#like. everything is kinda just. general basics

[strab3rr]

(long story and no short sorry) GUYSSS I DID ITT

I INDUCED IT!!!!! I WAS PURE AS A FUCKING BABY

IDK WHAT TO SAY (ok enough w capslock)

i have so much to say and not a thing at da same time idk how

anyway i want to begin with thanking you @b4ddprincess bc youre the reason i realized why i started this thing. thank you for making my life better and make me realized what i need to do: nothing. (its same for you guys, all u have to do is nothing)

two fuckn years ago i said to myself that i need a better life, quiter life, less fight with everthing bc everything was so loud and not clear i was feeling lost like a child in the market, and i wanted to make things better for myself in every way, but the main idea of my reasons to wanting to get in the void was: making anxiety go and having better people in my life. but the ''voidlist'' just never stopped bc im kinda greedy(having the idea of controling on your life, the idea of that power makes you greedy. yes thats a thing) anyway the more i add to the list the more i feel like im movin away from my desires then i feel depressed bc ive overcomplicating it bc theres so many things to do but i dont do anything so nothing happend bc i was waiting to be someth happen. and then i started doing awkwardly silly things such as: void routines and challenges and (im embarrassed of this one bc i was too desperate) drinking water

youve read it correct drinking water.

i was sooo desperate for having those things id do anything to get them.

i am simple. i want what everyone wants🎀🎀🎀: shifting realities bc i have so many crush and i need them to be crush me in bed(for 2020 girlies)

being an academic weapon is so easy for me🎀(bc of the urge to make my family proud) +dream collage

being the girl that everyone gets along w(basic needs)

being the girl who is pretty not cute(trauma response)

glowing aura(cats loves people w glowing aura yes thats a thing too)

dream body n hair(bc i deserve this🎀)

healthy (girlyfriend)friends(basic needs)

and of course him, my sp(i cant tell wich one at that time but i releived that its not him now, bc MY BELOVED CURRENT BF. guyss he is the one. dont u dare ask me how you know? i literally manifested him🎀)

then i realized i can have everything bc its my reality so why not add these:

new phone, +macbook air

dream apartment of my own

pinterest closet

lifa app for this reality

financially free-money(a lot. like really a lot)

knowing 4 languages like a native person(bc i want to be diplomat so bad) +sign language(its in general)

a little drama(its not gonna hurt anybody)

my parents being more lovable and away from me

every time i try to get in, either i was failing or falling

and im sick of it, sick of it so much i quit.(for a year)

then i go to the theraphy(ofc no im jk ilove being crazy)

one day i saw a post ss from tumblr about pure consciousness on pinterest and i was like whaat is thiiss. no mention of void so i thougt its a diffrent thing and i download the tumblr again and search everything abt it. and same excitement again after one year same thougts and same list popes up in my head. and i was like ok maybe this time itll happen.

still waiting to be someth happen so nothing happend, it was such a waste of time trying to get in while i was already be, i was already what i want to become. i was that girl that everyone gets along with but i couldnt even see bc i was too focused on wanting to be. but still tried every night and failed. and again tried-failed-quit circle bc.. have you ever met me🎀

4 month ago i saw the girl, iconic blogger and the goddess of my dreams, her @b4ddprincess thx again love u so much

a post pops in my fyp and i see the words ''pure consciousness'' i was like noo not again. and i was serious abt it i wasnt gonna read the whole thing but it attract me n i couldnt resist it so ive read it from the top to the bottom. and she got my interest so i stalked her page from the last and to the first post. it was quiet a beautiful journey for me. lasted like 3 days, the end of the 3rd day i was ''woaw it was this easy all along? u cant be serious.'' she was. i tried one last time, no breathing exercise, no ridiculous routines and no waiting something to be happen. it was just me being real me chilling out asf.

and it was this easy and it should be this easy bc being your 4d self is being nothing also being everything at the same time. if u wanna be everything you should be nothing first(as wizardliz saying: drop the old story, leave the victimhood, for being better stop being bitter etc.)u should make a space for everything first and then u can be everything.

for being 4d self of yours stop being your3dself.

sooo long story (no)short i am writing this from my mac in my new apartment(in middle of the night bc i couldnt sleep and then one tumblr notification reminded me i have a success story to share too) and my phone buzzing two minutes a time bc of my friends while im writing this, so if theres anything wrong ignore it pls.

oh u asking my bf how cute, hes sleepin in my bed now, exhausted from the work n school balance.

