#literallt changed my life

[causeimcrayzeebee]

OH MY GOD IM LIKE SHAKING AND CRYING I JUST READ THE CUTEST AKIKASA FIC WOW….. GO READ IT PLEASE ITS ADORABLE AND AMAZING

[mangoisms]

re last rb. what the. WHAT!!!! i thought zesti was a COLA?!? HELLO???????????? guys. omg

[backspacingmyself]

20/07/2024, 10.34am

I actually despise her

[fobnsfwdoodlesbackup]

Ahhh hello??? An artist I love knows of me and knows my name? And thinks my art is hot?? 😳😳😳🙏🙏🙏

have u seen that one peterick somno comic by fobnsfwdoodles cause I think about it a lot <3

YES i lost my miiiiind when i saw it- marco's art is always so hot and gorgeous ouugh

[link]

[corpesess]

I decided to remake this. anyways

Names that I prefer using [ none of these are my actual name since I of course want privacy on what my name is ] — [ It’s in line of what name I want you to use most first and what one I don’t want really used on me. ]

Clem

Zom

Venus

Crowley

Bram

Skully

Seraph

[ There is more names that I do go by but these are the most comfortable for me ]

Now pronouns that I prefer using — [ It’s in line of what pronouns I want you to use most first and what one I don’t want really used on me. ]

[ Prns that I’m using rn!! ]

It/Its ,, Brain / Brainself ,, Heart / Heartself , Love / Loveself ,, Rot / Rotself ,, Gore / Goreself

[ pronouns that I’m okay with using right now v ] He/Him ,, It/Its ,, Xe/Xem + Plus more Neo prns.

Anyways more onto myself is that I’m Trans [ FtM ] and I’m Graygender !! I am also Asexual Biromantic [ heavy male preference ] and demiromantic !!

JUST SO YOU ALL KNOW I CAN HAVE A TENDENCY TO CHANGE MT PRNS AND/OR NAMES AT EANDOM TIMES SINCE BLAH IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN 😖😖

I AM A MINOR ‼️‼️‼️ pls do not be weird with me about stuff like or I’ll block you and stuff [ Anyone under the age of 14 you can not follow !! ]

More info !!!

I love cats , and raccoons !! Also my favorite holiday is Halloween !! Anyways I’m in a lot of fandoms but here are some I’m hyperfixiated on rn

Horror Films [ Such as Halloween , Scream , Friday the 13th , Terrifier ]

Marvel [ Mostly Deadpool and wolverine ]

Bungou Stray Dogs

Jujutsu Kaisen

Creepypasta

Gacha life two

Honkai Star Rail

Genshin Impact

this blog is me posting my gacha designs !! Here is another blog I’m going to be doing for designs

@woundzzz

i just need to make the whole intro part [ I’m using this account the one that’s linked instead of my serafilm blog — I’m going to use that account for something idk tho ]

you can freely if you ever want ask questions about my OC’s, ask me questions you can freely message me idm!!

ALSO A LITTLE WARNING I DO TEND TO SWEAR ALOT !! AND I DO, DO OC x CANON SO IF U ARE UNCOMFORTABLE WITH THAT YOU CAN unfollow!! Also I am OTF [ okay to follow ] TAGGING !! [ tagging people who are absolutely so fucking kind to me!! ] ;; @petty-lemon ,, @g1r-ap0ca1yps3 // @espressodepressoconan ,, @prometheus2007 ,, @wheatisgreat ,, @catsithkelpie ,, @cordyline-uki ,, @skibbidiclown

[ YOU ALL THAT I TAGGED ARE LITERALLT MY FAV MOOTS$?? ]

[lowkeyrobin]

could you write something for eddievr?? If not it’s totally ok, have a good day!!!

-♊️

yeah sure! I went with this prompt I found from someone I follow so hopefully this is good lol ; thanks for requesting! hope you enjoy 🫶 ; I'm ab to be so honest I have no idea what this is.... don't expect anything good cause I wrote it at peak sleep deprived mess I'm so sorry (I literallt dk what to do w this i???)

