#like yeah she blames me for everything that goes wrong in the house (which is why chad thinks everything fucked up is something *I* did) bu

[puppybearuniverse]

god chad is such a cunt. we haven't spoken since he screamed at me for sticking up for me and my mom last week, and today i stepped out of my room for 30 seconds to check the laundry and got a lecture about how I can't leave my canes "all over the house" (1 foot away from his new bucket he bought to put my canes in that was not there the last time i used one of my canes) and the house looks like a total shithole and like. dawg i dont leave my fucking room anymore. i promise you 100% this shit is not me.

[stars0fthesea]

Hello! I’m so extremely bored so I’m gonna post a song analysis kind of thing? But it’s about Jason and Amelia. Uhmmm idk how to explain it soooo JUST READ!!!

Song: A Humans Touch (on Spotify by TWRP, McKenna Rae)

(TW: Mentions of child abuse and neglect. I don’t go into super details but it is mentioned.)

(ALSO ALSO These are my own versions of Jason and Amelia. They were childhood friends that grew up together!!! I’ll make another post about that or whatever.)

Jason and Amelia ^

The first bit could be applied to both of them.

“Am I toy to you, my love? Just a thing to play and then throw away.”

For Jason it’s the feeling of betrayal. he did everything for Amelia, kept her safe from the world. He was loyal to her and yet she betrayed him when he was at rock bottom. He believes that Amelia took all the “love” he gave to her without giving anything back. Essentially she “threw him away” after she realized she no longer needed him. Even though that isn’t what happened.

Jason just can’t ever blame himself for his own actions and the consequences that follow. He didn’t keep Amelia safe, nor was he ever loyal. He wanted control over her, and when he no longer had that control he became angry. That anger mixed with the exhaustion and burnout he faced ended up killing him.

For Amelia, she felt terrified— she was terrified. Always feeling as though Jason never truly loved her, only used her, manipulated her into having no one around her. Scaring her from ever making true friends and only having Jason, until the end. Which goes with the “Am I just a toy to you, my love?” Jason played with her, toyed with her emotions. Turned her once confident personality into a more confined one.

“I never asked for this”

Jason never asked his parents to neglect, abuse, and kick him out of the house all because he wanted to become a toymaker. Amelia never asked for Jason to treat her the way he did just because she was one of the only one to treat Jason nicely.

“I always did my best.”

Jason always listened to his father. Fixing any flaws his father would point out. He did everything to try and get his attention, try and make him proud— until he realized that nothing. Nothing. He did would ever make his parents happy. Everything he did was a mistake in their eyes. And so he tuned them out. Jason didn’t need them anyways. For gods sake he would show them just how amazing he really is.

…

“Without your love, I am a broken mess.” Self explanatory for Jason…after Amelia killed him he ended up being broken. His heart became more rotten after losing Amelia’s love for him. He turned into a mess, looking for a woman that can replace what Amelia left. A void in his heart, waiting to be filled.

This entire part is just Jason. ^

“I never did you wrong”

These words fit Amelia more. During their entire relationship Amelia didn’t do anything to Jason. She was supportive of his dreams, offered to help him succeed, she was an amazing friend.

Yet Jason still treated Amelia as if she was nothing but a toy. She did everything for him, but Jason treated her like a child. Hell she could have done so much more than the pathetic redhead and he’d still see her as something he has control over. Amelia knew that they would never be equals in his eyes, and she didn’t dare say anything about it. (If you couldn’t tell he’s a misogynist.)

For Jason these words just circle back to his entire belief being: His actions are justified because everything he did was to protect Amelia from the cruel world she didn’t understand. He didn’t do anything wrong to Amelia, she just didn’t understand anything. She didn’t understand the love he was giving to her.

“Until the new me came along.”

Amelia again! This kind of goes with the first part but I wanted to write it separately. We know Amelia didn’t do anything to Jason, yeah.

She eventually did free herself from his control, realizing what he was doing to her. It took a lot of courage and strength but she did it. She escaped Jason. And eventually she killed the man that manipulated her. Thus why the lyrics: “I never did you wrong, until the new me came along.” Fits her so well. This new version of herself took over control and got rid of the evil redhead.

“it was just you and me”

Jason from the very start of his life was neglected. His own parents didn’t want him. He was alone. At school nobody would speak with him. The teachers felt bad, but they didn’t do much with the children teasing and bullying Jason. He had absolutely no one.

But then.

Amelia showed up in his life. Amelia who was smiling brightly since the day she met Jason. She was talkative and sure a bit annoying, but Jason finally had someone. And it wasn’t bad. Despite all the other children whispering rumors about Jason, Amelia stuck by his side.

It was just Jason and Amelia.

Jason needs Amelia. Or at least that’s what he thinks.

He takes the lives of every woman that reminds him of Amelia. Whether it be their personality, their face, their looks, whatever. He desperately tries to feel how it once felt to have Amelia by his side. Call it obsession if you will…but really he just misses having such power and control over someone.

[bingeeaterblog]

// small warning big re touken hate it's a post on why I hate it and how I think it could've been done better BUT I encourage you to keep reading if you do like them and to give me your thoughts whether to tell me why you like them or why you think im wrong in some regards i love a good debate its why i joined Tumblr

I'm gonna start this off by talking about why I loved the original mangas touken.

They start off as strangers, them only having a REAL meeting when she saves his ass from nishio. Initially she was cold and rude, for every reason he was very disrespectful(also for good reason he was scared and all he knew about ghouls is that they are monsters who hurt people, one literally just had him in a choke hold) but I digress. Kaneki starts working at anteiku and he's shadowing touka much to her dismay she feels he can't do anything right and is just a know it all human.

Right off the bat they have a very interesting dynamic, touka learning to care for kaneki him starting to see her(and ghouls as a whole) as a person and not something he should be afraid of.

As time goes on, touka falls for him, it's what makes everything so hard when he abandons her. She feels betrayed he left just like ayato and her dad did no one ever stays for her? How could they? She makes herself so hard to love shutting everyone out. She blames herself partly, not being able to protect him from whatever happened at the aoigiri base.

When she does see him again she's angry! How dare he come back after all this! Why can't he just make up his mind! So she lashes out, she misses him so dearly but she can't tell him that? Let him know she cares? She hits him and tells him to never come back to anteiku (to her).

You can see why it's so appealing!! The angst!! The drama!!! They have it all! Toukas longing and kanekis isolation are what makes them so GOOD.

To explain why I don't like re touken we have to talk about why I don't like re touka.

Touka before was a very well rounded character, she was brash and a little impulsive, she loves the people around her even if its hard for her to show it in a healthy way. She'll do whatever it takes even if it means risking her own life.

Re touka, doesn't really have that. She's very... Water downed. I like to call it house house wife-ification. She's lost any semblance of her old personality. While I do like the idea of touka calming down and becoming more docile it's not done right, we meet her again and she's just... Like that? There's no character development of her changing it just happens! She's shaved down so she can be the perfect love interest for kaneki, it's even shown in her design! Her eyes are softer and she doesn't hold any of the same energy as old touka(this happens with a lot of female characters ishida just ended up giving them all the same face besides eto).

Kaneki is? Fine? I loved haise as a character and him and touka were sorta cute if u kinda ignore that fact touka isn't touka. Kaneki was fine and re and that's it, he's just okay. His Savior complex is removed and it's just "I wanna save people!!" The whole reason his savior complex is important is BECAUSE it ends up hurting more people he should've been developed to learn how to manage that and be the hero he could be.

Now for their actual relationship.

It's very.... Rushed? There's no tension no build up just "are you a virgin?" Which in my opinion is something touka would never say she'd stumble around it. they made her bold at the wrong times she's an awkward lil freak. And then boom! Sex yeah! And it's? Okay? It's not my favorite I felt like a sex scene between them should've been more desperate!! That's when the marriage bite should've happened! It should've bites and messy kisses and promises to never leave again! There was no passion! There was the "why are you crying" but that didn't really do anything for me!!

I do like the end scene where she was petting his hair that was very soft which is what he needs.

Then toukas pregnant!(Which is something I'll get into good another time) And it kinda feels like they only rush into the marriage because she is... Like I feel like they should've atleast had a dating stage y'know!! Everything just felt so fast with them and nothing like the original:(

The end credits scene feels nothing like touka, she looks dead that's not the character I used to know :( kaneki too only the scene with hide felt real

And yeah! I like ichika! But how cool would it have been if touka got pregnant AFTER re and in the end credit thing she was revealed! Another natural born one eyed ghoul!! Idk...

This is very messy sorry I had to get this out. if you like them? That's fine!! That's super duper cool its just not my favorite. Tell me why you think I'm wrong! Id love to hear your opinions

[dafodils-on-the-moon]

!!!! So many questions bc I love this with all my heart <3 First, it's freaking hilarious that he became jester because he was "difficult to handle." LOVE that. Second, I gotta know, what does everyone else think about him? Arthur? Gwen? Morgana? Is Morgana doomed to die by the hands of a COURT JESTER?????

Ok so. Crucial part of this Au: Uther knows Merlin in Balinor’s son but does NOT know abt the magic. Merlin does not know about being Balinor’s son. Uther kept him cause he thinks it would be a good idea to have a dragonlord on hand that's loyal to Camelot, given what he's keeping under the castle.

Also I'm very aroace and don't wanna write romance for a while, so no romantic Murther.

