#like water or housing. not a fucking fast food chain. i hope you get killed and eaten !!
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so mad at my sister for being obsessed with chickfila like she was on the phone with her boyfriend like "i wish you didnt have a severe and potentially fatal peanut allergy so that you could eat chickfila" are you insane. i wish i could do some kind of like evil cocomelon pavlov shit like playing hypno stuff while shes asleep to like associate chickfila with some kind of horrible trauma so that whenever she even thinks about it she gets horrible flashbacks or ptsd or something. i hope every chickfila gets bombed and they go bankrupt and that the people who own chickfila are brutally killed and cannibalized live on national television in High Definition
#chickfila is one of those things where even if it 'doesnt matter that much' it makes me so mad like easiest and fastest way to#make me hate you so completely and totally#mostly because it is so easy. to just eat somewhere else. like it just shows that you wouldnt be willing to do the simplest easiest thing#in the world to show solidarity and compassion for oppressed people#its so simple. and yet. you go Out Of Your Way to eat there.#and its not just homophobia you are giving money to people who are raging conservatives in all aspects#and dont even start with 'no ethical consumption under capitalism' thats for things you genuinely cant go without#like water or housing. not a fucking fast food chain. i hope you get killed and eaten !!
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69. âWe are not going to steal someoneâs dog.â with Michael, Gavin and Jeremy please!
 69. (nice) âWe are not going to steal someoneâs dog.â
Trigger Warning for brief mentions of animal abuse. Nothing is graphically explicit and everything turns out ok and the dog is rescued, but the thought of an injured animal is triggering or otherwise too emotionally distressing for you, go ahead and keep scrolling
The Mad Ladâs Animal Rescue Agency [ao3]
Itâs odd.
As far as Michael knows, both Gavin and Jeremy are what he would consider cat people. Pets arenât allowed in the penthouse, of course, but both get swept up in conversations about what they would name potential future cats, and both go out of their way to set out food and water for the strays of the city.
So when the two come to him cooing and gushing about a sweet looking pit bull theyâve met, Michael is a little astonished when they start telling him their plans for whisking her away in the dead of night.
âWeâre not stealing someoneâs dog,â he deadpans, and he canât fucking believe that he has to say it.
âAwww, câmon Michael, why not? Lookat her!â Gavin whines, shoving his phone in his face.
And, yeah, alright, sheâs fucking cute â chocolate brown fur; a light pink tongue lolling out of her mouth; a tail thatâs blurry because itâs wagging so fast; and large, shining brown eyes that are staring adoringly at Gavin in the selfie heâs taken â but Michael canât just let his boys go off and steal a dog for no good reason. âBecause itâll shit all over the goddamn floor!â he argues. âWhere are we gonna keep her, Gavin? We gonna make her ride an elevator every time she needs to take a piss?â
But the thing about Gavin is that once he gets something in his head, thereâs really no stopping him. And with Jeremy involved, really, all Michael can do is hope to mitigate the inevitable collateral damage.
Itâs ass oâclock in the morning when Michael pulls into what is possibly the most boring middle class neighborhood and parks across the street from a house that looks like the dozens of others surrounding it. He cuts the engine of their unmarked van and looks to Gavin and Jeremy making their last-minute preparations in the back. The entire vehicle smells like peanut butter and Gavin slaps Jeremyâs hand away from the bag of bacon he had fried up before leaving. âThatâs not for you!â he hisses.
Jeremy pouts indignantly, but lets it be. They grab a pair of bolt cutters, while Gavin stuffs his pockets full of treats and clips various dog toys to his belt. A brightly colored rope dangles from his hips, and right beside it a squeaky chicken. He pauses for a minute, tennis ball in hand, and frowns thoughtfully, trying to figure out where to place it.
Ultimately, he sets it down, deciding that his skirt of toys is sufficient.
Jeremy pulls on a pair of gloves and grabs a leash dangling from a hook. They shoot Gavin an eager look, which he eagerly returns.
âYou look like fucking idiots,â Michael says, because one: itâs true, and two: he apparently has a compulsive need to kill the mood if itâs stupid, like this one. Gavin and Jeremy just look at him, still smiling, mischief gleaming in their eyes. Michael rolls his eyes and waves his hand. âGo get the damn dog.â
The other two excitedly scramble out of the car and crouch-run their way across the street, like theyâre on some sort of actual heist. Michael barely suppresses an eye roll. Itâs not like the hazy moonlight or streetlamps are illuminating the street or anything. Idiots.
He watches them stealth their way to a chain-link fence. On the other side, Michael can make out what appears to be a ramshackle doghouse, and a tiny figure curled up just outside it. He canât hear it, but he assumes Gavin whistles or does something to get the dogâs attention, because the figureâs head pops up and it pushes itself onto itâs legs.
Or at least it tries.
Jeremy is clipping away at the fence when Michael notices how the poor thingâs back paws are dragging uselessly along the ground. Her tail wags furiously as she crawls over to Gavin, but she isnât moving very fast.
Oh. Thatâs why theyâd been so adamant about doing this.
His knuckles turn white, and the steering wheel creaks under his grip. That familiar burn courses through his body, licking flames up and down his arms and legs. The vein in his jaw throbs, and he forces himself to take a deep breath. Going in and beating the owner senseless is tempting â âHow does it feel, huh? How does it fucking feel? â but running in blindly, fists flying, would be reckless and stupid. And while he has his moments, tonight heâs the sensible one.
Or at least thatâs what he tells himself. But when a light flicks on in the house while Jeremy is in the middle of unhooking the dogâs chain and latching their own, all of Michaelâs self restraint leaves him. Thereâs a shadow moving throughout the house, and the hairs on the back of his neck stand on end. He pulls the baseball bat from the passenger footwell and tears out of the van.
Gavin exclaims loudly as Michael rips past.
âGet the dog outta here, Iâll cover you!â Michael yells, and his lifetime of hopping fences pays off as he effortlessly scales the wire structure. His feet land on the ground with a soft thump and gets into position on the other side of the sliding glass door. He chokes up on the bat, ready to swing.
Jeremy finally manages to slip the hook of their leash through the loop on the dogâs collar just as the door slides open. The man inside is screaming angrily, but Michael doesnât hear what heâs saying. Heâs more focused on how heâs going to make this dickbag scream for another reason.
The guy steps outside, not seeing Michael where he hides just behind him, and he reaches for something tucked in his waistband. The second Michael realizes itâs a gun, he pounces, striking the guy in the back of the knees and bringing the bat down on the guyâs back with a satisfying crack.
He fucking whales on the guy, letting all that righteous anger course through him. Each strike shakes his bones, and heâs pleasantly reminded why this is his primary weapon of choice. Thereâs something so deliciously personal about taking a guy apart with a big stick. He keeps swinging until heâs sure Gavin and Jeremy have pulled the poor pup to safety. The bastard is curled into the fetal position, and his gun, which Michael had kicked away, lay just out of reach.
The horn of the van blares â one of his lads letting him know theyâre clear â and Michael brings the bat down for a final strike. It makes a wet crunch against the back of the guyâs head. Heâs not one hundred percent sure whether the guy is unconscious or actually dead. He doesnât particularly care. Heâs got no love for people who beat their animals, and, frankly, heâs killed for less.
His arms burn, and as he wipes blood from his face, he realizes that the lights in the surrounding houses are flicking on. The sound of an approaching siren kicks him into gear. He scrambles over the fence â a feat more difficult now that his limbs feel gooey with exertion â and books it across the street.
The engine revs as Jeremy puts the key in the ignition. Sirens are growing closer, and tired civilians are emerging from their homes to see what the fuss is about. The doors to the back are wide open, and Gavin, gently cradling the dog, yells at him to âHurry up!â
Michael flings himself into the back of the van, and Jeremy takes off like a bullet, tires squealing against the asphalt, leaving behind the scent of burned rubber.
They fly out of the neighborhood, and Jeremy takes a few random turns, shaking any potential pursuers off their trail. All the while, Gavin is cooing at the creature in his arms. âWhoâs a good girl? Whoâs a good Bella?â he asks. âWho doesnât have to worry about that mean old man ever again? Yes, itâs you!â
He pets Bella until she calms down, mindful of her legs, which rest gingerly on the seat. Slowly, her eyes drift shut, and she falls asleep under his touch. He smiles softly, and Michael canât help but do the same at the scene before him.
Then Gavin turns to look at him. âThank you, Michael,â he murmurs, barely audible over the hum of the engine.
Michael shrugs. âDonât understand why you didnât tell me why you wanted to steal this guyâs dog in the first place.â
âAh, wellâŚâ Gavin pauses for a moment, trying to figure out what he wants to say. âLil J and I kind of figured you riding out your rage would be the best cover in case we got caught. And thatâs something that only really happens in the moment. So we needed you going in blind.â
Michael stares blankly for a moment, blinking slowly, trying to understand the reasoning. âYou didnât tell me,â he says slowly, âbecause you wanted me to be pissed off enough to attack a guy in case he caught you.â
Gavin presses his lips together and nods. âYeah.â
Michael scoffs and rolls his eyes. âYou two are fucking ridiculous,â he says. Then his gaze travels towards the peacefully sleeping dog. âWhat are you going to do with her?â
Gavin shrugs. âGonna get our medic to take a look at her and see what he can do. After thatâŚI dunno, try to find a nice place for her to live. Fredoâs been saying he wants a dog, so maybe heâll be willing to take care of her.â
âSo you never planned on her living in the penthouse, did you?â Michael asks.
âOf course not, Michael boy,â Gavin answers easily. His eyes sparkle with humor. âWeâre not gonna make her ride the elevator every time she needs to take a leak.â
#somegrumpynerd#fake ah crew#fahc#rexie writes#SEE i didn't forget about the prompts in my inbox!!!!#i just saved them for when i need to write without thinking about making /good/ fic#to just turn my brain off and write something
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Taken
Part 2
Pairing: Jake Peralta x fem!reader
Summary: Y/N is kidnapped by a perp whose real objective is her colleague and boyfriend Jake. Will he get to her in time?
Word Count: 2.1k
Warnings: violence, kidnapping, angst and more angst
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There is at least one big moment in every young woman's life that she regrets immensely. Sometimes it's dating a horrible person and realizing far too late. Or maybe it's that outfit that truly belonged in a dumpster but somehow ended up in your closet instead. My biggest regret was being considerate of Jake's sleep.
We went to his place after work for date night because he'd finally found an old movie we were looking for and I didn't have a DVD player. We've been together long enough to love each other and we do, the topic of living together brought up a couple times before we both realized that neither of us are quite ready to give up our separate spaces yet. So we go to Jake's and we watch a movie.
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"In hindsight, this probably wasn't the best mood to set on date night," Jake muttered as he turned to me, wiping a few tears from his cheeks.
"Nonsense! I think ugly crying to a great American heartbreaking tale with my boyfriend is completely romantic!" I countered through chuckles to cover up my lingering sobs, causing Jake to laugh with me.
"You're a riot." He helped me clear my cheeks as well before wrapping an arm around my shoulders. "I'm exhausted. Wanna call it one? I'm too tired for sexy times but I'm willing to compromise and do hand stuff."
I rolled my eyes playfully at him as I allowed myself to sink into his hold for a moment. "No, I shouldn't stay."
"What? You always stay on date night. Is something wrong?"
"No, no. Everything's fine. The surgery scene just reminded me that I'm supposed to drop my mom off in the morning for a minor procedure before work. My mom's house and the hospital are on the other side of town and if I leave from here, I'll have to wake up like half an hour earlier."
"I don't mind getting up with you, babe."
"Jacob." I pushed myself into a sitting position, my tone falling flat so he knew to take me seriously. "You've been busting your ass for weeks now to catch your perp, and you got the next best thing--his right hand man. You deserve every second of rest you can get."
He stared at me for a while, a slight pout on his lips. "Alright, fine." He sighed heavily as he stood, pulling me to my feet as well.
"You'll see me in the morning, I promise. I love you, Jakey."
"I love you, too. See you tomorrow."
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Tomorrow is here and I still haven't seen Jake. The windowless cement block of a room couldn't tell me how long I was unconscious, but the ache in my stiff muscles told me it was well past morning. A range of emotions hit me as my eyes focused on my current reality.
Fear.
I feared where I was, of course I did. I can't check my surroundings if it's all just gray walls, the only difference being the rusty chains that held me to one of them.
I feared not knowing who brought me here, how many there were, the intention behind bringing me here.
I feared time. How much had passed, how much I had left. How much of it I'd spent in such deafening and suffocating silence and what would finally disrupt the still air.
Worry.
I worried about not being the only one stolen from what I deemed to be my normal life.
I worried about the mess of blood that hadn't been cleared away from the side of my head.
I worried about the foggy in-and-out single stream of consciousness that I just barely held onto.
I worried about whether or not my mom made it to her surgery or if she spent the entire day in the police station worrying even more than I was.
The thought caused anger to rush in like an uninvited guest.
What could I have possibly done to end up here? I arrest criminals all day long, but none of them are capable of this. I'd love to rip these chains out of the wall and tightly wrap them around the throat of my captor. The thought alone caused the nausea bubbling up from my stomach to turn into something else, something stronger, something that was destined to get me into more trouble.
"You mind letting me the fuck out of here?!"
Like that. That kind of trouble.
Footsteps echoed from somewhere as they announced the arrival of another person. With the knowledge that someone else was in fact here came the return of worry. Or maybe it was fear. I can't quite tell the distinction over the little voice in my head that scolds me for being the thing to break the quiet.
A piece of the wall opened up and spit out a tall figure drowning in black fabric. From the tip of their worker boots all the way up to the ski mask that hid their identity from me.
"You want something?"
A male voice was all I was able to catch. I stayed quiet and kept my head down, hoping my silence would irritate him into talking more.
"What, you lost your tongue or something?"
I still couldn't tell who it was on voice alone.
"Oh, I get it. You want to do this face to face."
I lifted my head just as he ripped off his ski mask, and I quickly bit my lip to stifle my gasp. I recognized that stupid face. Unfortunately for me, he could tell.
"You know who I am, baby?" His steps were the only sound in the hollow space as he came to kneel in front of me. Before I could even blink, he had my jaw held tightly in his left hand, his right hand pushing the end of a blade into my skin.
"Say my name," he practically growled, sending shivers down my spine. I quickly obliged, well aware that I did not have the upperhand in the situation.
"Marco."
"My whole name," he demanded as he pressed further into my skin, responding to my involuntary whimper with a shake of his left hand. "Say it."
"Marco Fallio."
"Good." He quickly pocketed the knife, keeping his gaze on me. "I can't wait to hear you scream that later. It's gonna be fun." He winked as he stood finally, and I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding as he turned his back on me.
"What am I doing here, Marco?"
"I figured since Detective Peralta took my right hand man, I was free to take his."
"How do you know who I am?"
"I saw you two disgusting lovebirds kiss after stuffing my boy inside the back of a cop car." He faced me again suddenly, pulling out a burner phone as he approached me. "What's his number?" He noticed my hesitation and laughed. "You want him to know I have you, right? Or should I just kill you now and send pieces of you until your boyfriend gets the hint?"
I sighed, closing my eyes as I recited the number to him. I listened to him dial, only opening my eyes again when the ringing stopped.
"Peralta."
It was only one word, but it was enough to break my heart. He sounded so defeated and tired, like the rest I begged him to get did nothing but further exhaust him. The thought brought tears to my eyes instantly.
"Hey Peralta, buddy. Fallio here."
"If you're calling to negotiate your friend out of jail, it's not going to happen. He's going to lead me straight to you."
Fallio laughs in a light way that suggests he was talking to an old friend, and not a detective that wanted him behind bars. "You know, I thought you may say that. So I got something that I think might change your mind."
In a few lightning fast motions, the knife was out again, slicing the fabric of my jeans and the skin of my thigh underneath. A strangled yell crossed the threshold of my lips before I could stop it as the burning sensation pulsated through the newly opened wound.
"Y/N! Marco I swear to God, you better--"
"Yeah, yeah. Talk soon!" He ended the call with a grin, turning his attention back to me. "Don't worry, I'll call him back. Let's have a little fun first."
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I want death. I want to die. It seems to be the quickest and possibly the only way to escape Marco Fallio, and at this point, I'll take anything.
Maybe I'll get lucky and survive this, and I'll apply to work for the FBI. With all the cuts and bruises and dried and not so dry blood that now covers so much of my skin, they'll be sure to think I'm tough enough to handle any case.
Or I could quit law enforcement altogether. Become a baker. I'm good at it, and there's less of a chance of this happening again when you're just minding your business and selling fresh food. However, in this baker fantasy I'd still be dating Jake. So this could very well happen again.
Jake. I miss Jake. His name is the only constant thing I remember every time I come back. Every time I open my eyes and remind myself that I'm locked in this room in God knows where for who knows how much time. Jacob Peralta, the only thing I hear in my head as Marco does some other series of painful acts that makes me scream until my throat burns from the force, or until he pushes just a little too far and I pass out again.
"Hey, wake up."
I feel the light but aggressive pats on my face, a long groan pushing from the depths of my lungs and falling out amidst a heavy breath that smacks right into Marco's face immediately. As he has been for the past seconds, days, months, years, he's entirely too close. Which means I'm in for another beating.
His rough hands pull me off my pathetic position on the cool floor and thrust me back first into the wall behind me once again, gripping my jaw to hold my head in place. His thumb forces my bottom lip to part from the top as he begins to carefully pour water into my mouth.
"You're giving me nothing and this is growing old. Time to light some fire under your man's ass."
He pulled the phone out again and talked as I focused on swallowing the water, struggling to keep my eyes open. I felt the phone being pressed to my ear followed by Marco's voice.
"Any last words, Y/N?"
My mind flashed back to the movie Jake and I watched together. The main character's last words were in a suicide note she'd written to her boyfriend. It was a long shot, thinking that Jake would even remember this or that it would help him at all, but as Jake would say, "You miss 100% of the shots you don't take!" So I finished swallowing the water and took the shot.
"I knew about everything. That's why I died."
His hand released my jaw as he hung up again, allowing me to slide to the floor again. I could only hope now that I'd done enough. That by connecting the dots he'd realized that I--like the main character--was dying slowly in a cement room underground at the hands of someone else after being forced to craft last words to the love of my life. He'd already found Marco's three warehouses. A little more digging would tell him that two of the warehouses don't have basements, so I must be at the third.
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Time zoomed past again as I floated away into unconsciousness, brought out of it once again by a gentle slap to the face. This one felt softer but more urgent. Then came voices, all of them fuzzy except for one.
"Y/N, can you hear me, babe?"
Jacob Peralta. The only name I could think of as I fought through the searing pain of every cut, every punch, every moment of being strangled or burned. The only voice I could hear calling my name as I sat there pathetically and waited to be rescued like some princess caught in a tower.
"The ambulance is almost here, Y/N. Can you open your eyes? Come on, baby, please."
Jacob Peralta, the last person to see me before I became a hostage.
"Fuck, Rosa, her pulse is weakening. What do I do?!"
Jacob Peralta.
"Baby, stay with me, come on!"
Jacob Peralta.
"Sir, we need you to clear the area, so we can properly assess her injuries."
Jacob Peralta. The one who kept me alive.
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Make It Through The Night (Part 1)
Summary: One year into the apocalypse, the reader winds up in a bad way when the mysterious Dean Winchester shows up. He ends up saving her but also revealing that heâs the one who caused the end of the world in the first place too...
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Pairing: Apocalypse!Dean x reader
Square: Flannel
Word Count: 2,800ish
Warnings: language, death, injury, angst
A/N: Written for @spngenrebingoâââ
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âShit,â you said, the bear trap clamped down tight on your jacket sleeve. You were lucky youâd seen it at the last second and it only caught the fabric. Wearing a heavy backpack did not help and you sighed, hoping you would find a sturdy branch close by to pry it open instead of breaking your knife on it.
âYou ainât a fox,â said a voice behind you. You looked over your shoulder, two men with rifles walking over.Â
âDid it get you?â asked the other as they approached carefully, the one walking around.
âJust my sleeve,â you said as one of the men knelt down.
âYouâre lucky. That would have messed up that arm of yours pretty good,â he said. You swallowed when you saw them glance at one another but the one put a key into the trap and unlocked it, your arm coming free. âYou ought to be more careful.â
âThanks,â you said, standing quickly and backing away.Â
âYou with anyone?â asked the other man, walking around the trap and towards you.
âI donât think thatâs your concern,â you said.
âOtis,â said the one in front of you. You saw the rope in his hands and took off, a shot ringing out. You heard another as your arm was grazed but you kept running.
âDonât let her get loose,â said Otis. âSheâll bring enough food for the month.â
âFuck, fuck, fuck,â you said, tripping over a log. You spun around on your bottom, hand reaching for the gun on your holster when a different shot rang out. You saw Otis and the other man freeze, staring at something behind you. You stayed still, hearing soft footfalls behind you.
âBen. Otis. You two werenât injuring and selling people off again, were you?â said the voice. They swallowed and looked at one another. âI told you what Iâd do if I heard about you two coming into my territory.â
Ben moved fast, aiming his gun and pulling the trigger in the time the man youâd yet to see had shot twice. Both of them fell to the ground and you should have been happy about that but your shoulder felt wet and your head was dizzy. You were out cold before you could even tell if youâd gotten yourself in a worse situation.
âAh,â you hissed when you woke. Your shirt was off, bra still on but the strap felt like it was down. Your arm was in a bandage, shoulder achy but that appeared to be wrapped up too. There was something damp on your forehead, a washcloth and you closed your eyes again.
âI was wondering if you were ever going to wake up.â
You turned your head and saw a bearded handsome man with some of the fluffiest short hair youâd ever seen cleaning some guns at a desk.
âWhereâs my shirt,â you groaned.
âGarbage,â he said, tossing a too big flannel at you. You sat up slowly and pulled it on, buttoning it before you leaned back against the headboard and sighed. You pushed the washcloth aside and took a few deep breaths, looking around to find yourself in a bedroom. âYour jacket is trashed.â
âBullet holes and bear traps will do that to you,â you said, wincing as you moved.
âDonât move. I didnât just dig a bullet out of your shoulder for nothing,â he said.
âYou knew those guys?â you asked.
âSame way you know how there are pests in your house. Like ants? Yeah, those two were ants. I got sick of the ants,â he said.
âYou said they were in your territory.â
âIâve warned them once before to stay away from here. Iâve heard rumors of what they do. I warned them to stay away and they didnât. You donât strike me as the kidnapping and sell people type so I donât have that issue with you,â he said.
âNo. I donât do that,â you said.
âDangerous to be on your own these days,â he said.
âThe groups Iâve joined over the past year never seem to turn out too well,â you said.
âWhatâs the worst thing youâve done?â he asked, picking up a gun heâd finished with.
âWhy?â
âI want to know who Iâm dealing with.â
âIâd like that too.â
âSweetheart, if I were the bad guy, you would have woken up much worse. So. What is it?â
You looked away and closed your eyes.
âI got all day,â he said.
âLast group I was in...I killed six people. Poisoned dinner,â you said.
âWell thatâs...extreme.â
âThey killed weaker members of the group. I knew I was the bottom of the food chain. I took the precaution,â you said. âPlus they killed my dog so that pissed me off.â
âSorry about your dog,â he said with a nod. âThat how many you kill? Six?â
âHumans? More than that,â you said.
âTell me about those ones too,â he said, cocking the gun.
âWhy? You gonna shoot me if I donât?â you asked.
âAnswer the question.â
âMy parents. My neighbor and his wife and their kid. Chick I met up with not too long after this place went to hell. Two brothers I ran with for a while. A single dad and his teenage daughter. You want me to keep going?âÂ
âWhyâd you do it?â
âBecause they stopped being them,â you said, glancing at the man.Â
âThe infection got them,â he said and you nodded. âYou know...they ainât people after that happens. The person that was in there is gone.â
âThey were still people,â you said.
âThatâs the answer I thought youâd give me,â he said, nodding his head as he stood up. He walked over and flipped the gun around to you, holding the grip out. âYouâre free to stay.â
âWhatâs with twenty questions?â you asked as you took it, finding it was your gun.
âMost people, even if they arenât infected, theyâre dead on the inside. You...you still seem like you give a shit,â he said. âYou kill monsters or in your head out of mercy for people you cared about, or you kill to survive. No malice, just survival. I can work with that.â
âYou didnât have to kill those two guys. They werenât gonna bother you,â you said.
âOh, I know. I never said I was like you,â he said, going for the doorway. âBathroom is down the hall to the left. Iâm around the corner on the right. You need to rest up before you walk around. Shout if you get hungry or need something.â
âWhatâs your name?â you asked.
âDean. Dean Winchester,â he said.
âWhy does that name sound familiar?â you asked.
âProbably because I started the apocalypse,â he said with a dry laugh. âIt was all over the news the first day before that went out.â
He let you stare a moment before he nodded.
âYou?â
âY/N. Y/L/N.â
âYou should sleep more, Y/N while the pain medication is still working,â he said before he left the room.
âGood luck with that.â
Somehow you were able to catch a few more hours though. You couldnât remember the last time you slept in a bed which was probably why. When you woke, you explored the room a bit, trying to figure out where exactly you were.
The door was still open when you wandered out, going down to the bathroom Dean had mentioned. You cocked your head at the sink, wide eyed when you saw clean water come out.
âAre you just gonna stare at it?â asked Dean. Flinching, you saw him in the doorway, raising an eyebrow. âItâs fresh. You can drink it. The shower has hot water too.â
âHow do you have running water?â you asked.
âSame way I got electricity, heat...donât worry, it never runs out,â he said.
âMaybe Iâll save the bathing for when I trust you a little more,â you said.
âYouâre an idiot,â he said, rolling his eyes and walking away. âJust donât use my shampoo.â
âWhatâŚâ you said as he left. You sighed and locked the door behind you. Itâd been so long since youâd had a shower.Â
You looked around, opening a door to discover a closet packed with a variety of bathroom goods. You sighed when you saw an exfoliator scrub, immediately grabbing it along with some soap. There was a spare set of sweatpants and a shirt in there too.
It was dangerous to trust someone or leave yourself vulnerable. But he also already had ample opportunity to already do what he wanted with you.
And itâd been so long since a hot showerâŚ
You quickly undressed and grabbed some supplies to take into the shower. The water was surprisingly hot and a good pressure. You sighed as you stepped under and watched the layers of grime be stripped away.
It was difficult to avoid your shoulder but you only got it slightly wet and the pain wasnât too bad. You were smiling as you brushed your teeth when you were finished, wrapped up in a towel, skin soft and clean for once.
The knock at the door startled you out of your happy little bubble though.
âI left some fresh bandages out here since you probably got that one all wet and wonât let me change it for you...which is stupid by the way,â he said.Â
You went to the door and slowly opened it, Dean stopping from where heâd begin to walk away.
âDo you want me to change that?â he asked, not turning around.
âI want that knife in your back pocket and then you can change it,â you said.
âNot happening,â he said. âYouâre not the only one who isnât sure if they can trust someone yet.â
âMake it an even playing field and weâll work on that,â you said.
âYou have a gun behind that door. How fair is that?â he asked, looking over his shoulder.
âChange it,â you said, opening the door wider, the gun hanging loosely in your right hand, the other on your towel. âPlease.â
âAre you asking or telling?â
âIf I was telling, you would know,â you said. He nodded and you stepped back into the bathroom. He picked up the supplies and walked inside, making sure to take a wide arc around you so you were closest to the door.
âYou smell better,â he said, tearing off the old bandage.
âWell thanks, dick,â you said.
âI bet you were working some dead end, low level job you hated when this all started,â he said.
âSo basically everyone?â you said, his fingers spreading before he looked over your wound. âYou said you started this. The end.â
âMhm,â he said.
âHow?â you asked, Dean cleaning off the injury. You hissed and stomped your foot, nearly crumpling over.
âSorry,â he said as you got some air back. âMonsters.â
âYou made the monsters?â you asked. He shook his head and started to wrap you up again, his calloused fingers gentle as they worked.
âNo. I used to fight them. I used to fight all kinds of bad stuff. I was a hunter. But I screwed up. Made the wrong choice. Pissed off someone close to me and got them killed,â he said. âStarted this whole mess.â
âI seriously doubt you started an apocalypse. You probably just hate yourself,â you said. He stopped working and stared at you. âAm I wrong?â
âNo. Most people donât pay attention to that sort of thing anymore,â he said, tucking the bandage in.Â
âThanks,â you said.
âYeah,â he said. He dug into his pocket and pulled out a clip, setting it on the counter. âYour gun has blanks. These are the real deal.â
âOf course,â you said, shaking your head as you looked at the gun.
âAs long as you donât use this on me,â he said, taking the gun out of your hand and swapping the clips. He handed it back to you and you sighed. âDeal?â
âAs long as you donât give me a reason to,â you said.
âI can agree to that,â he said. You nodded and he walked past you. âItâs getting late. Iâm going to make some dinner.â
âAlright.â
He left and you shut the door behind him, changing into the new clothes. You tucked the gun in the waistband and headed out, wandering the halls for a few minutes before you came across Dean with his back to you, working over a stove.
âI hope you like eggs. I eat lots of eggs,â he said.
âYou have chickens?â you asked.
âMhm. They arenât for meat. Just eggs,â he said.
âEggs sound pretty good,â you said, looking around the space. âSo is this like your doomsday bunker?â
âNope. Just my everyday regular bunker,â he said, a tiny laugh in his words. You took a careful seat on the stool at the counter, Dean glancing over his shoulder. âBeen awhile since Iâve had company.â
âDonât make it creepy,â you said.
âYeah, well youâre setting the table,â he said, nodding to some shelves with plates and silverware. You grabbed two and a pair of forks, setting them down on the counter with a wince. You took a deep breath at your shoulder and sat down. A minute later Dean dumped some eggs on the plate and then started to walk around the island. It smelled good and was warm when you took a bite.Â
A smile found its way onto your face and you shut your eyes, relishing the taste.
Dean shifted around you and your eyes flew open, ready to stab him when you saw fabric go past your face.
âItâll help,â he said, picking up your arm and resting it in a makeshift sling. âBeen there before.â
âYou should be more careful,â you said as he took a seat next to you. âAlmost wound up with a fork in you.â
âIâll keep that in mind,â he said. He ate quietly and you quickly polished yours off, your stomach letting out a large growl. He stared at you, halfway through chewing. He picked up his plate and pushed most of his food onto your own.Â
âI-â
âEat. You need the protein. I got other stuff I can have,â he said. He made himself what looked like a spoonful of peanut butter on some crackers, wolfing it down as you ate the rest of the eggs. âWhenâs the last time you ate?â
âYesterday morning,â you said. âThereâs some food in my pack.â
âI have plenty. Although Iâm going to have to get something out of this if Iâm going to be sharing half my supplies with you,â he said.
âWho said I was staying?â you asked, spinning around in your seat.
âYouâre injured. Not to mention low on supplies and in this area, you donât get supplies without dealing with the person that owns it. Me,â he said.
âFine. Letâs make a deal so I can get what I need and move on,â you said.
âNo,â he said, shaking his head.
âNo? Well fine. Iâll leave anyways,â you said. You stood and headed for the doorway, Dean walking in front of it. âMove.â
âNo. You used my medical supplies, my food, my shelter. You owe me. You can pay it back after youâve healed,â he said.
âOr we have a problem,â you said, pulling out the gun from behind you. He stepped in front of you, getting close.Â
âGo ahead,â he said. âDo it.â
âFreak,â you said, brushing past him, Dean ripping the gun out of your hand like it was nothing. âHey!â
âI think we can both stop pretending. You donât kill unless you have to and Iâm not a threat to you. I need help around here and you need to recover from the road. That is the deal. Understand?âÂ
âWhatever. Asshole,â you said, storming off back towards your room.
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My Brothers, Corrupted
Chapter 1 : Section 4 : Pharmacy Break-In
Trick, Dok, and Dapper were let out of the house with money and a modicum of freedom for once. Now well-supplied â except for one vital need â they returned home only to find that, during their day of happiness, Jackie and Marvin have been âresetâ by Anti. Their memories gone and their attachment strengthened, the oldest twins struggle to come to terms with themselves, their brothers, and their master, but theyâll have to do it quick â another day, another crisis on the horizon, and Dok is in danger.
Trigger warnings: hypnotism, major abuse, torture, trauma reactions, breaking and entering, and mentions of psychosis.
Find this chapterâs masterlist here.
 Part Four of Chapter One: Pharmacy Break-In
musical-in-theory asked: Mar- *sigh* Blue? Can you hear us?