EDDIEVR ; why are you here?

summary ; Eddie drops by to try and back your mind out of leaving for work, you leave anyways, and have to go running back to him

warnings ; language, platonic

word count ; 869

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"Why are you here?" You ask bluntly, arms crossed as you stand in your doorway.

Eddie stands in front of you, a desperate look in his eyes, "To save you from a mistake, Y/n!"

You roll your eyes with a light sigh. "Eddie, I'm moving, and you can't change that! I don't know why you're so obsessed with trying to hold me down here. I'm going places with my life. You need to move on!"

He opens his mouth to speak, but you cut him off.

"For Christ's sake, you're married! Go home to Gabby, please. I'm leaving tomorrow." You step out of his way to showcase the bins and boxes lining your walls.

"It's not about that!" He exclaims. "You're making a mistake, it's gonna be good for a while, but it's gonna come crashing down"

"And you know this how?" You squint, raising an eyebrow. "What, are you a psychic or something?"

He sighs, "I just don't wanna lose you, okay?"

"Holy shit. You came all the way here for that?"

He's silent.

"Y/n, please. I have a bad feeling-"

"Nope, goodbye" You move out of the way to slam the door closed, not wanting to hear another word.

Truth is, you'd gotten in a fight, a random one at that, when you told him you were moving. He was lying about his fear to lose you or whatever he meant by that, you talked online with him and his friends 24/7, it wouldn't be any different if you were a few hundred miles away. You talked more online than in person already. Nothing would've really changed.

But, apparently to him, it would've meant the end of the world.

He was hiding something, you didn't know what. He didn't want you to leave, you didn't know whether to find it sweet or creepy at first.

You decide to call Gabby, considering that's his wife, and you didn't want him around your home anymore. Plus, you had to question her about this.

The first time you dial her number, you're sent to voicemail. Out of your persistence, you call again, to actually be met by her voice.

"Oh my God, hi Y/n! Sorry, I've been baking, had to wash my hands and I couldn't get to the phone" She awkwardly chuckles, "What's up? You alright?"

"Uh, yeah..." You shrug, "Uhm, what's up with Eddie. He's so persistent about trying to get me to not move, but he won't tell me why"

You hear her sigh on the other end of the phone.

"He's worried about the company you work for, they're known for shady things, he's worried that after you make this move, that they're gonna start the shady shit now that you're closer to home base" She explains, "He's embarrassed that he did research on it, I guess. He's been looking for any and every reason for you to stay"

You sigh and nod, remembering she can't see you as you look back down at your phone. "Thanks, Gabby"

"Yeah. Let me know if you need anything, okay?"

"Mhm"

You hang up after giving her a proper goodbye and then flop down on your couch. You look around at all the boxes stacked along your walls, looking like a maze around the place.

You still didn't understand why he was acting this way, as it was just... childish? Maybe it was his way of showing concern for a friend, but it just felt weird.

"Eddie, you're a confusing man"

You sigh as you reach for your TV remote, turning the television on to watch more of a show you've been hooked on.

Surprisingly, Gabby wasn't lying about the shady shit your company was up to. They left you without a job in the middle of a big city and rent due in a few days. Awesome.

You were already on the verge of being evicted because you missed rent last month. The only friends you had anywhere close were Eddie and Gabby.

You decide to give Gabby a ring, hoping to ask if you could crash with them for a while. The stress was eating you inside out and you couldn't handle it, why not flee while you could?

"Hey Gabby!-"

"Y/n?" Eddie asks through the other side of the line, having picked up the phone for his wife, "What's up?"

"I'm getting evicted and I don't know what to do"

"Hm... I think I told you about that, pal"

"Actually, you didn't! Because you made a million excuses not to tell me for some reason"

"Yeah, true. Sorry"

"Anyways, do you at least have room for my cat? I'm not giving them up, they're my cat. I just need somewhere safe for them to be right now"

"Yknow you can stay with us too, right? We have a spare bedroom"

"I don't have money to pay you rent-"

Gabby quickly grabs the phone from Eddie, "You're welcome to stay with us anytime, Y/n. Please, come. I'm bored here without you"

"Hey!" Eddie exclaims jokingly.

