

Scratch fluster a bit at the praise, Berry then adds since we are now even and you have punched me so are we officially friends now grinning wide with Scratch going what before Berry grabs him and starts running off with him, saying come on let’s hang out now since we’re friends with Scratch schreeching we are not friends put me down but which Berry ignores as he is determined to get to know his angry counter part better 

After that whole thing the two of them start to hang out, mostly by Berry visiting Scratch against his will and then drag him off to do things together, from hanging out at Berry’s home to go out and prank people, Scratch starts to get less and less against hanging out with Berry as he finds himself having fun during their hang outs. 

He still fights it at times but Berry is very insistent, he fought against it for quiet some time especially when it came to the things Berry tried to make him join in with, like pranking people that’s childish and so are video games, building snowmen no that’s something for children! but Berry just had to say are you chicken/does that mean I win by default etc made him immediately change his mind and join in as he refused to be defeated in anything etc.

Though still a bit hesitantly as Scratch hates to appear childish in any way, which Berry have figured out and is trying to teach him it’s ok to be etc, as when Berry was younger he had kind of the same troubles, Berry still slips up at times with short/tiny jokes as he just can’t help it even though he tries which have made Scratch get really mad at him so many times, Berry also keeps on flustering Scratch by calling him cute etc out of the blue

Berry tries to get to know Scratch better, more personally etc but Scratch keeps on pushing him away in that regard, refusing to open up, so Berry keeps pushing and kinda pester as his feelings for the other have grown into a full blown crush and when he is in love he has a habit of getting blind to the person of his affections discomforts and when he is going too far, when he is too pushy and should leave them alone. 

So one day he and Scratch are hanging out, doing their usual thing when Scratch seems to be a bit more distant than usual, Berry tries to get Scratch to tell him what’s up but Scratch is not telling him anything. Berry then says if Scratch needs to talk about stuff then talk with him he will understand then he tries to put a comforting hand on Scratch’s shoulder but it is swatted away harshly by Scratch who just looks at him like he have just said the worst insult ever, saying as if Berry would ever understand what he is dealing with, and then Scratch just explodes into a screaming rant how there is no way that Berry would ever understand the shit he is going through.

“NO YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND BERRY! YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW IT FEELS TO WAKE UP EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY KNOWING IT IS YET ANOTHER DAY OF BEEN BELITTLED, OF BEEN MOCKED, OF NOT BEEN TAKEN SERIOUSLY AND TREATED LIKE A CHILD ALL BECAUSE YOU JUST HAPPEN TO LOOK LIKE ONE WHEN YOU SURE AS FUCK AREN’T! YOU DO NOT KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO BE TOLD OVER AND OVER AGAIN EVERY FUCKING DAY THAT YOU ARE WEAK, THAT YOU CAN’T DO ANYTHING AND YOU ARE NOT EVEN GIVEN THE SLIGHTEST BIT OF A CHANCE TO PROVE THEM WRONG! YOU WHO HAVE NEVER HAD ANY PROBLEMS EVER IN YOUR LIFE  YOU WOULD NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW IT IS TO HAVE A BROTHER WHO DOESN’T LOVE YOU AND TREAT YOU LIKE FUCKING SHIT!”

Scratch keeps on shouting at Berry like that for awhile, just letting all of the things that troubles him out into the open. As the reason for why he had been more distant was because he had grown a bit jealous of Berry’s seemingly perfect life, as people weren’t belittling him or mocking him for his height etc, and how he had such a great relationship with his brother unlike himself, he shouts and screams himself hoarse until

“I’M-I’m just…-“, Scratch said mouth now quivering and his voice suddenly lowering to almost a whisper, his eye sockets barely holding back the tears that was risking of flooding out as he looked away from the other and instead looked down at his feet with an expression  that was just completely exhausted and defeated. “I’m just so tired, so fucking tired of it all…”  

Scratch tries to stop himself from crying with little success, as he is just so damn tired of all of it and been keeping shit inside for so long, Berry have just listened to it all without a word, actually a bit shocked at the sudden outburst, he then steps forward and pulls Scratch into a hug. 

