#living dead dolls series 14

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Selected photos of Living Dead Dolls Series 14 Daisy Slae, a hippie character consumed by nature. She had to come with me on vacation to a forest area for the right setting! Read the full review (and see many more photos with her) in my sixth roundup trio here.

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Every breath you take (14)

Summary: There is a shadow following you. He doesn’t know what he got himself into.

Pairing: Stalker!Bucky Barnes x fem!Reader

Warnings: a man out of time, secret admirer trope, longing, abandonment issues, crazy reader, fluff, “moving in together the crazy way”

A/N: You all made me do it! Here’s the series to this random idea: Stalker Bucky & Crazy Reader

Catch up here: Every breath you take (13)

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Bucky searches your apartment for all the things on your list. “The blankets on the couch, check. The plushies in the back of her wardrobe, check.” He goes through your list, piece by piece.

He sighs when his eyes land on your messy bed and the two suitcases he placed on it to fill it with the things on your list. Bucky feels guilty because, while he was on a mission, you waited for him to watch you pleasure yourself.

“Doll, I got to take good care of you,” he hums to himself before turning toward the commode on the other side of the bedroom.

He opens the first drawer, licking his lips as his eyes land on your lingerie. Bucky bundles up the lingerie to carry it toward the suitcases. Before dropping the lingerie into the suitcase, he presses them to his nose, inhaling deeply. He wishes you wore them, but from now on, he can just sniff at the real thing.

The thought alone causes his cock to stir in his pants. No. He must take things slow. You’re eager to be with him, but Bucky still wants to take his time and win you over.

“Orchids, and—” He snarls, reading birth control on your list. “You won’t need these, doll. I’m going to breed your sweetness until you’re round with my child. If Steve gets his white-picket fence and normal life, I can have it too.”

Bucky cracks his neck. For half of the night, he was busy sneaking in and out of your apartment through a window. Luckily, no one saw him climb up and down the fire escape in the dead of the night.

Your apartment is empty now. Bucky grabbed every item he could find. The last thing he has tugged under his arm is the orchid you bought the day he got his plant.

“Oh, what a nice plant!” A woman swoons when he hurriedly tries to reach his car. “Where did you get it?” She gives him a sweet pout, but he’s got no time for her flirty behavior.

“A flower shop,” Bucky gruffly replies while pulling his base cap down low over his face. “Sorry, but I got to go.” He turns to leave, muttering under his breath. Bucky has no time for this.

Bucky hates being away from you. He’s still two hours away from your new home, but had to take a break to refill his tank and get some snacks.

While he waits in line to pay for his snacks and gas, Bucky checks on the live feed from his house on his phone.

He expected you to try every door to leave the house, but you simply got comfortable on the couch and played with Alpine, talking to the white cat.

“She’s…” He smiles to himself. “Perfect. My sweet doll didn’t try to run away from me. I knew she was the one, Steve. I wish you were here to meet her, punk.”

“Bucky,” you storm toward him the moment he opens the door. “OH, you got my orchids!” You gasp, seeing the box filled with your orchids in Bucky’s hands. You take it out of his hands, smiling wildly. “I already found the perfect spot. The windowsill in the bedroom and the bathroom are perfect for them.”

He nods and allows you to take the flowers out of his hands. “Maybe you can find the perfect spot for my plant too. It still stands on the kitchen table. While you take care of the flowers, I’ll bring the rest of your things inside.”

“I can help,” you offer, smiling at Bucky. “I know you’re big and strong, but I can carry a few things too.”

“No,” he cuts you off, making you frown. “I mean, you must take care of the orchids, and make sure Alpine won’t follow me. This is new territory for the punk, and I don’t want him to get lost.”

“Okay.” You carefully place the box with your orchids on the coffee table in the living room to pick Alpine up. “I’ll keep Alpine busy while you carry everything inside. I can put the orchids on the windowsill later.”

“Good girl,” Bucky says, looking at you for a moment before he leaves the room. “I’ll be right back.”

You furrow your brows when he locks the door behind him. “Hmm…I guess he wants to keep us safe, Alpine.” Picking the white furball up, you smile. “You’re so soft, Alpine. Maybe we should get a nice brush to groom you.”

You walk around the house, Alpine in your arms. The cat meows loudly, protesting when you ask him if he wants a bow in his fur.

Bucky carries the suitcases and three more boxes filled with your belongings inside the house before you see him again.

After he’s done, Bucky leans in the door frame, watching you cuddle with his cat. You lie on the bed, Alpine on top of your chest. The cat purrs loudly while rubbing his cheek against your breast.

“Punk, that’s my girl,” he half-jokes while walking inside the bedroom.

Bucky is unsure if it’s too soon to join you on the bed but kicks his shoes off nonetheless. He lies on the bed next to you, watching you and his cat for a while. “I got all of your things.”

“That’s so nice of you,” you giggle because Alpine jumps off your chest to stroll around the room. You take the opportunity to scoot closer to Bucky and rest your head against his chest. “Did you get my birth control too?”

“Why?” He hesitantly asks. That’s the only thing he didn’t bring with him for selfish reasons.

“Well,” you move your hand over his chest and purr his name. “If you rested well, and we settled in, we should test the mattress.” You dip your head to look him in the eyes. “I thought you’d like to cum inside of me.”

Part 15

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Our Gentle Sins: Part 12

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Chapter summary: Past. Dolly tells it all. Present. Has Logan really changed?

Warnings: This fic features non con, pregnancy, and themes of religious trauma. I will not be saying everything that happens to warm you, by clicking read more you are prepared for extremely dark themes and that you at 18+. You are responsible for your own media consumption.

Before

With your hair fixed and dressed smoothed, there was no sign of the passion you and Logan had shared, save for a smudge of tinted lip palm. Logan reached out, hated how you flinched even if just so slightly, and wiped it clean. He resisted the urge to lick his thumb, just to taste another trace of you, so he settled with his tongue darting out to his own lips, just for a remainder of your essence.

You and Logan sat on the couch. You faced the ladder that stood against the tall book shelf; Logan faced you.

Killed people? You? You, who cried when he was about to kill a spider, begging him to take it outside. You, who were the shining beacon to mutant kids that they could be loved by humans. You, who were so innocent you shuttered at the brush of his hand on yours.

“It wasn’t in self defense. I don’t have an excuse.”

“Was it Mark?” God, he hoped it was.

You nod.

“Sounds like self defense to me.”

Your hair flies out of its pristine condition with how aggressively you shake your head, brows knitted together in anguish and frustration. Logan didn’t understand, he could tell. He wasn’t sure he could ever understand you, really.

“He was asleep, Lo-”

“Dolly, he beat you bloody, he almost killed you-”

“He wasn’t the only one I killed.”

The silence hung in the air for a few moments as Logan waited. Waited for you to elaborate. Waited for it to make sense in his head. Waited for his anger at your secrets to subside.

“Listen doll,” He stated, clear and assertive. “Just tell me. I can handle it. You want me to tell you the awful things I’ve done? I will, if it’s gonna make you be honest with me. I can’t keep doing this. I can’t keep waiting for you.”

A little nod, then you swallowed. It began. “My sister was getting married. Grace. She was 14… her proposed husband was 29.”

“Jesus christ…” Logan didn’t exactly think he was the most morally superior man out there, but he thought any grown man attracted to a teenager was disgusting.

The hem of your long sleeve makes for a good fidget; the weather was getting colder. “I couldn’t do it, Lo. I couldn’t sit by and just- just allow my baby sister to go through what I’d gone through!” You still weren’t looking at him, but you didn’t stop. “I thought about calling the police, but what would it do? Our parents consented, and at the time she wasn’t going to say she didn’t want to, he was a handsome older man, of COURSE she wanted to be with him! I wanted Mark, and look where that landed me!” Finally, you turned to Logan, tears welling up your red eyes, but a look of determination on your face. You didn’t look sorry. “She was 14, Logan. She didn’t know what she was doing.”

“I understand.” And he did. If he thought Rogue was getting herself into a situation like that, he’d have stepped in. Hell, sometimes he was ready to beat Remy’s ass. If he had actually thought Remy did anything to that girl, he’d be dead. “She was just a kid.”

A deep breath. “My parents, Grace, her fiance and his parents came to our house one night, we lived in town and they were wedding planning. I took Mark’s gun…” You give a dry laugh. “He pistol whipped me with it more than once, so I knew where he kept it. That was his mistake. I put the silencer on and… I guess just… I dunno. I don’t really remember it. I shot Mark, my parents, the fiance… the fiance's parents. I- sometimes I feel bad about that…”

“Don’t.” His hand reaches for yours. “They were enabling their kid to rape a teenager. Did they have daughters?”

“Yeah… a few younger girls in high school.”

“You probably saved them from getting sold off too.”

“But now they’re in foster care! And my siblings! Our families are torn apart and it’s my fault!”

“Dolly!” Logan pulls you into him, and for a minute you freak out, you hit him and shout, but soon you fall into his strong arms, sobbing. “Your parent’s did this, not you! You did everything to protect your family, this is not. Your. Fault.” He felt you cry into his arms. He never really thought about your brothers and sisters, but he realizes now how much you must miss them. How much you must think and worry about them… Charles knows your story, has he told you how they- Charles knows. Of course he does, he saved you, he took you in… who else knows?

“Does Remy know?”

He feels you nod against him, and jealousy spirals in his chest. “Yeah, I- he and I were up after a nightmare and it… came out.”

He rubs your back. He tries to turn it around, to make sure you didn’t know how much it was eating him up that Remy knew you better than him. “He agrees with me, doesn’t he? And he still loves you. We don’t think you’re a bad person.” A sick part of him was mad you opened up to remy, that you found comfort in him, not Logan. That you didn’t need Logan as long as you had Remy. He takes your chin in his hand, gentle and uncalloused from his healing, touching your soft, wet face as he guides it to his own. “I still love you, Dolly. I love you, and this only makes me love you more.”

Your eyes shone, sadness there but also a glint of love. “I- I love you, Logan, but… I can’t do this right now. I need a little time… just to get myself straight. Is- Is that okay?”

“Dolly…” He kissed your lips, tasting the salt of your tears and the cherry lip balm, trying to force his tongue in your mouth.

“Lo-” You were cut off by his kiss, your hands gripping his flannel shirt began to press flat against his chest.

“Just love me, doll face. Just love me, and it’s gonna be okay.”

“I do!” He could smell the adrenalin and sweat on you, but also the arousal dripping from between your legs when his hand dipped down to the curve of your ass. “I just -mmph- Lo, I need time.”

He ground you down, feeling his erection between your closed thighs as you try to squire away. He just needed you to see, to see how much he loved you, to see how happy you could be together and how good he could make you feel. “Everything is gonna be okay, I promise.”

