#lmfao why was i so confident

[rainbowsandwhumperflies]

Whumptober - 8

No. 8: SLEEP DEPRIVATION Isolation Chamber | Forced to Stay Awake | "Leave the lights on." (Coldplay, Midnight)

Content warnings: self sleep deprivation, discussion of nightmares, discussion of intimate whumper

“What are you setting alarms for? There’s no need to be up early.”

Whumpee froze, setting their phone down. “Oh. …You know.”

“Sorry.” Caretaker bit the inside of their cheek. “It’s none of my business. You don’t need to tell me.”

“It’s not… I mean, it’s fine if you want to know. I just don’t think you’ll like it very much, and I don’t want to upset you.”

They didn’t think that Caretaker would like it that much. They didn’t want to upset them.

“Okay, Whumpee,” Caretaker agreed, as if this was an okay thing. “Yeah. Um. You know you can tell me whatever you want? It’s your decision. Tell me if you want to say it, not based on how you think I’ll take it.” And if Whumpee thought it’d upset them, then they were probably right, but it didn’t really matter whether or not it upset Caretaker. After what happened to Whumpee, this was the least they could do to try to help.

“I get nightmares sometimes,” Whumpee whispered slowly. “But I’ve told you that part already.”

“I thought they stopped?”

“I mean… yeah? Technically, they did stop. When I started setting alarms for myself. They wake me up every two hours, and I leave the light on. My brain can’t fall asleep deeply enough for me to get nightmares anymore.”

Caretaker exhaled slowly. “Jesus, Whumpee.”

“Sorry. I shouldn’t have said anything.”

“That’s not what I meant,” they sighed. “I’m just not sure if this is a good idea.”

“I can stop if you want.”

Caretaker blanched. This reaction made sense, and not just because of Whumpee’s desire to please. No, this made sense because Whumper had fucking liked nightmares. It had given them some cruel sense of gratification to know that Whumpee could not escape them, even in unconsciousness. It was one of the first things Whumpee had confessed to Caretaker, back when they’d hated speaking about anything that'd happened.

So which was the greater evil? To stand by and watch as Whumpee ran themself into the ground? Or to betray their trust and make another decision for them, knowing that they would not refuse a request from Caretaker?

“Of course I don’t like it,” Caretaker managed. “But that shouldn’t convince you to stop doing it.”

“What other reason would I have?” Whumpee asked, and Caretaker winced.

“For yourself, sweetheart. If you’re going to sleep the whole night through, do it for yourself, not me.”

“I don’t think it would be very helpful to myself if I was having nightmares the whole night, Caretaker.”

No. Probably not. That was fair. “Maybe we could try some different things to help you relax.”

“Like what?” It broke Caretaker’s heart to hear how tired their friend sounded. They wouldn’t have resorted to alarms if they’d thought something else could work better. “I would take medication if you asked me to, but I don’t- I don’t want to. If that matters.”

“Of course it matters,” Caretaker whispered. “Of course it matters, Whumpee. I wouldn’t jump straight to medication, anyway. Things like drinking a relaxing tea before bed, or taking a bubble bath. Or if you think having the light on helps, we could get you some light that wouldn’t be so harsh. Fairy lights, maybe.”

“You think?”

“Yeah, Whumpee. Whatever you want. We’ve figured everything else out, we’ll figure this out too.”

“Promise?”

“I promise.”

[svtskneecaps]

i should be sleeping but i do want to reiterate how much i love that our collective fan community and also the streamers are constantly like, so new members when? new language when? a teaser drops and we're all like germans???? german time????? asiatic language time??????? new faces??? new friends?? new communities????

i've said this before but it just constantly makes me feel all warm n fuzzy to see it. i'm really happy we're all so excited and united in this.

[compassmili]

I kinda really hate how I've been treated throughout my life

[flaticeball]

the idea of a Gayest Player In The NHL bracket at all is already in poor taste to some degree bc i get everyone loves to make the “they’re so gay for each other fr” jokes but the condition of the actual league and its actions right now is like. you do understand why calling these people Gay Icons (Positive) for funny haha jokes is just. at best inappropriate timing, yes? but the idea of literally including one of the guys who got pride nights cancelled with his homophobia is just. can we take a minute to realize that hockey fandom doesn’t take place in a void completely unconnected to reality and see that this is just. a Really Bad Look. at best.

