#looking at my upload dates december/january is kind of the time of year that all my finished animatics got done funnily enough?
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maybe next year will be the year that i finally make that k/agepro animatic that i've wanted to do since i was like 12. maybe then i'll finally do it.
#bobtalk#ok its an actual crime that the only like. amv/matic ive made of it is that. y. yesterday animatic (which sucks its too Ironic)#like kgpro was such an important influence to me it deserves better from me.#in the meantime ill keep thinking about the 500 other amv/matics i want to do </3#looking at my upload dates december/january is kind of the time of year that all my finished animatics got done funnily enough?#so uh. manifesting i make something nice#until then ill keep rewatching my own stuff bc im a bit full of myself <3
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I love your theories about what “A Merry Note” and “New Beginning” are about, but do you have any thoughts on why they got uploaded when they did? Especially “A Merry Note”, because it seems to me that Peter and Balthazar weren’t really talking that much over the break (although what their relationship looked like post-one foot is still something I can’t wrap my head around). And for “New Beginning”, do you think that was peter-initiated, in an attempt to cheer a “freaking out” Balthazar up?
So many thoughts. Once upon a time, obsessively laying out the pre-Wellington timeline in LoLiLo was like half of what I thought about.
So just to lay out some timeline stuff that I think helps in this conversation, as I've mentioned before, I'm pretty sure that "New Beginnings" was uploaded at the wrong "in-universe" date. "A Merry Note" and "New Beginnings" are the first two videos on Peter's channel, and in the "Balth in a Bath" videos, set in February, Balth says that there are only two videos on the channel—but the upload date of "New Beginnings" is in March. So I think we can safely say that the intended in-universe upload date of "New Beginnings" is sometime in late January/early February, before the filming of "Balth in a Bath."
That in mind, it seems like the timeline of events is probably something like:
October 31, 2014: Ben films "one foot in sea."
November 1, 2014: Pedro attends Balthazar's gig, sees him talking to Damian, and leaves without talking to him.
November 2014: Balth and Damian get back together.
Late December, 2014: School ends. (Going by google for this one.)
December 24, 2014: "A Merry Note" uploaded.
January 1, 2015: Ben speaks to Balth and Peter at a New Year's party, and they agree to live together in Wellington.
January 2015 (no particular order):
Balth's family reunion
Balth and Damian break up
Late January/early February 2015 (in order):
flat move-in
"New Beginnings"
"Balth in a Bath"
(I can reference in-universe sources for all of this, but I'm trying to keep this relatively brief.)
So my takeaway from this, in combination with the vague things that the characters say about their emotional states at this point (and the tone of Balth's songs) is that Peter and Balth were distant and busy between "one foot" and "Balth in a Bath," but they weren't totally out of communication. They were very close friends, so they probably did hang out, especially before school ended. (And I do think "A Merry Note" was probably filmed before or very shortly after the end of classes.) They just weren't talking about anything meaningful during that time, in part because Balth was still dating Damian. (And then after Balth and Damian broke up, they were kind of scattered and busy and not seeing each other.) And so I would imagine "A Merry Note" came out of what was, on the surface, a pretty normal hang-out. Talking about and making music is just one of the ways that Peter and Balth communicate.
As for "New Beginnings," I think it was probably an honest communication of Balth's emotional state at that point! He would have written and recorded it before "Balth in a Bath," before Peter went off the rails, before he himself got overloaded with school. I really do think that Balth viewed the move to Wellington as a fresh start, a chance at a new beginning. He'd just graduated, he'd just broken up with someone with whom he clearly had some baggage, he was in a new town and starting a new phase of his life—optimism seems really reasonable there.
It's just that we only get to see about 15 total minutes out of that time period, so it reads as very odd from the vantage point of the rest of LoLiLo.
#lovely little losers#nothing much to do#lolilo meta#meta#all around great guy pedro donaldson#balthazar jones#ask
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30.10.2024 Drafting a Plan
Hey everyone, I just realised that it’s already the end of October—when did this year come to an end? Damn. And 2025 starts starts in about two months. Every year around this time, I say that I am not ready. But this time, I feel prepared to step into my future, make a better place for myself, and retake command of my life. I guess this comes with the fact that I have something to look forward to. Every year, I have had things that I wanted to do and hoped for them to happen. ( However, I have had been stuck for a while now, so this means a lot to me— movement and new things.) I am excited to start my PhD in 2025 and move abroad, haha. I have had this conception of an idea since I graduated with my master’s degree back in 2022 that I will do my PhD from abroad. But life had other plans— those came to me right after graduating, and here I am. I took a break in June 2022 and am now working on returning to my education. I was not in touch with academics throughout. The only thing I have done close to academia is learn Korean since last year. Well, that’s a bit of context about my situation.
Anyway, my agenda for today and tomorrow (30th and 31st October) is to PLAN— create the blueprint. I firmly believe that one needs to be great/good at planning or making blueprints if one wants to navigate academics like a pro. Planning is not confined to what you want to do or are expected to do during a semester or while working on a research project, etc. Still, it also involves what you can and how you can do it—it is also about knowing yourself and improving yourself. This process is not only a way to familiarise yourself with everything you need to do. It is also a way to show love to yourself and be kind. I plan to know what to expect and what I want to do— with the certainty of such goals, I feel confident and can prepare early on. Hence, it makes navigation of academics a lot easier. And I hope that all my queens in academia can show their love by being kind and prepared to take on the world.
Coming back to the topic, I have about three months to finish my application— I aspire to make my application stand out through its presentability as an academic who has a lot of potential, outstanding in her ways and what she does, and simultaneously be representative of my personality as a person and academic personality. And all of you know that many things are required for a Phd application (aside from what is needed out of the potential candidate)— it requires documents that show one’s official information about their family, identity, degrees, etc. But it also requires written documents to understand a candidate better—the statement of purpose, study plans, curriculum vitae, research proposal, etc
So, how do I usually approach planning? Well. I make a list of all the things that I need to include in my applications to the universities I plan to apply to— then I’ll break down the process of how I’ll get my hands on those documents, also research and write the documents that are required to do so, and what will my approach towards my supplementary documents be like? Etc. Once I have all of this written in one place— I’ll start by drafting a plan month wise. (XYZ to be done by the end of November/December/January). Let me elaborate for you all through an example; so let’s say I am working on my plan for a Letter of Recommendation:
In November, I will contact the professors I’ll get LORs from, research how to write LOR and write my first draft. In December, I’ll finalise the contents of my LOR and get it approved by the professors (in my country, the professors usually do not draft the entire LORs; they just add or remove certain parts or so.). In January, I plan to get all of my LORs' hard copies in hand as per the guidelines set by the universities and scholarship authorities. I also share my application dates with the professors to tell them when to upload the given LOR online.
I’ll elaborate more if you are confused about how to draft plans. You can use my explanation and draft something according to your time, resources, and the universities you plan to get into and their demands (if you will). If it is not about the application process, I’ll try to draft a separate post about planning and share some points that can be used whenever and in any situation.
Also, one thing that I want to mention is that drafting a plan not only helps me (and you) finish my application on time but also live my life (meaning that it is not just a tool to finish my task on time but also get time to enjoy what my life has to offer other than academia/my career)—for that, I need to be not only be disciplined and mindful of my actions and time I invest in but also be healthy. If I am not healthy, all this planning goes down the gutter. A happy mind and a happy body equals impressive academic performance. So include walking for 20-30 mins a day, going out once, doing something you enjoy, eating meals on time, cleaning your workspace, reflecting on your day and sleeping 8 hours. You can include a lot more. I do, too. ALSO!!! Planning does not mean that you restrict yourself, but blocking time (I am an ADHD girly, and I struggle at time-blocking— so I use checklists and make sure to achieve at least 70% of the tasks I mentioned in it. I try my best to bring consistency to my routine. T.T) that your life starts lacking spontaneity—it is about finding a balance. BALANCE!!!
I am excited to plan and get lost in the adrenaline that organising brings me, haha—I love planning and organising. If it isn’t apparent with the amount of time I said plan or planning in this mid-length post, you should make a drinking game out of it. Please don't (Plan). You’ll get drunk quickly (Plan). Haha!
This post brings out and nurtures my Virgo (stellium) side so much—it’s flourishing, y’all…
I’ll get back to you once I finish my blueprint and bring some helpful insights. So wish me luck! :)
To getting admission in my desired university and starting PhD in 2025! CHEERS! <3
Have a nice day my lovely readers. Take break and drink water! You are doing great
#studyblr#academics#study blog#desi academia#chaotic academia#korean academia#academia aesthetic#phdpreparation#phdblr#phd studyblr#Studing abroad#Korean Universities
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Spring/Summer/Fall 2013 - The End(?)
Click here for an appropriately sad Swiftgron breakup playlist.
I don’t know if it’s important or not but Dianna wishes several friends a late happy birthday on twitter, apologizing for missing the actual day through this spring and summer. It seems like maybe she’s going through something (like a bad break up?) because it’s not like her to miss friends’ birthdays.
March 26, 2013 - Maybe a relevant tweet?
April 7, 2013 - Dianna tweets a photo of James Dean in a day dream like setting:
April 16, 2013 - The article that outed them:
Someone made a fake article that said Swiftgron was dating:
Dianna tweets seven times that day which is a bit much for her.
The hashtag here stands out to me:
The fake article goes viral and all week people are tweeting about the possibility that Dianna and Taylor are dating.
April 23, 2012
It seems to culminate on this day. Many people are buzzing about Swiftgron and this actress tweets:
That’s right at midnight.
About 12 hours later Dianna deletes her public Tumblr:
On that same day Dianna reblogs several things on her private Tumblr. These two stand out to me:
She reblogged both of these posts and the only hashtag they had in common was “#lost love” - she was searching that hashtag.
I think it’s very clear that today is the day Swiftgron 2.0 broke up. I believe they were forced to by their management teams due to being outed.
April 24, 2013 - Taylor seems regretful/stressed out she screenshots her text to Austin and posts:
I think Dianna’s obviously upset about this and as an act of defiance she tweets at Taylor a few days later (Taylor does not respond.)
April 29, 2013
Instead Taylor posts on Dianna’s Birthday (April 30) a silly google search (very DIanna in nature tbh) with a play on the lyrics from 22:
Taylor had the week of Dianna’s 27th birthday off of the Red tour (it was scheduled like that) but as far as we know they did not hang out.
May 4, 2013 - Ours
At her first show since their supposed break-up, Taylor performs Ours as a surprise song. She introduces it by saying: “This is a song about how, when you fall in love everybody starts to give you their opinion. I imagine it could be really hard to make a relationship last, I wouldn’t know. But, given that everyone is giving you their own opinion about it, I think that the only opinion you should really listen to is yours and if you love that person, that should be all that matters.”
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Dianna dyes her hair brown and goes to Morocco a week later with Ashley (”You searched the world for something else, To make you feel like what we had”) from about May 11 - May 14 or 15. While there she attends the A Small World relaunch. ASW could be viewed as a bit “sketchy” if you will. I think this is where she befriends Olivia Wilde.
This is Dianna’s first (known) trip to Morocco (Derek Blasberg is there too) but she seems to be drawn there over and over again after this, even marrying Winston Marshall there (and possibly meeting another boyfriend, Gus Wenner there.)
May 19, 2013 - Billboard Music Awards in Las Vegas
Taylor wins 8 awards and says this during her acceptance speech:
This and the performance of Ours makes me think Taylor is bitter about a break up right now, even though publicly she broke up with Harry back in January.
This is also the event where Taylor is famously grossed out by Justin and Selena’s hetero nonsense and does this:
It seems like as always, Taylor has a lot going on right now...some kind of drama with Justin is boiling but it’s possible she’s also referencing her breakup with Dianna in her acceptance speech.
Dianna pops back up in NYC.
May 20, 2013 - WLW icon Kristen Stewart apparently spends the night at Taylors?
May 28, 2013 - Taylor plays Haunted on the Red Tour and gives a speech:
"This is a song that I haven't played on this tour so far. It came up when one of my friends tweeted the lyrics to it today and it reminded me that I haven't played this song in about two years. It has to do with the fact that, you know people talk about ghosts all the time. You just kind of imagine it being this supernatural thing, but there's another kind of ghost and it's just a person who is out there walking in the world or just doesn't love you anymore and that's a whole different kind of being haunted." Seems like she’s really going through it.
July 2, 2013 - Anniversary of Hyannis Port trip and interesting private Tumblr post from Dianna:
Bad things happen this summer. Cory Monteith passes away and Taylor is assaulted at a meet and greet by a DJ.