Blue peers over Redâs shoulder, blinking. His face has begun to go more yellow than white and he holds himself like heâs in pain, sheltered behind Redâs body. âI can hear you,â he says. âWhoâs talking?â
âI think they just talk,â mumbles Red.
They give you twin looks of distrust.
Anonymous asked: Trick, Dok, Dapper? You boys might want to hurry on home...
âWe should have,â mumbles Doktor, backing slightly towards the door. âWe should have, we should have.â
âDok,â whispers Trick, gripping at his shoulder. âLetâs stay calm, man, letâs stay calm. No close-offs tonight.â
Doktor wrings his hands together, cursing the tears in his eyes. âRed?â he calls, shakily. âDo you know who I am?â
He already knows the answer.
Red stares at him skeptically. âAnti said Doktor,â he answers.
âBut donât you know - â Doktor chokes on a sob, refusing to let Trick draw him towards the nest. âDonât you know who I am?â
Red opens his mouth and then closes it again.
âSorry,â he manages finally.
Doktor screams, slamming his fist against the door. Trick begs him to be quiet, grabbing his shoulder and pulling him close. âItâs going to be okay, itâs going to be okay, donât bother Anti, please donât bother Anti, weâre okay, weâre okayâŚâ
Anonymous asked: Is blue gonna be okay? Poor boy doesn't look like he's feeling too good
Blueâs swaying slightly in place, pressed against Redâs shoulder. âYou know,â he mumbles, swallowing back nausea. âI think I want to sit down.â
Red turns to hold him.
âYour bed is over there,â mumbles Trick, avoiding their eyes. âYou should probably⌠take it easy.â
He half expects Red to snap at him for suggesting anything at all to him, but Red seems to have lost his interest in him along with his memory. Trick doesnât know why this puts a hard lump in his throat. Itâs better if Red ignores him. Itâs better if Red doesnât remember him. Isnât it?
Thatâs my brother, says some part of his mind, with grief. That was my brother.
And Trick, turning away, tells that part of his brain to shut the fuck up.
Anonymous asked: Hoodie? How're you feeling?
Red leads Blue around the island to their sleeping bags - there are two of them now, not that Red sees the difference - and they crash to the ground side by side, sitting with their hands close together on the floor, trying to process.
âI feel pretty sick,â he mumbles, staring down at his hands. âMy head really, really hurts. And my wristsâŚâ
You see that they are rubbed raw. He must have been chained up. âI donât remember⌠anything,â he whispers. âJust Anti⌠and Blue. And - and - and nothing, just⌠fragments⌠dreams⌠I donât know how this could have happened⌠I think we need to go to the hospitalâŚâ
He touches his head, groaning.
Anonymous asked: Red, your heads unwrapped. Did your injury reopen? Where does the dye end and the blood begin?
âOh, fuck, his headâs open?â Trick stares over at the island. âDok, you gotta go check on him.â
Doktor is biting back bitter tears, hidden against Trickâs shoulder, clinging to his jacket. âI donât want to see him like this,â he sobs. âI donât want him to have forgotten me.â
âFuck, buddy, he just - he just - he wonât be so different, okay? Anti must have just - Anti must have had his reasons.â
âWhat if he didnât, though?â sobs Deutsch. âWhat if he didnât, what if he just did that to him? What if he just does that to us, someday? What if we all forget each other? What if we already have forgotten, forgotten important things, forgotten who we were?â
âDok,â snarls Trick. He grabs his shoulders tightly, fear lacing his trembling voice. âDonât you say shit like that. Donât you dare say shit like that. Youâre going to get yourself killed.â
Doktor whimpers, tears cascading down his cheeks. âI donât - I donât want to be - I donât want to be mindless - I donât want to forget - â
âEnough,â Trick demands, shaking him. He knows heâs being harsh and it doesnât fucking matter. What matters is getting him to stop fucking talking. Because if he doesnât, theyâre going to get beat to shit. And Trick isnât watching him go through that again. Not a chance in hell. Heâs seen Doktor dying too many times in his life. Heâs seen Doktor weak and suffering too many times. And heâs learned his lesson - you shut the fuck up, you shut your twin up, and you donât get hurt.
No matter what else you have to sacrifice.
âEnough, no more. Stop crying. Now, Dok. Go, go over there and look at Red and Blue.â
âTrickshot - â
âDonât argue with me. Whatâs the rule? When one of us is upset, the other oneâŚâ
âDoes what heâs told,â chokes Dok, trying to swallow back tears.
âRight. Right.â Trick wipes at his nose and sniffs, trying to stay calm himself. âGood man. Go on, then. Go patch them up before Anti gets mad. Now, Dok.â
Anonymous asked:
Blue... Are you bleeding? Two other anons had similar questions added.
Theyâre injured.
Theyâre bleeding.
Doktor sees it as soon as he rounds the corner, finding the two of them sitting on either side of the island, but no longer looking at each other like they did the day before - looking now with a strange sort of intensity, a confused tension hovering in the air between them. He sees, vividly, an early memory of him and Trick - sitting across from each other in a jail cell, trying not to stare at each other, wondering, Who the hell are you and why do I feel like I love you so much?
Anti never resets without leaving something behind. And sometimes, when your brain is blank and youâre exhausted, he leaves behind things that werenât there before.
Doktor doesnât remember much of the person he used to be.
But he knows that that person is different from who he is now.
Heâs fairly sure that person was⌠kinder than who he is now.
Pain burns in his chest. He swallows it back like a pill. Take twice a day without food. Without water. Just take it. You donât have any other choice. Swallow the pill or choke on it.
âYou look like you need a doctor,â he manages, trying not to look as miserable as he feels.
Red turns to look at him, paranoia written all over his angry face. Always so angry. The memory of pain can be washed away, but it still leaves its scar behind, and Red has always met blood with fury. The reset is like pulling pushpins out of a bulletin boards. The markers are all gone now, but the marks remain.
âAre you one?â Red asks, a little sharply.
Doktor sighs. Heâs about to reach the end of his rope. âAsshole, did you miss the part where Anti told you my goddamn name?â
âFine, fuck!â snaps Red, unloosening a little. âPretty sarcastic for someone whoâs supposed to do what I say.â
âTell me to shut the fuck up,â says Doktor coolly. âAnd I will.â
Red lapses into silence.
Doktor begins by examining him, running his hands carefully through his hair while Red squirms uncomfortably. âWhy was it dyed today?â he asks.
Dok tries to be sensitive of just how agonizingly lost he must feel. âI donât know,â he says softly.
âIt just doesnât make sense. I hit my head and decide to dye my hair?â
He doesnât like it when Anti lies, so he doesnât say anything at all.
He wraps Redâs head back up carefully, washing clean the little stripe of dye above his fracture, which must be stinging awfully. He hopes he isnât punished for washing it out.
Blue scoots steadily closer to them the whole time he is working.
âAnywhere else you have pain?â asks Dok softly, drawing away from Red.
âMy head hurts,â he admits. The admission itself may as well be a cry of agony from Red.
âIâll give you both something for that,â says Dok.
Heâs just going to knock them the fuck out with some sleeping stuff. They donât deserve to live through a night of exhausted confusion.
âHow you are feeling, Blue?â he asks, turning to the other twin.
Not well.
Blue has gone very, very pale, the area around his eyes mostly yellow. He breathes a little too fast, reacts a little too slowly. His cuts are open. His cuts are weeping, weeping, weeping.
âCan I please have something for the pain?â he whispers, sinking down against the cupboards.
Red reaches out to grab him as he collapses, startled by the ferocity of protectiveness that rises inside him like magma. He barely remembers who this person is, but he must have fucking adored him. Oh, the poor cuts covering his aching body, the poor blood and bruisesâŚ
He gives up on trying to look tough and buries his face against Blueâs chest, sobbing.
Doktor cleans them up in silence. Restitches cuts from being tortured. Splints the aching bones from being thrown down the stairs. Washes everything clean.
They donât even remember how they were injured.
But Doktor does.
Doktor remembers.
Doktor is angry.
He watches them swallow their pills.
He decides to take one himself, too, and returns to his nest, to his little corner of his safety, to his little brother, the only thing that ever seems to stay the same.
âAre you okay?â asks Trick, without words.
And Doktor, turning away, does not answer.
spicydanhowell asked: dok he's not gonna do it again. all five of you are here now, no more changes, he just wanted red to have a clean slate with his twin so theyd be close like you and trick. i promise he'll remember you, please go take care of him
âThanks,â mumbles Doktor, flat-voiced, staring straight ahead out the window. Trickâs hand rubs the low of his back, a warm, reassuring weight on his spine. âI hope youâre right.â
Anonymous asked: blue... are you okay? is red ok?
Blue and Red lie beside each other in the darkness.
âAre you?â murmurs Red. âOkay?â
âAre we?â asks Blue, his voice faint.
Red stares at him like he canât take his eyes away.
He doesnât know whatâs happening to him. He doesnât know whatâs going on. He doesnât remember who he is or who this person is - all he knows is that he loves him, and he loves Anti, and theyâre together.
So that⌠that will have to be enough right now. Heâs too tired for anything else.
âIâm okay if youâre okay,â he whispers.
Blue stares back at him. His eyes are oceans.
âThen Iâm okay,â he says.
And tonight, when he reaches out, just gentle, and grips Redâs hand -
Red squeezes his hand back, and smiles very softly at him.
At his twin. At his brother. At his friend. At his Blue.
âGet some sleep,â he whispers.
Blue is already there.
Anonymous asked: Anti, I donât think erasing Redâs memory was such a smart plan. Why take that kind of risk?
âWhat risk?â yawns Anti, pulling Dapperâs coat off him and pushing him towards the bed. âHereâs the wonderful thing about my brand of hypnotism, darling - it sticks. Iâm very careful with my power. Very careful with my resets. Wash this away, leave this behind, take that out, put this in⌠The surface is gone, but the substance remains. Heâs still my Red.â
He pauses beside the bed, staring out the window for a second.
âAnd Iâll have to be careful,â he murmurs, anger making his mouth curl. âThat there is nothing left of your Marvin.â
Anonymous asked: Youâre actually wrong. No matter how many âresetsâ you do, their love for one another still seems to hold strong.
âOnly when I want it to,â answers Anti. He is shaking slightly and he hides his trembling hands from you. âOr havenât you noticed that there is no love at all left between anyone but my twins? Trickshot and Red hate Dapper, Dapper wants no one but me, Red slaps Doktor and Trick around more than I do, Blue will learn to do the same soon enough - no, allâs well. Allâs well. Iâm in control. Iâm the one in control now. Iâm the one who makes the characters. Theyâre mine, theyâre mine.â
He hisses and turns away from you, his face glitching.
Anonymous asked: Thatâs it Anti I think I have enough spite in me to astral project through the screen and at least get one good hit on you. Iâm not strong but MAN AM I MAD
Anti laughs, shaking slightly as he crawls into bed beside Dapper. âThatâs how I know it was a good dayâs work!
âNot strong but mad,â he giggles. âYouâre like this kid here, huh?â
He pinches Dapperâs cheek hard. Dapper flinches but doesnât respond, staring dully up at the ceiling. Anti kisses his cheek. Anti kisses his throat. Anti bites his ear. Dapper whimpers and covers his face with his hands. Anti bursts into laughter, drawing him to his chest. âGive me a kiss!â he laughs. âGive me a kiss, come on.â
Dapper turns on his side and kisses his brotherâs cheek without emotion on his face. It stings his mouth.
âGood boy,â purrs Anti, wrapping his arms around him. His face is sallow with exhaustion, he leans his head down heavily on Dapperâs shoulder. Safe on Dapperâs shoulder. Nothing can hurt me, nothing can hurt me, nothing can hurt me.
âYou are okay?â asks Dapper, with a slight flicker of concern. âAnti?â
But Anti is already unconscious.
Most of Dapperâs discomfort washes away. He whimpers and snuggles closer to his brother, hugging him in return, rubbing his back, even if it does hurt to touch him. He presses the reassuring weight of his clock against Antiâs chest, readjusting his brother on the pillows, and curls against his body, letting out a deep sigh.
It was a good day. But itâs time to put it behind him and go back to the way he always lives. Thereâs no point in anything but duty, after all. Thereâs no point in the past or the future. All he knows is that he is on the night watch now, and nothing - nothing, nothing - will harm his brother as he sleeps.
cest-mellow asked: hey dapper? are you feeling alright up there?
Dapper stares at you, wrapped up in Antiâs arms. He looks exhausted, but heâs a patient kid.
âDoing okay,â he signs slowly, refusing to disturb his brother. âShould stop expecting anything. Should have known he only let me go so he could reset M⌠Blue.â
Anonymous asked: Dapper, do you know exactly what Anti may have done to Red and Blue? What they went through, I mean?
âHappens often,â says Dapper, his eyes darkening wearily. âReset. Some things go, some things stay. First day is worst.â
He stares down at Anti for a moment, ensuring that he is asleep, and then up at you.
âDonât tell Anti,â whispers his hands. âBut sometimes, in the days that follow the reset⌠some things can be recovered, before they are lost forever.â
cest-mellow asked: do you know how we would recover them? just.. hypothetically?
Dapper stares at the floor.
âNo,â he says. âSomeone tried, once⌠but it wasnât enough to save me.â
Anonymous asked: thatâs good news!! but how can we get those memories back without anti knowing?
âI think itâs more about the substance of a man,â says Dapper vaguely. Heâs untangling himself from Anti a little, setting his brother gently back against the pillows, stroking his fingers through his short green hair. âI wouldnât know. I can never even find myself, these days. As far as âdayâ has any meaning. As far as anything has any meaning.â
Anonymous asked: Regardless of memory or time or blood or how it all comes together or crashes down around you... It all has meaning, Jameson. YOU have meaning. I promise you that.
Carver starts and looks up at you, mouth slightly open. He tries to find a response, but his hands are empty and his chest is full.
Until anger comes crashing down on him.
âYouâre wrong,â he signs bitterly, drawing his knees to his chest. âI give meaning to other people, but me? No. No. Just⌠a clock, wound up and changed to fit the time someone else asks for.
âCrashes down around me, crashes down around me⌠the world crashed down on me a long time ago, or maybe it was only yesterday, and I am the last working piece of the rubble.â
He scratches dully at his wounded head, rocking himself gently, gently.
âAnd barely working, at that.â
Anonymous asked: Maybe this is convoluted and unfair to ask of you considering that you're the one that CAN answer but... between resetting someone's mind and resetting a time frame, which strikes you as worse?
Dapper pales in the evening light, his hands stammering slightly as he tries to find the right words to answer you. âWell - well - no harm to a time reset,â he cries, distraught. âIs there? I didnât do anything bad, did I? No harm, no harm - I can know what comes but - I wouldnât take your autonomy. Itâs just - a day! Just an hour! JustâŚâ
He sits back against the headboard, chewing on the nail of his thumb, distressed.
âThen again, there are nice parts to resetting your head⌠to make the pain fade away into the backgroundâŚâ
He breathes out deep.
âTo free the person you were from the sin of the man youâve become⌠To be Carver, not⌠J⌠to forget what used to make you happy, so you can stop hoping for it, and live misery more peacefullyâŚâ
Dapper stares out the window. The northern lights are breathing through the sky, and he quiets, watching them, forgetting what he was talking about.
âAnd then Anti loves you better,â he adds softly, his hand on his brotherâs head. âSo⌠what else matters?â
florenceisfalling asked: is anti still asleep? dapper, do you think you could help... salvage?
Dapper grins a little strangely and points at the rope still lying on the floor, a snake sleeping but not dead. He is unlikely to venture downstairs without permission. He winces slightly and closes his eyes, rubbing at his throat.
cest-mellow asked: is it real love though, jamie? why would someone hurt you if they love you, even if you did something bad, or if you simply didnât do a thing. why would somebody who loves you hurt you the way anti does? iâm not trying to make you upset. maybe this is something someone else needs to hear, downstairs. but i think you need to hear it too.
âWhat would you have me do?â asks Dapper distantly. âEven if I left Anti, could I flee my own violence? Thereâs nothing left for me without him.â
A sudden energy rises in him, powerful enough that you hear him choke, once, twice, as he rides it through, and then he sits up, and his eyes are not silver but blue, blue, blue.
âDo you see that who I was is destroyed and who I am is Antiâs, and if I am not Antiâs then I am no oneâs and nothing, and would swiftly kill myself in his absence, as he has always told me I should do if he were to die? Do you understand that I cannot without justification bear the weight of the things I have done? Is it real love? Broken things can love truly! But not well, not well, badly, even - yet a second broken thing expects nothing better than a shattered handful of affection to keep him alive every other night. Where would you have me go? What would you have me do? I canât pull myself out of these chains. I canât remember except on the nights when I can and I canât bring the people Iâve forgotten to remember along with me. Do you understand that only my family could save me, and my family is fucking dead and gone?â
He slumps down beside Anti, covering his face with his hands.
âNo, you donât understand⌠neither do I⌠I donât understand anything anymore⌠please, tonight is not a confused night, though I wish it were not, as these are the most painful nights to survive, because I am more aware than ever of just how much goddamn pain Iâm in - and just how truly I can never, ever be free of it. Just how truly I can never, ever, be Jameson Jackson again.â
There is a long pause. He breathes harshly in the darkness, hiding beside his brotherâs body.
Until, finally:
âAnti is someone I could run from,â he admits, very softly.
âBut Carver?â
He breathes. The sky breathes. Time breathes in and through and with him. And none of it, none of it, none of it - none of it means anything to him anymore.
âCarver I will never be free of.â
He wishes Anti had reset his memory again. Perhaps the fifth time would work better than the first four.
âCarver I will never, ever, ever be free of.â
Anonymous asked: You have meaning. You're more than a clock. You CREATE, J. You make ART. Those are your thoughts and feelings brought to life. And even if your artwork never makes it it of that room, it's still there and it's yours. You don't need to make them and yet you do. That's a choice and you make it for yourself and that means everything.
Dapper bites down hard at his lip, teary-eyed, a protest rising and dying on his hands, and then something different registers with him, and he blinks, and sits up straight, his eyes widening -
âI,â he stammers, his face losing all color.
He clutches at his heart, trying to breathe, tears sliding down his cheeks.
âI forgot to grab my art things⌠I forgot to grab my chalk and paper.â
cest-mellow asked: can i ask you.. was carver someone in you before anti made you dapper? or did he only become someone after all this?
Dapper gives a soft, breathy moan, clutching at his heart. âDonât remember⌠just remember⌠knife, blood, crying, asleep. Stolen, killed. Red.â
Anonymous asked: I imagine you don't mean red the color. Y'know. All things considered.
Dapper stares at the floor. âThe color was the only thing it meant, back then⌠we never - â
A hand jolts up to grab him by the throat.
Carver slams his skull back against the headboard, giving a desperate gasping scream. His hands fly up to scrabble at the fingers around his neck, but Anti is holding him tight, glaring up at him, bored and irritated, from the mattress of their bed.
âAnti,â Carver begs, writhing. âSorry, sorry, sorry. I didnât mean to wake you up - didnât mean to be loud, move too much - didnât - please, please, please - â
Picking at the nails of his free hand, Anti gives no answer but a low, impatient sigh, waiting til Carverâs spasms are reduced to desperate gasping, and then to a slight tremble, and then, at last, an unconscious body in his hand, sinking down into the mattress, its ownerâs mouth slightly blueâŚ
Anti drops Carver onto the bed, shoving him onto his back. With all the air of an artist re-arranging a sketch figure, he pushes Carver into a position thatâs comfortable for him and lies back down on the boyâs warm chest, wrapping his arms around his waist and falling back into a deep, cozy, and undisturbed sleep.
nikkilbook asked: Redâs wrists are raw? But... didnât he have a dog bite wound there? And... what do Blueâs wrists look like?
Red stares sleepily up at you, morning light casting gold over his red and brown hair. He reaches up stiffly to stare at his wrist, licking his dry mouth.
âDog bite, is that what that is?â he mumbles, looking at the bandages. He turns to Blue and picks up his hands as he sleeps, examining the splint on his brotherâs wrist. âHis is broken⌠and both of us have these⌠chain burnsâŚâ
He shakes his head, confused. âI donât remember how we got themâŚâ
Anonymous asked: Why do you feel the need to constantly remind yourself that theyâre all âyours?â Dont you understand that the hatred they feel is only making them more miserable? Your so called âcharactersâ are feeling nothing but pain, and misery. Characters are meant to grow and learn and be satisfied in the end. Any good âcreator/writerâ should know that, but I guess you really arenât one after all
Anti filters dully through messages, dozing against Dapperâs arm, but at this he jerks up, venomous, glaring at the camera.
âShut the hell up,â he snarls, dragging Dapper closer to him. âYou think I care about any of them? You think I care about anyone? I donât need anyone. I donât need anything! Shut the hell up! Maybe they could find some satisfaction if they would goddamn do what theyâre told! Useless little things, useless, useless, uselessâŚâ
He snarls and shakes, sinking suddenly back down towards the bed, a low gasp falling from his mouth. His skin is translucent and his hand grips Dapperâs shirt tightly.
Dapper whines in his sleep and turns over, cuddling up closer to Antiâs chest. Anti softens, humming, playing with his hair. âMostly, anywayâŚâ
cest-mellow asked: anti, do you actually love your brothers? part of me feels like you do but the other part... i donât know.
Anti looks up, eyes narrowed.
Eventually he turns back to Dapper.
âWhat does it matter?â he says finally, without emotion.
âNo one knows what I am,â he adds a moment later. âNo one⌠no one knows what I am. Do natureless things have a telos? Can an endless thing have a need for love? Is there love without a telos?â
He sighs and puts his head back down on his pillow, looking sick and human.
âI need to stop downloading philosophy right before bed.â
Anonymous asked: Functionality, uselessness, so many different standards... that is one frankly unhealthy fixation of yours, and it makes me wonder if youâre projecting just a little of your own fear onto them. Because being useless is being weak, right? And you canât have that from yourself. Anybody else but you.
Anti jumps out of bed, heading for the camera, but before he gets there you see him stagger back, falling against the mattress again. âEveryone is weak compared to me!â he shrieks.
Dapper groans, panting through a nightmare on the bed, his hands covering his ears.
âEveryone is weak and stupid and fleshy and pointless! Shut the fuck up! A fixation, what am I supposed to do, donât you know I was born full of hatred, itâs his fault, itâs his fault! And he was weak and he was useless and heâs gone now, heâs gone!â
He drags himself back to his feet and throws the camera across the room, hard. Your screen cracks down the middle, giving you a shaky, glitching image as it tumbles to the ground to lay on its back.
âProjecting⌠Iâll show them motherfucking fear⌠I donât have to be afraid of anything.â
skyewardlight asked: Ooooo looks like we hit a soft spot huh? :3c
âShut your goddamn mouth.â
immabethehero asked: Anti, how are you not questioning the talking cameras?
âTheyâre not fucking talking, theyâre just goddamn messages. And they do whatever I want them to, theyâre my cameras. Everything with electricity for lifeblood is me, is mine. Talking camerasâŚâ
Anonymous asked: fuck... anti... i respect you. pleeease don't hurt the boys because one of us said something cruel to you. we know you're very powerful. we don't doubt you. i'm sorry.
Antiâs rage simmers a little lower and he shrugs, shaking his head slowly. âDoesnât matter,â he mumbles, a little thickly, rubbing at his face. âNothing you can do to me. As if it matters⌠doesnât matterâŚâ
He sighs, stretching out his arms and tired, aching neck, looking calmer.
Anonymous asked: You know what would give everyone in this house some life blood? A space heater, Anti. Everyone's cold.
âSpace heater,â he repeats. âNo, we wonât be in this part of the world long enough to need that. Besides, have they really done anything to earn a space heater?â
spicydanhowell asked: yknow what i think though... and let me phrase this delicately because carver was so well behaved all day but... he and dok and even trick... they all still love each other, or at least care for each other
âWrong, wrong, wrong,â hisses Anti. âCanât be, canât be, canât be. Only on my orders. Stupid little brats. What reason would they have to still care about each other? I reset them and pitted them against each other like dogs in a ring. No, no, donât be silly, pet.â
He staggers back to his bed, waving a hand, trying to get the camera to turn off.
âThatâs enough out of you,â he growls, sinking back onto his blankets, his arms trembling as they lower his weight down again. âI brought you here for one reason and this is not it. Iâm the one in control⌠Iâm the one in controlâŚâ
The camera blinks off.
cest-mellow asked: hey red, you feeling any better? do you remember anything? even little things like smells, sounds, the way something felt or looked like. anything at all?
Red sits back, smiling slightly at the question as something warm flickers through his mind, a memory so distant it can barely be seen.
âI donât know,â he sighs.
He looks around. Golden light drifts over his body. He soaks in it, staring out at the forest.
âI think there was⌠a house,â he says softly. âAnd it was⌠warm.â
He looks down at his hands, considering.
âBut this isnât that house.â
nikkilbook asked: Howâs my boy doing? Heâs gotta be overwhelmed. On like. Every metric.
Red stares at you, his mouth beginning to tremble.
âOh, fuck,â he gasps, and breaks into sobs, gripping the soft fabric of his hoodie in his hands. âOh, fuck. I canât do this. I canât handle - â
His twin stirs beside him, rubbing at his eyes. A brief moment of utmost confusion covers his face, but after a moment, it changes to only âmostly confusedâ and he reaches out to touch Redâs sleeve, avoiding skin, mumbling his name.
âWhatâs going on?â he asks, soft.
âDonât remember anything,â chokes Red, rocking himself gently back and forth. âDonât feel good, hurt, hurt.â
His brother sits up, murmuring reassurances. Heâs there to put a warm, steady pressure on his arm. No matter what happens, at least he gets to be there beside his friend, and make sure heâs okay, or, if not okay, still with him, at least.
Still with him, no matter who he is.
Anonymous asked: anti how exactly did it go reseting marvin? i guess red probably took it okay, but, like, what did you actually do to them to make them forget? how did you manage to get marvin to cooperate?
Itâs evening and Antiâs only now bothering to rise from bed. His face is still starkly white, though he occasionally glitches back to green, rubbing wearily, angrily, at his face. Dapperâs not currently in the room, but shuffling nearby assures Anti that his pet has not gone too far. In fact, you can hear a sort of clapping coming from the hall.
âIt went well enough,â murmurs Anti, satisfaction ghosting over his face. âYes, you have to be rough to get them to cooperate. I came to grab him while he was sleeping, but then even Red got so upset - went into one of his little fucking freak-outs and wouldnât come down into the basement with me. So I had to tie him up too. And then itâs just - power like an ocean, and the sound of them crying as they feel themselves drift away.
Like sand from the beach.â
He pauses, rubbing his thumb against his fingers.
âI love when theyâre so dopey and confused,â he hums. âLove, love, love them looking up at me like that, waiting for me to tell me who they are⌠just like Jack must have felt, donât you think? Just empty slates, waiting to be formed. I love that⌠but I almost hope thereâs a little of the cat left⌠I want to see himâŚâ
Anti pauses and takes a deep breath, closing his eyes.
âI want to see him humiliated by what Iâve turned him into.â
Anonymous asked: (Answer whenever)Why canât you see that weakness doesnât make you useless and uselessness doesnât make you weak. Youâre blinded by your constant crave for control, and anger that you donât see that you yourself are being puppeted around by your own emotions. You canât make a family forget their love for one another no matter how hard you try, and it pains you. Denial will not get you anywhere. It may be his fault that youâre like this but that doesnât mean you should enable it for the worse.
Anti is up on his feet, searching through the drawers of the bedside table. Your words draw a low, dangerous hiss out of him, and he turns to you with mismatched eyes, lips drawn back.
âYouâre a fool if you think Iâm not in control of everything here,â he growls, turning back to the drawer. âI know everything they do, everything they think, everything - goddammit!â
He holds up a little orange prescription bottle. Four tiny white pills rattle around the bottom.
âOkay, you know what,â he says, as horns curl out of the back of his head and the scraping of dogâs claws echo through the air around you, accompanied by the soft snarling of something that you have never heard before. âMaybe there is one thing I canât control.â
He sets the pill bottle in his hoodie pockets, his face cold as he turns to the light.
âChase Brodyâs unbelievable stupidity.â
He looks back towards his door.
âRed!â he calls. âGo tell Doktor and Trick to wait for me in the basement!â
Anonymous asked: The question is, why exactly did Anti allow us to observe and communicate in the first place? We may taunt him and try to get through to the egos but we're not really a threat while he maintains control.
âYou want to know why I allow you to use my cameras? To watch, to see, to speak?â
Anti picks the camera up and holds it in his hands as he stalks out into the hall and back towards his room. Downstairs, you can hear frantic argument. Dapper scoots back against the wall of the hallway as you pass him, clutching something to his chest.
âItâs because I think itâs funny.â
He opens his closet door and pulls out a small wooden box, opening it to reveal a set of gorgeous silver knives, tipped with a different color each. Gently, he pulls out the orange-tipped one, gripping it warmly in his hands, holding it up to the twilight.
âI think itâs funny that youâre still here even after he is gone. I think itâs funny that you sit here and watch as I fucking torture them. I think itâs funny that you lost and youâre still here trying to win, I think itâs funny that my boys find any comfort at all in the things you say, and I think itâs the most ridiculously hilarious thing Iâve ever fucking heard that you still think you can save them.â
The cool blade of the knife glimmers and the light dances at his behest.
âYou can watch all you want. Because I hated Jack, yes.â He turns to you.
His teeth are gritted. His eyes are black. The strength of the anger radiating off of him is powerful enough that you can feel it like a physical force, taste it in your mouth, sense it on the ends of your fingers, like when you hear the rattling of a snake but cannot see it yet.
Not yet.
âBut some days,â he whispers, teeth bared. âI hated you more.â
There are birds crying in the trees. There are birds fleeing from the trees. The sky is rapid darkening.
âThis is my victory. Drown in it.â
And he turns to head downstairs.
skyewardlight asked: Looks like someone's overcompensating about his control. You constantly mentioning that you're in control doesn't convince us Anti. You sound like a child constantly stating they're an adult and throwing a tantrum when someone else says that they aren't. Heh.
âIâm about to show you control,â he says.
The sound of his boots coming down the stairs silences the whole house. Red and Blue cower as he passes, hiding behind their island, not yet sure whatâs going to happen, though memories both dull and sharp are rising harshly in their heads, memories of blood and agony.
âOvercompensating⌠he belongs to me. Heâd be nothing without me. And heâs still foolish enough to fail to look after my little one, well.â
He flips the knife around and around in his hand.
âHe wonât forget my puppyâs medicine again.â
Anonymous asked: Will hurting him make you feel better? Will hurting him make him love you more? It wonât. He is human, he forgets. You should not punish him for being the way they he is. Brothers are supposed to love one another. Not make the other feel miserable, and helpless. Why canât you understand that itâs okay not to be in control?
Anti pauses on the stairs towards the basement, panting harshly.
âHe shouldnât forget,â he snarls, scraping his knife against the wall. âHe shouldnât, he shouldnât, he should know better, I taught him better! Heâs not human, heâs less than that, heâs just - â
Anti screams and gnashes his teeth, throwing his head. âHeâs just a piece of him! And Iâll fucking show him what happens when he doesnât do what heâs supposed to! He belongs to me, to me, to me! No one else, no one else, no one else!â
Anonymous asked: anti, please, you didn't even tell him to get it. carver didn't even mention it. trick didn't do anything wrong
âRed said it, that Dapper was near to out. He should listen better to his big brother. He never does. Always the littler dog snapping back when he should just roll over. Doktor and I are the only ones he listens to, and sometimes not even then. Besides, he should know what the little one needs. What, he expects Dapper to remember? No. Trick has to change.â
Anonymous asked: Aaaaghhh there was a pharmacy! It was right in front of them and we didn't realize, nooooo! I thought they got everything at the store why!! I feel so deceived!
It was a very small detail!! Red only mentioned it off-handedly and the pharmacy was thrown in among a lot of other details. I think you guys still did a good job checking. Antiâs standards, as you can see, are near impossible to meet.
cest-mellow asked: anti, anti, take a second. everything is okay, red or you can just go out and grab the medicine, right? trick forgot, but he didnât mean to! he got everything else you asked him to get, didnt he? and i can guarantee he feels absolutely awful about forgetting once he realizes, not because of you but because of dapper! youâre such a good brother, you know that? donât you think you should be a little more gentle to them so they can be better to you as well?
At the top of the stairs, Anti hears Trick and Dok stop in their panicked discussion with each other, still panting through the darkness. He grits his teeth, growling softly, and a sob echoes off the walls.