Scratch immediately telling him to let him go schreeching and thrashing but Berry doesn’t let him go, after awhile of that Scratch just stops and slowly puts his arms around Berry and just starts crying fully, the line and the pic above happening, and Berry just holds him while he cries and just says over and over how he is just so tired. Berry saying he knows, he hadn’t thought Scratch had such problems or that people were treating him so damn bad etc, and how this explains so much about how Scratch has been behaving and how he himself should have like noticed that stuff a bit more but like always when he is crushing he gets really bad at noticing things he doesn’t want to notice about the person he is interested in.

He hugs the other a bit tighter while Scratch has become stiff in his arms, as Scratch is realizing what he have just done just letting all of his feelings and troubles out and he is terrified and horrified about it, Berry then decides to try to break the tension a bit by saying a joke, or kind of a joke which is “Well, I never thought our first embrace would be in a situation like this.” or something like it which Scratch doesn’t take well upon hearing it getting flustered and try to push Berry away which Berry lets him a tiny bit so they are now face to face at least, Berry saying sorry not the time to say that please calm down and let me say some things. 

Which Scratch do but his whole body is still ready to fucking bolt at a moments notice, Berry then begins to talk how yes he might not understand what Scratch is going through fully, as he himself have had troubles in the past with been taken seriously thanks to his baby face and also his own shortness, even though those troubles weren’t as bad as Scratch’s though still bad but not to that extent, he also apologies how he was so damn pushy about Scratch telling him stuff and that he should had pushed less etc alongside other things which makes Scratch relax and calm down

After the whole thing the two of them gets closer, Scratch starts to open up without having to be pushed to an outburst to do so, Berry tries his best not to push Scratch to that extent, Scratch is more relaxed around Berry now and doesn’t get upset as often about things, like they become proper friends who can talk about stuff most of the time, share their experiences and stuff with one another, they still fuck up time to time but they solve it much more calmly, mostly at least, Scratch is making sure to tell Berry off when he is uncomfortable about anything which Berry might fail to notice etc.

Now finally with Scratch actually feeling comfortable and safe around Berry, his feelings starts to change into a crush as well, Berry have never hidden the fact that he has been interested in Scratch romantically, or at least he have been flirting with him allot, and even though they still end up fighting time to time and that Berry keeps on forcing him outside his comfort zone which he doesn’t always like but is kinda what he needs at times, also helps that Berry is pretty damn good looking which Berry knows fully that he is, flexing and shit which makes Scratch’s soul flutter.

And as usual when Scratch gets a crush or anything like it he goes into tsundere mode, starts to avoid Berry and stuff even though he knows Berry is interested in him that way but then doubts starts to grow in his mind, what if Berry is just interested in him so to use him and then break his heart and stuff, what if this whole friendship was a rouse to make fun of him, like Berry gets around allot in that department he have heard, what if their friendship is fake and he will lose what he have with Berry if he admits his feelings and Berry gets what he wants etc.

Berry for once actually notices that there is something bothering Scratch almost immediately this time around, and decides to confront Scratch what’s bothering him as he does not want what happened last time to happen again, and after some careful prodding Scratch ends up confessing his feelings and his fears while been real frikking flustered, Berry is overjoyed at having his feelings returned that he immediately hugs Scratch completely missing the part about Scratch’s fears, getting his mouth covered by Scratch’s hands as he tries to kiss him in his excitement which Scratch is not ready for at all.

Berry immediately apologizes for doing so he just got so damn happy and excited which is no excuse for trying to kiss him without consent, he then asks what the rest Scratch said was can he repeat it which Scratch at first refuses to do so as he is pretty flustered, embarrassed and kind of distressed but he ends up repeating himself after a bit. 

