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i havent finished tamn (chpt 30), but I have a little theory about immunity. I'm assuming the virus is usually fatal via fever, as in the fever kills the victim and then resurrects them. while gri and q survived the fever but are still infected, thus the "immunity". i just love sentient zombie stories! sorry for redundancy if you answered something similar to this in the past
That's the gist of it, yeah! Calling themselves "immune" is a bit of a falsehood on both Quackity and Grian's part (though not an intentionally misleading one- Grian picked up calling it 'immune' from Quackity, and Quackity calls it that because he's a very "if it looks like a duck and quacks like a duck then it's a duck" kind of person). They're both still very much infected, though, which means they carry and operate with all the symptoms of the virus (just skipped the "dying horrifically" part).
That being said, we figure that there are a few people out there with True Immunity (i.e. no adverse reactions/symptoms to a bite) but sadly, in the context of TAMN............ neitehr Big Q or Gri are one of those people - 🔒
#TAMN asks#anonymous#KEY HERE TO ADD!!#first of all we love talking about zombies here so never apologise omg we'll chat about 'em forever#plus I don't think?? we've mentioned much about the virus itself on tumblr?#most of our Technical Conversations about it have been in comments on AO3 tbh#SO YES#like you and Lock both said#they're not truly immune#they're both still infected--they just never died#I LOVE the idea of it being the FEVER that kills most people#we didn't really discuss which particular effect triggered by the virus would've done it#but I think the fever makes a lot of sense#and there's something so poetic about a fever being like#your body's attempt to save you#heating up to kill the virus#and it ends up killing you instead...#SO YEAH I ADORE IT#MAKE IT CANON BAYBEEEEEEE#thank you for reading our fic and sharing your thoughts! :D#god I should've just added to the post itself#these tags got longer than I thought they would sdhjdjfk SORRY -Key
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sin eater
#sorry its been a minute!!! the horrors. you understand.#anyways yall ready for another gloom tag essay because here we go!!!#im constantly thinking about the ramifications of uzi literally eating cyn and her now being apart of her.#specifically how it impacts uzi mentally. like dgmw i LOVE the silly cyntail shenanigans in fanart (ive also contributed to this) however#when i really think about it in relation to uzi's arc i go crazy insane#uzi is a character who is grasping for control after a lifetime of not having it.#she has no control over how her peers treat her. she has no control over khan neglecting her for reasons that arent her fault.#she quite literally has no control over the solver taking her over and making her do monstrous things against her will#which solidifies her feelings of being a freak monster who everyone was right to outcast and mistreat.#because im Unwell i interpret her calling herself god as a way to convince herself of having control- and to lock away feelings of impurity#if anyone is in control- if anyone is loved and cherished despite any and all wrong doings- its a god.#and that all comes to a head when she eats the heart of cyn thereby destroying the AS- a literal manifestation of a corrupted god- for good#finally taking back control from the entity that had been terrorizing and traumatizing both her and her loved ones. but did she really?#cyn is apart of her now. powerless sure- but that doesnt take away the horrors she wrought previously#and even so- has uzi ever stopped being just a host? do you think shes terrified of cyn regaining power out of the blue?#do you think uzi ever stops feeling like a monster?#“sin eating” was a thing that happened where someone would consume ritual foods to take on the sins of a recently deceased person#thus absolving said deceased person of any sins and putting them onto the sin eater. being a sin eater ensured eternal damnation.#and i just think about that a lot. when applying that (symbolically ofc(somewhat literally. she very much is a cyn eater)) to what uzi did.#“gloom you're reading way too much into this” THE LITTLE GOTH ROBOT. MAKES ME INSANE IN THE HEAD. OK!!!!!#gloom.art#murder drones#murder drones fanart#murder drones uzi#uzi murder drones#uzi doorman#uzi md#md uzi#uzi fanart
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we've read about dick and tim being pathetic, but I wanna know the strange, stoic way Damian would be pathetic for reader if you're up for it :) I love your writing!!!
Points at camera like I'm on a gameshow! You, dear reader are lucky you came to the right blog!!!
