#love conquers all... haha... so about that painting

[pepstarvanmoon]

I keep wanting to do byler analysis while also giving milkvan a fair chance and it just does not work. They're not even dating (yet), and byler feels a lot more intimate. I yapped about S3 in my last post, but for being the season where they're finally dating and are ready to have that cute, summer whirlwind romance, milkvan as a romantic pairing falls laughably flat. It's like 8 episodes of them trying to tell us that it DOES NOT WORK, and then they spend S4 reinforcing that.

It's hard for me to understand why people enjoy them as a romantic couple when they're written and directed so strangely. It feels like they're never on common ground, and there's always an opportunity to compare them to other couples just to see how out of sync they are.

It really bothers me how unsatisfying their relationship feels. They barely have any screen time together in S2 if you don't count the longing, and even then Mike is eventually occupied with Will and El with the discovery of her sister.

I feel like El gets dragged away for self-discovery/personal growth in every season besides S1, and that's always done without Mike. On the other hand, while she's gone, Mike spends his time in self-pity before eventually forgetting about it.

Like if they're endgame this is the weirdest slowburn to a healthy relationship I've ever seen.

There are posts discussing how the Duffers know how to write romantic relationships, and how that's proof that Mike and El won't stay together, but damn. Some people really expect this to be El's first and ONLY relationship? How unhappy does she have to appear? How many times does she have to convey to people she that she feels like a monster? How often will she have to beg for love?

How many times do El and Mike have to look at each other like they're strangers? Like they don't understand each other? Like they're not what the other needs?

If they hit me with another "oh no! Our relationship is having issues, let's just not talk for a while. Man, being without you is kinda chill. Are we... good friends? Maybe we can—whoa! Is that a traumatic experience? Guess I actually need you, like, romantically, and it's not because of the crippling loneliness and fear of abandonment! I left that in the closet, along with some other things. Oh, and those problems we were having, let's not talk about them. There's no need! We're in love after all, and love conquers all!" I'm gonna lose it.

[gralunaisland]

The jealous j*v*a gag was never funny but girl really got jealous over a CAT and Gray dancing for fun with his child teammate. Do people really find this endearing? funny? She makes every interaction Gray has into something gross. Don't get me wrong it isn't funny when she does it with Lucy either (this is an extremely toxic relationship and I don't like to see it portrayed as cute or funny), but her acting like he's into Frosch or Wendy disgusts me (idk if it makes sense haha)

juvia Believes in the Worst of Gray, and she Couldn't Care Less

Oh, you make perfect sense to me, Anon, and you make such a good, damning point against juvia.

I love how you phrase it because it's just so accurate:

"she makes every interaction Gray has into something gross".

The fact that in juvia's mind, Gray could be a p*dophile or someone who practices b*stiality, is just beyond disturbing, for multiple reasons.

A, if she really thinks Gray is capable of those things, and still "loves" him, then what does that make her? Someone who supports those things too. Jail. Jail right now.

B, despite thinking those things about Gray, there's no acknowledgement from juvia that that's so very wrong, there's just, as you say, jealousy. Instead of putrid disgust, juvia feels jealous over a child and a cat. That's revolting, immoral, and just downright pathetic.

C, it just shows how juvia does not know Gray at all, what his values are, whom he loves, what kind of a person he is. And nor does she care. And yet this is the woman we're supposed to want to be with him. Right. That checks out.

D, what's more, Gray can do no wrong in her eyes (clearly), so if Gray likes Wendy or Frosch, guess what, it's not Gray who's the problem here- it's the child and the animal. They're her love rivals, they're whom she must conquer in a battle of love. The two who would be victims to Gray if this deluded insanity juvia believed about him was true are the very ones juvia points her gnarled finger at and declares war on. (Hypothetical) Victim-blaming/abuse at its finest.

You're right, Anon, that this jealous gag isn't funny even when inflicted on women of Gray's age and species. It's just uncomfortable, cringe, toxic, malicious, and sad. But it's infinitely more despicable when juvia's delusions and fantasies paint such a horrid picture of Gray and those around him, where his morals are misrepresented, his reputation tarnished, where such evil, perverse things are presented as if we're supposed to laugh at it.

This point doesn't get talked about enough (by myself included), but it truly is one of the most damning pieces of evidence of why juvia is a loathsome, detestable human being, and why she should never be with Gray.

Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with me, Anon! This is truly a very important point to be made, and I am very grateful to you that this could be addressed very carefully on my blog.

[tacoma-narrows]

BLAST!

The first original album from Let's Get Back!!

The boys have finally done it! Shep, PB, Rye and Pumpernickel have put together an album of 10 all-new, original tracks! This is a big undertaking for them, as all of Let's Get Back!'s previous releases have been either compilations of covers from various artists or whole album covers of one band's album! They're a pop rock/punk rock band, so I love the direction I went with the cover and the song titles, which you can see below along with some more info about these pieces!

Their tracklist (which would be the back cover of the physical album) consists of:

Conquer Reality

Fast Rising Star

All About the Ride

Radiation Situation

Tremendous

The Crush-Down Phase

Hurricane Hunters

Parallax

Maximum Overdrive

Horizons

I've had a lot of these song names just sitting in a notes file on my phone for like, over a year now. Whenever I think of something or come across a word or phrase and I immediately think "Oh that'd make a dope song title," I write it down there and they just accumulate over time lol. I have a lot of potential album names as well but those are for another time haha. Of course, this is all just for fun. I can't actually make/play/record any kind of music irl, so it's just a fun thing to think abt. The vibe I was going for with the drawings is like a paint-blast portrait thing where people stand against a wall, an air compressor full of paint gets blasted at them and leaves their outline on the wall. It was fun to work with the silhouettes here as well, since that's something I've only really done once before too.

I have another idea that I wanna attach to this that you guys may see in a day or two, so keep an eye out hehe

[1miine-blog]

Enough of my thoughts. Let me create a crappy RadioApple oneshot (It's just me going with the flow. Im really sorry if the povs get confusing)+(It's just Lucifer healing Alastor)

Lucifer grunts as he stares out of the windows of his freshly made apple shaped chambers. He's happy, ofcourse! Charlie is slowly achieving her dreams, and each feat she triumphantly reaches reminds Lucifer of his sweetheart, Lilith, more and more. He's proud of them, and it warms his heart knowing his family loves being a beacon of hope for the dwellers of hell.

So why are his brows furrowed and his face painted with extreme grimace? Well the stupid radio music emanating from the other side of the hotel should explain it.

If Albert wasn't hosting or blasting jazzical music every morning, he'd play fiddle with some obnoxiously loud Television guy who seems to lose every. single. time.

Lucifer scoffs, these two surely are serious about playing a part for the Pride Ring. He can't just leave, because that might upset sweet Char-char.

It was fine, A-Okay, sure! But not exactly when he needs time to be depressed and a mess. He may NOT require sleep, but that doesn't mean he can't desire one! Probably hoping for a permanent one.. Haha... Anyway, Alaska keeps bothering his slumber and it was getting quite unbearable.

He sighs melodramatically before lightly kicking a duck prototype. It makes an adorable squeaking sound, which makes him smile for a small moment.

A loud thumping sound shakens the distracted Lucifer, catching his attention. It came from that annoying deer guy again, the noise was easy to grasp because it echoed through his mic.

Whatever, Lucifer thought, rolling his eyes in dismissal. He has to hang around the lobby with Charlie and the others. The bartender's a good guy with great champagne.

After a while of blocking away outside hubbubs to have a peaceful makeover, Lucifer finally places his iconic top hat on, touching up some strands of hair for the finished look. He grabs his cane and closes the door behind him for good.

