#like ok i read a book i walked outside i got off my phone. everythings still worse than it w as before i did all that. what now
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good morning it is 5:37am and i hate being alive
#everything jsut makes everything worse#even when i try n do the shit youre supposed to do it just gets fucking worse#like ok i read a book i walked outside i got off my phone. everythings still worse than it w as before i did all that. what now#i watched my favorite movie i talked about my favorite music i got angry n didnt do anything about it what else is there#every day its a little harder to get out of bed#nothing helps it just tires me out n it barely even does thst#cuz why the fuck am i awake rn#fucking 6am. christ#im away from my parents n people call me the right name n i can still only feel my soul when its getting torn to fucking shreds
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-Movie Night
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Pairing: E!42 Miles x Spider-person!reader
Warnings: ProtectivenessâŠif that triggers you.
Outside of Milesâs window the streets buzzed with noise, from cars honking their horns to people yelling for their kids to come inside.
It was late at night as usual and Miles was sitting at his desk listening to music as he sketched out ideas for a creative writing paper that he couldnât visualize properly.
knock knockâŠ
That was unexpected.
Miles turned toward his bedroom window to see you standing out there with a excited smile. The boy smirked subconsciously wondering what you were doing here this late, especially without texting him first.
He opened the window and helping you crawl through.
âDonât worry your mom knows iâm here,â you said landing on the hard wood floor of his bedroom.
âho-â
âI texted her..anyways look!â you lifted your phone to his face showing him the disney plus app.
Miles squinted his eyes shielding them from the phones aggressive brightness, âWhat am I looking at?â he stifled a laugh.
You turned the phone back to your view, eye brows furrowed, âAre we not looking at the same thing? Little mermaid is on disney plus now so we can watch it!â
âYou ran all the way here just to watch The little mermaid?â
The boy closed the window behind you and took your jacket off your back to hang in his closet.
âWith youâŠâ you stated with a smile kicking off your shoes.
With a sound understanding he turned back around to face you, âWhy didnât you tell me you were coming? I coulda gotten snacks and shit.â the question came with a concern glare.
âNumber oneâŠâ You held up a book bag full of both your favorite snacks.
âAnd two you wouldnât have let me walk over here myself,â you grumbled, sounding slightly annoyed, seated on his edge of his bed in your hello kitty pajama pants. âthen I wouldâve had to wait for you to get meâŠthen walk hereâŠ.then have you walk me back home, then wait for you to get back home and you like to take stops so-â
He rolled his eyes and joined you on the bed. âWell yeah ima walk wit you, you know where we live right?â
âYou realize iâm the Spinner right?â said in a whisper, matter of factly.
Miles sighed not wanting to have this conversation for the 3rd time this month. âYeah ok y/nâŠlemme see the bagâŠ.please.â
You snorted getting ready to chew the boy out for his lack of manners, âI was bout to say- here.â after digging into the bag you handed over a platter of caribbean food from the place down the block.
âWha- this is food foodâŠâ
âI may have also stopped at Mrs. Kiyanaâs shopâŠallegedly.â
Miles stifled a laugh and took the platter. As he opened it he noticed you got everything exactly the way he liked it, jerk chicken with Jamaican cabbage, and plantains.
He held back a smile, âThank you..â said in a soft whisper like tone as he reached his hand into the platter.
âOf course,â you reached back in the bag pulling out two forks. âI know you not about to eat that with your hands-â
The boy stopped in his tracks and awkwardly took one of them out of your hand. âRight, my bad..â
I might make a part two to this one as well. BUT I KIND OF LIKE THE WAY THIS CAME OUT!! YAY! Anyways thank you for reading<3
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#across the spiderverse#into the spider verse#miles morales#miles morales headcanons#spider man#earth 42 miles morales#earth 42 miles fluff#prowler miles#miles g morales#e!42 miles morales#e!42 miles x reader#e!42 miles morales x reader#earth 42 miles x reader#e!42 miles morales fluff
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âNothing better to doâ
Axl Rose x reader
Fluff
Year:1989
It was a pretty boring day you had nothing to do except relax. That was pretty rare since your boyfriend was Axl Rose and he always had somewhere to be or something to do. You were happy though to have a lazy day so you sat in your bed in your pjs cuddled up with a book reading. It was the middle of the day and softly raining outside. It was literally the perfect day. As you sat there relaxing a very annoyed Axl came walking into your shared bedroom and fell onto the bed now laying there staring up at the ceiling. âIâm boredddddâ Axl said in a very fussy little kid way. âHi bored Iâm y/nâ you said not even bothering to look up from your book. âHa Ha Ha you should be a comedian you knowâ Axl said in a very sarcastic way. You didnât reply just continued to read. âSugar talkkkk to meeeeâ Axl said. You sat down your book âOk what do you want to talk about?â You asked. âI donât knowâ Axl said. âOk tell me when you doâ you said picking up your book again. Axl now laid quiet for a few minutes. âI want to marry youâ Axl said. Now that really made you set down your book. âIâd like to marry you too someday babeâ you said. âNo not someday y/n today we should get married today.â Axl said. âAxl are you crazy we canât todayâ you said thinking Axl was crazy to think you guys could just up and get married right now today. âWhy not? Not like we have anything better to do.â Axl said. âYeah but Axl what about my parents and the rest of my family and what about a dress and a big fancy party and-â you continued to list off reasons why you guys couldnât just get married today before Axl cut you off. âOh fuck all that I just want to get married to you babeâ Axl said now getting up and walking over to the window and opening the curtains âSee y/n and itâs raining thatâs good luck on a wedding day come one babe itâd be a fun story to tell our kids wouldnât it.â Axl said smiling at you. You laughed he made a good case but you didnât want to just get married at the courthouse you wanted a dress and a nice ceremony and a fancy party. âIâm sorry Axl but if we get married I want to do it rightâ you said. He looked a little disappointed. âI know babe Iâm just-â Axl stopped mid sentence. âI just remembered something Iâm gonna go do something ok babe?â Axl said very happily . âUm okâ you said confused how one minute he was sad and now happy. âOk Iâll be back in a little bit love youâ he said practically skipping out of your room. âOk love you too?â You said shaking your head and going back to reading you knew Axl was weird but man sometimes the guy really confused you. You could hear him on the phone with someone âThank you so much seriously alright yeah Iâll tell her and thanks again, yes Iâll make sure to tell her to call you guys ok yes bye nowâ Axl said. Hmmm who was he calling you thought. Whatever Iâll ask him later you thought going back to reading.
~time skip~
A few hours later you got a knock on the door. You answered it only to see Duff. âDuff?â âWhat are you doing here?â You asked. He seemed very smiley and happy. âJust come with me y/n he said grabbing your arm and pulling you out of the apartment door way. Duff lead you up a ton of stairs. âDuff Iâm sorry but where the fuck are we goingâ Duff laughed. âYouâll see youâll see geez have a little patienceâ You guys now reached a door that lead to the roof. âThe roof?â You asked. âJust cmonâ Duff said. You both went through door. And thatâs where you saw it a line of rose pedals and candles that lead you to Axl. Axl who was standing there holding something behind his back Axl looked nervous super nervous. You stood frozen knowing what was going to happen and so overwhelmed. âGo onâ Duff said pushing you a little. You walked down the path or rose pedals leading you to Axl. It was beautiful everything was beautiful. When you reached Axl he immediately got down on one knee. And pulled out a little black box that had a huge Diamond ring in it â Y/n Iâve never met anyone like you before, before I met you I didnât know what love was youâve been there for me through thick and thin youâve made me a better person your the love of my life and I want to spend every minute with you your smile and beauty light up my world your my muse of every love song your my soulmate I love you y/nâ Axl took a deep breath tears were streaming down your face âso y/n l/n will you marry me?â Axl asked now tearing up too. âO-of course Axl yes oh my goodness yes Axlâ you said and Axl slipped the ring on your finger jumped up picked you up spun you around and kissed not to mention it was still raining everything was literally right out of a movie. Axl set you down and and held your hand up in the air â SHE SAID YES GUYSâ and with that Duff walked up and Slash Izzy, and Steven all also walked out. They all congratulated you and you were too happy nothing seemed real. You guys decided to go back inside though due to the rain. âAxl?â âYes princess?â he said. âDid you have to propose to me while Iâm in my pjs thoughâ you said laughing. Axl started laughing too. âOh by the way I called your parents and got their blessingâ Axl said in a happy tone. You now realized that was who he called earlier. âReally you said thanks axâ you said hugging him. âOf course babe I promise Iâll do this wedding thing right for youâ he said smiling. âI love youâ you said. âI love you tooâ Axl said back kissing you.
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Time traveled and fell in love ( the outsiders ) protect
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Alicia's pov:
"Alicia time to get up or you will be late for school sweetie!" my mom yells from the kitchen. I groan and cover myself with my blanket. It's not that I hated school, I just dreaded to get up. After a few minutes I toss the covers off of me and get up. I splash water into my face to wake up, then put some make up on. I put on a baggy sweatshirt and a skirt, to be honest I never really had a style of clothes. Some days you will see me with baggy ripped Jean's and a tank top, other days you will see me with a crop top and a short skirt. I brush my hair and then put it up with a hair clip. I get my backpack and stuff, then go downstairs to the kitchen. I let out a yawn "hey mom". She looks at me "hey sweetie, did you not get any rest?". I mumble "guess not". I then sit on the table to eat some breakfast. My mom hands me a plate of pankakes. I eat them fast and then start to open the front door. "Bye mom, love you", "love you too honey!". And with that I start walking
Not long before I start walking in see my friend Jocelyn, she was holding her stomach and I knew that her dad or mom had hit her. I knew not to worry about her, but it made me sad to see how she was treated. I always tought to my self that I was really lucky to have loving parents, and I wished jock did too.
"H-hey Alicâshe said stuttering, I knew she always had that stutter but It didn't bother me or anything
"Hey jock" I said giving her a smile and we started heading to school.
When we arrived I was about to say something to her because some boys were always bullying her, then she took out her phone, "I-ill call y-you d-dont worry" she told me.
I laughed "you know me well jock" then we separated to go to our classes, it sucked that we didn't have a lot of classes together, only English witch made it okay. I had a bad feeling that something was gonna happen to jock so I stayed close for a bit. No one really decided to mess with me surprisingly not even those stupid boys that bullied jock. Anyone knows that if someone decides to mess with me, I will beat up their ass.
And sure enough I heard jocks voice and her stupid bullies. It was stupid how Jack wanted jock to be his girlfriend even tought he basically was bullying her every single time. I run and make my way there and see that Jack was forcing jock to kiss him.
"Hey get off of her!" I yell, and sure enough they all run away, I run up to her and immediately hug her.
"Are you ok?" I ask her
â n-no, he kissed m-me I donât like him!â she said.
I could see that she was almost in tears
â Iâve got you, next time Iâm beating his ass I promiseâ I said and hugged her
â thanks Alic your the bestâ she said
â I knowâ I replied
We both went to first period. After it was over I headed to English class. Me and jock both really like that class. I really enjoy reading more than writing. I was really excited since we were going to read the outsiders book. My favorite character is and forever will be is dallas winston. I just immediately fell in love with his character and can never get him off my head. I know that he is fictional but I dont fricking care and will never care. I saw jock coming in and I waved at her
â Hey Iâm so excitedâ I said
â M-me to!â she sai
I watched as the teacher came in and take a seat as she grabbed her own copy of the outsiders.
â Okay class open you books to page oneâ said the teacherÂ
I was already in page one, I really loved this book and couldn't wait to read it.
â Iâm going to call on people to read, so pay attention everyoneâ said the teacher
I was gonna pay attention like this depended on my life. But then after I started to feel dizzy and my vision was a bit blurry. I had no idea what was happening and I was kinda freaking out. I heard a thud and then everything went black.
"A-Alic wake u-upâ I heard a voice and recognised that it was jock right away.
IÂ groaned and got up, I looked at jock and she had a bit of blood on her head.
â Where are we?â I asked confused on what was going on.
âI-i have no c-clueâ jock said
Suddenly I saw that she was picked up by someone.
â Hey baby wanna come have a good time with usâ one of the guys said
âN-no thanksâ jock replied
 "Hey you leave her alone!â I yelled
Suddenly I hear rushed foot steps and jock was pulled away by the boys.
â Leave her alone!â One of the boys said.
And they start to beat the other guys up, wait a minute, it suddenly just hit me, they were the Curtis gang! I felt like I was going to pass out at any moment, me and jock look at each other shocke.
â Hey are you okay?â Ponyboy asked jock.
Jock nodded her head yes, and walked over to me.
â o-oh my g-god he talked to meâ she said
I was too stunned to even speak.Then they motioned us to follow them and we did. Jock stayed behind I knew she was starting to get shy around them, but I made her walk with them, we ended up at the Curtis house. We all walked in, it was a really nice house.
â A-Are you okay, are y-you cold?" Johnny asked jock
âi-Iâm okay, and a-a bitâ She told Johnny
I smirked at jock, I knew that he was her fictional crush. She looked down and blushed a bit, then Johnny placed his Jean jacket around jock. I smirked even more.
â You pretty girls can take a seat we donât biteâ Dallas said smirking
I then turn red and me and jock both sit down.Â
I look at all of them and think to myself if this is real or if I'm just dreaming or going insane. They look to real to be fake I think. Then I slightly pinch my arm. Yup I'm awake. I tought that I was gonna pass out or die. I couldnt believe that this was actually happening. I look at jock and see that she was still blushing from Johnny giving her his jacket. I see that she was also too stunned to speak or do anything.
"So are you two gonna tell us your names?" Two bit says while chuckling. I always tought that he was funny and always put a smile on everyone's faces.Â
I hesitate to say my name, I look at jock and she was looking down too shy to say anything. I then knew that she wasn't going to say her name first so I did, I tried my best to keep myself calm and not freak out.
"My name is alicia" I say to everyone
"Pretty name" dally says looking at me, smirking. I look down and blush a bit
I then look at jock and whisper "c'mon jock, atleast tell them your name"Â
She hesitates for a bit then finally gives in. "M-my name i-is Jocelyn" she says still looking down.
"I-I like that n-name" Johnny said quietly but everyone still heard. I look at jock and smirk a bit. I see her turning even more red, she just nodded as in saying thank you, too shy to speak.
"Well we should probably introduce ourselves too" Darry says. I try to hold in my laugh while thinking 'you dont need to we already know', but I just nod.
"I'm darry and these are my two brothers" he says pointing at ponyboy and sodapop
"I'm ponyboy" ponyboy says a bit shy. I smile at him, starting to feel a bit more comfortable.Â
"Lovely name ponyboy" I say, he smiles at me. I was basically freaking out of excitement. I look at jock she was still looking down.
"I'm sodapop, but you two can call me soda" he says giving us his movie star smile.
I nod and so does jock a bit.
"I'm Steve, sodas best friend" he said. I smile at him a bit, to witch he returns.
"I'm two bit and I love watching mickey." He says. I cant help but chuckle a bit. 'Oh I know' I think to myself.Â
Johnny looked at both of us shyly. "My n-name is Johnny" he says. Jock looks up a bit at him and blushes and nods. I wanted to laugh ag jocks reaction, since was basically speechless, and looked up a bit when johhny introduced himself.
"I'm Dallas, but you two pretty girls can call me dally" dally says looking at us. I immediately look a bit down and blush. I didn't want him to see me blush. Me and jock both just look down.
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Virgin Voyages : Adriatic Sea and Greek Gems Part 2
If you haven't read "My Curse" I would scroll down a few entries and have a read but basically just about every trip I have been on something goes wrong.
Greece was no different.
The morning of our trip my Fiancé and I packed up our car and headed to my mothers house to drop off our dog and carpool to BOS (Boston Logan Airport).
We got to my Mothers house where she was packing away the last of her things. We talked about whose car we were taking and whose car was staying at the house. since the driveway was narrow I offered to move the cars out to get to my moms car and then r3e organize the cars back into the driveway. I tasked my brother and fiancé with bringing the bags to the car we were taking with us.
I move the cars when my mom asks me to pop the trunk. I stayed in the drivers seat as i heard them loading the car up. They came around and sat in the car "Is that everything? Ok lets go!"
We technically drove to my sisters house which is right outside of Boston and took an Uber to the airport since the parking is expensive and we hate driving into the city. I parked and booked the Uber and suggested that while we wait we take out the bags to not waste the Uber's time. I opened the trunk,
Brother's black rolling backpack gets pulled out.
Fiancé's Black rolling backpack gets pulled out.
Mom's Black rolling backpack gets pulled out.
My Mom was white as a ghost as my brother and fiancé didn't notice.
"Lauren, where is your bag?" she said, I thought she was joking.
"It's we all have black rolling backpacks, check that the one in your hand is yours" I said as they checked their tags.
They forgot my bag.
My mom said "OK, do we have time to go back?" as the wave of realization came over me, "No we have perfect timing." my mom responded "ok do you have your passport?" I knew I had it in my purse as you would never pack it in your suitcase, but in that split second I didn't know what I still had on me. Luckily I found my passport, wallet, phone and charger all in my purse and was relieved. Did I go clothes shopping specifically for this trip - Yes. but with a passport and credit card the rest can be figured out I reminded my party of that as the Uber pulled up.
It was a quiet ride to the airport as I was texting my sister who was already in Greece what had unfolded in front of her house. She couldn't believe it. we tried to think of people that would be willing to grab my bag from my Moms living room and would be able to drive it to Boston in time but we were seriously making perfect time with traffic and the airport lines (thank you Global Entry/Precheck). As soon as we found our gate my Mom said maybe I could start shopping there. We joked that every port I will have to purchase a shirt (which I did). We walked around the airport but I really didn't want a sweatshirt with "BOSTON" in huge font when heading to Europe, but I found a cute shirt of the Boston Tea Party that i purchased. Went back to my family "one down... more to go" Virgin Voyages offers laundry service so we knew we did not need an actual week and a half's worth of cloths. We got on the plane had a meal and everyone started to fall asleep. Not me. I was stressing. I am not a big collector of souvenirs (a fridge magnet here and there) and plan most of my budget for food. No one wants to start their vacation having to go on a mandatory shopping trip especially since by European standards I am large and they might not have clothes that fit me. I cried a little knowing that this was not only stressing me out but now my family is stressing for me too. I felt like I had already ruined the vacation that hadn't even started yet.
#curse#disaster#no clothes#travel mishap#vacation ruined#travel#tourist#nothings perfect#family vacation#couple travels#europe#mediterranean#adriatic sea#plane#amature#sad
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Introduction
Hello, not sure if anyone would ever read this but I'll say it anyway. I'm tired of living like this. With AI, constant modernization, instant gratification, all of it. I know I'll sound old and bitter, but bear with me. Im 23 years old, and over a decade of my life has been owned by the internet.
When I was 11, I was given my first tablet. I used it mostly to play games, but I began obsessively scrolling on iFunny and Tumblr. If I wasn't doing that, then I was watching Youtube. I spent hours on it every day, cycling through the apps. Then when I was 13, I got my first smartphone. It somehow got even worse. I had access to every social media now, and I wanted every hour of my waking day spent scrolling on Instagram, snapchat, twitter, everything and anything I could download. I spent my years like this until I was 18, and COVID hit.
As I was bored in quarantine, I finally realized something-I felt empty. I was no longer surrounded by anyone, I had no one to prove myself to. I turned off my phone and reflected for awhile, and realized how deeply I missed life before social media.
Before I turned 11, I was truly living. And the world felt alive with me. Some might argue that perhaps I only felt that way because I was a child, but I disagree. I know there was a shift there. When I was a kid, before the internet entered my household, I woke up on the weekends- and did nothing. There was no phone to grab and immediately scroll on. I would lay, look at the ceiling, or glance at the ticking Hello Kitty clock mounted on the wall to know if it was too early to get up for the day. Once I was up, I would sit at the table and eat my breakfast. I would read my books, play on my DSi, or play with my littlest pet shop figures. I would go outside to blow bubbles, or sit in front of the TV to watch SpongeBob.
Then if my parents felt like going out to eat, we would. We would go to Texas Roadhouse and not mind the long wait, and then go to my favorite place in the world- Family Video. In there I would spend all my time looking at the video games before renting something I liked and going home.
I don't know if this makes sense, but things felt so alive. The world felt almost sparkly. Everywhere we went was busy, but no one seemed to mind.
However, now, I feel like things are dull. Dead. Again, I do not think this is because I am an adult.
Now I wake up, and I immediately grab my phone. Even when I try my best not to, I subconsciously do it. I read through my unimportant notifications and scroll on TikTok or instagram reels before thinking "What the hell am I doing? I need to get up!" When I do get up, I eat my breakfast while scrolling on twitter, reading unimportant things like celebrity drama.
Then if my boyfriend and I don't feel like going anywhere for the weekend, we sit, and we scroll, and we watch YouTube, and play Roblox. (Yes, I am aware I am too old for that. But playing Bloxy Bingo with my siblings is too much fun.) And if we feel like eating out, we don't even go out. We simply order off DoorDash, sit, and wait. And I plan on digging into this "instant gratification" thing in another post, but I will say that it feels so dull.
Another thing too is that both my boyfriend and I have anxiety- and going out to stores doesn't necessarily feel the same anymore. Ok, here is where I will hear someone out if they say "well it's cuz you were a kid!". Is it just me, or after COVID did everyone forget basic manners? I can't walk into Target without feeling like I'm going to have a heart attack. Everyone is cutting you off abruptly, or walking so quickly behind you they're almost stepping on your shoes. And NO ONE says excuse me. Sure we don't have to, but it would be a little nice if I had a clue that you were trying to get past me in an aisle without bumping my shoulder.
This stressful experience leads me to want to isolate myself further. And as I head to the car, sweat dripping down my forehead from damn near running to leave, I get a notification on my phone from my crime app telling me that there was a super terrible tragedy nearby that instills the feeling in me that I need to stay home.
I need to stay safe inside, continue door dashing, continue scrolling.
But I'm done with it. I have felt the desire to abandon this lifestyle for a couple of years now, but this time im going to do it- and I mean it.
I am going to live like its the 2000s again.
Yes, I am aware that I could never truly go back to the way things were before. And there are in fact modern things I want to keep in my life. Modern interests, etc. But what I mean is I don't only want to quit social media (besides Tumblr so I can write), but I want to go back to some of the technologies that genuinely worked just fine. In an ever changing world, I can appreciate that we make technological advances every single day. But maybe we don't need to.
I know this is long, and again I am unsure if anyone read this. But if they did, sorry for the rambling, and thank you for reading my thoughts.
So without further ado, here I go- back into my imaginary time machine.
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Time traveled and fell in love ( the outsiders ) protect
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Alicia's pov:
"Alicia time to get up or you will be late for school sweetie!" my mom yells from the kitchen. I groan and cover myself with my blanket. It's not that I hated school, I just dreaded to get up. After a few minutes I toss the covers off of me and get up. I splash water into my face to wake up, then put some make up on. I put on a baggy sweatshirt and a skirt, to be honest I never really had a style of clothes. Some days you will see me with baggy ripped Jean's and a tank top, other days you will see me with a crop top and a short skirt. I brush my hair and then put it up with a hair clip. I get my backpack and stuff, then go downstairs to the kitchen. I let out a yawn "hey mom". She looks at me "hey sweetie, did you not get any rest?". I mumble "guess not". I then sit on the table to eat some breakfast. My mom hands me a plate of pankakes. I eat them fast and then start to open the front door. "Bye mom, love you", "love you too honey!". And with that I start walking
Not long before I start walking in see my friend Jocelyn, she was holding her stomach and I knew that her dad or mom had hit her. I knew not to worry about her, but it made me sad to see how she was treated. I always tought to my self that I was really lucky to have loving parents, and I wished jock did too.
"H-hey Alicâshe said stuttering, I knew she always had that stutter but It didn't bother me or anything
"Hey jock" I said giving her a smile and we started heading to school.
When we arrived I was about to say something to her because some boys were always bullying her, then she took out her phone, "I-ill call y-you d-dont worry" she told me.