So, we all know what cats are like when they like someone, right?? Just, following them around constantly. They don't want pets, they don't want to get picked up, they just want to watch you from a distance of five to twenty feet. Anyway, that's Damian!
He's in love with you, he needs you, he wants to keep you, but he has his pride!! Well, for a while at least. He's clingy, of course but he just... pretends he isn't?? It doesn't really work after the first few times. Pressing kisses to your forehead and holding your hand. And he'll do it while he's glaring at you.
Now, if you break up with him or reject him, you are going to see true brattiness. Monstrously bratty. How dare you? How dare you think you can leave him, reject him? He's the heir to the Al Ghul and Wayne dynasties. He gives you everything. And you don't accept it?
...Okay, you thought he'd stomp off after that. He's not leaving?? He's just... sitting outside your house...?? Why the hell is he glaring at you through your window???? It's not your fault????? Damian, however, is absolutely certain it is your fault. He will sit there through rain and snow, deliver you gifts and takeout, and wait sadly and grumpily till you take him back. And I thought he was impatient!
Unfortunately, while you saw him as a cat, he thought the same with you. While you see him as tame, he thinks of you as some wild alley cat that needs to be caught for it's own good. He just needs to slowly acclimate you to him and you guys will be right as rain. Maybe some treats will make you like him more? He'll figure it out, that he's confident of. Don't tell him he's being silly, you will just make things worse.
#sophie speaks#sophie answers#yandere batfam#he is impatient btw he probably breaks in when you're not looking#if this goes on too long things start getting even weirder but I'm not entirely sure yet what it looks like yet#but it gets WEIRD#hes a slow burn ive said it before#hes just fucking weird#points at a character i like: autism rizz#ive got so many versions of him in my head which are kinda conflicting#but i think this is how i think I'm characterising him?? how it seems to be falling at least#did i post that thing where he locks you in a cage but he cant get you to love him so you're both just upset and stuck together??#i think i did it was one of the alphabets
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thinking about how essentially every relationship john locke formed in the early seasons of lost has completely disintegrated by the time of his death.
of course there's his relationship with jack, which starts tense but manageable and culminates in jack pointing a gun at john's head and pulling the trigger. but even his smaller, less narratively prominent relationships either implode or drift apart. he bonds with walt in season one but then walt leaves the island, which is itself a severing of their bond since it was mainly based on being the only two people who wanted to stay. still, he goes and visits walt off the island so this is probably john's most successful relationship. I dont think i need to explain how he fucked up with boone, "the sacrifice that the island demanded." charlie viewed john as a mentor and claimed to trust him more than anyone on the island, but after the events of fire and water, that trust is destroyed and charlie despises him. at the same time we get john bonding with claire and having a pseudo-paternal dynamic with her, but their closeness basically drops off the face of the earth as he gets less and less involved with the other survivors.
his arc in the series is essentially a gradual distancing from everyone around him. it starts when he abandons hunting (providing for the others) in favor of trying to get the hatch open (it's extremely clear his primary motive isn't any survival applications but getting answers to the mystery). when they do open the hatch, he spends more and more time inside, underground, cut off from other people. he spends more and more time interacting with ben, a human mystery box that he's obsessed with cracking even if it gets him killed. he follows the proverbial white rabbit deeper down the hole and leaves his connection to humanity behind. the island and its mysteries become more important to john than anything or anyone else.
then in season three we get him claiming to go undercover with the others only to unceremoniously tell sawyer that he's actually going to join them. and it doesn't feel shocking, it feels inevitable. because john has spent the entire series becoming less and less connected with the people he arrived with. in that sense he actually makes a fascinating foil to juliet, who is introduced as one of the others and yet never really fits, she's increasingly sympathetic and kind in a way the rest of them aren't, her redemption arc feels so natural that she actually starts referring to her old people as "the others" like she's been one of the crash survivors from the beginning. her and john basically have inverse arcs, which is probably accidental but very neat.
