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I'm about to McFreaking lose it. 🥹
#anyone want a kidney? I need groceries for the month before i can even deal with making money for this#also good news everyone! the government wanted more documentation so they rejected my work permit application#meaning $500+ down the drain because they insist the my need more than what was requested! so now I have to apply all over again!!#fun fact: they just did the same to my brother except worse because he applied for his green card (I haven't applied for mine yet bc ID)#and that cost him $1500+!#we are winning in life right now!#he can afford to apply again bc he has a job since our dad made sure he got his EAD applied for and approved#I however had the distinction of being disowned and kicked out to make it on my own :)#so now not only do I not have my Photo ID or approval for work hunting#not only do I not have my antidepressants#because my psychiatrist is a bitch and my insurance rejected the prior authorization#not only do I not have groceries or food or drinks#not my laptop which has been dead for a year#but now#NOW#my one escape from my depression and my favourite form of entertainment and shield against the horrors of existing is still dead!!!#AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!#let me just get a sugar daddy or glucose grandpa who has a spare $1k to solve all my legal mental and personal dilemmas real quick#or let me sell a kidney like I'm being serious#or maybe if any of y'all plan to make my birthday in April sweet you can just give it in advance and I won't look to anything in April#I just really need some good fortune right now lmao#literally one thing after another I'M TIRED IM TIREDDDDDDDDDDD#literally death is less expensive but I got life in me yet#and I couldn't do that to my friends or to Leo :(#whatever ill figure it out#I always come out on top no matter how determined the universe is to keep me under#try harder BITCH 🖕🏾
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artificial love part 2



android ! mark grayson x fem ! reader
cw ; none

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There were many times in your life where you wished that you would just die by some freak accident. Or die by a meteor hitting you so precisely that you were the only casualty. However, death does not come for those who wish for it, as the old saying goes.
10:30 AM on the dot.
You straightened out your clothing and tried your best to calm your thrumming heart that seemed to want to beat right out of your chest.
This job that Alex accepted from THE Mark Grayson could literally get you killed.
And yet, it was a job you had to do nonetheless.
You waved your wrist in front of a scanner by the door which made the door dematerialize a split second later when your identity was confirmed through the security system.
"Good morning, I'll be the AI specialist helping you today."
You remembered a time within college where you had to take a human & ai interaction course. The teachings were interesting, to say the least. The course basically went over how despite the ai being mere androids, it was best to still treat them as human. Treat them as beings who could never achieve what they truly want.
So you don't say "I'm here to fix you, or repair you" when talking with an android. You say "I'm here to help you. Here to see what's wrong." Like how a doctor sees to a human patient.
"Morning doctor," the android replied smoothly, a lilt in his voice as he scanned you. You couldn't help but to laugh lightly at that, "sorry, but I don't have a doctorate. L/n or y/n will be just fine."
Once you made sure your equipment was all prepped, you finally steeled yourself to look at him. And you couldn't stop the way your breath hitched at the sight.
The android in front of you was beautiful. Black locks of hair perfectly slicked back with a few strands sticking up. Dark eyes that glinted in the light, a pair of sunglasses resting on the bridge of his nose. His skin looked so smooth too, almost looked soft to the touch. He looked human. Too real. Too here.
As for his clothing, he wore a simple pair of black dress pants along with a white button up. His sweater was discarded to the chair beside him as he was seated on the operation bed (much like a bed you would find in a doctor's office).
Now, you had heard that Mark was beautiful, but since you couldn't afford a TV or the subscription to a digital newspaper, you were always left wondering how truly pretty this artificial being was. You weren't disappointed to say the least, but now you couldn't help but to feel self conscious about your own clothing.
A simple (color) sweater with a few holes in it, jeans that were worn at the bottoms, shoes that looked like they were about to fall apart at the seems.
Honestly, you wished you could go buy fancy and expensive clothes right now because you couldn't help but to feel a bit underdressed despite this being an appointment.
"I'll call you y/n then, if that's alright."
You nodded as you maneuvered your fingers in a certain way so that a screen would appear in front of you.
"That'll be alright Mr. Grayson. Now, I was briefly told why you're here and why you chose this ... particular place, so let's just start with the basics, shall we? I don't know if you read my form or not, but I typically like to get to know my patients and i would like them to get to know me as well before I try to help them because I don't want you to feel uncomfortable in any way while I work on you."
You took a seat in an abandoned chair so that you were now sitting across from him.
Mark grinned, "actually, that's exactly why I picked you. As I was scanning through possible specialists, I found your profile and thought you would be a good fit. In fact, you got some good reviews too. Not a single person was left unsatisfied after getting a check-up from you. So I couldn't resist when choosing this place."
You smiled at that, "I'm glad to hear that. Makes me a little less nervous."
"Nervous? What do you have to be nervous about?"
You gave him an are-you-serious look. He laughed at the face you made.
"Alright, alright," he said, "point taken. No need to say anything."
He waved his hands in front of himself in surrender.
His laugh is so ... realistic. You wondered how many diagnostic checks and calibrations he had to go through in order to get his voice and even his laughter to sound so human.
Was it alright to even ask that...?
As for Mark, he seemed to pick up on your unasked question. He could see it in your eyes.
"It took a few years."
"Pardon?"
"My laugh, my voice. You're wondering how I managed to get it to sound so realistic, right?"
You blushed as you had gotten caught, "yes, I'm sorry Mr. Grayson. I know it's an impolite question."
He shook his head, "think nothing of it. In fact, I welcome the curious mind. Besides, it's just as you said, right? Let's get to know each other."
You nodded your head. Your focus solely on him.
"As I said, it took a few years and many, many tests. Of course, I first started adjusting my voice to sound more human back in my childhood years. That way I wouldn't have to worry later down the road."
"Childhood years, Mr. Grayson?"
"Yeah, as you've probably heard we androids typically like to feel more human have different models. For example, I was 'born' 24 years ago. So at certain years of my life, I would have different bodies. Like ... I had a body of a ten year old when it was my tenth year 'alive'."
You nodded again, a hand coming to your chin as you thought over his words, "I think I understand. So do you still have your previous models? Like the bodies of your past years."
"Of course not, they were destroyed."
"Do you typically make a new model of yourself after each birthday?"
"No."
"Is this your actual body for when your 24, or is this your body from a previous year?"
"Actually, as it turns out, this is my newest body. So yes, this is my 24 year old body."
"Ah, I see, I see. So when do you plan on making a new model?"
"Probably when I turn 35 or so, maybe even 40 if i feel like it."
You chuckled at that, "why not stay 24 forever?"
He shrugged and leaned forward, his lips upturned in a mischievous grin, "that wouldn't be very human of me, now would it?"
You laughed at that, "good point, Mr. Grayson."
Mark clapped his hands together, "my turn to ask a question!"
"Fire away."
"Do you have a boyfriend?"
You were quick to erupt in a fit of giggles, "what a flirt!" You managed to say between breaths.
Mark looked appalled and offended, a hand placing across his chest where his heart would be as he gasped, "I think the question was fair!"
But he started grinning and laughing with you nonetheless. Which was how your conversation went throughout the rest of the appointment.
12:00 PM.
You glanced at the time as you stood up, "well, that concludes our first appointment."
"Oh," Mark inquired, "but we didn't exactly do anything, well, not unless you count our riveting conversation."
You grinned and patted his shoulder, "of course. As I said I like to get to know my patients before we start anything. Just like how I want my patients to know me. When I check your systems, I don't want there to be any mistrust or grievances between us. You'll be in a vulnerable state and I don't want you to feel as if I'm taking advantage of you in any way, which is why the first appointment is usually us talking to each other."
You materialized a screen in front of him, "so, if you want to schedule your next appointment, you may. But you don't have to if you wish for someone else. Oh, and you don't have to pay for this first appointment either since I didn't help or perform a check-up."
Mark nodded along as he looked at the screen that was materialized in front of him. Raising one of his hands he gently pressed down on the 'schedule a new appointment option' which immediately brought up a calendar. He smiled at that.
"Something wrong?"
"It's just, I notice how you're allowing me to pick a date to schedule. Most specialists and doctors I know usually pick a date for me as well as others."
You shook your head at that, "well, I'm the type of person who likes giving my clients the freedom to choose their days. Be it at 3:00 AM in the morning on a Saturday. Or at 5:46 PM on a Tuesday."
Mark let his eyes scan over you again before choosing a day.
Two days from now at 10:30 AM.
"Awesome, now just sign here and I guess I'll see you then" you said as you sent him a polite smile.
He was quick to sign his name at that, and when he grabbed his sweater, he looked at you one last time before leaving, "before I go, I never did get that answer to my first question."
"Hmm?"
"Do you have a boyfriend?"
That same playfulness reached both his voice and eyes and you couldn't help but to chuckle lightly, "no, I don't."
"Glad to hear it. Now, i guess I'll see you Wednesday, Little y/n."
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Truly, truly rambling. Pay attention to the world.
It's early the morning where I am, and I've been awake since even earlier. I tried to go back to sleep, but I've been wracked with worry. I'm trying to work something out, or to not work it out. To not turn it over and over in my mind but to find a different center, a heart, a spirit, a compassion. I made a mistake, or left something undone - nothing immoral or unethical just. I really dislike my job. It's a necessary inconvenience. I should feel lucky. It's not a great job. But it pays in American dollars, which come in handy. Not many dollars, but mostly enough. More than many other earn, but less than many. Life in this western city is expensive, and I have children to support. I have a daughter who is...mad? Disappointed? I can't pay for the college she wants to go to, and neither can her other parent. She's talented and extremely intelligent. I hold two ideas, feelings, concepts, at the same time; I've failed her. I've been a good parent. Both things seem true.
I have a lot to grateful for, but I also have worries. I'm afraid I'll lose this dumb job with no retirement plan available to me before I find a better one. I'm afraid my kid won't find a place to go in the fall - that she will flounder, or worse, emotionally. I don't have the bandwidth to help her. Her other parent is mentally ill, with periods of stability that make one forget they're not stable. Which is almost worse than being constantly unreliable. I'm lonely - all my friends here were work friends from pre-Covid and now are scattered all over this vast, isolating city. The others were lost in the divorce, or have left for greener grass.
For some reason, I've been watching Near Death Experience videos recently, which I don't believe are real - I believe people have had experiences, but that it's likely a neurological phenomenon. Or maybe not. What do I know. So many people who tell their stories, and people who comment, seem done with this life. Those that have "died" and come back feel deeply they now have renewed purpose, which is so beautiful. There's nothing like that feeling. PURPOSE. But the focus is on the next world. But me? I mean, it's awful here, don't get me wrong. But it's the only world we've got. The only life. I love it here. I really, really love it here. Have you been outside? Marvelous! I have so many books yet to read. I literally just read Pride and Prejudice this year for the first time. Mind blowing.
Maybe I feel like I don't have a purpose. Or I'm just lonely. Or I'm not doing enough, or I'm not enough or I've wasted my life, my talents. I don't feel sorry for myself. But I am frightened, and I miss people. A small part of me knows that I'm not completely alone. That I have a lot to offer the world, and my kids, who are really wonderful people. That I understand, what I think is actually the most important thing, to me, anyway. To pay attention to the world, the person in front of me, the snail creeping up the wall, to love it, to love it, to love it.
Now I gotta shlep my kid and carpool to school and go to work.
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As bad weeks go this is definitely one I'm having (CW: Animal death... again, grief)
When my dog Suki passed away on Sunday it was unfathomably devastating and heartbreaking. I knew it was happening and had time to prepare for it and process it but she was literally a cornerstone for just about my entire life and the loss hurt deep.
It still hurts deep. It's gonna be an ugly snarl of pain for a long time. New things keep cutting into it to make a fresh and zesty new hurt. So far today it has been things like 'I spilled raisins on the floor and had a whole panic attack scrabbling to get them up before the 4 legged vacuum who absolutely cannot have grapes realized there was something on the floor...except she did not and will never again race to "help" clean up spilled human food', 'found a can of her favorite food in a place I didn't expect it to be', 'woke up from a brief nap automatically at what used to be afternoon walk time', 'her insulin is still in my fridge' and 'was able to agree to plans without worrying about being home to do meds'.
I imagine at some point things will stop adding new knife wounds but I am not there yet. Extra definitely not there yet.
My cat Dobby was even more broken than I was at losing her. They were buddies for her whole 15 years with us and we knew it was going to be hard for him, how could it not be. But he was 20 and a half years old and even though he was in pretty nice shape for a kitty his age, his heart couldn't take the strain of grief.
Three days after Suki lost her battle with cancer, Dobby died (the vet called it broken heart syndrome) just before midnight.
I feel like I'm drowning in sticky tar. I can't believe they are both gone, so close together. They were the last two babies I had. My heart and home are empty of all but the reminders they should be here.
I can't help but worry through the unbearable agonizing loneliness that I won't be able to have another pet. My health is... complicated. I can't do a lot of the physical things I should be able to. I can't change the litter box for a cat without help due to my breathing and physical strength (and I DO NOT have reliable help anymore). I can't go on long walks with a dog anymore and I don't know if I have the stamina to train an animal. And the cost. Woo boy the cost. Pet food alone is up about 45 percent since Covid started like a lot of necessary groceries. Pet vet meds got so much more expensive too. Vet bills are always pretty steep. But I casually looked into adopting a kitten and it's gonna be 500 dollars for the pair (nobody will let you adopt a single kitten here anymore) before that animal is even chipped or spayed/neutered. I can't afford that right now and I'm not sure I will be able to any time soon. The shelters near me will do like 50 bucks for a senior cat and that's great but I would prefer to have less old age related pet issues for like a decade.
Everything is just really rotten this week. I'm sure things will get better eventually but we aren't quite there.
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Saitama knows there's essentially an ongoing apocalypse. He's all too aware of it, even-- but he simply tries to ignore it most of the time. Live as normal a life as he can, and try to help civilians on occasion. Honestly, though, even when he tries, he gets so much backlash that being a hero becomes less and less appealing day by day. Still, he's not a hero or working with the association for fame or glory; he really does want to make a change for the better, and that's all that even matters to him anymore.
... Still, he's accused of being a fraud. And as it's something that happens so often, he's given up protesting it. If what it takes to appreciate the job other heroes do is thinking he's a fraud, well at least he's serving a purpose, and it's not for nothing that he's disrespected and treated like dirt ...
But, with that reputation comes wide-scale rumors about him -- rumors that no doubt spread around to even the monsters that call themselves the androids. Now, Saitama doesn't know their entire deal by any means, but he knows that Genos doesn't feel too kindly towards them. And if he doesn't feel too kindly, then they must be pretty bad. Sure, they're terrorizing most people's lives as they know it, and Saitama's taken down quite a few of them and protected many civilians from them.. but he never really goes out of his way to hunt them down otherwise.
Even so, the androids know of him, though. Specifically, it seems they finally caught on to his strength and they really want him on their side. At first, they'd thought he was a joke, just like everyone else but Genos seemed to ... but now that they've actually gathered some data on him, it seems their targets are set on studying him. He's not exactly open to the idea of being studied for such a cause, not even if he was paid to do it though. Without fail, every time they'd try to attack him or capture him, he'd completely decimated them, and yet their attempts to capture him have never let up.
Today was no exception.
Saitama was hoping for even one day where he'd get to chill, picking at his expensive salmon and rice lunch as he sat on a park bench. Nobody else seemed to be in this park, though he could hear a little bit of a ruckus in the distance.
' Well. Nothing the other pro heroes can't handle. I'm just gonna eat, then .. check out that sale I heard about, or something.. '
Continuing to slowly pick away at his lunch treat, he completely ignored the android that was stalking closer to him until it was right in his face. Towering over him, with a cocky smirk and taunting words that went in one ear and right out the other, it'd expected to catch Saitama's attention in any significant way. However, when it was simply ignored, the caped hero's attention turning literally anywhere else to try and avoid a confrontation ... That baffled and agitated it.
