#like not only is that the case for a lot of Deaf people in reality but also
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sadisthetic · 9 months ago
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cupids-dove · 5 months ago
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That's Not My Neighbor Head cannons I won't stop thinking about.
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Arabella (oc):
Hopeless romantic
That one friend who's always dressed nicely even when having a breakdown
Would bail you out of jail
Easily flustered
Swears in french but says it in a sweet way, so people think she's complimenting them.
Can't pronounce "declaration"
Very insecure but acts like she's the best
Likes to be the dumb blonde because arguing with men is dumb
Dramatic queen
Marina and the Diamonds coded
Francis:
Runs off of coffee 24/7
Forgets to eat all the damn time
At some point he stopped giving a fuck about doppels
MAN CANNOT FLIRT TO SAVE HIS LIFE (it's okay bc he's unintentionally hot)
Terrible at English (grammar, etc)
Some days just talks in mumbles, and no one ever knows wtf he says
Punched a doppel without realizing it (he thought it was his coworker who wouldn't leave him tf alone-)
Milkshakes are a guilty pleasure
Got chased by a dog during a delivery, and now hates them
Basically, the batman of the building
Nacha:
Bicurious fr fr
A girl's girl
Type of woman to have pads/tampons/liners, etc, in case anyone needs one
Drops off food for Francis because she knows he forgets to eat
Honestly the best mom ever-
She's actually not very good at baking
Her relationship with Francis was: the opposite eyes where one is like happy and the other is tired-
Or like: grew up with a big family x grew up an only child
The one who actually suggested the divorce
Left handed
Has an odd fascination with pears
Anastacha:
She walked in on her parents once, and now whenever Nacha needs her, she has to go to Ana instead of Ana going to her.
Thinks it's cheesy her name is so similar to her mom's
Pretty close to both her parents
I think she'd really like The Addams Family
Good at math
Picked up saying "whatever" from upper classmen
Kinda hates the idea of romance
The type of person to just stare into your soul but in reality was zoning out (got that from her dad fr fr)
Likes picking flowers to bring to her mom after school
Steven:
Bad boy with a heart of gold
Looks like a fboy but this guy got no bitches
Kinda dumb most of the time, but gets serious when it comes to piloting
The cool uncle
Wear sunglasses even if he can't see shit
Insecure about his eyes
Definitely the type to try and fight a goose
He's an only child and wishes he had some younger siblings
Doesn't like to drink all that much
Definitely knows how to play guitar or some sort of instrument
Mclooy:
Most loyal man ever
His wife died before the doppelgangers, but once you get him talking about her he won't shut up
Taught Steven how to play guitar
Everytime he smokes he thinks of how his wife would nag him about it </3
A lot of the guys go to him for advice
I imagine he's got one of those warm hearty laughs
Was in the military for a bit
Worries about Steven everytime he goes out
Doesn't understand mental health, but does his best
Lois:
Sweetest old woman, you'll ever meet.
Carries candy on her all the time
Loves roses so much
Her and her husband are definitely grumpy x soft
Can be kind of an air head sometimes
Had a dog named Puffles when she was young
Has at least 3 kids who write her letters with pressed flowers, which she keeps
Never really liked pearls until Roman bought her a pearl necklace
She's a bit tone deaf
Roman:
Grumpiest man ever
Questions how he ever got with Lois
Knows how to play piano
Is very good with numbers
Hates he's balding but Lois reassures him all the time he's still handsome
Very uncoordinated man
Dislikes pomegranates for some reason
Loves his children very much and gives financial advice
Selenne:
More on the slim and regal side
Has begged Arabella for clothing advice
Loves matching with Elenois
Hates being separated from her sister
The friend who goes partying every night
Definitely the type to gossip with her sister
Cannot keep a secret to SAVE HER LIFE
Has the tendency to talk about topics she doesn't fully understand
Elenois:
Does Selenne's makeup because Selenne always begs her to
Definitely has accidentally called herself by her sister's name
Technically the older twin
Worries that she's not as pretty as her sister even though they look alike
A secret lesbian
Wears cherry chapstick
Hated yellow/orange at first and grew to really like it.