Berry immediately assures him that that kind of thing he would never ever do, he is not the kind of guy who would play with someones feelings like that at least not intentionally, he tells Scratch when it comes to Berry getting around with different partners its something he only do when fully single or if he isn’t interested in someone special, and that ever since he ended up crushing on Scratch he haven’t been with anyone at all.

After some more reassurance, some flirting on Berry’s part and some fluster on Scratch’s, the both of them decide to give a romantic relationship a try, which ends up been pretty much just like their friendship just much more hugs and eventually kisses when Scratch ends up comfortable enough for it, they both still fuck up at times in various ways. 

Berry been too pushy and missing clear signs when Scratch doesn’t want something etc, and Scratch keeps on having troubles telling Berry the things that truly bothers him etc, they still fight time to time, though mostly just about silly things like Berry totally cheating at mario kart and shit, they way too often edge each other on to do stupid shit, but all in all they end up been pretty good for one another, Scratch telling Berry off when he is too much and Berry helping Scratch been more open and be as childish as he wants to be, the fucking end

Fuck this took forever for some reason but now it’s done hurray, not completely happy with all of it there are a bunch of parts which is a bit iffy but all in all i am kind of happy with this anyhow xD the more well written text and dialogue is from my attempt at writing this as an actual fic which I decided to include, as i like how those two parts turned out and that i will prolly never end up writing it properly and shit, anyway enjoy this wall of text yo 

[farfromsugafanfic]

glitteringconstellations interview

Before we get started with the interview, do you mind introducing yourself (whatever name you are comfortable with) and telling us a little about yourself?

Hi everyone! I’m glitteringconstellations, Glitter or GC for short. I’ve been writing fanfiction for well over 15 years now, though I only started sharing it around 2005. I minored in Creative Writing in college and I love writing in pretty much any capacity! When I’m not headcanoning one new story or another, though, I’m either adulting (ugh, adulting) or playing video games. These days it’s mostly Skyrim. I’m fluent in Korean and passable in Japanese and Spanish. I drink way too much pop to be healthy and I hate most fruit (though, give me any kind of melon and I’ll be a happy girl). Oh, and I’m a fledgling figure skater! I’m just a hodgepodge of random hobbies haha!

Q1: What kind of fan fiction do you normally write? Have you ever written fan fiction for other fandoms other than your current one?

A1: I tend to gravitate toward angsty fics. It’s long been my outlet of frustration, to put the character I love in harm’s way. The more pain, the better, haha! Though I do love the hurt/comfort aspect of it. Recently (as in, the last year lmao) I’ve been writing for the Voltron fandom almost exclusively (and sometimes YURI!!! On Ice), but before that I was in the k-pop ficdom (Super Junior, for the most part) for a looooong time, nearly 10 years. I won’t be opening that particular can of worms, though--I have Feelings and Opinions lmao. Before that I jumped around from anime to anime.

Q2: I see in addition to fan fiction that you do commissioned fan art! I’m not an artist myself, so I find it really interesting and cool. Do you want to talk a bit about that? And, feel free to plug yourself!

A2: This is actually a common misconception--I can’t draw to save my life!! I took commissions for fan fiction back in late June as a last resort to pay my rent. Typically though I’m horrible on a deadline so I don’t like to do it too often because I feel terrible making my commissioners wait. The art you’re referring to is the comic spread for The Parting Glass, if I’m not mistaken? I actually commissioned another artist by the name of Cota (@ccooooostuff on tumblr, go check her out she’s amazing at what she does and super sweet!) for that comic with the money I got for my birthday this year.

Q3: Do you write anything outside of fan fiction?

A3: I do! I journal a lot, or I try to anyway. This year I’m hoping to tackle an original novel for Nanowrimo, but more than likely, that particular project will start as fanfiction and we’ll see if I turn it into original fiction or not. I spend more time thinking about the things I want to write than… actually… writing them lolsob. My notes will be this gigantic document but when it comes to putting things together in a cohesive manner? Haaaaaa….haha…. The blinking cursor mocks me, I swear.