Spewing more threats which were as good as useless to Saitama, the only even slight acknowledgement he gave the android was cutting it off mid-sentence, unreadable expression tinged with annoyance.
“ Dude. You're way too close to me. Move. ”
That's as much warning as this guy's gonna get. If he doesn't comply, Saitama's probably gonna punch the guy... But to a bystander, the situation probably looks way more dicey! Even though the android is gearing up, ready to blow away Saitama with everything he has, it doesn't look like he's got a care in the world... Does he have a death wish?
.... Yeah, kinda. But it's not like it could ever be fulfilled anyways.
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CW: Abusive parents, advanced illness, and near child death.
I took a poll recently that harmlessly asked how many treatable- and even preventable- illnesses I've had. Thankfully, not all of them thanks to my biological mother who cared enough to vaccinate me. She was also the one who paid for my medical insurance.
Now, my mom has her own host of negligent problems with me, but I'm here to talk about my biological father and stepmother.
When I was a teenager- don't remember what age because much of that time period is fuzzy- I got sick. Really sick. It was just strep throat, and we all knew it. My dad knew, my stepmom knew, all of my stepbrothers and me too. They quarantined me away and that was it. No doctors visit.
Now, theoretically, strep throat can heal on its own, but mine didn't. I was grossly ill for over a week. Vomiting, poor eating, loss of voice, dizziness, fever, chills, and eventually a full body rash. Which some may know means I had advanced into developing scarlet fever.
My condition deteriorated with zero sign of improvement. Near the 2nd week mark, I was completely bedbound and, from what I can remember, unable to speak and could barely breath.
And this is where I want to stress- I had medical insurance.
My mother paid for it. Not my father or stepmother had not put a single dime into this responsibility, and yet they seemingly were unwilling to find me medical care. When I moved away with my dad into a different state, he never sought a primary care physician for me. Therefore, when I did get sick, he didn't have a fast means for me to see a doctor. Or maybe he did and I'm- to this day- wishfully thinking he had his hands tied and wasn't just... leaving me like this out of neglect.
But it was neglect. I didn't have a family doctor and they made no obvious attempt to help me. Not until they were finally convinced that this was going to kill me.
They eventually gave in and brought me to urgent care. The whole thing is a blur to me, but I do recall the nurse being astounded and the doctor being angry. I remember he lectured my parents about how this was completely preventable and I was far too sick for this to be acceptable. Turns out, I was in the early stages of developing rheumatic fever, which is basically an auto-immune response to untreated strep infections. When rheumatic fever is left untreated, it leads to childhood congestive heart failure and death.
The doctor prescribed me antibiotics and sent me home. The pills were less than $20.
To this day, I think about that cost. I think about how my dad and stepmom never got me a family doctor and never tried to seek care for me until I was quite literally on my death bed. They even had the fucking nerve to complain about how expensive the urgent care visit was. A visit that was completely caused by their own negligence.
They don't pay for my medical insurance, my mom does, and they still wouldn't put forth the small co-pays to give me adequate care.
The pills that saved my life costed $20, and my life was barely worth that to them.
#idk what the point of this post is#venting i suppose#i dont really talk about it#and hell i was still lucky cuz not all kids even have insurance#i sometimes wonder if they only brought me to UC bcuz they were afraid of me dying#and well its hard to explain why your kid died from a treatable disease#anyways#ty for reading#ive got no greater message besides “yea this happened to me and thats fucked up”#strep throat#near child death#tw abuse#tw parental abuse#tw childhood trauma
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People said that a heartbreak is one of the worst pain you ever felt in your life, beside death of your loved one of course.
But losing your best friend is far worse painful.
I'm the type of person who rarely fully trust someone over me, basically because I got a rough childhood that made me the witness of my family torn apart. It took me years to fully gain my trust to my Mom.
I've been living alone since 14, when I enter highschool. There's only a really few person that I can entrust my back to, that I can fully expose everything. The Japanese said there's 3 kind of faces that each person have. The one that you shown the world, the one you shown to your closest, and the one you never shown to anyone.

When I deem someone as my best friend, they'll have a peak of what the 3rd face truly looks like.
People told me I can easily befriend people, even when we didn't know each other at all, totally random. Little that they know, its absurdly hard for me to consider someone as my best friend.
Lets call it best friend break up. In my life, I encounter that thing 3x. And those moments was some of the most hurtful thing that mess up with my mental state.
The first one is in senior high school. I'm close to his family to the point I was welcomed casually to their house, raiding their fridge, even when my best friend isn't home. Just a small mistake, and that friendship ends. I never knew what he do, or how is he till now. This one scar me to the point of me not trusting anyone but myself, friendship is just a concept of time that will eventually over.
The second one is in college. A random encouter made me get to know this girl. At first, it was her attractiveness and hobby that made attracted to this girl. Time goes by, it became love. But its not the love that couple share. Its the love for a friend, a best friend.
We share our secret, the ugliest deepest one, we cheerish the smallest things, we enjoy each other company, completely platonic. I've seen her strip her clothes, and its not lust that came out, its nothing. We cuddle up looking for comfort, but never goes more than that. Accidentally kissed once, and its awkward af, never again.
Funny thing is our birthday is less than a week apart, so we used to celebrate it together. We're that close that people thought we're dating, even both of our partner that time are jealous. Another funny thing is, when I'm in a relationship, she's single, vice versa. She made me a woolen bracelet that I still use in my leg till this day.
We broken apart when she's close with a guy, and that guy is obsessively jealous, and we're casually drifting apart. At first, I was clueless why would she pull herself away, no information whatsoever. I finally knew why after years and years later we randomly encounter each other in Jakarta. This one scar me to the point that I became a cold person. Doesn't gave a single fuck of what other thinks, since whatever I do, people got their own agenda and things, I will be focused on mine.
The last one was recently. I know my bro here from a game called Ragnarok. We encounter each other in place names Prontera, in the field below the city map. I was recruiting people to join my guild, when he came in an insult me and eventually join the guild.
Its like we became stupid duo, doing random things together in game name it hunting, flirting to girls, going on war, even encountered sensitive peeps that made the conflict inside the game rose to real life. He would back me up against anyone, literally anyone, vice versa.
At the guild real life gathering, we finally met in real life. We instantly became buddies, starting from where everyone else eating at a fancy expensive restaurant. I let myself out the building, saying I wanna buy a cigar, yet the truth is I wanna buy cheap fried rice outside. Waddya know, he think the same thing lmaoo.
We became bros. He's like my bro from another mother. We hang out at random places, supporting each other through the hardest shit, talking to girls, wing man-ing each other, etc. Simply broke idiot duo.
If I have money, we have money.
If you have money, we have money.
I known almost all of his encounter to girls, from a fling, crush, and exes. From the charming one, to those that destroy him. And I'm gonna defend his honor with everything I had. Vice versa. Remember when I had stupid fling with our mutual friend in your room when you're at work? LMAOOO, sorry bro, I properly clean your room tho, even tho he scold me due to his neighbours and landlord complaining at him over that girl scream so hard they heard it at the 1st floor. His room was at 3rd floor.
I remember his ex that cheated on him that tore him apart. That longest relationship he had, and that bitch surely regret her decision, I made sure of that. There's also that one plane stewardess that used him, and broken him apart. I swear if I ever met her face to face I'm gonna slap that hoe.
His downfall started when he lost his new job due to age limit. After that his confidence drop downfall to the floor. He barely knew how to flirt with girls anymore, he hardly get a job, got no money, his family is in trouble back then. I remember he called me from time to time the moment he start thinking to kill himself. I told him, don't you dare, if you wanna die, I'm gonna be the one that gonna kill you, no one else.
I help him flirt with girls by text, vice versa. He also support me on whatever stupid things I do. Its like, you jump, I jump, right after I laugh hard first.
And finally he get a job, more so at one of the government ministry. There, he regain his confidence. I remember at his first paycheck, he told me to check my bank account. He send me money after he split it to give to his parents and sister. Boy do I love this guy, no homo.
He helped me a lot when I start my perfume business, even tho we're thousand of km apart because we live in different island. I made sure to protect his girl that time behind the scene because we live in the same city.
This idiot broke up again, since his mother doesn't approve of this girl, and this girl is also... How to say it, not a social person? Awkward? Too egotistically demanding? She's a fine person tho, just not clicking on the right tune with him.
He lost his confidence again, think he would be alone. I remember that day, at 2023,I'm at dunkin donuts stall, doing a job over my laptop at midnight when he call. He told me, "dudee, you won't believe it. I met a girl! She's a junior in my college back then!". "I think I'm gonna get married next year".
It was a mixed feeling because I'm afraid that this is just another girl that gonna tore him apart again. But all my fear was wrong, she's the one that he was waiting for all these time. They really gonna get married! I'm overwhelmed omg omg omg finally this piece of shit gonna get married!!!
I told him, only contact me when there's something wrong, since he's on the path to the top, while I'm still figuring out myself. He need to focus so there won't be a slip anymore.
But that's the gong. At first, he called me to introduce me to that girl. It was fine back then. But after that, I feel that we finally torn apart slowly. The laughter isn't the same. The journey isn't the same. The insult isn't the same. Our friendship isn't the same. But I knew that for whatever reason, its for his good.
November 2024 is the month they tie the knots. I'm im the moment where I kinda struggling financially since there's a lot to pay for, and they married in far away town. But I remember our promise. When you wed, I'm gonna be your best man, vice versa. I never forget that promise. Not even once.
I scrap a chunk of my savings and went to that town. I contacted all of our other friends but looks like nobody came because they were busy. Still, I wouldn't miss it for the world, bro.
There I am. At the church. At the very back seat of that church. Sobbing like a girl seeing one of my best bro finally going to tie the knot and gone to next chapter of his life with this awesome lady as his wife. Mind you, in usual state, I'm this cold unseriouss, always joking around, and getting angry at simplest things kind of person.
But it feels like it's not like I went to my best friend's wedding. Its like I'm coming to an acquaintance wedding. It felt awkward. I gather my courage to step forward to them when the ceremony was over, going to congratulate them in person. But I ends up I'm just holding my distance, taking a video of them from afar, while smiling.
At one point, his wife ask me do I wanna get a picture with them? The usual me would just march on without a care in the world, being stupid, more so it's my best friend's wedding ffs! But no, I decline and said that they better took picture with others and goes to the car back to the hotel, while I retreat to random places.
Its raining, I remember. I'm alone for hours at that coffee shop, waiting for the reception party at 2pm.
When its 2pm, I march myself to the place. Thought I'm gonna see the reception ceremony, but no, when I arrive, the ceremony already ended, people already feasting at the foods. I'm dumbfounded, but its okay.
I try to joke around like usual, eating food while teasing them that I can eat while they stuck sitting in that bride and groom's throne stage. But the reaction wasn't it used to be. Its plain. I retreat outside to smoke, alone, I remember its raining because its hard to light up the cigar.
Turns out there's also member of our guild that came, 2 of them. I met them, share a laugh here and there, and gather my courage to goes on that stage personally. I went there, expecting that its all in my head, that nothing changed, I'm about to annoy him by saying his sister is beautiful 👀. But when I encounter him, its not the same anymore. I'm stupid, but I can feel it. An awkward hand shake, and awkward hug, an awkward small talk, a quick photograph with the groom and bride, and I'm gone out, smoking again.
I knew it, I can feel it. Its the change of era. We're not idiot duo anymore. He already focuses on the next step of his life, and I'm proud of him. I'm overwhelmingly happy because I also know how good his wife is, and I knew the both of them will thrive. I know its the chapter where I lost yet another best friend. Lost a brother. But he's happy, so I won't trade it with anything in this world.
In the middle of that rain, while puffing my cigar, I can hear The Fray's singing:
He smiles politely back at you,
You stare politely right on through.
Some sort of window to your right,
As he goes left, and you stay right.
Between the lines of fear and blame,
You begin to wonder why you came.
Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend.
Somewhere along in the bitterness.
And I would have stayed up with you all night,
Had I known how to save a life.
It's officially the end of an era.
To my bro, I wish you all the happiness in the world with your new small family. Once again, congratulations to the both of you.
I wish you would always remember that I'm one call away if you ever in trouble, I came out running with all my might to deal at whatever troubling you. One call away. I promise you that. You know I never break my promise.
I'm sorry that I can only gift you a small amount of money. But if I had 100, you know that I would gave you 90. Because you're my bro. When I have money, we have money, remember?
You used to say to me when we're still playing that online game, "hurry up and log in you idiot!".
So this is me, Kumon, officially Logged Out.
I'm always gonna cheer for you on the sideline.
Have a good life, brother.
No Homo motherfucker.
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Again, non-writing post but -- The Time of Santa Suits is once again upon me. And this year it comes with accompanying righteous fury. Long story short, I do the odd sewing commission to prop up my pitiful income, though I've tapered off a bit as my kid's homeschooling got more intense over the last year. Also life, brainworms etc. But there is one guy I've been friends with for years who does a lot of the local santa-ing who generally come to me for suit alterations and such. (He is also a personal friend and it seriously irks me that I haven't heard from him all year -- yet he returns from the void just as he needs my aid etc. etc. But whatever, dude's had an incredibly rough year, I'll get over it.) What gets me is that he commissioned a suit from some fancy company in England during lockdown -- I was just getting started homeschooling the Spawn and he didn't want to pile more shit on. He paid a fuckton of money and well, the delivery was delayed and delayed and then it finally comes out that the original creator had come down with Covid and a combination of that and a few other health problems unfortunately led to her death. This is, of course, fucking awful. And it's totally understandable that custom santa suits were very much not the focus for her family at the time. He gets that. I get that. What's less understandable is that the family/company didn't refund my friend's money. Instead they assured him that they could finish the commission, delayed some more and when the suit finally arrived... Calling it an abomination is generous. It's. I think they matched up the wrong parts of an unfinished suit? The armscyes are fucking massive. He literally cannot raise his arms in this boxy monstrosity. He's a big guy - can santa without a prosthetic belly big - and the suit is still enormous on him. It's a box. With massive sleeveheads. And the pants? One leg is bigger than the other. By several inches. This was a reputable business - I don't know the name, and I don't want to ask because if I go looking for previous examples of work, I will get angry. And I entirely get that suddenly inheriting a bunch of unfinished custom orders when you're grieving has got to be indescribably fucking awful. But if you can't do the work, fucking tell your clients that. If they'd sent pieces, he could have gotten me to assemble them. Or someone else, if I was still snowed in by single-parent-is-now-also-a-teacher insanity. If they'd just admitted they didn't know what the fuck they were doing, my friend wouldn't have received a hideously expensive unusable suit during the most stressful time of year for him. The same year he got slapped with a new cancer diagnosis. This guy is not a rich man. The santa-ing pays for a shitload of his yearly expenses. He takes pride in it. And I will guarantee you the fact that he didn't bring this piece of shit suit to me the year it arrived is because he was ashamed of getting shilled. The fact that he had to internalise that at the same time as he was struggling with the pain and fear of his cancer raising it's ugly fucking head again makes me incandescently furious. I am s e e t h i n g. It's nice fabric, so I'm gonna see if I can salvage it. Probably won't be able to wrangle pants, but I can at least try to fix the coat. Though the problem of how to make the armscyes smaller is already frustrating me. And I'm going to sew him the suit of his fucking dreams to make up for this bullshit. Somehow. Scraping the money together is going to be a bitch but I genuinely don't know how much longer he's going to be able to keep doing this and he deserves to have it end on a high note. TLDR: If you can't match the standards when inheriting a custom commission, just fucking admit it. And if you've screwed up beyond all hope, REFUND YOUR CLIENTS.
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It was definitely the alcohol talking, that's what she told herself, the words tumbling out of her mouth as the gasp left her lips. "Oh my -- do you remember, I think it was the late 90s, maybe early 2000 and I got that terrible, and I mean terrible hair cut with the bangs?" pointing to her face, like she'd forgotten for just a moment that this was a man she'd spent the last couple of years despising for his actions. "I have this vague memory of you laughing, at my expense might I add."
