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#living with older siblings is hard#you have no power#like I have two giant legitimate reasons why I can’t just ‘adapt’ to your ways but you’re forcing me#they’re never thankful for what I do it’s always what I didn’t do#‘we need to do the dishes earlier’#i said I was gonna do them after we’re done hanging out I can’t always just do things#they keep saying shit is easy#it’s EASIER than the last house#but still not easy#ugh I just….whatever I’m frustrated but my feelings never matter#i bet she’s complaining to her bf about me rn while I wait in the car#I’m just very tired and on top of that it’s a bad pain day#whenever I mention my pain it’s ‘is the weed not working?’ like no but you know chronic pain is complex#i dunno I’ll be ok just very frustrated n sad n lonely
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thinking a lot about a premise where after the events of Psychonauts 2, years later, Raz winds up breaking off all contact with his family overall (barring his younger siblings, his older sister, his dad and Nona, and his younger siblings are a borderline case depending on whether or not they pick up their mother's passive aggressive and dislike of psychics like Raz's older brother) and the story idea is SPECIFICALLY Donatella, being grief-stuck at Raz completely cutting off all contact with her and much of the family after he was able to eventually become independent with the Psychonauts and is now a beloved icon and hero to the world famous for his advances in the use of psychic work to aid psychiatry and he very explicitly does not discuss her and acts as if she died when he was a kid
and the whole thing is basically about her having to very bluntly have to come to terms with the fact that if she hadn't been so cold to him or made him feel unwanted because of his powers, or his older brother learn from her example to become a vicious bully towards him (even by older brother standards), then maybe he wouldn't have fixated so hard on the idea of the Psychonauts as a place where felt he belonged and didn't feel like his very existence was shaming her
and its entirely her fault, and all her passive aggressive guilt trip actions in Psychonauts 2 made it worse and just made every moment around her, no matter how much he missed his mother, hurtful and he only felt better when he spoke to Helmut Fullbear who at this point was the first genuinely nice and accomodating voice he'd heard once the events with Maligula took off.
(He would be the first to admit much of that was his fault, but he still felt alone, and it was nice to feel such a kindly and welcome voice, like someone from a group he really belonged to, and that Donatella very specifically never made him felt like he belonged.)
And there's no magic fix. There's no tearful reconciliation, no heartfelt pleas that led to a happily ever after and the family reunions she wants. Decades of resentment, bitterness and childhood unhappiness that gradually turned into simmering hatred isn't something that can be taken back and she has to live with that; her second born son wants nothing to do with her and has written her completely out of his life, and will be quite happy if he dies without ever having to see her or speak with her ever again.
Also probably something like a line like "He stopped loving you a long time ago. After all, he thought you stopped loving him first."
#psychonauts 2#psychonauts#ideas#story ideas#fic ideas#psychonauts spoilers#kinda#tbh i feel this probably isn't TOO canon compliant with the way the character arcs tend to go#so realistically she would eventually dial down her dislike of psychics and they'd all have to live with their mistakes and try to live#in a better way#but the idea of Raz's in game sadness and the implied character arc of the middle part of the game leans WELL towards this idea#just being around his family feels stressful or sad and if you go to Psi King Sensorium fairly late#Psi King's helpful and kindly attitude makes him STRIKINGLY different from the other adults#he's nice and helpful and open minded and probably is a major role model for Raz later in life#so its not hard to imagine Raz eventually drifting more towards the members of the Psychic Seven he's personally closer towards#and just passively reducing the influence his mother and older siblings have#i mean frazie isn't that bad but she keeps throwing rocks at his head#and lying about what she is just so her mother doesn't hate her too but making her brother feel alone and even more sad#wow that is a VERY Applicable line actually but that's another topic#queued
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At this point we have to admit that Rang means the world to Yeon but Rang's not everything to him and that's okay! Yeon has his own life to live and it's impossible to dedicate his every aspect to Rang. He's his own person too, he's selfish and flawed and wonderful and everything that a person is. Yeon deserves to live his own life too. Yeon is Rang's everything, however, and I think that Yeon want's Rang to have someone by his side because Yeon knows that he shouldn't be Rang's everything. That Rang shouldn't idealize him because he's imperfect, and that Rang's own life should mean so much more than just one person. That Rang too, should live the life that he deserves to live, that he too, is his own person, who should live for himself instead of only for others. They love each other, they are brothers, after all, and they learned to recognize that each other is flawed and imperfect but they try all the same, because that does not change the fact that they love each other.