I laughed "you know me well jock" then we separated to go to our classes, it sucked that we didn't have a lot of classes together, only English witch made it okay. I had a bad feeling that something was gonna happen to jock so I stayed close for a bit. No one really decided to mess with me surprisingly not even those stupid boys that bullied jock. Anyone knows that if someone decides to mess with me, I will beat up their ass.
And sure enough I heard jocks voice and her stupid bullies. It was stupid how Jack wanted jock to be his girlfriend even tought he basically was bullying her every single time. I run and make my way there and see that Jack was forcing jock to kiss him.
"Hey get off of her!" I yell, and sure enough they all run away, I run up to her and immediately hug her.
"Are you ok?" I ask her
â n-no, he kissed m-me I donât like him!â she said.
I could see that she was almost in tears
â Iâve got you, next time Iâm beating his ass I promiseâ I said and hugged her
â thanks Alic your the bestâ she said
â I knowâ I replied
We both went to first period. After it was over I headed to English class. Me and jock both really like that class. I really enjoy reading more than writing. I was really excited since we were going to read the outsiders book. My favorite character is and forever will be is dallas winston. I just immediately fell in love with his character and can never get him off my head. I know that he is fictional but I dont fricking care and will never care. I saw jock coming in and I waved at her
â Hey Iâm so excitedâ I said
â M-me to!â she sai
I watched as the teacher came in and take a seat as she grabbed her own copy of the outsiders.
â Okay class open you books to page oneâ said the teacherÂ
I was already in page one, I really loved this book and couldn't wait to read it.
â Iâm going to call on people to read, so pay attention everyoneâ said the teacher
I was gonna pay attention like this depended on my life. But then after I started to feel dizzy and my vision was a bit blurry. I had no idea what was happening and I was kinda freaking out. I heard a thud and then everything went black.
"A-Alic wake u-upâ I heard a voice and recognised that it was jock right away.
IÂ groaned and got up, I looked at jock and she had a bit of blood on her head.
â Where are we?â I asked confused on what was going on.
âI-i have no c-clueâ jock said
Suddenly I saw that she was picked up by someone.
â Hey baby wanna come have a good time with usâ one of the guys said
âN-no thanksâ jock replied
 "Hey you leave her alone!â I yelled
Suddenly I hear rushed foot steps and jock was pulled away by the boys.
â Leave her alone!â One of the boys said.
And they start to beat the other guys up, wait a minute, it suddenly just hit me, they were the Curtis gang! I felt like I was going to pass out at any moment, me and jock look at each other shocke.
â Hey are you okay?â Ponyboy asked jock.
Jock nodded her head yes, and walked over to me.
â o-oh my g-god he talked to meâ she said
I was too stunned to even speak.Then they motioned us to follow them and we did. Jock stayed behind I knew she was starting to get shy around them, but I made her walk with them, we ended up at the Curtis house. We all walked in, it was a really nice house.
â A-Are you okay, are y-you cold?" Johnny asked jock
âi-Iâm okay, and a-a bitâ She told Johnny
I smirked at jock, I knew that he was her fictional crush. She looked down and blushed a bit, then Johnny placed his Jean jacket around jock. I smirked even more.
â You pretty girls can take a seat we donât biteâ Dallas said smirking
I then turn red and me and jock both sit down.Â
I look at all of them and think to myself if this is real or if I'm just dreaming or going insane. They look to real to be fake I think. Then I slightly pinch my arm. Yup I'm awake. I tought that I was gonna pass out or die. I couldnt believe that this was actually happening. I look at jock and see that she was still blushing from Johnny giving her his jacket. I see that she was also too stunned to speak or do anything.
"So are you two gonna tell us your names?" Two bit says while chuckling. I always tought that he was funny and always put a smile on everyone's faces.Â
I hesitate to say my name, I look at jock and she was looking down too shy to say anything. I then knew that she wasn't going to say her name first so I did, I tried my best to keep myself calm and not freak out.
"My name is alicia" I say to everyone
"Pretty name" dally says looking at me, smirking. I look down and blush a bit
I then look at jock and whisper "c'mon jock, atleast tell them your name"Â
She hesitates for a bit then finally gives in. "M-my name i-is Jocelyn" she says still looking down.
"I-I like that n-name" Johnny said quietly but everyone still heard. I look at jock and smirk a bit. I see her turning even more red, she just nodded as in saying thank you, too shy to speak.
"Well we should probably introduce ourselves too" Darry says. I try to hold in my laugh while thinking 'you dont need to we already know', but I just nod.
"I'm darry and these are my two brothers" he says pointing at ponyboy and sodapop
"I'm ponyboy" ponyboy says a bit shy. I smile at him, starting to feel a bit more comfortable.Â
"Lovely name ponyboy" I say, he smiles at me. I was basically freaking out of excitement. I look at jock she was still looking down.
"I'm sodapop, but you two can call me soda" he says giving us his movie star smile.
I nod and so does jock a bit.
"I'm Steve, sodas best friend" he said. I smile at him a bit, to witch he returns.
"I'm two bit and I love watching mickey." He says. I cant help but chuckle a bit. 'Oh I know' I think to myself.Â
Johnny looked at both of us shyly. "My n-name is Johnny" he says. Jock looks up a bit at him and blushes and nods. I wanted to laugh ag jocks reaction, since was basically speechless, and looked up a bit when johhny introduced himself.
"I'm Dallas, but you two pretty girls can call me dally" dally says looking at us. I immediately look a bit down and blush. I didn't want him to see me blush. Me and jock both just look down.
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No One Like You â Hunter x gn! reader
Summery: Reader joins the gang as they try and stop Amity's mom from supplying the emperor's coven with any more abomitons.
tw: Spoilers for season 2 episode 20.
wc: 1.6k
Chapter Fourteen
Master List | Chapter One
âYou guys almost done over there?â Willow asked through the crow phone.
I looked over at Hunter as he laid in my bed reading a book, âYo, Hunster, you ready?âÂ
He looked up from his book and cringed, âPlease never call me that again. But sure.â
I laughed lightly and spoke back to Willow, âYeah, we are.âÂ
âCool,â Willow breathed out. She then told us where to meet them. I looked out my window and saw that the sun was about to set.
Standing up I pulled on a light overcoat, âCâmon love, theyâre expecting us, like, now.âÂ
Hunter stared at me, his entire being froze, and blushed like thereâs no tomorrowâŠwell thatâs a possibility but let's not think about that.Â
âWhatâs up?â I asked, tying up my shoes.
âI-I uhâŠâ Hunter stuttered. âThatâs a new one.â
âNew what?â I asked, genuinely confused.
âThâŠthe, do you actuallyâŠâ Hunter was stumbling over his sentences. âThe pet nameâŠy-you called me l-love.â
My eyes widened and I felt myself flush, âO-oh. I didnât even notice.â
âItâs okayâŠâ Hunter trailed off, trying to regain his composure. We then made our way down the stairs, said goodbye to my parents and left. Meeting up with Willow and Gus in the forest outside of Blight Manor.
âHunter!â Gus shouted as we landed. âMy man!â They did their little handshake and I laughed lightly. It made me so happy to see Hunter having friends and getting along with them.
âHow was visiting your parents?â Willow questioned me.Â
âIt was nice,â I smiled. âWe didnât run into any coven scouts, and my moms were very concerned for us. But after explaining everything they understood.â
âThatâs good,â Willow smiled.Â
âWhat?â I heard Luz shout. I spun around to see her shout at someone flying away. âI donât need a security escort!â
âDid you hear that guys?â Willow spoke up.Â
âYeah, no,â Gus agreed. âI guess weâll have to go home. Well itâs been fun.â Willow and I laughed and we all faced her.Â
âSee you around, Luz the human,â I ended.Â
âWait, wait, wait,â Luz repeated, tears in her eyes. We ran towards each other for a group hug. âOf course I want you around! Iâm so happy. And confused. I thought you were all hiding after what happened at Hexside.â
âThey were,â Hunter chimed in. âBut then they heard Darius ordered me to protect you.â
âMore like he begged us to come because heâs terrified of being recognized,â Gus teased. Hunter looked down sad and I pecked his cheek in reassurance.Â
âHunter, are you really up for this?â Luz questioned in concern. âYou must be dealing with a lot after learning-â
âThat Belos is evil?â Hunter exclaimed in fake cheeriness. âDonât worry, Iâm A-OK!â Hunter looked towards me with that giant fake smile and I pecked his nose this time.Â
âWhat theâŠâ Luz trailed off.Â
âThis is what happens when you go missing for a week,â Willow said nonchalantly. As she walked towards us and Hunter walked to Luz, whispering something. I decided to let him have his privacy and focused on Willow and Gus.Â
After they finished, we all rushed to the side of the manor. Gus used the artifact he got from Graye to check for any illusions. Good thing too, because we saw a hidden scout. Luz bound them with vines and Hunter apologized to them. We were then attacked by an abomiton and I quickly lunged for the head before it could alert anyone. Willow wrapped the arms and legs in vines, and brought them into the ground. We then continued our heist, running to the other side of the manor and stood outside a lit window, showing Amityâs shadow. Luz went up and we waited below on guard.Â
âSo you twoâŠâ Gus trailed off, looking between Hunter and I. âHow long did you think you could hide it?â
âH-hide what?â Hunter asked, scared, clutching his staff. âWeâre not hiding anything!â
Willow raised an eyebrow, âHeâs right Gus. With (y/n) kissing him all the time, theyâre clearly not hiding anything.âÂ
I covered my face with my hands and totally didnât make the weirdest noise ever, âShut up donât point it out!â
Gus and Willow laughed, and Hunter chuckled awkwardly, âRight, that.â
âSo you two are dating!â Gus accused, pointing at us.Â
âYeah,â Hunter shrugged, turning away with his face bright red. âWhat of it? You got a problem?â
âCalm down,â Willow giggled. âWeâre not judging, you two are adorable!âÂ
Glancing up, I saw Amity and Luz looking back down. We all walked towards the front of the house as we went over the plan. We hid in the bush, waiting for Kikimora to come. And she did, in very casual wear. She has definitely seen better days. Casting an illusion, Gus made us all look like coven scouts and we hurried into the house. We stood around like we were on guard as Mrs. Blight tried to sell Kikimora on a abomitron. We split from the actual coven scouts and looked into the workroom.
âAhem,â Mrs. Blight fake cleared her throat. We turned around. âThese rooms are off limits.âÂ
âMrs. Blight!â Hunter exclaimed, saluting. âKikimora told us of your products. Such inventions would be invaluable assets to the Emperorâs coven.âÂ
âYeah!â Luz agreed. âAnd we are all about invaluable assets.â
âCanât get enough of em,â Gus chimed in.Â
âIâm an asset gal myself,â Willow said.Â
âI apologize for the trouble,â Hunter spoke up, pushing Gus. âWeâll return to our duties.âÂ
We walked away only for Kikimora to cut us off, âI knew I recognized that annoying voice.âÂ
We all bolted to the exit, only to be blocked by the abomiton and scout we took down outside. We all backed up and Gus tripped, revealing our identities. Being surrounded on all sides, we were trapped.
Literally. Since they caged us using a forcefield. Amity tried to knock some sense into her mom as she revealed that Edric and Emira tried to steal the ship. Her mother wasâŠreally something. Amity tried to break out while Kikimora taunted Hunter.Â
âLeave him alone!â I shouted, standing in front of him protectively.Â
âIâm surprised the human is even here,â Kikimora continued, ignoring me. âArenât all your friends at the day of unity?â Luz gasped. âOh that's right,â Kikimora said offhandedly. âThe Emperor has eyes everywhere, and theyâre all pointed at the Owl Lady.â I felt dread as she said that.Â
Luz whispered something to Gus and he agreed hesitantly. Then Gus switched Luz and Hunter, and I knew what they were up to. Suddenly the forcefield supposedly broke and Amity questioned how she managed to do that.
âNo,â A voice spoke up. âIt was the power of science. But you almost had it sweetie.â That must be Amityâs dad. âOdalia, the Emperor is planning to wipe out everyone with a draining spell,â He explained. âAnd our abominations are helping him do it.â Odalia looked at her nails like this was old news and Mr. Blight gasped, âYou already knew?â
âWhat he does with our products is none of our business,â She replied like it was simple. âWhat is my business is keeping my family ahead of the rest. Youâre welcome, everyone.â Mr. Blightâs face went red and Odalia just scoffed, âThere you go making that face. This is why I donât tell you things. With the Emperor's favor, weâll live like royalty in the new world. Crowns and everything!â Okay sheâs deranged.Â
âThis is too much, even for you,â Mr. Blight said softly.Â
He used his abomitons to fight Odalia, and she fought back with her oracle magic. Kikimora took âHunterâ and Mr. Blight tried to block her exit. She barreled through with her abomitron and Amity used the abomination goop to try and keep Kikimora stuck. Then Willow summoned vines to hit Kikimora, but Kikimora held âHunterâ as a human shield. Coward. I then summonded a magic circle to grant me beast wings and flew towards âHunterâ, only for Kikimora to blast at me, causing me to tumble to the ground. Gus then used illusion magic to make the environment go dark. Shooting was heard as Kikimora finally blasted the ceiling and broke the illusion.
âI donât need all you creteins,â She hissed. âBut this one is mine.â She then blasted off using jetpacks.
âHa!â Mr. Blight exclaimed. âThe jetpack actually works!â He laughed, then groaned, âOh. The jetpack actually works.â
Abomitons surrounded us once more as Odalia stood in front of us, âWell, since weâre finished with that little mess, letâs get back to business, shall we?â
âYou!â Amity shouted in anger. âI am never speaking to you again.â âYouâll thank me later when youâre a literal princess, princess,â Odalia replied. âItâs what's best for the family.â
âWhatâs best for the family, is putting an end to all this,â Mr. Blight replied. He then destroyed the factory and shut down the abomitons.Â
âYouâre destroying our life's work!â Odalia exclaimed, enraged. âI wonât let you destroy it any further.â She stood, summoning a spirit, while we all stood defensively.
âThe work is already finished,â Mr. Blight stated. âAlso, I quit.âÂ
âFine,â Odalia surrendered. âI was meaning to find a more competent business partner anyway. And you wonât be getting your severance package.â She then left through the steam.
âOh Titan,â Mr. Blight cried out. âThat was terrifying.â
Then Willow ran towards the abandoned ship, and we all followed.Â
âCâmon stupid thing,â Willow said frustratedly, pulling on levers. âWe have to follow them!â âDad, can you use that thing to shut down the abominations at the head?â Amity asked, helping Willow.
âYouâre going to rescue your friend,â He said, shocked. We all stared at him, âYouâll need a pilot. And Luz, I apologize for Odalia, you are always welcome at our home.â Mr. Blight touched âLuzâs shoulder, breaking the spell and revealing Hunter. âIâm confused.â
âWhatâs going on?â Amity asked in fear.Â
âIâm sorry,â Hunter apologized. âIt happened so fast. I didnât even realize what was going on until she was gone!â
âSheâŠshe wanted to protect you,â Gus said weakly. âAnd Eda.â
âThen that means,â Willow whispered looking up.
âSheâs being taken to Belos,â Amity finished.
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Daddy?
happy Easter if you celebrate it!! I've been working on this for a couple weeks!! It's the longest one-shot I think I've ever written.
word count: 5180
please please please flood my inbox with your thoughts and comments!! i want to know what you think!!!
warnings: some swearing (i think), absent birth father, single mom, nothing too serious.
âAnd who might this be?â He said softly, hoping that he wouldnât frighten her.
âTell Harry your name baby,â Y/n brushed a stray piece of hair away from her daughter's face who shied away behind her momâs leg.
âStella,â the little girl mumbled, fidgeting with the jeans she hid behind. He felt his heart flutter. She was just so freakin cute.
âItâs lovely to meet you Stella, mâHarry!â
âYou talk funny.â The child said, making Harry laugh and Y/n gasp, scolding her daughter for being rude while trying not to laugh at her blunt comment.
âStella Rose, that was not a very nice thing to say!â Y/n softly reprimanded.
âSowwy Hawwy,â He chuckled, letting her know he forgave her.
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Y/n is a single mom and Harry wants to be a part of the family.
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Getting pregnant was definitely not something Y/n wanted to be doing at 20 years old. She had a boyfriend and the career of her dreams but as soon as the news broke, one of those things was no longer true. Her ex skipped town faster than she could even finish telling him she was pregnant, so Y/n was left to her own devices since her family was so far away.
She was a songwriter. She had worked with all the big names in the industry from Taylor Swift to All Time Low. She was known for being able to write in any genre, thatâs what set her apart and why people were clawing at the chance to work with her.
And then she got pregnant. She kept writing songs until she was eight and a half months along but due to minor complications, her doctor had ordered her to stay home. So she did. She stayed home, had the baby, and raised her all by herself. Now that baby, whose name is Stella, is four years old and is traveling the world with her mom. Y/n had gone back to work when Stella was a year old. At first, she would leave her baby with a sitter, but eventually, she got to a point where Stella was old enough to come along to writing sessions and quietly color or play with toys in a corner. She really liked going to work with her mom. She got to see a bunch of cool places and meet a lot of nice people.
And one of those people was Harry Styles. Y/n had met him a few times back when he was with One Direction, had even tried to work with the band a few times but things never lined up right. But now he was making his second studio album and only wanted the best of the best to write with him so naturally, he called Y/n. Harry knew she had a kid but he didnât expect her to bring said kid to a writing session. Harry didnât really mind- he loves kids, but his friends had been known to curse a lot and he didnât want to cause any harm to the child.
He made sure to give everyone a stern talking to, even though Kid already knew to hold his tongue (his little ones had repeated some colorful words a few times). He wanted everything to go right, needed it to. Y/n was more than just another songwriter.
âY/n! Iâm so glad you could make it!â Harry smiled as she walked into the studio. She smiled back, walking into his open arms for a hug.
âThank you so much for having me, Iâm super stoked to be working with you!â She said, slightly muffled by his neck. Harry looked down behind Y/n and saw a little girl that looked exactly like the woman currently in his arms looking right back up at him. When the two pulled away Harry was quick to kneel down to her height.
âAnd who might this be?â He said softly, hoping that he wouldnât frighten her.
âTell Harry your name baby,â Y/n brushed a stray piece of hair away from her daughter's face who shied away behind her momâs leg.
âStella,â the little girl mumbled, fidgeting with the jeans she hid behind. He felt his heart flutter. She was just so freakin cute.
âItâs lovely to meet you Stella, mâHarry!â
âYou talk funny.â The child said, making Harry laugh and Y/n gasp, scolding her daughter for being rude while trying not to laugh at her blunt comment.
âStella Rose, that was not a very nice thing to say!â Y/n softly reprimanded.
âSowwy Hawwy,â He chuckled, letting her know he forgave her. Although he wasnât mad, he understood Y/n had to teach her not to say things like that even if they were funny.
When Stella had settled at a table out of the way of the adults in the room with her coloring book and a juice box, the work began. Y/n and Harry sat at a piano bench ( he hoped she couldnât hear his pounding heart) while Kid and Mitch, along with Jeff, sat scattered around the other furniture in the studio.
âSo, I have a couple of ideas that Iâve been sitting on that I think you might like. You can look through this and see if there's something that catches your eye.â Y/n said, handing Harry a notebook. She tried to ignore the tingle she felt run up her arm when their fingers brushed. He flipped around the pages, noticing random little doodles in the corners and in between lines, and the somewhat messy but readable handwriting. He thought it was cute how she connected her sâs to her tâs and kâs when she wrote.
One page, in particular, caught his attention.
Golden, Golden, Golden
As I open my eyes
Hold it, focus
So you take me back to the light
I know you were way too bright for me
Iâm hopeless, broken
So you wait for me in the sky
Brown my skin just right
âIs this a verse or a chorus?â He asked, pointing it out to her. She shrugged saying she didnât really know yet but it would probably be a verse.
âI like it a lot,â He said and she smiled, picking up her guitar and strumming it to the tune she had thought of for the words. He listened and nodded along, already getting ideas for where to go next.
âI like the golden thing. I think that could be a good hook, something like weâre so golden,â Kid spoke up, tapping his fingers along to what she was playing.
âOr youâre so golden,â Mitch suggested. Harry and Y/nâs eyes widened at the same time, both looking up at each other when they heard the line.
âYouâre so golden, youâre so goldenâŠâ Y/n hummed.
âIâm out of my head, and I know what you said about hearts get broken,â
âHow about Iâm out of my head and I know that youâre scared because hearts get broken,â
âI like that better, yeah!â Harry smiled, nodding along to the beat.
Y/n looked over 30 minutes later to see Stella had sprawled out on the floor with her arms folded beneath her head, first finger stuck into her mouth, and she smiled, breathing out a laugh.
âSheâs so precious,â Harry murmured from beside you. Your gaze found his and the smile on your face widened a little bit.
âShe is, isnât she.â She said, pride present in her eyes.
âLooks just like you as well,â
âYeah thank god, I donât know what I would have done if she had ended up looking like her sperm donor,â Malice dripped from the end of her phrase. Y/n couldnât even entertain the idea of her looking like the man who helped create her. That nerve was still a little raw, not because she had any remaining feelings, but because he had abandoned not only her but the beautiful baby girl who was napping not 15 feet away from her. She figured they were better off without him, yet her heart always shattered a little when Stella asked if she had a daddy like the people she sees on tv.
âI couldnât imagine finding out the woman I loved was pregnant and then leaving her, any real man would have stayed.â His eyes were genuine, which she appreciated. Most people would say they felt sorry for her, pity dripping from their gaze, but she didnât need pity, didnât need people to feel sorry for her. But what Harry said was out of pity, he just honestly couldnât understand how anyone would abandon a child.
âYeah well, I guess I just wasnât the woman he loved.â She said, looking back at her baby. Stella made all of that pain from when he disappeared worth it.
Harry wanted to be able to take that pain away.
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âHey I know itâs late, but I have this idea and I want you to hear it,â Harryâs raspy voice chimed through the speaker of Y/nâs phone. She glanced at the time, reading 1:30 AM, and sighed.
âOk,â
âCome open the door,â He said.
âWait what? Youâre here?â
âYeah, come on. Itâs cold out here.â
âUgh, hold on,â The woman sighed, hanging up and tip-toeing out of her room so her footsteps wouldnât wake the sleeping four-year-old in the next room over. Her door was open and she was a light sleeper.
The door swung open and Harry stood there with a small smile on his face, burrowing as deep into his coat as he could to shield himself from the cold air outside.
âHi!â His cheeky smile made Y/nâs heart flutter.
This was the first of many times he would show up at her place in the middle of the night.
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Another night of Harry coming over late with a song idea he couldnât wait to show Y/n, although now it was more he would come over after Stella fell asleep and the two would watch movies and talk, and sometimes write songs (even though the album was done).
The pair were perched on the couch in a heated conversation about whether or not pineapple belongs on pizza (it does and that is a fact not an opinion) when the sound of little footsteps caught their attention. They both looked up from where they sat at the sound of loud crying coming down the stairs, seeing a small child with tears barreling down her face, cheeks flush an angry red, first finger stuck in her mouth, teddy bear clutched tightly to her chest.
âBaby whatâs wrong?â Y/n cooed, getting up and sweeping her into her arms. She went and sat back down on the couch, cradling the baby to her chest, brushing her hair out of her face, and rocking her back and forth.
âScawwy dweam mommy,â She hiccuped into her momâs neck, where she hid her face. Her tiny hands clutched onto her shirt, finger stick tucked between her lips.
Harry held back a coo at the little girl, feeling himself fall further and further for the little family of two sitting before him. He hadnât been able to take his mind off of them since that first day he met Stella. Heâd always had a schoolboy crush on Y/n since they first met all those years ago but knew it was one-sided when she introduced her boyfriend one of the last times they had seen each other. As fate would have it though, they found their way back to each other. Neither of them could deny the feelings they held, but Y/n was scared to bring someone into the picture because she didnât want Stella to get attached to someone who wouldnât be permanent. She was lucky her ex left before he ever got the chance to meet Stella, the kid had no clue what she was missing, therefore didnât have any pain due to her absent father.