Instead, Uther raises Merlin and Arthur as brothers. He deeply encourages the loyalty to one another as keeping Merlin loyal is essetail and Merlin is a very valuable asset that bears protecting. He emphasises to Arthur that as the eldest, Merlin is his responsibility and he should take care of him. Merlin is his younger brother.

Arthur takes to this role like a wildfire. Protective as SHIT over his new baby brother (Merlin is two years younger), esp. Since he was… not doing too hot when he first got to the castle. He was greiving and seemed *terrified* and didn’t speak at all for months. He was sickly too, for reasons no-one could pinpoint. Arthur had made it his mission to cheer Merlin up, as no one should be that sad. He and Merlin communicate at first via drawings.

He only seemed to improve after he started talking quietly to an imaginary freind he named “Kiggah.” It seemed to help cause merlin slowly started talking to Arthur and then in general and his health imrpved too.

Yeah… Merlin’s imaginary freind is Killgarrah lol.

Killgarrrah, or Kiggah as a now 5 year old Merlin could pernounce, is getting a major overhaul in this AU. His is going to be far far less of a bastard. Cause dragons are too cool for him to be the absolute worst.

In this AU Kiggah actually cares more THAT HIS ENTIRE RACE WAS ERADICATED than that he was trapped under the castle. Cause, fr, that is not the part id focus on. Also I gave him a family before, sorry man. Kiggah was also really really fond of dragonlings and hatchlings and was very excited to see the hatching of his first great-grandhatchling before the purge. Ow.

Anyway, Merlin is TERRIFIED of being in Camelot. He’s terrified he’s going to say something wrong and reveal his secret and die. He blames himslef for his mother’s death (cause he’s like 4 1/2 and thats normal for kids that age) and more specifically, his magic. So he supresses the shit out of it, which is why he’s so sickly.

Kiggah senses Merlin basically killing himslef and tries coaching Merlin into using his magic again. Adopts Merlin as his own hatchling. Kiggah doesn’t know Merlin’s dad is Balinor, but he DOES know he’s emrys, magic itself. As a result, Kiggah views Merlin as a fellow magical creature and raises him accordingly. He… doesn’t really get how human hatchlings are supposed to work.

Merlin starts acting weirdly dragonlike. His growling, he’s biting people, hee’s climbing everything, hoarding things and has a major fixation with fire. He is gettign “difficult to handle” as UTHER, assumes this is just how dragonlordlings are, (good gracious), but needs a way to coverup the fact he’s raising one.

Fooleswurth, nuerdodivergent in ye-old times, sees Merlin and his like “haha verily. Reminds me of when I was that age, I was just the same. He must have “The Jester’s Spark, haha.”’ Uther goes “yes and” and now fooleswurth has an apprentice and Uther has a way to explain why his ward is so weird.

Anyway, Kiggah is NOT excited about Merlin’s new older sister, but Merlin loves her. He is very excited for whenever Morgana’s magic manifests. She grows on Kiggah. (Esp. With all teh trouble she gives Uther). Morgana’s going to be fine.

She and Merlin get on like a house on fire. Gossipy bitches. Morgana sics Melrin and his “jester’s privolegde” on bothersome nobles to insult them into the ground.

Gwen becomes Morgana’s maidservent, and she Morgana and Merlin are great friends.

[maxverstappensflatbrim]

Show Me Yours | Matty Healy [43]

chapter forty-three, act five: the ballad of me and my brain

masterlist

November 4th 2017

Her head is pounding. It’s ringing. It kind of sounds like the guitar riff in I Bet You Look Good On The Dance Floor.

Then she realises that it is the riff from the familiar Arctic Monkeys song, and that her phone, which is just out of reach, is ringing.

She reaches one hand out but it’s not enough so she forces her aching body to crawl towards it.

“H-Hello?”

“Thank God, I was about to file a missing person’s report.”

“Pheebs?”

“Where are you?”

Tommie groans as she sits up and looks around, she’s still in the studio. But the freshly cleaned studio is a mess once more. “What?”

“Where are you?”

“Um, sorry, I fell asleep at the studio,” She looks around at the mess, her new journal that she’d gotten from George is open on the coffee table, the little baggie being used as a bookmark for a different page.

“The studio?” There’s a dull ache in her head, or maybe it’s her jaw. No, it’s definitely her nose. Her mouth is dry and she fumbles until she finds a half empty can of dr pepper Matty had left behind, “What are you doing there?”

“I was working on something.”

“Is everything okay?”

She looks around. No, she can’t remember much and her mind is fuzzy.

“Yeah… yeah, um, I’ll just finish up here and be back.”

“Tom?”

“Hmm?”

Phoebe’s silent for too long on the other end of the phone and Tommie moves her hand back to look if she’s hung up or not.

“Matty’s put himself into rehab.”

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December 1st 2017

Tommie’s back in her little Welsh house. She’s decided to give Phoebe space for the next few months and to take some time to herself (and Button.)

But the doorbell rings one Friday morning and her brow raises as she drags herself away from her Criminal Minds marathon to answer it.

“Hiy- Gabby?”

The Australian model moves from foot to foot, trying to contain an excited Allen who jumps towards the redhead the moment he sees her. “Hi.”

Tommie stares at her, ignoring Button and Allen who reunite on her porch. “Can I- come in?”

“Sure, yes, of course, yes, come in.” 

She holds the door open and Gabby steps in, but when it closes behind her she doesn’t move into the living room, she stays in the hallway looking at the frames hung on the wall. 

“Is everything okay?”

Gabby lets go of Allen’s lead allowing the dog to run after Button who’s gone out to the back garden. Then she fishes into the pocket of her puffer coat grasping a little brown notebook.

“Caleb came to the old flat, dropped this off for you.”

She takes the book gently and then rubs her thumb over the cover, “Thank you.”

Gabby nods, “I’ve talked with Jamie,” She tells her, “He said everything is going through good, looks like you’re gonna win.”

“Yeah.”

The silence that stretches is awkward, Tommie’s too afraid to say anything in fear of it being the wrong thing.

“Can I ask a favour?”

She doesn’t respond, so Gabby goes on anyway, “Can you- have Allen? I just- I can’t, and he’s always loved you, and you have Button, so I thought… I thought that, you know-”

“Sure.”

Gabby nods, “Thank you.”

She lets her eyes travel the frames again, she notices that the one that used to hold a photo of Matty and Tommie in New York, huge marshmallow coats and the dog's leads in hands is gone. It’s been replaced with a picture from the same day of Button and Allen sharing a hotdog.

“Do you want a cup-”

“I should go.”

Gabby purses her lips, “I’m going back to Australia.”

“What about Matty?”

She shakes her head, “He broke up with me.”

“What?”

She looks at her shoes, “The day he put himself into rehab, he called me, broke up with me and disappeared.”

“Gabs, I’m-”

“I think it needed to happen. We haven’t been the same since-” She cuts herself off, she doesn’t want to blame Tommie, she knows it was technically Caleb’s fault that Matty found out about Tommie’s feelings in the first place.

“I’ve got a plane to catch.” Tommie nods then and opens the door for her.

Gabby stops before she takes the first step out the door and lets her hand land on Tommie’s shoulders. “I’m sorry we couldn’t be friends in the end.”

“We still can,” Tommie tries, one final attempt. “We can still be friends.”

Gabby shakes her head, “No, we can’t.”

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[naivesilver]

And BECAUSE you said I can go wild here goes nothing:

Dare I suggest "Why Won't you let me help you?" from the Angst Questions #2 BUT perhaps with the Divorce AU? :) (I know Christmas is over but these guys are forever so-)

Ok so forgive me, this is still in the kitchen but it's a whole other kind of cooking LMAO

Angst questions prompts

19."Why won't you let me help you?"

Truth be told, Lampwick isn't really sure how they got there.

He knows the kid's not around, which is a blessing, honestly. She doesn't need to bear witness to any of this bullshit - she's better off on her little playdate with Roland, making engine sounds for the toy cars she's pushing around. He knows August helped drop her off, because she's gotten understandably clingy lately, and then he came in to retrieve something or the other and they started...talking.

Of how things escalated, he has no clue, and yet here they are, shouting each other's ears off in the middle of the kitchen like pissy children. Delightful. "Just 'cause I've let you around to make things easier for the girl, doesn't mean you get to stick your nose in my business!"

"I- Damn it." August rubs a hand down his face, as if he were the one wronged by all the nasty words that have been flying around. "I don't want anything to do with your business, I just know that you're struggling and you're not letting anyone lend you a hand. It was an olive branch, but of course you couldn't just take it, uh?"

Lampwick hisses a curse through his teeth, one that he wouldn't let escape his lips if the other inhabitant of the house was around. "And of course you had to be the good guy to hold it out. Always playing the hero, always-"

"Jesus, why won't you just let me help you?"

"Because the last time you tried to help, you only made things worse!"

The silence that falls after that declaration is so deafening, it makes them both pause. Lampwick swallows through a throat that is suddenly dry as sand, but he doesn't take it back, because he can't. It's too late. Instead, he simply straightens up and clenches his jaw as the seconds tick by, standing his ground.

Then August says, slow and careful: "My father had died, Lampwick. I'm- I'm sorry for the stuff I said back then. You know I am. But you can't blame everything bad that ever happened on me."