Lucifer has a specific aura to him that reminds anyone his authority, of course it's because of his overwhelming power. But he's pretty silly on top of all that crap.

Just before setting a foot on the stairs, he takes a really really big deep breath. He makes an awfully forced smile that definitely took all of his might to muster.

"Haha! You, sir, are proving to be the most suitable choice for the 'dud' birth parent."

'Great, speak of the dear.' Lucifer thought. His eye twitches, but he stands his ground, giving no attention to the man behind him.

Alastor's smile wavers just about, one thing he disliked the most was being thrown out of the spotlight.

"Charlie would be wise to direct you to me, sir. I possess a treasure trove of fatherly wisdom, perfect for your needs." Alastor walks past Lucifer, closing his eyes in viscious mockery.

Lucifer scowls at that, he uses the end of his cane against Alastor's chest to forcefully push him aside.

"You-" Alastor coughs up blood so suddenly, it made Lucifer audibly shout "EUGH!"

"Dad? Is that you?" Charlie's mumbled voice from downstairs, her footsteps began approaching.

Lucifer widens his eyes, everything is happening too fast. But one thing's for sure, this situation is not difficult to misunderstand. He hurriedly picks up Alastor bridal style.

"H-Haha yes, Charlie! Don't wait for me, I'll be right there!" He shouts frantically, sighing in quick relief once the footsteps finally stop.

He runs back to his room and sets the injured Alastor down on his bed, which looks like it got conquered by a bunch of ducks.

Alastor who was immobilized, attempts to use his shadow to leave this terrible situation. But Lucifer simply pulled him out with his own claws.

"I WILL be healing you." Lucifer's voice turns demonic, his face dark, he's wearing a grin that would both piss and scare anyone off.

Alastor's mouth thins into a small line. Still smiling, but his ears are slightly dropped down as he looks back at him.

---

The healing session was pretty lackluster. Alastor was just stiff and silent the entire time. He still had that shit eating grin though.

Lucifer on the other hand, just wants to get this over with. He looks pretty upset.

You can imagine him sitting at the side, palm pressed into Alastor's torso as it illuminates a bright yellow glow. Alastor with his feet dangling on the edge of the bed, barely showing any movement.

Maybe it was peaceful. But who knows for sure.

[markantonys]

Hi! What are your thoughts on the first two Domina episodes?

i'm liking the season so far! it's bringing ALL the messy drama and beautiful costumes that i loved in s1, and i love that it feels like even more of an ensemble show now that the kids are older and we're getting to see more of them, especially marcella and the antonias who were mostly background characters in s1. the downside is that there isn't enough time for every character - my beloved julia was barely in these two episodes, but hopefully she'll have time to shine later in the season.

my beloved iullus continues to be rome's #1 himbo and i love that for him and for julia and for me <3 my beloved octavia continues to slay every scene she's in, and i feel like this season has been more equitable in the julian vs. claudian conflict, which makes me happy. my impression in s1 was that they were trying to sell livia as our righteous girlboss heroine whose detractors are all villainous, and correspondingly livia's kids as victims and octavia's as bullies, whereas this season shows livia in a more neutral light and offers a lot of sympathy to the victims of her ambitions (octavia's grief for marcellus, gemina's whole storyline). i think that since last season ended with livia's moral tipping point (killing marcellus), that naturally allows the narrative in this season to acknowledge and lean into her moral ambiguity and to really question whether her ends justify her means, which is great. of course, it could just be that i was in a different frame of mind when i watched s1 several years ago rather than an actual change in the show, so take this point of comparison with a grain of salt!

speaking of gemina, so far i quite like that storyline! i was expecting her to be treated by the narrative as an object in the way of livia's goals and for us to never see her again after she was sold in ep1, so i was very pleasantly surprised when she cropped up again and when ep2 focused on her emotions rather than just making her a sexy lamp for augustus to fuck. our elite protagonists talk a big game about Rome and The Republic but don't actually give a shit about the people who live there, and gemina's storyline is a good way to counteract the propaganda the main characters spout and to show how lower classes and conquered peoples are harmed by the roman elite. i'm really intrigued to see where her storyline goes, especially now that scribonia is involved, but i remember that (imo) s1 had an appalling lack of empathy for scribonia's shitty treatment by augustus and just painted her as a high school mean girl, so i'm also a little nervous to see what they do with this duo lmao

marcella is also a high school mean girl so far, which is disappointing but not surprising given her few scenes in s1. i would love for them to allow her more depth later on, but i'm not sure how likely that is (and, i mean, fair play if they want to show that the richest kids in rome are plain ol spoiled brats and there's nothing deeper to it haha). i guess that's how i'd sum up my main problem with s1, that it fell into the trap of pitting women against each other in a patriarchal society where men are the ones oppressing them. s2 does this too, but so far it's been in a way that seems more self-aware and seems to be putting the blame more on the patriarchy than on the women fighting and hurting each other for power (livia's rant to antonia about being a woman in rome comes to mind), so we will see!

oh, the last thing i wanted to mention is how funny this show is at times! i really love when period dramas let themselves be funny rather than taking themselves super seriously all the time and acting like people in ye olden days never swore or made jokes.

[strapinandstraponyourstrapons]

no one asked for this, don't read all this, keep scrolling, save yourself

i was inspired by @canary44 's theo raeken coded playlist, and i really wanted to make theo a sad boi playlist of songs by my favourite artist. aurora's music is very special to me; she makes me feel a lot and has gotten me through some very tough moments in life. so i wanted to pick songs for theo that i thought sounded like echoes of his grief, or invitations to lean into his softer parts, and to not let pain tear him apart.

did i add like, half of her discography? yes but i could have added more so don't fucking try me🥰💅✨

if anyone doesn't wanna listen to the whole thing but wants the vibes, here's a breakdown.

grieving songs: Runaway, Little Boy in the Grass, Lucky, Winter Bird (he would 100% cry to it while thinking about tara, argue with the wall), Through The Eyes Of A Child, It Happened Quiet

healing songs: Conqueror, Warrior, All Is Soft Inside, Infections Of A Different Kind, The River, Daydreamer, Soft Universe, Giving In To The Love, This Could Be A Dream

"fuck you dread doctors and fuck you god" songs: Running With The Wolves, Churchyard, You Keep Me Crawling, Blood In The Wine, The Devil Is Human

"haha i'm fucked up" songs: In Boxes, Soulless Creatures, In Bottles, The Innocent

i'm also going to add some lyrics from each song that reminded me of him here bc i love her lyrics so muuuuuuuuch🖤

Runaway

and all this time i have been lyin

oh lyin in secret to myself

i've been putting sorrow on the farthest place

on my shelf, la-di-da

and i was runnin far away

would i run off the world someday?

nobody knows, nobody knows

and i was dancing in the rain i felt alive and i can't complain

but no, take me home, take me home where i belong, i got no other place to go

Running With The Wolves

there's blood on your lies

the sky's open wide

there is nowhere for you to hide

the hunter's moon is shining

i'm running with the wolves tonight

In Boxes

calling out for the lonely, i am going home

i've been doing awful things again

i hear them laughing in my head

Little Boy In The Grass

when will my healing come?

when will my healing come along?

sinking like a stone

when will my healing come along?

