#lina is in voltron hell

[linabeanwrites]

My preview for the Kidge Roads Untravelled zine!

Preorder info can be found over at @kidgezine

[linabeanwrites]

I need more of this. I need like all of this. I'm crying.

This is beautiful. J don't have any other words.

not to keep flooding your dashes but like

Krolia: (flying the ship in contemplative silence)

Keith: (hesitantly approaches her from behind) (quietly) Can we talk?

Krolia: (immediately sets the ship to auto-pilot and faces him) Of course.

Keith: I… I’ve been thinking about what you said. About why you had to leave. (stares at the space over her shoulder and licks his lips) And I understand why you left but I don’t- I don’t forgive you. (he turns and meets her eyes directly) Because I’ve spent my entire life thinking that you didn’t l-love me, or that you left because I’m not good enough, and even though that wasn’t why you left I still thought it, and no one told me I was wrong because no one was ever around. Dad was gone and you weren’t there. You weren’t there.

Krolia: Keith-

Keith: No. No! You weren’t there! And I- I’m a Blade now, okay, I get it, the mission always comes first, but you weren’t there, and- I was alone. On Earth. Did you know I was alone?

Krolia: I’m sorry.

Keith: If you’d known, would you have come back?

Krolia: …

Keith: Right. (he scrubs at his eyes) Right, of course. The mission. Okay. Okay. (he presses his palms against his eyes and tilts his head back) Right. Fuck!

Krolia: Keith, please look at me. Please. (he reluctantly does) I know that I’ve done nothing to earn your trust, and I know that my opinion means nothing to you, but don’t you ever for a second believe that you aren’t good enough. Because you are worth far, far more than anything I ever gave you. I have loved you, Keith, from the moment I knew I carried you, and I fell even more in love with you the first time I held you, and I turned away from that love even as I thought I was protecting it the second I walked away from you. I sometimes regret becoming a mother, (Keith flinches) but never because of you. I have never regretted you, Keith. I regret the mother that I have been to you. I regret the choices I have made, and the life I have given you, and I wish- I wish you’d had a happy life. I wish I was a mother who made you happy. I’m sorry, instead, for the world I chose to bring you into; and I’m sorry for the hurt I chose to give you. I know you’re not ready to hear it, but I-

Keith: Please. Don’t.

(They stand in silence for a moment)

Keith: … I don’t know where to go from here.

Krolia: Whatever you want. Whatever you want, Keith.

Keith: If I told you to leave, would you?

Krolia: (closes her eyes)

Krolia: If it would make you happy, yes.

(Another pause)

Keith: Right. Okay. That wouldn’t make me happy. (Krolia gives an audible sigh of relief) But I just want to make it clear that, that we’re not just gonna be some big happy family. Okay? Because- I had to learn to live without you. So even when I wanted you, I didn’t- I don’t need you. I don’t need a mom. Understand?

Krolia: (swallows once; twice) (quietly) Yes. Of course. (she makes to move past him) I- You wanted us to pilot in shifts, correct? I’ll take my leave now-

Keith: (he hesitates, before grabbing her wrist) Wait. Wait. I don’t… I don’t need you in my life. But I think- I’m willing- I want you to stay. Or at least stick around, for a while. But don’t do it because you think you have to, okay? Because I’m not your obligation, and I’m not- I’m not your second chance. But I want- You’re a Blade, so I trust you, but I’d like to get to know you better. If that’s… if that’s also something you want?

Krolia: Yes! Yes, of course Keith. I’d love- I’ll stay as long as you’ll have me. (she gestures for him to sit) Besides, I owe you some answers, don’t I?

Keith: Yeah. You have no idea. (he pauses before sitting down) And thank you, Krolia.

Krolia: What for?

Keith: You broke mission protocol to save me. And I know it’s because I’m your son, but thank you-

Krolia: I didn’t do it because you’re my son.

Keith: What?

Krolia: (staring straight ahead) A long time ago, I had to leave someone behind for the sake of the mission. I was told that I had followed protocol and done the right thing. But I realized, then, that everything we do- every mission we take, every chance we seize to undermine the Galra Empire- none of it means anything if someone fails to come home. Since then, I’ve refused to leave anyone behind; not if I can help it. Kolivan hates my change of heart, calls it a liability. (snorts) It’s why he assigns me so many solo missions, I suppose.

Keith: …

Krolia: Keith?