Reason would say that he's right. However, Lampwick hasn't listened to reason once in his life since he had to plan a funeral with a toddler in arms, so he scoffs venomously, like the snake he sometimes feels to be. "Well now my sister's dead. Does that mean I get a pass to be an asshole? Or is that just a you thing?"

"If that's what will make you feel better, yeah. By all means, treat me like crap. But don't- don't shut me out just because you resent me. You're not the only one on the line. Nati-"

For some reason, that makes him more furious than ever, though he doesn't let even half of what he truly thinks slip through. "Leave Renata out of this!" You have no right. "She's doing fine without your help." I can't look back now, it's too late. "We both are." Don't make me question myself again. "You're not her father, August."

"Neither are you."

It's a simple thing. It's nothing. It's true. And yet it hurts worse than all the other stuff they've been screaming, and Lampwick wavers as if he'd actually been punched in the gut, a cold sensation sinking through his skin. August seems to realize he must have gone too far, too, because he opens his mouth again, but Lampwick doesn't give him the time to explain himself, instead turning around to lean onto the counter, his head hanging heavy as a bag of bricks.

"Just... Just get out. Please."

He hears the other man suck in a breath, hesitating. Then there are receding footsteps, a closing door and the sound of a motorbike being set into motion, and suddenly he's alone again, wallowing in his guilt like an icy bath.

[elisedonut]

OK SO just like with Paperseer

Separate LoveWater Propaganda post time

None of this is new stuff It's just thoughts on why Penelope Clearwater/Luna Lovegood could be cute that i used for a ship battle

Penelope is a Prefect during Luna's first few school years and they are both in Ravenclaw

which means the chance of a Little Baby Sapphic Crush on Luna's side is very possible

or just in general them having a history

because Luna was pretty obviously bullied and as a Prefect Penelope would make sense as someone who could try to step in to help her

We already know that Penny is likely very open minded or just likely to indulge people depending on how you interpret it because of how Hermione was able to convince her to use her compact mirror to turn corners in COS

so it would be reasonable to assume she would at listen when Luna goes off on random tangents about things that don't exist

Penelope was with Percy for awhile so she's more then capable of dealing with someone who's not really neuro-typical

like it would have a learning curve because Luna and Percy are you know neuro-divergent in different ways but I think she could do it

I believe in her

The most realistic scenario for them imo is probably a Post War scenario

so because of that I do think it would make sense that Luna would find comfort in someone who tried to be nice to her in the past after everything she goes through during the war

someone comfortable

someone who could make sure she eats when she's supposed to.

Someone who doesn't immediately say she's wrong about the things she believes in and just lets her info-dump whenever she needs to

And actually listens while she does.

Which I do think Penelope could be that.

Also they would look really cute next to each other

Alright so last time it was jumbled thoughts so this time we are following a theme

So Luna with a crush right?

Luna is more perceptive then she seems at a glance so I could see her noticing that out of the Prefects in her house the main one that keeps trying to help her is the same girl

I think after the first few times of Penelope finding out someone had done something she started paying more attention to her leading to a couple situations where she was able to stop something ahead of time or circumvent something

Like when seeing something she recognizes as Luna's while on her rounds she'll just take it back with her. When she finds her alone in the halls she'll make sure to walk her back herself. When she finds Luna sleeping somewhere odd she'll levitate her back to her bed. Stuff of that nature.

Also really like the idea that after Luna's shoes vanish a couple times during her first year she tries to keep an extra pair in Luna's size in her room

Like when she gives them to Luna they too will disappear but the thought of it is sweet to me

Of course whoever is doing this really does manage not to be caught which does cause a bit of a stir on if Luna is right about it being some creature or not.

Just because I think that's fun and I could see Ravenclaws in particular not wanting to actually be caught being bullies to that degree like they're not trying to make Luna like fear them or something more just to make her life harder because they don't like her because she's "Weird"

Who ever it is also notices that Penny has been watching Luna more as well so they pull back a little bit to keep from being caught.

Which is a nice break for Luna until Penny gets Petrified and it all gets so much worse again until the end of the year.

I think Luna blames the way her heart keeps beating faster around her on some sort of creature too. Even though while she's petrified she visits her a lot. I just think it's one of those kinds of crushes for her where she really doesn't realize she ever had one until a few years later.

Like yeah her heart beats faster,

and she get's really happy when she runs into her in the halls,

and she felt extremely upset learning she had gotten hurt,

but it never crosses her mind that this is a crush.

She's just over here like this is my comfort prefect she doesn't even view the two of them as friends even because Penny never said they were friends

alright that's all i got point is

its cute c:

[blackstarchanx3new]

Creations AU FNAF 4, But I obnoxiously over explain it PT 3

FNAF 4 pages 60-90

*Warning ahead for heavily abusive language.

Oh boy I sure hope we get an answer.

Lmao mom and dad are fighting.

Yikes Diana that's not very nice.

Hah nope.

Okay but why did people think this genuine moment between William and his son was somehow malicious???

Dude is just talking to his son who is currently breaking down wtf is wrong with some people??? XD

This was after Sister Location on webtoon too so there should be no excuse for this bad faith reading of William's character after some of the scenes in that comic. I won't spoil but like...??????????

Like William is a bad person in cannon and this comic but it's legit-

William: *breathes*

Audiance: YOU BASTARD!!!!!

HE'S A PERSON TOO AND IS WRITTEN AS SUCH?

The reference to being a devil will only make more sense as the FNAF 1 ARC draws to a close.

Oh ho ho hooooooo.

So, that's why Sammy's a fucking weirdo about robots in the FNAF 1 Arc.

Also this gives context to the whole scene where Mike and his sister in law talk about Charlie still being alive while having a grave in the FNAF 1 Arc.

The one walking around is a robot.

So unlike everything implied in cannon: Creations William loves his children.

Is it always in a healthy/good way: NO. AND THAT WILL ONLY BECOME MORE APARENT AS FNAF 1'S ARC COTNENUES.

He even loves the one that indirectly KILLED one of his others lmao.

I just enjoy giving William an actual character. Lmfao. Unlike a lot of people who get on a high horse for making him a plank of wood. X'D

Yes. he's evil man you wrote the most basic boring bland mother fucker on the planet to be said antagonist. You're very cute making that your antagonist while not thinking about how making him that fucking boring and personalities affects the themes or ideas of your work. Here's a fucking cookie???

I hate this way of writing William if you can't tell lmfao.

"He can't have a motive or you're humanizing him" is such a horse shit take and I won't stfu about it considering how prevalent of an idea that shit was on Twitter. X'D

Idk if this is a wake up call that women can be abusers too but like, they can be lmao. Trust me on that.

Oops. The demon thing heard you.

William's default to dealing with Diana is to try and fix things and placate her enough to where she won't go nuclear. Which is sad, but he sucks in different ways.

Really they are a tale of "A match made in hell".

Everyone makes shitty choices here lmao.

Diana antagonizes somebody off their rocker and William's a spinless bastard to both his wife and his creepy demon.

He didn't wanna do it himself and I find that amusing.

The poorest of poor choices were made by everyone involved.

There's little sympathy for any parties here lmao. Except maybe Ballora. X'D

That instant regret lmao. "I MADE A MISTAKE WOOPS"

That's a repeat thing with our good ol Willy boy.

He makes a mistake, and then keeps repeating the same mistake lmao.

William is stuck in a loop of perpetually falling into making the same mistakes over and over and it is a theme of the series WILLIAM is the one who needs to solve HIS OWN problems.

William takes no accountability where it's REALLY NEEDED, blames and pushes it onto others can't find the strength to fight his own inner demons and falls into the same pitfalls over and over.

Hehe your house is a bit odd there William.

William's just fed up with everyone involved in this situation lmao.

I mean yeah, the demon thing IS a bad liar.

He directly cause Diana to die lmao.

And I like William calling him out on that. William in some part is scared of his own inner demons taking form as this thing that mimics him.

"The demon" as I call him is important and also a direct reflection of William's own mistakes. William not confronting or taking care of this "Demon" in any meaningful way part of the damn problem.

Why the fuck you lyyyyyyin.

Why you always lyyyyyyin'-

That bold faced lie will only become more apparent as the story goes on. This bitch has plenty of agency he just likes William to take the fall for everything.

Which in a way is fair. He is a result of William's as well. ;)

Once again have reached the image cap because WHYYYY

[what-gs-watching]

“Hey, fսck you for being emotionally healthy right now.”

Okay listen, I realize I’m like, super fucking late to this party. And my sister bugged me like, forever and ever about it and I kept putting it off because I was wallowing in seasonal baking shows (which are so soothing for some reason, no regrets) and whatever else.

But Y’ALL, Shrinking is FUCKING INCREDIBLE. Holyyyyyy hell. I am honestly super overwhelmed. It’s just…beautiful.

Wherein therapist Jimmy Laird (Jason Segel) and his daughter deal with the loss of Jimmy’s wife in a tragic traffic accident, surrounded by an incredible group of supportive friends, including Jimmy’s mentor Paul (freakin’ HARRISON FORD), their neighbor Liz (aka Jordan from Scrubs!!) and her husband, his coworker Gaby, and his best friend Brian (aka the guy who is in one of favorite newish christmas movies, Single All the Way).