finally i am over it all

finally i am over it all

Conqueror

broken mornings, broken nights and broken days inbetween

open ground the sky is open, makes an open scene

Lucky

i, i don't know where i am, where i'll go

where to even begin when i know

what lies behind, makes no sense in my mind

but i know that it's time to let go

and i feel the light for the very first time

not anybody knows that i am lucky to be alive

Winter Bird

silent things

violent chase

we are dancing again in a dream by the lake

my tears are always frozen

i can see the air i breathe

got my fingers painting pictures on the glass in front of me

lay me by the frozen river where the boats have passed me by

all i need is to remember how it was to feel alive

Through The Eyes Of A Child

when a human strokes your skin

that is when you let them in

let them in before they go

i would rather feel alive with a childlike soul

with a childlike soul

Warrior

i can't recall the last time i opened my eyes to see the world as beautiful

and i built a cage to hide in

i'm hiding, i'm trying to battle the night

let love conquer your mind

warrior, warrior

just reach out for the light

warrior, warrior

All Is Soft Inside

i don't know why, but i feel down

you need to know, i can't go on

i was a rose, i was an animal

don't let me change, don't let me go

all around is stone, all is soft inside

It Happened Quiet

you fell apart

like a stone can be broken into sand

a thousand pieces

spread across a crying land

and you can't remember that day

but you know it happened quiet

so quiet

Churchyard

hate followed him gently

black seeds in his heart

roots tearing the love in him apart

he told me i belong in a churchyard

he told me i could walk away but i wouldn't get far

tell me how do people know what is hurt, what is love?

he told me i belong in a churchyard

Soft Universe

don't let me turn into pain

all of this is loveliness

chaos came, we laid our head

down on a feather cotton bed

you find a heart and catch your breath

let the universe go red

speak to me, speak to me

with love in your words

make for me, make for me

a soft universe

Infections Of A Different Kind

and i beg, i beg to be drained

from the pain i have soaked myself in

so i can stay okay

and more than okay for a while

for a while, for a while

The River

don't forget who you are even though you are hurt

you are caught in a wire and soon it will burst

you can cry

drinking your eyes

do you miss the sadness when it's gone?

and you let the river run wild

Daydreamers

i step on broken glass

and dream of soft clouds

when feelings are heavy they become

all we are

and we become

nighttime dreamers, street walkers, small talkers

when we should be

daydreamers, and moonwalkers, and dream talkers

Soulless Creatures

never knew this curious head of mine

never knew what is love if kept inside

nothing but an endless empty heart

like laying a seed within the dark

give me a piece of your heart

give me a piece of your hands as we go

In Bottles

i will kindly watch you sleep

i find out that your eyes are open

i hide all the pieces that you never would have liked

if you knew about them

so i hide my children

oh, cover your eyes, cover your eyes

hide me inside

under your spine, under your spine

Giving In To The Love

cause if i'm not loved, i guess that i am cursed

i gotta know how to beat it, beat it first

if i'll be somebody i'll never let my skin decide it for me

i never had the world so why change for it

i never had the world so why change for it

giving in to the love, giving in to the love

giving in to the love, the love, the love, the love

You Keep Me Crawling

if i keep, if i keep forgiving

maybe i'll believe that you never meant for life to hurt for me

maybe i'll recover if you set me free

but why does it make me feel like i am weak and small?

why do i keep begging like the animal?

maybe it's because i need to serve someone

so you keep me crawling on my knees

The Innocent

danger in the boy that would lose control

when everyone thought he had a heart of gold

i remember how we used to play

he'd let me win if i let him stay

left without a single trace

i don't know why he said goodbye to love

Blood In The Wine

i was given a heart before i was given a mind

a thirst for pleasure and war

a hunger we keep inside

we fell from sky with grace, and life gave us a sweeter taste

you can drink, you can feast

there's beauty in your beast

the flesh and the fruit and the blood in the wine

come on feel alive, lover

come on feel the love, like a sinner

shout it louder, shout it for the ones who can never say

i won't feel ashamed, mother

can you break the chains, of her

shout it louder, not a sinner

she's a lover

This Could Be A Dream

feeling so alive can hurt so very much

when you're losing touch

but if i touched you, would you feel it there?

could i trust love, even if i'm scared?

oh i wish i could give like i'm longing to give

oh i wish i could live like i'm longing to live

The Devil Is Human

oh do you envy how i'm free?

how the life in me is real

running barefoot through the fields

oh does it hurt how i don't look at you with fear?

do you like to watch me kneel

'cause the way it makes you feel?

and i hear you don't like it

i don't care if you don't

...if you actually indulged me and read all this i'm sorry but what is wrong with you

[unvxulted]

message to self 11-22-2024

fuck. its been like YEARS since i've been on tumblr. but i've re-read some of the things i've posted.

im happy i found some clarity to who i am supposed to be. all of these outcomes of life, is what created me as a person. currently, i'm 26 years of age, when i posted, i was probably like 20, 21, maybe 22. but needless to say, i'm happy with how i've grown so far.

to anyone that cares, i've went to therapy, i've done some shadow work, i've had my fair share of hoe tendencies, had a fair share of relationships, both good and bad. i've learned to just not think about relationships, despite how badly i'd want to be in one.

the goal is to be full of myself til i get sick of it. but sick in a healthy way, not an unhealthy way. i started to stream, i started a youtube channel, i started the process of creating my own video game, i started story writing about the mini fantasies and anime fight scenes in my head... i started finding myself again and i'm so happy.

during that period of my life, i was going through my own silent hell, similar to silent hill (a game which i love so damn much), and i've conquered. yes, still going through the motions, but alongside that, still triumphant.

to anyone reading this and is struggling, there is a salvation within yourself. you have to just believe that it is within. God is within, and i'm not religious at all haha. i just had to realize that creation, ideas, love, experiences, are all from within. and i'm so happy i took the time to learn myself enough to figure that out. life isn't great, but in my books, it's better than it was years ago. sometimes it just takes time, and it's okay. i legit have a painting above my computer setup right now that says "All Things Grow". just allow yourself to bloom in your pot of uncertainty, and i promise you, you'll be exactly where you need to be when the time comes. if you don't believe in a God, Source or anything like that, just know that life has you in your corner. take the time to love yourself. take the time to nurture yourself. take the time to learn yourself, and all the answers will be right there.

i love you if no one ever told you that. and i'm proud of the progress you have made, big or small. you are more than what you think, and i can't wait for what you have in store. trust in yourself, fuck the outside noise. don't quit, keep running, keep charging in, because you'd never know where you'd end up.

i love you so much, even if i'm a stranger. i wish someone told me this. but you have so much to give. don't give up. don't ever let anyone else tell you otherwise. and until then, i'll see you soon

<3

[hauntingthechateau]

Thursday November 9th

Tried to see how fast I could get up and out the door this morning... the answer is not very fast if I'm wearing makeup hahah. Got to the studio around 7:50 after a brief detour in the village. Really gotta go for a full walk of the village sometime. The wind was howling and the water was burbling and I made my way over the bridge onto the property (this I think will be the sound I most associate with this place) and got to chai and journaling. Realized my shirt was inside out... getting out of the house fast is clearly challenging for me 😅

Over breakfast, Stephanie paid me the complement "you look like someone who reads books" and sure enough our goodreads accounts are super similar! So I started on Iron Wing (surprised it was just available from the library with no waitlist) on audiobook so I would have someone to scream at about it haha.

After breakfast Beulah gave her bussiness of art talk in the salon with big trays of coffee and tea. While some of it was stuff I've been doing for years, it was great to have the perspective of someone who has owned galleries, been doing art for years and has lived all over. I definitely have some new resources to look through and want to follow up with Beulah about more international representation stuff later.

The bussiness talk ended around noon and although I usually take a later lunch, I just killed a little time doing computer work before grabbing lunch and heading down to the studio (theived a profiterole for later 😈).

I've been accidentally carrying around a bottle of wine in my bag because I keep forgetting to take it out. I finally remembered this morning and my bag is feeling much lighter now haha.

