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painting us // colby brock
A/N: this is a birthday present from me to yall. aren't i so generous lol i've been wanting to write something like this ever since i saw this tiktok. it was so cute and so sweet and i just knew it would be a PERFECT fic for colby. i can 1000% see him doing this someday with someone or malia. there's no gender mentioned in this one so anyone can read this and enjoy :) hope yall like it and lmk what you think! also wish my happy birthday while you're at it haha
prompt: colby and you have been together for a long time, and he decides for a special date night that you two should paint one another. || colby brock x reader
trigger warning: one curse word, PURE FLUFF, super sweet <33
word count: 1300
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"Are you gonna be upset if my painting looks like ass?" Colby smirked, staring up at me for a moment.
I shook my head. "Babe, I highly doubt it's gonna look that bad."
"You know I have no artistic skills. And especially after a glass of wine?" He pffted.
I giggled. "I'll love it regardless."
Our date nights were always fun, having spent so much time together - it was natural for us to enjoy ourselves. Some of my favorite memories were from dates of ours. Recently Colby had seen a stream of tiktoks talking about getting tipsy and painting one another and showing the results afterwards. He mentioned really wanting to do this one night with me, saying we could turn it into a whole date; including making pizza together and watching a movie after. I agreed once I saw one of the tiktoks and thought it looked like a cute idea. What was hysterical to me was how one partner was always so bad at painting and the other was either amazing or just okay.
And since I had been with Colby for a couple years now, I knew which one of us was going to be the bad one... and it definitely wasn't going to be me.
Colby was creative in a lot of ways. Painting was just not one of them.
I kept looking up at him, doing my best to paint him like he was: hair gelled in just the right way - like he always wore it, a short sleeve button up shirt with a black and white design on it. His eyes were soft, and his lips had a light red stain on them from the wine he had been drinking with me. Every time we made eye contact, he would smile cheekily at me, his dimples showing, and sometimes giving me a wink when I would smirk back.
He was the love of my life, and I couldn't imagine anyone else sitting here with me. I didn't want anyone else sitting here with me, on a random Thursday night, painting, drinking, and reminiscing.
"What's been your favorite date of ours?" He asked softly, his brush lightly tapping at the canvas.
I sat back for a moment, thinking. "Oooh, that's a good question. I think I really liked the one we took on your one day off in Rome. It was nice that even on a work trip, you made time for me."
"I will always make time for you," he stated sincerely. "And having authentic Italian food in Italy is a no brainer."
I moaned, "That pasta was to die for."
"I could gain 10 pounds just thinking about it." He jested.
"What about you? What's been your favorite date of ours?" I questioned, painting in his shirt some more.
"Hmmm, probably when we found that hidden beach out in Virginia, and we just watched the stars for hours and talked." Colby smiled at the memory.
I sighed sweetly, "You're such a sap."
"Only for you." He whispered, taking a sip of his wine.
"Are you almost done? I think I've painted your face like six times now but I feel like I'm never gonna get your eyes right." I huffed, slightly frustrated.
"Yeah, I think I'm done..." His voice trailed off, his eyes suddenly full of nerves.
"You don't sound too enthused." I remarked, watching him.
He cleared his throat, "I-I'm just nervous for you to see it. I tried really hard."
"Aw babe, that's so sweet." I commented.
His gaze met mine and he nodded, "Show me yours first, Y/N."
"Alright..." I spun the canvas around, showing him the painting. His whole face brightened, his eyes kind.
Colby pointed proudly, "Baby, that's excellent."
"You think so?" I inquired, looking back at the painting.
"Yeah! You did really good," he exclaimed. "I'm actually shocked at how much that looks like me."
"I feel like your eyes aren't quite right though." I mentioned.
He cocked his head, tracing the lines of the painting with his gaze. "The right one does look a little wonky... but at least you painted me accurately."
I laughed, "Hey now, that's not true. Your right eye is lovely."
"Thanks for the reassurance." His smile dropped, his face nervous once more. "Do you wanna see mine?"
"Of course. I bet it's amazing." I reassured him.
Colby nodded, growing quiet instantly. He looked anxious, and I politely smiled at him. He took a deep breath, grabbing the canvas and turning it over.
It wasn't a painting of me. Well, I was on it. It was the two of us as little mini figures in the corner, holding hands. The background was painted a light pink. And there were words taking up the whole canvas. I read them slowly, taking them in one by one.
Will... you... marry... me?
Will you marry me?
He... was asking me to marry him.
Colby was asking me to marry him.
Tears welled up in my eyes as it hit me, my mouth falling open as I blinked rapidly. He chuckled, getting up and walking over to me. He placed the painting in front of me on the table, taking my hand in his. From his back pocket he pulled out a small ring box and opened it. Inside was a beautiful ring, one that was clearly made for just me. It had everything I wanted in an engagement ring. The shape, the color, the cut.Ā
It all made sense as to why months back he had asked me about rings and what I wanted. I knew he wanted to marry me, we had talked about it for over a year at this point. But all of this felt so surprising.
His voice wavered as he spoke, tears brimming from his eyes. His hands shook against mine anxiously. His eyes remained on mine the entire time, his heart speaking for him. "Y/N, you have been the best partner I could have ever asked for. The moment I met you I knew I wanted to marry you. You are unlike anyone I've ever known before. You make me feel so secure in who I am as a man and you help me be a better one every day just by existing in my life. I have truly never felt happier, and I thank God every day for sending you my way when I needed you most. I cannot imagine spending another second without you as mine. I love you so much. Will you please marry me?"
I stared at him, the ring, and back at him again. His eyes shined with unshed tears as he waited for me to respond.
"Of course, my love. You're all I've ever wanted," I choked out, more tears falling.
He grinned, sliding the ring onto my finger and jumping to his feet. He pulled me up with him, wrapping his arms around me tightly. He squeezed me, laughing softly as I cried happy tears into his chest. Colby pulled away, looking at me with adoration, kissing my lips feverishly. I kissed him back just as much, holding his face in my hands.
I wiped my tears away, "Oh my God, I can't believe it. This is fucking insane, Colby."
"That I'd marry you or that I surprised you?" He sassed.
I chuckled, "Both honestly."
"I love you, Y/N." He murmured, resting his forehead against mine.
"I love you, Colby." We stayed like that for a moment, just breathing, until I spoke, "I have a different answer to your earlier question though."
He raised an eyebrow, "What one?"
"My favorite date. It's not the Italy one. It's this one. For sure." I rubbed his arms softly, pulling him closer to me.
Colby beamed, "This is my favorite one too."
#colby brock#colby brock fanfic#colby brock fic#colby brock fanfiction#colby brock x reader#colby brock oneshot#colby brock one shot#colby brock fluff
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Now all I can think about is Prey!Papa-Naruto because it would be the wildest funniest thing ever! Poor Hinata is probably trying to make sure her kids grow up to be good morally upstanding people and Naruto is justā¦.Yeah š¬. Funnily enough this Naruto probably wouldnāt have as much of a contentious relationship with Boruto because thereās no way heās putting work above spending time how he wants š. And as a Kawaki hater Iām pleased to say I donāt see this Naruto being altruistic enough to take in some random abused kid so really weāve got my ideal version of the Uzumaki family š«¢. Anyway, I bet parent-teacher conferences and kiddy playdates and birthday parties are gonna be fun times š¤£. Speaking of bday parties happy early birthday! I hope itāll be a fun one.
Daddy Prey!Naruto is the funniest thing ever, lol.
For sure, Naruto would spend time with his little mini-me. Who would stop him?
I feel like Boruto would be very aware that his father is a homicidal nutjob and spend his time trying to keep innocents out of harms way, but he does it in ways that are just as bad as his father, because of course, the apple doesn't fall that far from the tree, and that he has this huge blind spot to when his own inner crazy is starting to show, lol. And of course, mess with his mom or baby sister, well then, you'll have a hard time telling Naruto and Boruto apart at allš¤he'd justify his violence and the bodies in his closet because Prey!Narupapa taught him that delusion is just another way to say correct, and there's nothing wrong with customizing your own reality when it's convenient. He'd also spend so much time trying to undo Hima's worst tendencies their dad is teaching her in an effort to help his mom out, but ends up making it worse by teaching her "alternative" tendencies that are just as bad but much more slicker than his father's open bluntness, which ultimately, makes Hinata's job harder, lol. Poor lady, I can see her trying to explain the situation to her crazy husband. Hinata: I'm trying to make sure the kids have a moral compass, Naruto Naruto: The fuck they need that for?
I'll be honest, I really don't know all that much about Kawaki since I don't watch the show, but his design is very cool, and the clips I've seen of him on youtube I vibe withš¤but Naruto being altruistic and adopting a poor orphan? Not fuckin likely at all, lol. Prey!Naruto wouldn't care about any kids but his ownš¤·š½āāļøso you're all set for sure, lol.
Parent-teacher conferences would be lit afšimagine Naruto's big buff tatted up self sitting in one of those itty bitty chairs at a table lower than his knees while the teacher tries to get him to understand that it's not a good thing that his little girl is drawing her classmates with their heads somewhere other than on their shouldersš¤£he would be so insulted and have a very scary diatribe about why Hima's work is "art" not a "red flag". The teacher would resign the next day by the time he was done. Omg birthdaysšOne word: Pinata. Take that as you will, lmao!
And omg, I wanna write Prey!Naruto at a PTA meeting, lmao! And you'd think Hinata was the one that dragged him to it, but NO, he'd go on his own because he's a super paranoid bastard that needs to know what is going on in his orbit and that includes his hellspawns, and if he doesn't like what he hears he'll have to retire a few folks to ensure things are being run for the benefit of his offspringš
Hima's not doing a kiddy playdate, study date, pretend date, any date. Over somebody else's dead body would Naruto allow his baby girl to do any sorta datingš¤£hell naw, and don't @ him about it. End of discussion. Why? Because Naruto knows how guys are, and considering the things he does to Hima's mother on a regular basis, he's dead set on not letting any guy near his daughter until she's at least 80 years old, if she's lucky. Teen!Hima good luck trying to date or get a boyfriendš
especially since big brother's not gonna be too keen on the idea either, lol. And thank you for the early birthday wishes!!š
I feel like this SOL Prey!Naruto family is set in stone to be a thing at this point, lmao. I'm certainly sold on it. I won't say whether or not I plan on Hinata getting knocked up in Prey, ya'll will have to wait and find out but I definitely think this should be a full SOL fic at this point, lol. It's just too good to pass upš¤
#prey!Naruto zaddy#prey#naruhina#crazy runs in the family#naruto uzumaki#hinata uzumaki#boruto uzumaki#himawari uzumaki#kawaki
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SCREENSHOTS I GOT FROM THE JEREMY JORDAN LIVESTREAM YESTERDAY. especially love the comments on his duck drawings. he was very proud of some of them since he needed to practice before the stream. he admits he does not draw much lol
and here's Lucifer's signature that Jeremy came up with: a cursive capital L attached to a pentagram!
the stream was SO FUN and literally only felt like 20 minutes even tho it was almost an hour
at one point he mentioned he's making pancakes with olive oil now since he has high cholesterol, and that he LOVES how the pancakes turned out. someone responded:
(later someone joked he should make pancakes with bacon grease and he almost shouted (not angrily) "DO YOU WANT ME TO DIE? I JUST SAID I HAVE HIGH CHOLESTEROL. I just said. I had high cholesterol. Are you TRYING. To kill me."
anyway back to screenshots lol)
"Take that, depression!" was a popular quote to write on prints, and he said he hoped we're not depressed and it was very sweet
some more quotes written during the stream and other notes:
"I'm gonna be signing these prints of my boy Lucifer, the short king of Hell"
he drank both a cold smoothie and hot tea during the stream. "Doesn't make any goddamn sense, but here we go."
