#listen i just need to be fed a bit rn

[bi-disastersoup]

Merry Christmas to me personally

God i love these two idiots...

[beiibeiii]

Kafka Angst, delicious, thankyou for the food. Okay this was from 11:49-12:21 jeez im tired.

Anyways, here’s thing for you!

“…I remember one morning it was just like any other, you brought coffee and I brought sweets. I remember, you spilled a little of my coffee on the table and made a surprised sound, but despite that, you looked up at me and you laughed. Your eyes were shining in the morning light— In hindsight really.. They’d always done that. A little bit brighter, with the golden sun. That’s the moment I realized I was really truly hopelessly in love with you. I told myself it was a longer mission than usual. That’s all, and yet I couldn’t stop liking you past our little meetings in the morning. I couldn’t help but want to ask more and more about yourself, the silly, little details unrelated to Elio’s script.”

At least, that’s what Kafka would like to say to you. Instead she watched through your window as you cried. Illuminated only by moonlight. It looked as though a meteor shower might be streaking across your face— quick and bright slashes. A sky full of grief, guilt, longing. Kafka couldn’t help but vaguely wondering if you must mirror her own feelings so well. Kafka was a formidable woman, that wasn’t a secret to anyone. What she wanted, she would eventually obtain. However everything else she had taken now seemed so.. Little in comparison to you. So worthless. The one thing Kafka wanted, craved— No. The one thing she needed, she couldn’t have. You. A little bit of water splashes her face. Unsurprising, there’s thunderclouds rolling overhead. Rain was bound to come sooner or later. The water rolls down her cheek, to the corner of her mouth. It takes a moment to register in her brain it’s salty, and the rain has not yet begun to fall.

She looks down at her hands, those hands that have felled many. Her tongue, which has been used to manipulate peoples minds into showing them horrors to last a lifetime, that tongue that has spit thousands of lies. Her eyes, which have watched on as an opponent met a slow, agonizing end. The eyes that showed a frenzied glee at the suffering. How could she ever be worthy of you? The shining bright light in the universe who could never be dimmed. One so pure and precious. She felt her chest tighten in shame. She could never wash the blood from her hands, it stained her entire being. Deep in her mind, a maze to all (even herself) she knew that if given the chance to cleanse her sins, she probably would not take it.

So the Stellaron Hunter turns, quickly scaling her way down to the bustling streets before you might see that familiar shape crouching across the way. Your eyes make their way to the window as you see quick movement, but as fast as it appeared it disappears just as well. And a drop of water hits the glass. And another. Until your window is pelted with the sky’s tears, and the sidewalks are a black mass of umbrellas.

I hope this was this much 🤏 entertaining to you

WHAJHSGD ANONIE?? THIS IS SO AMAZING WAAA IDEK IF I CAN ADD TO IT BC ITS ALREADY PERFECTT!! IM GETTING FED SO WELLL SHJSSJ SOBBING KAFKA ANGST HITTING TOO HARD RN AJSJSJS SHES SO BABYYY I WANNA HUG HERR 😕💗

kafka wears gloves to try to hide the blood that has stained her hands to try to make herself feel better :(

kafka probably has you as a live wallpaper on her phone. she would press down on her phone and the short video of you on that flower field would play. your smiling brightly as the rays of the sunset glowed so beautifully on you. lighting up your smile even more. she looks at it with a bittersweet memories as she reminds herself as to why she joined the stellaron hunters - to understand herself to be a better person and see that beautiful smile on your face everyday. :(

she listens to voice messages or watches videos she has saved of you whenever shes stressed. hearing your voice and the way you smile at her clears her head. calming her down. she can't help but grow a little tired of hearing the same videos and voice recordings. shes determined to get some new ones soon. <3

whenever you post on your snapchat stories, instagram, tiktok, any social media platform, kafka is always on an anonymous account. she constantly comments sweet things under your posts.

"hope you had fun <3"

"so beautiful, like always dear 💗"

"such a pretty smile you have :)"

kafka doesnt even try to change the way she writes to make you not catch on. she likes your posts and is usually the first one to see them too. You can't help but sense the familiarity of the way the commenter writes their comments. its ever so awfully familiar as to how kafka types. you want to believe it but you know its not her :(

kafka secretly hopes you recognise that its her. she knows it won't happen, but she will still keep believing that you will <3

[twijaxx]

gods chosen emperor loneliness

wc: 2,5K

Ness pov:

“Don’t follow me anymore Ness. Find a new king.” The words said by a blonde haired striker echoed thru my head, i could hear the ringing in my ears and feel tears in my eyes.

“Wait! Kaiser, please listen to me!!! I'm sorry for what I did.” He wasn't listening... I realized that I can't make Kaiser change his mind, I won't be able to convince him to come back and say that he’s sorry for all he has done to me, for how he used me.

My life doesn't make sense now.

There’s no point in living if there’s no one to follow. What can I even do now? No one besides Kaiser really appreciated me in the team. I’m… nothing without him…

After the match ended I quickly went to the bathroom, locked the middle stall and turned on hot water. I didn't care about anything at this point, I was so fed up with everything but mostly.. with how Kaiser treats me. If i don't help him he yells at me, if i do anything wrong he hits me, when he does something wrong he takes out his frustration on me. I took the razor blade out of my pocket, I kept it with me all the time in case Kaiser wanted to punish me for a bad play. And honestly, I don’t blame him. It felt good when he was doing it, at least that's what I wanted to believe in.

My hands were shaking and the hot water was burning my skin. I slowly put the razor blade next to my veins and made one smooth move with my hand.

“Verdammt ugh- it hurts”

The blood was dripping down my wrist, staining everything red, I could feel my vision going blurry and my heart racing faster. I collapsed against the wall

“What did I do?? scheiße.. there’s blood everywhere”

At this point I knew it was my end, even if someone would come and help me, I was already halfway gone. My eyelids started to get heavier with every blink, I reached out and unlocked the stall hoping that maybe someone would find me. I tried to say something but as I opened my mouth nothing came out. It was too late I never thought Ness the magician would die this way, I always imagined I would grow up for something better, for someone better... The water was getting even hotter than before.. Or was it just me who was getting colder. I knew that my parents woudnt be proud of me if they saw me rn.

With my last bit of strength i muttered

“Ich liebe dich, Kaiser "

Kaiser pov:

 I wanted to cool off after the match, especially after what happened. I said I don’t need Ness, I don’t need another servant, I can be a star on the field regardless of who assists me. While I was walking to the bathroom I could feel that something was off. I put my hand on the handle, a shiver went down my body.

“Man what is wrong with me today, the match didn’t tire me out that much”

I thought as I entered the bathroom. I stepped in, I could hear water running in one of the stalls I undressed and went to take a shower. I was about to turn on the water, but the sound of running water in the other stall kept annoying me.

“Close the water you Dummkopf.”

It didn’t stop. I walked out of my stall and went to the other one, it was slightly open. I could see something red on the floor. I grabbed the handle and opened the door. The first thing I saw was a cold, lifeless body leaning against the wall. At first I didn't realize who it was but as I stared more and more I realized..

„Ness?!!” I yelled, but there was no answer, obviously…

„What did u do!! ANSWER ME…NESS..!”

I could feel tears rapidly flowing down my face.I hugged the cold lifeless body. I knew he was sensitive but I didn’t think he would go this far. I shouldn’t have said that in the match. Why was I so stupid… I could’ve prevented all of this from happening… I guess words do hurt more than actions sometimes. My eyes spotted sometimes shiny laying on the floor, it’s a razor blade I used to punish Ness with, I picked it up and squeezed it in my hand, blood was dripping as my grip tightened. I should probably get out of here, soon people will start to come here after the match too, I don't want anyone to see me in that state. I kissed his cold purple lips for one last time and left hoping that no one saw me.

Isagi pov:

The match was really eventful, Kaiser abandoned the one person who was always loyal to him, that will probably lead to his downfall. I talked with the others first but then decided it’d probably be best for us to go shower, since hygiene is important. We were chatting and walking to the bathroom slowly. We entered the room and all of us could hear the water running, it’s probably Ness or Kaiser i thought since they left after the match ended quickly. I undressed and went to take a quick shower

“What the fuck!!!”

i could hear Hiori yell

Isagi:“What happened man?? Is everything alright?”

I said while peaking my head out of the stall, I saw Hiori stand in horror as he was staring at something in the stall. He looked like he just saw a ghost. I came out of the stall and walked up to Hiori. If I knew what I would see next I would just stay in my goddamn stall.

It was Ness' dead body…

“Oh my fucking god”

The moment i saw it i became nauseous… I wanted to puke, blood was everywhere his body almost as pale as those white tiles behind him

“o fuck o fuck!! Hiori what do we do, Shit there is blood everywhere! He is so fucking pale!!”

“SOMEONE GO GET MR NOA NOW!!”...

It's been a week since it all happened, police came to the blue lock facility, they wanted to shut it down but Ego installed cameras even in the bathroom and they caught Ness killing himself.. It was also revealed that Kaiser was the first who found Ness but he didn't tell anyone They asked us different questions about Ness, did we know him before blue lock, how he was as a person, do we know why he would do it. Kaiser didn't say a word even though he knew Ness the longest and the best. They even kissed on the field.. yuck…

They took him into a different room, when he was coming out his eyes were red and puffy. I didn't know a being as heartless and cold as Michael Kaiser could cry… As much as i hated him deep down i felt bad for him even though he probably doesnt fucking care.

After this whole incident the whole team was devastated, even when the training sessions returned after a quick break we still weren't feeling it. And Kaiser? I didn’t know if i should hate him even more or maybe feel bad for how he was feeling. The fact that he didn’t report Ness’ dead body immediately was just cruel, crazy, wasn’t Ness the most important person for him?? I couldn’t look at him the same way I used to.

Kaiser pov:

What happened never left my mind, even for a second, it was always in the back of my head. Since they found Ness’s body, my mind was foggy. Every morning I woke up, I still saw his pale face, I heard his voice.. And at the same time I had a feeling like I was the one that killed him, like I was a monster.