As we know, I’m all about the relationships in anything that I’m watching, and yooo, this show is ENTIRELY RELATIONSHIPS. It will make you want to sob and then immediately laugh your ass off. It will make you feel like you can get through anything if you just have the right people in your corner. It’ll help convince you  that people are fundamentally flawed but they can and they do get better. Honestly, it’s just going to make you FEEL.

This show will clobber you over the head and then hug the shit out of you. And I have to tell you, two episodes in a row is more than enough. Stop there. Let yourself recover, you’ll need it.

I’ve tried therapy like, one and a half times in my life and it was never super helpful, I assume I was going to the wrong people or I wasn’t in the right space or whatever the eff, but man this show makes me want to try again. Can Shrinking just be my therapy? Can they just make this show forever until I can tangentially figure out what’s wrong with me? That’d be incredibly helpful.

There’s so many good storylines going on. Jimmy’s relationship with his daughter. His neighbor stepping in and parenting her while Jimmy spiraled. Paul being a cantankerous fucker, battling through his Parkinson’s but still seeing patients, still helping Jimmy and Gaby be the best professionals they can be. Jimmy reconnecting with his best friend. And going completely off the reservation in his therapy practice and being slightly unethical but still helping his patients get results. And then basically adopting Sean, who is one of my favorite parts of the show (although every part is my favorite part, honestly). Sweet Sean, a vet that’s running around getting into bar fights because he can’t handle his rage, who ultimately moves into Jimmy’s house and struggles with his relationship with his dad and getting himself back together after so much trauma and is just a charming addition to the entire ensemble. 

One of the best things about Shrinking is that you can see a little bit of yourself in everyone. I’m definitely some of Jimmy, but I’m also Gaby and Alice and Liz and Brian. I want to be more like Liz’s husband Derek, and also Derrick (aka D2, aka COACH! from New Girl and the most handsome man everyone has seen in real life). I want to ‘get in the sea’ about it. I want to be able to say ‘everything goes my way’ unironically. I want to tumble rocks (not really) and begrudgingly give them out to the people I love. 

It’s definitely difficult to explain the power of this show, but I think a lot of it comes from the acceptance of everybody’s trauma. They all have heavy shit that they’re dealing with, but no one is ever told to get the fuck over it. Jimmy was selfish as hell in the beginning with his grief, he gave up and couldn’t look at his kid because she looked like her mom and he left her to the freakin’ neighbor but no one ever really blamed him. Everyone is given grace. And yeah there’s fights about the shitty things each character does but it comes from a place of love and acknowledgement that they’re going through something. 

Why can’t everyone be like that? Like, ‘sorry about your shit, you work it out however you need to and I’m here to help let me know what you need’ and that’s it. Everyone’s trauma is their own, don’t make the way they’re trying to fucking deal with it about you. It’s really, really not. Give people some fucking GRACE. Everyone deserves it.

Also y’all. THE MUSIC! Am I listening to a spotify playlist someone put together while I write this even though I’m supposed to be doing my actual job? Yes. It appeals to the hipster in me. It’s hitting me with songs my husband and I used to obsess over when we were dating, and that makes me feel all the things. And I mean, shit,  the theme song is written by Ben Gibbard from Death Cab For Cutie. It’ll WRECK you:  

Help me carry this weight / that's dragging me down / Pull me out of the drink before I start to drown / Let the wreckage all sink / To where the fishes are frightening / I wanna hear myself think again

It’s no surprise that this show is doing something similar to me that Ted Lasso did, since it’s another Bill Lawrence joint, and Brett Goldstein is involved. NO spoilers, but his character here is the exact opposite of Roy fucking Kent and it’s still just as beautiful. He will make you sob. A lot. And I can’t wait to see what happens to him next season. 

The point is, I finished this like, five days ago and it’s still circling around my brain. I want to crawl back into it and wrap myself in it like a blanket. It’s funny, it’s devastating, it’s deep and superficial. Shrinking introduced me to “greasing the peach” which is absurd, but it also  makes me want to be a better person.

I really do just want to hear myself think again. You probably do too; let Jimmy help you.

[booksrbetterthanpeople]

2000s Powerpuff Girls quotes?

Monarch: Splendidly evil, isn’t it?

Evillustrator: Evil? How about stupid?! Yes, thanks to your foolishness, we will be reduced to nothing! Nothing! Like the amount of intelligence inside your head! Nothing! Like the amount of respect I get after five seasons on this show!

—

Gabriel: No! You are not the more evil parent, you are the more stupid parent, which makes you unfit to control your sentimonster!

Tomoe: Is not so!

Gabriel: Is so!

Tomoe: Not so!

Gabriel: Is so!

Tomoe: Not so!

Gabriel: Is so!

Tomoe: Not so!

Gabriel: Is so!

Tomoe: Not so!

Adrien/Kagami: SHUT UP!

Adrien: We don’t care which one of you is more eviler, or more stupider, or whateverer!

—

Reshma: Hey, you haven’t lost just yet. You’ve just been attacking the problem from the wrong angle. Listen. What do boys fear more than anything in the world?

Sabrina: … Bugs?

Chloe: No, Sabrina. That’s what you’re afraid of.

Sabrina: Oh, yeah.

Reshma: Look, you girls have what boys fear most. Instead of fighting, try being nice.

Akuma Class Girls: What?!

Reshma: You know. “Nice”.

Rose: *Giggles*

Marinette: Oh! I get it!

Alix: Ew, gross!

—

Max: *After pulling the lever for the hundredth time, everything goes back to normal* Hmm… No. *About the pull the lever again*

Kim: NO! WAIT, NO!

Alix: That’s right! That’s right!

Max: *Cheekily* Hee hee hee.

—

Ladybug: We girls gotta look out for each other!

Ryuko: Oh, really? *She, Rena Rouge, and Purple Tigress step out from the shadows* Was Volpina looking out for me when she stabbed me with my own sword?

Purple Tigress: Was she looking out for me when she broke my arm?

Rena Rouge: Was she looking out for me when she stole my look? *Purple Tigress and Ryuko look at her strangely* … Well, she did!

—

Cosette: *Glaring at Lila* I can’t take another day of this!

Ismael: Yeah! And just look at what she’s done to Marc!

Marc: *In the fetal position* I’m not a lanky crybaby. I’m not a lanky crybaby. I’m not a lanky crybaby.

—

Simon: *After the Lie-based sentimonster shrinks* Well, I’m all out of lies.

Lacey: Me, too.

Simon: Your turn, Marc.

Marc: … *Whistles innocently*

Aurore: Come on! We did it!

Jean: Just tell the truth!

Denise: We’re counting on you.

Mireille: We can’t do it without you.

Marc: … All right! All right! I’m the one who accidentally poured salt in your coffees! I’m the one who drank the juice straight out of the carton! I’m the one who didn’t wipe up the pen ink! And I’m the one who left the toilet seat up and blamed it on Ismael!

Cosette: What?

Reshma: What?

Ismael: What was that last thing?

—

Ismael: Well, how do you know it’s a girl?

Alix: Squirrels eat nuts, stupid!

—

Austin Q: Don’t worry, M. Grotke. I was an accident, too.

—

Marinette: I guess we shouldn't judge someone by what they look like.

Rose: Even if they're as ugly as you.

—

Nathaniel: What are we gonna do?

*Later*

Nathaniel: *Wearing Austin Q’s clothes and some platform sneakers* Well, how do I look?

Austin Q: *In his underwear* Boy, do you look dumb!

Ivan: Need we say more?

—

Austin B: For a second there, I thought you were turning all sappy on us.

Austin A: Yeah, and “dumb”? Jeez, Quinny, if you’re gonna do graffiti, at least spell the words right. Sheesh! Talk about dumb.

Austin T: Yeah, what a dum-bee.

—

Adrien: So, that was actually you in front of the school?

Nathaniel: Uh-huh.

Kim: Which means you ate that cockroach?!

Nathaniel: Mm-hmm.

Austin A: Yeah, and it was really disgusting! I almost blew chunks!

Nino: *Runs into the classroom* Dude! I could barely contain myself hiding in the closet!

Adrien: Nino, Nath ate a cockroach!

Nino: *Gags* Dude. I am so sorry.

Nathaniel: That’s okay. It tasted like chicken.

—

*Guys Sleepover at Adrien’s house!*

Max: I’m sure it was just a one time thing, and everything will be back to normal tomorrow morning. Now, if you don’t mind, I’m going to get some rest. Goodnight.

Narrator: The City of Paris-!

*The guys stare at a wet spot on the bed*

Narrator: Oh, not again!

Kim: See, Ivan?! I knew it was you!

Ivan: Oh, yeah? How do you know it wasn’t Adrien?

Adrien: Kim, I bet it was you! You were the first one to point the finger!

Kim: Oh, yeah? Well Nino was the most distracted yesterday!

Nino: Oh, really? Well, Nathaniel has more problems than all of us combined!

Max: True.

Nathaniel: Oh, thats funny! Coming from the guy who slept right in the middle of the bed!

Nino: WHAT?!

—

Jagged: Uh… How do we do that?

Pigella: Well, how do you think?

Mme. Bustier: I would use my superpowers!

Jagged: Or a Mirage!

Nora: That’s stupid! Use Sublimation!

CapriKid: Oh my God. You people don’t have superpowers like us, so you have to use your own normal powers! Now, how do you get a sentimonster to stop destroying your town?

Jagged: Destroy him!