July 2013 - Dianna buys a house in LA (I Wish You Would)
August 2013 - Dianna’s whosirmesir moniker gets outed and she stops blogging under that tumblr account.
August 14, 2013 - Taylor is in a weird place according to the Lover diaries:
1. she seems to have basically written The Lakes here
2. she’s really harping on themes she ends up addressing in I Know Places, Out of the Woods, and Wonderland
August 29, 2013 - Dianna steps out with restaurateur Nick Mathers.
Not sure what to make of this one. Dianna seems to date two types of men: 1. teeny bopper actors for bearding and pr purposes (it generally seems) and 2. rich businessmen. Nick is type 2, but their relationship is reported on as if it’s PR. “Sources” call up gossip sites to fill them in on the relationship and both their projects get plugged along with announcements on them as a couple:
I don’t know if they were more or less legit but she goes out with Taylor five days later...
September 4, 2013 - The Fun! Concert:
Swiftgron’s last pre-Kaylor public sighting - they go to a Fun! concert in LA
It’s just a split instant of video footage but Sarah Hyland uploads this to Vine and it does not look like Dianna is enjoying herself:
Note: It kind of looks like DIanna has her arm around Taylor’s waist and also the person to the right of Taylor is Selby Drummond who is still friends with DIanna as of writing of this masterpost (December 2020) and who still appears to be a fan of Taylor’s.
Dianna does look miserable but I do think it’s interesting they seem to be making an effort to hang out on the two year anniversary of their public (perhaps private as well) first meeting.
Dianna tweets about the concert the next day:
September 6, 2013 - Taylor plays Speak Now as the surprise song on the Red tour. Interesting given the timing of Dianna and her new boyfriend being public just one week before this.
September 8, 2013 - Taylor plays Sad, Beautiful Tragic for the first time ever live and gives this speech:
"I kind of feel like playing a song I've never ever played live before. This is um a song that I wrote about how you know just because something's over doesn't mean it wasn't incredibly beautiful. Cause another lesson I've learned is not all stories have a happy ending and you have to learn how to deal with that. So this is a song about a story that didn't end so happily but was still supposed to happen. This is called Sad, Beautiful, Tragic."
I don’t think this song was originally written about Dianna but I do think at this time while they stumble through the last phase of their relationship Taylor was inspired to sing it.
October 2013 - Taylor writes I Wish You Would, a song inspired by an ex who had recently bought a house near her driving past her house. It’s thought to be about Harry but Harry didn’t buy a house in LA until March 2014. But of course we know Dianna did buy a house near Taylor’s in LA earlier this fall.
November 11, 2013 - The music video for “She’s Just Another Girl” premiers starring Dianna looking stunning in high fashion drag, dressed up as the lead singer, and lip syncing the words to the song:
Some lyrics to the song include:
All of my friends say I should move on She's just another girl, don't let her stick it to your heart so hard And all of my friends say it wasn't meant to be And it's a great big world, she's just another girl
I could be reeling them in left and right Something's got a hold on me, tonight Well maybe all of my friends should confront The fact that I don't want another girl
I think it’s at least possible that Dianna was drawn to this project because the lyrics resonated to her given what she was going through with Taylor at the time.
November 12, 2013 - Day of Victoria’s Secret Fashion Show rehearsals and Dianna posts this (now deleted) picture:
November 13, 2013 - Victoria’s Secret Fashion Show where Taylor performs and Karlie Kloss walks the runway.
Dianna posts this picture (now deleted) of her at Emma Stone’s birthday party from 11 months previous:
It’s likely she’s looking at Taylor in this photo who was seated across from her.
It’s a very random picture to post. It wasn’t titled as a throwback and it wasn’t an exact year after the picture was taken (prompting some kind of happy birthday shout out to Emma Stone or anything) - just a random picture of Dianna smiling, likely at Taylor.
November 17, 2013 - Dianna posts a (now deleted) photo about missing someone:
November 21, 2013 - Taylor posts lyrics from a hopeful love song about a troubled relationship:
Lyrics:
December 9, 2013 - Dianna listens to Pale Blue Eyes
Lyrics are about being emo over a lost love with Blue Eyes:
Sometimes I feel so happy Sometimes I feel so sad Sometimes I feel so happy But mostly you just make me mad Baby, you just make me madLinger on your pale blue eyes Linger on your pale blue eyes
Thought of you as my mountaintop Thought of you as my peak Thought of you as everything I've had, but couldn't keep I've had, but couldn't keep
Linger on your pale blue eyes Linger on your pale blue eyes
If I could make the world as pure And strange as what I see I'd put you in the mirror I put in front of me I put in front of meLinger on your pale blue eyes Linger on your pale blue eyes
Skip a life completely Stuff it in a cup She said, "Money is like us in time It lies, but can't stand up" Down for you is upLinger on your pale blue eyes Linger on your pale blue eyesIt was good what we did yesterday And I'd do it once again The fact that you are married Only proves you're my best friend But it's truly, truly a sinLinger on your pale blue eyes Linger on your pale blue eyes
December 11, 2013 - You know the drill...Dianna posts a now deleted photo to Instagram:
December 13, 2013 - Dianna posts an attention grabbing photo on Taylor’s Birthday
Conclusions - Swiftgron very clearly goes through a rough breakup due to being outed.
Then they attempt some sort of reconciliation - even hanging out (date night?) on the second anniversary of their Fairfax Flea Market meetcute, but it goes wrong.
Taylor is on tour for much of this time and Dianna is posting angst ridden and peculiar Instagram posts exactly at the time Taylor meets Karlie.
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IT’S OFFICIAL! I’M MAKING A MERLIN-THEMED D&D CAMPAIGN!!! <3
Do you like Merlin? Do you like D&D? Do you like the idea of D&D but don’t know how it works? Then The Rising Sun campaign is just for you! (named after that one tavern in Camelot lmao)
CAMPAIGN PREMISE:
Jailbreak! The members of your party have been locked away in Camelot’s dungeons and must work together to bust out. But with a mysterious curse terrorizing the city, that might be easier said than done. Takes place during the three-year gap between seasons 4 and 5.
BASIC INFORMATION:
4-6 players, all at LVL3
Is this your first game? Your 50th game? All experience levels accepted!
Will feature monsters/characters/settings present in BBCM canon
The session will be recorded and posted to Youtube, so even people who don’t play can still join in on the fun!
Wanna chat about Merlin? (And D&D, but mostly Merlin) Join the Rising Sun Discord Server!!!
It’s a oneshot campaign, meaning there will only be one session
Submit your character sheet/s to me (email under the cut) by November 15th!
The exact length of the session will depend on player availability/preference, and how long it takes us to get through the campaign. But expect it to take around 2-4 hours
You can play as a canon character (like Mithian or Percival), or make an OC
We will be running this through D&D5e (5th edition) as this is what I’m most familiar with. If you don’t know what that means, don’t worry about it!
Players must have access to Discord. Announcements, party talk, scheduling, etc. will be held on an exclusive channel through the Rising Sun Discord Server
WANT TO GET INVOLVED WITHOUT PLAYING?
Don’t worry, we’ve got something for everyone! I want this to be something everyone in the fandom can enjoy :)
The campaign will be recorded virtually and posted to Youtube in 30-minute parts/episodes, with captions available
Transcripts will also be posted to AO3
Join the Rising Sun Discord Server!
Don’t have a Discord account? Information about the campaign will also be posted to the Rising Sun Campaign tag on Tumblr
Feeling artsy? Feel free to post it! Any campaign-related art sent to me (through Discord, Tumblr, or Gmail) will likely be posted to my Tumblr blog and also feature in one of the episodes uploaded to Youtube, provided you give me permission to do so <3
Interested? More details under the cut!
PROJECTED TIMELINE
November 1: Player Submission period opens
November 15: Player Submission period ends
November 20: Official player + character list announced
December 18-January 18: Campaign session held. The exact date/time will depend on the availability of party members, but this is just the time period in which it’s most likely to happen (it’s my winter break!)
January/February: Campaign “episodes” will be uploaded to Youtube on a weekly basis, with their respective transcripts posted to AO3. Official release schedule to be posted after the campaign has been recorded
SUBMISSION REQUIREMENTS
Submit to my email: [email protected]
If you don’t know a lot about D&D and want me to teach you/help you make your character sheet, let me know through Tumblr!
Submissions should include your:
Tumblr URL and/or Discord ID
Time zone
Expected availability between Dec18-Jan18
Experience/comfort level with D&D
If you are willing to have your face shown in the recording
Character sheet/s
Any homebrew content you would like to use
You can submit more than one character sheet, but you can only play as one character, and only one character will be accepted into the campaign
If we get more than 6 submissions, players will be chosen based on their availability, friendliness, and how well I think their character will fit into the campaign/party
If you’re accepted as a player, I will let you know via Tumblr/Discord before posting the official player list to Tumblr. You will also be granted access to the Party-Only channel on the Rising Sun Discord server
You MUST be a member of this server, as crucial party discussions, announcements, and Zoom links will be shared there
Make sure to have everything submitted by November 15th!
GUIDELINES
My time zone is PST. Expect this to influence scheduling
If you aren’t comfortable having your face in the recording, you can turn your camera off! However, I will ask that you at least keep your mic on
The session will be held and recorded through Zoom. Make sure you have access to this program!
Due to Zoom restrictions, a Zoom meeting can’t be any longer than 45 minutes. So the session will probably be broken up into 30-minute meetings, with 5-minute breaks in between each one. The Zoom link/s will be posted to the Party-only channel on the Rising Sun server. If I find a more efficient way of doing this, I will let you know
There will be a session zero, also on Zoom, about a week before we record the session. This is just a quick and casual opportunity for us to meet, work out any technical issues, address campaign expectations, talk about our characters, and get to know each other better <3
General courtesy and Zoom/D&D etiquettes apply. Don’t be a dick!
I might end up commissioning/having art done of the Player Characters (PCs). If you’re not okay with that, let me know!
CHARACTER CREATION
Put your character at LVL 3
Homebrew content is allowed, so long as you have me look it over first!
Use the D&D5e character sheet for character creation (if you need help accessing this I can send you an editable pdf, or help you find an online character sheet creator)
CANON CHARACTERS
Make sure all information on your character sheet is accurate to canon. Any deviations from canon (like giving Elyan magic, or making Percival a time-traveler) must be talked over with me first
Does their canon background have holes or unknowns? Fill them in yourself! Get creative <3
If this character doesn’t have a race available in D&D, like a sidhe, then you have two options. You can either homebrew their profile, or you can using an existing race profile that’s similar while clearly establishing what their real race is
When writing their backstory, try to think of how they would fit into the campaign. Why are they in the dungeons? Is Merlin suffering the aftermath of a magic reveal gone wrong? Did Gwaine get into a tavern brawl? Has George been framed for murder?
OCs
Be creative! Time travelers, shapeshifters, orcs - as long as you develop it well enough, I’ll probably allow it
If your character has a race/species that doesn’t exist in BBCM canon - like an elf or a dwarf - then provide backstory as to why their people are never seen or mentioned in the show. Did the dwarves go into hiding during the Purge? Is your character the first of their kind? Were they cursed into a non-human form?
In the event that we get someone to do art for the PCs, please make sure the physical description of your character is very clear and concise. Consider including reference art of some kind as well. This will hopefully make it easier for the artist/s to do their thing
When writing their backstory, try to think of how they would fit into the campaign. Why are they in the dungeons? Did they get caught trying to kill the king? Did their friend turn them in for sorcery? Did they steal something from the vaults?
This should be a chance for us all to goof off and have fun, so I’m not gonna be super strict on the rules. And if you have any questions, hit me up on Tumblr!! <3
#yall its finally happening!!!!#i have been legit working on this for over 2 weeks now#i made graphics#and a discord server#and ive got a whole bunch of resources compiled for any newbies who need them#i taught myself some rudimentary animation + video editing stuff#i reread the entire dungeon masters guide for this#I. AM. READY#rising sun campaign#dnd#merlin#bbc merlin#merlin bbc#bbcm#fish post
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I don’t participate in end-of-year recaps mostly because I don’t care about most websites, but the one website I DO care about doesn’t do them (which I feel isn’t a bad thing). So I decided to put together my own AO3-recap. It is completely opt-in voluntary (doesn’t even have to be made public - you can just do it for your self). Everyone is free to do this (or not do it) and free to tag me in it if they post them. I’ll be marking my own stats on December 31st and probably sharing it with everyone.
Further instructions underneath the cut for those unaware of where or how to find their stats.