It was a random memory.
Which she hadn't remembered since it'd happened: until now.
Unsettling. It's the unexpected that makes the unease worse.
And still, she leaned into this 'just tonight' facade like it was life-altering. It might be because Melissa hoped it would be. It was possible that working with Johnathan, who obviously didn't want her there had worn down her defenses over time. Or maybe it was because there were distant echoes of who they'd once been, juvenile and blinded by youth: people they would never be again, but who they'd once loved. Melissa Lin had spent a good majority of her life being disliked, it rarely bothered her anymore, but even she was not immune from an ambush when certain people were involved. Sometimes, she couldn't hide from those who had an effect on those perfectly controlled emotions she portrayed to everyone else.
Johnathan was one of them.
"They say people can change, and they're right. Some people do, but there's one thing you can always count on when it comes to me. That's consistency and the fact that I'm a self-proclaimed bitch." leaning forward over the armrest of her chair, she clinked their classes together with a savage smile. "Emotions are messy, people should have far less of them." Was she saying that to convince him, or herself? Melissa was someone who had to be read between the lines, never quite literal in everything she said, but only those who knew her knew what to look for.
There was subtly in everything she said, easter eggs in conversation but always lined with the facts. She didn't like to go into anything blind.
There was something strangely liberating, as he pretended to be her, and she hadn't quite been able to put her finger on it since their conversation had begun this evening. Even before their deal, it'd felt far more...amicable. It was almost as if they were simply being themselves, or the old versions they'd once known. An old sense of familiarity that differed from their usually fraught relationship.
"Fantastic impression, you truly went into the wrong profession, Johnathan, Bravo." she playfully mocked, placing down the flute to allow her hands to descend into a faux slow clap. "I have been known to turn into a bit of a monster when I'm hungry, though. You weren't that far off -- maybe that's where we've been going wrong all these years. Should've started journalling sooner. As the kids would say, it's giving less death and more torture poet."
When John leans forward, her brow inches with cool precision. "Nothing's wrong with me," she scoffs, yet, the smile remains. "I've been going to therapy -- and before you say anything." Holding her finger up, her eyes sparkling. "I'm a year in, and she suggested I make some friends outside of work. So I've been trying it." a beat passes as she flags down the waiter to order two more drinks. At least they were free. "Now, I've done a lot of the talking and you've told me absolutely nothing."
"No," he drops his voice in faux-incredulity, pursing his lips as he shakes his head lightly, "That doesn't sound like you." A jest, no matter how sarcastic, that could only be made with the burden of having known her. Familiarity is rarely woven into their conversations these days, if at all. It's something that would usually provide a blanket of comfort to most, but to them it serves as a tight noose around their neck. Tonight, however, it flutters idly in the space between them, no more noticeable than a butterfly flapping its wings.
At her comment, he simply responds with a small raise of the brows, as if to say: it is what it is. There was nothing he really wanted to say that. There was nothing he could say that wouldn't thwart them back to the past, or force them to mull over the future when it was clear that tomorrow would not be new day for them. So he takes a rather long sip of his drink, the glass hiding the fact that the corners of his lips had quirked upwards.
A brow quirks as she shuffles in her seat, prepared for whatever nonsense she was about to come out with. Instead, he fails to stifle a laugh. Even though it's mostly a grumble contained to the back of his throat, he could fucking hear himself. "Dear diary," he says, and it's his turn to sit up straight, crossing one leg over the other, mimicking her stupidly posh accent, "Today I felt a real human emotion. This is the first time that's happened to me. Then I realised, I was just hungry. Thank goodness for that."
It felt like he was talking to someone else. In a way, he sort of was. Guards down, masks off, here sat Melissa, the woman he had tried so hard with, instead of someone he was forced to work with because of they shared the same goal.
Although he doesn't show it, Johnathan is surprised when she shares that with him. Cooking. The number of Chinese dishes she'd ruined for him were too many to count. He didn't even know that she'd stopped. Brows pull together, gaze narrowing as he places his arm on the table and leans forward, inspecting her as if there's something wrong with her, "What the fuck is going on, are you dying?" A female friend? "Is that what you're calling Benjamin these days?"
#johnnparsons#johnathan & melissa#event ; awards 24#after party ; 24#location: berkeley estate#pre plot drop#johnathan parsons
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Confident 02 | jjk

↳ Summary: After giving Jungkook the best suck of his life he’s left wondering if what you said was true. Was it really your first time? ‘Cause Jungkook thinks you might’ve lied.
↳ Pairing: Jungkook x Reader
↳ Genre: Smut, fluff, angst, college au, fuckboy! jk, our fav cheeky virgin reader!
↳ Rating: 18+
↳ Word count: 8.8k
↳ Warnings: swearing, mentions of past toxic relationship, mentions of being pressured into sex, mentions of body image, mentions of stds, Jungkook being very confused, no smut in this part
↳ a/n: here it is !!! thank you for all the love for the first part, i hope you enjoy this part ! please feel free to leave any feedback <3
↳ Series: 01 | 02 | 03 | 04
Previously...
“She said it's her first time.” He pauses, looking up at his friends' concerned faces. “I think she might’ve lied.”
“I’m sorry, what?”
Jungkook groans, cradling his head before banging it on the table. The utensils on the table rattle and clang, bringing unwanted attention to his mini breakdown. Taehyung is quick to place his hand under Jungkook's forehead just as he goes in for another blow. “Ok, Jungkook- Jungkook!” Jimin giggles beside him. “Fucking stop, people are staring.”
Jungkook pauses and subtly peeks out of his long bangs, checking to see that Taehyung’s words were indeed true. He breathes out and sits up in his chair, fixing his shirt to play off that he wasn’t just having a mental meltdown.
Jimin rolls his eyes, “soooo are you gonna talk now, cause’ I have a horrible headache and you’re really not helping.”
Jungkook nods opening his mouth to speak. “Alright so uh, I met a girl last night and-”
“I thought you went home?” Taehyung shoves Jimin’s shoulder and Jungkook glares, “yeah, well that clearly didn’t happen.” He rubs his temples, “could you do me a favour and let me speak first, and then you can ask the questions. Ok?”
The two boys nod, settling into their seats as Jungkook delves back into his story.
“Alright so anyways, I saw this girl and like, I haven’t ever seen her before? She was literally perfect”. He exhales looking at nothing at particular as he continues. “Gorgeous face, prettiest lips and oh! speaking of her lips, God the way she sucked-”
Despite what Jungkook said earlier, Taehyung feels the need to intervene. “Ok as much as I love a good suck myself, I need you to stop here, we don’t need the graphics.” Jimin nods in agreement even though it’s clear he’s not paying an ounce of attention. Jungkook smirks at the memory, but it soon drops as he remembers one tiny detail. He places his hands on the table, total seriousness etched onto his face. “But here’s the kicker, she said it was her first time.”
Confusion.
“So did you or did you not take her virginity?”Jungkook crosses his arms. “No, after that she just up and left.” “Wait, fuck”, Jungkook suddenly realises, “I didn’t even make her cum”, he groans and Taehyung bursts into laughter. This finally garners Jimin’s attention, his dazed eyes squinting. “Who’s the girl?” Jungkook sighs, “if you were listening before you would’ve heard me say that I don’t know her.” Jimin leans forward,“well can you at least describe her? I pretty much know everyone who attended the party”
Jungkook doesn’t have to think that hard. “She was wearing this plaid skirt and like a white top-” Jimin’s eyes widen, “Holy shit, Y/N?! Man, Jin’s gonna kill you.” This makes Jungkook pause, thoughts running back to the text he had received from Jin. “Wait, they’re not a thing are they?” Jimin chokes, “God no, they’ve been family friends since like forever, Jin’s practically her protective older brother.”
That explained his text earlier. Jungkook furrows his brows, more questions beginning to arise and spill out of his mouth. “How come I’ve never met her and if she’s a virgin, then how- how did-”, Taehyung cuts in, “dude she’s done other things before.” More confusion. “And how would you know that?” Taehyung smirks, shrugging as he gets up out of his chair. “I'm gonna get a drink, Jimin, you want anything?” God, his head is spinning. “Sure, you know my usual.”
It was the way Taehyung spoke too casually, like your lifestyle choices were common knowledge. How the fuck hasn’t he met you, yet his friends seem to be well acquainted with your existence? “What the fuck was that look?” He focuses on Taehyung from where he orders his drinks. “Did you see it Jimin? Kinda sus.”
Jimin remains nonchalant, blowing a strand of hair out of his sight before answering one of Jungkook’s urgent queries. “Jin never introduced you to her because well…” He looks Jungkook up and down with an unimpressed look. “You would get your grimy hands on her immediately. And Then after that, It’s like she never existed ” Jungkook opens his mouth, rebuttal on the tip of his tongue. “Don’t argue with me boy, the second you met her, you already wanted her on your dick, did you not?”
Jungkook is shocked to say the least, jaw hanging open as Taehyung makes his way back to the table, drinks in hand. “Oh God, what did you tell him?” Jungkook slams his fist on the table, yet again grabbing the attention of people around them. “That is not true! I have standards, and what about you two. You guys are just as bad.” He points accusingly at the bruises peeking out of Taehyung’s loose shirt, “Look at Tae! Those hickies are probably a combination of the three girls he fucked last week!”
Jimin doesn’t want to get kicked out of the cafe, so he attempts to calm down a soon to be raging Jungkook. “Look, to put it nicely, you’re a heartbreaker, you lead girls on whereas Tae and I actually tell people we’re not interested in anything more than a hookup.”
Jungkook seems to understand where he’s coming from. He can admit, he does have quite the reputation if the amount of times he’s been slapped in the face says anything. But now, with this newfound information, he can also admit that you’ve certainly intrigued him, that was for sure.
Jungkook wants to see you again.
Not for a rump in the sheets, but rather a friendly conversation.
It was just his luck that he had heard through the grapevine that you had been invited to one of Jin’s small pool party get togethers. If Jungkook was being honest, he’s quite excited to be within your vicinity again but he knows he needs to keep his cool. Especially after the series of death threats and slaps on the neck from Jin. He shudders at the memory.
And so, Jungkook prepares himself more than he usually does. He wants to do it right this time. No flirty teasing, just friendly innocent conversation. He makes sure to carefully pick out the right swim shorts that display the thickness of his thighs. Not for any sexual gain, more so to show off the hours spent at the gym in hopes that maybe he can get you to become more interested in him as he is to you. He sounds desperate, and he’s sure you’re not that materialistic, but he has this nagging want to impress you somehow. He huffs and does a few pushups, for extra measure of course.
He’s not sure as to why his brain decided to make him act this way. You’re more or less a stranger to him. However, when Jungkook begins his short journey to Jin’s house he really lets himself think, which usually isn't a good idea.
Jungkook doesn’t know you, but you’ve definitely left an imprint in his mind which makes you all the more fascinating. It’s news to him that you seem to be very close to his small circle of friends which is probably thanks to your deeply rooted friendship with Jin. That new piece of information had been bugging him since the day he met up with Taehyung and Jimin. Surely his reputation couldn’t be the only reason why you’ve never met him. Right?
Parking his car in Jin’s enormous driveway, he makes his way up to the grand front door. Sometimes he wishes he could live a life like Jin. He grew up being fed with a silver spoon his whole life. Having everything paid for instead of rolling in the miseries of college student debt.
Once Jungkook makes his way into the large house, he sets down the drinks he had brought onto the kitchen counter and watches his best friends goof around and enjoy the summer sun with a warm grin. He chuckles quietly when Jin pushes Jimin and his perfectly styled hair into the pool. Jimin screams a slur of curses while Jin quickly runs beside a sleeping Yoongi for protection.
Slipping out of his loose oversized shirt, Jungkook scans the entirety of Jin’s backyard, looking for the face that has been haunting him since that fateful night. She’s not here. He reexamines the pool seeing nothing but the chaotic mess of his favourite people, and he sighs. Just as he prepares to step out into the blazing sun, the sound of his stomach growling stops him in his tracks.
Thinking about you made him nervous. So nervous that his stomach couldn’t bear the thought of breakfast. However, after the realisation that you hadn’t arrived just yet, makes him do a full one eighty, long strides taking him to Jin’s expensive fridge.
His head is already deep into the fridge when he hears the sound of the sliding door opening, revealing a dripping Jin with a small scowl on his face. It seems Jimin finally got his revenge. “I’m starving you got any leftovers?” Jungkook queries, his head popping out from the cool air of the fridge.
Jin grabs a fresh towel and whacks it against Jungkook’s naked back. “What’s the point of even asking when you’re already going through my damn fridge!” Jungkook flashes Jin an innocent grin and glows when he discovers a small bowl of Chinese takeout.
It very quickly dawns on Jungkook that in order to enjoy a nice warm meal, he would need to heat it up. His stomach all but roars, not used to the lack of food in its system and Jungkook wants to cry. He wants to cry and it's not from the angry hunger pains, but rather something extremely laughable. He has to use a fucking microwave.
You’re running late, there’s sweat running down your brow and you feel like your arms will fall off any second. The weight of snacks and alcohol you had brought making you stagger as you finally enter Jin’s enormous home.
The one and only thing that’s on your mind is the refreshing feeling of slipping into Jin’s pool while sipping on an iced beverage. This motivates you enough to put all the strength left in your exhausted being to speedily walk into the kitchen and throw everything onto the counter.
“AHH FUCK!” You flinch at the sudden scream, hugging your body protectively. Jungkook slowly pops out from behind the other side of the counter, his doe eyes big and wide. “You fucking scared me Jesus!” He exclaims, running a hand through sweaty bangs.
The air had escaped your lungs long before you could utter your next sentence as the sight before you has you freezing. There he was, Jeon Jungkook in all his glory. Tanned skin and taut muscle sculpted by the Gods. You didn’t mean to stare, but how could you not! Your eyes had a mind of their own. He’s glorious, every single part of him, and you’re not even afraid to admit it. Your eyes are quick to eat him up, tracing the art staining the whole of his right arm and you wonder what every swirl of ink means to him.
Jungkook coughs awkwardly, going in to scratch at his neck. You imagined he would tease you about your obvious ogling, but it never came. Strange. “Why were you hiding?” You ask, dropping your gaze from his body in order to arrange the snacks into neat piles, using it as an excuse to slowly step closer to him. “Oh! Uh-”, he scratches his head, looking down at his feet before jumping five feet into the air, a startled gasp leaving his lips when the timer of the microwave goes off.
You burst into laughter and Jungkook flushes in embarrassment. Jin had told you about Jungkook’s embarrassing fear of microwaves but you never thought you would see it first hand. You hold in the laughs that tickle your throat and try to settle him down by lightly touching his shoulder. He flinches at your touch.
“Are you okay?” You’re really close to him now. Your chest is practically pressed up against his and Jungkook gulps. How was it possible that you could look even more stunning than the last time he saw you? Your cheeks are glowing from the soft golden rays of the afternoon sun and the way you look up at him, your soft smile curling makes his head spin.
“Yeah, I’m good”, he breaks eye contact in embarrassment. “Sorry, just uh, microwaves are scary you know?” You giggle up at him. Is this really Jungkook? The Jungkook you’ve seen flaunting a new girl every week just to abruptly break her heart when he can’t promise anything more than sex?
You’re not complaining, he’s quite adorable like this.
You’re not too sure why his personality has the sudden switch up. It could possibly be the fact that he’s with his closest friends and doesn’t feel the need to put up his playboy persona. Although, the way he blushes when he looks at you plays a different story. Do you make him nervous? Surely not, if the memories of that heated night are anything to go by.
“So uh, are you gonna head into the pool?” His empty stomach is long forgotten as he gestures to the large backyard, you nod up at him excitedly. It’s then Jin decides to bust back into the kitchen, a stern gaze set on his face. “Y/N, can I speak with you for a minute?” Jungkook cautiously takes a step away from you, your bodies no longer close to each other and you notice this with a small frown.