He needed to be what Remy wasn’t, what he hoped Remy wasn’t, and if he was, he was gonna be it better.

Then he felt a tear drop on his collarbone, and he stopped. He stopped despite the urge to fuck you open right here on this couch, to make you scream loud enough everyone knew who you belonged to. To claim you and fill you so publicly that Scott knew he couldn’t take you from him. Not you. Not you because you were different.

But he didn’t want you crying. He didn’t want you like that.

“Shhh, shhhhhhh it’s okay Dolly, it’s okay. We’ll wait. We’ll wait until you're ready.” He kissed your forehead, cuddling you to his warm chest. “Ain’t doing nothing until ya ready, baby girl.”

After

You liked Wade. A lot.

He was a little out of pocket sometimes, way more overtly sexual at first than you were comfortable with. He made some comment about some sex toy you didn’t understand, and when he tried to explain your face was burning up. Logan proceeds to smack him and drag him out of the room. There was a snikt, and a brief shriek from Wade, then quiet as they muttered back and forth. A minute later, Logan came into the room again, looking sheepish as he got a wet washcloth and said ‘don’t ask.’ Remy told you he probably stabbed Wade, and upon seeing the horrified look on your face explain Wade’s healing that the guy, honestly, liked it.

When Wade and Logan returned, Wade was wearing Logan’s school sweater.

Anyway, after that, Wade apologized and was more careful with how he spoke. He was still strange, a little gremlin at times, but an overall nice guy. You liked how much he made Logan laugh, even when he tried to pretend he was annoyed.

You liked Rogue too. She was a nice girl, sweet, and had a strength you admired. Logan loved her too, it was clear. 

And God, so did Remy.

Remy treated Rogue like a goddess, worshipping her every move and his black and red eyes following her with adoration. It made you happy to see. Remy was a good friend, a good person, and a good man; you knew he’d treat her well, and you liked seeing him happy. Maybe in a few years your baby boy would have a friend. Your hand goes to your stomach, feeling a kick. You like that idea?

Wade gasps loudly, looking at you. “Is he kicking??” Wade loved kids. Apparently, he and Vanessa had been talking about having kids. Something about naming them Cher? But that was before it went south.

“You wanna feel?”

Wade eyes lit up, but he hesitated still, blue frosting on his face. Rogue, Jubilee, and Kitty planned a surprise party for you after you let Rogue have the card saying the gender. The party was going nicely, Logan was talking to Jean about something you couldn’t hear, and Scott was scowling at them from across the room, ignoring whatever Kitty was talking about. When Jean laughed, you mirrored Scotts glare with a sad look of your own. You didn’t dislike Jean; she was nice. She had been handling your pregnancy and was nothing but kind and gentle. Still, you were only human, and she had sex with your fiance. Your eyes meet Scotts visor, his face unreadable. There was something similar in your positions.

You want to be distracted.

“C’mon, Logans busy.”

When Wade glances at the former couple, he makes a face you can’t quite decipher, then comes over to you. Taking his hand in yours, you guide him to where your son is kicking. It’s over your dress of course, but it still feels strange to have a man touching you, even with Wade being respectful.

He’s absolutely beaming. With a slight, breathy laugh, “Guard dog isn’t gonna bite my hand off, is he?”

“No, I promise.” You laugh back. After feeling the kick a few times, Wade pulls back. For all his unserious bravado, you noticed he’s particularly careful not to touch you or not touch longer than needed. Logan told you he’s secretly insecure about his skin, he thinks it freaks people out. You will admit, it took a little getting used to. Of course it did, just like Remy’s eyes or Kurt’s blue fur. But you didn’t think he was gross, and you didn’t mind his hand reaching to help you up or steading you when you trip. You were beginning to trust Wade like you trusted Remy.

“I’m glad you’re here.” You smile warmly. “You and Rogue. I like seeing Logan so happy.”

“Yeah,” Wade laughs, “He’s like a teenager finding pornhub for the first time, damn near giddy.”

You weren’t sure what pornhub was, but you could guess. “Actually, we wanted to talk to you about something… Logan feels to awkward, but we were thinking baby names-”

“Oh I love baby names! Got a fuck ton picked out. Cher was number one of course but considering Remy’s absolutely incomprehensible cajun it might get mixed up with the whole ‘chere, cherie, mon cherie’ bit,” he mocks the accent. “Might not be the best. For boys, I hope you stay away from the god awful braxtyn, brayden, etc names, but DONT fall into the trap of those grandfather names. Theres 1000 baby Henry’s right now, i can’t keep doing it-”

“Wade.”

“Yes?”

“We picked out a name already.”

“Oh.” He sounded disappointed. “Go on. But I’m warning you, I will be honest.”

You giggle, and see Logan glance over at you. He gives a warm smile, and you give a little wave before turning back to Wade. “First name is gonna be Steven.”

“Oh course, like the bible guy.”

“The ‘bible guy’ is a respected figure in the church, Wade.”

“And which church is that again? I missed that part- never mind, go on.”

You shoot the man a pointed semi-glare, but in good humor. “The biblical figure is a factor, but also Remy’s middle name is Étienne, which is a french version of Steven.”

Wade sighs dreamily. “Oh, that beautiful hunk of a man is going to absolutely adore that.”

“And for the middle name, we were thinking… Winston. Well, actually, I wanted Winston for the first name but Logan said other kids would make fun of him for having the name of a cigarette brand-” you were nearly knocked over with the hug. “Ah!”

“FUCK! I LOVE YOU GUYS SO FUCKING MUCH RIGHT NOW!” 

Logan was over between you in a second, steadying you from the force of his hug. “Watch it, bu-” Wade did actually knock over Logan this time.

“I”M SO FUCKING HARD RIGHT NOW!”

*

The rest of the party went wonderfully. You told everyone the name you had chosen, bringing Remy to tears as he hugged you.

“None of this would be possible without you, Remy.” You try not to think about ‘this’ including what Logan had done to you, but Remy didn’t know about that. Remy had gotten you guys together, and helped along the way, he was the reason you were having Stevie. 

The only thing wrong was later in the night. Wade rambled to you and Logan about how things were going to get real confusing if Stevie was a mutant, because it was already confusing enough with the amount of Steven heroes. Apparently there was a Steve Rogers, Stephan Strange, and a Steven grant already. You didn’t know what he was talking about, but you let him go off. 

Logan was not paying attention. As Wade happily rambled away, switching topics to the wedding in two months, you notice Logan clutching the beer bottle tightly and glaring hard in the corner. There stood Remy between Rogue’s legs as she sat up on the counter. Most guests had filed out by this point, leaving only you, Wade, Logan, Remy and Rogue, and then Kurt and Emma talking at the table.

*

“Oh come on.” You laugh, washing up dishes. Jubilee had promised they’d take care of the clean up in the morning but you didn’t want to leave a big mess so you and Logan were getting the worst of it done. “It’s Remy, you like him, remember? We’re naming our son after him.”

Logan was throwing all the trash away. “I like him as your friend, doll face. But he’s a whore.”

With a small gasp, you turn around. “Please don’t call my friend that, Logan.”

He softens just a bit before sighing an throwing a beer bottle in the trash. It shatters. “I’m sorry, baby, but you know it’s true. He’s slept with half the mansion.”

 “He hasn’t slept with anyone all year. You know Rogue left him heart broken.”

“She didn’t do anything to him!”

“Don’t raise your voice at me!” You point at him with a wet hand. “I’m not blaming her. I like her, and I know you’re protective of her, but don’t act like Remy beat and assaulted her.” It was a pointed remark, a little reminder that you hadn’t, in fact, forgotten. Logan’s face is angry, something that has rarely, if ever, been directly at you. It makes you nervous. You go back to the dishes. “It’s just Remy. He’ll be good to her.”

“He’s so much older than her! She’s just a kid, dolly!”

You scoff. “They have a smaller age gap than we do.”

“Don’t fucking talk back to me.”

You hated this, the way he spoke to you like you dad, like Mark did. What had happened? Why was he acting like this all of a sudden? The alcohol?

“I don’t think you get a say in what she does when you disappeared on her without a work just because Jean-”

The hit was so hard your forehead slammed into the cabinet.

Before you could even react, before you had a chance to walk through the steps that Logan had hit you, you were in his arms, sitting on the kitchen floor.

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry baby, oh my god, I didn’t mean it, I didn’t…” He stroked your hair, your body shaking a bit but too in shock to cry. 

He hit you. Logan hit you. And now your head throbbed from hitting the wood cabinet and fuck, did it ache

“It wasn’t supposed to be hard, I just wanted your attention. You know that right? I wouldn’t hurt you?”

Logan wouldn’t hurt you. Logan wouldn’t hurt you. You flash back to months ago in this very kitchen, breaking down crying to Scott that he wouldn’t, he wouldn’t… He was going to know now, he would know he hit you, Logan couldn’t hide it. Everything that you’d built together would fall apart.

The team would fall apart, people picking sides.

Surely you’d lose Rogue, Wade, and Kurt, they’d take Logan’s side.

Would you lose Remy too? Would he chose keeping Rogue over you?

Stevie would be raised without a father once Charles saw into your mind… but Logan’s voice echo’d in your head from that day. ‘Not gonna tell Charles or anyone, not when you got as wet as you did, right?’. Charles would know. He’d know you were wet, that’d you’d gotten turned on… that’d know that before, the times you and Logan kissed even way back to the dressing room incident. He’d know you told Logan you loved him… so what right did you have to call it rape?

“Holy shit, are you okay?” Bobby walked into the kitchen to see you two together, you crying in Logan’s lap.

“Yeah.” logan grumbled, an edge to his voice giving away he felt at least the slightest bit nervous. “She hit her head. Slipped on water at the sink.”

Bobby kneels down, ice frosting his hands he puts where the goose egg is forming. It feels good, like an ice pack. “I’m gonna get Jean, here-” He reached up to grab a dry rag, wets and then freezes it. 

Logan tries to protest. “No, I think she’s fine.”

But Bobby was already heading out. “I’ll bring her here.”

“Wait! Just- I’ll carry her to the med bay, meet us there.”

Bobby shouts something in confirmation, and Logan scoops you up. “Poor baby, slipping on the water…”

Your head was spinning and throbbing, trying to make sense of what was happening. Did you slip? That had to be it. That had to be it. You had to have slipped.

Your head hurt.

LOGAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNN

Come on brother

Okay, one step closer! Someone on ao3 said this series was like a puzzle, and that made me so happy bc thats what i wanted it to be.

We got one big piece now; What dolly was hiding.

The next big piece is why did Logan go from sweet, soft logan to raping her? It does not excuse him at all, in fact it might make logan look worse.

thank you so much for all your love an support!

