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thorough-witness-enjoyer · 1 month ago

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Hi hi!

I loved your rants on the Traveler and read your pinned post and was just curious to hear about your destiny OCs (or anything else you want to talk about honestly)! Please ramble as it's always a good time to read to have someone go on in detail about their interests.

Light be with you!

Greetings!!!

This was such a sweet message and I’m delighted that you found an interest in the things I discuss on this blog!!! Thank you so much for the kind words and for wanting to hear about my ocs!!

Okay so we have- *I fall down a comically long flight of stairs with my box of ocs as they go everywhere* Sorry, sorry!

Truth be told, I have a LOT of ocs from all the different species and societies of Destiny as I have been into the game for practically two-thirds of my life, more than I can possibly disclose in just one post (especially because I can talk forever about these things!!)

So, I thought it would be fun if I described my many characters and their stories as silly blog/news titles and opening statements! This is only a small handful of my ocs, but if you guys want more or see one idea you’d like to hear more of, I’ll consider posting additional content of them!

Here we go:

Infamous deathsinger-school drop out meets agoraphobic Eliksni captain at Eliksni-Hive bar, requires his and his sardonic, elder dreg‘s protection against her vengeful knight sister.

Small Uluran girl tends to her family farm with her Psion in-house caretaker, finds out the only thing more troubling than a poor harvest is Torobatl politics as her caretaker brings his fragile partner into the household.

Local Last City ghost sees success at the opening of her new therapy café despite not having hands and only employing other guardian-less ghosts.

Top ten activities to do with the goat your Witness does not approve of, but your acolytes adore! (Number 4 will certainly unleash its rage!)

BREAKING: Awoken guardian and her exo best friend are kicked out of Spider‘s Palace after starting a drunken fight over a gambling dispute for the 20th time. “I remember being young, desired, out until dawn, and unbothered by responsibilities” says their middle-aged Psion fiduciary.

This Vex harpy enjoys listening to a vagrant exo hunter play his flute and doesn’t enjoy Minotaurs at all according to the vagrant hunter that menacingly approached us.

EXCLUSIVE: We interviewed the Young Wolf on why they continue to slay gods and they said “There really isn’t much else to do and my only friends are Ghost and Crow”.

Hundreds dead and thousands more injured after a fairy betrayal in the Court of Understanding left the Great Navigator paranoid that necromancy was spreading amongst his closest circle (A fairy is a Hive class I invented that is akin to court jesters for the upper class, especially the Osmium siblings. They are light-weight and agile, possessing the ability to float, while also wielding long-range weaponry. I definitely plan to explain this concept in the future and perhaps provide artwork for them!)

Long lost sibling of the architect of The Witness found in reclusive cabin with non-verbal child, told us to “Fuck off” and “Tell that disturbed prophet I want nothing to do with them”.

How to answer your young child when they start asking questions like “Why do our neighbors have four arms?” and “If the Final Shape happens, do I still have to go to school?”: A guide written by an average Last City dad with a curious daughter.

Whats better than the daughter of a baron and a cynical knight running away to live a life of piracy and blasphemy together? Studies show it’s the daughter of a baron and a cynical knight doing all of that AND being lesbians.

Renowned Hive romantic novelist takes acolyte playwright under his wing after their work reaches acclaim in the Court of War for its depiction of the Eater of Hope’s trials with redemption and love. “This will definitely win back the hat loving wizard that I had spawn with” the novelist claimed as he flipped his decadent cape.

Old Psion yells “All paracasual beings need to die in their rotting entitlement, especially that red bloated bastard and that big eyed freak he calls ‘My Mistress’!”and immediately dies after telling his aids about his time spent directly under Nezarec.

HEARTWARMING: This Lubraen stalker welcomes newcomers by giving them a tour around the city and making their bigotry apparent.

Is this the style of the summer? Qugu person sports new curled tendril mane as they embrace the end of everything.

She’s a beefy wizard, he’s a scrawny knight, they are irritating rivals: The couple that fell in love again after becoming lucent thanks to their devoted spawn.

Potential assassin of the Witness found and held under that black liquid it comes out of until their will falters. “I had to do something to protect them. No one protected my planet. I didn’t care how much I’d pay for it” stated the now-disciple fish creature.

I have tons of concepts remaining and I thoroughly love all these characters, but I don’t want this post to be too long!! I adore expanding on unexplored areas of Destiny lore and I wish I had the time to make content for my ideas!!

Thank you again for the question and I hope I adequately answered it!! Light be with you too!!

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elegyofthemoon · 9 months ago

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tbh I feel like I should have known that Israel supporters would find my posts but I was still shocked anyways because I think at least my corner of Tumblr has all been pro-Palestine and I'm very proud of that

I only really found it by accident because I was trying to find my reblog with the links regarding the strikes and Bisan's call for a march, and I honestly was confused at first reading the comment.

So went to check further on the user:

I don't know. There's a bunch of other posts that they make that are just these short comments (and I would pull them up but really just go to their blog and check) -- some of which are articles that talk about the bombing that happened during Super Bowl and about the babies that had been left to starve and die in the hospital -- all with the same short, unproductive comment.

This is just more of a rant for me but I just can't understand how they don't see how much blood is being shed and not see what they are doing or feel guilt for it. I think of all the videos of children who were left amputated and orphaned because of Israel's attacks. I think of all the videos of mothers weeping over the corpses of their children or of the fathers who have lost their entire family. I think of all the surgeries that had to be done without amputations and how a lot of the hospitals are now out of commission -- places of safety that people would turn to if they were injured -- that now hardly have supplies. I think about the women who now have to use scraps of the tents they have now taken shelter in for their periods, the rise in infection rates in the area, and the starvation that Israel has left them in (the way that I've seen so many videos of children being so happy just to get a little bit of water or food). Or even recently, the little girl Hind and her phone call begging to be helped when she was trapped in a car with her dead family only to be found dead days later.

So tell me: who is the victim here?

Anyways, that being said: if you are neutral or pro-Israel, FUCK OFF. YOU ARE NOT WELCOMED ON MY BLOG.

It'll be Free Palestine. Forever.

Keep fighting, everyone.

Remember: Marches have been called for 17th- 20th. Protests and strikes 18th-25th.

#free palestine #palestine #ceasefire now #free gaza #gaza #it's more of a personal rant but i'm using it as an excuse to talk more about how dire the situation is #and also to tell people who are neutral or pro-israel to fuck off #i don't usually get pissed but it's just the fact that the person (who is now blocked) is just so.#idk.#its just short comments. like really? you think calling us names? calling us ignorant? thats productive?#what fucking nonsense #anyways #i don't give a shit if you get mad i'm not supporting. i'll always stand by the side of the victim and those who have lost their LIVES #because of some self-privileged regime.#you are not innocent. you are not the victim here.

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oozmium · 1 year ago

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Hidden Relics and The Man Who Hid (Them) - Translation

This is a translation of Hallelujah's side story found in the SMTIVA artbook. There used to be a translation floating around for this a couple years ago, although it appears to have been taken down. So I've asked a good friend of mine to translate the story and I looked over it for lore accuracy.

A direct link to the translation hosted on their blog can be found here. But if you'd like to read it on tumblr, click the read more. Please enjoy your read!

One more thing: PLEASE DO NOT REPOST THIS TRANSLATION ANYWHERE ELSE. Instead, link back to either this tumblr post or my friend's blog if you wish to share it.

Hidden Relics and the Man who Hid Them

Original Writer: Mito Yoko

Translator: VerdantGrove

ENG Proofer: Elegy

note: translation notes can be found at the bottom.

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A single notebook rests in the man’s hand. That aged notebook is just one of the relics the man found in his former residence…it’s the memoir of a certain woman. The man places his fingers atop the warped cover just as he always does, and sets foot into the world of the memoir…

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Feb 12

Hallelujah found a pen and a notebook. He said it was a present for Mama. I used this when I was study-ing¹ with Angel. How long ago was that again? Hallelujah’s four now, so… No, no. I don’t wanna think about it.

Angel complimented my handwriting. He said “it’s not very well done, but repetition is key.”

Writing a diary so he compliments me again.

Feb 13

Three visitors. Ashura Kai came to collect the money, and give us food rashions². A little more than usual, thanks to the work I did. Mama will work hard for Hallelujah.

Feb 14

Zero visitors. Big fire in Shibuya. Scary.

Humans are scarier than demons. Angel…

Feb 15

Four visitors. Tired.

Feb 16

Visito

May 2

Forgot about the diary. Writing every day is hard.

Jun 13

Ashura Kai came to collect the money. Guy in charge is annoying.

Luckily visitors were nice today.

Jun 15

We got canned food from the guests³. Hallelujah was super happy. But… I didn’t know what to say when he asked me “what’s a backblue⁴?”. If Angel were here, he would have told him. Have to study.

Jun 20th⁵

Hallelujah keeps yelling about wanting to go outside. Even though it’s dangerous up there. Even though I’m doing my best to live down here for him.

Jul 4th

Hallelujah and I talked about Papa. “Samyaza”... I get shy just saying his name. I’ll keep what really happened a secret for now.

He asked me, “why isn’t he with us?”

Why, I wonder?

Jul 15th

Ashura Kai came to collect the money.

Seems grades are good. Oh dear.

August⁶ 15th

The Ashura Kai⁷ came to collect the money. I ranted to a friendly guest, and their response was “poor thing.” They said I was such a poor thing, having to work and take care of a child at the same time.

Am I really a poor thing?

August 16th

Was all guests I hated today. But have to stay strong. For Hallelujah.

Sep 9⁸

Wrong. Something, wrong. Head spinning. Get mad when I look at Hallelujah. How can he laugh when I’m suffering this much?

But all this suffering is for his sake.

He looks just like me and I hate it. Hate everything.

September 15th

Collected the money.

I’m mad. Can’t even look at Hallelujah.

September 2

September 21st

I hit Hallelujah yesterday.

He kept asking questions about my work, and I said “you know it’s all your fault” and hit him.

I even blurted out “it’s your fault Angel went away too.”

I’m awful.

September 30th

Hallelujah threw up.

While I was cleaning it up, he cried “sorry, sorry.” I said “you’re a lot more serious than you were when you were a baby,” and it made me laugh.