I saw a picture of a sculpture the other day (Gaetano Motelli (1806-1858) La sposa dei Sacri Cantici (1854)) and I love it but I don't know what to do with it, so I will put it here for later inspiration. I've really been vibing with victorian art lately, which is always mixed feelings because these fuckers really ruined society and so much of what they were doing is often seen as milk-toast versions of better art, but there's something about some of the art that really has a teenage angst to it that I'm drawn to. Also, so much of the art o medieval inspired in a way that I wish I could incorporate into my work!

Wasn't really feeling painting this afternoon (this always happens if I don't get to work in the morning) so I spent the day collecting resources and preparing for the next bunch of paintings. By end of day I was getting a little itchy to play with paint, so I finished a couple smaller pieces. Dusty came down to the studios to visit at one point (followed Stephanie down from the Chateau) and he had a lil look around my studio.

Headed up for dinner, Schnitzel, spaezle, scalloped potatoes, fresh radishes, salad with corn, zucchini soup and these little creamy seafood bakes that I didn't catch the name of, but they were INCREDIBLE! I'm definitely having another for lunch tomorrow! Dessert was creme brûlée!!!

Went home early with Lauren and conquered our laundry machines (turns out its quite easy when you have translate on your phone and theres an english manual online). Read in the living room while waiting on laundry and I really feel like I'm getting close to the end of the book now! Due back in four days!

[epicswagdivorceguy1]

OK! here's some of my dragon ball ocs. under a readmore because i um. talked a lot LOL

despite the fact i spend every day thinking about her, i actually only have like. one. digital drawing of cuco so! you're getting a bunch of sketches of her instead

she was my first dragon ball oc, and her original reference was my very first post on tumblr! i love her very much <3 even though she's a horrible person LOL. she's honestly just a typical saiyan, just living to conquer planets for the frieza force and beat people to death (which is an activity she takes a lot of joy in). she dies in the destruction of planet vegeta, but that doesn't stop me from putting her in situations. i think she was also the first in a long line of buff butch lesbian ocs who are awful people

tamo and pelas are two of my time patrollers in xenoverse 2! all i have are mspaint doodles of them. here's a comic i made last year of them. pelas is the angry one and tamo is the one with sunglasses (the two in the corner are plasta and kerry- i'll talk about them in a moment)

tamo is a saiyan who loves pissing people off and generally being very annoying (she's also a huge coward who will dip from a fight if she's losing, which is very often because she always starting shit LOL). she's childhood friends with my icejin time patroller, popsicle. they're both pictures here + a solo sketch of her. she looks a lot cooler than she actually is

pelas is a majin who used to be evil or something and then got her ass beat and only joined the time patrol to save her ass. she's incredibly cruel and angry. she's always telling people to kill themselves and shit lmao

together these two feed off each others worst impulses, tamo is always goading pelas into getting pissed off and trying to attack her (so they can spar! yay! also she thinks its funny). pelas completely despises tamo and honestly wants to kill her (and probably has tried)... but at the same time she kind of loves having someone around who she can just be mean to (who won't report her to hr for death threats and bullying). she'd never admit this though.

also i did that enemies chart with them a month or so back! i'd change a couple things now but i think it gives a good idea of what their dynamic is still lol

plasta, popsicle, kerry, and walla are my other time patrollers. i like to imagine them, and pelas and tamo, all hanging out lol. here's some mspaint and sketchbook doodles of them (also gogeta is there in the last one)

they're all featured in the second pic, in it's: kerry and walla at the top, plasta, tamo, and pelas in the middle, and popsicle is at the bottom (he's a short king).

plasta is a weird looking earthling, who is either an android or a parasite that took over a human body.. IDK.. SORRY.. i need to develop her more. they seem pretty serious and focused but honesty it's pretty nervous a lot of the time. she is just a normal woman, okay. here's a drawing of her from last year

popsicle is an icejin/frieza race or whatever. he's just really nice and upbeat ^.^ has a very "i can fix them" vibe for everyone. he just wants people to be the best version of themselves! he's pretty emotionally intelligent and can intuit pretty well how people are feeling, but can be kinda nosy and overbearing even if he does mean well. i think hes fighting for his life to be tamo and pelas' couples counselor

kerry is a namekian who comes from some bog planet. my only thought while making them was bog monster LOL. they seem really intimidating, but they're actually a huge sweetheart. they're really passionate about farming and nature.

walla is a majin who loves wrestling! she's a huge showman-type, and treats fighting like it's, well, a show haha. he is also a catgirl. i made her on a whim so he's kinda underdeveloped.

ALSO here's my one single splatoon oc who has a reference (even if it's messy and like a year old.

they're emo and think turf wars are stupid, they'd much rather go paint stuff.

OK THAT'S ALL!!!! THANK YOU FOR READING ALL THE WAY THROUGH!!!!!!!

You should post about your OCs!

(eyes shoot open) I FORGOT TO ANSWER THIS ITS LIKE A MONTH OLD IM SO SORRY. but youre right i SHOULD post about my ocs

[zsocca55]

Hello, love your art. It's very cute)))) You have a new russian fan. Can you tell me what rulers do Hungarians consider to be the best? I have to admit I know very little of Hungarian history...

Hi tairin! I’ve seen your other message too and I’m thankful for the kind words! Sorry for the delayed reply! I wanted to make a painting-like drawing for you but I suck at digital painting so here I made a list of Hungary’s Top 5 (+1) rulers in my usual style instead.

I’m afraid only Hungarians will get these jokes. /sigh/ Here are some info about these kings and queens:

-Szent István/Saint Stephen: he was our first king, he brought christianity to Hungary and founded the state. He wrote our first laws and a guide for his son on how to govern the kingdom rightfully - his son was sadly killed during hunting and so ‘game of thrones’ started after his death.

-Hunyadi Mátyás/Matthias: the renaissance king, son of the turk-beater Hunyadi János/John, his family’s symbol is a raven with a ring in its mouth and he founded an elite mercenary army called the “Black Army”. He also conquered Vienna and South-Austria by the way. Legend says he also travelled the country in different disguises and served justice among people.

-Károly Róbert/Caroberto: arrived from Italy from the Anjou-dynasty to take the throne but due to not fulfilling the 3 requirement of Hungarian coronation (must be Holy Crown, in Székesfehérvár, by the Archbishop of Esztergom) he made detours and fought wealthy powerful nobles until he was coronated for the 3rd time for real. Phew. The Hungarian throne is demanding.

-IV.Béla: his father was a money-waster so he decided to be the opposite. Nobles didn’t like him that much though so they didn’t come to protect the country when tatars invaded. Béla fled to Croatia and after tatars left, he returned to refound the state. Hungary became a multi-ethnic country under his rule. (That’s why she refers to the ‘kuns’.)

-Szent László/Saint Lawrence: he was called the knight king because he waged wars all his life. He also carried an axe around for some reason. He was raised in Poland by the way. Many legends are centered around his figure. He rescued damsels in distress and fooled enemy with throwing small stones at them, while the enemy believed it was money.

-Mária Terézia/Maria Theresa: the queen Austrian men didn’t want and Hungarians did because she pleaded with her child on her arm so the Hungarian nobles were touched and exclaimed: Our lives and blood for the queen! (Vitam et sanguinem pro rege nostro!) She also enforced compulsory education for kids so young schoolers of today always blame her for hard education, haha.

Aaand that’s all for this history lesson. Hope it wasn’t too much. ^-^’

[slitherbop]

.......Any papastuck hcs?

THANK YOU for giving me an excuse to publicly ramble about PAPA G AND CHUCK beware of Spoilers within ALSO HERE’S A PIC happy valentines day

When they met and Chuck was still Stuck in the floor, like Post-Chicken-Feed-Missing-Scene, Chuck would be RUDE as HELL to Papa G. But Papa G took it as realizing he’s just A Guy and was like AH MAYBE I SHOULDA BEEN GIVIN HIM REAL FOOD and then he does that, but Chuck is still a bastard to him. Not to The Kid’s knowledge tho, he only found out that Papa G knew about Chuck’s existence in the second episode like we saw.