She would be lying if she said she didnât imagine Harry stepping into that role. But she couldnât ask that of him. He was at a time in his career where he didnât have time to be the father of a four year old.
But life is full of surprises.
âHawwy.â The baby whimpered and crawled off of Y/nâs chest, into his lap and snuggled her head right into him like it was where she was meant to be all along. His heart just about burst when the little girl fisted his shirt, tucking herself into him. His arms instinctively wrapped around her, cradling her into him and rocking her back and forth like her mother had been only moments ago.
Stella calms down almost immediately, to Y/nâs surprise. It usually takes her a while to console her baby from bad dreams, but all Harry had to do was hold her, and boom, no more tears.
âYou alright petal?â He cooed into her hair, soothing his hand up and down her back to keep her calm. She nodded, letting out a huge yawn and closing her eyes, falling back asleep in his arms.
Y/n was astonished. Stella had never fallen asleep on anyone but her mom or her grandmother. Sheâs known Harry for a few months and was acting like heâd been there her whole life.
âWow⊠she loves you.â Y/n whispered, not really meaning for him to hear but he did and his smile gave her the impression that he loved her too. But Stella wasnât the only one he felt such affections for.
âY/n....â He starts after a moment of silence, âI know this sounds crazy because weâve only truly known each other for a few months⊠but Iâve had feelings for you for years. I missed my opportunity when you got with your ex but Iâm here now, and I love you, and I love Stella, and I would do anything to stay in both of your lives if youâd have me. I want to be here for you, and I want to be here for her as well.â His confession shocked the woman sitting across from him.
Y/n was quiet, eyebrows furrowed in deep thought while she took in what he was saying. Trying her best to keep her fantasies of playing house with him at bay, she spoke.
âHarry, as much as all of that sounds lovely, youâre about to start press for the album and then go on tour. Youâre not gonna have time to be in a relationship, and as much as I wish I could just jump into something like that, I canât. I have her to think aboutâŠâ She gestured to the toddler sleeping on him.
âShe needs consistency, her life is already hectic enough.â
âSo come with me!â He spouted, and then retracted a bit realizing he could wake Stella up.
âWhat?â
âCome with me! You two travel around already, so come on the press tour with me and then come on the big tour with me! I know this sounds impulsive and itâs probably the craziest thing Iâve ever said in my life ever, but Iâve never been more sure of anything. I know what I want Y/n, and thatâs to be a part of this family. I want to be a part of your lives!â
âHarry, I-â
âPlease Y/n. Give me a chance! I wonât let you down!â The gleam in his eyes shows her that heâs serious. He really does want this. Harry just hopes that Y/n can see just how willing he is, how much it would mean to him to have (what he already affectionately considers to be) his girls with him on tour.
Itâs quiet, only sounds of Stellaâs even breaths and the light noise of her sucking on her finger fill the room. Eventually, Y/n gathers her thoughts, mind made up.
âWeâll try it out⊠see how it goesâŠ.â She said, releasing a breath she didnât realize sheâd been holding on to. Harryâs smile grew tenfold at her confession, reaching over and bringing her face closer to his to kiss her lips, careful not to wake the baby in his arms.
He had never been happier, Harry decides, than he is right now.
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âHawwy?â Stellaâs voice catches Y/nâs attention from where she sits on the plane, in between her and Harry. She turns her little head to the man sitting in the aisle seat, big round eyes staring right into his.
âWhat is it, lovebug?â He asks, pushing her wild baby hairs away from her eyes. Y/n did her very best not to coo at the two of them. Harry had fallen perfectly into step with the mother and daughter, like this duo had been a trio all along. She was still hesitant to think of him as a father figure for Stella though, just because if things went south somehow, she didnât want her baby suffering a loss like that (a second time).
Stellaâs little fists rubbed at her tired eyes. She let out a small âhmphâ and laid her head on Harryâs arm, wrapping her own little arms around his.
âAwe you my daddy?â She asked and Y/n choked on her spit, looking back over at the toddler.
âStella, baby-â
âI would love to be your daddy lovebug, but thatâs not really up to meâŠâ He spoke and glanced up at Y/n quickly, trepidation clear in his eyes. Harry was afraid he might overstep. Sure he knew that things were still new between him and Y/n but he wanted nothing more than for Stella to think of him as her dad.
âWhoâs it up to?â Y/n could tell she was about to fall asleep but was fighting it in order to get her answers. She had adjusted to a more fast pace schedule quite nicely. She slept through most plane and car rides and absolutely loved being backstage at concerts. Harry thought she looked so adorable with her big noise-canceling headphones on. They had been on the road for a few months now, and it had been 8 months since Y/n decided to give him a chance.
âItâs up to mummy, baby.â He answered, his fingers tangling into his chestnut curls in a futile attempt to keep them out of his face.
Stellaâs head immediately whipped to look at her mom, who sat frozen in her seat, not knowing what to do.
âMommy, is Hawwy my daddy?â She repeated her question. Y/n had a feeling that Stella thought Harry was her real dad, the one that her mom didnât like to talk about. She had to make sure there was no confusion.
âNot like you're thinking he is, baby. Heâs not your birth dad, he didnât help mommy make you, but if you want him to be your daddy, then thatâs ok with me.â Y/n locked eyes with the man sitting across from her with a smile on his face. She was glad that they were flying private because she really didnât need anyone ruining this moment for them. All her fears of this not working out felt stupid now.
How could she ever think that things with Harry wouldnât work out? He was right where he belonged.
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âDaddy!â
âBaby!â Harry knelt down to catch the running (almost) 5 year old, picking her up and spinning her around in his arms. They were in England for two weeks on tour. One for shows, and one so that Y/n and Stella could meet Harryâs mom and sister for the first time as a part of the family. Y/n had met them before as âa friend of Harryâsâ many years ago, but they had never met her as Harryâs girlfriend, and they hadnât met Stella.
Currently, Harry was in the middle of a show and Stella had just escaped her mothers arms side stage in favor of running to her dad. Y/n still couldnât get over saying that. Harry is Stellaâs dad. She doesnât think that will ever get old.
No one knew how serious the relationship between Y/n and Harry was. The public knew they were together (after a very vague post on instagram of the mother/daughter duo napping with the caption âmy girlsâ). Many people thought this was a PR stunt, just because it was so unlike Harry to post something like that. But he had actually confirmed in an interview that, yes, he was in a relationship with the songwriter and it was pretty serious. That was all he chose to say, in favor of keeping his secrecy, as he so famously loves to do.
What came as a shock to the audience was what the child had called Harry. They all knew about Stella, obviously, but no one would have thought that this child would think of him as her father. A lot of people didnât like thinking about Harry being a father.
âWhat are you doing out here baby?â He said into her ear, making sure he could hear her over the loud noise of the audience. Most of them loved getting glimpses into his life, so the crowd was excited to see Stella out on stage and many thought it was adorable that she already thought of him as her dad.
âMissed you.â She said into his neck. The microphone had somehow picked up their little exchange and the whole crowd sighed a collective âaweâ when she said that. She was perched on his hip with her little arms wrapped around his neck, her favorite place if she had to choose one. She was pretty small for a 4-year-old, most people usually thought she was younger.
Harry chuckled and saw Y/n standing there with a smile on her face. Mitch was giggling at the exchange and kept glancing back at Sarah with a knowing look of âThatâs going to be us soon,â written on his face.
âI missed you too lovebug, but Iâm in the middle of a show! I gotta send you back to mumma.â He said. Stella didnât like that though, because as soon as the words left his lips she was clinging to him like he was her life force and the tears began streaming down her face. She didnât like having to share her daddy. She just wanted to be held by him right now, and sheâd be damned if she got anything but her way.
This amused everyone, the child's insistence to be in her father's arms, so he sighed and bent to her will because how could he say no to his baby girl?
So he walked over to her mom and got her headphones, slipping them on her, and walked back to his microphone with her on his hip, ready to start the next song.
âHarry and Stellaâ was trending on twitter the very next morning. No one could get enough of the father-daughter duo.
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Y/n hadnât been this nervous since she was about to give birth to Stella. She stood with her baby in her arms as Harry opened the door to his childhood home, announcing to his mom and sister that they were there. She had to wipe her sweaty palms on her jeans more than once.
Anne rushed out from wherever she had been, greeting the three of them. Stella had met Anne via FaceTime many times so it was not news to her (or Gemma) that Harry had stepped into the role of Stellaâs father. She will admit she was surprised at first but then she was reminded that Harry had been in their lives for almost a year before Stella had asked the question. It wasnât something that was rushed into.
Anne was very excited to be meeting her grandbaby and was very excited to meet the girl that had made her a grandmother.
Stella got shy, not being used to seeing âNanaâ in person. Gemma had emerged from her spot in the kitchen as well, greeting everyone.
âHello, my loves! How was the trip?â Anne said, kissing both of them on the cheek, her hand gently caressing the child's cheek in an attempt to get her out of her shell. Once she realized that this was her Nana that was standing before her, Stella reached out for Anne, silently asking to be held by her. Anne jumped at the chance, sweeping the baby into her arms and giving her a big hug, kissing her on the forehead multiple times, not being able to quell her affection for her first grandchild.
âIt was good mum, Stell slept the whole way and traffic was pretty light,â Harry said, slipping his hand into his girlfriendâs, brushing his thumb back and forth trying to help calm her anxieties. For whatever reason, Y/n was worried that Gemma and Anne wouldnât like her because she had come into their son/brother's life with a child, but it was clear that the two ladies loved the idea of Harry being Stellaâs father.
âOh, that's lovely!â She smiled, cuddling Stella impossibly closer to her. Y/n felt most of her worries melt away seeing the woman with her baby.
She felt silly for thinking Anne would be anything but happy.
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Anne would not put Stella down for anything. The two were attached at the hip every waking second. Y/n was actually starting to miss her baby, but she appreciated getting to spend time with Harry without having to keep an eye on their little one. Gemma was absolutely smitten with Stella as well. She was very excited to be âAuntie Gemâ as Stella had quickly adapted to calling her. Stella was very happy as well. She had never been around so much family in her whole life. Sheâd been so used to just her and her mom, and then just them and Harry, but now she had two whole grandmaâs all to herself and an auntie she gets to call her own, something she never knew she was missing, that Y/n never thought her baby would get to have.
Harry was so happy to see his baby with Anne and Gemma. They had been bumped to spot number 3 and 4 on his favorite girl list, with Stella and Y/n taking spots 1 and 2. They didnât mind one bit.
âDaddy, can we watch a movie?â Stella jumped up onto his lap as he and Y/n sat on the couch, just talking and enjoying each other's company. Y/n smiled at the girl, tightening her grip around Harryâs shoulders, resting her head in the crook of his neck.
âOf course we can lovebug! Go get Nana and auntie Gem and weâll all pick one out together!â He replied, petting her wild baby hairs out of her eyes just like he always did.
âAuntie Gemma said to ask you if we could watchâŠâ She paused for a second, her little finger tapping on her chin like she couldnât remember what she was gonna say. Suddenly, she was up and running back to the hallway she had just come from. Y/n and Harry heard little whispers before she came running back out and plopped back onto Harryâs lap, on âoofâ erupting from him.
âThis Is Us!â She finally said. Harryâs face dropped as he looked behind them to see Gemma standing there, trying to hold back her laughter. Y/n just started cackling and Stella was giggling even though she had no idea what was going on.
âDaddyâs in that movie baby,â Y/n finally calmed down enough to say to her daughter. The little oneâs eyes lit up, her hands clasped underneath her chin. This was what she did when she wanted her daddy to say yes to her because she knew he couldnât resist how adorable she was.
âPlease please please!!!!!!â She whined, leaning in to place her forehead against Harryâs. She knew exactly how to get him. He caved every single time.
âYeah, fine. We can watch it!â He finally said and all three girls cheered. Anne came in at the noise wondering what was going on.
âWhatâs all this?â She asked and Stella ran up to her, pulling on her
âWe watching Daddyâs movie Nana!â She said, jumping up and down with a glowing beam on her face.
âOh, are we now? Which one?â Anne asked and Stella paused.
âDaddy, how many movies awe you in?â She came back and crawled into his lap. She still had trouble saying her râs. Her and Harry were working on it.
âTwo, lovebug. But one of them you canât watch until youâre older. Itâs too scary fâyou.â He said, cuddling his baby into his chest. She put on a little pout hearing that. She didnât like when her daddy told her no, but this was something he wasnât gonna budge on.
âOk,â She sighed. All the adults thought this was adorable.
So they all settled in and watched the movie. Harry had a permanent blush on his face and Stella would jump up and down every time he was on the screen.
âNana look!! Thatâs you!!â Anne laughed and nodded to her granddaughter.
âYes, it is baby!â
âMommy, why arenât you in this movie?â She asked and everyone giggled.
âMe and Daddy didnât know each other very well back then, baby.â Y/n laughed. Stella didnât really understand but she didnât say anything else.
The last few days had worn her out and that became very obvious when Harry looked down and saw his baby asleep on his chest, her first finger stuck in her mouth just like it always was when she fell asleep.
âLove, Iâm gonna go lay her down, and then Iâll be right back,â Harry whispered, cradling the sleeping girl in his arms and slowly standing up. Y/n nodded, kissing his cheek before he left.
âHeâs so good with her!â Gemma cooed, her face lighting up seeing her brother with his kid. A sight she was still kind of getting used to seeing.
âHe really isâŠâ Y/n smiled, âIt was pretty instant too. Anytime heâd come over and she was still awake, heâd insist on putting her to bed, reading to her, singing to her, heâd bring her toys. Sheâs had him wrapped around her little finger since he first laid eyes on her.â
âThatâs so precious,â Anne spoke up, coming to sit next to her, wrapping Y/n in her warm embrace.
âI canât wait until you two get married!â Y/n laughed at Gemmaâs confession, snuggling into Anne.
âAll he has to do is ask, Iâm ready to say yes!â What none of the girls knew was that Harry was standing right outside the living room, hearing everything that was being said. His mind raced back to his suitcase where a velvet box sat tucked away between all of his clothes.
He was hesitant to bring the idea up because it had only been a year, but the saying when you know, you know he thought.
He came back into the living room, acting none the wiser, sitting on the other side of the girl he was going to marry (she just didnât know it yet), and cuddled into her just as she had cuddled into his mom.
âDaddy,â A small voice broke through the now quiet hum of the tv.
âLovebug, what are you doing back up?â He asked, lifting the sleepy little thing into his lap.
âScawwy dweam, daddy.â She said and he pouted, pulling her closer into his chest and snuggling her back to sleep.
Harry was exactly where he belonged in life. With his baby girl in his arms, and his Love by his side.
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Haikyuu Boys Walking In On You Dancing (smexy edition)
Lineup: Tsukishima Kei, Azumane Asahi, Kozume Kenma, Yamamoto Taketora and Oikawa TĆru.
Warning: cursing, one mention of alcohol, and suggestive smexy content
A/Note: So yes two in a day, I was extra motivated yâall donât question it. Itâs probably because itâs been so long. The songs are just what I like to listen to, m sorry.
Tsukishima Kei
âŹâ©âȘâ© Sean Paul â She Doesnât Mind â©âȘâ©âŹ
Tsukishima was looking for his bluetooth headphones everywhere because he was positive he had left them on the couch, in the living room. However, they seemed to have grown legs and walked elsewhere, he joked to himself. âY/N! Shorty! Have you seen my headphones?â he called loudly but no response. He walked through the house shouting your name but you were nowhere to be found. Tsukishima glanced at the clock on the wall; it read 4:30PM. He considered maybe you had been outside, possibly reading a book which you often did.
He was right; there you were blanket laid on the grass with the long-forgotten book and you standing up dancing with his headphones. You hadnât seen him yet and he had considered stopping you but he just couldnât. Kei stood at the door admiring the way your hips rolled and body moved. He wondered what you were listening to make you dance this way, so beautifully, so erotically. Tsukishima wasnât much of a dancer but heâd love to be body to body with you right now. He had clearly gotten a bit too excited and the tent in his pants was proof. His cheeks burned red in embarrassment, you still dancing, unaware of his presence.
He quietly crept up behind you gently clasping his hands around your waist. You jumped a bit, immediately lowering the headphones. âI was looking for those you know,â he whispered lowly in your ear. âI- Iâm sorry you can have them back now,â you apolgise trying to turn around. He held your body still, pressing his closer to yours. Then you felt it, the hardness pressed against your back, âBut I want something else now. Hmmmm. Care to help me with it shortcake?â he asked his hands finding his way below your shirt, caressing your chest and brushing over your nipples. âK- Kei weâre outside. S-someone could see,â you tried reasoning.
âReally⊠Hmm you didnât seem to mind a few seconds ago. So unless you want the neighbors to get a perfect view of your body being wrecked which Iâm sure they wouldnât mind get your ass on the bed upstairs right now,â he said biting your ear, eliciting a whimper from you. âI- y-yes sir,â you reply, pulling yourself from his grasp to go upstairs, he followed closely behind.
Azumane Asahi
âŹâ©âȘâ© Bailando â Enrique Iglesias â©âȘâ©âŹ
Asahi was busy at work in his office; with a tight deadline and 3 designs to perfect every waking hour was spent working. But heâs been staring at the blank page for the past 20 minutes with no breakthrough and itâs not because he couldnât come up with anything, he just couldnât concentrate. Why? Because right now you were just outside his door in the living room blasting music. Itâs not like you meant to disturb him or had forgotten either, he just didnât tell you.
He knows youâd insist on staying up to ungodly hours with him as he finished his designs so he told you heâd be in bed shortly, he just had some papers to sign. He hoped you would go to sleep but nope. Asahi wanted to leave you to your music he truly did, he knew you were happiest when youâre dancing and enjoying yourself but he wanted to enjoy it with you. The faster he finished the faster he could come and be with you, so he decided to tell you.
âHey-,â the words died in his throat as his eyes landed on you. Asahi considered retreating to his office right now but he couldnât move. You hadnât heard him and he was kind of glad you didnât. Your hips swayed to the beat, moving in just the right way, his eyes didnât leave you. Your clothes hugged your body just right even if they were just sleepwear. Was that really what you wore to sleep he thought? If he had noticed all this sooner he was sure your nights would end a much different way. Asahiâs face flushed red; he cursed himself for thinking such inappropriate thoughts.
Your hands trailed up your body that was moving to the music as you finally turned to see him. âOh! Hey, honey. I didnât see you there,â you paused the music and walked up to him. âI- I wanted you to turn down the music. I- mean if thatâs alright,â he said scratching his neck. âYeah yeah. Iâm sorry honey. Lemme do that and you can get back to your work,â you pulled his hand to your lips placing a kiss on them, and walking back to the speaker. âW-wait could you umm maybe help me with something. It's fine if you canât,â he waved his hands in front of him. You look down to find a very turned-on Asahi and chuckled, âMmmm Of course honey. Maybe next time you can join me dancing. I didnât know you liked it so much.â Asahi hid his face in his hands as he followed you to the bedroom.
Kenma Kozume
âŹâ©âȘâ© LUV â Tory Lanez â©âȘâ©âŹ
Kenma was busy working a TikTok Livestream because his followers and subscribers have been bombarding his inbox with messages to get one. He was currently in the process of making sure everything was in order as people started popping in and saying hi. You were in the bedroom trying to strike up some inspiration but instead, you got so caught up in the music. Meanwhile, Kenma was telling them about his day but the chat was blowing up with questions so he had skipped over to answer them.
About an hour had passed and he was getting a bit hungry so he decided to headed over to the kitchen, phone in hand to get some apple pie from the fridge. Everyone started commenting typical Kodzuken, a couple people suggested that he ask you if you wanted any. His fan base was very familiar with your presence and often asked for ideas where he would interact with you. The community loved seeing the softer side of Kenma that came out when you were around. His phone was turned to face you so everyone could see you when he entered.
Not even five seconds after he opened the door he closed it. âHey guys, ummm I need to go. Iâll come back later. Kodzuken out,â he quickly ended the stream and turned off his phone. âHey, baby. Are you ok?â you peeked out from the door one side of your bluetooth earbuds still in. His face was tinted pink as he pushed you into the room, âI- Kitten ⊠umm my fan base just saw⊠they ⊠well how you were dancing and I-,â you stopped him pulling him to lay his head on your lap. âIâm sorry baby, but itâs nothing special. Was I bad?â You ask while stroking his hair but he sat straight up. âNo! I mean no, you werenât bad. It was just,â he played with his fingers, âIt was just really seductive and it's thatâs not really for my fan base to see. â
âOh? Then who is it for then? Hmmm,â you asked in a teasing manner. He was embarrassed but still confidently answered, âFor me ok. Itâs for me now stop teasing me ok,â he pouted turning away from you. You giggled, âIâm sorry but maybe you want me to continue. For you alone that is?â He thought about it but then his stomach growled, âOk I do but maybe eat some apple pie with me first?â You nodded and you both headed to the kitchen but donât think he forgot about your suggestion.
Yamamoto Taketora
âŹâ©âȘâ© Fast Wine â Machel Montano â©âȘâ©âŹ
Today had gone by pretty slow, and you spent it watching movies and just spending time with Yamamoto. But now it was a bit later and you were feeling some creative juices flowing so you decided to put that to use you grabbed your stuff and set it up at the kitchen counter. He decided to up Kenmaâs offer to play some games. About two hours had gone by and your shoulder was getting pretty sore. The playlist was pretty upbeat and just as you had gotten up a dance-worthy song had begun to play. You thought maybe itâd be a good warm-up.
You were swaying your body to the beat and getting in the rhythm. Your hips moved freely as you dragged your hand over your body and fit your dancing to the nature of the song. What you didn't know, is as soon as you started to dance Taketora was coming to get some snacks and check up on you. But his plans changed when he saw you dancing, he froze. If he went back now heâd definitely have to take a cold shower and he saw no difference if he stayed. So he decided to enjoy it for a bit. His cheeks were lightly dusted pink and the situation in his pants was only getting harder.
He felt weird just standing there, kind of like he was being a creep so he decided to quickly run to the kitchen and run back as the song came to a close. âH-hey baby. Just getting a snack and heading back,â he said hurriedly. âOh ok. Did you enjoy the view?â you quirked your eyebrow smirking at him. âW-what? I didnât see anything just you baby always se- I mean beautiful as ever,â he turned away from you and opened the fridge. You slowly walk up behind him, and start climbing your fingers up his arms, âReally nothing? I guess thatâs too bad, I wanted to know what you thought. Guess I just have to assume it was terrible.â
âWait! Baby your dancing is really amazing and sexy! How could you say itâs bad!â he shouted covering his face in realisation of what he just said. You burst out in a fit of laughter, it was so easy to get him to admit things, âBabe Iâm sorry but Iâm glad you like it. I didnât know how much you saw I only caught you down to the end. But Iâm glad you like it I but I do see that your little friend down there liked it much more.â You pointed down to his crotch which he covered while flushing bright red. âIâm sorry I- umm Iâll take care of it,â he apologised turning to leave. âHow about we both have a shower and I can fix it for you hmm,â you held his hand and whispered in his ear. âY-yes p-please. Thank you,â he looked down blushing as you led him to the bathroom.
Oikawa TĆru
âŹâ©âȘâ© Hips Donât Lie â Shakira â©âȘâ©âŹ
Oikawa was gone for practice and you decided itâd be fun to catch up with your friends because it had been a while. You were on a video call and you guys had started talking about music and gotten into a bit of details about dancing. So now you and all your friends were showing their wining and grinding skills. This was a rather normal occurrence because in all honestly things always got wild between you guys. Put the three of you in a club and all eyes would be on you in no time. It was always a surprise how a couple shots could go such a long way.