Keith: Why did you join the Blades? I mean, uh, if you can tell me that is…

Krolia: All the questions in the world, and you choose that one? … Well, I was younger than you are now, just a cub, really…

[linabeanwrites]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Voltron: Legendary Defender Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Keith/Pidge | Katie Holt Characters: Keith (Voltron), Pidge | Katie Holt, Shiro (Voltron), Matt Holt Additional Tags: Female Pronouns for Pidge | Katie Holt, Kidge Secret Santa 2018, Kidge Children, After Season 8, Pillow & Blanket Forts, Fluff, Domestic Fluff, Children of Characters, domestic life, Female Pidge | Katie Holt, Keith (Voltron) is a Good Boyfriend, Keith (Voltron) is the best dad Summary:

Keith and Pidge have the day off from their duties as coalition members and naturally they have decided to build a pillow fort together, because what else do you do when your children are away for the day?

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For @calligraphist-artemisia for the @kidgesecretsanta. I know it's a bit late but I hope you think it was worth it. It was absolutely adorable and toothrotting for me to write and I have so many more ideas about the Kidge children in this.

[braincoins]

Show: Voltron or Slayers? Character: Shiro or Gourry? Pairing: Lina/Gourry or Shallura? Anything: Lina's Magic or Allura's Magic?

OHHHHHHHHHH SHE’S COMIN’ OUT SWINGIN’!!!!!

Show: Slayers. a coherent narrative and consistent in-universe logic go a long way with me

Character: ...Shiro. [hides from the wrath of Lina] Or, hell, why not have both?

(THANK YOU, @toxicure!!!)

Pairing: ...nnnnnnngh, this one is so hard. Lina/Gourry is my forever OTP but I feel like Lina still has a lot of maturing to do, especially when it comes to romance (and, y’know, admitting her feelings because sweet L-sama). So I think Shallura juuuuuust edges them out. 

Anything: LINA’S MAGIC OMG YES PLEASE versatile, structured, better-explained *cough* plus MOTHER FUCKIN’ DRAGON SLAVE

Make me choose

[linabeanwrites]

After all, worrying that much about someone showed just how much you loved them.

Ah yes the ending to a certain fic.

@flimmerpen @kyanve and @mikiri go wild guys!

Post the last sentence you wrote and tag as many people as there are words in that sentence

“I want you to be able to fit inside.“

I swear this line is completely innocent. Yeah, it’s spoken by a wee little frost troll to a great big bare-chested thundergod, but you’re just going to have to believe me.

I was tagged by the amazing @fairy-changeling and I tag the wonderful @dictionarywrites, @i-bleed-salt, @calamity-cain, @moonsandrock, @softnocturne, @roguewen, @raeseddon, @noelleian and @wouldyouknowmore . I share a lot of friends in the Thorki fandom, so if you’ve already been tagged, guess what, you get a free pass. (Unless you don’t want to pass up a good opportunity. In which case, HAVE AT IT, FRIENDS.)

[linaofthemyscira]

Tag Game 2

@chi-townbatgirl tagged me! sorry it took me so long lmao

Rules: Answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs you are contractually obligated to know better.

1. Nicknames: lina, lina bean and Swarley

2. Gender: Female

3. Star Sign: virgo

4. Height: 5′4

5. Time: now its 4:08

6. Birthday: September 6th

7. Favorite Bands: echosmith, the score, little mix

8. Favorite Solo Artists: TOO MANY (one of my spotify playlists will have many of them)

9. Song stuck in my head: the agent P theme song?? idk y

10. Last movie I watched: Spiderman Homecoming

11. Last show I watched: BROOKLYN-99 HELL YEAH

12. When did I create my blog: May 2017

13. What do I post/reblog: idek anymore...my work...important things about the world and funny things

14. Last Thing I Googled: i have no clue

15. Other Blogs: oof @wonder-carolina (which this blog will absorb) and @kiaraofthemyscira

16. Do I get asks: sometimes, not as much as I used to but oh well.

17. Why I chose my URL: cuz i lurve jason todd bro

18. Following: 280 ( i gotta follow more people honestly)

19. Followers: 2255

20. Average hours of sleep: 5-6

21. Lucky Numbers: 4

22. Instruments:  my vocal chords, play guitar and piano :)

23. What am I wearing: a t shirt and leggings

24. Dream job: musician

25. Dream Trip: ITALIA

26. Favorite food: pizza...

27. Nationality: Latin-American

28. Favorite song: I don’t have one, I like too many songs

29. Last Book I read: Chronicle of a Death Foretold (it was for my english class, I still haven’t finished my personal reading book)

30. Top three fictional universe I’d want to join: DCEU, MCU and Voltron probs

Tagging: anyone cuz i’m a lazy butt sorry

[thestarguardians2018-blog]

Hi!