"It's never too late to fuck up--too late to fuck shit up" (a legitimate accidental stammer. but still perfect in its own way)
"Every time I hear the name 'Shay' I think of my daughter's friend at school. My daughter's obsessed with a friend named Shay. 'S all she talks about. 'Shay Shay Shay Shay Shay Shay.' Shay and Madeline. It's like 'You can be your own person. Clara. You are your own HUMAN.' ā¦HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KATHERINE."
hopes to go to some conventions for Hazbin Hotel. more likely to go to cons in New York, New Jersey (where he lives), or Philly area
"He's just a li'l cutie. :3 Is he really da bosh? :3" (wondering if Lucifer really is the Big Boss of Hell Himself or if it's just more of a title)
"Hope you're not depressed"
" 'Write something Lucifer would say to cheer someone up.' And I think Lucifer would think thatā¦ 'SINGING MAKES EVERYTHING BETTER!' At least when it comes to rebuilding your relationship with your daughter."
"Guess what's in my smoothie. There are six ingredients. Go."
"ā¦said draw a little duck, so I drew the smallest duck I could. (holds print up to camera then says in small high-pitched voice:) It's a little duck!"
MORE QUOTES UNDER THE CUT. THIS POST IS GETTING LONG ASFQJSKSKSKKS
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about his smoothie again: "Obviously, I just went to the gym. So I gotta have some kinda supplement in there. ... WHAT'S THE BASE, Y'ALL? YOU GOTTA HAVE A BASE." (someone could use that audio and give a character a bass guitar lol)
(still about people guessing smoothie ingredients:) "WATER? Why would I put water in my smoothie. (mutters:) Water is for losers. ... Kale! -grins and points at camera- That's it! You win. That's my smoothie."
his smoothie was blueberries, bananas, strawberries, protein powder, almond milk, kale
"ā¦with a hUUGE shmiley faysh! :3" (about a little " =) " smile he wrote with an autograph)
"THAT DUCK IS CUTE!"
"We love, we stan Lilith"
AGGRESSIVELY, ABOUT A JOKE HE MADE: "GET IT?"
Some fatherly advice from Lucifer: "Don't fuck up your lives like I did š"
HE SANG THE START OF HELL'S GREATEST DAD AND WANTS A MIMZY-LESS VERSION THAT ACTUALLY HAS AN ENDING QSJFKSKKSKS
he's only seen Hazbin Hotel once, and he had "~champagne fountains, caviar mountains, that's just to staaart~" going through his head for the two+ years between recording his lines and the show airing. he wasn't able to tell anyone it because of non-disclosure stuff, and eventually he even forgot what that song line was from. but it still went through his head
"[Person he was signing an autograph for] is a bi girl [bisexual], and that's pretty baller"
"AN INCREDIBLE DUCK YOU SHALL HAVE"
"Take that depression!! Quack"
"Hold please!" (i just liked imagining Lucifer saying almost any small thing)
Jeremy Jordan says Lucifer is short, and not just that all the other characters are tall (i cannot confirm that that is canon even tho that's what i want LOL) "What gives!? There are short people in this world, and they need some love"
someone asked what he thinks about OC x canon ships. he was confused about what OC means and then when the chat explained, he was confused about how "OC x canon" works. but he figured it out after thinking for a moment. "So basically everybody wants to fuck Lucifer. GOT IT."
"Am I going to Hell for this" (about all the pentagrams he's drawing)
"ā¦so i just did a bunch of stars and hearts around Emery's name š"
someone asked about his favorite Hazbin Hotel song, and he answered that season 2 has a rock song he really likes š š
"(a requested phrase for an autograph:) 'Duck lord loves you no matter what.' ...Don't know what that particularly means butā¦"
#jeremy jordan#hazbin hotel#lucifer morningstar#hazbin lucifer#hazbin hotel lucifer#duckies#streamily#IF SOMEONE KNOWS WHO MADE THE 'TAKE THAT DEPRESSION' DUCK STICKER THAT JEREMY WORE AND THE SHIRT LMK.#THE ITEMS WERE BROUGHT UP A FEW TIMES AND I'D LIKE TO POINT FANS TO THEM IN CASE PEOPLE ARE INTERESTED.#IF SOMEONE NOTICES I GOT DETAILS WRONG LMK AND I'LL EDIT THE POST. I MAINLY WAS TAKING RAPID NOTES DURING THE STREAM AND#I MAKE MISTAKES SOMETIMES#also i felt i should say somewhere but didn't know where in the post that i am NOT depressed lol. but i hope my followers and#you other peeps are doing well!!!! <3 <3#lucifer notable#<- FOR HIS SIGNATURE SQJFKSKSKSKS#AND ALL HIS DUCK DRAWING REFERENCES#OH LOL. I HAVE A MESSAGE OR TWO IN THE SCREENSHOTS. DON'T WORRY I INCLUDED A STREAMILY URL WHEN I FINISHED THAT FIRST COMMENT QSJKFSKSK#someone said they'll get one of the duck drawings tattooed or smth and that's a great idea honestly LOL#will reblog with a link to the saved Insta video since i don't want this post to get hidden in the tags. that happens right?#that's a thing if you link to non-tumblr sites i think. lame and dumb (and even frankly concerning) agh#oH. ALMOST FORGOT:#LUCIFER META AND HEADCANON#<- FOR HIS L + PENTAGRAM SIGNATURE. CANON FOR ME#heart-of-the-morningstar#<- for the video clips i linked
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List of bsd headcanons
Dazai:
Has bpd. A lot of his traits remind me of my friends with it
He some kind of trans. Nonbinary. Transfem. Transmasc. Idk he's megender lmao
He's described as appearing very youthful in the first two light novels. I imagine that once the events of the main timeline start picking up though, with all the time stopping or slowing abilities that *dont affect him*, he actually ages faster than the other characters. I draw current dazai with small wrinkles, which also hints at stress and stuff
Also, I imagine current dazai getting tanner as he works in the light, as well as getting more prominent freckles.
Round/doe eyes because that is part of his appearance in my opinion. Seeming unsuspecting and innocent, especially during his mafia days
Bad eyesight in his right eye from being under the bandages for so long. Saw this headcanon and loved it
Similarly, beastzai has bad vision in general
I always call No Longer Human an anti-ability in my head, fun fact
He loves to touch other people. Not a fan of being touched by others unless asked
I draw him with red eyes in color, and usually black eyes in ink (inconsistent artstyle my beloved)
Aroace spectrum
heavy sleeper. Very
Chuuya
FRECKLES and tan from sheep days
He likes to be close to other people more than actually touching. Presence over contact
That shade of eyes that changes colors in the light (but I use a grey base lol)
Also some sort of trans, but in a different way than dazai
Brownish red hair. Not blazing, not just brown
That man is AUTISTIC
One time instinctively kicked a friend with his ability active, expecting them to dodge cuz he's used to dazai easily dodging. They did, but they were SO CLOSE to getting hit. Imagine a confused face like wtf why you try to kick me
Light sleeper, but every now and then sleeps like he just learned how to close his eyes
A lot of his jokes go over people's heads because they expect him to be serious and his voice just doesn't change between serious and not serious
Ranpo
Autism plus adhd ftw
Aroace spectrum
Poe
He/they vibes
Anxiety
Gay af
I can 100% see him being into knitting. Imagine the guide plus ranpo all in matching sweaters
Loves baking. Sooooo bad at it
Lucy
Bi (with a lean towards girlies) she/it
VERY good at baking
But she won't share :(
Atsushi
Anxiety, so much anxiety
Aroace spectrum vibes
Very easily idolizes people and then gets surprised when they actually like being around him
Akutagawa
Aroace spectrum
Autism cuz he is so mecore sometimes
Very trans vibes from me
(I like to imagine him having tourettes cuz I have tourettes and I am Not projecting)
Atsushi (special kitty hearing) and jouno being the only ones who can hear some of his tics. He will be horrified that anyone notices them
Wait no actually I'm gonna incorporate that into my belief system. That's canon now
Mori
Genuinely cares about a lot of his workers, but not all of them
He gives great bonuses for birthdays
He absolutely loves vtubers if bsd were in a modern setting. Rip mori. He'd have also loved vocaloid lmao
Ozaki
Masc energy. Fem energy. Ooh I can see ozaki with any pronouns and identity
Kinda person to accidently either overpack or underpack. Always has painkillers, never has a pen
Ridiculous memory. Incredible gift giver. Would get someone something months or years after overhearing them say they wanted something once
"Whyd you get me a hairdryer?"
"You said you needed one. I saw it and thought of you."
"...that was months ago. I got a hairdryer already."
"..." *takes hairdryer back* "sorry wrong person. I don't have my contacts in my bad"
She has perfect vision
Kunikida
Trans vibes. In any and every direction
Adhd af
Will always conveniently have room in his schedule when Aya wants to go do something and needs someone to go with her. No, he's TOTALLY not frantically writing and erasing things, get your glasses updated
You can usually count on him to continue the bit cuz he won't realize there is a bit occurring
#long post#bsd#bungo stray dogs#bungou stray dogs#bsd headcanons#bsd dazai osamu#dazai osamu#osamu dazai#chuya nakahara#nakahara chuya#chuuya nakahara#chūya nakahara#kouyou ozaki#ozaki kouyou#mori ougai#ougai mori#edgar allan poe#ranpo edogawa#bsd edogawa rampo#bsd ranpo#atsushi nakajima#nakajima atsushi#ryuunosuke akutagawa#akutagawa ryunosuke#akutagawa ryuunosuke#bsd akutagawa#lucy maud montgomery#aya koda#doppo kunikida#kunikida doppo
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Oof I just saw your post so HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY š„³
If you're still accepting requests, I'd like one with "I'm really sorry" + Jude litg x fem reader
I know we'll have like few more days but I need to see him begging for forgiveness asap š§š»āāļø
thank u sm! š„¹ sorry this is a bit late and if the pacing seems off, the heat has been beating my ass
I wrote this as a main villa li x mc, as opposed to specifically jude x mc, since fusebox writes like that themselves lol. but it's also so that everyone can read this while imagining it's their li I guess?? I hope you don't mind and that you enjoy it!
all stars main li (chen/henri/jude/lyle) x female!reader
Youāre nervous. Youāre about to enter the main villa again after being in casa amor for a few days. Realistically you know you have nothing to worry about. The two of you were the strongest couple before casa. Not that thatās a great accomplishment given the state of the other couples, but the strongest couple nonetheless. Aside from the pool mishap, which you explained in the letter you wrote him before you were whisked away to casa amor. So why are you so nervous?
