#live blogging while watching 911 for the first time

[sky-is-the-limit]

Eddie saying 'This is my kind of therapy' when it's just him, Christopher and Buck sitting on the couch, playing games..

Aka like every happy parent who has his kid and his partner.. And you are telling me that it's platonic? Nah.

And the kitchen scene, the sexual tension? Buck apologising like a desperate spouse?

This better happen in s8.

[eddiediazismyhusband]

Can I ask you to list a couple things you do like about the show? Or the actors? Or the characters? Or heck anything 911 related? Because it seems like you and your other anons don’t like anything to do with any aspect of it at all from the writers down to the smallest of storyline details 😅

which at that point is probably a good time to step back and stop engaging with it either temporarily or permanently since all it’s gonna do is continue to feed into the negativity your having over it since nothing seems to be bringing you joy about it.

can yall not read? like seriously can yall not read the words when i say “i am not goign to watch season 8 until something good happens”

i feel like a goddamn parrot on here when people like you keep coming into my inbox with this same fucking “maybe you should step back” thing like yeah that’s what i have been fucking saying????

im not going to stop interacting with my friends on here- that’s out of the question. i still love being involved in the fanfic community and i still love the first 5 seasons of the show, but im not going to lie and say that i have been pleased with the most recent installments. if you actually took the time to read my blog and what i talk about you would see that i adore eddie and his queer subtext. i adore buddie as a ship, probably to a crazy degree. i love henren, and bathena, and madney. josh russo is literally one if my favorite canonically queer characters on tv.

i adore this cast with the exception of the talentless nepo baby half the fandom wanna suck the dick of (god knows why other than he’s a fugly white man who kissed their favorite white boy) i love seeing them interact with each other outside of the show.

can i ask you what the writers have given us to actually enjoy the past two seasons? other than the madney wedding? nothing else has been decently written, or taken the story in a positive direction. yeah, we got bi buck but he’s in a relationship with a literal misogynistic racist man who has had repeatedly treated buck horribly with no acknowledgement whatsoever. so no, i don’t like the writers or tim minear at the moment because they have had every opportunity to usher in something positive for eddie, but no bc tim “this show is a drama” minear would rather give the happy plots to his white characters while running his poc characters through more unnecessary trauma and pain (with the exception of chimney, although his happy plotline only happened after he was near-fatally sick an entire episode and bobby whose plotline was centered around a black man’s trauma being dug up and thrown in his face)

the earlier season of this show were such a joy to watch live when it felt like there was actually care going into it from the showrunners and writing team, but lately it’s just them throwing darts at whatever wack-ass drama plot they can think of.

this cast works too fucking hard for the vapid shit they get given to act out each week.

which is why i (once again, in case you were about to gloss over this) I AM NOT WATCHING SEASON EIGHT UNTIL SOMETHING IS DONE TO FIX THE MESS THEY MADE

perhaps writing it in bold, italicized caps will make it easier for you to get it through your head.

and as far as “my anons” if you actually had enough confidence in your message, then why are you hiding behind anon, hm?

i have said multiple times i love interracting with my friends and fandom content that doesn’t have to do with spec. i have said multiple times im holding off on season 8. i have never said i hate the cast or i hate every single plotline the show has ever had, but you know what i did hate? how s6 and s7 turned the show into a fucking ooc mess. it is within my rights as a fan to dislike a season of a show for valid reasons.

what’s not okay is you coming into my inbox repeatedly saying “take a break” when i’ve said multiple fucking times that i plan to rather than just blocking me if youre so offended by people agreeing with me that the show is at a make it or break it point.

please kindly take yourself out of my space if you’re not going to actually take the time to read the words i post and just immediately send me anonymous hate because you didn’t like my posts

[buckevantommy]

Hey! It's the first time Buck Begins anon from before!! First of all do not feel bad for rambling - that is exactly what that ask was for! I loved hearing your thoughts!

And to answer your question about how I started watching -- 911 was a show always a show on my 'to watch' radar but I didn't give it much thought? I did watch s1 of lone star tho. until then I saw bi Buck on my dash for the first time after Tommy kisses him and i just went oh??!??! 👀👀 I binge watched season 1 and 2, and then I gave up and ended up watching s7 part 2 live while also watching s3 for the first time 🤣 there were some gaps I had to fill using fanon knowledge but I think it worked? And now I'm furiously trying to watch s4 around my busy work schedule before s8 airs 😅🤣

Hasn't stopped my from reading bucktommy fic or posting gifsets tho. Tommy has bewitched me, I love him. Every time I watch a scene where Buck talks about his love life a part of me is just- don't worry, your man is coming

oh! same here! i'd known about it for years but i'd just avoided it thinking it was just a different take on the same old tired procedural cop shows, or maybe something too dramatised like grey's anatomy. i'm not sure i even realised it was about firefighters until i heard people referring to it as 'the gay firefighter show' and even then i didn't really connect the dots.. 🔥👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨🚒

one of my fave spn blogs (bc i was a destiel girlie before the gay firefighter show consumed my life) was a 911 fan so i learned about bi!buck through her blogging (shoutout to @sunglassesmish: kay, you have changed my life for the better 😚🫶). i mean, i came from spn - where bi!dean is widely considered unacknowledged canon and it's a show now several years past its finale but with a dedicated fanbase still hoping for some kind of reboot or movie or something to fix the shit they did in the finale - to a show with a canon bi character, moreover a character in his 30s who had been presumed (by some)/written as (sorta) straight for 6 whole seasons. and evan buckley.. he's so much like dean wincester: the all american heroic ladies man with a traumatic upbringing and a megawatt smile and babygirl features and a heart of gold who just wants to be loved.. honestly i could write essays about these two.. ✍️

i love that we're on the same page! i started with season 7 (i watched 7x05 and onwards live) and got through seasons 1-3 while s7 was airing week to week, and so my buck knowledge was growing as i excitedly waited for the next ep to air with the rest of fandom (there's just something about that weeklong anticipation, i've missed it so much - the theorising, the time for fanworks, etc). 📺

i was also the same, trying to learn what i could through dash osmosis of the seasons i hadn't watched yet (i knew vaguely about the lightning strike and tried not to spoil myself too much about the family secret but reading fic and meta blew those doors wide open 😅). and even in season 1 i was like: i'm so glad he'll grow to be that person in season 7 one day, that he'll get to be vulnerable and open and earnest and loved and also get kissed by a handsome guy. 🥰

OMG WE ARE BOTH ON SEASON 4!! 🥳 i mean, i knew that, but it's still so exciting to know there are folks out there in the same boat! ⛵ i don't think i've liveblogged any other ep besides Buck Begins, but i think i'll probably do a lightning strike/coma liveblog when i get to it.

omg the amount of bucktommy fics i've consumed since april.. i remember in those early days i was consuming every single fic that got posted on ao3 - about a dozen 1k fics a day - until eventually there was 60+ fics a day and i couldn't keep up, but i'm still reading about 2-5 fics (mostly short ones) a day. this fandom is hella talented. 📚

our love for tommy kinard knows no bounds. 🤝💖🤝 and YES- omg- the way he is just craving love and a partner on the same page as him, someone he can be himself with.. lightning boy will meet him flying into a hurricane and i just think that's neat. ⛈️😘

[hardly-an-escape]

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☁️ ⇢ what made you choose your username?

oooh it's been so long, I'm not even sure! I actually started this sideblog way back in the winter of 2013/14. I was super into Once Upon A Time and Captain Swan back then, as well as a few other fandoms I'm not really in anymore. I must have come across the Lloyd Alexander quote that's in my blog description around that time, or maybe I went looking for clever-sounding quotations about fantasy and writing, because it grabbed my attention. and from Fantasy is hardly an escape from reality. It's a way of understanding it. I got hardly-an-escape.

tbh I don't love my username... it doesn't lend itself well to nicknames and it's not very descriptive. but I feel kind of stuck with it at this point. it's fine, I don't hate it, but I'm not crazy about it.