How To Use: save image to device and use an art program (photoshop, mspaint, etc) to enter text. If you don’t have an art program on your phone or tablet, go into your photos and edit the photo. Use the markup option to get to the text and then type accordingly in the text box. Position text where on the image you want it. Save your stats.
USERNAME: enter your main username and any pseuds you wrote under here. a full list of your pseuds can be found under your username with the downward pointing arrow next to it.
GENERAL STATS: (user subscriptions, kudos, comments, bookmarks, subscriptions, word count, hits, total number of fics uploaded/updated). Most of these can be found under the option statistics. Click statistics and then the 2021 button. Unless this is your first year having an AO3 account, all of your stats (except for user subscriptions) should change. This reflects all of the stats for the year. If you want to start keeping track of how many user subscriptions you’ve gained (or lost) over the course of 2022, then write down this number and compare it to the one at the end of 2022. To find out how many fics you’ve updated/uploaded over the course of the year, you can either scroll down on the statistics page and count them individually or go to your works page. Once at the works page, use your filters and enter January 1, 2021-December 31, 2021 in the beginning and end dates. At the top of the page, it’ll give you the number of that you’ve uploaded/updated during that time period.
FANDOM STATS: (fandom, ship, character, rating, warning, category, tag). This is based off of what kind of content that you produced the most of. If there’s more than one that got used the same amount, then pick your favorite (or make the text really small and fit them all). The only place to find this information is to to works and use the filters. The only filter you want to apply is the date, like you did above: from January 1, 2021 to December 31st, 2021. Once you apply that filter, your remaining filter options will update to only show you what you’ve written during that time period. Click the drop down menus and record the most popular tags and amount of times you used them.
FAN FICTION STATS: (kudos, comments, bookmarks, subscriptions, hits, word count). Finding this information can be done either through filtering or through your statistics page. When doing it through filtering, remember to filter the date like the above. When doing it through your stats page, make sure that you’re on the year 2021 and that you’ve switched from fandom view to flat view. This will show you all of the fic stats from highest to lowest without dividing it up into various fandoms.
Be warned; if you have crossovers with more than one fandom tagged, these fics will show up twice on your statistics page while looking in the fandom view.
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11-12-20 UPDATE:
Hi, it’s me back again! I wanna touch on a few things that I’ve been up to for the last while, since I’ve been so quiet for such a long time.
tl;dr: more delays for reasons out of my control, I’m unsure of the long-term direction of my channel (specifically daily vids), but music is still being made so that’s cool. Listen to an early draft of a track from the upcoming BITTER/SWEET collab mixtape here!
First of all, I just wanna congratulate my US followers for participating in the election! It was a very long, tough process to get this result, and I hope we all managed to foster and renew our hope that will motivate our journey into the future. Because several of my posts regarding election information are now deprecated, I’ve privatized many of them so this blog is reduced in clutter (if anyone would like any of the information present in them, feel free to DM me!)
Second: the state of my living and what it means for this channel.
Currently, I’m still away from my usual home because while the exact meeting that required my presence was finished weeks ago, I’m still waiting for an important government letter to come and to complete the action it requires of me. It seems to have been delayed for unknown reasons (possibly pandemic-related difficulties?), so all I can do now is wait for it to arrive, and until then, I must remain away from my filming site.
With all that said, however, I likely will not be able to return to usual daily content until the end of the year. The other personal business I’m going to be up to for the remaining month and 1/2 of this year will put me in a tizzy, though some of it includes BTS stuff to make filming in 2021 much easier for me (including a few really minor upgrades to my costumes as to not look as worn).
I’m still in deep issues regarding getting a job and stable source of income to work off of, not helped by the still-ongoing pandemic. Things may clear up by January, maybe not. Either way, my ability to continually support daily content is always in question, especially as this hiatus is slowly becoming more and more involuntary due to my extended stay and Patreon is becoming unviable for me.
Truth be told, I’m unsure of which direction Channel Mono should be headed, in part due to me having this extensive “ambition creep” which makes work on it very difficult. I ALWAYS want to improve and experiment, but this is not very sustainable due to requiring resources I simply cannot afford, and in general, I’m not sure what model works for me. On Instagram, having daily <1 minute videos and pic sets has done gangbusters for me, but nothing has really broken out for me in terms of other platforms like Youtube and Twitter, and I’m unsure of whether it’s due to the format of my content or just the content itself being so offbeat and strange.
I’d be more interested in doing more narrative short films lasting around 5-10 minutes or so in length and have plenty of ideas for strange, experimental directions to take, but that’s not kind to most platforms, no guarantee of attention, is also more difficult to make anyway, and could also be very alienating to my IG-focused fanbase. It’s very tricky, and if you have anything to say about it, I would like to hear it.
As I take a break to think about this, I’m also developing more of this side joint with BITTER/SWEET. Unlike filming, making music is something I can develop without most of my filmmaking stuff, hence why I want to be able to get it done soon! My estimated release date will be sometime around mid-December, and if it can be helped, I would like to be able to film footage for a music video for it, but that will depend entirely on whether I will be able to return home in time or not.
The titles of the project are in flux right now, but current tracklist is: 4 updated mixes of previous BITTER/SWEET songs, and around 5-6 new tracks. This early draft I’ve just shared is tentatively called “What’s Your Name? I Like Your Smile”. Again, names and mixes are subject to change, but I hope you will enjoy the songs when they are finally ready by the end of the year!
In addition to uploading on Youtube, we’re gonna be setting up a Bandcamp to release it on a pay-what-you-want system. Download it for free, or for however much money you please :)
Everything still remains uncertain, yet I remain hopeful that we’ll all come to better circumstances and more decisive realizations that work in our favor. Or something.
I’ll see you all later :) 🖤🖤🖤🖤
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2018 Summary Of Art by Fran48
Blank meme here for any of you guys who want to try it :) I can't believe that it's just two days till 2019..Time goes so fast XD :) Here are the previous years memes : 2012: https://fran48.deviantart.com/art/2012-Art-Summary-Fran48-343638908 2013: https://fran48.deviantart.com/art/2013-Art-Summary-Fran48-422621435 2014: https://fran48.deviantart.com/art/My-2014-Summary-Of-Art-Fran48-503896864 2015: https://fran48.deviantart.com/art/My-2015-Summary-of-art-578886586 2016: https://fran48.deviantart.com/art/Fran48-s-2016-Summary-Of-Art-6540407232017 : My 2017 Summary Of Art Now I'll summarise my art of 2018 :) This year has been full of its ups and downs, with struggles with mental health but still some very enjoyable and funny times too :) I think I've done quite a few pieces this year however maybe not as many as I'd like as my apprenticeship kept me busy :) The resources I used this year included The resources I used this year included Ms paint, gel pens, watercolour pencils, coloured pencils, mechanical pencils, fine liner pens, pencils, coloured pens, chalk , charcoal ,crayons, camera, phone, video camera, felt tip pens, Articulate, Windows Movie Maker, Paint tool sai, and on some occasions, Pixelmator which I purchased for my new imac I bought with my earnings.. I plan to use it more next year :) I have also done a few redraws this year (insert here) to help me work on developing my own art style ;3 I have also messed around with my phone a lot this year, adding silly filters to pics and my artwork :) January
This month, I started watching K-on and Fairy Tail again and drew quite a lot of digital pics from the shows including my Bickslow pic ,Erza pic(which I digitally edited using apps on my phone) and a Mio pic I also watched the Live action Disney film Maleficent which inspired me to draw the pic included in this meme:)https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Maleficent-723817285
February
This month I continued drawing Fairy tail pics and pics in digital software but also experimented using Articulate 360 and created an interactive Junko Enoshima soundboard. I however was unable to work out how to upload it here ^^;....so made a flash recording of what it was capable of https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Junko-thingy-730187122 (you will need Flash player to view this) MarchThis month I got into quite a few different animes, namely Persona, Pandora hearts and Durarara and drew pieces from them. I also continued to draw pics from fairy tail, particulally pics of Erza Scarlet..lol it was in this month and April that I realised I had developed an obsession with her because she's so cool , beautiful, badass but also human and relatable as a person^_^ I also started including more youtube speedpaints, including a one of Sarada Uchiha..;3...https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Sarada-speedpaint-youtube-link-below-735619409
April
This month I continued to draw art of Erza lol and Persona art but also got into My hero academia ;3 and started drawing art from it ^_^ May
This month I continued to draw art from My hero academia , Fairy tail, and Naruto but also a piece from Durarara :) . I also went to see the Avengers film (which I didn't enjoy too much for obvious reasons if you guys have seen it ..It kind of felt like a weird fanfic..though that's just my feelings on it ^^' ) and somehow ended up drawing Gamora (see meme) https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Gamora-744789878 June
I took part in Narutoweek in that month https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/gallery/66581702/Narutoweek which I really loved :) I also created Youtube videos of drawings for Sunnycon guest voice actresses Caitlin Glass (who actually saw my videos and the pic on Twitter!!!!) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s85fOvde9-4https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tZhkjbW5uHg&feature=youtu.be and Cherumi Leigh https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vr86aHtITyw https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X59aytmWAoY They both loved my pics and signed them to my delight ^_^ Sunnycon itself was pretty awesome - I got to meet some of my friends again, see amazing cosplays but also cosplay as best girl...Erza ....:D <333333 (https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/gallery/66687467/Erza-Scarlet-cosplay which...in turn inspired more fanart....and memes of her over the rest of the months XDDDD...lolJulySo in July I watched through the first season of Sword art online and drew fanart...I now understand the controversy about it ^^;....I also got up to date with the 1st season of Toyko ghoul re and watched Persona 5...which I loved as much as Persona 4 but for different reasons....:D and drew fanart ;3... I also watched Miss Kobayashi's dragon maid which was so funny and thus came the fanart ;3... And then....coming back to Erza yet again...I made myself into a meme...XDDD......an Erza x cake senpai meme XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Yes I need to get a life..https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Cake-senpai-752605870
August
This month I drew a lot of traditional art including a piece of Akuro and Chanco from one of my fav youtube channels..ShiroYuki Productions https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC1up9mKAfOJvbrl1vN02waQ I also started watching FMA brotherhood..which I have yet to fully completely get through....^^;..I also did a pic in honour of Stefan Karl Steffanson ..which although I knew he had sadly passed away a while ago, I didn't fully appreciate how amazing he was until then :(..Tbh I hadn't really found Lazytown appealing in my younger days and found it kind of creepy ^^;..but I have respect for that guy now :)I also kind of got obsessed with the songs from the band Fleetwood mac https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ul-cZyuYq4&list=PLCC4CD5FD7684F0A3 ..and made this piece randomly https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Fleetwood-mac-761976020
September
This month, I got into the anime Seven deadly sins and drew fanart from it. I continued to do speedpaints for Youtube and use Paint tool sai :) though I did draw some traditional pieces ;3 I also heard my brother continously play Birdhouse in your soul by They might be giants...I looked into it and saw the official vid and created this piece https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Make-a-little-birdhouse-in-your-soul-764678942 I also created my own original piece of a deer girl which I was very proud of https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Deer-girl-765391080 OctoberThis month I continued to create both traditional and digital drawings including a piece of Nico Robin in her baroque works outfit https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Miss-All-Sunday-Nico-Robin-767252161 https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Me-and-my-new-Nico-Robin-pic-767253230 , Froppy from My hero academia https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Froppy-speedpainting-link-below-768574612 , Fafnir from Miss Kobayashi's dragon maid https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Fafnir-speedpainting-see-link-below-768574727 and more ;3..I also continued creating Youtube speedpaintings. I also participated in Inktober ;3..https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/gallery/67321324/Inktober-2018
November I started watching more of Fairy Tail again https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Levy-and-Gajeel-chibis-Speedpaint-drawing-772478351 and continued watching the Boruto series..:) https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Six-paths-sage-mode-naruto-youtube-link-below-771541151 I continued drawing both traditionalhttps://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Monomi-speedpainting-link-below-773973512 and digital pieces https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Ultimate-imposter-Ryota-Mitari-It-s-alright-now-771067838 but also started doing intial recorded sketches which were recorded on my phone, then photographed/scanned in and then further recorded digitally before being uploaded to Youtube, an example of this being my Gundham Tanaka pic.. https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Gundham-Tanaka-speedpaint-link-below-774096226 December
I spent pretty much most of this month creating Christmas artwork which was scheduled to be uploaded to Youtube every day till the 24th of December :) https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Sarada-as-an-angel-link-below-776968163 https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Christmas-Rukia-link-below-776968200 https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Alphonse-christmas-link-below-776968150 https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Delibird-776573119 https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Yuri-can-you-hear-my-heartbeat-775901800 https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Olaf-775901553 https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Victor-speed-drawing-link-below-775901681 https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Glaceon-speedpaint-link-below-775775663 https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Snoopy-Christmas-775499922 https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Tobirama-speedpaint-774936436 https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Erza-christmas-drawing-775195304 . This for the most part went well but was pretty hard to do as things got busier at work..^^; These pieces were a combination of traditional and digital pieces :) I also started practising poses, firstly starting on this short Naruto and Jiraiyia manga thing https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Naruto-and-Jiraiya-reunion-short-manga-in-colour-777916676 .. I also drew a picture of the beast from Beauty and the beast after this https://www.deviantart.com/fran48/art/Beast-777789340 :) My family really loved this piece and want to have it framed ^_^ This has further encouraged me to create more disney pieces :) I have also started playing Pokemon moon and have already been preparing pokemon art for next year :) Overall I feel I have gotten into a few different animes this year but I want to get into so more being the anime obsessed nerd that I am XDD I also really want to cosplay more..XDD...I also want to work on more new art pieces next year but I'll have to see how busy I am and how life goes XDD...I'm not sure how much I've improved this year, I have been working really hard on improving my poses but I still need to improve , as with anatomy :) I may not say this enough and may not be very active all the time but you guys who have stuck with me through every anxiety journal , moan ( know I often sound like a broken record half of the time with my anxiety and everything else ^^;) and the spam posts of artwork, I want to say I appreciate every kind comment, like and watch I have been given, they honestly mean so much to me :hug: and also the patience of many of you who were waiting for replies from me and having to wait months and even years ^^;....XD..I honestly need to work on replies in the new year among a number of other things ^^;...I may have missed out details of this but this is just a general summary so yeah ^^;... Hope you all had a lovely christmas and Have a wonderful new 2019 when it comes :D ^_^Thanks again Frances/Fran/or whatever you want to call me lol
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Producer Letter #13
Same old translation-paraphrase mix as usual. Mostly translation this time though!
