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I don’t tell anyone irl about my hallucinations because I’m already the black sheep of the family but I wonder if I should. Tell a medical professional or something
#It’s like phantom smells it used to be a specific flavor of cotton candy and then now like a salty dropper solution#the salty solution is actually less bothersome because the cotton candy was more overwhelming#I was a kid though so I thought shisha candy smoke was stuck in my nose#like physically. Not psychologically#It smells like a hospital wherever I go though. :(
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So like, I think that Jupiter wanted to kill jason as a child.
Eliminate the threat, this little child, before he grows up to eventually dethrone him. But Jason was needed for the quest, so he just settled with physical and psychological abuse instead :)
And when the quest was over, Jason was free to kill anyway, and I think Jason knew it.
He thought he could outrun it, he'd go to Camp Half Blood and attend like normal school. He wouldn't be a threat.
Bur he was from his birth and he died. He knew he was going to die.
#and he aslo spoke against his fahter#like pookie was doomed anyways#jason grace#percy jackson#heroes of olympus#percy jackon and the olympians#riordanverse#percy jackson and the olympians#pjo fandom#rick riordan#jupiter pjo#zeus pjo#my child <3#jason grace my child#tw abuse#tw physical abuse#tw psychological abuse#tw emotional abuse#:(
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magistrate astarion with an unknown drow woman. rumour has it that they’ve met each other at the night of the lumberg manor scandal and have been inseparable ever since. no information can be found on the drow… maybe she’s one of mamzell amira’s new girls?
anyway. more of the murder mystery au but this time with the hags 🙂↕️🤭 their whole plot is basically them planning to kill one (1) guy but accidentally unveiling this decades long city scale murder conspiracy
#astarion ancunin#oc: shri’iia.#bg3#hag romance.#bg3murdermysteryau.#mine.#now it has a tag! 🤭🙂↕️#they’re not gonna do anything abt that plot tho LOL they’re like my circus but def not my monkeys#also as I was colouring this I realize he doesn’t have to look so deathly bc he’s not a vampire here but I just kept his colours bc he’ll#look weird lol. maybe it’s from the stress. in this au he’s getting psychologically tortured by cazador instead of physical#cazador is also blackmailing him and keeping him in a short leashes hence ^ why they gotta kill that guy#and shri’iia needs a way to return home so if she does that for him he’s gonna arrange a way for her to go back to menzoberranzan#tbh their plot is very tangled LOL this is just an elaborate tangled au essentially
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if im reading a cherik fic and logan isnt there to be psychosexually obsessed w charles loud enough to piss erik off then whats the point
#am i saying this bc i want the fic point blank to be logan being psychosexually obsessed w charles and thats IT?....yes BUT u cant tell me#it isn't more fun that way. plus jealous erik is hilarious to me like my dude my guy. maybe if u treated him right this wouldn't be#happening but yeah go torture logan physically and psychologically im sureee thatll end w charles running into ur arms. reall sure#cherik#mindclaws#xavierine#charles xavier#logan howlett#erik lehnsherr#x men
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ik we joke about the incessant hand on shoulder moments and I genuinely can’t pin down either of their love languages bc their love for each other manifests in like every single way possible to me but. post near death experience i feel like they’re being so fr about the not taking anything for granted and just living life which has catapulted their comfort and open affection for each other and for dan that’s constant comforting touches or just being close to phil when he thought he would lose him at one point recently. they just absolutely light up around each other and i feel like dan got his time with wad but this will be phil’s first time really being out in the world and doing something post coming-out, post covid, and the way he’s emphasizing being more comfortable and confident in his own skin now i know that man is going to be absolutely glowing on stage, in m&gs, etc and dan (to a reasonable degree lol) won’t be able to keep his eyes off him. he absolutely shines with affection and pride any time he talks about phil’s blonde hair or phil believing in himself and I just. they’re made for each other and l can repeat it until I’m blue in the face but I’m just so excited to experience this new era with you all. they’re so so special and I feel so lucky to have witnessed their growth over so many years and how openly they love each other
#dnp#dan and phil#phan#daniel howell#phil lester#my thots#blossoms.rambles#i could if I really thought about it we’ve gotten enough insight into their personalities psychologically over the years#im sure someone else has analyzed it as well#it would be easy to say phil “tactile person” is physical touch#but I just mean even if they have one they do and say so many things for each other that express love#i could give an example for every one#like phil making the spaghetti?? acts of service 🥺