Unfortunetly it might be a min before the next chapter. i fell behind of writing bc holidays are BUSY at olive garden!!!! I gotta get the final chapter of rooms on fire out!!! its in my triple frontier list if you are interested!!! its a cult au, lots of twists and turns.

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My Personal Favorites of 2024

(as always considering only new to me stuff, and not necessarily things that were released in 2024)

2023 - 2022 - 2021

Books (Fiction) :

1 - The Brothers Karamazov

2 - Tress of The Emerald Sea

3 - The Queen's Thief Series

4 - The Travelling Cat Chronicles

5 - The Remains of The Day

6 - Project Hail Mary

7 - The Saint of Steel Series

8 - The Idiot

9 - Barrayar

10 - Crooked House

11 - The Martian

12 - Wise Child

13 - Crime and Punishment

14 - Poor Things

15 - The Midwife's Apprentice

Books (Non-Fiction)

1 - Secondhand Time : The Last of The Soviets

2 - Entangled Life: How Fungi Make Our Worlds, Change Our Minds & Shape Our Futures

3 - Welcome to The OC : The Oral History

4 - Why We Get Sick : The New Science of Darwinian Medicine

5 - Say Nothing: A True Story of of Murder and Memory in Northern Ireland

6 - The Ancestor's Tale

7 - Every Man For Himself and God Against All

8 - SPQR : A History of Ancient Rome

9 - Thinking in Pictures : My Life With Autism

10 - Outlaw Marriages: The Hidden Histories of Fifteen Extraordinary Same-Sex Couples

11 - Kitchen Confidential: Adventures in the Culinary Underbelly

12 - The Art Thief: A True Story of Love, Crime, and a Dangerous Obsession

13 - Extinctions: How Life Survives, Adapts and Evolves

14 - Unruly: A History of England's Kings and Queens

15 - The Woman in Me

Comic Books/Mangas/Manhwas

1 - The Apothecary Diaries

2 - Shadows House

3 - Sherbet Above The Sea of Fog

4 - The Sleeping Dead

5 - Kieta Hatsukoi

6 - Smoking Behind The Supermarket With You

7 - Garlic & The Vampire/ Garlic & The Witch

8 - The Greatest Estate Developer

9 - Goodbye. Eri

10 - Erio and The Electric Doll

11 - Pumpikinheads

12 - Black Paradox

13 - Call

14 - The Depth of the Sky

15 - The Prince and The Dressmaker

Movies

1 - Becket

2 - The Remains of The Day

3 - The Night of The Hunter

4 - Dicks: The Musical

5 - Encounters at The End of The World

6 - 12 Angry Men

7 - Creep

8 - Creep 2

9 - Shiva Baby

10 - The Ghost and Mrs Muir

11 - Challengers

12 - Sarah, Plain and Tall

13 - Late Night With The Devil

14 - Anatomy of a Fall

15 - Next Goal Wins

TV Shows (Live-action)

1 - Interview With The Vampire

2 - Fallout

3 - 911

4- Ghost (US)

5 - We Are Ladyparts

6 - Abbott Elementary

7 - Game Changer

8 - Deadboy Detectives

9 - Ordeal By Innocence

10 - Extraordinary

11 - The Boys

12 - Servant

13 - The Creep Tapes

14 - Guy Montgomery's Guy Mont Spelling Bee

15 - St. Denis Medical

TV Shows (Animation)

1 - Dungeon Meshi

2 - The Apothecary Diaries

3 - Sousou no Frieren

4 - Moral Orel

5 - Shadows House

6 - Handa-Kun

7 - Dandadan

8 - Ranma 1/2

9 - Smiling Friends

10 - Jibaku Shonen Hanako-Kun

11 - Paranoia Agent

12 - Link Click

13 - Inside Job

14 - Monster

15 - Home Movies

[wonderlandgoblin]

Okay, so I don’t watch Hazbin Hotel (if I wrote it wrong, sorry) but for like weeks, the only thing I see in the asexual tag is people complaining about allos shipping ace characters in a very allo way, and it’s been annoying me to no end, because while we do have to be upset about that, the ace tag should also function in a way for us to share jokes, have fun and enjoy our identity without having to fight for our right to exist.

So I propose we do something different. Let’s annoy the aphobes. I propose that from now on, every character becomes ace/aro/aroace. No more shipping fanfics, just platonic relationships and friendships. Every fanart is now SFW and has the ace/aro/aroace flags colors.

I DEMAND A REVOLUTION!!!!

Tell me the characters you’re claiming!

My ace claimings are:

1-Luffy (any pairing with him just gives me nausea)

2-Zoro (fuck zosan, he prefers swords over anything except maybe luffy, who he has a squish on)

3-Bakugou Katsuki (I love that kid, I’m making him one of my own)

4-Sasuke (I hate that guy, but he rejected both Sakura and Naruto, that kid’s definitely aroace)

5-Yor (my queen mama prefers killing over kissing, that should be an obvious sign)

6-Yona (no one’s touching my queen, she never liked Soo-won nor Hak, it was all social pressure to not end up alone, fight me)

7-Xie Lian (I don’t like the idea of anyone touching the god I worship, so that means he’s ace now)

8-Kageyama (idk why, he just has a vibe)

9-Handa from Barakamon (I don’t think this needs explanation)

10-Fushiguro Megumi (I like him, he’s one of my own now)

11-Maomao (she prefers venoms over sex)

12-Mash from Mashle (like, look at him, that guy just wants to exercise, eat and be with his family)

13-Violet Evergarden (I don’t think I need to explain this, this girl dedicated her entire life to understanding romance as it made no sense to her, aroace queen)

14-Sokka (he’s too smart to like sex)

15-Zuko (he’s an angel, angels don’t have sex)

16-Magnus Chase AND Alex Fierro (they’re my babies, I identify too much with them, the idea of them having sex gives me the ickies)

17-Jude from the Cruel Prince (I liked her better before she fell for that stupid fairy)

18-Edmund from Narnia (he was my childhood crush, I’m making him ace)

19-Annabeth Chase (she’s too perfect to have sex)

20-Alec Lightwood (I just like imagining Magnus loosing his shit every once in a while because of it)

21-Leo Valdez (bc why not?)

22-Blue Sargent and half the women she lives with (no explanation needed)

23-Dick Gansey the Third (he prefers dead kings over sex)

24-Katniss Everdeen (if you disagree, what is wrong with you?)

25-Castiel (fuck destiel shippers, angels don’t have sex)

26-Felicity from Arrow (haven’t finished the series but as far as I know, she’s too cool for sex)

27-Barbie (she’s a doll, she has no reproductive organs, she can’t feel desire)

I could probably pick more characters but I think this is enough for now, have fun annoying the aphobes!

[queerstuffonscreen]

Pretty Little Liars (2010-2017) [I]

Episode length: 40-45 min.

Country: USA

Genre: Drama, Mystery

Language: English

Based on the Pretty Little Liars series of young adult novels by Sara Shepard, the series follows the lives of four girls — Spencer, Hanna, Aria, and Emily — whose clique falls apart after the disappearance of their queen bee, Alison. One year later, they begin receiving messages from someone using the name "A" who threatens to expose their secrets — including long-hidden ones they thought only Alison knew.

Season 1

Episode 1: Pilot

Episode 2: The Jenna Thing

Episode 3: To Kill a Mocking Girl

Episode 4: Can You Hear Me Now?

Episode 5: Reality Bites Me

Episode 6: There's No Place Like Homecoming

Episode 7: The Homecoming Hangover

Episode 8: Please, Do Talk About Me When I'm Gone

Episode 9: The Perfect Storm

Episode 10: Keep Your Friends Close

Episode 11: Moments Later

Episode 12: Salt Meets Wound

Episode 13: Know Your Frenemies

Episode 14: Careful What U Wish 4

Episode 15: If at First You Don't Succeed, Lie, Lie Again

Episode 16: Je Suis Une Amie

Episode 17: The New Normal

Episode 18: The Bad Seed

Episode 19: A Person of Interest

Episode 20: Someone to Watch Over Me

Episode 21: Monsters in the End

Episode 22: For Whom the Bell Tolls

Season 2

Episode 1: It's Alive

Episode 2: The Goodbye Look

Episode 3: My Name Is Trouble

Episode 4: Blind Dates

Episode 5: The Devil You Know

Episode 6: Never Letting Go

Episode 7: Surface Tension

Episode 8: Save the Date

Episode 9: Picture This

Episode 10: Touched by an A-ngel

Episode 11: I Must Confess

Episode 12: Over My Dead Body

Episode 13: The First Secret

Episode 14: Through Many Dangers, Toils and Snares

Episode 15: A Hot Piece of 'A'

Episode 16: Let the Water Hold Me Down

Episode 17: Blond Leading the Blind

Episode 18: A Kiss Before Lying

Episode 19: The Naked Truth

Episode 20: CTRL:A

Episode 21: Breaking the Code

Episode 22: Father Knows Best

Episode 23: Eye of the Beholder

Episode 24: If These Dolls Could Talk

Episode 25: UnmAsked

Season 3

Episode 1: It Happened 'That Night'

Episode 2: Blood is the New Black

Episode 3:��Kingdom of the Blind

Episode 4: Birds of a Feather

Episode 5: That Girl Is Poison

Episode 6: The Remains of the 'A'

Episode 7: Crazy

Episode 8: Stolen Kisses

Episode 9: The Kahn Game

Episode 10: What Lies Beneath

Episode 11: Single Fright Female

Episode 12: The Lady Killer

Episode 13: This is a Dark Ride

Episode 14: She's Better Now

Episode 15: Mona Mania

Episode 16: Misery Loves Company

Episode 17: Out of the Frying Pan, Into the Inferno

Episode 18: Dead to Me

Episode 19: What Becomes of the Broken Hearted

Episode 20: Hot Water

Episode 21: Out of Sight, Out of Mind

Episode 22: Will the Circle Be Unbroken?

Episode 23: I'm Your Puppet

Episode 24: A DAngerous GAme

Season 4

Episode 1: 'A' is for A-l-i-v-e

Episode 2: Turn of the Shoe

Episode 3: Cat's Cradle

Episode 4: Face Time

Episode 5: Gamma Zeta Die!

Episode 6: Under the Gun

Episode 7: Crash and Burn, Girl!

Episode 8: The Guilty Girl's Handbook

Episode 9: Into the Deep

Episode 10: The Mirror Has Three Faces

Episode 11: Bring Down the Hoe

Episode 12: Now You See Me, Now You Don't

Episode 13: Grave New World

Episode 14: Who's in the Box?