“Yeah, sure”, you relent walking over to Jin who places a protective arm around your shoulders. Unknowingly to you, Jin traps Jungkook down with a hard stare and signals Jungkook to go outside, to which he accepts with a nod.
“I know what you’re gonna say, and no I do not see him like that”, you cross your arms defensively. Jin sighs, “I just don’t wanna see you get hurt again.” He places his hands on your shoulders, full lecture mode on. “Let’s face it, you’re a hopeless romantic, I can’t trust that you won’t do something stupid, but you and Jungkook… You’re both important friends of mine and-”
You’ve heard his overprotective brotherly speech plenty of times, “I know, and I’m so thankful that you’re looking out for me. I just don’t see the harm in befriending him, you’ve never let me speak to him before.” Jin releases his hold on your shoulders to fix the mess of his wet hair, “and there's a reason for that.”
Why was he so damn hard-headed. Jin loves Jungkook like he loves his family. It just didn't make any sense to you that Jin could approve of their friendship but when it comes to you, he completely shields you away from any interactions with the so called playboy.
“When are you going to stop protecting me from boys?” Jin senses your frustration immediately. “I may be younger than you, but I’m also an adult just like you. An adult that can make her own choices.” You exhale slowly, “You’ve let me befriend your whole group and they’ve been nothing but wonderful to me, I don’t see the wrong in getting to know Jungkook.”
Jin lets his guard down. You do have a point, maybe he was being a little too overprotective. He gives you a soft smile, you look away.
“You’re right, I am in no position to dictate your decisions and who you choose to hang around with, it was wrong of me to treat you like that. Jin looks out into the pool, watching Jungkook tackle Taehyung. “I’m sorry I was a bit too harsh, Jungkook’s a good kid, he just got into the wrong crowd at first. Although, you gotta promise to tell me if he hurts you, cause he knows I’ll beat his ass.”
You laugh accepting his apology, “are you sure about that? He’s a literal muscle pig.” You both begin to make your way outside and Jin shoves you slightly, “hey! You know I’m right.” Jin shakes his head and brings you into a comforting hug. “Yeah, yeah whatever.” He rolls his eyes, you beam up at him and together you walk out into the warm sunlight.
It hadn’t even been a second since you stepped outside, and already Yoongi’s long term girlfriend, Jieun is squealing your way. “Y/N! I’m so happy you're finally here, the amount of testosterone out here was starting to make me feel faint.” You giggle at her exasperated tone, pulling her into a tight hug.
Nonchalantly you peel off your flowy sundress, it’s stickiness from your sweat making you cringe. “I missed you last week, why didn’t you come to class?” Jiuen pouts, “I'm sorry bub, I somehow caught a cold, but I trust you have some notes for me.”
The way Jieun flutters her lashes at you innocently forces a roll from your eyes. Slathering sunscreen onto your arms, you reprimand her, “I swear you’re only using me for my notes, you literally never listen in class! Can you get my back please?”
She hums while you turn around, her small hands kneading sunscreen from your shoulder bones to the small dip in your back. Jieun continues to blabber on about the joys of life, not even checking if you’re listening to a single word she says. Instead your eyes are zeroed in on a certain someone.
Your staring is blatantly obvious but you don’t care. It’s only when Taehyung spots your burning gaze with a small smirk does he signal Jungkook to turn around to meet your flirty grin.
Holy shit
The sun does a real great job of highlighting the gorgeous curves of your body adorned in quite possibly the smallest baby blue bikini he’s seen on a woman. Your breasts practically spill out of the tiny triangle cups and the pretty colour compliments your skin beautifully.
Whilst Jungkook can admit you have one of the hottest bodies he’s seen in a while, his eyes surprisingly don't linger on your delicious curves for too long. Instead, he finds himself utterly enamoured by the way your eyes crinkle slightly when you smile prettily at him, your cheeks glowing with it.
It suddenly dawns on him that you are the first girl that has truly enchanted him, and no, your ridiculously gorgeous body had little to do with it.
Jungkook does not mind this change one bit.
So, instead of staring at you like a gaping goldfish, he matches your flirtatious body language with a boyish grin and a small wave. His previous nerves dissipating only to be replaced by confidence and polished charm. He doesn’t want to scare you off with his sudden look of epiphany just yet, but the new unfamiliar feeling you give him is surely doing exactly that.
“My, my, Yoongi wasn’t lying.” Jieun stifles a giggle when she notices how Jungkook’s attention has steered towards you and only you. You’re quick to turn around, brows furrowed. “What are you on about?”
“Oh you know… You and Jungkook”
You grimace, tired of the repeated topic of conversation. “Just because I sucked his dick once does not mean we're a thing”
“Oh really? He’s asked me an awful lot of questions about you I was beginning to think otherwise”
“Wait, really?”
Jieun has the widest cheshire grin plastered on her face, it's starting to look quite unsettling.
“Really.”
You’re thoroughly shocked to say the least. You thought your fast, fleeting blowjob, sort of, was nothing special. A usual escapade to get his daily fill. Ordinary. Unmemorable.
However, it seems to be quite the opposite.
Jieun grabs your hand and swings it back and forth, exactly like a mother would do, although she’s merely two years older than you. “I know Jin’s been up your ass about Jungkook and frankly I don’t blame him he’s still a little shit from time to time but, he’s actually quite fun to be around and honestly I think his playboy tendencies seemed to dial down a bit since he met us.” The two of you giggle quietly amongst each other, quick feet making your way closer to the pool to avoid the scorching pavement.
Your toes are the first to dip into the pool and you practically moan at the cold water melting away the blistering haze that sticks onto your skin. The water is icy at your waist and you love it. “So my advice would be not to worry about him, instead it's his little army of plastic bimbos that you should watch out for.”
“Ahh, internalised misogyny. We love to see it.”
Jieun acknowledges you with a hum as the two of you float around the calming abyss. She then swims closer to you, nodding her head into the direction of a lonely Jungkook, who lazily stares at your alluring form. “I think your loverboy over there wants to talk to you.”
Jieun swims away before you can protest, leaving you to face the handsome man before you. His eyes are round and docile, yet his stare is tantalising, it pulls you in as if he’s slowly reeling you in with a rope.
The water delicately ripples around your body when you approach him and you internally sigh in awe at the striking features of his stunning face. You want to use this opportunity to finally get to know him, and perhaps form a new friendship.
You take note of the lack of Jin’s hawk-like eyes or for better the lack of any eyes on the two of you. You’re alone, huddled into one of the far corners of the pool, your conversation private, just for two pairs of ears.
You open your mouth to speak, “So-”
“I-”
An uncomfortable silence stills the air and you both halt your words to giggle quietly amongst yourselves. God, this is awkward.
“You go first”, You offer, tucking a wet strand of hair behind your ear. Jungkook follows the subtle movement of your fingers before taking a deep breath.
“I feel like we should discuss the elephant in the room”
You're stunned. “Huh?”
“You know… That Friday night?”
Of course you knew what he was referring too, yet you wondered why as you honestly didn’t think that night had much impact on the man.
With a raised brow you ask, “What about it?”
“I’ve just had a lot of... thoughts”
You scratch your head feeling puzzled. You’re sure Jungkook has had better blowjobs in his lifetime. Hell, Jungkook did most of the work that night. “Do you usually discuss the past hookups you have, or am I just lucky today?”
You’re teasing him, nevertheless Jungkook tilts his head back towards the sky. All he wants is clarification, only this conversation is heading down an awkward path, so he decides to spit out what’s been bothering him for the past few days.
“Okay listen, I know this is odd to say, but ever since that night, It’s like I can’t get you out of my head.”
Your ego inflates at his statement and you smirk. You knew you could suck dick well, but according to Jungkook you seem to have quite the talent.
You smile proudly, “damn, look at me go, I can’t believe I have the campus playboy wrapped around my finger.”
Jungkook scoffs, both in annoyance and embarrassment because shit, he could have worded that differently, now he sounds like the clingy girls he fucks.
“Yeah, yeah let’s not pretend like I was the only one enjoying myself here. Weren’t you the one practically begging to be touched?”
You’re amused. “Weren’t you the one who couldn’t make me cum. Yet came from their own handjob?”
Jungkook tongues his cheek and looks away. The way you speak so casually intimidates him. No girl has ever spoken to him this way, in fact, Jungkook’s the one who usually likes to tease. He can slowly feel the creeping heat alighting his cheeks and God does he hope you don’t notice.
You patiently wait for Jungkook’s reply, a sly grin adorned on your pretty face. However, Jungkook doesn’t say anything, rather he frowns and immaturely splashes water at your face.
“Jungkook!” You sputter, wiping at your face to rid of the chlorine in your eyes. “What the fuck was that for?”
He shrugs, “sorry my hand must’ve slipped”
You don’t take that for an answer, your petty nature crawling out as you splash him back harder than he had done. “Hand slipped, my ass.”
You cross your arms smugly, a small laugh blossoming out of your mouth when Jungkook cutely rubs at his eyes.
It’s after a minute when you realise Jungkook hasn’t stopped furiously rubbing his eyes. The circular motions of his hand move so intensely that it begins to look painful and irritating. “Fuck, it stings”, he exclaims in agony.
Shit, you inwardly curse, gently touching his wrist, concern lacing your features because you didn’t think getting chlorinated water in one's eye would sting that much. You analyse his facial expressions closely and you wince at the redness surrounding his eyes from his harsh rubbing.
On the contrary, Jungkook knows exactly what he’s doing. He’s competitive and won’t back down from a fight, even if it’s just fun banter, so he continues his little scheme just for the fun of it and hides his small grin under his large hands.
You’re now slightly panicked, “fuck, Jungkook I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to hit the water that hard I-”
Jungkook cracks.
Ever so slowly, he peeps his eyes out at you and watches with a mischievous smirk as your face morphs from alarmed to annoyed in less than a millisecond.
You tighten your grip on his wrist and attempt to slap his hard chest with your free hand, however Jungkook’s reflexes are fast and he grasps your hand tightly, a teasing glint in his eye.
“You little shit-”
All of a sudden a loud holler is heard from the front door, rousing a relaxed Jin out of his chair as he sprints while simultaneously yelling at the ruckus being made. It’s then a stampede of both familiar and unfamiliar faces come crashing in. Some jump straight into the pool to cool off from the blazing sun while others rush to the table of assorted alcohol, desperate to get an ounce of it in their system.
Word seemed to go around about Jin’s supposed small get-together unbelievably fast, causing the once tranquil Kim Seokjin into a raging volcano.
You’re pressed right up against Jungkook’s solid chest and he surprisingly pays you no mind, even though your perky tits are deliciously pushed up perfectly against his body. Jungkook’s eyes are not settled on them, rather he pays close attention to the amount of people dangerously plunging into the pool at a fast rate.
Jungkook protectively hugs your shoulders to shield you from the rowdy party goers who definitely do not understand the definition of personal space. Your heart swells when he then delicately places your head in the crook of his neck and wraps an arm around your fairly exposed body, essentially guarding you from frantic wet limbs and ignorant individuals.
You feel comfortable and safe, so comfortable that you wouldn’t mind staying like this for a while if it weren’t for the throng of college students delving into the cooling water.
Jin’s house begins to fill with unexpected guests very quickly and you wonder how Jin is handling the situation. You suppose not very well when you see him whipping people with towels, red ears making an appearance and his booming voice following him.
Jungkook wants to get out and he’s sure you feel the same way which is why he smoothly slots his hand into your own, long fingers wrapping around your hand to carefully pull you through the growing crowd of people in the pool.
Whilst pushing past a variety of college students you are met with many stares, even worse, numerous envious eyes and whispers of possible gossip. You try your best to avoid their gazes, the hard stares reminding you of the last time Jungkook held your hand to push through groups of people.
Water drips down the curves of your body and lands in little pools around you when you step out of the pool. At this point you’ve garnered even more turning heads that examine every inch of your skin closely. Their stares itch your skin and you feel akin to an animal kept in a zoo enclosure, curious eyes breaking down your confidence, you want to hide.
You usually like to pride yourself on your confidence because you know you’re hot and you know your worth. It had taken many failed relationships to build up your self love and nourish the scars and memories of questioning if you’re good enough.
You fight on and squeeze Jungkook’s hand, mostly for some sort of reassurance. It shocks you when he astonishingly squeezes back and softly rubs his thumb over the back of your hand. It’s almost as if he knows how you’re feeling.
You glance up at him shyly. Jungkook keeps his eyes straight ahead. He smiles a different kind of smile than the one he had directed to you a few hours ago. His lips are in a permanent smug smirk. His usual playboy smile. He flashes it at everyone as if he’s asking for their approval and even goes in to high-five a few people who are unrecognisable to you. You soon realise that this is what Jungkook thrives on. People, validation and his notorious reputation he’s created for himself.
Jungkook lights up at the presence of crowds, flirty smiles and people calling his name, whereas you want to crawl into your skin and run away because from the perspective of outsiders it looks like you’re just another one of Jungkook’s flings that will soon be forgotten by next week.
Well, you hope you won’t turn out to be one of them.
At last you find yourself away from the heart of the party, your dress in hand but your body still wet nonetheless. Jungkook is in the same state as yourself, droplets of water dribbling from his dark hair and onto the timber flooring. He leans into your ear, “I’ll go get us some towels, stay here.”
He’s gone before you can reply, making small conversation when he passes by various people, his boisterous laugh echoing down the halls.
You’re alone now, and defenceless at that. There’s not many people you know here, besides the few odd people you share a class with and some sleazy frat boys that hold a similar reputation to Jungkook. You want to find Jieun so you can hug her or maybe ask her if she can take you home, but she is nowhere to be found.
Fuck, You remember leaving your bag on the kitchen table, unsupervised with many personal belongings stowed away inside. Using your dress to cover the most of your exposed skin like a blanket, you stride over to the kitchen and sigh in relief when you find your bag untouched and in perfect condition.
Snatching up your bag, you grab your phone and immediately text Jieun to find out where the fuck she’s hiding, but there’s a part of you that knows she’s probably fucking Yoongi somewhere. Traitor.
Jungkook finds you to be in a completely different part of the house than where he asked you, one towel wrapped around his neck and the other draped over his arm. You haven’t noticed him yet, your frantic fingers texting a treacherous Jieun, “princess, didn’t I tell you to stay put?”
You’re startled. Switching your phone off you stick your arm out, waiting for Jungkook to pass you the towel but he doesn't. Jungkook gently pushes your shoulders so that you turn away from him and carefully wraps the towel around your body like a cape. You hold the edges of the fabric to help him hug the towel around yourself, keeping it tighter to your body.
Your voice is quiet, “thank you.”
Jungkook leans down to meet your face, “What was that?”
Even though Jungkook had been in the pool longer than you, his cologne still sticks to his skin and you kind of want to breathe more of it in, but that would be weird.
“Oh, I said thank you.”
You’re close to him again, although this time he towers over you with a look almost identical to a predator meeting its prey.
Jungkook’s eyes flirt around your face and descend. He shamelessly drinks up the swell of your breasts and whatever skin is visible amidst the fluffy towel around you. It’s strange. You had noticed Jungkook doing the exact same thing when you were alone with him. The difference though was that his looks were cursory as if he didn’t want to make you uncomfortable. Now, It's like a new persona had taken over him and he was ready to pounce at any sign of a green light.
He’s stuck in a trance, fuckboy tinted glasses fogging his vision.
You force out a giggle and playfully shove his shoulder, “my eyes are up here, you know.”
His reply comes lighting fast, he’s definitely been in this position before. “I know, just admiring them.”
Jungkook wants to hit himself the second his reply spewed out of his mouth. He desperately wants to reassure your unimpressed (though also very cute) face, because goddammit he wanted to be respectful. Jungkook knows he has a tendency to slip into a new personality when the right amount of people hyped him. Call it being two faced, he knows it's one of his fatal flaws.
