#like please i’m trying to sleep

[gloomyloomy]

me, minding my own business:

my brain: hey did you ever notice how zoro and sanji were designed to be connected by the number three? sanji’s name (san) meaning three, and zoro’s three swords and three earrings, being distinctive character traits?

me: i- where did this come from, i don’t even think about them that often..?? what the hell am i supposed to do with this?! hey- hey! come back here!!!

[javierduffy]

stuffand also things

[wanderingchocolateeclair]

Reaching the festival arc in s4 made me notice two Very Important Things:

A) that powerloader is WEARING A SUIT- I noticed it in the manga but not in the anime how WHAT???? CLOTHES!!! CLOTHES FOR THE DIGGY MOLE MAN !!!!

And

B) that Ecto’s Costume apparently has Arm Holes???????? ARM HOLES?????? And also that he wears a watch over his hero costume- but arm holes……..

Hhh…

[wildsaltair]

how DARE he if he’s not going to blow my back out immediately after

[shatterthefragments]

And she fucking needs to reschedule her appt. She always wants to do it together with someone. But no. Of course you wouldn’t be able to sleep if you never sleep at those hours anyway. Of course not.

And fine. We’ll reschedule bc what other choice is there. But. Yeah. “I’m sorry”

I gave up my weekend to cater to this bc otherwise I could’ve gone another day to get my new Covid vaccine. I could’ve booked for another time. I could’ve used this day to go in and borrow dad’s car so I could’ve gone to a waterfall or beach even though it’s freezing.

And now I’m probably going to have to give up next weekend - ASSUMING there’s appointments left for then. My last two day weekend before my semester starts and I split my days off. Which is fine. It’s my choice. But I was hoping to do some stuff on my own :(.

And she probably doesn’t. Fuck. I still need to take her for bloodwork (overdue) and picking up an updated will since the sis and I are adults now and it might be A Thing that it needed to be updated. And not to be like especially given their health and that they’ve both had Covid now. But. I worry. I’m not really in a position to be able to support the household even if we inherited and there aren’t taxes. But I’d have to hold it together. I’m older.

She won’t drive herself to go do these things.

(But I have to drive myself now if I can’t bus there).

And I get having anxiety. I am anxious too.

But for it to get so bad years and years ago that it severely affects your family AND your family has asked you to get help several times (on a regular basis too. Bc we’re not professionals and can’t really help you. Especially when you don’t even agree to come along and just sit in the car as I drive around) it’s frustrating. (How would we have turned out if you had actually sought help for your mental illness? And why do I just KNOW that you’ll blame yourself for our mental illness. That we have to hide any attempts to better our own so that you don’t blame yourself?)

Who could we have been if any of us had been diagnosed?

I shouldn’t have had to deal with that as a child. In elementary school. Especially when I was already suicidal on my own anyway.

And yes. I resent you.

“I bet you wish for a different mother”

Yeah. One that fucking tried a little bit harder to get help before it got this bad. Before having us preferably. One that when asked to get help - agrees. Even if we’d have to arrange and just get you in the car and escort you there.

One that even occasionally stuck to anything you say you’ll do.

When I couldn’t even rely on you as a child. An older child.

“At least I raised you to not do drugs or lie. Or drink soda.”

I never felt safe to tell the truth of course I lie to you sometimes. I’ve craved nothing more than the sweet release of oblivion sometimes. Painful violence with flavour isn’t fun.

And then now. You’re. Even now. You’re so judgemental. “You’re such a rebel now”

For what?! Getting tattoos?! That I’ve always wanted!!

I am frustrated.

You wonder why I try to go out of the house and do things?

I hate staying here. But where else am I going to have so much space? And not have to pay a formal rent?

Urges are there. But. Can’t. It never helped to hurt myself anywhere near as much I needed. And I have healing tattoo and touch up’s right now. Im ok though. I don’t. I don’t do it like that.

I need food is what I need but fuck I’m annoyed.