You were going off to this song, all the seductive movements, hands dragging over the dips of your body and your hips moving at just the right tempo. TĆru had forgotten his water bottle and came back only to find you dancing. Turned on was an understatement but his time in Brazil gave him experience in more than one way and he was going to use that. This man was not shy but he did wait for the right moment to jump in. He came up behind you resting his hands on your waist, guiding your movement with his. âHey cutie, moving that beautiful body of yours I see,â he whispered in your ear gently biting it. âYou startled me,â you smiled still dancing as you put your arms back against his chest and dragged your body down his, slowly coming back up.
He started placing kisses on your neck, âMmmm m sorry, fuck Iâm not gonna make it to practice baby.â He twirled you away from his body only to bring you back and dip you. He smiled and pulled you up for a kiss. Suddenly, whistles and claps erupted, âShit- I forgot I was talking to them.â He chuckled as they asked where they can find themselves an Oikawa TĆru. âWell ladies thereâs only one and I donât think Y/N-chan is sharing,â giving them a wink.
âWell, I donât know you cause a lot more problems than fix them,â you joke as he clutched his chest. âHow rude Y/N-chan! Maybe Iâll take your friends up on their offer then,â he crossed his arms and pouted childishly. âYouâre not going anywhere, youâre all mine mister, and now whatâs that about not going to practice. What did you have in mind?â you asked ending the call with your friends. He didnât reply, just grabbed you by the waist and placed you on his lap, earning a small squeak from you.
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i like how u write Shigaraki đłâ€ can u do maybe some bully reader with a sprinkle of virgin!shiggy hehe đ„° reader can be dom or sub its up to you!! â€
AH iâve been meaning to check my inbox but ommmg this motivates me so much, thank you ! <3 I decided to do some dom reader - hope its ok!
âš paring â Virgin! Tomura Shigaraki x Fem! Bully! ReaderÂ
âš warnings â Sub! Shigaraki, Dom! Reader, slight mommy kink, slight masturbation, humiliation, degradation, cum denial, begging
PART 2
Shigaraki slumped into the ground, his back against the now wet wall. It hasnât even been 3rd period yet and you already completely ruined his day. You and your group of followers threw water at him, something about him smelling bad. His papers and books were thrown out of his bag, soggy and falling apart from the water poured on them and his favorite hoodie now uncomfortably wet.Â
Shigaraki would already be late to class by now so he didnât bother to scurry off like your friends did when they heard the late bell for class. You walked a bit behind them, turning your head back at him a few times before completely disappearing down the hall.Â
Shigaraki wasnât sure what he did for you to hate him so much. It was almost like you were out to get him since day one. And of course, you being so popular, it made him the school outcast, well, even more of an outcast.
He tried everything â ignoring you, doing everything you asked him, even trying to fight back. The last try left him with a sprained wrist and bruised cheek. So in the end, everything left him either humiliated, damaged, or hurt.Â
He finally stood up as he heard footsteps from a hall monitor coming down the hall he was in, grabbing his backpack that contained the remaining contents of his school stuff before running off into a nearby bathroom to hide. Luckily, nobody was there to see how disheveled he looked.
Shigaraki took off his hoodie, thankfully the hoodie was thick and caught most of the water, leaving his long sleeved undershirt a bit damp but nothing he couldnât handle for the rest of the day. He set everything wet under the hand drier, letting the hot air dry them a bit.Â
As he dried his face, something at on the floor caught Shigarakiâs eye. It was a small piece of paper that was also damp. He picked it up confused, did it fall out of his hoodie pocket?Â
ââShigaraki, meet me in room 204 after school today. Be there.ââ He could read out from the smudged, running ink. Shigaraki looked at it confused, yeah it was definitely for him but why? How did this even get into his pocket? Heâs usually always alone, he didnât hang out or spend his school days with anyone.
âHey! Get to class!â The voice of the hall monitor outside of the bathroom almost made him yelp. He stuffed the note into his back pocket, grabbing all his stuff that was thankfully a bit more dry before leaving.
You eyed Shigaraki from across the cafeteria, a small smirk tugged your lips as you saw him pull out the tiny piece of paper for the 12th time that lunch. A wave of satisfaction overcame you every time you saw his eyebrows furrowed at the paper.Â
You tried to make the note as vague as possible, you could tell from the confused look on his face that he didnât have a clue on who sent it. Just how you wanted it.
You turned your thoughts back to your friends, mixing your laughter with theirs. You had no idea what they were laughing at. These people are assholes, why do you hang out with them again? A small boy whimpered on the floor, his food spilled all over his body. Oh, that's why. Like hell youâd be on the receiving end of their bullying.
Itâs not like you felt bad. School was a hierarchy, these poor people were just at the bottom. When you first got here, you quickly rose to be at the top. Not like you expected to be anything less. You held yourself to a high standard, of course youâd be at the top.
So it made you sick seeing how some of these people held themselves, especially Shigaraki. He looked and smelled like he only showers every other day, he alternated between 2 hoodies each week, did he even bother to wash them?
He barely talked to anyone, usually playing some videogame on his phone. Does he not care about himself? Well maybe that was why you targeted him, you just wanted him to be better. Nothing else.
Then you noticed how much of a pervert he was. If a girl was ever near him, his eyes would automatically shoot to their chests before awkwardly shifting away from them. In P.E, you found it funny how heâd try to hide his boners after seeing all the girls in their shorts. How gross, heâs a horny little virgin.
You almost felt bad, maybe if he smelt better, maybe if he wore better clothes, maybe if he just tried to take care of himself. It was no surprise that he wasnât getting chicks. But then again, he didnât look too confident in anything. Yet alone girls.
Thatâs when you had came up with a plan. Youâd sleep with him. Donât get it wrong, you had dignity. If it was anyone else, youâd probably make fun of them even more, maybe even expose their perverted behavior.
But Shigaraki looked so helpless, if he kept up with this heâd never get better. Maybe heâd become desperate enough to start touching girls on the train to school, how disgusting.
You were doing everyone a favor. This is just charity work.
âHey.â Shigaraki jumped, what? He was even more confused then before, you? Why would you send him a letter to meet him alone after school? He stayed quiet, he backed into a desk as he heard the click of the door. Locked, shit, you locked the door. You probably were gonna beat him up, usually youâd have other people pick on him, was today finally the day youâd take more action?
âStop sweating, Iâm not here to do anything bad.â You walked in front of him, Shigaraki would be lying if he said he wasnât terrified. âUm â why.. why did you want to meet me?â Shigarakiâs voice cracked and you almost laughed, has he ever even been alone in the same room as girl?
You decided to be blunt, there was no sugar coating what was about to happen. âYouâre a virgin right, Shigaraki?â You brought your hands to the buttons of your shirt, slowly unbuttoning your top.
Shigaraki immediately felt himself starting to get hard at the sight of your bra. âWhatââ You rolled your eyes, doesnât he get it? How dense can he be? âJust answer me.âÂ
Shigaraki felt so humiliated, this was honestly worse then all the bullying he experienced from you. He has to admit to his bully that heâs a virgin, or better yet, that heâs never even gotten close touching a woman.
He couldnât lie, I mean look at him! The most action heâs gotten was those JOI videos heâd watch late at night. âYeah..â He whispered enough for you to hear, just incase anyone else was hiding in the room. â..Why?âÂ
A smirk spread across your face, just like you thought. His red face was honestly so enjoyable to see, almost just as enjoyable as seeing him try to hide how hard he was.
âI know youâre hard, Shigaraki.â Your hands moved to his crotch, palming him. âAh, ah! Wait! Iâmââ Holy shit, did he cum? Just from a bit of palming?
Your hands retracted from the damp fabric, âGod, how pathetic can you be?â Shigaraki lowered his head, you didnât want to know. Youâre the first girl to ever touch him, he didnât want to come that fast!
âIâm sorry! Please.. Iâm still hard!â Now heâs begging? He was ready for you to laugh at him and leave him a gross mess. He would understand.
âTake it out.â Shigaraki could cry right there, you were serious! He didnât know what made you want to do this now but he didnât care. All that matterâs was you wanted to fuck him.
His mind flooded to what you guys could do, would you rub his now exposed dick? Would you take it in your mouth? Better yet, what could he do to you? Heâll learn quickly, he just wants to touch your boobs!
Suddenly, he was on the floor. He couldnât even process what was going on before you straddled him. Weâre skipping straight to it? This wasnât necessarily what he saw in those porn videos but thatâs okay. His hands moved to your chest, he saw this in the porn videos too! But your hand slapped his away, âDonât touch me. You still stink.âÂ
He frowned but it was quickly gone as he felt you lower yourself on him. Shit, shit, shit, heâs inside you! Inside a pussy! You already started moving and Shigaraki already lost it. This was better than what he could ever imagine!Â
You smirked at the scene, its barely been a minute and heâs out of it. His eyes were rolled back and he was moaning louder than you! You had to admit though, you were a bit surprised he even got past 30 seconds of being inside of you.Â
âMhmmâ m...mommy!â Now you could laugh, âMommy? Really Shigaraki?â Tears were forming on the corner of his eyes, you werenât sure if it was from your words or the pleasure but you preferred if it was from both.
âIâm sorry! Itâs justâ ah!â You angled yourself to hit deeper, âNo, no, Shigaraki. Go ahead. I shouldâve known youâd be into something like that.â His moans filled the room, you were lucky this hallway was always empty after school was done.
You felt him begin to twitch, already knowing heâs about to cum. Eyes narrowed down at his messy face, heâs trying to cum inside you without you knowing?Â
You stopped moving and brought him up so he wasnât laying down anymore, âYâknow, for a virgin Iâm a bit impressed.â Shigaraki whimpered when he felt you get off of him, the feeling of your warm cunt no longer around him.
âWait! Please, pleaseâ I wasnât done!â He whined watching you put your panties back on and button your shirt back up, âYou were about to. You think I want your battery acid cum touching me?âÂ
Snickering as he heard his desperate whimpers begging you to finish him off, an overwhelming feeling of power filled you. A fake annoyed sigh caught his attention, âTake a shower tomorrow. Also wear a different top for godâs sake. If you doâ âYou brought yourself to his level on the floor, âI might let you touch me.âÂ
Shigaraki nodded furiously, âYes! I promise! I will, I will!â You turned and unlocked to the door to leave, catching one more look at his messy state. A sigh was let out of you as you closed the door, the sounds of him moaning âmommyâs pussyâ as he finished himself off, made you giggle. How sad.
You rolled your eyes, clicking heels down the hallway. You mightâve just created a new problem for yourself.Â
#shigaraki x reader#tomura shiragaki#bnha x reader#dom reader#sub shigaraki#mommy#tw humiliation#tw degradation
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better left unsaid - jjk
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genre: angst, rebounds
pairings: jungkook x reader (ft. namjoon)
warnings: arguing, alcohol, profanity, break ups, light smut, use of drugs, jungkook is a fucking dick, jungkook has major attachment issues, toxic relationships, oc cries a lot, namjoon has a heart of gold, unrequited love
synopsis: you knew you shouldnt have given him that second chance, not the third or the fourth either. no matter how much you try he always slithers his way underneath your sheets, arms wrapped around you.
word count: 2.7k
music: into your arms, so it ends?, you will fade, thinkin bout you, julia, my insecurities not yours, fuck u, goodluck, my dear i will think of you
note: uhh ive never written a y/n fic so bare with me, if u listen to the music youâll be able to feel the story a lot more so yeah if u have time u should, not proof read
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Light coming through the cracks of the blinds, making you squint your eyes when the daylight beams into your eyes, head resting on the kitchen island Looking up, you saw the clock ticking on the wall, 11:32 am.
You had stayed up till 5 am, waiting for him to come home, but seemingly, he never did. Reaching for your phone, you saw 4 missed calls from the one and only,
Jeon Jungkook, saved in your phone as âKoo <3âł, Rows of messages too, all from the same contact.
Koo <3 [05:34 am]
baby pkck me up pleseee
im so wsated
Koo <3 [06.46am]
dont be mad at me jsut pick me up
i dont knw hewere the fuck i am
i love you
Koo <3 [07:31 am]
i got a rde home iâll be home by 12
i need to talk to someone frsit
im sorry if i woke ypu dont be worried
You took a few moments to collect your thoughts, but there wasnât much to collect. This whole thing, was a routine by now.
Standing up to make yourself a cup of coffee, you could literally not feel your own backside, you were so sore from the barstool you had been sitting on all night, and it made you groan in pain.
Two coffee cups right beside the kitchen sink, which you couldnât bring yourself to clean up, because it was from the last time you had coffee together, which was 2 weeks ago.
The inside of the cup had a coffee crust at the top, and both your lip tint marks on the outside.
When you finish your cup of coffee while watching a bad telenovela, you go sit in your favorite chair and pull out a few books from the backpack hanging on the chair next to you, getting ready to get some studying done.
For a few seconds you imagine Jungkook hanging over your shoulder laughing at the way you write your A-s and R-s, or the way you always sign your homework at the bottom of the page.
And when you open them, thereâs no one there. The only sound is from the refrigerator, making refrigerator noises.
You had met Jungkook 3 years ago, when you were at college orientation, senior year of high school. He also wanted to attend Yonsei, just like you.
And when he whispered to you about how bored he was, you couldnât help but giggle, and then you got yelled at.
It was worth it though, because everyone was jealous of you afterwards,the Jeon Jungkook had talked to you.
Jungkook was an all-rounder as they called it; great physique, intelligent, charismatic and great at sports.
And god, he had a beautiful face, and such a filthy mouth, and it didnât go long before you gave in to his seductive ways and slept with him. The morning after, he wasnât in bed with you, and your heart sank.
Luckily, he was in the kitchen making you breakfast.
It was all bliss from there, showering you with love, gifts and kisses for two years, and you even ended up moving in together.
And now? You barely remember what he sounds like, smells like and is like.
A distant memory, just as distant as him.
Your train of thought was suddenly interrupted as you heard 3 knocks on your door. The exact same way he had always knocked when he had forgotten (or lost) his keys.
And even though you should have let him suffer a little, you rushed to the door to open it, and in front of you, was your biggest nightmare.
It was your love, crying his eyes out, bleeding from one of many cuts on his face, looking nearly dead. He collapsed into your arms, and you could only utter a few words, along the lines of:
âHow could you do this to us?â
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As he was laying curled up in a ball on the couch, face plastered up, ice bag on his knee, wrapped up in a blanket, you realized. this was your que to cry.
So, you did. You cried in silence, sitting across the room from him. You werenât mad at him for coming home late, or getting in another fight, probably the 5th just these past months, you had gotten used to that by now.
There was a whole other reason that made you cry.
He smelled like Victorias Secret Bombshell, you recognized the scent because it used to be your favorite, however, now youâve moved onto something less sweet, and more elegant, like Caroline Herrera.
He smelled like someone who wasnât you, his girlfriend.
He smelled like another girl.
It didnât hurt as much as you thought it would. Maybe because the Jungkook that had come home to you that morning wasnât your Jungkook.
Your Jungkook was varsity jackets, star of the american football team (which your school was known for), selfless and humorous, and he would always take care of you.
Your Jungkook was not ungroomed hair, cigarettes and worsening grades. He was not cold and lifeless, and he would never make you cry.
Despite this, you were carding your fingers though his hair, thumb wiping away the blood on his lips while he was sound asleep as you slowly fell asleep next to him.
Maybe it was time to let him go.Â
Maybe.
You woke a few hours later from your phone vibrating.
Kim Namjoon (school) [07:01 pm]
Hey Y/N! Have you started working on the statistics assignment?
If you havenât, would you be interested in meeting at the library tomorrow? Youâre really smart and iâm kinda struggling ://
You [07:03 pm]
i finished it yesterday, but if you buy me coffee iâll come help you hehe
Kim Namjoon (school) [07:04 pm]
Youâre the best, Iâll bring you a machiatto!! :D
Maybe it would be nice for you to get out of the house, even though you hate the thought of it, and you would much rather just swim in your own sorrow.
But you did go out the next day, and you helped Namjoon get a decent grade, enough to pass with good margines, he thanked you by taking you out for ramen at a convenial store not too far away.
You thanked him for the ramen with a trip to the museum, and he thanked you for the museum trip with a picnic in the park at night, which led you to crying over Jungkook in his embrace, telling him every single little detail.
He made you realize it was time to let Jungkook go and make room for new people to enter your life.
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You went home that night, and you found Jungkook passed out on the couch, and you could genuienly feel your chest tighten. Soft features which stood out under the moonlight glow, disheveled brown locks which hung down in his eyes.
He was gorgeous, until you saw the credit card on the table next to three bottles of soju and an empty beer can on the floor. And you knew what he had used the credit card for, though you didnât want to say it out loud.
You cleaned everything up, and you threw the residue of the white powder right in the trash can, and you recycled his bottles and cans before finally, nudging him to wake up.
âJungkook, wake up.â You spat coldly, or at least you attempted to.
He groaned, rubbing his eyes before opening his eyes, and s huge smile on his face. âY/N, youâre home!â He reached to kiss you, but you backed away.
âY/N?â Jungkook questioned, he didnât quite understand what your intentions were.
âDonât try anything Jungkook. This was your last chance, and you fucked it up, again.â The room turned ice cold. âIâm getting you help Jungkook, you need help. And then...â
He understood what kind of help you meant, and since he had now sobered up, he agreed, nodding. âAnd then...?âÂ
âAnd then.â Your words were ludged in your throat. âAnd then Iâm leaving you.â
His whole face dropped, smile turned into the frowniest frown you had ever seen, and it was all silent before his lower lip starts trembling, and his eyes start turning glassy.
âItâs alright. Sorry for burdening you.â Was all he could say before tears rushed down his cheeks, and he started shaking.
So you did what you always had done, and you wrapped your arms around him, head resting on your chest as he sobbed.
âIs there anyone else?â he cried out before another wave of sobs hit him.
This exact question made your stomach hurt, and your throat burn. You really had no idea.
Or you did, but you didnât want to.
You loved Jungkook so much, but you couldnât be with him in this state. So you did what every rational person would do in this situation.
âYeah.â
You lied.
âOh ok. I donât have the right to be mad do I?â
You shake your head no.
âI love you Y/N. Iâm sorry Iâm so messed up.â
âItâs ok.â was all he said before he fell asleep in your arms again.
That night you slither your way out of his embrace and you pack your suitcase in the dark, bringing all your essentials, trying to be as quiet as possible so you didnât wake Jungkook.
Packing enough for two weeks or so, you make the bed and leave your t-shirt âaccidentallyâ in the bathroom, and you make sure all his clothes are folded, and then you sort his pencil case, throwing out old pens and worn out erasers.
You leave a grocery list on the counter, and you tuck him in good under the blankets after you took his jeans and socks off so he could sleep comfortably.
You placed his vitamins and medicine by the refrigerator so heâll see it when he goes to grab something to eat.Â
Puffed up pillows, a pair of sweatpants, t-shirt and underwear is now placed neatly on his bed. Then you walk into the kitchen again, and you see Jungkook still sound asleep, sniffling a little still.
Thereâs one last thing, and it makes you cry. It makes you sob so loud you cover your mouth and muffle the sound you make. Sinking to the floor, your whole body is in contact with the cold tiles.
Only a year ago you could never imagine yourself even shedding a single tear over something as small as this, but here you were, on the edge of a panic attack.
Two worn out, matching couple mugs still placed by the counter. one if the first things you two had bought together, as well as the necklace hanging around your neck.
Finally, you stopped crying and started cleaning the mugs, lip trembling as you dried them and placed them in the back of the cabinet.
You unhooked your necklace and laid it down on the counter, and the biggest lump formed in your throat.
Actually, thereâs a little detail you forget.Â
You kiss Jungkook on the forehead and leave a note on the coffee table.
âDear Jungkook,
If you want to make this up to me (this does not mean a new chance!!) you call the number at the bottom of the page. No matter what happens, Iâll always have room for you in my heart. You even have your own little VIP lobby in there. And - if itâs urgent, call. I still care for you, and I always have. You were the best boyfriend Iâve had, but good things always come to and end, donât they? Anyways, Iâm tired so this letter fucking sucks, but deep down you know how much I love you. Remember to get groceries, shower, get fresh air and study. If I forgot something you can keep it, as long as you call the number and tell them youâre my friend. Theyâll help you love. Try and get a part time job too, your student loan and your dadâs money wonât last forever. Good luck Koo. Hwaiting!!
-L/N Y/N <33âł
You cringe when you think of the letterâs contents, before you roll out your suitcase out of the front door, whispering a faint âGoodnight Love.â as you close and lock the door behind you.
Standing by the elevator, you cry again. This time, louder, but you still reach for your phone and type out a text to the newly edited contact in your phone.
You [02:13 am]
coming outside now, im a crying mess and im super cold, is your car heated?
sorry for making you wait btw :((
Joonie <3 [02:13 am]
dont worry about the crying part, iâll hold you. and yeah car is heated, so waiting here wasnt all that bad. you ready for this?
You [02:14 am]
i have no idea but i cant stay here any longer and i trust you sooo
lets start our new chapter. eh?
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4 months later...
He had been good to you, great even.
You had been on expensive dates, picnics, had heart to heart conversations, and heâd been so understanding.
Today, it was your 2 month anniversary, and he had asked you on a magnificent date, which he had planned every second of.
At the end of the day, you told him how you donât love him. He said it was alright. Namjoon loved you, so much, yet he understood you needed time.
You went to sleep that day, warm in Namjoonâs embrace, wondering how Jungkook was doing.Â
You felt bad, but you missed Jungkook.
You were both with someone new now, and you knew he was in good hands with someone stable enough to care for him.
Before your eyes closed shut, you shed a few quiet tears and hoped that youâd fall in love with Namjoon soon, and deep down you knew you would.
#jungkook x reader#jungkook angst#namjoon smut#jungkook ff#bts ff#bts imagines#bts scenarios#namjoon ff#bangtan smut#jungkook#jeon jeongguk#jeongguk ff
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Match made in Hell : Chapter Thirteen
A/N : And this is it the last and final chapter. Kinda sad but mostly happy to finally finish this series. Hope you like this chapter. Let me know what you think.
Pairing : Mob! Tom Holland x Reader
Summary : you always wanted a simple life but to be born as the daughter of a dangerous mobster turned out to be a curse for you. Everything changes when your father gets your lover killed and forcefully marries you off to another mobster as a part of a deal. You hate your father and your husband the only thing you seek is now revenge. Will you ever be able to fall in love again or this burning hatred inside you will consume you?
Warnings : mature content, kidnapping, blood, violence, murder, death, language
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âWhat? How?â you looked at him with a worrisome face.
âWe donât know yet but we are gonna catch him donât worryâ his hands come up to your shoulders in assurance.
âThen we must go now he might be planning something dangerous to take revenge on usâ saying so you were about to rush back to your room to get dressed but Tom caught hold of your hand.
âY/N stop, you canât goâÂ
âWhy? You only said we need to catch himâ you look at him questioningly.
âBy we I meant me and the boys. You are not going anywhere, not in this conditionâ he speaks softly placing a hand gently over your stomach âyou remember what Dr. Martin said, right? No stress and as much rest as possibleâ
âBut-but you donât understand Tom I can help and I was pregnant the last time we caught himâ you argue as Tom reaches his hand out to cup your face with an understanding smile.
âI know love but we werenât aware of it at that time and I'm thankful that he didnât do anything bad but not anymore" he caressed your cheek with his thumb "Iâm not letting either of you come in harm's wayâ you were about to say something but he cut you off âplease Y/N for this time just let me handle this. I know youâre strong and the most fearless woman I have ever met in my life but for this time for their sake at least stay backâÂ
You finally gave up hanging your head low with a sigh. He was right with your current situation; it wasn't a wise idea. The risk would be too much and you canât afford it, not when itâs about the safety of the little ones growing inside you.
âOkay but promise me youâll be careful and in no circumstance you will risk your lifeâ you place your hand over his on your stomach âwe will be waiting for youâ
âI promise Iâll be safeâ he presses a soft kiss on your forehead âyou just take care of yourself. I have told the guards everything and Leslie will also be thereâ he gives a one last peck on your lips before parting âIâll be back in no time I promiseâ he reassures smiling as you nod mirroring his smile.
