#like you wouldnt do this to a cashier would you?

[chemicalarospec]

Please please please stop stalking your teachers... I have seen this kind of behavoir become more and more common among my friends: they laugh about funny things they find by searching up their teachers on social media and make fun of them. The outcome of this normalization is that doxxing teachers is now just a funny tiktok trend (not sure if it's from tiktok but yes, a teacher in my school had not just her full street address but her parents' street address written on the board by two different classes.)

You wouldn't want them doing that to you, so why are you doing this to them? Please please please give teachers their personal life and privacy back, and only look at the online presence they show to you. (For example, my dad has a blog which he enjoys having students read, which is very very different than searching up your teachers on Venmo and examining their personal financial interactions -- another thing someone I know has done.)

[navierae]

Because I Missed You

CHARACTERS: James Potter x Reader Summary: An unexpected reunion with your old friends from Hogwarts causes your once buried feelings for the spectacled boy to resurface unexpectedly. a/n: bye this is my first time writing this long and for James Potter no less BUT WHO WOULDNT AM I RIGHT. anyway i hope you guys enjoy! likes, comments, feedbacks and reblogs are highly appreciated !! wc: 2.3k

“It’s the same old feeling back again, it’s the one they had way back when they were too young to know when love is real.”

“That would be $23.45.”

“Hold on,” I open my wallet to take the exact amount out and hand it over to the cashier, making sure that nothing falls, “Here you go.”

“I received the exact amount.” The cashier says, counting how much I gave before putting it in the register and handing over my receipt, “Come again.”

“Thank you.” I take the paper bag containing my groceries, trying to hide how I was slightly struggling with carrying it, my arm strength was something that I was never proud of, makes me glad that I use a wand for self-defense instead of my fists when need be.

I step out of the grocery store and start my journey back to the small apartment I know a few blocks away. It's been a few years since I graduated from Hogwarts, and a few months since I decided to live amongst the muggles. After that incident during 7th year, I thought it was in my best interest to distance myself from anyone who knows me or could possibly recognize me. Though I still keep in touch with some of them, namely Lily Evans, and to be fair, she's really the only I still talk to that has any relation to the wizarding world.

I make it halfway to my apartment when I spot the cafe I frequent during my free time. I need a break, I think to myself as I feel the dull ache in my arms starting to form from carrying my grocery bags. I push the cafe doors open, the smell of coffee and pastries immediately greeting me, as well as the sound of customers talking. My eyes scan the menu, trying to find something I have yet to order, before settling on the Jasmine tea and blueberry muffin. Turns out I'm not in the mood to try something new today.

I go to stand in line behind a group of men who seem to be my age, they're a bit loud if you ask me. Okay, scratch that, they're loud. A guy with the black hair is laughing loudly, and the brunette is pushing him by the shoulder, and the last guy is just looking away. I sigh, looking to the side, trying not to pay attention to them. Just order, pay, wait for it, eat, and then go ho-

“Y/n?”

What. I look back at the front to see who called me, the black haired guy now facing me, I quickly glance at his whole being before focusing on his face. There's no mistaking it, even after all these years, how can I forget him?

“Sirius?” I ask, eyes wide in shock, I didn't expect to see him here. What was he doing here? Wait, if he's here, then the other two are-

“Prongs, Moony, I told you it's y/n!” Sirius taps both of them on the shoulder with a grin on his face, they both turn around with shocked faces mirroring mine. “It’s so good to see you again, y/n! It's been a while hasn't it?” 

I nod with an unsure smile on my face, “Yeah, it has.” I look over them one by one, to see what had changed since the last time I saw them, which was at least three or four years ago now. Remus, who's smiling at me, and Sirius both hadn't changed much, except for the fact that Sirius’ hair is much longer and Remus sporting some scars that weren't there the last time I saw him.

And James… I turn to James and see him wearing the same glasses he wore back then, and the same boyish grin he gave everyone he would come across. His face had a shocked expression on before our eyes met, it turned into one with an awkward smile as he tried to mask whatever he was feeling at the moment. Disgust and the urge to leave as quickly as possible I assume. 

He opens his mouth to say something when the girl at the counter calls out the next customer, making him turn around along with Remus and Sirius, to give their orders. I stare at their backs, their voices mixing into the background, who would've thought I would run into them here out of all places? 

I focus my attention on them as they finish ordering with James paying and leaving to find a seat first, Sirius and Remus face me with hopeful smiles on their faces. “Are you busy? We were hoping we could catch up for a bit, who knows when we would see each other after this?” Remus asks, nodding his head to the direction where James went, eager to hear my answer. 

…That shouldn't be too bad right? Just a quick catch up then we'll be in our separate ways after this. I nod at them, their smiles growing as they leave to follow James. I step forward and dictate my order while reaching for my wallet, the girl behind the register stops me as I hand over the amount needed. 

“Oh, no need to pay, one of the guys before you offered to pay for whatever you would order.” I furrow my eyebrows before thanking her and walking away to where the boys were seated. “You didn't need to pay for me.” I say as I approached their table, James looks up from their conversation and makes eye contact.

“I know, but I wanted to.” He says smiling, not breaking eye contact, as if daring me to go against him. I stayed silent and stared at him for a few seconds, before saying thanks and sat down at the unoccupied seat. Which was, unfortunately, next to James. The table goes quiet, a somewhat awkward silence falling on us. I busy myself by playing with my fingers under the table and staring at the pattern of the table, when Sirius speaks up.

“So… how have you been y/n? No one has really heard from you since we graduated a few years back.” I look up and see all of them staring at me, the sight taking me back to Hogwarts, where they would be looking at me while listening to me rambling about my day. The only difference was we had grown older, our faces slowly losing our teenage features, being replaced with signs of aging.

I tap my fingers on the tabletop, following the rhythm of the music played by the cafe, wondering where and what to start with. I take a deep breath and open my mouth, deciding to say whatever I think about first.

“I’ve been doing pretty well, you know, with adjusting to living amongst the muggles and living life the way they do.” Smiling, I waited for them to answer after I asked the same question. Sirius says he’s been the lead singer for one of the muggle bands he joined, and that the band had a gig nearby. That explains why they were here in the first place, what were the chances that they would be at this particular cafe out of the numerous other ones that are spread around this town? 

Remus talks about how he became a professor at Hogwarts for Defense Against the Dark Arts, and shared how he would see Severus Snape from time to time and exchange glaring glances at one another. Our conversation was interrupted by our orders getting called to be picked up at the counter. I was about to stand up when a hand was placed on my shoulder, stopping me in place, his hand searing. 

“I’ll get it.” 