Citizens: Yes! Destroy him!

Roi Singe: Good. But how are you going to destroy him?

Jagged: … We don’t know!

Citizens: Yes! We don’t know!

Purple Tigress: Well, the sentimonster is stuck in the electrical wires, so what doesn’t mix well with electricity?

Mme. Bustier: Uh… Feet!

Bob Roth: Frankenstein!

Jagged: A rubber chicken!

Miraculous Heroes: *Facepalm*

Rooster Bold: This is going to be tougher than I thought.

Ladybug: Let’s try this another way.

Chat Noir: Got it. Hey! Why shouldn’t you put a toaster in a bathtub?!

Anarka: Well, duh! You wouldn’t be able to make toast in the kitchen!

M. Ramier: Yeah. You would have to go to the bathroom every time you you wanted toast. What a waste of time!

Viperion: … Why shouldn’t you put a toaster in a bathtub full of WATER?!

M. Ramier: Because your toast would get soggy!

Jagged: So! If we can get the sentimonster to take a bath… Then his toast will get soggy!

Mme. Bustier: Yeah! That’s how we destroy him! Get his toast soggy!

Carapace: NO! What would happen if YOU were in a bathtub when the toaster fell in?!

Nadja: Um, you, uh… Get shocked?

Miraculous Heroes: Yes! Now you have it!

Jagged: So! If we can get the sentimonster to take a bath, then he will get shocked!

Roger: But where are we going to find a bathtub to fit the sentimonster?

Nadja: And where do we get a toaster?

Mme. Bustier: Do you have a toaster?

Nadja: I don’t have a toaster.

Jagged: Does anyone have a toaster?!

Ryuko: There’s another way! You already have your toaster! It’s the electrical wire wrapped around the sentimonster! Now, what do you fill a bathtub with?

Citizens: Water?

Pegasus: Very good!

Firefighter: *Holding a hose* Where the heck are we going to get that much water?

Miraculous Heroes: Figure it out!

[girl4music]

Now that I’ve gotten to watch the entire reaction, Naj really said it all. Everything that matters anyway.

And this is why I hate ‘Empty Places’. And why I think it’s just written in as drama for the sake of drama and has no organic development whatsoever as far as character interaction consistency goes.

If I was honest, I don’t really like the entire season but there are some good episodes so I can’t say I hate it. But it’s just that ‘Empty Places’ aggravated me so much that it’s hard to praise anything about Season 7. This is the bottom line: You do not kick the fucking hero out of her own fucking house!

But Naj, I don’t even know why you’re giving Willow a break because Willow’s entitlement and arrogance as the leader at the start of Season 6 is something else. She’s all “You do what I tell you to do. No questions asked.” Yeah, you’re the leader but calm the tude Miss Thing. This is what I mean about her being a stricter General than Buffy and that to have her say “I’m worried about your judgement” in ‘Empty Places’ about the controlling way she leads is Grade A hypocrisy considering how she led them.

You’re worried about HER judgement? Hers? 😑

Okay, maybe Anya does have a point.

Buffy didn’t earn her role as Slayer in the traditional way. But she sacrificed for it when it mattered and therefore she earned it in the long run. She could have just given up and she was tempted to. And absolutely nobody would blame her for succumbing to that temptation. But the fact is that she is still here doing it day by day. The Slayer’s responsibility. And I can’t believe Willow never defended her against Anya in that scene when that is exactly what she said in ‘The Weight Of The World’ when Buffy was punishing herself for even thinking of giving up. She tells her to snap out of it, she tells her to get a grip and be a hero like the supportive best friend she is. Now THAT’S in character for Willow, not this coward act where she’s even afraid to tell Anya off, let alone her girlfriend for the absolute load of shite they’re expelling in saying that Buffy doesn’t deserve to be the leader. Willow knows that SHE IS!

She more than earned it considering she didn’t even want it to begin with. Anya needs to reassess her thoughts a little bit because she’s missing the point.

They all do. They’re scared and they’re in pain. I understand that. And I do think many of them had valid arguments… I understand their point of views too… but they took it way out of proportion in kicking Buffy out of her own fucking house!

As for Buffy. She should trust in her team. They’ve earned it too. That’s my only gripe there. I felt it would have been better if both Buffy and Willow led. Were both General. Commander-in-Chief. Because Anya was right about that. It didn’t have to be Slayers only to lead. I think Willow earned it too. Without a leader, there is no direction, no aim, no trajectory and two heads are better than one.

And I don’t know about anyone else in the comments section but for me, what makes this episode the worst episode for me - why it’s so infuriating to watch - is because team work is not being considered. It’s not about who is wrong or right - which side to take/not take blah blah blah. It’s about understanding and trusting each other as team members. A team leader is still a member. They’re not “above” or “better” than anyone. But the reason why all team members take direction from the team leader is because there must be somebody that takes command or things get out of control very quickly and loss happens as a result. And while you can argue that this happens with the direction of the leader as well - which is true, - you’re still better off being led than being not led because at least something is happening in effort to rule out one option over another for being unviable. You’ll quickly find out that without a leader leading, this doesn’t happen and time and resources/rations are both being wasted as well as running out. They’re in a war. They fully know this. The last thing they should be doing is doing nothing about it and force-relieving their leader who is doing everything they can - albeit not in the best way they could.

[lottiecrabie]

in addition to my last idea, her nightmare is like being. a bad christian/dirty/wrong for both the sex stuff and also just like associating herself with/loving and atheist. So when he wakes her up she’s still confused and she’s like out of it and sobbing and she’s like “don’t touch me i’m dirty, im gonna fuck you up i’ve messed up everything” and BECAUSE the nightmare featured him being an actually bad person seeing him is like scaring her (but she’s also scared because we all know rn she wants nothing more that to jump into his arms, and with the church teaching and the nightmare she’s all just so mixed up and confused after just waking up). I imagine matty is just like :((( my poor girl. Like they would be at his house ofc and he really really wants to hold her until she’s better but he can read her so well and she keeps saying stuff about the face that shes “dirty” and he knows she’s scared of him rn (which makes him sad but like it’s not her fault…and he doesn’t know why she’s scared). So despite the fact that it is his house, and his bed, and she’s literally wearing his clothes, he gets up out his bed and he puts his arms up and he’s like “i’m not gonna hurt you ok, i’m sorry you’re upset, i don’t know what’s going on but i feel like you need some space from me rn. Which is fine love i promise i don’t blame you, i’m just gonna sit out in the hallway for a few minutes while you calm down unless you say otherwise alright?” and she’s just looking at him all teary eyed because he’s right, but also how did he know that? like how does he know her so well to know that she felt guilty and he told her not too without her saying anything? And she’s starting to cry a little and she nods her head yes and matty sits out in the hall for like three minutes (which was really all he could muster, leaving his girl alone while she was crying is harddddd). When he goes back in she immediately whips her head up and she’s like “i’m so sorry oh my god i don’t know what came o-“ and before she can even finish matty is wiping away her tears and he’s like “it’s alright i promise ok?” and she’s like “you should even put up with me and my shit” and he’s like “don’t say that about yourself”

i don’t even know what i could add bc yeah! this is very soft and cute omg. like you Know that boy would be freaking out waking up to her crying in his bed and trying to both calm her down and not overwhelm her. the next day he would be so soft kissing all over her face and asking her how she’s feeling and she’d grow all shy and embarrassed and guilty and try to brush it under the rug or apologize and he’s like no love it’s okay<33

also i Love this recent trend of people sending Me blurbs like. this role reversal is 👯‍♀️👯‍♀️

[animezinglife]

Sorry I'm not just reblogging you like a proper person but yeah I totally agree with you. Personally I did think Tamlin was a little nicer in book 1 - but he was also less traumatized then. He really craves normalcy in book 2, so he does high lord stuff like he knows it from other high lords.

In the end, they just are incompatible, yes. They both absolutely suck at communication. Tamlin always was awkward with social interactions but they both get worse after UTM. I also always felt like Tamlin got anxiety - or yes even paranoia, which makes sense, considering. And Feyre is all over the place lol. I generally feel the word 'abuse' is used extremely inflationary in online discussions, but I honestly don't think it super applies to Tamlin and Feyre. Like everyone calls him an abuser and even with the shit he did, I really don't quite see that. But I also kinda like him as a character so I'm biased. Considering how the narrative paints it, I totally get why people project their domestic violence trauma onto him. It is all kind of framed that way for sure.

You're fine! Any format of conversation that works well with you works for me, too. There's also nothing wrong with a bias towards a character. I don't have one towards him, but I do towards Rhys and Lucien. I'll inevitably have to face that at some point I'm sure.

I definitely lean a bit more towards your end on the "abuse" thing. I'd nearly put it in quotations in my post, but I do think it's more the manipulation and control--whether fully intentional or not--that made me feel comfortable using the word. It's an inflammatory word for sure and yeah, I definitely see a projection with the fanbase. That said, those behaviors genuinely can escalate and worsen in real life. I don't blame them for it--it's just a different take that I think leaves people with different expectations going in.

Maybe he was a bit nicer--truthfully, I just don't remember that much of him in the first book. It doesn't surprise me that his desire for normalcy goes a little overboard though to the point of over-exercising control in the places he shouldn't. I can't say I'm all that mad at the reason he locked Feyre in the house. I just don't agree with the locking her in the house part.

