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do NOT and i mean do NOT under any circumstances think about the fact that kant says to bison 'i promise when you wake up, the version you'll see of me is the real me' and then the next time bison sees kant after he wakes up kant is panicked and crying and traumatised and petrified and weak and vulnerable. don't think about the fact that you can literally see kant being so fucking scared he automatically falls back into his default state which is to try and be calm and reason with the threat because he's done it so often it's become second nature. do not think about the fact that kant is so desperate and frightened that for the first time in this whole show we see him actually ask for something: can we talk on land? i'm scared of the ocean. and for the love of god do NOT think about the fact that when bison responds who the hell cares? kant doesn't say another fucking word.
#the heart killers#kantbison#thk meta#he doesn't even say bison's NAME. he just cries and looks at him.#kant is so so so fucking scared he finally asks for what he wants. what he NEEDS. but he doesn't get it. of course not.#wanting anything is pointless. kant never gets what he wants.#why would he think now is any different? why would he think bison is any different?#(:
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kay em ess
#lol#literally just these two bitches#sat me down#as if it was some really serious intervention#scared the shit out of me#literally about to cry i was so fucking scared#just to tell me i need to be better about putting my fucking DISHES AWAY???#i just want to go homr#apparently they have cued me a bunch of times#like yeah and everytimr u tell me to i always do it#‘u say u will but thry still get left out’ i do it eventually???#like im sorry im in a fucking depressive episode and i barely wanna be alive. bye.#sorry. i gues!#and apparently if it happens again im getting my phone taken away#like what.#its not that fucking deep bruh.#im so fucking sick of this place i wanna go home#im only gonna be here until july 30th (my bday) but#fuck my life omfggg#sui tw#<- just in cade#tw sui ideation#vent
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🍷<3
#when i got hashtag sick i was in hospital and i was doing my regularly scheduled call with my dad#and i really had no plans of telling him bc ive done that before and its not like he can scare the MS away or anything#i dont know what happened. maybe because it was such a fucking bad episode. maybe because i was so tired. maybe it was a secret 3rd thing#but one minute was like fine then i just burst into tears and i was crying so hard which is MEGA EW BC IM NOT A CRIER LIKE THAT#and my dad freaked out and he was like whats wrong and i didnt wanna tell him but I also sounded insane bc i spontaneously started sobbing#and he was getting more alarmed and i was upset that id upset him and so i just spat it out i was like 'listen king'#'its no biggie but my body is trying to kill me again and im just a little sad atm' and he replied 'baba why wouldnt you tell me?'#and this man who has a very big serious job literally dropped everything and took a 20 hr flight over#and he genuinely just grabbed one of his work suitcase because he showed up with nothing but dress shirts and his laptop#and i think maybe it healed me a little. i mean it def also made me sad too but mostly healed me#and he'd been here for a couple of weeks and he left today and i feel shit about being sad about it#again because he has a very big and very serious job and i genuinely dont understand how he even just showed up like that#so I felt guilty throughout#anyway i dont think he drinks anymore but i was like king have a sip of wine with me and he did and it was lovely#and I hope I become my fathers daughter and not my mother's child. praying to both our gods#heres to healing ❤️🩹
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i wish ppl would just shut up when ppl say they're afraid of something i don't care if you think it's stupid or unnecessary or the thing they're afraid of is already widely disliked by many people you don't understand where ppls trauma is coming from and even if there isn't any trauma causing the fear just shut up and move on
#people do this to me about spiders theyre always like omg it wont do anything to you but thats the fucking thing#that annoys me so much i know it wont do anything to me i know they are important to the environment but im still fucking scared#of spiders they just look scary and i literally freeze up and cry when i see a huge one like i genuinely get scared#i dont care that its smaller than me i dont care that you think theyre cute i dont care that youre tired of ppl hating#spiders. im scared of them because i am you dont neee to give me biology 101 to try and get me to not be scared leave me alone#i feel the same way abt ppl who laugh at ppl for being scared of dogs#'oh? ur scared of the 4 yr old dog is barking at you?' like so what if this is the case? shut up!!!! it doesn't matter that u think its#stupid alot of these fears that ppl think are stupid aren't a open door for u to ne patronising just shut the fuck up#there is a girl i know who has a phobia of crisps/chips and ppl think its stupid and inconvenient#like. who cares if u think its stupid there is a real trauma behind her fear and even if there wasnt literally. calm down and go somewhere#else and eat the crisps like omfg
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ARCANE EPISODE 7!!!!
