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aelswiths · 3 days ago

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wait stop I never noticed that alfred wears aethelreds entire outfit after he becomes king. Guys, guys guys, I'm so sad right now

#literally I'm sobbing though #ok I get that this was probably like the kings armor or whatever but like #I can't help but think its because he's being sentimental #because he misses his brother #I can't #I'm actually so sad #I want my preseries show about wessex so I can see more of aethelred and alfred because now I have thoughts and headcanons and feelings #and now I am SAD #he doesn't wear aethelred's crown though #only the armor #GUYSSSSSSSS #tlk alfred #aethelred of wessex #sevenkingsmustdie #the last kingdom

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silusvesuius · 11 months ago

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steer clear of ....the illigitimate child of... nvm

#skyrim #oc #nelavis #my art #the OC art i make spanning across seasons just cus i wait for it to pile up and then not draw anything LMFAO #if u remove 1 letter and switch move one his name is literally n*lvas so i'm thinking in another universe he's their child #and it fits!#n*loth would impregnate t*lvas just to see what happens (❓❓) and then throw the child out #t*lvas is really heartbroken but nothing comes before his education. but he visits him sometimes #that's why nelavis can read and write and do a lot of things #nelavis will tell you sob stories of his broken family and how his mom is always being abused by his dad with a big smile -#- over at his house during tea and cracker hour #while you're confused about the weird smell coming from the basement #that's not canon though #anyways enuff of that.. maybe i'll post more OCs in the future maybe not; i actually think about them quite a lot lol..#i'm Shy

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zukoromantic · 5 months ago

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UNDERGUS. UNDERGUS IN THE EPISODE. OH MY GODDDDDDDD. I AM UNWELL.

THE BACK CAMEOS????? I AM INSANE. PLUS MAHOUTSUKAIS OH MY GODDDD

AND EVEN:

SKEARHEAD REFERENCE ????????????? THE GUY. PLEASE. SAME FACE.

I did not ever in a million years think the villains would get cameos. I am beyond happy. MY GUYS .

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profounddefendorcrusade-blog · 10 months ago

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I feel bad for Starlo.

Star has a point, idk what the four were ticked off about, there is like 99% chance everyone willingly participated in the trolley problem, based on what we've seen of his behavior thus far it's not like Starlo to be that big of a jerk/drag them by force/yell at them to do it. Ed's words:

he does it because Star asks NICELY

clearly jealous

It genuinely seemed like a fun time/fun roleplay, especially since every day is the same. Like, the five are supposed to be a rowdy and adventures bunch, what exactly did Starlo do wrong, I'm genuinely confused and curious. Except taking a big liking in Clover (his posse should know that this is a big moment for him, according to Blackjack they've known each other since high school and had the same liking for westerns. So they were basically a nerd gang.) Starlo was kind, patient and considerate towards Clover the whole time, even warned Mooch about them not being bandits, taught Clover gun safety, wanted to bring his posse along for a fun time, thanked Ace for telling him about getting Clover a new hat...

Sure, at first he only liked Clover for being a human, but as Ceroba says, that changed and he grew to genuinely care about them, plus I can't help but think Star saw himself in Clover and that's part of the reason he was so proud of them all the time even when they messed up (I'll talk more about this at some point)

What exactly made Ace want to leave the gang? He even said how he doesn't mind "getting run over by the fake train"

he's so nice. says sorry for forgetting the safety goggles even when he was scatterbrained due to his excitement. I love him so much

The only real "faults" (I'll call them temporary faults) I saw in Star during the Wild East section was that he was even more enthusiastic and more proud than usual. But how couldn't he be when he met a member of the species that he has admired for so long because they have real cowboys and sheriffs on the surface (who are seen as brave heroes who deliver justice, while Star canonically feels like a nobody farmer). His posse should have realized Clover wouldn't be there forever and just let their boss enjoy himself with his "deputy who'd have to leave sooner or later anyway"(or be more patient with him/ask him why he feels this strongly towards Clover/if there's a deeper reason for that). His friends including Ceroba just turn their back on him so quickly instead. The moment he's gotten the chance to feel valued for once and put himself first and not have to take care of this whole town and everyone in it and live his dream of meeting a real human, suddenly "his personality is damaged?"

Star's literally built this whole town, organised everything, he worries about everyone, Ceroba (plus was the one to give her emotional strength before and after Clover's sacrifice), Kanako, the monsters, his family, struggles with feelings of worthlessness yet never wipes that smile off his face, always does his best to be hopeful and optimistic and make others laugh, gave his posse a nap time so they don't become exhausted, gave Ceroba a free home, didn't act upon his feelings towards her and was a 110% supportive, caring friend instead. THAT'S who he is. He's the papa bear of this friend group, the glue holding everyone together.