"Alright, I'll be there in... five minutes!" You joke, "Okay, bye, thank you, love you, need to go, bye!"

"What the fuck is happening right now"

[shoezuki]

Ur domesticated Sampo post be resonating with me. I have slept exactly no hours and have to be up in 3 so apologies on advance for how illegible this may be.

I gotta personal HC that Sampo has a somewhat 'yearning' for a simple life in the sense that he'd like to have the option to just sit and chill sometimes. But not in a constant sense. He wants to be loved and go home to a family and it kinda hits at times, usually when he's exhausted or finished a rough operation.

But that's quickly followed by disgust? almost because he knows how unsatisfying that sounds when he actually has energy again. He'd be restless. His life rebolves around thrill and gettin away with obscene stuff not because he has to but because it's what he needs. Living a cushy life is the equivalent to forcing a mountain lion to live in a box. It's nice to get set meals everyday but by god is it boring.

I like to think that when he and Hep first start being serious when dating, Gep opens up his home to him. Gets concerned from how much he pits himself in harms way and tries to convince him to settle just a bit. That probs lasts all of a week because

a) he knows Shampoo too well to expect that plan to go down well and

b) he begins to notice how Sampo's practically bouncing off the walls with a constant anxiety like the walls are closing in on him.

He settles for patchin him up if he comes back in a rough way and accepting that sometimes he won't be home for a few days just to crawl through the window at 3am with some trinket strapped to his hip and a busted ankle.

For the high(ish) morals he holds, he's still a Fool. There's been times in his past that he's not particularly proud of and there's been decisions that weigh on him even now but he wouldn't couldn't change. Because that's just him.

I've porbs used some words I'd wanan change out but we do a sleepy long ask. Hope you've been doin well n ur dreams are full of historically accurate cannibalism <3

Egg lemme sleep pls. You can't keep filling my smol lil brain with Sampard T-T

~ 🥃

YESSSS YES!!! YOU GET IT. im at work rn so i cant say much but you FUCKING get it

i think like sampo Does to some degree want to just.. live and chill and have a peaceful life. like an actual set home he can return to and relax in. but hes also not entirely built for that. he cant just settle and live the good life.n gep at some point gets that n at least always has his door open for him. or his second story window

i haveto go im literallt hiding in my boss' office typing this but i have SO MANY ideas n thoughts bout it oujagha

[umarthiels]

#VOTE QUISHMAEL#samfro changed my life but i think quishmael deserves the W on account of being a) more classic and b) more queer#like genuinely the gayest classic lit bitches in the game canonically married and everything if they don’t win what’s the point

tags from @frodolives so true!! they've both got queerplatonic swag but let the dick guys win one thing!!! i love samfro but quishmael u-hauled it up, got Doomed together, and are the ogs! they INVENTED marriage!

finals

[goblinontour]

whenever i have a random thought i come to you i love you sm!!

youre like the next ohladymoon, i miss her so much😓😓

thank you! i’ve been loving just being able to come here and get my thoughts out, it’s easier on here…

i miss moon too but she’s not coming back, i can’t speak for her but i’ll miss her fics :( i literallt screamed into my pillow when she posted that ski trip fic, life changing😫

what i can say for sure is that i don’t think i’m getting tired of alex anytime soon, it’s been years and the obsession is only getting worse by the day

[lostwillowtree]

the thing i love about jd is that his whole belief isnt just ‘god is dead’ or ‘society is inherently evil’, he seems to have this belief that god exists within people, that divine power is wielded by those that know how to, and his goal is to wield it

this first becomes obvious in ‘our love is god’. i dont really need to spell it out, it’s in the title; jd and veronica’s love (or, more specifically, jd’s love for veronica) is strong enough to wield that power of god (“you are the only thing that’s right about this broken world”). this is his perception of their relationship - we will love each other so much that we can destroy the fucked up world and make a new, better one (“we’ll burn it down and then we’ll build the world again”)

the contrast between this and what veronica wants between them (seventeen) is the key underlying conflict in their story. veronica wants them to be normal and be happy with that, even if they could be more (“we’re not special, we’re not different, we don’t choose who lives or dies”).