Feyre's a funny one. Right now, the way she's acting with Rhys almost gives me a little bit of an emotional affair vibe. Personally, I've liked him better than Tam from the get-go, but for someone she supposedly wants to think is her enemy and absolutely sees him as Tamlin's, she really has a habit of spilling her gut to him and finding a lot of comfort with him.

Which, don't get me wrong, is something that can absolutely happen on an unspoken, biological level in real life, but I did smirk a bit when they were having the little three truths conversation when he was taking her to the House of Wind and she just word-vomits everything she's been feeling about her relationship with Tamlin.

Like...girl, that's a lot to tell your not-enemy who at this point in time still technically is your current lover's enemy.

I hate to bring another series into it, but a lot of the reactions to things remind me A LOT of the Twilight era.

I have to be honest: my opinion of Tamlin has somehow not changed at all between the first book and this one. Or at least, it hasn't changed enough for me to even acknowledge. I didn't hate him and didn't love him in the first, and I'm still pretty much in the same spot now.

I'm also not at all new to the fantasy genre and not even new to the fae subgenre. Tamlin's honestly pretty mild in comparison to a lot of what you get in those (especially older books).

Again, a comparison doesn't right a wrong or lessen it, but he's definitely not the worst fictional guy out there, and definitely isn't the worst fae love interest.

[calypso-finale]

Hundred Fourteen. Part 4

Oakley has been so devastated, but he hasn’t really said a thing, all I know he walked out now, and he was swearing on the phone, I don’t know what actually happened “is it safe?” Ti asked, she has picked up Aziel he is so sad “yeah sure, you ok baby?” I asked him “he is so sad, he wanted me to hold him but that hug, aww he was holding onto you for dear life, he needed you here” nodding my head smiling “he was very much gripping onto me, he didn’t say much but he walked off swearing on the phone, so I am not sure, I just know that Neil tried to take his life” Tianna cringed “oh no” I shrugged “that man has been depressed, I mean think about it what has he got going for him? He literally is with a woman he don’t want but why stay around, what is wrong with him, I just don’t know but Oakley is very devastated about it and he’s now gone to whatever” Wadz walked in “oh where is he?” he said, Tianna moved to the side “he’s walked off on the phone, just swearing” he closed the door “oh right, I will wait here” nodding my head “were you with him?” Wadz just looked at me “erm yeah” so he knows “what happened? Did he find him?” I asked “we was erm, we went back to the house. Oakley was going to drop Aziel off, his dad said to him I want to spend some time with him, bring him to the house. I will take him school; Oakley is like fine. Whatever he will be able to have studio time, so he erm, well he came to get me but then we got caught up. It was like ten, it’s late so Oakley called his dad and was like fuck it, why have him there. It’s late, he is falling asleep, his dad wasn’t picking up. Rachel that day went to Ireland so she ain’t there to call. So he said let’s just check on him, best thing to do and explain he can’t stay, it’s late no point, Aziel needs to sleep. It’s ten so I get it, we went there. The house was dead silent, no sound or anything, lights were all off, Oakley is like ok what the fuck, and erm. Went to the garage because that light was on, the door open. I just grabbed Aziel, that’s all I did, he was in front, and I don’t know if he saw” looking at Ti “he did that?” he nodded his head “yeah, saw him just there but like I grabbed Aziel, I just thought nah he can’t see that, but I am unsure if he had a glimpse or not, but it wasn’t good” that is so horrible, my heart.

I don’t even want to mention a thing, I don’t want to ask what he saw but Aziel fell asleep in my arms, so he slept which is good, he needs to rest “you took your time” I said to Oakley “Juke was on the phone, and I was speaking to the doctors or whatever” he sat down “ok, is everything going well or not?” he shook his head “he isn’t breathing on his own, he ain’t lasting. I knew that when I came with him here. They assumed he was trying he isn’t, but I told Juke and he goes you told that bitch, meaning you and that is why I walked off and just you know cussed him out, I told you because I needed you that is why” smiling at him “I will accept he is upset for him to say that but I will break his neck if he does that again” I made that clear, Oakley is looking at Aziel “you think it’s my fault, he asked for Aziel. I was late, maybe he was lonely, maybe I took too long” shaking my head “stop it, it’s not your fault, none of this is. Please don’t blame yourself, your dad has been this way too long when he could have broke free” Oakley sighed out “I told him something and after that he went weird on me, and I hate it. my dad has been pathetic his whole life, I made them who they are, and he still didn’t change, and I wanted the best for him. Maybe he will be at peace now” holding my hand out to him, Oakley held my hand “does your mom know?” I asked “yeah, she took it really bad” I suppose she will “you know when you be with someone that long, no matter what the relationship is. They become part of your life, so I get it. I am sorry, I pray he pulls through” Oakley shook his head “if he does, he will be bed bound. I don’t know what to do, he has no next of kin, so it’s me. They all in Guyana looking at me to get them here, I can’t do that so it’s me. I don’t know Rylee; he won’t be the same guy” this is a hard decision.

Oakley has been staring off and holding my hand for so long, he is in a daze “I am hurt, I am upset but at the same time he really did nothing for me, so in a sense what use was he. I just don’t know; I love him because he is my dad and that is it. he has no back bone, he allowed shit to happen every time, I am just so confused” I know Oakley is fighting his demons, there is a lot going on in his mind “I need to make a decision before anyone comes, he lived a miserable life and then just to keep him alive to live a more miserable one then what? What you think?” Oakley looked to me “don’t do that to me” I said “look, Oakley” my sister said “you already know what to do in your heart. Ok he wasn’t the best dad; he wasn’t there as he should have been, but you care, and you know what to do. Your mom will probably keep him bed bound, she had him like that anyways” Tianna is harsh “free him” looking at Ti “I don’t know this man, but I am sad for him, and he deserves to be free, he became complacent in life, that is his own fault, but he wants to be free now, it’s time. And I don’t think you should be sad about it” Tianna said what I couldn’t, I feel so bad “you right” he sighed out “we never know a person, but your dad was a kind man when I saw him, but you wouldn’t seek a father figure if he was good too” Oakley got up, I just went mute and I don’t know why “Rachel seems weird, she would keep him bed bound. He’s been bed bound all his fucking life, his father has no fucking life” Tianna said to me in a whisper, the door closed “you right” Wadz said “your sister is right, I think Oakley will be ok because he lived without him but it’s just the initial hurt” Wadz got a point, I just hope he will be ok.

Oakley asked me to go home, I didn’t want to say no and then refuse but I think he didn’t want me to be around when his family comes. He didn’t want me to be around that, I mean he’s protecting me, and I don’t want to add to his stress so I obeyed and came home. I didn’t want to go but what can I do so I am home for now just waiting on Oakley to say what he wants and all that, I am worried about him mostly. I answered the call from my dad “hello” I thought he would be calling soon, my body clock right now is a mess, I’ve just not slept “I heard you know; I am so upset for him. I just spoke to him” oh I know my dad would have “Neil is selfish you know; I can’t even lie. I am mad with that guy; he’s stressing out Oakley for what. Nobody asked him to be unhappy, he chose to be. I want to be there for Oakley, but I can’t” my dad is mad “I know dad, I don’t know what to say to him. Did he tell you what he done or not? He just wanted me to go home, that family of his came” my dad sighed out “he told the doctors to not save him” I cringed “Tianna said a lot, I didn’t know what to say” I mumbled “he mentioned but she is right, take care of Oakley. He needs it, you know he plays dad and husband to that side, Neil was nothing to that family, but a sperm donor so be there for Oakley Rylee, you be the woman he needs I’m saying this is the moments he needs you, I’ll do a flying visit soon but yeah, I’m sorry to hear. I mean he’s still a human, he’s still his dad but why, even YB is mad. Just yeah, how you holding up?” My dad asked “trying to sleep, I’m just zoned out. Tianna came with me, she is a big help with Aziel and I’m glad she did” my dad cooed out “good, you girls stick by. But yeah just hold tight, that family is like the Barbados lot” I sniggered “dad” he is silly “did I lie” shaking my head sighing out “I’m just saying, but love you daughter” walking over to the bedroom window “oh Oakley is here” Tianna just opened the gate I am guessing “he wants you looks like” my dad said “I’ll leave you to it” I sighed out “yeah, love you too dad, speak soon” disconnecting the call, he is driving with no sleep so I am not happy with that at all really, making my way out of the bedroom. I wonder if I can get him to sleep really, I haven’t slept but neither has he either. Making my way down “I was about to tell you, he shouldn’t be driving either” nodding my head slowly “I know, thanks. I can’t sleep really, just the daylight and everything, I am out of sync” opening the door “I’ll leave you to it” my sister went upstairs, Oakley just came to me without even a word he just hugged me. Wrapping my arms around his neck “are you ok?” He placed his face in the crook of my neck, kicking the door shut. He didn’t even speak a word but just hugged me, he is crying again I can hear his light sobs, so I remained silent and just hugged him, clearly he wanted me and my heart right now, I love him.