He said, smiling at me as he stood up, before walking off. The warmth from his hand had gone cold too quickly, taking it with him, it had only been a few seconds but I was starting to miss it- 

Stop that. Stop that right now. 

My eyes widened as I realized the words that had gone through my mind, that was a highly inappropriate thought about someone, your ex-boyfriend no less. I shake my head and put my focus back on Sirius and Remus in front of me, about to tell Remus to continue his stories while waiting for James to come back, which shouldn’t take him too long. But their eyes were somewhere else, I followed their gaze and saw James talking to a girl our age, well more like the girl was talking to James as he was trying to get our order. We were too far from the counter to hear what it was they were talking about, but judging from how the girl was looking him up and down, I was certain it was flirty remarks disguised as a casual conversation. 

“Ohoho, seems like Prongs has another one trying to get his number, huh Moony? Isn’t she, like, the fifth one today?” Sirius laughs loudly as he swings an arm around Remus’ chair, leaning forward to get a better view of what was happening, the latter just sighs and shakes his head. “Don’t forget to mention that it's only our second day here, and she’s the fifteenth one since yesterday. And I’m pretty sure they all tried to ask him on a date as well.” 

“All tried to ask him on a date”? Did he accept any of those offers? I mean, he doesn’t have a reason to not give one of them a shot, especially if they’re extremely attractive like that girl he’s talking to right now. Makes me wonder how many people asked him out the past few years. Wait, is he even seeing someone right now-

“y/n, stop staring at him so hard, you might burn a hole through him.” I snap out of my train of thought as Sirius taps the space in front of my hand, catching my attention. “You look like how you did when other people asked him out to the yule ball back at hogwarts.” He continued while laughing, my face falling at his comment. Had I been actually…? 

Remus gets startled as he notices the change in my facial expression, he slaps Sirius at his arm while telling him to cut it out, the latter letting out a small yelp at the impact. Remus turns to face me again, slightly hesitating, the next words that came out of his mouth made me grab my things and stand up. 

“But… Do you still like him, y/n?” 

“I’m leaving, it was good to see you guys.” I say as I start heading towards the door, making Remus and Sirius stand up while calling after me. 

Did I actually still like him, even after having no-contact for years? The question remained in my mind as I walked out of the cafe, missing the way James’ expression turned into one of panic when he spotted me going out. Excusing himself from the (one-sided) conversation the girl was having with him and rushing after me, forgetting about the orders. I hear someone yelling out my name, but I pay it no mind, instead opting to yell back. “I have to go, sorry!” 

“y/n, wait a minute!” 

A hand wraps around my wrist, the one that wasn’t carrying anything but my purse, stopping me from going forwards. I turn back and see James panting a bit, his hair ruffled from running, small beads of sweat starting to drip down the sides of his forehead due to the heat of his jacket. We both stopped in the middle of the walkway, no one speaking, the only sounds that can be heard were from around us and his breaths, his hand still keeping me bound to where I stood. 

After catching his breath, he stands up straight, making eye contact with me. “Why’d you leave?” He asks, his eyes searching mine for an answer. I shift and look away, pursing my lips, unsure of what to answer.

“I have things to do.” 

“But your order?”

“I can live without it.” 

Silence falls on us again, my answers rendering him unable to keep the conversation going, and getting the answers that would satisfy his curiosity. I was about to pull my wrist out of his grip, and excuse myself to leave, when he spoke up again.

“I missed you.” I look back at him upon hearing his straight-forward statement. He had missed me? 

“...You did?” He nodded, not missing a beat. Everyday ever since you left he adds. I didn't speak after that,I wasn’t about to let him know that I was the same as him, that there was also never a day that I never thought about him. 

“Can I have your number? So that we can hang out again after this, if you want?” 

“...Alright.” I nod and recite my telephone number, watching as he mouthed the numbers to remember, repeating it two more times. Cute. 

“I can, um, help you with that if you want? It's quite a lot.” He offers to carry some of my groceries, his head gesturing to the paper bags in my other arm. I shake my head, refusing his offer. 

“It’s fine, I can handle it. But, I really have to go now.” I tell him, turning my body away from him, taking my wrist out of his grip in the process. He wants to say something, but ultimately decides against it as he nods his head in understanding. 

“Okay… can we meet each other at this cafe tomorrow then?” He asks.

“I… don’t see why not. Sirius and Remus are also going to be there right?” 

He shakes his head. “No, just the two of us tomorrow.”

I furrow my eyebrows at his answer. Don’t assume things, y/n, ask him why first before you get ahead of yourself.

“Why?”

“Because I missed you.”

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⋆｡ﾟ☁︎ p1h jealous headcannon, requested

ﾟ☾ ﾟ｡⋆ lowercase intended, send in your requests

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୨ yoon keeho, ୧

ꕥ ignores you 'cause oh boy don't know how to cope.

ꕥ you try to get his attention, but he doesn't even bat and eyelash towards you.

ꕥ he's trying to distract himself but finding anything to do in the kitchen.

ꕥ "fine, be that way. i'm going hang out with intak.

ꕥ "yeah, bet you'd rather hang out with him, huh?"

ꕥ you're both kind of shocked at what he said.

ꕥ "what's your problem?"

ꕥ "what's my problem? you've been attached to intak's hip all day!"

ꕥ "i played a video game with him and that made you jealous?"

ꕥ "i'm not jealous!"

ꕥ jiung eventually joins the conversation, and you both make fun of him as he tries to prove his point.

୨ choi taeyang, ୧ (gender specific.)

ꕥ classic "jealous? me? no."

ꕥ but oh yes he's jealous.

ꕥ he doesn't think it's fair that as a girl barista, guys should be able to order from you.

ꕥ call him toxic and he might agree.

ꕥ rolls his eyes every time a guy walks up to the counter.

ꕥ it's genuinely so bad.

ꕥ you've kind of noticed his sour mood, so on your break, you walk over to him.

ꕥ "what's up?"

ꕥ "what's up? so i'm your bro now?"

ꕥ "my what?"

ꕥ "nah, it's fine man. go with your other boyfriends."

ꕥ you find him humorous.

ꕥ "see you tonight, babe."

ꕥ "nope! you won't see me! i'm leaving you!"

ꕥ yeah, y'all watched frozen while eating chocolate covered strawberries.

ꕥ he ain't leaving you that easy lmao

୨ choi jiung, ୧

ꕥ the type to feel guilty that he feels jealous.

ꕥ he doesn't mean to, and he immediately apologizes.

ꕥ "baby, i'm sorry. i promise i'm not overprotective."

ꕥ "literally wtf are you talking about?"

ꕥ "when you laughed at taeyang's joke, i got so mad. idek why."

ꕥ "his jokes are funnier than yours."