“I'm sorry.”
He says it genuinely.
Jungkook only just got to properly meet you, he doesn’t want to give you the wrong impression! He can admit, your first ever official meeting (moreso hookup) wasn’t ideal, yet the way Jin dragged him through the mud undoubtedly made him understand that you weren’t the type of woman that should ever undergo the treatment he puts his hookups through. Scratch that, any woman shouldn’t be treated the way Jungkook treats them.
You're now fully covered under the towel, not a sliver of skin on display. You don’t know if his apology was genuine. “It’s ok I guess, I expected nothing less from you anyways.”
“Right.” He’s messed up.
You clear your throat, “I’m gonna go get changed, maybe look for Jieun unless-”
Jungkook finishes your sentence, “-she’s fucking Yoongi.”
You exhale, “yeah.”
“Jeon Jungkook!”
The voice makes you halt at its familiar tone. Jungkook doesn’t notice your growing panic as he too freezes in his spot.
No, it can’t be.
The world plays in slow motion when he walks into your line of vision. His assertive stride, smug smile and sharp eyes.
Jeong Suho.
His name explodes inside of you like a blistering fire yet your heart feels ice cold. He is the very man you have spent weeks trying to avoid and even more trying to get out of your head.
The world plays at a normal speed when he approaches Jungkook. Their facial expressions are the same, the way they greet each other is the same. They’re practically the same breed of fuckboy, born from the same mother.
“Been awhile since I’ve seen you around.”
Jeong Suho was a person that Jungkook didn’t really mind, In fact there was a point in Jungkook’s life where he would’ve considered Suho to be one of his closest friends. They were two peas in a pod freshmen year of college. Never giving a fuck about their education and always present for any opportunity to get completely wasted with as many girls they could possibly seduce. Nowadays, Jungkook would rather keep his distance from him.
On the contrary, you were one of the many girls that had fallen deeply for Suho’s alluring charm. You fell so hard, you thought that maybe just maybe there was a possibility that you could secure a future with him. Obviously that was not the case.
You thank your lucky stars that Jungkook was there to distract Suho while you make your haste escape. All you need to do now is somehow locate an unoccupied bathroom, preferably without having to walk in on someone getting it on, and then you could get the hell out of there.
You must admit, you look quite ridiculous right now. Navy blue towel wrapped tightly around your body, your small head peeking through. You could probably pass as some form of E.T cosplay right now. You don’t care if you look rude, pushing and shoving whoever stands in your way. You only have one goal and you’re so so close to succeeding-
“Wait, Y/N! Is that you?”
Fuck.
Do you run? Maybe duck behind some poor innocent student looking for a good time? You huff, you're already sticking out like a sore thumb, there’s no use in trying to hide when the enemy has already spotted you. Even worse Jungkook motions you over with a wide gleaming smile. If only he knew how much you’re dreading this interaction.
Grudgingly, you walk over, looking like an irritated gremlin with your towel still firmly secured around you. Jungkook makes matters worse by pushing the towel off your head, releasing your scruffy ball of hair. You grimace.
“I didn’t know you knew Y/N?”
Suho sends a smirk your way. You however, glower.
“Yeah we go way back, don’t we baby?”
You force a tight lipped smile, howbeit you look as if you have a mild case of constipation.
“Sure.” It comes out rough through gritted teeth.
Suho notes your frustration, a sly grin carving onto his punchable face. He turns towards Jungkook, seemingly blocking you from their conversation, yet you know Suho wants you to hear what he has to say.
“You know it’s a shame. Y/N’s gorgeous, ten outta ten body, knows how to put it to good use, however she never let me fuck her. Don’t you think that’s weird?”
Jungkook stays silent for a minute, eyeing your shaking fists and angry eyebrows. Jungkook may be dumb, but he sure knows how to read a room, thus leading him to the conclusion that your relationship with Suho isn’t something you’re very fond of and that he should probably get you out of here.
“Uhhh no, that’s not weird at all actually. What I think is weird is the fact that you think you have this sick claim on every girl you’ve defiled and even worse, you’ve always had this strange need to chase after every virgin you see like some perverted cherry picker. Yeah, that’s weird.”
Suho laughs right in his face, spit grossly tickling his skin. “That’s rich coming from you Jeon, weren't you quite the cherry picker in your freshman days, no?”
Jungkook doesn’t know what he expected from this conversation. It definitely wasn’t this.
It's obvious that Jungkook isn’t a saint, he really fucking far from it. Although, one thing's for sure, it’s his absolute hatred for the way his brain was wired in his freshman year of college. Yes, Jungkook still remains as one of the standing campus fuckboys but he’s gained a few more brain cells since then.
Jungkook opens his mouth to retort, only to be met with Suho’s back as he turns his attention towards you.
“Y/N, darling if I were you i’d make a run for it, ya know keep your chastity intact or whatever.” His smile is saccharine sweet, though his words are sickly sour.
The months of pent up anger stored within your being bubbles and overflows like a bad science experiment. You’ve quickly decided that now’s that time to expose the shitty excuse of a man, and quite frankly you don’t care that you have an audience. Actually, an audience would make this all the better.
Your finger is strong, pointing accusingly at his broad chest. “You know what you stupid motherfucker? Don’t waltz in here with that dumb smile of yours when you know you have some disgusting cheesy infection growing down there.”
Suho’s eyes widen slightly. It was no secret he was a walking STD, just about infecting every girl that was naive enough to sit on his dick.
Everyone at the party has definitely stopped to listen to what you have to say. You even spot Jin from the corner of your eye sending you a proud smile. “And while we're on the topic of cheese, Learn how to wash your fucking dick!”
You don’t let him have a moment to speak, grabbing Jungkook’s hand and pulling him out of the house.
A few people applaud, some girls praise you on your way out. You give them no mind, you’ve had enough for tonight.
Jungkook starts his car, no questions asked. It’s obvious to him that there’s bad blood between you and Suho. What you don’t know is that Jungkook can also relate.
Technically there was no bad blood between them, moreso the hurtful memories and manipulation Suho put him through. To put it simply, Suho was probably the worst influence Jungkook could ever have as a vunerable freshman.
The crunch of gravel and soft melodies that spill out of Jungkook’s radio converse with eachother and fill the defeaning silence that sits between you and Jungkook.
Jungkook doesn’t even know where he’s going, he just drives.
Every so often he checks up on you from the corner of his eye. Your knees stick tightly together and point away from him. Your fingers curl and uncurl, leaving cresent moons in your skin. And to finish it off, your face remains still, hostility completely washing over your features. If Jungkook didn’t know any better he would think you’d jump out of his car and make a run for it at the chance of him stopping the car.
It’s seven sniffles later when Jungkook decides he knows where he should take you.
The night sky is clear and the stars burn brightly to accompany the full round moon. It’s the perfect setting for release and maybe a screaming session if you’re up for it.
Jungkook makes a stop behind a forest of tall trees and a dirt path. You sit up immediately.
“Where are we?” Your eyes are rimmed with tears, “I want to go home.”
Jungkook shuts the engine off, “you never told me where you live.”
“Well you never asked!”
Maybe you shouldn’t have yelled because from the looks of it, Jungkook just wants to help you out and clearly you’re not being the friendliest right now.
You curl back into yourself, “sorry”, another sniffle.
Jungkook brings your fists into his hands and warmly opens them up. You refuse to look at him, it doesn’t deter Jungkook one bit.
Tenderly he brings a finger under your chin, gradually bringing your eyes up to his. Jungkook takes his time with you, careful to not set you off until you’re face to face with his warm eyes.
“I brought you here because it’s apparent we both need let out some pent up steam.” He drags his fingers delicately across the curve of your chin and back into his lap. His touch is fleeting, you miss it already. “I just thought you may want to vent or just shout out into the void, it’s up to you.” You nod, fully trusting Jungkook’s intentions. “And at any time you feel like going home just say the word and I’ll take you there, okay?”
Your heart swells in adoration at his caring nature, though you can’t help but wonder how he can have such a sudden change in personality depending on where he is and who he’s with. It’s unnerving.
Jungkook clicks his seatbelt off and heads out the car, “put your dress back on princess, I’ll be out here waiting for you.” You mutter your confirmation and do as he asks.
The cool summer air kisses your skin and runs through your hair as you step out of the car. Jungkook is already by your side dressed in an oversize hoodie with another in his hand as well as a fuzzy blanket.
Jungkook steps closer to you, holding the hem of his hoodie to slip over your body. Without a second thought you raise your hands causing Jungkook to chuckle at how cute you look dwarfed in his clothes.
The same cologne you smelled on his skin earlier lingers on every fibre of fabric around you. His scent is everywhere, swirling around your head, instantly calming down your anxieties. You smile at him, “Lead the way Jungkook.”
Jungkook leads you up a small hill and you notice the trees opening up to display a lush field of grass. However, the sight before you leaves you in absolute wonder. You stand completely still and take it all in.
The night sky is dark but the city below illuminates is beautifully. Your gaze bounces over all the buildings, skyscrapers and their dazzling bright lights. It’s peaceful up here, you decide as you take a glimpse of the hundreds of tall structures looking so tiny, so ant-like.
Jungkook is settled behind you, his legs comfortably folded underneath himself. He remembers what it was like the first time he saw the view, which is why he doesn’t blame your stunned silence and glazed eyes.
“How did you find this place?”
You find your way towards Jungkook and plant yourself right beside him. “I don’t know, I was just driving aimlessly one night and found it, It’s nice right.”
You hum, “it’s beautiful.”
Jungkook murmurs in agreement as you lie down on the woolly blanket beneath you. The stars twinkle and glimmer amongst the deep blue sky, creating a serene experience. You shut your eyes.
“I hate him.”
Jungkook looks down at you, you don’t see him though. “Suho?”
“Yeah”, you exhale deeply, “I can’t believe I had to see him again.”
Although Jungkook knows you can’t see him, he swivels his body around to face you properly. “Did you guys date or something?”
You scoff, “pffft you know Suho doesn’t date anyone.” You open your eyes, meeting a pair of round docile ones. You continue, “Suho was the first guy who every gave me an ounce of attention. Before him guys never looked my way. Jungkook remains silent, letting you pour out what’s on your mind.
“Suho had me fooled, I thought I was special to him, thought he saw something in me that was different from the others. Turns out that was his game after all”
You speak so animatedly, your hands wave around in the air, your eyebrows scrunch when the memories come back to you. “It’s stupid really, how I used to gush to him about finding the one person in the universe that was created just for me. I guess he used this as my weak point.”
Inhale, exhale.
“He made me believe he was that special person for me, used it as an excuse to pressure me into sex.” A tear rolls down the side of your face, falling perfectly in a straight line. “I almost gave in, but something just felt so wrong. Every time I said no he would call me terrible names, tell me that no one would want me if I never gave them what they wanted. And I believed him.”
Another tear escapes your wet orbs, Jungkook is there to wipe it this time.
“I broke it off after I found out he fucked my roommate and gave her some disease.” You chuckle, “I guess I’m lucky I never let him fuck me huh?”
Jungkook’s heart breaks at your saddened eyes and the way Suho treated you, he sweeps a stray hair out of you face. “I think you dodged a bullet there princess, what he did to you was pure evil, no one, and especially you don’t deserve that”
You sit up, wiping remaining tears and thanking him as you go, “It’s your turn now.” You pat his thigh, “tell me why Suho got you so riled up tonight.”
Jungkook shuffles in his spot, “It’s actually kind of similar to you.”
You gasp sarcastically, “no way he pressured you into sex too?”
He laughs, eyes squeezing shut, “No, no, nothing like that.”
You lean closer to Jungkook, giving him the same attention he had given you. “My father left when my mother found out she was pregnant with me, so growing up I had no male figure present in my life. My mother stopped at nothing to give me that to the point that almost every week I’d wake up and see a new man drinking out of my favourite mug. I didn’t mind it because I was only a child and some part of me always hoped they would stay, but they never did.”
“My mom was a hopeless romantic. She held so much sentimental and idealistic views on love that it stuck to me. She always told me that there was someone special out there just for me.” You smile at the similar belief, Jungkook sighs.
“Cut to college, Suho was the first friend I made. I had no experience with girls whatsoever, and I still held on to my mother’s faith. Whenever I talked to Suho about it he would always shut me down or make fun of me.”
“He told me that all my feelings are bullshit, and that I only felt that way because I’ve never hooked up with anyone before. Next thing I knew we were going to parties every week getting absolutely shitfaced and fucking every girl I laid eyes on.”
You nod, listening intently. “And tonight, he hit a nerve. What he said made me realise that I’m just as bad as him. He moulded me into this person and now I have a reputation.”
Jungkook’s eyes drop, “he broke my concept of love before I even got to experience it.”
You never knew Jungkook was in a place like this. You always thought he was like Suho, built to break hearts and show no emotion when it came to love. Jungkook was nothing like that. His heart was truly big, desperately longing for someone.
Placing your hand on top of his own you comfort him as best as you can, “oh, Jungkook, trust me when I tell you this, the love in your heart is not broken. Think about it, most people you’ve met have been through college right?” He nods, “there are so many other people out there that you’ve never met, soon you’ll be able to find that someone and learn how to love. I know you present yourself as this emotionless playboy, but once you let that part of you go it’ll feel so freeing.”
Jungkook stares deeply into your eyes, he’s so thankful that he decided to bring you here, he can’t contain his happiness.
“Can I like, hug you?” Jungkook asks shyly. You smile, and it’s so big and bright Jungkook might as well be staring at the sun. Before he knows it, you’re tackling him into the most wholesome hug he’s ever had. You’re warm and you smell like vanilla, It feels like home.
“Get up”, he says abruptly, extending his arm to pull up your confused self.
“What-”, Jungkook cuts you off, “have you ever just let yourself scream?”
Jungkook has intertwined your hands together, and your heart pounds at the realisation of how well they fit together. “Well, no but I assume that’s what we’re about to do right now.”
He pulls you closer to the edge of the small hill, the view of the city sparkles right in front of you. “On the count of three, one- two- three!”
You scream, you let it all out and God does it feel refreshing.
The two of you sound utterly insane, but none you give a single fuck. You scream until your lungs burn and your throat itches you to stop.
The volume of both of your voices ring out into the night sky only for the moon, stars and yourselves. The night is still young but Jungkook wouldn’t have it any other way.
With you he lets go of everything, all the past mistakes, all the hurt because at this moment he feels like he could fly, soar into the clouds.
He feels infinite.
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Hi! Got a prompt for you if you're interested (feel free to write a drabble, a one-shot, or a multi-chap): Levihan, "One more chance." Open to interpretation. Thanks, and good luck! :)
okay so i decided to combine this prompt together with my headcanon for that levihan ring merch for a canon setting one-shot!

One More Chance
"What do you think of rings?" Hange asks Levi out of the blue, in the little room that could suffice as an office for his unofficial position as second in command.
"Why?" Levi knows that Hauge doesn't ask questions out of the blue without motives.
They could be random, absurd, silly, but there was always a reason behind their questions.
Hange plants one elbow on the table, bent forward in anticipation for Levi's answer. His eyes catch the glint of Hange's bolo tie as it swung back and forth.
Jewellery? Vanity aside, Hange knows better than Levi how expensive it is to obtain warm clothing and food, much less a bunch of shiny rocks. They spent days mulling over the Survey Corps’ budget, where to allocate resources, how to seek funding, and to keep expenses humane but tight.
“Why?” He repeats, unsure as to whether to sneak in a crass joke as Hange’s eyes were shining—in a different tone compared to the bright-eyedness that showed whenever they made a new discovery. It was, what was it? Nostalgia? Levi is certain that Hange had never, of ten years being by their side, even hinted at a desire for a ring, for whatever reason they might yearn for the object.