#Lee Yeon#Lee Rang#tale of the nine tailed 1938#I love them#being the oldest sibling is really hard#lee yeon is one of the few “older sibling” characters that are actual main characters and not just either the untouchable or evil one#Rang shouldn't have to live feeling burdened or like a burden#He needs to understand that he himself is someone worth living for
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Anytime I see Bloodline moments like Jimmy hyping Solo up tonight or the one time Jey was knocking a rhythm on Roman’s door, I know they be struggling to keep face. Like if it was me and my sister, she’d be trying to keep face then break if I manage to get her to look at me
#was gonna say i’d have a hard time keeping face before realizing i’m the annoying (older) sibling#the bloodline#jimmy uso#solo sikoa#jey uso#roman reigns#sd live#wwe
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#my older sister wants to get matching tattoos and that makes me ghjkjhbhj so happy#i barely knew her growing up and she always lived away from me since we're technically half siblings#so i never really had a relationship with her but now that we're both adults and can decide when and how we talk#we've gotten super close and we talk often and we actually act like sisters#and so to get a text from her wanting to get matching sister tattoos is so!!!!!!!! im so happy!!!!!!!!! i love her so much!!!!!!!!!#im like. giddy over this. shes so special to me!!! and often times she the only person i can confide in who gets what this family is like#and idk confirmation that she sees me as the same just makes me really warm!!!!!!!#we havent decided what exactly itll be but we have themes we both like so it wont be hard#i love my sister so much!!!!!!!!#personal
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ari.......... will u mutual bingo meeeee?
NIKU ……. say less >:3 here is your bingo hehe pls have a seat n sip on some coffee ☕️ made it extra bitter so **** won’t come and steal it from u….
#i’m patting you on the head every single time i see you on the dash hehe . i see emu and i go pat pat :3#also chomping your head off but VERY lovingly ..#WE SHARE SOOO MANY INTERESTS IT’S CRAZY…… it’s so fun to see you on my dash bc you’re just jumping from fandom 2 fandom#AND I LOVE THEM ALL#i feel like. we r both shoving fandoms in each others faces ….. me w tokyo mew mew n you w idolish7#luring each other in w the promise of mahou shoujos / pretty megane boys LMAOO#AND. you harass me w twt links :(((((( I CANT LIVE IN PEACE (ty for the food <3)#i also lovelove hearing your fic thoughts!!! n forcing you to listen to my own rambles!!!!!!!#AND. the sib vibes…. you give off older sib vibes but like . the chill older sibling !!!#the one i’d go to when i’m eepy and wanna binge a new anime :3#and then your writing…….. hhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#i’ve alr said it but . your gojo is truly one of my favorite gojos Of All Time and i love your writing style sm i could live in it 😔#IM STARING SO HARD AT YOUR COMFY GOJO DRABBLE its at the top of my tbr.. sniffle….#ily lots niku <3333 i’m always so excited when i get to talk 2 u !!!! super happy to have u as a moot :33#ask tag ✩#niku !! ✩
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Quick concept doodle for my worstie To the horizon
#keese draws#rain world#rain world oc#rain world iterator#iterator oc#rw iterator#she’s one of the two rich guy commissioned iterator ocs I have and she’s also the younger of the two#he’s also the one that’s built in the middle of the giant lake that most of his local group is based around#he was commissioned to basically be a glorified vacation center for a bunch of rich ppl and she’s Very aware of that#she’s extremely self conscious abt the entire basis to her existence and is very much a try hard because of that#he’s also very bossy and snappy with his local group as he worries that he’ll be blamed for any incompetence on their part#In general she just cares a Lot abt justifying her existence beyond just being another trophy for some guy#she has a strained relationship to her sibling iterator golden boon as well despite them facing some similar struggles#golden boon was also made for a different purpose than primarily solving the great problem as they are basically a massive productivity#tool built to maximize the work of their inhabitants and they basically hosted a company town#now golden boon absolutely Hated this for a variety of reasons but they had a more defeatist attitude abt the whole thing#leading to a lot of conflict over their lives as horizon saw boon as lazy and whiny and boon saw horizon as an asshole and also as whiny#and they both even more so hated their older two neighbors as they found prosperity to be annoying and stars to be a spoiled brat#they were also not very kind to sliver but they had less active resentment towards her than with everyone else in their local group
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Prior to Usagi's backstory where he mentioned his father's death and his mother and him living on the life insurance payout, I had a different headcanon for his backstory that explained why Meryl Mei insists he's a good kid despite constantly buying drugs from the gang and being an oddball.