ꕥ "you know im not sorry anymore."

ꕥ you give him more and more reasons to not feel guilty.

୨ hwang intak, ୧

ꕥ clingy.

ꕥ will literally not let you go/leave his sight.

ꕥ not even to use the bathroom.

ꕥ best believe mf is sitting on the sink, scrolling through his phone.

ꕥ "intak. i know you're not happy because that girl flirted with me, but can i please shit in peace."

ꕥ "no. what if she finds you and takes you from me."

ꕥ "intak please let me use the bathroom alone. we're at home."

ꕥ "she might've followed us. i won't look. see."

ꕥ he faces away from you and scrolls through tik tok.

ꕥ you kind of wish he'd be the type to ignore you 💀

୨ haku shota, ୧

ꕥ doesnt really get jealous.

ꕥ he trusts you, and you trust him, so thats enough.

ꕥ and he doesn't really think anyone is cool enough to catch your attention.

ꕥ i mean, what other minecraft pro do you know?

ꕥ what other awesome freestyle dancer do you know?

ꕥ who do you know that loves fries as much as you??

ꕥ exactly.

ꕥ you wish he would get jealous.

ꕥ "someone just asked me for my phone number."

ꕥ "y/n, you signed up for updates for the store. of course the cashier needed your number."

ꕥ "shota please get jealous once."

୨ kim jongseob, ୧

ꕥ wouldnt even realize he's jealous

ꕥ he'd just have this strong feeling towards you and he'd just accept it.

ꕥ like wouldnt even know whats going on.

ꕥ he's probably go to the members freaking out.

ꕥ "idk why i feel this way, like just thinking abt them hanging out with their best friend makes me upset. why!! thats their best friend, i dont have a say on who they can or cannot hang out with, but my god does it piss me off when they do."

ꕥ "seobie, that my friend is jealousy."

ꕥ "jealousy? how do you know?"

ꕥ "cause i feel it every time jiung gets center."

ꕥ "intak..."

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i wrote this at 10:18pm....

[blood-grove]

scar trails

now -> next life (wip)

-> tws; injuries , gore , sickness , death , vomiting (basically everything you think to expect in a zombi apocalypse)

-> older brother!kyle & black child!reader

-> a/n: okay so right this has been in my head for days now..so hear you go! also boom the reader is black bc why tf wouldnt they be (ive been dying to write abt a black!reader for so long as a black person)

-> n/n - nickname

y/n - your name ofc

"n/n c'mon" I huffed as I dragged them away from the bugs they were fawning over ignoring there complaints as we kept walking.

We needed to keep heading toward the countryside but ever since Y/N got sick I've had to make us take detours for medicine, extra food, non-expired cough medicine to try and give them some relief, and looking extra for warm sleeping spots that weren't a walker nest.

It was just a cold I knew it was, I tried my best to keep them from worrying about turning.

They'd be okay once we reached Grandpa's.

I had been avoiding eating for a while I know it's dumb but they needed the food the more they ate the quicker they'd recover.

I wish I paid attention to Moms cooking more she always knew the best food to eat while sick, I had snatched a cookbook from a while back but it'd be no use with what we have.

Y/N had been a trooper throughout this all I honestly didn't know what to say we've been out here two months now and they've been going on strong.

I know they terrified though so am I but we have to keep moving.

"Are we there yet?"

"Y/n please don't start!—"

"I was quiet for five minutes like you said!"

I could just feel that cheeky grin on your face as we walked along the railroad not like any trains would be coming threw anytime soon.

It's been fifteen minutes of 'are we there yet' and I've considered turning into a walker.

We finally reached the next town that I figured out on the map, It was empty like the rest but on the next step closer to the country I saw a medicine store and grocery store and headed for them Y/n in tow.

"Do you think they have candy?! Can we get some please?"

Y/n whined as we entered the grocery store luckily still remembering to keep there voice down as I huffed.

"Look if the candy looks..alright we can get one box okay? But we need the space for food.." I whispered as I scanned the small shop's isles zoning in on packaged and canned food.

Dropping our rather light bag to the side to fill up checking the dates as I either tossed them in or tossed them aside.

Y/n went to the small section of the candy isle before coming back with a box for me to examine.

"Look it's those chewy ones mom gets!"

"Mm.. They look fine throw them in your bag.. I think we've got enough for the week now.."

I frowned slightly as I zipped up the bag hoisting it back on me it was certainly heavier but it'd be worth it.

Y/n carried their own bag but it was just medicine and there plushie I insisted I could carry them both but they wouldn't budge or let go.

I wish I was more vigilant we had moved on to the pharmacy Y/n was deciding which flavor medicine they wanted which honestly since it was warm liquid cough medicine it wouldn't taste good regardless.

Then the door opened again.

Now we both hid behind the cashier counter I gripped the handgun our parents gave me like our lives depended on it which it did.

Y/n huddled close to me keeping quiet despite their trembling.

I've never shot really anyone with the gun walkers or people.

People were iffy during these times.

We just avoided them even if it meant on missing out on shelter or food were not idiots.

The person stepped behind the counter and we pushed ourselves further under the counter basically squeezing each other to be smaller in the cramped space.

"I know you there no point n' hiding just come out and show yourself."

He sounded older his voice rough from either age or cigs nearly as familiar as Grandpa he'd just used to go on about not wasting your lungs on the things in that gravelly voice of his.

But this wasn't Grandpa of course.

A quick look at Y/n who was on the verge of sobbing.

I flicked the handguns safety off as I stepped out aiming it at the much larger man now that I had a better look at him.

He had backed up a bit when he caught sight of the handgun despite the obvious lack of experience I was probably showing.

Sweaty palms and trembling hands.

He looked older of course not so old that I could just rush him and hope one of his aging body parts acted up, He was clearly a bit more prepared than us his gear looked professional.

Military.

Not like the two school book bags that used to hold both of our homework that were slowly getting holes in them now carrying the only possessions you both had left in the world besides each other.

"Look mate- I don't mean you any—"

"Shut up."

My voice cracked as I inwardly cringed at the attempt to sound tough gripping the gun tighter.

"..I don't mean any harm okay?.."

The man shifted as he looked at me or mainly my gun I guess mentally deciding if I was bluffing with blanks or actually knew how to shoot.

Y/n was still huddled under the counter hidden.

"..Were your parents at? Seem a bit too young to be out here on your own."

I just glared further.

"..Go away."

"Kid..I-"

"Leave or I'll fuckin' s-shoot you-"

My hands trembled as I straighten his posture.

He just nodded as he left hands still up in the air in an unconvincing attempt to fool me that he wasn't a threat.