Papa G literally just looked at Chuck and how Evil he was being at the beginning and was like OH YES WE CAN BE FRIENDS I LIKE THIS GUY cuz he DID save him and want him to be redeemed and have the last ring to be on the team... Papa G’s Immediate Trust.. like if u agree

I like to imagine that Papa G actually did have da iced tea with Chuck to get to know him :] this was Post-Chuck-getting-Cut-in-Half. Papa G is Very Curious about Chuck but Chuck’s still a rude little man at this point and Papa G laughs off his behaviour. Papa G might be f*cked up enough that he does enjoy his company, bad vibes and all

Chuck has NO idea what to make of Papa G here because no one else has ever shown him kindness or wasn’t annoyed at him. It doesn’t stop him from being a force of negativity though cuz at this point he still Believes he’s going to conquer the earth.

This ended up being like a timeline of their relationship and not relationship headcanon UUHH OOPS!!!!!

OK, Chuck actually likes that he calls him Charles it’s the special name :]

I’m prepared to be proven wrong but it would be epic if Chuck started calling Papa G “George” because he was there to hear that that is his first name and Papa G like with Tuna Sandwich doesn’t mind being called it, it’s just his name. Also George is my real name and I’d love to hear Chuck say. Also Also George and Charles are gay old man names

Uh oh I’m talking more about timeline stuff but some time after the events of the big showdown and they’re dealing with the fact that Chuck is deciding to stay here on earth, Papa G and The Kid make him his own living space there in the junkyard with them. Not sure where or what it’d look like but it means a lot to Chuck (makes this face -> 🥺) I’d imagine since his species aren’t given their own names / have individuality he wasn’t given a space of his own to do whatever he wanted with

Since they no longer have the rings, Chuck helps Papa G as an extra hand doing work in the yard (Papa G had to get used to doing stuff without being his own company :[ ) and Chuck ACTUALLY LOVES HELPING imagine that one scene where Papa G and Chuck are working together to build the ice cream megaphone truck, they’re both really skilled at building stuff and enjoy it so it’s like that pretty often!

I swear to god Papa G needs to get Chuck a wheelchair / make him one, I want to believe that he does have one and we just didn’t see it at the end of the time skip -_- :prayer: but they totally deck it the hell out (you KNOW Papa G is capable of making deadly death machines and you KNOW Chuck would absolutely love that sh*t!!!!)

Anyway back to the time skip relationship development thing: PAPA G SHOWS CHUCK AROUND HIS HOUSE I wish we knew what inside the house looked like besides the kitchen sink lol but Papa G figured if he’s gonna be around here more often he might as well show him where HE lives! Papa G is SUPER excitedly showing him all the weird stuff he’s accumulated over his lifetime. Chuck doesn’t Get the specialness of physical possessions and calls it Junk but Papa G doesn’t mind! He shows things and Chuck is confused about certain things (being an Alien) and Papa G is happy to explain everything to him.

Papa G shares Chuck his art and is showing him painting ;_; once again Chuck is a bastard and doesn’t totally get it. Papa G would definitely call HIM an artist, pointing out that all the building that Chuck does is artwork, those comics that he spent all that time reading was him appreciating the art, and that changes the way he views it. Chuck makes his own dam comics, I’d imagine the way he’d draw is very unique and the text is written in his language, and then it’s Papa G who doesn’t totally get it but is ENTHUSIASTIC ABOUT IT!!!

Also Papa G totally takes Chuck out to the middle of nowhere to go look for junk, this is probably Chuck’s Least Favourite Activity LOL but they do spend a lot of time talking about anything, I’m really curious about what the kind of things they’d even say when they’re not faced with any threat and are only with each other *looks up at the sky in thought..*

Chuck please go off about your previous life away from earth I feel like as soon as he came here he kinda just accepted himself being Stuck Chuck and therefore had no attachment to being a nameless body in an alien army. Also Papa G please open up about your messed up secret history that warranted the government keeping tabs on you and made you live almost completely isolated.

See^ I think whatever they got going on on a DEEP LEVEL could be wild and would have so much to unravel, Chuck’s life before this was probably just 90% seeing various people DIE and was simply made to Kill people for his leader. And. you KNOW Papa G has something Messed Up about him + Is Traumatized / got “bad flashbacks” + the whole seeing himself die and being numb to it. And now that they are people who are trying to save lives on their team they could Relate to each other as the two older guys with UNKNOWN HISTORY!!!!

UUUUH OK SO SHIP HEADCANONS RIGHT. RIGHT. They hold hands :] they rarely kiss it’s mostly Papa G who kisses Chuck on the face but Chuck is forbidden from kissing unless Papa G wants to go to sleep. Also Chuck likes to be held by Papa G, they hug a lot :D Papa G takes Chuck out to the diner and gets him everything he wants <3 they go to the house and watch movies and Kid joins them too as a family ;_; Papa G goes to sleep in his god forsaken hammock with Chuck, and Chuck is like So This Is Your Weird-Ass Cocoon Huh and Papa G is like HAHA YUP and its sweet.

I’m gonna end this here thank you for reading, this is the kinda stuff I ramble on and on like this in private but I hope u enjoy some of my thoughts about this I think it’s a genius ship with so much potential and is my favourite thing right now THANKS

[ghost-of-you]

Can you explain SGFG like you did self titled haha

*straightens back* *pull up sleeves* *cracks fingers* i thought you'd never ask skspakoakaoak

We start out strong with a "you're so hot I'd let you rob me" song, don't know what was going on when they wrote this, but sure, then we move on to "i might be crazy and broken but it's alright tho cuz people around me are kinda hot but just kinda tho" then we move to a fuck capitalism song "we can all get some we can all get paid" still waiting for clearer instructions on that one, then we go to "I'm complicated, slightly depressed but I don't give a fuck" and then we have one of the best songs ever written with the amazing "I'm trapped in my own head and I keep making mistakes but I'm trying so fucking hard please tell me you see that" like excuse me *hiding knife in my back" Michael, who hurt you like that? I just wanna talk.

Then we have catch fire, i don't know what Muke was on when they wrote that but i want some of it "now I'm lost in the swirling sea of your sorry eyes" "cause the ghost of survivals guilt can be so unkind" "the words you speak surrounding me this is broken love in the first degree the air you breathe is haunting me maybe I'll change your mind" excuse me???????!??? Then we get "I'm broken and you're broken let's be broken together" the "no more waiting we can save us from falling" gets me every time, then we have a mandatory song about sex but it's so profound and romantic you can forget it is a mandatory song about sex specially with that cool little interlude in the end, then they spin you around with "i love you so much I'll let you use me cuz if I try hard enough I can pretend this isn't just a big lie", then we have an ultimate "how the hell did we get here song" that has stuff like "heartbreak that i can't escape a sinking ship I'll never save" "all your screaming whispers slip right through my fingers but these memories linger on" all hidden by the pop punk moment (castaway should've been a single and. I'll die on this hill).

Then we have the "i wanna believe you but i can't trust you" featuring "it doesn't have to be this tragedy this endless lost parade a castle of facade of make believe" again who let them get away with writing this stuff???? And we move on to "my parents got a divorce and they definitely should have but I miss feeling safe at home" I'm not gonna quote anything here cuz I would just write the whole song, the whole song is beautifully written and just paints the most heartbreaking picture ever, but then they spin you around and throw fly away in your face with the "i really really really really wanna run away let's go like right now" song.