MY GOD I WASNT READY FOR ANY OF THIS!!! WHAT WAS THAT!!!
Also ekko wallpaper I got with my fries lmao
#OH MY GOOOD!!!!!! POWDER AND EKKO!!! AND BENZOOOOOO#ITS LITERALLY WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN OMGG!!!!! POWDER LOOKS SO CUTE 😭😭😭😭 IM CRYING ALREADYYYY#VANDER WITH A BUN!! AND EVERYTHING IS SO FULL OF LIGHT!!! HER EYES!!! MYLO LOOKS SO RIDICULOUS AKDJSK THIS GIRLAAA#“where would you be without her” WELL BUDDY IF YOU KNEW HOW HE IS WITH HER!!! VI IS DEAD????? OR SHE WAS TAKEN FOR THE INCIDENT!!!#LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID JAYCE!!! MY GOD!!! THE GEMS KILLED VI SO THEY JUST COMPLETELY PROHIBITED THEM!!! JAYCE IS IN JAIL PROBABLY!!#the fact we are seeing exactly why jayce should be sorry about what he has done.... and we are seeing him suffer because of it... cinema 🚬#also mel fading into viktor.... also has he realised how she manipulated him in the beggining??? there is so much stuff...#jayce eating contaminated animals and his wound being infected with the arcane too..... is that what will push him....#omg.... ekko likes powder so much... he apologised by painting actual adult vi portraits where the fallen are in his universe 😭😭😭#“she looks so badass” if you knew... is he gonna ask her to help him make hextech.... that is so sick and twisted....#also jayce hurting his leg loke viktor and having to use a cane and brace.... damn and you know whats worse..... that ekko could be like#this with the jinx of his universe IF ISHA HADNT DIED!!! AND IT IS BEACUSE OF JAYCE!! AGAIN!!!!! THIS MAN!!!!!#the drawing with the anomaly and the two men and the inifite symbol... we get it... jayce and viktor forever intertwined by fate....#powder is sensing something is off.... omg time travel..... THE LIMIT IS FOUR SECONDS AFTER HEIMERDINGER EPXLODED ALDHAKSHSKSJSOJSOSLS#i dont want a time travel ending.... if its done for plot to an extent is okay but idk about solving it all.... it makes it feel worhtless#claggor looks so fine its not even funny..... i cant wait to see what everyone thinks. WHERE IS THE LITTLE LADY bc hes called little man 😭#and vander with arm tattoos.... why did they hipster fied him.... he looks younger somehow ajdhakj he went from taking care of 4 kids to 3!#SILCO!!!! AND HE DID TRY TO KILL HIM!! ALSJAKSKAK Ekko just laighing at it.... girl i would be pissed STROMAE??? OMG POWDER!!!!#I JUST REALIZED THE PINK IN HER HAIR IS FOR VI!! AND HER JACKET!! AND A DRESS LIKE HER MOTHER'S!! CRYING!!! FULL BODY CHILLS!!!#CAN WE JUST PRETEND LIKE ITS THE FIRST TIME!!! I GAVE UP ON YOU!!! WHAT HAPPENED BACK THEN I NEED TO KNOW!!! IM SOBBING!!! EKKO!!!!#NOOOOOOO THE ANOMALY NOOOOO!!!! HEIMERDINGER NOOOOO!!!! AND THATS JAYCE!!! IS THAT MAGE VIKTOR???? the monkeys......#the vi toy with the out love song machine.... my god i wasnt expecting any of this i need to breathe i am stil tearing up my god#what a fucking punch in the stomach christ i cant breathe right akdhsksso#the credits saying the deries has benefited from a spanish tax rebate in the canary islands??? you're welcome i guess lmao#animation production carried out there and has ben collaboration with the Spanish gov... alright another win for perro sanxe#talking tag#watching arcane#watching arcane season 2#watching this i dont think im ready for caitvi sex.... after reconciliation even like what will be of me.... now im scared#i am still scared bc idk what happened to jinx and vi and cait still... thats what worried me and boom!! ekko powder with the steel chair..