As soon as he left and didn't try to sneak back into the store I grabbed our bags hastily sacrificing some food so we wouldn't be slowed down making sure to snatch some medicine reminded by Y/n's coughing and now sobbing fit.

Picking them up despite them not being that smaller than me as we both left the area with haste.

We have to reach the countryside.

I want to go back to getting in extra sleep for summer break and staying up late at night with Y/n, Mom, And Dad watching shitty horror film and eating ice cream.

But now the summer heat was unbearable at time the too cool nights just made me worry for Y/n's cold.

I just want to go home and be a kid.

Why do I already feel so old?.

a/n: yeahh yup didnt plan this one out..

[camp-queer-and-there]

lucille my old hag can you hit that

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[ethann666]

Roadtrip <3

Bf!Chris x Gf!Reader

use of Y/n

Warnigs: metions of a boner. Pet name (Ma) FLUFFY

It was around 5 am. Chris woke up early since you and his brothers had a roadtrip.

He hits your sleeping body with a pillow. “Y/nn!!! Wakeee upppp!!!!” Chris shouts. “Mmmm…Chris..five more minutes..” You say sleepily. “Nooo sleepyhead! Get up and get readyy!!” Chris shouts again. “Fine, fine..im up!” You yell. Chris walks out of his room to wake Nick and Matt up. You throw yourself outta bed and walk into ur closet.

You grab a white oversized shirt, pj pants, and thin black socks. You walk into the bathroom and put them on. You brush your hair and teeth. You walk downstairs and see sleepy Nick and Matt, then Chris who is jumping around. “Goddamn, how does this kid have so much fucking energy at five in the morning?” Nick says. “Its Chris that your talking about, Nick.” Matt says.

Chris practically jumped into your arms. “Chris!” You shout. He wraps his arms around your waist and kisses your forehead. “Gross..” Matt speaks up and he walks to his room, to finish up the last of his packing. Nick goes to his room to do the same. “Chris. Dont you even think about it” you say. Chris pouts and runs to his room. You follow him. “You done packing?” You ask him. “Mhm” He mumbles. “Tooth brush, charger, headphones?” You ask. He groans and walks into the bathroom. He grabs his toothbrush, walks out and puts it in his suitcase. He grabs his charger and airpods and puts them in his pocket.

“So you didnt finish?” you say. “Shut uup!!” Chris shouts. “Fine.” You say, crossing your arms and looking away. “No no no! Wait, Y/n im sorry! Please dont ignore me!” Chris pleas. “Thats what i thought.”

———-timeskip———

5:47 am. Matt was driving, and Nick was in the passenger seat. You and Chris were in the back. You in his lap, sleeping, your head resting on his shoulder. Chris is also sleeping, his arms wrapped around your waist. Nick had the aux, he was playing, doja cat, Nicki Minaj, Melanie Martinez, Ariana Grande, and stuff like that. Matt was dying of thirst. “Fuckkk..im so thirsty.” Matt says.

“Theres a gas station right there, dumb fuck. Stop there.” Nick says. Matt pulls into the gas station and parks. Nick pauses the music, takes the cord out and puts his phone into his pocket. Nick and Matt get out. “Chris! Y/n! Wake up!”

All four went into the gas station.

Chris and Nick walk off, leaving you and Matt alone. “You and Chris are gross.” Matt says. “Your just jealous, because you dont have a girlfriend.” You say. “And what if i did?” Matt says. “Then you wouldnt be calling us gross. Because you would understand.” You say, walking into the candy aisle. You grab a bag of sour patch kids and some gummy worms.

Matt follows you. “Yea but i still would think your gross! Chris is constantly clinging to you, calling you names, kissing you and saying he loves you.” Matt said. “Yea, because thats how relationships work, Matt.” You say defending yourself and Chris. “Fine.”

You and Matt eventually find Chris and Nick who are arguing about whatever. “Stop, were in public!” You say. “Y/nnn!!!” Chris says looking at you and jumping into your arms. “Chris get off.” You say. He gets off and grabs his two pepsi’s from Nick. “I got one for you ma.” Chris says handing you one of the surgar infested sodas.

“Thank you.” You say taking it. Matt grabs a redbull and Nick grabs a monster. (a/n: idk if Nick likes monster but js pretend he does.) You all walk up to the cashier and put your stuff on the counter. Matt pulls out his wallet and pays. The cashier eyes Chris. She practically has hearts in her eyes. You give her a glare. You all grab the bags and walk out.

You all get into the car. “Did you see the way that ugly ass bitch was looking at Chris?” Nick says from the passenger. “Yea.” Matt says, putting the key in and turing on the car. Matt drives out of the gas station. “I didnt like it.” You say looking over at Chris, who already had his airpods in and looking at his phone.

Nick plays music again. You stare at Chris. Chris obviously feels someone looking at him so he looks up at you. He smiled and takes one of his airpods out. “Need somethin?” He asks softly. You shake your head no. He nods, puts the airpod back in and looks back down at his phone.

You get on your phone and play a random game you downloaded before you guys went.

———-Timeskip———

8:35 A.M. You guys arive to the waterpark. (A/n: i had no idea that this is were they were going when i started writing this, and pretend the only waterpark that was open at 8:00 am was 3 hours away. And you guys wanted to go when there was no line at the entrance.) Matt parks. Theres only 3-4 cars in the parking lot. You all get out and go to the trunk and grab your beach bags.

You all walk into the water park. Matt pays. You go into the lady changing rooms, and the 3 boys go into the mens. You walk into a small room, that has tile floors. You shut and lock the door. You grab your red bikini out of ur bag.

(It looks like this)

You take off ur clothes and shoes, and put it on. You know it would turn Chris on so thats why you brought it. You put ur socks and converse into your bag and grab your sandals. You put them on. You grab your bag, unlock and open the door. You walk out and into the indoor water park.

Chris Nick and Matt were all waiting for you by a bench. You walk over and set your bag down where their bags were. You take off your sandals and put them on the bench next to your bag.

——-Timeskip——-

8:56 A.M. You were sitting on Chris’ lap in a lounge chair. Matt and Nick are off somewhere, goimg down water slides and playing like little kids. “Fuck..ma, your making me hard..” Chris says pulling your hips up a bit so your not sitting directly on him.

“Sorry.” You say.

After a few painful minutes, Chris finally puts you back down after his boner went away. You cuddle up to him.

“I love youuu…” He says burying his face in your neck.

“I love you more..”