Usagi is the oldest of many siblings ranging from those just a few years younger than him to toddlers. The Alohaoes have lived below the poverty line for generations and the family were no strangers to losing their members to gang life, drug addiction, crippling debt, or a combination of the three. Some of those members, like Usagi's parents, try to make an honest living as working class folks, but both end up working long hours to barely get by and government assistance can only go so far.
As the oldest sibling, Usagi ended up being de-facto man of the house, making sure his siblings get to school on time, attend their games and doctor's appointments, tucking them in at the end of the day, staying up when one or five get sick. Usagi's parents do love him, but there's that underlying obligation and guilt Usagi feels if he doesn't step up to help the family in any way, and his parents can only do so much after being out of the house for so long and splitting time between their kids for quality time.
Usagi knows his parents are working multiple dead-end jobs, unable to be promoted or change to better careers due to lack of education and opportunities, and they end up coming home late at night to be taken care of by him before doing it all over again the next day. While balancing his own studies and trying to go through the day of caring for his family and house, Usagi ends up being addicted to hard drugs out of necessity rather than pleasure. Coffee and nicotine patches can only keep you up and alert for so long, and sometimes there are days where sleep is not an option; the longest he's stayed up is 31.5 hours straight followed by crashing for 5 hours and waking up to resume his schedule as if nothing happened. Sometimes, the drugs suppress his appetite, which allows him to go long without eating in case he doesn't get a chance to sit down.
The worst part and another reason for him being addicted to drugs is the fact that he's a natural genius.
Upon realizing how intelligent and inquisitive their son is, his parents are also banking on him to be the first of the Alohaoes to graduate high school and go to college without a criminal record or other issues. If Usagi gets a well-paying degree and job, the Alohaoes can breathe easier in terms of finance and Usagi can become an example for future generations to eventually get the Alohaoes out of the poverty cycle. So, not only is Usagi taking care of his siblings but he ends up overseeing the household such as taxes and bills, talking to authorities to prevent them from escalating situations near his home, filling out forms for welfare and arguing with health insurance companies at a very young age. His family unconciously expect him to be able to do anything because of his intelligence and they're hoping his grades would allow him to receive free scholarships among other things.
Like many who experienced living below the poverty line, the idea of mental health and attempts to ease this load while the system is intentionally working against you is met with "just deal with it" instead. Finding someone to vent to or provide help is difficult and could cause more harm than good if someome takes things out of context. Someone called CPS on them once because Usagi made an offhand remark on how tired he was; Usagi had to stop the case from escalating in fear that his siblings would be separated "because he made a stupid mistake" and feels guilty for what he did despite being honest at the time.
The drugs Usagi takes doesn't only keep him up but also hide who he really is. While he appears jovial, irresponsible, and amicable on drugs, he's the complete opposite when sober. I imagine him to be like Fugo: cynical, bitter, easy to anger but unable to express it. The bodysuit he wears is intentionally fitted not only to minimize issues caused by skin irritation and bug bites (seeing how he has that in his backpack) but it also doubles as a calming compression suit to ease his bottled emotions. It could be hiding other things but who knows. He's good at hiding things... too good.
Usagi doesn't want to lash out on his loved ones nor show what he's going through. He keeps himself high to maintain his fake persona and remain likeable, but it would only be so long before he breaks and shows who he really is.
Anyways, what do y'all think?
#the jojolands#jjba#jojo part 9#jojos bizarre adventure#jjba part 9#jojolands#jjba jojolands#jojolands headcanons#jojo headcanons#usagi alohaoe#i love making my favorite characters suffer#first we got paco's backstory and now here's my take on usagi's#poor baby needs a hug#this is kind of inspired by my mom bc she is the oldest sibling of many and ended up being defacto parent bc of the living situation#long story short granddad was in prison and grandma had to work to earn money and ofc its hard when youre a woman with many kids back then#but anyways this is my take on usagi's backstory#i'm just imagining how usagi finally reveals his true self and how the gang would react#older sibling syndrome yall
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i havent talked about in trousers in sooooo long Ohhhhhh in trousers…..