Hange knows Levi is perturbed—suspicious, even. They know that such an ambiguously-worded question, simple as it was, will not warrant a straightforward answer from Levi. He is far too observant to not think of Hange’s line of questioning as uncharacteristic from the usual. The usual Hange will elaborate; they will give details. Perhaps this is a ring made from a special sort of metal to go undetected from metal sensors to sneak past the enemy and pass on valuable information etched in code on the inside, for example. Whatever reason that prompted Hange to take a sudden interest in rings wasn’t for battle, or for moral good, which frankly, is more embarrassing for them.
“Do you keep those patches with you?” Hange changes the topic. Levi blinks, then turns to the drawer and pulls the handle. The open drawer speaks for itself; filled with rows and rows of haphazardly torn patches of the Survey Corp’s uniform, the emblem of the wings of freedom.
“You keep it here, huh…” Hange muses, touching one patch tenderly, feeling the crusted blood stain at the tip of their finger.
“Do you remember who each patch belongs to?”
Levi shakes his head, not defending the lack of differentiation between the patches. To him, each patch is louder than a name attached to it. A fellow soldier whose heart he carried on within him.
“If I die, Levi, will you bring back my patch?”
“Don’t ask stupid questions.” Levi is quick to retort, sounding mildly irritated that Hange brought up the possibility of death.
“We all die someday.”
“We should think about how to stay alive,” Levi says firmly. “And what does any of this have to do with rings?”
Hange laughs, patting Levi on the shoulder affectionately. “You won’t let that go, huh?”
“It seems important,” Levi says, disgruntled. “You’re not usually so hesitant.”
“It’s not.” Hange waves their hands defensively, straightening up to avoid Levi’s gaze.
“What’s that in your pocket? Your hand keeps touching it.” Levi is sharp as ever, Hange thinks, itching to back out and tend to more important commander duties.
“Maybe next time! I have to go!” Hange brisk-walks out of the office, leaving Levi in the dust. He has the immediate urge to follow them, to grab their arm and ask what’s wrong, to force some kind of coherent understanding to this muddled conversation. Yet, he continues sitting on the chair, wondering if their mutual awkwardness had swept past them in the form of a lost opportunity. The patches flutter a little in the wind, as though asking him, what are you so afraid of?
He closes the drawer and sinks back onto the creaky, wooden chair, waiting for Hange to come back.
The next time he sees them again is when he’s so battered that his back trembles at the prospect of sitting on another hard surface. The series of negotiations, arguments, plans, fly past him in a whirlwind of decisions led by Hange. He occasionally spots the bulge in their side pocket, but his head is spinning with a million of other more dire worries to figure out what the hell is this unresolved mystery from months ago.
One night, as Hange tends to the bandages around his head, traces the stiches on his face, and mumbles quiet nothings about how they’re glad he’s alive, he finally lifts a shaky hand to point at the bulging pocket.
“Are you going to tell me what’s in that?”
“Nothing that will help us stop this mess,” Hange says, sweeping some of the fringe off his forehead to wipe the sweat underneath.
“But it’s important to you,” he states. Hange nods slowly.
“And you want to show it to me.” He tries, unaccustomed to the presumptuousness of his claim. But there is little time. If there was ever time before, now they were running on thin, cracked lines of time, teetering over the edge.
Hange sighs, and stuffs a reluctant hand into their pocket to bring out a small box.
“Don’t worry, I didn’t use the Scouts’ funds.”
“The Survey Corps doesn’t exist anymore,” Levi reminds them, to distract his mind from speculating endlessly about what’s in the box. He wants to sit up. Physically straining himself feels unwise, so he settles with tilting his head to get a clearer view of both Hange and the box.
Hange carefully holds his shoulders to sit him up, leaning him against them.
“I got rings for us.”
“Huh?”
The box is opened, and inside were two shining rings in silver and gold. Purple embellishment on the gold and green on silver. Not to mention it was heart-shaped rings. Levi feels his cheeks getting warmer by the second by its blatant implications, and is thankful that the bandages literally covered half his face.
“I know, I told them not to make it heart-shaped but you know when Reeves knew it was for you he said I had to make it obvious, whatever that meant,” Hange says quickly, snapping the box shut so as to save themselves from having to confront what was glaring at them.
“It’s not practical for fighting,” Levi murmurs, reaching out to take the box from Hange.
“Dedicate your hearts… wasn’t that what Erwin said?” Hange, always the one to inject light humour in tense situations, decides it will be alright to quote Erwin’s war cry in what is essentially a confession.
“Right.” Levi opens the box, looking expectantly at Hange.
“What?”
“Rings are for wearing, right?”
“You said they weren’t practical!”
“We’re not fighting now.”
Running their hands through their hair, Hange looks rather sheepish. “It’s a bit selfish but I just want to be remembered. As more than a patch.”
Levi frowns, bandages crinkling. “You think I’ll forget you?”
“I don’t know.”
“I won’t forget you. Ring or no ring.”
Upon hearing the seriousness of Levi’s voice, the light-heartedness returns to Hange, as they cheekily present the ring to them.
“Well then, will you dedicate your heart to me, shitty Captain?”
“Whatever, Four-eyes.” He says it as flippantly as he can, yet handles the ring like sudden movement will break it.
“Hah! I wonder what the kids will say about the rings…” Hange stretches out and lays beside Levi, admiring the ring on their hand amidst the backdrop of night stars. He takes their hand and weaves his fingers through it, placing their interlocked hands on his chest.
After the plane takes off, Levi’s eyes are trained on the floor. The plane rattles, swerves, and gains momentum. Everyone around him is emotional—rightly so, because their leader had said a fleeting goodbye before leaping to their death. He holds one hand in the other, feeling the cold metal on his finger. Rings don’t leave the smell of Hange’s skin when they lie their head on his shoulder after a long day. Rings don’t capture the sound of Hange’s laugh when they make friendly banter with their juniors, or when Levi makes the occasional, dry joke that only they pick up on. Rings don’t emulate the dialogue of their late-night discussions in his office, the tea that he makes and that they drink from the same cup—to save the time needed for washing, according to Hange. He doesn’t protest.
Still, the ring is all he has left. The one chance Hange had, they entrusted in him this ring. They could translate Levi’s words into more palpable versions for other people, but they could not for the life of them come up with words to express their more vulnerable feelings. For Hange, the ring was another chance to cement what remained unspoken: I hope you remember me. I’m here with you.
The last chance Levi had, he placed a fist on their heart.
“Dedicate your heart.” The ring flashes in the sunlight, making Hange blink back tears.
Now, he clutches one hand in the other.
“See you, Hange.” The ring stares back, patiently. He closes his eyes, bringing the thin, metal sentiment to his lips.
“Keep watching us.”
thank you for the prompt @djmarinizelablog !! ^_^
#aot#levihan#rings#levi ackerman#hange zoe#levi x hange#fanfiction#my writing#hanji zoe#shingeki no kyojin#prompt#how many times can i use these same three lines from chapter 132#yes i admit merch has inspired my writing what can i say#tbh a heart shaped ring irl sounds hard to wear XD
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@enlitment sorry for the late reply, i completely forgot about this QwQ
anyways
last book i read: jacques lacan: the basics by calum neill. i got curious about his philosophy after watching a yt video essay and chose a random book about him avilable on my audiobook subscription (storytel). i can't really tell how accurate it was but i did enjoy it. also it's written in a very beginer-friendly way so i guess i can recommend it even if you don't know anything about philosophy
a book i recommend: please please please read Stoner by John Williams i need someone to talk to about it. if you like sad and thought-provoking reads, this is a book for you. it tells a story of the life of William Stoner, a literature professor at a local university, from his childhood until his death. i think the true tragedy of this book is how usual stoner's pain is - you probably know someone like him, someone whose life is so average and yet so miserable. i could literally spend hours talking about this book, it's just so good and so full of nuance. it really changes your life perspective, especially if you're into academia. that being said, you need to be in a good mental state to read it since it's quite depressing (i lowkey had a nervous breakdown after reading this).
a book i couldn't put down: at first i bought six of crows by leigh bardugo as a light, casual read and really didn't expect to like it as much as i did. the characters are very well-written and the story, though slow-paced, was incredibly captivating
a book on my tbr: i got norwegian wood by haruki murakami from my friend for christmas so now it's pretty high on my tbr
a book i've put down: i'll probably trigger my polish moots with this but the doll by bolesław prus. in theory, it has everything i like in a book - long, complicated and multi-layered story set in the 19th century. but i just hated all the characters so much i couldn't care less for their thoughts and feelings and quit reading altogether
a book on my wishlist: choosing terror by malisa linton has been on my tbr for the longest time but the book is so expensive QwQ. i have it in pdf, but my eyesight is terrible, so reading it like this is super inconvenient and overall unpleasant for me
a book i would give to a friend: the secret history by donna tartt is hardly ever on my bookshelf, that's how often i lend it
a book of poetry/lyrics you own: i 've got quite a lot, but if i had to choose something that stands out, i have six books of juliusz słowacki's selected works that i read from time to time. it was printed in the '80s so it is kinda falling apart (bthe quality of books wasn't very good in communist poland unfortunately) but i like this edition a lot anyway (PIW, dzieła wybrane, 1987)
a non-fiction book you own: i also have a few of these, but my top non-fiction recommendation is europeans: three lives and the making of a cosmopolitan culture by orlando figes. it's full to the brim with information about 19th century european music, art and literature, while remaining very captivating throughout its entire lenght
currently reading: odd girls and twilight lovers: a history of lesbian life in 20th century america by lillian faderman since i figured it's about time to learn something about queer culutre other than tumblr.com lol
planning on reading next: either where are your boys tonight? by chris payne which is a book about the "myspace era" of emo music that i also got for christmas or madame bovary by gustave flaubert - a classic that i have to read for school which i think i'll really like
sorry for the rambling, i just like talking about my book so much <3
no-pressure tags: @18thcenturythirsttrap @ernycek @scarlett-eclipse-blacksorrow @asukvm @plrle @yourpigeonwife @ceionia @orpheusmori @fromarabellawithlove and anyone whod like to join (give me your recs😈😈😈)
Thanks for the tag, @acrossthewavesoftime! I did one of these ages ago, but they're really fun, so here goes.
Last book I read: Temeraire by Naomi Novik. A beloved and comforting favourite.
Book I recommend: Depends who you are, but I'd almost universally suggest Piranesi by Susanna Clarke to anyone looking for magic, weirdness and profound empathy.
Book I couldn't put down: Foucault in Warsaw/Foucault w Warszawie by Remigiusz Ryziński. Haunting.
A book on my TBR: The Dream of Enlightenment by Anthony Gottlieb. Picked it up cheap in Oxford and it looks promising.
A book I've put down: I probably said this last time too, but Donna Tartt's The Goldfinch. Slogged through the first 100+ pages and just couldn't find anything to keep me interested.
A book on my wishlist: Still on my endless, tireless and so far fruitless quest to find a decent book about Alexander Roslin.
A book you would give to a friend: Really depends on the friend, dunnit? Send me an ask if you want to know what I'd recommend to you 🫵
A book of poetry/lyrics you own: Eros in Boystown, edited by Michael Lassell – a gem of a collection that I picked up at Left Bank Books in NYC.
A non-fiction book you own: Dining with the Ancient Greeks by Maria Thermou. Charming and delightful!
Currently reading: Unruly by David Mitchell. Imperfect but fucking funny.
Planning on reading next: George III: The Last King of America by Andrew Roberts. Very excited for this one and, as a bonus, it's both for personal interest and for class!

Tagging @enlitment @chaotic-history @kaiserin-erzsebet @clove-pinks any anyone else who wants to share!
#i have no idea which ones of you read books so really no pressure here#google translator went hard on this one#talking in english about a book that i read in polish shouldnt be *this* hard#tag game
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If you’re still doing requestsssssss how about a hcs of Dazai x fem! Reader who is like Midari from Kakegurui 😌
Ooh thats a nice one! Yes love, I'm still doing requestss
And I'm so sorry, this is so late... also it's very long n I'm not exaggerating. It's not even funny I'm so sorry
I'm Crazy, But I'm Free
Dazai x Fem!reader who is like Midari
• You and Dazai probably met during his days at the port mafia.
• I can imagine the mafia capturing you because of how much trouble you were causing in a casino.
• UK, when big businesses pay gangsters for security?? Yeah, similarly the casino you were playing at, has paid the mafia.
• You were already banned from many other casinos, as your games either end with you gaining a lot of money, or begin with a dangerous condition.
• Many people were quite afraid of you, and wanted to avoid even being in the same room as you, as they couldn't handle the severity of the danger you pose with every game.
• Anyways, so you were warned by a few members of the mafia twice, but you, being the fearless adventurer you are, flipped them off and continued to seek a life threatening game.
• So then the mafia decided to use violence, and cornered you in a dark alley. You pulled out your beloved gun.
"Well, well, well! Do you boys want a fight!?", you excitedly point the gun at them.
"Put your weapon down, Ms. L/N. We are here to warn you for the final time. Stay away from this casino. Further misbehavior will lead to dangerous consequences."
You hum, thinking up a plan.
"How about this. My revolver has 5 bullets. And there are five of us. How about we all take turns to shoot blindfolded!"
You excitedly shove them in a circular arrangement.
"I'll go first! The rules are that every person gets a chance to shoot from the center of the circle. If the bullet misses, everyone takes a step ahead, closer to the center."
You explain, grinning at the men clad in all black.
"If a bullet hits me, I'll agree to your terms. If it hits one of you lot, then you can't stop me anymore. What do you say?!"
The mafiosi were weirded out by this. What if you had a good aim, or an ability that allowed you to shoot them with your eyes closed? They didn't have much intel on you, and only knew you to be a girl from a rich background, who had come to Yokohama for higher studies.
"That's enough. Grab her-"
• Thats when our boy showed up. Dazai was curious when he overheard some of the men talk about some 'fearless girl that had flipped them off even after two rather threatening warnings.'
• So he had decided to tag along, staying in the shadows, until now.
• "I think it will be a wonderful idea. Play along, gentlemen. I want to see where this goes."
• You shot, and missed. So did the other guy. Then the other one. Now, the circle had shrunk really small. You were almost in the line of fire at this point. There was an 80% chance of getting shot.
• "That's enough." ,Dazai said, as he walked to stand in front of you.
• "You are daring, aren't you. You're not afraid of death."
• Staring into his eyes, you saw a reflection of yourself. A dark, lost soul stared back at you.
• "In fact, you arranged this little game to ensure that you got hurt. You perfectly planned it out, and ensured that as the circle gets smaller, you would be in the direct line of fire."
• "You missed the first shot on purpose, didn't you?"
• He had seen right through your game.
'What's this guy's deal?', you thought.
"Why would you stop the game when it was at its peak? Hah? Whats wrong with you, man?!", you angrily grab his collar. "I was just beginning to have fun, and here you are, ruinjng it!"
• Taken aback by your bravery, he just blinked at you.
"Do you know who I am?"
"Yes, obviously, idiot. But that doesn't give you any right to interrupt our game."
"Oh? So who do you think I am."
You give him a 'baka janiono?' look.
"You are their leader. Probably an executive of the mafia, judging by your expensive suit. Why?"
The thoughts running through Dazai's head were along the lines of :
'Just who is this girl? How does she know about the mafia? Surely my men weren't dumb enough to tell her who they work for. How does she know about my position? She surely didn't just guess that, right?? And why the fuck does a student have a gun? Does her family have connections within the underworld? She obviously doesn't fear death. Will she be a good addition to the mafia?'
• "What are you thinking about, baka? Answer me."
• He smiled sweetly at you, and firmly gripped your wrist, pushing it off his collar.
"There's someone who would like to meet you"
Before you can retort back, he continues,"You seek adventure, do you not? You want to feel something worthwhile. Something akin to facing death, something that will give you an adrenaline rush. I can give you all of that. If you come with me, that is."
• Mori was shocked when he heard about what had happened. He agreed with Dazai's decision to make you join the ranks. He needed such fearless crackheads in his organization.
• He paired you up with the double black, making you an executive too. You hadn't quite agreed to his terms, but he had offered you to just accompany the ginger and the brunette on a mission. And had let you make the final decision .