I'm Lina! I generally write fanfic over on AO3 but i want to expand! My AO3 is LinaBenliven

I am primarily in Voltron hell at the minute writing so many fics. Other fandoms include Sailor Moon and Attack on Titan

I have no idea how to use tumblr. Hopefully this goes well.

[linabeanwrites]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Voltron: Legendary Defender Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Matt Holt/Shiro Characters: Matt Holt, Shiro (Voltron) Additional Tags: Drunk Shiro (Voltron), Christmas Fluff, Christmas Party, Christmas, Established Matt Holt/Shiro, Bisexual Matt Holt, Gay Shiro (Voltron), Gay Disaster Shiro (Voltron), Mistletoe, Kiss under mistletoe, Relationship Reveal, Eggnog Summary:

Being stuck under the mistletoe has never been convenient for anyone trying to keep their relationship a secret. So why would it be any different when a Rebel Commander and the Captain of the IGF-Atlas get caught under it?

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My piece for the @shattsunday Holiday Exchange for @lureavi. I know it’s super late, work has been hectic for me, but I hope you enjoy it any way. (I’ve been restraining myself from reading your gift to me as motivation haha)

[linabeanwrites]

THIS FIC. I love this fic. Its so pure and wholesome and I know that my comment on this is just screaming.

Thank you again hun.

The Art of Giving - A Very Merry Voltron Christmas.

The Paladins and Alteans all find mysterious gifts address to them on December 24th and the hunt is on for the gift giver.

Sometimes the greatest gift you can give is just being there.

Excerpt:

Pidge found Hunk in the commissary with a large glass storage bowl. The lid of the bowl had a bow on top. He was eating what looked like chili from a smaller bowl. “Oh hey Pidge, what’s going on?”

”Oh, I wanted to ask you about something… Is that chili?” She asked distracted.

“Yeah, you want some?” Hunk offered.

Pidge found a spoon and sampled a bite from the larger bowl. It was tasty, if a bit too spicy for her. “It’s not bad, but a bit too hot for me. Did you make this?” She asked, already knowing the answer.

”No actually. It was left a my doorstep with my name on it. It’s pretty good. You should have a bowl with some sour cream.” Hunk offered.

Pidge shook her head. “Can I see the note?” Hunk handed it over and Pidge studied the note. It was written in the same handwriting as the card on her gift. “Well that answers that question.”

”What question?” Hunk said after another bite.

“Someone left a gift at my door this morning and I thought it might have been you. They left a gift for Shiro too.”

”Do you think Keith and Lance got something?”

Pidge pushed up her glasses, “I don’t know. But I know one thing… Whoever doesn’t have a gift is our giftor.” She smiled. The games were thoughtful, but a puzzle to solve was even better.

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@linabeanwrites    @keith-protection-squad

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Voltron: Legendary Defender Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Keith/Shiro (Voltron) Characters: Keith (Voltron), Shiro (Voltron) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Royalty, Fake/Pretend Relationship, Romance, Awkward Flirting, Awkward Conversations, Gay Keith (Voltron), Pining Keith (Voltron), Keith (Voltron) is Bad at Feelings, Oblivious Keith (Voltron), Pining Shiro (Voltron), Shiro (Voltron) Has Anxiety, Gay Shiro (Voltron), Oblivious Shiro (Voltron), Love Confessions, Knight Keith (Voltron), Prince Shiro (Voltron), Prince Keith (Voltron) Summary:

Keith is in a quandary. He wants to help Shiro get over his anxiety from his duties as a prince but the only way he can think of doing that is by pretending to be in a relationship with him.

Problem is; Keith is hopelessly in love with Shiro.

Read It Here

For @mikelaarts​ your gift for the @sheithsecretsanta​. I am so sorry it took so long but I hope you like it anyway!