He was just *really* excited. Y'all know he's insecure and just wishes to escape who he is and yet y'all blame him for liking Clover so much. Yeah, the four are very clearly jealous. But why won't the four of you control your feelings for a while? As mentioned, Clover WILL HAVE TO LEAVE EVENTUALLY. They won't be Star's "deputy" forever (the kid who's just as into westerns as he is, who values justice just as much, who also values doing the right thing. Someone he clearly felt understood in the presence of, whom he loved; just look at the way he talks about Clove during Showdown). Star seems genuinely confused of what he did wrong poor guy just wanted to live his fantasy for once and feel important:

Even at the beginning Moray's like "oh no Martlet is upset" Mooch replies "don't be a buzzkill nothing exciting ever happens around here" and Ray's like "Yeah you've got a point"

If you all agreed to have a little fun with a human who will very soon leave forever why is Starlo's enthusiasm such a big problem? If the posse weren't into this after all (unless they were simply too jealous which could have been solved with a honest talk and a little patience) why are you doing this "rowdy" job with Star in the first place? Do you want your boring routine day to day life so much back? Or just for Clover to leave (which they will soon enough)? You, western enthusiasts, literally met a real human, A HUMAN FROM WESTERNS YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE PASSIONATELY INTO (clearly not as passionate as Star but passionate ENOUGH to understand where he's coming from).

... okay.

#Like idk if I'm being biased because Star is my favorite character but I kinda just started thinking more and more about this and... yeesh.#Felt like a BIT of an overreaction to blame Starlo this much #No wonder he cracked #and unlike with Ceroba we actually see him do his very best to “fix” what he did “wrong”#i feel so much sympathy for this guy man #WAY more than for Ceroba #sorry fox lady #uty #undertale yellow #starlo uty #uty starlo #like dude literally had to come crawling on his hands and knees for them to forgive him #what “loyal” “supportive” friends they all are #sobbing for star #poor poor man #meanwhile everyone forgave ceroba for much much MUCH worse #she didn't need to burst into tears and beg for forgiveness even though she SHOULD have #everyone forgives her immediately on the spot + she gets a hug from clover #I'm sorry Starlo #like how was he “selfish” and “reckless”#he did something for himself for the 1st time in his life #y'all are reckless too btw #you put yourself first ONCE and they call you selfish #Star had the right to be mad at them for attacking Clover for no reason other than jealousy #wdym he's throwing you around for human business you literally wanted this #he watched the tapes more than 50 times bc that's how much he hates himself #and yet he's still been doing EVERYTHING in his power to be there for EVERYBODY

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coyoteclan · 11 months ago

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Big TW for pet loss

Hey, clangen tumblr and those who just enjoy the silly cats on this blog. I know it's been a little bit of time since my last update, but unfortunately during the past few months, I have been caring for my closest friend, Comet.

She's been my best friend for 15 whole years, and on February 9th of 2024, I'm sad to say that she has passed. I won't lie when I say that this is one of the hardest posts I've ever made, but I want to continue this blog in her honor. Normally, I have a terrible habit of just letting projects like this slip by me and gather dust; however Comet was meant to play an integral part within the blog to immortalize her, and I refuse to let something meant just for her to go to waste.

I want to thank you all first of all for being such an amazing community. I've genuinely had so much joy come of this blog, and it pains me that I let it go stagnant for as long as I have. There are 568 of you now, which is so extremely wild to me; but I hope that from now on, you can all love Comet as much as I did, even if as a memory.

I hope to return to posting content both here and on my main, @mxssacre , but for now I still need time to grieve and come to terms with the loss of someone that was so incredibly intertwined with everything I've done since I was 9 years old.

Thank you for everything Comet, my heart, my soul, my love.

More of my favorite photos of her beneath the cut.

It's hard to choose favorites out of the thousands of photos I've taken of her over the years, but I hope these do her justice to show what an amazing being she was. I hope you're hunting your toy mice in the stars, Comet.