Episode 15: Love ShAck, Baby

Episode 16: Close Encounters

Episode 17: Bite Your Tongue

Episode 18: Hot for Teacher

Episode 19: Shadow Play

Episode 20: Free Fall

Episode 21: She's Come Undone

Episode 22: Cover for Me

Episode 23: Unbridled

Episode 24: 'A' is for Answers

Watch on HBO Max or Hulu

See Pretty Little Liars post II season 5-7

[neodracunyan]

Danganronpa: The Ultimate Student - Prologue

Location: Y/n's House - Uptown Creation City

Date: July 14, 2022

Time: 9:30 PM

Y/n's POV

Hello there. My name is Y/n L/n and I live in Uptown Creation City, living by myself, far away from my awful parents and I...am a diehard fan of Danganronpa.

Yes, I am talking about the adventure, visual novel, detective and dating simulation type of game known as Danganronpa. I have every video game, manga books, figurines and every single piece of Danganronpa merchandise known to man and it was all worth the trouble of collecting everything that is based on my favorite anime.

My most favorite character in the series was the cute, but very dangerous and cunning black and white bi-sided bear known as Monokuma as he takes the role as the Hope's Peak Academy's own principal and used many tactics to manipulate the Ultimate Students in killing each other through murder, despite most of the students refusing to murder each other in order to escape the school turned prison through graduation.

All of that was caused by the students that have fallen into despair...

The point of the game is when a dead body student is found around school grounds, the other students have to figure out who is the 'blackened' and if they find the culprit correct, the murderer will receive the death penalty of Monokuma's brand of executions, but if they get the wrong culprit, all of the students except for the real culprit will all be punished, leaving the murderer to get away with murder and graduate.

I played all of the Danganronpa games 27 times and I know all the characters that killed the other students in each game.

The only thing I hate about the series was Junko Hiroshima, not because that she a dranged lunatic like she always does with a passion for murder, mayhem and despair, its just that she uses Monokuma for her own entertainment and used the whole scenario of seeing the students murder each other for a TV Show, which explains about all the cameras all around the school that is recording everything that has happened during the events of the game.

I always thought of Monokuma as a sentient being like a Very Powerful AI controlling the bear and I never saw him as either a puppet or a high-tech build-a-bear reject.

If I was in that game, I would prove to Monokuma that I would be his most favorite student and beat Junko at her own game.

If I had an Ultimate Talent, I would be known as the Ultimate Student. It doesn't matter what kind of special talent that I have that makes me an Ultimate Student, I have any Ultimate Talent that will get me into Hope's Peak Academy.

However, that will never happen because all of that stuff from the series is all made believe and not real. It's all part of reality and you just have to deal with it and move on.

I understand that none of the events of the game ever actually happened in real life, but I would love to see myself in that universe and meet the entire cast of the Danganronpa franchise as well as Monokuma himself.

But then again, that's part of reality and you can't make it happen like you're some sort of God or have the ability to travel through different dimensions.

We can't always get what we want in our lives. It's all part of our lives...

But that's ok, I can always just imagine myself being inside all of those games I played, the manga I read or even replay with the figurines and plush dolls I have of the characters.

I even wrote my own Danganronpa AU fanfiction and I would post it online, but I didn't want anyone thinking that I'm super obsessed with Danganronpa and might end up like Junko herself.

So, anyways you all wondered what's going to happen next in this story. Well, as I was getting ready for bed because I have work tomorrow morning and I gotta get some sleep to get to work on time.

The very moment that I got in the covers of my Monokuma bed sheets, I turned off the lights and went to sleep before I said something to myself before I went out like a candle.

Y/n: I wish I was a part of the Danganronpa universe as the Ultimate Student at Hope's Peak Academy...zzzzzzzz

Those words that came out of my month sent a message to the cosmic being of the multiverse that heard my cries for help as the God's Creation got the message and decided to grant my wish that will change my life forever.

Creation: I can fully understand your desires to be the Ultimate Student in the world of Danganronpa and I shall grant your wish. The moment you wake up from your slumber, you will find yourself in a dorm room at Hope's Peak Academy, but you will not remember everything from your past life once you arrive at the Academy as your new life. However, your vast knowledge of this series will be your greatest weapon in surviving through the world filled with nothing but Hope and Despair as you will be known as Y/n L/n aka The Ultimate Student.

With the cosmic power of the Multiverse, he transported me to the Danganronpa Universe as my life as the Ultimate Student at Hope's Peak Academy is finally coming true as I was blessed by the creative power of the God's Creation.

As I was being sent to the Danganronpa universe, Creation was about to head back to his realm, only to stop for a moment to say a few words before leaving back to his lair.

Creation: Oh, I also added a special surprise once you meet this "Monokuma" that I heard so much about. A very interesting creature to be a highly advanced AI in a high tech build-a-bear reject that is the balance between Hope and Despair. He's gonna be so surprised to see an uninvited guest inside the school and once meets the Ultimate Student for the first time, his reaction is absolutely "Unbearable". (Chuckles) I crack myself up. (Looks around in my room to see my entire Danganronpa collection) Nice collection by the way, Y/n. I better get all of your Danganronpa merchandise to a safe place in my dimension, where no one will ever try to steal them.

He then used his powers to put my entire Danganronpa collection in a safe place where no one will ever find it and he soon went back to his own dimension while I'm being sent to the world of Danganronpa to start my life as The Ultimate Student.

This was going to be the adventure of my entire life, but I must be on high alert as I'm about to enter Monokuma territory and things will soon fall into despair once the games of murder and trail begin at Hope's Peak Academy.

Meanwhile in an Alternate Universe...

No POV

Inside the principal's office at Hope's Peak Academy, a familiar looking bi-sided black and white bear was sitting at his desk, relaxing and drinking a glass of wine when he suddenly heard something from a few dimensions away that insulted him when Creation made a joke about him that his reaction about a new student arriving here at the academy uninvited would be "un-bear-able" to him and he did not like that at all.

Monokuma: (Growls) Why do I suddenly hear someone make fun of me with bear puns and I don't remember having an extra student coming to this school, uninvited. Eh, no matter. More students, means more fun ways to bring despair and murder to amuse me. Yet, I'm still deeply offended by whoever made fun of me and it wasn't bear-y nice at all.

END OF PROLOGUE

TO BE CONTINUED IN EPISODE 01

[grimgrinninggoth]

I LOVE DOING THESE SORTS OF THINGS OH MY GOLLY :3

Here r my answers :>

•Vincent Vaude was my first LDD but I did get Lamenta in the same week as him. I got them about a year and a half ago.

•I found out about them from scrolling on eBay. I was trying to collect BeGoth dolls at the time but I came accross a living dead doll and thought that they were so much cuter as well as cheaper.

•I have two favorites because i genuinely can’t choose. Ernest Lee rotten is my favorite boy and Morgana is my favorite girl. I display them together on my special spider shelf.

• My dream doll was Morgana for a long time, but now that I have her it’s probably Gregory from series 14. He was released around when I was born and we have the same name.

• the lost. She was sealed in box and was like 120 I’m p sure.

• Larmés de Sang. She was 10 dollars and in rlly great condition

•probably Angus Littlrot. He’s so cute. I actually got him because I ship him with another doll that I have, but he’s very adorable on his own.

•I hate Tina pink actually. Her design is so plain and I just don’t like it at all. Something just looks really off about her face too. And mine’s hair falls out every time I move her, so I prefer to not touch her.

• I do own quite a few rare ones. Morgana, the lost, and greed have rlly shot up in price. They were my most expensive dolls.

•ooooohhhhhh I actually have quite a few ships for the LDDs. A few of them are

Hook x Unwilling donor

Morgana x Ernest Lee Rotten

Sadie x Sin

Gluttony x Lust

The Lost x Angus Littlrot

Rose x Violet

Evangeline x Vincent Vaude

And prob a lot more these r just the ones I remember lols

• I personally display them out of box because if I’m gonna have them, then I need to pick them up and play with them.

• honest, I don’t really care about wether or not the doll comes with the box. However, if they don’t have all of their accessories then it’s a dealbreaker.

• all of my dolls are in really good condition. I usually only buy them if they’re in decent shape.

•I currently own 10. 7 girls, 3 boys.

• I think the ‘presents’ dolls are really hit or miss for me. I just really think that they need to start making the series again, and not just putting out these.

• I have quite a few that id wanna see.

Phantom/Erik and Christine Daee

Candyman

Dr. Franknfurter

A set of hitchhiking ghosts

Jekyll and Hyde

Emily and Victor

• I think they look kind of weird. I’m not really a fan of the big heads and glass eyes. Also might be a bit of a hot take but they’re lowkey overpriced too.

• I’d really like to see Morgana and Greed get resurrections. I think they should start making those again.

• I don’t like Dee K. I think that she looks like this emoji 🤓☝️. I don’t like that ugly little scarecrow whose name i forgot either.

•No. But I really want to. Every time I go to the thrift I have my eyes peeled for them.

•Angus, Wolfgang, Evangeline, Ernest, and Vincent are my underrated babies who I love so much. I think that they deserve more attention, cus I barely see people talk about them. I also think maggot is really really overrated. Like she’s cute I guess, but no damn way I’m paying 300 dollars for her.

•I’m excellent at remembering names. Especially of the ones that I have.

•yes! I do make lore for them. When I do I usually try to expand their already existing lore, and connect it with other dolls.

• yes, I do take pics of them.

•my sister really likes them, and so do most of my friends. My mom says that they’re ’creepily adorable’. I do have a friend that is scared if them though.

•I brought Angus and The Lost on vacation with me once and I took them out in the airport.

•about a year and a half

•they are the main dolls i collect. I do have a few funko pops and a monster high. I collect mostly living dead dolls and haunted mansion memorabilia.

•just a few days ago. Morgana is the most recent edition to my collection.

•no not really. I just get the ones I like.

• if I had the power to change anything about LDDs, it’d have to be the existence of the doll Dahlia. She’s based off the infamous Black Dahlia case, I I think that it’s just really fucked up and not ok how an actual real life human who was murdered got turned into a Knick Knack.

•yes I am alternative, goth to be specific

I’m bored so here’s a list of questions for Living Dead Dolls collectors bc there’s not too much LDD content on here 🥲 (you don’t have to answer all of these!! Just answer whatever you want!)

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•First Living Dead Doll?

•How did you first learn of LDDS?

•Favorite LDD you own?

•Your dream LDD?

•Which LDD did you pay the most for?

•Which LDD did you pay the least for?

•Is there a doll you ended up liking a lot more than you initially thought you would?

•Is there a LDD you regret getting?

•Do you own a rare LDD or one that has shot up in price?

•Do you pair up any dolls in your mind? (Shipping or otherwise)

•Do you display them in box or out of box?