And then they spin you around punch you the face and kick you while your down with invisible, i am positive that "another day the wall are built to keep me save i can't escape is too late" is the most heartbreaking thing I'll ever hear, and they follow that up with the hope anthem, i swear every time i hear airplanes for 3:38 minutes i feel like i can conquer the world, the bridge alone is everything, then we have a little "nostalgia is a powerful thing" with San Francisco that in the end is another "i was awful and I'm so sorry please take me back" song and I eat that up every time, then we have 5sos masterpiece, if os/co song is not in your top 10 5sos songs, you're listening to them wrong, go do it again and pay attention this time, I'm looking at you Ashton Calum Luke and Michael how dare you say this is not an s tier song"i guess I was running from something i was running back to you" amazing, the whole outerspace outro, "the darkest night never felt so bright with you by my side" "nothing like the rain when you're in outerspace" the repetition of the "love me like you did" that gives you hope followed by the "I'll give you anything" that just takes it away and then we have the waves and everything calms down and then bam a whole choir telling you it's gonna get better, honestly ending the album with this was such a power move, incredible.

But then you get the bonus songs, the "I'm bad you're worse but I'm loving every second of this rollercoaster" and yet another entry to the "I'm the worst and I'm so sorry please just take me back" that makes me want to rip my hair out "an epilogue before you're done a sequel to what we began" the chorus?!??? The bridge??????? The whole song actually.

Amazing experience from beginning to end, will make you experience the whole spectrum of human emotions. 10000000/10 album.

[gaymgrl]

lesbian asks: 6, 25, 31 ❤️

🌸 𝟔. 𝐅𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐥𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐜𝐥𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠? My friendship bracelet I got from my BFF if that counts ( ♡ ´ ˘ ` ) I either wear it or have it all the time with me; I’m quite attached to it and it gives me comfort whenever I’m feeling down.. Aside from that my favourite item of clothing would definitely be long blouses generally speaking! They’re timeless, workplace-friendly and versatile.. I especially love combining them with a waistcoat; they look even more elegant this way!

🌸 𝟐𝟓. 𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐛𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚 𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐛𝐢𝐚𝐧? Having longer satisfying sex and orgasms as opposed to straight women <3 haha no seriously just....being solely attracted to women thank godness. I’m goldstar so I don’t have a direct comparision what it’s like to be in a hetero relationship, but from what I’ve seen so far I’m just so glad that I never ever have to deal with all of these stupid gender roles and expectations that are imposed on a woman in a straight relationship, or having to deal with a man altogether..

🌸 𝟑𝟏. 𝐓𝐚𝐥𝐤 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐫 𝐡𝐨𝐛𝐛𝐢𝐞𝐬! Oh I have so many interests I would love to talk about in detail! ♡ ♡ I’d say my favorite pastime activity is still drawing and painting, although I’ve been having an art block I can’t seem to conquer for quite some time now. It’s hard to really get into it when my free time is so limited honestly..I just wish to find my passion for it again so I can continue working on my portfolio... Despite that I started journaling more regularly! I’m also trying to learn french right now but it’s been a while since I revised and I’m still a beginner so T_T I love reading, mostly sci-fi.. I managed to persuade one of my friends to read Animal Farm by George Orwell with me together; we’ve been both neglecting reading and I thought doing it this way is a great motivator since we can discuss it afterwards! Speaking of friends I recently bought an instax camera to capture moments together and it’s so much fun!! I also love playing video games...my favorite genres being survival-horror and action-adventure but honestly not limiting myself here!!! I play everything wah.. The last game I completed is Resident Evil 4! Currently playing Horizon Forbidden West and I have Fatal Frame 3 on hold on my PS2 :’3 I also want to get into Elden Ring and replay the Zero Escape series because it’s been a while but god. I really have zero time I’m also still a weeb at heart....although not watching anime that regularly anymore; the last anime I’ve watched is Higurashi Gou! I also love cosplay..it’s been a while but the last character I’ve cosplayed is 2B from Nier: Automata! Really want to give crossplay a try though and cosplay 9S sometime!! <33

[mxadrian779]

1. Aunty Azula recovering post-canon, but still snarky and still hates 99% of people, but has the softest spot for the Steambabies (Zutara).

2. Azula being completely against Zutara until a certain event ( Kat healing her or defending her or etc) and after which she is Kat’s absolute #1 fan and will fight anyone (noblemen/noblewomen or anyone) who has something to say about her. Bonus, if the 2 gang up on poor Zuko haha

Ps. Can you tell that I have a soft spot for Azula 👀

She remembers the days she walked through darkness. It was like an endless thunderstorm in her mind. She remembers feeling like she no longer knew who she was. Her whole identity had revolved around being the Fire Lord's progeny. She was born lucky. She was born to conquer. The day of her defeat had taken everything away from her.

The world around her had considered her as lost as she considered herself. Hopeless. Useless. Dead. There was nothing left for the disgraced princess.

The only ones who showed her mercy were the ones she'd most betrayed. The Avatar, naïve as he often was, always believed in her redemption. Ty Lee was also convinced that she could find the girl she once loved. The others were more cautious and rightfully dubious, but nevertheless treated her more human than she would often treat herself.

It took years to crawl out of the darkness of her mind. Sometimes she still teetered on the edge, threatening to fall back into oblivion. But she swore an oath to herself that she would regain her honour, that she would redeem herself and make her own own destiny. The further from the darkness she was, the more she understood her brother. They were both such victims of a tyrannical man who used his children as pawns. She thought her father genuinely loved her and favoured her over her brother---and he did, because she was easier to use. He knew how to tap the mind of an overly ambitious child who wanted nothing more than the love of the one parent she had left.

At least Zuko was able to escape.

She shook her head to shake off the thought. Now was not the time for bitterness. That was way behind her. Don't look back. Look forward.

When she had been properly familiarised with the Avatar's gang, she found so many things were different than she had thought. The Avatar was with the blind girl, the nonbender with the Kyoshi Warrior...and the waterbender with her brother.

That was a...tricky demon to banish. That was another wound to heal. Seeing the two people most responsible for her downfall was a deeply-embedded thorn. Even out of the darkness, she still was bothered by it, though logically couldn't understand why.

She supposed maybe it was a deep-seated bias against Water Tribesmen that was a reason for her discomfort. The Fire Nation had not been fond of the Tribes because, unlike the Earth Kingdom, they could neither be bought nor bullied. Ravaged as the Southern Water Tribe was, it never stopped fighting or standing up for itself. Maybe there was something to admire in that.

Whatever discomfort she had about the waterbender was clearly reflected. The waterbender was incredibly protective of Zuko, and was very wary of his sister. She feared the former princess could slip back at any moment...and, to be honest, sometimes the princess feared that herself. She couldn't make that guarantee to herself, much less to anyone else.

She didn't think their union could last. Fire and water mix like...well, fire and water. They just don't.

And yet, by the spirits, they did.

She didn't attend their wedding. She couldn't. She didn't need the attention.

She didn't have the right, anyway.

And then came the kids.

Turned out Zuko's greatest honour comes through his kids. He makes an amazing father, determined to be everything their father wasn't. He's supportive. He's attentive. He dotes and yet knows when to give them their freedom. She'd be lying if she said she wasn't sometimes jealous.

Their first was Rinaya, a studious, dedicated firebender whom the Fire Lord adores. Sometimes she can see a little of herself in Rinaya, and her brother takes notice. He seems to be on his guard, watching for warning signs of history repeating itself. He seems determined never to tell his children about their grandfather; the waterbender believes they have the right to know.

She personally prefers to keep everything where it belongs, but she understands the need for awareness. Her family is a strong cautionary tale.