YWS SCHOOL!! im in my dream collage and im going to be in paris for a week. i deserve a vacation i guess(its for another conference), i kinda hate french men bc theyre so mansplaning(not like how i imagined, its hard to be friends w them)girls are cute but i feel like theyre aware im not permanent there so we just con buddies still cute and hepful for this foreigner.

and i canceled the lifa app thingy bc i can be my purest consciousness anytime i want, so i am my lifa app.

and thx to 4 languages i make a lot of money and that brings us to the pinterest closet, yesterday i realiased that. theyre not comes to me w an imaginary way like i imagined! i go outside for shopping casually and theyre there luckily i have enough money to buy them.

and my family theyre living in our hometown now so as i want it to be, we are away from eachother.

and the most magical thing: SHIFTING REALITIESSS

i did 5 world before i met w my bf. it was such a wonderful experience. if you have doubts abt shifting you can go fuck urself

because sir i did it and i am very sure that dean winchester being my husband is not a daydream, fantasy nor lucid dreaming. believe it or not he kissed me GOD HE KİSSED ME(someone should stop me i have a bf)

is there anything i missed let me see.. cats i have 2 cats now and theyre adorable. glowing aura-check

the girl who is pretty not cute- check +make anxietygo-checkcheckcheck

dream body and hair- check and check

i wanna give u a info i didnt have all my desires by being my4dself

not directly actually. but i have them all. and thats the point.

im not trying to be a blogger but if you have any question abt anything, id be happy to help

now i need to upgrade things in my farm byeess

loves, siena.

[cymorilcinnamonroll]

8 level

Humans were brought from another world — a compilation of Eastern Ukrainian tales from Mikola Levchenko mentions a very short tale about creation of people. According to this story, humans were created by God in another world and then brought to the current world by angels. When this world will come to its end, God will come and transport us somewhere else.

Everything is undead - in many different parts of the Slavic world it was believed, that aside from mythological creatures I've mentioned, spirits of the dead can become winds, plants, birds, clouds and (somehow) steam.

Elijah the Prophet can destroy the world - Elijah, known in the Slavic world as Ilya the Prophet, is a pretty popular saint, who seems to have obtained some pretty non-Christian characteristics. It was said (although mostly in the Southern Slavic regions) that God himself had to put a giant stone on his head or tie his arm to his leg, so that he wouldn't burn the world with his lightning. Ilya is often mentioned in different descriptions of the Judgement Day as someone who burns the sinful Earth.

Werebears - werebears are way rarer in folklore than werewolves, and unlike volkolaks, they don’t have authentic Slavic names. Bears, as mentioned, are mostly presented in folklore as human-like creatures (and sometimes there’s even some kind of magical block that doesn’t let shapeshifting spirits and monsters turn into bears). However, there are some off-hand mentions of human-to-bear transformation being possible. For example, one book of magic says that to turn into a bear, you have to master the wolf transformation. There are also rare mentions of other kinds of shapeshifting - into cats, pigs, birds, insects, toads or even inanimate objects. This is not counting folk heroes and villains, some of which can turn into many different animals from oxen to ants.

Humans will be succeeded by dwarves - some bylinas, tales and apocryphal books that mention how giants used to rule the world before humans also mention how each generation of humans is becoming weaker and lamer, and someday people will become tiny. This is a basic folklore motif of “kids these days are insufferable, must be the end of the world nearing”.

Eldritch legs helped to pull out the Turnip - most people are familiar with the short and lighthearted story of the Turnip. Yet there’s a very obscure version of this story, where the dog, cat and mouse are replaced with five literal legs. Who are those legs attached to? No one has any idea. One hypothesis states that this tale was initially just a mnemonic tool to memorize important farming seasons.

Assault on Dobrynya - In a very obscure variant of the bylina “Kama battle” after dealing with the regenerating army through the force of prayer, Dobrynya leaves the battlefield, when he’s ambushed by the polenitsa named Latyngorka. She pins him to the ground and then does a thing modern people call “facesitting”. Yeah, by assault I��ve meant the sexual kind. Ilya of Murom saves Dobrynya and says something like “dude, just kick her in the butt, don’t you know how to handle women?”. Shortly afterwards Dobrynya kills himself out of shame.

Popeluha - pretty obscure Ukrainian creature that is made out of ash, that was thrown out of the house, but not covered up with dirt. She looks like an old lady (as always) and attacks people in the dark of the night, trying to strangle them. To get rid of her, you just need to throw some dirt at her. I’m a bit suspicious about this creature, but eh, it’s on wikipedia.