Anti rolls his eyes, thinking.
âThey would be relieved if I didnât punish them,â he admits. âBut he should⌠know better, he should⌠I can take it a little easy on Doktor, maybe. But he should learn, donât you understand I have standards? No, no, no, thereâs no excuses for his bad behavior. What would you have me do if not torment his Doktor? Thatâs always the best way to teach him.â
Anonymous asked: This is not right. You shouldnât be doing this to your little brother. He loves you, and would do anything for you. You already make him do so much, and now youâre going to hurt him for accidentally forgetting. What kind of brother tortures the other? They may love you but they do not believe that you love them, and Iâm starting to think that, they are right.
Anti bristles with a nasty sneer, stalking down the stairs again. âOh, you donât think they love me?â
The boys jolt as he appears before them, backing closer to each other. Doktor tries to keep Trick behind him, Trick does the same with Doktor, and they end up pressed side to side, almost gripping each otherâs hands.
âTrick,â he says, snatching him by the throat. Trick screams, lifted into the air - Doktor, at his side and to his credit, does not flinch away. âDo you love me?â
âYes, yes!â screams Trick, gagging, clutching at his brotherâs hands. âYes, so much, please!â
Anti drops him on the ground.
âPlease,â wails Trick. âWhat did we do?â
âWhereâs Dapperâs refill?â
âR-refill?â
âFor his medicine, Trick! The shit that keeps him from tearing his fucking face off because he sees dogs eating him alive!â
Trick canât breathe. His mouth hangs open as he stammers too much to speak.
âWeâll go back and get it,â whispers Doktor, stepping slightly over his brotherâs body. âWe promise. No harm done, master.â
ââWe,â no, no, your stupid twin is on his own. If he wanted your help, he should have remembered.â
âD-didnât - mean to - Anti,â gasps Trick. âD-didnât - â
âNo, you shut up! Hereâs what weâre going to do. Youâre lucky your little audience is less bloodthirsty than usual. For once, no one seems to want to see your brother tortured.â
Trick sobs dryly, reaching out to grab Doktorâs pant leg. Anti reaches down to grab him by the hair and yank him to his knees.
âDapper has two days worth of refills left.â He holds up the little orange bottle and rattles the pills. âSo you have two hours, Trickshot. Come back with his medicine. If you make it in time, I wonât touch your twin. If not, weâll be having fun without you.â
Anti drops Trick again and turns to you, shoving the camera back onto the table by the door. âAnd if you want to see him safe so badly, then why donât you save him? Take your camera, Trick.â
For a second, a smile plays across Antiâs mouth like the wriggling of an entrail.
âYour little friends are going to help you on your way.â
Anonymous asked: Money! He needs money!
Trick glances up at Anti for a second, panting.
âI gave you your money,â says Anti coolly, pulling Doktor away from his twin, who gives him one last desperate glance and manages to sign âH-A-L-D - â before he is yanked to Antiâs chest. Trick hesitates again, trying to think, and a second later the back of Antiâs hand collides with his face, striking him hard enough to make his head spin. Choking, Trick dashes up the stairs, trying to hold back tears, always, always, always trying to hold back tears.
âTrick? Whatâs going on?â asks Blue, his voice haggard. In a blind panic, Trick considers just dashing away from him. It takes more than half an hour just to run to town, let alone to get the medicine and return, and he already feels so weak and shaky with terror that he can barely stand.
Anonymous asked: Im trying to see the good in your Anti, but sometimes its hard to admit that youâre not a straight up dickwad. He admitted he loved you out of fear and nothing more. They only love you so they can survive another day. Why canât you get that through your thick fucking skull? You need help and actual love, and so do they. I know you want that. Youâre just afraid that theyâll leave you alone, or that youâve broken them past the point of no return
Anti screams, a horrible sound, enraged and exhausted, low on power and lower still on patience. âShut the fuck up! Shut up! Shut up, shut up!â
He turns his head towards you with a horrible burst of light from his eyes and the camera shorts out entirely with a painful screech, leaving you with no eyes in the basement and a last memory of the sight of Doktorâs face, blank and yet terrified as he sinks, helpless, to the ground.
Anonymous asked: H-A-L-D. Does that mean anything to you, Trick? Can you make anything out?
âI - I donât know, no, I donât know anything! I donât know where the pharmacy is, I donât know what his prescription is or what fake name he goes by, how much it costs, I donât have any money, but it doesnât matter because itâs night and I think the pharmacy is closed and I - â
He has to heave in a desperate breath, gripping frantically at his hair, tearing, tearing, tearing -
âTrick,â cries Blue, getting painfully to his feet and coming to his brotherâs aid. He tries to grab Trickâs hand, but he draws away, frantic, eyes wide.
âTell me whatâs going on,â Blue demands.
âNo, no, no, no, Anti said alone - â
Blue grabs his hands again, successfully this time. Trick stops, gasping, and turns to meet his brotherâs eyes, bluer than denim dye. âTrick,â says Blue, softly.
And there is a moment where the name that Trick was told to forget rises to his brain like a sedative, warm and reassuring and tired, and the man looking at him is not just Antiâs, but his own, is someone he remembers, very distantly, very softly, very warmlyâŚ
âMarvin,â whimpers Trick. âI donât know what to do.â
Blue blinks, drawing slightly away.
âI forgot to get Dapperâs medicine and now Anti is angry and heâll hurt Doktor if I donât bring it back in two hours but I donât have anything I need and I donât know - I donât know - I donât - â
âAmata,â whispers Marvin, touching his cheek. âBreathe. Breathe. What do you need?â
âYou canât come with me. Youâre hurt, youâd slow me down. And I canât ask you for much,â whimpers Trick. âAnti could get mad if he realizes you helped me.â
Marvinâs eyes flash. Red is watching from behind the island, shaking.
âIs there anything I can do?â asks Marvin.
Trick stammers, shaking his head uncertainly, turning to you with eyes wide. âI donât know, is there?â
Anonymous asked: Dapper, has Anti ever accidentally killed anyone downstairs and had you go back to fix it? I was going to ask him this directly but I realized if this has happened, he wouldn't know...
Dapper is sitting in his room, happily drawing with his chalks, which have apparently been returned to him. âLook what someone left on the stairs!â he crows cheerfully, holding up his sketchbook and chalks. âTrick or Doktor, I guess. They must have sneaked up the stairs and everything, just for me, just for me!â His cheeks are flushed with delight. For a second, he just sits drawing, processing your message slowly, slowly, until his chalk has come to a standstill in his hands.
He pauses, staring at his paper, his mouth falling sorrowful again.
âIâve undone a lot of bad things,â he says. âThey blur together. You donât know how many times I watched Doktor rise up out of that body bag⌠In the end, I couldnât even prevent the bullet from striking him, but he did not die. And some days, Trick or Red have not returned home, and I have redone the day again and again. But Anti, killing someone downstairs? Not one of my brothers, maybe enemies.â
He curves the beak of a crow, thinking, his mouth taut.
âOnce,â he says, slowly. âAnti told me that he had broken someone, and so I had to undo it⌠he was very gentle with Trick for some days after⌠he let him sleep and sleep and sleepâŚâ
Dapper sighs and readjusts, pulling his sketchbook close. âBut Iâm just glad those things didnât end up happening!â
Anonymous asked: This is all dappers fault.
The smile dies on Dapperâs lips. âWhatâs my fault?â he asks shakily, dropping his chalk to the ground. âWhat did IâŚâ
Paranoid, he rubs at his throat, glancing around, frantic. This wouldnât be the first time heâs fucked something up and then forgotten about it, only to be punished minutes later. Tears pool in his silvery eyes.
pixie-in-trebleland asked: Hey Trick, Dok!! Please be brave for each other. Remember today and how happy you felt!
âYeah, yeah, yeah,â chokes Trick, biting on his lip til it breathes. âI have to be - I have to be brave for Doktor. I have to be brave. I have to be brave.â
He tries to take deep breaths, working hard to calm down. He can do this. He can do this.
Anonymous asked: dapper, im sure you won't be able to but - do you think you could fix today? is that even possible?
âFix today? I could go back before it. But only if Anti told me to. Otherwise I wouldnât know the password and then he would be angry when he saw my silver eyes. Why, somethingâs wrong?â
Anonymous asked: Dapper, you've done nothing wrong. You're medication was forgotten and Anti is pissed but that's just him being... himself, I guess. It's nothing that can't be fixed though okay? What are you drawing?
âOh.â
Dapper stares down at his paper. After a moment, he sets it unhappily down to the side and gets to his feet, rising to stare out the window. His face is quiet and tired. There are blue bruises all around his throat.
âI hope it can be fixed. He gets so angryâŚâ
He rubs his face, stressed.
âI was just drawing Poe,â he sighs. âBut I donât think sheâs coming back anyway. Will Anti hurt the other boys, for forgetting? I should have⌠I should have remembered.â
pixie-in-trebleland asked: Dappper, it might be in Trick's best interest for you to redo the day. He and Doktor are in serious trouble!
Dapper chews on his nail. âIâd like to help, but itâs not a quick decision, you understand. First of all, thereâs no point to a redo unless thereâs something I can do to change it. Otherwise weâre just looping. Iâm the only one who will remember the change, but Anti will see that I am tired and silver and then he will ask me for the password or a good explanation, and I wonât have it. Then Iâll be in a great deal of trouble, and things still may not be fixed. I need to be able to interfere. Usually, that means I tell Anti something went wrong and he changes his approach or comes to the aid of the brother in trouble.â
Anonymous asked: I don't know what Marvin can help you with, but Red has picked up Dapper's medication before! He should know the medication and the other details. (PS, pharmacy is near the store you had been shopping at for the other supplies)
Marvin whirls on his twin. âRed, tell him what you know.â
Red stares between the two of them, making calculations in his head. Doktor will be hurt if Trick doesnât come back fast enough. Thatâs guaranteed. Red himself may be hurt if he helps Trick, but the likelihood is lower, and it could save Doktor. If that were all there was to it, he would take the burden of responsibility without hesitation. Anti said he was the leader, so itâs his job to protect the others. However, things have changed from â oh, he doesnât even remember, he just knows things have changed. He has a twin now. Like Doktor punished for Trickâs mistake, Blue could be the one punished for Redâs decision.
âYou understand,â says Red. âThat if I tell him, you could be hurt.â
âYes,â snaps Marvin, without hesitation. âStop being a little bitch and tell him.â
Red laughs aloud. If he could remember, he would know it has been a very long time since he laughed like that. Heâs starting to see why Anti picked this one for him.
âFuck,â he laughs, a little hysterically. âTrick, come here.â
Trick, anxious but relieved, hurries to his side and kneels down beside the cupboards with him.
âI was rummaging through the cupboards this morning,â says Red. âTrying to figure out who I was.â
Trick winces at the sadness of it.
âI found all these IDs. Theyâre for different countries, different names, different ages, different everything. Thereâs about twenty-five of them and the pictures could work for any one of us. I donât remember which one I used to pick up Dapperâs medicine.â
âFuck,â gasps Trick, taking the box of IDs from him. âFuck, okay, we can do this. Thereâs Irish, Norweigan, American, French, German, and Dutch IDs.â
âYeah, weâre pretty white,â says Red.
Trick startles. âDid you just make a joke? Iâve never heard you make a joke.â
âUm - â
âNever mind. Which should I take?â
Anonymous asked: You use krone as currency, you're in Norway!
âAre we?â asks Red. âI could have fucking sworn we were Irish.â
âWe are,â says Marvin, and then pauses, confusion clouding over his eyes. âAre we?â
âIt doesnât matter,â snaps Trick, sorting out the IDs. âThereâs five Norweigan IDs. Which should I take? None of these look like Dapper!â
âWhat sort of differences would Anti use to distinguish Dapperâs ID from everyone elseâs?â asks Red. âOr should you just take all five?â
The boys stare between each other, trying to think.
pixie-in-trebleland asked: I mean, Dapper is his favourite. Is there any extra care taken on any of the ID's? There has to be something!
âSome of them look newer than others⌠the birth dates are differentâŚâ
cest-mellow asked: red, blue? can you tell me any information about dapâs medicine? what name he uses, what kind, how much it costs? everything you say? this is important, anti is involved. trick is also into town to grab some stuff so if you have some change to spare for him..? thank you boys!
âIâm trying to remember,â sighs Red, sitting back on his heels. âI wish I could just go for him, I might remember something if I could see it. Medicine, medicine, medicine⌠I feel like the name of the prescription is on the tip of my tongue. Maybe it started with an H?â
âHow about money?â asks Marv, coming up beside his brothers to help sort through the IDs. âYou got anything stored?â
Red sighs. âDoesnât matter. Storeâs closed by now, I guarantee it. Weâre getting close to nine at night and this is a small town, they donât do twenty-four hours. Youâre going to have to break in. You need the name Dapper uses or the name of the prescription, and preferably both.â
Trick jolts. âNo, no - stealing shit is your job, Iâve only done that once and we were desperate!â
âOh, youâre not desperate now?â
Trick whimpers, clutching at his hair. Marvin grabs his wrist and gives it a reassuring squeeze. âRed, donât you have anything that could help him?â
Red turns back to the cupboards, searching again. âThereâs nothing tech-related down here. Iâm assuming Anti keeps everything in his room. We could go up there and - â
âNo!â cries Trick. âNo, no! Anti might let you off just for giving me advice, but if you go upstairs he will beat you into a fucking pulp, guaranteed. Dapperâs the only one upstairs and Iâm not sure I want him involved.â
He pauses, biting his nails.
âIâll⌠bring Doktorâs gun. And a hood and a mask, and try to break in on my own. The things upstairs would be nice, but itâs not like I can talk to Dap anyway.â
âWhat are you talking about, breaking in someplace?â protests Marvin, alarmed. âIs that something we do often?â
âIâm pretty sure I do,â frowns Red. âBut maybe Iâm wrong.â
âFucking goddamn,â hisses Trick, exasperated. âI think I prefer no-memory Red, but he sure is useless.â
âHey!â snaps Red, punching his shoulder. For once, Trick isnât afraid that there are more blows coming, and he canât help but laugh, wiping at tears in his eyes and shaking like a leaf caught beneath a door.
pixie-in-trebleland asked: Is there one that looks the closest to Dapper?? You're running out of time...
âNo.â Trickâs voice is teary, he knows youâre right. âNo, maybe I should just take them all and go.â
Anonymous asked: Does anyone know how many different countries you've been through before this place?
âOh, I do.â Dapperâs picking anxiously at a splinter on the sill of his window. âAnti tells me and Red, says someone should know. Not that heâll remember now, poor bloke. The three of us were in good old England for a while, then Ireland, Sweden, the Netherlands. Stopped once in Italy, then back to the Netherlands. I liked the Netherlands the most, we lived right by this great river, and Trick and Doktor were in the next room over, and I would listen to them talking and pretend I was talking to them too. And there were cats that would come up to the window and meow for fish. I loved it there. But weâre here now. I have a very nice view and I like the lights at night.â He sets his head in his hands, his mouth sad. âBut I donât expect weâll stay long. We never do.â
Anonymous asked: Hey Dapper, do you mind showing us your bottle of medicine? That way we can tell Trick what kind to get for you
âSorry, I donât see it in my drawer. I think Anti took it with him downstairs.â Dapper rubs his hands together, looking stressed. âI canât help with anything. Iâm sorry. I donât know why Iâm so useless.â
Anonymous asked: Well, if you're breaking in, you probably won't need the right ID, right? You just need to find meds that match one of the names on the IDs. Bring all of them! And remember that it starts with H, Doktor was saying something like Hald?
âThatâs a good point.â Trick looks relieved. âOkay. Let me grab the mask and the gun. Anything else I should bring?â
Anonymous asked: Which one has the youngest birthdate?
âOh!â
Trick sorts excitedly through the IDs. âThis one, um - born October 31, 1993 - Kayden James? Does that sound right?â
Anonymous asked: Haldol? It's an anti psychotic!
âHaldol.â Red snaps his fingers, delighted. âThatâs it, Iâm sure thatâs right.â
pixie-in-trebleland asked: Anti, I hope you realize that there is more at risk if Trick goes and gets the medication. What if he gets the wrong prescription? Or what if he's caught doing something he shouldn't?
The camera upstairs fizzles and glitches, casting Dapper momentarily in red light.
âFixes all their mistakes,â plays across the screen in glitching green words.
For a second, Dapper gives the camera a disparaging look, as if he knows whatâs being said.
âHeâs getting overconfident,â he signs darkly, looking suddenly angry. Then he draws his arms around his chest and sits down on his bed, rocking himself gently, glancing over at the wall that separates his room and Antiâs office.
Anonymous asked: Do you have something you could use as a crow bar maybe?
âAll the good stuff is upstairs or downstairs,â whimpers Trick, nevertheless sorting through the cupboards. âI wish I had some of the tech Anti usually gives Red. Itâs - oh, fuck, what the hell is this?â
The boys pause to stare at it. Itâs a short and very sturdy⌠stick?
âThereâs a button on it,â says Marvin.
Trick presses it. They all jump hard as the stick expands into a full-length staff, Trick tumbling back onto his ass.
âGoddamn!â he snaps. âThis is yours, Red.â
âOh.â
âItâs a fighting staff.â
âYou might be able to smash some shit with that. Iâm more worried about locks.â
âWell, whatâs that if not a lock picking kit?â Marvin points down at a little wrapped up pouch, inside which Trick finds a row of picks.
âThank God,â he breathes, shoving them in his pocket.
âYou know how to use those?â
âYeah, actually. Fuck, wellâŚâ He glances longingly up the stairs at Antiâs room. âI guess thatâs it.â
Anonymous asked: Let's see, mask so no one can see your face, gun to threaten people or break windows or something, ID to know which meds to get... unless you have a way to get you there and back faster, you might just want to go now, if no one can think of something else you might need. Time is of the essence.
âRight, right.â
Trick breathes out slowly, trying to steady himself. Fuck, he wishes he could do this with Doktor.
But he canât. Itâs up to him. He has to save his brother. Nothing else matters.
He turns back to the twins and jumps as Marvin presses the mask to his face and tugs the strap down over the back of his head. âSteal more than the Haldol, so the cops donât trace it back to us. Narcotics or something. They wonât realize youâre anything more than a junkie. Take your brotherâs big coat too,â he advises. âKeep the hood up and zip it all the way up, to hide your mouth.â
âWhy are you helping me at all?â mumbles Trick, savoring the feeling of Marvinâs hands carding through his hair, just once. âWeâre strangers. You donât know me and I donât know you.â
Marvin pauses. Trick stares up into his eyes. Soft hands, wrapped in warm gauze, descend to cup his face.
âI donât remember much,â says Marvin, very quietly, so only Trick can hear, and the sheer tenderness of it is enough to bring tears to his eyes. For so long, Dok has been the only one who has cared about him. âBut I do remember, little brother, that I love you very much.â
Trick snuffles, trying to hide his teary face as he swallows back the sudden pang of a very warm memory - someone holding him in a hotel room, promising him that everything will be okay, that heâll be looked after, magic swimming quietly around their heads. He doesnât want Red to mock him - but to his surprise, his oldest brother comes over too, and sets a hand on his shoulder.
âIâm sorry I canât go in your stead,â says Red, and he sounds it. âCome back to us in one piece.â
Commanding but not cold. Not cold.
âThatâs an order.â
âYes, sir,â manages Trick.
He packs up his things as fast as ever heâs prepared for anything, snatching Dokâs coat from their nest and tugging the hood over his head, zipping it up from his mouth. Panting hard already, he takes off at a sprint down the steep path from the mountain to the village.
One hour and thirty minutes remain.
They watch him go, tortured twins wrapped in bandages.
âCan I ask you something?â asks Marvin.
âYeah, course.â
âWhyâs your hair red?â
âFuck if I know. Yours is blue, after all.â
âMine is what?â
Anonymous asked: Guys, you could just break down in front of the owners and say Dapper's very sick and you have no money....
By the time Trick makes it to the pharmacy, night has fallen dark about him and he is panting hard after the long run down the mountainside toward the sea. He slows as he reaches the village, tugging his hood lower over his eyes, darting behind buildings on his way to the store. There are people out and about, unfortunately, just across the street at the bar and restaurant where he and his brothers got fish just yesterday.
He almost chokes on the memory. Heâd give anything to go back to that moment right now, watching Doktor eating fried food until his stomach was full and his mouth was smiling. He wonders if heâs afraid right now. He wonders if heâs in pain. He doesnât know if Anti will keep his two-hour promise.
âBreak down in front of the owners,â repeats Trick, panting as he makes his way to the back of the pharmacy. âI donât know who the owners are - the shop is closed for the night and thereâs no one home. I donât speak Norwegian and donât know if they speak English. I donât know that they would give it to me, and if they did, Iâd already have drawn too much attention to myself. But by all means, if you find a solution to all those problems, letâs fucking go for it.â
He rubs anxiously at his face, tears pricking in his eyes. âI donât mean to snap,â he croaks. âIâm just stressed and - goddamn, no!â
He recoils from the door at the back of the pharmacy as though itâs stung him.
âI was hoping it would just be locked!â he cries, staring in dismay.
The door is locked with a digital number key pad, listing 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9, and * all in a mockery of him. Trick grips at his hair. âThis is a tiny town, why does it have any tech security at all!â
If he shoots it or tries to break it, he expects an alarm to go off. He needs to know the pass-code or risk breaking in while the cops respond.
Trick groans, turning his face away from the security cameras that watch from the door above, hoping heâs staying covered enough to hide. âDonât suppose you would know the code? Please? Oh, shit. Oh, fuck, please.â
juju-on-that-yeet asked: Look at the pad and see which numbers are the most worn down/faded. That'll give you a place to start, at least.
âM-maybe the 7?â
Anonymous asked: Do you know the address of the pharmacy, where it is on the street? Maybe the code is something like that, easy for employees to remember.
âNo, Iâm not sure⌠Iâm scared to go around front and look. Or maybe if I could find their phone number online⌠but I donât have any way to look that up.â
spicydanhowell asked: TRICK THE CODE IS 3677* (This was a number hidden in the tags of other posts)
Trick stares at you, panting hard. For a second, a million doubts run through his head - they could lie to me, they could make it up so I go to jail, they could be trying to get me away from Anti, they could be Anti trying to trick me and punish me, they could just be messing with me, I donât even know who they are, how theyâre talking to me, why theyâre here, what theyâd know -
But Dok is waiting for him. Dok is waiting for him and he doesnât have any other choice and maybe there are some things that are worth putting a little faith in anyway, so he turns and presses his palm to the sensor, plugging in 3677*.
The handle turns in his hand and he gasps aloud, nearly collapsing from the relief. But time is of the essence, as you told him, and he needs to keep going, to be brave for his twinâs sake.
âThank you,â he signs, tears in his eyes, and he shoves into the store, where bright lights flicker on in response to his movement.
âOkay, okay,â he chokes. âNow I just need Haldol, under the name Kayden James, and to steal something controlled so they donât track it back to us and it just looks like Iâm an addict looking for a fix. What did Blue say? Narcotics or something?â
spicydanhowell asked: a bunch of different stuff, trick, it hardly matters what, just get in and out. Two anons had similar advice added.
âOkay, you got it.â
Trick busts open the master-locked cupboards in the back, using Redâs fighting staff to smash through the wood - to his credit, heâs right that a small town pharmacy lacks good security for the most part, and no alarms go off inside, though heâs certainly been spotted by the security cameras staring down at him from all sides. He finds the prepared prescriptions arranged by last name and grabs at the Jâs, finding the orange bottle marked âHaloperidol - James, Kaydenâ almost immediately, chock-full of the tiny white pills that help his little brother function. Nearly crying, he kisses the bottle and shoves it into his pocket, glancing back at the cold white clock on the back of the pharmacy.
Heâs got fifty minutes to get home. Heâll have to run, but he can make it.
Just grab something. Just grab something.
But he doesnât want people to not get their medicine. Heâll go for the unprepared stuff, the full boxes of medicine.
He turns to the shelves full of boxes and starts rummaging, looking for anything you listed, but nothing here is controlled, nothing addictive or used to make addictive shit, not that he can see, anyway. He glances toward an ancient safe with rusty hinges set on the table in the back and grins.
The hinges break after five furious strikes. Thereâs a crash as the door tumbles to the ground and he winces, his heart rate picking up. Someone on the street might have heard that. He needs to go.
He grabs two boxes of Percocet and three orange pain killer bottles. He turns back to the prepared prescriptions and scatters them across the floor. They wonât notice one missing in the middle of that, or theyâll assume it was just lost somehow.
âAlright,â he breathes. âTime to fucking go.â
He takes off, pressing back through the door again, staggering into the alley -
Where a small child is standing, staring curiously at the open door.
Trick freezes still, gasping, his hand clutched around Doktorâs gun.
Itâs the boy from the shop, the one sitting on the counter while his grandmother checked them out. Trick realizes, distantly, that he was there when he bought this green coat.
The boy is staring at the gun at Trickâs side, fear making his eyes widen.
Trick tries to speak but can only stammer, his brain giving him no words at all. He doesnât know what to do, and he is afraid.
pixie-in-trebleland asked: Run, Trick. Just Run! The longer you stay, the worse things will get. You have everything you need! Four other asks, from florence-is-falling and three anons, gave Trick conflicting advice and were added.
Trick starts and then stops again, staggering slightly. Too many options - heâs not used to having any options at all, Anti or Red is supposed to be with him on missions, telling him what to do, making sure everything goes smoothly - this shouldnât have happened, this shouldnât be happening at all, he wants to go home, he wants Doktor to hold onto him and rock him through this nightmare, until he falls asleep, and wakes up in the morning knowing it is far away -
Oh, fuck, he has to focus, he has to be brave, has to get this medicine home for Doktor, has to, has to!
âH-hi,â he manages finally, remembering your order to change his voice and quickly adopting the accent he always imagines Dapperâs signs in, clear and English. âHi, there, love, itâs okay.â
The boy stares up at him, his little hands shaking, wrapped around a stuffed dolphin toy. Heâs not well bundled up, only wearing a little coat, unzipped, for warmth. Heâs perhaps seven years old. A kid this age shouldnât be out on his own after lightâs fallen, should he? And before Trick can think, the words are out of his mouth:
âWhy are you out so late? Whereâs Mum and Dad?â
A blush rushes up his little cold cheeks. He looks down at his dolphin, picking at its fin, mouth trembling.
âOh,â says Trick, a little teasing now. âSnuck out, now, did we?â
âNo,â squeaks the boy.
At least he speaks English.
âYouâre sure?â asks Trick, slowly tucking the gun away in the hopes that the boy didnât see it at all.
âWhy were you inside the store so late?â
âUm,â stammers Trick, swallowing, trying to assert himself. âUm, well - because - because I thought someone had broken in. See how the doorâs left open?â
The kid nods slowly, his face twisted up in thought.
âI was worried there was a bad guy inside,â adds Trick, nodding sharply. Okay, he can go with this. Itâs a small kid. Theyâve both caught each other. Itâs okay. It has to be okay. This has to work. âSo I went to try and stop him.â
âOhhh,â says the boy, relaxing. âThatâs why you have a gun.â
âYeah, exactly!â
âThe police donât have guns, thoughâŚâ
Goddamn Europe and their safety laws. âWell,â he bullshits, his eyes flickering around desperately as he hears people walking down the streets. âIâm not a cop. Iâm a - a superhero.â
The boyâs eyes widen. Excited. Wasnât he drawing storm troopers yesterday?
âLike a Jedi,â adds Trick, nodding. âI have to use the gun because my lightsaberâs not working right now. Want to see?â
âYeah!â
He grabs Redâs staff and pulls it out, extending it in one press of the button. Heâs beginning to sweat - do you think the clock is ticking as fast as his heart beats?
âWow,â breathes the child. âHow are you going to fix it?â
âIâm sorry, buddy, I canât talk right now. Iâm in a rush. My - my brotherâs in trouble. So I have to go. Okay? You need to go home to your parents, right? Shouldnât have been sneaking out, should you? So tell you what - I wonât tell anybody that you snuck out, and then you donât tell anybody you saw me here. Okay? Cause you know superheroes get in trouble with the police sometimes.â
He doesnât look entirely convinced.
âPlease, bud,â gasps Trick. âPlease, um - whatâs your name, love?â
âHunter.â
Trick stops breathing entirely.
Hunter, Hunter, Hunter.
Why does he know that name - a little boy - mousy dark hair, big brown eyes, freckles and a smile on his mouth, crinkle paper and stuffed toys in baby hands, his baby, his baby, his baby -
He should have just run, or knocked him out, or threatened him, like you told him to. But he couldnât, he couldnât, he couldnât. Heâs just a little boy. Heâs just like his little boy.
He turns away from Hunter and takes off at a sprint, tearing along behind houses and buildings, back into the forest, sprinting, the stitch in his side gone, the pain in his chest gone, nothing remaining at all but the desperation to get home to his brother, and the memory that haunts him, the memory of a little boy all alone.
He moves faster than heâs ever moved up the pathway, branches striking across his brotherâs coat. Behind him, he could swear he hears the snapping of dogâs teeth at his heel, the harsh breath of hounds hunting him down, teeth, teeth, teeth always waiting to devour, and he runs, runs, runs, even though he is beginning to lose hope that safety awaits him at the end of the road.
cest-mellow asked: dok? are you doing alright downstairs?
The camera is barely working, but someone must have restarted it. It flickers to life in shaking hands, and you see Doktorâs face.
Antiâs given him new glasses, unshattered, a bizarre show of affection preceding a torture session if Trick doesnât hurry. Heâs alone as far as you can tell, wiping slowly at his eyes as he cries steadily, breathing painfully thin.
âCan you please - â
He pauses, swallows, restarts, water cascading down his cheeks.
âCan you please tell me if Trick is okay?â
He rubs at his cheeks. Everything he does is strangely slow - youâre pretty sure heâs too clammed up to move any faster. His voice sounds like itâs been put through a straining record player and his chest trembles with the effort of continuing to draw air.
âAnti⌠hasnât⌠hurt me,â he wheezes. âBut I think - I think Iâd like - I want to go upstairs now, p-pleaseâŚâ
Anonymous asked: So, Marvin, hey, good to see you!! What do you remember? How do you feel?
Marvinâs sitting on top of the island, staring blankly at his hands. Youâve caught him and Red in the middle of a conversation, and his twin looks up at him with worry in his eyes from the floor.
âUmm.â Marvin is looking himself over, tugging down a strand of blue hair to see its color, opening his coat and examining his shirt and pants and jewelry. He doesnât recognize any of it.
âIâm not even sure this is my body,â he mumbles. His hands shake minutely. Pulling back his sleeves, even Jackâs old tattoo fails to comfort him. They all have one of those. Running his hands through his hair does not give him the correct sensation - he has forgotten the tug of his long hair, but still he can feel that it is missing - he knows that the weight on his fingers is not the one he is used to, that these are not the shoes he is used to watching as he walked, that nothing is - nothing is right, nothing is - all of this - wrong, wrong, wrong -
Oh. On his wrist, there is a small flower, inked into his skin.
âBlue,â murmurs Red. âDoing okay?â
âI donât remember anything,â whispers Marvin. âDo you?â
âI think there are flashes coming back to me⌠but not much.â
Marvin swallows, staring down at the flower. âDo you feel like⌠the person who you see in the mirror⌠is the wrong person?â
Red stares up at him, wearily. âOnly a little,â he answers. âBut the sensation is familiar.â
Marvinâs head snaps up. He stares directly at you.
âIs this how Anti always treats them?â he asks. âSending them into terrors, threatening them for small mistakes, cutting up our hair and changing us without permission? Keeping the other boy in the attic? How long have I been here? Have I always been like this? Please tell me whatâs going on. Please.â
âBlue,â warns Red, staring frantically down at the basement. âBlue, careful what you say.â
âBecause this person,â continues Marvin, ignoring him. âThis person who Anti tells me I am - this is not the right person. I donât think this is right. I donât think Anti is right.â
âBlue,â hisses Red. âBlue, shut the fuck up. Do you want to get killed?â
But, though his memory is gone, his courage is not. And he needs to know. He has to know.
âThis is not who I am.â
Anonymous asked: Trick is coming back, he's a little shaken but he's fine!
âOh, heâs coming back, heâs coming backâŚâ
Doktor hides his face against his knees, breathing harshly.