🍓 ⇢ how did you get into writing fanfiction?

technically I've been writing fanfiction since I was in elementary school, when I wrote part of an epic multi-chapter novel about Jacen and Jaina Solo and a lost Jedi Master (shoutout to my latent obsession with the Star Wars Expanded Universe which is sleeping but never gone). but I didn't even conceptualize that as fanfiction – I was just writing a Star Wars novel. (it was. not good. but in my defense I was like... nine.)

I really got into reading fanfiction when I was in high school and really into Buffy the Vampire Slayer (and specifically Spuffy) and desperate for MOAR. there were a few other fandom detours along the way and a deeply embarrassing phase where I was very into this extremely long and soap opera-esque RPF Orlando Bloom fic (nothing against RPF, but it's really not my jam anymore). but although I was actually writing a lot back then, it was all poetry and personal essays. I was happy to consume fanfiction but didn't really think about telling my own stories.

I didn't really start seriously writing fic and sharing it with other people until I was a whole ass adult! I couldn't really tell you why any particular fandom tickled that part of my brain, because there are a lot of fandoms that I've read fic for but never felt the need to create myself, but Captain Swan and The Lizzie Bennet Diaries did for a while. and then, like I said, that urge was dormant for a long time. I toyed with a few things here and there, and then a year and a half ago I watched The Sandman and just... gave myself permission to lean into something that was making me really happy! and here we are!

🪐 ⇢ name three good things going on in your life right now

I really, really love my job. it's hard and exhausting and it takes a lot out of me, but it's also incredibly rewarding and I truly can't imagine doing anything else.

right now I'm surrounded by some of the kindest, closest friends I've ever had in my life. like, literally surrounded – all our best friends live a short walk away – which is particularly nice because I'm far away from family at the moment.

honestly the euphoria of stumbling headfirst into 911 and BuckTommy got me through a really tough week last week. that first giddy period of new fandom fixation is such a specific feeling and a particular joy!

thanks for the ask!! writers truth & dare ask game...

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#5

I wanted to congratulate you on quitting! I know it’s a scary thing to go through but you will be so much happier in the long run! And I really hope your next job is one you love 💛

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thank you! <3

this is 5 months late, but i just wanted to let everyone know that quitting really was the best thing i've ever done. the sheer amount of relief i had at leaving an incredibly toxic working environment that was just filled with a lot of lateral violence and an abusive manager. i sometimes miss my coworkers and the clients, but how i felt 5 months ago, not just about my job but about life in general, is vastly different to how i feel today.

i found a wonderful job that i love, that i'm good at, and that has just embraced me whole-heartedly. it's supportive, the work is fulfilling, and my team of coworkers and management are all fantastic. it helps too that i got a $5 raise, which means that i can comfortably pay my bills, create a safety cushion, and send money to my sister who has been dealing with a lot of medical issues.

my head is clearer and i'm feeling so, so good about the transition. it was scary as hell to walk away from a job i'd been doing for 4.5 years but it was so worth it and i'm so grateful that i did.

20 notes - Posted July 21, 2022

#4

fic: i'm not yours (but i can be for a night) category: harry potter ship: hermione granger/james potter rating: explicit/nc-17 prompt: pictured above tags: marauders!era; friends with benefits; first time word count:  9,806

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Hermione reached an elbow over and bumped his. "What did you want to ask me?"

"Uh…" A flush filled James' face. "It's kinda personal. I probably shouldn't."

Hermione's eyes narrowed curiously. "How personal?"

"Just… I guess I was wondering if I was the only one in our year that hasn't… That's still…" He glanced at her and then away. "Everyone I know has already had, uh…"

"Sex?" Hermione couldn't help a beat of surprise. "You haven't then?"

"Have you?" he blurted nervously.

Hermione watched the pink fusing his cheeks turn even darker. "No."

read more: ao3 ↳ please try to leave a comment / kudos!

23 notes - Posted August 31, 2022

#3

i've been on tumblr for like a decade or so now, and for the most part that's been a good experience. i stick to my fandoms and my mutuals and i write my fic. every once in a while, discourse wanders my way and i get to decide to engage or not. i have no interest in engaging currently. the very idea of arguing with people over something we either love or hate in opposing fashion sounds and is exhausting. so, i fully invite anyone who just doesn't like or agree with me to block me. it doesn't have to be deep. we like/think/want/feel different things and there's this nifty option to never see/hear from each other again that can only improve both of our lives. so like... do that. ✌️

36 notes - Posted August 27, 2022

#2

finally quit a job that was sucking the life out of me

62 notes - Posted February 25, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

this whole time i thought blorbo was another fandom ya’ll were in and not a term of endearment for characters you like. that word scrapes the soft tissue of my brain. it makes me think of minions and my feral little mind wants to ritualistically sacrifice it to a pagan god.

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[shiningnightstars]

5 and/or 9?

5. what made you start your blog?

me and mallow, my qpp, were actually making a hermicraft au, and i started my blog with hopes that we could start an ask blog for it! the plan was that i would make the pfp, and they would make the banner. hooooowever he uh. forgot to make the banner and eventually october came around, meaning time for hermittober, and i decided i wanted to join, so i quickly made a pfp and intro post and start posted, and the rest is history.

we still have yet to make the au, and at this point neither of us are hyperfixated on hermitcraft anymore, so..... rip au :[

9. tell a story about your childhood

ooh boy i have a good one. (its really long so ill put it under a cut.)

okay so setting the scene. me and a friend were having a 2 day sleepover during winter break. one day at her house, and one day at mine. it was the second say, so we were at my house. it was just after dinner, and i have a loft bed in my room so me, her, and my brother were all on top. my friend had brought some glow in the dark stars that we were gonna put on my ceiling, and we had them in a plastic bag. however, my brother decided to take the bag and spill all the stars on the ground. i got angry, and went to go down my ladder so i could retrieve the stars. however, my ladder wasnt in its usual spot, so i step down and there wasnt a ladder there, and i fell.

i remember falling, almost in slow motion i guess, and trying to grab something, anything, while my eyes were closed. and then i hit the ground with a thud. nothing happened immediately and i had time to think. i wasnt in pain, but my arm felt really weird and i thought it was broken, so the next thing i did was scream as loud as i could. not out of pain, but because i had a need to get help.

my parents, my brother, and my friend said that i screamed basically right after i fell. i remember having time to think things through. it was REALLY weird.

next thing i knew, my parents were standing in the doorway, and my mom says that dad had pulled me out from my ladder since my legs were tangled up in it. my mom asked if anything hurt, and i said no, but that my arm felt broken, and thats when she saw it.

it was gross, so for your sake i shall not describe it. thankfully, though, it was just the bones in my arm that broke, not my skin or flesh. so no blood spilt.

my mom immediaty told my dad to call 911, and im pretty sure both my sister and my sibling came upstairs, and i think my sibling said they walked in, saw my arm, and immediately turn back because they didnt feel like puking.

my mom helped up, and put some slippers on my feet and gave me a stuffed animal, and took me into the kitchen to get some ice on my arm. this was the first time i had actually looked at my arm. my sister was, at this moment, ushering my brother and my friend out of my room and into either her room or the living room. either way, she was getting them OUT of my room.

the paramedics came and got me in the ambulance and drove away. they put an iv in my right arm (the one that wasnt broken) for painkillers, and just tried to keep me calm. i had no chance to feel pain at all from a mixture of painkillers and adrenaline.

i got to the hospital, the doctors put me under anesthetics, and i was out. i still remember the dream i had, though. i was being rushed around the hospital in a hospital bed, except the hospital was void of any decoration or people, and i somehow knew that there was no one pushing me, and that i was just. moving. and then i woke up, arm in a split and a sling. in about an hour after i woke up, the doctors had me try walking around a bit, and then they put me in a wheelchair and pushed me to the front door, where my aunt was waiting for me. it was like, 1 or 2 am at this point.

me and mom (who came with me in the ambulance and watched the whole procedure with fixing my arm) got home and i went and sat on the couch and fell asleep. no way was i sleeping in my loft bed.

i woke up in the morning, and my friend was actually still there and, turns out she didnt want to leave and ended up spending the night in my sister's room instead. she was in a cat onesie and was really just vibing, and i was haply that she was still there even though i wasnt.

eventually i got a cast, and it was purple and the doctor let me cover in in gliter glue so it was nice and sparkly, and i loved letting people sign it. however, it was hard to wash my hair with the cast since we werent allowed to get the cast wet. SO i also got my first haircut. i was, what, 8 or 9 i think? yeah. first. technically second but i dont remember my first haircut so this was my first haircut to nobody but myself. so some good did come out of it!!!

anyways thank you for letting me ramble, i shall now turn off my phone because it is at 17% and i do not have a charger 👍

[voxiiferous]

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@saunteredintohell

Send 🎧 for a random song from my character's playlist and the reason(s) why I associate it with my muse!