Sometimes, she helps Rinaya learn firebending. It still catches her by surprise to see a normal-coloured flame coming from her hands. When she lost the darkness, she lost the blue fire. She always considered it her trademark, her pride, but constantly tries to remind herself that it was an ill pride. Imbalance isn't a virtue, after all. It wasn't something to hold up to her name.

She likes to think of herself as bonding with her niece, although Rinaya's mother is never far from sight.

She remembers her brother mentioning his early days with the Avatar's gang, and his struggle to neutralise his relationship with the waterbender. There was something in his heart that made it important to redeem himself to her. His sister never asks him further. She knows he shares her desire to leave history alone.

She didn't know that she'd ever reclaim her honour in the waterbender's eyes. She was once afraid to try, thinking it a lost cause, not that she could blame her sister-in-law.

But something changed when Akiyo was born. He was a nonbender, which was taboo in royal history. The Fire Nation takes badly to heirs and heiresses who are not firebenders; Akiyo couldn't even talk yet and he was made a disgrace in the eyes of Fire Nation society. Through this, she found a bizarre feeling of kinship with him, and swore herself to his side as his protector. Maybe a dishonoured princess guarding a dishonoured prince was where her destiny lay.

Through Akiyo, she grew fond of his mother. She saw the pure courage and passion that she possessed, and came to admire everything she had pulled herself through. Often, she wished she could ask how she kept her strength and optimism, wished she could borrow even a drop of her courage. But she knew enough to keep her distance. She was still not trusted. Someday. Not today.

But she's close enough to what matters most to her, and that means the world.

Today, she looks in the mirror, and no longer sees the girl she once was. She paints the white onto her face, and then the red markings, happily covering the face that often haunted her. She slides the gold adornment onto her topknot, places the personal headband, and climbs into the emerald robes, fastening the leather breastplate and aged katana. She makes her way to the foyer and out the front entrance, where she is greeted by her old friend.

"Good morning, Azula," chirps the other, giving her shoulder a meaningful squeeze.

She smiles broadly in response, briefly pulling Ty Lee into a tight hug. Then, she stands back, assumes her guard, and casts her gaze outward into the world.

[fashournalist]

Conquering the Crown: Who Will Be The Next Miss Universe Philippines 2021?

Are you ready, Universe?

Tomorrow, the next Miss Universe Philippines will be crowned in Bohol, and I'd like to share my bets with you (as well as my thoughts on more candidates other than my Top 6. :)

But first, I have to admit I do have a bias for Cavite, Aklan, and Laguna because

1) Cavite is my birthplace and where I spent the first 16 years of my life;

2) Aklan is where my five dear brothers are from;

3) Laguna is where I spent seven eventful years as a UPLB student.

However, these biases aren't the sole reason I'm rooting for these representatives. I believe Victoria Velasquez Vincent, Leren Bautista, and Christelle Abello are really among the best candidates of this year's batch! VVV is actually my top one, followed by Katrina Dimaranan, Maureen Wroblewitz, and Ayn Bernos.

One of the smartest and most eloquent candidates of this batch, Victoria Velasquez Vincent from Cavite has emerged as the Interview Challenge winner, and rightly so. But she caught my attention even before that phase; her Runway Challenge was really impressive as well. As a heritage conservationist and architect, she's committed to solving environmental problems across the globe.

I really wish the winner would be a pure Filipino, but it so happened that VVV impressed me the most. She's half-Irish and half-Filipino, raised in New Zealand.

Now this one's a powerhouse. A pageant veteran, model, actress, and television host, I think (and thousands of others think, too) Katrina Dimaranan from Taguig is the most prepared of them all. She was appointed as USA's Miss Supranational 2018 and finished as 1st Runner Up at the world stage. She was also one of the title holders way back in Binibining Pilipinas 2012.

Kat's charming, authentic personality captivates anyone watching her or listening to her voice. You can see this through the way she nailed the challenges. And though she grew up in the US, she is a pure Filipina.

This woman needs no introduction--Maureen Wroblewitz, the winner of Asia's Next Top Model Season 5. Born in Saudi Arabia, she's a half-Filipina, half-German model and actress who is now representing Pangasinan as she fights for the crown. She has emerged as the Casting Challenge winner, but aside from that, all the results of the other challenges prove how excellent and enthralling she is as a model. Her intelligence can also be seen with every answer she delivers during Q&As.

The most inspiring candidate of all, Ayn Bernos of San Juan, proves that barriers can be broken and stereotypes can be shattered. Proudly standing at 5'3 with morena skin, Ayn represents the majority of Filipino people who are not influenced by foreign blood. I've closely followed her journey from the day she submitted her pageant application, and I'm so happy for her every step of the way. Her millions of followers on TikTok surely feel the same. We feel seen, we feel represented, we feel inspired to also reach for our dreams--no matter how impossible they may seem.

Ayn is a natural Filipina beauty, and she glowed further as she embarked on the road to the crown. Her wit, intelligence, and cheerful personality radiate in every appearance she makes, whether it's an interview or a commercial special by some of MUPH's sponsors.

With enchanting eyes, a driven attitude, and several beauty pageant titles under her belt, Leren Mae Bautista of Laguna is one of the most prepared candidates to represent the nation at the Miss Universe pageant this December.

I started knowing her through the tarpaulins in LB eight years ago. I was still in college, and Leren just won the crown of Miss Los Banos. She conquered the Binibining Laguna title as well. Since then, I knew this classic Filipina beauty and brain would one day captivate the world. Years later, she has placed as a 2nd Runner Up in Miss Globe 2019 and won in other pageants, too. Today, she's aiming for the universe and we all know she's ready.

Armed with an unstoppable grit, this dreamer put her life in the US on pause to once again fight for the crown of Miss Universe. Christelle Abello of Aklan has placed in the top 16 of last year's MUPH, and she has come back stronger this time around. Though she wasn't part of the Top 7 in the Interview Challenge, I think she's one of the most fluent and confident candidates.

Although she was born in America, she embodies the beauty of a real Filipina. I have to mention that I'm not a fan of her evening gown's design, but she still carried it well.

So there, now you know my Top 6! :) They've been my Top 6 for several weeks now, but this doesn't mean I'm not impressed by other candidates.

Michele Angela Okol of Siargao Island nailed the Preliminary Interviews! I haven't watched all the interviews since the KTX pass is just too expensive for me, but I was able to see a few on YouTube. And of them all, Michele's answers were the best. She was certain with her answers. Ingrid "Sam" Santamaria of Paranaque and Chela Grace Falconer of Misamis Oriental are some of the smartest and most fluent candidates as well. Sam placed second in the Interview Challenge.

The Filipina beauty of Janela Cuaton of Albay, Maria Corazon Abalos of Mandaluyong, Mirjan Hipolito of Angeles City, Simone Nadine Bornilla of Marinduque, and Princess Krista Singh of Pasig are some of the most outstanding in their batch. But I think the most outstanding beauty of all, is Jasmine Umali of Manila. She's like a living Mulan, or Barbie. And all these phenomenal women are smart and graceful, too!

Anyhow, if Gianne Asuncion of Cagayan Province wasn't diagnosed with COVID-19, for sure she would make it here and she'd be one of my bets. I hope she comes back next year, same with Maica Cabling Martinez of Nueva Ecija, who didn't make it in this year's Top 30.

You might be wondering why I haven't mentioned Steffi Rose Aberasturi of Cebu Province yet.

Honestly, I can't deny she's gorgeous from head to toe, well-prepared, talented, and confident, but I just cannot stomach supporting someone who supports Rodrigo Duterte. If she wins tomorrow, I will not bash her--I can see why she's one of the frontrunners--but I just cannot see myself rooting for her because of her political stance :( If she was not a DDS though, she would easily be one of my top bets, maybe my top 4 or top 5.