To everyone supporting Idolish Seven,
Thank you for your continuous support throughout 2017, a year full of new challenges that we couldn't have taken on without everyone.
We began releasing Part 3 of the story in-game, released singles and albums, and announced several new music videos underway. We were even able to present the path all of these idols have taken to everyone through the Idolish Seven Exhibit.
And so, 2018--
Both the anime and live are beginning to take shape. All of the staff members will be doing their best so that everyone will enjoy next year as well.
We are truly grateful for all of the support in 2017. As this 2017 reaches its end, we'd like to look back upon the year as well as announce our future directions for this project.
[About the Project as a Whole]
◆ About Part 3 We plan on releasing Chapter 18 of the story in January. Facing yourself, the importance of trust in your comrades, a new force rising to the top and throwing the idol world asunder, the unbreakable spirit and will to stand up to fight....
All of the various mindsets and expectations* will rise to prominence at the climax of the story. (T/N: omowaku can mean 'thought' or 'expectation/prediction/anticipation' so due to the lack of background context, I put both definitions in)
Once more... "Focus-- on the future and nothing more." Just like the feelings behind this phrase, please walk by these idols’ sides until the very end. (T/N: This whole bit is super vague! Also I forgot how I first tl'd that Part 3 catchphrase, or if I ever did it at all??? I feel like I have but my goldfish memory..........)
◆ About the Music Re:vale's new single 『NO DOUBT』 will be released on January 10th! The full versions of the songs are sure to surprise everyone, and we'd be very happy if you purchased the single. As we announced earlier today, we will also be releasing solo songs for each character on their birthday as part of our 『12 SONGS GIFT』 project! Please look forward to future announcements on this topic!
We also plan on releasing singles for the anime opening and ending themes, so please look forward to those releases as well.
◆ About the TV Anime "Idolish 7" (T/N: Stylized it as Crunchyroll does it since that's who's English subbing + simulcasting i7 this upcoming season!) On January 1st, we'll be broadcasting a special for Episodes 1+2 on TOKYO MX beginning 20:00 PM JST. This marks the start of the anime broadcast! Additionally, Episode 3 will be aired on TOKYO MX on the 7th, and be regularly broadcast from thereon out.
As for the anime opening, we'll be uploading it on YouTube around the time it airs on TV so everyone across the nation can enjoy it at the same time.
Please check the anime site and twitter for more details on broadcasting sites and stations.
Anime official site: http://idolish7.com/aninana/ Anime official twitter: https://twitter.com/ID7_anime
◆ About the Anime Spin-Off Series We were finally able to announce the spin-off series! This will be released as YouTube Originals so everyone can enjoy watching more animated stories about the idols. The first one will be 『TRIGGER 〜before The Radiant Glory〜』. The exclusive behind-the scenes story about TRIGGER's formation was novelized and comicalized, and now we hope you will enjoy watching the animated version. Here is a link to the teaser PV!
More on this work will be announced at any given moment, so please look forward to it!
◆ About the Music Video Animations Next up in our Music Video Animation Series is IDOLiSH7's new music video, animated by MAPPA. This marks the 7th video in our series. We have not decided on a release date as of this moment, but we are dilligently working on the project and making progress. Please look forward to the finished product!
◆ About the Live At long last, we'll be holding our first live concert in 2018! We are still preparing the details for the next announcement, so please look forward to it!
◆ About the Comicalization+Novelization We have always wanted to expand on Re:vale's backstory ever since we began releasing Part 2 of the game story, beginning from the dawn of the band through their indies days. Thanks to Hakusensha, we've gotten our chance to tell their story through a three-part novel. We hope you are all enjoying 『Banri Ikkuu』's novelization, the first two chapters of which have been released online, as well as the comicalization, which began on December 9th. Please look forward to each of the stories told in 『Senko Fuma』 and 『Hyakusai Mukyuu』 as well! We would be very happy if you felt even a fragment of their feelings as you read these works.
(T/N: The Big Thing is that the number kanji from Banri, Yuki, and Momo's names are in the title of their parts. Banri gets his Whole Name which is kinda cool HAHA. I tweeted an explanation abt the titles a while ago and you can check it out here!) (T/N 2: Also wow official i7 staff is a Sadist bc i read both chapters of Banri Ikkuu out rn and let me tell u now all i felt was immense agony as i read abt how Banri felt, just Pain HAHA (it’s really good))
Additionally, we will be novelizing the chaotic world of "Ainana Gakuen" too! We are certain it'll be a very lively story, so we hope everyone will buy a copy of the book!
[About the Game]
We staff members will be giving it our all in 2018 as well so everyone can enjoy the game. We have plenty of events in store for this upcoming year, and we hope you will enjoy the game alongside the anime!
[About Upcoming Game Adjustments and Features]
◆ About Recently Added Updates We have added a Waiting Room feature in our latest update. We hope this will alleviate any inconveniences caused by holding multiple copies of an unidolized card due to lacking the items to idolize them, even if just a little. (T/N: You can read more abt this function here! Kind of interesting to see what the intended use was bc I am storing basically everything not a true SSR w good potential stats in there HAHA)
◆ Events We kicked off our first Rabbit Hall event in celebration of Christmas! Upon release, we have come to realize some of the features are faulty and we are sorry for any inconveniences caused. We hope that everyone will enjoy the event until the next. In 2017, we had a large-scale story release event and collaboration events. Likewise, we hope to implement all sorts of events for everyone's enjoyment.
◆ New Features We are currently on Version 3.0 of the game. Regarding the play style, we are aware that the interface and design are lagging behind in some aspects and we are deeply sorry to everyone for the trouble it has caused. We will be focusing on making the game easier to understand and play from here on out in addition to implementing new features. Furthermore, we understand that there are very few opportunities to obtain items for UR idolization. We are currently in the process of creating an enjoyable way to obtain them through gameplay, so please look forward to future updates on this issue.
◆ Questions, Comments, or Concerns about the Game Please contact us through our official home page through the following link: http://idolish7.com/contact/
Thank you for reading our letter all the way through. We truly appreciate it. The countless support from everyone gave us strength throughout this entire year. As for this upcoming year, there are countless challenges we have yet to take on, and we staff will do our best to continue delivering 'surprise' and 'fun' to everyone.
Thank you for everything, and we will be in your care next year as well.
Let's all Ainana in 2018!
THAT WAS A LONG ONE, and long time no post! Merry Christmas and happy holidays to everyone!
Hopefully I’ll be able to find time to post a couple chapters of Part 3 this break, and thank you again for your continued patience.
I’m super looking forward to i7′s big break on TV in just a few days, and please spread the love for this franchise!
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Today I want to talk to you about what happened four days ago, four days ago at night I had a horrible mental breakdown and I decided to write what was happening to me at that moment, I tried to describe a little bit my situation, I was trying to make a script for a podcast.
I think it's the second time I do that I write an episode but I don't translate it or record it, it's just there, I haven't opened it and I don't plan to, I consider this podcast as my therapy since it's cheaper than getting a therapist, the thing with my situation is that I got tired of talking about my situation, just like I got tired of talking about my accent, so I think I'm ready to ignore my situation and pretend I'm living my best life until it comes true.
So from now on I guess I'm going to stop telling my personal tragedies or hinting at them.
Leaving that aside, this is the third episode that I upload consecutively according to the calendar that is in the official blog of this podcast (link in bio) and I feel very good, I had since November that I did not upload my episodes consecutively so I'm ready to live my best life, I tried to upload consecutively in December but for some issues I could not, and in January I had planned to do it but I really did not try enough, until the end when I uploaded in early February the episode "im back? "And in fact also in the beginning of February I recorded the episode "I deserve more" but I didn't edit it in time and I didn't upload it so I lost 2 dates, but I'm trying to do it now.
I think at a certain point I have a very slight depression, but I keep trying every day, there are some days that are more difficult than others where I really want to do something, where I really want to produce an episode, edit it, I even have the idea but I don't do it, but that streak is over, I will do what I did last year to produce and produce more episodes, so if one day I feel bad I won't have any problem.
I want to take this very seriously, many times I have the idea of what I can say in an episode but I forget or some of my ideas I put them in notes but after I read them they become silly and I don't say them.
Two days ago I watched the movie "the perks of being a wallflower" and in one scene our main actor was telling his teacher "why are good people always with bad people?" and the teacher answered "because people accept the love we think we deserve" and I really wanted to do an episode talking about love and about that movie because I think it's a very good phrase, but I didn't, but I'm still commenting on that phrase right now so I did it at the same time, I don't know.
I also wanted to talk to you about family and what I consider to be a family but I never did it anyway and I have more ideas but a lot of them I forgot, in my head it was like "ohh this looks great for a podcast episode" but then I said no.
Another thing I'm trying to do is make my instagram more aesthetic, make it look pretty because every time I do an episode I search for a picture and I put the title of the episode and I try to make the picture related to what I'm going to say, also make the letters and colors look pretty, but the point is that when I put them on instagram as they are so different, all the covers look ugly and all my work goes to the trash.
I tried these 3 episodes in a row to upload pictures and things that looked like the cover colors, but all together it still looks horrible, so now I'm going to opt to use a white frame every time I upload an episode to see if that way my instagram looks pretty.
I don't want to use a filter for all the photos because I think it will ruin the essence of the cover, is that each cover means something, it marks that each episode is different from the other, and I think if I put a filter to make them look similar it's going to look horrible.
Trying to be a graphic designer is hard.