Q4: I see on your profile that you are 26. I think when most people think of fan fiction writers they think of someone younger, usually a teenager. Do you encounter younger writers a lot? What do you think of this assumption?

A4: I do encounter younger writers a lot! Surprisingly, though, most writers I know are either in their late 20s or late late teens (say, 15~19). Most people tend to think I’m young anyway just because I look a lot younger than 26, but as far as fandom goes, it doesn’t really bother me if people think I’m younger than I am. Usually I’m pretty forward with how old I am on my profile anyway! But yeah, I’ve been around the fanfiction scene a while. The k-pop fandom in particular had a way of reminding me just how long on a pretty frequent basis lol.

Q5: Why did you begin writing fan fiction? If it was for a fandom, why did that particular thing make you begin writing? And, for your current fandoms?

A5: I used to tell myself stories to get to sleep or on long car trips as far back as I can remember, and most of the time they involved characters from my favorite shows of the day. Pokemon and Digimon were two big ones for me before I hit those fun preteen years. As far as what got me started actually putting those stories to paper, it was born of frustration with shows not going the way I wanted them to, so I’d write the ending I wanted to see. For Voltron in particular, it’s just SUCH a fun sandbox to play in, be it by utilizing the incredible world-building or the plethora of interesting characters to play around with. So many possibilities! *3*

Q6: Do you ever want to be published in a professional capacity one day?

A6: Yes and no. I flip flop on this ALL the time. I’d LOVE to see my stories on shelves, but I’m actually very insecure and sometimes the thought of people reading my stories makes me want to die of embarrassment and sink to the center of the earth. That said, if I win Nano this year, I may run it by some publishers, even if only to get feedback. (Although if you want to get TECHNICAL I am officially a published journalist; I was an assistant editor for one of The Big 3 kpop news sites for a while. The one that starts with S. Also another can of worms.)

Q7: Has writing fan fiction taught you anything? About writing? Reading? The fandom? Etc.

A7: Oh absolutely. I definitely would not be the writer I am today without fan fiction. I wouldn’t say I’m super skilled, but the critique I’ve received over the years has helped me more than I have words for, honestly. Not even just in the capacity of writing fiction; my academic and professional writing has improved too. Also, just like reading anything in high volume, reading fanfic has helped me learn to read like a writer, how to pick out things that authors do that I admire and try to emulate that, and conversely what doesn’t work for me so I can avoid those things.

As far as fandom goes, fanfiction can be quite polarizing, as I’m sure you’re well aware. Just in my experience by and large it can be kind of toxic, to be quite honest. The particular issue Voltron faces that I experienced to some extent in other fandoms but not quite to this degree, is fandom policing. I find that certain members of the fandom (which, in my experience, tends to actually be mostly among those younger demographics, though not exclusively so) see certain topics as morally wrong and therefore anyone who writes those topics are 1) romanticizing said topic and 2) automatically a disgusting, horrible person and they have no problems telling you about all about it. The number one thing I try to put out there in my interactions is live and let live, ship and let ship. If it makes you uncomfortable, that’s okay! But that doesn’t necessarily mean it’s wrong, and it’s definitely not okay to go around purporting hate in the name of “morality.” Sorry, didn’t mean to go off on a tangent there haha...

Q8: What is a piece you’ve written that you’re most proud of?

A8: Just in the Voltron fandom, I’d say the fic I’m most proud of is The Parting Glass, by far. Funny story about that one; I’d never heard the titular song before I came across a cover of it on Facebook one day around St. Patrick’s Day, and let me tell you something. The reaction I had was almost a spiritual experience, it was so visceral. I was in tears when I heard it, and the story came so hard and so fast that I wrote it in 2 days. It stayed with me until I got it down in writing. It was an interesting challenge for me, exploring the grief part of a character death fic while almost entirely omitting the actual dying part. It’s been a very long time since I’ve had such a vivid vision of exactly how a fic is going to go from start to finish and I’m quite happy with the way it turned out. Which is why, when I had the money to do so, I commissioned Cota to illustrate what had to be the hardest and yet my favorite part to write. She brought the scene to life so beautifully too, I’m really happy with how it turned out. Months later I still go back and stare at it!