I felt like that was the first time I’d laughed in a long time.

Then Hallelujah laughed too.

He laughed for me, even though I’d done something so horrible.

For some reason, it made me want to cry.

October 1st

I’m thinking as I watch Hallelujah sleep.

Hallelujah’s name was given to him by Angel.

It means “gratitude.”

I was really happy, so I tried my best to remember how to write it, even though it’s hard to spell⁹.

How the hell did I forget that? I’m such an idiot.

October 3rd

I hit Hallelujah and managed to say “sorry.”

He forgave me with an “it’s all righty.”

He patted me with his tiny little hands.

Sorry. Love you.

October 15th

That guest again. Always telling me I’m a “poor thing,” so annoying.

October 21st

I still have a lot of mixed feelings about Hallelujah.

But I’m not angry at him. Luckily.

Nov 15¹⁰

What am I gonna do? Hallelujah hit the man who collects the money. I got hit, then Hallelujah, he turned into something not human, got scary strong, then that guy, he wouldn’t move. Ashura Kai—no, oh my God, this isn’t what you should write in a diary.

But I want to calm down.

Hallelujah can’t stop shaking even though I’m hugging him tight.

Hallelujah was just helping me. He didn’t do anything wrong. That’s it, Hallelujah didn’t do anything wrong.

Hallelujah did not do anything wrong.

Hallelujah cried himself to sleep. Thank God.

It was hard, but I made up my mind.

We’re going to leave the Underground. I thought I wouldn’t survive if I wasn’t here. But that’s wrong.

I have everything Angel has taught me. It’ll be okay.

Leaving before the stores open is a matter of life or death.

I’ll keep Hallelujah safe.

—

“They sure do change easily, these ‘humans.’”

The man's cold and emotionless words reflect his hardened features as he emerges from the glow of the streetlights. And yet, for some reason he couldn’t place, when his eyes catch sight of these words of determination written in smudged letters, his hand stops. The man had never once thought about why that was.

Just as his hand stopped, he checked his smartphone for new notifications, but… The name which he hoped to see was still not there. Ignoring the many voices seeking out his direction, the man turns his attention to the rest of the memoir.

This memoir tells the tale of a mother and child desperately searching for a way to survive. Silently, the man continues to read…

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May 19th

Our life on the surface has been going smoothly, thanks to us handing out Reds. I’m less worried about the demons. Hallelujah will be 10 soon. Seems like he’s made a friend called Chiro. I wonder what kind of kid they are?

June 12th

We got canned food as payment for the Reds!

Hallelujah was on the edge of his seat before we even opened it. He looks happy eating the fruit. I’m glad.

June 13th

Hallelujah fell asleep hugging the empty can.

It made him that happy?

June 15th

Studying with Hallelujah. I want to tell him everything Angel taught me.

June 28th

Hallelujah made me mad. It was because he took out that empty can when we were collecting relics. Is that thing his prized possession…?

June 29th

Making up with Hallelujah. I promised I wouldn’t put my hands on him without thinking anymore. Sorry, Hallelujah.

July 10th

I know what Hallelujah’s friend is now. It was a shock.

July 12th

I ran into that guest from our time underground. I wished they’d shut up about wanting me to come back to the city or wanting to look after me. Not to mention they told me how sorry they are for me again. I’m mad.

July 18th

Hallelujah has gotten good at looking for relics.

I told him “you’d be fine doing this on your own at this point” to praise him, but that made him extremely grumpy. Why??

July 20th

That guy’s here again. Ugh.

Even though Hallelujah’s forgotten what happened that day.

July 22nd

Hallelujah doesn’t seem to like studying. He said it was because he was gonna play with his friend, then ran off. Where’d this come from?

If only Angel were here at a time like this…

August 22nd

Had a conversation with a grumpy Hallelujah.

Studying is essential for proper judgment.

It’s essential in order to decide for yourself what’s important to you. Just like how I decided to believe Angel. …I wonder if I got through to him?

September 2nd

I found out why Hallelujah was acting so strange.

That man told him things. Things like “it’s my fault you got driven above ground” and “they want to get rid of me.” What the hell? Sure enough, humans are the worst. Way, way worse than demons!!

I want to explain. But what should I say?

September 5th

That guy has been loitering around us again.

Hallelujah is still feeling down too… Worried.

September 30th

I was debating whether or not to do this, but I’m going to tell Hallelujah.

That Angel really is an angel.

That he’s not human.

And… about what happened that day.

Tomorrow I will tell him. Angel, give me courage.

October 1st

The conversation went awful. “You’ve been giving me special treatment ‘cause I’m not human,” and “I can tell my dad was more important to you.” …I had thought it’d go like that.

October 3rd

Hallelujah’s in his room with Chiro, and he won’t come out.

If I was Angel, what would I do? …Maybe It’s because I’m always like this that it seemed like his dad was more important to me.

I have. To think.

October 4th

I’m rereading through this diary and thinking. I’ve written everything here, whether it’s the things that made me happy or the things that caused me pain. It’s really true that I hated that child. It’s really true that I loved him, too.

All of it. It’s all true.

October 5th

Received a summons from that man. I’m scared, so I’m bringing that weapon I snatched back then. I wonder; can I use it?

I want to talk with Hallelujah when I get home.

I’ve finally settled on what I want to say.

I like Hallelujah.

I love Hallelujah, because he’s Hallelujah!

I didn’t ask for us to make someone I could cherish other than myself just so I could abandon him.

When I had a chance encounter with Angel and was blessed with Hallelujah, I was really, truly happy.

I just wanted to do a good job of getting this happiness across to him, too.

…Can I even get that across to him? I’m an idiot, so I doubt I can.

But I’ll tell him as many times as it takes. Angel told me that repetition is key, after all.

Well, I should head out soon. …I know you probably wouldn’t give me a reply to this, so I’ll write it here.

See you later, Hallelujah.

—

The memoir ends there, and the aged notebook does not speak further. But the man knew. He knew of both the woman’s abrupt and miserable end and of the whereabouts of the child who lost his mother’s protection…

“Mr. Abe, it’s an emergency!!”

The man who was called—Abe, furrowing his brow, would go to respond to the insolent trespasser.

“Understood. The ‘final battle,’ yeah?”

Yes, at last, the curtain has risen on the battle between God’s Chariot and the Demon King. As Acting Chairman, it is his duty to finish this play, and yet…

“...Not a word from him.”

There were still no notifications from the person he longed to see—from Hallelujah.

That made one thing apparent—estrangement.

“Guess ya found yer angel… Eh, Ayako?”

Abe—the fallen angel who was once called an ‘angel’—imagined a future in which he would stand opposite his own son…and laughed.

<Fin>

TL Notes:

Studying is written in katakana here. It shows unfamiliarity with the written word.

Half of the word is written in katakana here, and the other half in kanji. I chose to portray this as a misspelling, as someone new to writing would be just as likely to misspell the word “rations” in English as they would be not to know the first kanji of the word haikyuu (rations) in Japanese.

Mama writes the word okyaku (visitors/guests) in kanji for the first time here. I marked this with a switch from “visitors” (neutral connotation) to “guests” (more respectful connotation of welcomeness).

Hallelujah seems to have flipped the kanji in the word “blueback (fish)”（青魚 lit. blue fish）to 魚青 (lit. fish blue); I had him flip the word “blueback” to “backblue” in the same manner. He likely read it left to right instead of right to left.

Before this date, the days were written in hiragana. This marks the switch to the use of kanji for each day. I decided to portray this by typing the numbers in proper date format (e.g. 20th instead of 20).

Before this date, the months were written in hiragana. This marks the switch to the use of kanji for each month. I decided to portray this by typing the months spelled out instead of abbreviated.

Rather than writing the “Ashura” in “Ashura Kai” entirely in hiragana as she had been doing previously, Mama writes the first kanji in “Ashura” here for the first time. I decided to portray this by using the article “the” to make it a more complete sentence, thus similarly showing a progression of education.

Mama returns to writing the date entirely in hiragana here in her distress.

Referring to it being difficult to write the kanji for gratitude (感謝). I paralleled this to spelling the word.

Same as TL note 8.

#smt iv apocalypse #smtiva #smtivf #smt4a #hallelujah smt #translations #theres like 5 bajillion ways to tag this game im cryin idk which one to use so im using all of them #anyway if you have any questions feel free to leave them in my ask box

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anxietycomments · 1 year ago

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my hot take when anyone asks isn’t even that big of a hot take. romeo and juliet is boring as fuck

BUT before anyone thinks of opening up the floodgates,, (yes this is a rant-ish post)

It’s not boring in what the message is meant to be ish (since it’s open to interpretation, obviously. this is based off my own interpretation of the play), but rather how it’s talked about, written, and/or presented. You are more likely to hear about romeo and juliet, or watch the entire play, or read the entire script, in English class. This means, of course, that it’s already heavily dumbed down in the explanation segment.

Romeo and Juliet, at its core, is about love and the great - and by great I mean very fucked up borderline obsessive - lengths one might go to get to live that love in a culture and/or setting where that’s what you’re expected and/or free to do. It’s insanity, it’s the fact that you cannot, under any circumstance, without any consequence, live without someone else. It’s the self-sacrifice over someone you love because you cannot bear the thought of something remotely bad happening to them.

Of course, this can’t be shown to kids in a school setting. That’s obviously not what they want to tell kids — to be so utterly obsessed with someone you love that you simply disregard your own being entirely, — (though that has issues on its own), so of course they’ll simplify it. Hell, even maybe tweak it a little.

What I think Romeo and Juliet is about is the desperation to be with someone you love, further enhanced where there are big, important things, such as your family, in the way. Romeo made the plan to run away with Juliet, choosing her over the people who have raised him and loved him and made him into the person he is, who will (are supposed to) love him regardless of who he is. If your family is shitty, of course they shouldn’t be a priority, but, y’k.

This is all ignoring the facts that Romeo and Juliet takes place in Ye Olden Days and not the 20th century, and that Juliet was a literal child, and other fucked-up-things-that-were-socially-acceptable-at-the-time, and how their families worked/thought/behaved/treated their kids.