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i wanna cry i rlly hate being new to things
#literally tearing up and crying i hate this#i didnt rlly care much at first until i realised a lot of ppl DONT like new fans#im so sad rn i absolutely hate being new to things or to people and feeling so left out#i feel like ill just never get it or compare to fans that have been fans for fucking years#like ppl r thinking of gatekeeping and just not helping new fans i saw and im just sick and even scared idk why#maybe in thinking too much into this. im sorry.#sorry for this kind of vent omg i just idk i feel sick#yes this is about motor city machine guns#i wish i have gotten into them sooner. thanks a lot to my tribalist of a dad who thought tna sucked bc it wasnt wwe.#punkoween yaps#vent
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I don't think this is Moe's first offense (saying something brazen/flippant) but I do think it's the first time it's called the King a bitch. And it won't be the last! The funniest part of Anna being the one to take charge and chew Moe out is that it gives Moe the opportunity to do The Exact Same Thing to Alfonse one-on-one (you know... to test the waters... to see how he feels about it....). Which it is. Also promptly chastised for.
FAVE PANELS...
#fire emblem#feh#moe really is. a type of guy. it immediately gets scared when anna first corrects it. so what does it do? dig the hole deeper. double down.#THAT REALLY IS MOE'S BRAVE FACE.... playing dumb or getting oppositional. sometimes both.#but it is NOT confrontational... epitome of i'm just a little birthday boy. EXTREMELY annoying type of guy LMFAOOO#i feel like anna has been v patient w moe up until this point. like this has to be a three strikes you're OUT situation.#and both alfonse/sharena have been such hard working straight and narrow types that. they have never seen anna like that.#I REALLY THINK. it's like. anna is The Literal Commander Of A Military Unit and also given her background#more or less she could have been killed for having an attitude like that. hypothetically. we don't know her background. BUT THEORETICALLY..#i like to imagine it does come from a place of that though.#also moe may be an authority hating shithead but it does VERY quickly come to respect anna actually.#you have to Earn it. be Worthy of it. it sees that anna is extremely capable and skilled and fair. it respects that.#so like... i think it genuinely doesn't want to upset or disappoint her. however... it does have ... moe tendencies.#anyways even though i'm in between a dozen things i just had to draw this out and i'm so happy i did tbh#i don't really know how anna feels about moe. but it IS extremely funny to imagine moe is just torn asunder by her at one point#AND. IT FULLY DESERVED IT. it is taking the L here.#ALSO THE FACT THAT ALFONSE IS PISSED TOO. IT'S SO FUNNY TO ME. moe you just fucked up big time#IT WAS TRYING. TO BE NICE. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#fe alfonse#sharena#fe anna#moe tag#summoner oc#my art#my comics#also that is. a whole other comic. moe committing the offense again and getting sternly corrected#until it's like ooooohhh. wait. you actually respect your dad... okay. um. let me think of something else to say#LMFAOOO... i think third time's a charm. it doesn't dare say that to sharena. what if she cries. moe is also gonna cry. and thrup
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i'm more anxiety rambling out of anything else. I have to explain myself because I have to explain myself because I have to. i can't even think in my own head anyways.
I was so scared of being 'problematic' when i was a teen and I was anyways. the whole time. and i understand that fucking paralyzing fear of doing something 'wrong' or 'bad'. I do. I still get it over random nonsense. but I'm not uhh... A pillar of virtue or anything. never was. there's better things to care about rn and I'm writing posts. Because I want to understand and be understood, genuinely.