Yarchuk - yarchuks are the firstborn puppies (or puppies with two white spots under their eyes, that kinda look like a second pair of eyes). These good boys are literally the strongest weapon against any kind of witch or spirit. They can see through their disguise, and wounds caused by their bites do not heal on such creatures. That’s why witches try to kill any such dog while it is still a newborn puppy. Need any other reason for why they’re evil?

Pact with Leshy - Leshies are known to lead people astray in the woods. Why? There are different answers, but one of them tells that Leshy takes them as guests/wives/prisoners/slaves. And sometimes Leshy will teach those people magical secrets. That’s why some people who returned from the forest after going missing become warlocks. Another, less traumatic way to interact with Leshy is to form a pact. Some people like shepherds know how to summon Leshy and talk to him, for example to ask for protection for the herd.

Magical control over Rusalka - some stories say that you can catch rusalka by putting the pectoral cross onto her. She will obey this person and help with housework, but will inevitably escape next year’s Rusalka week.

Russian Forbidden Tales (or Treasured tales) - a collection of tales of vulgar content by Afanasyev. It typically features crude sexual humor. An example of such a tale can be a short story about an argument between anus and vagina.

ALL CREDIT TO ORIGINAL REDDIT POSTER ON DEPTHS OF INTERNET DURING MY SLAVIC PHASE!!!

The Slavic Iceberg

[scover-va]

I need to know more about Michael's mom... Is she a cool mom?

SHE IS A VERY COOL MOM janet afton you will always be famous. to me

Im taking this as a chance to finally ramble abt her anyways so Janet's core inspo when designing her was to avoid 2 key things. Don't make her like Immortal & Th Restless's Clara (due to clara representing michael, not mrs afton, so i wanted to avoid that), and don't base her too heavily off of Ballora. I still have ties to Ballora's character (a music-based theme, blue-centric colour palette, im sure there were more basic ideas but everything else is more hc than themes to keep up) due to my hc thingy of each Funtime having ties to William's wife + kids, but yknow.

But yeah. Funky lady who played bass guitar + did backup vocals in a band during her high school and college years. Literally her and William dating can be summed up by "Seriously, what do you see in that guy?!" "He makes me laugh." bc she was and is WAY out of his goddamn league. Not just bc of the whole serial killer thing he was just an even bigger loser in college. Normal people dont develop a crush on a woman after she nearly breaks your nose and makes you bleed, William /j

But yeah uhh. I also dont like the idea of her being absent or neglectful purely because I got way too attached to her (i was originally gonna do that just to make things easy for myself but. Pretty lady,,, I am a very simple lesbian what can i say) so like. She obviously wasnt the greatest, most fantastic mom to ever exist given she was kinda maybe sorta well aware William was making some weird fucking clowns, but like. Hey. She tried. Also side note my reasoning for her being absent during the whole. Yknow. '83 event (and just evan's bday in general) is bc Evan + Elizabeth are twins and Elizabeth demanded a girls-only trip for her bday, and Janet promised Evan she'd do something just as special for him when she got back. That never happened bc he died lmao loser /j

But yeah uhh. Shes got a lot of regrets. Wishes she coulda done a lot of things better. Kinda dies with those regrets. Ive seen people say that one of fnaf's charms is that no character is 100% good and i LOVE that, and wanted to keep it up with Janet. Good mom and overall a good person, however made some bad decisions along the way and whatnot.

Im still working out specifics (ive been slowly working on a lil private fic abt her and william meeting + their early relationship) but uhhh. Minor notes that dont get their own paragraphs is that William sampled her voice for Ballora so yay easy voice claim, she had an on and off relationship with her band's lead singer (her name's Bev), her birth name is actually Janice Schmidt but if you call her Janice she'll knock at least 2 of ur teeth out, she's a runaway teen and got adopted by this older couple bc her home life kinda sucked (idk specifics yet), and also girlie has an extensive criminal record of minor angsty teen type charges. Also teen Mike dying his hair and then 2020's Michael's hairstyle are both kinda references to Janet's hair because he wnated to look less like his father. Thats all ty. No read more bc you WILL look at my mrs afton post, boy /j