It’s boring in the way it is presented and written, because there are no actual words that can describe what it was meant to be. If you have not felt or been in the position either party was, you can’t even actually truly understand Romeo and Juliet. That’s what makes it boring; the fact that people water it down because they don’t bother to or can’t comprehend the situation at its core. If you have not experienced this exact thing, the exact feelings, you just won’t get it. Hell, even I, right now, am struggling with writing this, because there are no words in the (English) language to explain it properly.

#romeo and juliet #hot take ish #rant #rant post #🔥 : writings #⭐️ : speakings

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yors-truly · 2 years ago

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Hello! This is your friendly inquiry to answer this ask with whatever you'd like to talk about right now! Whether that be a story you're working on, something you're excited or worried about, or just something random you happen to know.

All the love,

~ toribookworm ❤️

Ah, I guess I've been more on the lower side these past few days, so I'll spill the beans.

I've been slightly if not highly insecure about the progress of Beyond Time and Space recently. Things haven't really been stable since my family's been in the process of moving and, in the midst of that, losing Nygaard (my phone holding all of my important notes).

The things I want to use are all packed away in a storage miles from here, which includes my sketchbook, my stylus, and many more (which, as an artist who often gets art block, it's very frustrating when the inspiration hits and you can do literally nothing about it).

Then there's the insecurity surrounding my age. I'm a teenager. With my birthday coming on the 20th, that status won't change. Maybe it's just the mindset of "kids wishing they were grow ups" or whatever, but as of very recently, it's been getting to me. I've been motivated and inspired by other indie projects like mine, who have all of these incredible people behind them, helping make a vision into a visual. I would love to do that! I'm already doing that!

The thing is, though, is that I lack connections. I'm pretty much going solo in this. As someone as young as myself (who also has diagnosed SAD and possibly ADHD, little to no experience in such a collaborative environment, zero experience in running a project, and lacking the money and tools actually needed), I'm worried no one will be willing to work with me to bring my thoughts to an audience, let alone allow me to help bring theirs to one. I've been trying to start out small, posting what I enjoy and hoping to make friends along the way, as it would be a dream to work alongside friends more than anything, but it's been doing my mental health more harm than good, in the way that me having SAD cranks my anxiety with in-person interactions to 200% with online interactions. For the longest time, I forgot social media existed (still do sometimes, and I think that's also an anxiety response: repression or something like that? involuntarily forgetting the things that make you anxious), so my activity hasn't been the best anywhere anyway, to begin with.

I guess all of this sums up to me saying "I wish I could do things on my own" in a slightly desperate way. If I had the money - heck, if I had a way of transferring money, because people have been questioning about commissions too (at least they used to; idk where my audience is now, since I've been so inactive) - that would be so useful! I want to be able to receive funds for my own hard work, and give funds to others for theirs! It's all so frustrating X[

(on an unrelated note: now that I've moved, I'll probably end up having to celebrate my birthday with my family instead of the people I love most.)

So, yeah, that's pretty much it. Beyond Time and Space is nowhere near finished, and I guess, in a way, I'm kinda glad I don't have extra hands at the moment. I'd like to have the entire first season written before making any progress on visuals (besides... you know... the ones I already have). It's just gonna take a little longer than I wished, and with everything moving so quickly, it's kind of overwhelming me a little qwq A beta reader or two (besides my brother who kind of just lazily reads through it most times) would be nice, though, but I take forever to write scripts so maybe not XD

Thanks for the opportunity to rant on! I really needed to get this out, I think, and this ask couldn't have been timed any better :star-emoji:

#huesterrants #yeah im making that a tag now #i would tag it with a more genealized tag but idk...#(ah theres my anxiety again lol)#(you know what screw it)#indie struggles #indie writer #uh...#asks #?#i dont usually tag asks but i feel compelled to here for some reason #uh i guess these too #writeblr #writeblr community #writer struggles #huestersvoid #i feel like i shouldve added a keep reading label on this post bc it feels lengthy #but i am on mobile and you cant really do that on these parts so..

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captainsspnanon · 2 years ago

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C2E66 - Beneath Bazzoxan - rewatch

Well, I got about an hour into the MLP oneshot before I gave up. That’s about par for the course with me for a lot of the CR one shots. I’ve seen a handful of them in full, started a handful and watched between 1 to 2 hours before giving up, and just haven’t even started the others. It’s a whole jumble of hit or miss.

Also something I missed from last episode – Travis jokingly asking Matt if there was a vestige of divergence in the roc nest. My brain totally forgot that this was before Fjord got the star razor, so I was like ‘you want two??’ SOON. SOOOOOON.

(I don’t even know how long it’s been since I look at this episode, oops! It’s been a time, alright? But OMG ANIMATED MIGHTY NEIN COMING AAAAA)

...Document last saved, Jan 30th. It’s now Feb 20th. … LOOK IT’S BEEN...It’s BEEN, okay?! Anyhow, I finally have the energy and mental fortitude to get back into this! (so annoyed at myself for falling apart right when we get a fantastic series of episodes) (omg also I’d only jumped on to freak out about the animated mighty nein??? My last C2 reaction was posted JANUARY 8TH omg.) (I don’t know why I’m being apologetic though, this stuff is mainly for me to improve my analytical thinking, active watching, and writing abilities. I know a few of you out there like reading it, but I’m sure you’re not chomping at the bit or anything XD)

I was only just past the intro, so I decided to go and rewatch the adbit and forgot that I was in the middle of the presidential campaign for dndbeyond! (after the ogl shitstorm, anyone else notice that CR hasn’t mentioned dndbeyond by name once? I wonder if they’re going to start up again at some point since the situation is now resolved, even though there’s a lot of bad taste in a lot of the community’s mouths. Personally, I’d be fine with it, because I do feel like wotc made the right choices to fix things, even if it never should have gotten to where it was in the first place, and communication choices had been…..yeah.)

I miss them reading their bits off of sheets in front of them. I fully get the appeal of the teleprompter meaning that they can keep their eyes up and looking at camera, but there’s a charm of them giving impassioned rants but also having to keep glancing down to check what their lines are.

See? With the teleprompter, you don’t get the adorableness of Laura having a merch update but no sheet, so floundering through Sam’s papers until Matt gives her his.

Liam perched on his chair just making squawking noises!

I love how this group is so unafraid to make unoptimal choices. Jester uses Disguise Self to look like a giant leaf, but Laura knows that it only works for people so knows it’s basically just a leaf costume and Will Not Work, but still Commits To The Bit.

Oh fuck it’s been so long that I forgot we were still with Texas!Fjord! Just got smacked in the face by the accent XD (controversial comment, but I don’t like it when I see people saying that they prefer the Texan accent, then other people saying that it means that they like pre-character growth Fjord, or hiding himself Fjord, lying to himself Fjord. It’s just that the Texan accent is fun! Given a choice between the two, I would have been happy if Travis had the Texan accent be Fjord’s natural accent and do the whole campaign with it, because I enjoy hearing it – especially since C1 was pretty much all English accents. But in order for that to happen, Fjord would have been completely different, and I don’t want a completely different Fjord, I love the Fjord that we got!)

(also off topic, but I’m waiting for noon so that I can check the shop. I want the Jester and Caleb dice so bad and they still haven’t been released. T.T)

god I forgot how much these idiots flounder in this nonsense, I love it so much!!! Each campaign, they all have their own version of floundering, and the Nein’s is just SO dumb, SO wonderful. Jester forgetting she could go invisible, Beau begging Fjord to take her with him with the Misty Step and Fjord saying he’s only got room for one, Beau trying to swim through the air to the tree, and then just curling up in a ball to make herself a smaller target IT’S SO GOOD.

And Caduceus and Yasha just watching all this go down like “yup” “yup”

Nein and Polymorph – nothing more iconic.

Fjord and teleporting – nothing more iconic!!

Polymorphed enemies attacking Fjord – truly nothing more iconic

This group and communication, I love it!! Caleb slides Beau off his wing, Matt describes her falling into the nest, Liam softly says that that’s not what he meant, Matt immediately asks him for clarification and Liam immediately responds with what he meant but ‘this is funny’ so keep going with it.

This is the first? time that Matt has done a skill check and not penalized the player for a nat 1. It is a minor grumble of mine that he doesn’t count nat 20s as an autosuccess (which falls within rules) but tends to still count nat 1s as an autofailure. I feel like you’ve got to play it all one way or all the other, not the half and half – especially not more penalizing the players.

Being an active part of the fandom now, I can image people bitching about this episode so far, about Matt giving them too much leeway, not enough consequences, making it too easy, the players getting distracted from their goal, etc. etc. Makes it a lot easier for me to brush off the bullshit criticism that C3 is getting. Critters have been complaining since C1, and sometimes it’s legit, and most times it’s bull.

I have such mixed feelings with Nott and Sam in regards to the rogue stuff. Because most of the time, Nott skipping looking for traps genuinely just feels like Sam either forgetting or deliberately ignoring it because he thinks it’s funny. I’ve mentioned it before, but it’s a struggle I have with Sam’s PCs, because a bunch of stuff that Sam does is just… well, Sam being Sam. He’d make the same joke for Scanlan, or Tary, or Nott, or FCG. So I can’t relate it to the specific PC, even when it’s the PC doing the action. Either way, if this was a deliberate choice for Nott (even with Beau telling her to look for traps) or Sam just trolling, I’m glad Matt had consequences, and consequences that impacted the entire party, because everyone was hit from the fireball. It’s a bit of a nudge (even though it doesn’t work. Does Nott EVER consistently look for traps, even after she’s killed?). Just looking at transcripts (not super accurate) 28 times within the first 50 episodes, 22 from episodes 51-100, and 21 from episodes 101-141. Sadly Critrolestats isn’t helpful for this, because they track the investigation rolls, but so many investigation rolls AREN’T checking for traps.

Ah ha! This is where Jester steals Nott’s flask! Laura tried to be sneaky, but Sam heard her right away.

Mmmrph...still not a fan of the jokes about Caleb sharing his loot. He never kept it! Liam just likes to make it theatrical. To be fair, I think this started because Vax hoarded loot? Or at least Vax teased Vex a lot with loot. Honestly, most of what I remember from C1 was Vax and Vex being silly over the boots of haste, one moment with loot where Liam asked Matt to make him and Laura roll for it, and then the drama over who gets whisper, which I honestly thing was more the fanbase than the players?