in season five john tries to convince everyone to go back to the island, and fails spectacularly. and of course he does, because he was so consumed by obsession that he stopped maintaining his relationships, and in many cases actively alienated people (this is also basically what happened with helen) and now he can't wrap his head around why they're all so hostile to him. i am forever obsessed with the scene where he confronts kate and she brutally calls him out for wanting to return to the island because he doesn't love anyone. it actually struck me on rewatch how well the two of them got along in season one, and how badly their relationship has degraded by this point. john repeatedly casts aside interpersonal relationships in favor of his obsession with destiny, so when said destiny actually involves persuading the people he once shunned, he's at a loss. this is because john treats purpose as a supplement for connection, destiny as an alternative to love.
as an aside, this aspect of john's character kinda ties into my opinion that several lost characters can be read as allegorically neurdivergent under a certain lens. i know this was absolutely not intended, but as an adhd former gifted kid who struggles socially, there is something uncomfortably familiar about a character who allows their relationships to burn around them because of a single-minded obsession, especially as a result of being promised the fickle status of "special."
tl/dr: john locke is a doomed idiot and i love him
#i swear i did not intend for this post to get so long#i could've said even more#like how he latches on to the concept of destiny because it both vindicates his own suffering and exempts him from needing love/affection#because he needing those things is what made john keep returning to his father and he never wants to feel vulnerable like that again#if you never get attached to anyone then they can never leave you etc.#unfortunately destiny is also. a fickle bitch#ARGHHHH I NEED TO WRITE AN ESSAY#i have so many thoughts and so little time/motivation to write#i still need to finish my fic it's so close to being done#but productivity abandons me#just like destiny....#sorry#john locke#lost#lost 2004#lost abc#lost tv show#lost tv series#ben linus#jack shephard#charlie pace#boone carlyle#claire littleton#kate austen#juliet burke#character analysis#ig?#mini essay#walt lloyd#my silly rambles
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I can't fix Kim but i what i can do is sit him down on his couch, wrap him in a blanket and make him watch an animated movie intended for kids, like Elysium's Winnie the Pooh or something, and let him experience something soft and sweet for once in his life. I feel like if he wasn't so repressed he would be the kind of person to get a teeny tiny bit teary-eyed when something sad happens to the characters, you know?? Like i feel he could the kind of person that cries a bit when a dog dies in a movie and i want to help him get there because his repressed ass won't be doing any of that on his own. He needs character development first
#note: this is different from harry because he would cry A LOT when a dog dies in a movie#his ass would not be able to watch A Dog's Purpose#he might even relate to the dog or something idk he's a freak like that (said with love)#anyway#both of them get very sad watching The Brave Little Toaster#i know what i'm saying i can feel it in my bones#kim🤝harry [too much empathy for objects]#i'm posting this because i'm a freak and a weirdo and i want to make kim feel emotions™#i'm trowing kim into the emotional ballpit and locking him in there until he comes out normal or at least more chill or something idk#emotions and feelings upon you#kim kitsuragi#disco elysium#lifeless-discothoughts
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the itoshi brothers through the years ...
#sophie's idle chatter#congrats to blue lock for being the only animanga to have itoshi sae and itoshi rin !!!#haha... aha... ha... a...#excuse the mega long rant in tags i just have a lot to say when it comes to the itoshi bros#crying btw haha <33#they changed some lines from the manga in the snow scene...#“we're half-baked. you and me both.”; the whole “screw that...” spiel ..... ourgh........#and the way there was. no music. just silence in their confrontation scene until the moment where sae decided to cut ties#hahah.............#once again the part that always got me in the manga (and now the anime) was where sae still had light in eyes when talking abt being the#best midfielder with rin the best striker bc they could both still have that dream together only for the light to fade when rin refuted#and said hes not the brother he knew with there being no dream if its not the one theyve had all this time.....#sae more than likely believes that if anyone can become the best in the world its rin but is wasting his talent by looking up to the#big brother who couldnt uphold his promise to be the best striker and instead pushes him to the brink so he could forge his own path#to be a striker in his own right without being his saes shadow even if that means having rin hate him in return bc he has always cared#which ofc doesnt invalidate rins feelings bc he has a right to feel betrayed after dedicating so much time to follow a shared dream#with his brother whom in his eyes stomped on it without remorse and left him to eat shit#neither of them are wrong but they both went abt this in the worst way possible haha... a... ....... i hate them.#also very sick of them to have their relationship progressively be depicted from light and dark like. excuse me while i jump out a window.#i need them to have a sit down and talk in the manga like. a whole 20 chapters at least.#ALSO WHAT WAS THAT ADDITIONAL TIME SEGMENT IM GOING TO THROW UP AGAIN HELLO
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How time passes huh?