• You three had to go to an abandoned warehouse, where some people were tampering with the mafia goods. There, you saw how sadistic Dazai was. How manipulative and bad he was. It made you fall for him. Hard. Plus, you realized the risk of being a mafiosi. It was quite thrilling.
• When you got back, you had screamed at mori to let you join. Quite literally begged. And he, ofcourse, agreed. You hadn't even given him a chance to threaten your life, which was the usual norm, when a valuable asset wasn't willing to join the ranks of the feared organization.
• You trained with dazai. And purposely got hit. It turned you on. But you never mentioned anything, in fear of being rejected.
• Dazai, ofcourse, noticed this, and one fine day, confronted you about it. You told him just how much you love him. He was always intrigued by your sadistic side. He saw a part of himself in you. The daring, brave, smart side of yours was something so similar to himself, yet unique. You were seeking the same thing that he was, that is to feel something. He felt sadness, and loneliness, and he never had a purpose in life. You, someone who had it all, a good family, a great marksheet, and a pre set goal in life, were willing to give it away, just to feel something. He, someone who was stripped off of a normal childhood, was never given the opportunity to choose. He used to think that maybe he was to blame. Maybe if he had had better luck, he would have gotten a good childhood, a purpose. But now that he knows you, a genius, smart person, who had it all, but threw it away, he realized that maybe life really is worthless. Maybe, he wasn't to be blamed. And that, oddly enough, made him feel better. To know that no matter how much lady luck favors him, life would still be fucked up, and that it wasn't his fault, made him hate himself less.
• And so, you two became a thing.
• Let's just say, that both of you are equally freaky.
• You want him to dom u, and he gladly accepts
• You guys try it all... I mean, especially with guns.
• I can imagine you both sitting at a boring meeting, when you decide to edge him on, and you're not even touching him. Your gun is.
• You both claim atleast one spare room on every floor of the building, for your.... activities.
• You are like his praise queen.
• He loves that.
• Always rough. Always. And you guys are into spicing it up.
• Anyways, you both never decide to commit double suicide.
• Thats because dazai wants a beautiful way out, while you want to feel the thrill of facing death. You don't really want to die, you just want to know the feeling of almost dying. You want to feel something exhilarating.
• When Dazai decides to leave the mafia, you are all for it. As long as you get to stay by his side, you were ok with it.
• Like Midari, you are a very perceptive person, and can easily guess what's going on in someone's mind. Dazai was easy to read for you, as his thoughts were pretty similar to your own.
• You were smart, cunning, and could read peoples mind with ease. So it was pretty easy for you to guess what's going on in Dazai's mind, sometimes even predicting his next moves.
• You really fit in with the ada, coz that place is filled with crackheads, and you and dazai are no exception lol
• Also, you get along with Yosano really well.
• Like, if you weren't so loyal to dazai, you would have become Yosanos slave. So would i ngl
• Anyways, you and dazai always mess with kunikida. You two prank him till the breaking point. You two are such a menace in the office. Always skipping work, slacking off, but really shining when it comes to actual detective work, like solving mysteries.
• You are a valuable asset to the ada, coz 1. You are smart and 2. You can intimidate the enemy into giving in, thanks to your sadistic games.
• You are also a very good companion. You can easily understand what the other is feeling, and end up comforting the gang.
• I can imagine you roasting Kunikida for being such a nerd, but at the same time giving him accurate and well needed advice .
• You do the same for your bf, and the two of you have many late night convos about topic that Dazai had never discussed with anyone before. Because no one had quite understood him the way you did.
• Midari is actually a pretty deep character, and just like her, you have many layers. There's the sadistic side, the goofy side, the careless side, the intelligent side and the insightful nature.
• You would be his perfect partner, as you'd support his crazy, reckless ideas, but at the same time keep him afloat, and prevent him from drowning in his own thoughts.
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Pre Part 5! Polnareff x Boss! Reader
Okay, this MIGHT be a series (I am crappy at actually keeping up with things if you can't tell by how long it has taken for me to write this) but I literally have no clue how to write romance if it's not already established so this is a huge experiment! This has also barely been proofread.
TWs and other disclaimers: GN reader, Reader is basically Diavolo, Reader intended to kill Polnareff but didn't, Trauma mentions (revolving around Polnareff's sister, calls DIO's group a cult, other basic info about Polnareff).
You sit beside the bed of the man who should be your enemy, who was sleeping as he had been for almost a month now. You sigh. After what you and King Crimson had done to him? He was lucky not to be dead. You'd certainly been trying to kill him at that moment.
How stupid, you should have given him a chance.
You could still see the image of him flying over the edge of that cliff. His legs had been entirely destroyed by the impact on the rocks, and you'd just barely been able to pull him out of the water.
This whole time, you had been his sole caretaker. You'd secured a house to stay in, by way of killing the previous owners. You'd deal with covering it up once he'd recovered... And you'd figure out what you were going to do with him then, too.
Normally you'd kill someone like him... But of course, you couldn't do that now.
You look him over for the thousandth time. His previously almost perfectly done silver hair was strewn about on the pillow. You had personally washed it and even used your stand to skip over the time it'd take to dry. Normally using King Crimson for such stupid things was too big of a risk, but it was worth it for this man. His expression was calm, yet filled with a certain something that told you he'd been through a lot, and one of his eyes was bandaged. It must've been hit with a rock or something...
You jumped as he snorted in his sleep and rolled onto his side.
You sighed, remembering what brought you both together.
He'd been trying to find you.
That alone had signed his death warrant. In hindsight, you were glad he'd been successful, but at the time it had sparked fear in you that you'd not felt... Well. For quite a long time, actually. But... What exactly made you spare his life? That, you couldn't figure out. There was just... Something about him.
You'd dug up all the information you could to figure out what.
His name was Jean-Pierre Polnareff, he was French, around the same age as you, perhaps younger. He lost quite a few fingers and toes in Egypt due to some accident involving a cult of some sort, the woman you'd sold the arrows to had been involved apparently- which, made you feel a twinge of guilt toward his condition. Your past, of course, always came back to haunt you. Back to Jean. He was born with a stand, which was short-range, and used a sword. He is known for being friendly and quite silly, a hopeless romantic, but can become serious when necessary. He'd been born on a farm. He worked for the Speedwagon Foundation.
...He'd been after the arrows.
You sighed again. You've been doing that a lot lately. How could they send him alone? They should have sent him with someone else to back him up. Maybe they didn't have anyone to back him up? Maybe he asked to be sent alone? Well, it'd make sense that they didn't know what exactly they were sending him into...
And of course, this was perfect for you, too. If he wasn't alone, you may have actually killed him.
You snapped out of your thoughts as the sleeping man rolled over again. His eyes began to flutter. Was he... Waking up? Your heart pounded in your chest. He couldn't see you! He'd already seen your face when you'd almost killed him, if he saw you now he'd think you were trying to finish the job! He wouldn't understand!
You bolted into the old homeowner's bedroom and hid. It may have been cowardly, but it was the best decision for now. Thinking quickly, you pulled out clothes from the closet, tossing off your expensive suit as if it were worth nothing, and slipped into the clothes. Surprisingly, they somewhat fit. It was a white and pink striped shirt, a pair of well-worn blue jeans with plenty of holes in them, and some white socks that were too big and hung around your ankles. You looked at yourself in the mirror. You were still recognizable. Your face was still recognizable.
To your horror, you heard footsteps approaching. Metal clinking footsteps. Was the idiot using his stand to carry himself?! You frantically looked around the room, spotting a white cloth scarf hanging beside the bed. Thinking quickly, you tied this around your neck, wrapping it around your head to conceal everything but your eyes.
The door opened and you turned, forcing yourself to not summon King Crimson.
You both stared at each other for a minute. Wait, you wouldn't be able to see the stand if you were just a normal farmer! Avoiding looking at the knight holding him, you finally broke the silence. "Y-you're... Floating..." You said, quietly, using a weaker and less commanding voice-- one which couldn't be recognized as your own.
Polnareff blinked for a moment, then his eyes widened and he cleared his throat. "Uhm... Eh... No I'm not." He quickly said, causing you to blink. What an idiot! And yet... you couldn't help but smile. "Uh... You're the one who rescued me?"
You nodded, "I found you in the water when I was looking for my scarf, it blew away in the wind." You said, pointing to the scarf wrapped around your face... You figured it'd be better to bring it up yourself. "I have hideous scarring, so I wear this as to not scare anyone."
For some reason, this made his eyes narrow slightly. Had you said something already that made him suspicious?! You swallowed as you watched him look around the room.
"Is this your room?" He asked, tilting his head slightly.
You gulped. "N-no. It's my..." You looked over at the photo on the desk. It was of a young woman who, remarkably, had the same color eyes as you. "...Sister's."
The room was silent for a moment. "Your sister's." He replied, also looking at the photo. "She's very pretty, where is she now?"
Shit, you'd have to explain why she wasn't here!
"... She's..." You looked away, trying to think of an excuse. An idea hit you, just tell a partial truth. "...Not with us." You held your breath. "It's how I got my scars."
You peeked over at him and saw a flash of sadness in his expression.
"Ah. I'm so sorry." He replied solemnly. "I lost my sister, too."
Your heart sank to the floor. How could you forget! His sister had been murdered, and here you are claiming the same! You wanted to just bolt out of there as fast as you could because of the sheer horror you felt in your gut.
You practically jumped as you felt a hand on your shoulder, just barely forcing down the urge to summon King Crimson and punch a new hole through him. He'd come over and set a hand on your shoulder, trying to comfort you. He must've taken your silence as sadness. He noticed your flinching and removed his hand.
"So uh..." He began, "What's for dinner?"
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domestic headcanons - death the kid
aka; you move in with kid and he’s kinda ooc but also cute so let me have my fun.
- moving in with kid was literally one of the most stressful and yet rewarding parts of your life. lots of boxes falling down the stairs as you and death the kid run hastily to try and salvage your belongings, only to slip on the hardwood floors and fall on your ass.
- he wanted (needed) absolutely everything in your house to be symmetrical, and that was expected, so you left most - if not all - of the decorating to him.
- a lot of compromises,, which eventually turned to kid slowly changing everything into how he liked it
- and you didnt complain, because seeing the soft blush on his face, and a small content smile as he stared at your first house together, that was enough.
- the first week you'd moved in, kid got sick, and you'd spent the entire week locked away in your house, taking care of your boyfriend.
- and the little shit wasn't making it any easier.
- you'd make him soup and he'd refuse to eat it unless you fed it to him
- 'babe! no! i'll get sick!!' you'd whine
- '(y/n), do i look like i care? now c'mere!' he'd state, the temper tantrum breaking through his usually cool and calm tone, as he made grabby hands from the bed, his nose red and his face pouty.
- and even if death the kid was sick, didn't mean he was quiet during your movie marathons - that week settling for twilight as you were sprawled out on the couch, trying your best to avoid the warm embrace of your (sick) boyfriend.
- 'oh my god, did he SERIOUSLY name their kid RENESMEE??'
- 'kid i- bAHAHAHHA'
- his antics were one of the many reasons you fell in love with him, and you genuinely did your best to take care of the reaper boy.
- sometimes when you'd be making some soup or dinner for him, he'd sneak up behind you, before locking his hands around your waist and laying his head on your shoulder, mumbling sweet nothings as he thanked you for taking care of him.
- in the mornings you'd get up to get ready and he'd grab onto your waist and pull you back into bed with him, as you struggled to escape his grasp.
- 'kid, you may be sick but i still have school...'
- '(y/n), in case you forgot, my dad is literally lord death. you can miss a week. and a day. eight days. perfect.'
- you wouldn't even argue with him about it either, because he was just that convincing.
- once y'all had settled in, he made it a mission to cuddle and watch movies every single night.
- 'kid i have homework-'
- '...that doesn't change anything.'
- cuddling with kid is great because he insists that both of you have equal amount of blanket and pillows; for the symmetry, of course.
- he's the type to let you lay on his chest, and he'd play with your hair while you watched so-bad-it's-good romcoms; sprawled out on the couch as he fed himself (and occasionally you) some skittles or popcorn, your eyes too fixated on the tv to notice his fleeting glances at your form.
- sometimes you'd watch a horror movie, just to have the boy jump into your arms during the scary bits.
- 'you can't blame me, (y/n)! pennywise jumped out of NOWHERE! how do you expect me to notice-’
- you two have found yourselves falling asleep on your living room couch one too many times ngl, and you aren't complaining bc falling asleep with kid is when you sleep the best!!
- sometimes you'd forget to fold the toilet paper in a triangle
- you never hear the end of that one
- but you genuinely try your best, and kid sees that, and his heart swells seeing you adjust a painting to be perfecting in line, or see you buy two towels instead of one, so they'd be perfectly symmetrical.
- ngl you've tried dying kid's hair a few times
- '(y/n) i'm literally a shinigami dont you think i've tried already-'
- 'babe, it's a bONDING EXPERIENCE.'
- 'i think we can bond in other ways dont you think-'
- 'no.'
- your parents knew you'd moved houses, and it took you a lil while to tell them it was because you and kid moved in together.
- but he'd met your parents before, and they loved him.
- you were on a call with your parents - facetime to be exact, walking around as you showed them your new house, a collection of 'oohs' and 'ahhs' erupting from your mobile phone.
- that was until kid accidentally (totally not accidentally) entered the room.
- '(y/n)!! what are you cooking for dinner tonight?? also please help me unpack these boxes it's been weeks! oh-OH!'
- and your parents were literally shook
- '(y/n)... is this the roommate you were talking about...'
- you were very scared at first because you thought they'd be mad,
- but no, they literally booked a flight to death city right then and there. like literally on facetime your dad just booked a ticket
- 'mom- dad- no i-'
- yeah,,, needless to say, they're like your number one stans.
- dates are always perfectly planned
- so dinner dates and nights out are not very common.
- kid has to plan everything perfectly; he just loves you so much and would hate for you to experience anything less than perfection, and yet somehow SOMETHING goes wrong.
- like a dog will run past and splash water on your dress
- or he'll get salmonella in the middle of the date from last night's chicken (that HE COOKED LORDD)
- and you'll have to reassure him it's fine and you had a great time, as the boy nearly breaks down in the expensive restaurant he had to pull strings to get into.
- and you wouldn't have it any other way.
- the gang has come uninvited one too many times
- once you two were making out, his hands running through your hair as you shared fleeting kisses in your bedroom, until you heard the (very) familiar
- 'hELLOOO! IT'S ME, BLACK STAR! LITERALLY THE GREATEST AND BIGGEST STAR EVER I-'
- and you emerged from your shared bedroom like-
- 'PLEASE... what do you want'
- and he didn't answer your question, obv
- and your hair was all messy and some not well hidden hickies were on your neck like
- chile erm... what the hell we gon' do now...
- 'yeah sorry guys i was doing something-'
- 'is *he* something?????' soul asked, snickering whilst pointing to a certain monochromed hair boy behind you.
- who was frantically trying to fix his hair.
- you've also kicked them out one too many times.
- grocery shopping dates are always fun and unpredictable, for kid would have a whole list of what to buy and what quantity, and you'd just be running around like a little kid - eyes glistening at the wide array of candy that stocked the shelves
- '(y/n)- no, you can't ride in the cart i- goddammit.'
- mornings are a whole other story though.
- soft kisses shared as you're entangled in his embrace, the sun seeping through your blinds as you play with soft strands of black and white hair, staring at the sleeping boy infront of you.
- moments like those, where you feel as though nothing in the world matters, they're when you truly realise how whipped you are for kid, especially when he opens his eyes to mumble a soft
- 'good morning, (y/n).'
- before placing a fluttering kiss on your forehead, as he pulled you in closer.
- once you'd come home, exhausted and on the verge of tears.
- you'd gone out on a mission and your partner had gotten incredibly injured - you genuinely weren't sure if they were going to make it, despite the constant reassurance from stein.