#kind of hard to talk abt by merit of it being a musical#so its the ultimate level of ‘posting lyrics nobody gaf abt’#but mannnnn its so good. marvinnnnnnn#falsettos reboot proshot and its gay little freak of an older sibling in trousers#shame i had to unfollow the tag cus 90% of post were stupid fandom indrama#like idgaf if someone wrote some gross fic. idont need to see 100 posts abt it just blockkkkk#but Aughhhhh… man. so good. soundtrack on youtube Btw#anddd i think a live recording of the 80s version is on there too which provides extra context#but i prefer the 79 version. Personally#I CANT BELIRVEEEE THEY CUT NAUSEA BEFORE THE GAME.#i think a couple of the songs they added r good but i cant rlly remember i only watched it . ONCE?#ok. maybe ill rewatch then
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literally nothing worse than waiting for bad news to hit. like i don't know how i'm supposed to go to class with this particular sword hanging over my head
#especially since this particular Bad News could change So Much ..#i don't think my dad is ready to be shouldering the entire household by himself. i really dont.#with 3 kids still at home and his job i just. i dont think he can do it alone.#and both of my older siblings have lives already !! they have spouses and jobs and kids !!#they cant just pack up their lives and move across the state !!#but im not settled i dont have a job i dont have kids or a spouse and hell i was gonna leave school anyway !!#just. not this soon.#but fuck i guess i might have to move up the timetable a bit.#but the THING IS that I DONT KNOW YET. like i Know but i dont actually know officially. yet.#and idk. maybe im hoping it'll not turn out the way i know it will so im holding off on making a decision#or maybe im just trying really really hard not to think about the future for the next few days.#but either way by tuesday i'll know for sure and that'll be that.#ill need to talk to my landlord to see if they'll let me move out early. and my counselor to see if i can take a break from school for a bi#and probably my dad just to let him know that im moving back home. idk. i dont fucking know#winter speaks#personal#grief tag#<- gonna be a Whole Thing btw if u wanna blacklist
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ggghhg i hate vehiclessssssss ghghghhghhhhh [dies dies dies forever]
#just me hi#i'm going to get right back to it but i need to complain or i'll turn into a stale loaf of Bread lmao :3👍#so here it is. why's it gotta be so hard hhghfh#okay buildings suck i hate buildings. but also they don't make me want to immediately explode at the merest hint of actually drawing them#vehicles?? Vehicles ???? i am going to just. what if i just put everyone in magical cardboard boxes and did that huh. what is the point !!#i have to draw motorcyclessss and carssssss and i'm okay with bikes to a degree actually <3 and horsessssssss and truckssssssssssss#god forbid you pick an older model with like 20 articles on it cuz most of them are going to only have a side profile and 3/4s view of that#dang thing. which yea sounds manageable 'why is this a problem keeps' i cannot properly see the FRONT#i have to guess?? i have to Guess ???? my dearest wish i think i'm just going to live in the sewers. with the sewer creatures#GGHHHHHHHHHHHH#i am going to practice drawing this stupid thing that i'm going to use for like 7 panels MAX and then i'm going to commit a FOUL crime. lik#rearranging someone's usual playlist without them knowing so they're confused every time they listen to it afterwards#//okay enough of that. we're good hbfhsfh :3#i have done other things today ! i've actually made a rough timeline for pi.e so thaaaat's cool :D#that and found a cool artist to follow on pillowfort. i. forgor their user but they have cool art .w.#/also i'm past the halfway mark on this first chapter which is !!!#i don't want to jinx myself cuz i know i'm really good at that hfhsv - but i think i'll start storyboarding the next part if i can get a#couple more pages done :D#//also the cowboy au grows stronger everyday hhhgfshvbh#i kind of knew some sort of au was inevitable but i did not think it would be an old west one loll :3#still trying to figure out the logistics#i wanna find some good historical fiction from those eras (1860s-70s) but i do not have the brain space for it rn fbhs - so this will do :>#it won't have any of the magic or gods i think bc of that but i'm having fun regardless :D#it Does have some occult though. because i was playing the story for my brother and i Do enjoy scaring him hhbvhfhsfvh#there are devils on the ranch!! or are they devils?? he hasn't gotten that far yet lol :>#//i also may have some sort of weird lean towards the spooky because Somehow each of my stories end up containing some sort of thriller#element?? lmao rip my siblings#but it never happens on purpose. again; rip my siblings hfhhvsh#//oo running out of tag space lol <//3#i shall return. probably with more wip stuff cuz i started like 4 canvases in 2 days hhghghdvs - toodles !!