I kept getting confused that they weren’t sending to Essek, so I went and checked out my last post and yep there it was. ALSO there is the exact same stuff that I said above about Sam. -_- I have no original thoughts.

Insect Plague!!! *checks transcripts* Pike cast it in E5 and the battle royale, Umbrasyl cast it in E55, Jester casts in here in E66, and then again in E113. This is one of the rarest used spells, to the point where I completely forgot about it!

Bazzoxan!

(LOL the dice got released the day after I checked! ...and I don’t like the sets. Fuuuuuck)

(It’s now march 25th and I am in the MOOD. LET’S GO!!!)

wait what the fuck did I literally stop for AGES at like, 30 seconds before the break?? That’s hysterical.

In the two/three months where I stopped watching C2, I forgot how much Caleb really did take the lead in a lot.

Wait wait wait….they’re putting the moorbounders in the stables, is this where they leave them??? Is this the last appearance of the kitties?!?! *checks the transcripts* oh no it isssss. Now I’m sad, I love the moorbounders so much. (edit to add, rechecked the transcripts using the plural – looks like they technically have them as of e69 after the dungeon crawl, but then that’s the official last. I wonder if by the time I get to that episode I will have forgotten I’d typed all this and re-express myself) They seemed to perfectly bridge the difference between cared for and oft mentioned pets (Sprinkle, Frumpkin, Trinket) and mounts (barely ever named horses, the toilet horses, more unnamed horses). I don’t even have a headcanon for what happens to them after the Nein leave. I’ve read some nice posts about people taking care of them, Verin taking ownership, the Nein getting them back, but they just….vanish. I don’t think? that they were mentioned during the wrap up. Flando’s splits don’t mention them, so I guess not. I mentioned it way back, but I personally wish we could have gotten a second C2 wrap up. With C1, we had the official wrap up, and then a second one because there were so many questions left over. I can’t image that there weren’t enough questions left for C2. Then again, pandemic times, and that also must have been right when Brian was either let go behind the scenes and just not officially announced yet, or on the cusp, considering it wasn’t a Talks format.

I have Thoughts that I can’t really articulate about how frequently Caleb shows the Bright Queen medallion, and how it’s both a bit defensive and a bit arrogant. Thoughts about how it might be how Bren was trained to use the power of his station to get things he wanted. Thoughts on how it’s making sure that it’s clear that he is In Charge, or at least has some level of Authority due to the medallion, and how it influences how he interacts with authority. Thoughts on how it may be due to his old training versus the more frequent attempt currently to lower his status to try to be unseen. Thoughts about how much could be Caleb healing and regaining confidence versus just using it at a means to an end. I need someone else to get into my brain and actually write this up for me.

UGH I forgot all this cool Bazzoxan lore! I really do adore Matt’s worldbuilding, especially the level of depth that he puts into every place. He goes into it with the intention of making it feel real, and it really does.

I’ve mentioned it before and I know I’ll mention it again, but I so love how Liam handled spellcasting with his components. With him leaning in to Caleb having to ask to purchase any item he needs, rather than just a general check with Matt, but pulling it so well into the roleplay really does inspire others. Taliesin even in this scene! Tal was good with black powder and such last campaign, but I feel like Matt had to prompt him more, advising that he was running out of materials and such, whereas Liam frequently initiates the conversation.

The humor of Liam having to explain to Laura that she needs Guidance to get the plus d4 to a check. OH how times have changed. (I’m also not a huge fan of how heavily Guidance is leaned on now. When I was playing my druid, I made sure that Guidance was used sparingly, only where a magical boost seemed applicable. Personal preference though. I also wasn’t a huge fan of how for A Crown Of Candy on Dimension20 that familiars were constantly used to give advantage to rolls.)

Looking at the facial reactions when Matt says that Nott’s flask is missing, Sam and Laura obviously knew, and it looks like Taliesin overheard as well, but I think it’s a genuine surprise to everyone else.

Such a soft spot for the Wildbros. Wildbrothers? What’s the nickname for Fjord and Caduceus? I think it’s Wildbrothers, but google isn’t helping me. REGARDLESS. Fjord reaching out to Caduceus for help is such a lovely moment. Cad’s answer isn’t as straightforward as he would like, but it’s the first clear moment of Fjord changing paths to choose the Wildmother. I know that Travis had been looking for possible options, but it did end up heavily steering this way, and I’m certainly pleased with the end result. PLUS! A little bit from Caduceus as to what he is looking for! Still not a ton of detail but a place. Honestly, I didn’t realize how long it took to actually get backstory for Cad. I always consider him to be among the most open of the Nein (Jester being the most open, obviously), but I’ve seen very good meta explaining how he really isn’t that open at all. Watching with that knowledge, it’s very easy to see how much he really doesn’t say.

There’s something a bit beautiful of Caduceus trying to guide Fjord into meditation/worship the way he does (slow breathing, name each sound that comes by) transitioning into Fjord’s own (wind becoming the sound of waves). The Wildmother has always been a bit synonymous with Nature, but in my own failing, my interpretation of Nature was always plants and trees – very much the flora of the world. Fjord’s eventual worship of her being heavily based in the oceans, still very much a part of Nature, not only helped the character growth, but helped me recognize my own limitations that I was putting on her. It also helped, once again, just confirm the realness of the world. People practicing religion have so many variations to their worship and behaviors, to their interpretations of the religion. In fiction, it’s very easy to take it Planet of Hats, and every follower of God A performs exactly the same way, and every follower of God B worships following this specific structure. To have the gods in Exandria frequently worshiped differently continues to add depth to the world.

It’s very fun to see Ashley joke about Yasha doing some things which she quickly takes back, but will then fully play with as actual character traits in C3.

Oh FML. I fully get into this, and all of a sudden I have a massive headache. T.T This episode is gonna take for-fucking-ever. And it’s all good stuff!

Alright, two days later, no headache now, feeling good, got the time, lets see if I can make it through the last hour and half!

With the multiple instances of NPCs speaking Undercommon and Beau not being able to understand it, no wonder Marisha decided to take Undercommon the next opportunity she had. Checking to see when she gets it (level 10) just makes me really miss Beau. Her stats end up SO good, and she’s such an intelligent PC. The roleplay decisions Marisha makes add such a level of depth to Beau’s desire for knowledge and a lovely contrast to how Caleb is intelligent and pursues information. MY FAVS.

Once again, in my bad habit of underestimating Sam’s RP – I am really going to pay attention this time to Nott and her behavior when forced sober. There’s quite a bit of it here that is played for laughs, but that doesn’t mean that the characterization is shallow or false. Right away I noticed that Caleb immediately tries to sooth the situation by repeatedly saying that Nott has ‘misplaced’ her flask, ‘lost’ her flask. While it’s a completely understandable take, especially as Liam doesn’t know that Laura had Jester take the flask, it’s a very obvious difference from Nott always believing Caleb, to Caleb disbelieving Nott. He’s not cruel or harsh about it, and he doesn’t diminish her feelings at the lack of alcohol, but he does not accept Nott’s viewpoint that someone took the flask.

To be fair, a bit of that is metagaming. Sam heard Laura ask Matt to take the flask, so he knows that it was taken from Nott. I wonder how these scenes may have gone differently had he not overheard and thought that it was something Matt did in game, like how the Schuster kids stole their coin purses. (also yes I did go to the wiki to confirm the spelling of the name, and yes I did get it wrong at first)

I love when the cast gets Sam to completely break. Travis saying that Nott’s arms looked whiter than ever (Sam switched his shirt to a sleeveless shirt), and Sam just open mouthed WHEEZING for almost a solid 10 seconds. Absolutely glorious. And it’s Sam specifically because he’s the hardest to break. Taliesin in pretty hard too, BUT if Taliesin gets hit then he’s just OUT. Liam is by far the easiest to break and it’s delightful every time!

Downside of my massive delay in rewatching – they’re all discussing how Nott was doing really well without drinking and then started slipping up again when she picked it back up, and I can’t remember when this happened! When did she stop drinking and pick it up again??? I have no recollection, and I feel really bad ‘cause that’s a pretty important thing! Going back and finding my last post, I said that it might have been that she started getting drunk again to confront Yeza, but then I don’t recall why she would have been sober before that? This is the big downside of not binging.

Oh wait, maybe the table does know? Fjord suggests Jester scry on it, which SEEMS like Travis poking at Laura? But I’m not sure! Could be a coincidence!

Dungeon crawl! Dungeon crawl! I am hype for dungeon crawl! CR doesn’t do many of them, and I definitely was bored by Kraghammer, but I think all the crawls aside from that very first one have been a blast.

I feel like this conversation of them trying to help Jester craft a message to Obann is the perfect summation of the Mighty Nein. The absolute overlapping fuckery combined with SOME intelligence and a lot of goofing, but they get the job done. Eventually. Kind of. With sex jokes thrown in.

Aww, this is the doo doo doo doo moment, and Caleb legitimately laughing. Iconic. No donuts or pooping, but still good.

Talk about Beau/Marisha calling things! “what if in your past life, before you lost your memories, you WERE an Iron Angel?” well yes, yes she was.

Fjord preventing Nott from getting alcohol, then buying a bottle and essentially taunting her with it – it don’t feel good IC, but it always reads to me 100% of Travis teasing Sam. It’s one of those moments where it DID happen in game, but it doesn’t tie into how I view the PCs interacting, because even though it happened it was more ‘above table’ then in game, if that makes any sense? Like, Fjord and Nott have a very complex relationship, but Fjord buying alcohol when Nott is clearly going through withdrawal and then not letting her have it? It’s hard for me to view that in their relationship, it just doesn’t feel right. Like I said, too mean.

LOL when Sam sets down his flask and accidentally hits Matt’s camera. Because it jostles Matt’s screen, I keep expecting him to jump or flinch like he’s being shaken, but of course it’s just the image so he doesn’t react.