Ooh! Three! First up...

All Eyes On Me - OR3O You said I wasn't good enough to stay You put me away You took away my future and my fame But now that will change

Focus on me I'll be all that they see I'll make them sway No, can't run away Now all eyes on me

Between this, Circus (Britney Spears), and the Paranoid DJ song for Vox, is the common theme of 'all eyes on me' coming across? Vox is a performer, and more than that, he is someone for whom has quite a lot of power. In life, he kept getting denied promotions until he decided to extort and blackmail his way to the short-lived top, in Hell... well Overlord Vox is a figure you shouldn't mess with.

I really like the somewhat staticky affect at the start of the song, and the slightly swing sound to it, it brings together the past and present, which for Vox, is super important. Like yes he leans into the new technology, and the changes inherent in time, but he is still very much influenced by where he started.

It also works for when Vox finally leaves Valentino permanently. They've been 'equals' for so long, but now it's for Vox to reclaim everything he built from the ground up.

Our Velocity - Maximo Park I'm not a man I'm a machine Chisel me down until I am clean I buy books I never read And then I tell you some more about me!

Years and years ago a blog I was writing with put this on a playlist meme for me, and it's been hanging around in my playlist ever since, and I have to admit, I think it fits Vox the best of any of my muses!

I like this song for his relationships too, like the line "I've got no one to call in the middle of the night anymore / I'm just alone with my thoughts" is also a mood. Alongside the trend of 'eyes on me', Voxxy also has the tensions between man and machine.

And for my version of him at least, where he is right now is something like 25 years after his height. In the 1990s, his rivalry with Alastor made for a good show, he and Valentino were stable, they were the three V's, and media was changing in a positive direction he could capitalize on... and now it's not that, he's clinging.

Everyone knows everything about Overlord Vox, he's on every screen in Hell, people follow him on Voxtagram, sometimes he quote classic literature from a time he used to read it, but none of it's real, none of it's actually fulfilling.

911 - Lady Gaga Turnin' up emotional faders Keep repeating self-hating phrases I have heard enough of these voices Almost like I have no choice This is biological stasis My mood's shifting to manic places Wish I laughed and kept the good friendships Watch life, here I go again

Is it funny to say that when it comes to music, I am perhaps more likely to search up Angel inspiration than other Vox playlists? A lot of songs don't cross nicely, but for my version of the character, the very self assured, happy, confident version just... isn't what he is. He, like Alastor, is bored.

As for this song! The start has a very robotic vibe to it, which sort of tapers off in part, but definitely not fully, and so that vibe is already putting it higher on the 'is a Vox mood' scale. My man has perfected the smiling while everything internally falls down around him, but he's no more getting out of, or changing it than he was a few decades ago. But he is getting to a point now where he's aware of that, where the rose tinted glasses are coming off, and that's... terrifying for him.

Vox's entire playlist is the most confusing mixture of 'seemingly upbeat pop music with darker lyrics', and 'the cold cost of success', which sort of says everything you need to know about him. Like yes, he's brought this on himself, but that doesn't mean he's happy.

[buckybarnesdiaries]

cut my hair

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bucky barnes x reader. ⎢ masterlist.

Bucky asks you to cut his hair because he thinks you prefer it short.

word count: 911 words.

warnings/tags: none. just bucky being all shy and cute.

author notes: none of my stories contain reader’s body descriptions to be inclusive.

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Your phone dinged with a notification, sitting up on the sofa while pausing the movie you were watching, you took the device to read the message.

bucky b: sorry

bucky b: you busy?

A shy smile appeared on your face, unlocking it with your fingerprint to reply.

you: not really

bucky b: can you cut my hair?

Your grin widened at his words, typing a yes before jumping from the sofa to clean the mess your apartment was. He didn't live too far from you, maybe five or ten minutes walking, and you were needing a miracle. Fastly as you could, you threw the leftovers from last night still on the coffee table and cleaned the dishes in the sink. Afterward, you took a quick shower —almost dying in the attempt—, wearing a pair of comfy sweatpants and a t-shirt at the speed of the light.

The doorbell rang and your heart stopped at the thought of being alone for the first time since Sam introduced you. You served with him and kept in touch after coming back to New York. He was always teasing you about the supposed way the other soldier used to look at you or how his brain seemed to collapse whenever you focused the main conversation on him. Bucky was a sweet and kind man. A gentleman to be more precise. Although he was timid and quiet, you understood it by the horror he went through throughout his life.

You opened the door to not make him wait for much longer, not sure of how to greet the soldier to not make him feel uncomfortable. You stretched your right hand towards his to shake his and Bucky giggled automatically. He was aware that you wanted him to not think about the kind of person he was in the past, trying hard to erase that hell from his head when you were together. And he couldn't help but fall in love with you. In the way you used to treat him, in the way you showed real interest for him and not for his alter ego.

“What's up to you?”

“Sam told me you could… do a great job with my hair?” He didn't sound convinced, but because Bucky didn't want to bother you.

“Yeah! That's what I do for a living”. You shrugged, letting him walk into your apartment.

“I will, uh… I will pay you”.

“No, you won't”. The laugh escaped your lips lively after the firm affirmation, as you shook your head and closed the door.

“I will leave”.

“Who said I'm gonna let you go?” You squinted at Bucky, resting your back on the main door. “Why do you wanna cut it?”

Curiosity was second nature to you and you felt more interested to have a response as soon as he put his gaze away from you. Bucky wanted to do it for you. Not looking for some kind of acceptance, but wanting to captivate your attention. One of those nights you hung around with Sam and he asked you how your day was, you talked about a guy with long hair that was a little disgusting. The guy. Not his hair. Bucky misunderstood your words and thought you didn't like men with long hair. He loved his, but he was willing to change it for you.

“I, uh…” You watched him rubbing the back of his head, shrugging his shoulders.

He didn't want to tell you. He felt stupid and he was about to leave, ready to grab his jacket until you spoke. “I like it”.

Three simple words provoked one of his half-smiles, showing you his two main upper incisors. You loved that gesture on him since the first moment you saw it.

“Do you?” His tone of voice came in a low breathing, keeping his hand on the headrest of the chair.

“Listen to me now”. You whisper bringing together your fingertips, resting the index ones against your mouth. “I'm gonna say it just one time and I'm gonna pretend I've never said it, okay?”

“Okay…”

“Like… professionally speaking”. You excused yourself puckering your lips.

“Professionally speaking”. Bucky repeated, gently waving his hands totally agreeing.

“I'd spend all my life running my fingers through your hair”.

“Professionally speaking”.

“Professionally speaking”. You nodded, barely shaking your head.

The silence got installed indoors your apartment for a few seconds. He seemed thoughtful, toying with the possible replies to your confession.

“So, uh... you don't have to… cut my hair. You could just… wash it and run your fingers through it?”

“That'd be very professional”.

“Oh, yes… Yes, of course! Definitely”. Bucky affirmed imitating your gesture with his head. “And, y'know, you said so... I won't pay you, but… I could maybe take you out for lunch. To compensate you”.

“That wouldn't be very professional. It's not like I care, tho”. You giggled, rubbing your left eyebrow with a nervous gesture.

“It's up to you”.

His whisper as he bowed his head down a little, looking at you through his eyelashes, was responsible for your incredulous laugh, couldn't help but walk closer to the soldier.