He moved back from the hug, and wiped his face with his free hand because in the other he has an envelope which I didn’t notice until now “why did you drive? You haven’t slept, anything could have happened to you” he just shrugged “I just needed a hug, I just needed you” my heart skipped a beat hearing that “I am here, but please don’t drive. I need you too, you want to sleep?” I rather he did, he shook his head “the family is there, I just escaped” his phone started ringing, he got his phone out of his pocket and declined the call, then he proceeded to turn his phone off “I need space” he said “that is fine, but I need you to rest” Oakley just shook his head “they mad with me just because I made the decision you know, like it’s my fault that I did it but he would have no life? Like no, he can barely breathe on his own, I am not doing it” he shook his head “Oakley, you made the right decision, he would be just here. That is it, does she want to just take care of him?” I am confused with that woman “she loves him now, I don’t know. I just walked out, but erm. There was this, said my name on it. It was on the side, just my name and it’s my dad handwriting, you mind if you look in it for me please?” nodding my head “I can’t do it” he asked “I can, that is fine. You want to go upstairs, come. Let’s go upstairs” I asked, he passed me the envelope though, I think he wanted it out of his hands but it’s just horrible to know that this may potentially be his dad writing it for him, I don’t want too but I would do it for him, I love Oakley so much and I do it for him. I wonder why, what made him do this because I know my dad is mad but like people can be undercover depressed too, just because they don’t express it, he was literally just there. Neil has no purpose, and it was crazy to see, he didn’t even raise his kids, neither of them did. Oakley raised himself plus Juke, but he got blamed for his shit too.

I sighed out, I mean this is fucking crazy. Looking inside the envelope, there is a picture in here too. Taking the picture out, seeing it’s a picture of Oakley and Juke, Oakley looked about ten here “what is it?” he asked, “it’s a picture of you and Juke” passing it him “oh yeah” he looked at it “when I thought life was ok” he said, opening the paper and I shuddered, I hate this shit “what is on there?” he asked “erm, it’s a letter” I just said, “are you ok for me to read it?” I asked before I did, he nodded his head “Oakley Neil, I originally wanted to call you Neil, but your mother thought otherwise but I like Oakley Neil, I remember when you came to me as a teenager and asked me why your name was so formal, it still makes me laugh to this day but son the name makes you different. My greatest pride in life is that I leave behind my two son’s that I know will go on in life, if you’re reading this then it was time. I have never been happy, but I got by, when you had a son it just stopped the moment for a second, you need to keep on with the gardening we did Oakley, he loves it. My happiness was never mine, I lived through others to be happy and that was never a life to live. Oakley all I ever wanted was to see you settle, and I have seen it and I” I paused, oh this is hard “I see the love you hold for Rylee, and I know you will be in safe hands, I know she will take care of you Oakley you will be ok son. I have one request is please take care of that broken youngest, Juke needs you. You was more of a father figure to him then I was, but he was your mother favourite he got away with most things, I know Juke loves a lot so please take care of him Oakley. All your life you have taken care of us, we never believed in you, and you did it. Son I want you to know I did love you, and you were right I never had a backbone and please bury me in Guyana so I can be with my family. But Oakley, it’s time you gave your love, life, and soul to your own family that you have, stop with the feeding of others, Rylee and Aziel and many more to come is the reason. All I ask is you never leave Juke behind, I always loved you boys, and I always kept that picture in my wallet, my biggest pride and joy, love dad” I wiped my tear that fell, and Oakley just broke down crying, leaning over to him and hugged him “I am sorry” I apologised, I feel so hurt for him.

I feel so sad Oakley like I wish he slept; he isn’t sleeping so neither am I really. Just here with him consoling him “why did he have to do it? Like was it that serious, I could have helped him” Oakley mumbled, he is not happy, and I get it “Oakley sometimes people are too far gone, there is nothing we can do when that happens, he was already preparing for this moment. And really, we don’t know a person, do we really? Look I am talking shit aren’t I, I am tired. But I rather you sleep too, I won’t sleep without you” Oakley shook his head “I just, fuck. I am so upset, why did he have to do that” looking at my phone as it started ringing “it’s Juke, you speak to him” I passed him the phone “what” he answered it and put it on speakerphone “Oakley what the fuck bro, she fucking left me, how dare she fucking leave me that is my fucking dad!” Juke barked “aye, calm it ok. I wanted Rylee here, I wanted her to come here. I asked for it got it? I didn’t know you ran to LA for what!? Who told you to go there, you piece of fucking shit. Do not fucking come at me about Rylee, ever got it” the line is so silent “whatever, capping for that side. He’s my dad too!! I lost my dad” he half shouted “I know, I’m sorry but I assumed you was here” he apologised “she fucking knew!” He barked “she is who? I told you Juke, correct yourself” he is correcting him “Rylee” he mumbled “nobody told you to go there. So where do we go from here, Juke I have no time for this shit, I am so fucking drained. I had to see that shit with dad engraved in my fucking mind! I close my eyes and I see that shit!” Oakley disconnected the call “I don’t want to hear it” he just said passing me the phone.

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@sheepdog264

You the man. Yeah I picked up on your use of “hmmmm” a good bit ago. And the post wasn’t directed at any one person just the situation in general. I still can’t believe I fell for the “trans” hoax initially. But the sources I trust also fall for it so there’s that. Trolls and lefties will do anything for attention or distraction and that seems to be the rule nowadays with Trump winning so much.

Believe me…I have a lot of questions and conjectures on this “accident”. Having been in the military, served with helicopters and lived in DC I’m very familiar with much of this. As are a great many people. I’m literally flabbergasted by some of the people on TV being so uninformed if not outright wrong.

And there’s a great MANY internet sleuths putting out a great many things. Especially with flight patterns and coms using videos and pictures which will answer many questions. But anything can be faked nowadays so I don’t put them out until I trust the source. And thus far, while some sleuths do make sense, it’s all conjecture.

So far the only truth or questions is how the three crew members missed seeing that plane. It is unfathomable to me and everyone I’ve talked to (including Blackhawk pilots). No one can understand how all three missed it. Not to mention all the electronics etc etc etc warning them of such. That’s the biggest question.

The blame is clearing targeting her, but in reality, even though she “allegedly” was in control piloting the aircraft, and I’ve seen no actual proof either way…it was, and always will be, the ULTIMATE responsibility of the Senior Instructor Pilot (IP) for everything the Blackhawk does or does not do. It is very common to transition “who has the stick” at a split-second notice. It happens all the time for a great many reasons.

So far, the only thing she is really likely guilty of is being a Biden supporter. At best without knowing her politics and seeing her social media. Which yeah…doesn’t look good when you delete everything. I say that because for those special positions in the White House you have to be nominated/selected/accepted for the position. She either did it because she supported Biden OR accepted the honor that goes with the role despite disagreeing with the admins policies. It clearly looks to be the first one.

Fun fact, I was in a similar but not exact situation and turned it down under Obama. Because…it was Obama. I couldn’t stomach being so close to him.

Much of the above OP is meaningless. Her flight hours are consistent with her rank. Her pictures are inconsequential and so what if she was a lesbian. Her additional duties with Sexual Harassment, etc, are also inconsequential and normal (some one has to do it as a mandated/unit additional duty) And her house is nothing special. I’ve posted on all this before.

The real info the public needs is the official investigation. Including coms, flight patterns, and the data from the flight recorder. ALL of their personal, technical and professional info will be evaluated. For all three of them. It all goes in to the Army’s Flight Mishap investigation…which I have done several times. It is truly an impressively complete and exhaustive investigation of every last thing…but it takes a long while to do that. I suspect several months given the situation . And separately is the FAA/NTSB investigation which will include the ATC which is already taking some heat.

Most suspicious so far (with proof not conjecture) is this:

I find it very bizarre this was essentially the plot of Die Hard II that took place in Dulles (DC) airport. There’s some other suspicious I have…and they’re juicey…but there’s no true proof yet.

New Development in the Helicopter Crash 👇

This gets more interesting 👇

Her social media has been scrubbed 👇

A White House aide for Biden 👇

Graduated with a Biology degree in 2019 from North Carolina Chapel Hill... Where the gain of function that created Covid started.

Let's löök at her parents 👇

REBECCA LOBACH was the DAUGHTER of DAVID LOBACH (Duke University Medicine; Elimu Informatics; HHS) and ELIZABETH LOBACH (New Regency).

DAVID FRANKLIN LOBACH

*DUKE UNIVERSITY SCHOOL OF MEDICINE, Chief of Division Clinical Informatics, Associate Consulting Professor

*DUKE FAMILY MEDICINE PROGRAM, Endocrinology Consultant

*ELIMU INFORMATICS, VP of Health Informatics

*CDSiC PROJECT, Elimu Informatics (Co-Investigator)

💥NOTE 1: Duke University is run by Trustees Chairman and Mossad asset, Laurene Sperling, who is also the Chairman of Combined Jewish Philanthropies (CJP) and is married to Thermo Fisher (PCR TESTS) Lead Director, Scott Sperling. Thermo Fisher = Temasek (Singapore).

💥NOTE 2: Duke University School of Medicine is led by Dean, Nancy Andrews, who is the Chairman of Wellcome Burroughs (Wellcome/Farrar), who sits on the Board of Directors at Novartis and is a Senior Advisor to NIH Executive Leadership (Anthony Fauci).

💥NOTE 3: Duke Kunshan is a PARTNERSHIP between Duke University and Wuhan University and it officially opened its doors in 2013, which is the SAME YEAR that DAVID RUBENSTEIN (Duke Capital Partners, Carlyle Group, Booz Allen Hamilton, CFR, Brookings, etc.) became the CHAIRMAN of the DUKE UNIVERSITY BOARD OF TRUSTEES.