#ISAGI SAID FINE ILL DO IT MYSELF#AND THEN HE DID...#UGH I FUCKINH LOVE THIS MAN#AND NOT EVEN AMBIDEXTRIOUS. HE IS MOVING BOTH LEGS IN QUICK SUCCESSION#ITS LIKE THOSE PEOPLE WHO CAN DRAW W TWO HANDS DO YOU KNOW HOW INSANE THIS IS#blue lock#bllk#blue lock manga#blue lock isagi#ISAGIS NUMERO UNO FOREVER RIGHT HERE
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there being next to no established canon backstory for basically anyone in this film is tonnes of fun cause you can say stuff like 'i think nigel had a brother he accidentally killed when they were both children' and there's nothing to dispute it
#who's to say otherwise? greg? HA! you can gaslight that man into believing whatever you want he understands so little of his own film#coming up with my own reasons as to why his father dislikes him so much#like minds#nigel colbie#like minds 2006#originally when i wrote this it was younger brother but now i'm like . older? i mean there's something to be said#about the idea of the older brother .the protector . being responsible for the death of the younger one#but then i started thinking along the lines of a baldr loki sort of situation. where the older one is the golden child#so perfect and pure and bright#and the younger has something irrefutably wrong with them. they're wicked and rotten and wrong#and they end up being responsible for the death of the child beloved by both their parents#and from there the resentment festers and grows#maybe john should've taken better care to make sure his guns were always locked away properly#maybe it wasn't as much of an accident as nigel led them all to believe#anyway .watch someone jump in and point directly to canon info that refutes this . i have not watched the film in awhile
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You would not believe your eyes
If two really stupid guys
Barged into your dorm at 12:30am
#this happened a few nights ago but I didn’t know how to say it but this concept came to me at 4am lmaooooo#anyways so yeah my roommate is studying at her desk and I’m scrolling on my phone in bed in my pjs#when I hear a bit of a commotion near our dorm and my first thought is ‘oh no they’re gonna come inside’ before telling myself:#a) that’s silly those boys wouldn’t do that and b) our door’s totally locked so it’s fine#but turns out I was wrong on both counts :/#cuz the next thing I knew two random dude are *in my room* and they had said smth (but I was too shocked to register anything except ‘??!!’)#(y’all I was in my pjs too I was sittin there without a bra 😭😭😭😭😭😭)#eventually tho my face went from being shocked to being furious and I gotta say I haven’t heard myself use such an angry tone in a long time#but I basically demanded ‘WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN HERE’ and their faces quickly paled and they backtracked by saying ‘oops wrong dorm’#(likely story cuz mine and my roommates names are literally ON THE DOOR and that whole hall is FULLY LIT UP like how can you miss that???)#I talked with one of my friends about this (cuz I wanted to see what she thought and if maybe those guys really were mistaken)#but then she brought up that ^ point and yeah if I see em doing anything like that again I’ll prob report em to my ra or smth#but until then I guess my roommate and I will be making to sure keep our door properly locked 💀#🎶song sings🎶
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I do gotta say tho, even tho I’m mad at aziraphale because he’s being a terrible boyfriend like what you said about the “I forgive you like” because WHAT. But also I really like the way the show really demonstrates the underlying cruelty of heaven and it’s angels. Really shows the hypocrisy of a group of beings who are supposed to do good, especially aziraphale who really buys into the heaven propaganda, who hurts people, particularly the person who means the most to him. Because like you said he fully just takes advantage of that devotion Crowley has for him. Insane, this shwo makes me INSANE
I missed this anon and yeah! The angels were one of my favourite parts of the season, and I think the strongest element aside from Neil Gaiman deciding he's just a simple man who wants to put his otp in situations. They are deeply awful and I kind of love them. They are the exact kind of moralizing hypocrites who are callous and cruel precisely because they think being on team good means everything they do is justified and it's actually impossible for them to be in the wrong (they're angels! is it even possible for them to do the wrong thing?).