After the police visit everyone was looking at me differently, like I was responsible for what happened. Even Ego wasn’t trying to look at me normally, when he looked me directly in the eyes in the hallway, i wanted to scream, to explain myself, but was there really a point??

I wanted to stop playing soccer. What’s the point of being a king if I lost my only loyal knight?

Week after

I couldn’t sleep, closed in my room. I was staring at my ceiling still hearing words I said to ness

“go find a new king”

I said them so.. carelessly. I was trying to come back to normal, but nothing was like before. During practice everyone was avoiding me like I didn’t exist.

One evening I couldn't stand it anymore, so I entered one of the training fields. I squeezed my hands and screamed as loud as I could until I felt my throat tighten. I just couldn’t understand how it all happened so quickly. I lost someone so precious to me, someone that I could actually trust after my mom left me and my dad was beating the shit out of me, but it was too late now. Suddenly I could hear footsteps.

I turned around and saw Isagi looking at me with disgust written on his face.

”You think that scream will change something Kaiser?”- he said in a cold tone, that sent a shiver down my spine

“He won't come back. And what happened is only your fault”

I couldn’t say anything back I just watched as Isagi was walking away leaving me alone with my thoughts

Isagi pov:

After Ness’s death I couldn’t stand Kaiser even more, Ness wasn’t my favorite person on the team but the way Kaiser treated him made my blood boil. He didn't deserve that, no one did! And yet Kaiser used him like he was some sort of toy for him?! like a maid he just could order around! And Ness just listened to him like a lost puppy that found a new person to follow around hoping that they will bring him home with them. Ness was a great player and Kaiser just ruined that.

Time skip to like a month later

Kaiser pov:

After Ness’s death I understood that something was missing in my life, someone was missing, someone who could trust me, who could support me, who would be ready to do anything so I could shine on the pitch like I used to. The loneliness after Ness' death was unbearable so I needed someone to fill it.

I picked Yuito (some random person that I made up in my mind for this story LMAO) He was young, talented, and he showed surprising loyalty to other players.

I saw potential in him, as well as the manipulability I needed to become a king again. Slowly I started to convince him to practice with me, and started to build the bond I had with Ness.

Yutio was like clay that I could shape however I wanted with my own hands. He quickly began to trust me and listened to my advice. He liked my attention, sought my approval and I felt like I was in control again. I thought I would never feel empty again, that this new pawn would help me forget. But one day he didn’t show up to the practice, I just ignored it thinking he might have a reason for that. But when he didn’t show up a couple of more times I knew something wasn’t alright,so I decided to talk to him about that.

”Yuito, why did you stopped training with me huh?”

He looked at me with a cold expression

“Kaiser.. i realized i don’t want to be like Ness”

I heard a contempt in his voice that I had never experienced before.

“What are you talking about?!”- i asked even tho i knew the answer

“Everyone knows what you did to Ness. You thought I didn’t realized how you manipulated me, how you wanted to control me?!"- he replied

“I’m not your pawn Kaiser no one is, you need to realize that”

Week later

I felt like I was losing control over my life. I became more and more lonely. Even football stopped giving me satisfaction the only thing that was precious to me, the only thing that helped me get out of that shithole, helped me escape my shitty dad and introduced me to the only person that i loved, Ness.. but i realized this too late, i wished i could kiss his lips one more time, see his warm smile again.

Every night I thought about Ness. He was loyal, he supported me, and loved me but I just wasted it. I imagine myself just barging into the bathroom stall stopping him from ending it , holding him in my arms, apologizing to him, begging for his forgiveness, even though I knew I would never receive it.

I heard the echo of his voice in my head

“wait kaiser, please listen i'm sorry for what i did!”

It will never return...

One day, while training alone, I fell to my knees in the middle of the pitch. Deep down I knew it was my arrogance and ego that had brought me to this point.

I lost.

I realized that I had never been a king - just a child who wasn’t loved properly and needed someone to control. I covered my face with my hands as I felt tears streaming down my cheeks.

I got up and went to the nearest bathroom, it was the one that Ness killed himself in, I walked in and automatically a shiver went down my spine. I looked at the stalls and sighed. I went to the middle one.. I took a razor blade out of my pocket, I kept it with me all the time because it reminded me of Ness.

I stretched out my hand and put the razor blade next to the veins. I was hesitating, but in the heat of the moment I made one smooth move and I cut my wrists. I felt relieved that I could finally be free and meet Ness in another after life, or maybe his life was better without me?.. Maybe in the another life Ness would actually be a scientist? I put him thru so much suffering, if i was him i would left me long time ago.

My body was getting colder as I slowly bleed out to death. Deep down, from the moment i was born, i knew that i will die a miserable way, God’s chosen emperor they said?? what a bullshit. 

With my last strength i said

"Ich liebe dich Ness…”

[the-crimson]

I was thinking about this while falling asleep last night so I want to try and untangle the web Bad has been spinning to better understand what he’s doing cuz in some aspects it seems completely random and disconnected

Bad’s plan rn is to disseminate a bunch of different - at times contradictory- information across the island and watch how it spreads. The goal of this is two fold; to discover who is trustworthy and to find the (probably unknowing) federation spy.

His plan began way back with the magma cube prank. At the time he said he wanted to pin the prank on the fed to turn everyone against them but… the way he went about it didn’t make sense? Giving a cube to everyone at once pretty much confirmed it was a prank - fit recognized that immediately - as well as writing the books in French and Portuguese. Not to mention Tina would clock him immediately since he pulled this prank on her before. So what was the point?

So Bad could watch/listen to the islanders as they tried to figure out who it was. Many of them immediately clocked bbh for a number of different reasons and he confessed to several different people (mainly the French) that it was indeed him. He could watch the web of information spread to discover who talked to who and who could keep secrets.

Over the last few weeks Bad’s been much more subtle with this. He’s told conflicting information about various things to a bunch of people - telling some people he is the one responsible for the mines at spawn and others that he isn’t - and the web has just gotten more and more complex.

Then on top of all of this, he’s testing people with very specific and unique obstacles.

Bagi’s test was the first one I noticed several days ago and is what got me paying closure attention. Bad pretty much explained it yesterday but I’ll recap. He knew Bagi was worried about him so he told her he was seeing a ghost (which was true) and asked her to keep it a secret. She did not - as Bad predicted - and you can tell in the conversation that Bad knew she didn’t and was giving her the opportunity to come clean - which she did. He praised her and thanked her out of no where for keeping this secret (I thought this was weird at the time, the way he was talking, and this is why) and she told him that she didn’t. This proved to Bad that Bagi was more interested in being honest then trusted which meant that she passed the test.

The next obvious one is Baghera. Bad is testing Baghera’s resolve and trust. He showed her Ron knowing full well that Baghera could have turned on him and tried to interfere but he trusted that her sense of justice and care for him would balance out and that she’d find a solution where they both would be happy. He knows he is hurting her but it’s necessary in his eyes.

Then is Forever. This one is a bit more tricky. I don’t think Bad has really started testing Forever before the gun theft. This felt like an improvised test to see how far Bad could gaslight and push Forever before Forever gave up on their relationship. The gun was returned before we reached that point but there was another immediate point of contention that - again - was out of Bad’s control. Tubbo. Forever correctly believing Tubbo that bbh kidnapped the worker was the pay off for Bad’s previous abuse. Forever doesn’t believe a thing that comes out of Bad’s mouth anymore. The nail in the coffin for this test is Forever thinking that Bad is ill and needs to be saved, which means Bad is probably never going to bring Forever into his plans like he did Baghera. Forever wants to save him but Bad doesn’t want to be saved. He walked into this hell with eyes wide open and it’s far too late to turn back.

Aypierre’s test began yesterday. Not only did Bad “confess” to having a fed worker in his custody, he also tasked Aypierre with spying on Tubbo. Bad trusts the French as a whole more than anyone on the island (I’ll come back to foolish in a minute) and he knows that Aypierre, Antoine, and Etoiles would either be ambivalent or positive about the man in Bad’s basement. Bad would never straight up confess to this crime “I would never touch the federation” but he’s willing to confirm their suspicions. He also told Aypierre to be wary because someone is protecting Forever and… I’m pretty sure this is a lie. A lie to test what Aypierre does. Who does he tell. If the feds find out and start snooping. I think Aypierre’s test is to prove without a doubt if he can be trusted/who he trusts and that he isn’t a fed plant/hasn’t been bugged.

Lastly, and most interestingly, we have Foolish. Foolish is the only one Bad has told everything to. Sure, it’s through three layers of obscurity and metaphor but these two only know how to communicate through mind games. Bad knows how intelligent Foolish is and he knows what Foolish wants. Yes Foolish is a snitch but he has no loyalties to the fed, only to his family and himself. Foolish would be the obvious spy but Bad knows Foolish is just chasing the rush of excitement and entertainment and that watching Bad stop holding back is prime time entertainment. He knows Foolish will eventually turn him over to the feds but that’s what Bad wants. Foolish will be up front about it and will want a front row seat so if Bad gets arrested without the fan fair, then it proves that someone else is the puppet (if bad gets arrested at all)

Lastly lastly, I think Bad has caught onto the fact that the federation doesn’t want to touch him. First giving him a slap on the wrist for griefing the presidential office then warning workers to stay away from him instead of removing him as a threat. Bad wants to push them. Ever since Tubbo spilled the beans about the worker going missing, Bad has been acting so much more suspicious and threatening than before. He’s intentionally making himself look more guilty without out right stating that he is guilty. The federation has to know it’s him right? They have all the pieces they had to have been able to put it together so why? Why haven’t they acted?

Well, Foolish promised Bad he’d be getting arrested soon and Bad keeps making himself look more sus to Tubbo who has a friend in the fed - who resembles the exact person Bad wants to nab - so Bad is also probably keeping an eye on Tubbo if he snitches (which he did lol). If the federation continues to do nothing that’ll give Bad massive leverage over them while also giving him another mystery to solve.

Bad said his plan is almost complete, he just needs a few more pieces to fall into place before he can find the puppet and follow its strings back to its master. I have no idea what’s going to happen or what pieces need to fall into place but i am so curious to see what he does next. Is capturing Fred still part of his plans? Is he still banking on getting put in jail? How is he going to narrow down who is the puppet when he hasn’t tested more than half of the server? Hopefully we’ll get some answers today.

