#lmao this is what happens when im bored
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good morning suzaku enjoyers
#paradox live#paralive#allen sugasano#suzaku no phoenix watch me me now#HELP THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN UR BORED + IN A SILLY MOOD#not that im complaining tho lmao
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this is so funny to me actually bcuz this is 100% how i talk abt my characters ages. i know what YEAR they were born and i know what rheir ages are supposed to be at the start of the story but i dont actually know when it takes place?? im really bad at math. There was a moment where rainbow was supposed to be 23 and i somehow accidentally made her 17 lmfao
#theoretically it would take place in 2021 bcuz thats when i created my object ocs but the more time passes#the weirder it feels to have it take place years in the past#i considered moving up their birthdays by a few years but like. idk i like their birthdays theyre cute :3#bubblegum is SUPPOSED TO BE 15 and she was born july 2007#watermelon is supposed to be 7 and he was born june 2014#etc etc#starr is 27 and she was born september uhhh 1995 or 1997 i actually dont remember. whichever one makes sense#also that would mean building block was born in 2020 and since she's always gonna be a baby the furhter away we get#it means that she wouldnt have even been born when the story is actually supposed to take place. Like#i know their birthdays and their ages and what year they were born everybody else has to do the math#to figure out wtf is going on because I DONT KNOW#also that means that building block would be a pandemic baby lmao 😭#what was rhe vibe in nigeria in august 2020 during the pandemic. well i say that like it even happened in their universe#which there really isnt any reason for that to be true#it isnt historically important to mention like..... world war two or slavery or whatever. fucking obviously. in the context of objects#it gets messy so its better to just Not#also the months the characters were born really fuck me up bcuz jayden was born in late december#so for most of the first year that they met he would be.... younger than he actually is being born in 2003#but since building's block birthday and exact age is the most important timeline-wise#and she was born august 14th 2020 and she's seven months old when they first meet#then it canonically would take place in march 2021 which was my original intention#bcuz that is the actual date that i first created my object ocs#ANYWAY. boring character age ramblings#but its hard to keep track of so i dont even blame the author!!!! birthdays are weird and hard to keep up w/#when you dont know exactly when your story is supposed to take place#assuming its in a normal-ish world im sure fantasy ocs dont have this problem#txt#object ocs
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the brief mention that 1.3 leonard could still be feeling some deep lingering grief over his brothers' deaths still never fails to fascinate me tbh
like, does he think of the standards he must have lost since their passing and feel guilt? or does he see them in every child he abuses??? does he keep his grief to himself or does he find it a useful anecdote to what must be a countless number of families dealing with loss??? does the green dragon know? does he confide in it????? since leonard seems to be aware of what arioch lost to the union, just how aware is/was she in what HE lost???????? did they have a role in each other's loss? is THAT where their beef came from??????? im going to merge into a wall
#gu6chan's musings#drakengard#drag on dragoon#leonard drakengard#drag on dragoon 1.3#drakengard 1.3#on the other hand; i've been obsessed over the idea of doing the 'nothing in life matters 😔' (DOD1) 'nothing in life matters 😎' (DOD1.3)#meme with them because of this#still... why would they give us the base concepts for the 1.3 cast but literally none of the depth for 98% of them (angelus is excused lmao#like you're going to make them edgier okay BUT THESE ARE STILL THE SAME PEOPLE???? WHAT PUSHED THEM TO THAT BC IT CAN'T JUST BE A 'DIFFEREN#TIMELINE DIFFERENT PERSONALITY' THING OTHERWISE YOU LOSE ANY SENSE OF “self” THEY HAD IN THEIR CHOICES IN THE DOD1 TIMELINE ENTIRELY#there HAS to be SOMETHING that made them like this... well caim we pretty much see it#BUT LEONARD AND FURIAE?????? i still stand by it; they fucking took the dragon-blood pill too i just KNOW they did#but that still doesnt answer what the fuck went on with him and arioch#the boring but most STRAIGHTFORWARD answer would probably be something among the lines of#'Oh well she came to the village and he had to drive her out after realising she was literally insane and she's been waiting to get back in#ever since. leonard just kinda knew about the dead relatives bc thats everyone'#but i dont like that explanation as much as the idea that they KNEW because they had some INVOLVEMENT when it happened#(likely unintentional.... maybe? 👀)#also why the fuck does the prologue just casually mention leonard was part of the union but literally never brings up why he's midgard's#most wanted by the time the truly diseased takes place and what led him to (presumably) abandoning it to begin with#....WAS IT SOMETHING TO DO WITH THE DEATH OF ARIOCH'S FAMILY???? HUH??????#ngl im entering conspiracy mode with this but being honest#it almost seems in character and MAKES SENSE that him having something to do with the death of/possible killing of arioch's family would#drive him to where he is by the time TTD takes place#think about it!!! leonard joins the union; ends up driving a woman to literal insanity after involving himself with the death of her family#the guilt causes him to leave the union and seek a life of atonement helping OTHER families whose lives were torn apart by the war/union;#his brothers are possibly killed during his defection??? maybe??? something something#arioch seeks his ass out and spends her time waiting to feed on the village/semi-subconsciously maybe waiting to ruin everything he's worke#for....