but!! To me, they also seem like they're basically kids? Obviously they're not literally children, but there is this very consistent reoccurring joke about how childish/sheltered/immature they are. Muriel is the most obvious example, but the archangels come off like bratty twelve year olds to her sweet little kid.
Gabriel is basically teenager in love flipping off his family as he runs away with his backstreet guy. Uriel is constantly picking at Michael, Michael is playing at being in charge like it's a game, and it's ridiculously easy for both Aziraphale and Crowely to trick them obvious half assed lies. They're not allowed to ask questions! The Metatron treats them like badly behaved kids out past their curfew. At any point an old man with a beard may pop up to scold them and send them home, and they're all scared of doing something wrong by his standards and getting in trouble with this guy who is pointedly not God but who lines up exactly with the pop-culture idea of god the father, and who offers Aziraphale, among other things, a respite from the hard work of figuring out what the right thing to do is for himself. It's fine! You don't have to question the belief system you were born into or make a painful break with everything you've ever known! Aziraphale has had six thousand years on earth to grow up, but the other angels have been sitting in a sterile white box playing "i'm not touching you" games with each other and filing paperwork.
And I think that's extra interesting because this season also really emphasizes:
Heaven has Institutional Problems
Aziraphale isn't the only angel who's unhappy in heaven. Gabriel and Muriel were both completely miserable. They just didn't understand that they were unhappy because they'd never experienced anything else.
Angels who aren't Aziraphale can change and grow! There's very explicitly Gabriel being changed by love and Muriel growing up a bit on earth, and from a more fan-theory angle there's also Jimbriel, who I think is probably basically Gabriel minus the war and six thousand years of playing referee for Michael and Uriel while unleashing an assortment of plague and calamities on earth because that's God's will! Buck up champ.
We also get Gabriel and Beezelebub talking about how their underlings basically live for Armageddon, "if you can call that living." This is so bleak. They've all been on a six thousand year time out just dreaming of the day they get to beat the shit out of each other until they feel better, but it won't work because eternity is just more of the box.
Anyway I think it's going in a distinctly eden adjacent direction. Aziraphale is going to tempt those angels with knowledge and the capacity for change. I have veered so far from your ask anon i'm sorry you're right heaven really went all out on sucking this season & while Crowley and Aziraphale are both fucking it up Crowley refrains from being spectacularly cruel to Aziraphale about it and Aziraphale should learn to return the favour. I forgive you!! I forGIVE you. I forgive YOU. "you can be an angel again" is actually a worse thing to say than "you're a demon. i don't even like you." when he finally picks crowley over heaven i'm going to lose my mind.