nonetheless. in our love is god, jd writes a fake suicide note from ram and kurt (“ram and i died because we had to hide our gay forbidden love from a misapproving world”), which turns out to become reality in “my dead gay son”. if you missed that line(which i did first time i watched), you’d have no idea that kurt and ram being gay was made up; its never mentioned again. jd makes it reality because of his obsession with veronica.

ticking back, the same thing happens in “the me inside of me”, but jd’s stance isnt obvious yet because heather’s death comes off as a freak accident.

in “yo girl”, jd tells veronica’s parents about her depression (which, as far as im aware, isnt real), now skewing veronica’s reality, which she seems to play into by faking her suicide. this isnt enormous - it was just him lying to her parents, but it still kind of comes off as such.

and finally, in “meant to be yours”, he concocts the plan to convince the entire world that the students of westernburg high all decided to destroy the school with themselves in it. he tells veronica in “dead girl walking (reprise)” that “people are gonna see the ashes… and think, there a school that self destructed, not because society didnt care, but because that school was society.” jd quite literallt intends to ‘destroy society’ to prove a point; he doesnt believe the world can improve, but rather that it should be destroyed and reconstructed, as he plans in our love is god

and, naturally, in “i am damaged”, we come full circle. “wish you’d kiss me, than you’d know i worship you” proves that jd hasn’t really changed his motive at any point; from the start to now, he has being fully devoted to veronica. even now, he still believes that, even without him, its her who should be leading the world to improving (“stick around here, make things better”)

which is to say, that in our love is god, after shooting the two guys who sexually assaulted his girlfriend in front of her, he devotes himself to her as a goddess, the same words he says right before he dies (“i worship you, id trade my life for yours, we’ll make them disappear, we’ll plant our garden here / and once i disappear, clean up the mess down here”)

and back to ‘divine power is wielded by those that know how to’, jd clearly thinks this of the heathers; three girls who are percieved adjacent to gods in their school, he is partially responsible for killing heathers chandler and framing it as suicide, and attempts to convince veronica to do the same to one of the other heathers (i forgot which one).

jd does not believe that reality is shaped by gods, but by people who are willing to do so. the power of divinity is within every person and a human can become a god and manipulate reality to their will if they are willing to dehumanise themself so. thank you for coming to my ted talk

[yb-cringe]

alright wybie here's a free ask to talk my ear off about fitpac GO

this is like a trap isnt it ih gos ok yea

the thing that gets me abt fitpac is that its not that deep. and i dont mean that in an insulting way or that their impacts on one another arent expansive and hugely helpful but i mean it in that like. theres no catch. i love spiderbit for their complexity i love fitpac for their simple, slow, love

that by no means is me insinuating its not got its edges though. theyre just. sweet.

i think both of them have a lot of trauma when it comes to imprisonment and just general fear for their lives and while that could be said for a lot of people on the server i think whats important is that they’ve recognized that in each other? or at least fit has from what ive seen

and pac (and mike tbf) need a constant right now. things are crazy people are disappearinf theres no stability but they can always trust that fit will be there and he will listen and more importantly that he SEES them and will defend them

i think my thoughts abt them boil down to ‘pac needs consistency. a solid rock. he needs a recognizable pattern that doesnt change so he can have a safety net’ and ‘fit spent so long in survival he doesnt know how to just Live and he needs someone to be patient with him’

and its not easy for Either of them especially right fucking now. whats happened is that fit is trying to be the solid foundation for a bunch of people and its wearing him thin. and pac is just speedrunning traumas.

god the babysteps thing will forever be imprinted on the back of my eyes tho. like yeah fit needs to go rly fucking slow. hes a traumatized single father and hes fucking cautious about everything. always has been. letting someone into his life and giving them space in his heart is a big fucking deal. he just cannot afford to make that choice lightly. hell even ramón had to be patient for a bit

whats the fuckin saying like. fell first but he fell harder? wheres the ‘he fell first but didnt wanna think about it until he accepted it at which point he fell so fucking hard it would ruin him to lose it’ thats qfit. he literallt cannot even say the words date or romance or love or wven really Like in a romantic context about pac because shit will get too real and he needs to go slow rven if he has to FORCE HIMSELF to move slowly.