But well friends this is it for this episode, I think it was kind of boring but acceptable, I think it' s like this because I'm watching a marathon of all the twilight movies and I'll probably do an episode commenting on these movies in the future but well friends I hope you have a beautiful life if you don't have it doesn't matter you can pretend you have it with me until it comes true and see you in the next episode hugs and kisses bye bye
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oh. oh. so that's how we're doing this? fine then. (I kid I love the excuse to send you LOTS) favorite character to write about this year? any new fics to start next year? events you participated in this year? fics you wanted to write but didn’t? a fic you read this year you would recommend everyone read?
spamming me is actually the way to my heart, this is facts
• favorite character to write about this year:
honestly i’m torn between ophelia and leopold (as in, framework fitz.) i loved exploring ophelia, giving her a backstory and developing her character (because ahem, canon failed to do so), putting her in different scenario/aus and just having fun with her in general. i tried to stick to the (brief) canonic characterisation of her in like, the first half of 4x21, before everything went to shit, and obviously the madame hydra characterisation as much as i could, but admittedly a lot of it was my own personal input/shared headcanons and i guess that’s what made it so fun. that’s not to say she’s a blank canvas, but because canon didn’t really expand on her character (she was human for like, what, less than a day?) a lot of it was down to personal interpretation to fill in the blanks. !always human ophelia, for example, would obviously be totally different to the canon enhanced/inhuman/freshly 3d printed version of her and so on. basically it was really fun to try and figure out what she’d be like had canon not done her so dirty.
and, of course, leopold. it’s true that watching/writing/reading about villains is often more fascinating than focusing on the protagonist. i stand by what i’ve said before - he is my favourite aos character. yeah, he was in four episodes, and yeah he’s technically not a separate character at all - but it feels like he is and that’s basically the interpretation i ran with most of the time, treating the framework as an alternate, separate universe as opposed to a virtual reality. hell, even within that virtual reality, he’s just so vastly different, so deliciously depraved that it makes it super fun to explore his character further. there’s just so much more to him than meets the eye and i fondly remember all the days i spent over the summer just coming up with and discussing headcanons about his upbringing, his father and mother, his academy years and rise to power at hydra. that’s the great thing about the framework - the parts it gives you are fantastic, but the parts it doesn’t give you are even better. so a lot of it was exploring his past and his future (babiesssss. !dad leopold might just be my favourite thing, like, ever. the mad, scary doctor caring for a baby. it kills me. him worrying that he’s going to let his child down and become just like his father. the angsssst). he’s so complex and so evidently deeply troubled and absolutely tragic and i love it. he’s not a black and white, “he’s evil and that’s it” kind of character. he’s passionate and determined; he wants to love and be loved, but because of the constant pressure via his father and the absence of his mother, he’s not quite sure how to go about showing it. it’s so fun to explore his voice because he’s canonically savage and just so… like, there’s something so chilling about his stoic demeanor (notice how he only has angry outbursts in private.) i can’t begin to explain how fun it is to poke around his head and explore why he does what he does - he’s convinced he’s saving people, okay, he literally believes that - and how he deals with the complications that arise (inhuman baby, that will be all.)
tl;dr: leopold “the doctor” fitz is fucked up and i absolutely love it.
any new fics to start next year?
not entirely sure if this is a fic rec or a wip question tbh, so i’m basically gonna give a brief run-down of my fic to-do-list: okay, so i have like three fitz/skye fics i still need to write (as in, plot bunnies that will literally keep driving me insane until i finally get my shit together and get them down on virtual paper). the first one is a (late) christmas-based fic where they’re both working at hydra and he’s her scrouge-like boss who, outwardly, hates joy and love and christmas. one day, after a phone call from his mother, he tells skye he’s got a proposal for her (literally and figuratively speaking). cue a fake-dating trope fic with christmas fluff and a scottish backdrop. basically “the proposal” but with less deportation and more christmas.
the second one is the framework fitz/skye post-revolution prison au (totally inspired by your three sentence prompt fill, which i love.) listen, i love torturing him and the entire prison sequence from 5x05 stole my heart, depression prison beard and all. so, it’s more of that, plus a lot of healing in a motel room.
and the third one, which is less of a solid idea and more of a vague outline in my head: a lowkey star wars au. well. a part of it. soulbond i guess? whatever you want to call it. basically i can’t stop thinking about the two of them being psychically linked and appearing to each other at the most inconvenient of times and falling in love like idiots despite the fact that he’s the literal actual head of hydra and she’s a newly-turned-inhuman and, you know, a devoted resistance member. basically, she’s his redemption arc.
also i’m gonna try and finally fill the prompts in my inbox, because i’m always yelling for more and then they just sit there and i end up hoarding.
events you participated in this year?
i really started writing proper aos fic in the second half of the year, so i didn’t get a chance to join all that many, but hopefully i’ll join more of these in 2018.
• fitzsimmonsnetwork secret santa 2017• aospositivitynet secret santa 2017• skyeward big bang(because i like to mix it up a little. also because like no aos fic writing event accounts for my fav aos ship, rip)
fics you wanted to write but didn’t?
SO. MANY. too many arguably. like, i’m so bad. i’ll probably update this post if/when i upload an actual unfinished fic dump 2017 part II, because tbh i’ve been toying with the idea for a while.
okay, so there’s:
1. the literal very first aos fic i started writing, a direct result of all my pent-up anger and frustration at that lame-ass finale. i decided a fix-it fic was in order, where it basically diverges from canon around halfway through 4x21 (before that scene) and ophelia’s pardoned and allowed to stay, albeit under close surveillance and basically locked up in the containment module and the team has to learn to deal with it and accept her while fitz helps her come to terms with what it really means to be human. also, feelings don’t just get thrown away instead of being properly addressed because that’s lazy writing and you can love more than one person at a time, god fucking damn it). while this is still unfinished, it admittedly later evolved into a broader collab verse known as “team au.”
2. fitz/ophelia ‘we kind of broke up because you chose jemma and now we’re meeting again years later in new york and i never realised how much i missed you until you started chasing me down the street’ au.
3. this one canon-divergence (though canon can’t prove me wrong, so technically…) au where the framework is still the framework and everything is pretty much the same except ophelia’s pregnant (look, in 4x16 when he’s getting all worked up about “i have to protect you, i have to…” and she grabs his hand i literally thought for a moment that she was going to place it against her stomach and they’d do an oh-my-god-baby reveal, but they’re not ballsy enough to go there, so it’s mostly just wishful thinking BUT STILL) so when daisy quakes her out the window, well. in other words: ANGST.
4. this one fic where fitz and ophelia went to high school together but never really interacted until one party during the summer of their freshman year of college, realise they have feelings for each other and sleep together literally under the stars before he moves across the country because of college and a prestigious internship. shortly after term starts, ophelia realises she’s pregnant. cue long-distance internet pining, several failed attempts to confess/meet up in person, and and lots of hurt/comfort as ophelia slowly learns to accept her situation and make the best of it. plus some father-daughter bonding. it sounds really lame now i guess, but it’s really an idea that’s been with me for a long time and i’ve plotted and planned it and thought about it a lot so i would really love to push myself to just sit down and word vomit it out at some point. i promised myself i’d do in december/over christmas, but of course that didn’t happen, so hopefully sometime in january. it’s kind of a pet project of mine so i’ll be really disappointed in myself if i just let it go, even though the fitz/ophelia ship is as good as dead by now and i’d probably just be writing it for myself more so than for any real kind of audience. (yeah, i still have a soft spot for this ship, mostly because of the chest-tightening nostalgia i get whenever i think about it and the literal hours i’d spent being so completely invested in it over the summer. will i ever get over it? probably not.)
there’s a bunch of other stuff i always wanted to explore (leopold backstory, framework-canon hydra uprising, framework post-canon revolution, etc.) but never really got far enough in any other stuff to go into detail about them here (i really have to properly sift through my docs at some point, it’s literally a fic dump of headcanons/ideas from like, three months of hardcore obsessing all summer) but i guess one simple conclusion can be drawn from all this: i have a thing for angst, redemption arcs and pregnancy/baby fic, not necessarily in that order.
a fic you read this year you would recommend everyone read?
this is such a hard question because 1. i’ve read a lot of stuff from like, a weird mix of different fandoms, 2. with my ‘unfortunate/problematic’ choice of ships/favourite characters it’s hard to pick something everyone would enjoy. however:
for this empire, after night - i know the kylo ren/rey pairing isn’t for everyone (see above), but in my defense this isn’t really a shippy fic at all. it may, however, be one of the damn most beautiful things i’ve read in a long, long time. the descriptions, the imagery. it’s breathtaking (and really puts my own miserable scribbling into perspective)
#replies#ilosttrackofthings#as per usual this got away from me#it's basically a meta or something welp#writing#fic tag#long post
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Lovestagram? #RyuVersion
Before reading this:
WARNING! LONG-POST AHEAD
This is only an opinion, and this may not be true. If you want to believe it, go ahead, if not, never mind :)
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*insert Jungbong’s famous line*: ENJOY!
So, it’s now everyone’s knowledge that uri Yeolri is real. Yup, it’s not a dream guys, it’s reality. I know, it’s very shocking at first, but as usual Dispatch gave us the leads and who can ever fight Dispatch when it comes to a dating rumor, right?
Alright, so getting into a little bit of a background information first: Lovestagram (love instagram) is a term used to describe ‘flirting’ or ‘hinting’ a relationship between a celebrity and another, but the nature of this activity is usually very discreet.
So why am I talking about lovestagram? Well, because it might seem that several of Junyeol’s posts have much deeper meaning that it looks. Let’s get into it.
Let’s go by Dispatch’s info that Yeolri got together at the end of 2016. If we look at Junyeol’s instagram feed, suspicious posts could begin At the end of August 2016. Let’s just go into it now, alright?
1. 31 August 2016
Caption: 그래. 니 마음 다 알아
Translation: Alright. I understand all your feelings.
Hm... I understand all of your feelings. Could this be the first hint from Junyeol about Hyeri’s feelings towards him?
2. 05 September 2016
Caption: 혼자가 아니야. 늘 둘이야. 너는 여기 나는 거기.
Translation: You’re not alone. It has always been us two. You’re here and I’m there.
Alright, isn’t this like some kind of a sign? Okay maybe they’re not together yet on this very date, but it might seem like he is reassuring her that he will always be there for her, you know.. through hard times
Also, anyone recognizes this from their Dispatch date pictures? similar, huh?
3. 12 September 2016
Caption: 좋다. 좋아. 좋음.
Translation: Nice. Good. Great.
Yes, nice good great. All range of vocabularies are out to describe his feelings. This, imo, is a very strong sign of Yeolri getting together, it’s a nice, good and great day, indeed.
Also, Lee Chung Ah - Junyeol’s co-star in Lucky Romance and fellow Cjes artist commented on this very post, saying “좋으지 ;-)” Trans: It’s good, indeed ;-). So guys, what do you think that means? You can make a guess.
4. 24 September 2016
A post shared by 류준열 (@ryusdb) on Sep 24, 2016 at 3:05am PDT
Caption: 널 만나러 갈 시간.
Translation: The way to meeting you.
Alright. So, “The way to meeting you” it is then. The caption is pretty clear, is it telling you that he is on the way to meet her somewhere?
5. 25 September 2016
Caption: 오늘 그렇듯, 언젠간 만납니다. 무엇이든, 우리가 꿈꾸는 것을.
Translation: Just like today, we will meet someday. Everything, the things we are dreaming about.
To be honest, 25 September is Junyeol’s birthday and it’s definitely the day of his fan-meeting. Also, the caption written here is what’s also written on the tumblers given as souvenirs to his fans. But... could it also be a message directed towards this certain someone? Hm...
6. 29 September 2016
Caption: 수많은 사람들중에 우리가 만난, 우리가 사랑한 이유는 우리라서.
Translation: Among the many people we’ve met, the reason that we are loving (each other) is because it’s us.
Yeah, exactly ‘we’. Uhm,... really? what do you think about this? A little bit of story: Junyeol first met Hyeri during R88′s full cast script-reading. Junyeol who saw Hyeri’s face on the advertisement before going to see her, had his hearbeat dugeun dugeun like crazy. Who know they would become lovers?
7. 30 September 2016
Caption: 화려한 것보단 소중한 것을 주고 싶다.
Translation: Rather than something grand, I want to give something precious.
Is he planning to give something to her? Whatever it is, it must’ve been precious indeed. As we know, he is a very thoughtful person, isn’t he? :)
8. 2 October 2016
Caption: 타세요. 멀리 가려면 같이 가야하니까
Translation: Hop on. Because if we’re going to go far, we need to go together.
Yes, as a celebrity, dating another celebrity is definitely not easy, especially if you haven’t gone public yet. You have to cover yourselves in thick dawn jackets, wear mask, and basically cover almost every inch of ur body. Staying strong is key.
9. 4 October 2016
Caption: 시작은 달라도 우리의 끝은 같잖아.
Translation: Despite the different start, we end up at the same place.
Right, like what’s been written previously. Junyeol was still a nugu when he first met Hyeri. Hyeri was an advertising queen whom he’d seen so many times before, but now? They’re standing together, as a couple, going towards the future together.
10. 7 October 2016 (DELETED POST)
Caption: 는 없어. 미안해. 이렇게 돼버려서
Translation: There is no way out*. Sorry. It ended up like this.
Wait there, this post was deleted? Yeah... Apparently. The reason? well I don’t know.. but if this was meant for the girl, it means, there’s no way out from my heart, right? hehehe XD
11. THE TVN10 AWARDS POST. 11 October 2016
Caption: 🙏
Well yeah, I’m not sure what that adorable emoticon means, but it tells me that he’s blessed and thankful to have been given the award TOGETHER with his love. Am I right?
12. 17 November 2016
Caption: 괜찮아. 이제 우리만의 방식으로 날아오르자. 괜찮아.