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your tags on parenting make me super emotional <3 that's exactly the kind of parent I want to be one day
Thanks! I feel the same way honestly. I have a lot of opinions about parenting and I can't say that I will be the perfect parent because that doesn't exist. I can't even say that my hypothetical future kid/kids will be perfect because children don't grow in a vacuum. I can only control what I do and say and try to be the best version of myself and hope for the best.
#i often hear people say that involved parenting is too difficult to be realistic or that modeling behavior is too hard#and yeah. yeah it is. it is one of the most difficult things a person can do. but who the fuck has a kid thinking it'll be easy?#kids are hard work and commitment. they should never be something done on a whim. you should never half ass raising a kid#and not to say that people should be perfect all the time or that people shouldn't have 'me' time#its just that i genuinely don't understand people who shove their kid into as many activities as possible to get away from them#or put all their hopes and dreams and expectations on them. if it's so easy and attainable to live up to your expectations as a parent#then do it first. you want your kid to have straight A's? great. show me your report card at that age#im just... kids are just people. and they just want to hang out with their parents and receive love and attention#and anyway ive lost my point im just very passionate about this topic#very passionate#when im older and financially stable I want to foster teenagers i think. i want to be there for them and model healthy adult behavior#and help them make that transition. i want to be that person for them. because everyone needs help and love and family#and honestly? my parents fostered kids my entire life. THEY MODELED THAT BEHAVIOR#i understand that family is not a given. i understand that family is above all else forged. and that applies to everyone#not just found family or fostering. if you don't know your bio child then can you really call yourself family?#family is *forged* regardless of the context. and if it isn't? if you skip that step with your bio kids? well thats a major fucking issue#anyway nothing but respect for my parents who bought groceries for my foster sister when she was out of care. FOR MONTHS#nothing but respect for my parents who took me with them to give my foster sister their old stroller when she needed it#nothing but respect for my parents who take in my old foster brother every weekend to 'babysit' because they know he isnt in a loving house#nothing but respect for my parents who adopted my siblings without a word when they asked#honestly they are why i am who i am today. i was a kid with adhd and learning disabilities who hated school#and now I'm an honors student and getting my doctorate. because they did the academia with me#and im not saying they did my schoolwork. im saying that they assigned books to read over the summer and we would read them as a family#and we would discuss the literary concepts and themes together as a family. i love dissecting media! and thats because of my parents!#it was a family activity! same goes for science and art and music#and coding and history ect ect#anyway im going off on a tangent but basically what im saying is that my parents didn't ship me off to camp every summer#we just did things as a family together. i remember the time and bonding with them. and i modeled that behavior#and not to brag but i think I turned out alright#anyway tangent over!
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My heart is beating so hard I’m so pissed about Everything rn
#you see there was really no one my age in our neighborhood#There were kids slightly older than me or slightly younger than me#And for some reason a lot of teen girls and little boys#so my siblings both got on fine. Her with the slightly older kids him with the boys#and I was just kind of stuck in the middle#always#now. I am a middle child. My whole deal is being stuck in the middle#so I was used to it#But like it does suck#I never really had any friends except this one boy that everyone accused me of being in love with#and like he’s a good kid but we never shared any interests so it was hard to hang out past kindergarten#(Yes we were already accused of being bf/gf at 3 years old yes that’s fucked up and I hated it with my entire being)#so I didn’t have friends save for him in school#I didn’t get along very well with my sister because she was very very bossy when playing so I had to do exactly what she said#(or get yelled at)#I had the choice between hanging out with like. Girl that only lives here every second weekend. Snippy girl that was chronically ill.#older girl that’s okay and friends with older girl that hates my guts#The Twins™️ (their mom didn’t like me and their dad made me deeply uncomfortable. He turned out to be physically abusive.)#and those two neighbours#which you guessed it lead to the aforementioned teaming up and me being stuck with the kid my mom now thinks is like my best friend or smt#so I had the choice between that or my mom inviting people I didn’t know that I didn’t want to play with or playing alone#and that’s just how I lived until I was ten#which is when we moved and I started secondary and OH MY GOD I COULD HAVE FRIENDS?? WHO COULDVE GUESSED#og
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ok that poast got me thinking so rq rant abt my sibling . in the tags bc i cant figure out how go add a readmore on the version of tumblr mobile i use