•If you buy them second hand do they have to come with the box, death certificate, and accessories? Or are you fine with just the doll?

•Own any in bad condition? Have any that came second hand that you had to fix up?

•How many LDDs do you own?

•Opinion on the ‘Presents’ dolls?

•Do you have any characters you’d like to see as a LDD one day?

•Opinion on the new LDDS that can bend their arms and legs?

•Which doll(s) would you like to see get a resurrection?

•Least favorite LDD you’ve seen?

•Have you seen LDDs for sale irl?

•Is there a doll that is generally unpopular that you love? Is there a popular doll you don’t get the hype for?

•Are you good at remembering their names without looking at the chipboards/etc?

•Do you make up lore for them? Or do you not think of that kinda stuff/are fine with their poems being their only ‘lore’?

•Do you take pictures of them?

•What do the people around you irl think of them?

•Have you ever taken one or more with you in public?

•How long have you been in the fandom?

•What other dolls do you collect along with them?

•When did you last buy a LDD?

•Do you notice any common themes in the LDDS you collect? (For example maybe you collect mostly the boy dolls or ones that are more on the goth side)

•Is there anything you’d change about LDDS if you could? Is there anything you wish the people behind LDDS would do differently?

•Do you urself dress alternatively? (Asking this because LDDs tend to attract the goth crowd 🦇)

[teatime-tangents-and-toys]

She's hiding...

When reviewing and photographing Living Dead Dolls Series 14 character Alison Crux, her mournful vintage look and her story as a guide for the dead led me to photograph her in the manner of old "when you see it" paranormal pictures, keeping her oblique and hidden and out of the way for scary effect. I got the feeling she wouldn't be an entity that was easy to photograph at all, let alone directly. Read her review (and get a better look at the doll!) in my sixth LDD roundup trio here.

[holylulusworld]

The hammer - Prologue

Title: The hammer - Prologue

Summary: Thor is not the alpha you would accept in your life. He’s also not the kind of alpha settling down. What happens when your worlds collide...

Prompt filled for @writersmonth​​​​: Day 14 - word: wild

Square filled for @afgomegaversebingo​​​: Omega!Loki

Pairing: Alpha(Biker)!Thor Odinson x Omega!Reader; former Alpha!Fandral x Omega!Reader

Warnings: angst, a/b/o, language, awful boyfriend, pack dynamics, Thor being a douche, a/b/o dynamics

Words: 900+

A/N: Well, Thor won the voting poll. So, you will get the first chapter of my grumpy biker Thor series today.

The hammer masterlist

AFG Omegaverse Bingo masterlist

Divider by @firefly-graphics​

“You will spend the night with Thor at the clubhouse,” your boyfriend points at the tall blonde alpha leaning against a wall at your living room. Thor is nursing the beer you bought for Fandral, not the pack of bikers invading your place. “He likes your scent. This is my chance to join the pack.”

“What I…what?” you turn your head to look at Fandral. You’re a pair for around two months and didn’t even have sex yet. Now he wants you to spend the night with his biker buddy. “What do you mean? Does he need help? Did he get hurt?”

“Uh-he doesn’t need your help as a nurse,” your boyfriend clears his throat. “You see, there is this rule. We always share our new girl with the pack.”

“WHAT THE FUCK!” the room falls silent as your yell loud enough to wake the dead. “What did you piece of shit just say? Do you want me to bang the pack? Is that the reason you wanted to go out with me, not Sif?”

“Uh-“ Fandral drops his gaze. He tries to not give away he only asked you out to have a girl for the pack. “It’s the law, Y/N. Please do this for me.”

“Do this for you—” hands on your hips you take a deep breath. “Did you hit your head too hard when you landed on your ass last week? Cause, you can't even drive a bike like a man. Now you offer me to your buddies? Seriously? I wanted to be loved by one man, not used by a dozen of guys.”

“Y/N, he got this all wrong,” Steve tries to calm you, a beyond angry omega. “You see that rule is not…uh...you know… We don’t really do this anymore. Our grandfathers believed sharing your mate strengthens the bond among the pack. We don’t.”

“Apparently this weak little pup believes he can pass me around. He doesn't even let anyone else drive his bike but wants all of you to have a turn with me,” you sneer. “I want all of you out of my house. Now-“ 

“Doll, let me handle this,” Bucky steps in. “We are not like that. Fandral got this wrong. Yes, we have rules and rituals, but not this kind of shit. No one should treat a girl like that.”

“I said, leave my house. All of you,” you glare at the brunette. “I didn’t invite you over. This is my home, not Fandral’s. So, if you would kindly piss off now.”

“What’s the problem here,” Thor made his way toward you and Bucky. He mutters under his breath, not missing you sneer at him. “Little one, bring me another beer. This one is empty.” He drops the bottle to the ground, smirking as you glare up at him. 

Thor is much taller than you. Well, almost all of them are, but you won’t back down. “I said, get the fuck out of my house, you ruffian.”

“Ruffian?” the tall alpha chuckles darkly. “That’s a new one. Loki did ya hear? Little one here called me ruffian. She’s a wild little kitten. But not the smartest.” Thor smirks down at you. “A smart and good omega knows when to shut her mouth.”

“You are a ruffian, brother,” Loki shrugs. He is busy burying his nose into one of your books, ignoring that everyone else at the party is busy drinking and making out. “A cretin when it comes to art and the beauty of anything beyond your bike, I may add.”

“What’s that supposed to mean?” you giggle as Loki slowly closes the book. He scrunches up his nose, not wanting to get involved in one of his brother’s fights. “Loki, stop wasting my time.”

“It means that you shouldn’t allow Fandral to offer his girlfriend to you. And it means you shouldn’t invade Y/N’s home to party at her house. We are bikers. This doesn’t mean we have no manners.”

“Well then,” Thor glares at his brother, “we should leave this place and never come back. It’s not that this omega is of any interest to me or our pack.” You flinch at his harsh tone. “Let’s ride. From now on, this place is a forbidden place to any of you. If anyone breaks this rule, they will be permanently banned from the pack.”

“You think this is punishment,” you rise to your full height and huff. “I will gladly live my life without a pack of alphas storming into my home and eating all my food while they put their stink on my furniture. Especially their leader.”

“Careful now, little one,” the blonde alpha threatens. “I’ll…”

“You will what, Thor Odinson. The blonde hammer,” Loki watches with amusement as you size his brother up. “Get out of my house.”

“Get out of my sight, little omega. Or else…”

“May I disturb your little fight?” Loki gets up from his seat to waltz toward you and his brother. “I need to correct you, darling. I’m not an alpha.” You huff at the raven-haired man’s words. “I’m an omega. A tall and good-looking one I may add.”

“Brother,” Thor grunts, “let’s go. I can’t stand that omega’s stink any longer.” You sniffle as Thor turns his back on you to waltz out of your home. Hurt you turn away from the pack. No alpha ever told you that your scent is unpleasant.

“You shouldn’t take his words to heart,” pushing the book he read into your hands Loki gives you an apologetic smile. “He’s an instinct-driven alpha. Sometimes, they can’t think straight. I’ll talk to him…”

“Why?” you frown as Loki turns to leave. “I don’t want to see him again!”

“Just tell this to yourself,” frowning at Loki’s words you watch him leave your home. He turns around, smirking as you press the book to your heart. “I’ll be back to finish the book, darling.”

>> Part 1

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Re: Ruby

I’m just not sure I’d make the argument that the text of the Companion frames either the recurring motif of black women dying by fire as a conscious curse on Morpheus’ part or Ruby’s death specifically as Morpheus’ fault.  Thumbing it over again, the only two parts I can find that specifically discuss Ruby as part of that motif are:

Neil Gaiman: ...And I’m Glad Michael [Zulli] likes Gwen. I wanted to show that the whole Nada thing was done, and Gwen seemed a nice way to do that.

Hy Bender: You’re referring to the series’ recurring image of a young black woman burning to death.

NG: Right. After the awful deaths of Nada, Ruby, and Carla, we have another young black woman in the person of Gwen - and nothing bad happens to her at all.  That’s important, because it shows that with the Sandman’s passing, the pattern has been broken.

(Chapter 12 on The Wake, under the header “The Renaissance Festival,” page 221 of my edition)

And:

HB: You also repeat certain events. One centers around young black women burning, which starts with Nada’s city being consumed by a fireball on page 17 of The Doll’s House story “Tales in the Sand.” It continues with Ruby who chauffeurs the Sandman and Delirium around the waking world in Brief Lives; on pages 22 and 23 of chapter 4, Ruby dies in a hotel fire resulting from her smoking in bed. And it happens a third time in The Kindly Ones via Lyta Hall’s friend Carla, who Loki incinerates in her car on page 24 of part 5.

NG: I even refer to that pattern in part 8 of The Kindly Ones, when the Corinthian consumes Ruby’s dead eyes so he can find out who killed her... [and then he quotes directly from the scene]

(Chapter 14 on “Music, Poetry, and Patterns,” under the header “Repeating Patterns,” page 255 of my edition.)

The first of which ties the event to Dream insofar as Ruby and Carla’s deaths are reflections of Nada’s own suffering, but doesn’t employ any language so forceful as something to the effect of, “This happened because Dream willed it so.”  In combination with the second discussion, which is stronger on acknowledgement of the repetition as a narrative motif rather than the result of direct character action, I’d make the argument Gaiman means to advance an interpretation that the three deaths are the sorts of wrinkles in the fabric of reality Delirium mentions in The Kindly Ones part 8, rather than some kind of curse.

Doesn’t, of course, make Gaiman’s inclusion of that motif any less Iffy or Uncomfortable, as I’m not of the opinion it does much for the story unless you approach it from a particular angle.  Dream and Nada’s animosity is long buried and resolved by the time another black woman dies by fire in the series, and considering the stress of wrapping up so popular a series and the regular schedule slips during the climax (a lot of TKO came out every two months as opposed to the usual monthly schedule), I could easily see it as less something Gaiman consciously seeded throughout and more something he noticed with Carla’s death and opted to call attention to as a writer’s block-staving additional layer of complexity in a story that’s already weaving complex mirroring patterns to itself and the larger narrative.  Unless you take my preferred tact of viewing it as a consequence of Dream’s backslide into self-loathing and depression following Orpheus’ death, the universe drawing links where reasonably none ought exist, it’s basically a “oh, huh, I guess” kind of detail, lacking in much obvious function.  But it is, I find, more incidental than anything else.