I don't make posts talking about problems because I want to be mean. Even if I. Am. that's a skill issue on my part, I am constantly taking the L with that, it's not just here. I just. Actually care. I don't care if someone was wrong before. I just want people to know 'hey that's bad actually' because honest to god there are people in fandom who just don't know. It's the people who do know and choose to keep holding it up that I have a real issue with.
My hypothetical "third guy" is always an unreasonable actor who the argument would not work for anyways that r getting me in a twist. yknow. I want people to choose to do better and the hypothetical guy chooses not to, so I sound. Like that. and I like being mean to the hypothetical guy, because they're not a reasonable actor nor a real force to be fought, yknow, but, um, I'm saying this and uh. wow. that is my problem, isn't it. I'm fighting a third guy and he's not real so other people get hit. huh.
anyway. the point was supposed to be like. everybody sucks at it until they don't, and talking to each other about things is how we learn how to be better together, and I would know because I could have been a lot worse and I. choose. to try and be better. and I understand being there. not knowing how to be better or being angry about being in the wrong. and I guess I just want everyone to know that I'm not just a screaming ball of rage or whatever. I'm scared of 'fucking up' too. I want to help. I'm just. bad at not being an asshole, i guess. I made the mistakes. I think it's kind of me I'm screaming at to be better, but subjecting other people to that at the drop of a dime isn't. fair. what the fuck am i doing. anyone who got freaked out by me tn for the third time it truly isnt about any one person 1) clearly i have something i'm dealing with here oh my god and 2) i have been here for 8 years. i'm screaming at a ghost. this person is not real but they are because theyre me and my mashed potato memories of twenty other things.
but that's not fair. it's my problem. the third guy is quite literally in my head. he's me. putting that on you isn't fair. that's fucked up of me. I am also in the wrong here. My points stand but the methodology is all fucked. Not wanting to talk to me after seeing me do that over and over even if it wasn't my intention to single anyone out is more than just fair. not just today, you can go in my archive and see more examples of me flaring up like this. I'm keeping it all there and I'm not leaving or whatever. I just. because i really mean it when i say i don't like or intend being mean to real people. i just... can't share that desire for myself, and it hurt others, and for some reason it just now clicked, I think. and. I'm learning. and. I'm sorry. for that. And i guess i'll do something about the guy now that i seem to be aware it's happening. and uh. yeah.
#nobody said anything to me i'm just. thinking.#in no universe will i pretend i know everything#i'm only as i am now bc i listened when ppl said i was doing some fuckshit sometimes#i didnt like it. it made me mad and uncomfortable and scared.#but um. being uncomfortable. with yourself.#is why right now im able to walk myself to the conclusion of why i'm such an asshole. god.#it really was that obvious. holy fuck.#all the 'you don't need to do xyz's in the world VS you're fighting a third guy#i know how to stop fighting a third guy when I know I'm fighting a third guy. I can do that.#god. i feel stupid. of course the cop is [REDACTED]. of course the third guy is the cop.#if you ever need a reminder ive done all this work but i'm still so painfully about as socially skilled as a 9 year old#sorting your problems out really is like 'do i just say sorry to everyone whos ever heard me speak' sometimes#fuck man.#you made up a guy is literally already a metaphor. god.#i wish you could throw up but like for your emotions#that might just be crying but i have no tears disease so it doesnt fucking work if it is#i. like being mean to the third guy bc thats no harm to real. vent frustration with self. but if it is then i hurt real and thats sucks.#not intention. but happen anyway. i take responsible.#i go and think a while. bluhh.
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#wanting to be on here so much more often but im so anxious about the current state of the world and trying to get a job#i get rejection after rejection and my parents are literally talking behind my back and are recommending me jobs that just need a hs diploma#or they think im not applying#and then theres these two equal and opposing forces: one who is so scared of moving far far far away from home and wants to stay in the#familiar forever. and the other side wants to gtfo and make something of life#my brain is just so loud and i feel like such a failure all the time and my parents are only making me feel worse#it shouldn't be this fucking hard to get a job in bioengineering. it's fucking engineering#and back to the parent thing... i wouldn't be this upset if they weren't so pushy. in this job market it takes approx 6 months for new grads#to get a job#it hasn't even been two months#ik they want what's best. but i feel so belittled#i feel belittled by everything these days like it takes me forever to respond to messages and i feel so depressed#maybe i just need a good cry but i truly am just so stuck and i wish future me could grab me by the shoulders and tell me it's gonna fucking#be ok and just relax#i just dont see anything good happening for me in the future#negativity tw#apple lady words
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What do you mean it's already been a full year since ROTTMNT the movie was released....