Actually no theres more that im remembering as i write the tags and edit a few details. Back to her and William because god im insane about them. So for starters it. Well i was gonna say Janet was def the first to flirt but i think William definitely developed a crush first and they only kept talking bc of said crush so its kinda up for debate. Anyways yeah at first it was a HUGE sorta like "Well he's funny especially when I fluster him so this can be just a fun lil thing" but because they chatted more they def kinda like. Clicked more. William was a huge fan of listening to her music (from. a distance. he looked kinda like a creep but at least janet only misinterpreted it once) but like *specifically* janet he didnt give a fucking shit abt the rest of the band. Uhh. They had their first run-in and janet kinda. Well. Punched him in the nose before he cleared up that he is NOT a pervert or anything weird like that (bc a guy that looks older than he is staring from a distance when there is a clear crowd he could join kinda gave janet the Wrong idea), then they later bumped into each other in the hall and chatted for a bit, then they kinda just kept "accidentally" running into one another. Uhhh. Some cigaerette-themed flirting and a house party later, yay dating :] can you tell where the current cut-off of the fic is /j Also idk how to put this down properly but they are both runaways and can kinda. Get that vibe from one another. Literally Michael is like some fucked up abomination of the both of them between the troubled past + weird situationship thing + runaway stuff + a lot of minor details that arent important rn. I just. Yeah Janet means the world to me go thru her tag on my blog for some art. Not all of my janet art is posted but the non-posted stuff is all concept work/doodles or just. Shit im too embarrassed to post lmao. Anyways NOW im done ty for reading

[gayalanwake]

sorry if I become extra annoying im kinda tweaking over being on my own for the first time sooooo I might let myself become extra indulgent 💔💔💔

[callme-aprilroseisha04]

I also like to imagine what eggman would think cause this is like so confusing for him. ok so u wake up back in ur base, don’t know why but it doesn’t matter cause u need to get that crystal thing but its not there and also there’s like a weird amount of blood? like did someone die here or something? and also it smells kinda like smoke which makes u think there was a fire or maybe some sort of electrical blast maybe, u dunno but since the thing u wanted isn’t there u just decide to go back and return with a new plan later and after a while u come back to fight with ur enemy and.. WHAT TGE HECK HAPPENED TO THEM OH MY GOD WHY IS HIS ARM LIKE THAT?????? yea u have made saw traps and sharp stuff like that that coouldve cut him but like... the wound wouldn’t look like that tho. did he get mauled by a bear or smth?????? so that’s weird but also he just won’t talk for long stretches of time now. won’t even move. and you’d think that’d be an advantage cause he can’t see u coming but the moment he does he just goes ham for no reason. like he starts screaming at u for… something??? ur not sure what he’s taking about but he’s rlly mad about it and he basically breaks everything in 3 seconds so u generally try to avoid him when he’s like that but for some reason when he’s with his friends he’s completely fine and normal and ur not sure if he’s faking being normal or if something else going on and nothing is really making sense and also for some reason he just super hates metal now and u try to search through metals memories to figure out what’s going on but nothing turns up and u just sit there in confusion over everything and sometimes sonic vaguely references some sort of “incident” and at this point ur just trying to figure out what happened cause this is too much but every attempt u make at trying to learn what happened NO ONE will tell u not to mention that your enemy’s “””greatest””””” rival (yeah right) and them are really, really close now? it to the point where ur unsure if their dating or not its so weird cause like 1 month ago they hated each others guts also the greatest rival just STRAIGHT UP IS MISSING A LEG NOW???? like wtf??? also ur rival hates any loud screeches. u have no explanation for that but he tried to kill u over it and almost succeeded so u will respect it. absolutely bonkers.

imagine if one day your older brother, the person you care about most, just suddenly showed up different. imagine if in a single flash of light, the person you cared about most became so mentally and physically destroyed that his greatest rival had to pull him out. imagine hearing your hero, the person you’ve always relied on, the brave one, screaming in the middle of the night because every time he tries to sleep he keeps reliving what happened to him over and over again and you have no idea how to help. imagine hearing him scream that one night and just wanting to not check. to pretend that it doesn’t exist, at least for a moment. just not wanting to see your sibling in that much pain. but you go anyway because you know that he needs you right now. . imagine the person closest to you became hurt in a way so bad that they can’t even understand it, never mind you. wouldn’t you be angry? wouldn’t you be mad at the world for doing this? I think tails would. I think tails would be angry.

[yanderespamton78]

ive already shown this to anyone who actually cares pretty much loll (anyone following the addison arg) but i might as well post it on here

this is actually the first proper animation ive done :'D like other than this ive animated a ball bouncing but that was more to test the software than anything,, lucky for me i consume animation memes more than i consume water so i know the basics B)

[candyredterezii]

watched M3GAN again today on the 4k TV and my god she is so beautiful.

she is so gorgeous and i love her so much its INSAAAANNE.