gkd i dont even know where to start with pac. he needs consistency so bad. and mike was that- mike IS that. pac is someone who needs company he needs someone to be near especially lately after his whole kidnapping thing where he was alone in that fuckin room after whatever they did to him—

hes been through so much shit and he just needs someone to stay- someone to turn to and know he’s got slmeone on his side. like pac in his own right is sort of paranoid —not the kind of way he has been recently though.

but like if you had to force tazercraft into designations of head and heart, pac would be the mind and mike would be the heart. pac is thinking ahead, he’s trying to force himself to move on because he knows mike wont, he’s trying to avoid doing things too crazy to keep them off the radar— he’s keeping them out of trouble when he can remember to.

not to say hes not chaotic and passionate in his own right but yknow. comparisons. but hes a thinker yjnow he plans for the future and if he doesnt have someone to be his safety net he fucking panics and doesnt do things he wants to because he’s worried about being caught out alone without any support

all of this to say that he doesnt Really think of romance more then Fun because he needs safety nets first. which is also kind of why the moving slow thing works for him because he’s definitely not going to realize how in deep he is like love wise until its too late. and he probablt cant even fuckin risk it right now considering yhh like Everything going on.

[albaqae]

OH MY GOD I FINALLY WATCHED MUTANT MAYHEM AND DJJSAJJSNSNFHXJDJ

queue the ramble :) (also yes spoilers)

I’m so so happy being able to take off mutant mayhem filters NOW I CAN BASK IN THE FANART YES YESBEYYEYSYSYSYSA

Ok so like I pulled up right and I knew it was gon be GOOD, but IT WAS GOODER THAT GOOD???? After I watched rise I was like mkmk yea there’s NO WAY they can make them more teenager-y But they Did.

My friend my love told me that they told the VA to change the script if they wanted to and if they thought it was more relevant and honestly? BEST DECISION EVER

U can feel however u want abt the movie but I will Fight You about the relevancy of it so bad, like something that media tends to focus on capturing is the Present, the feeling of the very moment “insert thing” happens, and the relevancy of certain situations in certain times. It’s the very reason why nostalgia hits so hard, because it is capturing the feeling of being right there in that moment, and so effortlessly

That’s what I felt watching the movie, THEY LITERALLT SAID RIZZ AND SUS, and I never in my LIFE thought I’d hear that in an ACTUAL OFFICIAL MOVIE, I just KNOW history scholars are gonna psycho analyze every reference they make

ALSO I ADORE SPLINTER SO SO SO MUCHANJAJASJKEKNX, I love seeing just-became-a-father splinter it’s AKJSNDNX. I really really love the angle they took with him, and him seeing himself reflected in superfly and how being so strict hurts his kids because it doesn’t let them explore options or themselves fully, even if he really does think he’s right

ALSO HIM AND SCUMBAG AKAJNSNSNX IT WAS SO CUTEEEE IT KILLED MEEE

AND OH GOD near the end when superfly had the turtles and was abt to like snap them and I saw the broken shells I, no kidding, screamed. THE AMOUNT OF ANGST IVE CONSUMED THAT HAS HAD BROKEN SHELLS AS ONE OF ITS MAIN PLOTS AOQJJWNSNX, it was WILDDD having it canon ngl

Overall all the characters, like every single one, felt so fleshed out and real, it was genuinely so refreshing. I love how media now focuses on capturing raw human states instead of the heavily filtered beauty standard that our societies have for so long clung to. I think future generations being able to see that will really heal some of the damage being “chronically online” can cause

April had SUCH GOOD STYLE and I loved her :) because the plot was so heavy I almost expected a lot of the characters to not have an arc at all, so I was real surprised when splinter and April realized what they did was hurting ppl. The writers were REAL good at keep the plot semi-un-crowded despite how much was going on