#good omens spoilers#good omens season two spoilers#idk it makes me sad that i didn't like the humans very much this season because i think ideally they're central to this whole how to be#a person question i also hope we get to see more of hell next season because i do think they're stuck in basically the same place#with a different aesthetic! and the stick being#thrown into a torture pit instead of thrown into hell#or like. mindwiped and locked in an office for all eternity#gabriel broke my heart which is embarrassing but when he goes from not even understanding what music is to experiencing#the simple pleasure of sharing a song with someone for the very first time and almost immediately hits repeat for eternity... baby. baby bo#i would also like more crowley! this was very much the season of aziraphale#which is fine but i missed him yelling questions at god and the bits where it seemed he really wanted aziraphale's opinion instead of just#wanting aziraphale to develop better opinions#next season had better be crowley wrestles with the universe i am telling you!!!#remember three months ago when i was like eh... another good omens season#i bet it'll be cute but i'm content with my book#i don't go here i said strapping on my clown shoes#seriously though i do think crowley is scared to admit to wanting to be good both because god rejected him and he doesn't want#to be a sucker for her (he is only interested in being a sucker for aziraphale)#and like. chase after something he's barred from and has already been told isn't for him.#and that's why it's so hard for him to admit even to himself that he too would be unhappy ditching earth#in ways that parallel aziraphale's unwillingness to let go of heaven as a source of moral authority and goodness#but the way aziraphale goes oh no! i cannot trust my own judgement and desires. They are suspect!#my judgement is that crowley is good and also funny and sexy. my desires are for his company and also his body#therefore the source of these desires is also maybe bad. i mean he's a demon. he's got to be bad#right??? but no. but i saw him do a good thing. but maybe i didn't? I should probably take a stance on this.#and he makes this crowley's problem until the apocalypse but then the second he gets the chance to cram crowley and his feelings for him#back in a heaven approved box he jumps at it in a way that requires just being WILDLY insensitive and dismissive of crowley's feelings#he's not just being a dick about their relationship he is being a dick about crowley as a person. and he should know better but is choosing#not to because he wants the easy out so badly. anyway i love him he was my favourite character all season no notes#good omens
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tbh Azelle/Arvis would go hard as, like, a toxic age gap ship thing
#Azelle said he was scared of him didn't he?#I don't think Arvis would be deliberately/unnecessarily cruel but like...#what if he saved him during the massacre#since he's blood but also not a threat to the throne#but like. keeps him locked up as a traitor#do you think deirdre would seek him out to explore her memories...?#well that's probably why arvis would never let it happen#but deirdre's married him and given him heirs now so.#also Sigurd is dead lol. where is deirdre gonna go??#honestly I could see a messed up deirdre/azelle thing forming lmao#even though that isn't blood related incest but more like.#they're both half-siblings to the same guy#who deirdre is married to#and who locked azelle up#look admit it: this is about exactly as fucked up as fe4's canon relationships#FUCK now I kinda. do want to explore this.......#azelle canonically had a crush on aideen. clearly long curly haired magic girls are his type.#now I'm almost mad I put this all in the tags lmao am I gonna have to screenshot them and post them separately#fe4 spoilers#fe4
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nothing makes me more mad than when david gaider tweets lmfaoooo
#hate that man#no offense#well full offense actually#the playersexual discourse is crazy but him admitting that he's the reason there's like.#gender-locked romances in response to da:tv having pansexual romances is insane#“everyone being able to be attracted to ur character takes away from the characters' agency” in what world actually#like does iron bull have no agency over his character cuz he can like both?#homophobic rhetoric i fear#not to mention idk why it would be more important for people that a fake person made of pixels#has more “agency” (as if they ever do theyre NOT REAL!!!!!!!!!)#than players who want to express themselves through the medium of the video game and experience it#in a way that makes them comfortable#dorian romance is great and it does revolve a whole lot around being gay but at some point like#not liking how bg3 did their romance bc characters can fall in love with you regardless of gender just stinks of losers#“they fall in love with you no matter how you act” bro if u do mean things some of them will permanently leave the party#like literally what are you talking abt#astarion rejected 60 percent of players in the first few weeks of the game being out like literally what are you talking about#its fine im calm#im chill#take a deep breath me#LOL#anyways fuck that guy#glad he's no longer lead writer cuz him freely admitting he's the reason for the limitations of dai is crazy#same guy who said astarion is basically fenris tho so u can clearly tell his ego has started leaking out his ass