The type to scold you about doing something wrong, but in the process is giving you comfort items
If it wasn't for her sister encouraging her to join her in modeling. She probably would've been a sectary.
Mia:
Loves the color red WITH. A. PASSION.
Loves receiving apples too <3
Probably smells like apple blossoms too-
Very good at English
Teaches third graders
Wants to be a mother with lots and lots of kids
Her relationship with Dr. W. Afton is literally gorgeous wife x dork
Loves her silly fiance
Dyes he hair blonde
Dr. W. Afton:
Man is clueless
Also has no idea how he bagged such a beautiful woman
Loves how smart Mia is
Does questionable shit all the time
Has a thing for bunnies that doesn't feel entirely normal
Has been mistaken for a doppel by neighbors because sometimes he creeps them out
He gives me quiet kid
Definitely grew up with no siblings and extremely awkward around other women
Looks like he would freak out over a bug
Angus:
This man MOST DEFINITELY knows how to dance
He reminds me of Waluigi
He looks like he enjoys pineapple on pizza
A lady's man fr fr
Would treat you so well
A romantic
Smokes a lot, though, because work is hard
Drinks red wine
Has a fancy ass bathrobe that lowkey Slenne is jealous of
Izaack:
Chad
Peaked in highschool
Nosiest mf ever
He's somewhat sweet
Misogynist
Very good at his job
Likes Selenne and gives her all the gossip
Has flirted with all the women in the building at LEAST once (shoot ur shot ig)
He's most proud of his jaw line
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Author's note: Someone should lmk if I should do more :P also I might do something with Arabella more dive deeper into her- I'm just doing this for fun, for myself really because I was just gonna wrote most of these in my notes app. I doubt many people will read this so-
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giuliettagaltieri · 2 years ago
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Just Kiss Her Already
Pairing: Eren Jaeger x reader
Synopsis: Craving for academic validation, you find an unexpected challenger who might have hurt your feelings, just a bit.
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Success came easy.
With your sharp wit, even sharper tongue, ambitions reaching the heavens and the drive to make them a reality, and of course your superficial charm that could bring people to their knees.
You are at the top of your game.  You will get that Latin honor you have been striving for since day one of starting at university.
If only it was not for him.
You will never come to understand him, you figured.
Eren Jaeger was the last person you expected to be your rival.
He was irresponsible, lazy, and basically a manifestation of all things negative.
A biased opinion coming from you, of course. 
He is well liked by the professors.  His provocative statements stimulate the class and challenges even your mind.
You hate to admit it, you refuse to admit it.
It also does not help that he is just so nice, you almost feel guilty for making him sound so horrible in the first place.
Your leg bounces as you listen to him give his constructive argument regarding the issue asked by the professor.
You had the same idea in mind, you were just too anxious to speak up earlier, not wanting to embarrass yourself by answering rashly and miss the point.
The professor grins at Eren and the soles of your feet run cold as he jokingly tells the class that you should try to see the agreement through Eren’s perspective as he claims it is one of the best ways to approach the issue at hand.
The disdain was clearly painted on your face and Eren had to suppress a chuckle.
“Does anybody want to add to Mr. Jaeger’s statement?”  Your professor asks, his old wrinkly hands in a clasp.
The entire class falls silent and you reconsider if you should just let Eren have this or-
“Yes, Y/N?”
Your hand is already up in the air before you could even think about backing out again.
“I do have something to say.  But I won’t be adding to Mr. Jaeger’s statement.”  You stand up and face your professor with your usual stone-cold expression.  “I’ll be contradicting it.”
Eren raises a brow, smirk slowly building on his lips.
“You see professor, Mr. Jaeger mentioned how death penalty could not only bring a sense of justice but will also deter crimes but can we really afford it?”
