#loulore

[loulore]

January has been about internal health.

I started the year/month with a six-day fast. No food. Just water. I abstained from music and media as well, with the exception of books and video essays.

This really set the stage and completely shifted my relationship with food.

The first day of the fast was difficult, but the second day was the worst. I was HUNGRRRYYYYYYYY. But, by about day 3, the hunger faded and I felt very grounded in my body. The feeling is a bit difficult to explain but my body felt both hallow and light? Like my body FELT quiet, it was really nice. My focus was sharper, and I made sure I spent a lot of time doing the things I love, because I realized anytime I had let myself fall into the state of boredom, that's when the cravings would start. Note that I used the word cravings and not hunger.

I learned that during fasting, your body shuts off your digestive functions, and as a result you don't really feel hunger as you typically would, because your body intentionally shifts to a more energy-conserving state. This happens at around the 12-16 hour mark of the fast. Which is why when you do feel hunger, it comes in waves as oppose to it just getting gradually worse throughout the fast.

I always assumed that during a fast, the hunger just continues to get worse and worse, but that's not the case at all. My body was just like "oh we're not eating? Bet." and followed suit. I was mentally prepared to feel more fatigued or less energized, afterall food is fuel and I assumed that depriving myself of it would inevitably drain my energy; when in fact the exact opposite happened.

During my fast, I was more energized than I had been in a VERY LONG TIME. THE HUMAN BODY IS AN AMAZING PLACE TO BE. Especially when you gain a better understanding of your internal functions. With that being said, fasting became more of a mental game than anything.

Day four tested me in ways I'll never forget. I sat in my car, hands gripping the wheel, fighting a hunger wave that felt like more of a hunger tsunami. I focused on my breathing, willing the hunger to pass, when my eyes drifted to the rearview mirror. And there it was, glowing, a beacon of betrayal -- Krispy Kreme. AND the Hot Light was on. Good God almighty the universe has a sense of humor, and in that moment it was laughing at me. My mind screamed, but I exhaled, and took a deliberate chug of my room-temperature lemon water, put my car in drive, and moved forward. Unironically, that was one of the strongest mental moments of my life, and I wish I was joking.

I broke my fast on January 1st. My body and mind felt like a clean slate, which is exactly my intention going into the new year.

I went to a Thai restaurant, not my usual Thai spot but I was excited to try something new. I ordered green tofu curry with extra rice, and a cold lemon water. It took a long time for the food to come out, but at this point I was a master in waiting.

When my plate finally arrived, I looked down and—chicken curry. This never happens to me, so it really felt like the universe had a few more jokes up its sleeve. My waitress was nowhere to be found, so I sat with this hot, beautiful plate of curry that smelled amazing but left it untouched. For twelve long minutes, I just stared at it. Then, my waitress rushed over, immediately apologetic, and whisked the plate away to have a fresh one made.

Another fifteen minutes passed. I used the time to read—at the time, I was working through the Fleabag script. (More on that coming soon.) Finally, my food arrived, and I WENT IN. OUT OF BODY EXPERIENCE I SWEAR THERE WAS A MOMENT I STATED LEVITATING.

But now the most important part, the aftermath of the fast. It's important to note that when you fast, your body enters a state known as autophagy, where it clears out damaged cells and regenerates new ones. It essentially is a very deep clean of your body, so I felt it was most important to maintain this detoxified version of myself going forward. Here are a few ways I've been doing that:

I started drinking Alkaline well water, that I get from a well on a farm in North Georgia. The well is dug 400 feet into the Earth and it's the freshest cleanest water I've ever had in my life, I'll be making a whole post on this soon. I drink this water exclusively, and take bottles of it with me everywhere I go.

I buy all of my food from a farmers market. The quality of the food is significantly better and also much more cost effective. I've also gone back to being vegetarian, though in March I plan on eating red meat for the first time in about 10 years, specifically lamb and only lamb. More on that soon

I've stopped eating out. This one wasn't intentional but as I'm typing this I've realized every meal I've had this month I've cooked for myself at home (besides the Thai food on the 1st) This is a habit that I will continue to do, as it's saved me soooooooooo much money and I really enjoy cooking.