“Puppy eyes, Sergeant? Really?” You scoffed, palming his chest biting your lower lip.

It was the first time you heard him cackle effortlessly, laughing because he wanted to.

“I'll do it only because I'm hungry”.

“Not because you want to run your fingers through my hair”.

“Absolutely not”.

“Who said I want?”

“It was… just an impression I had”.

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I've just been notified that an anon has spread false information about me to a creator whose work I am very fond of (@//fallinforgyu) and I am highly frustrated and on the verge of tears.

Here is that post:

This is highly upsetting and I can't read this properly without wanting to scream.

I started this blog in May of 2021, it hasn't even been a year yet. You can scroll down to my first post and see that. so I don't know what "quite a while" stands for, but being less that a year long isn't much.

This is my secondary blog, my main blog is "en-theheights" where, yes, I made it when I was a sophmore in high school, 4 years ago, when I was 15 (I created it cause I was a huge fan of the disney series Andi Mack. It's mostly for the western series I watch now, like 911 and other shows). I am now 19, and I rarely ever post on my primary blog. You can go and see that I post very rarely, if at all.

I don't use Twitter. At all. And I have ever posted, commented, reposted, or whatever the fuck else you an do on there. I go on there every now and then on my crusty dusty account that has ZERO followers to check in on what Enhypen is posting and when they are trending, as well as my other hobby which is watching Thai and Korean dramas. That's it. I have NEVER messaged anyone on Twitter, nor has anyone messaged me. And I have never been in contact with ANYONE on Twitter. Ever. like never ever in my life. And I just made that account back in August of 2020.

This is the last time I'm going to keep having to repeat myself. I am 19. I turned 19 February of this year. I made this secondary blog when I was 18 in May of 2021. It is now April of 2022, and I am 19 years old. I am 4 months older that Sunoo. I have my age posted in my Carrd account, which you can find on my pinned post that is linked to the pink "about !". It has always been there. This entire time. I'm sorry, I just realized my age isn't posted in my bio, but it is now. 18 is the legal age in the US, where I live, but I'm not even 18, I am 19.

I have in my bio for people to not interact with me if they are under 18, why in this big giant world, would I say that if I weren't even 18+..?

I come on here to have fun and write for a group that I love. I was just coming on here today to look through my request and write something cause I had the motivation for it. I took a long period without writing due to personal life shit, and I didn't think I would have to deal with stuff like this where I come to relieve stress. and Instead, I'm shaking with all types of frustration. I believe this is the same anon that crapped on me for my interpretation of Jake in a recent fic of mine, and I gave two fucks (and still don't). That is cowardly of them to continue to harass me cause their views were different than mine of an INTERPRETATION of a fic about enhypen. a fictional story about enhypen. At this point, I think I'm just going to delete it, and move on, cause this is a bunch of foolishness and has caused more problems for me than I have ever had in my entire Tumblr life.

If there is anyone that can get in contact with me to please get in contact with the en- writer @//fallinforgyu, I beg that you do. And please let them know this anon is spreading false information. I adore that content writer with everything in me, so please, if anyone can (@//fallinforgyu has blocked me bc they believed anon when they said I'm a minor, I am not, for the umpteenth time.)

I like to keep my personal life private off the internet. I'm not going to post my fucking birth certificate or driver's license so that I can satisfy such a cowardly anon. But I am 19, and I have never lied bout my age, nor have I ever talked to anyone on Twitter. Period.

I am going to continue writing bc that is what I love to do. I do this for fun and when I have the time to. I don't have time for an anon who got their feelings hurt and is deciding to take it to other accounts. Please, if you can, message me if you would be willing to talk to fallingforgyu for me!!! PLease, please, please!!!!

[sky-is-the-limit]

"No one will ever fight as hard for my son as you "

"You act like you're expendable, but you're wrong."

Eddie 😭 Just marry that man already.

[doublel27]

Hi! (I just had to share my thoughts with someone and I really like your blog so I hope you don’t mind my brain dump) SO a little while ago I saw a Tarlos post and was like wow they’re really cute and I just wanted to know who they were and then after watching clips of all their scenes on YouTube I decided to actually sit down and watch all of 911 lone star (like last week- I may have a binge watching problem) and I came to love all the characters (though TK and Carlos are always going to have a special place in my heart). But 3.10 was the first episode I ever watched real time and I was absolutely blown away! Like it was so good?? And I am both nervous and excited to see TK and Carlos in the next few episodes. Anyway, thanks for listening and for providing such wonderful fics, thoughts, and other content.

One, thank you! You’re very sweet.

Two, I had a very similar process to finding my way here. I had a few enablers who already had fallen and then I had watched the whole show in less than a week and wrote my first fic for the fandom. All in time to watch 3.02 live.

Now it’s two months later and I am in far too deep. Welcome to the fandom.

I am not too worried about Tarlos. I think they’re gonna go through it (we never go more than 2-4 eps without a near death experience or an argument) but what I love about them is the way they go through things and come out the other side even stronger and actively choose each other. Very excited for what we know about 3.11 and 3.13.

[afoldintime]

So a couple of days ago I was tag surfing on AO3 and I came across a Buck/Eddie fic from the show 9-1-1 written by @dancer-me. It was such a ridiculously well-written fic that I had to watch the show to get some context and, well, here's my live-blogging reactions to 1x01 "Pilot" that no one asked for (also, I'd love to make friends in the 911 fandom on Tumblr so just give me a shout!):

Alzheimer's sucks. that is all.

what is this "CPR"?? I don't know if the actor just doesn't know how to do compressions properly or if they're afraid they'll hurt the victim actor, which, fair, but I cannot take this seriously

I bet real firefighters and paramedics really have trouble suspending their disbelief when watching this show

oh. so not all the calls are going to end happy. okay that's fine i just gotta prepare myself

the priest's phone going off during confession? fantastic Catholic representation, 10/10

... I feel like taking the fire truck to have sex is a firable offense

sir you just had sex do not put your hands into the food that is gross

how did they arrive on this "someone flushed a baby down the toilet" idea?? literally nothing suggests that besides the caller presenting it

the police are also buying this baby toilet theory?? and now it has somehow evolved into "teenage mom flushes premature baby down the toilet to hide the evidence"??? these are prettty big reaches with absolutely no proof to show for it

um. i'm fairly certain the police need a warrant to enter and search your house if you say no, even if they're not making arrests. know your rights people

ughh i knew there was going to be some playing loose with the rules because it's a copaganda tv show but it still puts a bad taste in my mouth

did they just use the pickax to knock down part of the wall? the very same pickax they yelled at Buck not to use??

the caller snacking in the background as all this is happening is such a mood

okay the chances of no one having flushed their toilets this entire time is very slim

Buck with this baby is just absolutely precious

the way he's acting towards the mom... he's a very emotional person isn't he

Buck talking to the baby is just so so cute i cannot

Okay wow i was expecting a divorce, i was completely not expecting Michael to be gay, that came totally out of left field

very interested to see how they handle this storyline, I need to keep my hopes down because it is still a copaganda show

May no one said anything about telling other people, where is this coming from?

oh wow this is a very emotionally charged scene and a tricky situation overall, I feel so much for everyone involved

how does Hen know that snake fact? very impressive

Hen why are you so against killing the snake?? it's choking the woman what else are you supposed to do

andddd of course Buck just chops its head off

andddd of course he flirts with her

yeahh I'm not surprised Buck was fired, I'm surprised he wasn't the first time around

Girl there are intruders in your house just stay in one place and whisper to the 911 lady why are you moving around

they're sure wasting a lot of time chatting while a break-in is in progress

don't cops report to scenes in partners? to avoid this situation? why does Athena not have a partner?

ma'am i understand you're happy to see your daughter but the suspect is still on the loose why are you just standing in the street

Buck backing the truck into the station alone as everyone else waits for him, we love a cinematic parallel

[tinyboxxtink]

"....So I Married A Monster" *Part 9*

Chapter 8

Chapter 10

[I imagine this is him being a 'dad', lol]

Sorry this took so long ya'll. I love you.

I did my best!