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book 5 of the year done!!!! im literally one book away from halfway to my goal and the first month of the year isn't even over yet fjsksk i am DEFINITELY going to hit it this year!
#SUUUUPER bummed to say tho that ive made it to the first book of the year i havent enjoyed :/#the worst part is — its the first in a series apparently and like. i WANT to know what happens next#but also i dont CARE enough to want to keep reading the rest of the series yknow?#like. this first book was just SOOOO disjointed#it was ALL exposition#it spent 500 pages giving individual backstories for each of the characters. as in each character l i t e r a l l y told their story#which first of all absolutely BORING way to get to know your characters and second of all NONE od these characters were even likeable!!!#and the worldbuilding was just. weird. it kind of didnt make sense and felt all over the place#and FULLY felt like he was just throwing random sci-fi-y words around to make it sound cooler but like. it wasnt.#and like all these characters are together on this pilgrimage right#but it is NEVER really revealed why/what they plan to do when they get to their end destination/anything like that#and im between each of these character backstories it feels like the same stuff one person is like oh wow what a story lets get some sleep#and then they do and they wake up and they do the tiniest bit of traveling#(which is like. described in the most lackluster barebones way) and then they eat and share another story and rinse and repeat#it was SO boring#it honestly reminded me of the movie the eternals LMAO#all these characters and you get to know a little about them but not enoguh to become invested and none of them are all that interesting#and the purpose of their journey/the purpose of THEM is completely unknown is completely devoid#like it felt like there was no plot#it was. ough not good.#so yeah would NOT recommend hyperion by dan simmons :/#mack reads
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its 10pm. i can either lie in bed for 4 hours reading fanfic til i finally slip into sleep
or i can play the outer worlds until i pass out on the couch....................
#tough choices#i could also play ffxv#its just so hard to progress when i know whats gonna happen next#and when the next thing is gonna make me cry#ive been off work for 2 months i need to go back im losing it#i mean i have no money first of all and i owe so many people so much lmao#now the student loans ppl are calling me like thats new#ive had job interviews but they havent gone anywhere (yet?)#hahaaaaaaaa#stressin#i should really make a new cover letter and then apply for all those housekeeper jobs#i can cook and clean pls hire me as ur househusband#but mostly im just fucking bored and need to see people other than my siblings#i need enrichment#my sister and i were supposed to go out this weekend but she was sick#and now she doesnt wanna spend money for a bit#and im like cool but. please? pretty please?#really excited to go out with my new friend#we gonna go to a club#then hang out. 420 and anime.#not all at once probably
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Yesterday during Pre-FYP pitch:
#asuka speaks#im sorry guys but i just want to tell you guys the critique went well i just need to fix just a tiny little thing in my slides#anyway my lect is happy because it seems that I know very well about my topic and relieved that she doesnt need to worry about me#also im just really happy i get to tell her about some of the cool ads related to smoking like omg im cryingjrkrnem 😭😭😭#like you guys dont get it this is the first time Im able to nerd out about it and tell her about the ads I stumbled on and have a really-#meaningful discussion about it wagsjshqkial 😭😭😭#when i said I love psa and ads in general i actually mean I actively seeking out these things on a weekly to daily basis#and sometimes i put it on when i do work lol#yes there's actually compilation of it on youtube lol they even categorised it based on topics#i personally like the british/europeans one i just feel the message were so hard hitting sometimes#but i also love the old anti drug ads from the 80s-90s because of nostalgia lol#i know this seems probably weird but like lmao if anyone ever give me a chance to ask me which top 3 i like#i would give like 10 instead hsksksksk#anyway the fyp topic i picked were about smoking since my trip to the hospital and also my personal observation made me realised-#the initiative the moh are doing for anti smoking awareness is just so outdated lol#i dont despise smoking lol dont worry i just find that whatever the moh is doing isnt working for this era anymore#so i thought it would be neat to incorporate both art and psa because psas aren't suppose to be boring#and that's what consensus thought it is#sorry jdjidjslaoqlql im just nerding out here aldjdkalalql i just want to tell you guys what happened yesterday