[yoonstudios]

oh my fucking godddddd i wish i could come out to my parents

[cleromancy]

i absolutely do not vibe at all with any red hood steph concept ive ever seen because fucking nobody engages with it in any depth its just 🤔🤔 steph is basically the same as jason right? people who dont like jason online say so so it must be true~

like i need you first of all to walk back several steps and understand two major things about utrh and stephanie brown here. the first is that steph got into crime fighting in the first place bc she wanted to ~spoil~ the crimes of her c-list supervillain father. the second is that the core of the tragedy of the red hood is that batman is supposed to be his fucking dad.

so if you do want to do a red hood stephie concept here which. to be clear is not something i am INHERENTLY opposed to. you have a couple options to make it potentially coherent but you need to actually be deliberate and clear about what youre trying to do with that concept. you need to step away from jasons tragedy and look at hers and figure out where exactly her anger and hurt are coming from and who exactly theyre directed at, as well as what specifically in your au concept it would be so different than the canon one where when she comes back she wants to do pretty much the opposite of what jason wanted when *he* came back.

and. crucially. if the difference is the relationship she has to bruce being different you actually do need to show not tell that dude. im sorry but if you just *tell* me that in your universe that steph has a more deep and meaningful relationship to bruce i 100% always am like "ill believe it when i fucking see it". like, she has parents of her own and while that doesnt preclude having a more signficant relationship with bruce (see: timmy)... you really do have to do the legwork or it looks like youre just writing them out and asking us to take your word for it that Of Course steph wants bruce to adopt her, hes batman! gag, retch, spew. do notdo this.

FRANKLY in a reverse robins concept i vibe way more with steph as red robin than anything specifically her getting the dumpster costume from whoever you do put in the red hood role. (frankly x2 i still think if they really truly had to do the storyline they did in canon where shes still trying to do bruces dirty work for him and hires assassins to kill tim to ~make him better~ lmao she should have been the one who wore the Bad Robin uniform before tim got it instead of fuckin ulysses i just think it would have been more coherent and also funner for me personally)

anyway if you link me a red hood steph concept here and it sucks or does any of the things i Just finished critiquing i will be very irritated and i will not be polite to you about it. just as a fair warning.

[ahalliance]

me on my delulu arc hoping tubbo and étoiles will be teamed for purgatory 2

[muirneach]

god help me noah lyles is getting the ben shelton treatment

[howldean]

i’m going to lose my mind

[fappellmoan]

how appropriate is it to be like semi personal and mildly informal though still respectful in an email to an alum u met..

[mobtism]

im always so like. self conscious about me getting into & talking about media that isnt popular.

[gaymcr]

uguhghh not mcr but whatever i basically post about whatever the fuck i want on here anyway so. uU ughH H h REDFOOOOOOOO send tweet

[nerice]

roa is not abt qs. like it is, it's their prequel from a meta perspective, but it is so vitally important to me that none of their interactions in roa have the romantic slant. jumie can aim to slit reina's throat with full intent and lose to the impenetrable godskin and there is nothing sexy abt it other than the meta angle of #girlrage hot. reina doesn't take challenges to her authority well and there are no... somber aftermath moments no contemplative silence where she softens on jumie's position because jumie as she is only presents a weak link in the war ranks an unstable element reina does not have the patience to deal with bc she has removed herself so far from mortal trouble and turmoil. it will get there, a more casual antagonism and self reflection on reina's part but not until romance novel territory proper, roa is a wholly different beast and it is not abt them!!!! it's jumie's grief journey and reina is simply a very convenient outlet due to visibility, being untouchable, being responsible (the gr*y thrulines also. we do not !! talk abt it god.) jumie whets her anger against reina and it cannot go well but it's so much better than confronting the specter of trauma purposefully inked in a place she will never have to look at. easier than being around yuzha and his daughter (digging nails into her neck) than confronting the reality of war, the useless death of her family, reina who does not even acknowledge her suffering, who finds her mortal hangups trite and wld rather she keep it out of business (bc she cannot acknowledge the fires of nerice's end either. this is the axis on which their dynamic changes over time, the crux of understanding) in the end it's not even reina who bears the brunt of much of jumie's rage (though she is target of it whenever available) it's [og mindsong user] who is the one person reina is vulnerable around, he has all the information to see how unfair her treatment of reina is. he won't share and he takes it out on jumie bc if she'd just fall in line her behavior wld stop aggravating reina's own trauma he is the one person who can see how this will destabilize the entire war (when ofc. 'nobody talk abt their trauma' is ofc a powderkeg of an approach and goes as well as you expect) anwy we are not doing a roa plot recap i've lost my point take this for whatever it is

[rigginsstreet]

the thing about tim riggins is that he dont speak much so he easily tricks people into thinking hes this cool mysterious guy but when he does speak.... you realize theres a disorder going on theres something not quite right in his brain he is not socially skilled lmfao

[rottenlittlefink]

Liberals on tumblr in 2016 when one would have a nuanced life experience that they could not project their own onto & categorize into rigid boxes based on their own life experiences:

[kuiinncedes]

feel mid abt that interview lol :|