After talking way too much about EVERYTHING, I actually don’t have much to say about the dungeon crawl. It’s fucking awesome, Matt’s descriptions of celestial statues with bleeding eyes is amazing, everyone’s reactions are super fun to watch! I suppose it’s harder for me to discuss because as much as I love the imagery, I kind of never really got the whole lore tie in. The whole Angel of Irons plot, to be fair, is a bit fuzzy to me. I kind of wish it had gotten explored a bit more, because the main takeaways that I have from it are that Obann thinks he’s serving the Angel of Irons (whoever he thinks that’s supposed to be), and gets undying champions – Yasha, The Laughing Hand, the Caedogheist or whatever her name is – and then….does something? And it’s got to do with a cult? That is releasing Abyssal anchors that just kinda open tears. Like, I get from the wiki that he’s doing all these things and it’s supposed to release the Chained Oblivion from the Abyss (which oh, I didn’t realize he was there? Because isn’t he behind the Divine Gate?), but it just never quite solidified for me.

ANYHOW. FINALLY COMPLETE. Let’s hope it doesn’t take as long to continue with the rewatch!

#cr c2 rewatch #mighty nein #critical role #took about three months to get this done #oof

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kurashikeys · 1 year ago

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ok so. i know people hate ai here, at least in its current capitalism driven form. we all know the discourse points, im not gonna rehash the existing arguments for or against ai bc thats not the point of this post. this post is only for asking a question about something i really really dont get

what makes creativity unique to humans?

and, i think i should write about my own view on this so that the question and the intent behind the question is completely clear. im not here with a truly formed opinion and trying to vouch for anything. im looking for other perspectives

first thing you need to know about me is that im on the autism spectrum. the second is that im a muslim. these two things inform most of the base of my thinking and decision making. and also science, i guess. i AM still an engineer

so, someone claiming to be muslim, to believe in a single and all powerful creator, asking a question about the uniqueness of humanity might seem weird. but, “causality” is very much a core of islam. everything that happens have a cause, and yes this goes for every “supernatural” looking event as well. yes, god is making the world turn and the rain fall and the flowers bloom and the sun set and so on. yes these all have their own causes in the form of physical laws. its important to understand that these causes do not negate the role of god, it just negates the ways to “prove” the existence of a creator. which. isnt relevant to this topic so i should rerail

so. causes. human body, human brain, also has them.

our eyes are incredible. our ears, hands, livers, the whole deal. its all incredible. they are miracles. but, they are not magical. its all still working according to physical laws.

im a computer vision engineer, so lets take our visual system for example. the pupils of our eyes are, basically, small holes for light to get in. this light, drops on the retina, and is converted to electrical signals, which are then carried to the related parts of the brain via the optic nerves. this is the complex part, which i do not know enough about to get into, begins. all i know is that its a bunch of math. our brains are constantly doing calculus and using multiple very complex algorithms to give meaning to the images our eyes capture.

what i do for my job is a very crude version of this. sometimes i use deep learning to help with more sophisticated problems as well. but basically, all our projects have the same parts: a camera/eye, some cabling/neurons, and a computer/brain. and sometimes robotic hands too. those are usually not the parts im dealing with.

and honestly, most of the computer technology is like this. from the very start from back in the 20th century, the basis was always how the brain works, either intentionally, or unintentionally. the way it resembles our brain kept evolving, and now we have deep learning algorithms. which, according to my preschool education major ex-roommate, work very similar to how children learn. you just keep showing the program data and tell it what that specific piece of data is about, and it draws its own conclusions about what “makes” that data. honestly, one of my biggest gripes about working with these systems is that i dont need to code or debug as much as my other projects. if there’s something wrong, 99.99% of the time, its about the dataset

returning to the visual system again, the way digital vision systems and the human visual system works is so similar that, there have been recent studies and working prostheses for blind people that send the visuals from a camera directly to the patient’s brain. these systems still need a lot of work to be able to be used widely, but it proves that we can convert our digital data to signals that can be interpreted by our nervous system.

thats a lot of ranting to say basically 2 main things:

1. the human body isnt magical. it works according to existing physical laws, most of which we already understand. the way i see it, there’s no reason for us not to be able to understand exactly how our brains work. and this includes the concept of “creativity” as well (which i dont think we need to understand to replicate, but again, another topic. another rant.)

2. our technology already resembles us so much, and we keep improving upon what we have. i said before that the human body is a miracle, and honestly? i think what we can do with some plastic and some metal is also a miracle. if something is possible with the existing laws of physics, then it can be replicated using only metal and plastic. thats incredible.

and based on these two points, i cannot imagine a future where we cannot achieve AGI. and i cannot see a reason that makes us “unique” in the way that it cant be replicated

also, im pretty sure i can write all my thought processes in pseudocode and mathematical notation, so i do not see what prevents us from replicating a human brain. tho as i said, im autistic, so this could just be a case where my brain is the outlier.

i guess i lied. i guess i do have a formed opinion. the goal of this post stands, however. i really wanna see this from other people’s perspectives, and understand what these unique human qualities that cannot be broken down to maths and algorithms are. especially from people with brains that work differently from me

#long post #i didnt mean for this to be this long #but i couldnt just not infodump #also computers and how they relate to biological bodies is such a fascinating subject to me #i love seeing the patterns #cause most of the world is just. patterns.#and when we build machines making use of these patterns #we accidentally imitate other existing systems that make use of the same patterns #and 50 years later we go. oh. wait we just made a whole ass brain?#yes!!! yes we did!!!! its not as detailed and not as efficient!! but the principles behind it is the same!!!#i love that for us #idk how i should tag this btw #i hope i get replies from my mutuals bc they're the ones whose answers i most care about #ai #artificial intelligence

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Albert Burke

A/N: Finally! my boy is ready to debut in the world!! I hope you guys like him as much as I enjoyed researching about him. And if anyone's OCs want to be friends or roommates with him, feel free to comment on this post or text me personally.

Name: Albert Abderus Edmund Burke

Born: 4th May 1881

NickNames: Bertie, Al, Burke.

Name Meaning: Noble and Bright.

Gender: Male

Gender Identity: Wizard (he/him)

Sexuality: heterosexual.

Zodiac sign: Taurus

Blood Status: Pureblood

Nationality/Ethnicity: White British.

Physical appearance:

Face Claim: Tom Holland

Hair: Chocolate Brown

Eye Colour: Brown

Height: 5 feet, 9 inches (1.79 m)

Weight: 61kg

Skin Colour: Warm Ivory.

Style: The usual upper-class wear of the late 19th century and early 20th century, Does love his fresh white starched shirts, and has a low-key obsession with big fluffy jumpers.

Personality: (INFT-J) Shy and quiet but once familiar with you he'll open up, does rant occasionally, daydreamer, is kind, loyal and determined (in his own ways)

Strengths: strong dueler, is very loyal, is willing to take huge risks (but he does get nervous), is VERY patient.

Interest/Hobbies: poetry, art, ancient runes, astronomy.

Weaknesses: His shyness sometimes obstructs him from standing up for himself, he trusts people very easily, is willing to take huge risks and he gets very nervous.

Distinguished marks:

Has a small jagged scar on his chin from when he tripped down the porch and fell on a rock at age 2

Has a scar which almost looks like one of the runes (Uruz) on his elbow from falling down from a horse at age 14

A jagged scar down his back from when he had a major accident from stopping a running carriage at age 23

A scar down the back of his neck that wavers to his shoulder which he got from when he was hit with the cruciatis curse at age 16.

History:

Albert was born to an ancient and powerful pureblood family, the house of Burke. Being the second-born son, his birth was celebrated with much joy. His father had high hopes for him to become a man exactly like him; a man of power. But he was to be disappointed as Albert showed to be a shy and soft natured boy from the start, with a gentle and caring nature.

This disappointed both his parents. They soon started to avoid mentioning him in conversation and even sometimes left him unacknowledged. But Albert continued to try and get their attention and still loved them like they were the best parents in the world.

Sick of dealing with Albert and his gentle manners, one day both his parents took him to visit Diagon alley at the age of two. Little Albert excitedly looked at the different displays at the store. While he was distracted. Albert's parents abandoned him in the streets of Diagon Alley.

After looking around the shop windows, he turned around and saw his parents were nowhere in sight. His heart dropped and Albert scurried between the sea of people. As every second passed and couldn't find either of his parents, Albert's heartbeat quickened and his eyes started to water.

Without even knowing it, Albert kept up his search and he was soon lost in the streets of London. At that time, a gentleman by the name of Viscount William Wyevernbush. The middle-aged man was walking around the streets and he noticed the young Albert desperately scurrying about all the stores. Being curious he walked over to him and asked him what he was doing. After Albert told him that he was searching for his parents, William for some odd reason realised the situation.

He brought little Albert home, who looked terribly nervous. Since then Albert became part of the Wyvernbush family and soon became the official heir. The rest of Albert's siblings other than Ernst, never really knew about him.

Ernst was 4 when Albert was abandoned, and he always wondered what happened to his lovable, shy little brother. His question was finally answered during his 5th year at Hogwarts. When a young boy with a headful of curly hair was sorted as a 3rd-year Hufflepuff.

This was his long lost brother, Albert Burke. The brothers over their years were able to connect and finally were reunited. Their other siblings, Alexander, Octavia and Cordelia also got to know about him.

Witch Craft.

1st wand: Willow wood, 11 1/2 inches, unicorn hair core and brittle flexibility.

Willow is an uncommon wand wood with healing power, and I have noted that the ideal owner of a willow wand often has some (usually unwarranted) insecurity, however, well they may try and hide it. While many confident customers insist on trying a willow wand (attracted by their handsome appearance and well-founded reputation for enabling advanced, non-verbal magic) my willow wands have consistently selected those of most significant potential, rather than those who feel they have little to learn. It has always been a proverb in my family that he who has furthest to travel will go fastest with willow.

Unicorn hair generally produces the most consistent magic and is least subject to fluctuations and blockages. Wands with unicorn cores are generally the most difficult to turn to the Dark Arts. They are the most faithful of all wands, and usually remain strongly attached to their first owner, irrespective of whether he or she was an accomplished witch or wizard.

2nd Wand: Rowan wood, 11 1/2 inches, unicorn hair core, moderate flexibility.

Rowan wood has always been much-favoured for wands, because it is reputed to be more protective than any other, and in my experience renders all manner of defensive charms especially strong and difficult to break. It is commonly stated that no dark witch or wizard ever owned a rowan wand, and I cannot recall a single instance where one of my own rowan wands has gone on to do evil in the world. Rowan is most happily placed with the clear-headed and the pure-hearted, but this reputation for virtue ought not to fool anyone – these wands are the equal of any, often the better, and frequently out-perform others in duels.