These are just a few of the changes I've made as I start to regulate my diet. I will continue to share more specific food choices, but in this piece I wanted to document the beginning of this journey.

Thank you for reading

[loustyleshtommo]

I’m sobbing at more reasons to 🤡 for Taylor and Louis being great friends:

9.28.13 is of course the supposed anniversary for H and Louis. BUT ALSO:

✌️ 28 peace sign.

peace

Y’know like track 15 on folklore.

So,

Lou: *paid a professional to paint dreamscapes on the wall and made his fans watch a livestream for 6 hours*

Lou: Tell me the truth. Tell me. Do you still remember feeling young, strong enough to get it wrong in front of all these people?... Fearless, Fearless

Tay: *released a new album with artwork that implies she is definitely not Out of the Wood closet from 1989 meanwhile her second wife is seen happily hugging a tree in said Wood*

Tay: All these people think love is for show but I would die for you in secret. Devil’s in the details. But you got a friend in me. Would it be enough if I could never give you peace?

Tay: *proceed to make sure betty and exile, songs co-written by Louis William Styles-Tomlinson Bowery, impact USA on August 3 and 17 (Give it up for One Addition: 8+3+17=28) and chose to use “two ships passing one another in the night” as analogy to explain ‘exile’ to a small radio station in LOUISville.

Lou: *released merch that implies he’s already got peace and suddenly added empty track 13 on Walls*

Probably Lou: “But I’ve got a blank space, baby. And I’ll write your name.”

#Same energy

ps.

Bonus from Louis’s Walls: Track by Track

“It’s the idea of seeing that spark in someone’s eyes when they’re young and then as they get a bit older and life gets more serious, it starts to die down. It’s kind of just encouraging, y’know, youth and little bit of recklessness”

[killmygoldenn]

okay I'm in love with this

credits to owner❤️

[jlf23tumble]

Swiftlinson is life. There is this one incredible fic about them „when things go wrong I sing along��� - did you read it? It’s soooo good, one of my fave rarepair fics ever.

anon 2:  Could you please elaborate why do you think Taylor Swift and Louis are similar, based off of her doc right? Haven't had the time to watch it but i'm looking forward to.

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Anon 1: THAT IS A RARE PAIR FOR SURE, OMG (I see only 15 fics for it up on ao3, which is amazing considering the sizes of their fandoms). I don’t think I could get into reading them romantically together, I just don’t see the chemistry, but I do appreciate that they’re both incredibly smart and game sees game, yet I don’t think I’ve seen it in fic, so if you see it/know it, TELL ME!!

Anon 2: Obviously, Taylor deals with a level of misogyny both professionally and personally that Louis will never see, and there are tons of other very obvious differences, too, but what made me think of their similarities from that doc is that they’re both extremely intelligent and savvy when it comes to business/career management, they’re HIGHLY TALENTED songwriters whose lyrics have an almost diary-level of intimacy, they have an innate sense of how to connect to their fans because they need that validation/strength, they came of age in this industry in their teens, they’re very close to their moms (and both moms have/had cancer, are/were the best kind of stage moms), they’re people pleasers, they come from similar parts of their countries (”small towns”, north/south), they acknowledge LGBT+ issues from their closets as best they can, they get written off because their fanbase is perceived as young/female (I won’t compare their similar promo moves like videos, graffiti walls, extremely unique scavenger hunts, etc., because that doesn’t really come through in the doc, but yeah, much to think about). I would assume Louis didn’t eat his first burrito two years ago, but something about that isolation inside of her own world, schedule, etc., yeah, really gives perspective on what can happen when you’re in the eye of a hurricane for *years*

[chwe-y]

taylor swift changed the lyrics of september to "the 28th night of September" essentially confirming loulor and we all just ignored it smh

[pezmanips]

╰☆╮ TAYLOR SWIFT AND LOUIS TOMLINSON.