Matt and Nick run over. Matt slaps the back off Chris’ head and runs off and jumps into one of the pools. “Fuck you!!” Chris shouts. “Hold on ma.” Chris says, and picks you up. He stands up and sets you on the chair. He

A/n: OKAY I DECIDED TO UPDATE THIS BEFORE I GO ON BREAK LOL BC I DONT WANT YALL WAITING A WEEK FOR ONE UPDATE!!! Im going on a break bc im sick :(( But i hope i get better! Have an amazing day/night! :))

[stormco0l]

hh ok tell me a little abt the characters. like umm personalities occupation pronouns etc.

how long have they known

so the main characters of sorts are this group of five who all work the night shift at the worlds shittiest drive-thru restaurant/petrol station combo. like seriously it's so shitty. [it's the ingredients. almost all of the night shift crew wish they had better ingredients to work with. but alas]. It sits just outside of town and is used by the few who still live there as a marker of where the town ends.

all of the crew work at night because they're all largely nocturnal, for varying reasons.

Angel Freeman is usually working the drive-thru section of the restaurant. she's pretty sarcastic, has one facial expression and tone of voice, takes great joy in confusing both human people and other beings, and is about as stubborn as they come. they refuse to ever tell an outright lie, but are brilliant at leaving people with strange implications, and letting them draw their own conclusions. has a bad habit of flipping off reflections.

Angel is, above all else, weird. she moves in strange ways, says strange things, and her eyes burn when you make contact with them. she so clearly takes delight in her strangeness, but if they care enough about you they're able to tone it down a bit to make you feel more safe. . . if you ask. and only if you ask.

Angel's sort of always known that the world is going to end soon. it was always a fact of life to her. simply a piece of knowledge as inevitable as the sun coming up.

Issac Stewart decided to completely take over the kitchen. he's louder than pretty much anyone else in the crew, but that honestly means very little. he shares his affection openly and with ease, but his trust is hard to earn. he keeps his secrets and his friends secrets close to his chest, and he's damn good at it.

Issac likes exploring abandoned buildings and taking photos of forgotten places. he knows where to walk so people will hear him if he screams.

he hasn't realised it yet, but he knows. if someone told him the apocolypse has started, it wouldnt come as a suprise.

Lili Hollands is usually cashier in the restaurant part of the drive thru. she's quiet, shy and anxious. she often has trouble telling exactly what she's feeling, but boy is she feeling it. she spends a lot of time drawing thise feelings down in one of the many sketchbooks she keeps on her at all times.

Lili is kind, and honest, and has no idea how to forgive people. she will remeber a wrong and pay it back tenfold years later, so its lucky for many involved that she is remarkable tolerant of many, many things

shes starting to piece it together from the things angel wispers and the darker corners of her drawings. she cares less than she thought she would.

H is the newest edition to the crew and hasn't settled on one job yet. She's working night shift because she does need to eat somehow and doesn't have any other way of getting money, but the reason he's here is because there's a stupidly high number of reflection encounters here, and he wants to see what's up with that.

she's secretive, reckless and overly cautious, and has a tendency to run headfirst into danger, but not without being at least somewhat prepared. hes been doing this for a while now. he knows when to keep quiet and when to scream.

he wishes she dosnt care as much as he does.

H found out about the world ending when he got to town. a thousand little something slowly building up into an undeniable conclusion that she dosen't want to face.

Hunter Nolan is the manager and not really part of the night crew, but the crew say he counts, so. gruff, stoic and gentle when he needs to be. technically, he should have fired most of the crew long ago, but who else is gonna come stay up for the long late shifts, and they've all grown on him.

besides, he's got a protective streak a mile wide and these guys having these jobs lets him protect them pretty easily. He gets along with animals better than he does with people.

Hunter dosen't think about the end of the world. dont ask.

Angel : she/her, sshe/hher, they/them

Issac : he/him

Lili : she/her

H : she/her, he/him

Hunter : he/him

[q-gorgeous]

Maybe ghosts aren’t the real monsters after all

fanfiction

ao3

word count: 1123

"The date started off so well, beginning my night not expecting the fright of my life. They were perfect from what I could tell. How could I not see the danger right in front of me-" (dark ages preferred but please go hog wild with other ships that would be hilarious/fun to write this with!) @kawaiijohn

i watched an episode to include a line in here then realized i couldnt actually include that line or it wouldnt work jknhbgf

Valerie smiled at Danny as he sat down in the chair across from her. She was glad they could finally make this work. She no longer needed to work two jobs to help her dad pay rent, not with his new job. So she kept her cashier job at the Nasty Burger and dumped the other one. Now she only had to worry about one job, school, and hunting ghosts. 

She remembered that she broke up with him because she didn’t want to put him in danger. She remembered how Phantom targeted her that one day. Well, not her. It was her suit. But he didn’t know that. For all she knew, he was out there trying to murder her that day. 

But looking at Danny now was enough to put those worries out of her head. It’s not like the ghosts had an issue with him. It was just her. And his parents. But the ghosts could care less about his parents. They barely paid her any mind. It would be fine. They wouldn’t hurt him. 

Ghosts were the last thing she wanted to be thinking about anyway. Especially when she had what she was convinced to be the love of her life sitting right in front of her. Ghosts could wait for the time being. 

They were at a nice restaurant. It was nothing fancy, affordable enough for two teenagers. It was better than the Nasty Burger, though. She appreciated it. 

A waiter walked up to them. “Hi guys, I’m Clara and I’ll be your server today! Can I get you started off with some drinks?”

“Yeah!” Danny said. “Can I get a Pepsi?”

“You bet!” Clara wrote it down and turned to Valerie. “What can I get for you?” 

“I’ll take a Sprite.”

“Okay.” Clara jotted that down as well. “I’ll go get those for you and give you some time to look at the menu.”

“Thanks.”

“Thank you.”

“What do you think looks good?” Danny asked shyly. “I’ve never actually been here before.”

“Well, they’ve got a big pasta section. Everyone loves noodles.”

Danny nodded, flipping to a new page in the menu and studying it. “I do love noodles.”

They looked at their menus for a couple minutes, keeping their conversation light. Soon Clara came back with their drinks and took their orders. They continued to talk while they waited for their food. 

Valerie laughed. “How did you get Dash to do that? He’d never!” 

“He’d never back down from a challenge. It’s all about how you play it up. If you make it sound like he’s a wuss for not doing something he’ll take the bait.”

Then Clara was returning, a tray of food resting on one of her hands. “Here we go! Shrimp and broccoli fettuccine alfredo for you.” She placed the plate down in front of Danny. “And smoked salmon for the lady.” 

“Thank you!” Valerie said. “It looks delicious.”

“I hope you enjoy-” Clara cut herself off with a scream, looking up past Valerie. She turned around to see the Lunch Lady ghost floating behind her. 

So much for the ghosts waiting. 