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its so disheartening to see non autistics comfort 30 year old mothers complaining about their autistic children
#like idk#it makes me want to throw up and i feel like everytime it happens an angel is being crushed like a bug under the devils heel#lmao but uh#been seeing a lot of people complain about autism#and im seeing way more “im autistic but i know when to shut up!” like uhrrrr ki#and its probably... not autistic people themselves...#no... playing pretend as a kid doesnt mean you have autism#or doing the imaginay computer thing with the paper#or stimming#like#stimming as an autistic person is waaaaaay different than stimming cus ure bored or waiting for something#like that is quite literally my homeostasis in action or whatever#i think idk how it works#if i cant do it im sorry but im literally what you will call inconvinient#like im glad autistic people are having fun and doing silly little memes for ourselves but#so many people want in now...#and they're just really disrespectful and really ableist#AND YES YOU CAN BE DISABLED AND ABLEIST?????#LIKE ??????#its like how with sia being autistic doesnt make her film okay its fucking awful and disgusting and its so depresseing as an autistic perso#she still belittled and made autistic children seem like inconviniences or hurdles in a neurotypicals life#same thing with the good doctor except i think no one there was autistic#which by the way i also thought it was weird how people made fun of that hand dryer scene thing#that was also disgusting#i cant believe the amount of “im autistic and i would just walk aways” i saw#like i actually felt sick seeing that sentiment spread#im sorry if im being overly sensitive but this is also extremely heartbreaking for me to see and i know im not the only one
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I've been following that AITA blog for a bit now and it has me thinking about my own life situations with conflict and drama. A passive "do I have anything I could submit to that blog?" But upon thinking about it, it's like... I really find no value in asking strangers whether I'm "the asshole" in situations. There are situations where I'm clearly not at fault, situations where I was a little shit but it was justified, and at least one situation where I have a definite "Oh yeah, I was definitely the asshole there". All in the past, so it's not like I'd even need advice or anything. I already know, so what's the point?
Maybe it stems from me being a generally self-aware and self-confident kind of person. I know what's going on with myself, know when I've wronged people, & I have a mentality of "well, I'll try to not do that in the future." Even if I feel a little guilty thinking back, what's the point of asking after something when I know I'm at fault? Or situations where things were complicated and both people had fault in things, but I know I wasn't being shitty on purpose & that's what matters to me. Ultimately, it results in a bunch of strangers drawing conclusions about things I really don't care about outside input on.
Still love reading the blog tho. There's something about reading up on random people's life drama that satisfies that gossipmonger soul in me So well.
#speculation nation#i think the most blatantly YTA thing id get is when i ghosted that guy i was seeing back when i was 20 or so#wasnt ever actually dating but i made it sound like i would. very much led him on.#then realized i just wasnt into cishet guys At All and dropped him out of nowhere bc i was 20 and didnt know how to deal with feelings#objectively it was a pretty awful thing for me to do. and i feel bad that i did it.#have i ever tried to reach out and apologize tho? no lmao#it happened so long ago now i feel like itd bring more animosity than relief anyways.#id like to think ive learned from it tho. Dont Date People Just For The Hell Of It.#god it rly is my romantic history where im the biggest asshole. my prior girlfriend too#i do feel bad about that. i never meant to hurt her but that sure is what i did.#it was better to break it off when i did. wouldve been better had i did it earlier but oh well.#then as a teenager and my whole fucked up romance life then...#but NO LONGER!!!!!!!! hopefully lol. im rly into my current girlfriend and after my last one ive been dedicated to. not do that again.#cant date people just because im bored. that's never ended well for me.#i learned my lesson this time for SURE!!!!!#anyways yea id say more constently id be The Asshole in these situations. but im only human man it happens.#other situations it's usually just fucked up situations with me being a toxic little shit in response bc it's all i knew.#idk. community voting doesnt matter to me. learning from my prior mistakes and shortcomings is what matters to me.#it's interesting to see the blog tho. people are insecure about some of the most trivial things sometimes...