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Tom along with with his brothers and Harrison were at their office in Westminster discussing their next move to get hold of Ethan before he makes a move against them.
âAny news?â Tom asks Harrison.Â
âNothing,â he answers with disappointment.
âWe searched downtown but found no trace of him,â Harry informs, exchanging glances with Sam.
âHow is this even possible? A man escaped but is nowhere to be found?!â Tom groans in frustration when they are interrupted by William whom Vanessa brought along with her in case he might be able to help track down Ethan with his years of experience with your father's mob.
âOnly if the man has never left the placeâ he elucidates.
âWhat?â Tomâs brows knit in a frown.
âHas anyone seen him getting out of the house?â William throws the question to his men as they stood there silently with their gazes lowered down at the floor.Â
âAnswer the question you morons!â Tom barks at them.
âNo sirâ one of them squeaks out in response as the frown on Tomâs face grows deeper.
âWell then you have your answer Ethan is still in your house hiding maybe seeking for the right opportunityâ William remarks.
âRight opportunity for what?â Vanessa questions.
âY/N..â Tomâs voice comes out shaky as panic washes over his face at the realization âY/N is all alone in the house. We need to go now!âÂ
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You were in your room trying to keep yourself occupied by reading some books on parenting and childbirth to calm your nerves which honestly wasnât helping much cause you knew how dangerous it is with Ethan escaping and the vipers seeking revenge. Since no one would be informing you about anything you thought itâs best, you take a nap as stressing about it will be useless and in turn be bad for the two little beans inside you.Â
You were about to lie down when you heard shuffling noises outside of your room. Your hand instantly reached out to your bedside table, opening the drawer you took out your gun and got off the bed. You carefully tip-toed out of your room, eyes scanning the corridors when you felt someoneâs presence behind you. You cocked your gun ready to turn and shoot.Â
âI wouldnât dare to do thatâ you heard, feeling the muzzle of a gun pressed to the back of your head.Â
âEthan?â you frowned deeply.
âMiss me baby?â his voice dark and full of malice. You went to shove him in the stomach with your elbow but he was quick to catch hold of your hand and twist it back as the gun fell from your grasp on the floor.
âYouâre getting clumsy sweetheartâ he chuckles tauntingly.
âWhat do you want?!â you hissed struggling to set free.
âYouâll get to know soon but for now start walkingâ
âWhat makes you think Iâll listen to whatever you say?â you grit under your teeth.Â
âWell honey news is in the air that you're pretty knocked up right now" he snickers and your throat went dry, he knows "so if you don't do what I say I wouldnât hesitate for a moment to pull the triggerâÂ
Usually you were tough and it takes a lot to shake you but now it is different. You couldnât think of fighting back as fear grasped on to your mind and body. You werenât alone, you had two lives growing inside you and in no way you were going to put their lives in danger so you remained quiet and decided to do exactly what you were told. You slowly walked down the stairs with Ethan behind you holding you by your arm with one hand the other had his gun pointed at the back of your head when Leslie walked out of the kitchen.
âMaâam!â she gasped in horror and immediately pressed the alarm on the nearby wall to alert the guards outside as she rushed towards you in an attempt to save you.
âGet back or she diesâ Ethan threatens, pressing the gun further to your head.
âItâs ok Les just stay where you areâ you say calmly. Two of Tomâs men posted at the gate barged in pointing their guns.
âPut down your gun now or youâll regret itâ they threaten, cocking their guns which made Ethan chuckle darkly.
âYou really thought I would be so stupid to do this all aloneâ he snickers when three men dressed in all black rounded them from behind. They pulled out their guns and within seconds several gunshots were fired piercing through their bodies as both of the guards dropped dead.
âLeslie run!â you shout at her.Â
âButâŠâ she hesitates.
âJust go or they will kill you!â you tell her as she unwillingly ran to the back of the mansion to get out of the place.
âYes, run to your boss and tell him that I got his most prized possession and soon Iâll have this whole city within my palms tooâ he grins wickedly. He then drags you out of the front door to the driveway where two SUVâs were parked.
âC'mon get inside the carâ he nudged you as you reluctantly got in the passenger seat while he sat on the driver's seat and starts the car.
âEthan you donât wanna do thisâ you tried to talk some sense into him.
âOh hell I wanna do it. Today I take back what is rightfully mine. Now shut the fuck up!â he yelled at you while driving and you flinched feeling utterly helpless.
âTom is on his way he is gonna kill you and if my dad comes to knowâ you glared at him.
âI donât care what that bastard wants, he has been using me to take hold of the drug cartel but I was the one who was using him to set up my own gang to take my sweet revenge. Your daddy thinks he owns the vipers, no honey, it's me who gives them the ordersâ he laughs when his eyes go to the phone in your hands âgive me your phoneâ he orders.
âWhy?â you tried to hide it away from him
âJust give it to me dammit!â he snatched it out of your hand and threw it out of the window on the side of the road ânow no one will know where you areâ he chuckles darkly speeding away through the traffic.
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âY/N! Y/N! Where are you?!â Tom stormed inside the house to be met with the two dead bodies of his men in a pool of blood.
âOh God!â V gasped in horror and the boys were left dumbfounded at the scene in front of them..
âY/N! Where are you?!â Tom called out again desperately.
âSir!â a very terrified Leslie came running from the back of the house.
âLeslie, where is Y/N? Answer me!â he demanded.
âThey took her sirâ she broke down into tears as Tom felt the ground slipping from under his feet.Â
âUggh this is all my fault!â he knocks off the glass sculpture kept on the nearby table out of rage.
âTom, calm down, get yourself together!â Harrison stops him from breaking any other things further.
âHow can I stay calm Harrison?! That bastard took her and I wasnât even there to save her. Now I donât know where she is or even if she is alive or notâ he laments.
âYou need to think clearly, Tom. He wonât do anything to her Iâm sure not until he gets what he wantsâ William remarks and just then Tomâs phone rang with an unknown caller id
âTake it Iâm sure itâs himâ William advised he pressed the call button as Ethanâs face became visible on the scream.Â
âHey Tom, whatâs up man?â he says with a smug grin.
âYou scum, where is Y/N?! If you lay a finger on her youâre gonna die a very brutal death!â Tom barked.
âOh donât worry, she's alright. For now. Say hi to your husband honeyâ he mocks flipping the camera towards you. Tomâs heart clenched seeing you tied up to a chair. You looked completely exhausted as you somehow lifted your face up to face the camera.
âY/NâŠâ he croaks a lump growing inside his throat as he fights back his tears after seeing you being treated like this when you should in the comfort of your home.Â
âTom-Tom, donât agree to what he says itâs a tra-â you tried to warn him but were quickly cut off.
âOkay thatâs enough sweetheartâ
âGive me my Y/N back!â Tom growled in rage.
âWoah not so fast not until you give me what I wantâ he remarks with a smug grin.
âWhat the hell do you want?!â
âNothing much, just hand over your mob and accept my allegiance only then you'll get your wife back. Iâm giving you 12 hours to think Tom after that Iâll empty this gun into her headâ he threatens and the call disconnects.
âHey wait!â Tom yells at the dark screen.
âLetâs go! We donât have much timeâ Tom was about to rush out when Harry stopped him
âWait Tom, are you seriously going to hand over everything?â
âI'm ready to give up everything for Y/N. I don't give a fuck about the mob because thatâs the reason behind Y/N, my wife, the mother of children is being held captive in the first place!â he snaps.
âDonât do anything in a rush you donât want to strengthen your enemyâs power do you?â William remarks..
âYes Tom, I agree with William too. You do remember what the Coopers did back then before your dad had to kill them himself?â Harrison reminded him.
âYes I do but what option do we have?â Tom sighed unable to find a way out
âYou have an optionâ V speaks up
âWhat?âÂ
âAsk papa for helpâ she suggests
âAre you out of your mind?! Youâre telling me to ask another enemy of ours for help for whom Y/N was almost going to die!â Tom says disapproving her idea.
âJust listen to me for once all this rivalry between you and our dad is just because of the business. If he comes to know that Y/N is in danger he would certainly help cause he loves his family more than anythingâ she explains.
âVanessa is right Tom only Victor can help you. The vipers were his gang after all he will know everything and you also need more men to overpower Ethanâ William agrees.
âWhat do you guys say?â Tom looks at his brothers and Harrison.
âYou should call himâ they all suggest unanimously. After a little pondering Tom took a deep breath and dialed his number.
âYou really have the balls to call us after what you did Hollandâ Julian quipped.
âJulian you gotta listen to me mate this is important. Ethan escapedâÂ
âWell it's not our problem that he escapedâ
âHe has your sister Julianâ Tom informs.
âAnd why would I help you to save her who is the reason we are about to lose the whole drug cartelâ
âIt wasnât your sister Julian it was Ethan all along he had been double crossing you and using the vipers to grab hold of the drug cartel behind you backâ
âSo what? We just donât care now end the callâ
âJules, wait your sister is pregnantâ Tom reveals as Julian perks up at the news.
âWhat? What the hell are you talking about?â Julian asks with concern in his voice.
âShe is expecting. I know you have had issues but I also know you care for her and so does Mr. Martinez. I know he is listening to this too. It's your daughter sir and if you really want her to stop hating you then help us take down Ethanâ Tomâs voice breaks as he pleads with them.
âDad?â Julian turned to Victor.Â
âI'm gonna kill that bastard myself!â Victor mutters standing up from his chair enraged âeveryone to get ready and tell them to meet at the Docklandsâ
****
After searching for almost three hours your father was able to locate you. You were being held in an old factory near Kennington. They drove to that place as fast as they could and stopped a mile ahead to not alert his goons. Carefully they walked over to the place and took down the guards posted outside surrounding the place. Tom along with Harrison and your father and brother entered the building killing anyone who came in their way. The deserted factory echoed with the loud noise of gunshots and you knew that Tom was here to rescue you.
âYou hear that? Tom is here, youâre going to die Ethanâ you quipped a knowing smile etched on your face.
âNot so easilyâ he goes to untie the ropes and pulls you up on your feet pressing his gun against the side of your head.
âY/N!â Tom barged in.
âCome closer and she dies,â Ethan threatens.
âYou might want to reconsider mateâ Tom says with a sly smirk
âWhy is that?â
âYour sister Meredith, is her name right? And she lives in an apartment near Brixtonâ he muses âguess what? my brothers happen to be there tooâ fear washed over Ethanâs face as he realized how the tables have turned and all thanks to your father who knew about his sister and told Tom about her.
âNo, keep my sister out of thisâ he says weakly.
âYou left me no choice mateâ Tom tsks âitâs over Ethan so let Y/N go and no one gets hurtâ he warns him as Ethan removes the gun from your head and lets go of you. You take one quick glance at him and then look at Tom standing in front of you. You immediately strided your way towards him with tears in your eyes but Ethan had something else in his mind. He lifted his gun again and pulled the trigger aiming at your back.
âY/N!!â Tom shrieked but before the bullet could hit you Victor was on time to pull you in his tight embrace guarding you as the bullet hit him on his right shoulder. He flinched in pain as you grasped on to his shirt trembling.
âDaddy?â you said weakly glancing up to him with tear filled eyes.Â
âItâs ok mija Iâm here now. Donât worry everything is going to be alrightâ he caresses the back of your head gently as you feel your head spin. The stress was too much for you to handle and you fainted in his arms.
âGo get that motherfucker!â Tom shouted seeing Ethan trying to flee. His men were quick to grab him as Harrison snatched the gun out of his hand and punched him right at his face.
âJules, take her to the hospital now!â your father instructed. Jules took you from his arms and carried you to the car and immediately left for the hospital.
Tom stalked his way towards Ethan as if he was a prey. He cocked his gun, his gaze stone cold eyes burning with rage. He kicks Ethan on his legs as his knees buckled and he kneeled down on the floor in front of him.
âTom please let me go I swear Iâll go as far away as possible and never return backâ Ethan begs for his mercy.
âYou should have thought about it before you decided to shoot Y/Nâ Tom growled, pressing the gun in between his eyes. But for some reason he couldnât bring himself to pull the trigger. It didnât feel right to him.
âTom, what are you waiting for?â Harrison nudged him.
âI-I canât, Y/N wouldnât want thisâ Tom looked at him unsure of what to do âitâs better we hand him over to the policeâ he suggests.
âIf you canât I willâ Victor interrupts and aggressively points his gun at Ethan.
âNo Victor, wait!â Tom tried to stop him but it was too late he had already pulled the trigger and Ethanâs lifeless body collapsed on the ground.
âItâs ok Tom nobody gets away after messing with my familyâ he shrugs when the blaring of the sirens could be heard from a distance.
âGet out of here right now!â Victor says to Tom.
âBut..â Tom hesitates.
âLeave or youâll get caught tooâ he insists.
âWhat about you?â
âI think itâs time for me to pay for my crimesâ he sighs looking at the gun in his hand with a contemplating smile etched on his face. The screeching of car tires could be heard as the bellowing of the sirens grew louder which was soon followed by the clamoring footsteps of people in tactical boots.Â
âNow go to my daughter she needs youâ Victor rushes him âand remember to keep her happy and safe or else Iâll hunt you down tooâ he warns him.
âWill keep that in mindâ Tom smirks and walks out of the place.
âRaise your hands where I can see them!â Grace orders and without a single Victor raises his hands in surrender.
âVictor Martinez you are under arrest for embezzlement and several other crimes including hoarding and smuggling of illegal drugs and murdersâ Grace states pointing her gun at him along with a team of officers behind her. A male officer was quick to handcuff him. Tom watched it whole from a distance as he was led inside the police van before leaving for the hospital.
You woke up to the rhythmic beeping of the EKG. Your eyes slowly adjust to the lighting of the hospital room.
âTom..Tomâ you mumbled half awake.
âHey, hey Iâm right hereâ Tom quickly gets up from the couch and holds your hands as you sit up.
âTom what happened?â you ask warily.
âYou fainted honey, your blood pressure went low due to all the stressâ he informs.
âWhat about our babies?â your hand goes to your stomach as you look at him with panic stricken eyes âare they ok? Tom, are they safe?â you rambled out of fear.
âYes darling, they are safe and healthy the doctorâs confirmedâ he assures you gently brushing your hair with his hands.
âOh thank godâ you heaved a sigh of relief.
âI think we should thank your dad too cause if he wasnât there in time you would have got shotâ he remarks.
âI know,â you say, staring at your lap.
âY/N the interpol and police took your fatherâ
âWell that was going to happen some or the other day anywaysâ you half shrugged.
âBut he saved you, saved usâ
âI know and thatâs the irony for the first time my dad genuinely showed that cared about me and now I will never see him againâ you say with regret in your voice.
4 months laterâŠ.
You were seated in the huge courtroom of the New York State Supreme Court with Tom, Vanessa and your mother by your side as you awaited the juryâs verdict on the charges you, your father and brother have been indicted with. After your fatherâs arrest the underworld imploded and most of the leaders went into hiding to save their businesses and escape the law. It was a huge issue in the international media too, the trial went on for three months. You had to travel back and forth to appear before the court for the murders you were charged with.Â
Though they could never find any proof against you, your dad and your husband made sure of that. Tom had told you that he had requested the families not to testify against you and they had agreed. But you know his way of requesting people very well : it's pointing a gun at their head. If they donât agree then they are permanently relieved of their life.Â
When you said that to him he laughed it off by saying âthatâs preposterous! I would never do thatâ and you gave him ânot buying itâ look âokay the old me would but Iâm a changed man now and as I promised no violenceâ he clarified. But you knew better and you didnât mind this time really cause you didnât want to abandon this beautiful life you finally got and go to jail.Â
Moreover in less than two months there will be two new additions to your little family and you donât want to miss any of it. You knew that you could never get rid of the blood in your hands and so did Tom but this time you are gonna start afresh for those pure little souls that are coming to light up your entire world and remove the darkness that had been clouding your lives.
âThe jury have reached a verdictâ the judgeâs voice echoed through the silent courtroom and Tom places his hand over yours comfortingly giving you a reassuring smile telling you that everything will be ok âand they unanimously find Victor Martinez guilty of the following charges related to extortion, money laundering, murders and illegal smuggling of drugs. He is being sentenced to lifetime imprisonmentâ the judge declared.
âAlso due to lack of evidence the jury declares Julian Martinez and Y/N Holland innocent and free of all chargesâ he adds and Tom squeezes your hand gently with a soft smile and a relief in his eyes as you look at him mirroring his smile.Â
âThe court is adjourned for the dayâ the judge announced and everybody stood up from their seats to walk out of the room one by one. You watched your dad getting handcuffed and being taken away by the officials as your brother followed them to finish the rest of the formalities that needed to be done before they took your father to the prison. For once you wanted to hug him tight and let him know that you loved him even after whatever went down between you. You wanted to let him know that you have forgiven him, you felt bad for your mother too after all he is her husband.
âDonât worry honey Iâll be fineâ she touches your shoulder breaking you out of your thoughts.Â
âIâm really sorry mom you donât deserve thisâ you sniffled
âItâs ok, Y/N I knew this day was coming soon and how much ever you feel bad a crime is a crimeâ
âMom, you can come live with us. I can talk to Tom, Iâm sure he wouldnât mindâ you offered.
âNo sweetie thatâs not happening Iâm better off here and Jules will be there I will be perfectly ok. You just take care of yourselvesâ Â
âHello Mrs Martinezâ Tom interrupts.
âHello Tomâ
âHoney itâs quite some time you ate anything letâs get you something shall we?â he suggested to you.
âYeah Iâm feeling a little hungry to be honestâ you remarked.
âI know love, letâs go then thereâs a nice cafĂ© right around the corner of the streetâ he says as Julian joins you three too.
âAll formalities are complete, itâs time for us to leave as wellâ he informs as you walk to him and held his hands.
âJules please take care of my motherâ you ask him with hopeful eyes.
âI will donât worryâ he pulls you in a hug and kisses your forehead âyou guys take care too, alrightâ you nod and go to hug your mom before leaving the place with Tom.
Tom and you slowly walked out of the court and made your way to the café. Upon entering the shop you saw Vanessa already waiting for you as you went and sat down at the table while Tom went to give your orders. You were a little bit out of breath cause being seven months pregnant with twins is no big joke. You get easily tired now. Your stomach has grown round and big in the past few months which makes it difficult for you to bend down. But Tom was always there for you patiently helping you out. He even signed up for birthing and parenting classes so that you are ready for everything.
âWell finally itâs over isnât it? You got what you wantedâ V chimes.
âYeah kind ofâ you sigh âis it wrong though that I feel bad for him?â
âNot at all after all he is our father we have the right to feel bad but past is past we gotta move onâ you remarks âso how are the little munchkins?â
âOh they are doing quite well and also not letting their mother sleep with their constant kicking seems like they canât wait to come out already and so do I. I really want my precious sleep backâ you joked.
âOh sissy for the next two years forget about sleep cause you will be getting noneâ V snickers.
âCanât complain though I voluntarily signed up for itâ you shake your head smiling as you pull out a file from inside your bag âhereâ you say handing over the file to her.
âWhat is this?â V looks at you cluelessly.
âA deal is a deal, open itâ you tell her as she opens the file and goes through the papers. Her eyes widened with shock as she finished reading the last page.
âWhat?! Are you serious?âÂ
âI told you Iâll give your rightful share in the family so this is itâ you stated.
âBut you are giving me the rum and diamond business. Thatâs yoursâ she emphasized.
âI know but I donât have the time or interest to run it and I canât handle the business in New York while staying in London. Moreover, Tom has decided to start a chain of luxury resorts and since I have a management degree Iâll be helping him to expand itâ you explain âso Iâm entrusting you with our family businesses. Welcome to the family Vâ you look at her with a proud smile.
âIâll not disappoint youâ she promises.
âI know you wonâtâ
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Fresh Bruises (Josh Lyman x Reader) Part 1
WARNING This story contains mention of domestic abuse
âThe speech was amazing Mr. President.â Y/N said as she walked next to her boyfriend her arm linked with his.Â
âThank you Y/N, but the credit really goes to Sam and Toby.â President Bartlett said as the whole entourage made their way through the halls of the hotel.Â
âI would sir, but I wouldnât want them to get a big head.â Y/N laughed.
âYou know you two are really made for each other.â CJ laughed as she walked next to Josh.Â
Josh smiled as he kissed the side of Y/Nâs head.Â
For a moment everything seemed to be going fine. The speech had gone amazing, everyone was feeling good about it, people were happy, including Toby. That was until Leo, who had been on the phone turned around to look at everyone, a worried look on his face.Â
Quickly Josh turned to look at Y/N.Â
âGo, I will stay back here with CJ.â Y/N said as she reached out and straightened his tie.Â
âI love you.â Josh said kissing her cheek before he headed up to Leo and the President with Toby and Sam following quickly behind.Â
âItâs probably nothing,â CJ tried to soothe even though Y/N knew otherwise. Leo and Josh were very similar in the sense of when something was really wrong, it was pretty easy to tell. âI canât believe you gave up working in the White House just to date him.â She teased, pointing towards Josh who was having a hard time not glancing back to look at Y/N.Â
âI loved working at the White House, don't get me wrong, but I have always wanted to be a family law practitioner. Plus I love Josh and he... â Y/N started when suddenly she saw a man standing in the hallway to the side. It was a face she hadnât seen in a long while.Â
âY/N?â CJ asked, looking at her questioningly. âIs everything ok? Do you know him?âÂ
âHeâs an old...friend.â Y/N said with disdain. âI will catch up with you guys.âÂ
CJ smiled hesitantly before she walked away.Â
By the time they had made it outside both Sam and Toby were on the phone. Leo was talking to Bartlet and Josh had finally broken away looking for CJ and Y/N. Through the crowd he could make out CJ but he couldnât see Y/N anywhere.Â
âCJ!â He called as he made his way over to her. âWhere is Y/NâÂ
âShe saw someone she knew inside and stopped to talk to him.â
âHim?â Josh said a slight bit of jealousy in his voice.Â
âYeah, I recognized him but I couldnât figure out why, but something felt really off about the whole situation.â CJ started and suddenly a knot formed in Joshâs stomach.Â
âCJ, what did he look like.â Josh said as he grabbed onto CJâs shoulders firmly and in such a way that scared CJ.