Again, THE HUMOR WAS SO SO PRESENT DAY AKAJWJENNX

I loved Raph LIKE ALWAYS and how they made him an angry mf w/o making it against his brothers, and just making it as just how he is, I thought it was so nice to have an iteration where he keeps his spark without making it harmful to those he cares abt (his outfit at the end was so very fire it was my fav)

Mikey was so so sweet, I love whenever he’s both a goofy goober but also one of the most empathetic ones, the hope and kindness in his eyes <33

DONNIE WAS SO RADDDD, the VA did SUCH a good job, he has my fav voice and overall he was so cool in character too, freaking out abt the attack on titan doodle was so me and I love seeing a representation of what non-toxic fandom looks like that wasn’t seen as a problem or as meant to be looked down on, bro just loves k-pop and anime!!!

Leo was AMAZINFGGGT, they kept his leader persona and his want to take responsibility and decency without making him an ass !!! And for someone who grew up with 2012 Leo that’s something I was REALLY at awe at

It’s also the first turtle x human ship i don’t hate, they didn’t make Leo be CREEPY ASF LIKE W 2012 DONNIE, but he was still a hormonal teenager having a real crush and they were still friends

I also loved lizard dude

Superfly character was so rad too, the way he spoke and carried himself was really interesting to look at and I thought it was so cool, I love villains that have actual stories, AND BABY HIM WAS SO CUTEEEEE, wish we got more sibling content on him and his crew tho, but that’s very me nitpicking

Splinter cracking his back remind me of “BUMBUMBUM BUM BUM BUM!”

I love when tmnt doesn’t do orientalism :))) it’s very hard to avoid in iterations cause of the very foundation of tmnt, but I take it as a major W whenever we get a decent story(USUALLY AMAZING STORIES) that doesn’t rely on “oooohhhh mystery ninja stuff ooooooo” to make a compelling “aesthetic”

I also loved how Baxter stockman looked, and the turtle tots, the animation was OUT OF THIS WORLDDD, I rlly love how, as artists, we accept more diverse styles rather than just sticking to realism being the standard, because it allows for stuff like this to happen!!! And the scribbles added so much to the world ownqnnsndndjxjx I’ll rewatch it over and over again just for the art style

And also when Leo call himself leon IT MADE ME SO HAPPY BC LIKE LEO IN RISE LIKES LEON TOO IT FELT LIKE A WINK WINK SKSNSNWNMSND not sure if it was tho but it was me giggling and kicking my feet

The plot itself was so good too in the way that it applies to more than mutants, the seeking of acceptance is something really really relatable in so many contexts: neurodivergence, queerness, immigration, and so so so much more????? It’s one of my fav things of most tmnt iterations, its themes carry on to other contexts, not just to the specific story being told. This is what leads it to being so attractive to so many audiences

The music was very atsv and I thought it was so rad, it’s always nice to watch a movie that has that kinda soundtrack, especially in urban settings it’s a lot more fitting than an orchestra (sometimes, or at least I think)

By the time me movie was over with the BADASS SHREDDER APPEARANCE I lost control of my body and was just happy stimming violently and my friends just kinda 🧍‍♂️ at me, and they got the same rant u just read but even more messy, if that’s possible

I’m proud to have mutant mayhem as an official tmnt iteration, and I’m proud of the work that’s been done, and I hope to in the future maybe somehow contribute to a version too!!

I didn’t revise this, and it’s very messy, and I doubt I’ll go back and fix it, but it’s just beginning thoughts :D if you actually read this far thank you and I love you

[singerorpheus]

im just gna word vomit everything i saw:

- i had madeline charlemagne as eurydice and beth hinton lever as a fate! beth had a string of bells as her instrument!

- i kept being drawn to bella as a fate shes so so mean and nasty im obsessed with her

- nothing changes is too fast and i stand by that!!!