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i'll see a character that appreciates the beauties in life and then blast them w my aro hc
#the character in question? why argenti of course :)#dont look at me idk what happened and idk how he got here#i am in mourning that i didnt pull him#NOT THAT I REALLY WANTED TO BC I WOULDNT KNOW WHAT TO USE HIM FOR#but i sure am :(#you know what actually for that i will go try#i did the same thing w hu tao btw#these two are aro in my head :) makes me happy (projecting)#idk ive been debating on which characters to try and pull bc >_> honestly im pretty chill now w all the characters i have#you can guess why lmao#so i dont really mind getting whoever whenever#maybe i should just start pulling randomly when im bored lmao#anyways aro argenti makes me happy :)#snow plays hsr#how many characters am i projecting onto in hsr? i think 4 at this point 3 _ 3#i tHINK.
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#how long can i keep my impulse control in tact before i cave and buy winds of anthos lmao#i have successfully staved off minekos night market but only becuase the reviews have leaned majorly towards bad#i will probably buy it if it ever gets very discounted lol but.....eeegh#a Shame bc i was really looking forward to it lol#woa is like.....a lot of the reviews are good with caveats#but currently i am Bored and when i am Bored my impulse control leaves with its bindle#also like. its monday. im too tired to find another way to tackle my Bored#buying a game and playing it is very easy#I've been thinking about replaying legends arceus but i cannot predict if i will get bored immediately bc ive already played it lol 😶🌫️#I literally do not have the attention span for games but i like games#like if i get bored of a game before i finish it thats the end i will never play it again lmao#paleo pines for example....i opened ariacotta canyon and then immediately my interest in the game died#faefarm also..... opened the volcano area and immediately got bored of the gameplay loop#don't even know what happened to Ryza 2 i just stopped playing and could never go back again lmao#all my attention span is relying on the scarvi dlc which probably wont be out until at least November 😶🌫️😶🌫️#and the hypothetical gen 5 remakes which could easily end up being shit 😭#aaaaaaaaaaa#i need more hobbies babes
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It's gotten harder and harder for me to even give a shit about art I iust dont want to fucking do it anymore
#not fallout#kal talks#like i dont want to quit quit but i need a break fr#its been so long since i wanted to do a project and then came out with a finished product that i felt really good about#like the kallista painting is good and i like it im just. idk#i just dont have any creative energy anymore#usually when this happens i get super frustrated and angry but im like idfk i dont even want to try ill iust sit on my phone#and watch youtube#its like im just bored with art#and i think its because i know i need to do studies and stuff and work on what makes me unhappy with it#but i iust dont want to#i definitely think part of it comes from like. doing art for a living?#because that is truly soul sucking#its exhausting#and it leaves no room for me to care about anything else in my life#fuck man i just need to schedule another therapy appointment lmao
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#i love it when im talking to someone&they make it super clear that they think im making shit up to impress them#bc it gives me the clear signal to actually start lying in the most boring way possible until i get bored&drop the situation lmao.#one of the most common ways this happens is when steam comes up&i mention that i killed two laptops w tf2#&whoever im talking to immediately starts to try to rip apart the logic bc theyve never had to experience the lovely trial#of trying to make a $125 notebook from walmart last for longer than four uses LMAO.#anyway im thinking about this bc i just gave up on trying to pull a revised draft from a laptop ive been trying to make work for months#that crashed the second i downloaded microsoft word&has been fighting me ever since LMAO#why does technology hate me so much. i break electronics by looking at them&vibing wrong like what the fuck. 😭#id go back to handwriting my drafts if that wasnt a guaranteed way to assure i will not edit them in any way at all LMAOOOO.
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so it’s come to this...