(There’s also an argument to be made that Dream IS somewhat responsible for Ruby’s death: though it is consequent from their triggering Destruction’s alarm systems, Dream is shown to know Destruction has hidden himself very well behind such systems that will wreck havoc on those mortals and near-immortals caught in them.  He also openly admits he only took on the quest for Destruction to distract himself from Thessaly’s breakup, effectively playing with his sister’s hopes and people’s lives to keep himself occupied during a rough patch.  This is something meant to be atoned when Death kicks him in the tuchus and makes him apologize for what a dickhead he’s acted, but it does mean he likely knew Ruby was at high risk of death when Pharamond assigned her as their driver.  Hardly anything I’d blame him for directly causing, just another demonstration that Dream can be impossibly callous when he’s not making himself practice consideration for others.)

Re: Jed

I THINK I’ve got the right quote here, and if I do, I THINK I don’t mind openly saying it’s possible you’ve misread what Bender means by implication.

Nor does Jed fare much better.  Although the Sandman makes a point of punishing Brute and Glob, he doesn’t lift a finger to help their young victim, imprisoned for years in a basement (a situation that Dream should empathize with). Instead, Jed is simply left to wander away from the wreckage - and to be picked up shortly by the third escaped dream, the Corinthian.

(Chapter 4 on The Doll’s House from the opening plot summary, page 43 in my edition.)

Which like... I’m pretty sure he’s not blaming Morpheus for Jed winding up with shitty foster parents in the first place?  Assuming the events of the 70s series remain canon (which I think they do, based on Rose’s notes regarding Jed’s history and disappearance in issue 11), there’s not much Dream coulda done about Jed’s grandpa dying at sea in a storm and the state dumping him with dubiously qualified guardians.  It’s just that situation was heavily compromised by a couple of nightmares squatting in his brain, isolating his dreams from the larger Dreaming, sticking a succession of half-mad men convinced they’re superheroes in there with him, just for the sake of feeling like they have a little power.  He’s victimized by Brute and Glob, Morpheus’ punishment of casting them into darkness and tearing down their pseudo-Dreaming has the side effect of blowing the house to kingdom come and reducing Barnaby ‘n’ Clarice to wallpaper paste, and with Jed somehow still alive after that, Dream...

...focuses on Hector and Lyta to banish one from the mortal plane and tell the other her baby’s his, and then sods off to England to have a drink with Hob.

And it’s uh... Morpheus?  Murphy?  Dream?  I know this is all important business to you, but there’s a kid upstairs?  A kid you just rendered homeless via a massive explosion?  Kid who was in a similar kind of shit situation to the one you spend a couple decades enduring?  Wanna maybe look upstairs, offer him a hand, exercise a little of that compassion and understanding you’re building up as a function of doing your job like your sister told you ought do?  No? Alright...

Basically I think you’ve got the attribution backwards.  Bender condemns Morpheus for leaving Jed unattended to wander into the Corinthian’s grasp AFTER Jed is reconnected with the larger Dreaming as result of Morpheus destroying the false Dreaming, not BEFORE when Morpheus has no reasonable means to know Jed’s predicament exists.  Personally, I can’t much disagree - it’s an effective demonstration of how Morpheus exhibits shitty behavior thanks to his self-interest and blindness to the needs of mortals.

Re: The Goth Thing

Yeah.  Yeah.  No argument.  That does clunk somethin’ bad.

Didn't the SC say everything was Dream's fault though even the things his siblings did and since NG still recommends it we have to assume it's canon. I don't like the thought because it contradicts canon way too much and Dream should not be blamed for his siblings behavior at least imo and of course people can disagree.

I'm not sure I'd go so far as to say it blames Dream for everything, but it certainly does blame Dream for several things he didn't do. The one I've discussed most so far is Ruby's death in Brief Lives, which in the text was clearly caused by Destruction's "alarm system" meant to prevent his family from finding him, but which The Sandman Companion attributes to the aftereffects of Dream having cursed Nada all those centuries ago.

Another one that it blames Dream for, which I also HIGHLY disagree with, is Jed's foster home situation. Part of its analysis frames Dream as a hypocrite for not assisting Jed more with escaping a situation very similar to the one Dream himself just escaped... which ignores the obvious fact that Jed had been cut off from the Dreaming. Dream had no way of knowing the extent of Jed's situation! That seems like a really clear thing we couldn't blame Dream about!

As for Neil Gaiman still recommending the book/if it should be taken as canon. Hm. How can I put this. I don't think we necessarily have to take everything the author says as official unchangeable canon. If it isn't in the text-text, I personally consider it "more like guidelines, anyway," sometimes for my own sanity/continued ability to enjoy a text (and that's certainly the case for some of it here). I'm a big fan of deciding what literature means for yourself. Sure, some things may have been his intent, but what he intended and what actually came out of it can be two very different things. That goes for any author.

And it is exacerbated by the passage of time. The Sandman quite literally wasn't written for the readers of today, so as this different audience we'll get something different from it than either the original audience or the author's intent.

Plus, we don't know the last time Neil himself checked up on what he wrote in the guidebook from nearly 25 years ago, and even in 1999 the guidebook was looking back at/reconstructing his thought process on the writing of the series from 1989 onwards. He might have been guessing what he meant at the time, or applying things after the fact. If he read it now, he might go "wow, what was I thinking saying that?" We just don't know. He might just recall "hey I wrote that guidebook a while back, that might help new readers" when he recommends it. It's especially glaring to me that The Sandman Companion itself is obviously from a very different time--part of the introduction feels the need to explain what "goth" is, and goes "wow, have you heard that comic books can be taken seriously now?"!

So yeah, The Sandman Companion can blame Dream for a lot of things he didn't do, but I also think The Sandman Companion can be wrong. And, ultimately, it is up to the individual reader to decide which pieces in which ways are correct or not.

[homemadechickfilasauce]

Movies I could rewatch every week in no particular order

1. The Loft (2014)

For five men (Karl Urban, James Marsden, Wentworth Miller, Eric Stonestreet, Matthias Schoenaerts), the opportunity to share a penthouse in the city -- in which to carry on extramarital affairs -- is a dream come true, until the dead body of an unknown woman turns up. Realizing that her killer must be one of their group, the men are gripped by paranoia as each one suspects another. Friendships are tested, loyalties are questioned, and marriages crumble while fear and suspicion run rampant.

2. Donnie Darko (2001)

After narrowly escaping a bizarre accident, a troubled teenager is plagued by visions of a man in a large rabbit suit who manipulates him to commit a series of crimes.

3. The Boy (2016)

A young American named Greta (Lauren Cohan) takes a job as a nanny for an 8-year-old boy in a remote English village. To her surprise, Greta learns that the child of her new employers is a life-size doll. They care for the doll as if it was human, which helps the couple to cope with the death of their own son 20 years earlier. When Greta violates a list of strict rules, a series of disturbing and inexplicable events bring her worst fears to life, leading her to believe that the doll is alive.

4. The Lovely Bones (2009)

After being brutally murdered, 14-year-old Susie Salmon (Saoirse Ronan) watches from heaven over her grief-stricken family (Mark Wahlberg, Rachel Weisz) -- and her killer (Stanley Tucci). As she observes their daily lives, she must balance her thirst for revenge with her desire for her family to heal.

5. The Strangers: Prey at Night (2018)

Mike and his wife Cindy take their son and daughter on a road trip that becomes their worst nightmare. The family members soon find themselves in a desperate fight for survival when they arrive at a secluded mobile home park that's mysteriously deserted -- until three masked psychopaths show up to satisfy their thirst for blood.

6. Me Before You (2016)

Young and quirky Louisa "Lou" Clark (Emilia Clarke) moves from one job to the next to help her family make ends meet. Her cheerful attitude is put to the test when she becomes a caregiver for Will Traynor (Sam Claflin), a wealthy young banker left paralyzed from an accident two years earlier. Will's cynical outlook starts to change when Louisa shows him that life is worth living. As their bond deepens, their lives and hearts change in ways neither one could have imagined.

7. Monster House (2006)

No adults believe three youths' (Mitchel Musso, Spencer Locke, Sam Lerner) assertion that a neighboring residence is a living creature that means them harm. With Halloween approaching, the trio must find a way to destroy the structure before innocent trick-or-treaters meet ghastly ends.

8. What Happened To Monday (2017)

In a world where families are allowed only one child due to overpopulation, resourceful identical septuplets must avoid governmental execution and dangerous infighting while investigating the disappearance of one of their own.

8. Father Of The Year (2018)

When a drunken debate between two college graduates about whose father would win in a fight is taken seriously by their dads, jobs are lost, relationships ruined, and best friends come of age as they come to grips with the identity of their fathers.

9. The Last Song (2010)

Unruly New York teen Ronnie Miller is angered to learn that she and younger brother Jonah are being sent to stay with their father for the summer. The talented young pianist is already grappling with her mother over her refusal to attend the prestigious Juilliard music school, and is in no mood to spend the holidays away from her friends in a small Southern beach town.

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Twisted 14 - Sinking Deeper [Spencer Reid x Reader]

A.N.: Thank you so much for your wonderful support my loves! Here’s the next chapter, I hope you will like it as well, and please let me know what you think of it! ❤❤ Ily, kisses! ❤❤❤ 

Ps: Special thanks to Bea for helping me!

Series Masterlist

Warnings: Murder, serial killers, violence, manipulation, mentions of sex, drinking, smoking.

Word Count: 4180

Summary: Not every night is for sleeping.

All things considered, you were sure that you were supposed to be more stressed out than you were right now. The FBI still had nothing on the copycat killer that had sent you flowers, or any of the others that were running wild all over the country. BAU was working nonstop because there was more and more pressure coming from the supervisors and higher ups, and Spencer had told you something about the profile evolving but hadn’t gotten into details.

Not that you would ever ask him to, what you heard was more than enough.

Despite all that, whenever you were with him, you managed to feel almost…peaceful. It was so unfamiliar to you that it had taken you a moment to acknowledge what it was.

Happiness. Pure happiness, enough to get rid of the mind-numbing panic and worries about the future.

Or, as your sister had so eloquently put it, you were so, so screwed.

You took a sip of your mimosa, texting Spencer under the table, barely aware of the conversation taking place but you had to look up when you heard your name being called.

“Would you want to, Y/N?” your mother asked and you frowned.

“Hm?” you asked, your eyes stopping on Lily playing with her dolls by the corner of the huge living room before you looked at Mina and Kenzie, “Sorry, what were we talking about?”

“There’s this opera—“

“Nope,” you shook your head fervently, “No way. It’s Mina’s turn.”

Mina let out a whine, “I hate you so much right now.”

“She has a point,” your mother pointed at Mina, “Your sister was the one who came to the charity ball, you can come to this one.”

Mina heaved a sigh while Kenzie reached out to hold her hand.

“Babe come on, it could be fun.”