âAlways comes back for me⌠H-hurry, TrickâŚâ
just-a-youtubers-blog asked: Blue!! BLUE!!??! NO! YOUR NAME IS MARVIN! MARVIN!! WE CAN'T LOSE YOU, TOO! NO! WHY... why... I - we can't... lose you, too... not you... WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!?!! IS THIS SOME SICK WAY OF RUBBING IT IN OUR FACE!!?! I SWEAR, I WOULD MAIM YOU IF I COULD, AND I'M PRETTY SURE MARVIN FEELS THE SAME WAY! NOT BLUE, MARVIN! YOU SICK, DEMENTED PHYCOPATH!! (dapper, we might need a time rewindal...) (you did say that you would relive this day right?)
Red winces every time you say the name, covering up his ears and hissing out a warning, but Marvin only smiles, nodding slow.
âYeah, that sounded more right than Blue when Trickshot said it⌠but thatâs not his name either, now is it?â
oasisofgalaxies asked: I wont say your name right now if it hurts you. Blue, you were someone great, magnificent. a magician, a sorcerer with great power. You cam here because of your heart, your heart always filled with love for your brothers. You came because your brothers were in danger. You came here because Anti stole your brothers from you and turned them into people they aren't. You came here and were captured. You fought so hard, but you fell into the role Anti laid out for you. A role of shackles and chains.
Marvin stares down at his hands, thinking. âYou were calling out to me days ago,â he guesses. âBut I couldnât hear you.
âA sorcerer, huh?â
Blue light flickers through his eyes. Red is beginning to look afraid. Your camera screen glitches.
âMy brothers in dangerâŚâ
Anonymous asked: Marvin, you're a good person. You're a magician without his mask, but remember that underneath whatever clothes anti makes you wear or whatever name he calls you, you are Marvin and you are good.
âGood,â mumbles Marvin, thoughtful. âStrange, I⌠Iâm not sure about that one⌠thereâs this great self-hatred inside of my chest⌠But I guess goodness is a choice⌠and I think Iâd like to choose it, if I could sort all this out⌠I have to sort all this out.â
nikkilbook asked: Youâre a wonderful man who loves his brothers very much. And by brothers, I mean Red, Trick, Doctor, and Dapper. All of them. Not just your twin. You want to keep them safe and together. You sacrificed a lot to try and keep them safe.
âDid I? Sacrifice for them, try to keep them safe? Looks like I did a pretty fucking awful job.â
Tears spark in his eyes. He closes his eyes and his fist, grimacing as cold washes of memories return to him in blurs barely meaningful - Chase and Henrik hiding behind him, Jackieâs empty bedroom that terrible morning, Jameson dragged away from him, all his power come to nothing -
âBut youâre right about one thing - all of them are my brothers. Not just Red. This is my family.â
musical-in-theory asked: You are a magnificent man who loves his brothers, all 4 of them. You are a magic man who does tricks for the delight of others. A kind man. A beautiful person who doesnât belong in this terrible place
âTricks?â
This brings a small smile back to Marvinâs face. âReally, like a performer? Thatâs wonderful. Ha, tricks⌠and youâre right, I am quite beautiful.â
Laughing, he tries to throw his hair, teasing, only to find it cut short again. âAh, right⌠Iâm Blue nowâŚâ
Anonymous asked: Dap, are you around? Are you okay? Do you know where Anti is?
Dapperâs laid out on his floor, staring up at the ceiling.
âAntiâs everywhere,â he signs dully. âI can feel him summoning up his strength. He feels⌠angry. You should warn my brothers to be careful. Whatever theyâre doing, he doesnât seem to like.â
just-a-youtubers-blog asked: You asked us to remember your name when you forgot it. And that's what we'll do, Marvin. Marvin, the Magnificent. The man who had a deeper understanding of things we'll miss you, Marv. Can I at least say goodbye? Please? Before he is truly gone forever? Bye, Marv. We'll miss you... sorry... this... is all our fault. Sorry.
Marvin stares at the ground. Red has come to stand beside him, gripping his shoulders, trying to keep him quiet.
âMaybe you should say goodbye,â he calls gently. âGive up the old name, please. Iâm afraid Anti can hear you. Just - just say goodbye. Anti would like that. Yeah? You donât want to get hurt. I donât want - I canât bear to see you hurt, please, please be quiet,â begs Red, shaking his shoulders. âSay goodbye, Blue, come on.â
His twin closes his eyes, trying to think.
oasisofgalaxies asked: You heard me!! Youâre ok! Iâm so happy, but now you have to be careful. Anti knows what youâre your up to, or at least he can sense it. Be careful Marvin. Iâm worried that if he gets even more mad heâll do something worse.
âRight, right,â murmurs Marvin. âI need to be quiet - these are his cameras - if he hears me, he could hurt Red to punish me.â
Anonymous asked: I'm with Red on this, Marvin, be very careful what you say and ask. There are eyes and ears everywhere. But no, Blue is not who you are. Anti is lying to you. You might recognize some names - cover your ears if it helps, Red - Jackie, Henrik, Chase, or Jameson? Jack?
Marvin looks up, his eyes full of light.
He wants to say the names out loud, so much itâs almost painful to hold them back, but another look at Red, distressed at his side, stops him short. Squeezing his twinâs hand, he quiets, thoughtful.
âWe should change the subject,â he murmurs.
He looks up at Red. âEnough about me,â he says. âTell me something about you.â
Red pauses, his eyes flickering around anxiously.
âThereâs nothing to tell,â he says. âIâm just⌠Red.â
Anonymous asked: Blue, just take everything as it comes okay? I'm saying this for your sake and your family's. We want to about a family field trip to the basement. Your name is Blue and what's important is what's here now. We can't worry about what's past.
Marvin swallows, clinging to Redâs sweatshirt. âRight, right⌠okay, yeah. Iâm - Iâm Blue now.â
He closes his eyes as though in pain, but only for a moment, because Redâs relief is enough to reassure him.
âThere you go,â cries Red, pulling him into a crushing hug, which makes Blue laugh. âFuck, now stop saying stupid things!â
Blue tries to shove him away, laughing hard. âHey, fine, fine! Asshole, get off me!â
âI will not, youâre too stupid to be left alone - â
Blue hugs him back, chuckling.
With his arms wrapped around his neck, Red thinks he remembers something, vaguely - a younger man in a cat mask, clutched tight to his chest, warm days at home, just the two of them, and then their joy, later, as their little house filled upâŚ
He closes his eyes, pushing away its comfort. The past does not matter and to rejoice in it is dangerous. What matters is here and now. And what he has, here and now, is a family all its own. He canât let the past matter. He canât let himself remember. Blueâs hands are warm on his neck.
Your screen glitches.
pixie-in-trebleland asked: Hey guys? Not to cut the sweetness sesh short or anything, but I'd be on your guard. Dapper is worried for you guys. Can you sense anything down there?
Blue and Red glance around, concerned, still holding each otherâs arms.
But nothing seems to move.
Everything is quiet.
Still, they both get the sense that something has changed.
Footsteps in the hallway above them.
They exchange glances, confused.
Anonymous asked: Yeah, everything's okay here! Just Blue and Red, hanging out, being goofs. Nothing to see! Maybe you guys can go to the window and watch for Trick for a bit, since he's on an errand and not on watch?
âSure,â says Blue, swallowing. âUm, yeah. Inconspicuous, right?â
He ends up too tired to get up the three little stairs to the nest, his stitches aching painfully, but Red manages to get up and sit beside the window, watching for his brother.
Anonymous asked: Can you guys be ready for Trick when he comes home? I don't want the door being locked or something stupid like that tripping him up...
âOkay,â agrees Blue, limping to the door and pulling it open. He sits down on the porch and waits, hopeful.
âI donât expect heâs got much time left.â
Anonymous asked: Trick: *steals child* this is mine now
âI wish I could tell you,â pants Trick, drawing near to home. âThat I wasnât fucking tempted.â
Anonymous asked: Hey Marv, Blue if it keeps you safe, you should keep an eye on Trick when he gets back. He met a boy called Hunter. Not /Hunter/ Hunter obviously (I assume he's safe with his mum and sister) but it almost stirred a memory in Trick. If anything happens and he begins to properly remember, I'm sure he'd appreciate his brother trying to be there for him as best he can. I mean, I'm saying all this and I'm not even sure you remember who Hunter is.
âOh, no⌠I donât remember who Hunter is, but I think I get the gist. Iâll keep an eye on him⌠thatâs all I can do, right? Iâll ask him how he is, keep an eye on him.â
Anonymous asked: Trick are you running? How close are you? Similar asks from florenceisfalling and cest-mellow were added.
âIâm coming, Iâm coming! Do I still have time?â
Heâs panting hard, but there, in the distance, he sees Blue, sitting on the stairs. His brother rises as he approaches, calling for him.
âYeah, I got it!â he cries, rocketing up the porch and practically leaping into the house, brushing past Blue. âI got it, I got it! Whereâs master?â
âI donât know, we havenât seen him - â
Trick yanks open the door to the basement and sprints down the stairs, sliding slightly on old blood. He finds Doktor curled up against the wall, his knees drawn to his chest, shaking hard, but he doesnât see Anti. He pauses to give his twin a quick kiss, promising him, âI got it, I got it, he wonât hurt you now!â before dashing back up the stairs.
âWhere is he, where is he?â he cries, staring frantically around. âAnti, Anti, I got the - â
Blue grabs his shoulders tightly, silencing him by his intensity. His vivid ocean eyes are fixed on the staircase.
Trick turns his eyes to look too.
Steps come down the stairs. Red, Blue, and Trick watch uncertainly as the silhouette appears.
âDapper?â asks Trick softly.
Dapperâs body is at the bottom step.
Anti shakes his head no, slowly.
âOh,â stammers Trick, backing up slightly against Blueâs chest. âOkay, umâŚâ
Anti wears Dapper looser than he did Red. There is no stiffness, no scars, no pain. Dapperâs body fits him well. He tugs up the sleeves of a crisp white dress shirt, complete with a bowtie, and reaches out an empty hand.
Panting roughly, Trick holds out the Haloperidol. The pills tremble in his fingers and steady in Dapperâs.
Anti regards them coolly, his head tilted. Curls of light brown hair tumble into ink and pitch eyes.
He turns to go, waving a disinterested hand at the basement. Trick, nearly wheezing, sorts his priorities out and decides not to question, darting back down the stairs to get his twin.
âAnti?â asks Red, summoning his courage.
Anti pauses, turning to look at him.
âNot questioning, sir,â says Red softly. âBut is there a reason I should know about that made you decide to, um⌠wear⌠Dap?â
Fear and rage burn in Blueâs throat like vodka as he stares at the monster wearing his baby brother. A recollection awakens in his chest - Jameson, less haggard but no younger, curled up against his chest, teaching him sign language with careful, patient movements of his hands, laughing sweetly every time Marvin messed up. He swallows hard, squeezing tight his trembling hands, feeling magic curl like dragon-fire against his palms.
Anti turns and looks directly at him.
Looks directly at Marvin.
And then he turns around, in silence, and heads back up the stairs.
pixie-in-trebleland asked: I hope one day you realize, Anti, that this isn't how you show love. There is a HUGE difference between love and control.
Anti is shadowed in darkness. He moves up the stairs, looking up at you.
âMaybe,â he signs. âBut the difference no longer matters.â
 End Section Four of Chapter One.
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GenexHiggs âş - for a happy kiss
Gene took in a deep breath, giving herself one last glance over in the mirror before she braced herself. It shouldnât have been this hard, and days prior, she had treated this upcoming day as just another one, but as she started to head out of the home Higgs and she had finished, Gene felt herself getting cold feet. It wasnât because she didnât want to go through with it, but a plethora of emotions weighed in her mind. First, Gene never thought given the life she led as a porter sheâd commit to someone like this. Second, Higgs was the one that suggested it. Usually, no matter how bat shit insane his plans were, Gene could always find the silver lining in them. Higgs was intelligent despite his general mannerisms, but Gene was beginning to wonder if he had truly gone off the deep end this time around.Â
As Gene exited the house, she looked around the woods they lived in. The place was beautiful. The North had provided a haven for them both and then some since they escaped America all that time ago. It had been two years since then, and around four years they had known each other. Looking back on it, Gene was amazed at how fast it had gone by even with the horrible events that Higgs and her experienced.Â
Gene could feel the morning dew of the grass hit her legs as she traveled to where Higgs was going to meet her. They both decided to hold this event at their favorite place, nearby a lake that had once been a void out crater marked by a BT. It was nearly a two-hour walk, but well worth the view especially when the sun barely started to come up over the mountain tops; the lake basked with trees all around as far as the eye could see minus a few patches of grassland. There was even a small river that begun to form due to a waterfall on a cliffside being nearby. This place was one of the reasons Higgs and Gene decided to settle and establish their new lives. The world couldnât encroach on them, but they werenât too far away if they ever wished to return to society, however that may look like.Â
Gene let out a deep breath as she finally came to the spot, a clearing going out towards the lake. The water was clear to where it looked like the sky had fallen to the earth. She could see Higgs from afar, looking outward towards the edge of the lake and watching as the first rays of the sun began to rise. Some part of Gene wanted to kill him for requesting this be done early, but as she looked ahead, Gene understood why Higgs had been so damn adamant. It was beautiful, just like what they were about to do.Â
Gene quietly made her way to Higgs, standing at his side as he continued to look out at the water. A small smile began to form on his lips before he turned to Gene. His eyes roamed over her face and body, admiring the small braids she had on her left, the golden flowers tucked in her hair, how she was wearing a casual dress along with her pants and boots. He held back a chuckle, adoration in his eyes at how Gene didnât compromise anything about herself or appearances for this day.Â
Gene took a moment to look at Higgs, searching his eyes. She was already getting lost in them after not seeing him for days. He was wearing black eyeliner with gold highlighting the marks, mimicking that of Pharaohs and royalty. His hair had been trimmed on the sides; the top barely messed with and his scruff had been groomed. He wore a black dress shirt with the sleeves rolled up to his elbows, a black, and gold tribal cuff on his left wrist, and a long black cape with a hood similar to his old Homo Demens attire except it was adorned with golden hieroglyphics in the interior. He was beautiful as he was handsome. Masculine and feminine.
âYou look much prettier than me, holy shit.â Gene murmured as Higgs let out a chuckle. He couldnât stop smiling at her as he shook his head.Â
âIâll slap you if you say that again,â Higgs warned, his tone teasing as Gene snorted and shook her head in disbelief.Â
âAlready, here we are fighting like two assholes. You sure you want to do this?âÂ
Higgs nodded, and despite the deep affection in his features, the small creases on his face indicated how seriously he took the moment as his smile diminished some.Â
âIâm sure of it.â Higgs took in a deep breath, his smile returning in full as he glanced over Gene one last time, right hand cupping her face as his thumb gently caressed over her skin. Geneâs hand reached up and touched his arm as she leaned into his touch. They both savored feeling each others skin again.Â
âYou ready?â Gene asked as Higgs nodded, retreating his hand away. He began to dig through a pocket on his pants as Gene did to her own. Gene took out a red ribbon and Higgs took out a golden chain. They both faced each other, looking down at their left and right hand respectively while they began to wrap the material around each other, lacing the ribbon and chain through their fingers and around their wrists, taking time to be gentle. They also took a moment to exchange items that were important to them: Higgsâs golden knife, and Geneâs necklace that was a key her father had back in Middle Knot. She put it around Higgsâs neck and afterward, Higgs tucked his knife into Geneâs pocket.
When they were finished, their hands locked together in full while they both sighed. Gene could tell Higgs was just as nervous as she was given she could see his pulse faintly beat in his throat as he stared at her.Â
âDo you want to begin?â Gene asked as Higgs nodded, his eyes glancing back and forth across Geneâs face like he was reading a book.
âI will, I just want to remember how you look right now darlinâ.â Higgs said quietly as Gene smiled, trying not to get flustered as he swallowed.Â
âI am yours, and you are mine.âÂ
âI am yours, and you are mine.â Gene replied back. No hesitation on her part as Higgs was nearly beaming from ear to ear. Whatever it was they were going to say, whatever dedications they had practiced saying aloud on their own went out the door. They spoke of their loyalty and love through each otherâs eyes, their gazes procuring everything words couldnât touch before meeting in the middle with a kiss.Â
Higgs and Gene both smiled against one another as they deepened the kiss, their free hands reaching each other's faces to caress and hold. It wasnât the most passionate they shared, but it was enough for them as they parted. Their foreheads pressed against each other as they took in a deep breath.
âWeâre married now, you feel different?â Higgs asked quietly, suppressing as laugh as Gene grinned.
âI was hoping you were gonna say weâre together in holy macaroni.â Gene admitted as they both burst out laughing.
âFuck you, it was gonna be pepperoni.â Higgs said in between breaths as they remained close, barely pulling away.
âMacaroni is better.â
âDarlinâ youâre full of shit, pizza is the staple diet of all junk foods.â
âI want a divorce already.âÂ
âIâll personally deliver the papers to ya.â
âShut up.â Gene laughed, shushing him with another kiss. Their hands that were bound by the chain and ribbon freed themselves, falling to the ground as they wrapped their arms around one another. Higgs was the first to part as he nuzzled his nose against Genes, breathing her scent in as he held her tightly to his chest and kissed the top of her head. They both looked outwards towards the lake, seeing the sun was fully up.
âWhat do you want to do now?â Higgs asked as Gene looked up, her chin resting on his chest. A devious smile spreading across her lips as Higgs returned the affection.
âYou.âÂ
Higgs let out a snort, pressing another kiss to Geneâs temple as he hummed in thought.Â
âYouâre terrible. I like that.â
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Under Her Skin
Authorâs Notes | I would like to thank this dear anon for this request. Such as the one I did for Sigurd (Here, for the ones who want to see!), this request treats about a very delicate and important theme that must be shouted out to the four corners of Midgard: eating disorders aren't mimimi or bullshit. They're real, they're diseases that can consume a person entirely and drag someone into an endless vortex that will lead whether to permanent sequels or death. Always treat this theme with patience, comprehension, and dedication. Be gentle, kind, and supportive with a victim of these conditions. Many times, support is everything a person needs to get rid of Miaâs chains or Ana's cold embrace.
Universe | Vikings Pairing | Hvitserk x Reader Info | Viking Age AU, requested by anon for 5CW6. Suggested soundtrack: All I need (Within Temptation) Words | 2264 â Warnings: ANGST, mentions of eating disorders, romance. Caution is recommended: the following content may be triggering.
You thought he was stupid.
Hvitserk was convinced you thought he was stupid enough to think that small stains of sauce in your plate were enough for him to believe there was food over that surface and your fingers were really cleaning your mouth with that absolutely clean napkin in your hands.
He was observing you through the last months since his fingers noticed your stomach were flatter and your waistline reducing...
You stopped making your meals with him, dedicating yourself to make company to your husband, sometimes even serving his food in his mouth, but almost never taking pieces to yourself.
It started when Torvi asked you if you were pregnant in the last time his brother BjĂśrn feasted in your house with his wife and kids. You were surely in your fertile days - after years by your side, Hvitserk was used to see how your lines and curves were more attractive when you were in these days - but somehow you took his sister in law's curiosity in a different way and now, you were thinner and thinner and somehow any food he could buy or hunt for your cabin was lasting longer...
Of course. The two of you would devour a pan of stewed rabbit with vegetables in a day. But he would take two meals to finish the same pan.
And making the math, sometimes he was taking really twice the time to see the meat finished at the pans or the leftovers going out to the pigs and the cattle to avoid the loss of good vegetables...
You weren't eating.
And now he was sure, for you weren't even disguising it properly anymore: you were so used to his lack of perception that you forgot to simply mess with the food into the pans to pretend it was eaten this time: the rice and mashed potatoes were untouched. Your plate was dirty only with a small stain of the meat's sauce.
Hvitserk giggled, disgusted. The cap of the pan in his hand.
"What? Is there something wrong, husband?" you asked, afraid you had cooked anything he didn't want or didn't like.
You were sure that was one of his favorites!
Yet, he looked at you, serious and seeming to be angry.
"Why are you lying to me, wife?"
That question caught you unprepared and you frowned at him, surprised.
"What are you talking..."
His anger was so vivid that Hvitserk didn't let you express your confusion, bringing the subject straight to the table and taking the surprise away from your face, putting on a horror expression when you realized he discovered what you were hiding so far.
"Don't play me the fool anymore! You're not eating, Y/N! And don't come to me with this stained plate pretending you did anything but spread some sauce in this thing. You didn't eat, such as you didn't eat today at breakfast, yesterday at dinner... Such as you have been skipping meals all the time, thinking I'm stupid enough to not to notice my wife is fucking disappearing inside her clothes!"
You weren't expecting to be uncovered this explicit way and your first reaction was, obviously, trying to keep the disguise, giggling at his absurd comment.
It was absurd, right? You weren't "disappearing into your clothes" as he said. Instead, your dresses were awfully strange in your body and you were sure it was because you were fat like a pregnant woman swollen with the child the gods still didn't have brought into your marriage, but you were already showing in your large body.
If it wasn't like this, why would Torvi insinuate you were enormous enough to be confused with a pregnant woman?
"I don't know what you're talking about, Hvitserk. I'm not losing weight..."
But again, he interrupted you, coming closer.
Those wrinkles in between his frowned eyebrows causing his face to look pretty annoyed.
"Do you think I'm blind?"
You weren't understanding all that anger in his eyes, but Hvitserk was pretty annoyed with that whole situation. Did you really think he was that stupid to not to notice such a change in your life?
"Do you think I care this few about you? To miss such a thing like you skipping all the fucking meals we should be doing together? This is how you see me as a husband? A careless bastard who cannot see his wife's skin gluing to her bones?"
His pride was offended. But his words were making no sense for you! You were fat! You were sure it was the reason why Torvi was so sure of your pregnancy! How could he think you were thinner this way with such a small time and little effort?
Right, you weren't eating more than an apple per day, hiding the parts in a napkin into the kitchen to eat a quarter of it in each meal and it was keeping you kinda alive; drinking water enough to fill a barrel and that was it. Hiding from Hvitserk's eyes by dirtying your plates and pretending you had eaten before him or throwing up the food you were obligated to eat in the collective feasts at the Hall by his side.
It wasn't that much for him to be so annoyed or worried... Was it?
"I... I have been trying to lose some weight, but... It's not that much, husband, I don't see a reason for you to be so annoyed," you said, really confused by all that anger in his eyes.
But he giggled again, looking at you in disbelief.
"You don't see a reason maybe because it must be hard to see yourself in the mirror! For the gods' sake, woman, you're starving yourself! You gonna find a way to get yourself sick! Now stop this shit right now and put some food for yourself or else I won't eat as well and then we can see which one of us will faint first!"
He was so pissed... Why?
Weren't you trying to be pretty for him? Wasn't him your reason for all that effort? Why was he so pissed off when you were trying to prevent him from being mocked because of his wife's terrible appearance?
It wasn't fair! And it annoyed you he was being so rude. Well, he could go to Hella's embrace if he wanted: you wouldn't become a whale just because he didn't know how to be grateful!
You placed a full plate for you, filling it as much as you could and looking at him disappointed and annoyed.
"Are you satisfied now, Hvitserk?"
To what he answered annoyed as well.
"No. The plate is still full. Sit and eat, wife!" he almost ordered, causing you to grunt in anger.
How could he be so ungrateful?
You ate that food until the last grain, pushing it inside with the bigger amount of water you could drink in between the portions. The bigger was the quantity, the easier would be throwing that up after that meal, so you didn't try to economize.
But Hvitserk already had observed that behavior in you as well. Whenever you were in a feast on the Hall, you were eating like that, unnaturally filling yourself with mead, water or whatever there was to be drunk, swallowing the food in large portions. Getting up as soon as you finished.
"I hope you're satisfied. I'll go out to piss now if you don't mind this as well, husband," you said, aggressive.
Out to piss...
Hvitserk didn't miss that either. His eyes followed your steps and he waited for some minutes before following you outside to find exactly what he was predicting: you, on your knees near the bushes, vomiting out everything you had tried to swallow so fast.
"I knew you were doing this!" he pointed out, furious, scaring you, causing you to almost choke and cough a lot. "I knew you were fucking throwing up! What the fuck is wrong with you, Y/N?" he complained, helping you to put yourself straight and pushing a cup of water into your hands. "Why are you fucking doing this, uh?"
He was being so rude! So, you decided to be rude against him as well, drinking the water just to put yourself straight enough to answer him with the same angry tone he had against you.
"I'm doing it for you, you idiot! Cause I don't want you to be mocked by the others because your wife is a damn whale! I'm fucking doing everything I can to keep me pretty for you and this is what you give me in exchange!â you yelled, hurt.
Feeling he wasn't being fair to your sacrifices.
His face twisted in a shocked expression.
"For me? You're fucking killing yourself and you think it would be something good for me?"
Why was he being so extreme?
"I'm not killing myself, Hvitserk. I'm not even thinner!"
"The fuck you aren't! Y/N you used to have curves! Now look!" he placed his hands around your waist and his fingertips almost touched each other in a perfect circle: index near index in your back, thumb near thumb in front of your belly.
Your flat and small tummy you thought was swollen...
You looked at the fabric of your dress, compressed in between his fingers, almost as if it was the only thing preventing his fingertips to touch each other surrounding your waist perfectly. His hands were shaking in nervousness.
"You're fucking starving to death, Y/N! Throwing up meals, fucking skipping them, drinking more water than I never see a human being able to hold and do you really think I didn't see you chewing the pieces of that damn apple you cut in four every day?"
He was so nervous...
It wasn't anger. Your eyes faced his and he didn't look angry for you anymore.
Hvitserk was... Afraid?
"I'm fucking seeing what you're doing! I have been watching you! Stop freaking lying to me!"
He was cursing so many times... His voice was trembling just like his hands and he pulled you into his arms, causing your heart to skip a beat when you felt his heart rushing so fast into his chest.
"You're fucking killing yourself! I'm fucking losing you and I don't know what to do to make you stop! Fucking stop, Y/N! Just stop! Please..."
You could feel his hands into your hair and around your waist, his kisses to your forehead and the top of your head.
"Stop..."
His voice was so cracked, so worried. His heartbeat so fast.
You were doing that for him but... It wasn't making him smile. Or proud. Or happy.
Instead, Hvitserk was scared in a way you never have seen before, holding you as if releasing that embrace would mean losing you to whatever was taking you away from him.
You held him back, slowly. You never wanted him to feel so worried or scared that way.
"I... I just wanted to be pretty for you," you mumbled. "Torvi thought I was pregnant that day... And... I didn't want you to be mocked by your brothers... Or the others... I just wanted to be pretty for you, I swear."
You were shocked. You never thought you had gone so far.
You were feeling weaker these days, but you thought it was a normal thing for someone in a diet, right? You never thought you were that thin...
The image of his hands around your waist was kinda impressed into your mind.
"You are pretty. You are the prettiest woman in Midgard and I don't need you to starve yourself this way! You say you're doing this for me. I don't want to, Y/N!" he said, cupping your face, touching his forehead to yours, "I don't want you to do it. I don't want this. It's not making me happy. I don't wanna fucking lose you, Y/N!"
Your poor sweet prince... He was so scared! So full of fear...
Your hands touched his face, caressing his beard softly the way you knew he liked to feel. And he held your hand, kissing your palm, allowing you to notice there was really a huge difference between your fingers and his.
"Promise me you won't do this again..." Hvitserk asked, kissing your fingers. "Promise me you won't leave me, Y/N."
Leave him...
You wouldn't think about such a thing. Ever.
But his fear was so palpable... Maybe you were really hurting yourself that much.
"I... I don't wanna leave you, my love, I never wanted this to happen," you said, keeping the small caresses, feeling his thumb sliding through your cheek.
"Then stop it. Come back inside. I'll make you some tea to heal your stomach. Then, you'll eat with me, every meal. You don't need to eat that much! But eat with me, like you used to do... I don't mind your curves, Y/N. I love every inch of you and you're taking my inches away..."
You laid your head against his chest, nestling in his neck, kissing softly his jawline, nodding in agreement to his ask, feeling the way he seemed to slowly relax with the idea that terror was over and you wouldn't fight him about that anymore.
"I don't feel hungry..." you mumbled, "But I'll try to make it for you."
"Yes," he mumbled back, near your ear. "This is something I want you to do for me... I want you to live with me, love. I want you to stay with me."
If he wanted that, then you could try.
For him, you could do anything.
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âUsâ (2019) - Thoughts (SPOILERS!)
So I watched Jordan Peeleâs âUsâ today at the cinema and I just need to get some stuff off my chest about it because I went alone and have no one to discuss it with xD
Please do NOT read if you want to avoid SPOILERS!!!!
This movie creeped the fuck out of me - it wasnât a particularly jumpscare-filled movie but it was creepy as fuck
So the movie opens with Adelaide going to this funfair/amusement park and wandering off into a house of mirrors. There she meets an exact clone of herself (Red) and sheâs not the same since. Sheâs traumatized and canât really speak about it, though they say she takes up dance or something as a way to express herself
That opening with the creepy choir music and rabbits? What the fuck? I did not need that nightmare fuel?? :))
I literally had no idea about the amount of tunnels that are apparently under America but woW OKAY THATâS NOT UNSETTLING AT ALL
Fast forward to present day and sheâs an adult with a husband and kids, and theyâre at the beach where the above stuff happened, and sheâs super freaked out about it.
The Tyler family are literally so white privilege - and I say that as a white person. Itâs fucking hilarious. âItâs vodka oâclockâ - lmao that really is such a white thing to say
Also the twins?? They were Ross and Rachelâs daughter, Emma, in Friends when they were babies??Â
I actually liked most of the humour to be honest, it kind of lulled you into a false sense of security
Zora pretending to turn off her phone and then continuing to use it once her mom had gone was so relatable tbh
I probably shouldnât have taken my glasses off and redone my hair at the exact moment the Tethered people showed up because Iâm blind as a bat and it was a blur for a full minute whilst I tried to rearrange my goddamn headband
Pluto (Jasonâs âOther/Tetheredâ person) was literally so fucking creepy; maybe it was the mask, maybe the movements, maybe everything put together...but holy S H I T. NIGHTMARE FUEL
The story that Red was telling about the shadow?? Y I K E S.Â
Also Red needs to drink some water, it was super unsettling
Iâm never going to look at scissors the same way again
Yo the Tylers getting murdered happened so fast WTAFÂ
Love how we were tricked into âoh theyâre out there?? oh no theyâre not, haha cool...fUCK o_Oâ
I probably should not have laughed so hard when Kitty called out to âOpheliaâ to âphone the policeâ and it went ânow playing fuck the policeâ XD
Also âOpheliaâ?? I see you with your âAlexaâ parody, movie!
Can I just say that the twins and their Tethered selves doing gymnastics freaked me out way more than anything else in any other horror movie yIKES
The scene where Kittyâs doppelgänger (Dahlia I think?) puts on lipstick, goes to hurt Adelaide but then cuts her own face open instead and laughs?? Literal chills, man
Being a gore fan, I really appreciate the sheer amount of blood in this film, 11/10 high-key recommendÂ
I canât believe that every time we eat anything, the Tethered versions of ourselves have to eat raw rabbit like??? gross?? definitely not having nightmares about that...
The white peopleâs boat is called BâYachtâch I fucking cannot
Also usually in horror movies, itâs a clichĂŠ that the âtoken black personâ dies first but in this film itâs the irritating white people who all die, and all of the black family survive this is good content
The soundtrack is A+
The fight scene/dance duel scene? With the remix of âI got 5 on itâ? BEAUTIFUL. POETIC CINEMA I SWEAR
THE TWIST AT THE END BYE
I am so confused and questioning everything I know, what the fuck Jordan Peele
Okay so the âtwistâ deserves itâs own section because bitch the FUCK
So the huge twist (SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER) is that Adelaide and Red switched places right at the start of the movie - so the person who we think is Adelaide is actually Red, and vice versa
Iâm not saying the twist was bad but I kinda knew already that Adelaide and Red were switched at the beginning of the movie - I mean the moment is heavily implied in the trailer!