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what happens when you piss the Bats off:
bruce: psychological warfare
dick: psychological warfare
jason: psychological and physical warfare
tim: psychological warfare
damian: psychological w-
#you get the point#they have that in common at least#bruce also uses psychological warfare to show affection so.#(tim’s 16th bday anyone?)#this is stupid#the bats#batfamily#dc comics#this goes for steph and babs as well#cass and duke would just physically fight you#bruce wayne#dick grayson#jason todd#tim drake#damian wayne#warfare doesn’t look like a real word anymore
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This got long and annoying so its under a cut now
The way in the fight w the museum director insul gets the same big injuries he has given trianon (so far), aand particularly the ones that T thinks back on often as specific sources of fear/humiliation/control (pepper sprayed in the eyes; kicked in the balls; choked with smth small and thin ((wire / car window)))….. im too tired to formulate a proper Thought abt this but the fact this all happens right in front of tjat one painting of dante & virgil in hell + insul and the director are in the exact same pose right as insul is about to die* is obviously so meant to evoke the idea of contrappasso….. at this stage trianon isnt “””strong””” enough (doesnt understand Insul enough and most importantly doesnt fully inhabit himself and his own strengths) to be able to pay back Insul’s violence (as he does later, though not in such a literal way anymore) so tje director will do for now🥰 bc they both need to descend into hell they both need to be subject to physical and psychological violence in order to strip down layers……. so its cool how the director serves that purpose for this phase 1 both in story for insul himself (who eats shit in this fight) and also as a sort of alert for the reader like make no mistake they are BOTH gonna get put thru the ringer. even the top has to wade through cocytus! or smth
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#i wrote and erased so many asides and digressions bc they were nit relevant but#and obviously im not trying to imply this is a story about giving back what you got just as bad in order for Badass Self Improvement or#whatever to be achieved#like the n1 innovation of SW in so much Twink Chained To Radiator and Tortured literature#is that the resolution is not ‘he chains tje kidnapper back😈 he seemed so uke and frail bjt hes the strong one now!’#NOR ‘he learned to be happy chained to the radiator (or toilet ig) bc thats what he wanted deep down all along#and just needed a tough strong man to give it to him❤️’#but rather it creates this beautiful and perfectly calibrated solution where#the suffering that one party inflicts on the other becomes fundamental to the existence & identity of said party#and vice versa. ‘if i lost you i would lose part of what happened to me / insul reached back answering the same’#like by the ending insul does still absolutely have physical power over Trianon and he beats his ass black and blue regularly lol#but also Trianon has this gorilla grip on insul’s soul and sense of self and self worth; a sense that was kind of nonexistent or#dormant or repressed in Insul before and hed managed to be a ‘strong’ person without it bc thats the kind of thing you can live without in#Society if youre a strong able bodied masculine man. but trianon teases out the messed up abused little boy underneath and its like#NOT at all a beauty and the beast hes vulnerable around me ❤️ fantasy its actually kind of horrific.#like trianon does very much do some psychological torture yandere shit to insul …….. and by the end he COULD kill him and walk away but#he CHOOSES to do that……..#and ofc this is all deeply weilian not as in lines up perfectly with what she says necessarily but is very much in discourse with her ideas#anyway I’ve typed so fucking much and for what….. -_-‘’ sorry#serious weakness
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Honestly I see Jimmy's refusal to put Curly out of his misery less about his weird feelings of envy or his delusions but the fact Curly is all but stated to be a shield to Jimmy from his actions and people seeing the worst in him.
The only characters that Jimmy really interacts with one on one before the crash are Curly and Anya, two individuals he has wildly different relationships with. It's likely that Curly really did most of the talking between them as the pilots and the rest of the crew as staff. They didn't know of Jimmy's more reprehensible behaviors cause they never really had the chance to and Jimmy is subconsciously aware. If they had disliked him more than Anya would have told Swansea earlier or even Daisuke when things got really bad.
It's why he takes the immediate opportunity to blame Curly; He's the shield. He's saved Jimmy's ass more times than he can count and more times than Jimmy would ever admit. Even when he can't really do it anymore, he mentally shields himself from his own faults by putting Curly between them. Letting Curly die puts too much on him because he doesn't know how to function without a safety net.
In the end Curly only lives because Jimmy needs the idea that Curly will inevitably make things better to stay alive, meaning Curly has to live, no matter how much it pains him to do so.