#Yeah this is a not so great post I'm sorry #I won't lie to y'all I've been sobbing my eyes out for the past week but it's helping me come to terms to write about her #I wanted to draw something for her in order to post this but ngl I just can't right now #I will be okay for the record. it's just an extremely difficult adjustment for me and I really do love this community #Seriously though. I've seen the hundreds of notifications I get from this blog weekly. I cannot thank you enough for the love I've felt #tw animal death #tw pet death #tw pet loss #I'm not sure exactly how to tag this but I hope the warning at the beginning helps #I literally finished writing a memorial for her before writing this post so clearly I'm a little in my feels lmao #I tried finding some of her sillier photos to add but there are so many. I might post more on my main later when I try figuring out-#-my memorial tattoo #hug your cats extra tight for me ❤

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rmbunnie · 23 days ago

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Immensely goofy how Tim Drake was explicitly intended to be/written with the purpose of being a much more likable and palatable Robin than Jason and then right out the gate in A Lonely Place of Dying we get the twofer of him going "WHOA really you mean it was the totally respectable guy openly trying to buy out the circus and praying on its downfall who was sabotaging it, NOT the employee spiraling over the prospect of losing his job who Dick explicitly told me it wasn't? Anyone would've guessed it was that clown chump, you're an awesome detective Dick!" and the infamous (to me) "If one cop gets taken out it doesn't matter because the police system is so expansive and unstoppable that it's become a faceless symbol more than a group of individuals, and that's what justice is. We need to be like THEM as heroes :D" Like I think overall he's decent enough but did they even try with that introduction? In what way was this the best shot at likable?

#not to say i like tim less because I think he was problematic in ALPoD #it's just personal preference that i'm lukewarm-mildly-interested towards him when i try and forget fanon entirely #like this isn't a callout post for Tim Drake #but holy shit #i had to take a lap over that cop thing #i feel like we were really banking on the idea that that the general audience is pro-cop #which i mean its a superhero comic so. unsurprising.#but like buddy i actually don't think anyone WOULD think the clown sobbing and apologizing profusely over the idea of losing his job did it #tim drake neutral-disputable i would say #agnostic even #but i'm not tagging him because i do think this could be easily taken as anti tim drake #even though my overall perception is not THAT negative #a lonely place of dying #batman #dc comics #dick puts up with SO MUCH in this one #jason is turning over in his grave over being directly compared to a cop #I guess Tim does seem more agreeable and optimistic compared to Jason so there’s that #but in any metric outside of the vague impression of “niceness” I feel like he's. kind of offputting to be frank!#tim wasn't there when Haly said the circus was being bought out #but Tim also wasn't there when the clown got in that argument with the lion tamer #and he knew about that + has been literally stalking Dick for the entirety of the storyline #so i feel like it's pretty safe to assume he would have been dialed in #and even if he wasn't he's told to his face it isn't the clown and goes “sorry Dick but I still think it's the clown. for personal reasons.

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ef-1 · 1 year ago

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girlhood

#i have to fly out to capetown to see mother and im literally debating if i could land in the morning and leave at night on the same day #like. anything longer than that is going to ruin my year.#when she called and did her “katherine. you have to be here on the 10th” i literally sobbed in my bed for the rest of the day 😍😍😍#not dyeing my hair black for a year and its getting lighter and lighter everyday and i look like her again #and my therapist telling me “you need to do things for yourself.” but like can i? sorry that woman traumatised me and i actually cant :)#like everything i do is informed by her #I'm going to go and just like everytime the only way to keep my sanity is to mirror her. talk and sit and speak and read and eat like her #and its such a terrifying experience bc i remember that im capable of emulating her viciousness and maybe i am my mother's daugher 🤢🤢🤢#and im going to come back and its going to take fucking months for me to feel like myself again #“oh you look so beautiful just like your mother” i hope you DIE lol !!! the fact that my conception of beauty was shaped by her #growing up with this cruel beautiful detached woman and realising that at the intersection of beauty and wickness is a lifetime of pain #and still being so desperate for her approval- for any metaphysical proximity to her that i felt elated when #people would tell me i look like her. that it meant i was also beautiful like her and maybe she'll love me a little for it #but now i know for a fact that i do look like her and it makes saliva swell under my tongue - that moment right before you throw up-#when people mention it 😍#last time i was in capetown my optic neuritis flared up (and i know for a fact it was that it was ms-stress related from having to see her)#and i thought i hid it so well even though i had near constant headaches & lethargy until she said “katherine give me the red notebook”#and i knew that she knew all along. it was so acutely humiliating standing there and knowing she knows i cant see which one is the red one #and she tilted her head and said “whats the matter? do you not know what red looks like?”#im never going to have kids. my mother and i read eachother so well it can only mean im never too far removed from becoming her #lol!!!!!!!!!