Animagus form: None

Patronus: St. Bernard

Patronus memory: His entire adopted family and he spent a picnic day in the woods.

later Patronus Memory: His adoptive family, him and his siblings having dinner together and happily chatting.

Boggart: To be determined.

Riddikulus: To be determined.

Amortentia (what does he smell like?): honey, falling rain, apricots, vanilla and old books.

Amortentia (what does he smell?): metallic, smoke, lavender, and honeysuckle.

Magical Abilities: Can sense the feelings of plants.

At Hogwarts

Hogwarts house: Hufflepuff

Best Subjects: Herbology, Defence against Dark Arts, Potions, Astronomy.

Worst Subjects: Transfiguration, Flying, History of Magic.

Elective Subjects: Care of Magical creatures, Astronomy and Ancient Runes

N.E.W.T.S: Defence against the Dark arts, Astronomy, Ancient Runes, Transfiguration.

Extracurricular activities: This boy is too shy but wants to join a club so if anyone has any recommendations I would love to hear them.

Career

11-18: Hogwarts students

19-27: Assistant to Gervaise Ollivander at his shop Ollivanders.

27-death: Viscount Wyevernbush

Relationships

Family:

Ernst Burke:

The oldest Burke sibling Ernst was the only sibling to know Albert as a young child. From the second his younger brother was born, Ernst made it his mission in life to make him feel loved. Ernst was confused and anguished after Albert's disappearance (rather abandonment). Soon his younger brother became a distant memory and he never really told his other siblings about him. That all changed during his fifth year when he saw the sorting of one Albert Burke Wyevernbush. Intrigued, he made attempts to know the younger boy and found out it was actually his long lost little brother. The two siblings made a close bond and remained close till the end of their lives. (profile coming soon)

Alexander Burke:

Albert's younger brother. Being born a month or so after Albert's disappearance, he had no idea about his older brother. Ernst tried to make him aware of his brother, telling him stories about his and Albert's childhood. But since he never saw Albert nor did his parents tell him anything about him, little Alex dismissed it as a story. That is until when he went to Hogwarts and actually saw his long lost brother.

An outspoken, gregarious and ambitious Slytherin, Alexander was one of the most popular kids at Hogwarts during his time. His biggest passion was polo and the kid could play on for hours! literally finding a random horse in the forbidden forest and playing polo with a couple friends on the quidditch field. Safe to say that the headmaster wasn't pleased. (profile coming soon)

Cordelia Burke:

The fourth burke sibling and the first sister, she was the literal copy of her father. She was bossy, assertive and maybe a little patronizing. And let's just say, while she does get on with Albert, Ernst and her younger sister Octavia, she and Alexander do have an epic rivalry. When Albert met her, he was a bit intimidated, but she was determined to have a good relationship with him and eventually they did. (profile coming soon)

Octavia Burke:

The youngest Burke sibling and sister, and the adorable baby of the family. Albert was charmed to meet her and adored her. Octavia was shy, prim and proper and ambitious. She was interested in the matters of ancient magic which ultimately lead to her downfall as she joined the forces of you-know-who and separated from her family.

Aurelian And Gwydion Burke:

Albert's mum and dad never really liked him. Although in her last years, Albert's mother, Gwydion did have a change of heart and eventually met him on her death bed, his father never saw him or wanted to. He banned all of the children from meeting him, although all of them occasionally met and kept regular contact. Albert was also banned from their funerals.

Adoptive Family:

William Wyevernbush:

A loving and doting father, a proper Edwardian gentleman and a kind person. This was William Wyevernbush. he adopted Albert once he found the young boy in the streets of London. he loved Albert and supported him through everything, even when he found out he was a wizard and when he learnt about his history.

Elizabeth Wyevernbush:

the lady of the household was a loving mother, sometimes bossy and one heck of a fashionista. She loved Albert like her own and was very protective of him. Also, she makes the best raspberry scones!

Edward Wyevernbush:

The heir to the viscount Wyevernbush was born a year before Cordelia. he was doted upon by his parents and his adoptive older brother. Mischievous, funny and kind Edward charmed everyone in town. Unfortunately, he passed away at the age of 10 due to Diphtheria.

Friends:

Colin Moss @usernoneexistent: Bertie's sworn Hufflepuff brother! They met in their third year and both understood each other having similar personalities and complicated family histories.

Euphemia Macnair @usernoneexistent: the sensible Slytherin, met Albert through her partner, Colin and became good friends.

Winona Rosewood @usernoneexistent: The charming and lovable Gryffindor met Bertie also through Colin. She made it her mission to find him a sweetheart.

Jim Hexley; @the-al-chemist: The Compassionate and shy Hufflepuff met Albert in his Hogwarts times and became good friends.

Henry Lovecraft @lifeofkaze: The lively storyteller from Ravenclaw! Truth be told, Albert and Henry were both awkward initially, but soon they grew closer and sparked a close friendship.

Lillian Miller @camillejeaneshphm: their story is yet to be determined

Lady Georgia Coventry @camillejeaneshphm: This headstrong Hufflepuff quite intimidated Albert, but soon they grew to be good friends, even beyond their Hogwarts years and often had long conversations about managing their estates.

Selina Fawley @gcldensnitch: The wise and sweet Hufflepuff often helped Albert come out of his shyness, and was his confidante with whom he always shared his secrets and his worries about wooing a certain someone.

Love Interest:

Delilah Olethea Sweets @usernoneexistent: These two awkward dorks became fast friends and soon fell in love. But it wasn't until years after graduating from Hogwarts, that Albert realised that he would have to take his chances and win the hand of the woman he loved.

Also, if your oc wants to be friends with Albert (no enemies cus this boy is too adorable and nice) feel free to comment.

#hphl oc #hphl profile #hogwarts legacy #albert burke #new oc #harry potter #wizarding world #my oc character #ocs

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gisellelx · 3 years ago

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I've got to object HEARTILY to Esme being Jewish. Domestic abuse is anathema in Jewish culture (with the exception of *maybe* some very very fundamentalist sects), and it's canonical that her parents knew Charles was physically hurting her. I don't care what time period we're talking about, Esme's parents would have taken her home and she would have recourse to a divorce. That headcanon is not awesome, it's extremely culturally tone-deaf.

Oh you have decided to come into my inbox to talk about someone else's headcanon. Well, strap in, anon, this is going to be a semi-long post because there are four separate things this ask makes me want to talk about. tl;dr--this is interesting and useful, so why not direct this comment in a thoughtful manner at the OP? First, let's talk about headcanons. Headcanons are what in the trade are called backstory. They're the stuff that you, as the author, know about your character which may or may not end up on the page, but which should influence what does end up on the page. When you're talking to the writer of a source, there is a "right" and a "wrong" headcanon because the author actually does know what they had in mind (or at least, they should; I happen to think that is often not the case for Stephenie Meyer). But when it comes to fans reading between the lines, making up their own headcanons to guide their own engagement with characters? There's no such right and wrong. There're some things that are better supported or less supported, either by canon itself or by history/circumstance, of course. We can agree or disagree on them, or argue about why one makes more sense than another, but when it comes to it, we aren't the originators of the canon so unless they're running contradictory to the canon, they're not "wrong" per se. Second. Esme as Jewish. This is a piece of Twi Renaissance fanon with which I happen also to HEARTILY disagree. While I happen not to be Jewish and don't know this particular piece of information you've offered, anon, there are two big reasons why I think her being Jewish is a nonstarter: one, the Jewish population in Ohio was very small in 1911 and mostly in Cincinnati, which was the largest city at the time, not Columbus. It was also very insular--a Jewish family was not particularly likely to horse-and-buggy it to the city to see a doctor. I agree, the way Esme's parents behaved is much more consistent with Protestant, Calvinist Christianity, which would make a ton of sense for the middle of Ohio at the turn of the 20th century. I've never fully fleshed this one out in my head, but I'd be leaning toward Methodist. The second reason I disagree with it is that it strikes me as very unlikely that Carlisle would be open to marrying a Jewish woman. This is a rant suited for another day, but please never mistake my curiosity for Carlisle's character as a blanket condoning of everything he is and stands for. He's quite racist, which we see in canon, he's pretty misogynistic, and he doesn't experience much contrition for the ways his actions harm others. The religion he was raised in would've taught him to be derisive of Jewish people, and the circles he moved in thereafter would not have offered very many opportunities for him to change his mind. So I am starting from a base of assuming that Carlisle is pretty anti-Semitic. I think he probably woke up on this front around the Holocaust. These things are actually why I find him so compelling--he's pretty deeply prejudiced about a lot of things and it means he has great blind spots I can exploit as a writer. Okay, onto thing three. So why would I reblog something and tag it with my "awesome headcanons" tag when I don't agree with every single word? Because it's interesting and fun and sharing fan content makes the world go 'round. And consistent tags make it easier to navigate old content. But shouldn't I be really clear that I don't agree with that one part just be sure that no one mistakes it for my idea? Well, imagine if every headcanon or meta someone shared was followed by a bunch of reblogs of people going, "Well, actually I don't like this part even though I agree with most of these..." this place would stop being fun real quick. I lived through a time in this fandom when fic authors told their readers to go fuck themselves in their author's notes, when people created whole blogs and livejournal communities just to anonymously make fun of anyone whose fic was remotely popular, where it was seen as totally acceptable to drag people's

personal lives out in the open and mock them for whatever personal thing they mentioned having done in service of you know, just being human and talking about their lives.

That sort of constant fighting makes you not want to engage with other people. Most of us just took our balls and went home. So I'm not going to do that to another fan because I enjoy being a fan with other fans. This is also the same reason I don't spend a lot of time going "I know you all love calling Esme Jewish but I disagree because this this and this other this"...like, that's just not fun for anybody, even if I can support my position well. I will quietly hold my own headcanon over here and I'm going to not jump on somebody else about theirs.