Youāre the last girl to walk out. Youād asked the others to wish you luck, to which they all said you wouldnāt need it. But as you're walking down the steps towards the firepit, you donāt miss the looks of pity in their eyes as you join them. You can feel your stomach starting to churn, everything in you is telling you to turn around and just walk away, save yourself the heartache of what youāre about to witness.Ā
But you donāt. You force yourself to keep your head up high and your back straight. You look him right in the eye.Ā
And thatās when you see it.Ā
āNo. Fucking. Way.ā Your eyes are locked in on his hand clasped in hers.Ā
Her.Ā
Uma.
Somehow, he seems just as surprised as you. He starts making his way over to you but he doesnāt get very far with her deathgrip pulling him back, āBabe, Iāmāā
āDonāt.ā You start walking away, āYou donāt get to call me that anymore.ā
āWait!ā He wrenches his hand from hers, āPlease let me explain!ā
You stop so abruptly he bumps into you. āI actually canāt believe you,ā Taking a step back, you cross your arms. āWhen I was accused of cracking on behind your back you believed them, even though I have only had eyes for you from the moment we met. When the PDA awards happened you wouldnāt even let me explain. I wrote you a letter to tell you what really happened, I told you Iād stay loyal to you and I did, I slept on the fucking daybeds for you. I refused to participate in kissing challenges and lost raunchy races because of it, for you! I refused to rekindle things with Stefan even though we have unfinished business, because I wanted to be with you!ā
āIāāĀ
You hold up your hand and scoff, āYou just couldnāt wait to get rid of me huh? I wasnāt even gone for 24 hours and youād already jumped into bed with the next pretty face.ā
āWhat? No!ā If you werenāt so angry right now youād laugh at how his eyes almost popped out of their sockets. āPlease, just let me explain. Please.āĀ
His begging tone makes your anger falter. You nod wordlessly and allow him to pull you towards the swing seat. The two of you sit in awkward silence for a while. You canāt take it anymore, āWell go on then, you were so keen to explain.ā
āRight,ā He clears his throat, āI guess that did make me sound kinda guilty, didnāt it? Wellā¦ I only twisted because Uma told me you told her you were twisting, with Stefan. But as soon as I saw him walk out with Nat I knew sheād lied.ā
āSoā¦ Once again, you believed what other people said about me, over me. Did I get that right?āĀ
āNo! Thatās not whaāgod Iāve really been putting my feet in it, havenāt I?ā He runs his hand through his hair in frustration and takes a deep breath. āWhen Uma came back from your date she pulled me aside. She said she had important information that would make me think twice about my decision. She already knew I was gonna stick with you. Looking back now I realise she obviously played me.āĀ
He looks at you, looking for sympathy maybe. You canāt find it in you to give him any right now.Ā
He takes another deep breath and continues, āShe told me she could barely get a word in during the date, that the moment you two sat down you started gushing about the fact that Stefan, your ex Stefan, was in casa with you. That you hadnāt realised how much you missed him until you saw him again after all those years. That you and Stefan decided to rekindle your relationship again. Thatāā His voice breaks, āThat you told her to tell me to move on.ā
āI shouldāve known sheād lie. I remember her first season. Logically I knew it too, I read your letter every morning right after I woke up and every night before Iād fall asleep.Ā Even though I knew youād stay loyal to me, hearing her say what youād supposedly told her just shook me up so bad. Because I knew you and Stefan didnāt end on bad terms. I knew people constantly bringing him up mustāve messed with your head. And then he actually showed up in casa amorā¦ Honestly I wouldāve understood if you had twisted with him. And thatās why I twisted with Uma. That way weād at least still both be in the villa, ya know, we couldāve worked through our issues and found our way back to each other. But thatās obviously not what happenedā¦ā
With your arms crossed you softly mumble, āObviouslyā¦ā You sigh before going on, āUma told me the casa girls were interested in you, and that you seemed to enjoy the attention. But ultimately stayed loyal. In fact, I never told her any of what she told you. The only thing I told her was that Stefan was one of the casa boys, I couldnāt even get a word in because she was talking the whole time.ā You scoff, āSeems like this was her plan along huh, get me to stick while making you twist so Iād get eliminated.ā
He looks even more ashamed now that he knows the whole truth. āI know Iāve been a shit partner to you lately. I did believe you when you said you hadnāt done anything with Finn, I swear. I was just hurt because you missed my surprise while he was hogging your attention. And then seeing it on the big screen with that cliffhangerā¦ I didnāt know what to think. Youāve never given me a reason to doubt you, so I shouldāve trusted you. I really donāt have an excuse for it. All I can do is promise to be better moving forward, if youāll still have me.ā He rubs the back of his neck.
āWell,ā You start, āSince Uma played us both, and you twisted and left me single, we both know whatās about to happen. If you care about me as much as you claim you do and youāre actually sorry, you know what to do.ā You leave to pack your suitcase, leaving him with his thoughts.Ā
āShould I stay or should I leave with her?ā
#this got way longer than a blurb should be lol#also i hope it's what u wanted bc i realize now there isn't a Lot of groveling šæ#litg#litg fanfic#litg s9#litg all stars#litg chen#litg henri#litg jude#litg lyle#love island the game#chen litg#jude litg#lyle litg#henri litg#sun.fic#sun.txt
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would you be ever so kind as to spare some OL2 headcanons or crumbs š¤²š¤²
If you donāt wanna write for OL2 then OLBA is just as amazing!!!!!!
Hi! I will eventually write for OL2 I'm sure, but I haven't gotten through the demo yet! Right now I'm at the beginning of the first day of school -- I keep getting pulled back into the first one because it has such a chokehold on me lol.
But I was writing these for OLBA so I'll put them here! Thank you!!!
-- Do you like trashy reality shows? Good for you. Cove's not really into it, but he'll watch with you if you want him to. Derek can definitely have some fun with it. But Baxter turns into a monster.
MC answering their phone: Hey, what's up?
Baxter: DID YOU SEE, *this person* from *this show* got arrested.
MC: Aren't you supposed to be working?
Baxter: I saved the mug shot to my photos, I am sending it to you via text right now.
(Client in the background complaining)
Baxter: I do have to get off the phone now, but if you hear anything else call the office and tell them it's an emergency, they'll put you through to me.
-- If you go the Derek romance route, I think you make out once in high school. Because hormones, you've crushed on each other for years, and like it just happens. And then after he's very unwell, he keeps apologizing, and either your really shy and nervous about it or like "no it's ok, that was nice," but either way he's like "HAVE TO GO, TTYL." He doesn't talk to you for a little bit but then feels bad.
MC: Derek, I like you in a romantic way. I want you to be my boyfriend. I liked kissing you and I want to kiss you again.
Derek: Haha that was crazy, so how's school going?
-- Derek is good with cars. Big muscles make car go vroom.
Like there would have been a time when you got a flat tire and you either didn't know how to change it or blanked on what Cliff told you (Cliff taught you how to change a tire, no questions) and called him like "help" and he dropped everything and drove to wherever you were to change it for you.
-- He's also good with mechanical fixes, and just with his hands in general. Is your sink messed up? Call Derek. Some issue with your stove? Call Derek. Creaky door? You already know. (You have to do stuff for him too though, that's the rules).
-- Back to Cliff though, you know those videos of men like "I'm going to teach you some dad stuff" for people who grew up without dads? That's Cliff. Obviously your moms are amazing, but Daddy Cliff is going to step in too sometimes.
-- Cliff teaching MC how to tie a tie, just imagine.
-- Baxter goes home alone after Miranda's birthday party/the second party for him and finishes off that bottle of champagne because he knows that summer's almost over and he's going to do A Bad Thing and he hates himself.
-- Honestly it hurt my feelings so much at the end of Step 3 lol, like I was genuinely taken aback by his goodbye scene. Asking MC why they'd keep talking when he couldn't give them rides anymore like that's all they were interested in, the audacity.
-- Cove has the whole game, he's gonna be ok, we're talking about other people this time.
-- In adulthood, MC looks back at that time they learned their birth parents died when they were a baby, had a quick breakdown then went back home and did a musical performance for their family as one of the cringiest moments of their life (I'm not using second person this time because I don't want to sound judgey but LOL come on). They'll tell Derek about it later on when they're together and he'll be like "aww, that sounds sweet," and Baxter will be nice about it too, but he'll also have some comments to make.
Baxter: Darling, my plant at the office seems to be dying, could you perhaps do a song and dance number to ease my pain?
MC: Shut uuuuuup.
-- Last week gb patch made a post on Patreon with a new sketch for OLNF with wedding planner Baxter, so like the oldest Baxter we'll see in cannon, and he was wearing a cream turtleneck, a purple overcoat, and what looked to me to be a peach colored gingham suit. So by the time he gets to be like 40, his fashion sense is going to be off the rails. He's going to call you and be like "I just went shopping, I hope you like my new look," and come home like:
#our life beginnings and always#olba#our life#baxter ward#cove holden#derek suarez#our life headcannons#our life cove#our life baxter#our life derek#cliff holden#olba baxter#olba cove#olba derek
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Pink Scarf - Epilogue (Elvis/Austin!Elvis x Reader)
Character/Fandom:Ā Elvis - Elvis (2022)
Requested:Ā kinda
(Read more here--Pink Scarf Series Masterlist!)
Prompt:Ā You are part of Elvis Presley's coveted inner circle, and the currently-disgruntled wife of one of the members of Elvis' famous entourage, the Memphis Mafia. After Elvis' dynamite first performance in Vegas, you find yourself in deep water when his magnetism finally gets to you after all these years. Ā [ Fem!Reader ]
TW: SEX. FLUFF (!!). Cussing.Ā Historical inaccuracies in the Vegas timeline. Ā
Rating:Ā Explicit/MatureĀ (NSFW, 18+, so minors Do NOT Interact)Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā || Ā Ā Ā Word Count:Ā 2.6k
A/N:Ā Oh, lord, here we are. THE END. It seems highly fitting that it all comes to a close on our man's birthday. (HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ELVIS DARLIN') š So here's some tooth-rotting, sexy fluff for you because I love them and I love y'all.
I have heard your requests for a paperback/ebook loud and clear (ahhh, thank you!) and can tell you I am writing bonus material as we speak and working on the process of self-publishing through Amazon. I will warn you that the physical book is gonna be HUGE (my estimate is close to 600 pages with the bonus material added š), but that does mean the cost of the physical book will be a little spendy (not outrageous or anything) because of the cost of printing. Just wanted to let you know in advance!
Also, I know in the past that people were interested in me dropping in for a Q & A type thing on Discord or Twitter Spaces to talk about Pink Scarf...is this something y'all are interested in still? (If not, totally okay!) Let me know in the comments if that sounds like something you'd want!