Still can't believe I actually watched the film like, 9 times in a row that day too.
#time is fucking flying by so fast#we were just talking about the show's 5 year anniversary and now the movie's 1st anniversary is here...#i still remember where i was when watching the movie for the first time#i wasn't feeling well at all and literally set up a area on the couch#i remember smiling like a idiot when the boys showed up on the screen and getting scared when the Kraang showed up#i especially remember getting so teary eyed when they got their ninpo back and kicked some ass#i especially remember quietly crying when Leo sacrificed himself and wiping away the tears when Mikey opened a portal to rescue him#wild rollercoaster of emotions that day but i look back on it fondly#rottmnt movie#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles movie#rottmnt the movie#rottmnt
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When your friend needs you to be there to comfort them, but you have no energy for serious conversations and so you're stuck wondering if youre being a selfish asshole or if youre justified in not wanting to be the one to sort their problems out
#vent#its not like they didnt offer to hear my problems. but i just dont want to talk about. or anything#i dont want serious conversations. i dont want to have to worry about other people. i just cant.#im just so fucking exhausted and i dont know if its talking to them and feeling drained by the fact that theyre going through something-#-and that i need to be the therapist or if im just sick. again.#plus yesterday i slept late. my mum made me cry (i think she was just tired out by that point in the day so i doubt it was personal)#and just#im fucking tired ok#and I'm sorry im a bad friend#i just dont have energy. i want to have good energy around me to try give me some.#but when theyre upset it gets into me and drains me and I've been there as much as i can but i just cant right now. im too tired#i know im a shitty person but literally everyone got to be a shitty person at my expense so isnt it my fucking turn?#and then assuming i was acting like that to hurt them. I DO NOT WANT TO HURT ANYONE. IF WE HAVE A FIGHT I WANT TO MOVE ON.#I'm not gonna be caught up in it if we resolved it#but yeah. long story short they're going through shit and i feel like shit#and i think them going through shit is what makes me feel like shit. because i worry about them#and they can lash out on me#i just dont know anymore. i dont know if im an awful person or not#last year i broke up with a friend and my mum said I'll do the same with the next friend#it wasnt my fault#that friend ghosted me#im trying not to be her rn too and im scared that ive been in the wrong im scared im a shitty person too#but at the same time im too done to even really care#i just wanna stop fucking feeling all this and just get on with my day
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#since I talked in the tags a lil before#i also need to say that the political situation in Georgia has been a big pile of shit lately#that’s mostly why I don’t have the energy to engage with anything atm#everything is so hopeless#I just try to play video games these days to take my mind off stuff#but to explain it a bit#there is this one law the parliament already tried to pass last year but then didn’t because thousands came out to rally against it#the law is about ‘foreign agents’ and it’s directly copied from kremlin’s law in Russia#where the govt basically uses it to just cleanse the country from anyone they don’t like#So now this law is back and they have voted a yes two times#and will vote a yes third time#which is absolutely devastated news for anyone here#because if this law is instituted#basically say bye to foreign scholarships#to ngos financed from foreign countries that work to protect queer and trans peeps#rehabilitate refugees domestic violence victims etc#there will be no new roads in removed highland villages that rely mostly on international financial aid#no education opportunities for poor kids etc#this law literally equals death#and it will be heavily used to just cleanse Georgia of people who don’t think like Kremlin#and I am so fucking scared rn#There have been protests for 3 days#tens of thousands of people on the streets#but parliaments just keeps ignoring people#Or using police brutality against them#they are beating people up#jailing them for peaceful protests etc#it’s absolute nightmare#I’m just so tired of Russia#why won’t they die with everyone who supports them I wanna cry