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“Ma’am, you really need to calm down--” A nurse pulled you back into the bed while you continued to scream and cry.

“No, I need to know where they’re taking that man!” You screamed as you wriggled from her grasp.

“Most likely to surgery, ma’am,” The doctor explained. “He did just get a GSW to the chest--”

“Oh God,” You wanted to vomit. “But the-- the man who just left, he--” You suddenly had an epiphany of where Billy was headed.

“You have to get officers to 5237 Lakeview Shore Drive,” You said in a panicked voice. “He’s going to grab my children,”

“Aren’t they his children as well, ma’am?” The nurse gave you a look.

“He has NO right to them!” You gave her an exasperated look. “And seriously? You think a man who just murdered two--” No, you couldn’t think that way. Rafael was still alive, he had to be.

“Shot, two men,” You corrected yourself. “Deserves children?!”

“No, ma’am,” She shook her head. “Sorry, ma’am. He was just so kind and charming the last time he was--”

“Jesus Christ, are you really that starved for affection that a psychopath flirting with you is the highlight of your career, idiot?” You sneered at the girl who couldn’t have been more than 19. Just a candy striper-- of course Billy would go for her.

“Alright, Addie-- out,” The doctor pointed towards the door. “Make yourself useful and call 911,”

“But there’s already--”

“OUT,” The doctor barked once more. Addie rolled her eyes and stomped out of the room.

“I’m sorry ma’am,” He apologized, patting your shoulder. “You need to stay calm, we’ve stopped your bleeding and stitched you up, but if you become hysterical you could rip them out,”

“I just watched my ex-husband shoot the love of my life and then storm out of here to go kidnap my children, and you expect me not to get hysterical?”

“At least try, ma’am--” He pleaded with you.

“If you call me ma’am one more time I swear to God--” You growled.

“I’m sorry, Miss Y/N,” He corrected himself.

“Doctor you’ve just sewn up my literal anus, I think we’re on a first name basis,” You rolled your eyes.

“Right,” He chuckled nervously. “Listen if you promise to at least attempt to stay calm, I will go check on your boyfriend, alright?”

“Fine,” You sighed.

“Alright then,” The doctor gestured to two male nurses. sending them to find out information on Rafael.

---------

Rafael was indeed being rushed into an operating room, his chest bleeding profusely. It had missed his aorta, but just barely. One wrong movement by a scalpel and he’d die right on that table.

“...He’s lost a lot of blood already, doctor,” One nurse warned.

“Put him on bypass, I need more time to cauterize this wound!” The doctor barked as he sweat through his surgical scrubs.

“Yes sir,” The nurse nodded to someone who brought forward a machine and began hooking it up to Rafael.

“Alright people, we don’t have a lot of time,” He looked around the room.

"Pray for a miracle,"

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At Your House

Lewis rushed into your house, trying to think of what to do. He’d need to get the girls and run-- it wouldn’t be easy. He’d need a good excuse. God, what would be a good excuse?

Lewis first went to Maggie’s room, gently waking her up.

“Mags? Maggie, wake up baby,” He cooed.

“What’s wrong dad?” Maggie asked while still half asleep.

“We-- we need to go,” He told her.

“Right now?” She turned her head to the side like a confused puppy.

“Yes, right now baby,” He began to grab her things and shoving them into her backpack. “Mommy’s in trouble,”

“In trouble?!” Maggie suddenly shot straight up in her bed.

“It’s fine, I’m sure she’ll be fine,” Lewis tried to keep her calm. “I just don’t want that bad man to get ahold of you and Kylie,”

“He has her?!” Maggie suddenly had panic in her voice.

“Maggie calm down, okay sweetie?” Lewis put his hands on her face. “We can’t let Kylie know, okay? So we’re going to tell her…”

“We’re going to the beach!” Maggie suddenly finished his thought. She was a great liar, quick on her feet. Just a chip off the ol’ Lewis block.

“Great idea baby!” He nodded while she pulled a jacket over her pj’s.

“And-- And we can go to the beach house, the one we used to go to?” She made that adorable little puppy dog face he couldn’t resist. He didn’t exactly “own” that beach house, but whatever his baby wanted, she got.

“Yes, yes of course Mags. Whatever you want sweetie,” He kissed the top of her head before they went into Kylie’s room.

“Kylie, wake up,” Maggie shook her awake while Billy began packing her a bag.

“Where are we going?” Kylie asked sleepily.

“We’re going to the beach baby,” Billy told her as he finished with her suitcase.

“In the middle of the night?” Kylie rubbed her eyes while Maggie helped her put some clothes on.

“Well, we want to be there as fast as we can!” Maggie continued to spin her web of lies, just like her daddy.

“Where’s mommy?” Kylie rubbed her eyes while Billy slipped her shoes on and they headed to the car.

“She’s uh…” He looked at Maggie.

“She’s still a little sick, so she’s going to meet us there later,” Maggie told her while giving her dad a thumbs up. He could cry in pride right now if he wasn’t worried about the cops finding them before he could escape.

“Okay,” Kylie just went along with the story, no questions asked.

Billy went to your key ring and grabbed your keys to your SUV, shooing the girls out into the car. He did a quick look around to make sure he had everything. Well, he had everything that mattered. His girls.

He glared around the room for a moment, pissed off that you had taken away your chances at happiness in this place. It would have been a great life; just him, you and the girls. No cops, no dumbass ADA, just you and him.

Well, soon enough it would be. He was sure Barba was dying right now, if not already dead. Then once he was out of the picture, you’d have no choice but to come back to him. He had the girls. He had your car. He had your happiness.

And soon, he would have you.

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At The Hospital

The nurses had been forced to knock you out with some morphine when you began to get hysterical over not knowing what was going on with Rafael and your girls. So here you were, waking up groggy and disoriented in a regular hospital room. Soon enough you were alert and back on the anxiety train. You pushed on the CALL NURSE button rapidly until an older woman in green scrubs came rushing in.

“Y’Know that button is for actual emergencies,” She crossed her arms once she noticed you were fine.

“This IS an emergency,” You crossed your arms right back at her. “I asked to hear about my family, and all you people did was knock me out. That has to break some sort of law,”

“Really and what law would that be?” She raised an eyebrow.

“I...don’t know, but I’m sure my boyfriend could find one,” You huffed.

“Highly unlikely ma’am,” She shook her head.

“Why?” Your eyes went wide. “Why wouldn’t he? Is it because he’s dead? Brain dead? Paralyzed and unable to speak?!”

“No honey,” She rolled her eyes at your dramatics. “It’s just an insane notion,”

“...Whatever,” You muttered while she checked your IV’s and stats. “So are you going to tell me how he is? Or are you just here to shoot me up with more morphine?”

“Well, that depends,” She said while inputting your information in her iPad. “Can you keep calm, make sure you don’t rupture any of your stitches?”

“....Not with that tone I can’t,” You didn’t like it one bit. “But I think I deserve to know what’s being done about my children at the very least,”

“Well…” The nurse looked at the door nervously. “See, sweetie here’s the thing--” She walked over and made sure the door was fully closed.

“Oh God,” Your voice trembled.

“It seems your ex-husband has...taken them” She grimaced.

“Oh god,” You repeated. “Oh GOD,” You were going to be sick.

The heart monitor and machines began to beep as your blood pressure skyrocketed, bells and whistles went off as you started to have a panic attack. The nurse instantly started turning all of them off, not wanting to alert anyone of what she had done by telling you.

“Okay okay but LOOK, honey--” She grabbed you by your shoulders, forcing you to take a breath and look at her.

“....If I bring you someone, will you promise to calm down?” She asked.

You weren’t entirely sure you could make that promise, but if it was Rafael she was going to bring you, you’d say anything she wanted to hear.

“Yes,” You nodded vigorously. The nurse nodded back and walked to the side of your bed that had a curtain separating you and another patient. When she pulled it back, you saw Rafael laying in a hospital bed hooked up to wires and tubes, a breathing apparatus on his face. She pushed the bed over so that it was touching yours, almost like it was one big king bed for the two of you.

