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I would absolutely adore to see some Xiao content out of you. Anything for The Girl.

I love Xiao so much. Fun fact, I actually initially refused to listen to Iron Lotus because every time I would I would start crying. I have not had such an emotional reaction with music before. I can now freely listen without worrying about tears, but if that isn’t a testament to how good the song is then I don’t know what is. Here’s some hcs!

Xiao General Headcanons + Some Hcs of Being Her Friend:

Xiao is someone who might seem a bit distant at first, but is truly fiercely loyal and devoted to those she values. Her honesty and overall rational way of thinking makes it quite understandable as to why she was the director of Liu’s Section 1. There’s a large confidence inside her that encourages others to place their trust in her, and for good reason.

There are times where she can be overwhelmed with emotion, especially as it has been something she’s learned to stifle for so long. If harm comes to what she is truly passionate about we’ve seen how it can completely take over her and turn her into someone who’s very rash and impulsive.

But she can be talked out of this. Even in the most truly emotional states, she is able to listen to reason. It may not fix the problem that caused her reaction, but it can bring her back to a calmer state.

This is one of the reasons why she managed to manifest her E.G.O. Although pained from the loss of her loved one, and the deep regret and longing she had burned in her heart, she remained conscious of her choice and did not lose herself. Instead, she took this opportunity to manifest these feelings into the impressive display of power she had at the library.

A majority of her life Xiao has had difficulty in terms of expressing herself out of fear of attachment, and it’s only become more of a necessity to become the way she is out of her line of work. It’s awful to become desensitized to things, but I doubt that it means she doesn’t appreciate them.

While she may not mourn in the same ways as some of her colleagues do, which in turn make it seem as though she does not care at all, she does share sorrow for their losses. It may be more private, but she’ll reflect on who they are and how she knows them. Perhaps to commemorate their memory, she will cook one of their favorite dishes for dinner.

I’m unsure how the news is spread to the family members of the fallen association members, but if she personally knew who had died, she would write a note herself to notify them of their passing. She’s not the best at breaking the news, which is why she doesn’t really do it in person, but it’s a lot easier to write it down in words than say it out loud.

She might recount the specific things they loved, or what they were known for. In general you can tell that they were an appreciated member, not just another person.

If their deaths have to be revealed through an official notice of sorts, I’m sure she’d still try to get her hands on it to write some sort of message. It can be hard for information like this to be broken to you in such a callous way, and while it certainly won’t lighten the impact, she hopes that they at least know the person who passed was valued.

I’m taking this as a post library, so Xiao has already learned how to manifest her E.G.O, and is living once again in the city alongside those who fought along her side. I just think this gives more potential to show how her character might have changed that we haven’t seen yet.

She has more sympathy for people now, and while one may describe that as reckless she holds no shame in it. She’s learned now what it is like to lose a loved one, and how much it tears someone apart. She’s always fought enemies with a form of respect, but even more now that she has a different perspective.

I also feel like she would be more vocal on her feelings. It’s not easy by any means, she doesn’t really find the correct words, but she’s making an attempt. You don’t really understand how much you truly love or value something until it’s gone, and she wants to make up for the times she’s sat back and said nothing.

She specifically recognizes the people who mean the most to her, and if you happen to be one of them I’m sure you’ll notice a difference. Being a friend of hers, especially after the events of the library, will be like seeing her in a whole different light.

I feel like she would be a little worried and terrified about possibly losing someone again, and thus would maybe go through a session of overprotectiveness, but overall she’s managed to get a hold on herself. Her anxiety isn’t overrunning her life, and honestly she’s just grateful that she’s able to be back with the people she cares about.

I mean even originally I’d see her as someone who’s more protective. It was one of the ways she would show her concern. It was subtle at times, and could be pushed off as general curiosity or in terms of work just making sure no one died, but the questions she asked were from the heart.

Also one of the people who would stand up for you if someone was making you uncomfortable. She will not settle for those she cares for being disrespected, and will step in if you ask or she sees it’s needed.

In general she’d be a friend who’s constantly ready to assist if you needed something. She just offers herself a lot more post-library, whereas before it was more of you having to ask her first (she’d always say yes).

If you ever get to see it in person, you’re in awe of her E.G.O. Now it’s not something she has manifested all the time, because that would be extremely inefficient in circumstances out of battle, but it’s honestly a sight to behold. Not only is it powerful, but it’s just as beautiful.

She’d be a bit hesitant for your safety if you came near though, I mean she has literal ribbons of flames wrapped around her. It may not harm her, but as for someone else it probably wouldn’t be too pleasant.

If you asked her really nicely she might let you see her weapon. Good luck on picking it up though, it’s likely made of a substance similar to pure gold. It’s still intricately detailed and wonderful to observe though.

It might just be because of her fire theme, but I feel like she would have an interest in woodburning. Whether or not that’s the specific artform, I feel like she’d have some form of interest in expanding her hobbies to something creative. Being an associate fixer can sort of confine you to a lifestyle where you don’t have much personal enjoyment, but especially after the library I’d imagine she’d try to break free from it to an extent.

Whether or not you knew her because you shared the same line of work, or because you somehow stumbled into each other in the streets and became friends, there’s a noticeable shift in her personality. It isn’t bad by any means, nor does it make her feel like she isn’t ‘herself’. It’s just one in the way that she speaks with you.

While she definitely won’t drop all formalities, she may be more open or speak in a more casual way. It doesn’t feel like there’s such a large wall in between you anymore, and it seems like she’s more curious than usual.

They’re brief moments, often when she’s parting, but you’ll catch her thanking you for being her friend and in general cherishing you more. She mainly does this at the end of your meetings because she has no idea how to naturally slip it into a conversation yet, but it leaves you with a warm feeling.

She’ll probably confide in you more. A lot of her emotions were stuffed down in the past and left that way, never to return to the surface. It’s an unhealthy way of doing things, but it worked for a while. Though she certainly isn’t ready to the extent where she’s willing to reveal every secret of her life, or break down in tears in public, she’s improved with talking about her problems with people.

If ever a problem seems to cloud her mind, or like there is no clear answer, having someone else there to listen to you and give advice really does help. She learned this valuable skill. There’s no shame in reaching out to friends, for they’re what make your day better and give you the motivation to continue.

As difficult as the library was to endure, she came out of it a better person. She isn’t perfect, and there’s still room to improve, but she’s learned a lot of important lessons.