[wildpeachfarm]

it’s just crazy to me because like, it just feels like a lot of the fandom has learned nothing?

I don’t wanna compare this to drms situation (because it was fake and pretty different), but we yelled at him and called him out, begged for a response, got a response which was out of emotion and not full thinking (again because he didn’t know what was happening and plus did NOTHING wrong and we were pressing him to speak right away when he should’ve put his thoughts together. george acted the same way). we stood by his side and fully waited. he provided a bit of information, we agreed to it and accepted it. hell, we waited a whole YEAR 😭

i think a lot of people were just tired, shocked, and done with having to go through a lot of bullshit here, which is valid. and yes, listen to victims (like we did in drms situations) but again, we heard him out and decided to stay. george brought a good amount of valid and needed info, yet a lot of people are still going crazy, are just straight up aren’t hearing him out. its just messy like how it was in october rn 😭 but honestly, i do feel better

yeah I think people are just fed up and tired and i will say, the amount of CCs coming at george definitely made it 100 times worse for anyone on twitter because it felt so final and terrible. Literally like the old DWT updates acc right after the allegations; just creating more hysteria

Now that a new perspective has given more evidence, I personally feel a lot better that he was taking this seriously.

I think some people on twitter are being extreme in their stances right now and yapping CCs are vagueing in annoying ways but i think people are hopefully FINALLY starting to understand that things are fucking complicated.

[redbleedingrose]

im sorry i havent been interacting much lately- im having a rough time atm and havnt felt like myself but im working on it!

ANYWAY this has been on my mind and it is genuinely getting me thru the day so i j have to share:) imagine ur having a bad day. like the worst of the worst, everything that could have gone wrong has. and to top it off you woke up feeling awful about yourself- total bad brain day. you get home irritated and exhausted and on the verge of tears and go straight to ur room, completely bypassing eris (this can be pre twins or post twins) and hes just sitting there confused as to why you j kept walking. at least until u accidentally let a bit of emotion down the bond and IMMEDIATELY eris is coming to you. he sees u crying and it shatters his heart bc why is the love of his life crying. so u explain ur day and how bad ur feeling ab urself and he just sits and listens and reassures u and makes you feel like the most loved person in the universe (bc by him you are).

v much realizing how heavy hurt/comfort it is so u can definitely ignore it but im fr wishing for an eris to help me thru it rn <3

Hi my dear,

I am sorry you are going through it rn, I totally understand and get it. You are not alone and don’t worry, Girl dad!Eris will always save the day because you are his heart, soul, and world. 

Okay, so you just wake up not knowing that today was going to be a rough day. Honestly you had a lot of hope that the day was going to go really well!

Eris woke up early this morning because he has been busy adjusting the laws that Beron had set into place. He is working hard to undo them to make Autumn Court a better place for his people, for his little girls, and for you. 

When he finishes getting ready, he crosses the room towards your form that is still laying in bed, fast asleep. He wakes you to give you your first good morning, a habit that formed when your bond had initially snapped into place centuries ago 

He kisses your forehead, stroking your hair back as he gently murmurs, “I have to go to my office, I love you so so much my pretty, and I will see you at breakfast.” 

And you smile back, bleary eyed, leaning up to peck him on the lips, telling him you would be up soon, sending a stroke of love down your mating bond in reassurance. 

You watch tiredly as he tip-toes to his favorite babes who were still sleeping peacefully in their bassinets, and gives them each individual kisses.

You are too tired to hear what he whispers down at the two, but you are 100% positive it is something along the lines of, “Be good for your mama my beautiful babes. Papa will be back soon, and he loves you more than anything.” 

And then he walks out the door, winking at you as he shuts it softly behind him. 

By the time you fully wake, it’s been almost an hour since Eris started his day. Marwa and Twila are still asleep, and so you get up with a sense of motivation to get yourself ready. 

Since the babes were born, it had become increasingly difficult to find time in the morning to get yourself ready before breakfast. Usually, you would need to get yourself dressed and appearing somewhat presentable after you fed the girls their breakfast. 

At first, this worried you. You didn’t want to appear like you were lazy or “letting yourself go” when you arrive to breakfast, frazzled from wrangling the girls out of bed and to the kitchem still in your pajama’s with some dried drool at the corner of your lips from the night before

But the way Eris would look up from where he was seated at the dining table when you would wake in with your babes hand in hand... 

The way his eyes would spark with the fire that ran within his veins... the way his face would illuminate with utter joy and peace... the way he always stood in greeting, hugging his babes and putting them in their seats... the way he would pull your chair back for you like the gentlemale he was, tucking you in your seat right next to him before pressing a kiss onto the back of your hand

And if he was feeling incredibly risky, whenever the girls would be focused on eating their breakfast, he would press kisses all the way up your bare arm, right up to your shoulder, whispering something along the lines of how stunning you look this morning 

And you would always flush at his compliments, preening under his gaze, any worries that you previously carried slipping away like a leaf within the wind drifting to the ground off a tree

But this morning... you had the time to get ready. Your perfect babes had decided to sleep in. So after taking a quick peak to ensure that both were still dreaming happily, you race towards the en-suite bathroom to rush to take a bath 

You soak in the tub for 15 minutes, scrubbing every inch of your skin and allowing for the sunflower oil to hydrate any dryness you were experiencing. You even have time to wash your hair with your favorite rose scented shampoo and conditioner.

You smile, knowing that you have your morning all planned out perfectly. The moment you get out of the bath, you will apply some light rogue to your lips and cheeks to brighten you up today. And if you have the time, you will make sure that your hair is somewhat tame from the bird-nest it was from last night’s late night activities with your husband...

Your perfumed scent and fresh, soft skin is likely going to drive your mate insane during breakfast.

And, so, when the babes run off for their morning riding lessons with their Uncle Luc after breakfast... well... whose to say what Eris will do to you?  

Hopefully drag you into his office to have his way with you while the girls are away for a couple of hours before returning to work

But as you get ready... as you stare at yourself in the mirror... you can’t help but feel off. Something about the way you look today feels off.

Entirely off. 

The way your rogue is settling on your cheeks is not flattering, and no matter how many times you wipe it off and reapply, it is making you look like you painted yourself this morning to look like a clown. Even the way the rogue stains your lips is wrong. 

Fresh face without any makeup will have to do. Eris has never complained before, and he never will. He loves your bare face. He often prefers it because it let’s him paint your face with his cum. 

So you sigh in dissapointment, but let it go ultimately. At least you can still fix your hair the way you want. Maybe you will curl it to frame your face? Maybe you will straighten to highlight your cheeks? The possibilites are endless, right! 

Wrong. 

Your hair is not working with you today. No matter how you try styling it, it falls right back into place, resting in a messy way. You even tried applying a small portion of the gel your mate uses in the morning to help with it, but your hair ends up feeling a bit crusty and greasy, even though that never happens to Eris. 

You’re now feeling a little demotivated... you take a quick peak into your room, noticing that both your babes are awake now. Thank the mother they are just babbling at each other, distracted by telling each other about their dreams. 

Soon they will realize that their papa is gone, and that mama is in the bathroom, and they will run to receive your morning lovings of hugs and kisses before you help them get ready for the day. 

That leaves you with a couple minutes to at least dress a little nicer this morning. So you run into the closet, picking out a flowy sage green dress that Eris had bought for you a couple of days ago despite your closet being full of other clothes. 

“I wanna spoil you my beloved. Besides, I already bought Marwa and Twila dresses that match yours. So maybe you can have them wear their dresses when you wear yours. Just so I can see my most beautiful girls and perfect mate matching.” 

Gods, the way he treated you had your heart fully leaping into his hands, without any hesitancy or doubt, for him to hold close to his own heart

But even the dress is not fitting right on you. The way it hugs your hips shows off the dips that had developed after having your girls. And you didn’t necessarily hate them per say... but it wasn’t something you wanted highlighted to your mate and the entire autumn court for that matter

And then you start to think maybe it’s not the rogue or the hair or the dress... maybe it’s me. I mean your body has changed a lot since having your girls. Your breasts had enlarged with milk for the babes, and your hips had widened for the birth. 

And you hadn’t bounced back like you thought you would. 

And obviously, Eris never gave you any pressure or stress about it. In fact, the male worshiped your body. Pre-pregnancy, during pregnancy, and post pregnancy. He was obsessed with you in the best way possible. 

But for some reason... today was just not working with you. And you felt dejected that you had wasted your time this morning trying to get ready for your husband, only for it to not work out, when you probably could’ve snuck into his office to have a quick few... private... moments. 

Alas, you didn’t have time to think on it too much because the girl’s came running into the room, clinging at your legs begging for their morning kisses and hugs. 

Your heart sung at their love, and you felt a small tug at your bond as the wave of emotion seeped down to where-ever Eris was this morning. 

So you lean down, pick up your girls, pressing kisses all over their faces as they giggle at you, and move to get them ready, pushing away any discontent to the back of your mind. 

You had no time to let this bother you anyway. After breakfast, and hopefully some alone time with Eris,  you needed to head out to different towns across Autumn Court to gather intel on any concerns the people had, to reassure the people that you and Eris were working hard as high lord and high lady to ensure their prosperity, to ensure that you would be different from Beron. 

The girls are incredibly difficult this morning. They want to see their papa, and they want their papa to get them ready this morning. So you press your lips together, promising them that papa will join them for breakfast if they get ready quickly. 

A couple of temper tantrums later, the three of you arrive at the breakfast nook only to discover Lucien in the place of Eris. He sends over a sympathetic smile at the downcast look that crosses your face, letting you and the babes know that their papa had to head out to the border to deal with something that had come up. 

You tug at your bond in worry, and your mate replies almost instantly with reassurance and apology which you wholeheartedly accept. Things like this happen. Things like this will happen as high lord and high lady. Things will come up and interrupt your morning and that is okay. 

But damn, does it mother above fucking suck.  