I think they drop so many hints/clues throughout the film that it starts to add up quickly
First of all, the fact that Adelaide-who-is-really-Red only drinks water and barely eats anything. Like she repeatedly refuses to drink any alcohol too
Itâs mentioned that Adelaide-who-is-really-Red doesnât talk a lot, and at first itâs like âoh itâs the trauma of whatever happened in the funhouseâ but then it makes sense that itâs actually Red
Adelaide-who-is-really-Red REALLY did not want to be back at that beach - again you assume itâs because âtraumaâ but nah, itâs because she knows what she did
The way Adelaide-who-is-really-Red killed one of the doppelgängers was kinda reminiscent of how the Tethered were killing people
The story that Red-who-is-really-Adelaide tells about giving birth to those âmonstersâ seems oddly human for something supposedly without a soul (since she mentions that the experiments duplicated the human body but they couldnât do the soul) - and then itâs like â...oh fuckâ
Red-who-is-really-Adelaide knows that ârealâ people eat proper food because she ate it herself; ârealâ children get proper toys because she did too, etc.Â
The reason that Red-who-is-really-Adelaideâs voice is so hoarse/raspy is because Adelaide-who-is-really-Red choked her into unconsciousness before taking her place
To add, Red-who-is-really-Adelaide is the only âTetheredâ who can actually talk
The fact that the beginning of the movie shows Red-who-is-really-Adelaide watching an advert for People of America on TV (the people holding hands across the country), itâs on her t-shirt when the switch happens and then thatâs exactly what the Tethered start to do. Also, near the end of the film, you see her cutting up those paper-chain-people who are holding handsÂ
The Thriller t-shirt; right at the end of the Thriller music video, thereâs the whole identity question of âis he who we think he isâ? (I think)
So, here are a few gripes I had despite overall liking the movie;
It started off kinda slow, which was good in some ways because of tension and character establishment etc, but putting a whole two to three minutes opening credits thing really slowed it down a lot after the opening (though I did like the soundtrack during those credits)
Despite the switch being relatively well-done and a good twist, it just seemed really obvious after seeing the trailer
The twist sort of brought some plotholes but Iâm going to bring that up in my question section in a sec since it may be intentional (youâll know what I mean in a second)
I feel like a few times during the film, it was building up tension to be terrifying/scary but then the âpunchâ, as it were, came too soon to reach its full potential - like it peaked a tad too early
Finally, questions I have after the movie! (and boy, do I have questions)
Does Red-who-is-really-Adelaide not know that sheâs not one of the Tethered? Did she forget completely? Like why does she want and plan to kill all ânormalâ humans? She must retain SOME memory because she talks about food/toys, plus the People of America/holding hands thing.Â
Also does Adelaide-who-is-really-Red not remember that sheâs one of the Tethered at all before the end of the film?Â
The Tethered are all shadows of the ânormalâ people (for lack of a better phrase), so why is Adelaide-who-is-really-Red able to a) speak normally, b) dance so well, c) move more ânormallyâ? And why does Red-who-is-really-Adelaide not move ânormallyâ (eg. the dance parallel) when sheâs ânormalâ?
^^ I wonder if over time they both forgot or repressed those memories, and only fragments remained. And then Adelaide-who-is-really-Red only remembers at the end that sheâs actually a Tethered-person.
Adelaide-who-is-really-Red is a Tethered-person, right? So does that mean that the ânormalâ Zora and Jason are half-Tethered? Is that why they manage to survive so well or...?
Why does Red-who-is-really-Adelaide want to kill everyone in the outer-world? Is this supposed to reflect not separating âusâ vs âthemâ or something? She clearly got loose from being cuffed to the bed, so why didnât she escape after and go back home?
^Also, who uncuffed her? And why? Was it the Tethered?
Sometimes itâs like the Tethered completely mirror the ânormalâ versions, and then other times they donât. Which is it? Why?
What happens next?? What is the purpose of the Tethered all holding hands in a line? What are they hoping to achieve? Are they trying to send a message?
Jason seems to realize that Adelaide-who-is-really-Red is...well, actually Red - and so does she now. What impact does this have? Is she going to go crazy and kill her family?Â
Do Tethered have feelings? Or emotions? Because Adelaide-who-is-really-Red married Gabe so...? You know?
Is the fact that neither of them remember the switch that well/they both adapted supposed to signify that souls arenât a real thing?? Because supposedly thatâs what the Tethered lack?
Are there Tethered for ALL of America or just Santa Cruz? And what about the rest of the world? Do I have a Tethered-version of myself??
Finally, if there is a Tethered version of me out there, Iâm sorry for eating so much since that means youâve had to eat a fuck ton of raw rabbit :â( Please donât kill me, we can be friends!
Overall, though, I did enjoy the movie! :)
#SPOILERS#us#us movie#Jordan peele#long post is long#this took over an hour to write but now my brain is somewhat cleansed#this is all I could think of from the top of my head
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Rick In The Water; Ch11: Exit Wounds
Summary: The night of Ryan's death from Nova's perspective.
A/N: This chapter was so fucking hard to write. It broke my heart to put myself in the fucking shoes of Ryan and say such horrifying things about my bb. The next chapter will deal with Nova dealing with the trauma of the aftermath of everything that happened. My poor sweet girl đ Also, next time I do interwoven chapters I will absolutely try to do them so much better. I wasn't thinking about using the hospital scene in this chapter but I wanted to kind of try to explain why she was acting the way she was and I just don't think it's the best. It's not the most important part of the chapter so I'm going to leave it alone. I tried really hard to word it right but I just couldn't get it to feel the way I wanted it to within the parameters I'd set in the last chapter. In any case, this story is a trial and error of me trying to hone my skill again after years of being unable to focus long enough to tell a story of this caliber and length so I just kind of hope you guys bear that in mind when you're reading. Thank you so much for reading and commenting, it really means the world to me! -Jess⼠CW: There is heavy violence and extremely abusive language within. Please continue with caution. Pairing: Rick Sanchez/Reader Word Count: 7179
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The previous night
The car ride to get Madison was the kind of terse silence that should be used to torture information out of violent offenders. I was âluckyâ to even be brought along on the trip but rumors that I had become a recluse was tarnishing Ryanâs reputation earned me my first painful steps out of the house.
âYou have one hour. I want you looking put together and refined,â he demanded sharply. I had been in the kitchen, scrubbing the counters down as per his request when he stormed in angrily. âPeople think youâve become some fucked up hermit after losing your job. Iâm going to see to it that you put an end to it.â I nodded obediently, dropping what minuscule crumbs that had been on the counter in the trash and hurried upstairs.
I was in and out of the shower in a flash, sitting down at my vanity to dry and style my hair. I avoided meeting my own eyes in the mirror, unable to bear the sight of the large bruise that circled my eye, courtesy of a misinterpreted offhand comment. I brought my hair into a high braided bun, simple enough but also didnât allow any extra leverage if Ryan decided I had done something to upset him. I started on makeup, struggling to make any real change to the dark circle. I went over to my closet, retrieving a long halter sundress and a light cardigan to cover the hand-shaped bruises that covered my arms and legs. I posed in the mirror meekly, surveying myself carefully. The dark around my eye still drew the most attention so I dug around for a little while, finally extracting a pair of large sunglasses from an old purse. Their tint was dark enough to mask the bruising while the frame large enough to cover it.
I returned to the vanity to touch up my lipstick but I found myself staring out into space as anxiety seeped into my resolve. I was terrified of having to confront him, all these bruises, my busted lip; they had all been for this night. Once Madison got home, I was going to wait until Ryan went to sleep for the night and finally make my escape. The plan was to go straight to Bethâs house. If Ryan showed up, the cops could be called or if worse came to worst, Rick would just kill him. It was tempting but the thought of Madison growing up without a father who loved her reminded me too much of how I grew up. I couldnât let that happen to her too.
I couldnât let her end up like me.
âWhat in the fuck are you doing? Weâre going to be late!â Ryan swore as he flung the bedroom door open, glaring down as he surveyed my outfit carefully. âI guess this will have to do, put on those sunglasses. Weâve got to fucking go.â
I grabbed the closest pair of shoes, unfortunately not my trusty running shoes, but a pair of high heeled wedges. Ryan grew frustrated quickly as he watched me wobble across the carpeted floor, grabbing my wrist to pull me behind him. I managed the first few steps but stumbled despite my best efforts, colliding into the wall as a sharp pain shot through both my ankle and my brow line. Ryan groaned in frustration as blood trickled down the curve of my nose.
âYou have got to be fucking kidding.â
He released my wrist with enough force to send it in to the wall as well. The old wound ached at the impact as tears streamed down my face. I limped into the bathroom, gingerly inspecting the damage in the mirror. A large gash now split my brow as blood continued pouring out. Wetting a washcloth, I pressed it to my forehead as I searched for the liquid bandaid I kept for things just like this.
â(Y/N), stop fucking around, letâs fucking go,â Ryan bellowed, walking into the bathroom. He watched my methodical application of what was essentially glue, a small smirk forming over his face at every wince of pain. Was he enjoying this? Was watching me suffer this much of a thrill to him? I returned my sunglasses to my face, relieved when they covered most of my brow line to conceal the wound, pulling my bangs back down to cover the rest. I popped a couple of painkillers to try to mitigate the pain still shooting through my ankle.
âIâm ready,â I announced timidly. I walked carefully, trying to ignore the shooting pain I felt with every step. When I was outside, I didnât dare look anywhere near the Smith household. I couldnât see Rick right now. I wouldnât be able to resist the urge to throw myself into his arms again, to feel that overwhelming sense of protection I hadnât even noticed until it was ripped away from me. I could feel his eyes on me but with Ryan putting on the show of dutiful husband, I couldnât chance it.
*+*
The drive was long, only the dulcet tones of the talk radio he enjoyed so fervently. A man droned on and on about stocks and their rising and falling but I found my usual comfort in staring out the window. If I closed my eyes for a moment, I could tell myself this was Rickâs ship. I could pretend, even for that short moment, that it was Rick next to me just taking me out on another adventure. The illusion would inevitably be shattered by the mind-numbing voice on the radio, a poor replacement for the low music always playing in Rick's ship.
âWhen we get home, you may mend your ankle but for the time being you are to act as though nothing is wrong,â he told me as he swerved in and around traffic. âWe will be stopping for dinner on the way home, I wonât have time to wait for you to make it yourself.â
âI-Iâm sorry-â
âQuiet. I am in no mood to listen to your voice.â
Picking up Madison went as smoothly as I couldâve hoped. The pain killers had their intended effect, numbing the pain enough for me walk smoothly in the high heels. I was able to keep my sunglasses on, never going inside or anywhere else that would have warranted their removal. We made small talk with the other parents and Ryan even told jokes. Everything a normal and happy couple would do; Ryanâs mission seemed to be completed, at least for today. The other parents seemed overjoyed to see me, assuring me of how happy they were as a couple of the husbands nudged him with remarks of how they were glad we hadnât killed each other yet.
When we finally climbed back into the car, Madison shoved her earbuds into her ears, blasting music to drown out the world around her. Ryan glared into the rearview mirror but said nothing to her, instead, berating me in a low voice for allowing this kind of behavior at all. He begrudgingly stopped at the closest fast-food chain that was still open this late; ordering for the car in the drive-thru before parking the car and divvying out the food. I was given a salad and muttered comments about my weight, my cheeks burning red. It tasted like ash in my mouth but I swallowed every bite knowing there would be repercussions if I left a single leaf to waste.
I was relieved when our exit finally appeared, knowing the car ride from hell was almost over. This life from hell was almost over. It was dark now, my sunglasses now being used for me to fiddle with anxiously. I straightened up in my seat, earning me a reproachful look from Ryan as he looked me over suspiciously. I slunk back into the seat at his piercing gaze and returned to the window, praying silently that this nightmare would truly be over soon.
I dared a glance at the Smith house as we pulled into the driveway, surprised to find the garage dark with the shutter still wide open. As Ryan delegated tasks to me, I dared a glance over to the garage, spotting a familiar blue glistening in the moonlight. I offered the most minute of smiles at the garage but the feeling of protection allowed to smile to linger allowing Ryan to quickly put two and two together.
âMadison, take this inside,â he ordered, handing her suitcase to her. He watched her disappear inside, before gripping my arm tightly.
âDonât fucking think I didnât fucking see that,â Ryan muttered as he twisted my arm behind my back. âGet in the fucking house.â
Obediently, I grabbed as many of Madisonâs belongings as I could and carried them into the house without a second glance to Rick. Tonight was only going to work if I was careful. If I wanted to get out of this house with Madison and me intact, I had to focus on the task at hand, not Rick. I carried Madiâs bags up to her room, stopping to kick my wedges off by the door. My ankle cried out in anguish as I made my way up the stairs to her room, the painkillers finally wearing off. I knocked gently before pushing her door open to find her sitting on the side of her bed scrolling through her social media accounts and catching up with her friends.
âSweetheart, why donât you come downstairs?â I asked, sitting the bags down by the bed and holding my hand out to her. If she was distracted, she wouldnât unpack. If she didnât unpack, she would be ready to go as soon as possible.
âNo, thatâs okay Mom,â she replied, not even looking up from her phone, âDad seems like heâs in another mood. Iâll just hang out up here.â
âIâve missed you, sweetheart.â
My eyes welled with tears as I played with hair, twirling it around my fingers. Her brown hair was longer, almost reaching the small of her back. The sun had done well to lighten it a few shades in exchange for deepening her tan over the summer. She looked older and her general demeanor had seemed to mature as well.
âI missed you too, Mom,â she groaned, detaching from her phone long enough to smile up at me before immediately returning to it.
âI guess Iâll just leave you to your phone,â I teased. Kissing her head softly, she groaned at me loudly again before I finally took pity on her and left the room, leaving her to her friends to catch up. I stopped quickly in my bedroom, changing out of my long dress and into a tank top and sweats before taking a deep breath, steadying myself before heading back down the stairs.
âWhat were you and Madison talking about?â Ryan demanded, stepping out of the living room with a furious glare plastered on his face as my foot came in contact with the bottom step.
âN-Nothing Ryan,â I blurted out, stumbling back in surprise, âI just told her I missed her and asked if she wanted to come downstairs and spend time with us.â
âMhm.â He watched my face carefully as I slipped around him into the living room, trying to find any inkling of a lie. âYou really think I donât know what youâre up to?â
âU-Up to? Iâm not up to anything!â I lied, proving only to make him angrier.
âYouâre going to take Madi and try to run away tonight, arenât you?â he accused as he followed me, hysterics beginning to leak into his voice. âYou are not taking my daughter anywhere and I will be damned if I let you go running back to your senior special.â
âR-Ryan, I am h-here. With you. Not Rick-â
âDonât say his fucking name,â he spat. âYou sound fucking pathetic.â
âRyan, it was nothing. What happened between him and me, it meant nothing-â
âShut your fucking mouth (Y/N). I donât need you fucking insulting me. Iâm not fucking stupid, at least not completely. I donât know whatâs been wrong with me this past fucking summer but that shit is over with. You are my fucking wife until death does us part. Donât fucking make me speed up that process.â
âRyan-â
âI fucking said shut up,â he bellowed, using the back of his hand to throw me into the couch. âDonât you fucking start crying either. Donât start fucking screaming. If anyone shows up here, I donât care if itâs a fucking Mormon missionary going door to door, youâre going to fucking regret it. But donât worry, you wonât die. Although, I'm not sure what the life expectancy is for a mother who lost a child violently.â He paused, eyeing me maliciously as the true threat of his words sunk in. âYouâre out of control (Y/N) and I will do whatever it takes to put a stop to it and restore order to this house.â
I didnât speak, but I couldnât stop the silent tears that streaked down my cheeks. He had gone too far threatening Madison. I brought my hand to the stinging on my face and it seemed that even silent, the emotion still offended him. He grabbed my shoulders, shaking me violently as veins bulged in his forehead.
âI fucking told you not to cry.â
His shaking was getting harder yet, my head flinging forward and back sharply. I knew if I didnât start fighting back soon, he wouldnât stop until he snapped my neck. I brought my arms up between his to push his hands away from me, managing to take him by surprise and break out of his grip. I slid out of his reach, crawling away as he recovered. He caught up quickly, grabbing my ankle and pulling me back to him on my stomach. He flipped me over, doling punishment out by colliding his knuckles into my cheek violently as I tried to squirm away. On my back, I was able to deliver a swift kick to his groin, dodging out of the way of his onslaught. I pushed myself off the floor as he doubled over gasping for air. In a last-ditch attempt to buy myself some time as I fled the living room, I quickly flipped the light switch, plunging the room into darkness.
I headed to the kitchen, desperate for any kind of weapon to defend myself with. I could hear him groaning behind me so I flicked the light off behind me, trying to silently root for any sharp object to keep him at bay.
âWhere are you, you stupid bitch?â he growled into the darkness. I sunk against the counter, trying to keep out of sight as he searched for the light switch. Light poured around me as I pressed myself against the counter, listening for his footsteps to edge toward my location. I tried desperately to press the panic button Rick had implanted in my hand what felt like ages ago. I never stopped trying to use it even though I knew it was in vain. A small part of me hoped that he could repair his, that he would realize I needed his help but it all seemed so hopeless. Deep down I was sure he had taken my words to heart. He had given up on me.
âIf you stop this stupid shit, I promise Iâll make it fucking quick.â His footsteps turned around the kitchen island I hid behind, breaking me from my feelings of hopelessness as I continued inching around the island, trying to get around it before he could find me.
âI never understood why they called you Nova, you know? You, a star? Thatâs fucking comical,â he taunted, trying to lure me out. âThe most you are is a fucking black hole.â
My ankle spasmed under my weight as I turned the corner and my position was blown when I face-planted onto the floor. He chuckled darkly as he rounded the island, glaring down at me.
âThe reason they call me Nova wasnât because of fucking stars you idiot,â I hissed, pulling myself off the floor with the knife extended in front of me. âIf youâd ever paid a fucking iota of attention youâd know it was from fucking Planet of the fucking Apes. There was a charact-â
âYou really must be a fucking moron if you think I actually give a fuck.â He shook his head in disbelief before launching himself at me. The impact forced me back into the wall, my head coming in contact with the wall and everything going dark.
*+*
âIâve spent way too long fantasizing about this.â
My eyes blinked, quickly adjusting to the inky darkness of my bedroom. My back rested against the foot of my bed as Ryan stood over me, sneering as I returned to consciousness. I tried to stand, only earning another backhand for my insolence. The small chair from my vanity became the next subject of his rage as he picked it up and broke one of the legs off. He inspected the sharpest end before turning to face me again.
âMy parents told me women with bad childhoods were guaranteed whores, but you always seemed so fucking genuine. Somehow, my stupid ass fell in love with you and God only knows why I went and had a baby with you.â
âYouâve never loved anything in your life,â I hissed weakly.
âYouâre probably right, it always kind of seemed like a waste of my fucking time,â he nodded, âbut there I was, getting married to a girl with every red flag my parents warned me about. Mommy didnât love you? Check. Daddy maybe loved you too much? Check. Abandoned by most of the adults she came in contact with? Fucking home run.â
âYouâre fucking wrong.â
âOh come the fuck off of it (Y/N),â he glowered, âThe only reason I wanted you was because I already knew you could be beaten into submission if thatâs what it took. Youâd spent your entire life that way, you wouldnât even know the fucking difference.â
âFuck you.â
âI could make time for that if you wanted.â He offered darkly, his eyes glittering with malice before rolling at my cowered form. âIt wouldnât be worth it, youâd only be thinking of Colonel Blimp next door.â
âWhat are you going to tell Madison?â I asked desperate to change the subject. âHow are you going to explain to her that you killed her mother? Sheâs not going to just forgive you. She's smarter than you've ever given her credit for.â
âI donât give a fuck about that stupid brat,â he scoffed with another roll of his eyes. âSheâs too fucking much like you.â
I couldnât muster a reply. My blood ran cold as my heart raced with fury. He watched my face, seeming to relish in the fear of my revelation. He truly did not want me to have anything. My daughter, my friends, they were all allowed purely because they could be taken away.
âWhy me?â I uttered finally, tears brimming in my eyes as I watched him twirl the broken chair leg around in his hand.
âYou were pathetic. I took you home and fucked you on the first date.â He shrugged smugly. âI knew your kind, I knew the words that it would take to get what I wanted from you.â
I closed my eyes for a moment, taking a calming breath before pushing myself off of the floor to look at the man who had made my life a living hell in the eyes. I groaned as I put pressure on my ankle only to stumble back onto the bed. Ryan laughed at the sight, his chuckling continuing as I awkwardly pushed myself back up, swaying as I stared up at him.
âLike I said, you abusive piece of shit, you donât fucking know me at all.â
My words set him off and he pushed me back into the bed, my head ricocheting off the headboard with a loud yelp. I stood back up, my head spinning from the impact as I tried to catch my balance again. Being disoriented made it easy for Ryan to overpower me again, forcing me back onto the floor and holding the chair leg to my stomach.
âWhen are you going to fucking learn (Y/N)? Youâre fucking nothing,â he declared smugly, pushing the improvised weapon into my stomach. I cried out as it broke my skin, pain searing out from the wound through my entire body. My body screamed at me to fight against him but with every minuscule movement, he drove the spike in deeper.
âRick-â I cried out weakly, my voice raw with pain.
âHe wonât save you, (Y/N). Why would he want to? He left you once before and it seems it was easy for him to do it again. Where is your savior (Y/N)? Why isn't he here to save you if he loved you so much?â
A light appeared under the doorway, calling my attention to it quickly. The door burst open quickly, relief coursing through my body. Ryan was wrong. He had come to save me.
âM-Mom?â Madi stepped in nervously, stepping in the pool of blood that had formed next to me. âD-Dad, what are you doing? Stop hurting her!â
âYou shouldâve stayed in bed Madison,â Ryan hissed, driving the spike into my gut completely, leaving me to scream out in pain.
I clawed desperately at the wood now buried in my gut as Ryan chased Madi out of the room, trailing my blood behind him. He returned mere seconds later, a crazed look forming over his face as he lumbered back over to me, picking me up by the straps of my tank top. He drew back, bringing his fist down to crash into my cheek repeatedly. I wanted to fight back, to do anything to stop his assault but my arms only hung loosely by my sides as broken English began pouring out of his mouth. The ringing in my ears prevented me from understanding a word he was saying and my eyes were swelling shut so when he abruptly stopped, I simply assumed I was dead.
âNova!â A Â gruff voice cut desperately through the ringing and I swore I saw the blue hair that reminded me of home as I finally allowed myself to slip into darkness.
*+*
That man sure has an oddly shaped head.
âSheâs going to need to be put under, we have to open this wound further to get the shards of wood out.â
I wonder if his brain is the same shape as his head, he must be really smart.
âSh-She was attacked, I-I think she was stabbed with a wooden spike.â
He sounds like Rick. I miss him so much, where is he? Where is Rick? He said he would save me.
âSir, I promise you, we will help her. You just have to allow us the space to do so.â
âH-Her name is Nova. P-Please, donât let anything happen to her. I canât- I canât lose her.â
Rick?
*+*
The world around me was dense, lush forest surrounded us as Rick and I sat hand in hand as we watched the waterfall in the distance cascade into the small river beneath it. I dared to glance over to him, receiving a playful smile as he averted his gaze. I giggled, turning my own gaze away, I peeked over again only to find Ryan in his stead, leering down at me viciously. My blood ran cold as I saw Rickâs mangled body beside him, contorted into an unnatural form as he stretched his arm out to me desperately before Ryan finished him off. With one last crushing blow from his boot, Ryan extinguished any form of life in Rickâs eyes, something he assured me of by bringing the optical gore mere inches away from my face. I cringed, looking down to avoid the view only to find the chair leg wedged into my gut once more. I looked up again desperately, only to find myself completely alone save for the gurgling corpse a couple of feet away.
âHeâll never be able to protect you from me (Y/N). You can run as far away as you want but I will always find you.â
âNova? Is that your name?â a gentle voice asked. I blinked as I awoke, wincing from the blaring light filling the room. I slammed my eyes shut again as the voice asked his question again and the bed lowered next to me as he sat down.
âN-Nova,â I rasped, trying to nod in confirmation. My neck was stiff, making any movement impossible. âWh-Where am I?â
âYouâre in an alien hospital. Well, itâs alien to you, to me itâs just a hospital,â he informed me genially. I tried to open my eyes again, squinting to find the same oddly shaped head Iâd seen in my dream.
âH-Howâd I get here?â
âYour family brought you in. You had a deep wound to your torso.â My eyes widened as I brought my hands to my stomach, surprised to find none of the pain it provided previously. Instead, a low ache reverberated throughout, far more manageable than the searing pain from before.
âWh-What happened to me? My husband- Ryan, he-heâŚâ I fumbled my words, tears stinging my eyes at the memory.
âWe were able to repair the damage done by the wooden spear he lodged into you,â the doctor informed me, âYouâll be back to normal in no time my dear, just have to wait for the stitches to heal away. Theyâre medicated with a serum that hastens the healing process. It should only take about a week until youâre back to normal, physically speaking.â
âM-My family, where is my daughter?â I asked tearfully, taking time to survey the room, expecting them to pop out at any moment.
âSheâs out in the waiting room with the rest of your family and when youâre ready, we can send them back. We should also be able to discharge you soon, as long as youâre feeling up to it.â I nodded eagerly, sitting up a little to be more presentable. He smiled wisely, saying nothing more as he left the room presumably to go find my family. I continued straightening myself up, taking a moment to peek under the hospital gown to get a look at the long scar now gracing my body.
âMom!â Madison cried out as she entered the room, rushing to my side a tearful mess. I held her tightly, patting her back soothingly as she wept and muttered apologies into my hair, âMom, Iâm sorry. I shouldâve done something sooner, I shouldâve tried to stop him, I was just so scared. Iâm so sorry.â
âBaby, thereâs nothing you couldâve done. You did the right thing, getting out of there and going to Bethâs. Iâm so proud of you.â I left a watery kiss on her hairline, as Beth finished talking to the doctor, turning to survey me.
âNova, how are you feeling? What happened?â she asked urgently, finally tearing her gaze away from the pulp I called a face.
âJeez Mom, calm the hell down,â Summer chastised her before I could answer. She met my gaze with a watery one of her own, âAunt Nova, Iâm so glad youâre alright.â Madison left my side briefly, allowing her surrogate sister to hug me tightly. As Summer pulled away wiping away her tears, my eyes fell to Beth again, decidedly ignoring the lanky man whoâd been watching me intently with a look of painful regret.
âIâm okay you guys,â I assured Beth, âThe man with the oddly shaped head said Iâll be able to leave whenever Iâm ready.â She forced herself into my arms, sobbing into my shoulder.
âI donât know what Iâd do if I ever lost you, Nova,â she sobbed. I rubbed her back as Iâd done for Madi before she abruptly pulled away, wiping away her tears roughly. âHeâs gone, Nova, heâs dead.â
My eyes flicked to Rick quickly, trying to fight the horrified rage boiling into my gut. Ryan was dead and Rick had been the one to kill him. Exactly what I hadnât wanted to happen. I couldnât be completely enraged, but it was easier and more justifiable to just be angry. How was I going to explain this to the police? I was going to lose Rick for sure now, and despite the feeling of relief welling in my gut, an inexplicable heartbreak was squashing it down at the thought of losing him when I finally became free to have him. If even he still wanted me.
âWhat happened?â I asked quietly, finally meeting Rickâs sorrowful gaze.
âHis heart gave out. I didnât even have to lay a finger on him, it was pretty anticlimactic really,â he explained with a careless shrug. Just the sound of his voice was making my heart race and a part of me wanted to climb out of the bed and fling myself into his arms but I hardened myself to him, turning to Madi instead.
âIâm so sorry sweetheart,â I offered to her softly. She would never know the cruel things her father said about her, she knew he was a monster, but she could at least live under the illusion of his unending love for her.
âIâm glad heâs dead Mom,â she told me sharply, standing up from the bed.
âY-You donât mean that sweetheart.â I insisted. I didnât want this for her, I didnât want her to go through the same pain I went through. I pulled the blanket off of my lap, relishing in the cool air the swirl around my legs.
âI do mean that. Dad was a monster a-and after what he did to you? He deserved to die,â she assured me coldly. I didn't have it in me to convince her otherwise and I slumped back onto the bed in defeat.
âN-Nova, sweetie, what happened?â Beth asked cautiously, her eyes flitting to Summerâs quickly to stave off another interruption.
âI-I donât want to talk about it, not here.â I brushed her off, standing up from the bed, a ghost of a pain shooting through my ankle. I was grateful it hadnât lingered, seemingly repaired along with my other egregious injuries. I moved to the chair next to the bed where I found a bag containing my clothes.
âWhen we get home, I promise Iâll explain.â
Beth conceded, ushering the kids out of the room so I could change. I dug through the bag, dismayed to find only the blood-soaked clothes I been wearing when I got here. Rick stayed behind, still watching me awkwardly as I pulled the stained sweats out of the bag.
âD-Do you need some help?â he offered timidly as the door shut with a click. I shook my head quickly, stubbornly pulling the sweats on under the gown. âY-You donât have to wear those, I can get you something else.â
âNo Rick, donât worry about it,â I hissed, pulling the sweats up over my hips before grabbing my shirt.
âCome on Nova, let me get you something else, let me help you-â
I took a deep breath, trying to stop the anger and terror I had been living with for the past few months from boiling to the surface. I didn't want to snap, I knew I had hurt him but as my gaze found Rick, despite the look of sorrow that seemed to be a permanent fixture on his face, the sight of him only made me angrier. All of that talk of protecting me and he still fucking left me high and dry. Again.
âOh, now you want to fucking help?â
He grabbed the shirt out of my hands, solidifying my anger as I spun around, looking up at him with all the hate I could muster. Every feeling of hopelessness and terror coursed through me as I looked into the eyes of the man who claimed he wouldnât leave me, not again. Not unless I asked.
âY-Yes?â he sputtered, looking confused at the sudden turn of my mood.
âThatâs pretty fucking funny, couldâve used it a lot fucking sooner.â I yanked the shirt back out of his hands, pulling it over my head.
âN-Nova, you told me to leave you alone. You told me you didnât want me anymore. I didnât know what to do, B-Beth thought you were waiting for Madi to come home-â
âN-No!â I bellowed back at him, âI mean a fucking hours ago when my husband almost fucking killed me.â
âWh-What? I was there as soon as I could be- as soon as I heard anything,â he insisted, running his hands through his hair.
âThe moment we walked in the door, it was over. He was out for my fucking blood.â
âI-I didnât hear anything Nova, Iâm sorry,â he apologized. Seeing him look completely defeated, my rage softened. Rick was someone who was always five steps ahead. Seeing him like this, looking so lost, broke my heart. âYou didnât use your panic button- I was going to get you out of there tonight, I-I didnât know.â
âI did use my fucking panic button,â I assured him venomously. Just as soon as my heart softened to him, the mention of that useless fucking piece of technology enraged me all over again. âBut I guess it doesnât fucking work when the body housing its receiver is floating through the fucking vacuum of space.â
I watched as the blood drained out his face at the realization and I couldn't help but feel justified by his reaction. I had come to terms with it, knowing he hadnât even thought of it since we hadnât even used it since I moved in with Beth. I couldnât blame him, not entirely. It hadnât crossed my mind either and when I left, it had been so abrupt- there had been no time.
âI didnât- I didnât even think about that,â he confessed, despondent, âI just thought- I mean I heard you guys fighting but I thought if he was hurting you-â
âI used that fucking panic button every fucking night.â
âIâm sorry, Nova, Iâm so fucking sorry. I let you down,â he murmured sadly, staring at the floor.
âI thought you gave up on me. I know what I said to you was cruel but I thought you would be smart enough to see right through it. Guess you let your ego get in the way.â My voice was distant, unable to sustain my anger anymore. I didnât want to be upset with him, I lived, I was going to be okay, at least physically.
âBaby, Iâm sorry,â he cried. The sound of his wavering voice crumbled my resolve, allowing me to finally move closer to him, prepared to offer him some comfort, âI never gave up on you. I just-I thought you had a plan, that you were just waiting for Madison- I just let myself believe what you said so I wouldnât beat down the door and put her at risk.â
âI was waiting for Madi. You were at least right about that,â I relented, pulling the torn and bloodied shirt off with the gown underneath. I watched as his eyes found the scar that now distorted my torso. âI canât wear this shit, can you find me something else?â I offered, extending a metaphorical olive branch.
âOf course.â
He opened up a portal stepping through it and re-emerging with fresh clothes, including undergarments and my running shoes.
âDid you just go into my house?â I asked, almost horrified at the clothes presented to me.
âI mean, I donât know your sizes, I just figured-â
âThese are fine, thank you, Rick,â I interrupted him, pulling off my sweats, tossing them and the tank top into the trash. It was somehow strange to be standing here, completely naked in front of him but I didnât shy away, didnât take any extra care to hide my dignity. He wasnât leering down at me like I was a piece of meat, he just wore a look of concern carried in his furrowed brow.
âBeth knows,â Rick told me softly as I finished tying my shoes. I froze a moment, looking up at him in horror at the implication.
âSh-She knowsâŚ?â
âAbout us,â he confirmed with a curt nod.