I sincerely hope y'all will stick around for my next projects as I try to get my writing career off the ground. I'm hoping to soon have a website and an Amazon page up and running soonish so you can follow my other works. I'll keep you posted! Y'all are the OG's and the best fans a girl could ask for! š
If you so desire, you should now have the ability to tip my blog or different chapters in the story! Of course, no one is obligated to do so! If you do choose to tip, thank you so much! I've never had anyone want to pay for my work before, so this is a big step towards my romance novelist dreams. š
Finally, and I can't say this enough, I am so FREAKIN' GRATEFUL for every single one of you babies, honeys, and lil' mamas supporting me out there, YOU ARE EXTRAORDINARY! I didn't in a million years expect this kind of support and response for Pink Scarf, and your reactions, reblogs, messages, asks, and comments you've given me have been a blessing beyond expression. You all are the best community a writer could ask for! Thank you so much for your support and generosity. I am loving getting to know y'all better! I love every single reaction and comment and ask, and I'm sorry if I don't get back to them all as soon as I'd like but know that I love you all and am so excited to be making new friends! And a big "Hey, Y'all!" to our friends from Elvis Twitter, Elvis Discord, and Elvis Instagram--I see and appreciate you coming over to join us! šš
I also want to give a special shout out to my flower, Daisy, @powerofelvis for keeping me sane (relatively lol) and on track throughout this whole process. Thank you for all your encouragement and love (and for listening to me scream into the void), baby! š
If you feel so moved, please let me know what you think or how you're feeling (or send me asks)! I know I'm terribly slow at getting to them but I love every single one!
I imagined this with Elvis in mind, but Austin!Elvis works here, too, whatever floats your boat!Ā
Apologies in advance if there are any grammatical errors or TW that I didn't catch.Ā
(I did start cross-posting Pink Scarf to my AO3 account, as well as my NEW Wattpad account. so if you are so inclined, you can check it out/support me over there with kudos and votes and whatnot!)
Graceland, New Yearās Eve, 1969
The mansion you now call home still sparkles with Christmas decorations as you make your way through the throng of friends and visitors, smiling and laughing, sipping on a delicious champagne that you are positive is ridiculously expensive for the way it melts on your tongue. Everyone is rested and in great spirits, as 1969 was a monumentally successful year for Elvis Presley Enterprises and all those involved.
For you, itās been a monumental year in many ways. You would never have imagined six months ago that by the end of the year youād be in the midst of divorcing Jack, preparing for your new career as a backup singer, and moving into Graceland with Elvis, who you are wildly, madly in love with.
A whirlwind, to say the least.
Speak of the devil, you feel that telltale rise of goosebumps on your skin, that magical sixth sense you are now so aware of when you know that Elvis is watching you. You turn from your conversation with Joe and his wife Joanie to find Elvis gazing at you from across the living room with a dangerously coy smile playing on his lips and that unmistakable glint in his eyes. The heat of the look sets your body aflame, a flush rising quickly to your cheeks.
Lord in heaven, this man, you think, giving him a furrow of your brow and a disbelieving look back, only this man would be so bold as to want to take me in the middle of a party at his own damn house. Ā
But damn it if he doesnāt even waver, completely uncaring that any of the guests might see the blatantly sexual, heated intensity of his stare. He calls it āthat lean and hungry look,ā and you cannot help the shiver that cascades down your spine because you know heās about to eat you alive, party be damned.
And sure enough, he strides across the room as if no one else is here, and saying nothing at all, grabs your hand and yanks you away from your conversation. You briefly catch the look of surprise from Joanie and Joeās smirk before being whisked away.
āElvis!ā you whisper loudly enough for him to hear you, āWe have guests!ā You manage to set your champagne flute on a nearby table before doubling your steps to try and keep up with his long strides.
He gives no indication of hearing you, though you know he has. But he is singularly focused, which sends warmth into your core and wetness already pooling in your panties because you know whatās coming.
He surprises you by not even making it up the stairs to the bedroom, instead pulling you into the half bathroom on the lower level. You yelp at the change in direction and then heās slamming you up against the door while locking it at the same time.
Your yelp quickly turns into a quiet moan because his large hands and luscious mouth are suddenly everywhere, all at once. His lips crush into yours, then burn down your neck, sending fire into your belly, and you canāt help but respond. Your hands fly to his head, raking through his scalp. His hand grips the outside of your bare thigh, hitching it up to his waist, his hand slipping under the hem of your dress.
He rolls his pelvis slowly and deliberately into yours. Heās already rock hard, and the sensation of his bulge pressing into your core through his pants has you groaning a little too loud, considering you have a house full of people. Elvis doesnāt say a word though, he just smirks and places a ring-clad hand over your mouth.
That action alone has you melting into a puddle because you know, you just know how heās going to take you: quick and dirty.
āYou better be quiet, lilā mama, or evāryoneās gonna know Iām fuckinā ya senseless,ā he whispers, his hot breath tickling the shell of your ear. You can smell the musk of arousal on him, the pheromones so strong they are nearly dizzying. He nibbles the lobe of your ear possessively. This action coupled with his words sends sparks showering through you.
You think you might come apart already, and heās barely touched you.
His brilliant blues are blown black when he draws away. Free hand snaking up your thigh, his fingers first dance over your soaked panties, then dip them underneath the delicate fabric to graze up through your folds and straight to your clit.
Your eyes roll back, his hand muffling the moans that escape your throat involuntarily. Heās so worked up already, he doesnāt tease you long. Two long fingers plunge knuckle deep into your wet heat, the cold edges of his rings making you squirm a little at the intrusion. You begin panting into his hand as he so expertly thrusts and curves them to give you the maximum amount of pleasure as he stretches you out.
This doesnāt last long, though. Heās too far gone and much too needy for foreplay. A deeply primal instinct has taken over the man you loveāyou can see it written all over his handsome face. And you welcome it, even as you whimper at the loss of his digits when he unceremoniously pulls them out of you. You welcome it as he spins you around, pushing you up against the door. You welcome it gladly as he hikes your dress up to your waist and rips your lacy panties right off your body.
You gasp, hearing the tearing of fabric as your flushed cheek is pressed into the wood of the door, shivering both from the exposure of the air on your bare ass and for what you know is next. Soon after, you hear the clink of his heavy belt and the woosh of his pants as they thump to the floor and then heās filling you so completely that you are clawing at the door for purchase.
He canāt stop the growl that comes from within when he sinks deep inside you to the hilt, bottoming out quickly. Heās impatient and does not linger, however, instead pulling back and thrusting into you hard, gripping your hips like his life depends on it.
You manage to keep your gasps quiet as he sets a relentless pace. Your entire body tingles, the obscene sounds from your joining sending you hurtling towards the edge of your own release. He knows your body so well, rubbing desperate circles on your clit that, along with the way heās filling you, already has your legs shaking and abdomen tensing with pleasure.
Neither of you are going to last long. Itās evident as your breathing speeds up and the coil in your belly snaps, causing you to hit your climax hard with a strangled cry. The wave crests fast,and your walls tense and flutter around him. You love how he still can make you see stars, even in these circumstances. His hips stutter, the rhythm faltering, and he follows soon after you with a relieved and gracious groan, pulsing and coating your walls with his arousal.
Heavy breathing is the only sound in the tiny space. Elvis envelops you from behind, wrapping his arms around your waist and burying his face into your hair as he pulls you close. You live for these moments when heās stripped vulnerable, his love so evident and overflowing, making even a bathroom quickie more like making love than youād had in over a decade of marriage.
You sigh into him, and he kisses the back of your head. āSorry about your panties, baby,ā he whispers almost bashfully into your ear.
You canāt help but laugh, āAt the rate you go through ruining them, you might as well just buy me the whole store, love.ā
Elvis pulls out and turns you around, grasping your chin before pulling you into a deep kiss. It has you melting into his arms, but you know you canāt stay there long, not with a house full of people.
The swell of love you feel for this wonderful, talented, charismatic man is incredible. So many years of shared history has made it easy to slip into a comfortable life with him, so much so that you almost forget what your life was like before. Itās not without its challenges, certainly. He is still mercurial, and you still get locked up in your own head sometimes. The both of you are stubborn as hell, especially now that youāve taken more agency for yourself in this relationship, more than you ever had with Jack.
As you pull apart and clean up, you feel incredibly lucky that things have worked out the way they have, despite so many years of struggles to make your way to each other.
Once put back together (though sure some of your guests will know exactly what was going on in the bathroom), you reach for the door. Elvis stops you.
āI was gonna wait ātil midnight and make it a big thing, but I just canāt,ā he drawls behind you.
āWait for what?ā you ask quizzically, turning around.
You gasp and your heart begins to gallop in your chest as you watch him sink to one knee as best he can in the tiny space. He pulls a little black box from his pocket. Youāre afraid your heart might flutter right out of your body at the sight of it.
āYou make me a better man, baby. I love you so much it hurts sometimes, and I thank God every day that He put you in my life. I canāt imagine tryinā to go another day without you by my side. Now, I know it feels real soon, but if weāre honest, itās been a long time cominā, and I-I-I know youāre still in the middle of the divorce and all, but y/n, would you do me the honor of beinā my wife?ā Elvis asks, his eyes brimming with unshed tears.
Your heart drops into your stomach. Itās both exhilaration and trepidation all at once, flooding every part of you. Part of you screams with excitement: Of course! Of course! Of course, Iāll be your wife!
But another part is filled with latent fearāfear of being consumed by another marriage so soon, still afraid that this man before you will love you and leave you like the rest. Elvis had said many times over the years that he wasnāt really interested in marriage, and you canāt help but think of that in this moment, as much as you donāt want to.
āElvis,ā you manage to breathe, āI thoughtā¦I thought you said you werenāt the āmarrying kindā? That you didnāt want to be tied down? Are youā¦are you sure?ā
You watch something flash in his eyes for a moment before he looks up at you again. He stands and takes your hands in his. āI-I said that cuz I didnāt think I could ever have you. I knew I couldnāt marry anyone else, wouldnāt be right. Youāre the only one I ever truly wanted. I-I-Iā¦youāre my soulmate, y/n. Itās only ever been you, honey,ā he says quietly, laying it all out for you, as he pushes an errant strand of your hair behind your ear.
A happy tear trickles down your face. You know he loves youāhe tells you every day. But this is so much more than that. You didnāt realize heād put his entire life on hold for you like this. His soulmate.
As much as it scares you, you know itās true. Heās right. This inexplicable pull thatās been between the two of you for all this time, the pull you tried so desperately to ignore and forget for so many years, is stronger than anything youāve ever felt for anyone in your life. Every cell in your body yearns for him, and he feels like home. You fit together perfectly. Now that youāre finally in sync, everything just works.
You cannot ignore the truth that finding your way to each other after all these years feels utterly meant to be. He is there when you need him. He brings out a side of you that you never knew existedāin the bedroom, with your music, your unyielding love for him, even in the hardest moments.
The way he gazes at you now, full of hope and love, makes your knees weak. But part of you is still scared that itās too soon, that youāll lose yourself all over again.