The only reason the babes don’t have a meltdown over the lack of thier papa’s presence is Lucien’s promise for some candies later if they eat quickly and get to the stables for their horse riding lessons. He squeezes your shoulder in warmth as he is pulled away by his favorite nieces, who immediately give you a hug and kiss in goodbye, once they finish eating. 

You head out to town as soon as you finish your own breakfast. 

The sooner you get this done, the sooner you can see Eris and spend some time with your babes, together as a family. That is the only thing you look forward to for the rest of the day. 

But your time in town only further worsens your mood. Compliant after compliant after compliant. All of them being valid and equally concerning. All of the citizens of the Autumn Court had suffered for centuries under Beron’s rule, and once the fear of Eris disappeared with his kindness, feelings of anger arose within the general population against the Vanserra family as a whole

At some point, you had closed off the bond to Eris because you feared he would pick up on your general distress that was progressing into outright sorrow, discomfort, and grief. 

There wasn’t much you could do besides take the brunt of the anger as high lady, reassure the people that you and Eris were working for them, for the people and not the members of court, to undo the heinous laws Beron had inacted, but advise them it would take time. 

Town after town after town. 

So many families, so many elderly, so many women, so many children had suffered. So many perished with the high taxes and tithes they would were forced to pay, not leaving them with enough money to even buy food. 

And the children... they looked at you with such hope... and once you earned their trust with a couple of candies and friendly conversation, they would sit near you trying to gain the favor of their high lady. They would tell you of losing their fathers to the war, losing their mothers to famine because they would sacrifice their food for their babes... 

It nearly broke you. 

And by the end of the day... by the end of the day you just wanted to crawl into bed and sleep the day away. Intense sadness squeezed at your heart, leaving a lump in your throat, and nausea that had your head spinning. 

You didn’t want the girls to see you like this. You only wanted them to see you happy, to see you content. You and Eris had agreed that the babes would grow up with no concern for either of their parents, that you would put on a front so they felt safe, so they felt normal. 

Nor did you want your mate to see you like this. You didn’t want him to worry about you. 

Part of your sadness stemmed from your overall day being couldron damned. Another part from your lack of time around your mate and babes. Another part from your doubt of yourself in terms of your ability as high lady and even in terms of your beauty. 

It just... the day was not working out the way you wanted it to. And the day refused to work out the way you expected it to. Every surprise was a sad one. There was nothing happy about what happened today. 

So when you got home, nearing sunset, you walked straight past where your mate and the babes were seated in the sitting room. The girls were in their own world, taking turns trying to read the book that was settled on the floor in front of them as the hounds cuddled into their laps and surrounded them in a protective circle. Eris had been leaning on the couch, a content look spanning his face with a soft smile crinkling his freckle covered cheek, watching his perfect babes politely hand off different pages to each other, watching them point at the little pictures in the book and pointing it out to the hounds that were around them who oddly looked like they understood every word the babes spoke to them. 

Your mate had been the first to notice your presence along with the hound he had gifted you for protection when you had accepted the mating bond. The hound trailed after you as Eris stared after your distancing form in confusion, you hadn’t even spared him or the babes so much as a glance as you stormed towards your bedroom. 

A sense of dread fills the male as he feels a pulse of sadness through the bond. He hadn’t felt anything from you since this morning, but he had chalked it up to you being busy. He hadn’t thought you were upset in any form. He felt his heart drop, maybe you were angry he had failed to join you and the girls for breakfast. 

“Watch over the babes,” he commanded the hounds who had sat up, ears pointing backward and down in alert at their masters orders, surrounding the girls in a circle. When the babes asked where their papa was going, “I’m gonna check on your mama, my Marwa, my Twila.  Don’t worry. we will be back with dinner okay?” 

They nodded in reply, confused because their mama usually always greeted them with kisses and hugs whenever she came back from work, but they didn’t ask their papa any other questions as he hurried after you.  

Eris finds you curled under the covers in bed, and you don’t even peak out to watch him approach you as he settles down on the bed on your side. His feet settle onto the floor on the side of the bed as he angles his body to face yours. He can smell the saltiness of your tears in the air which has his heart racing, trying to think of any reason you could be upset. 

Gods forbid, had you been hurt while out in town? Were you upset with him? Were the girls too rough to deal with alone this morning? 

He would never forgive himself if anything had happened to you. 

Nor would he forgive the person who was stupid enough to upset you like this. 

And Mother have mercy on him if he found out that he was the reason you were upset. He would rather light himself on fire alive than be the cause of your pain. 

“Beloved?” he whispers when he hears your sniffles coming from underneath the covers. He presses a firm hand into what looks to be the outline of your shoulder, before peeling the blanket away from you. 

Bile rises in his throat as he clocks in the tears streaming down your cheeks, your hand pressed into your mouth to muffle your sobs, and eyes squeezed shut to hide the pain that was no doubt reflected in your beautiful iris’. 

His heart shatters into a million pieces, not understanding what has happened that has upset you so. 

But he quickly jumps into action. 

Immediately shifting to lay on top of you, to allow his body weight to act as a grounding source, to allow his warmth to stabilize the adrenaline that is racing through your veins, to press kisses anywhere he has access to. 

His hands run up and down your sides, squeezing at your waist and hips before pulling you up into him, molding your body against his as his arm wraps tightly around your waist, his other arm reaching up to finger the ends of your hair. 

“What happened my beloved? Has something hurt you?” 

You don’t even reply, you just bury your head into the junction of his shoulder and neck, inhaling his cinnamon and apple scent, tinged with the afternoon rain and leaves, allowing for the sound of his heartbeat to calm your own. 

You finally open your side of the bond, allowing all your feelings to flood towards him. He takes a sharp inhale, overwhelmed by the rush of negative emotions, but doesn’t say anything. He wants you to share these feelings with him. He wants to lift the burden of these feelings in any way he can. And if that means letting it go onto him, then so be it. 

You shake against his body for a while, tears soaking into his shoulder as he strokes your hair, at some point pulling you into his lap and rocking you back and forth. 

And when you are ready,  you finally begin to tell your husband about your day. About how the day started off so perfectly with him waking you up, and how you felt so motivated to feel pretty for him. How nothing worked out and it left you feeling insecure. How the girls were upset that their papa wasn’t there in the morning, instead they were stuck with mama (even though you know that is not how they meant it to sound, they are only babes for mothers sake). How the towns people had so many concerns. How the children of the court had suffered. How upset you were that these things would take time to fix. How upset you were that you couldn’t relieve the peoples pain with one law, with one all included fix. How much you missed him throughout the day. How much you had wanted some alone time with him... some private time... how disappointed you were when he wasn’t there at breakfast, and how you just were not feeling good. Not feeling good about the day. Not feeling good about the state of the court. Not feeling good about yourself. 

And he listened. Stroking your back with one hand, and your hair with the other. Pressing kisses into your temple and forehead, onto your cheeks and corners of your eyes every time a new tear tried to slip out. 

He didn’t interrupt you once, allowing for you to get all your feelings out there. Only sending strokes of love, appreciation, pride, longing, and want down the bond that tied your two hearts together. 

And when you finally finished, tears all dried out, breathless from your rant, his hand came up to your chin, gripping it to force eye contact with you. The bond had tightened into one of pure devotion streaking down to reach your end, encasing you with your mates love. His amber iris’ stared into yours, flicking back and forth, reflecting only honesty and truth as he began thickly, “My beloved, you are the most stunning female I have ever seen, ever had the pleasure knowing, probably the most stunning female to have ever existed. You are the definition of ethereal, elegance, dazzling, enchanting, and alluring. Your beauty exceeds that of the stars, moon, and sun. There are not enough words to describe your beauty, really there are no words that can accurately describe it either. You are just going to have to take my word for it, and I promise you that I will prove to you ever day how bewitched I am by you. I am so sorry your day didn’t go as you wanted it to. I was actually hoping to join you sometime later today, but I got pulled away by the border issues and I just didn’t have enough time. I am sorry you had to deal with all that on your own. Things for the people are very emotionally charged right now, but I am so fucking proud of you. I am proud to have you as my high lady. I, and the people of this court, are incredibly blessed to have you as high lady, my beloved. You handled things beautifully, and in ways that I couldn’t have done better myself. You are allowed to have off days my love, but I am here for you. And I am going to remind you every time you have one of those days, actually, I am going to remind you every day, that you are my entire heart. My whole soul. And my world, along with the babes. My universe revolves around you. And you are the most loved person I know. The babes absolutely adore you, and while they were complaining in the morning for you, you should’ve seen how they cried when they realized you would be gone for the entire day. It took hours to console them beloved, hours. I was nearly about to rip my hair out before I brought in the hounds to distract them. You are their world. You are the perfect mama to them, and I assure you that you are their favorite being to exist, and I cannot help but feel the exact same. I love you so much, and it is going to be okay. I promise you.”

Your lip trembled at his devotion towards you. Everyday, your mate managed to surprise you with the amount of love and affection he held towards you. Everyday, over and over again, he proved that he was the only being that you could ever possibly want or need to be happy, to be content, to live. “Thank you, Er,” you whispered, leaning forward and capturing his lips against yours. They moved slowly and passionately against each other, pulling away and coming back. Gasping against each others lips for air before shifting to press against each other with no space left in between. His tongue slipped between your lips, ushering into your mouth to stroke at your tongue causing a shot of lust to course through your body. He leaned back, pulling your bottom lip between his teeth, eliciting a soft moan that had him surging forward again.

“EWWWWWWWWWW” 

Both Marwa and Twila’s little voices squealed at their parents display of affection, you shoved Eris away at the sound of your babes, immediately glancing over his shoulder to see the two of them scrunching their tiny faces in disgust. The both of them must’ve snuck in at some point during Eris’ speech, and- 

“Mama, Papa was sucking your face off!” Twila screamed, leaping across the room towards you. Marwa following behind her just as quickly. Both landed on their papa, causing Eris to fall back with an “omph” 

Their tiny fingers shoved into Eris’ sides trying to tickle the male to get him away from their precious mama with their best effort. Luckily for their papa, he was not very ticklish. 

Unluckily for them, the babes were. 