But what if the thing somebody said actually could be unintentionally harmful? Am I telling you to just shut up about that? Part four: your very odd decision to anon into my inbox about headcanons from someone else. What you've offered here is really useful information, because as you point out, it suggests something negative about Jewish people (an already marginalized group) that isn't true and therefore is harmful. So here's a much more useful way to address that. Rather than going anon into the asks of a person who reblogged it, which doesn't get you anywhere, you could choose to either thoughtfully engage the OP, or you could reblog it yourself and say, "You know, this particular headcanon is actually problematic. You may not know this, but domestic violence is actually very frowned on in Jewish culture and it's very unlikely her parents would not have taken her back in. That they didn't suggests she's not Jewish. To suggest that she is Jewish would ascribe this untrue awful behavior to Jewish people which, given the extent to which Jewish people were and are still persecuted across the globe, is a thing you don't want to do, even unintentionally in good fun. So I just want to make you aware." The latter is probably the better option, in part because then you'll ascribe your own blog to the comment, and people can know it was your well-supported point. You'll then allow yourself room to let the OP rebut directly about why they followed that particular headcanon in the first place and what they think of your critique of it. But since it's not actually my headcanon, and one I don't actually hold, I'm afraid you've come to the wrong place. Thanks for the soapbox, though.

#fandom #asks #headcanons #writing #esme cullen #carlisle cullen #saint carlisle my ass #long post

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theshapeofhorror · 4 years ago

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Michael Myers in John Carpenter’s Halloween (1978) - Part 2

I personally think that John Carpenter’s Halloween in general puts most of the later entries to the franchise to shame for one reason or another, but mostly in regards to Michael Myers as a character and the way he’s both portrayed as well as utilised throughout the movie.

(That’s not to say no other movie has done the character justice. I enjoy most of Michael’s iterations throughout the franchise, though admittedly some more as a guilty pleasure and others only to simp for rather than because they’re genuinely good portrayals.)

1. Michael’s presence throughout this movie is constant - yet we don’t actually get a good, close-up look at the mask until very late in the movie

For most of the movie we get to see Michael from one of two “perspectives”: we stalk his victims with him from behind his shoulder (I talked more about this in my post about the voyeuristic subtext of Halloween 1978) or we see him standing somewhere off in the distance. Especially the stalking scenes persist throughout almost the entire runtime of the movie, the last one occuring at around 57 minutes when he watches Linda and Bob make out on the couch.

And yes, technically we can see the mask while he stalks Laurie around Haddonfield, but with the distance between him and the camera and the short length of those scenes it’s hard to really look at it, especially if you watch the movie for the first time and aren’t on, like, the 20th rewatch in the span of a month - not that I’d ever do something like that, of course...

As for when we finally get to see a close-up of the mask, I guess you could argue for one of three moments: Michael killing Annie in the car, Michael about to pin Bob to the wall or Michael picking up the phone after he strangled Linda. I personally would argue for the last, as the camera hovers outside the car in the scene with Annie, our view blurred through the windshield, and the mask is half-hidden in shadow when he kills Bob. All of these scenes happen rather late in the movie, the earliest - Michael killing Annie - more than 50 minutes into the ~1:30hr runtime.

2. The movie manages to make Michael creepy without having any actual on-screen gore

It’s the suggestion that scares us, the unnerving physical vocabulary established by Nick Castle, the way he lurks in the shadows or stands outside in broad daylight, slowly closing in on his mostly unsuspecting victims.

We don’t need to constantly see Michael kill to be afraid of him (or simp for him...) here, it’s the anticipation of when he’s finally going to do it, the payoff of tension when he finally does.

The kills are shot in a way that don’t need shocking gore-filled imagery to be terrifying and poignant; with Michael choking all of his victims in some way and his vocalizations throughout they have a fascinating but horrifying sexual subtext to them that many of the later sequels sadly never returned to.

3. Michael as an ambiguous character

With enough scenes to support either a connection to the supernatural or a strictly human Michael - or both - this movie leaves the interpretation of his character mostly to the viewer. We can believe Loomis’ monologues about Michael being simply evil, not at all a man - yet Michael displays many small quirks and shows behavior that directly disprove this as well.

Michael

accidentally walks into the flower pot in front of the door when he spies on an undressed Annie

tilts his head at her in the background after she gets locked into the laundry room

tilts his head after killing Bob

dresses up as a ghost

sets up the ‘haunted house’ for Laurie

... and those are just the most obvious instances of him showing behavior that doesn’t fit the description of a consciousless, purely-driven-to-kill force of evil. (I’m probably going to come back to this topic in more detail at some point.)

It’s the small things like him stopping for a second when he notices Tommy after he grabs the wrong kid that make this portrayal so fascinating to me, those clear hints that there is a (evil, psychopathic, dangerous) human being beneath that mask, despite what Loomis tells us.

With ambiguity I don’t only mean the “is or isn’t he supernatural”-debate, I also mean the question behind Michael’s motives or the lack of them, what his reasons for killing are. Take for example Halloween 2: it wants you to believe that Michael hunts Laurie because she’s his sister, which is not only much less interesting but also written really badly. This is a pitfall many of the sequels fall into for me personally; I feel like trying to explain Michael just isn’t a concept you can ever get to work in a satisfying way.

4. The un-masking scene

I could probably rant for days about the last 20 minutes of the movie, but I’m gonna keep it simple here: casting Tony Moran for the unmasking scene was a stroke of genius. It plays into an aspect that I feel sets the original Michael apart from many other slashers: there’s nothing obviously wrong with him. He looks unassuming, even handsome.

Add to that the contrast between his inhuman strength and his normal physical build as well as his way of moving throughout the rest of the movie (graceful, but also unnaturally still, unnerving to look at without steering into zombie-like or otherwise inhuman territory) - all of it proves him to be human without actually humanizing him too much.

It’s a shame that most of the sequels didn’t try to do anything like this again (I know the Halloween 5 unmasking scene exists but I honestly wish it didn’t, so lets not talk about that here) - I’m very happy they went back to the concept of showing Michael both with as well as without the mask in Halloween 2018.

5. And finally - the end of the movie!

This is very biased as I’m a total sucker for open-ended movies, as long as they don’t leave any critical questions unanswered. But I think this also applies at least somewhat objectively to the Halloween franchise: most of the endings that had Michael die got retconned sooner or later anyway, most of them not in a very convincing way.

The movie’s last moments with Michael breathing in the background while we revisit the locations we saw throughout the movie hammers home the thought that he could be everywhere and that nothing can stop him, and that - to me - is a very poignant and satisfying scene to end the movie on.

#halloween 1978 #halloween #john carpenter's halloween #john carpenter #michael myers #the shape #halloween franchise #horror #horror movie #slasher #slasher movie #halloween1978 #more undercover simping #is it even remotely undercover at this point though #analyzing this movie to get something productive out of my unhealthy amount of rewatches

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pogueshomecoming · 5 years ago

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pogueshomecoming's masterlist

last updated: march 11th, 2021

✮I will only write for the pogues + sarah. I don’t feel comfortable writing for the actors or Topper, Rafe, Kelce, or anyone else.

✮ i don’t take smut requests. i might write it on my own if i feel inspired to do so.

✮ here’s the link to join my taglists

✮ here’s the link to send me a request

✮ here’s the the link for the fics/requests I’m working on, I’ll try to update it regularly :)

✮ be patient! i’m not as inspired for requests right now, but feel free to send them and i’ll get to them when i can

fics are below the cut so this isn’t a forever long post on your dash :)

JOHN B. ROUTLEDGE

⤷ you scared me - john b x reader

- john b isn’t home and everyone panics, but specifically the reader because they’re unofficially official - posted may 13, 2020 - 2.9k words

⤷ best friend - platonic john b x reader

- y/n and jj get into an argument and they’re both pissed so y/n goes to her best friend, john b, to rant. - posted may 16, 2020 - 1.4k words

⤷ should’ve gone on a boat ride - platonic john b x reader x jj maybank

- if jj and john b had taken you out on the HMS Pogue like you had asked, they wouldn’t have started arguing over the gun, and in turn, you wouldn’t have gotten shot. - posted may 25, 2020 - 1.1k words

⤷ 3 am - john b x reader

- you have a habit of waking John B up at 3 am, but this particular time he realizes he loves you. - posted june 9, 2020 - 973 words

⤷ cake - john b x reader

- you and john b make a cake, but it ends in an absolute mess - posted June 15, 2020 - 1.5k words

⤷ lover - john b x reader

- based on the song by taylor swift. you spend a night reminiscing about yours and John B’s relationship - posted june 27, 2020 - 1.5k words

⤷ you’ll always have a place here - john b x reader

- after finding out his past, your parents make sure John B feels welcome in their home. - posted july 5, 2020 - 1.6k words

⤷ things have to change - john b x reader

- john b leaves on a treasure hunt lead with no communication yet again and you’re sick of waiting for things to change. - posted july 17, 2020 - 2k words

JJ MAYBANK

⤷ cocaine - jj maybank x reader

- jj does cocaine at a kook party and starts acting like his father. y/n is the one that sets him straight. - posted may 15, 2020 - 3.1k words

⤷ if the world was ending - jj maybank x reader

- john b and sarah are gone. kie and pope went home with their parents. you’re the last person jj knows he can go to. - posted may 19, 2020 - 2.4k words

⤷ bruises - jj maybank x reader

- jj gets aggressive one night while he’s drunk and doesn’t remember leaving the bruises, so he asks you where they came from. - posted may 21, 2020 - 1.7k words

- part two - you forgive jj, but sometimes it’s not that easy - posted july 1, 2020 - 2.5k words

⤷ should’ve gone on a boat ride - platonic jj maybank x reader x john b

⤷ sunset boat trip - jj maybank x reader

- when you, a cute traveling photographer, ask the pogues to join one of their sunset boat trips, JJ is intrigued immediately and has to ask you on a date. - posted June 3, 2020 - 1.9k words

⤷ let me in - jj maybank x reader

- your parents tell you they won’t be home for your birthday so you’re stuck home alone and sad during a storm when JJ shows up with pizza and beer. - posted June 15, 2020 - 1k words

⤷ you slept with my best friend - jj maybank x reader

- after a long day of work, you stumble into the chateau barely awake mistake john b’s room for jj’s. when jj wakes up without you and finds you in his best friends bed, he’s upset. - posted july 3, 2020 - 2.1k words