#in short Jimmy doesnt only care about Curly#he only cares about the securtiy that Curly provides him#and i headcanon that the reason he tried to kill everyone is because he knew it was only a matter of time befor Curly realized this wasnt#somethgin benign Jimmy did that he could smooth over but somethign that Curly would repremand and condem him for and take his security away#like yes Curly did not react fast enough or strongly enough to what Anya told him but you could see him showing more concern over it as I d#understand the psychology behind people and more specifically men like Curly as he is hearing something horrible his friend did to someone#he cares about but has less of a bond with. he feels the need to protect his crew as people first and sadly Jimmy is still the person he wa#closest too yet I still think everything happened too fast for Curly to process as would you not grapple with the fact your closest friend#is a monster you must personally deal with? or that he did something so vile to someone else you have become protective over? Would you not#think of the relative power that friend holds and how if you approuch this wrong it could end badly for everyone? He had all these thoughts#but not enough time to think about them. Also how Jimmy was one of the main people in his personal life he felt a need to protect seeing as#he got him this job. Like imagine the one person you are really trying to make good is still bad after everythign and now you have to be th#hand of judgment youve shielded them from for so long like I do not think Curly handeled the initial situation with Anya correctly I dont#think it was the case of him not believing but not really knowing what to do and feel about it as a friend of both parties the captain and#guy going through his own shit and it says so much that he was dealing with all that so well compared to Jimmy who got everyone killed cuz#he thought being captain would be like sitting on the thrown and not emotionally mentally and physically taxing like I cant say Curly is th#best person due to his inaction but he is a good person doing the best with the knowledge and shitty resources he has cuz like also Id just#be terrified that my suicidal and nilihst bestie who clearly has an inferiority complex around me is the copilot who has access to the most#to the most important parts of the ship and the means to kill us all if he feels like him or his security are being threatened like#Anya and Curly just deserved better because they get put through the ringer like just put him in a class to teach him to be less trusting#anya mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#captain curly#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#mouthwashing curly#mouthwashing anya#mouthwashing jimmy#jimmy mouthwashing#mouthwashing spoilers
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Day 327 | id in alt
Both the first and the last survivor of idle transfiguration.
#dailykugisaki#jjk#kugisaki nobara#i just think it would be funny if she tweaked out worse sometimes#itadori: Kugisaki!! How are you!!#Kugisaki visibly contorted and tweaking while in the mist of trying not burn a hole through Itadori: im the hottest bitch alive#that just fucked her up psychologically. mentally and physically. she got the whole package and more#shoko cant heal that so you just get Kugisaki mumbling bullshit to herself#shes going to forget gojo yknow. she might be the only one in that whole sorcerer group to do so#shes funny like that.#you bouta fucking catch these hands if you EVER think Kugisaki is gonna confide anybody with this#Kugisaki getting her head caved in with a rock and walking it off like a true sorcerer(she told herself that)#sorry to all the maki believers but she is not second scanning Kugisaki acting weird unfortunately and i mean this sadly#Kugisaki walking off the horrors(Shes running into the woods)
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So I l’ve been getting into your ko crisis story lately (it all sounds rlly awesome btw) and i was curious - you’ve said in the tags in a previous ask that ash is comphet, so is that gonna play a major role in her character arc/journey in any way?
Yeah, the story basically covers her journey of redefining her identity as a queer Asian-American disabled woman in a sports-entertainment industry, which is a media landscape that specifically targets, exploits, and fetishizes people like her.
#ask me#itsthequeercryptid#i don't have much more to say on this cuz as of right now it's in like. early early development process and i'm not a queer woman so#i don't have much authority to say how i want this part of the story to go. even if it's my story i don't wanna set anything in stone yknow#but like. ashley's arc is realizing that she's been performing to appease people both in and out of her life. as both a daughter and a#pro boxer. and that she shouldn't have to force herself to be someone she's not. which in the story continuously hurts her#she doesn't need to validate her existence and find worthiness as a disabled and queer woman#especially to other people#one story beat i drafted is that ashley nearly gets s/a'd by a potential agent (keep in mind the project's inspired by psychological dramas#thrillers like utena and perfect blue) and it's one of the first big moments that causes her to have a crisis of identity#growing less and less comfortable in her skin - both organic and nonorganic - as she realizes how her body is perceived/ exploited/#/objectified as a vehicle for inflicting and absorbing violence. both physical and sexual. especially by men#and near the end of the story the beat is reflected/flipped when she comes together with noora and it's gentle and intimate#but again this is all very iffy. i'm not sure how appropriate this would be as a male writer.#i'm waiting to work with other writers who are more knowledgable on this before moving forward with anything
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I think that when I feel happy I should start literally radiating sunlight from my body like yvaine from stardust. like I just think when I smile I should emit an actual halo of light. because I’m the sun. I just think I deserve that.
#I just… ough. I feel like that. I genuinely feel like I am radiating light whenever I am happy. I wish it was real#I should be an actual light source#I should emit physical warmth that makes everyone feel better#instead I just have this stupid ass psychological connection
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I remember after Lord of Shadows someone made a countdown account for QOAAD and the wait was agonisingly long.
Silly. I was so young and naive. No real or deep understanding of the word "patience."