He locked eyes with you, amber iris’ lined with mischief that caused you to giggle and nod. You both snatched one of the girls away, sending soft brushes across their torso and behind their knees where they tickled the most, sloppily kissing every inch of their faces you both could reach.  Their little screams of laughter that followed, soothing the last seed of ache in your heart. 

[alaskashigh]

character ask game: 5, 15, 20 for new york, California, new jersey and connecticut

My favorites let's go! (sorry this is late, I needed to wait a bit to collect my thoughts)

New York

5: The other side of paradise, Fuck Tha Police, Tongues and Teeth (I relate this to California as well, Yorkcali n all), really any rap song

15: (Same as California ones), New York x New Jersey, sometimes my ship NY/CA/IL/NJ/CT (it depends on the mood)

20: California because since California doesn't get to ramble or rant about his opinions much, New York is perfect for just listening and sometimes adding in his own two cents here and there. He loves not having to talk and getting to just listen to whatever California's brain decides to talk about next. Also Illinois because I feel like they would have a friend rivalry type thing and I can see the two hanging out at like a sports game. ((New Jersey for the same reason as Illinois)) Oh and Nevada because I think Nevada would really push New York out of his comfort zone (in a good way.) New York would be absolutely fed up with him at times because of how dramatic and sarcastic he is lmao.

California

5: California Love (it’s un-ironically one of my favorite songs rn)

15: New York x California and New York x California x New Jersey are my favorite ships for him

20: Florida, New York, Nevada, Washington and Oregon. Florida and New York because they bounce off of his personality nicely. Florida is chaotic and always ready to drag California out of the house, no matter how much he may complain about it. ((California secretly enjoys it and it helps him get out of depressive episodes.)) New York is standoffish and quiet which makes him the best for listening to California’s ramblings, putting in his own input every so often. Nevada because they would be very bitchy but would hype each other up in dramatic/sarcastic ways. (Definitely would help each other with makeup and outfit choices) And Washington and Oregon would be very sarcastic about everything but would enjoy hanging out with him. (they wouldn’t admit that to anyone, though) ALSO I'm dragging in my cryptid headcanons real quick and saying Tahoe Tessie.

New Jersey

5. I don't really have one for him, yet. (someone give me song recs pls, /nf)

15. (same as California and New York), New Jersey x Rhode Island, sometimes Nevada x New Jersey

20. Rhode Island because I see them as like puzzle pieces. One is always not too far from the other. They stick up for each other and listen to each others dumb ramblings on what happened that day, (or in the past). Rhode Island's always there to help calm New Jersey down during panic attacks and bad days, and vice versa. (Nevada for the same reason as New York). Not The Jersey Devil because I can see him having more of a protective "child and parent" kinda bond with it. (NJ being the child, Jersey Devil being the parent.)

Connecticut

5. same as New Jersey, though the Pirates of the Caribbean is something I always link to him lmfao

15. I actually haven't settled with a ship that I like for him. I've considered Colorado and even Arkansas being in a relationship with him, but I don't know. I enjoy Florida x Connecticut though, strictly because of Storytellers_And_States' fics

20. Rhode Island because I can see them being drinking buddies and hanging out every once in awhile. Maybe Florida because I can see them bonding over pirates and chaos. (I need to think more about his friendships-)

[found-wings]

WELL WHY DIDNT YA SAY SOOOOOOOOOOO

More q!phil WOOOOOO TRUAMA ANYWAY CASSANDRA BY FLORENCE + THE (MOTHERFUCKINGGGGG) MACHINEEEEEEEEEEEEE IS SO HIM RN

quick history- song is utilizing the myth of cassandra, who had been given the gift of prophecy, yet refused it and was cursed to never have her predictions be believed

I'm not in as much of a mood for lyric dissection for this specific song as really its the entirety of it that encompasses the point I wanna make of it fitting to phils character :O other songs have different sections that fit different arcs but this song ? the literal embodiment of his birdhouse arc, more specifically, the clear gaslighting from the federations end and having someone such as phil who is so known for being logical and level headed, be pushed into a path full of questioning his reality and what is and isn't real to him and to others.

the beginning of the song really hammers the point in, the line "I used to see the future and now I see nothing, they cut out my eyes and sent me home packing" is SO SO SO HIM RN. getting the man who has always seen right through every facade displayed in the island. from the federations lies to having ever harmed his kids when the cracks first appeared, to the codes impersonations at the dinner party which he pierced through within seconds of speaking to one. to take that surefire attitude and self awareness he owns and destroy it to its very core with the weeks time he's spent in that damn birdhouse is something so painful and this song reflects that.

the second verse remind me much more of his isolationist ideology being further enhanced with the disappearance of his kids. to him having the world in his bunker with chayanne and tallulah asleep, to the next week having them be gone without a trace, and leaving him lost, needing to create a new purpose and routine to continue on the island just hurts so verymuch haha.

the chorus is the hammer to the nail when relating it to the birdhouse arc as of right now. it almost feels as if he's calling out to the federation for an answer to everything he's been experiencing due to their intervention in his mind, leaving it shattered and in fragments and full of doubt towards his own memories. "every song I thought I knew, I've been deafened to, and there's no one left to sing to" is the real star here when it comes to them taking away his children and leaving him with nothing left to turn to in order to ground himself. anytime he went through something harsh, his children were right there to help- but now he has nothing. isolating himself from the rest of the island has come back to bite in the ass when it leaves him with little heart to heart connections he can turn to for emotional support ;-;

the next verse is a bit less connected, but the part about complaints being taken to the lord while trying to look with a wonder to the world with roses in bloom and riot vans in view? very much attaching this to people within the island (ofc mainly phil) taking their complaints to the 'lord' with the lord here being cucurucho. knowing that any cries they have will be left not only unheard, but ignored as the feds are the one causing all this pain to happen. can't connect it as well now but the other lyrics r so him and tallulah trust trust I'm running out of time to write LMFAOOOOOO

ANYWAY AAAAAAAA JUST GONNA SHOVE THE SONG OUTRO HERE BUT

Take me back

Oh, drunken gods of slaughter

You know I've always been your

Favorite daughter

Well, can you see me? I cannot see you

Everything I thought I knew is falling out of view

And if I run fast enough, could I break apart

As empires crumble and cathedrals flatten in my heart?

not even gonna lie, it's clear to me how this fits his arc rn, but I wanna go a step further and say how while listening to the song, I realized that this part fits all the avians of the island. quackity, baghera, jaiden, and phil all being targets of the federation and being fucked with to another degree is so perfectly encapsulated in this outro to a way in which I cannot describe and that's not just bc I'm busy 💀💀💀💀💀💀 whatever u get the point anyway WOOOOOO BRAINROT I LOVE THIS FUCKING BIRD - 💿

I am finally listening to this and HELLO??? ANON??????

THIS MAN!! THIS FUCKING BIRD MAN AND HIS LORE RAAAAH

You are so right in how well this song fits Phil especially in the Birdhouse arc and I‘m so RAAAH RATTLING YOU AND THE SONG

There‘s so many parts where I‘m just, so normal about hearing and my favorite part of this is definitely the

"In this blindness I‘m condemned to

Well, can you hear me? I cannot hear you

Every song I thought I knew, I‘ve been deafened to

And there‘s no one left to sing to"

THAT PART IS SO GOOD RAAAH

ALSO ANON YOUR TASTE IN MUSIC IS >>>>>

This song is so good and so so painful when connecting it to qPhilza AJAJAJ

[jawllines]

just finished reading </3 he’s so cute and she’s so cute and i love them so much. the way he talks to her and teases her and god i will cry:( when he holds her face or rubs his thumb against her cheek i think someone put my heart in a little box and just kicked it around a bit i’m so soft rn

“There was something imminently gratifying about putting a man to work in her kitchen while she swung her legs and waited patiently to be fed, so she reveled in that feeling while he answered.” GORGEOUS IMAGE IN MY HEAD <33

“That’s a good girl – y’know, you’re a brat, but you listen well when you want to. Kind of like a fussy cat.” ripping my hair out. why would you do this to me (give me more pls)

“It makes his heart twist in his chest, a weird mix between an ache and a yearning for her. He wondered if these bad dreams would disappear if she always had someone there to cuddle to her body, like an oversized stuffy. “ i will sob also the first sentence was me the entire time i was reading this

“It would have been criminal for him to refuse her! And Harry may participate heavily in unlawful, corrupt things, but he was no bloody monster – his job (in part) was to make Y/N happy, and if a kiss was what did that then so be it.” GOD I WANT HIM SO BAD HE IS JUST SO <33333333333 HE’S NOT A MONSTER HE LOVES KISSES</3

“Yet as soon as she saw Harry, who smiled brightly at her as he walked in, holding two strawberry shakes with a big grin on his face…she just couldn’t.” heart wrenching </3 i want to cry just rereading this

“You can tell me when you’re ready if you want to talk about it,” his voice sinks into her muscles, melts them, “I’ll wait for you.” “ILL WAIT FOR YOU” OLIVE HE WILL WAIT FOR HER </33333333 GOD I CANT

the amount of times he calls her baby.. i….</3 that itself.. yeah

olive i say this every chance i get but genuinely thank you so much for sharing your writing with us and continuing to do so even though you’re incredibly busy. you’re so talented and i love you so so so so so so soooooooo much!!!!!!! i can’t wait for the next part- insane cliffhanger btw…….. also please i need them to kiss just a little bit more before they… 🫣 also goose and gremlin? babies they deserve the word <3333

AHHHHH OGMGKGMG THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOUU!! YALL KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE ASKS LIKE THIS WHERE YOU TELL ME AND SHOW ME THE PARTS YOU LIKE IT MAKES ME ALL WARM :-) I LOVE YOU LOTS BUBBLES

[seishihoe]

hiiii pen !! i meant to come by and greet you earlier since we are new mutuals now : D i’m sosa and thank you for thinking me and my blog was cool enough to follow >\\\< love your admiration for choso because literally same , i just don’t talk about him a lot 🥹🥹 i saw a clip of his eng dub voice last night and………idek what type of reaction that was but my body REACTEDDEE. i shuddered, tears appeared in my eyes spontaneously and i fell to the floor on my knees staring blankly at a wall 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 NO WAAAAYYYY HIS DUB AND SUB SOUNDS THAT GOOD????!1.1@@ HIS ENG VOICE SOUNDS SO SEXY ITS DEEPY AND LIL BIT RASPY BUT DEADPAN AND FLAT JUST LIKE HOW I EXPECTED IT TO BE WSKQKWKWKWKjwskwkwk I LITERALLY MOANEDDDDDDDD OMMFGGFGFF WE CHOSO GIRLIES GETTING FED NICELY

HI BBY!!!! ahhh omg no but likewise 🥹🥹 and any jojo/dio lover is a friend in my eyes hehehehe. i wuv your blog!!