“Exactly!” your mother said, “Thank you, Kenzie. Besides, Nolan is coming as well, so we will be two couples there. Y/N, of course if you want you can bring Spencer—“

“I’m not exaggerating when I say I’d rather spend an hour in my serial killer father’s cell with Spencer.”

Your mother rolled her eyes and Mina tilted her head.

“Nolan Yates is coming too?” she asked, pinching the bridge of her nose, “I’m spending a whole night with the boss of my boss?”

“You two should get to know each other!” Your mother said, “Besides, there’s no harm in telling your bosses that you should become a partner already—“

“Mom,” Mina cut her off, “We talked about this. I will earn that position by myself, not because of anyone’s influence. Including yours.”

Your mother sipped her drink, “It’s as if you like struggling, Mina.”

Kenzie looked between them and smiled brightly, trying to diffuse the situation. “I’m actually pretty curious about him,” she said, “Since you’re a couple now, I just need to see what kind of a person he is.”

“There’s nothing to see, babe.” Mina murmured, “The guy looks like he spends millions alone on his beard care and wears bowties to bed.”

“Yeah but bowties are cool,” you grinned and a silence fell upon the table.

“I will get back to you sleeping with my boss’ boss in a minute mom but—“ Mina cleared her throat and turned to you, “I’m sorry, was that a Doctor Who reference?”

“Yeah,” you nodded, “I started watching it because Spencer likes it so much. It’s actually pretty fun, he said we could go to Sonic-Con next year if I want.”

“Comic-Con.” Kenzie corrected you helpfully and Mina blinked a couple of times.

“Jesus Christ.”

“I don’t get it,” Kenzie said, “I told you to watch it with me and you said, and I quote It has like one billion episodes Kenz, I don’t have time for that.”

Mina stole a look at Lily to make sure she couldn’t hear you before she turned to Kenzie, “Yeah, the difference is that you weren’t dicking her down.”

“Nobody is dicking me down!” you whispered, and your mother gasped, putting her mimosa glass down.

“Girls, not at the breakfast table!” she insisted, “Not that this kind of language is acceptable anywhere…”

“Yeah Mina, leave her alone,” Kenzie said, “I think it’s sweet.”

“What’s next? You will want to get a doctorate as well because he likes them so much?”

“That wouldn’t be so bad,” your mother mused out loud, “Y/N, I know the lovely dean of—“

“No!” you pointed at them, “No to both of you. And thank you Kenzie.”

Before your mother could say anything, Lily ran to you to climb into your lap.

“Hi there bug.”

“Can we play after brunch?” she looked up at you, making you smile at her before you pinched her chubby cheek, making her giggle.

“Of course,” you said, “Dibs on green unicorn.”

“I like pink better,” she nicked a piece of cheese from your plate, “Are you talking about your prince?”

Mina smiled into her glass, “Something like that sweetheart.”

“Lily, why don’t you ask auntie what you asked me the other day?” Kenzie told her and Lily nodded fervently.

“Can I wear pink on your wedding?”

“Whoa-“ you cleared your throat, “Lily, baby, there’s no wedding.”

Kenzie and your mother grinned at each other and turned to you and Lily but she looked as if she was confused.

“But if he’s your prince…” she trailed off and Kenzie cleared her throat.

“I would like to come up with a tamer version of that question,” she said, “When do we get to meet him?”

“Mom and Mina already have,” you said but your mother shook her head.

“That doesn’t count.”

“Because you treated him like you were going to hire him?”

“Oh you did the same to him as well?” Kenzie asked your mother, “I thought Mina would have a heart attack when you did that to me.”

“I honestly thought you would break up with me after that.”

You fixed the huge bow on top of Lily’s hair while she sat still in your lap, listening to the conversation.

“How about dinner?” your mother said, “It’d help us to get to know him better.”

“Nope,” you shook your head, “It’s too early.”

“Oh come on Y/N!”

“I will introduce him to you guys when I’m sure you can behave.”

“He has spent hours with dad, you do realize that?” Mina asked with a small laugh, “You think he behaves? The guy is a—“

“Mina.” Kenzie nodded at Lily and Mina stopped herself immediately but Lily had already heard it.

“I thought your dad was a bad man, mommy.”

“He is, baby,” she nodded, “That’s why he’s far away, remember?”

“Then why is auntie Y/N’s prince talking to him?”

“Because he catches bad people, bug.”

Lily gasped and looked up at you, her eyes shining with excitement, “Like a superhero?!”

“Mm hm, like a superhero,” you grinned at her and she fidgeted in your lap.

“When will I meet him?”

“Yeah Y/N, when will we meet him?” Kenzie batted her lashes and you pointed at her.

“That’s evil, you know that right?” you asked, ignoring Mina’s laughter, “Low blow.”

                                                 ***

Towards the evening, right before it was time to meet Spencer he had texted you, saying that they would be doing overtime at work. You were bummed, but you still texted back to tell him it was alright, that you would be going home and he could drop by whenever he was done.

After having dinner, you went to the couch with a bottle of wine and turned your laptop on to take a look at the files your assistant had sent you. Campbell wedding was almost done, Vincent had sent you a couple of new ideas to add into the theme, and you had to email back two pastry shops to confirm the wedding cake orders.

You were so lost in work that you had barely realized downing the half of the bottle and it was only when your phone started buzzing on the coffee table that you looked away from the screen of the laptop.

“Hi Lincoln,” you answered the phone, still typing your replies to your assistant and he took a deep breath.

“Hey,” he said, “Are you watching it?”

“Watching what?”

“TV. They’re talking about the copycat killers.”

“What?” you grabbed the remote to turn on the TV and of course, the first TV channel you found was already covering the story.

“The FBI has confirmed that the body that was found dead earlier today belonged to one of the copycat killers that has been—“

“What the fuck?” you murmured, keeping your eyes on the screen and he cleared his throat.

“Yeah,” he said, “I know it’s creepy but I mean…I don’t know, isn’t that a good thing?”

“Someone killed one of the copycat killers?” you asked, “That makes no sense at all.”

“Do you think it’s the same one?” he asked, “From the charity ball?”

“I don’t know,” you muttered, “Jesus Christ.”

“Are you okay?” he asked, “I didn’t know if I should call, but…”

“No no, I’m glad you did.” You muted the TV, then filled your glass again, “What’re you doing?”

“Just leaving work,” he said and you raised your brows.

“Linc, it’s eleven p.m.”

“I had to attend a meeting overseas.”

“Workaholic.”

“I prefer the term hard working,” he chuckled, “How about you? You weren’t sleeping, right?”

“Nah, I was waiting for my boyfriend,” you said, making him pause for a moment, “And checking client files. And drinking.”

“You’re lucky you can deal with your job while drinking, these sharks would pounce on me if they ever saw me like that.”

You took a look at the TV and typed in the copycat killer’s name into the search bar, sipping your wine.

“You’re being safe, right?” he asked you, “I haven’t heard from you for like a week or so, you’re alright?”

You pressed your lips together, trying to decide whether to tell him about the flowers or not, but in the end you decided not to.

“Family drama,” you said, “I’ve been running everywhere, and what with work and everything…Sorry about that.”

“Don’t be silly,” he chuckled, “Just wanted to make sure you were alright, that’s all.”

“I’m alright—“ you started but then looked over your shoulder when you heard the doorbell ring, “Gotta go. I’ll call you tomorrow?”

“Sure thing, see you,” he said and hung up, so you jumped over the couch to rush to the door before you opened it to see Spencer standing there.

“Hey,” you smiled at him, standing on your tiptoes to kiss him, “Long day?”

He nodded silently and wrapped his arms around you, pressing you closer to inhale your scent.

“Hi,” he muttered into your hair, “Yeah. Long day.”

“I have wine?” you said as you pulled back, and closed the door after he stepped in, “I also have a bathtub even you could lose yourself in.”

“It’s fine, don’t worry,” he said and hesitated for a moment, “On second thought, do you have coffee?”

“Are you sure you want to drink coffee at eleven at night?”

“I still have some reports to go over,” he said, stepping into the living room while you put the coffee on and his eyes stopped on the huge screen that was still giving details about the copycat killer.

“You saw that huh?”

“Mm hm,” you watched him as he dropped his satchel and you went to sit down next to him on the couch. “I was checking the other news. That’s why you had to work overtime?”

He rubbed at his eyes and ran a hand through his fluffy hair as if it would help, “We thought the profile was changing but this whole thing just proves someone is trying to keep it stable.”

You pulled your brows together, “What?”

“The victimology didn’t match with the last two victims, and now one of the copycats ended up dead, probably the one who went rogue.”

“How did it not match?” you blinked a couple of times, “They all left a flower in the crime scene, no?”

“Well yeah, but the rest—“ he stopped for a moment, staring at you, “You never actually checked his victimology?”

“I never watched any of those interviews he gave after he was imprisoned, if that’s what you’re asking.”

“Yeah, and those interviews are the reason why we still don’t have a specific suspect because everyone knows everything about him, and most of your family life,” he heaved a sigh, “But you know what his victims had in common?”

“They all bled out while he watched,” you crossed your arms, leaning back to the arm of the couch, “I know that. He liked watching that.”

“Your father never killed anyone outside his social circle,” he reminded you, “They were all wealthy and overly successful people, remember? That’s why it took FBI so long to find him, because the previous profile was wrong. They thought it was someone who didn’t have access to the same resources, the same wealth and status, and it was for revenge.”

“Yeah but Spencer, he killed those people because he is evil.”

“He killed those people because in his mind, he was creating this…perfect business environment. Most of the people who got murdered were either failing business people or people who failed to meet his expectations. He was very successful, he expected the same from everyone. That’s his victimology. The flowers on the crime scene, they were just his signature. Well, his signature and his small offering to you.”

You thought for a moment, then went to the kitchen to pour him a cup of coffee before walking back to the couch.

“I still think this is a bad idea professor,” you muttered as you gave him the cup and he smiled at you, then took a sip while you lit up a cigarette.

“So then,” you crossed your legs, “His victims were the cream of society and that means something? Other than the fact that he was a psychopath?”

“That means a lot of things,” he said, “So far, most of the victims had a higher status in society, it means that the copycats actually wanted to continue his legacy from where he left off. Maybe not the people who disappointed them per se, but until these last two victims, they all had higher financial status, either family money or with their own successful companies but last month, someone first killed a bartender and then a social worker. The only thing that told us it was remotely connected was the flower in the crime scene.”

“That’s why the profile was changing,” you muttered to yourself, “Okay. Is that normal?”

“No, not at all,” he shook his head, “It’s very unfamiliar. It did prove our multiple copycat killers theory but other than that, it was going to make things incredibly harder until…” he nodded at the TV and you pulled your brows together.