âJosh, I donât know I just saw him for a moment heâŠâ She started when suddenly her focus shifted to behind Josh. âLike him Josh.â She pointed as Josh quickly spun around. The knot in his stomach grew, so much so that Josh felt like he was going to throw up. The man he saw was one he had not seen in two years and one he had hoped he would never see again.Â
âYou are a giant brat you know that right.â Y/N said storming into Josh Lymanâs office.Â
âA brat wow I donât think I have heard that one since the 3rd grade.â Josh smiled looking up from the report he was reading.Â
âYou cannot just invite me to go with you to the gala. And you especially cannot ask Donna to ask me.â Y/N exclaimed however there was no anger in her voice only amusement.Â
âWell I couldnât be expected to trudge my way all the way to your office just to ask you to go to an event you should have been invited to in the first place.â Josh laughed.Â
âIf you couldnât be bothered to come to my office then why should I be bothered to go to the gala with you.â Y/N stuck her tongue out at him.Â
âOh donât act like you are not stoked to be going to the gala. Donna said you havenât been able to stop talking about wanting to go, so I figured I would help you out.âÂ
âOh thanks for the pity ticket.â Y/N said her voice changing slightly as she turned to leave his office.Â
âHey wait.â Josh quickly said as he stood up rushing towards Y/N grabbing her wrist.Â
Quickly Y/N instinctively flinched away pulling her sleeve down trying to hide the bruises.Â
Josh took a step back, lowering his head slightly. âIt was not out of pity.âÂ
Y/N reached out taking Joshâs hand. âThank you Josh, but I canât go with you. Iâm with Henry.âÂ
Josh let go of her hand quickly running it through his hair as he made his way back behind his desk. âNo, yeah, I know that. I was just thinking we could go as coworkers, and friends.âÂ
âI would love that, but I donât think Henry would see it that way.â There was a silence between the two filled with tension. âIâm sure there are plenty of girls who would love to go with you.â Y/N said looking down.Â
âAre you sure, I could always talk to Henry.âÂ
âNo, please donât do that, if you talk to him, I canât have you, he wonâtâŠâ Y/N said completely flustered.Â
âHey, hey, heyâ Josh quickly said rushing towards Y/N but being cautious not to grab her, not wanting to scare her. âItâs ok, I wonât talk to him if you donât want me to.â Slowly he placed his hand on her arm. He looked down at her hand seeing the bruise around her wrist that couldnât be hidden by her shirt. âY/N. Are you ok? Does HenryâŠâ Josh couldnât find the words to say just exactly what he was thinking without upsetting her more.Â
âDoes Henry what?â A voice said causing Y/N to nearly jump out of her skin.Â
Both Josh and Y/N quickly turned to see Henry standing in the doorway, arms crossed.Â
âHenry!â Y/N gasped jumping back away from Josh. âWhat are you doing here honey?âÂ
âWell I came here to see if you wanted to get lunch.â Henry said with almost a growl.Â
âI just⊠Josh wasâŠâ Y/N said panicking and Josh could see the fear in her eyes.Â
âI had a legal question, Y/N was just helping me out.â Josh quickly said trying to come to her rescue.Â
âAh, I see.â Henry said quickly changing his focus from Y/N to Josh with a wicked glare. âY/N can I speak with you in your office.âÂ
âYeah of course. Josh I will.â Y/N gulped. âI will see you later.âÂ
Josh knew he should have said something, he knew he should have done everything in his power to stop Y/N from going with him. But he didnât. He thought they were in the White House for god sakes, Henry wasnât that stupid. Plus Y/Nâs secretary would be outside her office, she would hear if anything was happening. That was what Josh kept telling himself. But he couldnât focus on anything but wanting to head to her office.Â
âDonna!â He finally yelled after about an hour of rereading the same sentence. âWill you call Y/Nâs assistant and set up a meeting.âÂ
âCelia said that Y/N gave her the rest of the day off.â Donna called back immediately, sending a knot into Joshâs stomach as he quickly stood up heading towards Y/Nâs office.Â
âJosh, Josh where are you going?â He could hear Donna call but he was on a mission.Â
âJosh.â Toby quickly said as he walked by Josh, noticing how pale he was.Â
âFollow me.â Josh said not even stopping.Â
Toby quickly did as he was told, catching up to Josh who was nearly sprinting down the walls of the White House.Â
âJosh what is going on, what is wrong?â Toby tried to say but Josh was too focused, too scared about what he was going to find when he got to that office. All that came to a screeching halt when he saw Henry. Josh froze causing Toby to almost collide with him.Â
âJosh what are weâŠâ Toby started as Josh threw up a hand to shush him. They watched as the nervous man came out of Y/Nâs office, looking around frantically when suddenly he made eye contact with Josh. Instantly Josh knew, he knew what had happened. As Josh took a step forward, Henry took off. Instead of focusing on the man who ran, the two men bolted inside the office.Â
As soon as the door opened they could see the destruction. There were papers tossed everywhere, chairs were knocked over, books had been pulled out of the bookcase and were now on the floor.Â
âOh my God.â Toby gasped.
Josh didnât have words as his eyes suddenly landed on the form of Y/N who was laying on the floor behind her desk. Quickly he ran to her noticing the bruises and the bloody gash on her forehead. âCall someone!âÂ
Toby left, leaving Josh who had scooped Y/N into his lap as he assessed the damage. Y/N had a busted lip, her nose was bleeding potentially broken and the gash was bleeding through the cloth Josh had ripped from his shirt and placed there.Â
âY/N, wake up ok, I need you to wake up.â Josh pleaded, looking up to see Toby standing in the doorway again.Â
Suddenly Y/N woke up gasping as she looked around the room. For a moment she didnât remember what had happened, that was until she looked into Joshâs eyes.Â
âY/N, are you ok?â Josh quickly asked and Toby ran over to join Josh kneeling next to them.Â
âWhat, oh yeah, I uh⊠I just fell. I must have hit my head on the desk. Iâm so clumsy sometimes IâŠâ Y/N rambled sitting up not looking either of the two men in the eyes.Â
âY/N, stop.â Josh said forcefully, causing her to look him in the eye.Â
âI justâŠâ Y/N tried again but tears had started to form in her eyes. She couldnât do it, she didnât have an excuse, she didnât have anything she could hide behind. When she looked at the two men before her, she knew that there was no more hiding it. âJosh.â She cried as she began sobbing.Â
âHey, shhhâ Josh said wrapping his arms around her. âItâs ok, heâs not going to get away with it. We are going to callâŠâÂ
âNo!â Y/N quickly exclaimed grabbed Joshâs arm tightly. âYou canât call the police. You canât.âÂ
âY/N, Henry just beat the living crap out of you. And I take it this isnât the first time.â Josh said, causing Y/N to look down at her bruised wrists.Â
âJosh, you donât understand he works for the police. He is the police.â Y/N said looking back up at Josh, whose heart broke seeing how damaged she was.Â
Josh hesitated for a moment, all he wanted to do was see that son of a bitch burn, but he knew that he couldnât force Y/N to do anything she didnât want to.Â
âOk, we wonât call the police but Iâm not letting him near you again.â Josh growled protectively holding onto Y/N.Â
âJosh, I live with him all of my stuff is at his place I canâtâŠâ Y/N started again but Josh shook his head.Â
âYou can stay with me until you find another place and Toby and I will go pick up all of your stuff Y/N. You donât need to be afraid of him anymore. I wonât let him hurt you again I promise.âÂ
âI donât want him to hurt you guys.â Y/N cried leaning into Josh more.Â
Josh smiled slightly as he gently kissed the side of Y/Nâs head. âDonât worry Y/N we will be careful.â
âThank you Josh.â Y/N smiled at him as the paramedics came into the room.Â
Josh was true to his word, he hadnât let Henry near Y/N again, at least not alone. He took care of her and let her stay at his place. She never found a new apartment though because it wasnât long before the two began dating. Y/N had quit working at the White House because she knew it was a conflict of interest to be on the legal counsel for the White House and to be dating a White House Staffer, but more importantly, she really wanted to work in family law. Their life together wasnât perfect but the two wouldnât ask for it any other way. And after more than a year and a half of dating Josh knew that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with Y/N.Â
Thatâs what made seeing Henry even more terrifying for Josh. And as he looked at the man and looked into his eyes. Josh saw the same look he had seen two years ago in the White House, but this time Josh looked down to see a knife in Henryâs hands.Â
âY/N!â Josh screamed as he took off running back into the hotel. CJ followed quickly behind him leading Josh back to where she had last seen Y/N.Â
Josh felt like his heart was going to beat out of his chest. As he ran through the halls he prayed to every god he could think of that he would find Y/N and she would be fine. But as CJ stopped in the hallway pointing to where she had last seen Y/N, and as Josh saw a single high heeled shoe, one that matched exactly the kind of shoes Y/N had been wearing he knew that the likelihood of her being ok was slim.Â
âY/N!â Josh screamed again as he ran in the same direction of the shoe.Â
At this point Toby and Sam had made there way into the hotel, after informing the secret service that they needed to get the president away, they didnât know if there was an immediate threat but they knew something was wrong.
âJosh I saw Henry what was he doing here I thought he moved out of D.C.â Toby said as he followed after Josh.Â
âI donât know but he had aâŠâ Josh started when suddenly he looked up to see a bloody handprint on the wall.Â
âOh God.â CJ gasped, her hand instinctively going over her mouth.Â
Josh bent forward feeling as though he wanted to throw up. He knew that he needed to keep looking for Y/N, that he needed to find her, but he was so scared, so terrified of what he was going to find that his body wouldnât move.Â
âJosh, Josh we need to keep going.â Sam pleaded with him gently laying his hand on his back.Â
Josh nodded straightening back up as he continued down the hall following the bloody handprints and pools of blood that trailed their way down. Toby had made his way a few feet ahead of them and as he turned a corner following the blood he quickly backed up as he turned white.Â
âWhat is it? Whatâs wrong?â Josh could barely say his voice cracking so hard the words were barely audible. He quickly ran over to where Toby was looking down the hallway, and when he saw it his knees gave out as he fell to the floor. âNo, no, noâ He cried as he began to crawl to the body of Y/N who lay unconscious on the floor surrounded by blood. âY/Nâ Josh cried as he pulled her into his arms. Her face was beaten and was already starting to bruise and as he looked down trying to assess the damage he saw the source of the bleeding, a giant gash in Y/N's stomach. âOh god!â He gasped trying to take off his jacket but Toby beat him to it, placing his jacket on Y/Nâs stomach applying pressure in an attempt to stop the bleeding. âBaby, please wake up, I need you to wake up. Y/N I love you please.â Josh pleaded as he kissed each bruise on her face, his tears mixing in with the blood.Â
âJosh, she has a pulse, but itâs faint we need to get her help.â Sam said.Â
âDonât worry, everything is going to be fine my love.â Josh said as he picked up Y/N walking as fast as he could out of the hotel where he found a slew of secret service waiting.Â
âWhat happened?âÂ
âWhere did the suspect go?âÂ
The questions came at lighting speed and Josh knew he should answer them but his mind was only focused on the woman in his arms. A woman who he couldnât imagine living without.Â
Toby quickly jumped in answering as many questions as he could as Josh made his way towards the ambulance that was waiting.Â
He could hear people talking to him, but his mind couldnât process what they were saying. All he could do was stare down at Y/Nâs face, watching as his tears fell hitting her cheek. âIâm sorry, Y/N. Iâm so sorry.â He cried.Â
He felt someone reaching out to grab Y/N and he instinctively pulled away.Â
âWhat is your name,â A voice said and Josh finally looked up to see a kind paramedic looking at him her eyes soft.Â
âJosh,â He spoke softly, his voice broken. âJoshua Lyman.âÂ
âOk Josh, I need you to let us help her ok. You can stay right by her side but I need you to let us take care of her.â Â
Josh hesitated for a moment before he nodded and handed Y/N over to the paramedics, his hands shaking.Â
âGood, now tell me about her,â The paramedics continued as the other began to strap wires to Y/N and began bandaging her up.Â
âHer name is Y/N Y/L/N she is my girlfriend.â Josh continued his eyes staring at Y/N his breathing getting more and more rapid.Â
âWe are going to take care of Y/N, donât worry ok, but I need you to stay calm ok, I think you are going into shock.â The paramedic continued.Â
âI justâŠâÂ
âJosh!â A voice screamed and he turned to see Toby running up to the ambulance with Sam and CJ following behind. âWe will meet you at the hospital, Iâm going to call Leo and tell him what happened.âÂ
Josh just nodded his eyes were wide and everyone could see that he was extremely pale.Â
âItâs going to be ok,â Sam said trying his best to be positive about the situation.Â
âAlright Josh, we have to get going ok,â The paramedic said.Â
Josh nodded again and as the doors began to shut to the ambulance he watched as Toby looked at him, tears in his eyes, as he placed his hands on his heart.
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DIWK: Chapter eleven: "Can't get you off my mind"
|Word count:Â Â 9,7K
Summary:Â Reader struggles with her feelings for Spencer and tries to work with Seaver. Neither of those things works. Spencer's headaches are getting worse. Also, it's Anderson's birthday! Things are getting a little more complicated.
Warnings:Â Hardcore fools in love. It's getting painful to watch. Spoilers of Criminal Minds Season 6 Episode 11. 25 to life. Cursing, and frustration. Alcohol consumption. Assholes being blind.
A/N: Please don't hate me! but these two are just so blind, it hurts!
Masterlist
Chapter one | Chapter two | Chapter three | Chapter four | Chapter five | Chapter six | Chapter seven | Chapter eight | Chapter nine | Chapter ten | Chapter eleven | Chapter twelve | Chapter thirteen | Chapter fourteen | Chapter fifteen |
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Spencer's point of view
Psychotics in a break always evolve. Well, I was psychotic at that minute of my life, but the only things evolving were my migraines. They were driving me insane. I could feel them taking over my life, my head, my sanity. I could feel my good judgment slipping through my fingers every day, especially since (Y/N) had started acting strange.
It wasn't like she had stopped talking to me or hanging out with me. But I could feel a void growing between us every day. And it was driving me insane. I couldn't understand where it had come from. I just knew it was eating me alive.
Morgan was having a bad day. One really bad day. The man he had vouched for parole had just murdered a man after nearly 70 hours of freedom, and now the team was trying to solve the whole case. Don Sanderson claimed he had been framed guilty of the murder of his wife and baby daughter, but after 25 years in prison, the first thing he did as a free man was to murder someone else.
It made no sense.
We had visited the murder scene. Hotch was still on a leave, so it was just Prentiss, (Y/N), Morgan, Rossi, Seaver, and I. Emily was in full "training agent's duty," walking Seaver through every step of the procedure, which was very nice of her. It was her first case after the incident in New Mexico, and she was eager to do better work than that time. She was nearly jumping all over the place, taking notes.
I talked with Garcia on the phone because he was worried about Morgan, and then I walked to (Y/N), who kept a safe distance from Emily and Seaver.
- "The bullets were in the other room, but the gun is right here,"- I said as I looked around the room. (Y/N) turned to me, ready to speak her mind, but Ashley spoke first, which annoyed her beyond belief.
- "Maybe killing him was an accident."
I looked at my best friend as Prentiss and Ashley continued talking. She just crossed her arms and walked around the room. She surely wasn't dealing well with having Seaver around. I wanted to ask her something, anything, but nothing came to mind.
- "Sanderson was out of prison for what, Reid?"- I answered Emily's question but didn't even turn to look at her. My eyes were following (Y/N), moving around that room.
- "At the time of the murder, 51 hours."
- "He's free for 2 days and change? What's the big hurry to find this guy?"
- "Are you ok?"- I whispered and stood next to (Y/N) as Prentiss and Ashley kept analyzing the scene.
- "Yeah, just tired."
- "Do you wanna have dinner with me tonight? I didn't see you this weekend, and I thought we could do a movie night."
(Y/N) took her time to answer, but finally, after a moment, she nodded and agreed.
- "Movie night sounds nice."
- "Great, âcos I rented your favorites."- I might have sounded more excited than I should, but I had really missed her those days, and I may or may not have watched and read Pride and Prejudice a couple of times.
- "Did you? Really?"
- "Yes, I was hoping to spend some time with you."
- "Are you coming, Spence?"- Seaver interrupted us and looked from the door- "Rossi called. They are interviewing Sanderson at the BAU."
- "Yeah, we are coming,"- I answered and looked away. (Y/N) shook her head and walked outside in silence the second Prentiss called my name, and I couldn't follow her. Which, I guess, was a good thing.
- "Is everything ok?"- Emily stayed behind with me. She raised an eyebrow, watching (Y/N) walking out of the room as Ashley waited for us by the door.
- "Yes?"- my answer came more as a question because I honestly didn't know what to say- "Everything is ok, Emily."
- "Correct me if I'm wrong, but I have the feeling (Y/N) isn't thrilled to have agent Seaver around."- I almost chuckled at her words and just nodded.
- "It's not like she has made it hard to tell. She literally yelled at her at the jet."
- "Is she mad at me because I am supervising her training?"
- "I don't know. I don't think so⊠she hasn't told me so. Well, she hasn't talked to me much lately."
- "Why? Did you fight?"- Prentiss wide opened her eyes and moved a little closer to me, trying to read my expressions.
- "No, I don't know what's going on. She just⊠weâŠ"- I couldn't find the right words to explain my mind, and I think Prentiss knew it, âcos she didn't push me.
- "You should talk to her."
- "Yeah, we are going out tonight."
- "You have a date?"- Ashley walked over and asked me with a short smile. I cleared my throat and shook my head right away.
- "No, just meeting with a friend."
- "Oh, sorry. I didn't mean to intrude,"- Seaver blushed and looked at her shoes. Prentiss smiled, probably reading something I wasn't seeing.
- "Come on, Rossi is probably waiting for us at the BAU, and I'm guessing Morgan is not in a good mood."
For the rest of the day, I tried to find a moment alone with (Y/N). I needed to talk about what was going on. But it was impossible. We worked late, rereading the original case files, trying to find something that might help us help Sanderson. But it was frustrating and nearly impossible.
So around nine, we decided to call it a day and go home.
- "Are you in the mood for Chinese?"- I looked at (Y/N), gathering all the things as I stood next to her desk- I thought maybe we could get some take-out from that place you love on our way home.
- "Sounds nice. What are we watching?"
- "Pride and Prejudice, Coraline, maybe Beetlejuice. You pick, I've got all your favorites,"- (Y/N) narrowed her eyes, looking at me in silence- "What?"
- "So you rented movies âcos you wanted to hang out with me?"
- "Yes."
- "You usually don't rent movies. You rent documentaries."
- "Yes, but I wanted to do something different this time. I told you I missed you."
(Y/N) blushed as she stood in front of me, biting the inner part of her cheek, trying not to smile. I looked at her, nearly beaming, excited to see her reaction. I had felt so scared to lose her, feeling her pushing away from me. It was a balm watching her so happy, and just because I missed her.
- "I love Pride and Prejudice,"- Ashley said from her desk- "I've read that book so many times, I think I can recite it."
I looked at her and nodded with an awkward smile. I knew she was just trying to be nice âcos she was new at the BAU, and she was also trying to be nicer to (Y/N), to get on her good side. But that wasn't the way to get to her. Maybe I had to talk to Seaver and explain that my best friend is a special woman.
Neither of us answered her comment. We just stood there, looking at her in silence, until Anderson walked over and waved.
- "Hey agents, before you go, I wanted to tell you, this Friday I'm celebrating my birthday, and I'd love to have you over."
- "Of course, Sonny!"- (Y/N) wide opened her eyes and clapped. She had called him "Sonny" since they sang "I got you babe" by Sonny and Cher in the karaoke at the Christmas party the year before.
- "Happy birthday, Anderson!"- Derek waved.
- "Thank you! We'll gather at a bar nearby. I'll text you the address."
- "We wouldn't miss it for the world,"- Prentiss added and smiled- "Do you mind if we tell JJ and Garcia?"
- "Please do! I haven't seen JJ since she left, and it would be amazing to have her over. You too, agent Seaver."
- "Thank you!"- Ashley smiled and nodded- "Count me in."
I could feel (Y/N)'s eyes rolling, annoyed, even when I wasn't even looking at her at that minute. I grabbed my bag and my coat and held her hand.
- "Bye, guys! See you tomorrow!"- that was all I said as I dragged her out of the bullpen. Emily waved at us, and Derek cut me an evil grin I could decode easily. I just ignored him and turned to the door.
- "Have fun, pretty girl!!"- Morgan chuckled at his own words, and (Y/N) just smiled and winked. Why? Probably to show him she didn't care about all his teasing, âcos nothing was ever going to happen between us.
(Y/N)'s point of view
It might have been childish, but I had to take advantage of Morgan's innuendo just to show Seaver things could happen between Spencer and me. It had been immature and silly, but I just felt like I needed to do it. It was like a stupid animal instinct that forced me to mark my territory.
I shouldn't have done it. Spencer wasn't mine. Not even close. And I had to stop being jealous of Seaver. If he didn't want me, he had the right to be with anyone else. But just the thought of Spencer being with someone, anyone, made me feel sick in my stomach. I hated being in love with him. I honestly did, âcos I didn't want to ruin our friendship with useless feelings. Spencer wasn't in love with me. He was just my friend. My very thoughtful, cute, adorable, and lovable best friend.
I was fucked. Completely and utterly fucked. Even that second, sitting on that couch with Spencer, I couldn't focus on the movie. I pretended, but I didn't even pay attention to it. All I could think of was how warm his body felt sitting next to me, like a gigantic magnet that called for me. I could simply just move my hand and intertwined his fingers with mine. Or lean in closer, rest my head on his shoulder, feel how he wraps an arm around me, and melt in his embrace, like I had done a million times before.
But I couldn't. I had to stop that daydream of a domestic and romantic life with Spencer. It wasn't healthy. It wasn't sane. But most of all: I wasn't real. And I was never going to move forward in life if I kept thinking those movie nights meant something.
- "More popcorn?- Spencer handed me the bowl, and I shook my head- "You have been awfully quiet considering we are watching Coraline."
- "Well, we are supposed to watch the movie in silence,"- I answered and didn't take my eyes from the screen.
- "You have never done that."
- "Maybe I wanted to give it a try."
I grabbed a bunch of popcorn just to keep myself busy. I could feel Spencer's eyes on me, and it was killing me âcos I knew I didn't have to look at him. If I did, I wasn't sure how I would react. I was overthinking everything and anything you might think of.
- "Are you ok?"
- "Yeah. Sure."
No, I wasn't.
- "(Y/N), can you look at me?"- Spencer paused the movie and turned to me. I hesitated, thinking my best friend is an amazing profiler, and I didn't want him to know how I felt about him âcos it didn't want to ruin our friendship.
After a few seconds, I moved on the couch and raised an eyebrow. His brown eyes stared into mine in silence for a moment, trying to read me.
- "What is going on?"
- "Nothing,"- I lied and frowned- "Why are you so obsessed with the idea something is going on?"
- "âCos I have this⊠feeling."
- "You got a feeling?"- I chuckled, trying to be funny but failing completely. In the end, I just stared into his eyes for what seemed to be a million years but were, in fact, just a few seconds.
- "Are we ok?"
- "Of course, we are, Spencer."
- "You never call me that"- he frowned immediately, almost hurt.
- "What?"
- "You just call me Spencer when we are on a case, and there are people around us. But when we are home, I'm never Spencer to you."
"When we are home." That killed me. I hadn't realized how badly I wanted that to be our home, to have a life with Spencer.
I was in love with my best friend. I was spending every single hour of every single day of my life with him. That wasn't right! If I knew he didn't have feelings for me, why was I doing that to myself?
- "(Y/N)?"- Spencer's voice took me from my thoughts. He looked so worried I didn't know how to convince him there wasn't anything wrong, considering it felt like everything was wrong.
- "What is it?"
- "Please tell me what's wrong."
- "I told you, nothing is wrong. I just called you Spencer. That's your name. It's a lovely name. I had never met someone called Spencer ever before in my entire life. You just called me (Y/N), not pumpkin, cupcake, chipmunk, or ma chĂšre,"- he sighed, frustrated and maybe a little annoyed.
- "Nothing is wrong, honey. I'm really ok. Just tired, maybe feeling a little invaded with Seaver in the team"- I knew he knew I hated her, so I had to blame her in a way.
- "Why?"
- "You know I'm not her fan... I hate working with her,"- I kind of chuckled at my own words because I was trying to make a joke out of my awful reality.
- "It's just for a few weeks,"- he tried to reassure me, probably to ease my mood, but the truth was I hated how it always felt like he was defending her.
- "One week, one day, it's the same torture,"- I shook my head and turned to the screen again.
- "Don't be dramatic."
- "I'm not dramatic! I just hate how she is always playing the victim âcos her father is a serial killer. She is clearly overcompensating! Besides, we have all gone through bad shit in our lives, and no one is using it as a tool to get things in life."
- "I don't think that's what she is doing."
- "No? Do you think she belongs at the BAU? She is a trainee agent who almost got killed in her first assignment. She works hard, and she is not stupid, I give you that. But she is not top of her class. She is not there âcos she is the brightest. She is there âcos Rossi, Hotch, and probably Prentiss felt bad for her after what happened and decided to let her hang around and learn something for a while. If you ask me, I think there are more qualified trainee agents we could use in the team, but Seaver played her "my father was a serial killer" card and got the job. And who knows how many times she had done it before, and how many times she will use it again."
