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Hey, also, all the anarchist shit aside, tomorrow I want you to make something.

I forced myself to draw something after the 2016 election. I forced myself to draw something when my mother died in 2018. I forced myself to draw something when my spouse was hospitalized for multiple organ failure in 2021.

When you are miserable, make something. Add a row to your project, bake a box cake, draw on a sheet of lined paper, write a poem on a napkin, fold an origami shirt out of a dollar bill, make your favorite recipe for dinner, but make something with your hands, something that you can hold and look at engage your senses in.

It won't fix the world, but it will change the world. You will have made something that didn't exist before. You will have impacted your reality, even in a very small way. And it is going to be something you made *after.* Something bad happened, something shook you, and you made something after, in spite of it.

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A story in a single image, of how one (1) man took over my entire brain after just 45 days.....

help

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drawing imbibitor lunae everyday part 9:

the sedition of imbibitor lunae (real)

alternatively; the high-cloud quintet throw wild ass parties

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Blessings of the Twelve

Spoilers for Myths of the Realm quests/raids.

After 6.5 has wrapped up, and after completing the trials of the gods, R'alma is granted three boons to ask whatever he will of them. As told by a third party...

A proper introduction to my other OC, Ar'lihn.

Mod sundering had me really worried about getting him back tbh, and I ended up accidentally enlisting my husband in several hours' worth of work over my birthday weekend, but he has been recovered (with a few minor adjustments). Look at how good my strapping baby boy looks!

Anyway this VN was the messiest one I've ever done. The scripting was very loose and vague, and because of that I ended up with several leftover shots. Here's a few.

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it should be illegal to take a nap and still have a headache when you wake up. like no i shut it off and back on again why are you still here

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never forget your roots

fanfiction.net before they removed the NC-17 stories

going to fanfiction.net at all

going to adultfanfiction.net in the fallout of the great “purge”

figuring out that ain’t nobody actually monitoring NC-17 stories there anyway so just rate it “M”

“please R&R! concrit appreciated!”

warning: lemon

though it may be more on the limey side of lemon

“summary sux just read it”

replying to reviews in the author’s notes

author’s notes in which the characters talk to each other and the author

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In Sickness and In Health - Part 3

In which Y'shtola has to break the news to a very clueless R'alma...

CW: Much less ambiguous discussions of mating cycles and pregnancy

Part 1 Part 2

And that brings this VN series to a close. Part 3 isn't exactly necessary to the overall plot, but I feel it helps spell things out more precisely in case it was too vague in part 2, and also for my own sanity I needed to know what the exact conversation was between R'alma and Y'shtola so I scripted it out anyway.

Into the Void - Part 4 again if you wanted to read it with all the context, since it takes place right after this.

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In Sickness and In Health - Part 2

In which G'raha finally finds out what is wrong with his partner.

This is officially my single greatest VN I have ever made.

CW: Very ambiguous discussions of mating cycles and pregnancy

Part 1

And there we are. The single greatest VN I have ever made to date.

Congrats to the happy couple! Have a few extra shots of the end pose.

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In Sickness and In Health - Part 1

CW for weight discussion and very mild emetophobia again

This entire series takes place after Part 2 of Into the Void, but before parts 3 and 4. If you haven't already, highly recommend you read both Shifters and Into the Void before reading this.

(Part 2)

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I still need to work on updating my pinned Lore Master Post here, but in the meantime I have got all of R'alma's lore updated and current up to the beginning of Dawntrail on my carrd. If anyone was interested.

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relaxation

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My theory of adhd management is that in order to focus there are 4 things that need to be sufficiently occupied:

Eyes

Ears

Hands (or body)

Brain

And if you aren’t occupying them enough or there’s too many things demanding the use of one, it’ll start to wreck havoc on your ability to do things.

So for example, listening to a podcast. This occupies your ears and brain as you focus on both listening and processing what you hear, but it leaves your hands and eyes completely without anything to do. If you tried to sit down and just listen to a podcast by itself you’d probably get unbearably bored and stop doing it.

But if you pair that activity with something that uses your hands and eyes, like a craft, household chore, or commute, suddenly you’re fully plugged in and can in fact focus better on both tasks than you could if you tried doing them separately.

It’s also why you can’t listen to a podcast while doing homework; you’re trying to use your brain for two different tasks. To occupy your ears while doing homework (which is already using eyes, brain, and hands) you need something for your ears that doesn’t require your brain: music. Specifically music that doesn’t use too much brain power, which is why some people prefer instrumentals or songs in other languages.

Hyperfixation and sensory overload change this by moving the threshold for how much sensory input you need to be able to function. If I’m extremely focused on a craft project (eyes, hands, brain) I might not even need something for my ears; my interest in the project makes up for it. If i’ve had a very overwhelming day, trying to listen to an audiobook while I do some stretches could be too much to process. My brain needs a break.

Video games, which pretty much universally occupy all 4 areas, are basically instant, easy focus wrapped up in a neat little bow. No wonder adhd-havers tend to love them.

If you’re struggling with a task, try looking at which areas it occupies and which are left unattended. Then try to find something enjoyable to fill those gaps, and see if that helps.

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I deeply appreciate that FFXIV did not bother with trying to give us some kind of underwater breath-holding mechanic with a timer, and instead simply went, "A turtle guy did a magic blessing and now you can breathe under water forever. Don't worry about it."

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Started making this…dissociated for four hours…enjoy.

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I caved btw

What if I were to overwrite my entire personality with whatever popular shit everyone around me is into? Do you think I might actually make some friends that way? Would people like me if I did that?