#ube on a roll#it was a nice ride... hopefully i'll come across a few other posts i've never seen before if there are any out there#there are still like 2 or 3 ppl making larsadie posts from time to time. shoutout to you guys#im trying to ease back into drawing. my hand is still messed up 4 life but ive regained a little bit of strength and flexibility soooo#i'll see what happens!#want to draw larsadie stuff so bad but no ideas and i feel like my art is like. pretty but boring? ya kno#would love to polish up the fic wips i have.. write more of that first fic i started in like 2018- the first larsadie fic for me#god i had sooo many ideas for writing but like. its so hard lmao!#not trying to sound too negative like im def gonna carpe diem when i get any burst of energy to put smthn down drawing or writing wise just#you know. stuff is hard. and it is what it is
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My friends: Come oooon, we wanna hang out w you, we love youuuuu, we think you're hella fun ^-^
Me: Sounds fake. Why would anyone wanna hang out w me? I fucking suck. That's factual, not self-deprecating, I ruin everything fr fr. So, like, Imma push yall away and not talk to you for a while. See ya in a few weeks 🫶
My friends, a while later: Dude, we'd literally kill for you, but also, you're such a fucking bitch.
Me: That's so sweet of you omg 🥺🥺🥺 I feel so loved
#apparently#you need to compliment me aggressively and insult me#otherwise I will either go “yikes affection” or “fuck they must be lying”#unsure what brand of issue this is#but i lowkey think its funny nowadays#(and i know this is a fairly common issue for ppl w mental illnesses lmao)#unfortunately i also randomly get bored of my friends#sometimes some of my friends give me a violent ick and i hate when that happens#cant i just appreciate ppl?#my mom once told me that i should show my friends that i loved them... i didn’t get the chance to. instead the friend group split#im very cautious about letting myself love anyone in any way#sometimes i believe i genuinely cant lmao
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venting in the tags yippeee
#damien.txt#gender talk time 🤪✌️#....................................................................................#screaming crying throwing up rolling around on the ground <- said completely deadpan#uhm. as always. thinking abt gender. and questioning. my whole life. bc. i cant stop doing that#soooooo like. my big thing. abt gender. is as much as im like. he/they-ing it here and irl. its kind of... complicated?#as ive gone on ive realized more and more that i dont. really. feeling Anything towards those pronouns#neither do i she/her. or they/them.#and just generally the whole Concepts of male/female? so like. im always like hmm. whats happening here#and other completely incoherent statements djbdhdbf sorrry anyways#i keep having these moments where im like. hmm. maybe. im leaning too hard into the masc. maybe i am not. he at all.#but ive like. really full committed to the bit yknow? like esp irl. all the ppl ive introduced myself to in the last 2 years have known me#as 'he'. and as someone who wears mostly masc clothing and generally attempts to present masc#and like. i bought a skirt a while ago and i was trying it on today and i was like oh. wait.#and before u @ me i KNOW!! clothing does not equal gender!! but there was just something abt it#and recently (the past like. year lmao) ive really been contemplating like. what i actually want out of transitioning or whatever#bc like. increasingly its become more obvious how... fucking difficult that is.#and the more i think abt it the more im like. bro its not even worth it for me? tbh? also like. sometimes i look in the mirror and am like#hmm. this does not feel better than it did when i hadnt transitioned at all. yknow?#like the last 10+ years ive been existing in this state w my body where im basically just. tolerating it. ignoring it. even.#and that hasn't... changed. after t. and ik thats not like the fix-all but its got me wondering if some of it/a lot of it#is just body dysmorphia? rather than dysphoria? bc like. god knows i have that too.#and just. idk. i feel Really Really anti-gender most of the time. would in fact. not like to be conceived of at all.#but on some level im trying to think abt it practically bc if that ^ is my thoughts on gender fr. i have to decide whats worth it#and like. i miss cool clothes. god men's clothing is so fucking boring. holy fuck.#and AGAIN i KNOW gender doesnt equal clothes but also like. i am Aware to the wider world it still works like that#and truly if i rocked up to work/class in a skirt everyone would be like What The Fuck#and i kind of want to!! but im also scared of that reaction lol#AHHHH why must gender be so complicated. i want to lay on the floor#lol there was literally more but i ran out of tags LMAOO sorry everyone. gender complicated. peace ✌️
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I'm callin' these section "Unprovoke Trends", where if I see a recurring trend/tag game down my dash that I wasn't tagged or whatever but I found time to do it cause I'm bored (for example) <it is what it is>
#i be pulling these titles out my ass#like I said im bored#not really I'm trying to find things to do to keep me sane while TRYING to finish these builds#idk whats going on with my game but this the 5th time I gotten the white screen of d**th#it happens when my laptop goes to sleep and it never did that to the point I have to force drop the game#i know it has to be a mod but thts like finding a needle in a hay stack but im sure its one of these recent script mods ugh#if you read all these tags you're a trooper and I love you lmao
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