- the cut lines for the women i will always mourn but theres also something so powerful about the looks eurydice and persephone and even hermes shoot each other like the silence is so so loud

- doubt comes in orpheus hitting his chest, i literally heard with my own two ears donal shushing the fates as they go where is she, he kisses his little necklace thing before starting

- LIKE WHAT IS HIS LITTLE NECKLACE THING

- the notebook during chant i literally just has la la la la la written on it thats my poet who will change the world btw

- zachery hades is so fucking yassified i feel like no one mentioned that his chant ii walk is so cunty

- the use of the red at the back of his outfit is used so cleanly and effectively its almost diabolical how good that combination of blocking and costuming is

- i literallt cannot believe i saw donal orpheus sing if its true live like in real life like oh my god

- buy your tickets at the right side!! orpheus does run up next to the crowd to climb some metal scaffolding(?) to run up to eurydice after flowers, but in the defense of the left side -- eurydice stands there pretty often and so does hermes so you get full melanie all the time which is a dream and also holy shit you can just see orpheus in front of you for doubt comes in as he starts panicking

- god they really make donal run and sing and he does it full body

- wow melanie really gives her all the entire time shes on stage the silent moments she has with eurydice especially after hey little songbird is like oh my god

- also i wanted the lights to swing over my head so so bad

- god the lighting tony win is so fucking deserved its so fucking CRAZY how full body the experience of the lights are

- during our lady of the underground gloria reached out and touched someones bald head in the front row shes so fucking funny

- also i just kept hearing from the people around about how good gloria is once the show is done and theyre so right

- absolutely no notes for madeline she was absolutely great (i could literally see her shake during chant i and hey little songbird) she sang "orpheus" before she went back down after doubt comes in which was a big OOF for me

- the parallel between eurydice learning the dance from the workers during livin it up on top and her learning the moves during why we build the wall omg

- when orpheus makes the little newspaper flower it has a little stalk in the middle of it unlike broadway

- during olotu, when persephone introduces the keyboardist he does the little pierre "no i am enjoying myself at home this evening" fist pump

- gloria's single tear post chant ii is fucking killer.

- also hades does a little funny shimmy during lover's desire like i wonder if every hades and persephone has a slightly different dance? bc i dont rmb some of those moves

- when hermes sings "and that is how it ends" orpheus just collapses.... my poor beloved poet!!

- orpheus reacts to the lamp above the exit before he leaves

- i guess i also didn't really realise how hurt orpheus is by the time doubt comes in happens orpheus as a little stumble by the time he starts epic iii and hes so so greviously hurt by then already

- this orpheus doesn't have the Classic red tied bandana it's more like just a piece of non-patterned red cloth around his neck. he wear a necklace (which i will emphasise so much i so desperately want to know what it is -- the stage is so fucking high i couldn't get a clear view of it) which had two pendants of things that i couldn't see and a black (iron?) ring on his middle finger if im not wrong

-the red carnation that appears doesn't have leaves or a stem unlike the broadway version that ive seen its just petals that appear in orpheus' and hades' hands

-if ure a west end enthusiast like i am u would already know but hermes has a pocket watch now that she checks periodically and its a big reoccurring thing

-when persephone leaves for up top in act 1 zachary hades is like slouched iirc -- i think zachary plays up the business man aspect of hades and also hades' underlying sadness whereas i think other hadeses have more anger within them with some sadness popping up periodically

-orpheus during epic iii when the workers start singing with him had a little smile/relief before he went back to being in Extreme Pain

[backspacingmyself]

20/07/2024, 10.34am

I actually despise her

[peachkkuma]

📓. DIARY ENTRY 09︴MAY 20, 2024

dear loass diary..