Translation: It’s okay. Now let’s fly with our own way. It’s okay.
Alright. Maybe both of them are in the emotional stage now, who knows, right? But as we know he is staying positive and is trying to cheer her up by implying that he’s always gonna be there, she’s not alone.
13. 27 November 2016
Caption: 잊지 않고 마음에 되새기다.
Translation: I remember it in my mind without forgetting.
Junyeol, ah... what is it that you’’ll always remember? hehehe
14. 15 December 2016
Caption: '진심은 통한다' 라는 말을 좋아했었다. 지금은 믿고 있다.
Translation: I liked the saying “I feel sincere.” But now, I believe in it.
Hm... isn’t this really so obvious? Sincerity is usually tied with feelings. But what kind of sincerity is he talking about? Well, you all can guess.
Anyway, he said he likeD the saying, and now he believeS in it. You see? Junyeol hasn’t been in a relationship for quite some time according to his past interviews. He may not have experienced such sincerity for a woman before, but now he knows how it must feel. <3
15. 30 December 2016
Caption: 우리는 진짜야.
Translation: We are real
Guys, seriously?.... There. He said it.
16. 1 January 2017 (New Year’s Post)
Caption: 새해가 되었다고 새로운 날이 아니다. 우리가 사랑하는 순간부터 새로운 날이다. 언제라도, 우리는 새로운 날을 만날수 있다.
Translation: It is not a new day that it is a new year. It is a new day from the moment we love. Anytime, we can meet a new day.
Yes, he’s basically saying that every day that passed counts as the day they love each other. HOW SWEET T.T
17. 15 January 2017
A post shared by 류준열 (@ryusdb) on Jan 15, 2017 at 8:31am PST
Caption: 로미오, 당신이 성을 바꾸지 않는다면 우린 만날 수 없어요. 그러니 내가 바꾸겠어요.
Translation: Romeo, if you do not change your name, we could not be together. Or else, I will change mine.
Know what, guys? This is an actual dialogue from Romeo & Juliet. How romantic is Junyeol, fml. And by the way (this is top secret, but oh well, it’s for u guys)... There was a rumor that said yeolri went out on this day and have a planetarium date. Hence the light video (representing the stars) and the caption.
18. 15 January 2017. Y���ALL KNOW WHAT THIS IS.
No Caption.
Indeed. No caption. You know why? well the post IS a fact that it’s for R88 anniversary. BUT he chose to upload a picture where only junghwan and deoksun a.k.a he and hyeri are in. What do you guys think about this? Well, for me... it’s to show how thankful he is for the drama - for letting him meet Hyeri.
19. 24 January 2017
Caption: love, love is a verb. 넘어서면 널 붙잡을 수 있을텐데.
Translation: Love, love is a verb. I could get hold of you if I crossed over.
I think this caption is pretty self-explanatory. and obvious.
20. 9 February 2017
Caption: 기념하고 싶은 날.
Translation: Feels like a day to celebrate
A day to celebrate what? HEHEHE
FROM THIS POINT ON, JUNYEOL DID NOT REALLY POST ANYTHING LOVESTAGRAM-IE. BUT.
Girl’s day had their comeback around March. Hyeri posted her bits of her comeback teaser (a video). Guess what... ryu liked that video 5 days after she posted it. Can you imagine
Hyeri: Oppa, why didn’t you like my comeback teaser post?
Junyeol: Do I really have to like it?
Hyeri: Of course! Aren’t you going to show support to your girlfriend?
Junyeol: Arasseo
21. 20 May 2017
Caption: Love.
Yup. love. with period. It seems like this couple has interest in cosmic things. Like stars, moon, and things like that. The caption is sweet, short, and very obvious already.
22. 17 July 2017
Caption: 나의 마음을 다 태웠어. 그래서 나의 마음이야.
Translation: I’ve burned my heart. That’s why it’s my heart.
I’m not sure what this caption means, but we all can tell it’s about his heart and how he wants to give all the affection to hyeri. Am I right or just bluffing here?
23. 17 July 2017
Caption: 나의 창에 너의 달
Translation: I’m the window and you’re the moon
Btw this was posted on the same day as the previous one. As you can tell from the caption... It’s definitely talking about Hyeri who’s the object of beauty in the darkness of the universe. The window can only stare at the moon that’s shining so bright.
THIS IS GONNA BE THE END OF THE POST FOR NOW.
There are actually so many other posts that carry really deep messages, you can go check it out on ryu’s instagram and hit SEE TRANSLATION button if you wanna know the rough meaning. I hope you guys have enjoyed reading this. I’m sorry if I’ve gone overboard with the analysis. Do leave a comment to share your thoughts about this!
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This year is a bit of a mixed bag, to be honest! After years of mental health struggles I finally started receiving help for it last year, and this year I've really felt the impact of that. So much impact, in fact, that this September I finally returned to college! Which of course promptly slurped up pretty much all of my free time, but ah well. I've tried to make up for it by doing daily drawing challenges, including my first ever full Inktober! Considering that my previous record from 2016 or so was 6 days... Well, a full month was pretty dang good! Also lots of Pokemon Amethyst stuff here at the tail end of the year, finally getting through that old project. Also I totally prepared this whole post earlier this month lmao. Held off until I saw a layout come around, and so I had something good to put into December. JANUARY: 3 whole drawings this month, and one of my favorites from this year too! Something about this piece just really does it for me, ngl. Also did a bunch of fanfic writing this month, based on the multiple one-shots I have with upload dates from January, and also the fact that I was writing a chapter a week as part of my executive dysfunction therapy thingy. FEBRUARY: 3 drawings, but overall less productive. Not much writing (or, well, compared to the surrounding months), and the art pieces were mostly simple or took longer than they should've. Still, nothing to complain about! MARCH: Somewhere around here I finished my first multi-chapter fanfic ever, counting 15 chapters and over 50.000 words! I was really excited about it, pretty much bouncing out of my chair when I declared it done. It absolutely stunned me that I wrote *that* many words, that I managed to complete a project of that size. (it's pretty dang impressive if you look at where I came from, but I have since finished a 60k and a 90k fic, so...) APRIL: Not only do I have 4 art pieces for April, I also have a *ton* of writing. Besides my usual weekly chapters I joined the Phic Phight (a DP fandom event similar to Art Fight but for fanfic writers), so I wrote an additional 8 one-shots for a total of 34.000 words this month. Yeah, it was a productive hecking month, and it kind of set the tone for my next few months, proving to myself what I was capable of. MAY: Wow, lots of pieces to pick from this month. After doing the Phic Phight the previous month, I decided to keep the writing train going, and started writing two chapters of fanfic a week. One for Weirdward, my next major project after Disinterred (which finished posting this month), but also one for What A Nice Surprise, which followed up Disinterred in my weekly update slot. Really productive month, really, lots of writing and drawing and experimenting with styles! JUNE: The end of my year-long fusion project! This year was very important for me, art-wise, because I finally got to finish projects I started. Which may sound a little silly, but with my executive dysfunction, I usually lost interest in projects before I got anywhere close to finishing them. Really satisfying in that aspect. Also continued to carry on my 2 chapters of fanfic a week thing. JULY:[1][2] Not much finished stuff this month, kinda let myself take a break there. Still wanted to keep up the 'draw at least 1 thing a week' thing, but kinda eased up on how cleaned up it had to be, especially since I didn't want to start a new project so close to school. Mostly played around with my superhero setting/world/thingy, to be honest! Don't have much experience with designing their outfits, so that was fun to play around with. Figuring out their aesthetics and how to knit those into superhero-esque outfits. (except for Hornet. she's an ex-villain who never changed her costume) This month also saw the end of What A Nice Surprise, my one-shot which spiraled completely out of control, and ended up beating Disinterred in word count. A neat 12 chapters and 62.000 words, there. Also we broke the heat records around here so yeah, I took some time for myself to just melt in peace, lemme live. AUGUST: Not a whole ton of art to be honest, but this ensemble pic right here was a real joy, and I really like the Totodile piece as well. I officially finished writing Weirdward, my (currently) longest fanfic, at 22 chapters and 91.000 words! And I wrote a shorter multi-chapter over July and August as well (Play Your Part, at 6 chapters and almost 25.000 words). SEPTEMBER: I'm gonna be honest, this was the month I started school again after 2 years of doing basically nothing. It was a lot of getting used to that again, let's be real. I have nothing major to show off for this month, art-wise. Outside of art, getting to start school again was a major achievement for me; finally recovering far enough (mostly through art) that I could go back. And I've done well, so far! OCTOBER: I did Inktober! Pen-based stuff, yes, but the first year I managed longer than a week. A full month, even! I also finished my longest one-shot yet (Surreptitious, counting 35.000 words), and wrote a couple of fics for EctoberWeek to celebrate my first full year of fanfic writing. Didn't quite manage the full week thanks to school, but still, 20k words is nothing to sneeze at. NOVEMBER: Inktober TWO!!! No but for real, I started off the month by finishing my last Inktober piece, and then immediately transistioned into doing daily drawings of Amethyst Fakemons. Not _quite_ every day, but I still 11 of them done before the new Pokemon games dropped, so. Pretty solid, especially since most of them were in color. I also played through Pokemon Sword in its entirety, and wrote a 12.5k fic over the span of a single weekend for a Phandom event. So, y'know, not too shabby. DECEMBER: Well, this month isn't over yet, so... Doing another traditional art challenge, this time Pokecember, although I'm only doing a single Fakemon a day. Also finished planning out the entire Amethyst dex AND region (including encounters), so! (well, okay, I still need to sort in 'regular'/unchanged/canon Pokemon but shh) And hey, look, actual digital art! Which isn't posted on dA yet because I didn't finish drawing their wings but eh, still looks good. Template by AsterianMonarch on dA
#progress meme#improvement meme#art improvement#dark rambles#i honestly dont know if there are any tags ppl are using for these tbh
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A [MUSIC] Review: My 10+1 Favorite Live Acts From the Last Six Months
Originally posted on January 17, 2019.
Some people procrastinate by online shopping, cleaning, or watching the first season of a Netflix show that truly isn’t worth it (Judd Apatow’s Love stole my time and I want it back).
Others make an Instagram post about how they “just can’t focus :/”, masturbate to a point where it’s almost violent, or complete every single task except for the most pressing one at hand.
I am all of these people. Baked to perfection.
As appealing as all of these options are, my favorite way to procrastinate is watching live musical performances. If I said this was my number one choice because I really love to see what each and every artist can do on their feet, I would be LYING; it’s because I’m broke. Imagining I’m in the actual audience sounds like a cute and affordable outing to me.
I was originally going to write a late post about my ten favorite live musical acts of 2018, but then The Holy Trinity™ a.k.a The Goat Trio (Noname, Smino, and Saba) decided to perform on The Late Night Show with Jimmy Fallon and fuck up my whole plan.
Fucked up my whole plan, but made my whole life.
Here are the 10+1 live acts that have rustled my big and bright feathers in the last 184 days, ordered by upload date:
1. Mac Miller: NPR Music Tiny Desk Concert
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August 6, 2018
I was tabling at my school’s Student Activities Fair when one of my best friends approached me looking like tears were seconds from falling down her cheeks and flooding the fucking campus. Her “I have to tell you something” was followed by what most onlookers would probably describe as an unnecessarily loud processing of the Five Ws and One H of Malcolm McCormick’s death. It probably looked overdramatic, but it honestly didn’t feel that way.
Mac’s placement in my mind shifted in tandem with his style. In his “Knock, Knock” days, he was the weird white kid who Wiz Khalifa seemed to have taken under his wing. I started high school a week or two before “Smile Back” was released. And I was in attack mode after a girl had used up MY oxygen to talk about me not being a “real” Black girl. While 14-year-old-me did put a hex on her soon after, Mac’s anthem of the opposition not being worth my stress set my mind right. Did not reverse the hex, though. Sorry, sis.
His eventual Earl Sweatshirt, Ab-Soul, and Anderson .Paak collaborations reframed the way I thought of him as a creative. I realized how open he was, and how honored he was to share space and thought with a wide range of musical talents. You can hear it in the production of the songs. His NPR Tiny Desk was an elevation of this. His energy was right. Thundercat on bass was right. Watching this performance made me want to bop the shit out of my head but also call all my old niggas and let them know I was suing them for stealing energy I could have put toward studying a cool cat’s artistry. So much love to Mr. Malcolm.
Favorite Moment(s): When Mac laughs at Thundercat’s abrupt tone change during “What’s the Use?” @ 9:10.