#wishy speaks#so like#my sibling is Pretty successful for someone their age#they rent a nice place in a town they enjoy living in and have a long term partner and a secure career#and their partner has an even more secure career#and they got all A's their entire time in school#not that it was necessarily easy for them but they still Did That#im really grateful my parents never held me to the same standard bc even tho they didnt know i was autistic they knew i was Different#and had a lot of trouble sometimes#but my sibling thinks that i can just. do a lot of the same stuff they do if i try?#they said to mom that they have issues like mine too and still do all these cool things wrt careers and school#and like. do you understand how different we are.#we are such wildly different people. even disregarding my disability. do you not see the miles between us#do you understand i have limitations you dont? that im not just a smaller lazier cringier version of you?#you are 5 years older than me#you have had 23 years to get to know me#and this is the conclusion you come to?#im so like. disappointed in them#its hard to talk to them without them trying to give me their company skillshare login or telling me to monetize one of my hobbies#especially website design. ugh. designing and coding a personal website gives me migraines. doing it for a client would make me explode#i cant fucking brush my teeth or shower without someone Telling Me To#what makes you think i can go back to college? get a job? take online classes? what the fuck makes you think that???#when our own mother understands me better than you do i think thats a big sign you fucked up#its just so frustrating#i miss that period where they had just finished school and lived at home until they moved away for a job opportunity and we played games all#day together#they didn't pressure me into anything then bc i was just in high school still#but now that im out of school and a college dropout its like they think im just being lazy and underestimating myself#and yea its not like ive Tried getting a job#but when i can barely take care of myself its not like thats a high priority
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watched secret world of arrietty potentially my new favorite ghibli movie... not potentially i think it legit is
#i watched fourr movies today 2 ive seen b4 and 2 new ones... arrietty was one of da new ones#the other new one was orlando pretty good i liked how likee. artsy it was... it was very cool basically i liked it and i rly loved the#costuming#i do wish it had subtitles on site i use tho bc i had a hard time understanding.. not da movies fault bc i have a hard time comprehending#dialogue in a Lot of older movies.. but i liked it :]]#but anyways yes. one thing abt me i was obsesseddd with borrowers as a kid it was part of my fairy obsession. i was sososososooso hopelessl#delighted by the concept of tiny people who live secretly and their houses and furniture are all fashioned out of#everyday human objects it made me fucking craaazy#me and my siblings favorite activity used to be building fairy houses... we even had one playground we loved specifically#bc it had a bunch of trees with little hollowed out areas under the roots which made the best fairy houses...#we had umm. for a while this is fun my mom had this likee. sheet she made that was like.. a grading sheet for playgrounds#so everytime we went to a playground wed check the little boxes for each thing on the list it had... like we had Curly slide swingset seesa#etc... and then wed also write in anything that wasnt on the sheet that we loved#and we wrote in Great for fairy houses for a lot of them.... it was rly rly rly fun i honestly think that might be part of where my love of#spreadsheets came from.. one thing abtme i looooove to categorize things by a set metric. so yes#basically :DDD I LOVE FAIRIES I LOVE BORROWERS!!! i rly rly rly wanna get into building those little miniature houses. dollhouses whyd i sa#minihouses LOL. i was thinking of likee studson studios type thang i forget what theyre called#ik they make little kits for it so id start with that but eventually id love 2 start just making my own...#i also used to watch those like. miniature cooking videos. they were my cocomelon i would literally watch them boil a droplet of water and#Lose my fucking mind KJASBDKUBSJ#or when they put the little miniature cake in their little miniature oven... i specifically am remembering the pancakes#I NEED 2 FIND THOSE AGAIN. I MISS THEM!!!!!
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on the verge of tears thinking about edyn tidestrider btw if you even care
#i love her so much.......#i love you fuxked up sibling relationships#as soneone who is/was an older sister to a younger brother. ohhhh her character hits me so hard#if nobody else in the world will support you i will. even if we're miles and miles apart i hope you can trust me to protect you.#please tell me things please trust me to share your burdens#i would take on the entire world if it meant you would be safe and happy even at the cost of everything#ughhhghggghghghghghh my eyes hurtttttt#love you a million............ fucjkkkkkkk#if all the adults in our lives arent good enough to you ill be the adult for you.#ill be the support system for you that i never had simply because im older#i want to undo the things they did to you so you can come home again.....#i hope you can forgive me for leaving you one more time but i need to do this to keep you safe......#i fuckigngnnnggggg love edyn i love her i love her im in tears over her letter. i think being stabbed would hurt less#aauhhgrhgahghghghaghrghghrrrhgggh#reaction time
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