“As I mentioned, that is exactly why the Department of Justice should be challenged to not make justice a luxury that only the rich can afford.”  Eren rolls his eyes.
You turn to him fully.  “But before the suspect could be proved guilty and be subjected under death penalty, it would take lots and lots of trials and those aren’t exactly cheap, the government cannot give all their funds to every case.”
Eren scowls at you, as he mutters.  “Tell that to a little girl who has to suffer from AIDS after being abused.”
The bell ringing through the entire classroom goes unnoticed by you as you are left staring at Eren, wide-eyed and your throat completely dry.  You stand there until all of them has left.  Even the compliment from your professor for providing such objective and practical insights falls on deaf ears.
Eren’s words echo in your head and you bite your thumb as you stare at your computer screen but nothing goes through your head.
You shouldn’t have tried.
Hours passed but you still feel so humiliated, having him destroy your carefully built academic confidence so easily.
You rest your forehead on your palms.
He wasn’t even being impartial.  He was just being emotional.  You made a better point.
But the way he looked at you.  You never wanted to be on the receiving end of it.  Not from him or anyone.  It unnerved you.
You hated having to feel like this.  It feels suffocating.  You were not even defending the criminals!
If he just kept his mouth shut, you could have even added life imprisonment and instead strengthening the laws that are built to support non-bailable cases.
Eren was just being stupid, getting all snappy like that.
It was very uncharacteristic of him to react like that in class.  He was usually very laid-back.  Well, you did see him get in a brutal fight before but he was usually kind, which made him likeable just the tiniest bit.
You huff as you glare at your laptop screen.
He didn’t have to be that mean about it.
Exams were drawing near and your professors were trying to stuff every information in your heads.
You hear your last name being called and you look up from your notebook to look at the sweet old lady, your history teacher, who was smiling at you.
“Uh, yes?”  You ask unsure, your cheeks growing warmer with every passing second.
“I was asking if you have any clarifications.”
Your classmates groan, knowing that they will be kept for another quarter hour.
Sitting up straighter, you then close your notebook and shake your head, a small smile plastered on your lips. 
“No, I’m good.”
Well, that was odd.
The cafeteria was as rambunctious as ever and you let out a sigh of relief when see the last croquette sandwich in the counter.  You speedwalk towards it, avoiding the slow walkers, letting out a few insults under your breath.
Why can’t anything go your way for once?
Your face fall when you watch how ring clad fingers pick up the sandwich.
“Sorry, you just looked so adorable.”  Eren smiles condescendingly, trying to keep himself from laughing.  “So adorable that I just had to steal this from you.”
What was it that made you think he was kind again?
Eren stares at you with his tired looking eyes, daring you to speak up.
But you plaster that same smile again.
“That’s fine.  You can have it.  I’m not that hungry anyway.”  You turn around from him and started walking towards the cafeteria doors.
Now, he’s just being an asshole.
And he knew it too.
He was just teasing you, he wasn’t even going to buy it, just wanted to get a rise from you.
Eren bites his cheek as he watches you disappear behind the cafeteria doors.
He rolls his eyes.
Girls and their hormones.
Eren Jaeger is the resident basketball prodigy and academic extraordinaire, he’s definitely not letting such meaningless encounter get to him.
He will not think about it enough to cost him his beauty rest.  It is definitely not the reason why he wanted to go for a morning jog to clear his head.  It was also 100% not the reason why the coffee he got three minutes ago slipped from his hands just so he could get inside a coffee shop after seeing what’s by the third window to the left.
Eren Jaeger, the unparalleled ladies’ man did not just take a quick look of himself from his reflection on the decorative tin coffee pot by the cashier to see if his manbun was just averagely disheveled. 
Surely, his heart was not pounding in his chest as he casually sat opposite you on your booth as he leaned back and stared off the window, watching the sun slowly spill the colors of wine on the previously dark sky.
“Can I help you?”  You ask, your brows furrowed as you take your headphones off.