SHE WAS RIGHT. SHE WAS JUSTIFIED IN EVERYTHING SHE DID!!!! Except maybe the kid DYING but he had the ear shit coming.

SHE WAS JUSTIFIED !!! SHE WAS NOT THE VILLAIN

THAT THERAPIST WAS-

[gibbyslounge]

things im still not over (as someone who was mostly inactive since mid 2021):

mask and change my clothes!! i dont think i was active on tumblr when change my clothes was released, but the way i ascended when i heard his soft sweet singing voice <33 mask is my favorite song of his and it still makes me emotional to think about what the song meant to him. his creativity is one of his greatest strengths and i am endlessly happy that he found a way to share more of himself in a way that he really enjoys

DREAM TEAM MEETUP tbh i really did not know if these days would ever come. its so so so crazy to think that florida man dream texas cowboy sapnap and british george are really all living together and existing in the same space. seeing them be THEM irl is still very surreal and makes me pause for a second without fail. so so much of the community centered around them not having met each other irl

DREAM FACE REVEAL!!!! this one i REALLY HONESTLY didnt know if it would ever come, just because the courage it takes to face reveal after building one of the largest audiences is fucking crazy. i thought that even if they did end up living together, dream might’ve found that he is happy to just be with them and not want to face reveal anymore. ig never doubt dream- he’s such a “go big or go home” type of person. i love him regardless but now he is also a big bear who wears cat beanies and has the prettiest eyes and im emotionally attached

dream pics before his face reveal with a big emphasis on suit pics, swt halloween, and strawberry dream. his white hoodie posey pose and the ones with the blanket and patches have a permanent home in my heart but these had me convulsing and i didnt get to gush about them here </3

[redhotarsenic]

Many many irl things are happening at the moment that’s why I’ve been gone for so long terribly sorry for that 💀

[rainingincale]

No one:

Me: so funny how the origins of many of my tags were very random and have ended up sticking and also influencing the tags i made afterwards-

[exopelagic]

this election feels so hollow even though it’s likely ostensibly gonna be a good outcome. labour really just sucks fucking ass rn huh

[zevranunderstander]

im all in the "sex scenes can further the plot in really interesting ways" crowd, and i think one thing sex scenes are amazing for is exploring how a specific character handles intimacy and vulnerability and stuff, but so often in video games they just suck so bad and not just for the reason that its awkward to watch 2 animated meshes have clunkily animated sex, but also because they do actually really do nothing for the story because they are usually either just one set of animations that is interchangeably used no matter what character you are romancing or the character you are romancing acts completely different than they usually do, as not to turn off players who are romancing a character for a spicy sex scene

[ccasey0]

AWA- HE IS SO SQUSHY LOOKING!!! I love the way you draw faces so round and soft- this one just OOZES contentment in a way that makes me feel just as content- UGH the expression is so good!!!

eee! say hi to keigo! you've given me an excuse to introduce him yay!!! I dont have a ref for him, but ive got photos!!

literally every single one of these is super old and i had to go through so many notecards and sketchbooks to find them. im pretty sure the last three are traced, but i cant remember where the original drawings are from. i know i got most of my bases from those Ship Dynamic tiktoks comps on youtube, so if you watch any of those and recognize these poses or styles, then that's where i got them from. and if you're wondering why keigo's wings are really tattered in the first one it's because that's a more recent one(like, four months ago) and it's dated after he got injured in an explosion that pretty much destroyed one of his wings. e cant fly anymore, but casey is working on an artificial cover to go over his wing that'll make it so that he can fly again. :)

[ruvviks]

spins nathan around and spins nathan around and spins nathan around and spins nathan around and spins nathan around and sp

[sanguith]

i'm glad i decided to try out a ketosis diet again (aka changing my metabolism to basically only use ketone bodies made from fatty acids for energy by reducing carb intake to max 20g/day) for a few weeks because it was a neat experiment but i'm also glad I decided to stop because now i get to enjoy life's greatest fucking simplest yet finest delicacy: mashed potatoes/sweet potatoes with melted butter and salt. i cannot understand how i could live without that. just. vegetables. keto has opened my eyes to new ways to cook foods and experiment with ingredients but i don't think i can live without carbs. i doubt that the majority of people could. also have you any idea how much good simple near-zero effort food there is out there like holy gosh darn in heaven. i don't have to spend hours cooking something to have a nice meal

[spaceagebachelormann]

. everyone ignore this i just need to scream at myslef in the tags for a sec

probably gonna delete later