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ON DA FUCKINT GRIND 💪💪💪💪💪💪🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
#rad1oart#im going to crash SOOO hard in like an hour just watch#whatever i have a comm to finish i cant afford to crash rn#dawg my mom woke up and was like holy shit youre awake????? must be serious 😨😨#the only other times ive pulled an all nighter was to crunch the fuck out of school work (50 page horticulture assignment I DONT MISS YOU!!#the only allnighter my MOM knows of was in middle school when i had to crunch a fucking essay on the floor of my bedroom#she walked in and was like What The Fuck Dont Do That Again But Also Get That Bag#the acetaminophen is for my headaches and general body achesANIMALS BY NICKLEBACK 🔥🔥🔥🔥#gang ive been so loopy all morning the only thing keeping me together is this roadtrip playlist me and ollie made#its the rock and metal thats keeping me locked tf in. i am going to sleep in like an hour or two and i will hear the#echos of fucking sabaton in my head#also i keep hallucinating but i cant tell if i really am or if its The House Ghost#both maybe. probably both. 90% chance its both.#coffee tastes like ass btw i hate drinking this shit but i need to LOCK TF IN.#sorry im rambling i literally have barely spoken to anyoneOh Hello Millionaires Fuck Yeahanyways yeah#my dad was up working as always so i had occasional yapping with him about Whatever and then i talked to my cats and myself for#like 4 hours and then my mom and then i said hi to my brother when he audibly said Whar at me
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literally can't stop thinking about mafia!bernard and police informant!tim
it got too long for the tags
bear's in the mafia for whatever reason
and tim is part of a police team called idfk the bats
anyway bear's mafia is getting too big and they need sm1 on the inside. enter tim.
tim is a police legacy. his dad was a policeman and so was his father's father and on it goes
and he might've made it onto captain wayne's team but he's desperate to prove to the force that he's not a fuckin nepo baby
so he takes the job. enter bernard who only meets tim after he's been on the mission for a year now.
bear quickly takes a liking to this new recruit who's efficient and smart and has the tiniest waist he's ever seen.
and tim goes along with this liking cause hey information from the top will be more valuable right?
and they fall into this fuckbuddies relationship that quickly becomes way more. because like fuck bear looks at tim like he's worth smth
like he's more than what his parents have set out for him. like he's somebody. like he loves tim for tim. and not for what tim can do for him.
and fuck he loves bear and his smiles. the way his eyes crinkle and his gums show. he loves the way bear looks with a gun in his hands and he knows that's fucked up but the first time he saw bear with a gun in his hands and blood splattered across his face he had to actively stop himself from jumping bear in front of the mafia. and no matter how rough bear is when he's on the field he always caresses tim's cheeks with a softness tim didn't know was possible
and fuck his dick is massive and it's really not helping tim's feelings. and he knows he's compromised and fuck cpt. wayne probs knows too
but shit bear holds him like he's precious. bear looks at him like he loves him. bear twines their bodies together like he'll die if they part
bear whispers sweet nothings into his ears as they fall asleep and it'll break him when he has to give bear up but he's always been selfish
he'll keep this for as long as he can. (please lord let him have this.)
and on bear's end he really only becomes interested in this new recruit when he watches the boy deliver 10 backhanded compliments in a row
and nobody pick up on it. it takes 3 months before bear figures out that tim's a spy and still he keeps seeing him
bc it doesn't matter that tim'll be his downfall. it doesnt matter that tim doesnt really love him or care about him. that it's only a mission for tim bc tim is the best thing bear's life.
he is the sun to bear's moon. the first word on his lips when he wakes up and the last when he goes to sleep.
and he loves every version of tim -- when he's caustic and biting, when he's blissed out in bed covered in the marks bernard left, when he's laughing, when he's crying
every version on tim is a version he likes. and one of these days, his pretty bird is going to have to leave their nest but at least bear can hold tim until then
at least bear can press promises into his thighs. at least he can whisper his devotion into the crook of tim's neck. at least he can leave marks on tim -- lovebites on his neck, handprints on his thighs and hips -- a tapestry that says "i was here. and i loved him. i love him and i am here."
but until that day comes, bear will work on quitting smoking and turning his favorite safehouse into a home for them.
(please lord, just let him have this. just let him have tim.)