Elvis reads your mind, sensing your doubts in that intuitive way of his. āThe wedding part doesnāt hafta be right awayā¦I know we gotta wait for the divorce to be final anyway. But whenever youāre ready, whenever youāre comfortable, Iāll be here,ā he says, pressing his forehead to yours.
This sends a sense of relief through you, a release of pressure. Finally, you find your voice. āLet me be your everything?ā you whisper, taking his face in your hands, your eyes searching his deep and worldly ones.
Elvis knows what you are asking of him, and he doesnāt think twice. His lips curl up into that beautiful grin of his as he nods. āYes, everything,ā he says back.
āThen yes, yes, I will be your wife,ā you laugh, through more happy tears.
āYes?ā he asks joyfully, just to be sure.
āYes!ā you squeal as he scoops you up in his arms, pressing his pliant and soft lips to yours.
His hands shake adorably when he slides the tasteful yet extravagantly sized diamond on your ring finger.
And it sits perfectly, as though his ring was always meant to be there. You both stare at it for a moment, your hand resting on top of his.
Squeezing your hand, Elvis looks at you with a boyish kind of awe. āAre you happy, baby?ā he asks quietly, his long lashes fanning out as he runs his eyes over your face.
A moment of dĆ©jĆ vu hits you. Heās asked you this before, many different times, and those moments flash through your head, reminding you of your deep history together. The history you now remember and share.
All heās ever really wanted to do is make me happy, you realize. The thought sends warmth blooming through you.
You look up at him, into that handsome face that you want to spend eternity with. āOh, Iām more than happy, my love,ā you respond. And you are. So much so, you almost donāt believe it.Ā Then you pull him down for a sweet, soft kiss. He drinks you in as if you are oxygen, bringing you closer.
āAre you happy?ā you ask as you nuzzle his nose.
āDarlinā, Iām so happy I wanna sing from the rooftop,ā he drawls, grabbing your ass. āIāll marry ya right here in this damn bathroom, if I gotta. Gonna make you Mrs. Y/n Presley. Then I wanna parade you around and let everyone know youāre mine.ā He almost growls the last part and presses his long body into yours.
You laugh. āWell, I donāt think we have to resort to getting married in the bathroom, but Mrs. Y/n Presley has quite the nice ring to it,ā you say, smiling, putting your hands in his back pockets.
āI love you,ā Elvis says unabashedly, suddenly serious.
āI love you, too,ā you whisper, kissing him again. āNow letās go tell everyone how Iām gonna make an honest man out of you.ā
He laughs at that, a big and boisterous sound that makes your own heart sing.
And it will do so for the rest of your days.
*THE END*
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Just Another Day | Or Is It?
feel free to ignore this lol, but i love your roman angst and was wondering if youād do a part 2 to just another day ? maybe thomas gets involved ? idk, but thanks for your writing !! ā anon
you want clamor? you want begging, screaming, groveling???? here it is right here right now, I'm pretty sure the fic came out ten minutes ago but the creativitwins are SO IMPORTANT to me !!! ok, getting to the point, Just Another Day is one of many incredible fics you have produced and i have a dire, extreme need for a second chapter (obviously)! maybe you have an idea for it, but maybe it's the next day, and since the others can tell that roman is so disappointed and upset, but they can't just go up to him and immediately make up for it, they come up with smaller, more gradual ways to give him something special for his birthday (ie: Patton bakes/cooks for him, Logan plans a brainstorm, Janus and/or Virgil do his makeup, and of course, obligatory cuddle ending) just a thought anyways love you love your fics have a fantastic day!!! <3 ā vinbee631
Read on Ao3 Part 1
Warnings: none?
Pairings: also none
Word Count: 2140
After the...not-great birthday, it's the next day.
Ā Ā Ā When Roman wakes up, it takes him a few minutes to work out that the big, soft, warm thing he's cuddling into isn't just his blanket or something he conjured in his sleep, but Remus.
Fingers card gently through his hair, an arm squeezing him gently around the middle, and Remus's sleepy voice murmurs something like we gotta feed the Krakens.
"Wake up," Roman mumbles, swatting his side lightly, "you're still dreaming, Re."
"No, 'm not," Remus says back, shifting slightly under him, "Ollie misses you, you gotta come with me next time I feed him."
An unexpected warmth ricochets around Roman's chest. "Your Kraken misses me?"
"Well, yeah." He starts to sound more awake, one arm reaching over to the bedside table to doā¦something, check the time on the clock or his phone, presumably. "You're the one who spoils him with scratches and pets, of course he's gonna miss you."
"You said it helps keep him healthy!"
"Yeah, it does, but it's like brushing a cat, you don't gotta do it all the time. Plus, it helped you two bond when he was still skittish around you but now I'm pretty sure you're his favorite."
"No, Re, I'm sure you are."
Remus snorts as they sit up, the red comforter falling from their shoulders as they rub the last of the sleep from their eyes. "He has to love me 'cause I'm the one cleaning his lake and making sure he's got all the food he needs. You, on the other hand, he squirted water at me last time I said you weren't with me. He fucking adores you."
"W-why?"
Remus squints at him like he's being purposefully obtuse, and when he realizes that no, Roman really has no idea why, he softens and ruffles his hair. "'Cause he's a creature of the Imagination, for one, and they all fucking love you, he's a creature of my Imagination, secondly, and they all get that from me, and third: it's 'cause you're Roman."
***
Ā Ā 2.
He's still fixing his damp hair when he gets back to the kitchen, having taken a quick rinse to get the smell of lake and Kraken and morning off of him after going with Remus. Ollie had, in fact, chirped and squeaked and trilled upon realizing that Roman had come with Remus and it had been simultaneously the easiest and hardest feeding they'd had in a while. Easiest because Ollie sat so perfectly as Remus checked him over, and hardest because he hadn't wanted Roman to go.
They'd persuaded him eventually by saying that Roman would come back for an entire day coming up, but he's still reeling with the aftereffects of realizing that the Kraken missed him that much.
So when he gets down to the kitchen and sees Patton there, he doesn't think much of it.
"Roman!" Patton spins around and has this bright smile on his face and Roman instinctively freezes. "The muffins are almost done!"
"ā¦muffins?"
The oven beeps just as he finishes asking, Patton whirling back around just as quickly to pull on a pair of oven mitts and take the tray out. Roman drifts forward when he sees the steam curling up from the tops of the perfectly golden muffins, blueberries and allā¦oh, he can almost taste themā¦
But then Patton's pulling out a sieve and another bowlāoh, it's cinnamon-sugar mix, and dusting it over the topsāa noise leaves his throat before he can stop it.
Patton just giggles, looking over his shoulder. "They're not going to taste very good from all the way back there, you know."
He blinks, ready for the chide that's sure to follow, except all Patton does is wave him all the way over and gesture to the tray.
"Which one do you want?"
"A-any of them is fine, they all look great."
"I know they do, but which one do you want?"
Roman swallows warily, but points to the one in the very left corner. Patton beams and quickly slides it free onto a plate, reaching over for another dish withāfresh raspberries, for crying out loudāand then he hands the plate to Roman.
"The others will be down soon."
Roman just stares at the plate. "I canāthis is mine, right?"
"Yeah, kiddo, that's all for you. Go on, you can eat. Enjoy the quiet down here while you can."
The muffin is delicious.
***
Ā Ā 3.
"Yo, Princey! Princey, wait up!"
Roman pauses, looking over his shoulder as Virgil jogs up to him. "Yeah?"
"So guess what, Dungeons and Drag Queens is out now."
Roman blinks. "It's like, fully out? Or just the first episode?"
"No, no, fully out. It's only four episodesāI know, I know," he holds up a hand when Roman squawks, "I wish it were longer too, but it makes sense."
"It makes sense, that doesn't mean I have to like it."
"Right, but heyāhere's the thing: they got Brennan in drag."
Roman blinks. Then he blinks again. "Brennan. Brennan Lee Mulligan. Brennan 'I Wear the Same Five Shirts' Lee Mulligan. They got him in drag?"
"Yes, for all four episodes!" Virgil rubs his hands together. "Which got me thinking. Because obviously if Brennan's in drag, we can't just be watching in our hoodies and shitāwe gotta look the part too. SoāI was, um, I was thinking we couldā¦y'know, plan out some makeup looks too?"
It's astounding to watch Virgil lose confidence halfway through a sentence, and by astounding Roman does mean devastating. "Yeah, Virgil, that sounds like a great idea."
"You mean it?"
"Yeah, I missā"
Virgil softens when Roman cuts himself off, nudging him. "Miss what?"
"ā¦miss doing makeup stuff with you."
"Aww, Princey," Virgil coos like he wasn't just a flustered mess too, "I miss you too. C'mon, let's get started."
"Hey," Roman asks as they set off down the hall, "what's the next season supposed to be?"
"Oh, it's another sidequest. Mentopolis."
"What's that one about?"
"It'sāum, well, I think I should just show you the trailer."
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Ā Ā 4.
Logan finds him after lunch, holding out a notebook. Roman takes it, not opening it because he's learned his lesson about doing that before Logan talks, and folds his hands over it in front of him.
"I had an idea," Logan says, that breathless smile threatening to burst all over his face, "and you're going to like it."
"Okay?"
"The anthology series board gameāyou remember?" Roman nods. "I think we can play it the way we did the other one."
"Wait, the timeline one? Where we do, like, multiple runs and stuff?"
"Yes. I think if we plan it out so that we pace ourselves getting through the different stories, we might be able to get a more efficient layout."
Roman can't help the bubble of excitement. He hasn't gotten to play board games with Logan in a long time and that time stories one had beenā¦well, one of the last things they actually did together. But he keeps himself in check. "What sort of time frame are we looking at?"
"That's the best part." Logan nods to the notebook. "There's a margin of error of about thirty minutes, but I'm pretty sure I'm close."
Roman opens the notebook. He scans the page of careful calculations, the schedule, and Logan's neat print around the edges.
His eyes widen.
"We canā¦we can do this any night?"
"The runs shouldn't take more than an hour or so, and we always have time after dinner before everyone goes about their evening routines, soā¦yes, Roman, any night you want, I'll be free to play the game."
Roman looks up, his breath in his throat, and he sees the same excitement in Logan's eyes too. "Can we start tonight?"
"I've already checked out the character builds."
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Ā Ā 5.
"I thought you might be here, sweetie," Janus murmurs, sitting next to Roman on the large rock outcropping.
He doesn't come here often, only when he needs to sit and think by himself without needing to worry about anything in the Imagination getting out of hand. The rocks overlook the grand falls, hundreds of feet of water plummeting from the tops of one of the mountains through the forest. Small treehouses sit just off to the sides, sentry posts that are really just meant for appreciating the natural beauty up close. The water churns and thunders into the river at its base, creating a soothing rumble that acts as a pleasant white noise.
Normally, he doesn't let anyone else here, but the Imagination's let Janus through.
He sits next to Roman with a soft grunt, adjusting his legs so he won't get cramps. He can see Janus turn to look at him out of the corner of his eyes.
"This is beautiful, Roman," he says softly, "it really is."
Roman hums.