UGH I NEED TO LISTEN TO HIS DUB VOICE!!!!! his sub one is perfect i love daisuke namikawa is great hehehe (anasui!! but then also i’m getting violet evergarden flashbacks when i hear his voice 💀💀). i’m running to youtube rn!!!!

[crimsonsrecordshislife]

Rant post

And what’s even more irritating is the fact that my dad promised, right after I turned 18, that he would be giving me money every here and there so I could have money to make my last “year” of “childhood” somewhat enjoyable. And MY DAD HAS ONLY DONE THAT ONE TIME. Yet, he said that he would be putting money into my brothers’ savings accounts every paycheck and I haven’t gotten but $10. It’s like they don’t even care anymore and I am just so over it. I am literally on the edge of cutting them out of my life when I graduate. I don’t want to because they’re trying to do better and they raised me and what not but at the same time. Multiple people have told me that my parents are still mistreating me. Not to mention the fact that I get yelled at every time I have a bit of “attitude.” Like, I am trying my HARDEST to keep my emotions under control, but it doesn’t help when they treat me like shit. And then they accuse me of treating them like shit and guilt trip me whenever I an finally fed up with their shit. Like, fucking hell, why don’t you actually shut your fucking mouths for once and LISTEN TO WHAT YOUR ELDEST FUCKINH CHILD IS TRYING TO TELL YOU. They have practically been neglecting me and my emotional and mental state since I can remember. I go to my dad and say “hey, I’m kinda dealing with some stress rn” AND HE TURNS IT INTO ALL ABOUT HIM. When I go to my parents, I don’t need someone to relate to or radicalize my situation. I NEED SOMEONE TO FUCKING LISTEN TO ME AND NOT SAY ANYTHING.

For instance, the other day, I had forgotten to take my medication and a lot of shit was going through my head(College shit, the fact I need a vehicle, me needing a storage unit to put my stuff in, me needing a job, etc. etc.) and I called my dad while I was walking home from school. Well, he didn’t answer the first time. All good, my dad works ~12 hours a day usually om the high way. Well, my dad calls about ~5 minutes home, I answer him AND IT IMMEDIATELY GETS WINDY AS FUCK. I try talking and he tells me he can’t hear me, I try telling him to hold on a moment really loudly so he can hear me. HE BLATANTLY ignored me(I know because he responded half-ass to my comment). He then hangs up and calls back about 5 minutes later. I tell him give me a moment to get home calmly and he has the fucking AUDACITY to tell me “you need to lose the attitude” and when I tried telling him “I don’t have an attitude” he cut me off with “I’m going to hang up and not call back” AND HANGS UP. I get home, and about 15 minutes of me trying to calm down, he calls me and I say “What’s up?” And HR FUCKING SAYS “Thanks for saying Hi” and then hangs up. I throw my phone on my bed, now immediately back yo being reallu upset. My dad calls me three more times and I send each to voice mail. I finally pick up, he starts ripping my head off and I stop him, and start ripping his head off (I know I shouldn’t have, but he had me beyond pissed at this point and I just needed him to actually listen to me). I say something While I an bombarding him with what is going on with me and he starts to cut me off and I immediately cut him off, basically telling him “That is exactly what I am talking about! I don’t need you to say jack shit!” And he shut up for the rest of the time I was talking. And AFTER I had finished and finally calmed down and whatnot, my dad made a joke and. We finally talked things out properly. It had turned out that my dad’s blood sugar was low so he was really irritatable, etc etc. I apologize for taking his head off and whatnot. IT WAS ONLY AFTER I HAD YELLED AT HIM that he kinda realized that I didn’t need an actual response from him.

I just. I don’t know anymore. I’m trying my hardest to get better mentally and emotionally. It’s really difficult, but I’ll manage.

I’m sorry for the long post, I just really needed to get this out even if I am just screaming out into the void. I honestly, at this point, drc if anyone sees/interacts with my posts. I have always had a hard time with journaling and whatnot, but this feels like. More natural.

And, for anyone who does take the time to read this. I greatly appreciate you and I hope that all of the best happens to you

[yulin-pop]

⤷ ✧ Azul Ashengrotto with a crush

Gender neutral

- order 50 | Headcanons | Azul

Note: The long awaited Azul

⇥ Jade Leech • Jamil Viper ⇤

Straight up denial

It’s a common thing we see in our twst boys

He doesn’t know what love feels like, he loves him mom and his dad but a crush seems different.

Maybe his only experience with love is when he was young, I wouldn’t be surprised if he had a crush on a popular person in school, though he was bullied so much that he knew he had no chance. (I don’t wanna get in Azul angst rn)

He focused on everything else but love. Which is why he’s so childish about his own feelings. He thinks he can control how he feels but it just doesn’t work (just like me)

It’s kinda cute in all honesty. He might start paying attention to you more than usual. He knows he should stay away for the sake of his heart but his body isn’t listening. He always waddles over and joins in on the conversation.

He would gladly help you with anything. He might tease you with a contract but he won’t make you sign anything. He doesn’t really want to scare you off.

He gets startled at any sign of reciprocation. He doesn’t believe that you could feel the same way but— he really hopes so.

He’s nervous but he would never show it around you.

Give him a hug, he will run away immediately and hide in his office.

“Azul! Come out. This isn’t your octopus pot!”

“One moment!”

The twins would be so amused. They would trap you to in these situations that would should’ve never occurred. People usually don’t get stuck in a storage closet for a whole day, it’s really cold and you can’t help but get closer to him. He’s used to these cold temperatures but in his human body, it feels a bit different.

It wouldn’t be bad to get close, it would be a problem if either of you got sick.

(He still ends up getting sick with a fever anyway)

OMG you could have that cliche scene when you’re taking care of him when he’s sick. You feel bad that he fell under the weather.

You go to visit him, you wanted to just stop in and say hi but the twins handed you a tray of food and ushered you to feed him.

“Poor Azul is sick. He can hardly sit up!” Floyd said while patting your shoulders.

“You need to go feed him. Make sure he finishes it all.” Jade and Floyd cackled in unison.

His face was somehow even hotter as you fed him. You kept avoiding his gaze.

“Your hands are cold.”

“Huh?”

He would grab your hand and press it against his cheek. To be fair, he’s only half conscious. Conscious enough to sense and process everything but not enough to control his movements.

After that it would be so awkward.

Eventually he would come to terms with his feelings but then he would just be stuck again. His way of making a move is either helping you with something, or giving you gifts.

He would be so sweet and treat you right. Love him please

I need to write Azul more.

[seka1-k0k0ro]

CRYS OMG.

bf kei taking care of u when ur sick omgomg and maybe kageyama n kuroo too? omg.

(i'm currently sick rn and this idea just hit me AHAHAHAHHA)

-🍙

OMGGG awww this is so cute; yes ofc onigiri! also get some rest and drink lots of water, hope you feel better and get well soon!! 💓

bedridden.

*post timeskip!*

tsukishima kei, kageyama tobio, kuroo tetsuro x gn!reader

cw: lots of fluff, mentions of sickness, some cursing

[i will format this better later + lower case intended]

tsukishima kei:

this man is the type to complain at first and silently take care of you until you feel better

and whenever you do end up feeling better and thank him he would have the worst blush on his face and pass it off like its nothing

you both live separately, but he has a key to your apartment

so when you didn't pick up your phone and text him back, he got a bit worried

after his uni classes, he raced to your apartment, mind running wild as to why you weren't responding to him

he unlocks and opens your door, confidently. he takes his shoes off and dumps his bag on the ground while calling out to you.

he hears you cough and his worry only worsened

he beelines to your room, and opens it harshly to see you coughing while laying on your bed, underneath the blankets.

"so you've been sleeping all day, huh?" he got no response from you besides a cough. he lifted a brow, confused as he slowly made his way over to you. he saw your cheeks were flushed and you let out another cough. his hand grazed your cheek, in a lazy attempt to check your temperature. "shit, y/n, you're burning up. why didn't you text me for help?" you melted into his hand as an apology and relief. that he was there.

kei got up and immediately searched for a glass of water and a cold compress. he found medicine on his journey as well and brought it back over to you. he made sure you were fed (he ordered it, he's not that good) and stayed by you until you felt better. he ended up sleeping on the floor in case you needed anything.

~.~

kageyama tobio

mans is clueless however he's not dumb

he rarely takes care of himself but when it comes to you, he'll bend the universe to make sure you're okay.

you'd text him you would be able to have your weekly breakfast date (put in place due to busy schedules) because you were sick and he cancelled everything except volleyball practice to help you.

def the type to call him mom or sister while he's at the store for help

"i just don't know how this is going to help."

"just listen to me and you'll be good," answered his sister. they bickered about getting too much or too little and which food he had to bring you. he stood in line of the store with thirty things all variations of other items in the case you reacted badly, or didn't like it. he checked out and headed immediately to your place.

he got back and saw you were walking to the kitchen. he gasped, "what are you doing out of bed? i told you to stay there." you looked him up and down as he looked also more disheveled than you with five plastic bags in his hands.

"i wanted a water."

~.~

kuroo tetsuro:

def the type to scold you the minute he found out

you're his personal assistant, and when you called in sick he laughed and said some stupid ass shit like "damn i did you that good huh?" even though literally nothing happened the night before.

you hacked out a bad cough and said you were really sick, and his entire mood changed.

trying to be professional, he said "alright, take the day off, and keep me updated."

yet he would send you emails, text-after-text, of him keep you updated.

he would send pictures of him throughout the day captioning it like "picture of my beautiful face to instantly make you better"

you're usually the one that takes care of him, so he's at a loss but he sends you flowers and your favorite takeout in the mail.