“Oh my god…” You whispered, barely able to hold it together. “Can I--?”

“Be gentle,” She warned you. You nodded softly before very cautiously stroking the side of his face, whispering to him.

“Baby, I’m here…” You pressed a kiss to his forehead. “I’m here and I’m okay, so you have to be okay, okay?”

“How bad is it?” You looked up to the nurse.

“Well he made it through surgery,” She gestured to his still living body. “That’s always a good sign,”

“Give it to me straight...Marla,” You read her name tag.

“It was touch and go for a while, I won’t lie to you,” She sighed. “But...he’s been stable long enough I convinced them to let me bring him here to you,”

“....Thank you,” You gave her a small smile.

“If it were my Jonas in that bed, I’d never want him out of my sight either,” She smiled at you.

“Nurse Nightingale,” A doctor popped his head in. “Your husband is on line 1,”

“Speak of the devil,” She chuckled, heading towards the door. “I’ll be back to check on you later, I’ll-- see what I can find out about your children,”

“God…” You shook your head and muttered under your breath again.

“I’m sure they’re fine honey. They’re with their daddy at least, right?”

“True,” You nodded with another small relieved smile. If there was one thing you could bet money on, it was that Billy would take care of the girls. He was using them as collateral for sure, but he wouldn’t hurt them.

Would he?

---------------

Meanwhile

Hours and hours had passed. Billy had made it to the Hamptons with the girls. Luckily for him the people he was ‘borrowing’ the house from still hadn’t made an appearance. Given that it was the beginning of fall and the season was over, he was pretty sure he wouldn’t have to kill anyone to keep them staying there a secret.

The girls were in the living room watching Moana while Billy scrolled through his phone at the latest news blurbs and trending things on Twitter. Obviously “William Lewis” was out in the open again-- shit. People would be looking for him now. But nobody knew where they were-- they’d never find them. Right? He couldn’t go back to prison, not after the hell he went through to get out. He would never go back again, no matter what. Nothing was going to stand in his way, or slow him down. He intently watched Maggie and Kylie-- they were laughing and eating cereal. Maggie could hold her own for sure, but Kylie was just a tot. Could she handle being shuffled around the state? The country?

He seriously began to ponder if the girls were slowing him down.

[lovecolibri]

Your blog is such a blessing. And like you I'm scared that their idea for the b/t breakup is, omg you're going away is such a pity, but I can't leave my family, otherwise we could ve been together forever. So we never have buck telling how unhappy he's been for all this nonsense And it'd be such a let down with so many episodes wasted with this irritating couple. But I really think we won't have a perfect breakup like the a/e one. Whatever it s I just hope it end soon im full

Awwww, thank you nonnie, that's so sweet! 🥰

I also don't particularly like the idea of her job coming between them because regardless of her job, she as a person is not right for Buck. She frequently talks down to him or makes pointed jabs specifically because she knows they will hurt him and she enjoys putting him in his place and having that power over him. Just watch the episode with Veronica where Buck wanted a friend to have his back and hopefully make an awkward dinner less awkward and she threw all the anxiety he had told her about having with regards to Veronica and threw it back in his face, and made some deeply untrue statements as a way to humiliate him on purpose in front of someone he was already anxious about being in the same room with.

So if they have Buck break up with her just because of a job offer, I'll be disappointed, though I don't mind the idea of a job offer happening so she can leave LA forever and never, ever, come back to haunt this show. I'd much rather Buck be allowed to have a moment to talk about what he wants and needs out of a relationship and how he isn't getting it from her. Which, to be fair, isn't entirely her fault as he's not communicating what he wants, but also the one time he did try to seek support after they started dating she dismissed his feelings and basically told him he was making it all up and needed to get over it so 🤷‍♀️ Can't really blame him for not wanting to open up after that.

However, for all my concerns (just because I know the kind of drama tv shows live for *aggressively side-eyes Tim and the new info about Lone Star and that new teen character possibly being Judd's son) I also didn't think we were going to get that perfect, iconic, stunning breakup we got with eddieana, so it's entirely possible we are going to get something just as good for Buck. Overall the 911 writers do an incredible job telling the stories of these characters and they seem to love them and care about how the stories are told. While dragging out this Taylor nonsense has been...painful at best, they've also made sure to make it abundantly clear that Buck in unhappy and this relationship isn't working for him because he's not getting the support he needs. So no matter what the breakup has in store for us, and no matter if it's as satisfying as we want it to be, one thing we can all count on is that it IS coming, it's coming soon, and when it does, Oliver has said we will get to see a lighter Buck coming back in the second half of this season. He clearly loves Buck as a character and it's probably been tough missing out on working with JLH and to an extent, Ryan and Gavin as his regular scene partners and having Buck being so miserable all the time. So I'm sure he's excited to show Buck being happier and having fun again.

Fingers crossed they won't drag this out too much longer and we'll be free after the first few episodes without having to suffer through seeing the relationship on screen too much more, or having to watch an exceptionally cringe proposal or anything.

[watchingspnagain]

Rewatching Devil’s Trap

Welcome to “Wooof, It Stinks Like Daddy Issues in Here: A Supernatural Rewatch Blog” with Lor and Mace!

 Up today, s1e22: Devil’s Trap

 Meg calls Dean to gloat that she’s captured John. The boys go to Bobby, an old family friend, for help. (We squee.) Bobby explains that demonic possessions are way up (that’s bad) and helps them snare Meg in a devil’s trap. They torture Meg for info on John, and in the process discover that Meg is a human possessed by a demon. They exorcise her but can’t save the human Meg. Sam and Dean proceed to rescue John from the other demons. Eventually Dean realizes that John has been possessed since they rescued him (because he’s BEING TOO NICE), and a fraught showdown ensues. In the fight, Dean is badly injured by possessed John, and the episode draws to a close with Sam and exorcised!John arguing about their next move—go straight after the demon or get Dean medical help. Then: whammo! The Impala is T’ed by a semi.

 Below is a log of our real-time reactions as we watched. Remember that there may be spoilers for any part of SPN’s 15-season run here. Note also that the nature of our conversation is adult and thus it may contain adult language and themes.

 [and we begin:]

 Lor:

 oh right. pre Carry On My Wayward Son

  Mace:

 Ha! Yep

 Cripes, the Previously Ons are half the episode this time

 Lor:

 right?

 Mace:

 the quaver in Dean's voice when he says "they've got Dad"

 Lor:

 YES

I was just gonna say that

  Mace:

 "listen tough guy" DEAN

 Lor:

 LOL

 this episode. the stuff with Dean and John what isn't actually John. just kills me

 Mace:

 YUP

and how he knows it's not actually John is such a gut punch

 Lor:

 YES

 oh boys

  Mace:

 yeah. let the 14-some-odd-seasons of fraught begin.

 Lor:

 YEP

  Mace:

 BOBBY

 Lor:

 BOOOOBBBY

  Mace:

 HAHAHA

 lookit his cute little curls in his hair in the back

 Lor:

 YES

 I LOVE that the last time Bobby saw John he threatened to shoot him

  Mace:

 he's been on screen for a whole 30 seconds and he's already 1000% times a better father figure than John

 Lor:

 CORRECT

He's treating them like adult humans he has affection for, so

  Mace:

 YAS

 while John fannies about with his Colt and his over-developed sense of vengeance...

 Lor:

 YEP

 poor Rumsfeld

  Mace:

 his dog's name is Rumsfeld OMG

 Lor:

 lololol

  Mace:

 (for the record that was a mix of quotes from Bridget Jones and Princess Bride. I am impressed with myself, to be honest)

 Lor:

 (lolololol)

  Mace:

 Dean's "gotcha" nnnggg

 Lor:

 YAAAAAS

 whatever that little thing he did with his lip there.... mrrrrf

  Mace:

 YES

 Lor:

 I want to know if John knows this and didn't tell them or if he's just too dumb

  Mace:

 again, Bobby is a much better dad to them - he doesn't yell at them or make Dean feel like he's an idiot for not knowing about how possession works. he just calmly explains it

 Lor:

 YES

 oh Dean, baby, thinking he can march into hell

  Mace:

 not realizing that he...will...