Q9: Do you notice any stigma surrounding fan fiction or fan fiction writers?

A9: Without a doubt. People hear “fanfiction” and they think one of two things: the pudgy neckbeard who lives in his parents’ basement, or the rabid tween/teenage fangirl. It’s a rather unfortunate stereotype, because some works of fanfiction are truly works of art, more masterfully crafted than some novels I’ve seen published. Yet they get dismissed simply on the basis of being fanworks and not “original” (which, let’s be real, nothing is truly original anymore). One such example that comes to mind of a beautiful fic is those glittering instruments in the EXO fandom, which was based on the real-life destruction of the Library of Alexandria. If you can find a copy of it floating around the interwebs I HIGHLY recommend giving it a chance no matter what fandom you’re in!

Q10: If so, how do you feel about this stigma?

A10: Like I said, it’s really a shame. The thing, too, is that as young girls we’re often shamed for the things we’re passionate about, like boy bands and, well, fan fiction, while boys don’t get that kind of shame to such an intense degree (at least, not about the usual suspects, like sports and girls and such). Not to say that it doesn’t happen, but there’s something terribly sad about seeing more young people afraid to talk about a hobby that makes them happy because they’re afraid of being perceived as weird or gross or something like that. Hell, even to this day I have very few friends from outside the fandom sphere that know I write fanfiction, because they still talk bad and make mean jokes about fic writers. It’s such a silly thing, because a lot of famous works are derivative fiction and people don’t even realize it! So I hope the day comes soon that we can get over this silly stigma and just enjoy what people share (for free!! Seriously!! FULL NOVEL LENGTH WORKS. For FREE.)

Q11: Is there anything you’ve ever wanted to talk about or be asked that no one has asked you about or given you the opportunity to talk about? (And if so, feel free to answer/talk about it).

A11: I really had to think about this one! I couldn’t really pick one topic that I’ve really wanted to talk about that I haven’t already discussed, but no one has ever asked me if I was okay with having fanart of my work. Which I would answer with a resounding YES. I am more than okay with it QuQ

Oh, I guess I do have something!! It’s unrelated to writing (well, I guess it could be related, depending on how you look at it) but since I have your attention, if you’re an American citizen GO OUT AND VOTE. The midterm elections are one week from today in the USA and it’s important you go vote!! I won’t tell you who to vote for (a third can of worms I’m not opening up. WHY DO I HAVE SO MANY WORMS) but I assure you, your vote matters, now more than ever. I believe in you!! Go vote!!!

Q12: What is your prefered site for writing/posting fan fiction?

A12: These days I prefer to use AO3. It’s a work in progress, but it’s far and away the superior fic platform of the time. Back in ye olden days (circa 2010~2012) Livejournal was my platform of choice, and FF.net before that. A surprising number of people prefer to post their fic on tumblr, to which I say, are you out of your flipping MIND?!?! Tumblr is soooo temperamental, I can’t tell you the number of times I’ve had to restart a post or go into the HTML editor because the rich text editor decided to be stupid. Noooooo thank you. I’ll stick to AO3 thanks ahaha!

Check out Glitter’s Tumblr and AO3.

Interviewer Note: Glitter used her free question to encourage everyone to vote and I would just like to stress the importance of this, especially if live in the US. Young people are the demographic that votes the least, despite being the demographic that will have to live the longest with the outcome of the vote. If you are currently not registered, please register as it is important for all of our futures. And, remember the deadline for the upcoming US election is Nov. 6th, so make sure to get to those polls and/or turn/send in your ballot. If you need information on how to do any of these things, do not hesitate to reach out to my page and I will point you to trustworthy resources.