“Come on!” Danny groaned. “I won’t even get to eat my food!” 

“This restaurant will rue the day that it broke healthcode violations!” 

Danny made a face up at the ghost. “At least she has a good reason this time I guess?”

“Get down!” Valerie grabbed his shirt from across the table and pulled him down with her so they could hide underneath it. She needed to get Danny out of here so he’d be safe. And so she could transform. She wished he knew her secret, that would make this much easier. Almost everyone else had already ran out of the building by now. There’d be no one else to see. 

“Watch out!” 

Valerie had been distracted trying to find a way out that she didn’t notice the floating knives pointing at her. She watched as they started flying through the air towards her but then she was being shoved out of the way. She landed on the ground a couple feet away and wrenched her gaze towards the spot Danny had pushed her out of. Had he been hurt?

He stood there, the knives embedded into the wooden floor behind him. 

How did he do that? He couldn’t have dodged those.

“Sorry, Valerie.”

What did he need to apologize for? He just saved her! She should be the one apologizing to-

Valerie’s train of thought stopped as two bright rings appeared around his waist. 

She watched them split and separate. They traveled along his body, passing over his head and his feet. Left in Danny’s place was Phantom. 

He sprung up and started fighting the Lunch Lady. Valerie could only watch in a daze. 

The disguise was so perfect. She couldn’t even tell that that wasn’t Danny. How could she not have seen the dangerous ghost that had been sitting right in front of her?

She watched him grab the thermos that now always hung by his waist and trapped the Lunch Lady inside it. He touched back down on the ground. When he turned to face her, Valerie socked him in the face.

“Ow!” Phantom shouted, holding his jaw. “What was that for?”

She activated her suit and transformed. Pulling out a gun, she aimed it at him.

“Where is he?” She asked lowly.

“Where is who?” He looked confused. His facade made her angry.

“Danny Fenton!” She yelled. “What did you do to him? Did you hurt him to get to me?”

“What? No, Valerie. I’m-”

“How long?” She asked. “How long have you been toying with my feelings? Playing this game? Where did the real Danny go?”

“There is no real Danny!” He stood back up and looked at her. “There’s only one! Me! I’ve been Danny and Phantom this whole time!”

She shook her gun at him. “Oh yeah? How do you explain destroying my suit?”

“You weren’t in it.”

“You ruined my life!” She threw her hands into the air. “You’ve made it a living hell! My dad lost his job all because of you! Danny would never do that!”

His hands raised up to his head and grabbed his hair tightly. He looked back at her. “It was an accident! How many times do I have to tell you that?”

“Why should I believe anything you say if you’ve been lying to me this whole time anyways?”

Their silence weighed heavily on them. He didn’t say anything to that. He looked away from her.

“Maybe ghosts aren’t the real monsters after all.”

His head shot back up at her quiet words. 

“Valerie, wait-”

“No.” She turned away from him. “I need to be alone.”

[scaryfaggot]

i reckon my boss' intention was to smoke me out Which if thats the case that i suppose im just giving her what she wanted......But if i dont do this then my next week would be torture and then After that i would likely conform in order to not get punished again. so Either way she gets what she wants and either way i Lose. so.......Well, its a situation in which theres no winning for me. Atleast this way i can find a place that hopefully doesnt suck And is much more professionally MANAGED Because goodlord that place was a bit of a nightmare.not that i have much experience with various workplaces. Well, what i mean by that is normally i would be getting made out to be crazy and over-reacting But this time everyone around me , agrees that what she did was fucked up and i probably Even have a case WRT legal matters (<But that is too expensive and risky to be worth it). so.Well...............i know the tumblrinas would tell me im not overracting But even my grandfather said he doesnt blame me for quitting over this Which if you know him i feel like is quite a surprise. anyway......those Are my thoughts on the matter. the matter which i have given no context toward on here , outside of this post & saying i quit.......well maybe ill explain it all tomorrow. Tonight i fee a bit desolate Having quit my stable job And now i have to find a new one ... ohhh Sigh. im glad im in a lucky enough position that i dont need to scramble......but well. its all a bit depressing. Well whatever im glad to be OUT OF THERE!!!!!!!!!but im a bit annoyed also Because i was hoping to end things on good terms so i wouldnt feel awkward shopping there after the fact. and now here i am quitting without even giving my two weeks.....But if i gave my two weeks then id have to go through with my Punishment that "isnt a punishment" So she would be doubly winning AND THAT JUST ISNT RIGHT. im fucking her over by doing this anyway Because i was her best cashier (maybe second or third best But one is soon to be indisposed (surgery, going to be gone for some months) and the other has multiple other jobs). so without me shell pretty much only have 2 cashiers And i know for a fact she desperately was looking for MORE cashiers since the holiday season is fast approaching. well , She shot herself in her own damn foot Because there was literally other no reason to do that...............other than as a petty punishment. And literally everyone around me agrees. &i hope she didnt expect mw to take it lying down Because why on earth would i. So basically get fucked

[lonely-north-star]

if i had a nickel for every time a group of girls knocked our fucking door off the hinges/sliding mechanism, I'd have two nickels, which is weird FUCKED UP it happened twice

I'm FUCKING LIVID AND I FUCKING DARE !!!! I FUCKING DARE THEM TO SAY SOME SHIT ABOUT HIW I CLOSED !!!! NO ONE COULD COME IN ON A BUSY FUCKING NIGHT, SEVEN PEOPLE WOULD NOT FUCKNG LEAVE ONCE IT HIT NINE !!! YOUR TIME IS UP Y'ALL !!! GTFO

the last ten min like

one group of three dropped a bottle of paint all over th floor, put it back on the shelf, and ran away (they were taking forever and would not come up front 🤓 yeah yeahhh keep talking shit in spanish Cowards.)

the other group of girls broke the door trying to leave (AFTER WE'VE BEEN CLOSED 15 MIN), like where rhe fuck was the sense of urgency when i was trying to help you find shit huh. HUH. I pointed you in every fucking direction and helped you pick shit out and you want to laugh as you drive away? i hope gas prices are always high and you never find close parking and any classes you want to take are always full like UUURUREHHH

and then the last woman !!!! wouldn't fucking come up to the front either !!!! the other two groups had finally made it and she was still shopping like GIRL. GET YOUR ASS UP THERE. YOU'RE THE ONE WHO WAITED TILL THE LAST MINUTE. HOW THE HELL ARE YOU GONNA SAY "sorry I know you're closing" AND KEEP SHOPPING TEN MINUTES AFTER I TELL YOU WE'RE CLOSED

pissed pissed pissed thank fuck I don't work tomorrow and i knewww it was going to be this way

and i left four orders to be packed for tomorrow's people but i dare them to say some shit when i do so much for everyone else without being asked because?? wouldn't you want to help your team ???Wouldnt you want to make things easier ???? tired im so tired and im sorry bc i feel guilty af for leaving that (co manager does it all the time and the store still looks like shit)

like fuck for me being by myself for 6 hours till close doing orders, cutting fabric, three carts of returns, helping the cashier, unlocking spray paint and answering everyone's questions. that store looked pretty fucking nice, considering everything.