 Lor:

 yeah

 "I LIED"

  Mace:

 I'm...not sure why Sam is uncomfortable with this. I mean. Demon.

 Lor:

 is he uncomfortable or does he just think they can still use her?

  Mace:

 he seems troubled to me

 Lor:

 yeah, he did then when he went back to it

  Mace:

 always with the water and blankets

  Mace:

 like they're some sort of miracle cure-all

 Lor:

 LOL

 (if they are willing to call 911 here, for a girl who is broken to bits and they have NO explanation for why, there is NO WAY Sam could not have called 911 for Dean in the finale)

  Mace:

 (RIGHT?!?!)

 Lor:

 at least the blankets might help if she's going into shock

 the water is probably a terrible idea

  Mace:

 snork

 Lor:

 don't introduce stuff into a broken system!

 John should have lived so they could bring him round to Bobby's and then the first time he said shit to one of them, Bobby could have decked him

  Mace:

 omg the way Sam twirls the pen I CANNOT

 Lor:

 we deserved to see it

  Mace:

 YES

 Lor:

 YES

 lololol Dean

  Mace:

 Ha! but Smarty Sammy!

 Lor:

 YES

 oh dEAN

  Mace:

 yeah

 sweet little kettle

 Lor:

 lolol YES

 he's so afraid of everyone dying and leaving him alone holds him

  Mace:

 yep

 "this sucks out loud"

 Lor:

 YES

 omg 2006

 7 minutes exactly?

  Mace:

 snork

 Lor:

 is that a thing? I don't think that's a thing

  Mace:

 yeah I have no idea

  Mace:

 a yorkie, Dean? really?

 Lor:

 "I got a Yorkie upstairs and he pees when he's nervous" OMG

 DEAN

pets him

  Mace:

 FIREFIGHTER OUTFITS

DED

 Lor:

 OMG

 he wanted to be a firefighter... because of his mom dying in a fire?

  Mace:

 I suspect it was before she died, when he was still a kid and was allowed to have When I Grow Up I Want To Be thoughts...

 Lor:

 mmm. that is certainly less heartbreaking

  Mace:

 post mom-on-ceiling John would never allow for such dreams.

 you're welcome.

 Lor:

 lol. thanks

  Mace:

 hey, any time. s'what I'm here for.

 Lor:

 locking the door and the hatchet coming through it right after!

  Mace:

 yes! very The Shining

 is that Carson Daley?

 Lor:

 I have no idea

  Mace:

 (I was trying for a joke - he just looked like him)

 Lor:

 omg that shot of Dean with the joke

 Lor:

(SNORK sorry)

 Mace:

 DEAN WITH THE JOKE HAHAHAHA

 Lor:

 GUN

 DAMMIT

 get outta my head, MACE

  Mace:

 braces self for THE SCENE

 Lor:

 ooof, yep

  Mace:

 "I'm trying to thank you here" Yes, DeanDean, bE GRACIOUS

 Lor:

 this scene where Dean pleads with possessed John not to let the demon kill him? that lived in my head from the moment I saw it 2006 all the way up till we started watching it 2019

  Mace:

 ooof

 Lor:

 "for you or dad, the things I'm willing to do or kill... it scares me sometimes" THAT'S IT THAT'S THE SHOW

  Mace:

 "you're not mad?" sounds of my heart breaking

 YUP

 Lor:

 YES

  Mace:

 my god he looks so confused at the praise from John

 FUUUUCKKK YOU JOHN

 Lor:

 UG. the way it's telling him what he's wanted to hear from his Dad since he was five

 RIGHT?

  Mace:

 "he'd be furious"

oh DEAN WINCHESTER YOU SWEET SAD THING

 Lor:

 "he wouldn't be proud of me. he'd tear me a new one"

SOMEONE HOLD HIM

  Mace:

 Ha! Sammy's "what the hell"

 Lor:

 lol

 Sam's "Dean, how do you know?" it's a genuine question, not, like, an accusation

  Mace:

 SAM CHOOSES DEAN YAS I LOVE YOU SAMMY

 Lor:

 YES

 Jeffrey Dean Morgan is so good here

  Mace:

 HE IS

 Lor:

 I mean, it's not like John hasn't metaphorically been tearing Dean apart for 24 years

  Mace:

 RIGHT?!

 okay they used that "oh that's right" joke twice in one episode. come on, guys.

 Lor:

 seriously

 he just put his finger on so much of Dean. hiding behind the humor.

  Mace:

 YUP

 Lor:

 the way the demon is literally just speaking the truth

  Mace:

 i love that trope of the bad guy speaking awful truth to the hero

 Lor:

 YES

  Mace:

 SMARTY SAM

 Lor:

 YES

 ooo, and this is the first time someone who loves Dean overcomes possession in order to not hurt him

  Mace:

 YEP

 Lor:

 omg the dual begging of Sam

  Mace:

 YES

  this is one of my favorite season endings

 Lor:

 YES

  Mace:

 so BLAMMO good

 HA! I still jump every time!

 Lor:

 YES

 "no sir, not everything" and then Sam looking in the rearview at Dean

  Mace:

 YES

 poor Baby

 Lor:

 right?

She gets banged up SO many times

  Mace:

 she does

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holy hell, gamers, i finally reached one whole thousand followers! how bonkers is that! when i first made this blog in december 2018, i was just trying to start over in a new fandom. ive been active on tumblr for a looong time (since i was like 11, which is. not great, but we wont get into that). i cant remember quite why i decided to remake, but i never imagined getting a higher following than i did before, but i did! 1000 followers is bonkers, i’ve never had a thousand of anything! i seriously cant thank each and every one of you enough, whether you followed me for 911 or for mcyt or for whatever!

now, since ive reached this absolutely bonkers milestone, im feeling particularly sappy! so under the cut, i have some friends and mutuals tagged who are super great n who are always an absolute pleasure to see on my dash! <3 again, thank you all so much! (ps, if we’re mutuals and i didnt tag u in this, that doesnt mean i dont love and appreciate you!! i mostly am just picking people to tag based off how often i see them on my dash! i love all of u so much <3)

♡ 911 FRIENDS ♡

(aka the ogs, aka the fire fam)

♡ @lovelessmotel ♡ emily!! god, where do i even begin with how much i love and adore you!! i know youre one of my big sisters, but wow i am so proud of how much youve discovered yourself since we’ve met!! like wow, look at this epic, gorgeous person whos one of MY close friends! im so lucky to be friends with you! thank you so much for being my friend, i appreciate you and all the sisterly advice you’ve given me more than i can ever put into words!

♡ @eddiediaz-buckley ♡ sav!! mom!! i love u so unbelievably much!! i am so unbelievably grateful for you and everything youve done for me! all the advice youve given me and all the times youve let me vent to you have been so important to me and i cannot thank you enough for all that. im soso appreciative of you and im so glad that i have someone as amazing as you as my mom/big sister (we’ll never really figure out our fams family dynamics, will we?) (ps, whenever i go outside and have my keys with me, its always so comforting to feel the keychain you got me! its like my moms with me everywhere i go!)

♡ @liesoverthec ♡ bonbonbonbon!!! i love you so much, you wouldnt BELIEVE how much i love you!!! im so glad we met bc you are so unbelievably kind!! there is a very good reason a nickname for u is bonbon bc you are just as sweet as candy!! maybe even more so!! i love having you as one of my big sisters, you give such wonderful advice and talking to you always makes me feel a million times better!! i love you and i am soso glad i get to call you my friend!

♡ @marauder-girl ♡ sabsabsab!! i love u so much, u funky lil future lawyer!! im so proud of u and i can hardly believe ur gonna be my Lawyer big sister!!! thats so awesome!! i cant believe such a rad person is one of MY friends!! how lucky am i!! i love having you as one of my big sisters, youre so kind and funny and talented and your advice has always been so helpful to me too! thank you so much for being my friend and for always being there for me!!