"Did you make it for any reason in particular?"
"I didn't. The Imagination did." He shuffles. "I only make some of the things in here. It does the rest."
Janus makes a small sound of understanding. The two of them watch the falls for a moment.
"Why didn't you tell anyone?"
A softer opening than he was expecting, but he knows there's no way Janus is just gonna let him dodge it. He sighs.
"Why should I have?"
"It was your birthday, Roman."
"And?"
"And you're allowed to celebrate it the way you want."
"But to you, it's just another day."
"It's not," and Janus's voice gets a little firmer, "it's not just another day, because it's your birthday. We care about you, Romanā"
Roman scoffs, his laugh utterly humorless. "You can't honestly expect me to believe that."
"We do!"
"Here's a question for you," he says, turning to properly face Janus, taking him by surprise, "if yesterday wasn't my birthday, would you guys still be feeling this bad about how you treated me yesterday?"
Shock colors Janus's features and he stares dumbly at Roman. Roman raises his eyebrows, a challenge. Janus doesn't say anything. After a few moments, Roman scoffs again and turns back to the falls.
They sit in silence.
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Ā Ā +1.
Remus tackles him to the mattress as soon as he gets down to the living room for movie night and Roman just sighs.
"Remus, your kneeā"
"Oops." He snuggles down once Roman says he's in a comfortable enough position, humming. "So, Ro-bro, what are we watching?"
"Uh, anything's fine."
Remus makes a sound like a basketball shot clock running out, right in Roman's ear. "Wrong answer! What do you want to watch?"
"Anything that makes it so you don't make that sound again."
"So answer the question, I don't understand what the problem is."
Roman glances around for helpāliterally, anyone could suggest something and he'll say yes to get Remus to not scream in his ear again, but then Patton's grinning and snuggling on his other side, Virgil's sitting basically on top of his legs, Janus has one of his hands in his and Logan's carding his fingers through his hair.
"G-guys, whatā"
"What are we watching," Logan asks in a soft voice, this isn't fair, "what do you want to watch?"
"I-Iā"
"Hm?" Janus trails his fingers lightly over his palm, that's really not fair. "What was that, sweetie?"
Using my touch-starvation against me is low, guys. Really, really low.
"ā¦can we rewatch some of Night on Earth?"
"Great choice, kiddo," Patton says as Virgil scrolls to it, "what episode?"
"I like the underwater one."
"Ooh, great choice, Princey, that stuff is cool."
"You missed Ollie too, huh?"
"Maybe a little."
Of course, it's a little hard to focus on the screen when he's being cuddled so thoroughly, but there are worse fates, he's sure.
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Since I've back on my Infamous kick, I decided to sit down and try to actually figure out Fel's look. I really wanted him to have full silver hair, but it wasn't working for me so black sides for a nice contrast? I like it a lot more, and it still fits his 'very much in love and inspired by moon thanks' vibes, lol.
I also feel a touch bad for him because boy is majorly dysphoric when people can see his freckles and natural hair color, but that's gonna be hard to hide while on a tour bus and in front of cameras constantly. I don't think anyone outside of the band has seen either, not even Orion.
And since I did this for X.O., have some silly headcanons.
ā¢ Band is Goodbye Blue Monday. It fit him better than X.O. and I'm glad~ They're more.... indie with folky and minor punky vibes? I always imagine it's a bit like The Decemberists or meWithoutYou's It's All Crazy! It's All False! It's All a Dream! It's Alright album?? Like, this song is super Fel! c:
ā¢ Fel claims he was a remarkably stupid child, and his main story to back this up is when he was super young, he was terrified of darkness. He thought the moon was too, since it disappeared a lot so he'd sing to it to try to make it feel less scared. Fel's origin story for his singing and song-writing is just his weird compassion and love of the moon.
ā¢ Kid went to college but dropped out pretty early into his sophomore due to his crumbling mental health and realizing how much of it was simply trying to please his folks. I imagine this Didn't Go Over Well with them (especially Mom) and it's partly Fel has no love left for them. He may be a bit of a Stepford Smiler, but even he has his limits, thanks! šš¤š
ā¢ He went to Harvard too, so Mom might've been doubly upset he dropped out. He had planned on eventually going to Law School, but the Band and Seven won out (and he is happier for that, despite ...everything.) That being said, I always feel like his undergrad was in comparative religious studies or something. It just feels very Fel??
ā¢ The band's big hit is based for the old fable, the Moon and Her Mother. It became a bit of anthem of shitty relationships (parents) and gaslighting. There's a healthy debate among fans if it's about Seven (and if so, if Seven's the moon or the mother), Fel himself, Fel's own parents, or if there's any true-to-life to it at all since it is based off a fable. Mainly, Fel just hated the fable and wanted to write something for the Moon ā¦and more parental feelings slipped in then Fel realized at the time, lol. Moon's Momma is harsh and Fel didn't realize how harsh at the time. :')
ā¢ While he's good at putting on a face and playing up his flirtious and carefree personality, Fel himself is a painfully sweet and anxious soul. Growing up was a lonely experience. His family moved a lot, though always in the Boston and South Shore area, and Fel found himself more often than not bullied by his peers. Weird, stupid, freckles, shy, take your pick. Kids found a lot of flaws to constantly pick and make fun of.
ā¢ Fel does have an (obvious) crush on Orion. Orion is a very attractive and smart and dedicated and witty. And more importantly, Orion is safe. Orion tolerates him kindly, but it's nothing more than that. It helps his heart after Seven. I think when he realizes that attraction isn't as one-sided as he thinks, Fel will have an absolute freak out. "Why would you even like me?! Don't you have better taste?"
ā¢ Kid's self-image is pooooooooooor.
ā¢ Fel enjoys cooking too! There's only so many tv dinners and take-out you can eat, but Fel grew tired of them both about he was 13. He's an exceptionally good cook and baker, and loving cooking for his friends. He makes them all special meals or treats for their birthdays every year and I can't wait for him to cook for Orion for the first time. c:<!!
ā¢ Also, Fel definitely has a Thick Boston accent when he talks. He's not embarrassed by it though sometimes he hangs his head when he hits the Boston especially hard.
ā¢ Kid also digs Clefairy despite his gothy punk aesthetic, much like X.O. digs Gengar despite her opulent pink aesthetic, lol. ^^;;;
#doodlenonsense#fel kafka#was gonna be fel darling#because i like making seven 'surnames only' lawless#use terribly awkward surnames instead. :)#but 'fk' initials made me giggle too much#you're safe this time seven!
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š Your OTP are having their first kiss. What song do you imagine is playing?
š”What is your perfect writing envrionment?
š„What wip are you most excited about?
š¬One of your fics gets turned into a TV series. Which one is it and what network is it on?
šø If you incorporated your OTP into a Disney movie plot, which would it be?
š Your OTP are having their first kiss. What song do you imagine is playing?
"Everlasting love" by Love Affair. Or the original, lesser known but at least equally as good "Everlasting love" by Robert Knight. Timewise, it almost fits diegetically. Almost. š
š”What is your perfect writing environment?
Me with my laptop on my lap, leaning against large pillows, with a glass of water/cup of tea/coffee or something stronger, depends on the mood and what I'm writing. Oh and very very importantly, without anyone walking around or behind me. I can write while doing other things, like watching TV, listening to music or talking to someone in at least one language lol, but I can't write with someone looking over my shoulder.
š„What wip are you most excited about?
I'm gonna quote you on that and say all of them!! š
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(if you want to know more about any of these, pleasseeee ask away šš) but let's go with "It Never Could Have Happened in New Hampshire". There's also 'the Proposal Fic' aka my fourth and final contribution to the Valentines Day prompts (fun fact: the title is going to be a line from "Everlasting love", I'm not sure which one yet). "The Hospital Fic" which sadly still doesn't have a title is also something I'm actively working on and can't wait to finish it. I actually watched "What Kind of Day Has It Been" and ITSTG last night and wrote a lot of angsty paragraphs to preface the actual hospital scene. I actually have to credit you & your ask from a few days ago for my renewed interest in that fic šš Aaaaand finally, there's the "Missing Scene from Dead Irish Writers" that I hope to finish by the end of the month as a birthday present to myself š
š¬One of your fics gets turned into a TV series. Which one is it and what network is it on?
The First Lady. It's The West Wing, exactly as it was, but Abbey appears in every episode! So Warner Bros + Max.
šø If you incorporated your OTP into a Disney movie plot, which would it be?
Wow, this one is sooooo good! It got me thinking. Okay, having watched Knuckles with that one episode where Stockard (or her double, they really messed that one up lol) beats bad guys up with a frying pan, I want to say Tangled. And I love LOVE "I See the Light", it's a beautiful song. Howeverrrrrr, my answer is The Rescuers! It's absolutely one of my favorite Disney films and honestly, it could work as a sequel to TWW
Thank you, friend! šš
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Winner is definitely one of those people who does not act as mature as his age LOL. DEANāS CUSTOMER SERVICE SPIRIT SHFJFJF
I was gonna say Kim is probably bad at letting people take care of him when heās sick but you know what! Heād probably be good at that too, the bastard!! (But oh, Iām having thoughts now about Kenta providing care for him the first time after the whole Tony incident, and it bringing back memories and complicated emotions about that time he totally definitely canonically tended to Kimās wounds when he was captured)
And oh Kenta, oh baby, he WOULD have trouble understanding the appeal of his body, it just would not compute to him (I need to see him get shy when it finally starts to sink in, please)
Winner would be the WORST (when is he not) to learn on because heād be shifting and complaining the ENTIRE TIME. And yet it would give Dean very important feedback on what happens if he leaves it too loose in this spot, or too tight in that one etc etcāwhereas Kenta would simply Not Say Anything unless continuously prompted by Kim.Ā
Dean *has* worked hard and deserves recognition and Kim is gonna tell him what a good job heās doing and how appreciated he is and it is NOT going to make me emotional.
KimĀ š„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗĀ this practically perfect dude and his three loser boyfriends
Also we DO DESERVE TO KNOW EVERYONEāS BIRTHDAYS, THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT INFORMATION
noooo I canNOT think about kim being cared for! especially by Kenta which 100% happened while Kim was Tony's captive - do you think that's when Kim started to realise what a gentle soul Kenta truly is? even when Kenta was holding a knife to his throat, the hand in his hair wasn't pulling hard or forcing him to strain his neck. lol I do kinda love the idea of Kim being a terrible patient though. he's gotta have a flaw!
I need the other three to have like, a campaign to make him understand. or maybe a game to see who can get away with the most blatant innuendo or...I can't think of the word. but like making excuses like 'oh you should take your shirt off while doing XYZ š you don't want to get it dirty'
(listen...very very occasionally Winner is not the worst. it probably hasn't ever occurred onscreen but I believe in my terrible pathetic emotional support goon okay. he just wants to race cars and wave a gun around!!) but YES Kenta would absolutely keep quiet about being uncomfortable (back to the not safewording when he should that you mentioned - it's not THAT bad so why would he say anything? Kenta knows how to endure, more than anything.) but omg š„ŗ Kim constantly checking in š„ŗ and then with Winner they're like "okay we GET IT" (while still not actually crossing any lines) in my head Winner just isn't into the rope thing at all. why would he not wanna touch? why would he not wanna be touched? but perhaps there is a tiny little EMOTION occurring when he sees how peaceful it makes Kenta. and how proud Dean is.