*Both David Rubenstein and Laurene Sperling are CURRENTLY on the ADVISORY BOARD of DUKE KUNSHAN UNIVERSITY in WUHAN, CHINA.

Duke University is arguably the MOST IMPLICATED SCHOOL IN AMERICA with regard to the COVID PANDEMIC CONSPIRACY and the CREATION & RELEASE of COVID… and COVERUP of COVID’S ORIGINS.

Her Mother 👇

ELIZABETH LEE LOBACH

NEW REGENCY PRODUCTIONS (Development), Writers’ Assistant, Office Assistant, Analyst & Script Editor

*TWENTIETH CENTURY FOX (Post-Production), Office Assistant, Research & Analysis.

💥NOTE: New Regency Productions was FOUNDED by ISRAELI SPY, ARNON MILCHAN, one of NETANYAHU’S CLOSEST OPERATIVES and ISRAEL’S MOST LEGENDARY SPIES. He was involved in helping ISRAEL STEAL AMERICAN NUCLEAR SECRETS several decades ago.

Moving on 👇

This is the man that founded the company where helicopter pilot, Rebecca Lobach’s mother works…

Nothing to see here 👇

Rebecca Lobach was still in ROTC training in 2018.

How is she flying government continuity missions in a Blackhawk in Washington DC 6 years later as a captain? And how did she afford a $520,000 house two years into the military? 👇

Rebecca Lobach, involved in DCA crash, served as a White House social aide under Biden.

She escorted Ralph Lauren through the White House when he was among those awarded the Presidential Medal of Freedom by former fake President Joe Biden. 👇

This is a screen grab from the FAA’s Airman registry which is available to the public it shows that Rebecca Marie Lobach did not currently hold an FAA medical which is required to have military certificates converted over to FAA certificates meaning she lost her medical…? 👇

Not sure what she ‘destroyed’.. but she doesn’t look fit to me! 👇

A statement from:

Art Halvorson @ArtHalv....

As a former military instructor, I'll tell you that Rebecca Lobach in NO WAY should have been the pilot in command on that flight.

500 hours in 5 years is Inconceivable! 👇

I think there’s more to this tragic incident than DEI hiring, but it was because of DEI policies that Rebecca was on board that helicopter and there are now 67 people dead. 🤔

[ophelia-jones]

Thorns part 3

Lacey spent the next few hours spelling out everything she knew about Sanctuary's defenses, weak points, schedules and routines. She felt the eyes on her more acutely now, and there was far more doubt and accusation in their gazes than there was before. She had felt ashamed of who she was plenty of times before in her life, but she still hated the feeling. It wasn't something you got desensitized to.

Sometimes she had been ashamed of things she had done, but more often for who she was and how little money she had. It was almost tolerable when you did something to deserve it, but when she was judged for things out of her control? It was hard not to be angry and bitter after being treated like that.    As she had answered Rick, Michone and Carol's questions, her eyes locked on Daryl as he paced at the back of the room in his usual brooding silence.  He held her gaze much of the time, nodding encouragement now and again. When they were satisfied with her answers, she stood to go and realized she had no idea where she was going.  She had walked out of the infirmary this morning (was it really just this morning?) And the day had swept her away.  

"You can stay with me." Carol told her as if reading her mind. 

"Thank you." Lacey told her with a soft smile.   "I'll walk her over there." Daryl told Carol before leading her out the door. 

They took a block in silence, then finally, Lacey spoke.

"I'm surprised they didn't put me with Rick and Michone. I could've shared a babysitter with Judith." She had been told a great deal about Alexandria both by Negan and now people within the community. While Rick, Michone and Daryl were the tight lipped sorts, others she had met in the infirmary were less secretive.

"I'm not babysitting you." Daryl muttered as he lit a cigarette. 

"Of course you are. I wouldn't let me out of your sights, in case I were to slip out and report my findings to Negan." She replied with a shrug. "I don't blame them for being uncertain about me, it's smart."

"You're not a prisoner here, you know that right?" He asked on a cloud of smoke. "It just takes time to trust. Especially after what Negan already did to us." 

Lacey smiled at Daryl, and ignored the fluttering in her chest and stomach when he smiled shyly back, glancing at her sideways to see if she was looking at him. 

*Oh, damn it.* Lacey thought. *this has got to be the worst timing ever to get a crush like a teenager.* she took a deep breath and glanced around the community trying to focus on something else. She saw a teenage boy with a cowboy hat and an eyepatch sitting with a toddler on a front porch that looked like it belonged on the Waltons. 

"Are those Rick's kids?" She asked, smiling and waving. Judith smiled and waved back but Carl just stared back with a scowl.

"Yeah." Daryl nodded at them and Carl nodded back. "Its not been an easy world to grow up in." He says, as if explaining the boys lack of social graces. Lacey laughed,

"Yes, but I think he's just smart like his father and he's sizing me up. Trying to decide if I'm one of the 'bad guys'." She said as they continued on, strolling down the sidewalk in no hurry, going easy on Lacey's injured feet.  Daryl grunted in response, which Lacey took to be an agreement. Lacey winced as she stepped down wrong and felt her stitches stretch and threaten to split. She hissed and pulled her foot up quickly, grabbing Daryls bicep to keep from falling.

He put his hand under her elbow to help support her and scowled at her pain.

"Well, I guess there goes my future as an Olympic gymnast." She joked, though her eyes had welled up slightly.

"It's this house up here, you got it?" Daryl asked and Lacey nodded. When they reached the house, Lacey sat on the steps and took her shoes off to examine her feet. They were bleeding again, but only slightly. 

"OK, that's it." Daryl said, scooping her up, in both arms this time, like a groom used to carry a bride over the threshold. Lacey shouted, first in shock but then in laughter. He made it seem so easy to haul her around.

"My hero!" Lacey gushed playfully, wrapping her arms around his neck.

"Stop." Daryl said, failing to sound quite as grumpy as usual. She could even see the hint of a smirk on his face. 

"Do you really want me to?" She teased, smiling and staring into his intense brown eyes. They both seemed to be holding their breath, waiting to see what the other would do.   "Yes." Daryl said finally, but with a playful note in his tone. Lacey grinned at him right before he dropped her onto the couch gracelessly. She squealed again in surprise and amusement. She hadn't laughed like this in ages. He was smiling despite trying not to, his face flushing with color. Finally Lacey sighed and settled back into a half sitting lean.

"I mean it though, you really saved my ass. I can never repay you for the kindness you've shown me." She said, growing serious for a moment.

"Naw, you don't owe anyone nothing." He shook his head and sat on the opposite end of the sofa. He wouldn't even let her bring it back up. Everytime she tried to mention it, he changed the subject. Or, maybe she was controlling the conversation after all - when it fell silent for too long, she would try and praise or thank Daryl and so he would start talking about something else. Either way they sat together, making small talk.

Not 'how about that weather' sort of small talk; more like 'getting to know you on a blind date' sort of small talk.

"Did you get all the way to Virginia all by yourself?" Daryl asked at one point. Lacey shook her head sadly.

"No, there was a group of us. We had more when we started and it just got to be less and less of us. By the time we met the saviors, both of my brothers had already died. The others needed something to hope for, and I suppose so did I. But, sometimes hope is just cruel." She clenched her teeth slightly and looked away sadly.

"Hey, we don't gotta talk about this."

"No, its fine. No sense in pretending something didn't happen because it makes us feel sad or ashamed." She replied, and when they fell silent once again, she started to thank Daryl one more time. This time, to redirect the subject, Daryl asked,

"Why'd you get all those tattoos, anyway? I mean, not that I don't like em or whatever… you know what I mean." He stammered a little awkwardly and Lacey couldn't stop her face from grinning. She didn't know if it was  because he had put his hands together and tucked them between his knees, shoulders drawn in tight looking every bit a shy little boy rather than a big, tough man in his 40's - or because he had noticed (and made a mental note of, apparently) her body art.

"So you liked my tattoos? How close were you looking?" She watched him from the corner of her eye.

"Alright, enough." He said, pushing her back onto the sofa so she was laying flat now. She chuckled at him, her heart doing somersaults- she was quite certain she had never met a man like him before.

"I hope I'm not interrupting." Carol said wryly as she came through the door. She smiled at Daryl and quipped, "You're supposed to tie something around the doorknob when you have a date over, so I know not to intrude!"

"OK, that's it. The two of you deserve each other, you're exactly alike." Daryl huffed and stood up, though he didn't sound particularly annoyed.

After he left, Carol sat in a chair facing Lacey.

"If you have ulterior motives here, if you hurt anyone from Alexandria? You won't even have time to apologize. Do we understand each other?" She asked, just as nicely as if she were offering her a cookie. Lacey was shocked silent for a moment but then hung her head slightly. She deserved this, she had just been taken off guard.

"I understand, and I promise you I have no interest in harming you all. You've been kind to me, and that's a strength I haven't seen in people in a long time." Lacey replied, holding Carol's blue eyed gaze. Carol seemed satisfied finally and stood once more. 

"Then we understand each other." She nodded. "There's a shower upstairs, if you're up for it. I managed to get you another set of clothes, too." She tossed Lacey the bag of clothing and told her "The guest room is at the top of the stairs, first door on the left."

And just like that, Lacey Jaymes was a member of the Alexandria community.