I’m not sure why, but I have a belief that goes against my better judgment. I know that there is no way to fail at the law, “failure” is just persisting in the assumption you don’t want. There is no way to truly fail because we’re always manifesting, always persisting in an assumption, the only way to not get what u want is to choose it. And I firmly believe in that, it makes a lot of sense to me. So WHY is it that literallt the second I have the intention to manifest something, i fear failure. Why does a small part of me believe I’m not going to get what I want? I think that maybe I’m not doubting that I’ll be get what I want— i mean, I’ve never really had a big successful manifestation before so maybe I’ve put success on a pedestal but that can easily be fixed…i hope —i think I’m doubting myself. Not in a way where I think my manifestation abilities are inferior, but because of past and fairly recent experiences. I’m double minded, i never stick to my assumptions, I’ve never fully embodied a state, and okay as I’m writing this all I can’t help but think “what am I doing” because this is all so simple like why am I freaking out. Sure I’ve never been able to successfully stay loyal to an assumption but that doesn’t mean it’s hard. I always hesitate to manifest because I’m so tired of how much i lack discipline but is that what I wanna let stop me? It’s not like it’s permanent, it’s fixable. Just because I don’t believe in my ability to put my foot down and take the leap of faith doesn’t mean I can’t. Excuse the corniness but my past doesn’t define me, change is allowed to happen if I let it. So I should expect more from myself. I should expect better from myself. Y’all having a manifestation diary is great I just did a total 180 by simply typing my thoughts out I love it here.

anyways, just like my assumptions I also chose my conception of self. I hadn’t even realized I was persisting in the assumption that I couldn’t do it. Idk why I saw that as such a fact. Anyways, here it is in writing, I’m putting my foot down. Im actually going to do my best to manifest my dream life and manifest correctly. Putting my foot down is a decision and only I can defer that decision, only I can get rid of that choice. I’m the only one that gets to chose failure or success. So what reason do I have to not take the leap of faith?

I’m going to actually do it

kisses, Tiffany

(Just watch yall, soon my diary entries will be full of stories from me living my dream life)

[kiawren]

❤️🔵💗 :)

HI AMAYA Thank you for the ask!!!

❤/Red: What is something your f/o does that makes you fall in love with them all over again?

Idk man like literally anything, especially his lines cuz someeetimess it feels like he's talking to you personally, I guess you can look at my prev post where I answered the other ask. His lines there are so personal and sincere it's like you're talking to a real person who needed some reassurance and was grateful you lent them a listening ear it feels so realistic and heartfelt....... And also becuz I already seen YouTube videos of his trial before I played it, the lines which I've not seen before make me so much more ecstatic reading

Like when you invite him to Multi battles he says the stuff on the left, like he's not all that serious he also wants to have fun and this feels like he'd enjoy just dancing and battling with player regardless of if they try to be competitive, like yeah I also just want to spend time with you...

And on the right is when we lose together, Like BRO WHY ARE YOU APOLOGISING YOU LITERALLT DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG IT'S THE CPU THAT MAKES YOUR POKEMON DO STUPID THINGS AND ALSO I MESSED UP ON MY PART. SO DONT EVER SAY SORRY WE ARE JUST HAVING FUN

🔵/Indigo: Do you have a favorite image/gif/video of your f/o? Show us!

Other than all the ones of him smiling (like on my pinned) it's also these cuz i stood there waiting for the sky to change colours so I could screenshot him againist them, Like you can't just find it on the Internet or at least I haven't found any LOL

It reminds me of how I see him and how my love for him is as whole as the feeling of watching scenery, as the stars and mountains encompass your view of the horizon. How watching every piece of nature can lead me back to thinking of him, how I admire him and how hes like my North star and how fire is sacred to life and I could be going on and on

💗/Pink: Show us the emoji(s) you associate with your f/o! (Bonus: Tell us why?)

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Fire cuz he loves fire types and does fire dancing

Volcano cuz he does his trial captain stuff on a volcano, he's on a volcano every day and respects Wela volcano for the nourishment it provides and the culture it represents

Sunrise among the mountains cuz cmon that literally looks like the orange sky behind Wela volcano, and he reminds me of a sunrise (the sun in general) becuz he gets me going and sunrise reminds you of motivation and fresh starts and ambition, wait honestly it coukd be a sunset in the emoji as well urm hmm yeah well he reminds me of sunsets too anyway. Our lore is meeting during a sunset cuz wren wanted to watch a sunset atop Wela volcano and Kiawe was just going to head down. And one of the things we like to do together is watching sunsets. The sun in general simply reminds me that I love him

Red heart is self explanatory he reminds me of the colour red all the time for example when I see red leaves on trees and bushes I think of him

Wren emojis if anyone wants lol:

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