[linabeanwrites]

Chapters: 3/3 Fandom: Voltron: Legendary Defender Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Allura/Lotor (Voltron), Keith/Shiro (Voltron), Keith/Kuron (Voltron) Characters: Allura (Voltron), Lotor (Voltron), Keith (Voltron), Shiro (Voltron), Kuron (Voltron) Additional Tags: sweet date, Allura (Voltron)-centric, Allura & Keith (Voltron) Friendship, Angst, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Break Up, Post-Break Up, Canon Compliant, Unhappy Ending, Shiro (Voltron) Has a Clone, Episode: s06e05 The Black Paladins, Lotor (Voltron) betrays Allura, Betrayal, Guilt, Survivor Guilt Summary: 

Allura knows she loves Lotor, there's no two ways about it. She knows she loves him except she can't shake the feeling that something might just be going wrong between them.

READ IT HERE

My piece for the @loturabigbang! My partners were @gracie-buns-art and @joudoodles (I will update this post with the links to their art as they post)

They were both lovely to work with and I hope you check them both out!

[linabeanwrites]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Voltron: Legendary Defender Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Hunk/Keith (Voltron) Characters: Keith (Voltron), Hunk (Voltron), Lance (Voltron) Additional Tags: Gay Keith (Voltron), Gay Disaster Keith (Voltron), Socially Awkward Keith (Voltron), Keith (Voltron) is Bad at Feelings, Keith & Lance (Voltron) Friendship, Hunk & Lance (Voltron) Friendship, Hunk (Voltron) Has Anxiety, Samoan Hunk (Voltron), Chinese Keith (Voltron), Bisexual Hunk (Voltron), Christmas Party, Christmas Fluff, Hot Chocolate, Pre-Relationship, Fluff, Mistletoe, Wingman Lance (Voltron), high school sweethearts, Reunion Summary:

Keith only turned up to Lance’s Christmas Party because he lost a bet.

A bet which meant that Lance got to set him up with one of his friends.

Lance’s friend however, is not what Keith was expecting.

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For @sainottheprogram for the @heith-secret-santa​ event. I know it’s kinda late but I hope you enjoy it anyway. I really enjoyed writing it. Heith is such a feel good ship for me and I am so happy that I got to write this.

[linabeanwrites]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Voltron: Legendary Defender Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Matt Holt/Shiro Characters: Shiro (Voltron), Matt Holt Additional Tags: Protective Shiro (Voltron), Shiro (Voltron)-centric, Champion Shiro (Voltron), Rebel Matt Holt, Established Matt Holt/Shiro, Post-Kerberos Mission, Kerberos Mission, Reunions, Canon Compliant Summary:

Takashi Shirogane had prepared well in advance for every single possible outcome or problem that could possible crop up on the Kerberos mission.

Well, everything except for alien abduction.

Notes: Originally for the now cancelled @thisisaspaceshipzine Read It Here

[linabeanwrites]

Weight Of The World

Pairings: Pidge/Lance Rating: Teen And Up Word Count: 1.4k Summary: Pidge hates not having the Healing Pods anymore. She hates having to keep bandaging up herself and her teammates after most of their battles.

But she hates Lance getting hurt even more than that.

Oh Quiznak... This is what a crush is, isn't it?

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Written for @altamiya as part of our server's exchange. This was my first time writing some Plance and just like the Shidge piece I did you before it seems you bring out the best in my Pidge <3 I hope this ticks the hurt/comfort box for you hun!

[linabeanwrites]

Hello Heartache

Pairings: Lance/Shiro Rating: Teen And Up Summary: Lance is used to having nightmares of Shiro vanishing or dying on him. They’ve been happening since the Kerberos failure.

What he isn’t used to is waking up from those nightmares and having Shiro there to calm him back down.

Read It Here

Written for @bidragonwrites as part of the @langstronevent2k18You asked for some Hurt/Comfort and Soulmate AUs and this is what my brain made with that combination

[linabeanwrites]

Ship Of Fools

Pairings: Hunk/Keith/Allura Rating: Teen And Up Word Count: 25k Chapters: 11 Summary: Hunk had known he was bisexual pretty much all his life, and being on an Alien Space-Castleship had only made that more evident to him. Not that he had gotten the courage to ask either Keith or Allura out, and by time he had gotten the courage to ask them - they were dating each other. So, when they both tell him that they want to date him, he’s more than a little confused, but willing to learn. Read It Here 

This is my Piece for the @hunkbigbang! It was such a fun fic to work on and I love the art that @ladymac111-draws did for Chapters 4 and 8, which you can see here. I also had @madame-kiksters as a Beta and they did a phenomenal job in helping me correct the wording within my fic. They were both such darlings to work with and kept me very motivated during this journey. I hope you all enjoy my fic! Updates will be once every two days until all 11 chapters are posted!