2. Rex Orange County performing “Sunflower” live on KCRW
August 14, 2018
I know I’ll get heat for this. But Alex O’ Connor is worth the slack.
In this performance, Rex Orange County looks and sounds like the place where lo-fi, Big Mouth, and driven-over lilacs meet. Doesn’t seem like the most appealing thing that could come out of your speakers, but it’s honestly just one really sweet surprise. And romance may be a capitalist sham, but all I can say is ShamWow! After finding out that he wrote “Sunflower” for his girlfriend of 3+ years, the bridge started to make me feel like someone slipped me a “Would You Date Me?” note in detention. Uncomfortable, but definitely entertained.
Favorite Moment(s): The aforementioned bridge @ 3:02.
3. serpentwithfeet – mourning song (Live on KEXP)
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September 11, 2018
Josiah Wise, better known as serpentwithfeet, is one of the greatest storytellers I have ever witnessed. His entire KEXP performance is worth watching to see an immersive experiment in chaos and control using lighting, backtracks, and his voice. Confidence is not something we often associate with grief. In this performance of “mourning song”, he lists all the ways he will allow himself to think and feel through the end of an intimate relationship. Every time I listen to this song, I feel like he actually rips the voices from my head that tell me I am a burden, or that I must hide any part of myself.
I’m not really a church-going girl anymore so I won’t say watching this took me there. But it definitely took me to the Pokémon Center. HP on 255, bitch.
Favorite Moment(s): When he plays around with distance from the mic @ 2:30.
4. 070 Shake – I Laugh When I’m Friends But Sad When I’m Alone
September 14, 2018
My dearest New Jersey babe. The shining star of the 070 Crew, Danielle Balbuena, used to be at the top of my “Anal Sounds Great!” list after the 2016 “Bass for my Thoughts” release. Trevante Rhodes has since stolen her spot.
Shake takes her time with COLORS to sing about her unadulterated thoughts about the negatives that come along with fame, as well as how the perceived positive of always being around people can be suffocating. No matter what life decisions we try to make, no matter what our intentions, we’ll always be criticized. 9/10 times the criticism will come from people who are too scared to live out their own dreams and have decided to try and put their hooks into the dreams of others. I love this performance because she manages to make the sentiment hit relying primarily on her flow, with the beat not coming in until more than halfway through the video.
Favorite Moment(s): The belting at the end. She sounds like Roy Woods and it makes me want a collab.
5. Noname Performs A Three-Song Medley From Her Album ‘Room 25’
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October 18, 2018
I am a walking Noname stan account.
I saw her perform during my sophomore year of college, soon after Telefone‘s release. I had never felt so represented in my existential absurdity. She was as wishful as she was uncertain; the last time I had felt that seen was when I heard Paramore’s “For A Pessimist, I’m Pretty Optimistic” for the first time. But you know angsty white people are always doing something, so it didn’t really click the same. I sobbed in the first row while Noname rapped about the effects poverty has on the Black imagination, battling with addiction, and finding the will to fight our own apathy.
In this performance, she gifts us with a three-song medley, featuring “Blaxploitation”, “Prayer Song”, and “Don’t Forget About Me”, three singles from Room 25. Together, the musical collage tells a story about trying to create in a culture that values what we make more than our livelihood.
Favorite Moment(s): The GIGGLE when the music ends before she does.
6. dvsn: NPR Music Tiny Desk Concert
November 28, 2018
Roy Woods and Majid Jordan were my favorite OVO acts for the longest time. I had heard of dvsn and didn’t really care for the duo at first. I didn’t even know they were a duo until like a week ago.
One night I was at a party that I didn’t want to be at, and I really wasn’t feeling the music. While I waited to sober up so I could walk home, I put on my headphones and started playing my own music. When the beat in “Mood” dropped and Daniel Daley’s vocals came in, I knew it was the beginning of a spiral into a rabbit hole full of fuck nigga energy… Energy to which I am apparently still very open. In this performance, Daley’s falsetto as he sings about not wanting to pull out of his partner is literally the most disarming sound I’ve ever heard. It’s what I imagine the Sirens in the Odyssey sounded like. I’m 100% certain that behind the sunglasses, his eyes are pitch black. Because Satan.
Favorite Moment(s): 6:13 – 6:35. Mother of God.
7. Rapsody, “Sassy” Night Owl | NPR Music
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December 4, 2018
RAPSODY IS ONE OF THE MOST UNDERRATED LYRICISTS OF ALL TIME AND I WILL NOT REST UNTIL JUSTICE IS SERVED.
Like… I’ll sleep and all that. But I will be dissatisfied. Known for her home-hitting lyrical additions – Kendrick Lamar’s “Complexion (A Zulu Love) and Anderson .Paak’s “Without You” – Marlanna Evans deserves so much more for the brilliance that went into Laila’s Wisdom. When she was nominated for 2018 Best Rap Album of the Year, she was the fifth female-identifying nominee in the 23-year history of the category. This performance of one of Laila’s singles, “Sassy”, makes me want to bounce through the streets in some high tops. It demonstrates her ability to give us all profound lyrics and pop-off sounds.
Favorite Moment(s): Her dance break @ 2:45.
8. H.E.R.: NPR Music Tiny Desk Concert
December 13, 2018
H.E.R. had already appeared on NPR Tiny Desk before this performance, but five minutes of listening to her voice were simply not enough. Whenever I listen to one of her songs, I have to listen to two or three more. The cool thing is that she’s not using subliminal messaging! It’s literally just carefully-honed skill and talent! These niggas can’t even spell talent!
The transitions in this video are wild. Seeing how many times Gabi Wilson switches the instrument she’s playing is honestly just really fun. “Focus” is my favorite H.E.R. song, and this performance takes it up three whole notches. Considering the fact that she’s an actual child prodigy, I cannot help but smile seeing her get the shine she deserves; hearing people refer to her as “the girl who covered the Drake song” really made me as upset as the people who fight in the comments under Lebron highlight reels seem to be.
Favorite Moment(s): The back-and-forth between H.E.R. and the two amazing background vocalists @ 16:28.
9. JPEGMAFIA – Thug Tears | A COLORS SHOW
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December 14, 2018
I really cannot tell if Barrington Hendricks/JPEGMAFIA/Peggy is the kind of person who hates astrology and everyone who mentions it, or if he consults his Co-Star chart every morning. Regardless, as the sole member of the non-Scorpio Scorpio Fan Club, I love this Scorpio king.
One second into his COLORS episode, I thought my speakers were fucking broken. Twenty seconds in, I thought I was having a stroke. I eventually realized that I was not being Punk’d by the peculiar nigga on my screen, and decided to go back to the beginning and try this shit again.
I became so infatuated with JPEGMAFIA after watching this performance. This may mean that I need to call my therapist soon, but I would argue that my interest stems from the healing power I feel is available in his artistry. While different from serpentwiththefeet’s “vibe”, Peggy presents us with a similar sentiment: being unafraid to display your emotions, whether it be grief or anger, in ways that are not respectable or palatable can shake up a nigga’s psyche. Lord knows this shit had me shook all the way the fuck up.
Favorite Moment(s): He starts off stretching. Definitely didn’t realize how necessary it was going to be.
10. KOFFEE – TOAST (LIVE FROM KGN)
December 23, 2018
I first listened to Koffee when she performed with Chronixx on the Real Rock Riddim. This past November, the 18-year-old released the inspirational fucking BOP, “Toast”. In the song, she speaks to her performances with Chronixx and other key moments in her musical journey as well as the bright future she sees ahead. The song itself has been at the top of my morning playlist; you already KNOW I love to bust an early whine while I brush my teeth. But this performance… it’s magic. You can barely hear Koffee herself with the audience screaming all the words back at her, letting her know they’ve got her back. And with a big ass smile full of braces, you can tell she’s feeling all the love they’ve got to give. Everyone, myself included, is ready for Koffee to rise to the top.
Favorite Moment(s): Her disbelief at the room’s energy at the beginning, and when she brings on the girls to help her sing @ 1:30.
10+1. Noname ft. Smino and Saba: Ace
January 8, 2018
One day, I’ll share the story of how Noname was an instrumental part in my sexual “becoming”. It’s the same story that I shared with her after the aforementioned concert (still so sorry about that, yikes). Until then:
I screamed when I found out this performance was happening. I don’t even think I can put into words how Noname, Smino, and Saba’s performance of “Ace” changed my whole attitude. For the last eight days, my sense of clarity has been… well, CLEAR! I realized how much my hair had grown. I finished grant and job applications. I’ve received great personal news and old, important friendships are being rekindled. They have too much power. I’m tweaking.
All I have to say is that this video ran me a bath, put a glass of wine in my hand, and made me dinner. Enjoy.
Favorite Moment(s): I. Cannot. Choose. (But wow. The way they look at Saba @ 1:56. I’m emotional.)
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YOI Timeline
First of all, I must say this is purely an speculative timeline based mostly around the skating events.
As I don’t own a DVD/blu-ray some dates may be changed. Also, I kinda suck at keeping up with interviews and stuff, so I may have missed something important, even though I think I haven’t. I will try to include as many screen captures or links to official ISU information as I can, and needless to say that, if I come across new information or something else is revealed I will update this post. I apologise in advance, it’s going to be quite long. Here is a summed up version without links or pictures or explanations.
It was a little bit of a challenge to put everything together, but I have done my best to have it make sense.
Alright. Getting started. The first event shown is a Grand Prix Final. It takes place, most likely, on 2014. Let’s get into the evidence hopefully backing it up. When Yuuri is looking at an article about his performance, the date the article was published on can be seen.
The actual 2014 GPF took place between the 11th and the 14th of December. The last day is when the exhibition gala is held, so the day before, that is, the 13th, would be when the end results are determined.
Both the Russian and Japanese Nationals always take place around Christmas, and both the European and Four Continents Championships take place between the end of January and mid-February. I won’t be getting into details with those because they aren’t relevant to the plot.
The next relevant event is the World’s Championship. It took place between the 23rd and the 29th of March. Men’s Short Program took place on the 27th, and men’s Free Skating, the 28th. You can see the full schedule here. That means the video of Yuuri dancing to Stammi Vicino would be recorded the 28th.
Moving on to the next important thing. Victor’s arrival in Hasetsu. Now, this is something that was quite hard to get right because it is hard to make the dates match. It is some time near mid-April, that’s pretty clear. The hard part was knowing when. When Nishigori messages Yuuri telling him the triplets uploaded his video, the date can be seen. It is supposed to be Monday, the 10th of April.
On the DVD/BD version it was still the 10th, but the day was changed to Sunday. Unfortunately, I can’t add a screen capture for that. The main problem with this is that on 2015 the 10th is neither Monday nor Sunday. For it to be accurate the dates of the previous GPF and the next competitions would have to be innacurate, so I ignored it. This is relevant because it is implied that Victor would arrive the day after that–Yuuri is still in bed when he is asked to clear the snow, and his phone is still off. Since the date Victor arrives in Hasetsu is kind of necessary to know when Onsen on Ice takes place, I decided to take the closest Monday to the 10th of April as a reference and set the date on the next day, that is, the 14th of April.
Yurio’s arrival was also a little challenging because it depends almost directly on Victor’s.
Assuming it took Victor and Yuuri a few days to get started with the whole coaching thing, it wouldn’t be one week after Victor arrived there but one week after those few days. That is, it would be the 24th rather than the 21st.
Onsen on Ice takes place one week after Yurio arrives.
That means Onsen on Ice would take place around the 1st of May. However, I think it would make more sense that it is a week after the day they start practising, not a week after they were told. The date for Onsen on Ice would therefore be the 2nd of May.
The next event is the Chugoku, Shikoku and Kyuushu Championship. In 2015 it took place between the 1st and the 4th of October. On the official website it doesn’t specify what exact day the men’s competition would take place on, so that is the most I could narrow it down.
Now it’s time for the Grand Prix events. The first one Yuuri is assigned is the 3rd event in the series, the Cup of China. In 2015, the IRL 3rd event, that happened to be the Cup of China as well, took place between the 6th and 8th of November. Besides of that, when Yuuri is thinking about the consequences the picture that Phichit posted would have if he underperforms, a news article can be seen on the background. The date of the article is the 6th of November.
It would only make sense that, since the picture was taken the day before the competition, the article referred to the first day; If it did it would have to be published that same day after the results are out. That means the 6th has to be the first day.
The next event is the 6th event in the series, the Rostelecom Cup. In 2015 the 6th event took place between the 27th and 29th of November. However, unlike the other one, the real life and the anime didn’t match, being the real 6th event the NHK trophy.