Steffi carries every outfit effortlessly, and her beauty can go from sweet and endearing to regal and fierce. I wish, before the national elections, her eyes would be opened to the atrocities of Duterte's war on drugs. (I also find Bea Luigi Gomez beautiful, but she said during the preliminary interview that the government is doing well. So, I'm afraid she might be a DDS, too. I hope not)

I know, people tell us to separate the pageant from political views, but the thing is, when a DDS gains more influence, they can influence voters to support Duterte, too. That's a real danger our country can no longer afford.

As for Kisses Delavin of Masbate, I'm inspired by her drive to pursue her dreams, not letting bashers stop her. But I just cannot see her wearing the crown, sorry :( I'm not a basher, I acknowledge she is beautiful, sweet, talented, kind, and smart. But I just don't see the fierce, palaban aura that we all need in a Miss Universe candidate. Never thought being baby-faced could be a disadvantage.

But anyway, if Ayn is slaying while breaking barriers and stereotypes, why can't Kisses, right? Kisses did well in every interview she handled. Although, I really didn't like her runway challenge where her hands were stuck on her waist. Good thing her walk improved in the swimsuit competition. Despite getting bashed and doubted, she fights with courage and passion, and that's something we can all learn from--whether we're part of Kissables or not.

Who will win tomorrow? I just can't wait to find out :)

I really wish I have the budget for a KTX pass so I could watch the coronation night in real-time. Sigh. That's 600 pesos! I'd rather spend it on samgyup. HAHA my love for food beats my love for pageants, even when I once dreamt to be Miss Universe myself lol.

How about you, guys? Who are your favorites? Who are your bets? Comment down below :) (wow youtube lang? haha)

Regardless of who wins, let's support her way to the crown. :) Go, proudly raise the Philippine flag, Miss Universe PH 2021!

PS. Photos came from Miss Universe Philippines' page, Philippine Star, and PeoPlaid. And I thank MS Paint because that's where I combined some of the photos haha.

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Namjoon drabble- Y/N tells him that she´s pregnant after their break up

Request:  Hello hello!! I really love your writings!! I wanna request, yn tells namjoon she's pregnant after broke up :)) thank you!! And love youuu

Warnings: angst and sensible themes I guess...

Author´s Note: I wrote as if the reader and Namjoon broke up in good terms, I don´t know if that´s what you had in mind haha Anyways, hope you enjoy it! Sorry in advanced for the grammar mistakes...

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Namjoon and you had broken up a while ago now.

Although you didn´t talk much, you hadn´t finished the relationship on bad terms. In fact, it had been a mutual agreement knowing that the overwhelming love you once had was gone. You still loved him, you would never stop loving him. Everything you had experienced with Namjoon would stay in your mind and heart until the very day you die. But you simply knew that it was not the same feeling that hugged during your relationship.

You moved to your own apartment a few days after the whole situation and you were now living comfortably with a stable job and a fairly good income. However, you were not expecting this at all-” I don´t know what to do”-you mumbled to your sister, whom you had called out of desperation-” I have a baby inside my belly!”

“ How long have you been pregnant?”-she asks.

“ The obstetrician told me I´m two months pregnant”-you sighed. She then asked me how I knew Namjoon was the actual father and I answered that, before breaking up, you had had sex; as a sort of farewell.

“ You need to tell him, Y/N”

“ I know but I really don´t want to...”-you muttered-” He´s a freaking idol, Y/S/N! He´s busy all the time and adding a burden to his life wouldn´t be convenient for him. Besides, I don´t want him pitying me. I can raise this beautiful child on my own.”

“ I know you can take care financially for the situation but you have to think about your baby too. She or he will want to meet their father, it´s their right. It is Namjoon´s right as well”-she explained-” He´ll understand and I´m sure he will be joyous with the news”

“ I´m going to be a mother, Y/S/N”

“You´re going to be the best mother, Y/N”-she reassured-” Now drive to Namjoon´s place and tell him that he is going to be someone else´s daddy”

“Y/S/N!”

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You had gained some weight through your spontaneous preganancy. Jeans barely went through your thigts and t-shirts, if not oversized, nearly suffocated you. Therefore, when you had finally arrived at Namjoon´s place (In fact, BTS dorms), you were wearing a nice pastel-coloured dress that covered your growing belly. You knew that Namjoon was a perceptive man; If he had seen your tummy, he would have noticed immediately.

The person who opened the door was, fortunately, not Namjoon. Jimin grinned sweetly at you, as he moved from the entrance, ushering you to step in-” I´m sorry for the sudden visit but, Is Namjoon-ah here?”-Jimin told you there was no prblem and that Namjon was actually in his bedroom. He offered to take you there yet you reassured him that you still remembered where things were.

You were grateful that your relationship with the other members wasn´t spoiled by your break up with their leader. Some of them, like Taehyung, kept texting you unexpectedly to know how you had been. It warmed up your longing heart-” Namjoon-ah? It´s Y/N, sorry to bother you but I have something to tell you”

“ Coming!”-you herad some shuffling from inside the room and you concluded that maybed he was pulling on a t-shirt as well as some pants so as to let you in. After a few seconds, he cleared his throat and opened the door. You took a seat on his comfortable chair as he plopped himself down on his bed, his slanted eyes staring at your tense body-” Is something wrong?”-he questioned. He was visibly worried; brows furrowed, lips pursed and seriousness painting every features on his handsome face.

“ I...”-you stuttered-” Remember when we had that amazing break-up sex?”

He choked on his spit, embarrasement gaining some colour on his cheeks. But he nodded regardless and smiled for you to continue-” Well I...you...well both of us...”

“ Y/N use your words-”

“ I´m pregnant, Namjoon!”-the world seem to stop for some minutes as Namjoon porcessed the sudden news. You, his ex-girlfriend, had a baby. His baby. His lips went dry and his mind wasn´t able to formulate a single word. You bit your bottom lip, an action he knew you did when you were nervous, and swerved your head to avoid eye-contact-” I understand if your career is your main focus and that right now it´s not the best time to be a-”

“ Father”- he whispered-” I´m going to be a father, Y/N!”

“ Yes!”-you nodded excitedly while he jolted from his bed and trotted towards you, caressing your hands as he took them into his and twirled you around the room. Happy laughter filled the air, both of you spinning amazed at the fact that you were going to be parents. For a moment, Namjoon remembered the reasons why he had fallen in love with you. The way your eyes were now glossy due to joyful tears made his heart beam with love and care. An overwhelming need to protect you and his child conquered his senses unexpectedly-” We are going to be the most amazing parents!”

Suddenly, everything clicked on his mind. A life with someone was what Namjoon was seeking right now. But not with anybody random...with you. He abruptly fell in love with you again yet he was scared to do something about it. You could maybe think that he just wanted to be with you because you now had a baby, that he was doing it just because of the circumstances. While thinking, Namjoon had stopped moving. You halted too, eyeing him worriedly-” What´s wrong?”

“Why did we break up?”-he asked. You blinked but thought about it anyways. Why did you and Namjoon break up in the first place? Because the magic was gone. He hadn´t cheated on you and you hadn´t cheated on him. Neither of you had damaged the other. Why had you been so dramatic? You could´ve solved the problem by being innovative attending couple therapy-” I really don´t know”

“ Why don´t we try “us” agains?”- he suggested.

“ I don´t want you to feel pressured by this whole situation”-you blurted out-” I know you now feel responsible for me. But believe me when I say that I can raise this baby by myself if you don´t have the time nor the strenght to do it”

“ But I don´t want you to raise our kid alone, YN”-he mumbled lovingly-” Maybe I want to be with you again”