“Hold on,” you sat up straighter, your mind working nonstop, “Multiple copycats who are trying to continue that monster’s legacy, and one happens to taint that legacy by going rogue…”

“And he gets killed,” he finished your sentence for you, “Exactly.”

“It was one of the copycats who killed him?”

“That’s my theory.”

“So they’re not actually working together then?” you asked, exhaling the smoke, “Or- or- wait, you said there could be one copycat that was controlling the others, maybe they did it?”

Spencer took a sip of his coffee, “It could also mean that the leader wouldn’t want to take chances like this again,” he said, “Someone tainted the legacy, he might begin to believe he cannot trust anyone with that again.”

You let out a breath, stubbing the cigarette, “What does that mean then? For…all of this?”

“It means that someone cares so much about your father’s legacy that they’re ready to kill anyone and everyone over it, even their partners,” he said, “It also means that their whole operation is starting to crack. It’s only a matter of time someone makes a mistake and ends up getting caught.”

You massaged your temples, “Well, at least one of us can see the light at the end of this psycho murder tunnel.”

“You can’t?”

You shrugged your shoulders, “It feels like it won’t stop,” you croaked out, “It’s like… It’s like I can’t wake up without dread filling me. It’s always there, at some corner of my mind. The more I think about it, the more I feel like—“ you stopped yourself and Spencer frowned, putting his coffee down.

“What?”

“You don’t want to hear that, trust me.”

“Try me.”

“The more I feel like it will go on until the day I die.”

“It’s impossible for this case to take that long, Y/N—“

“I didn’t say it’d take long,” you took a sip of your wine and heaved a sigh before you looked up at him, the expression on his face almost hurting your heart physically, “Told you that you didn’t want to hear it.”

“Don’t say that.”

You forced a small laugh and got up from the couch, suddenly restless.

“You said it yourself,” you said, pacing in the living room, “His victimology. He went after the people who disappointed him, right? Can you guess who’s disappointing him right now by not turning into the monster that he is?”

“That’s not what I—“ he shook his head fervently and stood up from the couch as well, “No. No way. It’s his victimology, but none of the psychiatric evaluations or anything on his file, including the list of his victims suggest that he would go after his family. There was a reason why he never tried to hurt you or Mina or your mother even back then—“

“No I’m sure they’re safe,” you said, “But Mina didn’t get flowers, professor. I have.”

“If our theory of him being in contact with the copycat is right, it means that your father is involved as well—hey,” he stopped you from pacing, reaching out to hold your hands in his, “Listen to me. Whoever it is, they will never, ever touch you. I’ll make sure of that.”

A painful smile pulled at your lips, “Spencer, that’s not your responsibility.”

“It is.”

“FBI can’t—“

“I’m not talking about the FBI, I’m talking about me.”

You took a shaky breath and wrapped your arms around his middle, burying your face into his chest as you swayed slightly.

“Is it okay if we stay like this for a moment?” you muttered, shifting your weight from one foot to another “I don’t— I can’t sit still, I don’t know why.”

“Do you want to hear the reason why?” he ran his fingertips over your spine up and down, as if trying to soothe you and you nodded.

“Yes please.”

“You feel threatened, so your brain is trying to understand where the danger is coming from. It’s telling you to either stand or run away, so it’s pumping adrenaline into your system. We call that nervous energy.”

“That could be my stripper name,” you mumbled, making a chuckle vibrate deeply in his chest, “Tell me more.”

“The nervous energy happens when you’re under stress,” he said, “Our primitive brain is used to physical threats and it created this system in order to protect us. The threat you’re afraid of is not here, not physical, but your brain is still sending that energy to your limbs so that you can attack that physical threat, or run away to somewhere safe. It’s all a part of your defense mechanism.”

You hmmed into his chest, still holding him tight as if someone would take him away from you before you sniffled and pulled back to look up at him.

“You know, I think I got something you can’t explain with science.”

He raised his brows, “Debatable.”

“Do you want to bet? If I win, you’ll tell me what you planned for the next date.”

“What if I win?”

You wiped at your nose, “Tell me your price, professor.”

“There’s this conference on smoking and its effects on health next week, if I win you will attend that with me.”

“That’s a very indirect way to say that you hate my smoking.”

“I mean, it’s better if you see the effects in that conference, I think it’ll be good for you. It has five sessions, so it’s around….7 hours, including breaks.”

You blinked a couple of times, then nodded. “7 hours? That’s— okay. Yeah, I’m sure— I’m sure it’ll be fun.”  

A smile pulled at his lips, “Okay,” he said, “What is it?”

“It’s just,” you nibbled on your lip, trying to find the right words, “I was thinking and I realized something. I— I think it’s instinctual somehow, you can’t really explain it with science but when you’re here…” you paused, “With me, I mean, this whole panic dissolves. I feel safe, and it’s so unfamiliar that I don’t—“ you let out a small laugh, “I don’t know how to deal with that. I normally don’t feel safe, ever.”

A small smile pulled at his lips and he tilted his head, his warm gaze focused on you. You scrunched up your nose.

“Don’t tell me science can explain that.”

“Oxytocin.”

“God damn it!” you exclaimed, making him laugh, “Oxytocin?”

“Yeah, oxytocin. It’s a hormone that ensures that you trust people along with everything else. Basically, your brain— when you’re attracted to someone, your brain releases dopamine, so your serotonin levels rise and it produces oxytocin. It’s a big part of romantic attachment, it’s released during sex as well.”

You arched a brow, a small smirk flashing over your face and he pressed his lips together, a look of mischief appearing on his face.

“It strengthens fidelity as well,” he explained, “Seeing your partner as more attractive than others, and preferring to interact more with your partner than strangers.”

You clicked your tongue, “7 hours of conference, here we come.”

“It’ll be fun, I heard they’re bringing a real lung.”

“Can’t wait,” you muttered and entwined your fingers with his, “Well for what it’s worth professor, I have a lot of oxytocin for you.”

He cleared his throat, “Scientifically, one of the most important aspects of it is reproduction, in females it triggers labor and in males it moves sperm so having a lot of oxytocin can be—“

“Spencer, I’m trying to talk dirty in a scientific way!” you groaned, a fire spreading over your face because of embarrassment and you took a step to walk away from him but he grabbed your hand to turn you around and tug you closer to him, making you let out a whine.

“I feel like an idiot,” you murmured and he shook his head fervently,

“No, of course not,” he said, pushing your hair behind your ear, “Hey. I don’t know anything about weddings. So we complete each other if you ask me.”

You scoffed a laugh and looked up at him, your brows furrowed together, “You really think that?”

He nodded and you heaved a sigh.

“Okay.”

“And…for your information,” he swallowed thickly, “I have a lot of oxytocin for you too.”

A giggle you couldn’t stop escaped from you as he leaned in to capture your lips in a kiss, making your stomach do a pleasant flip. You wrapped your arms around his neck, your lungs full of his scent, making you dizzy.

“They’ll take away your doctorates for that joke, professor,” you breathed out as he pulled back, resting his forehead on yours while you raked your nails over the back of his neck gently.

“Worth it,” he murmured to your lips, leaning in to kiss you again, this time pressing you closer to his body and your heart started beating in your throat, a whine climbing up to your throat, desire filling your system faster than any other drug.

“Would you like to stay the night?” you whispered, and his eyes shot up to yours, both of you aware what you were really asking. He looked almost hypnotized by the sight of you in his arms and he blinked a couple of times, as if trying to focus before he nodded.

“Are you sure?” he asked, his voice hoarse and you took a shaky breath.

“Yeah,” you managed to say, your whole being consumed by this moment. “Yeah, I’ve never been more sure of anything.”

You could swear he could hear your heartbeat echoing through the room,

“No scientific explanation this time, professor?” you whispered against his lips and his fingers caressed the sensitive skin of your neck, sending a pleasant shiver from there to your whole body.

“No,” he murmured, leaning in to brush his lips against yours, “Not this time. Not for the lady who imparadises my mind.”

The lady who imparadises my mind.

That was how Dante described Beatrice in Paradise.

You stood on your tiptoes to pull him into a kiss, then tugged at his hand to lead him into your bedroom.

Chapter 15

[kim-miyeon]

Hell Above Masterlist

PAIRINGS: Hyunjin X Reader 

GENRE: Mafia! AU Series

WARNINGS: Mafia!AU, Gang related violence, strong language, suggestive language, sexual scenes, angst, slight abuse, family problems (warnings will vary based on chapters.)

m.list | Prologue | Teaser | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | Epilogue

Prologue - May These Noises Startle You In Your Sleep

Word Count- 485

Seven Generations. That’s how long the Lee Family has operated their family business and have held their place as the “most powerful family organization the world had ever seen.”

Allegedly, of course. 

The family began with Lee Sung-Ho, who built an empire from his ability to excel organizational crime on a level no one had ever seen. Sung-Ho created a force to be reckoned with, which in return naturally caused him tp form enemies from every corner. Men who wanted to be him and others who wanted him dead. None like his enemy, Hwang Hyun-woo, the first generation leader of the Hwang Family. 

The tension between the families never went unhidden. Many people on both sides lost their lives to countless feuds and battles. No matter the outcome, The Lee family never submitted to the Hwangs, no matter how far the Hwangs went. To sum it up without all the details, it wasn’t pretty. The feud only continued as generations passed, both families never seeking peace, only more reasons to create a divide. 

To make our story more interesting, each leader of both families birthed sons to carry their family name and business to the next generation. Not planned, but convenient, am I right? Since the beginning of time itself, it was ludacris for a woman to run any type of business, let alone a mafia business. Women were seen as sex dolls for the men who ran the big boys. A woman was to look pretty, bear children, and speak when spoken to. 

Until me. 

You see, every leader besides my father, Lee Won-Shik, birthed a son. I was the first daughter born from a leader of the Lee Family… and I was the only child. 

Because in the midst of a war between the Hwang Family and Lee Family, my parents birth me in secrecy, sworn to hide me away and never make my existence known.  And soon after I was taken into hiding, my parents perished at the hands of The Hwangs. 

After the passing of my parents, The Hwang family delightfully took their place at top, believing that the reign of the Lee Family was finally over because a child was not born and many of my family members were either dead or in hiding. My grandfather, having survived the massacre, sought revenge and strategized a plan to operate under the shadows. He believed that training me to take my rightful spot as the leader of the Lee Family was a given but he also devised a plan far more sinister. He wanted to attack the Hwang family somewhere they would least expect it. 

Their heart. 

So as silence passed in the following months of the massacre of my parents, The Hwangs welcomed into the world their one and only son, Hwang Hyunjin.

The next heir of the Hwang Family, the pawn of my grandfather’s game, my natural born enemy.. 

…and my beloved husband.

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