Ok, that may or may not have been too hard, but it was exactly how I felt. There was a deep silence in Spencer's apartment. The movie was still paused, and after my speech, Spencer just looked at me with wide-opened eyes. I just sighed and regretted every word that had left my lips âcos they made me sound bitter and shallow. But at least they didn't tell him the truth: that I was jealous of the thought Seaver might get his attention. Scared that he could look at her the way he had never looked at me. Just to imagine I could bump into them kissing terrified me.
- "Maybe I should just go home,"- I whispered and tried to stand up, but Spencer grabbed my arm and pulled me back onto the couch.
- "No, please. Stay,"- his voice was a whisper but still managed to shake me.
- "I don't wanna argue with you, honey,"- I thought I would speak too loud, but no, I actually murmured, matching his tone of voice.
- "We don't have to talk about Seaver anymore. Just watch the movie with me. You love this movie."
- "You love this book,"- I added and looked at him. He smiled. God, that smile is going to be the end of me.
- "It's just so dark! But it has such a good message."
- "Not all nice people are good people?"- I just spoke about what the book had meant to me ever since I was a little girl, and Spencer analyzed the whole plot again in less than a minute.
- "I was going to say overcoming your fears, but I like your analysis the most."
- "Of course, you do, âcos it's better,"- I teased and stuck out my tongue to him. Spencer just stared at me and nodded.
- "You might be right. Yours is much better,"- he kept his eyes on me for a few more seconds and continued smiling until he snapped from his thoughts- "More tea, ma chĂšre?"
- "No, honey, thank you. I'm good."
I cut him a quick smile and sat back on the couch, trying to relax. I knew it was going to be impossible, but I honestly didn't want to leave. I wanted to be with him. I had stayed home alone the whole weekend, hidden underneath a pile of blankets, in something that looked pretty much like a fort, according to Lu's words. She had stayed with me Saturday night âcos I told her I needed a girl's night. It was my poor attempt to stay away from Reid, and she was happy to help.
Ok, Lu didn't know I wanted to stay away from Reid. I just told her I needed a girl's night. I really didn't want to deal with all her questions. You have the right to avoid dealing with your feelings from time to time if you can. And I told Spencer Lu wasn't feeling so good, so I wanted to spend some time with her. He sounded disappointed âcos he was making plans for our weekend off but understood completely I needed to be with my friend.
See? Spencer made it so easy falling in love with him! He was so thoughtful it freaking hurt!
I couldn't fight the feeling anymore and rested my head on his shoulder. It felt he was waiting for me to make that move, âcos in a few seconds, his arm was wrapped around me protectively.
- "I know Lu needed you, but you missed a whole weekend of cuddling on this couch watching your favorite movies with me,"- Spencer whispered, bumping his head carefully against mine. I bit my lips and smiled, not taking my eyes away from the screen.
- "We do this pretty often"- that was all I could answer.
- "At least once a week for the last⊠thirteen-month two weeks, and⊠four days."
- "I love how precise you can be when it comes to our friendship, honey."
Calling it a friendship hurt me at that point, but it was what it was. Spencer chuckled and just nodded. We enjoyed our company in silence for a moment. His fingers drawing figures on my arm and my head resting on his shoulder, letting his smell invade me. It was heaven.
We were finally watching the movie⊠though what I really wanted was to watch a movie with Spencer instead of actually watching it. But that was the nature of our relationship. We were friends. Friends don't watch movies.
- "No way,"- I argued when his cellphone rang and interrupted our moment- "Please tell me we don't have a case."
- "We don't,"- he quickly answered and picked up the phone- "Hello? Hi⊠it's ok, tell me"- he didn't stand up or moved from me. He kept holding me tight against his body and finished his call by simply saying.
- "We can meet tomorrow at seven at work. I can help you with your test."- I hated those words immediately.
- "It's not a problem, see you tomorrow. Bye."
I was afraid to ask âcos I knew the answer. The knot on my stomach was the fair warning of what had just happened. That bitch had ruined our moment yet again.
- "What are you doing tomorrow at seven?"- I did my best to sound as casual as possible, but I knew that conversation might not end well. He hesitated. I could nearly hear his neurons struggling to find the correct answer to that question. Until he simply whispered:
- "Please don't get mad."
- "Why would I?"
- "âCos Ashley just called to ask me to help her study for a testâŠ"
I took a deep breath and held it for a few seconds, doing my best to calm myself down at least a little before speaking.
- "I'm not mad, Spencer,"- I tried to lie as smoothly as possible. I even cut him a smile and looked into his hazel and confused eyes.
- "I know you don't like her, but I had offered to help in case she needed any⊠what?"
- "I'm not mad, really,"- I smiled again and turned to the screen- "We said we were not going to argue, and besides, she just called to ask you for help. That's not something to be mad about, right?"
Technically I wasn't mad. I was beyond furious.
- "Are you sure?"- he narrowed his eyes, baffled- "Not that I want you to be mad or something, but we just argued over her, and you said you felt invaded by her⊠soâŠ"
- "Yes, but I don't wanna argue anymore. I don't want you to think I hate Seaver because I don't. And most of all, I don't want her to be the reason we fight. I don't wanna fight with you. Ever."
Spencer sighed, relieved, and smiled, pleased with my answer.
Spencer's point of view
Something felt off the following day when I walked into the bullpen and saw Ashley waiting for me by my desk with two cups of coffee. (Y/N) had said everything was ok, and I decided I wanted to believe her. But I had an awful feeling about everything that was going on.
- "Hi!"- Ashley smiled and handed me a cup- "Figured you might appreciate one of these for making you wake up earlier."
- "Thank you"- I smiled awkwardly and held the cup- "Are you ready?"
- "Yes, I brought all the notes from the class and my booksâŠ"- she set them on her desk and giggled as I went through her notes, sipping my cup- "I feel back in high schoolâŠ"
- "Why?"
- "I wasn't the best student back then, and I always had to ask my classmates for help,"- I couldn't help but think of something (Y/N) had said the night before.
- "And are you a good student at the academy?"
- "Yes, I think. I'm not in the top three of my class, but I have good grades. I'm just not⊠a genius, like you."
Her eyes lingered on my face, and her cheeks blushed after a few seconds. I frowned, not getting why she was embarrassed. Was it just âcos she didn't have the same honorifics as I did?
- "I don't believe that intelligence can be accurately quantified,"- I simply answered, remembering how many times in my life I had ever said something like that. Way too many, to be honest.
It was hard to focus on the subject when Seaver kept asking me personal questions every five minutes. She seemed more interested in knowing about my childhood in Las Vegas than learning about profiling and victimology.
- "Good morning, kids!"- I turned around and smiled at Morgan, so glad to see him I might have actually felt a little relieved- "What are you doing here so early?"
- "Hey! I was just helping Ashley with her test,"- I stood up and walked from her desk over his- "And about you?"
- "I have a meeting with Strauss in a while, and Sanderson's case didn't let me sleep. It was better to come here and start working than to keep on rolling on my bed. But I'm glad you are here. Wanna help me go through a few extra files?"
- "Of course!"- I left the notes I was holding on the closest desk and walked with Morgan to the conference room.
I considered our session with Seaver finished, mostly âcos for the last ten minutes, she had been asking about me. What I liked doing outside the BAU, favorite bands, hobbies, anything. I answered her questions and kept trying to push her to study. I didn't want her to blame me if she failed her test.
- "Hey, kid."- Morgan whispered after a few minutes and took a look around, just to make sure no one else was near. I looked at him confused âcos he was never that careful to say anything in the office.
- "Is everything ok?"
- "Yes?"- I answered, though it sounded like a question âcos I wasn't sure what he was talking about.
- "Are you excited to have Seaver on the team for the next month?"- I shrugged and kept reading the file in my hands- "Come on, Reid. She is clearly sweet to you."
- "I don't know what you are talking about."
- "She has a crush on you, kid."
- "No, she doesn't!"
- "Come on! Are you blind?"- I stared at Morgan, not getting what he was talking about- "Man, Seaver gives you loving eyes even when we are on the field!"
- "She does not!"- I knew I was blushing. I hated those kinds of conversations, and Morgan always made me feel awkward when he hinted I should flirt with a girl or just talk to them.
- "And I would appreciate it if you didn't say anything like that ever again."
- "What's the matter, kid? You don't think she is pretty?"
- "I don't look at her that way!"- I buried my head in a file and tried not to notice how he scanned my whole face, looking for micro expressions.
- "I see. Are you afraid (Y/N) might get jealous?"- Morgan chuckled at his words and tapped on my back a few times, making me flinch- "Relax, man. I'm just kidding!"
- "I don't like those jokes, Derek. Really."
Morgan kept his eyes on me a little longer and nodded. I did my best not to show how I really felt, but somehow, I failed miserably.
- "You know, kid, it would be much easier if you just told (Y/N) how you feel about her,"- Derek's voice was soft and even more concerned than I thought he could be. I nearly shook when I heard him, so I failed my mission of remaining stoic.
- "Reid, it's ok. There's nothing wrong with having feelings for her."
- "I don't⊠like talking about this,"- I whispered and closed the file- "Can we just focus on work, please?"- Derek nodded and stayed quiet for a few seconds. But I knew he wasn't done yet.
- "Reid, listen. I know you are not really fond of sharing how you feel with us, I know you share almost everything that happens in your life with (Y/N), and as your friend, I've always felt glad and relieved to know you have her. But if there's something you can't tell her, and you need to talk to someone, you can count on me. You know that, right?"
I nodded and looked at him. That conversation took me back to the year I was using and had to keep it secret from my friends. I knew I could count on Morgan if anything happened, but I really wasn't comfortable sharing my thoughts, feelings, and fears with people. (Y/N) made it so easy. Was it âcos I loved her? I just always felt I could tell her anything. That had never happened to me before with anyone.
- "Morgan, Strauss was looking for you,"- Rossi walked into the room holding a cup of coffee and stared at us, raising an eyebrow- "Everything ok?"
- "Yes, we were just going through some files,"- Morgan stood up and grabbed the case folder- "I'll be right back."
- "I'll finish reading all these,"- I said and pointed at the box filled with more files. Morgan nodded and walked away.
- "Do you need any help?"- Seaver walked over that second and smiled at me. I stood up and shook my head.
- "Thanks, but I'm basically done. I'll just go make myself another cup of coffee."
- "I'll go with you!"- she smiled and waited for me by the door. Rossi looked at me and raised an eyebrow. I just cut him a straight smile and walked to the kitchenette, followed closely by Ashley.
(Y/N) walked into the bullpen that minute. I watched her as she opened the glass door and took out her jacket. It felt like the time passed in slow motion as she walked. I couldn't help it, I just smiled as soon as our eyes crushed, and for a few seconds, life was perfect. Just to know she was there, smiling at me made everything worth living.
See why I couldn't tell anyone how I was feeling? They would make fun of me. Morgan would never understand the agony and the dimension of my love for her. He would just tease me. I wonder if he had ever actually been in love 'till that point in life.
I didn't want anyone to know what was happening to me âcos I was sure they would make fun of me, and that was the last thing I needed at that moment. So I did what I knew best: I locked it all inside and waited for it to burn me alive.
- "Good morning, chipmunk!"- I stood by (Y/N)'s side and smiled as she left her things on her desk and turned to me. She just looked into my eyes, and my brain turned into mush.
- "Good morning, honey bunny. Did you sleep well? You look tired."
- "Yeah, I just got up extra early today to help Seaver, and now I was helping Derek with some files."
- "Do you need a hand?"
- "Sure!"- I didn't even analyze my answer. I just spit the words, thinking it would be amazing to spend some time with my friend, working together.
- "Hi (Y/N), how are you?"- that until her face changed completely when Seaver waved at her- "Spencer, do you want me to make your coffee?"- I froze and turned to her in silence.
- "No, thank you. I'll⊠just⊠wait a little before having another one. I just had my third cup."
- "Three cups in already"- (Y/N) narrowed her eyes and turned to her desk, giving me her back- "How long have you been awake?"
- "Not as long as Morgan, I tell you that,"- I pointed at him, walking out of Strauss's office and heading back to our conference room.
- "Let's help him, then."
(Y/N) walked quickly, and I followed closely. I wished I hadn't said no to that coffee. I really needed one to go through that morning.
During that morning, Derek questioned Sanderson again and finally took him and Rossi back to his house, trying to trigger any memory that might help us crack the case. Meanwhile, the rest of the team and I stayed back in the office, repeatedly going through the case files. So far, all we knew is that a team had attacked Sanderon's home and framed him for the murder of his wife and daughter.
The whole day, I focused on work âcos it's my favorite escape, and clearly, there was something more important to think of than whatever was going on with my life. But my head was killing me. The migraines were starting to get more intense, and I think they got worse the more thinking I gave to my relationship with (Y/N).
- "It sounds like we need to profile a dormant killer"- Ashle's voice surprised me when I was pouring myself a cup of fresh coffee in the kitchenette.
- "A very lucky one. He was essentially given a gift, a patsy in the form of Don Sanderson, and he'll do anything to protect that story."- I answered, thinking I didn't want to be in Sanderon's shoes, trying to clear my name of something I hadn't done.
- "When someone has a secret this big, everything becomes a lie."
Somehow, Seaver's words hit me. I'm sure she didn't mean to strike a nerve, but she did. I had been in love with my best friend for too long, and now it was starting to affect my life. I didn't want it to get in the way of work, and we were at work most of our time together. But there was nothing I could do about it. I just had to keep on faking everything was normal.
- "He'll most likely be pathological,"- I nearly choked at my own words as I tried to shake away the thoughts from my head.
- "So, we're looking for a liar in D. C. I thought we were trying to narrow this down."- Ashley tried to joke and waited for my reaction but didn't get anything. Instead, I just cut her a straight smile and walked away.
By the end of the night, Morgan had gotten the unsub. But I was still a mess. It had been the longest day in weeks, not just âcos I had barely slept the night before, but because I was overthinking everything that happened around me. It was exhausting.
- "Are you coming, Batsy?"- (Y/N) asked me and grabbed her bag after putting on her coat. I stood from my desk and nodded.
- "Yes, ma chĂšre."
- "Where are you guys going tonight?"- Derek asked and smiled at us- "No. Don't tell me, planning this year's matching Comic-Con costumes"- I chuckled and probably blushed, busted.
- "We already settled those, Derek. We are way ahead of schedule this year,"- (Y/N) answered and stuck out her tongue to him.
- "(Y/N), can you give me a second before you go?"- Prentiss stood up and smiled at my friend, who just nodded and walked with her to the conference room. Derek and Seaver looked at me.
- "What?"
- "Do you know what's that about?"- Morgan questioned me.
- "I have no idea."
(Y/N)'s point of view
- "Please don't freak out,"- Emily smiled and turned to me after she closed the door behind her back- I just needed to clear the air a little bit between us.
- "What? Why? Is there something wrong?"
- "I don't know, I just feel you have been acting weird lately, and I needed to know if it has something to do with me supervising Seaver."
I nearly gasped. Not âcos I felt insulted but âcos I felt caught. I knew I hadn't been subtle about my feelings for Seaver. I just didn't want them to get in the middle of work.
- "I haven't been weird with you, Emily, and I don't think I've been acting strange."
- "Come on, you don't like Ashley, and I offered to supervise her while she works with us."
- "Yes, but neither of those has anything to do with me and you. We are friends, Emily."
- "I know, and I wanna honor that friendship, (Y/N). I love working with you. I just want you to know I'm not⊠I just⊠I'm trying to help Seaver start her career."
- "I understand that. We are ok,"- I tried to reassure her, but I knew she could read between my bullshit.
- "Do you think you could try to be a little bit nicer with her?"
- "Nicer?"
- "Yes, (Y/N). She is making an effort to get along with the team, and you've been giving her the cold shoulder since day one." -I crossed my arms on my chest, obviously annoyed and defensive.
- "I have been friendly with her, Emily. I just don't like her, and you can't force me to be her friend."
In my defense, in my mind, that argument didn't sound as childish as it did when I said it out loud.
- "Don't be selfish! Just because you are jealous, you can't deprive her of the opportunity of a lifetime with this team."
Emily's words were knives against my ego and nearly destroyed my facade. I stared into her eyes and wondered how to get out of that situation without hurting my friend. I could pretend I didn't know what she was talking about, but we both knew that was bullshit. I could actually try to tell her how I felt, but it was so humiliating I refused to open up. So instead, I just nodded and smiled at her.
- "I'm sorry that's how you see me. I'll try to be a better version of myself tomorrow,"- and needless to say, I turned around and left.
- "(Y/N), please wait,"- but I didn't stop walking. I refused to continue talking about Seaver with anyone. I refused to deal with feelings or the real world.
- "Everything ok?"- Spencer asked me the second he saw me appear by his side.
- "Yes,"
- "You are blushing. Did you and Prentiss argue?"
- "No, honey. We didn't argue. She just wanted to check on me âcos she was worried I was mad at her. But that's all."- Spencer just nodded and looked at me in silence.- "Why don't we just go home and forget about today, honey?"
Easier said than done.
So Seaver was getting under my skin. And it was getting harder to control. That week was hell, and I didn't want to show it. Eventually, I talked with Emily again, and I tried to explain to her I wasn't being mean with Seaver. I just didn't like her. And though I gave Emily my word to be friendlier with Ashley, the circumstances weren't really helping.
Things didn't get any better than Friday night. No, if anything, that was the night that made it all worse. Prentiss, JJ, and I got together at Garcia's house and had a few drinks before leaving for Anderson's birthday. I was making my biggest effort to have fun and ease my mind. Spencer said he wasn't sure he'd make it âcos he was tired, and automatically I almost turned out the whole deal, but Penelope literally dragged me to her house and put a beer in my hand.
- "You, my young lady, are going to put some makeup on, a hot dress, and we are going to party!"
- "But PG, I'm notâŠ"- but she didn't let me out of it. Instead, she shushed me and raised an eyebrow, looking pretty convincing.
- "No "but." You are going. End of the conversation."
So she dragged me to the bar, along with Prentiss and JJ, who had left Will with little Henry to join us for what was promised to be one epic girl's night.
Anderson was so happy to see us. He was a sweetheart who was always willing to help us. I knew technically he didn't work at the BAU, but he was always there whenever we needed him. We all felt he was part of the team.
- "Sonny!!"- I yelled and hugged him tight
- "I'm so glad you girls made it!!"- and his smile was priceless- "JJ!!"- he actually yelled when he saw her and ran to give her a triple bear hug.
- "Grant Anderson!! I can't believe it's really you!!"
- "I've missed you so much!! How's Henry?"
- "So big!! I feel I haven't been out with friends in so long!"- JJ looked around, and her face kept lighting up as she recognized more friends and acquaintances from Quantico. I looked around and recognized Morgan already flirting with a woman at the other side of the bar.
- "Looks like chocolate thunder knows how to keep himself busy,"- I joked, and Garcia turned immediately.
- "Have you ever seen him shirtless?"- she asked in a lower voice and leaned a little closer to me, just to make sure no one would listen- "I'm sure it's illegal looking so good in real life."
I laughed and turned to see Prentiss walk to the bar to get us the first round of drinks. Ok, I'll admit it, I was having a great time. I know I didn't want to go at first, but spending time with my work friends and not just with Spencer was refreshing. Not that I didn't do fun things with the rest of the team, but my relationship with Spencer, I mean the friendship that pretty much looked like a relationship, consumed most of my time. But I just loved being with Reid more than anything.
But one night without him wasn't going to be the end of the world. Right?
Right.
Anderson and I danced and laughed. It was all very innocent. And though I've never considered myself a hot chick or whatever, a few guys asked if they could get me drinks, and I kindly declined. I wasn't looking for a one-night stand or anything. I just wanted to have fun with my friends.
- "And where's Reid?"- Anderson asked as we reached our table, where Prentiss and JJ were catching up and laughing.
- "Home, he said he was tired."
- "And? When are you two going to come clean about your relationship? You know, having the confirmation of your romance would be the best birthday present you could ever give me."
- "Grant Anderson, you nosy bastard!!"- I hit his arm and heard his laughter- "You know we are not dating!"
- "Come on!! I mean it! You have to get together! You are like the FBI sweethearts!!"
- "Shut your face!"- Anderson laughed even harder and took a look around the bar
- "So, if you are not dating Spencer, I have a friend who asked about you."
- "Who? What friend? Is he here?"- Garcia shouted question after question as she had overheard the whole conversation and even moved closer.
- "His name is James. He saw you on the news a few months ago, at a press conference with Rossi, and has been asking about you ever since."
I frowned and looked at Garcia, who was wide-eyed staring at Anderson. I had no idea what was going on. It was bizarre.
- "No, thank you?"- I whispered, not even sure of what I should answer at that- "I'm very flattered, Grant, but⊠I'm really not looking for someone right now."
- "You are not?"- Garcia asked me, and I just shook my head.
- "No, I have too much going on in my life, with work and⊠well⊠what we doâŠ"
- "Really?"- Anderson sounded a little disappointed- "Well, in case you change your mind, James isâŠ"
- "(Y/N)? Can I talk to you for a second?"- Garcia grabbed my arm and crawled me to a side of the bar.
- "What? What is it?"
- "Munchkin, you know I love you."
- "Yes, I love you too, PG."
- "That's why I feel like I need to be honest with you, âcos you've always been so sweet, and we've known each other for years now, and I feel like if I don't tell you this, you are never going to forgive me."- Penelope was nearly hyperventilating as she spoke.
- "Ok, what is it? You are scaring me."
- "You have to tell Reid how you feel."
- "What?"
- "He has to know! You have to tell him!"
- "I don't wanna talk about what, Penelope"- I tried to walk away from her, but she stopped me, grabbed my arm, and pulled me back.
- "No, (Y/N). He loves you, I'm not a profiler, I don't even play one on tv, but I am sure what I see in his eyes when he looks at you is love⊠âcos it's the same you have when you look at him!"
- "Son of a bitch!!"- the words escaped my lips as my heart nearly left my chest.
- "No, (Y/N)!"- but Garcia lost my attention that second, âcos all I could see was Spencer Walter Reid walking into the bar and Ashley Seaver hanging from his arm.
- "What do you want me to tell him, Garcia? To have fun with his new girlfriend?"- I pointed at the door, and her jaw nearly hit the floor.
- "Ok, no. There has to be a reasonable explanation for that!"
- "Yes, but Spencer being in love with me is not the explanation. I'm gonna get a drink."
Spencer's point of view
I was surprised to get Ashley's phone call that night. When my phone rang, I was ready to go to bed. My head was killing me. I had already scheduled an appointment with the doctor for some exams. I was starting to have a bad feeling about what those headaches really were, and I was too scared to tell anyone what was going on. Not even (Y/N).
Actually, of all people, she was the one I wanted to keep in the dark. Why? âCos ever since we met she had taken care of me, I didn't think it was fair. She had taken me into her life and given me a place in it. And sometimes, I felt I was a burden. She helped me overcome all of my traumas and even my drug addiction. She introduced me to her best friends and made me part of her life. (Y/N) had taken trips with me to Las Vegas just to see my mom, âcos she knew it was hard for me to do it on my own. If it hadn't been for her, I would have probably spent over a year without visiting her. Now, we took a weekend to see mom every few months.
Why would I trouble her with some headaches? It wasn't fair.
When Ashley called, for a moment, I thought it might be (Y/N), asking me to pick her up. But no. It wasn't her that time.
- "Hey Spence, I'm sorry to bother you, but⊠are you at Anderson's party?"
- "No, actually, I'm in my house."
- "Why? I thought you were invited too."
- "Yeah, I know, and I was, but I'm kind of tired, and I wanted to come home and get some rest. Why? Are you at the party?"
- "No, but I was getting ready to go. But now I feel kind of awkward asking you."
- "What? What is it?"
- "I just⊠wanted to know if you could come with me. I'm so sorry, Spence, I didn't know you were tired. I just⊠I wanted to go to the party, but I feel kind of silly going alone. I wanted to ask Prentiss, but she left with (Y/N) and Garcia, and I felt so awkward askingâŠ"
I wanted to groan, roll in my bed and hide under my pillow. But Ashley was the new girl, and she deserved to have some fun.