Last but not least, we have the Grand Prix Final. It took place between the 10th and the 13th of December. The gala (i.e. Victor and Yuuri’s pair skating and Welcome to the madness) took place on the 13th.
Well, that is all for now. I will try to make another post with everyone’s birthdays and birth years.
#yuri on ice#yuri!!! on ice#yoi#victuuri#yuuri on ice#yuuri!!! on ice#yuuri katsuki#yuri katsuki#katsuki yuri#katsuki yuuri#victor nikiforov#viktor nikiforov#yuri plisetsky#yurio#otabek altin#phichit chulanont#emil nekola#michele crispino#sara crispino#mila babicheva#christophe giacometti#jean jacques leroy#leo de la iglesia#ji guang hong#lee seung gil#kenjirou minami#yuuko nishigori#sorry
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McCullin at Tate Britain - 5 February 2019
My initial feelings today were that I did not feel like travelling to Vauxhall to spend a relatively large amount of money. I also felt unease about consuming images of atrocities as a leisure activity; a security guard cheerily said to me as I approached the rooms, ‘Enjoy the exhibition’.
Compared to other exhibitions I have attended at the Tate, visitors do get to see a lot for the entrance fee. There are ten rooms in this retrospective exhibition, which spans sixty years of Don McCullin’s career as a photographer.
When I found out that the exhibition was at Tate Britain, I wondered why the work of a photo-journalist is being shown in an art gallery. I noticed from the start that there was no information accompanying the prints about how they were made, just titles and dates. Only at the end of the exhibition was there a small sign displayed on the wall, easily overlooked, which read,
“All photographs are gelatin silver print, printed by Don McCullin”.
The caption entitled ‘Printing’ describes how McCullin repeatedly returns to his negatives, in an attempt to “..produce the perfect print. In doing so he hopes to do justice to the perpetually harrowing content of his images..”
A caption on the wall entitled ‘Photojournalism and Art’ states,
“…McCullin has always avoided the term ‘art’ when discussing his work. Yet through careful, intuitive composition and framing he creates images that have a formal clarity and even an uncomfortable kind of beauty…”
The caption describes, throughout the history of photojournalism as a genre, the ethical dilemma involved when tragedy is made to appear beautiful;
“..But McCullin hopes that his skilful composition helps these images stick in people’s minds. He attempts to make it impossible for us to ignore the atrocities taking place in the world….”
Another caption, ‘Photojournalism in the gallery’ states McCullin’s belief that, “..as newspapers won’t publish these images, they must have a life beyond my archive..”
Considering some controversies regarding sponsorship of major exhibitions, for example BP, I also wondered who is sponsoring this one: Tim Jeffries, ‘heir to the Green Shield Stamp fortune’, https://www.telegraph.co.uk/men/relationships/10465550/Tim-Jefferies-Im-not-a-playboy.html (accessed 9 February 2019) and owner of Hamiltons Gallery in Mayfair; The Mead Family Foundation, a US organisation describing itself as ‘philanthropic’ https://meadfamilyfdn.org/about-us/foundation-history/ (Accessed 9 February 2019) and Tate Patrons - individuals and corporations.
One quote from McCullin I noted on the wall is, “..it’s not a case of, ‘There but for the grace of God go I’; it’s a case of, ‘I’ve been there..’ McCullin grew up in Finsbury Park, in a poor neighbourhood. He left school at 15 with no qualifications (http://www.johnjones.co.uk/news/2015/09/don-mccullin-eighty-at-hamiltons-9-september-3-october-2015/ Accessed 9 February 2019). His National Service was as a photographic assistant with the RAF, and he was posted in Egypt, Kenya and Cyprus. On returning to London he took photographs of his friends, members of The Guv’nors gang. There is one from 1958 of The Guv’nors in their Sunday Suits,
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These young men appear neither “...second-rate, clumsy, uncouth..” nor “..defensive..” in their suits (Berger, J 2015, About Looking, Bloomsbury Publishing Plc, London. Available from: ProQuest Ebook Central. [27 January 2019]) but at ease with themselves and the camera. If they had been standing around a conference table, all bar one could have been mistaken for members of the professional ruling class.
McCullin showed these photos to the picture editor of the Observer, and earned his first commission. https://donmccullin.com/don-mccullin/ (Accessed 5 February 2019).
Two photographs from the early 1960s depicting London street scenes, ‘Sheep going to the slaughterhouse early morning near the Caledonian Road 1965’, https://www.artsy.net/artwork/don-mccullin-sheep-going-to-the-slaughter-early-morning-near-the-caledonian-road-london#! (Accessed 5 February 2019)and ‘Horses delivering beer Cable Street 1962’ are, I think, romantic, soft focus , painterly portrayals of everyday events, and there is tenderness in ‘Hessel Street, 1962’, https://static.standard.co.uk/s3fs-public/thumbnails/image/2019/02/04/09/Hessel-Street-Jewish-District-East-End-London-1962.jpg?width=1368&height=912&fit=bounds&format=pjpg&auto=webp&quality=70 (Accessed 5 February 2019)
Some of the northern England photos made me think, ‘It’s grainy oop north’, and I asked myself, do grainy photographs equal ‘realism’? Did McCullin set a standard visual language? The caption under ‘Volubilis, Morocco 2007’ states,
“…People say my landscapes look like war scenes because I do print them very dark. But… I suppose the darkness is in me, really…”
In 1964 he was commissioned by the Observer to cover the war in Cyprus. In the commentary, McCullin describes this time as the,
“…beginnings of self-knowledge…empathy. Able to share other people’s emotional experiences, live with them silently, transmit them…”
In ‘Murder in a Turkish Village’, https://www.tate.org.uk/art/artworks/mccullin-murder-in-a-turkish-village-ar01186 (Accessed 5 February 2019), a young woman lies over the body of a man, and looks directly at the camera. The image looks posed; the position of her body and direct gaze is self-conscious and deliberate. There is a comment from McCullin later under ‘A young dead North Vietnamese soldier with his possessions 1968’, ‘..I only ever played with the truth once…” https://www.tate.org.uk/art/artworks/mccullin-a-young-dead-north-vietnamese-soldier-with-his-possessions-ar01195 (Accessed 9 February 2019). He describes this image as “..the only contrived picture I’ve taken in a war..”. McCullin was disgusted by some of the US soldiers he was following taking souvenirs from the soldier’s dead body. McCullin rearranged the dead soldier’s belongings around him and took the photograph.
A number of titles of the photographs in this exhibition use the words ‘murder of’, which are more emotive than the more neutral ‘death of’. A quote from McCullin on the wall at the Biafra section states,
“..it was beyond war, it was beyond journalism, it was beyond photography, but not beyond politics…"
However, at the Northern Ireland section, in comments on the wall entitled ‘Neutrality’, McCullin describes himself as a “..totally neutral passing-through person…” Reading the captions on his Northern Ireland photographs, contrasting people going about their everyday lives surrounded by abnormal events and circumstances, as in:
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(Accessed 9 February), I felt this statement to be disingenuous; they tell the viewer that they were taken in, ‘Londonderry’. But McCullin also describes British troops’ hostility towards him when a soldier was shot and accusations that he was helping the rioters and ultimately”… the terrorists…”.
The title of this photograph is ‘Local Boys in Bradford, 1972’, https://d2jv9003bew7ag.cloudfront.net/uploads/Don-McCullin-Local-Boys-in-Bradford.jpg (Accessed 9 February 2019)
In the course of his work, McCullin put himself at personal risk. In the Congo he disguised himself as a mercenary working for the government. We see torturers posing for the camera. “..I was trying to photograph in a way Goya painted or did his war sketches…I found it hard not to burst into tears…” One woman near me did just this; my eyes welled up when I read the caption to Albino Boy, 1968, https://static.independent.co.uk/s3fs-public/thumbnails/image/2012/12/29/19/16-ontheedge1.jpg?width=1368&height=912&fit=bounds&format=pjpg&auto=webp&quality=70 (Accessed 9 February 2019) holding an “…empty corned beef tin..”
I noted small details and gestures in several of his images; a sheep going to slaughter turning in the opposite direction, a blonde child on a truck full of Kurdish refugees in ‘Fleeing Kurds from Saddam Hussein's aerial attacks, 1991’. The pathetically small placard held by a protestor facing a phalanx of police officers, ‘Protester, Cuban Missile Crisis, Whitehall, London, 1962’, https://www.artsy.net/artwork/don-mccullin-protester-cuban-missile-crisis-whitehall-london#! (Accessed 9 February 2019), is comparable to a young man wielding a stick against armed British soldiers in ‘The Bogside, 1971’ https://www.tate.org.uk/art/artworks/mccullin-northern-ireland-the-bogside-londonderry-ar01189 (Accessed 9 February 2019)
The commentary states that McCullin was “..deeply affected by the trauma of reporting some of the most violent conflicts..” The Sunday Times Magazine, the first colour supplement to be published in the UK. (‘Projection Room commentary) commissioned the Biafra photographs. In December 1969 the British Government supported the Nigeria federal forces fighting Biafra and, as Berger pointed out, the Sunday Times “…politically supported the policies responsible for the violence…” Berger, J 2015, About Looking, Bloomsbury Publishing Plc, London. Available from: ProQuest Ebook Central. [Accessed 27 January 2019]. McCullin worked for the Sunday Times for eighteen years.
In 1968 he spent 11 days with US troops fighting in Vietnam. The exhibition displays some of McCullin’s possesions he had with him in Vietnam,.Biafra and Cambodia. Alongside his Nikon F with a bullet hole in it, is his passport stamped with a 1969 Vietnamese tourist visa, as if he were on holiday. At this point in the exhibition, I wondered whether McCullin’s sense of empathy for his subjects was losing focus. The wall in the Cambodia, 1970 section displayed this quote from him,
“It could have so easily been my dead corpse rattling. I thought, he’s gone instead of me…”
In the early 1970s, McCullin took photographs in the East End of London, in particular portraits of homeless people.
“..There are social wars that are worthwhile. I don’t want to encourage people to think photography is only necessary through the tragedy of war…”
A thought came into my mind; how did McCullin, world famous photographer, approach these people? In ‘Homeless drunk man on Brick Lane 1971’, a woman breezes past, apparently oblivious to this man. I wondered who this woman was. Did she consent to be displayed in this photograph, perhaps be seen in a negative light? Some of the people photographed in Bangladesh appear to have angry expressions on their faces; where are these people now? The child looking directly at the camera in ‘The Murder of a Turkish Shepherd, Cyprus Civil War, 1964’, https://www.tate.org.uk/art/artworks/mccullin-the-murder-of-a-turkish-shepherd-cyprus-civil-war-ar01183 (Accessed 9 February 2019) looks, perhaps, accusingly at the photographer. McCullin comments,
“I feel guilty about the people I photograph. It’s true, I do. Why should I be celebrated at the cost of other people’s suffering and lives. I don’t sit comfortably with laurels on my head” (Caption under the photograph ‘A boy at the funeral of his father who died of AIDS, Kawama Cemetery, Ndola, Zambia 2000)
I thought some of the people in the British Summertime, Bradford and India photographs appeared grotesque. McCullin uses the word, “..eccentric…”, but some of the images, such as ‘Bradford City Centre, 1970’, made me wonder if we are “..laughing at ourselves..” or whether McCullin was laughing at other people?
Some of the Bradford photographs, however, do present the viewer with extreme poverty of a British kind, and I felt there was tenderness in the photograph of a couple with a child and a pile of clothes. We are not told much about these people; only Jean, a homeless woman in London, has a name.
“…I want to create a voice for the people in those pictures. I want the voice to seduce people into actually hanging on a bit longer…so that they go away not with an intimidating memory but with a conscious obligation...’
My thought was, if it is McCullin who creates a voice, whose voice is it? How can this obligation be fulfilled? Do people passing through this exhibition do anything more than look?
‘Bradford, 1970’, shows a stripper in a pub bending over; we cannot see her face. The focus is on the leers and, perhaps, bemusement, of the male onlookers. A solitary woman in the foreground looks as if she is looking beyond the stripper. It occurred to me that a lot of what I was seeing, images designed to stimulate and seduce, published in the glossy lifestyle and entertainment Sunday supplements and £25 catalogues for the purpose of making money, made remote from the actuality of the lives of the people depicted, could be regarded by some as ‘the horrors of war porn’. Some of the related events advertised on the Tate website include, wine tasting and dinner; https://www.tate.org.uk/whats-on/tate-britain/exhibition/don-mccullin/wine-tasting-dinner-don-mccullin. (Accessed 9 February 2019). I wonder whether corned beef will be on the menu?
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