[cuteniarose]

What I imagine Suiren and Vaatu’s ‘friendship’ in @rokurookajima’s Metalbanders verse to be like, as told by memes I found in the depths of my pinterest memes board

(Feat. Some commentary because I am Having Thoughts)

I apologise for how grainy it is but you just know that these two are the definition of WLW-MLM hostility

She gets him body wash for his birthday one year. greasy stinky bastard man (/affectionate) (/you cannot convince me that I am wrong about the state of Vaatu’s personal hygiene. Have you ever met a teenage boy) (/I have not showered in a week I have full right to say this)

Headcanon that Suiren knew she was a lesbian since she was a wee lass so her gaydar is crazy good and she literally went “I know what you are” as soon as she first met Vaatu. Except he very much was not aware yet and she knew he’d never figure it out on his own. But if she tells him he’s gay outright he’d reject it. So she’s left being the Ryuk to his Light Yagami, hovering over his shoulder whispering “gay gay homosexual gay” and telling him to google yaoi

She means it with love... I’m pretty sure

“Dude you’re talking like my uncle cut it out”

She’s his only friend TOLERABLE ALLY fr

Okay so we’ve established that Vaatu is a freak but the only reason he and Suiren get along is because she’s very much a freak too she’s just got a pretty face to hide it behind. She literally cannot talk like a normal person it somehow always boils down to smth like this

Suiren likes Ghibli movies. Vaatu thinks himself too much of an edgelord to watch Ghibli movies. Unfortunately for him, Suiren doesn’t care about what he thinks. He’s going to watch Ponyo with her and he’s going to LIKE IT

(She catches him humming “Ponyo Ponyo Ponyo fishy in the sea” afterwards and never lets him live it down)

After a certain point he just starts talking like this all the damn time. She’s accepted her fate

BONUS ROUND: Suiren being a useless lesbian and Vaatu judging her severely

[springypaws]

Some midnight speedy sketches as I try to materialize how I imagine the Wolf 359 characters in digital form (I am not succeeding and Hilbert and Hera look nothing like how I imagine them)

Anyways

[the-cookie-of-doom]

My parents are on a particularly vile side of conservative propaganda tonight and I just. Can’t.

[caregivingchrysalises]

oh beloved, i’m here, papa’s here, *softly cups your cheek with my hand* starlight hey, we’re alright, we’re going to get through this, i know it feels icky right now, but it won’t feel this way forever~ buba also knows how silly that sounds as you’re sitting in that sadness, i promise i do~ you’re doing the best you can i know you are love. *taking your hand and holding it* expressing your feelings is something to be proud of blossom, your feelings don’t make you weak~ and they certainly don’t change the way i love you. i will always be here to dry your tears or quell your fears my love, ‘tala isn’t going anywhere angel, i’ll be right here when you need me sweetheart.

[razzledazzle-pop]

I drew this on my lunch break I hope you like it fjendne

[heybaetae]

hi

[r0semultiverse]

I hope Jorge keeps the streams up until the next live stream like he did with the last Saga.

I had trouble getting into Epic: The Musical without the visual aid of the animatics as visuals help me absorb the material. I kinda wish he would upload each song with the lyrics and animatics in them instead of just the animatics by themselves without the full song, but maybe that’s just me. I’m an audio and visual gal otherwise I have trouble absorbing information. Besides the streams there’s no current way to watch the musical seamlessly with actual visuals and yet it is called a musical. A medium I’ve kinda expected to have visuals by this point, that was my one big criticism going into this series was “so it’s just songs? And I have to watch the script as I listen to know what’s happening? That’s hard to keep up with.”

Though if this is a consistent change going forward of having the full musical with visuals until the next iteration premiers, then great & honestly my only criticisms are a lack of trans voice actors (seemingly but I could be wrong) and a lack of fat characters in the animatics because Aphrodite was fat in her depictions throughout history in the very least. Which I’m not even sure if this counts as a criticism so much as an observation and something that gives me a bit of pause? Again, not series ruining, but just more an observation I guess?

That being said, I’m super excited for the Vengeance Saga tonight! Probably gonna stay up just to watch it! Sleep be damned I wanna see it as it comes out! 💜

Edit: Okay actually not risking tummy issues by napping and can’t stay awake any longer. If I have tummy issues I couldn’t even watch it as it premieres anyway because I’d be fighting for my life in the bathroom. ANYWAY DON’T GO ATTACKING ANYONE INVOLVED WITH THE PROJECT, I WAS JUST MAKING AN OBSERVATION.

[httpiastri]

mmmmmmmm yes. just yes. neck arms and hands all in one video? i couldn’t ever ask for more

[neurodivergent-inigo-montoya]

I make it a habit to not post anything online often to leave as little footprint as possible but sometimes I feel so invisible in the world and just want to post to feel seen

[tadpolesonalgae]

4 nickels

-🤠

Are you kidding me?

[lunarrosette]

Y’all I’m feeling so normal abt nark rn y’all don’t even understand