âH-How did she- Oh she must be furious,â I rambled, running my hands through my hair as I started pacing.
âSheâs not mad,â Rick assured me, grabbing my shoulders to stop me in my tracks, âShe thinks it's⌠strange but she said it kind of made⌠sense?â
âSh-She did?â
He nodded quickly, pulling me into his embrace. I melted into him completely, finally able to allow myself to release the stress on my shoulders. There was so much. Burying Ryan, dealing with the police, the house but right now in Rickâs arms, that all fell along the wayside.
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It didn't take long for my entire world to fall apart. The moment I stepped through that portal, it seemed the entire world felt wrong. Gone was the comforting, if not brazen lights of the hospital. I spent my first week back dealing with the police answering every single one of their difficult questions.
âWhere did the blood come from?â
âWhat happened that night, is it possible you did something to set him off?â
âYour injuries have never been reported and you have no visible wounds, we have no history of abuse in this household.â
Rick had offered to just make Ryanâs body disappear but I knew there would be people who would be looking for him, his parents, his coworkers. This path, however, resulted in me spending a night in jail. It didn't last long though, Rick stormed in demanding I be set free within the first hour I was there. When he was met with opposition, he merely nodded and asked to speak to the chief of police to straighten things out. He would never fully explain what he said to the man but when he emerged from the now docile police chief's office, I was released and free of all charges. My house was still a crime scene but I had no interest in going home. Beth eagerly welcomed me back into her home instead, clearing out Jerryâs office completely to put a bed in, allowing me some form of sanctuary. She even snuck over to my house and grabbed my living room TV to mount on the wall for added comfort.
This didnât stop the frequent nightmares, however. Most nights I would wake up screaming, and depending who woke up first either Rick or Beth would appear to soothe me. Despite this, Rick and I hadnât returned to our previous level of comfort with one another and I desperately missed it. The little kisses snuck in whenever there had been an opportunity, him playing with my hair while we watched TV⌠I missed it all. I missed it and yet I couldn't quite bring myself to broach the topic.
âNova,â Beth called, knocking on my door softly one afternoon, about a week after Iâd been released from custody. I knew why she was here already, she wanted to talk about Rick, about what happened before and after Ryanâs death. All the things I desperately wanted to avoid. I had given her cliff notes of that night and she seemed to be satisfied. Now she was just interested in understanding my relationship with her father.
âCome in,â I sighed wearily, gearing up for the conversation I had been dreading. I focused my attention on my TV, desperately trying to seem invested in whatever adult cartoon was playing to put it off even another minute longer.
âNova, I wanted to talk to you,â Beth started, her eyes flicking up to the TV. I sighed again, muting it as I turned to her. âI just wanted to talk about you and⌠Dad.â
âI figured as much,â I conceded, cringing at her. âWhat, within reason, do you wanna know?â
âWell, how did this start?â She asked timidly, not quite able to meet my eyes.
âWhen he came back,â I assured her, resting my hand on hers.
âI-I know that. I meant, when after he came back?â she pressed gently.
And so I launched into our sordid story. Starting with the dampener and only editing some of the details like the encounter with Unity and the first time weâd slept together, mostly just to save her the trauma. I told her about the Council of Ricks and how Ricks and Novas were a common occurrence in most of the dimensions. He and I were just two people that fit together like puzzle pieces. She stayed silent as I spoke but I took care to note that she wasnât angry, she wasnât upset, if anything, she almost looked satisfied.
âRyan caught us i-in the garage. We had been⌠m-making out and he had walked over, looking for me. Thatâs when he dragged me out. Thatâs the end of our story,â I concluded, unsuccessfully fighting the mournful tone from creeping into my voice.
âWhy do you say itâs the end?â Beth asked, her brow furrowing the same as her father's would when logic seemed to run out.
âI hurt him and he hurt me.â I shrugged. âAnd for once, his part was actually accidental whereas I broke his heart to save my daughter.â
âAs bizarre as this feels to tell you, I think you need to give my dad a little more credit,â Beth chuckled softly. I cocked my brow at her and she elaborated, âI just mean- I talked to him the night Ryan died, about you. About what this thing is between you two. I think you need to talk to him, sort this stuff out and see if you canât move past your pain.â
âIf Rick had anything he wanted to say to me, he wouldâve already. Heâs not exactly a beat around the bush kind of guy,â I told her flatly, returning my gaze to the TV.
âDad also doesnât do emotions,â Beth reminded me gently, âWhen youâre ready, just try talking to him, okay?â
I nodded softly, as Beth stood up and thanked me before leaving the room. I stared into the TV as I considered her words, finding them to be the most obvious path but I couldnât will myself off of the bed to go confront my issues. Iâd had enough of confronting issues in the past two weeks to last me a lifetime and I just wasnât eager to run off and go fight some more. I rolled over, tucking my blanket under my chin as I curled up into a ball and the haze of exhaustion flooded over me immediately. The dulcet sound of the TV lulled me to sleep and I didnât even bother trying to fight it.
+Down With The Rickness - Ch1: Such Small Hands+
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Eight Legged Freaks (2002) Quotes! - trigger warnings: spiders, guns, and nsfw mentions
Inspired by @syfyhqââ!
âI will be self-assured and confident around women.â
â I will not fear the unexpected.â
âTheyâve been like this all week.â
âMust be something extra tasty in the water.â
âThe sun is going down, my nocturnal hunters.â
âItâs time to come out and feed.â
âIâve calculated a growth factor of twelve percent over the last forty-eight hours.â
âAll from eating these bugs? Maybe I should try some.â
âRun, little guys.â
âThey canât outrun the food chain.â
âImagine yourself the size of that fly. A scytodes spitter would be as big as a Cadillac.â
âYouâd be spider chow, kid.â
âAre the new tarantulas in here?â
âThat is too cool.â
âMale tarantulas compete for the femaleâs attention.â
âEach one tries to bring her the best present.â
âThe prey is cocooned alive so she can eat them in her nest.â
âYou know how women love breakfast in bed.â
âTake a look, the female of the species is three times as big as the male.â
âShe fills her prey with digestive acid to liquify the internal organs.â
âNow watch... Sheâll drink her victim from the inside out. While itâs still alive!â
âAnd you wonder why my mom doesnât like me hanging out with you.â
âArachnids have been roaming the earth for millions of years.â
âAnd theyâll be here long after the human race is dead and buried.â
âDo that again and I feed you to the parrot.â
âHope you like bologna!â
âThe spitters fire poisonous snot.â
âThe tarantulas mummify their prey.â
âNASA uses spider webs in outer space. And for medicine.â
âBetter late than never.â
âHang on, babydoll!â
âPartyâs over, gentlemen. Off the bikes.â
âThere is something very sexy about an older woman in uniform.â
âHer nine-millimeter gives me a stiffy.â
âYou just bought yourself a reckless.â
âCanât you give âem a break?â
âNo sweat, babydoll.â
âRelax, bee-otch. Itâs all good.Do you get off on humiliating me?â
âThis bad girl act doesnât suit you.â
âYou are so over protective.â
âYou need to start trusting me.â
âI thought you wanted to get out of town.â
âAs I was saying, Chemical Technologies has been looking for viable storage sites.I think most of us are insulted that some outsiders thinkzour town is a perfect place to dump toxic waste.â
âIsnât this just your latest getrich quick scheme?â
âYour mall has more employees than customers.â
âWith one phone call I could put together a deal that would make us all very rich.â
âLet people know the aliens walk among us.â
âI donât think itâs fair for one person to wield that much power.â
âI want him locked up!â
âI didnât give them permission to go into the mines.â
âI asked you a question, you greedy son of a bitch!â
âIâm trying to keep the peace.â
âWhere did you learn that itâs okay to talk to me like this?â
âHeâs hot for an old guy.â
âIâm not proud of it.â
âOh somethingâs broken? What else is new?â
âYou need to pay these by the end of the month.Iâm glad you like my bologna sandwiches.â
âAnd maybe you didnât know him so well after all.Stop screwing around...!Work it, babe.
âIâm just going to the mall.â
âI canât finish if you keep interrupting!â
âThe bug spray is on aisle five!â
âYou want mousetraps!? Is that it?! Aisle five!â
âThatâll be three fifty-two.â
âI had spiders at my house too.â
âWe need an exterminator not a sheriff.â
âEveryoneâs having pest problems!â
âIâve found more tracks. Even larger now.â
âThat was a trapdoor spiderâs burrow.â
âWhat if they didnât stop growing?â
âWhat if they broke out of their tanks.â
âThat could be why the other species are coming out into the open.â
âTheyâre trying to get away from the giant spiders.â
âThe ecosystem is out of balance.â
âWhen I medal at the X-Games, Honda will give me full sponsorship.â
âI thought you loved me.You donât have to play the good girl.â
âI told you to back off!Please! Open the door! Iâm sorry!â
âDo you know how embarrassing that is?â
âGet out of here! Theyâre coming!â
âThe phones went down for some reason.â
âI wanted to surprise you with a special dinner.â
âHave you noticed anything strange in the mines?â
âWere they running away from something?â
âAre you asking me out on a date?â
âSpiders shed their skins when they grow.â
âThis is a tarantulaâs leg.â
âItâs an exoskeleton, to be scientific.â
âSee! Male tarantulas wrap their prey in webbing.â
âThose are quills! Tarantulas can flick them at you like darts!â
âGiant tarantulas?â
âIf there were giant spiders roaming the desert, donât you think somebody wouldâve seen them by now?â
âThe jumpers hunt in daylight. But not the others. They only come out when the sun goes down!â
âRemind me never to let you do my laundry.â
âIâm doing spider research!â
âWow! A scytodes spitter!â
âThe scytodes spits a gooey discharge to immobilize their prey.â
âWatch its fangs!â
âThe spitterâs fangs move from side to side as it fires!â
âThere arenât enough wine coolers in the world to calm me down!
âSpitters, jumpers, orb weavers, tarantulas...â
âWe need to make an emergency broadcast.â
âGiant spider invasion.â
âA pack of rabid coyotes is loose in town.â
âArm yourselves with any weapons you can find.â
âStay together and head for the mall.â
âTrapdoors! Theyâre all around us!â
âBe cool, little dude.â
âTheyâre locked.â
âYou pump the slide to jack in a fresh round. Point at your target and squeeze.â
âThey canât handle the sunlight. They were waiting in the mines for the sun to go down!â
âTheyâre growing very fast.â
âThey need food to sustain that kind of development.â
âHey, loverboy... youâve got a town to save.â
âI didnât know you wore cologne.â
âItâs spider repellent.â
âThis always looks so easy on TV!Weâre being attacked by giant spiders!â
âThe entire town has been overrun!â
âDefend the human race!â
âTheyâre trapping us like ants in a log! Once they have all the exits blocked, theyâll come in through the last one!Theyâre going to kill us, you stoner!â
âWe should be able to hold them off for a little while.â
âDonât waste your bullets.â
âI thought you were a goner, boy!â
âWeâre trapped again!â
âToxic waste.â
âEwww... whatâs that smell?They donât have hair. They arenât fully grown tarantulas.â
âThis is our chance to kill them all.â
âWhen the power comes on, the bulb will ignite the methane and torch them!â
âI need to set the fuse as close to the spiders as I can.â
âI hate spiders.â
âLetâs get the fuck out of here!â
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So, talking about my Novels a bit more....
Hey there its Vira!
Thought I would talk about my novels a bit more, just so you guys know what you all would be getting into.
So, lets talk about Novel 1.
The Rings of Gallilea: Sworn to Rebirth
(Aka: TROG/ TROGSTR)
So here are the main plot points of the novel:
It is the sacred duty of the Celestial Trinity (the Sun, Moon and Earth) to protect the life in their solar system from outside alien threats
An imperial speciest race known as the Cantillians dub Humans inferior to them, thus sparking a war between them the Celestial Trinity.
The nine planets ally themselves with the Celestial Trinity to protect themselves from a God-destroying weapon created by the Cantillians known as the Catalyst.
The Rings of Gallilea are formed in an attempt to protect the solar system.
The goddess of the moon utilizes their influence on humanity to create a re-birthing curse. As long as humanity shares legends of the gods they will not die.
During a battle with the Cantillian emperor (known as the Serpent) Earth is hit by the Catalyst, destroying his physical form.
One-by one the Rings of Gallilea and the Celestial Trinity fall.
Eventually it is only Mercury The god of knowledge, Moon, the goddess of magic and Pluto rhw God of Alchemy left
In order to save humanity, Moon forces Mercury to give her an "unforgettable" curse so she will retain her memories as a goddess.
Moon uses what is left of her magical power to trap the Cantillian emperor in a diffrent dimension, before she is killed.
Moon falls to earth taking on the form of a human infant.
She is found by the son of a former cult leader and raised moon aware of her godly identity.
Out of gratitude, moon grants her new father figure the "Power of The North Star" and shares a magical bond with him
Their mission now, is to locate the fallen Gods and prepare them for the fight against the looming Cantillian threat.
In summary:
The Rings of Gallilea is a magical Sifi adventure, with sub themes of romance, and drama. The message of The Rings of Gallilea is self-sacrifice, defying fate, humility and mercy along with second chances.
Lets meet our cast!
Luna Abyss- our female lead, Luna is the Goddess of the moon and Magic. Before what Luna refers to as "The Fall" she was regal, elegant and refined. Growing up on earth with her drunkard guardian Victor, and running from government officials who seem to pick up on Luna's signals wherever she goes changed her quite a bit. Luna uses her twin blades Artemis and Frigga to fight off the Cantillian forces sent by recon forces. Luna likes dancing to loud music at ungodly hours, getting fast food at midnight, dogs, and exploring places she probably shouldn't.
Terra Greenwood- Our male lead, Terra is the God of Earth, Nature and humanity. Terra grew up with his Grandma after his dad walked out on his drug-addicted mother. Terra is a member of the Apache Indians, and lives on a reservation in Greenville New Mexico. Terra, despite struggling with depression and minor anger issues, dreams of living a normal life. Getting a good education, a well paying job, taking his grandma and moving far away from Greenville....that Is until Luna shows up. Terra fights with his magic spear Gia, and can command Earth and Nature on a whim. While his abilities are still weak, with some training there is no doubt that Terra can return to his former Glory. Terra enjoys driving his old pickup truck down town, while listening to the hard rock radio station, helping his grandma take care of her garden, and hanging out with his best friends Mitchel and John.
Stella Brighton- our rich mean girl archetype. Stella is the goddess of the Sun. Stella grew up in her mother's mansion sheltered away from the middle and lower class, until one day she forms an unlikely friendship with Terra. An Unlikely friendship turns into an unlikely crush and an unlikely romance. That is until Stella's hopes and dreams are crushed when she discovers her mother and Stepfather have planned an arranged marriage for her. Stella breaks off her relationship with Terra and keeps her head held-high. Stella fights with her fiery bow, Apollo, and can spark a wildfire wherever she pleases. Stella enjoys shopping, traveling, taking selfies, and flaunting her status as Student Council President.
Mitchel James- the Nerd boy archetype, Mitchel is the God of Mercury, Knowledge and Communication (arguably revenge as well) As a young lad, Mitchel idolized his dad, who was in the military. Oftentimes it would be him and his mom while his dad was on deployment. Mitchel took a liking to computer science and technology, because thanks to that he was able to keep in touch with his dad even when he was far away. When Mitchel was 8 years old his dad died in active duty, and it wasnât long until his mom took to a Sugar Baby lifestyle to try and provide for Mitchel without having to get a job. Mitchel is bullied at school for being the scrawny nerd boy, and takes revenge on his bullies by hacking into their computers and leaking their search history. After Luna rolls into town Mitchel's world is flipped upside down. Suddenly he isnât armed with just brain-power but physical power. Mitchel fights in a way that is unique to the Rings of Gallilea. Mitchel can create Angels to fight as champions for him. He also uses a Chackram named Athena. Mitchel enjoys hacking into local security cameras to see whats up around town, exploring the dark web, arguing with radical political activists on-line.
John Kingsman- The play-boy Archetype, John is the God of Jupiter Kings, and lightning. John lives what is arguably the best life of anyone in the rings. His parents breed police dogs. Meaning his house is always full of puppies. John's dad is a former military officer, and both him and his mom are current police force members. John is the baby in his family, but is held to high standards. Be home before 7, get good grades, and take care of the dogs. John fights with his Claymore Sword, Odin, along with special abilities like lighting and psychological manipulation. John, obviously enjoys taking the dogs for walks, playing basketball, and going to the shooting range with his mom.
Hotaru Kawaguchi- The goth archetype, and Goddess of Saturn, Time and Death. Hotaru's parents immigrated to the United States after the death of Hotaru's older brother, Hikaru. They came here to give the intellectually gifted Hotaru better opportunities as she grew older. To help support her, the family opened a restaurant in the down town area that quickly became one of the most popular spots in town. Hotaru never really got over Hikaru's death, and took comfort in the macabre. Over summer, Hotaru picks up a second job to earn enough money to afford her dream car, working in an occult shop. She also finds herself involved in an unlikely summer romance. Aside from being able to freeze time and communicate with the dead, Hotaru fights with her staff, Hades, that can transform into a scythe. Hotaru loves books and quite sunny spaces, she likes painting, meditation, watching Elvira specials, and helping her mother and father learn better English.
Aries Vailakis- the Jock archetype, God of Mars and war. Just like Stella he too grew up with rich parents. His family comes a from proud Greek heritage, and own a chain of Mediterranean style restaurants. Aries is a star member of the football team, and is expected to take over the family business when he gets out of college. Most people think there isn't much to Aries other than food and football, sometimes Aries thinks that too. But being a competitive teenage god, can lead to some intense shenanigans. Especially when family, love and blackmail are involved. Aries fights with some seriously thick brass knuckles that spit fire. His brass knuckles can also transform into a large shield, Neiro. Aries likes cooking, working out, watching horror movies with his S/O, and very secretly likes looking at minimalist homes in the Greek countryside in homeowner's magazines.
June Smith, the flip Archetype, Goddess of Venus beauty, seduction and battle. June's mom divorced her dad to be with another man when she was young. Years later June would find out she died of cancer without telling her or her father. Needless to say June had a rough start in life. Given that her dad was the high school principal, she couldn't even act out and punch some nerd in the face. In the day light June masquerades as the nerdy turtleneck loving teacher's pet kinda girl. At night June flips ditching her turtle neck for something low cut and preferably leather. Sneaking out under the ruse of sleep or studying, June slips out to hang out on the edge of town with the local biker gang known as the Black Cat Bikers. Junes got the best of both worlds, her dad wrapped around her finger, and her legs wrapped around the back of her boys bikes. June fights with the sword Atalanta, and can change into any weapon June sees fit. June can also manipulate peoples hormones, making them fall for her or anyone. June will never admit it, but she likes wearing pink fluffy sweaters, she also loves getting fucking drunk, going out to see drag shows, sleeping in until noon, and playing with makeup.
Serena Paisley- The hippy archetype- Serena is the Goddess of Neptune, the ocean and family. Serena is the younger twin sister of Heath. Serena grew up close to her mother, who was somewhat of helicopter parent. Serenaâs mother owns a brewing company, and is heavily involved in the Greenvile political scene. growing up in a spotlight Serena wanted to use her spotlight to encourage others to do good, and can often be found doing charity work. One big secret Serena has, is that she is a big fan of smoking weed. being a politicians daughter was a stressful job after all. Serena, can command any body of water and has great people skills. Her very loyal weapon is her trident, Namaka. Serenaâs hobbies include Yoga, smoking weed, collecting crystals, playing the pan-flute, and thrift store shopping.Â
Heath Paisley- The rich boy archetype- Heath is the God of Uranus, Ice, Snow and Vengeance. Heath, is the polar opposite of his sister. He grew up chasing the affections of his long-distance father, who is an actor in Hollywood. Heath has a cold demeanor, and takes a some-what sadistic pleasure in controlling others. He is the student council president at the private school he and Serena attend, Hayden Heights Academy. Heath is secretly insecure about his sexuality, and is in denial about being attracted to men. Heath spends a majority of his time covering for his sisters âdistasteful shenanigansâ in student council meetings, or following in the footsteps of his politician mother. Heath has the power to control Ice, and cold temperatures, he can also force criminals to admit their deeds.Heath fights with twin sickles PoliâAhu and Endymion.His hobbies include: casual business luncheons, bossing his underclassmen around, and he secretly likes it when his S/O leans over his shoulder while he is trying to work.Â
Romeo Barns- The rebel archetype- Romeo is the God of Pluto, Alchemy, and Transformation. Romeo has always felt like a social outcast, specifically because he discovered his godly powers at a young age. Romeo lives with his overly preachy preacher uncle, who believes in only one good god above. Romeo, being a sarcastic little shit, decides he needs to be everything his uncle isn't. Romeo sells weed for the Black Cat Biker Gang, his true "Family". Which is how a filthy little grunge rat like him became friends with Serena Paisley. Roemo's godly body grows organic blade-like structures which he can use to defend himself. His clawed-gauntlets, Thanatos and Cerberus add an extra punch. In his spare time Romeo can be seen around town riding his motorcycle. At night he is out spraying unique and vulgar messages on billboards. At school he likes to read the "boring unpopular books" like Catcher in The Rye and Lord of The Flies, and strumming along to his favorite songs on his base guitar
And thats just novel number 1! I'll make a second post about novel number 2 since this is already a quite lengthy post.
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A Reminder (Roadhog&OC&Junkrat)
Thank you, again, to Zephos for commissioning me! I love your oc and the plot you gave, so I was able to crank this out pretty fast!
Warning: This has some violence and blood, but nothing too graphic.
The oc in this fic is 15 years old, and this is purely platonic. If I catch anyone being nasty theyâre gonna catch these hands.
This is a bad idea, Jenny thought. This is a REALLY bad idea. Roadhog and Junkrat- outcasts of Junkertown- guard their farm with as many traps and explosives as possible. But damn if Jenny wasnât going to get some of the damn good scrap they like to hoard for themselves.
Greedy bastards, keeping all the good equipment and scraps to themselves⌠Let someone else have a chance at having good weapons, assholes!
Jenny stalked through the sparse, coarse grass that surrounded Roadhogâs old farmhouse. Sheâs sweating, can barely see as it gets darker, and nearly got her arms and legs caught in bear traps and explosives along the way. Good thing she knows how to disarm these simple traps.
The garage was so close⌠Whatever fuckinâ deity is up there, please look after her as she tries to creep in.
A slow series of beeps began as she set off a tripwire. She took a sharp inhale through her nose, scrambling away from whatever fucked up explosive Junkrat built to guard the garage. She screamed as a harsh rope clenched around her leg, yanking her up into the air. The explosive nearby beeped rapidly.
This was it. Her face was going to get blown off, and who knows what these two are going to do with her body.
She screamed as the crudely-made mine exploded into⌠a bunch of confetti. She got hit with pieces of metal, but was able to cover her face without it doing too much damage. She stared, dumbfounded, at the colorful strips of paper floating to the ground.
âSeems we caught another one, Roadie,â she heard, faintly, from inside the house. A man cackled, his footsteps uneven as he scurried out onto the porch. Someone even bigger stomped out after the squirrely man. She couldnât look behind her, towards the porch, but she knew who they were. And she knew she was dead. She swallowed, thickly, as they walked over to her.
The two walked around, so they were in her sight. She looked up at their faces, seeing Junkratâs grin, and Roadhogâs mask. Her eyes widened, and she took a few ragged breaths as the blood began running to her head.
âTiny little thing,â Junkrat laughed, poking at her cheek with his peg leg. Jenny smacked the appendage away, nearly knocking the man over. âFeisty, too!â
âL-Look, Iâm sorry- Iâll go I-I was just⌠Iâm trying to find scrap-â. âSo ya tried to steal ours,â Junkrat huffed, crossing his arms. Jenny swallowed again, trying to think of a way to defend herself. Itâs so hard to think when the fear of death stabs at your heart, and the blood rushes to your head.
Roadhogâs hand moved, and his infamous hook dangled near her head. She stared at it, trying to ignore the awful feeling of her eyes watering and her tears pooling at the top of her eyes.
âAny last words, little pig?â Her mouth opened, but her brain wasnât working right.
âUh⌠whatâs my meat gonna be used for- bacon or a pork roast?â Junkrat couldnât help but snort at that one, a manic giggle escaping his mouth. Roadhog sighed. Hoping to appeal to Junkratâs comedic side, she spoke again.
âMaybe instead of killing me, you can keep me around and Iâll hunt for Truffles?â Another laugh, another growl from Roadhog. Jenny let out a shaky grin.
âI may be a potbelly, but I got more fat on me than actual meat- you wouldnât like it anywayâ. Junkrat cackled as she patted her stomach.
âThis oneâs actually pretty funny, Hog! Not all the mess with the crying and the piss that we gotta clean outta the trapsâ. Oh, gross⌠Junkrat crouched down, sharp grin catching her attention.
âYouâre lucky Iâm feelinâ generous tonight, kid. How about you stay here tonight- donât need you screaminâ when some raider or something tries to come by in the night- and weâll send you on your way tomorrowâ. Not wanting to make him angry by turning the offer down, she nodded, not able to find her voice. Junkrat stood, nodding to Roadhog.
âCut âer down, Hogâ. Jenny screamed as she suddenly fell to the ground. She groaned, not wanting to move after the painful landing. Junkrat laughed, grabbing her arms and pulling her up. She almost fell over again, but the tight grip on her small arms kept her upright.
âSo,â Junkrat started, wrapping an arm around her roughly and nearly dragging her inside. âWhatâcha cominâ here for, again? Scrap?â Jenny nodded slowly, trying to ignore the giant looming behind them.
âI, uh⌠need some good scrap and, uhm⌠equipment to make some⌠some thingamajigs for myselfâ. What the FUCK was the word she wanted to use? Junkrat let her go when they were inside, giving her a curious look.
âThingamajigs?â âYou know⌠big stabbiesâ. Junkrat snorted loudly, cackling and coughing a bit from the sudden laughter. Jenny felt her pale cheeks flush in embarrassment. Even the stoic guard behind them chuckled.
âBIG STABBIES! Ya mean knives, mate?â âYEAH thoseâ. He snickered, walking to the small kitchen. He mumbled âbig stabbiesâ to himself, before a whole new round of laughter poured out of him.
She slowly walked into the living room, looking around curiously. It was decorated eccentrically- showing that Junkrat had been squatting here for a while. Junkratâs little logo was on many papers and broken pieces of inactive bombs. As well as a spare peg leg.
Some⌠weird costumes were hung on a coat rack nearby, but she really didnât want to know what they were for. Canisters of some kinda⌠stuff were laying around, as well. Jenny avoided moving anything on the floor as she, slowly, sat on the old, nearly broken couch.
Roadhog moved over to a small station thatâs clearly his- spare gas masks sat on the table, and extra lengths of chain hung on the sides of the bench that made up his sitting area.
Junkrat plopped a glass of semi-clean water on the table in front of her, almost knocking the rickety coffee table to the ground.
âAbout your big stabbies,â Junkrat started, ignoring the glare Jenny gave him. He grinned slightly, flopping on a dusty recliner that let off a plume of dirt and grime.
âYou got a blueprint on you, kid?â âWhy would I bring a blueprint with me from home? Work on the go?â âDonât get snippy with me,â Junkrat snapped, leaning back into the chair. Jenny took a sip of the water, grimacing at the taste a bit. Warm, dirty water. Yum.
âLeft my blueprints at home. I was hoping to pop in, grab some scrap, and hurry back homeâ. âWhat kinda knives you tryinâ to make?â Jenny grumbled a bit, trying to get her thoughts together to describe her project.
âTheyâre like⌠knuckle-knives. Brass knuckle grips with pretty long bladesâ. Junkrat looked at her, curiosity and excitement in his eyes. She shifted nervously, avoiding looking at him for now. She was still a little nervous about ending up dead.
âSounds pretty good, if you like getting your hands REAL dirty,â he laughed- a sick sound that makes a shiver crawl up her back. Roadhog grunted from his spot.
âLeave her alone, Rat. Youâre freaking her outâ. âAh, shut up, Hog- if sheâs talkinâ about slicinâ people up, it ainât gonna bother her if I make a few cracks about itâ. Jenny chewed on the inside of her cheek, taking another swig of water to avoid the conversation. Junkrat, not picking up on obvious social cues, turned back to her.
âSo, you got anyone in mind to use those on? If not, I have a coupleâa ideas,â he laughed, manic giggling- and grin- returning. Roadhog let out a low rumble. Jenny couldnât tell if he was laughing or growling in annoyance.
âN⌠no one in mind, no. These are mostly for, uh⌠self-defense. I just⌠thought the designs were cool,â Jenny replied, looking down at the table. Junkrat mumbled- she caught the word âboringâ- before looking her up and down.
âYou even old enough to hold that thing right?â She frowned, sneering at him a bit angrily.
âIâm not a baby- Iâm fifteenâ. She heard Roadhog stop for a second behind them, but didnât turn to look at him. The behemoth slowly returned to whatever he was doing as Junkrat barked out a laugh.
âFifteen?! Howâre you walkinâ around Junkertown at night, trying to steal from US?! Youâre young AND stupid!â Jenny was quiet. Yeah, she was kinda stupid tonight. Just⌠blinded by the idea that she COULD do this. She didnât think about if she SHOULDâVE.
Right now, she REALLY wished she hadnât. This man was making her uncomfortable, and she was still worried sheâd get a limb blown off, or her gut ripped open by the giant hook quietly jangling behind her.
âAnyway,â she started, crossing her arms. âI think⌠Iâd rather just try and get homeâ. She stood, heading towards the door. She heard Roadhog stand, and stomp after her, making her pause. He gripped her shoulder tightly, before opening the door a crack.
Screaming could be heard from near the entrance to the actual town, as well as a few gunshots. She didnât even realize a whimper left her throat as Roadhog shut the door.
âYouâre staying here,â he said simply. âRat, leave her alone before I throw you out there to the dogsâ. Junkrat feigned hurt, putting his metal hand to his chest in mock horror.
âI canât believe YOUâD threaten ME, Roadie! After all weâve been through together!â Roadhog grumbled, pushing Jenny back towards the couch. He went over to the wiry man, grabbing Junkrat by the back of his shirt. He all but dragged him to where his sleeping area was, making Junk whine and almost lose his footing multiple times. He was all but tossed onto the mattress.
Jenny watched as Junkrat grumbled and flopped onto his side. Roadhog sat down in Junkratâs old spot, passing something to her across the table. Jenny looked down, seeing a barely-good apple.
âNot much- gotta get more food soon,â he huffed, leaning back into the worn recliner. She picked up the fruit, biting into it without much thought. She didnât realize how hungry she was until she swallowed that first bite.
Being scared for your life sure makes you hungry.
She avoided looking at him. Jenny didnât even know if he was looking at HER, with that mask in the way.
âYour parents know youâre out here?â She paused, giving him a look that told him to drop the subject. Thankfully, he did. Sheâs sure Junkrat wouldâve pressed the matter until she threw something at him. Even then, she doubts that would deter him.
â.... Iâm actually gonna leave the building, alive, right?â The question didnât surprise Roadhog. Junkrat was⌠finicky with who he did, or didnât, like. Many people came in when he finds them funny, fewer came out after he decided they werenât. Roadhog sighed, and nodded.
âYeah. Rat may be an ass, but he doesnât like hurting kidsâ. If he can avoid it, anyway. Some people have gotten caught in the middle of their heists- in the wrong places, at the wrong times. Jenny wasnât satisfied with the answer, but she went back to eating anyway.
The silence was unsettling. The only sounds were her crunching on the apple, and the small riots going on outside. She forced down her current piece of apple, looking back up at the giant in front of her.
âWhere⌠am I sleeping,â she finally asked. He let out a small hum, nodding to the couch she was sitting on. It was lumpy, half broken, and she knew sheâd wake up with a sore neck and back. She knew better than to argue, though. Canât be picky when these men wanted to kill her just a while ago.
He got up, going over to a box against the far wall. He pulled out a ragged blanket and an old pillow, tossing the items to her. The pillow hit her in the face, but she caught the blanket. Both smelled stale. Guess they donât get guests often.
âThanks,â she mumbled, tossing the apple in a nearby trash can. Roadhog nodded, before finally going back to his own sitting area. She wrung the blanket in her hands, bringing her feet up and tucking them under her.
There was no way she could sleep here. Maybe she could try and escape later- when theyâre both asleep, and the thieves nearby finally go away? Thatâs her best bet⌠She doesnât want to end up as another blown up arm on the yard for someone to find on their property.