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vellicrow · 2 months ago

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WE GOT LESBIAN SEX AND CAITVI ENDGAME BUT AT THE COST OF EVERYTHING !!!!!!

#arcane spoilers #arcane #literally so good though top show of all time #sobbed my eyes out what the fuck #riot literally said 'i'm tired of doomed yuri let's doom everyone else but them this time'

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ask-gardenview · 3 months ago

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You know what sucks? Floor 8 Scraps and Pebbles in a blackout.

"You know what also sucks??? Floor 5. Blackout. Toodles and Pebble. I WAS ALONE."

#brightney answers #dandy's world #brightney dandys world #projecting except I wasnt playing as brightney..#I think it was back when I used to main tisha. sigh..#takes drag of ciggarette.. haven't heard that name in years /j #seriously though I haven't played her since I got goob.. and I recently got PEBBLE #< first main . I'm so happy HES SO FUN TO PLAY AS #wait this is my post I can ramble about pebble all I want.#his bark is so fun I love it. and also HE HIGHLIGHTS EVERYTHING NEARBY. ITEMS CAPSULE TAPES. I'm going CRAZYY I LOV EIT.#I pick up capsules solely for the ichor you get from them bc I have full research on literally everyone but the mains (MINUS PEBBLE. SOBS)#and most of the capsules I get are just commons and whatnot . right #so IM GETTING FREE ICHOR . WICKED #and also the items are really useful too

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aelswiths · 6 months ago

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*screams into the void*

#the way he like seems to be choking back a sob of emotions before he says this #he can't bear the fact that he's causing her pain #and that there's nothing he can do to stop it #even though talking openly would help her but he can't do that #because if he does he would have to be vulnerable and if he's vulnerable aelswith might think him weak #which is something he knows she abhors (even though she hates it because of her own feelings of being seen as weak and unworthy)#and he can't bear her rejection because he loves her and if she were to reject him it would destroy him #he can be this open with uhtred because its a manipulation tactic #he's using vulnerability to get uhtred to do what he wants and thats why he can be so open in this scene. he's doing it strategically #but to be open with aelswith leaves him (in his mind) open to losing her since he's caused her so much pain throughout their marriage #and he would have to face the fact that he's done that and she might not forgive him and he can't do that #aelswith is so upset in this scene because she thinks its his final way of saying to her “you aren't worthy” when really its a tactic #to help ensure that she and their children will be safe #but they literally cannot properly communicate with each other because of all of the painful history between them #I'm going insane #I love them so much #they are everything to me #literally everything #he loves her so much #like he could not survive losing her - just the way he clings to her all throughout s3 speaks to that #I really think that because of the similarities between uhtred and aelswith uhtred's betrayal makes him start to fear that he could lose he #and he just starts to cling to her for reassurance that she'll never leave and she won't stop believing in him #ok I'm done #for now #I'm crying #your honor I love them #they mean so much to me

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icewindandboringhorror · 1 year ago

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There's always a slight yearning in the back of my mind wishing I had been born in the right place, time, family situation, income level, etc. to have just lived in one single house for my entire life. Imagine being born in a place that still suits you, even through all of your personal evolutions and etc. The idea of deep familiarity with an area because you've lived and explored it for 40+ years, being encased in a web of memories and connections. Being able to clean out your old childhood bedroom and find personal artifacts, to dig in the yard and remember. I know those lives can still be plenty imperfect, but there's just something so seemingly solid and stable and Grounding about it that I sometimes wish I could have.. (At least from my outside perspective as someone who's moved around a bit geographically and even within the same area, never lives in the same house/ apartment /etc. for more than a few years usually.) Like... having a place that is printed upon, fully your own, rather than chronically a visitor, every thought of a space always tempered with the notion that one day soon you'll have to pack it all up again, etc. There's something peaceful about the permanence.