♡ @nighting-gale17 ♡ cait, my love, my wifey!!! wowowow i love u so much!!! im so glad we’re friends, you are so unbelievably lovely!! youre also so unbelievably talented like??? hey queen wanna hand some of ur writing ability over to the unfortunate (like me). i’m so glad we’re friends, youre so sweet and even tho we dont talk as much as we used to, i still have SO much love for you in my heart

♡ @africaneuropean ♡ rae, my father!! i love u so much!! i know we havent talked at all in. who knows how long. but i still have so much love for u in my heart!! you are so iconic and cool and funny, im so glad i met you n became friends with you!! ur one of the coolest people i know, i hope i can be as cool and mysterious and wonderful as you one day

♡ @evaneddie ♡ DHYL!!! dhyl pickle i love u so much!!! whenever u pop into my inbox with random nice messages, every part of me lights up!!! u are so kind to me and for what!! i miss talking to u as much as we used to, you are so sweet and you are such a good friend!! i love u n im SO proud of how far youve come with gif making, i still remember when u first started n youve gotten SO amazing at gifs lately!! i love u soso much n im so glad we’re friends, youre so awesome!!!

♡ @basil-the-writer ♡ des!!! i love u so much!!! i know we’ve never rly talked all that much but im glad we have interacted in the ways that we have!! u are so sweet n so talented!! like the fact that u have the patience for those lil video edits u do?? that is so cool!! all ur edits are so cool, i cannot imagine being able to make stuff like that without dying every single time. u are so cool n i love being able to call u my friend!!

♡ GRIFF ♡

(aka griff)

♡ @yawnralphio ♡ u get ur own section bc u are my only 911 friend who isnt an og, but thats ok bc u are so swaggy!! i love being friends with u griff, u are so cool and funny and i am so glad that u still want to be friends with me despite all of the horrifying things u’ve learned about mcyt from me jdhfajkdhfa. i love u so much n i am so excited to get to know u more n get closer to u!!

♡ FRUITBLR ♡

(aka mcyt friends)

♡ @fear-epidemic ♡ atlas u are so swaggy and funny!! tumblr funny man!! im so glad we’re mutuals, i love u a whole lot. that one time u me n wilby played bed wars together was so fun even if we’re really bad! n that one time we played on the fruitblr server while on vc was so fun, i loved talking to u n playing with u so much, we gotta do that again sometime. i love u so much chapin n im so glad we’re friends!!

♡ @netheritedream ♡ hari my beloved... i love u so much. like literally so much that its really embarassing. i am so glad u tagged me in that one follow forever post n put the offer on the table to let me join the server. i love being ur dumb lil husband!!! jus like actual fundy, i would risk it all to watch treasure planet with u. i love u sososo much, i wish i could live closer to u so i could actually talk to u more often </333 im going through severe withdrawal, pray for me. im gonna stop talking for now bc if i kept going on, this post would be several miles along n nobody has time for that </3 just know that i love u so much and i love having matching icons n i love being ur husband, i love u so much

♡ @sootswilbur ♡ tommy... i care you so much. little bromther!!! im sososo glad we’re friends bc u are so kind to me all the time n u are so easy to talk to!! ur also so talented, ur writing n ur gifs are so amazing n im so proud of all the awesome stuff u make!! seeing u experiment more with ur gif sets n trying new things is so awesome n inspiring and i love seeing ur experiments work out!! i love u soso much n im so happy to be ur big brother!! (or one of them at least)

♡ @fruitbur ♡ virgil my Other beloved... i love u so much!! u are one of the kindest people ive ever met n im so glad i met u!! i know ive already told u this before but ur tagging system is so sweet n i love seeing u reblog my posts bc im like “yay alastair is gonna tell me that he loves me in the tags :D” i also lovelovelove ur theme, i love the soft pink and the lil aesthetic board that u have pinned, its so nice to look at!!! ily sososo much <333

♡ @theartofmining ♡ hey fruit ily. like genuinely, u are so unbelievably funny that u make my ribs hurt so much. i know we’re like never rly that serious but i love u so much. as much as i joke about hating u, i really am glad we’re friends n i really look forward to becoming better friends with u. i love u a whole lot rain, i love seeing u on my dash bc ur full of good takes n funny posts

♡ @sapnaplive ♡ dream.... bonks our foreheads together... i care u so much. my other half!!! i love u with my whole little heart. u are soso cool and im so lucky to be able to call u my friend!! ur themes are always so cool, i wish i could be half as cool as them!!! ur art is also so epic like??? u are a triple threat: good at art, tumblr themes, AND minecraft building. and ur also so kind!!! u are one of the sweetest people i know, i love u so much and im so glad im friends with u!!

♡ @dreams-little-kitten ♡ corn u are so weird and i mean that in the kindest way possible. u are so cryptic n i love that so much about u. ur like the wilbur to my philza sometimes and i think thats so awesome. that one time u came into my inbox to talk shit about that one cuphead boss was so funny and absurd, i loved that so much. i love You so much. i love how ur just so effortlessly funny, n im so glad i can be friends with u

♡ @dreamsmp ♡  JEL!!!! i love u so much holy cow. u are so sweet!! all the time!!! ur also so talented, ur gifs always look so good!!! i love being friends with u, ur always so nice to me n u always leave rly nice tags when u reblog my gif sets that make me so happy!!! i think about that one time u rbed my fundy gif set n said “FUNDY GIFS” and “GIFS BY FUNDY” it made me so happy!!! i love u a whole lot, im so glad we’re friends :)

♡ @leaguelol ♡ damien!! i love u so much u funky little cryptid!! i love when u pop into the gc just to share cryptic thoughts, u are so strange but i think thats so cool of u!!! i honestly see u kinda like a lil sibling, im always so proud of u when i see ur art on my dash!! u are so talented at art!! i love u so much n i love being ur friend, ur rly sweet n i love seeing u on my dash and in the gc!!

♡ @its5undy ♡ idk why im putting u on this, ur my mortal enemy. jkjk, i actually love u a lot clay! i love joking around with u, ur so funny and for what. im so glad u joined the gc bc i love talking to you so much!! i still love that one time u reblogged that fwt gif set n tagged me in it moments after I reblogged it. i love that u thought about me, that rly warms my heart! i love being friends with u sososo much

♡ @cavalreee ♡ oh hey, another great big fruit!! i dont think we talk all that often, which is a shame, bc ur so sweet!! and also so fucking funny, why is everyone in this friend group so fucking funny, its not fair. i love seeing u on my dash talking with ur other friends, u always have the funniest convos ever. also? ur desktop theme is SO epic, it threw me off the first time i saw it but its so swaggy, just like u!! i love u soso much azzie, n i hope we can talk more in the future bc ur so cool

♡ @technosoot ♡ i love u even tho ur a br*t /j /j /j. jannat u are so unbelievably sweet. im so glad u joined the gc bc u are such a kind presence both in there and on my dash! u radiate very Warm, Friend energy. ur friend shaped. i love u so much n i love being friends with u!! im very eager to become closer friends with u bc u seem like a really amazing friend to have

♡ @sortasortaspicy ♡ les where are u in the gc i miss u </3 i love u so much, u fit in so well from the very beginning n brought so much more fun and laughter into the gc. i dont know u all that well n i dont think we’ve talked one on one like. at all. but id love to get closer to u bc ur so rad and ur so sweet!!

♡ EPIC PEOPLE  ♡

(aka mutuals who are so cool n id love to be friends with u pls talk to me)

@eurytherm ♡ @vampkings ♡ @weelbur ♡ @wilburtheesoot ♡ @quackityskarl ♡ @wimblrscoot ♡ @technofarmer ♡ @wooteena ♡ @bloodforblood ♡ @smpsapnap ♡ @literallynotfound ♡ @hearty-an0n ♡ @enderanboo ♡ @springbonniecpu ♡ @pandascanpvp ♡ @tommylnnits ♡ @strawberrygogy ♡ @timedeo ♡ @nymika-arts ♡ @h-isforhome ♡ @eboykarl ♡ @joe-alkaysani ♡ @betwecouldmakesome ♡ @squirrelstone ♡ @maddieandchimney