that group of girls literally dropped t shirts on the ground and made a mess everywhere they went like. do you not feel ashamed. what the fuck. it's just a job yeah yeah but jesus that broke me

SO :3 anyone says shit i may just quit on the spot (guess who missed their three year work anniversary that was five days ago apparently)

[crackedpumpkin]

“Chicken and croffles” I had flashbacks at that man. There’s this person I watch and they were telling their story of trying to rizz someone through food, and by rizz I mean they tried to impress an attractive waiter, but fumbled a bit and ordered chicken and waffles. He got so nervous they ordered the first thing he saw, which was chicken and waffles. How attractive was this waiter? So attractive that his friends literally had to warn them and also tried to clean him up a bit to look more presentable LMAO

Really liked this chapter!!! Love the sceneries and how Miles and “Ray Paynt” interacted!!!! Something about how you write feels real, like even in the little things with Miles’ “It’s a choice.” And when dragging him along to the cafe at an unexpected notice. Stop writing food so deliciously it’s nearly 8am for me and I’m wanting some nice fruit-ade or something!!! 😭/pos

From one Michael to another, MICHAEL STAHP WITH THE TOUCHING YOU’RE GONNA GET YOUR WILLYIAM CHOPPED OFF FR

omfg i felt that fr im not even kidding. what i would give to be on the receiving end of that starstruckness.... okay in all honesty I'd probably be that very dude dropping my utensils.

WAIT OKAY STORY TIME BECAUSE IVE GOT ONE OF MY OWN:

So i recently went to korea in june and i went with 2 other friends who went to queue up at the NIKE store in the morning for their customization stuff right? So I wake up later and i go grab a coffee first at this store my friend recommended because it's cheap + rly good.

As such, I casually stroll along the street with my earbuds in bc im cool and swag and feeling myself right? I finally find this coffee shop and step up to the counter to order, except what do i see?

A GORGEOUS, STUNNING GIRL MANNING THE CASHIER.

At this point i am in full blown panic. I have never met anyone so pretty in my life. Her hair was silky smooth and dyed a light platinum-ish shade, and her makeup was flawless. her skin? dewy like a morning glory in bloom. Her entire figure and being? goddesslike.

at this point i am sweating buckets just from the thought of talking to her. but it's fine, right? its just a cup of coffee. i can do this.

i then proceed to ABSOLUTELY FUMBLE MY WORDS.

I just wanted this pretty drink called a franobe guys. thats all i wanted. but i got so shy and she couldnt hear me saying franobe so she kept going 'ah, latte?' and guys. i almost died on the spot.

I repeated it like 2x before she got what i was trying to say. Quick PSA that i am not fluent in korean at all, and understand more than i can speak. she asks me something in korean and i just go 'ne?' with wideass eyes like id just seen my newborn child or some shit.

anyway i finally manage to pay and get my drink and i walk away with my head practically in my hands. up till this day i am paranoid she thinks im an idiot. this is my chicken and croffles story for all you guys out there.

also im straight but this is one of the rare exceptions i lost my composure fr. what can i say? im w e ak.

im really glad you liked this chapter !! if it's one trait i could've given my characters or reader oc its the endless funds to go cafe hopping. cafe hopping is so, so fun, but so, so expensive like goddamn let me live my main character life in peace fr....

it's euphoric to hear that you liked the little moments !! i enjoyed thinking through those and just going like ah yes, he would say this! i really love writing or thinking about the small moments that lead up to the big picture. (also @buthowboutno-spamming gave me such great advice regarding this, and i wouldnt have been able to flesh out my fic and vision if not for his advice)

michael deserves to get his dick chopped off fr. but it's okay!! I plan for all my characters to go through developmental arcs lmfao, ive gotten too attached to the two idiots to let go of their potential now :)

Go get some fruit-ade or make some yourself bro it's super easy super good. lmk if you want a recipe and im more than happy to provide~

[oflgtfol]

literally killingmyself

had my first customer get upset with me over self checkout. trying to stock shit while theres no one around and im rationalizing to myself well even if there is someone around they can check themself out now. but then this woman comes over i greet her and inform her about our new self check and shes like oh ok. but then she is hovering over me and eventually is rudely like. Well are you gonna check me out. “its just 3 items” she eventually like snidely says to me as if i shouldve known she wanted to be checked out bc of that?? its just 3 items fucking scan them yourself if youre gonna give me that attitude bitch

then another customer she was nice about it but she didnt realize it takes card only and iknew that a card out self check would be confusing to people especially with no clear indication that its card only until the end of the transaction. theres no label or sign saying card only. so she was a bit rankled about that and she said yeah bur theyre brand new i feel bad for you for having to run back and foeth between stocking and helping me at self check and im like haha its a learning curve for everyone. she leaves i go on my walkie and say yeah we absolutely should put a sign saying card only like i had said before cuz i already got a customer confused by it. Then mt fucking SM gives me fucking attitude and says “we’re the ambassadors we have to tell them, no sign” like huh? that defeats the whole purpose of self checkout if i need to constantly hover over every single person and ask them how they’re checking out. if youre using sco as a way to short staff us then fucking let me as main cashier do things i normally wouldnt be able to do in between customers, like stocking. i still cant fucking do that if i have to hover over ever single person then. Also thats just asking for trouble because just by nature of how crazy shit gets, someone will eventually forget to tell a customer and its no one’s fault its just being a fucking human but by not having it objectively posted that means anyone who gets mad when that eventually happens will then put the blame on the poor cashier. For the love of god for both the cashier and the customers sakes just put a fucking sign up what is your damn problem

AND THEN i have a creepy customer fucking asking me if we’re hiring, “are you guys still hiring Miss Brot?” (after looking at my nametag) i say no he says aw is it cuz /i/ asked i just said no lol its cuz its after the holidays we lose our seasonal hours. And hes acting all like weirdly flirty and he calls me beautiful hes with another man whose just acting as normal and the normal man is the one doing the purchase this weird guy is just standing next to him with him and so im just being normal with the normal guy ignoring the creepy guy but as i say have a good day then this man shouts out like Bye beautiful! like girlie leave me ALONE im in a terrible mood already

[daenystheedreamer]

Since Starbucks is canon in the show, who do you think would like pumpkin spice?