#TLKOF will come out 8 years+ after QOAAD and 10 years after Lady Midnight#it will be worth it though#i just need the book on a physical and psychological level rn? every cell in my body is aching for the missing puzzle pieces to be revealed#like i'm so invested in these characters lives and in the politics i need to know how it ends!!#the last king of faerie#the wicked powers#ty blackthorn#kit herondale#dru blackthorn#ash morgenstern#the shadowhunter chronicles#the dark artifices
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#not to complain ab the same stuff i always complain ab#but my artblock is soooo bad . its so bad and frustrating and limiting and demotivating#because instead of being able to draw whatever whenever i feel like im chained to random bursts of inspiration#that i cant manifest just by willing it so yk. and imlike why…#so many ppl who draw whether for their job or for their hobby seem to be able to do it whenever#and its like yeah i could put pen to paper rn but theres such a mental disconnect that its not enjoyable anymore#dude its so whateverr😭😭 like its so made up and ik its just a psychological thing but it feels so physically .Hard#rrrgwgqq#like i try to maintain the habit by drawing stuff out even w no end in mind#but that also stresses me out bc its likeIDKK idk#silly tbh#seeing all of this art arnd me all the time > online and stuff is so nice and inpsiring#and it makes me want to do that too but i legitcannot . like i am being squished by a boulder and my hands are chained to 30lb weights#whatfreakign ever dude .like whateverrr#i want to grind my brain 2 a pulp . honestly🙌#like what do u mean u cant u literally just do it.but im the one exception to that
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and if i said suguru’s relationship with weakness (’the preciousness of the weak, the ugliness of the weak’) was born out of his feelings towards his mother …
#.#feeling abnormal feeling extremely abnormal#i think suguru fucking haaaaaates his father but his connection to his mother is just . so much more loaded#in that sense his mommy issues are far worse but his daddy issues are definitely more . apparent#he hates his dad he’d do anything anything anythingggg never to end up like him#but he resembles his mother in many ways (the hair. the eyes. the frail heart)#and because of that his hatred/love for Her in particular is just … one big can of worms#’you shouldn’t have given birth to me. you should have saved yourself. it’s your own fault that you’re stuck with him’#etcetc#he feels pity and guilt and hatred and biological love he’d be better off without#i think his mother was very very awful to him too#but even baby sugu knew the root cause was his father#hhhhh ….#i’m a little on the fence between . ’his home life was violently abusive’#and ’his parents were obsessed with appearing normal and perfect no matter the cost’#maybe both ?#like … idk if ever got physical. but i think just the psychological torture of living in that kind of household#left scars in his soul that he’ll never get rid of#in my mind sugu’s backstory is akin to nobara’s but make it straight up horror#anyway that’s all 🙏 sugu your parental issues have bewitched me#ari noises ✩#meta ✩
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I relate to Sanji too much because it really does seem like he’s adopted the mentality that physical and mental abuse is a form of significant affection but only directed towards himself, like he sees it’s wrong and unjust when other people are being abused, but when he’s the victim he feels this conflicted sense of I deserve it and Wow they love me so much! It’s heartbreaking just to think about tbh
#it makes sense looking at his past#and how he interacts with people he cares deeply about—besides woman who he holds#to a higher standard which I more so interpret as him looking back#on his mother and not wanting to see them abused and sick and whatnot like she was#look at how he acts around Zeff and compare it to Zoro—it’s the exact same really#not compare the above with his brothers—he’s cold towards them and obviously wants nothing to do with them completely different#to the amount of emotion displayed in his eyes AND body when conversing with the men on his crew and Baratie#hes a victim of physical and psychological abuse and severe child neglect(?)#he’s going to have a vastly different way of expressing his emotions and how he expresses them to loved ones#for woman it’s unashamed intense infatuation#that he usually expresses with a showering of flowery lovey dovey words and gifts#for men it’s closed off and angry but once you get to know him he shows his kinship through his ACTIONS#idk if any of this makes sense to anyone else lol#but Sanji is a really interesting character when looking at him through the lens of an abused child#one piece#vinsmoke sanji#black leg sanji
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#sorry this question came to me in a dream last night and I can't stop thinking about it#I think there are multiple right answers#but also several wrong ones#this is about Psychological Ability not physical ability btw#I think wwx could take the ring to mordor but he'd start to crack at the end yknow#not for want of power just from like the weight of it#reflecting both stories canon events#I don't think jiang yanli would cave to desiring the power of the ring but she'd bend to the psychological fatigue of it before the end#wen qing and wen ning could both get the ring to mordor#but the journey would tire wen ning for the rest of his life frodo style#I think lan wangji could do it but I need a lan wangji expert to weigh in on the details#jiang cheng absolutely Could Not get the ring to mordor#jin guangyao would immediately use it to gain power but would#jin zixuan would make a valient effort but ultimately fail#same with nie mingjue#nie huaisang..... undecided#and I don't think lan xichen would even offer#in sort of a gandalf esque moment#characters not on this poll hmmm#song lan yes#xiao xingchen could get most of the way there but ultimately succumb to the psychological torture#everyone else no#thank you for listening 👍#ghost posts#poll#lotr#CAN'T TAG CHARACTERS BECAUSE I HAVE TOO MANY TAGS SJGDKCHKD
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