I'm like sick over Dean getting praised. every time I think about actually writing polycule fic it's the first thing I go to I NEED IT TO HAPPEN. (honestly it's so blatant you wonder how the rest of x hunter weren't getting Dean to do literally anything - Kenta had one conversation where he said something remotely nice about Dean and Dean went and sabotaged a car over it. imagine what could have been.) anyway. imagine the first time Winner says something genuinely appreciative for Dean. (I gotta go work on my winnerdean fic lol)
I honestly need like a coffeetable book of everything about everyone on this show. birthdays, favourite foods, how they all got into racing. an explanation of how everyone's finances work lol.
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You know earlier I said I wasn't gonna be a sap in the author's note bc why would I do that right lol imagine being vulnerable!! But I'm feeling down tonight (unrelated) and I have so many thoughts about it.
Like I've mentioned, it had been years since I was fully inmersed in writing (mind you this isn't even my first language) and I thought it would be fun to pick it up again, so I had a bunch of stuff sitting in my drafts that were for me only, random bits and wips.
But this year I decided to have the courage to actually share it with an audience, and to this day hitting the post button still terrifies me lmao, and in all honesty? I never imagined or intended to get what I have now.
Technically this all started with that eah thingy I made with a mutual in mind (best rapple shipper here) and since then I went back into tessjoel bc I'm nothing but predictable šš¼ and sometimes this is still an internal battle with me, because my writing will always be personal and it will be painful, but I don't want to stop sharing my art even though I'm left vulnerable and there for anyone to pick me apart š§š½āāļø
This year has given me a safe space to explore and expand myself as a writer and for that I'm grateful, I don't think anyone can imagine how it makes me feel knowing someone could even care about it haha but you all have a special place in my heart and I cherish you, and if we part ways that will stay with me!!!
Almost 200K words posted and this all started (officially to me) in my birthday, as I was sick and sad, when I wrote something silly, self-indulgent and with the idea that no one would even notice it. I was wrong, so totally wrong. Now it's my most well received fic, and it almost wasn't posted.
Life is weird and in another reality this never happened but it did and it brought me so many amazing people in my life!!! And the great comments only made me want to keep improving day by day. Hopefully I can create even more in 2024.
#sorry I'm so emotional today#it's the December air#idk like do you understand how much this all means to someone who's always unwanted#that something I do can move someone emotionally#phew#gecko rants#mine
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I know most of you probably forgot about it but I haven't and I want to keep my promises so guess what! I'm bearing my soul to you people and today I'll finally be giving all the details of my album, melodramatic.
@dandelions-fly-in-summer-skies I'm gonna @ you in some more of my music like new songs because this is not my best work lol
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album cover:
*the original image isn't mine, I literally got it off the internet and I never plan on releasing this, making an album cover and all of this is for fun*
tracklist:
1. the movement
2. crying in my bed at 3 am on a rainy tuesday
3. gospel
4. places iāve seen before
5. people lie.
6. take another breath
7. long pause
8. my dreams arenāt real but my demons are
9. honey take your meds
10. is my family ashamed of me?
11. drama queen
the three songs (I had a few that has the same number so I get to choose on those lol PLEASE DO NOT JUDGE MY WRITING)
1. my dreams aren't real but my demons are
Sitting in my room on a regular day, wasting my life away. I think blue light is seeping into my brain. I donāt do anything anymore. I donāt even see my friends. And my room is dirty, I wish my Mom was here to bug me to clean it. And he said āYouāll be fine on your own.ā Oh, but he was so wrong.Ā
My dreams arenāt real. Sitting here wishing I had some kinda physical appeal, even looking in the mirror hurts. What can you do when you're stuck in a body that doesnāt even love you? How did the brain name itself and why is the brain so mean? And why is there a man dressed in all black outside my window, but only on Thursday nights? Because my dreams arenāt real, but my demons are. Getting into college, becoming famous, thatāll never happen but I can count on my sleep paralysis demon to be there when I need him. And itās so sad because Iāve never hated myself more than I do now and they donāt care.
I canāt help but mope around, waiting for some big circus to roll into town. Maybe then I wouldnāt be the only clown. I get up on big stages, hoping every time will be different, but instead I get booed off. Iām not proud of my past and I hope this version of me doesnāt last. They say all I do is sing about the negative but what do they want me to do? Sing about rainbows and unicorns? I never will because I sing about what I feel.
Cause man, my dreams arenāt real. I can wish all I want for a big fancy house but come on, thatāll never happen. Cleverly hidden lyrics on the back of a cereal box. Whenever Iām at the doctor's office for the 7th time this month, all I do is stare at the clocks. I take 20 medicines a day and nothing can keep my demons away.
2. is my family ashamed of me (I am not suicidal I just want to preface)
They used to call me the good kid. They said to make sure I remember them when I get famous. They wanted some of my success. They wanted me to be somebody. And I canāt imagine dying without being famous. I want people other than my hometown to know my name. I want to be someone. Make a name. Get out of this town. And yet Iād be leaving behind everything Iāve ever known, till eventually I drown. In other words, in the fight for the crown. Iād come back and leave, do it all again and still not know where I want to be. 36, a crazy woman with a broken dream. Do I want that to describe me?Ā
What happens when you give all the time and never get anything back? Do you run out of gifts? Of things to give? All the birthdays, all the christmases. All the lost time yet I was there. Do they hear the whispers about me? The grocery store, the gas station, in the eyes of the people who saw me grow up. I was gonna do great things but sitting here, I got one question. Is my family ashamed of me?
Would all the problems be fixed if I wasnāt born. If I never existed. Would they be happier, nicer, richer? What would it be? Give me a genie and Iāll waste my wishes and give me all the money in the world and Iāll be gone. Is my family ashamed of me? And itās not my fault, Iāve been thinking ābout death. Canāt help but question this whole big thing, said no when you proposed with your dollar tree ring. I can never ask for help, Iām embarrassed when I see someone I know in public. And I hate driving slow, but I love having somewhere to go.
3. drama queen (this song has a few taylor references, whoever can point them all out gets a cookie)
I wish that you could go and unsay all those things you said that day. I wish I could undo all my actions and the reckless driving I did on the way. I know Iām partly to blame, I know that you always curse when you say my name. I think I know everything, but Iām just a dumb teenage girl trying to make her way. Do you think when I showed up to your party that was when I ruined everything? Do you think that my Mom is too pushy and she needs to stay in her lane? And why did you run away when I said those three words? All you had to do was stay.Ā
I know you say Iām a drama queen. I know you say I think I know everything. But I thought you cared. I thought you liked it when I did that dare. I thought you were gonna comfort me when I cried, but you left me. If I died, would you attend my wake? Would you care if I threw it all away for the sake of our relationship? What if your future was in the bend, would you leave me then? Are you waiting for the moment to strike when it hurts the worst then leave my life speeding, while Iām forced to slowly follow the hearse?Ā
I convinced myself that you were a brick wall and I was the sledgehammer. Breaking you down and fixing you back up but like usual, I was wrong. You are my David, I am Michelangelo. You wanted the world and I wanted you, we are not equal. I wanted you so bad that suddenly, I didnāt want you at all. What happens when youāve been fighting for years but suddenly you lose sight of what youāre fighting for?Ā
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so that's that. also I put most of my lyrics in paragraphs so if you don't read it all, I don't mind lol. enjoy my friends.
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Weenus Review~
First, Happy Birthday Hiko. Iām late, but so were you :P.
Second, I liked this chapter! I think the idea of Fuyuhiko having a fav dessert cafe. Itās adorable and very in character lol. Idk what a parfait is though so Iām uninformed.
My analysis:
The characters were obviously amazing. The only ones you really had to write to any great degree were, of course, the boys. Thereās likely never going to be a complaint about them. I have read a lot of fanfic, and have never seen anyone come close to writing Kuzuhina even half as well as you do. Iāll give Natsupeko an honourable mention. Theyāre not a couple but you write them well. I like Pekoās focus on the romantic side while Nat focused on the sexual side. Also in character.
Now, Iāve split the content into four parts. The Cafe, the Movies, House and the Ring.
Cafe: I loved this!!! Itās so cute to imagine lil Hiko finding candy stores and sweet cafes. His blond little dumbass sat in a hat and sunglasses to avoid suspicion. I want Hajime and Fuyuhiko to be out at a cafe, and for the waitress to come over, nod at Fuyuhikoās freckled face and coo āOhh! Your sonās adorable!ā I wonder if Fuyuhiko will ever realise he doesnāt need to be so defensive around Hajime. One day itād be cute to see him just be all soft, sweet and sappy. Itād also be unlikely :3
Movies: I loved this too! Iāve always loved seeing Hajime be the one to struggle resisting his boyfriend. I hold out hope one day for a Dom Hiko chapter. Heād still bottom of course. I would genuinely love them to fuck in a movie theatre lmao. I want the lights to come back on mid-sex. I like the bathroom scene :3. I always love it when Hajime blows Fuyuhiko. Itās cute seeing Baby Gangsta get his little dom moment.
House: My least favourite part, I wonāt lie. I think this part just seemed mechanical. You said yourself you were tired and, unfortunately, I do think thereās an effect here. I would say I loved the top!Fuyuhiko fake out, but it was my idea and I donāt wanna be a narcissist. The sex seemed pretty vanilla for a birthday post. I know they tried a new position, but I kinda thought they could do more. The cafe scene made me want Hajime to put the yoghurt on his fingers and let Fuyuhiko clean them off.
Ring: LOVED this!!! Iām so glad theyāre engaged! I know this is but one of the many AUās, but itās still adorable! I love that Fuyuhiko basically said āBitch please. Ring or else.ā Such a petty bitch lmao. Heās defo gonna be a groomzilla. Btw when they get married, I want him in a golden wedding dress. You can say āitās not whiteā but all Iāll say is those assholes have had a LOT of premarital sex. I want it to be some grand gesture or something to show Fuyuhikoās trust in him.
Overall Thoughts: I liked this chapter! I do think the second half betrayed slight rush, but other than that it was good! I hope to see more chapters that explore Fuyuhikoās sweet tooth. Canāt wait to see the next chapter for Hajimeās birthday.
6/10.
Thank youuuu š
I'm glad the characterization was good, at least lol. I also love the idea of Fuyuhiko having a favorite cafe, especially when he literally just wants the desserts there. š And I'd love to do a theater scene sometime!
OOF, I appreciate your honesty, but having you call my smut scene "mechanical" HURT š You're obviously not wrong, it just sucks to have my fears confirmed, I guess. I'm seriously considering going back and rewriting it, ngl.
I think it's funny that you liked the whole engagement bit because THAT was the part I was most worried about lmao
Thank you for your analysis, darling š
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Onto Bubbler...