- "Don't worry, I'll take you there,"- I know I whispered my answer âcos I didn't really want to do it, but somehow I felt it was my duty.
- "Really?!"- and by the excitement in Ashley's voice, it was clear that was what she wanted to hear.
- "I'll pick you up in half an hour, ok?"
- "Thank you so much, Spence!!"
But when I walked into the bar, I knew I had made a mistake. I felt it in my guts. The same intuition I never followed in my personal life, only on the field.
I quickly looked around as Ashley held on to my arm tightly and walked into the bar with a big smile. I soon found Prentiss and JJ talking at a table filled with empty glasses, and my heart jumped inside my chest at the warm, familiar feeling that my friends gave me. I missed JJ very much. And not just as a team member but as a friend who had been taken away from us. (Y/N) always said I didn't know how to deal with change, neither did she, and the shifts in the team always affected me.
Soon I saw Morgan too, talking with Anderson and some other agents. Garcia had to be close then, but I couldn't see her or (Y/N) anywhere around.
- "Come on! Let's get a drink!"- Ashley said and crawled me to the bar.
- "I don't drink and drive"- I said, and she pouted.
- "Come on! You are no fun! Just one!"
- "No, just water. Thanks,"- I turned and scanned the place. Everybody was there, and they seemed to be having fun. Penelope waved and walked to me suddenly. She cut me a short smile and grabbed my arm.
- "Hey, what the hell are you doing here?"
- "I didn't want to come, but Ashley insisted andâŠ"
- "Hi!"- Ashley appeared by our side and handed me a bottle of water- "I'm so excited to be here! We really needed to decompress after everything that happened this week, right Garcia?"
Penelope stared at us, trying to formulate an answer. I could see her making her bet to say something, but she just didn't. Instead, she just turned around and walked away.
- "Is she ok?"- I didn't know how to answer that, âcos Penelope's reaction surprised me. Ashley just looked around and grabbed my arm again.
- "Come on, Spencer! Let's dance!"
- "No, I don't⊠dance, sorry."
Lucky for me, Prentiss showed up and invited us to sit with her at her table. I don't know if she noticed I was uncomfortable, but I was glad to see her. Being in that bar made me feel pretty awkward and exposed.
I had never been much of a party person. I wasn't used to bars and gatherings until I joined the BAU. When I first met Derek, he tried to take me out a few times and be my wingman. It's obvious he failed at that mission. Meeting people at a bar is the most complicated equation I could ever try to solve. It doesn't work for me, no matter how hard Derek pushed me to do it. He said I had to rely on what made me feel comfortable. But no. It wasn't that I couldn't meet people. It was that I didn't want to meet anyone once I met the woman of my dreams. Even when I knew she could never be mine.
When (Y/N) came along, she started hosting these fun "dinner parties" with Frank, Lu, and Mikey, which changed everything. It was the first time I was hanging out with people my age doing things I actually liked doing. It wasn't about drinking or picking girls in a bar. It was about playing Jenga, or charades, eating pizza, and talking about movies and sometimes even books.
(Y/N) said her friends considered me part of the gang, which was all I ever wanted to hear. That I belonged. It's kind of sad when you think about it, but I don't care. I had never felt like I belonged anywhere, and they made me feel like I was one of them. They took me to their rock shows, and I jumped along with the crowd, knowing I wasn't an outcast there. I was with my friends.
You don't know how good that made me feel. And for years, they were my social comfort and cocoon. Then, when Rossi joined the BAU again, he started hosting fancy dinner parties at his house, and I got to hang out with the whole team without being at a bar, pushed to meet people. And it was so good. (Y/N) always said Rossi's arrival had a cohesive effect on us. Not because he brought us together, but the circumstances of his arrival and everything that happened that first year.
This team is no stranger to trauma, and that's a fact. I think Rossi's dinner parties gave us a space to be ourselves, relax, have a few drinks and enjoy our time together. I think that's when we stepped from being friends to be family.
And I hadn't had one before.
I hugged JJ tight as soon as I saw her smiling at me. I hadn't seen her ever since her goodbye party, over two months before, but we had talked on the phone a few times.
- "I've missed you so much, Spence!!"- she said and held my face with both hands- "You and (Y/N) owe me two babysit nights,"- and I laughed, thinking we promised we'd take care of Henry so she and Will could have a date, but we were called for a case.
- "Wait! It was one night!"- I argued, chuckling- "Why is it two nights now?"
- "âCos I lost a very exclusive reservation due to the two of you."
- "Technically, it wasn't our fault, we were called in for a case..."
I smiled and sat next to JJ, and Prentiss sat next to me. Ashley stood by the table and smiled at JJ. Right, they didn't even know each other.
- "It's very nice to meet you, Agent Jareau. The team talks very highly of you,"- she shook JJ's hand and smiled.
- "Ashley, right? Prentiss was just telling me you will be taking your remedial training at the BAU. Congratulations, it's a fantastic team to work with."
- "Thank you,"- I took a look around, still trying to find my best friend around. But it seemed useless, and I was starting to feel worried.
- "Where's (Y/N)?"- I had to ask.
- "She was with Anderson a minute ago,"- Penelope said and looked around- "I am going to look for her and bring her here in a second. I'll be right back."
And so, she was gone.
Prentiss and I pretty much interrogated JJ about her new job and the new team she worked with at the pentagon. I sipped my water and half-listened her answer, âcos most of my head was trying to register what was going on around me. No, actually, I was trying to find (Y/N). Penelope had been gone for half an hour looking for her, and I was starting to think something weird was going on. Besides, my head was killing me, and all I wanted was to go home. But I hadn't seen JJ in weeks, and I couldn't waste a chance like that.
Ashley talked with Prentiss too, and every once in a while, she tried to engage in conversation with me. But to be honest, I couldn't really concentrate on anything. I just wanted to know (Y/N) was alright.
- "Excuse me,"- I stood up slowly and looked at my friends- "I'm going to the bathroom, be right back."
- "Can you get us another round on our way back?"- Prentiss asked and smiled guiltily.
- "Sure."
- "Do you need help?"- Ashley tried to stand up, but Emily stopped her.
- "He got it, don't worry."
So I was left on my own. I walked around the bar. In my mind, I kept telling myself I was "looking for the bathroom," but I knew very well I was indeed trying to find (Y/N). I had been in that bar for an hour, and I still hadn't seen her. I was worried.
I walked around the bar and found Anderson. He seemed to be a little shocked to see me there but smiled and hugged me. It was weird hugging people, still. But Anderson was part of the team. It always felt like it. We had known each other for years, and somehow it was like he was in the background of our daily basics.
- "Have you seen (Y/N)?"- I asked him, and he widened his eyes- "What?"
- "Yeah, she's right there, actually⊠"- Grant Anderson pointed and turned around- "Later, Reid."
- "Bye"- I didn't even look at him. I just turned and looked around to see (Y/N).
But my best friend didn't notice me. She was too busy kissing some guy.
I stood in front of her, not knowing what to do. Her eyes were closed, and her arms were around his neck, so clearly, she wasn't in distress, and no matter how badly I wanted to take her from him, I just couldn't.
For a minute, I couldn't believe my eyes. I just stood there and stared at (Y/N), trying to understand what was going on. I always knew she wasn't meant to be mine, but I had never gotten such a brutal reminder. Not even when she was dating Paul. Watching her kissing someone else was shocking. The way that man put his hands on her waist and held her close to him, just like I always dreamt of doing, was painful.
Painful. That was the only word I can explain how it felt.
I stood there for a minute or so. I really don't know how long it was, but it felt long enough to burn in my memory everything I needed to torture myself with for the rest of my life. I stepped back after a minute. It might have been longer; I really can't recall. And all I managed to do was to walk out of the bar and reach my car.
I opened the door and slammed it as I sat behind the wheel. I wanted to cry and yell. But I didn't do either of those. Instead, I stayed still, staring at the nothing in front of me, trying to erase that fresh memory from my head. But it was impossible. (Y/N) was making out with some guy inside that bar, and there was nothing I could do to stop her. So I did the only thing I could do at that minute. I started the car and got the fuck out of there.
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Beneath the Stars || Douxie x Reader || One Shot
The soft sound of plucking of guitar strings filled your ears. It made your heart melt and feel warm inside, making you forget the cold. Your boyfriend started softly singing a song. He suddenly stopped playing, making you frown and turn your head towards him.Â
âWhyâd you stop?â you asked, closing up the book you were reading.Â
âWell, I noticed what the time was and saw itâs nearly 6,â he said, gesturing to the clock on the wall behind him.Â
âSo?â you asked, still confused.Â
âRemember, you promised me somethingâŠâ he hinted.Â
You looked at him blankly.Â
âYou promised me you would make me hot chocolate with marshmallows,â he said.Â
âOh! Sorry Doux, I forgot about that,â you apologised, getting up from the couch and heading to the kitchen.Â
You grabbed a mug from the drawer, placing it on a counter. You then got sugar, and added 2 tablespoons of it. You walked over to the pantry and tried to get the cocoa powder, but it was on the top shelf. You werenât that tall, so you struggled a bit. You felt a hand brush yours. You turned around to see Douxie grabbing it for you.Â
âI couldâve just grabbed it myself, you know?â you said, crossing your arms.Â
âBut it wouldâve taken you longer, so that would delay your making of my drink, which means I would have to wait longer,â Douxie whined, handing you the cocoa powder.Â
You rolled your eyes at his whining. He had to learn to be patient⊠well, at least for his food.Â
You continued to make Douxieâs hot chocolate. You felt a pair of arms wrap around your waist as you were mixing the sugar, cocoa powder and milk. Douxie put his chin on your shoulder as he whispered into your ear, âHow much longer do I have do I have to wait? You know Iâm hungry.âÂ
âWell, if you let me go to the microwave, I can heat up your drink and then youâll be able to drink it,â you replied.Â
âBut I love doing this!â Douxie whined.Â
You chuckled at him. Even though he was a bit impatient with his food, you loved his whining. You gently pushed him back and walked to the microwave, putting the mug inside and turning it on. You walked back over to the counter to clean up your mess.Â
As you were cleaning up, Douxie was leaning over the other side of the counter, staring at you. He never took his eyes off of you. You noticed his staring from the corner of your eye. You blushed a little and giggled.Â
âWhy are you staring at me, Douxie? Do I have something on my face?â you asked.Â
He shook his head, eyes still on you.Â
âThen?â you asked.Â
âYouâre just⊠so amazing. Iâm very lucky to have you,â Douxie expressed.Â
âIâm flattered,â you said, walking over to the microwave and getting out the mug.Â
You set the mug onto the counter and grabbed a bag of marshmallows, and plopped a few in. You handed Douxie the mug, putting the marshmallows away. You then looked at the time, it was 6:30. You had to get going or else your roomie, Zoe, would freak out.Â
âDoux, I go to go,â you shouted, grabbing your bag and opening the door of his apartment.Â
âWait!â he shouted, running to you.Â
âWhat? You know Zoe will freak out if Iâm not back soon,â you reminded.Â
âI know, I know. Iâll be at your door tomorrow at 9 a.m. sharp. So you better be ready and have your things packed,â Douxie explained.Â
âWhy?â you asked, wondering why he wanted to you to have your bag packed.Â
âItâs a surprise and surprises arenât supposed to be told,â he said.Â
âBut--â you started, but were cut off by a kiss.Â
The kiss wasnât as long as Douxie wanted. You pulled back and smiled at him.
âSorry, but I gotta pack and Zoe might be having a heart attack right now,â you apologised.Â
âWell, Iâll see you tomorrow, my love,â Douxie said, giving you a two-finger salute.Â
You laughed at his gesture and walked out the door.Â
As you were walking through the streets, you noticed a bunch of kids gathered around something. You went over to check out what it was. You looked at what everyone was looking at. It was Toby doing some magic tricks. Currently, he was holding a sock in his hand and saying some words, you didnât quite hear, and then the sock disappeared. Everybody started clapping at his trick. You were impressed. He actually pulled off a magic trick, unlike the other times.Â
You walked away and continued making your way to your apartment. As you continued, you felt a bit more colder than earlier. You hugged your arms and quickened your pace.Â
You were about to open the door to your apartment, but someone from inside already did.Â
âY/N! Where were you? I was worried sick! You know I donât like you staying outside after dark!â Zoe scolded.Â
âSorry, Zoe. I got hung up. I was making Douxie some hot chocolate,â you apologised. âAnd you know that you couldâve just called to check where I was.âÂ
âI did! I called you 10 times!â Zoe exclaimed.Â
You checked your phone to see 10 missed calls from Zoe.Â
Oops.Â
âMy phone mustâve been on silent,â you shrugged, walking in.Â
Zoe closed the door and plopped onto the couch, turning on the TV. You put your bag away and sat on the couch with Zoe.Â
âWhat are you gonna watch?â you asked.Â
âI donât know,â she replied blandly.Â
She then turned off the TV and turned to you.Â
âSo? What do you want for dinner? Weâve got some left over lasagne. Or we can just order something,â Zoe asked.Â
âIâll have the left over the lasagne, you can order something for yourself. Iâve got to pack,â you replied, getting up and walking into the kitchen.Â
You warmed up the lasagne and quickly ate it.Â
âWoah! Hold up. Pack? Where are you going?â Zoe questioned.Â
âI actually donât know where Iâm going. Douxie just said to pack my bag and that heâll be at the door at 9 tomorrow,â you answered.Â
Zoe smirked.Â
âAre you two going on a little lovey dovey holiday by yourselves?â Zoe teased.Â
âZoe!â you groaned and rushed into your and Zoeâs room, wanting to avoid her and start packing.Â
You heard a laugh but you didnât say anything, you just wanted to pack and go to bed.Â
After about half an hour, you zipped up your duffle bag and put it at the door of the room.
Crash!Â
Uh-oh! You rushed out to the kitchen to see broken glass all of the floor. Zoe was standing there, her hands behind her back, as if she didnât do anything.Â
âZoe, how did this happen?â you asked, grabbing a broom and cleaning up the mess.Â
âI was just tryna practice my magic⊠but, it didnât go so well,â Zoe admitted, helping you.Â
âNext time, go somewhere where you wonât break anything,â you advised her.Â
âI will,â Zoe said.Â
âOk, Iâm heading off to bed. Iâm beat,â you said, walking into your and Zoeâs bedroom and jumped in, not bothering to change.Â
The light got turned off. You looked to see Zoe heading over to her bed as well. You wished each other goodnight and fell asleep, well at least Zoe did. You couldnât stop thinking about what Douxieâs surprise was.
The next morning, you were ready and drinking f/d on the couch. You heard the bell ring and hurried up to open the door. You opened the door to be greeted by Douxie, a big smile on his face.Â
âReady to go, love? I donât want us to be late,â Douxie asked.Â
âYup, just let me get my phone and bag,â you said, rushing to get your things.Â
âOkay, got everything. Letâs go,â you said, walking out the door.Â
Douxie put your bag in the back seat of his car, where his bag and a whole bunch of random stuff was. You sat at the front of the car, waiting for Douxie.
âSo, where are we going?â you asked, trying to find out where you were going.Â
âAs I said yesterday, itâs a surprise and surprises arenât supposed to be told,â Douxie repeated, driving away from Arcadia.Â
âPleeeeeeease,â you begged.Â
Douxie shook his head. You groaned and looked out the window, gazing at the scenery.Â
âYou can listen to whatever music you want,â Douxie suggested, giving you his phone.Â
You smiled and put on some music.Â
The two of you enjoyed the drive, singing and telling each other jokes.
It was around 1 when Douxie stopped the car at a diner on the side of the road. The two of you headed in and sat at a table, ordering two sandwiches and two milkshakes.Â
âHow much longer until we get to this mystery place?â you asked.Â
âWeâll get there just before sunset, I think. Weâll have enough time to explore the place,â Douxie replied.Â
The two of you chatted as you ate your food. You two spent a bit too much time at the diner, so the two of you rushed to the counter to pay. You pulled out your card, Douxie doing the same. âSo, you guys splitting the bill or is just one paying?â the clerk asked.Â
âIâm paying,â both of you replied.Â
The both of you turned to face each other.Â
âNo, y/n, Iâm paying for this whole trip. Not you,â Douxie said.Â
âOh, no, no, no! Youâre not paying. Iâm the one whoâs going to pay since youâre already taking me to who-knows where,â you argued.Â
Then you quickly tapped your card onto the eftpos machine, paying for the food.Â
You smiled at Douxie, who gave you a frown. The two of you left the diner and continued the journey to the place Douxie was taking you. The drive was silent, no chatting, no music. You started to get worried if you had upset Douxie by paying.Â
âDoux, you okay?â you asked.Â
He just nodded at you.Â
âAre you upset about the bill?â you suddenly asked.Â
âWhat? No, Iâm just hoping that we get there before sunset,â he explained.Â
After 3 more hours of driving, you had a arrived at the place. There was a beautiful lake in front of you, surrounded by pine trees. In the distance, you saw mountains that looked like it had recently snowed. You got out of the car and saw a bunch of cabins in front of you. Douxie got out of the car and handed you your duffle bag. The two of you headed to a slightly bigger cabin where a lady was at the reception typing away.Â
âHey, Margaret!â Douxie greeted the lady.Â
âHello, Douxie! I have your cabin keys ready to go. You and your lovely lady are in cabin 919. Itâll be easy to spot out,â Margaret said, handing Douxie a key.Â
Douxie thanked her and the both of you headed to find cabin 919.Â
After going around the woods for a few minutes, you spotted a cabin that had a sign that wrote 919. Margaret was right, it was easy to spot out.Â
âHey, is it just a coincidence or did Margaret give us the cabin that was the same age as you?â you asked, putting the key into the key hole and opening the door.Â
You stepped inside, taking in the cabin. In front of you were two couches, one shaped like an L. In front of the couches was a fireplace and a large TV above. Next to it was a small kitchen and a dining table. You walked around and saw a door that led into the bedroom.Â
The bedroom was not to big or not to small. It was just right. It felt cozy and smelled like rosewood. To the right, there was a queen sized bed, with a bunch of pillows, pastel green and pink with a few plain white pillows. There were two armchairs in front of the bed, surrounding a round glass coffee table. At the back of the room was another fireplace. On each side of the fireplace were two big windows that almost went to the floor. Dangling above the bed was a chandelier with individual cone shaped lights that sat on a wooden ring. Overall, the bedroom was beautiful.Â
You walked outside the bedroom to see another door in front of the bedroom, which probably would be the bathroom. You walked in to see Douxie taking out his toiletries and placing them on a shelf.Â
âSo, did you like it?â he asked, placing the last of his stuff on the shelf and walking over to you.Â
âI donât like it...â you started, seeing Douxie frown, âI love it!âÂ
Douxie playfully punched your arm, âYou gave me a lil heart attack there, Y/n!âÂ
âWell, Iâve explored the place. What do we do now?â you asked.Â
âI have a good idea on what we should do,â Douxie smirked.Â
He led you to the back, where there was an amazing view of the snow covered mountains you saw earlier. On top of that, you could see the sun disappearing at the horizon. The sky was now a mix of orange, purple, blue and pink.Â
âDouxie... this is so...â you stumbled, trying to look for the words, âIâm at a loss of words.âÂ
âThis place is quite breathtaking, isnât it?â he said.Â
Both of you took a seat on the ground, watching the sunset.Â
âWanna see a trick?â Douxie suddenly asked.Â
âSure,â you replied.Â
Douxie transformed his watch into a bracelet, scrolled through his runes and tapped on one. He waved his hand and sky blue magic roses started forming around you. You stared at them with awe. He magicked a few birds as well.Â
âDouxie, where did you learn all this?â you asked as they faded.Â
âIâve been learning over the years. Master Merlin taught me, but only after my nonstop begging. He only taught me how to magic the castle in Camelot, the rest I taught myself,â Douxie explained.Â
âWow. Can you teach me? Please?â you requested.Â
âIâll teach you tomorrow. I have plans for us for the rest of the evening,â Douxie responded, getting up and lending you a hand.Â
You took it and he pulled you up to your feet, only to be swept off of them by Douxie. He carried you in his arms, bridal-style.Â
âDoux, you know I can walk myself back into the cabin, right?â you said.Â
âIâm fully aware of that, but this is more fun,â he grinned, walking back into the cabin.Â
He set you down on the couch and plopped himself next to you.
âSo, what are the plans?â you questioned.Â
âIâm not telling you, it a surprise. For now, you can go freshen up and get changed,â Douxie said, getting the TV remote and started to scroll through the channels.Â
You headed into the room and got a pair of black jeans and a black hoodie, since it was starting to get a bit chilly. You walked into the bathroom and quickly took a shower.Â
While you were getting freshened up, Douxie called Archie.Â
âHey, Arch! Howâs it going over there?â Douxie asked.Â
âMostly good. Tobias here has ate most of your supply of popcorn, Jim is making pizza, Claire and Blinky are arguing over what movie to watch. Other then that, everything is cool over here. What about you?â Archie explained.Â
âGood, just going to--â he started when he heard someone knock on the door. "Sorry Arch, I got to go. Oh, and tell me if anything and I mean if anything goes wrong."Â
"Don't worry about it Douxie, you just enjoy your time with y/n," Archie reassured him.Â
Douxie playfully rolled his eyes and disconnected Archie. He got up from the couch and opened the door to see Margaret.Â
"Hey Margaret! What's up?" he asked.Â
"I just came here to tell you that your special requested dinner is ready. You and your lovely lady can start heading over there," Margaret said.Â
"Thanks Margaret!" Douxie said, as she walked away.Â
Soon after, you came out of the bathroom, all freshened up.Â
"Okay Douxie, I've freshened up, as you had requested," you said.Â
"Great! Just wait five minutes and we'll be out the door," Douxie said, running into the bathroom.Â
Exactly five minutes later, Douxie came out the bathroom. He was wearing the exact same thing as you, the only difference was that he had a plain hoodie while you had some type of pattern on the front.Â
"Ready to go?" he asked.Â
"You're the one who made me wait for five minutes."
"Oh, right."Â
The two of you then headed into the woods, you having no idea why. Then you reached a clearing where there were fairy lights hanging around the trees, a small round dining table in the middle. There was food already set out on the plates, making your mouth water from the aroma.Â
"Quick, we should probably start eating the food before it gets cold," Douxie whispered in your ear and pulled you to the table.Â
Douxie took out the chair for you and you sat down.Â
The two of you ate f/f while Douxie and you chatted away under the moonlight. While you were chewing, Douxie spoke, "Even if gravity didn't exist, I'd still be falling for you."Â
You choked on your food, grabbing the glass of water in front of you and gulped it all down. After calming down a little bit, you fell silent.
"What made you want to use a pick up line on me?" you suddenly asked Douxie.Â
"Cause I felt like it. Plus, I wanted to know how you would react," Douxie admitted. "Now, I know how you react to pick up lines."Â
He burst out laughing while you were groaned at him.Â
"Haha, very funny," you retorted.Â
"Okay okay. I'll stop laughing. So, you done?" he asked.Â
"Yep," you answered.Â
"Okay, 'cause we're going now," Douxie said, getting up.Â
You also stood up.Â
"I know that I'm not going to get an answer, but we are we going?" you questioned.Â
As you had guessed, Douxie didn't answer. He just said that it was a surprise, yet again.Â
After about 10 minutes of trekking, you arrived at a cliff where you could clearly see the night sky. You could even see the Milky Way. That's how far the two of you are from the city lights and pollution.Â
"Wow, Douxie, this is beautiful. I can see the Milky Way here," you commented, as the two of you sat down at the edge of the cliff.Â
"Yeah, we're that far away from the city. I always knew that you took an interest in space, especially constellations and stars," Douxie said, wrapping an arm around your waist, pulling you closer to him.Â
"Thank you for bringing me here, Douxie. This place is amazing," you said, resting your head on his shoulder.Â
"Anything for you, my love," Douxie said, planting a kiss on your hair.Â
The two of you spent the rest of the night stargazing.Â
Credit: Gabby - IG: itsgabby.2021
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