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that four day weekend was lovely but I really started going through something and it's definitely necessary and very... transformative? and well that's why it's so painful christ
#it's been hard to sleep for a couple of weeks tbh#cause I keep having these fantasies where my ex becomes the person I basically know him to be without the depression#and I just feel like ahh what the fuck have I done why did I break up with him#the first time I saw him after he'd bought a BOOK? he had PLANTS? he'd framed ART???#and I literally was on the floor crying because it felt so devastating to see a temporary glimpse of that#like it's not *him* it's the depression#and I just feel guilty like idk what I want anymore. my partner literally moves to this country on thursday#and I'm supposed to be over the moon but I don't have a lot of feelings about it :( happy for them but scared this isn't what I want#hm:(
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guys i did it
#i can’t fucking believe i actually got one#screaming and crying rn#i’m literally about to have a heart attack#my hands were so shaky i was so scared i was accidentally gonna close or reload the tab since i was using my phone 😭#plz do not ask me how much i spent#i went way over the limit i set for myself and i’m not proud lol#fuck u ticketbastard for making me spend over $75 more on service fees whatever the fuck that means#mcr#my chemical romance
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Clearly not handling having to give up my dogs as well as I thought I was
#can't even properly cry about it bc im sharing a room with my sister#as awful as i feel about the whole thing...i feel the worst when i think about K#she was literally like my baby ... got her when she was like...6 ..8 weeks old and i could hold her in one hand#and having her really helped me get through last year#anyways i feel like physical pain over this#and D my giant baby#he's so sweet and lovely but people are scared of him bc he looks aggressive#i hate this so much and it's constantly what could i have done to prevent this how could i have done better??#maybe if i were better at being christain#then maybe god would have done smth#not that that's ever worked before#and it's a pointless spiral i know because there is nothing i could have done and that hurts so much as well#it's so fucked up... literally all my future plans included K (bc my fam loved D more.. they weren't as fond of K) and now#even if i moved to a diff country i knew id have to do extra paperwork and all that so i could take her with#and now...there's just nothing...a massive fucking void#anyways back to distracting myself so i dont think about this#asra talks
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y does it feel so SO wrong 2 share ur opinion???
#oh u solved the problem#urself!#like its not even about bing right or wrong its just about literally communicating & i think im doing it BAD#IM NOT AFRAID OF BING “H8ED” ON I JUST#i think i just dont like having the chance of making ppl feel bad?#or soemthing aloong those lines?#theres a line a vry easy line 2 cross#like expressing a comic book opinion right? bc its super easy 2 sway a bunch of ppl#but if ur saying smth u dont like it while some1 does it has the possibility of making that person feel bad#& I H8 THAT...idk y it makes me feel like shit????? @ the possibility???#this feels like smth i should bring up w/a therapist LMAOOOOOOO#but like same thing when i was in class right? giving a presentation i got RLLY SCARED 2 do it bc i was giving an opinion or a fact BUT I#COULD B WRONG ON THE FACT!! which is y i just never did them bc i would cry lol but its just#it kinda feels the same way#its weird bc im fine w/getting shit wrong. its only when i share an opinion when i feel stupid??????? ok not stupid just mean? i think? yea#this is possibly the reason y i get nervous sharing hcs or aus. bc it wont b “canon accurate” & then will like fuck up some1s perception id#its not like any1 reads this lashfkj i just hmmmmmmm theres defiantly smth i should b discovering here i just am not...#i want 2 share my opinion bc its a fucking opinion theres nothing wrong w/it bc its not a fact EXCEPT in the way its a fact of how i FEEL o#THINK?? like its just its strange. i think this has a lot 2 do w/me never bing listened 2 as a child LOL uhhhhhhhh hmmmmmm yeah prolly akj#I FIGURED IT OUT I GOT IT ALLLLLL UNLOCKED#god i hhhhhhhhhhh some1 make a clone of me so i can talk 2 me like a therapist or smth#this is y i cant do therapy actualyl its bc i just keep yapping then by the time im done the therapist always went tyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy#srry ramblings
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