             ➥ requested by myself

[taybigailsweirdheart]

Louis and Taylor are both beautiful December babies with a fear of sea urchins and a strong attachment towards their mother 💙💙

[miz-joelys-sherlollilists]

Latest & Greatest Sherlollbrary Additions, Classic Cafe Edition 01/27/21

221b, Baker Street by Write-To-You (Rated K, One-Shot) Engaged Sherlolly, PTFP ff.net 2018

A Working Relationship by mojober (Rated K+, One-Shot) 1st Meeting ff.net 2010

Admissions by sheunderstoodhim (Rated T, One-Shot) Post HLV AO3 2014

Ante Up by LouLor (Rated M, One-Shot) Historicalock (Victorian), Sexworker, PWP AO3 2015

Fevered Realisations by GoldenVine (Rated T, One-Shot) Post Reichenbach, H/C, High!lock ff.net 2013

It'll all be Okay by ensignily (Rated K+, One-Shot) S2: You Do Count ff.net 2013

Just a Violin by ensignily (Rated K+, One-Shot) Post Reichenbach ff.net 2013

Lost Causes by sillythings (Rated K+, One-Shot) Married Sherlolly ff.net 2013

Once too often by Stuck-In-221B (Rated T, One-Shot) Post Reichenbach ff.net 2013

Picnic by orangesherbert06 (Rated K, One-Shot) ff.net 2013

Visits by katieelizabeth (Rated T, One-Shot) HLV-Post HLV, Sherlolly v. Moran AO3 2014

The World Needs You by Shepard.Commander87 (Rated M, One-Shot) S2: You Do Count, Moriarty ff.net 2013

[autumnrory]

13 and 28 💕

excellent choices LOULOR RISE

13. no body no crime - taylor swift feat. haim

28. 1 step forward, 3 steps back - olivia rodrigo

send me a number and i'll tell you what it is on my spotify wrapped!

[loulore]

Homecoming

Toying with the idea of abandoning all other social media platforms and returning to my true home: Tumblr.com.

I found one of my old blogs, from when I was 14. I'm 26 now. As you can imagine, a lot has shifted in the years between.

Anyway, this corner of the internet has long been where I've shared my passions and discovered new ones. And, as the worlds of technology and communication continue to evolve-- both for the better and worse-- I'm making it a point to nurture my digital presence, and coming back here feels like a step in the right direction.

Lou ☘

[loustyleshtommo]

HOLY MOTHER FOOKIN’ folklore track 15 strikes again.

Gay BFFs LouTay 🤡 🚨 I can’t believe I get to have loutay as a recurring tag this is the best clown town EVER

Remember this interview right before Haylor hit the news where H might’ve required alcohol just to get through the day and Louis’s favourite song was apparently I LOVED YOU FIRST?

Look at the word on Louis’s same white shirt couple more tattoos

Would it be enough if I could never give you

PEACE

Taylor baby WHY

Holy shit it’s MATHS: fifteen plus Tay’s number is Lou’s number

15+13 = 28

SNDJFKFKDKDN I’m gonna throw myself into a fookin’ dumpster FIRE because that’s ObViouSLy something my beloved Queen Taylor Swift wants me to do. why else would she drop folklore on 1D 10th Anniversary??!!?

WTF WTF WTF how many times has Queen of Easter 🐣 sit with Lou in the trenches. I wanna bet my whole entire life that Tay was the one who had to hear BOTH sides of the story when HL broke up. Cuz it’s “the kind of break up where you need to talk to your friends about it all day everyday” I bet she saw how they’re both so in love still and so BAD at communication then be like “i’ve had enough.” and proceed to march two dumb boys into the kitchen for DRAMATIC INTERVENTION “You two. Sit. Talk. See that timer? By the time I come back to get those cookies out of the oven, you two better have already kissed and made up OR NEITHER OF YOU GET TO EAT THOSE FRESHLY BAKED COOKIES, GOT IT??!!”

[andiesmu]

TEXT 📲 LOULOR

LOU: I need a big sister hug. I'm so sick of people.

[bigbrotherlouis]

someone please write more naylorry i’m dyin

[chwe-y]

i never should have read that loulor fic because it was amazing and i've read it twice since sunday and it's all i can think about and it sucks because louis and taylor are never gonna give me what i want and now im sad...probably gonna read the loulor fic again

[pezmanips]

[xxwaitingforyou1-blog]

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