sansa!!! sansa is a pumpkin spice girlie<3 with oat milk. arya wouldnt support union busting and would be like -_- one black coffee. but jon is the cashier and he knows she wants hot chocolate. even though dany is the one caught redhanded near the starbucks cup idk she doesnt strike me as a caffeine girl... maybe its cos shes asian in my head but dany is bubble tea yakult deal. kumis and kefir. CHAI!!! she loves chai. margaery is juices and smoothies. asha has a flask

[the-woild-is-y-erster]

okay so i do kind of get that but i want their voices omg what i would do to be a tenor

i’m an alto but i have a natural deep voice anyway!!

i do actually like my voice and stuff i would just love to be able to play a dude PROPERLY

i played eugene in grease and so many of my lines got cut, and i couldn’t really be myself in the role because i was so focused on making it perfect

that’s why i wanna play crutchie or jesse tuck because i feel like i could truly be myself in those roles !! but roles i don’t know anything about make me feel even worse

i genuinely cried and purposefully missed cues when i was in grease because i hated my role that much

BUT IVE COME TO TERMS WITH IT!!

i also really wanna perform as crutchie so i can do letter from the refuge my friends all say that they love my cover of it and i can never get enough of him i literally hyperfixate on him so i could play him SO WELL

Sorry tangent on how awful i felt in grease x

i also happily play female roles but i like playing male roles cause i’m more masc presenting

rant all you want shawty!! i had similar experiences in my highschool theater class, we had one boy and like 14 girls(and then me lmao) and i was the only one with a wide enough vocal range to play both? so we did beauty and the beast one year, and that was the year we FINALLY had two boys, so they (of course) got gaston and beast. well, yours truly got lefou, but my (very christian) teacher made me wear a ton of makeup and almost made me wear a dress (argued my way outta that one) so i got to play a guy's part, but it was still an iffy experience because the rest of the cast was rly annoying abt it

anywhizzle

i was in a production of joseph and the amazing technicolor dreamcoat last year, and i was one of josephs brothers along with another girl(who was The Most Annoying Person On The Planet istg) again because of the lack of boys

that theater had a better supply of guys but still not nearly enough

so i had like three singing lines, right? all pretty far down in my vocal range but i was proud of myself for being able to do it

and one of those lines the girl 'brother' (who insisted on wearing makeup and a dress for the production) spoke immediately after me, so how it went in rehearsals and even the actual shows:

me: says line

her: physically like SHOVES me aside to be CENTER F-ING STAGE which we werent supposed to do and says her line in the most annoying enthusiastic falsetto ive ever heard, and her line was something about starving😭😭

and im a soprano, and i can go weirdly low for a soprano but WHAT I WOULDNT GIVE TO BE A TENOR

j would give up my left leg and also my spleen if it meant i could be a tenor

like most of my dream theater roles are guys

and i would be happy to play a gal's part!! but like

only if its on my terms? like if audition for a bunch of guy parts and maybe one girl part, and i get the girl part? like i get that casting a wholeass musical/play can be difficult with only so many peopl and even fewer guys, but youd think that the ratio of guys to girls(and others) would raise my chances of being a guy?

idk i have so many thoughts abt this

and the voice thing OMLLLLL

like literally any time i listen to one of my favorite actors speak im like 'sir can i B L E A SE HAVE YOUR VOICE'

or even just some of the guys ive interacted with in everyday life

like do you know how many times a cashier's voice has made me want to cry because its so deep/melodic/beautiful/masculine???

[asphodelsrot]

im tired im tired im tired im tired

it is an ache that echoes deep in my chest and ive been felling the pulses of sound for years. it will never stop ringing, i will never be free. but i dont even want to because it would feel too empty without it and i wouldnt know what to do with myself, i dont even know what that would feel like but god im tired im so so tired and nobody can tell and i cant find the words to express it to translate those pulses into speech and get some fucking assistance over here

but no no no cant have meds because all i need apparently is just suck it up and let it go and use coping mechanisms to cope and cope and cope until fucking die because its not that bad and you just want to get doped up and hope it fixes your problems.

well excuse me if im tired of this.

excuse me if its been so long that i dont even remember what it felt like to not feel like this and i thought it was better to feel nothing because the anger sorrow despair was horrible, but this is a whole new evil. its fucking agonizing. at least even if it felt horrible i could feel and now even sorrow feels like a relief because at least its something and i feel thankful.

i feel thankful that its gotten so bad that my brain allowed me to feel and the worst part is that theres whispers in my mind tell my its not that bad because youve been worse. youve dont have it as bad. you can get up in the morning and get dressed and go outside and smile at the cashier in the grocery store. you can sit on the phone with your friends and help them. you can do your school work. you can pay attention during class. you can get apply for jobs. you can take care of yourself. you can do all of that, you are capable of it.

but every step feels draining all the time and i cant muster the energy or the motivation to see the point. whats the fucking point it. i can run it over in my head over and over, endless lists of reason as to why i should give a shit but nothing clicks.

i wondered why its suddenly been so hard over the past few years and i realized that my shitty way of maintaining my drive is gone. ive grown numb. its always been hard but i had the gut wrenching fear and anxiety to push me into action, or else, and i thought that was just how i worked and i was fine but now thats gone and im at a loss

im fucking drowning because im out of my depth. its that sudden fear when youre swimming in the ocean and the floor just drops and you cant see beneath you and thats not supposed to happen and god knows what could be lurking beneath

theres no shiny resolution, theres no tidy conclusion

its just ragged tattered remains of a kid who got dealt a shitty hand and now im left to pick up the pieces and put them back together with popsicle sticks, spit, and a wish for hope thats draining by the second

im tired im tired im tired im tired

[lostjudgmnt]

hi need to figure out how to get home from this appointment with no gas in my car, a locked card due to a fraudulent charge, and a box full of savings made up of purely like, idk $1 and $5 bills. which would be embarrassing to give a cashier. anyway unrelated shit under the cut i just need to express thoughts somewhere (i need a journal)

i have so little faith in myself as a person and my ability to permanently get/be better. and then i also feel like shit about having people in my life who DO believe i am getting or can be better because so many people dont have that and i feel like im wasting what so many others could make good use of, i guess. i feel shitty for having a therapist that actually helps me and i feel shitty for having friends who care about me and that i still feel like im hopeless and unfixable and that i still want to give up. and im not even pushing onward for my own sake anymore because i have so little faith and ao low opinion of myself that it wouldnt feel worth it just for it to be for my own sake i just. so desperately dont want to waste the faith others put in me even if i dont deserve it. i ront know i dont know.

sorry. lmk if you read somehow just so i know. idk.