#honestly if i was to sum up this au in one sentence it'd be#'dick so good you'd let them commit war crimes'#he quits smoking cause his baby has no spleen. tim nearly cries when he hears that#bear always kisses tim before he leaves in 3s. one to the forehead. one to both cheeks. and one to his lips.#the first time tim says 'welcome home!' to bear he has to take 3 business days to recover#the first time bear comes over to money-laundering coffee shop front tim's been assigned to with a bouquet of flowers tim spends the rest#week giggling to himself. also tim and bear get relentlessly teased by their coworkers.#and when all is said and done and the mission comes to an end and tim has to arrest bear he does it with a tremble in his hands and tears#in his eyes. and bear's eyes are so sad almost mournful with the way they look at him in his police uniform#'hey pretty baby. here to lock me up at last?' bear asks#'you knew?' tim whispers. bear nods slowly like doing it any faster will spook tim off. the hand holding his gun trembles.#'then why-'#'why do you think tim?' bear responds quietly 'i love you.'#tim chokes on his sob. 'i did too y'know. i do too.'#bear smiles sadly 'but the job comes first right?'#and tim has nothing to say to that. tim loves bear and bear loves tim and it's not enough. maybe it was never enough.#anyway#how yall doin#i'm so normal about them i swear#bernard dowd#tim drake#timbern#timber#dc
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skipping class but staying on campus to do work for. another class. bc i said i'd have it done before friday bc i'm scared of telling profs no so now i have to read all of robinson crusoe this weekend and watch the nbc pilot of the crusoe series on top of finishing the 2 late essays bc i deluded myself into believing i have a chance of finishing this annotated bibliography in 2 hours. without half the books i'm citing. tee hee <3
#if anyone knows anything about anything hit me up 🫶🙌☝️#also one of my sources is essentially just synthesizing all of my other sources with So Little original commentary bc it was originally a#dissertation that got published as a book but i need to use it bc it's the only source of its type i could find and my prof has a checklist#-_-#and she said that if i explain why it's so late i can maybe get an extension of my extension but how do i tell her that i'm sick and burnt#out and got locked out of my room for 24 hours and am depressed and haven't been sleeping or eating well and i miss my friends and having a#library to work in and my antidepressants have taken away my ability to have my quarterly sobbing dry heaving breakdown that i rely to give#me the adrenaline boost and catharsis and clarity to actually lock in and force myself to finish big scary assignments#i can probably tell her about the sickness and the room thing but truly i'm just overwhelmed and not coping and that doesn't feel like a#real reason (bc i'm depressed)#i need to knock myself out at like 10:30 tonight so i can wake up at like 7 tomorrow and work somewhere that isn't my house but i have#rehearsal until 10 amd i need to shower before i actually have a freak out that no one finds endearing or relatable#i think the shower might be a big part of the brain fog . who could've seen this coming.........#i meant to shower last night but i was too busy reading 50 shades of grey and mists of avalon (both for class) and i was up until like 5#god i need to sleep. tomorrow will be better#if you see me on here past like 11:30 please yell at me to go to bed i've lost the ability to stop my self-destructive habits#that was super tmi . sowwy gang#a post
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hmm... envy in the Locked Tomb series
(Harrow the Ninth, pg. 61; Nona the Ninth, pg. 177)
#oh this doesn't mean anything#but i like it#tlt#the locked tomb#fuck off lou#my post#parallels#tlt meta#htn#harrow the ninth#nona the ninth#ntn#harrowhark nonagesimus#coronabeth tridentarius#nona tlt#actually now that i'm looking at it.#both of these statements are said by people who are assuming to know much more abt the situation than they do#pre-lobotomy harrow to post-lobotomy harrow is saying “i'm so glad you don't remember that pain i'm so glad i could do smth abt it”#“i envy you for not having to feel it. because //I// still have to feel it. thank god YOU don't”#and coronabeth to nona could be construed as her assuming nona is a sort of paul situation w/ gideon and harrow's soul#basically saying “i wish i had that. i want my sister back. i want to have been important enough to her to have thrown individuality away.”#“i'd give anything to be with her and it kills me every day that she didn't choose me.”#anyway
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