She dropped the pillow against the arm of the couch, slowly laying down and covering herself with the blanket. She didnât even know she drifted to sleep.
Roadhog looked over when he heard her quiet breathing. He stood, walking as carefully as he can towards the couch. He peeked over the back, seeing her sound asleep. He huffed out a quiet laugh. She was either stupid, falling asleep in a house where the men were ready to kill her, or just exhausted after fearing for her life. After hearing her talk about her future weapons, he canât decide which one is more likely.
With her asleep, he took off his mask to breathe. Rubbing his face, he sat back down at his bench. This kid was a moron- everyone in town knew not to try and steal from Junkrat and Roadhog, let alone just go onto their property unannounced. And she came here to take some damn scrap you could find literally anywhere?
He chuckled. This kid had balls of steel. He could respect that, but there were much better ways to get what she needed.
He finally stood after another hour, heading over to his own bed. He dropped onto it, rolling over to face the wall. He wasnât worried about this kid trying to attack either of them. Theyâre light sleepers.
She woke up about forty-five minutes after Roadhog fell asleep. She took in a sharp breath, slowly sitting up. The lights were out. Both of the men were asleep. Rubbing her eyes, she threw the blanket off of herself. Alright, theyâre asleep. Everythingâs quiet- everyone is quiet. She can make her way back to her tiny home in the town.
Man, she really shouldâve just risked the junkyard.
She checked to make sure the door wasnât trapped, then slowly opened the door. She slipped out, closing the door behind her. She stared out into the dark slums, swallowing the lump in her throat.
Okay⌠sheâs about to go back to the town, at night, without a weapon, when people were recently being attacked and possibly murdered.
Thatâs safe, right? Sure it is!
She took a deep breath, puffing out her chest, and striding down the actual path off of the trapped property. She made sure to keep a good eye out for any stray traps or mines that could be littering the path.
So far, so good. At least, until the door behind her slammed open.
âOI,â Junkrat screeched. âWHERE YA GOINâ, YA IDIOT?â She screamed, booking it down the path and out into the streets of the slums. Roadhog slapped Junkrat on the back of the head.
âCome on,â he grunted. âWhy bother, Hog? If she wants to get herself killed, thatâs her problem- not oursâ. Roadhog let out a growl, putting his mask on and grabbing his weapons.
âIf youâre not going, I amâ. âAlright, alright- let me grab me launcherâ. âHurry upâ.
She didnât even know if the men were chasing her- she didnât bother to stop, or look behind her. Not that she would really be able to see them, anyway. She can barely see in front of her, let alone- and, down she goes. What did she run into?
âWell, look at what we foundâ. Ah. She found some motherfuckers. She tried to catch her breath, grunting as her arm was grabbed and she was yanked up. A woman grinned down at her, dirty black hair nearly covering her missing eye.
âI know you- the little scavver that hangs around the junkyard. Whatâre you doing in the slums, girlie?â Jenny stayed quiet, opting to try and struggle away from the grip on her arm. The woman in front of her grabbed her jaws, forcing her to look up.
âWhen I talk, you answer, got it?â âFuck youâ. A harsh slap sent Jennyâs head jerking to the side. The woman snarled.
âYou donât talk to me that way, shrimp-â. An explosion caught everyoneâs attention. A hook suddenly caught the person holding Jenny captive. They screamed as they were dragged back, only to be silenced by a junk shot to the face. The woman stared, slack-jawed, at her companionâs bloody body. Roadhog snarled, swinging his chain at his side.
âI suggest you get outta here, before my friend here turns you into a pileâa mush,â Junkrat laughed, popping another grenade into the air. It soared over the womanâs head, landing just out of range of her. It scared her enough, though, and she hightailed in the other direction.
Roadhog threw his hook anyway, snatching it around her and dragging her back. She screamed as the barbs dug into her stomach. Roadhog grabbed her shirt, lifting her up.
âYou even think about touching her, and Iâm dragging you to the outskirts myself. Got it?â Knowing better than to call Roadhog on a bluff, the raider nodded. He pushed her to the ground, where she scrambled up and ran with her tail between her legs.
Too shaky to stand, Jenny sat on the ground. She trembled, watching her attacker run as fast as she can towards town. Roadhog put his chain on his belt, before going over to the girl.
âYou tryinâ to get yourself killed,â he growled out, moving to help her stand. Once she was on her feet, he let her go. That lasted for about five seconds, before she caught sight of the bloody mess nearby and, promptly, passed the fuck out.
Roadhog quickly caught her, grumbling a bit as he picked her up.
â.... Come on,â he finally said, walking back to the house. Junkrat followed, mumbling something about how he wishes he couldâve actually blown something up. The younger junker stared at the unconcious girl, then at his companion.
âWhenâd you get such a bleeding heart, Hog?â Roadhog was silent for the longest time. He let Junkrat open the door to the house, and he went to put the girl back on the couch. Roadhog stared for a moment, before letting out a tired sigh. He covered her up with the old blanket, his hand lingering on her shoulder for a moment.
âBrings back some memories, is all,â he said quietly, going over to his bed. Junkrat grunted, showing he heard, before dropping onto his mattress. Roadhog took his mask off again, looking over to make sure she was actually asleep this time. Her quiet breathing was overshadowed by Junkratâs snoring and whining. Roadhog sighed, getting in the bed and laying down.
Hopefully everything will settle down, tomorrow morning.
No one woke up until after noon.
Roadhog was first up, as usual, but the stress from last night made him sleep in way longer than usual. He was making whatever tea they have left, when Jenny shot up from the couch. She patted herself down, as if expecting herself to be missing items- or limbs.
Roadhog walked over to her, setting down a glass of water and some toast and eggs on the table in front of her. She blinked tiredly, looking at the food, then at him. The events of last night finally came to her, as her eyes widened when she recognized his mask.
â... Thanks,â she said quietly, taking a sip of the water. At least it had ice this time. She slowly ate the toast, stomach growling after she took the first bite. He grunted in reply, nodding to her. He sat across from her with his tea and egg sandwich. He pulled off the mask, setting it down to eat.
Jenny looked at him, taking in his scarred face and thin beard. He had an underbite, and it sometimes looked like his bottom canines poked through his lips, giving the illusion to tusks. Fitting, for him.
â... Thank you for⌠saving me, last night,â Jenny finally said, after getting half way through the small meal. Roadhog nodded. Junkrat yawned loudly, getting up and putting his prosthetics on. He fully stood, heading to the bathroom.
âYou make me breakfast, Hog?â âYeahâ. Junkrat grumbled out an acknowledgment, going to the toilet. Jenny stared after the half-naked Junkrat, cringing as he just begins to scratch his ass on the way to the bathroom. She turned back to Roadhog.
âHow do you put up with him,â she snickered. He smiled slightly, a small huff-laugh escaping him. He shrugged slightly, taking another bite of his food.
â... I need to get home, soonâ. Roadhog nodded, wiping the crumbs off of his hands and taking a swig of his tea. Once he swallowed it, he spoke.
âIâll take you, soon. Need to get food, anyway,â he said. Jenny finished her own food, finishing off her water as well. She fiddled with the blanket across her lap.
âYou donât have to do that,â she said. âYouâre probably busy- I donât wanna send you to the other side of town for no reasonâ. He shook his head.
âDonât wanna send you alone, with her still aroundâ. Jenny kept quiet about that.
â... At least, once I get home, I can get my weapon and work on my damn knives,â she mumbled. Roadhog fixes his mask back into place when his tea was gone, getting up to take the dishes to their dirty sink.
âYou can bring your equipment here. Use my scrap to make your knives, instead of going to the junkyard like youâd have toâ. Jenny hesitated, brow furrowing and lips pressing together.
âWhatâs the catch,â she asked, narrowing her eyes. He shook his head, watching Junkrat going to get his food and sit at a stool.
âNo catch. Just expect Rat to get nosy and try to butt inâ. âMate, I just got up, I donât care what youâre talkinâ about right now,â Junkrat snapped, making Jenny flinch a bit. Roadhog chucked a small bolt at the other man, making Junkrat yell in pain as it nailed him in the temple.
âShut up. Sheâs coming back to fix her weapons. Sheâll use my workbench,â Roadhog said. âDonât want you bothering her when she does, got it?â Junkrat glanced over, tired grin on his face. He held up two fingers.
âScoutâs honor, Hoggyâ. Roadhog mumbled out a âshut upâ, going over to his bed to grab his things. Jenny stood as well, assuming he was getting ready to take her home.
âIâll be back, Rat. Donât blow yourself up until thenâ. âCanât promise nothinâ,â Junkrat laughed, downing his tea as Roadhog led her out of the door.
Jenny took the lead, letting Roadhog fall into step behind her. He towered over her, his intimidating height and stance making everyone back off and let her through.
â... You really wonât mind if I come back?â âNo,â Roadhog answered. âJust donât get Rat worked upâ. She has no idea what that means, but sheâll try her best. She wonders if that means just⌠talking about weapons, in general.
â... Whyâd you even help me, last night? You couldâve just let me goâ. Roadhog was silent. Slowly, he patted her head- almost affectionately.
âYou remind me of⌠certain things, from a long time ago, kid. Might just be getting old, but,â he hesitated, removing his hand. â... Might just be getting oldâ. Jenny remembers some stories of the older junkers- the ones who were around before the Ominium exploded. She can get an idea of what heâs talking about. She nodded, letting the subject drop.
She stared up at the door to Junkertown, watching it slowly open. She hesitated, before looking back up at him.
âMind if I go ahead and come back with you, after youâre done?â He snorted a little, patting her back.
âNo- although, Rat mightâ. âHe can get over itâ. Roadhog let out an actual laugh, albeit a short one, making her grin.
âYeah. He canâ.
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New Coffee, New Chance Part 8
Pairing Misha x reader
Warnings: violence, language, smut, forced sexual favors, assault, MATURE 18+
Summary: Daryl has kidnapped you and Misha, and is forcing you to do anything he wants, in front of your love. Misha isnât angry at you, he knows itâs not your fault. He has sworn that if he ever gets the chance he will kill your asswipe of a husband. And what about Jared and Jensen? Are they safe? Will they be able to find you before Daryl does the one thing you dread most?
A/N: I am going to write some of the story from Mishaâs point of view, and from Jaredâs. I will make sure each area is clearly marked as to whoâs telling the story.
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Jaredâs PoV:
One of the guards that Daryl had shot while kidnapping Misha didnât have a fatal wound, and managed to make his way to the studio, and I caught him limping out of the corner of my eye. Nudging Jensen, we ran to him and helped him to a chair. While the director called 911, the guard told us what happened. Jensen and I immediately called our families, who assured us they were fine. We informed the police of Mishaâs kidnapping and possibly Y/Nâs as well. Assurance was given that the police protection around our families would double, and they would do everything they could to find our friend and my cousin. And for as much as we wanted to let the cops handle this, we knew Daryl was beyond dangerous, with his biggest obsession being Y/N.
Jensen and I knew filming would be suspended until Misha was found, so we decided to do some investigating ourselves. I went to my cousinâs house to see what I could find there. Jensen went to Mishaâs house. We made arrangements to meet up in an hour at the studio. Jensen had the police come to Mishaâs home when he discovered the bodies of the guards and the unconscious home care aide. He procured Y/Nâs phone before the cops came, and showed it to me when we met later. I didnât find much at her apartment, other than the fact that it had been gone through, and not neatly either. Clothing and furniture were strewn everywhere. Dishes were broken and the windows were all smeared with food and dish particles. Two of them were broken. There goes the damage deposit.
I was extremely happy to see my cousinâs phone. I knew she had implanted a tracker under her skin, not visible or detectable to anyone or anything. I was the only one who knew. Using her phone number I activated the tracker through her phone, and then set up Jensenâs phone to do the same, in case we got separated for any reason. Night was falling fast, meaning we were running out of time. We ate and grabbed a few hours of sleep, knowing we needed to be alert when we went hunting.
Mishaâs PoVâ:
âYou fucking bastard, I swear when I am free of these restraints I will kill you! Do you hear me?â I was livid, watching Daryl abuse Y/N like that. Every part of me wanted to rip his head from his body and burn it. I shook with anger, and all I saw was red.
I tried to soothe her after he left. I couldnât reach her to hug or comfort her the way I wanted, but I tried to at least consol her with words. She smiled weakly, nodding, but I knew she was ashamed of what had happened, what Daryl had forced her to do.
âItâs not your fault babe. He is a monster, not you.â I paused, watching her cast her gaze down to the floor. âY/N, look at me please.â Tears stained that beautiful face as she met my eyes. âHoney, you have done nothing wrong except try to help me. I am not angry with you. Please rest, help is coming soon. I promise.â
I watched her finally drift off to sleep and sent up a silent prayer of thanks. I could only hope that I sounded sincere. Jared and Jensen had to be looking for us by now. They would have the police involved, but I knew my friends, and I knew they would be looking themselves. My wrists ached and were covered in cuts and scrapes. The shackles that held us were quite sharp around the edges, and the more I struggled against them, the worse the cuts got. But none of that mattered, Y/N was what mattered. She had become my entire world, and I couldnât bare to lose her. I was grateful when I finally drifted off in slumber, albeit restless, broken slumber, but rest none the less.
Y/N PoV:
I woke up stiff and sore. I glanced over at Misha, still sleeping, and felt horrible for what had happened the night before. He assured me that I wasnât to blame, that he wasnât angry with me. The love I saw in his eyes made me believe him. My heart floated to cloud 11, just when I thought I couldnât love the man more.
Booted footsteps coming down the hall snapped me out of my daydream, and woke Misha as well. Daryl strode in, took one look at my soiled state, and went out of the cell, only to come back with a fire hose. I cringed as he turned on the water and sprayed me down, not even caring about the fact that it was cold. Well cold is an understatement, it was ice cold, freezing. I screamed and tried to avert my face as the force of the water slammed into me like a tidal wave. I shivered as the frigid streams covered me from head to toe, my thin, torn clothing providing no protection from the onslaught.
Once he was done with the hose, he came over and tore off what remained of my top and shorts. He also made quick work of my undergarments, and grabbed one of the dusty blankets on a nearby bed. Quickly and with no regard for gentleness or personal space, he dried off the cold droplets and then left me to shiver on the floor while he brung in the food he was originally going to serve us. It was cold, stale bread and old, half-cooked eggs. I gagged as he shoved the plate in front of me and ordered me to eat. He gave one to Misha as well. I could only assume he wanted to keep Misha alive to keep me submissive.
He left the cell, locking it as he went. I shivered, my teeth chattering now. I looked at the food and shoved the plate away with my foot. I tried as best as I could to huddle in the cover, but with my hands and feet in the chains it wasnât easy. I couldnât reach half my legs, and I couldnât bring my knees to my chest or cross my legs to sit. Great, I thought to myself, I get to die from hypothermia. Fan-friggen-tastic. I look at Misha, who is watching me intently, making sure Iâm ok.
âIâm fine, just a little cold.â I state, earning a raised brow and a smile from him. âI canât feel my feet though, they feel like icicles. And I canât stop shivering Misha. I guess Iâm beyond cold, Iâm fucking frozen. I think Elsa moved in next door and got angry or something.â Misha smiles at my movie joke, but he canât hide the concern in his eyes.
âY/N, just hang on. Try to focus, think of my arms around you. Think of us sitting by a fire, holding each other, with only our skin as our blankets. Think of us on a warm, tropical beach, soaking in the sun. Please, just hold on baby.â Mishaâs words penetrate the icy wall around me, bringing my eyes to meet his. I have stopped shivering now, just the heat from his gaze warming me, his desire shooting straight through to my core, melting it, making me hot with lust and with an overwhelming love for the man in front of me.
We are interrupted again, as the cell door swings open and Daryl looks down at our untouched plates of food. He scowls and kicks the shitty meals out of the door. Then he comes toward me, a wicked grin on his face, and all my warmth is now gone, replaced by a fear, freezing me in one spot, unable to move as his large dirty hands make a grab for me. Too late I try to dodge him, and get a boot in my ribs for my effort. Misha strains against his chains, shouting all kinds of profanity and threats as Daryl takes away my blanket and tosses it aside. Then he pins me down with his body, making sure Misha has a clear view of my vaginal area. Then he shoves three fingers inside me, forcing me to open for him, and I scream. He fucks me with his hand, trying to make me orgasm, while making Misha watch. I close my eyes and think of the worst images I can, anything to keep from giving Daryl what he wants. It seems to work at first. Who knew that uncooked raw meat and mealworms werenât romantic images?
Daryl begins to get angry, seeing his plan to force my orgasm isnât working. He ups the ante then, using his mouth to give my clit pleasure while his fingers continue their assault. Itâs almost too much for me to ignore, but I manage to fend off the growing heat in my core. I hate Daryl so much, Iâll never willingly give him the satisfaction of pleasuring me. Unfortunately my body begins to cave, and my hips begin to buck, trying to make me cum. I scream, desperate to make it stop. Daryl slaps my inner thigh, and then bites my clit. I yell at him, and struggle to break free from this nightmare.
âGive in to the orgasm bitch, or your boyfriend will become a one-handed wonder, and you will have to watch him bleed out!â he sneers. Misha shakes his head, yelling at me to ignore Daryl. But I canât. Misha is my world. I canât let him get hurt.
My body spasms as I cry out, the intense waves crash over me, my pelvis bucking to meet his fingers as he rides out my roller coaster that is my orgasm. I blush and turn away in shame and anger, then vomit, as a new hatred of Daryl fills my mind. Misha, still struggling to break free from his bonds, calls out to me, and shouts new threats and profanity at Daryl. Daryl responds by licking my wet throbbing pussy in front of Misha, then walking over and kicking him multiple times in the ribs. I yell at my husband to stop, begging, pleading. But it falls on deaf ears. When the beating is finally over, Misha is groaning on the floor, in horrible pain, and Daryl walks away laughing again.
I scramble over as close to Misha as I can once Daryl leaves, calling his name, trying to see how bad the injuries are. He rolls towards me, and I can see him coughing up blood. âHang on Misha. Please. Iâm so sorry.â I am crying again, fearful that my fucking asshole of a husband may have finally gone too far.
I hear more coughing as he tries to sit up. âY/N. You canât blame yourself. None of this is your fault. Iâm fine. You need to get that blanket around you and get warm.â He says, still more worried for my well-being than his.
I grab the blanket and wrap it around myself as best I can. Misha is trying to rest his body, and I can hear his breathing struggle. I know his ribs are seriously injured, and the ribs have punctured a lung. If he doesnât get medical attention soon, he could die, drowning in his own blood. Then I will kill Daryl myself, making sure his death is worse than what Mishaâs would be.
I let him rest and silently pray that Jared and Jensen find us soon. I check my intimate areas for injuries resulting from the earlier assault. My inner thighs have bite marks, but arenât bleeding. My clit is swollen and there is some blood where Daryl bit me. There doesnât seem to be any life-threatening damage though, thankfully. Right now my focus is Misha. I canât lose him. But Iâm powerless right now to help him, and I donât trust Daryl to help him either. I trust Daryl about as far as I can throw him, which is like in the negatives.
Daryl comes in a couple of hours with some food that is supposed to be our lunch. Moldy cheese and stale bread with rusty waterâŚyum. I take one look at the plates and dry heave, since I have nothing left to actually throw up. Daryl kicks the plate toward me anyways, and shoves one toward Misha. He leaves as he calls out âEat up sweetcakes, youâre gonna need that energy later. We are going to have some great fun!â and walks away humming. I gag more, my stomach turning at the thought of what he plans to do later. My worst fears spring to mind, and I have flashbacks of that horrible night again.
Jaredâs PoV:
We woke up a few hours later, and set to work tracking Y/N and Misha. Jensen and I knew we needed to find them quickly. The tracker was faint at first, and it was hard to follow. Jensen said they might be in a warehouse basement, which would explain the crappy signals. We just had to keep trying, and the warehouse idea gave us our first search area. One by one, we went through all the industrial areas within a 20 kilometer radius. The tracker wouldnât be detectable beyond that range. The first two were unsuccessful results, but we got lucky on the third. The signal slowly got stronger, but was bouncing from building to building, all the electrical panels and low radiation levels confusing the signal. At least we had the right area now. We stopped the car and decided to split up. There were 5 buildings that fit the qualifications. Both Jensen and I took out our own personal handguns (yes we had permits) and went to work. We sent word to Jensenâs cop friends, letting them know where we were, and to send units asap.
Having done hunting on the TV show, we knew the drills for being careful. I started with the building labeled âA â Redâ, looking for any way in. I finally came by a door with an old boarded up window and a cheap lock. I ran back to the car and grabbed a crowbar, then went back to the door. The lock broke easily enough, and I went in quietly, thankful that the door didnât squeak. Slowly, flashlight in hand, I searched every square inch of the main floor and upstairs, ruling those out. Then I found my way to the basement area. Opening the entrance I peered around the corner and down the stairs, noticing there was lights on and voices. I also heard screaming, and breathed a quick sigh of relief as I recognized my cousinâs yelling. But that also meant she was in great danger. I had to act fast. I sent a quick text to Jensen, waited for it to send, and then cautiously made my way down.
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The Most Boring Summer Ever (or, How To Set Your Arm On Fire In 5 Easy Steps)
I wish there were still a bold line separating summer and the rest of the year. School used to go on seemingly without end until one day it just stopped and an extended months-long playtime began. Now summers camouflage into the rest of the year in one large blob of work and responsibility where, in the middle, my inner thighs get sweatier than usual.
No obligations and hardly any adult supervision laid the groundwork for a period devoid of the downers that taint adulthood. Even then, I knew how rare those days of bliss were. Â Those months satisfied the need for adventure and fun that the school year forced me to suppress. We rode bikes beyond the streets our parents told us we couldnât cross. We swam during thunderstorms after they told us weâd get struck by lightning if we kept it up, which only made us do it more. We explored the spooky burnt down house at the end of the block. The dread of the looming school year crept as the calendar marched on to the final week of August when classes started up again. Those summers were about discovery, of myself and the world. I never wanted them to end.
They ended the summer I set my arm on fire. All that freedom shit I was romanticizing can, if youâre not careful, lead to being consumed by flames that were kindled by a mix of boredom and stupidity so toxic it requires a HAZMAT suit to approach.
Looking back on it, I donât just see the moment I set my arm on fire as a single scene. I see the sequence of events that unfolded over months that led to it.
When I Decided Not To Attend Summer Camp
Boredom is a powerful tool that can lead to creative breakthroughs maybe 2% of the time. The other 98% is guys laughing as they punch each otherâs dicks after having exhausted all other entertainment resources. If not for camps, my summers would have been slogs Iâd use to later become either a creative genius or a supervillain with a volcano base.
Unlike in movies where kids returned to the same camp every summer, the camps I attended changed every year depending on what my friends and I were into. I begged my mom to pull me out of a Boy Scout camp halfway through. Iâm not a fan of Mother Natureâs severe lack of TVs, especially when this campâs idea of wilderness was a park with 10 trees in the middle of a residential neighborhood across the street from a Best Buy and a Taco Bell. I was in a roller hockey camp where every day I and fellow campers donned all of our pads in the sweltering heat of summer to play a game of chicken against heat-induced delirium. It was like if child abuse was fun for the child. I was in another where we went on field trips every day. Mondays we went to a spring water pool in a beautiful local coral quarry. We bowled on Tuesday, went to an arcade on Wednesdays, and so on. It explains why, for a small stretch in my life, I thought we were rich. The illusion of wealth was shattered the day my mom couldnât afford the camp fees anymore, which I found out minutes before I hopped on the bus for our weekly laser tag game. I was shuttled off to hang out with the rest of the kids who couldnât afford the Premium Platinum Plus Executive Level summer camp experience. I got into a 4-on-1 fight within the first hour. Those kids were animals.
By the time I hit middle school, I felt Iâd outgrown camps. I was fast approaching adulthood. I should be getting a head start on being a listless loser with no future who sits around all day while his friends are actually doing something with their lives. Rather than spend another summer socializing in the sun, I figured Iâd take the first steps into maturity by spending this summer the same way I use any brief instance of free time I manage to scrounge up as an adult â doing as little as humanly possible and basking in every glorious second of it.
 When My Family Thought It Wise To Have A Candy Bowl of Lighters In Our Home
My home was a smokerâs paradise. Not a school year went by where at least one teacher or classmate who caught a whiff of me as I walked by didnât ask if I had been running an illegal gambling ring out of a basement. In fourth grade, a classmate asked if I smoked cigarettes after catching an intense smoky whiff of my Sesame Street book bag. What a dumb question. How did he not notice me enjoying a couple smokes under the monkey bars every day during playtime?
My mom smoked one cigarette a day, just one to unwind after work. My aunt would pop in and out to snatch a smoke at odd intervals like she was an audience favorite sitcom character whoâd have to wait for the applause to die down before she delivered her first line. My grandfather knew he was impervious to the Grim Reaperâs touch, so heâd chain smoke to rub Deathâs futility in his bony face. To accommodate the smokers, there was always a candy dish filled with lighters and matchboxes somewhere around the house.
I wandered the apartment that summer struggling to find the reason I left the camp life behind. The desire to spend your free time relaxing at home rarely takes into account how little there is to do at home, especially on a weekday. Daytime TV was all soap operas and judge shows. I still canât watch them without feeling like Iâm in a waiting room about to get my braces tightened. I couldnât rely on my Sega Genesis since the only games I had were Sonic Spinball, where the fusion of Sonic the Hedgehog and pinball into a punny title was the gameâs only redeeming quality, and Math Blasters, a game I will never forgive for trying to trick me into liking math. The excitement the technological toys lacked I found in the primitive destructive powers of fire, which could be created with any number of the lighters and matchbooks lying around.
I improvised little fire-based games, like âMelt Plastic Sandwich Bagsâ where you won by melting clear plastic sandwich bags while trying to not boil my flesh or pass out from the fumes. Another fun one was âLetâs Burn Wooden Kebob Skewers For No Reason.â I was undefeated. Both of these eventually gave birth to a third game called âTry To Hide Signs of My Pyromania From Mom,â which I never won. The lighters were just sitting there, begging me to figure out how to use them to kill time and possibly myself and everyone in the building.
When I Shoplifted A Knock-Off Zippo Lighter From Spencer Gifts
When the boredom became too much to bear, which happened after I ran out of things to set on fire, Iâd walk a few blocks to a local mall. Iâd make routine stops at Electronics Boutique to gawk at all the non-Math Blasters games I couldnât afford and then at Sharper Image to sit and groan with sensual pleasure in the massage chair until I was asked to leave. Iâd circle the food court collecting free samples of chicken slathered in the traditional sugary chicken sauces of mysterious far-off lands.
No trip was complete without a visit to the Spencer Gifts hidden in the dark corridor at the ass end of the mall. All malls are required by federal law to have at least one Spencer Gifts or be heavily fined. Itâs a loadbearing store. Spencer Gifts is where people with bad taste make a pilgrimage to stock up on fake dog poop, edible underwear, and novelty shot glasses emblazoned with fun slogans celebrating alcoholism. Today, itâs mostly filled with people deciding if they should buy a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles snapback flatbrim hat or pay their bills. The placement of this particular Spencer Gifts suggested it was this mallâs greatest shame. In my memory, it looks like the kind of place you suspect launders money for a local crime syndicate. Part of the proceeds of every glow-in-the-dark Jimi Hendrix poster went to buying off a couple cops and a City Councilman.
It was there that I saw it, the object that would save my summer: a knock-off Zippo lighter with a picture of a womanâs ass with a black thong running up the crack. Since anything that could be even vaguely described as porn was hard to come by for at least another year until I finally had internet, anything that showed off a womanâs body was a holy relic worth sacrificing my life to obtain and protect. One day between classes in middle school, some classmates and I came across an issue of Hustler lying on the grass out in the open. There was a woman showing off her vagina right there. How did no one else see this? Were we dehydrated wanderers being deceived by a mirage? We pounced on it at the same time and tried wrestling it from each otherâs grasp, titties and pubes flying everywhere. We had to fight for our porn then. Thereâs only so much scrambled cable TV porn that looks like people are fucking in a Dali painting that a pubescent boy can take. One clear picture of a naughty part is all we asked for, and this knock-off Zippo with a thonged ass delivered that and fire. I was a budding pyromaniac in the throes of puberty and I kind of wanted to have sex with this lighter. But I had no money. The only way to make this truly terrible lighter mine was to steal it.
I cased the joint in the days leading up to the big heist. Their security system was no more than the bored guy in his early 20s working the cash register and hoping heâs not this storeâs manager by the time heâs in his early 30s. There wasnât a camera in sight. No scanners at the entrance. This wasnât the Oceanâs 11 Bellagio heist. I grabbed it and headed over to the rear corner of the store, as far away from the register as I could get with plenty of aisles and novelty piggy banks shaped like boobs between me and the sole employee. I ripped open the packaging and slid it into my pocket. I probably couldâve told the cashier I was taking it and that he wouldnât have broken his thousand-yard stare into the void of boredom enough to stop me. But in the moment my heart was racing, my temples were sweating, and my veins were pumping with enough adrenaline to lift an excavator off a baby if need be.
I walked home with the butt lighter in my pocket, terrified, thinking a squadron of waddling mall cops would be hot on my tail. I relaxed when I stepped into my apartment, and more so when I entered my bedroom. I had made it. The knock-off Zippo with a womanâs thonged butt was mine. My boring summer was about to become legendary.
All of this was the beginning of my brief but prolific career as a petty shoplifter. My youthful dabbling in criminality would come to an abrupt and fitting end a few years later when I got caught stealing Sonic Adventure for the Sega Dreamcast from a Target a block from home. When I die, the Grim Reaper will visit me in the form of Sonic the Hedgehog and together we will loop-to-loop over spike pits into the Great Beyond.
When I Ignored My Own Really Good Advice
Iâd spent all summer searching for meaning in the boredom. I almost found it in the bowls filled with lighters, and again in the melted sandwich bags, but I wound up having to steal it from a Spencer Gifts. The lighter was the reason I left summer camps behind. It was the discovery of self at the end of a spirit quest. More than anything, it let me set things on fire with a butt.
When I wasnât fiddling with it, it was never more than an armâs length away. Iâd spark it again and again, so often that Iâd go through a bottle of lighter fluid every couple weeks. The cheap plastic gas station lighters in the candy bowls were functionally identical to the butt lighter, except the butt lighter had meaning. I earned the butt lighter. Each flame burned as hot as my desperation to not be so fucking bored because I made the horrible mistake of not going to summer camp. The flame, with its mysterious alluring powers to ruin and purify, became my Savior, and because of it I now totally understand how religion got started in the first place.
One day, I sparked the flint and it wasnât followed by a flame. Out of fluid. No worries, though â I had some hidden away in my bedroom desk. Zippo-style lighters donât have an enclosed inner chamber like cheap plastic gas station lighters. Theyâre filled with cotton stuffing that keeps the wick moist with absorbed lighter fluid. I slid the fluid tank from its casing and flipped it upside down to expose the cotton over the kitchen sink. The stuffing is so absorbent it can be hard to tell when itâs filled. The time between when the fluid peaks over the top of the cotton and when itâs dribbling down your forearm is roughly the same as a single flap of hummingbirdâs wings or the length of my attention span. I got lost in thought and the fluid overflowed. It ran down my left forearm, streaming down my elbow. I knew the muscle memory wanted me to give the flint a flick after sliding the tank back in its casing, so I over-prepared by repeating a single mantra to prevent a worst-case scenario:
âDONâT SPARK THE LIGHTER!â
It echoed in my brain. It was my only thought. Â
âDONâT SPARK THE LIGHTER!â
âDONâT SPARK THE LIGHTER!â
âDONâT SPARK THE LIGHTER!â
 When I Sparked The Lighter
As I watched the flames race up my left pinky to my elbow in an instant while making that dramatic âWOO-UUF!â sound fire makes in movies (which I can assure you is the sound it actually makes), I remember thinking, âWell, see, now this is pretty rad.â A second later I went into the customary âIâm on fireâ panic, but not before I took a second to appreciate how, despite the horror, being on fire makes you feel pretty fucking metal. I wouldnât suggest it to spice up a dull evening at home or an uneventful cocktail party, but it is a nice change of pace that can liven things up a little.
Stop, Drop, and Roll is an easy to remember tip that could save your life if youâre ever on fire, assuming you remember it. But being on fire really screws with your priorities. So I did not Stop, Drop, and Roll. Instead, I just went with the flow and did whatever my spirit told me to. My spirit was telling me to wave my arm around and scream. It wasnât really helpful, but it felt right. Thatâs what really matters when youâre on fire.