'dingdong check your front door,' said the millionth text from kuroo that day. you begrudgingly got up and made you over to the front door, and when you opened it, there it was. you smiled as you smelled the fresh roses and still warm takeout.

'thank you, my love,' you texted back with a picture of it. you took everything inside and downed your food. halfway through eating your phone started buzzing uncontrolably again.

'are u better yet? i'm bored.' you rolled your eyes as he was literally a busy ass businessman, and you only juggled half the work.

'stfu kuroo, im trying to eat then sleep.'

'gobble gobble that shit up, babe!' you questioned everything then and there, with a smie.

feel better lovely! inbox is always open. 💓

[sunf10wer8]

Getting to know your BL mutuals - 2022 Edition

Simple, answer the questions. @ some people. Include the tag 'g2ky BL mutuals 2022' on your post so we can find everyone's answers!

Thank you to the lovely @sunflower-lychee for tagging me! I never get @ in these so I’m very happy 🥰

(Truthfully this year I have been kinda slow with watching new shows BUT I will do my best!) 

What has been the BL that took you by surprise this year?

Love In The Air!

I remember watching the pilot trailer when it aired but truthfully I forgot about this show until everyone started talking about it again 😅 Anyways... I fell in love so fast it’s not even funny. My mental health has been meh at best the past few months and I needed a show like LITA to just watch without having to really think :) Also the cast? Like?! In love with all four of them (especially Noeul).

The Eclipse!

I watched ep 1 when it first came out but never continued the show because I wasn’t feeling it (little did I know 🤡). Everyone was hyping this show up so I made myself sit down and watch it... ended up binging all 6 (aired) episodes and safe to say I was hooked... I mean if anyone on here saw my blog you were probably fed up of me talking about this show (very sorry). So yeah... It’s now one of my favourite BLs. We won’t talk about the cast because I will never stop, lets just say I am now a Neo and khaotung fanpage!  

This technically doesn’t count but I finally watched Bad Buddy this year and I’m mad at myself for waiting so long.

What has been the BL that you felt a bit disappointed with this year?

Cutie Pie- I didn’t dislike it but I found myself getting bored and skipping a lot, especially towards the end... shout out to Perth in that black shirt tho😏 Also loved the side couples

Even Sun- Listen I will do anything for BounPrem but lord I was struggling with this one. Why was the intro so long?! also who wrote the script because ooft. Skipped everything apart from the BounPrem scenes. 

What has been your favourite BL this year?

KinnPorsche- Lets all act surprised! This show was my entire personality all summer and the reason I came back to tumblr lol. Met so many lovely and amazing people because of this show and it will always have a special place in my heart. It also gave us the masterpiece that is Why Don’t You Stay aka my most played song of 2022. Again the cast is everything to me! 

Semantic Error- No explanation needed for this one really. I swear Seoham has been in the military for years! Why is it going so slowly?! 

Between Us- Are we only 4 episodes in? Yes. Do I care? NOPE! After waiting almost 3 years they could just stand in that locker room arguing for 12 episodes and I would still watch every second! As much as i tried not to, I did and still do have high expectations for this show BUT so far everything is perfect- I don’t really care about Team’s friends as characters or the relationship between Bee and Prince? but I also don’t hate it.

Favourite BL couples (not just of 2022)?

This is so hard to narrow down 😭 (I will refrain from going into detail otherwise we will be here all day)

WinTeam (I mean ^) 

RamKing (My Engineer) 

Sangwoo and Jaeyoung (Semantic Error)

PatPran (Bad Buddy)

VegasPete (KinnPorsche)

RainPayu and SkyPrapai (Payu and Pai are THE perfect boyfriends) 

AkkAyan (I truly can’t tell if it’s because I love the characters or if I am just down so bad for First and Khao 🥲)

There’s definitely more couples who should be on this list but my brain isn’t working rn

If you had to suggest a BL for someone what would it be?

Not Me- Everyone needs to watch it at least once in their live

Young Royals- It was actually my friend who doesn’t watch BLs that recommended it to me 

We Best Love- Maybe It’s just me but I adore that show

Also Where Your Eyes Linger so there is someone else who can suffer with me about how short it was! 

What's your non-BL favourite for this year?

This spot is strictly for Alice In Borderland 2 (when it airs) 

BUT

Until then... Business Proposal and Bridgerton.

This was so much harder than i thought it would be omg... anyways my aks are always open and I love talking about anything with anyone so feel free to say hi :) 

Tagging: @ahdriking @kurtstiel and @aleng-neng (and anyone else who wants to join in)

(If any of you already did this and I missed it, I am sorry 😅)

[gogolstoelicker]

Hi! I loved your headcanons for BSD character mcs!! If it's alright with you, could I request the dorm leaders and vice dorm leaders with a fem! mc who is like Kunikida? (Idk why but the image of mc yelling at Leona to do something productive reminds me a little bit of Dazai and Kunikida's relationship)

Dorm leader + vice dorm leaders with a Kunikida!MC

warning(s): -

notes: LET'S GO OP I WAS ABT TO WRITE FOR KUNIKIDA MC BUT IT COMPLETELY LEFT MY MIND SO THANK YOU

•sorry its late tho JSNJSJS

You're very professional and diligent when it comes to your job. You constantly feel the need to organize, gather and schedule everything, which makes you come off as strict and harsh.

A trustworthy and loyal detective, your coworkers rely on you because of your authoritative capability and responsible nature.

Ability: The Matchless Poet (or Lone Poet i forgot), allows you to make objects written on the papers of your notebook come into existence. However, it does not work on objects larger than the notebook.

Riddle:

with your ideals and his rules, you guys can surely make the whole nrc cower in fear!

like they're in the cafeteria and they saw riddle? "i hope im not breaking any rules rn😥"

they're about to skip class and they saw you? "ah nvm, skipping is never an option😅"

you guys probably get along REALLY well

talking about the rules, ur ideals and how everyone is not following them

probably kins each other too at some point

you guys are now best buddies

like the whole school will always see the two of you hanging out once y'all have free time

i have free time today, hey wanna go to this unbirthday party?🤗

i have free time, wanna hang around, i made tea🤗

Trey:

oh sevens, another riddle😥

oh well trey dealt with riddle, so he knows how to deal with you too

tries his best to calm u down whenever some students pissed u off by ruining ur schedule

or anything u organized honestly

tells u to relax for a bit too

following a strict schedule everyday AND having to deal with the first years ruining ur schedule by accident AND not allowing urself to rest much???

he's right there next to you, trying to bribe you into resting

or threat idk🤔

it didn't work most of the times so

so he just have to be that one passive aggressive friend so you would rest or smth

did it work? sometimes if he tried harder

"u wouldn't want to ruin ur own schedule by passing out or anything right?^^"

"that's why i have enough sleep and exercise everyday"

^ur daily conversation probably

Leona:

if it's not for the fact that you're a lady, he would never listen to you lol

ruggie is forever greatful to have you around

bc as soon as u start telling leona off to stop skipping class and do something productive, he actually got up and do it

i mean he may looks like he's ten seconds away from ripping someone's throat out but at least he tries‼️

he actually leaves the class once he sees that you're not there but shhh

sometimes if he feels extra nice, he'll actually stay in the class

but he'll sleep in it LMAO he REFUSED to study

don't get him wrong, he appreciates that you even went out of your way to scold and sometimes motivate him to show his full potential but

he's a lazy lion at heart, you won't be able to get him to do anything

one time that happened again and someone snitched to you

leona is now forced to listen to your few hours lecture and how it does not fit ur ideals for him to not study

literally leona the whole time:

Azul:

oh you definitely got feed by his lies LMFOAOAOA

even azul himself is surprised by how naive you could be

BUT this only means MORE advantage to him👓✨

the amount of lies he fed u everyday...

its like that annoying scam seller that came knocking on ur door everyday

or those who tried to promote their "religion" cult on the streets

either way, that's how azul looks like to u everyday

he's sly so he probably made it seemed like smth good until jack just

pulls u away from azul so u won't get roped into some weird deal that won't benefit u at all

he ALWAYS finds a loophole in ur ideals so he can just

idk not follow but follow ur ideals at the same time?

Jade:

he doesn't really mind you that much? as long as you're not nagging him about something of course

which is lowkey rare bc u approve of him apparently🤔

like attitude, style and how he handles work? P E R F E C T. CHEF'S KISS

while u do like how he's on time for schedule and actually gets his work done, u don't really like how uh

scheming he can be😥

but oh well he's from octavinelle, u cant do much about it so u just avoid him

he's actually quite amused that u even approve of him

he didn't know he could fit ur ideals but now that he knows, you know he will never let it go

now u have to deal with a 191cm tall man looming over u and teasing u subtly nonstop

if he hace free time that is since hes usually busy with monstro lounge and floyd's antics🤔

Kalim:

u crying bc he reminds u of ur annoying coworker

him being happy meeting jamil's best buddy

yes i said best buddy what about it

he actually liked to listen to ur rant abt ur ideals

i mean he may not understand it fully but he's willing to listen!

literally dragged u to his parties

yes, u dont like parties. yes, u have works to do

but u gotta relax and have fun sometimes prefect so let him drag u to have fun!

cue u standing in the corner with a glass of juice in hand

"what do people do at parties?" u may ask

and then u see kalim absolutely eating up the dance floor and having fun

oh.

he would even try to drag u to dance with him

goodluck trying to get away from said party

Jamil:

cries heavy tears

it's tears of happiness btw

fiNALly! someone who can take his place to take care of kalim once in a while!

the gods have finally heard his prayers after all this time, he's so happy

sometimes, he would even hang out with you just because

well if you're both not busy that is🤔

he's mostly busy with kalim's shenanigans and you have your day planned out already so

so if u both EVER have a free time, you guys would hang out‼️

with kalim tagging along ofc bc he can't really leave him alone

him being even more happy bc u don't have this favoritism towards either of them and actually treats them equally

and not treating him like kalim's shadow

him to u probably

Vil:

ah yes, probably got along too

he agree with ur ideals here and there

esp if it have smth to do with having good posture and how to present yourself better

might even ask to read through some of it

who knows, he might get a nice advice here and there

he would also give u some advice

u writing it down on ur book and trying to achieve that exact same thing the very next day

and vil wiping a single tear that left from his eyes bc omg!! that's his student!!