#I think also because I'm a very nostalgic person - THOUGH not in the way that somep poeple mean when they say nostalgia because I've realiz #ed that to some people apparently it means like.. more of a sad emotional thing? Or when I talk about being nostalgic they say 'me too' and #then describe how they're always depressed dwelling on the past wishing they could revisit it and replaying it and feeling sad and etc.#Whereas for me - it's not in a deep or emotional way at all. It's very detached - kind of like someone who is doing like a scientific #cataloguing of something? I don't feel any remorse or sadness or longing or sitting there sobbing for hours over people/pets I've lost or #etc. It's more like a fun contemplative excercise and extension of self analysis plus just documentation. Like I know your memory fades as #you get older OR even as stuff is actively ongoing humans have terrible recall - even the ones who are less emotional/more focused on #accuracy our minds still twist things or etc. SO I looove to have documentations of everything possible so that in the future I will have #as full and complete of a view of myself as I possibly can. sure the image will undoubtedly be a little distorted but having real evidence #of how something was at a time is very valuable. You look through old messages or letters or something and you always find other alternate #versions of yourself. Not in a worse way like inherently inferior Previous Models Of You who haven't yet been perfected but even just in a #neutral way like 'what they're saying is not a BAd thing but also is not how I would say that today.' etc. ANYWAY I find it really interest #ing to document and remember things and love revisiting the past - not in a sad way - but just like. curiosity. reminiscing and recalling #and filling in gaps. or trying to have the same feeling I felt at a previous time so I can remember what it was. Collecting information for #documentation purposes. Like for example - I would love to go back and tour all of my old childhood houses/apartments. Not to like #sit in the middleof them and cry and go 'ohhh my childhood waughhh' - but literally because I want to take detailed photographs so I #can remeber exatly what they looked like and recreate them in sims or some other digital way. Why? idk. just to gather the information. If #I ever live to like 80 years old and I'm still reflecting on my life curious about the dteails of it. I want to be able to fire up my #ancient windows 10 laptop I've kept all these years and open up the sims 4 and tour my old home with accuracy etc. ??#Not sure why really. Maybe an extension of how I generally care a lot about having an 'accurate' view of things? Like I would rather be #accurate than be happy. I don't understand 'ignorance is bliss' because I would always rather know. I always always in any situation am mor #focused on 'what is the well researched practical truth' than about 'how does this make me feel' or etc. Truth above ALL else even if it #were to make me miserable. Aka why I'm a 'boring' 'annoying' 'UM actually..' type of killjoy lol because it's very hard for me to understan #that some people can enjoy something or have a good time even not knowing the full facts of a situation or etc. BUT anyway. since that is #some core driver of my personality for whatever reason (just the plague of ennegram type 5 perhaps lol) maybe that also drives me to my #kind of minor obsession with like 'I must have a complete view and calatoguing of my life that is as accurate as possible within the means #i have' . Is it REALLY important for me to know the exact layout of on of my first childhood bedrooms? no. materially it does nothing for m #in life. BUT hey. it would make a great addition to the Accurate Life Story Catalogue lol. ANYWAY.. But I think a lot of wanting to live in #one place forever is not just the ease of documentation. but the sense of having a constant. Much of what i crave most in life is stability #& familiarity &routine bc of how my brain works. And it just would feel so good to be Settled. Never uproot again. One little place FOREVER

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pokemonruby · 4 months ago

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deep cut deserved better but otherwise amazing finale; they absolutely went all out for it and i enjoyed every second. it feels very bittersweet ultimately, but now we can look forward to splatoon 4 on the next console!

#team past pulled their weight i'll give them that. gg!#riley rambles #i'm literal when it comes to the splatfest themes instead of selecting whichever idol is my favorite like most people (i'm autistic)#and i picked future mainly because 1. MY present sucks ass 2. i had no childhood and 3. i get to look forward to marrying my partner one da #and getting out of my current situation. it's hope for the future.#a little too much considering it's just a silly squid game but that was just the thought process.#though also deep cut is my absolute favorite group so far and it hurts to see that they got sidelined so hard in their own game sobs #you will always be famous shiver frye and big man!!!#i also unfortunately didn't get to enjoy it as much as i wanted to because i was deathly sick for the majority of it. :( awful timing.

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lapsed-lys · 8 months ago

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Getting teary-eyed over here. A transphobe was going on about some ''gotcha'' argument they had and it lead me to research for 3h on the subject between reading studies, reading articles, watching Youtube videos from professionals and trans experiences. And, again, nothing like research shows that trans people matter and are cared about.

We have our place in the world, we have our place in the healthcare system, we have our place in justice, we have our place in debates. We do not have a place in your bigotry arena where you punch down on us without thinking.

Do people who hold negative opinions of trans people ever research as much? Do they read articles from various sources, both right-wing and left-wing, both professional and anecdotal experiences? Do they meet trans people in real life and go ''disgusting being'' when they so gloriously smile and greet you?

Tumblr keeps sending me transphobes on my dash and in my inbox. I won't shut up. I will uplift my siblings, because I actually care enough to research before spouting my opinions heavy enough to matter in human rights.

Happy pride month y'all, to my queer, trans, intersex, detransitionners and outcasted folks.