The screaming wasnât from the pain. It was from the shock of being engulfed by flame. I donât remember the pain. Being on fire is a spectacle just uncommon enough in real life that it only makes sense in a movie, where the hero barbecues a henchman with a flamethrower who flails around screaming before leaping out of a window to splat on the street to end the pain. Something heroic like that. You donât imagine setting yourself on fire in your kitchen on a Tuesday afternoon. I may have felt pain in the moment, but I was too distracted by being on fire to feel it, if that makes sense.
Something Iâve always marveled at is how, in a moment of desperation, the ghostly spirit of instinct will possess your body to guide it to safety. While my eyes and most sections of my brain were busy trying to comprehend how part of me was on fire, instinct launched my right hand over to the knob on the sink. I twisted the faucet open with a swift spin. In one fluid swipe, my left arm cut through the stream. The momentum swung water spotted with the black ashes of my arm hair across the counter to my right.
The fire was out.
The little wisps of burnt hair smoke I inhaled trying to catch my breath made me want to vomit. There was a defining line of forearm hair that had been scorched away. Hair, hair, haâBALD. The few hairs that remained had singed tips that smeared into dust. I caught my breath then wiped down the counter. I lit an incense to mask the unmistakable funk of burning me. I pieced the lighter back together and sparked it again.
Yep. It worked.
The hinge on the lighter top snapped off a couple months later. I never used it again. I kept it in my desk for a few years longer as a memento of that time a womanâs ass set me on fire. I didnât go back to camp the following summer, or ever again. My instinct was right. I had outgrown summer camp. I had chosen the worst way to end that chapter of my life. I hung out with friends and generally tried to spend more time away from places I could accidentally self-immolate in a fit of boredom.Â
Summer came to a well-earned end a couple weeks later. The hair on my arm had mostly grown back by the time I stepped foot into homeroom for the first time. I didnât let the lingering summer heat stop me from wearing long-sleeved shirts to hide my arm stubble.
Most school years began with dread. Not this one. For the first and only time in my life, I couldnât wait to go back. I hated school like it murdered my family and only kept attending so I could destroy it from the inside, but at least it wasnât so boring that I had to set myself on fire to make it interesting.
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Snatched (1/2)
Joker x reader
Warnings: Kidnapping, Death, Swearing, Alcohol.
4643 Words
  I listened to Michelle going on and on about how she was planning on sleeping with as many men as she could tonight, and her bedroom would be off bounds. I didn't mind that she wasn't here to meet anyone, since she didn't need a relationship if she was planning on moving away.
Michelle showered, dressed and got ready in one part of the room and I was in the other, I wore a tight black dress, thin straps, and my arms were bare. The bottom of the dress came to just above my knees, leaving my legs bare. Slipping on a pair of black heels, finishing off my classic look and that was how I liked it, you could never go wrong with a little black dress. My hair was left down and it came to the middle of my shoulder, it was straight, I had attempted to curl it but it never held, even with a lot of products in it, it just hung loose. I turned to Michelle who was wearing an even shorter dress, it was tucked just under her backside, and it was strapless, and then she had to keep pulling it up, and then down, but she smiled and headed to the door, her hair was up and her makeup was done, she headed down and made sure everything was perfect.
Within the hour the house was full. I wasn't even sure who was who, but it was loud and it was a brilliant night. I moved from room to room and some people stopped me, I knew a few and they introduced me to others they were with, I was enjoying myself. Who knew it was going to be short lived?
 Later into the night I knew that I had too much to drink and I was laughing with a bunch of people and one of them was a young man. He was cute enough and the fact that I didn't care anymore helped. What was one night? We donât have to swap names, or numbers. I could have one night and never see him again! Finally, the group moved outside to be by the pool, which might not have been such a good idea because they ended up jumping in. I stayed on the side and laughed at the others jumping in. The cute guy grabbed my hand and pulled me to one side, his other hand came up and rested on the side of my neck and he leaned down to kiss me and I kissed him back, he then grabbed my hand and pulled me further away from the others and towards a darkened place in the garden where we couldn't be seen. It was somewhere near the wall that surrounded Michelle's home. Once fully out of sight he pushed me up against the wall, his body pressed against mine, his head pushed into the side of my neck and I stupidly let him, his hand grasped my backside and then tried to move down and grab the bottom of my dress and tried to pull it up, "Sorry pal, this isn't your lucky night," A deep voice made us both stop and the guy turned to see a tall man standing beside him. "Fuck off pal, I ain't sharing," he turned back to me, and he didn't look happy, "I wouldn't touch the bitch with a dog catchers pole," The new man snarled then he grabbed the cute guys tee shirt and pulled him away, then his hands moved up and wrapped around his head and twisted. I looked to the cute guy who was now lying on the floor, trying to make sense of what I was witnessing. His body laid crumpled and his head was at a different angle. The tall man made a grab for me and I managed to swat his hand away. I swore but not sure if it was out loud or in my head. If I had been sober I could have put up more of a fight but with all the drink it was making me sluggish. He came at me again and I managed to move out of his reach and tried to run back to the house, but he grabbed my hair and I was pulled back. He had pulled that hard I was flung backwards and I hit the wall. A bit dazed I felt that his hand was wrapped around my throat, he moved closer to me and he didn't look happy, anger filled his eyes as his fingers tightened, "We need her alive boss," Another voice added from the dark. The man sighed and let go of my throat slightly, but not enough for me to slip out of the grip, but he pulled me forward and then pushed my head back. It was hard enough to hurt and to make me fall into the darkness with the thought I had seen him somewhere before, and I was sure he had green hair.
  I woke with a sore head, the first thing I thought about was how much did I have to drink? My head was thumping. I tried to lower my arms as they were stiff with being in the same position. However, I moved to pull them down but something stopped me as they wouldn't move, frowning I opened my eyes and winced at the light, my eyes hurt more than my head, but I tilted my head back and looked to my wrists, they had thick metal manacles around them, and were fasted to the wall above my head. I pulled but it only ended up hurting my wrists. I moved to turn over so I could get a better pull, but as I moved my feet I felt the same restraint. I managed to look down and seen both of my ankles were fastened with the same thing as my wrists. Now the panic started to set in.  Then the events of last night hit me. The guy that was kissing me was dead, his head was turned around so he had to be dead.  "Oh, my father is going to kill you!" I screamed and thrashed around on the bed, but I only resulted in hurting myself even more. I stopped and looked round the room, there was nothing but a half a wall near the corner, there was a camera in the corner and it was pointing in my direction so I flipped them the finger.  "Wait till you come in here pal and I am going to kick your ass," I yelled at the camera, my anger grew and I tried to pull at the chains again. I gave in when my skin began to rub and eventually bleed. My shoes were gone and with all the thrashing my dress had ridden up. My throat was dry and sore from shouting.Â
 "Will you stop," A deep voice came from my left so I turned my head. A tall man with a red smile, pale skin and green hair stood there, his arms were folded, I could see the guns in the holders but my anger didn't fade
 "No, not until you let me go," I snapped at him,
 "Not until I get what I want," He growled out and I glared back at him,
 "Let me off this bed and I will give you something," I rattled the chains and he smirked,
 "Get comfortable Miss (YLN), you are going to be here a while," he made a move to leave, "I need to pee, you have to give me that, you cannot expect me to lie in my own filth," I shouted and he stopped and moved to the end of the bed, he looked as though he was thinking about it but the he smirked,  "Oh you fucking arsehole!" I struggled again, if I could just get my feet free I would kick that smug look off his face. He shook his head and walked out. "You might want to watch your language to the man who now controls your life," He said as the door closed. "You don't control me, and you never will!" I screamed and took my anger out on myself mostly by pulling at the chains which in turn dug into my skin, "Let me go," I howled.
  "She isn't going to give in," Frost looked up to his boss, then back to the screen, watching as the girl screamed and thrashed around the bed.
 "Luckily there is no one around to hear her scream then," Mister J sighed, he could see the blood on her arms and ankles when he walked in.
 "When do we let her father know?" Frost sighed.
 "Give it a few days, let him stew," Mister J placed a hand on Frosts shoulder then turned and walked out of the room.  "Seriously you lot are going to regret me being here, I will make your lives miserable," I laid my head down and closed my eyes, my head still hurt and I wanted to sleep, but I wasn't going to give in, I couldn't! What if they did something when I was asleep, there was a hissing noise and I tried to look round the room. "Oh, you bastards," I rolled her eyes and groaned inwardly, there was a small jet of gas coming out of the wall on my right, then another hiss and another bit of gas on my left, I struggled to keep my eyes open, and I fell into a sleep.
I woke and my arms were down by my side, I jumped up and shivered. My hands and one of my ankles were free. I  was able to get off the bed and I took advantage, but as soon as I stood up I almost fell over, the whole entire room began spin, my hand shot out and steadied myself against the wall, I wanted to be sick, I hoped the wall in the corner of the room was hiding a toilet, and then I sighed with relief as I threw myself down to the toilet and threw up everything my stomach had left in it, then I fell back against the cold tiles, in this half of the room where the toilet was the walls and floor were tiled, then it was painted concrete for the rest of the room. There was a noise of metal grating on metal and I flinched, I leaned to the side to look around the wall and saw a tray with food on it being pushed into the room. I stood up and moved to it. There was some sort of mush, it was a grey in colour and there was a piece of bread and a glass of water. I removed the glass and then I picked up the tray and threw it across the room. I sat against the door and sipped on the water, my hand moved up and touched the back of my head, there was still a slight bump and it hurt, then I looked to the huge manacle that was still around my ankle, it was huge, the marks on my wrists and ankle from the others were rubbed raw and there was dried blood on my skin, they were going to leave a few scars when they finally healed.  The other end of the chain ended at a hole in the floor, the chain moved in and out as I moved round the room, but as I tried to pull more up it locked into place. So, choking my guard was out, I thought.
I wasn't sure how long I had been here, but I had received five meals, three of them had made it across the room but I kept the water. By time the fourth was delivered I was so hungry, I gave it a try, and it was disgusting and I pushed it away. The fifth meal wasn't any better and so I suffered through it, if they thought that they were going to break me then they were mistaken. I washed my mouth out with the water, but my teeth now felt furry as I hadn't been able to brush them since I got here, and then there was a shower, I felt dirty and grimy.
I bounced off the bed as the door opened and the green haired man walked in. He pulled a face as if he could smell something, and I stood with my hands on my hips and glared at him. "Time to talk to you father Miss (YLN)," he stood there with his hands in his pockets, he looked so relaxed, I nodded and walked round the bed slowly my head down. I had to make him believe I had given in and as I got closer I launched myself at him, at first he was surprised and he tried to catch my wrists as I tried to hit him, then I tried scratching his face, my feet were involved as I managed to kick him in the knee and he grunted, but then my leg was pulled out from beneath me, and I had to hop a few steps but then I fell, the chain was retracting back into the hole pulling me back with it. "NO!" I yelled and tried to find a handhold, my fingers made it to the doorframe and I pulled, my body stretched as I was in a tug of war, but the chain were winning as the tension on my ankle grew, my fingers slipped and I tried to hold on, my nails dug in and one of them broke off, I let out a cry and my fingers slipped. I noticed as I was pulled back that he was straighten out his clothes and glaring at me. "We will try that again some other day," He moved to grab the door handle as I cradled my hand to my chest, willing the pain in my nail to go away, it throbbed with every heartbeat,
 "I hate you, and when I get out of this room I am going to kill you!" I screamed as the door closed,
Only when the door was firmly locked did the chain loosen and I could move again. I looked down to my nail and half of it was gone and it was bleeding. I wanted to stick it in my mouth, but my fingers were grubby. I was going to get an infection in the open wound! I moved to the glass of water and dipped my finger into it, sighing as the cold water soothed it. I shuffled back to the bed with my wounded pride and leaned back against it, resting my head back onto the thin mattress, then I threw the glass with a yell of anger. Pulling my knees up and resting my head on them I refused to give into the tears, even though I wanted to sob my heart out, just to give in and cry until I couldn't do it anymore.
It was a few days later the door opened again and he stood there and looked at me, "Are you going to behave this time?" He asked and I stood from the bed and pulled myself up to full height and squared my shoulders, "Of course," I tilted my head and he stepped in. I could tell he didn't trust me, but those blue eyes watched me,
 "Hands," He said as he moved to stand in front of me and I held my hands out, he fastened handcuffs on and then kneeled and unfastened the chain on my ankle but left on the manacle. He grabbed the top of my arm and walked me out, I wondered why he would bother doing this himself I knew this man had many men to do his work for him.
Outside there was a long corridor and there were doors, about six doors on either side, and then there was one at the end, I realised there was no way out of here, even if I got out of the room I still had to get out of here and there was a finger print scanner at the end for this door, but once the door was opened I was in another world. The room on the outside was like a palace, high ceilings, stone pillars, huge paintings, marble floors, side tables against the walls, and it went on forever. He pulled me through this room and turned to another corridor, this one was full of windows down one side and I looked out, there was nothing as it was pitch black outside, "Look all you want Miss (YLN), but there is no getting away, not unless I let you go," He said gruffly and his fingers tightened on my arm.
 "What leave here? A gorgeous place like this? I might never want to leave! You have been so welcoming!" I gave him a bright smile and he frowned at me, but his grip tightened as he continued to pull me.
We ended up in another room and I looked around. It was almost empty except for chains hanging from the ceiling and the computer at the other end of the room on a table, and there was a huge cabinet filled with knifes, whips and other things that looked as though they could skin me alive. "Hands up now," He moved me to under the chains, "Oh honey I don't think Iâm ready to step up our relationship to this level," I pulled at my arms but he was so much stronger than I was, and my handcuffs were fastened, my arms were pulled above my head and I was on my tiptoes, "Hey could you bring them down slightly, make them a bit more comfortable?" I tried to move my head round so I could see him, but he had moved to the computer and was pushing buttons, then came my fatherâs voice and something inside of me wanted to cry and break down and cry for my daddy to save me. He pulled the table closer to me and I could see my fatherâs face in the screen, I tried to smile and a few tears fell. "Oh, my sweet thing, are you all right?" he moved a little closer to the screen, "This is the worse place I have been to, and I have stayed at Uncle Gordon's! The food is disgusting they really should sack the chef. And I would love a shower, but not sure if they have any," I tried to shrug but I couldn't move.
 "Are they hurting you?"
 "Only with the food," I gave him half a smile and I heard a growl from Joker.
 "You want her back, you have something I want, and now I have something you want," Joker slammed his hand down on the table and the monitor shook.
 "You will give her back Joker, I will hunt down every one of you, for every hair on her head that you touch I will kill one of you," my father snarled into the camera on his side.
 "You go dad," I cheered âDo nails count?" I called out and received a glare from Joker, his hands ran through his hair and he looked to be taking in a deep breath. "You brought this on yourself," He straightened and walked to the cabinet and pulled out something I couldn't see, but I felt it and heard it as there was a lash across my back, and I heard the crack of the whip, my body jumped and I let out a cry. The next one landed on the back of her leg, there wasn't much pain to it, but more the noise and the touch,
 "Joker I swear I am not kidding, leave her alone," my father shouted,
 "Where is it?" Joker shouted and I lifted my head, had my father taken something belonging to Joker, who was crazy enough to do that, then there was another crack and I felt that one, the man with the whip was getting angrier,
 "I will kill you," my father shouted,
 "Not before I do," I said through clenched teeth,
 "Every mark will be given tenfold back to you," my father shouted, spit covered the camera and Joker stopped and came around to the front,
 "Do you still have it?" Joker sounded relieved, all the tension left his body,
 "Not for much longer, I will remove a part of her for every day you have my daughter," my father leaned forward and switched the monitor off Joker screamed and grabbed the computer and threw it across the room, I tried flinching as he grabbed the table and threw that as well, then he turned to me and my eyes widened. I didn't want his rage, and he came to stand in front of me, his hand came up and grabbed my chin, holding my head in one place, "If he hurts her, I will kill you!" his voice was low and menacing, his eyes were dark and deadly, and I swallowed, he meant every word. "W..wh...who," I stuttered,
 "I am not telling you anything, you are going back to your room, if he does what he says he is going to do, then I will remove from you what he took from her," He reached up and unchained me and my arms dropped,
 "Why not just give him what he wants, to get her back," I let him pull me out of the room, and I stumbled slightly, but he pulled me back to my feet,
 "Enough, this is none of your business," he snapped and continued to pull me, his grip wasn't as tight as before and I pulled free and ran. I had no idea which way to go, but I went, I turned my head trying to find somewhere to run to, I looked behind me to see if he was following, but he wasn't and for a moment I thought I might be able to escape. There was the front door, it had to be the front door, it was a huge wooden thing that I might have expected to see more in a castle than in this kind of house. I grabbed the huge round metal handle and pulled, it didn't budge an inch, my feet dug in and I pulled with everything I had, still nothing, there was no lock, or it looked like it didn't need a lock, turning I saw him just casually walking towards me, like he didn't have a care in the world. "Have you had enough," He asked bored with the whole thing,
 "If you could just open it and give me a five-minute head start," I shrugged and he started laughing but he kept on walking, "I don't think so, now enough with the games come on," He held his hand out and I looked round and seen a table beside the door and it had several objects on it. I moved to it and picked the first thing up, it looked like marble and had a pointy end, so I threw it. He dodged that one but by the time he focused on me again I had thrown something else and it had hit him, he flinched and then when he looked at me again I was throwing something else. "God dammit woman," He hissed and came at me through the missiles. I had kept one in my hand and I lashed out with it, he managed to stop my arm that held the object. "Damn woman these things were expensive" He was too busy keeping an eye on my arms that he held and wasn't expecting the knee and I landed it straight on target and he groaned and dropped away from me. When he was down the object I had been holding now came down on the back of his head, and he slipped into the darkness for a moment, and I was worried that I had hurt him, rolling my eyes I stepped over him and tried to find another way out of the house. I ran through the corridors, not taking time to look at anything. I didn't care what I was passing, I just wanted out, or a phone, even a phone would be good.
This was like a maze, I moved through room after room, corridors on top of corridors, there in front of me was glass doors, it was a large room filled with bookcases and a large wooden desk, on there was a laptop. I moved over to it and flicked it on keeping an eye on the door. I swore as I seen the screen on the laptop asking for the password. I wanted to throw it! But I stood up and headed to the glass doors, before I could even get my hand on the handle my hair was grabbed and I was pulled backwards, my feet left the floor and I moved through the air and hit the bookcases, then crumpled to the floor. Pushing myself into a sitting position I looked up to him, there was blood on the front of his shirt from where I had hit the back of his head and it had dripped down when he fell, and it looked so much redder than usual against his pale skin
 "Bad head?" I smiled and he looked so angry,
 "It hurt, but it will heal, you can't get out Miss (YLN)," He moved to me and I lashed out with my hands and feet,
 "You will say anything to stop me from trying," I squirmed as he grabbed my ankle and pulled me further into the middle of the room, he then managed to sit astride me, he grabbed me wrists and pinned them above my head, and he lowered down so his face was inches from mine, "Trust me sweetheart there is nothing outside of this house for you, there is nothing,"
 "And I don't believe you! You just want to keep me all for yourself," I tried to squirm free and he grinned,Â
 "Oh, keep moving baby girl," he laughed, his blue eyes bore into mine. "I want your father to give me what I want," His body moved down mine, and he separated my legs with his, I knew he would see the fear in my eyes now as he pressed himself against me,
 "Just let me go," I whispered and I tried too hard to stop the tears, but one escaped from the corner of my eye and rolled down into my hair,
 "As soon as your father co-operates," his eyes moved over my face, and then down to my throat, he let out a growl and got up abruptly and pulled me up.
 "What happens if he doesn't?" I pulled back and he sighed,
 "You don't want to know," He snatched back at my arm and pulled me out of the room, and took me back down to the cell. He pushed me in and then moved to the chain and fastened me back up,
 "Could you at least let me have a shower?" I moved to sit on the bed and stared up at him. He looked down and seen the softness in her eyes, gone was the hardness, I was trying so hard to keep the walls up,Â
 "What do you say Baby girl," he came to me, his hand cupped my chin, I stared into his eyes. he had leaned down so closely now, "Please," I whispered and he closed his eyes and breathed in deeply.
 "Good girl, but you will have to behave," He stood up and walked out.
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Criminal Minds s03e06 About Face review - or more aptly named, introducing Joe Mantegna as David Rossi and me screaming over a certain scene that had my heart going super fast and unhealthily so
Episode 06 â About Face
Hey guys! So last episode was kind of low on the funny factor, which was a bummer, considering we had a child abducted and she could have died in Hotchâs arms and it was kind of heartbreaking and I donât like it when my superheroesâ hearts are broken.
Letâs hope this one will be slightly better.
All right, letâs see what happens
Ooh, pretty lakes! Birdies!
Wait. Was that a gunshot?
Whoâs the old guy?
Doggy!!!!!!!! A doggie doing the doggy-paddle.
Oh he shot the duck? Good aim!
And that doggie is so well-trained.
He just told Strauss heâs coming? And heâs giving her orders? Oh damn. This is one important old guy.
Okay.
And clean-shaven. I like him.
He sounds Italian. And has rings. Heâs really important.
Oh. Heâs a retired FBI agent? Wow.
Whatâs with the chain?
So just so weâre clear, we just had almost an entire minute of just seeing this guy come out of retirement? Well, either theyâre out of ideas, or heâs going to be really prominent in this show.
Hahaha, the old guy and Strauss facing each other. This has gotta be good.
âWhatâs to understand, Erin?â oh shit! This David guy just called Strauss by her first name. heâs probably one of the most important FBI agents on the show. Oh my god. He looks so good here! But I like him scruffier like in the beginning of the episode.
âWell, this is getting boring.â Oh my god, he did not just say that. I love you, David! I wish I knew your last name!
âA completely selfless act.â âIs that so hard to believe.â
And I cannot believe Strauss told him yes. Fuck you, bitch.
Okay, Texas. Thatâs where this episodeâs case is. Cool. Yee-haw.
Why is there a picture of herself taped to her door? I donât get it.
I really donât like this detective just dismissing her fear of seeing a picture of herself taped to her own front door. I really donât like him. One bit.
Oh god, his wife is dogging on him for making fun of that lady. Oh my god, I love you Molly, even though I havenât seen you yet.
Wow. That house is immaculate, man. Iâm impressed.
Whatâs that noise?
Why is the tap running?
The food is still on the table.
Whatâs going on?
Where the fuck is Michelle?
Oh I bet sheâs dead, dude.
Oh crap. Why is that room full of her pictures? What the fuck is that mask for? And why does it have âoneâ written on it? What the fuck is going on here?
Joe Mantegna is the name of the actor who plays David. Cool. He looks cute. And he seems like heâll be a good addition. I hope lives up to it.
Erasmus: âWhat else is the whole life of mortals, but a sort of comedy, in which the various actors, disguised by various costumes and masks, walk on and play each one his part, until the manager waves them off the stage?â AMAZING! I want that framed above my head. Someone make that into a poster or one of those quirky wooden signs thatâs made up of letters and send it to me please? I love it so much!
Oh my god, first of all, I love it that Reid is going so meta and is walking around the bureau with a mask of Frankenstein, handing out candy.
And oh my god, he just scared Derek shitless! I love you so much, poodle!!!!!!!!! Oh my god, I just died laughing right now.
You know, from what Iâve seen on Tumblr, it looks like Matthew is a kind of awesome, and he likes Halloweâen as much as Reid, I think they tapped into that here.
And Derekâs all like, whoâs this bitch? And why is he so happy about a scary night?
âAre you telling me youâre scared of Halloweâen?â
âI didnât say I was scared, I said I was creeped out. Thereâs a difference there, youngster. You should look it up.â Oh my god, why are men so afraid of admitting theyâre scared? LOL oh my little brave puppy is scared of Halloweâen, I love you.
âI donât like folks in disguises.â
âThatâs the best thing about Halloweâen. You can be anyone you want to be.â Oh poodle.
âNah, Iâm pretty good just being me.â You do you, cupcake.
âYeah, why is that neither of those points of view surprise me?â EMILY YOU LITTLE SHIT!
âYou know what, though? On the flip side, it does provide a pretty good reason to cozy up with a scary flick and a little Halloweâen honey.â You know what? Shemar is probably the only person Iâd ever watch a scary flick with. Cuz he has all those yummy muscles to cozy up to, and then those broad, sexy shoulders to hide in when Iâm scared, and oh my god Iâm getting myself wet. SHUT UP BRAIN!
Emily, how can you be creeped out by him? Heâs literally sex on legs.
So David and Aaron know each other? Cool. Now Strauss will really be pissed and Iâm happy as a clam.
Ah, finally they reveal his full name. David Rossi. Cool. He��s pretty famous, then. Damn.
Excited to learn about him.
Oh my god. I love David already. âWow, we didnât have that ten years ago.â And Hotch is all like, wait, is he gonna make a move on JJ? Cuz thatâs not ⌠âCommunications coordinator.â Ah. So heâs still a funny man. Cool.
Oh god. I like him.
Oh my god. He introduces everyone, and when he gets to Reid everyoneâs like, oh shit, heâs gonna embarrass everyone with his fanboy crush. Shit.
Oh god, Iâm so happy with this addition to the show.
And Rossiâs micro-expressions are so awesome!
And Morganâs like, is he for real right now? Shit.
You can literally SEE Thomas trying not to laugh here. Oh my god.
You goofballs, I love you guys so much.
âHalloweâen brings out the fool in everyone.â Oh puppy.
Oh shit. That lady was raped and left in the water? And her face was fucking removed? FUCK
DRAMATIC PENELOPE ENTRANCE! âOh, my god! What is that!â I love you so much, goddess! And I love your hairstyle!
âIs it gone, JJ?â I love you, Penelope, spirit animal of mine.
Oh god, I love it when my goddess is freaked out like that, because itâs so funny and Kirsten is such a good actress. I love you.
Oh my good Lord, I love Penelope acting all flustered for embarrassing herself over her freakout, oh my god this is glorious.
And Derek, why are you embarrassed? Are you embarrassed by your GIRLFRIENDâs actions? Am I sensing a secret affair going on? (yeah, this is gonna be a recurring question throughout the series, just so you know, every time they do this⌠cuz seriously, they act like a married couple and itâs not fair to my heart).
âSheâs different.â âYou have no idea.â NOPE.
SHEMAR MOORE EYEBROW APPRECIATION (also recurring, get used to it), and bring back the goatee, I loved it! Made me want to goÂ
all up in his grill.
âCreepy. I rest my case.â Oh honey.
Seriously. Why would boys think itâs fun to throw eggs at stuff? Iâm with this lady all the way.
Oh boy. This lady is up next. Shit.
Take the doggie and run!
Pensive Rossi. I like it.
Wait. Heâs having waking nightmares about a case he had a while back that was connected to the charms he has? Damn.
âWell, sheâs pretty.â Easy there, Tiger.
Iâm with Derek. Reid may be good at methodologies, but Derek is on point with emotions. And if he removed her fucking face, raped her, and drowned her, then heâs got to be some kind of nutjob on a rampant rage.
âThanks, baby girl.â Yup. I love it with the pet names. I love those two so much! Make out already!
My hottieâs on the move.
Wait! So the bad guy was like âI will have you my pretty, and your little dog, too!â? thatâs straight out of Cruella Deville or something.
Oh god, my poodle is rambling and Davidâs like, dude, focus, letâs see what we have here.
Damn, this guy is on point like crazy. Walking the crime scene to try and understand it from her point of view? I love you.
My hottie surrounded by lush green.
No one should look this hot when saying âshotgunâ.
You know, something isnât sitting right with me. Why is David making notes and not saying anything? Why isnât he sharing stuff?
Wait. Hold up. Enid is alive? Oh shit. Sheâs good. Please someone save her.
Oh damn. He got her.
Shit.
In 20 minutes.
Fuck.
At least the doggie is alive.
âSpeak and be recognized by your empress, mortal.â
âIs this the technical analyst girl?â
âWhoâs this?â
âDr. Reid said this was your direct line from the team.â
âIt is.â
âThis is agent Dave Rossi. We met yesterday.â
âOf course, of course. Iâm sorry, sir.â
Oh my god, I love Penelope so much. Sheâs like. Wait. Who the fuck is calling me right now? Why isnât he laughing at my awesome jokes? Oh shit! Itâs fucking Rossi! Someone bury me alive. Never, baby girl. Derek needs you.
Wait. Hold up. Rossi is calling up Garcia to do some snooping of his own? Without the team knowing about it? He doesnât even want Hotch to know about it? Oh that is stinky.
âI will get back to you super fast. Scoutâs honor.â Oh pumpkin.
That girl is really trying to help you, Rossi, try and be more cooperative and not secretive, okay? It goes both ways.
Hey sweetness.
So the guy doesnât want to be ignored? He gets pissed off at that? And he kills those who ignore him? Oh my god.
âHave you seen me?â Oh, believe me, Iâve seen you gorgeous.
Wait, circling back to that first part of the line above. Hold up. Are you telling me those fliers were about the unsub? Oh shit.
Wait. How the fuck did the police get a hold of pictures of the masks? What? Why the fuck would Rossi contact the media and give them information Hotch was trying to keep private? What the fuck is going on?
Did Rossi just pull the âIâm older than you and I know my jobâ card? Oh hell no, Italian sugarcane.
You work as a team, not as individuals. Come on, Rossi.
I mean, sure, Rossi was right in that he would call and demand the FBI, but he canât just go over the rest of my superheroesâ heads, they donât work like that, buddy. Get with the program.
Wait. What? How the fuck did Rossi deduce heâs inside the police station? What the fuck is wrong with you dude? Why would he provoke him like that and cause him to state heâs going to murder Enid White?
Iâm with Derek, Iâm highly skeptical of Rossiâs tactics.
Wait. Hold up. He lied about the security cameras capturing the unsub? Oh god. And all because he thinks the guy is completely off his rocker and wonât be careful because heâs psycho? Iâm not sure about this.
And Iâm with Derek, again. Iâm seriously starting to get spooked by Rossiâs recklessness.
Wait, so Rossi can just feel the unsub is in the lobby? Oh god, he spooks the besjeezus out of me. I donât like this side of him. I liked him when he was appreciating the team.
Theyâre trying to spook him into action by displaying credentials. Hotch, you smart puppy, you.
SHEMAR MOORE EYEBROW APPRECIATION #2 - I think my obssesion is getting unhealthy, just a tad
Aww, poodle found the unsubâs desk.
OH MY FUCK NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THANK FUCKING FUCK!
Donât ever do this to me again, you fuckers!
ROSSI YOU SON OF A BITCH DONâT YOU DARE POINT A GUN WHEN MY BABY BOY IS IN THE LINE OF FIRE, I WILL CRUSH YOUR NUTSACK INTO A PULP AND YOUâLL WISH YOU HAD NEVER BEEN BORN!
Sorry, Iâm protective of my TV babies.
Iâm not happy.
Okay Iâm happy again, my poodle is handing out treats to the kids.
AND SO IS MY BABY BOY! YOU PRETTY LITTLE PONY!
Baby is back home. Safe and sound.
Oh my god, David, you are in serious trouble now. He did not just pull out the âHotch didnât tell me he broke up with Hayleyâ card, that is low, Italian sausage, super low.
Iâm not really sure what to think of Dave right now.
What unfinished business, Rossi? You have someone to kill? To save? Whatâs hiding behind that immaculate tie and sassy beard?
Did Rossi just take up Gideonâs office? Oh god. This is hard on me, dude.
Again with the charm.
Oh god, now itâs official. My heart.
 Okay, so this episode was kind of weird and really annoying and awesome all at the same time. So we learned that Derek really is just a softie scardy-cat who hates Halloweâen and I love him forever and ever for it. We learned that my poodle loves Halloweâen. And David Rossi joined the team. Now, listen, I liked him in the beginning, he was a sassy awesome ball of Italian goodness that had me really impressed, but I donât like that heâs THAT old school that he doesnât let my band of superheroes in and help solve the case as a team.
Like Aaron said, âThere is no I in team.â Well, he didnât say that exactly, but it was implied.
Iâm really curious on how they plan to evolve Rossiâs character. Joe is really good at showing micro expressions and Iâm super psyched for this.
All right, I have to go and get ready for bed, had a weird day, cuz I had to go twice out on errands, then entertain my siblings who came to visit me, and now Iâm super tired yet need ot take a shower.
So Iâll see you all next time, and till then, keep the likes up, guys! Youâre so amazing for acknowledging my weird obsession with detail, lol <3 au revoir, mes amis
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