- and kid noticed that, his eyes following your hunched over form as you walked into the bedroom exhausted, tears threatening to spill out any second.
- so he dragged you out of the house for a drive
- which was meant to be for maybe an hour,, so you could get your mind off of things
- but you ended up wandering into the city and just driving
- eventually it was six am
- and you just got home, and immediately fell asleep on the couch
- all in all, moving in with death the kid was one of the best decisions of your life.
- mwah i hope u enjoyed xoxo
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The Kims | 18+
Genre: smut, angst, romance, au, drama
Main Characters: Kim Minseok, Kim Junmyeon, Kim Jongdae x Reader (oc: female)
Warnings: swearing, sex scenes, slavery(not literally iguess), mentions of death, mentions of abuse, abandonment
Summary: When you thought life wasn't a fairytale and you were no Cinderella, truth slaps you in the face when you become an orphan overnight and your step-family sells you off to the richest family in town.
Word Count: 2.6k+ words
Part 1
(Part 2, Part 3)
‘Live, baby. Live your life to the fullest.’
You can still hear your eomma's last words to you before she passed away. It kept replaying in your head ever since she was announced dead.
She was the only family member left. You were an only child whose father was also dead. Life may have not been in your favor exactly but you came from a rich family. At least, that made up for it.
You feel hot tears run down your face when you see your mother's face inside a coffin. Sadness, anger and longing wash over you. You knew your mother's health was getting bad but you weren't expecting her to leave you just like that.
"Y/N! Get your stuff sorted!" You hear your stepbrother, Oh Sehun, scream from the second floor of your house. You were suspicious as to why he was in your room and touching your things but you shrugged it off. Your stepfather would kill you if you said something bad about his sons.
You ignored the the strangeness of the situation and immediately climbed upstairs. "Coming!" You called, wiping your tears away. You hear Chanyeol, your other stepbrother, chuckle at the sight of you crying. You just sigh and make your way to Sehun who wouldn't stop shouting your name now.
You knew it was strange that he was in your room but what surprised you was him stuffing your things inside a suitcase.
"Oppa! What are you doing?" You exclaimed, running to your room that became a mess after what he did. Your hands were trembling as your eyes scanned your things that were half-ruined now because of your stepbrother. You quickly get on your knees to see your belongings now scattered on the floor.
You look up to him, looking for some sort of explanation but his eyes were dead and he refused to say anything. God, this frustrated you so much.
You feel another presence in the room so you whip your head around and see Chanyeol leaning on the doorframe. "Appa's getting rid of you finally." His icy deep voice was enough to scare you, the idea of moving out made you want to faint.
You tried to control your breathing as you see Chanyeol smiling at your state. "Please don't." You begged shamelessly and that earned another chuckle from Chanyeol. You bit your lip so hard, you tasted blood in your mouth.
Moving out? Getting rid? The hot tears you wiped off your face earlier came back in a split second. The Ohs weren't exactly nice to you but they were all you had after your mother passed away. No relatives, no family friends, no anything. This house was the only roof you could go under. Fuck, the world outside was meaner than the Ohs could ever be. It terrified you beyond belief.
"I'm sorry." An emotionless apology from Sehun didn't make it any better. You spent almost eight years with them ever since your eomma married your stepfather when you were barely eleven. "Appa was struggling with the funds when your mom was sick. He had no choice but to borrow money and now, he couldn't return it. The only way to pay it was to send you there." Your eyes widen at his reason. It was absolute bullshit.
"B-But my trust fund! It could pay the debt, right? Shouldn’t we call the family lawyer first?" You try to find another reason to stay but Chanyeol cut your thoughts off with his voice. "Pack it up, Cinderella, you don't have all day." With that, he walked out of the room.
With slumped shoulders, you fall to the floor. You were defeated in all aspects. You lost your mother and now, you had to lose your home and only family too.
"I don't understand it at all. I had a trust fund. That would be enough to pay off eomma's hospital bills." You whispered as your heart ached. You tried to look at Sehun again but his eyes were emotionless. You knew he was the kinder brother to you despite being whiney but what you couldn't believe was him lying to you right now. Your trust fund was more than enough. Also, your mother’s company wasn’t going bankrupt for your family to reach this measure.
"You really need to pack up, Y/N. Appa would be fuming if he went home and you're still here.." Sehun said, pushing your suitcase nearer to you. It might hurt that these people you consider family are sending you to some stranger they borrowed money from but Sehun made a point. "You know it'd be bad to anger Appa." He retaliated.
That woke you up. Your stepfather may have not laid a finger on you before but he spat so many hurtful words. He had the shortest temper and you weren't sure that he wouldn't hurt you physically now that your mother was dead.
With his anger management issues and hugeass body, he could kill you with his bare hands. That urged you to stand and start stuffing your suitcase with as much clothes as you could.
Your tears eventually dried and Sehun left your room. Your knees and hands were trembling like they were earlier but that didn't stop you from packing your things. The imagery of your angry stepfather's huge figure made you go on. It was fear that made you want to live even if your whole life was as trashy as it was already. After all, this was all your mother wanted before she died. For you to live.
After putting all the stuff you needed inside your bags, you quickly scurry off to the entrance of your house. You had no idea where you would be going but staying in this house also meant you'd die. You had to try your chances that the people your stepfather is indebted to is somehow less cruel and would not kill me. Wherever it was, you tried to assure yourself it'd be better than staying here.
"Hey, Cindy! A carriage is waiting outside for you." You hated the new nickname Chanyeol gave you but you knew you'd never see him again in your life. You guessed. These people would never let you go without paying the debt and you know your stepfather would never do that. That thought dismissed all the anger in your head for him.
You drag your luggage outside and see a black car. This must be the carriage Chanyeol was referring to. It looked very expensive and it was also heavily tinted. Whoever your stepfather was indebted to, they were filthy rich.
You hesitated as it approached you. Was this right? Your mother's dead body was lying in your living room right now. You should be weeping instead of running away. You haven't even had the chance to grieve yet here you are, being kicked out of the house you grew up in. The house you made memories with. The only home that you ever knew.
The hesitations quickly evaporated as you heard your stepfather's Range Rover approaching. You knew that engine sound all too well. You have hurried off to your room a lot when you were younger whenever you got in trouble with your stepdad. So instinctively, you ran to the black car's door, never looking back at the home you once had.
Your hands stopped shaking and you finally started to breathe properly as the black car pulled out of your home's driveway. Your stepfather’s Range Rover was already out of earshot and you knew you were safe. For now.
Doubts and overthinking clouded your mind. You wanted to be afraid and scared at what might await me. But also, you couldn’t go back home. Your head hurt after so much thinking, you dozed off inside the car as the worries now left your troubled mind.
You felt a nudge on your shoulder, pulling you to consciousness. Your eyes slowly flutter open as you try to sit up properly. "We're here.." You heard the driver say. He was a white-haired guy my age. He also gave me a smile and tried to help me up.
"Where are we, sir?" Your voice was hoarse and the car door flew open beside you. It revealed a grand mansion in front of you and it earned a gasp from you.
You see a man walking by the entrance of the huge manor. His tall stature demanded attention and you automatically assumed he was the owner. With that classy tuxedo and refined posture, you knew nothing about him was cheap.
He suddenly turned around and your eyes widened at that. As if his money wasn't enough to make him intimidating, he had a perfect face. It may have a permanent scowl but you couldn't deny his face was truly perfect. Tanned complexion, defined jaw, plump lips and thick eyebrows. He was definitely handsome.
"Who are you to look at me straight in the eye?" His voice was deep and authoritative and loud enough to snap you out of your thoughts, it surprised you. His scowl even grew which made you bow your head and quickly apologize. "I'm sorry." You mumbled, the fear of death immediately taking over your senses.
"Be nicer." Another voice interrupted that made you look up. A man with a child on his arm went out of the house, standing by the door. He wore a similar suit to the man who was scowling. Another handsome man, you thought. He looked older but no less handsome. He also looked friendlier as a little girl bounced in his arms.
This man was definitely kinder, you could safely assume. His eyes were soft despite his features being sharp and his thin lips had a pressed smile.
The scowling man passed by him and went inside the huge house. You could only look at his leaving back, hoping you didn't piss him enough to get yourself killed. You couldn't possibly die the first day you're here.
"Hey, get inside. I'm sorry for that. My brother's just wired that way." He offered a smile as the little girl in his arms looked at him adoringly. You nodded at what he said, trying to take in the information. His kind smile was nothing compared to the previous man’s scowl. Their air was too different. "Let her inside, Baek. We’ll be at the study." He nodded at the driver before going back inside his room.
The driver who was named Baek started carrying my bags. "No, it's okay." You try to take it away from him but he insists. He carried your luggage inside the house to the large living room.
The house was so large, it was nothing compared to your home before. Marble walls made everything stand out in elegance as the paintings that graced it made it warmer to the eyes. The furniture was obviously expensive despite its basic structures. The grand staircase that led to another floor also made it seem like it’s a palace.
Baek snapped you out of your awe by entering with your bags. He set it down by a sofa. "I'm Baekhyun and I'm the errand boy here." He gave you a toothy grin which made you smile back at him. "It's hard to find a friend here but I assure you, I can be your friend." You nodded like a seal at what he said. You knew you needed help and an offer like this isn't something you can pass up.
"I'll find time to talk to you and all but the bosses need you at the study right now. They'll decide whether what to use you for." You look at him in confusion. He immediately gets the message and tries to clear up the confusion. "Your family is in a debt and now, this family owns you. The Kims. You have to be of use to them. We’re considered as slaves here but it doesn’t really sound that bad. It’s just working without pay but with absolute loyalty." You were surprised at what he said. How could he know? You didn't tell him anything. Also, the fact that you were called slaves sounded wrong to you. It seemed inhumane despite what Baek tried to explain.
He looked at me as if he was sorry. “It’s okay. I know cause it happened to me and all the others too. I will explain soon since I’m always the one hanging around here but right now, you have to go to the study. They will decide how to use you before they let you settle in. Now, go, okay? You don’t want to anger the youngest Kim.” He was talking while he dragged you at the end of the first floor’s hall. The information was too much to take in and before you knew it, you had to face your new bosses now. Or owners. You have no idea how to refer to them.
Baek turns the doorknob swiftly as he stands straighter than he did when you two were alone. He looks back at you once last time and assures you with a look as he entered the quiet room. "Young masters, the new girl is about to get in." You hear someone say to bring you in and Baek immediately ushers you inside.
The room they called study was large and carpeted. It was filled with books and tables. The air inside was also warmer than it was in the hallways.
Baekhyun pointed to the center and I immediately got the signal. Baek left as you finally got to where he wanted you to stand. You stood there, in front of four men in suits. Their eyes were examining every inch of you and it made your skin crawl. The black dress you were still wearing for your mother's funeral wasn't exactly pretty. The thought of showing your makeup-less and swollen face to four dashing men who were supposed to be your new bosses didn't make it any better.
"Jun-hyung, what do you think?" The guy with a baby girl earlier spoke up first and asked a man in an all-black suit. You wanted to keep your eyes on the floor but they were too handsome to peel your sight off them.
This man called Jun looked angelic yet his face was stoic. He had a gentle aura but something about him warned your gut that you should be extra careful around this man. Nonetheless, it amazed you how four extremely good-looking men could be in one room. You suddenly recall Baekhyun’s words and they were the Kims. Must be a family. Amazing genes, you couldn’t help but think
"She has no special talents mentioned in her file." You wince at that Jun guy's comment, quickly waking you up from the daydream you just had about these gorgous men. You realize you were just an average human which is basically why your stepfamily didn't want to keep you. You weren't talented, intelligent or creative.
You were also surprised that you had a file already with them. But then, it was your stepfather we were talking about. He would go to hell and back just to get rid of you
"She's pretty. I want her. Can I keep her, Jun?" You looked up at the person who spoke. It was a man who gave a different vibe. He looked very playful with his exotic face features but something told you he was just as dangerous as the other two. The man with a baby in his arms didn’t really scare you as much as the scowling man did. The other similarity he had with the rest was the expensive suit he was wearing.
He takes a good look at you before speaking. "Jun, I want her. You know we need a new plaything." He spoke with finality, smiling at you. You didn't know what he meant and your puzzled face gave off what you were thinking. "He wants to fuck you, dummy." The scowling man glared at you with so much intensity as he solved the confusion in your head.
Fuck me? Plaything? These words resonated in your head. You didn't know how to react. How was somebody supposed to react to someone wanting to fuck them?
"We don't do that anymore, Minseok-hyung." The Jun guy sighed, his eyes filled with pity as he stared at you. He really does look angelic, you thought. You snapped out of it again and bit your lip as you put your head down, not knowing what to say.
"We can if we get her consent." The guy with exotic features who seems to be named Minseok shrugged. He looks at you with so much determination once again. "Hey, what's your name, again?" He speaks again and you widen your eyes at his question.
"U-Um.. Y/N." You stuttered with so much fear. You really didn't want to die at all. You know you had to do whatever they wanted just to stay alive. Living was so meaningless like this but you didn't want your mother to be disappointed in you for just giving up. If these men returned you home, your stepfather would kill you.
"So, Y/N, is it okay if we have sex with you from time to time? We really need the stress reliever." This Minseok guy smirked again. His directness shocked you to the core. You had to say yes, right? If you didn't, they'd kill you? Or torture you? Or return you home? None sounds appealing to you.
You really have no choice...
"I-I'd like t-to be of help to you with a-anything." You fiddled with your fingers as you said this. You were nervous as hell and hearing the scowling man's chuckle made it worse.
"See, she's okay with this, Jun!" Minseok exclaimed with a huge grin on his face, eyeing you up and down. He patted Jun’s back and smirked at the scowling man. You weren't really opposed to what they wanted. They were handsome and you wanted to be alive, nothing more or less. You weren’t usually this shallow and easy but your eomma’s words keep ringing in your ears. You had to be alive.
"I guess it's settled then." The man with a baby girl earlier gave you an apologetic smile and stood up. You were about to walk out but the Jun guy spoke once again. "Tell Baekhyun to show you the available room on the fifth floor." He nodded at you. You were about to walk again but then something interrupted.
You heard the scowling man beside him laugh, stopping your tracks again. "Jun, you're really treating your whores right." He smirked and looked at you as if he was belittling you. You shuddered under his sight. He was truly intimidating, he had a different air to the other men. He was blunt and he never hesitated.
"You should leave now. Never mind his foul mouth." The guy with a baby waved off to you. Once again, this man has made your arrival here warmer. You nodded at them with finality and got out of the room as you heard Jun scold the other guys. “Jongdae, thank you for being nice today but treat slaves as they should be treated. Jongin, stop being mean. You’re being irrational.” He authoritatively announced to the two boys, making you assume he was the leader or something.
You close the door behind you with a final thud. You see Baekhyun leaning at the wall beside the study. He immediately went up to you.
"So, how did it go?" You didn't really know how to answer this question. How would you explain to someone that you agreed to fucking people?
"U-Uh.. That guy named Jun told me to tell you to show me the room on the fifth floor?" You said with so much uncertainty, chewing on your bottom lip. His eyes were as large as saucers and his jaw dropped the moment you say this aloud. He couldn’t believe himself either.
Baekhyun shook his head in disbelief and tried to be as calm as he could. "What the hell did you agree to?! They never let slaves like us in the fifth floor! What more live there?" He asked in a hushed yet raised tone. He briskly dragged me to an elevator and pressed the button for the fifth floor.
"Well, the Minseok guy asked me if I could help them sexually? I guess?" What you just said earned a loud gasp from Baekhyun. Your cheeks heated at the mention of this. "Holy shit..." You heard him mutter a curse and honestly, you couldn't help but agree. Non-survival you would never agree to anything like this but this is the new you. You had to survive. For your mother’s wishes and for your own good too. This time, Baekhyun looks at you with so much amusement.
"You're in for a fucking ride."
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