/hj

he does feel a sense of pride and is actually very proud of himself and u a little whenever u listen to his advice

probably the one to do ur makeup if he have spare time just so he can make sure u look the absolute best💯

overall, could be best advice buddies but both are too busy to hang out too🤗

Rook:

caught him following stalking a someone

so now he's in a lecture abt how that's wrong

he is kind of like 🤩 when he first saw u

who is this strict prefect he may ask🤔

it's you🤩‼️‼️

while he does not follow u around daily, he does sing praises to you whenever u two crossed paths

welp there goes ur schedule😔you're 10 seconds late bc of him😔

actually doesn't mind his praises, u just wish he wouldn't tell u in the middle of the hallways

probably one of the first ones to find out about your ability

with rook and his stalking investigation skills, he can and will find out everything‼️

him cornering u sometimes just so he can tell u more praises

u shaking and crying bc u just wanna go through ur schedule and this is the 5th time he stopped u this week and it's only monday

Idia:

a victim of u

in a good way i think🤔

ortho is probably the one whp introduced y'all

you, who saw idia , rolled up your sleeves and tried to make him have a healthier lifestyle

ofc u won't drag him out

it's just u whipping out a 100 slides powerpoint with your ideal book in hand telling him how much negative impact it would have living the way he is and ways to improve

he's shaking and crying bc u did this everytime you guys meet in his room

how do u even get in his room? i don't know either

he would sometimes roll his eyes here and there when u go on ur daily lecture

probably also saw u pull out some items from ur book bc u have to outline smth in the powerpoint to prove ur point

and he just goes🤨😮⁉️⁉️

it's a magic book⁉️⁉️

found out u can also pull out a gun from that and decided to listen carefully to your lectures from that day on

Malleus:

well he doesn't mind how strict u are with urself and others

he thinks its a rather good quality to have

he, as a future ruler, can surely learn a thing or two from u

u sobbing bc there's finally someone who's willing to go with ur ideals after riddle

he listens to u really well, he even tried to his best to follow it!

but there are times he would tell u to relax for a bit too

u must've been tired🤗come with him for a walk to rest ur mind🤗

u rejecting it bc its supposed to be ur bedtime

u going with him anyway bc he somehow convinced you

with sad lightnings bc he was sulking LMFOAOAOA

Lilia:

peepaw is always there to tell u to relax!

you'll get burnt out if u keep putting ur 100 into everything and putting urself into some strict schedule, take a break sometimes

found out how naive u could be

u could now see lilia growing horns and devil's tail

there's not a day lilia won't trick u

be it for his own amusement or for u to rest

like maybe he would make up some lie like

"in nrc, if u don't rest for a few hours, you'll surely get cursed by the great sevens for ur ideals to never come true"

cue u having tea time with lilia as rest, eating cookies and chatting away

it's a gamble if it's homemade by yours truly or brought from Sam's store

if it's made by lilia, then u can scold him once u made a trip to the infirmary🤗

probably tried to help him around in the kitchen so he could make better food

he appreciates it but his cooking, in fact, did not improve at all

in fact, its ur headache that improved bc of how many times u have to stop him from putting random ingredients in

[chaotic-kitty]

Iok, but hear me ooout!!! A Vampire!MC.

Let's suppose in Astraea vampires are just a myth, and R3+Rime start seeing MC has a peculiar behaviour (avoiding sunlight, being aware he is eating but for some reason they look weaker and weaker everyday) they do not pay much mind to it until MC ends up either passing out from starvation, like, just imagine the shock, the not knowing wth is wrong with mc 🤚🏻😭😭😭😭😭 and mc just being like: "Uh... Haven't feed on months" and the R4 being all like ?!?!??!!?!?? You eat everyday?!?!

And mc being all like: yeah... That kind of food doesn't work on me... It's just that I didn't want you to feel disgusted at me, I need blood. I'm a vampire

Heyy! Sorry this took so long.😕 I had fun writing this one, I did keep it pretty tame though. And it’s a bit short….I haven’t written for these guys yet (sorry if the characters are OOC). I tried my best to capture their essence. I hope it was what you wanted. Thanks for the ask.💕

Last Legacy: M3+Rime with a Vampire! MC

Warnings: Non graphic mentions of blood. Suggestive content.

Is shook™️

And concerned that you haven’t been properly fed and taken care of since your arrival, especially as you’ve been exhausting yourself with learning magic and training.

Will NOT be disgusted though! Far from it actually.

Is the quickest to wrap his head around it.

He is so intrigued.

He will legit just put on his glasses and whip his notebook out of thin air, as he starts asking you random questions and writes your answers down.

Stuff like: were you bit? Or born a vampire? Do you have any powers?

(Will use his *ahem* research as fanfic inspiration)

Vampire lore from Astrea will differ from the lore on Earth, so there are a lot of facts and assumptions you’ll have to clear up. (about your type of vampire at least.)

Will definitely know where to get you a steady supply of blood. (just don’t ask him bout it.)

Considers getting you to turn him into a vamp or at the very least bite him.😏

Now that he knows why you avoid sunlight, he makes sure to include you in his midnightly escapades more often.

Will tease you. But will get all blushy and flustered if you turn the teasing back on him.

If you got turned and it was traumatic, he’ll rein in his endless questions and teasing. He doesn’t want to upset or tigger you. He knows what it’s like to have gone through a traumatic experience.

He gives you support in whatever way you need. <3

If you don’t want to be a vampire, he’ll use all the magic and resources at his disposal to find a cure.

Is also shocked.

But it also explains your sketchy behaviour.

Once he gets over the initial shock he’s just like. “Cool you’re a vamp, anyways.”💁🏻‍♀️

He’s very nonchalant about it.

Even with all of his illegal activities, he doesn’t know where to get blood from.

But, he will happily volunteer for you to bite and feed from him.😏😏

Once you get your fill of blood and get your strength back he is amazed (turned on) by your dexterity and overall physical skill.

Especially when you’re training together!!!

Is concerned but relived. He is more confident in your abilities after this and worries a little less when the two of you aren’t together.

Will make a whole bunch of vamp jokes, all the time, 24/7.

Is low key interested in the lore. Will just sit there as you brush his hair, listening as you tell him all the history/stories.

Will indirectly ask you how you became a vampire.

If it was a traumatic experience, he’ll just give you cuddles and ask if you wanna talk about it.

(If it was against your will though, he is FUMING!! And will be more gentle with you too.)

Mum mode activated!!

She’s VERY concerned rn!

You’ve been here this entire time, learning magic and fighting, and you haven’t even been eating properly!?!?

Is confused as to why you didn’t say something sooner.

Doesn’t think it’s disgusting but she does find it somewhat off-putting.

Vamp lore on Earth can be horrific, but I bet the lore in Astrea is worse.

Even with her street smarts, she doesn’t know where to get blood.

Everyone knows who she is and is scared that they’re gonna get arrested or something so, they are of no help.

One of the few times she’ll turn to Felix and get his help with this.

She may not always agree with his questionable behaviours? But she needs help, for you.

Even if you have special vamp powers, she’s even more protective and overbearing with you. She doesn’t want you hurt.

And a vampire? An actual vampire? She doesn’t know how to handle that, or what it means, and she doesn’t like what she doesn’t understand! Therefore until she does, she’s gonna be more protective.

Will eventually bring it up and ask you how you’re a vampire. She’ll also ask about the lore and everything.

She wants to know as much about it as she can.

As she learns more and more, and finds that some of the things she thought was true was nothing more than a myth, she’ll be more supportive and open to the idea.

If you got turned against your will or it was just an overall traumatic experience, she’ll just wrap you up in her arms and offer support and comfort.

She isn’t all that good with affection or reacting to trauma, but she does her best to be there for you.

Is upset and angry by the idea that you got turned against your will. If she ever meets the person that turned you, even if you asked, she will throw hands with that person.

For a being that doesn’t seems like he gets shocked or genuinely surprised by things often, he is definitely caught off guard. He didn’t expect that.

Is trying to get his head around how tf you were able to function up until this point

Acts like he doesn’t care but definitely is concerned.

There is a reason he once wielded the Astrolabe. He is a healer and is greatly fascinated by the inner workings of bodies and medicine in general.

And it’s because of this, that he’ll (if you’re still at that point in your relationship) stop trying to kill you for more than five minutes and ask you questions and try to assist you. (but, in a way that shows he doesn’t care.🤥)

Will want to know if you have powers, and how the whole vampire thing works.

Might not necessarily ask about the lore (it depends on what kind of relationship you have) but if you’re telling someone else while he’s in the vicinity, he’ll listen.

He finds the lore intriguing.

He is also sketchy enough to know where to get blood.

He will also volunteer to be bit if needed.😩

Will low key find the whole thing hot tho.

Will secretly hide garlic and other stuff around to see how you’ll react.

Is the least surprised that vampires exist but, that doesn’t mean he expected you to be one.

This smug bastard will make far more sexual jokes and innuendos now that he knows.

Doing this classic “bite me” among others. Purely to tease you and annoy you.

If y’all are like really close friends or a couple his reactions are slightly different:

He’ll more more openly concerned. And will voice those concerns.

He will ask about the lore and cuddle with you as you tell him about it.

Also will still ask you about how you became a vampire.

If it was traumatic, he’ll comfort you and talk to you about your experience. He’s had his fair share of traumatic experiences and knows some stuff to help deal with trauma and even heal from it.

If it turns out it was against your will, he’s soooo pissed off and annoyed. He will still be there for you though.

You might have to stop him from activity tracking the person down. He doesn’t even care if they’re worlds away. He just wants to have a chat🥰