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Davrin: So are you the big spoon or the little spoon?

Rook: I’m a knife!

Emmrich, from across the room: They’re the little spoon.

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Are you normal or will you have a breakdown after seeing this picture?

Because I’m still crying.

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i do write for attention, actually, because that's a normal reason to create art

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nowhere else

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year's end

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i’m not even joking, when i tag a post about Thee anders with “i’m crying” you can bet i actually have real, physical, human tears in my eyes. wobbly lip staring at my phone like a real loser

but. character of all times.

this is akin to how i feel when i go down a castiel rabbit hole - too much bad happening to a very good person. except with anders there is full and complete suspension of disblief (no distracting actorman dilf) and the actual media experience (dragon age) has some top notch writing.

so i cry. harder. (“i just wanted to go home.” karl. sir pounce-a-lot. sewer clinic. depersonalization. martyr to his cause. fugitive from justice, possessed by the spirit of what was once justice. AND he’s still blighted.) i’m dripping helpless tears right now. we don’t even know his real name. he’s a grey warden and a seven-times escaped kinloch hold occupant and an illegal anarchist medic. he’s an abomination. he’s full of love and sarcasm and rage and i love him like my heart will break.

it’s cringe. unbelievably cringe. i’m an adult with an advanced degree who deals with abused kids on a daily basis for work, and i’m a cool cat lawyer. i never just break down just discussing one of my irl kids. and i see some pretty bad -

….wait. waaaaaaait nO

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brainrot is real guys...

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i hate writing smut.

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i think the key difference between george lucas’s star wars and disney’s star wars is that lucas is a man with an ideology. someone with a point of view, and all that entails. which comes with ideas of revolution, anti-imperialism, challenging the status quo, cultural appropriation and racist stereotypes. complex and contradictory ideas because that’s how artists are: complex and complicated people. disney is not. disney is a corporation. a corporation can’t have ideology, because ideology defeats the purpose of profit. and when the only thing you do is to turn on the movie manufacturing machine before you sit down and plan what ideas are you trying to convey to the audience, then your results are going to be washed out corporate garbage. and because when you’re a giant corporation who only cares about selling to the widest audience possible, you can’t take sides. you can’t decide on an idea. because you want to sell your product to people who are on the entire political spectrum. which results in movies without ideology, without purpose, without soul.

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My mother is all into homesteading and off-grid living videos right now. Every time I check up on her, this is what she wants to talk about.

It gives her a sense of peace and purpose I guess. Which is good, she’s been struggling to find that with her injuries and condition. She’s learning skills, and feeling prepared for “the worst”. Like I can’t get her to stop watching conspiracy theory bullshit on YouTube so at least this kind of content alleviates some of the anxiety the other content amplifies, because she feels like she can do something now to secure her safety later.

But to get through these conversations, I have to tell myself— hey, if natural disaster comes our way, some of this might be useful. But I know she’s not just thinking a big storm or natural disaster. She’s preparing for the collapse of society. And I don’t know how to break it to her that we wouldn’t survive that. You can make long lasting candles with crisco? Cool. Where you going to by crisco when society collapses? You’ll stock up now? Ok cool. What will you do when it runs out? Honestly, before it runs out, what will you do when people with guns come to take your various stockpiled supplies?

If we hit a point where society collapses, we’re done for. Food, medicine, etc. we can’t survive without society, without a world where people are working together trying to help each other out.

So, I’ll go through with this shit in the name of natural disaster preparedness, and because it helps her. But that’s as far as I’m willing to put energy into it. I refuse to prepare for, bet on, or hope for the collapse of society. I’d rather spend my energy trying to prevent society collapsing, what little part I can play in that. I’d rather spend my energy supporting people in my community. I’d rather work and build towards a better future, not prepare for the worst.

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i know it's hard. but i so firmly believe the strongest antidote to loneliness is reaching out first. and continuing to reach out. again and again and again. excise any scrap of shame you hold about being the person who texts first or pitches the plan or asks to get lunch. everyone is tired and busy and struggling. and afraid of feeling unwanted and unimportant. don't let the people you love feel that way. reach out first. don't be a ghost in your own life.

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tumblr discourse after 13 years on this fucking website

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It’s true, service staff in tourist towns are pretty cause they all came here to be actors. This is the realest thing in FF7.

💜 for the ask game– I want your FF7 hear me out

ooooh hoo hoo spicy (from this ask game)

i mean everyone knows my top hear me out is Reeve, who is the sexiest executive daddy/adorable disaster of a human being ever, but i would also like to submit for review: the haunted hotel bellhop

HEAR ME OUT

yes he's upside-down and might be clinically insane, but he's also smoking hot, not even a little bit scared of barrett's stupid arm gun, and having fun with his job. those are all criteria that work very much in his favor.

also he's clearly quite experienced with ropes so… 👀💦

LOOK HOW PRETTY HE IS

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As I've shown on some other posts, I like to look at old websites sometimes to finds fandom stuff, and today found the oldest english-language Yu-Gi-Oh fanfic yet in the newsgroup rec.arts.anime.creative!

(mind you, it's probably not the first one, just the oldest I've seen; the fact I'm awful searching on stuff like Usenet probably doesn't help it)

It's called The Matchmaker, it's from August 1999 (a little less than 1 year before the Duel Monsters anime) and was written by Kyoko Takara!

LINK HERE!

Alongside it found some of the oldest fansites yet with those links in the author's notes! Already put links to them on Fanlore