Before it starts I wanted to say I have beef with Nino in this episode cause he makes his best friend's birthday about his hurt feelings and it's annoying and he didn't even get him a present
It was actually pretty nice of Plagg to try to give him that present
We love Sabine on this blog
Did Nathalie not even try to get him something herself??? She practically raised him!
Y'all should throw a small party at school if a house one isn't gonna work
Marinette is beyond thoughtful for MAKING him a gift.
EVEN CHLOE DIDNT REMEMBER IT WAS HIS BIRTHDAY???
Are you seriously telling me Paris's Teen Sweetheart didn't have a fan club that is celebrating his birthday at all? He's not getting letters in the mail? Or fans coming up to him at school? Or MORE people telling his dad to throw a party/throwing one for him??? This episode is just. Idk man.
Marinette has been a called a push over in the last two episodes (and this is the SECOND EPISODE) so it's amazing to see how far she's come!!!!
ADRIEN HAD A PHOTOSHOOT SCHEDULED ON HIS BIRTHDAY? THATS SO UGHHHHHHHHHH AND DURING HIS LUNCH BREAK TOO
Bro. Nino says he's gonna go to Adrien's house and Marinette and Alya are in the background. Cut to only Marinette and Alya at Adrien's house. Did Nino get lost????
Alya can you please tell Adrien later that it was from Marinette?
NATHALIE YOU SNAKE
Wild how Gabriel really did come out to talk to Nino. Ohhhh he wanted to make Nino an akuma. Gotcha.
DONT SIT ALONE AND BE UPSET NINO. THIS ISNT ABOUT YOU. BE WITH ADRIEN. HE WAS JUST TOLD ON HIS BIRTHDAY THAT HIS BEST FRIEND COULDNT EVER COME AROUND HIS HOUSE AND YOURE JUST GONNA WALK AWAY??? GO BACK TO SCHOOL TOGETHER AT LEAST????? Speaking of, that photoshoot was super quick? And why was he dropped off at his house? No way lunch break is that fast???? Go to school??????
Ugly ass akuma
Gabriel seriously made an akuma who specifically hates and is mad at him š¤¦š½āāļø
What even counts as an "adult" here? 18+ or like out of university or like old enough to have kids or-
I'm a Nathalie hater I dunno yall I can't believe her this episode.
Just a weird ass akuma
This being his first party makes me wanna cry.
NINO IF YOU TURN ON A SLOW DANCE BECAUSE CHLOE ASKED YOU TO THEN YOU DONT KNOW SHIT ABOUT ADRIEN. HE WAS VISIBLY UNCOMFORTABLE EARLIER THAT DAY WHEN SHE WAS UP ON HIM OH MY GOD.
NO ITS THE ADRIENETTE SLOW DANCE SONG NO NO NO
I think Ladybug should be allowed to use her power selfishly like this more often.
Did no one hear when Ladybug said "yours truly"??? It was pretty loud
No one knows how old ladybug and chat noir even are so people might be imagining they're also just stuck in bubbles lol. Oh god, if Adrien and Marinette were adults then they wouldn't be able to transform like that out in the open and THIS COULD HAVE BEEN SUCH A GOOD PLAN TO TRAP THEM OR FIND OUT THEIR IDENTITIES HAWKMOTH JESUS. What you have to do is: Bubbler brings all the bubbles together so you can see them all in one spot. Have Bubbler WATCH, not just throw a party. If someone inside transforms then great! You know who they are. But if LB and or CN show up anyway then you know they're not an adult and that whittles down your search BY A LOT.
Girl is pretty brave for writing "Love, Marinette"
Nathaniel has some Shuichi energy hm
Cool moves...
"But adults keep children, safe, and protected. They care for their kids, they love them!" "Most adults do, anyhow." JESUS CHRIST WAY TO GO STRAIGHT FOR THR HEART
Him throwing his staff for her to swing her yo-yo around was completely unnecessary-
You can really see how the stakes change between the beginning and end of the show. "Oh I'm stuck in a bubble for awhile and just have to wait an hour at most to go back to my normal day" to "oh the world is ending"
Adrien is such a good boy...
One day- NO ONE HOUR of no adults and suddenly every thing everyone is trying to mail will be late for another week. Huh
Marinette didn't take the credit š„ŗ
"You're amazing Marinette, someone Adrien will see that too." Cut to not even a full season later Adrien leaning back in Marinette's desk chair, "You're amazing, Marinette."
SOMEONE GET THIS BOY A LEGIT BIRTHDAY OR SO HELP ME
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Hey so you don't have to answer this if you dont have the time or anything but I really love all your takes on the show and was wondering if you had any thoughts/theories especially when it comes to mew's revenge and how you think all that is gonna go down. I'm just asking cuz I spent too much time in the tags and saw people that legit think mew is gonna sleep with boston or ray lmfao and I just need some good takes from someone that actually gets his character to drown it out.
oh, anon, i am at this level at all times,
so of course i will answer this, i need very little prompting haha (and i'm glad you're loving my only friends takesā£ļø) BUT OMG IMAGINE THINKING THAT MEW WOULD SLEEP WITH BOSTON AFTER ALL THAT CAN'T RELATE BECAUSE I HAVE A BRAIN LOL trying to drown him is their foreplay i guess lmao ppl are really out here writing fanfiction and calling it "predictions"š¤£š¤£š¤£
however, as for sleeping with ray, i'm not entirely sure actually! if at all, definitely not in the next episode, although it does look like mew is going to forgive him for ruining his birthday
and my hope is that it's, in part, because ray is actually going to get sober. we've already seen that mew is maybe a little too forgiving when it comes to ray.
but i don't think that now that mew has ~lost his virginity~ he's going to suddenly jump into bed with anyone. like how falling in and out of love isn't a switch you can flick on and off, losing your virginity after being that particular isn't a dam breaking. and when it comes to ray, i think mew's got a couple reasons for not wanting to be with ray and rejecting him when he did: not only because he "can't hook up with his friend," but because ray is a hot fucking mess. mew's already gone through a lot because of ray's addiction. plus, now that he knows how long ray has been holding that torch and how hard it's been burning, mew's smart enough not to fan the flames. especially based on his attitude in the above cap.
and we have this to look forward to:
which i'm sure will be related to mew, but might be about something that hasn't even been set up yet, idk. we're only halfway through D:
all this to say, to your actual point, as angry as mew was at ray he's not going to be one of the "targets" for his revenge. boston's definitely going to get the brunt of it, and i'm hoping in the process mew will find out/realize what top's part actually was in all of this - and soon!!! it's tearing me up inside that mew thinks top slept with boston to mess with him and their whole relationship was a lieš
as for how the revenge will be planned/play out, i've got a few of loose, disconnected ideations but nothing concrete:
sabotaging boston's part of the hostel project, specifically finding a way that he can fail without hurting mew's grades in the process (which i'm guessing may backfire)
(side-note: if nickboston are endgame at all, i don't think they're going to actually get back together but i do think that boston is going to move to new york to be with his mom/pursue photography - because i do not see him graduating without mew's help lol - and that nick is going to follow him. they may meet up with each other again, but no matter what i think it's going to be open-ended.)
leaking the audio recording and/or gap's video of him and boston, thus sabotaging boston's dad's campaign; this would definitely involve nick like book hinted, and hopefully will reveal all of what went down in the car. (there also could be footage from the photobooth where top and boston hooked up and/or security cam footage of the elevator in top's hotel, as @topapologist pointed out to me. that might be overkill though.) my guess is that mew's creepy bathtub brain-blast in the preview is going to be related to that, and after he finds out from ray where he got the recording, which should lead him to nick. and because of the full audio, mew will not only find out that top was coerced, but that boston has some kind of sex tape that "proves" mew and ray slept together. i've hidden this in the tags of some other post, but i do have a suspicion that the video boston showed top was the video gap took of them, either edited to make it hard to see or otherwise, especially since we don't see it or hear it. however, since it's been hinted that gap may still have a copy, nick might get it from there idk
something something nick is into animation something something lmao that could be totally unrelated!! but that seems to be where papang at least comes into it at least, seen here:
and my wildest, totally out of left field, am 99% sure won't happen, just for giggles prediction is that mew frames boston for arson lol
i thought i had more about the revenge but guess notš¤ i do think that the first two are going to be in tandem, but if there's anything else going on or how it specifically goes down, no idea.
I'VE ALREADY WRITTEN TOO MUCH FOR ONE POST/ANSWER BUT SINCE WE'RE HERE LET'S GET INTO MY CURRENT PREDICTIONS JUST SO IT'S ALL IN ONE PLACE (FOR NOW):
boeing is going to show up as the ex that sand said top "stole" - i've been thinking this for a while and i would assume it's become a popular theory now that we're sure mix is coming on to the show as boeing.
the ominous music cue when mew found the toy airplane seems like a lot just to indicate that top was going to lie about it, there has to be a deeper reason than just "it was my ex's"
the obviously abridged version of the truth that top tells mew later in the episode may be related to "stealing" him from sand, to hide an ugly side of himself he didn't want mew to see (we already know that he's uncomfortable talking about stuff that happened before meeting mew, see: beam - although i will maintain that beam made him uncomfortable in general because of their sexual history and whatever trauma he's secretly got going on)
however, i also think boeing either "pursued" top rather than the other way around and/or top didn't know that boeing was taken. i've got a few reasons:
top doesn't go after people who are "taken," based on this line when he first met mew (even though mew's wristband meant he wasn't looking for anyone), perhaps because he "learned his lesson" but i don't think so
i think this line
is a red herring. it's meant for us to think that top was the one who came on stronger, right? but i think it has more to do with boeing coming on stronger to top. (but maybe i'm just looking with my top lovin' gogglesš
)
relative to "coming on stronger," i think that boeing may have something to do with why top shuts down when boston gropes him and why he's instantly on his guard when beam touches him (even before seeing who it was). it may have been another case where someone took advantage of him that he blames himself for - might've been the first case.
top is going to steal mew's pain medication.
this one's pretty obvious, although i suppose since the above q photo was staged between shots, it could be a red herring (i no longer think it's a suicide attempt, although that might have been the original intent based on the pilot trailer. they deleted/privated the pilot trailer for a reason; we picked that shit apart like wild animals lol). they reference the medication, they're definitely opioids, and we already know that top's drug of choice is some kind of opioid/opiate. it looks episode 7 might pick up right where episode 6 ended, since it's the same outfit, you know, before he got shirtless lol we also know that it's going to be harder than ever to sleep without mew and who knows what his tolerance level for his sleeping pills is at this point.
i might be forgetting something i've posted about or chatted about with friends already but for now, i rest my case lol
as always, i wrote too much, but these are still only small fractions of what may play out and i find that really exciting. guessing twists is a lot of fun, but how we get there or seeing them be built up especially without really knowing what's going to happen is the most fun to me! episode 6 was a wild ride: a lot of my predictions were correct but they still only made up, like, 10% of what actually happened. there was so much stuff i never would have guessed! even when it was breaking my heart, i loved it.
hope you enjoyed these takes too, anon! <3
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