⤷ stolen kiss - jj maybank x reader

- jj shows up at your house after a rough night with his father. after he falls asleep you attempt to give him a kiss on the cheek but he turns his head. - posted september 2, 2020 - 700-800 words

⤷ so I thought - jj maybank x reader

- without closure of any kind, after the breakup jj is wondering if you were ever truthful during your relationship. - posted october 29, 2020 - 1.5k words

⤷ like to be you - jj maybank x reader

- based on the song like to be you by shawn mendes. jj gets into another brawl with his dad and it leads to an argument that reiterates how different your lives are. - posted november 7, 2020 - 2.5k

⤷ forever after all - jj maybank x reader

- people always told you and jj that your relationship wouldn’t last, but they were wrong. - posted november 14, 2020 - 700 words

⤷ the one where you and jj share a sleeping bag - jj maybank x reader

- jj tries to prank you by leaving your tent at home, and it’s funny until john b makes him share with you. - posted november , 2020 -

⤷ I should probably go to bed - jj maybank x reader

- jj is convinced to go to his first kegger after the break up but he finds out that you’re going to be there. based on the song by dan + shay - posted november , 2020 -

⤷ outnumbered - jj maybank x reader

- jj is exhausted after another long day and you’re there to remind him that there’s always someone in his corner. based on the song by dermot kennedy. - posted november 28th, 2020 - 1.1k words

⤷ train wreck - jj maybank x reader - jj finds himself on the beach bloody, broken, and bruised only a week after john b and sarah got lost at sea. can he pick himself up? - posted february 27th, 2021 - 800 words

⤷ slow dancing in the dark - jj maybank x reader - you’d been dating topper but fooling around with jj, until the latter finally makes you choose - posted march 6th, 2021 - 2.6k words

⤷ we can’t be friends - jj maybank x reader - in the past you told jj you had feeling for him, he rejected you, he wanted to still be friends - but what happens when that doesn’t work? - posted march 13th, 2021 - 3.2k words

⤷ remember that night? - jj maybank x reader - ex boyfriend!jj is drunk and texts you six months after the break up - posted march 20th, 2021 - 3.1k words

KIARA CARRERA

⤷ secret girlfriend - kie x reader

- Kie starts making excuses to leave early and spends less time with the pogues and they get suspicious so they follow her one day to find out she likes girls and has a girlfriend. - posted may 22, 2020 - 2.1k words

⤷ I love you - kie x reader

- song fic inspired by I love you by Billie Eilish. Kie tells you how she feels but you’re too afraid to reciprocate. - posted may 23, 2029 - 953 words

⤷ milestones - kie x reader

- milestones throughout yours and Kie’s relationship: first hello, first goodbye, second hello, first kiss, first date, making it official, telling the pogues, and first I love you. - posted may 24, 2020 - 3.4k words

⤷ she’s got a boyfriend - kie x bi!reader

- kie is your best friend who’s also in love with you, but you have a boyfriend. well, until you don’t, and kie takes her chance to tell you. - posted may 26, 2020 - 2.6k words

⤷ I brought soup - kie x reader

- you’re sick and you try to hide from Kie at the Chateau but it doesn’t work and she insists on taking care of you. - posted June 2, 2020 - 1.1k words

⤷ please hold me - kie x reader

- kie has had a terrible, no good, very awful day and just wants you to hold her. - posted june 15, 2020 - 1.1k words

⤷ closure - kie x reader

- a year after you left the outer banks, you decide it’s time for closure. not only with your best friends but with the girl you love. - posted september 9, 2020 - 4.7k words

POPE HEYWARD

don’t have any fics in progress for pope yet! feel free to request something.

SARAH CAMERON

⤷ hold me while you wait - Sarah x reader

- Sarah is your girlfriend, and it’s been absolutely amazing, until one day she decides that it isn’t what she wants anymore. - posted may 27, 2020 - 1.3k words

#my masterlist*#outer banks fics

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blue-hail · 3 years ago

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I just saw your rant-post about ADHD and forgetting best friend's birthdays and its so fucking relatable. (I am not diagnosed with ADHD but I am very positive I have it (haven't been able to go to a psychologyst in a year and the last one was too stereotypical so I don't count the ADHD test she made me))

That literally happened to me yesterday. It was one of my best friends' birthday and I completely forgot. We've known each other for like a decade and I fucking forgot. The day before I was like "Oh hey, its her birthday tomorrow' I even HAVE it fucking PINNED in my calendar. And I forgot. She literally sent me a message at 8pm that was a sticker of a kirby looking at the screen and said "hi" and I saw the notification. And I was like "oh I should text her" (still not remembering) but guess what? It slipped off my mind. I didn't read it until like 11pm and I FINALLY realized what date it was. I felt so mf bad. I texted her apologizing and wishing her a happy birthday. I also drew her a cartoon of a duck with a sign that read 'happy birthday idiot'. I still felt bad. I still felt bad and since she didn't text me back I thought she completely hated me. Turns out that was just my mind hating me because she ended up liking the drawing and changing her pfp with my drawing.

I hate it. Even if she didn't seem angry and brushed it off, I still hate myself for forgetting. I hate forgetting stuff like this. Makes me feel like such a bad friend.

Anyways, sorry for ranting at you. Hope your friends didn't act all bitchy at you for forgetting and they forgave you. Have a nice day and I wish us both a better memory for our friends' birth dates.

🤝were in this together

And my friends have all been nice about it but it doesn’t matter cuz I still feel SO BAD- today is one of my closest friend since middles 20th bday and I found out through Instagram at about 8 pm and I texted them right away but still feel horrible about it :/

#thank you for responding with your own story #it makes me feel better knowing I’m not alone

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hsu-liangyu · 4 years ago

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"They Are Killing Us: Rage and Trauma in the Wake of the Atlanta Shootings"

A lightly edited post from my Facebook account, 3/19/2021

CW: Anti-Asian racism and violence, racist cartoons, images of racially motivated violence.

"I'm going to put this out there:

If you've known me [Hsu Liang Yu] for any length of time, you'll know that I am extremely vocal about the anti-Asian racism that is present in the US, the racism that has been present in this country since day one.

With the tragic deaths of 8 people, 6 of them Asian women, in Atlanta, perpetrated by a white domestic terrorist (let's call it what it is, folks), I'm going to consolidate all of my feelings on this mess in this post, as best as I can.

This is raw, unfiltered, and unapologetic, straight from the heart.

Anti-Asian sentiments have been in present in America for the better part of 200 years. It has taken many forms, whether it was embodied by municipal, state, or federal legislation, outright violence, stereotyping, enforced ghettoization, portrayals in popular media, or the subtle interactions that Asian people have on a daily basis. The body of evidence is staggering, and if you want me to go on for hours about the Chinese Exclusion Act alone, send me a message and I'll be happy to rant. But the fact of the matter is that Asian Americans live in a country that, historically, does not want us, and has resorted to institutionalized and systemic violence to make that known.

This isn't up for debate.

It's happened, and it continues to happen today. The most horrifying thing is that nowadays, elderly Asian Americans are the ones who are taking the worst of the day-to-day racism and violence in this country, much to the horror of their children and grandchildren.

The racism present here looks like this:

-Limiting the ability of Chinese people to work, unless it was in laundromats, restaurants, hotels, or drug dens (Chinese Exclusion Act)

-Forced removal of Japanese Americans from their homes and the forfeiture of their businesses and possessions and their subsequent internment during World War II

-The horrific waves of violence targeting Chinatowns in the 19th and 20th century in Hawai'i, San Francisco, Bellingham, and all throughout the American West Coast, resulting in the lynching deaths of men, women, and children

-The Asiatic Exclusion League that sought to expel Asian Americans from the workforce on the west coast through legislation and violence in the 19th and 20th century

-The fetishization of Asian women as play-things for white men

-The 'model minority' stereotype that sees countless young Asian Americans pursue prestigious careers at the expense of their mental and physical health and to the detriment of their families

-The 'model minority' stereotype that denies help to Asian Americans struggling in school or to find work because they're seen as deviants within their own community and by the white majority

-The fracturing of Asian American and Black solidarity by the FBI during the Civil Rights movement

-Targeting elderly Asian Americans as easy targets for racially motivated violence

-Asian Americans unable to feel at home in their native born country due to anti-Asian sentiments or failure to adhere to the 'model minority' stereotype

-Asian American communities closing themselves off from other ethnic groups for fear of violence

-Asian American communities actively ignoring police brutality and racially motivated violence for fear of violent reprisal from the police or right wing groups

-Asian Americans aligning themselves with racist, right wing movements to try and shield themselves and their families from violence

-White women losing their US citizenship for marrying Chinese men (the Cable Act)

-Keeping Asian American communities in large cities limited to Chinatowns, Japantowns, Koreatowns, etc. due to racially motivated housing and economic attitudes

-Asians being consistently used as antagonists against white protagonists, or, as the "magical Asian" that solves problems through unexplained means

-The continued use of anti-Chinese Communist Party rhetoric as a vehicle for anti-Chinese sentiment (which, surprise!, you can criticize the CCP without criticizing Chinese people themselves, assholes)

-Blaming Asians and Asian Americans for Covid-19 and its spread

-The pillaging of China and other Asian countries during the 19th and early 20th centuries by European powers and the United States

-Police saying that the racially motivated murder of 8 innocent people was the result of a white guy having a 'bad day'

The list keeps going.

It's always been here, and while I appreciate some of the lip-service being paid to the issue, I'm saddened that it's taken the senseless deaths of 8 innocent people at the hands of a white supremacist for people to listen to what the Asian American community has been saying for decades.

If you want to fight this out in the comments, go screw yourself. I'm sick of seeing minorities murdered and be subject to systemic, institutional violence and oppression while random white folks swoop in to gaslight me.

They are attacking our elders. Terrorizing our children. Assaulting our parents, our partners, out family and our friends. They are destroying our businesses and our communities. They are tearing apart our families.

They are killing us.

I'm proud of my heritage and my Asian American identity, and I believe that other Asian Americans should be empowered to feel the same way. The second anyone tries to gaslight this issue is the second that person get's ejected from this post."

#aapi #stop asian hate #asian american #anti racist #first hand experience #yellow peril #yellow peril racism #chinese american #taiwanese american #seattle #west coast #history

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