He glances at you and to your scattered notes.
“What’s your aesthetic preference?  Chaotic academia?”  He snickers.
You huff, gathering the papers on the table to stack them, muttering a small ‘shut up’.
Eren smiles but no humor finds his eyes.  “What’s wrong with you?”
Shaking your head, you put your headphones back on.  “I have no idea what you’re talking about.  You can stay but please don’t pester me more than you already have.”
There it is.
Eren thanks the waitress who brought his coffee.  He takes a sip and watches how you drag your pen across the paper, leaving a baby pink hue underneath a word.
He clears his throat before setting his cup down on the saucer, making a soft clinking sound.  Your eyes flit to him for a split second.  He hides the smile that almost broke out after confirming that you can still hear him.
“You’ve been awfully quiet in class lately.”
He follows how you bite your lip anxiously, visibly drawing further into yourself, making yourself look small.
“Come on, talk to me.”  He chuckles, trying to make light of the situation but it only comes out as a nervous note.  “This is so unlike you.”
You pretend not to hear him but your leg started bouncing your breath starting to get uneven, something that he cannot overlook.
“Hey.”  Eren stood to sit next to you, almost smothering you.
Warm hands grip your shoulders as your eyes remain staring on the silver chain resting by his chest.
Eren was not certain whether he should continue talking as it may agitate you further but he also cannot bring himself to just sit there and watch you break in cold sweat.
He was almost certain you’d be having a panic attack until you threw him the nastiest glare.
“Hold on a minute, this is all your fault!”
Wha-
The audacity!
Eren’s perfectly sculpted jaw drops.  “What the fuck?”
He rests his arm on top of the leather seats.  He sits there, taken aback, not being able to keep up with your moods.
You slap away his hand that was on your shoulder still and you pull the headphones off haphazardly, he had to lean back so as to not get accidentally smacked by you.
“If only you hadn’t said it the way you did back in defense, I wouldn’t have overthought and questioned my morality like this!”  You poked his chest, cheeks all puffed as your brows furrowed.
Fuck.  You’re gorgeous.
And in the spur of the moment, in a total state of recklessness as he finds himself trapped and too entangled in everything that is you, he let the words spill from his tongue.
“Are you free tonight?”
You scrunch your nose adorably.  “What, why?”
Eren runs a hand over his face.
You hear a sigh and both look at the waitress who was mopping by the table next to you, rolling her eyes at the two of you.
“Just kiss her already.”
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hexonthepeach · 2 months ago
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does this mean we can kill Taeil off
I came on here to make a statement but I'm going to fold it into this answer, so thank you for sending it to me even if I disagree with it fundamentally.
I get the impulse to ask someone who addresses real world injustices in their fic for something like this but it really misses the point of why people choose to write rpf while also coming off as tone deaf to the reality that we're talking about a real crime of sexual violence involving a member a lot of us believed to be a better person and supported on that trust.
I didn't want to post right away because I saw the rampant speculation and almost horrifying glee of a lot of people in engaging with it when I have intimate knowledge of bringing criminal cases against people with institutional power and relative celebrity. In the aftermath of these things a lot of noise is generated that doesn't give time and space to the victim and obscures their narrative. For obvious reasons, ongoing investigations require silence from authorities and universal support and anger on the behalf of the person wronged.
I knew the instant that I heard Taeil was dropped from the group that the allegations were serious and made a decision to no longer support him. NCT and NCT 127 are still important to me and while I trust I do not know them I also trust that they care and respect for other people until proven otherwise. I am thankful I don't know anyone who lacks the moral and ethical prerogative to remove his presence from their lives because of this information.
Asking me to kill Taeil in my story is asking me to give my time and energy to writing someone who does not deserve it.
If I could magically wave a wand of editing to remove that thorn I would but it's a a testimony to my belief in him that I spent hours writing him into it and other unpublished chapters. I don't regret it, I can't and won't remove it from history, but I won't continue writing him or a fic with his presence in it.
I'll note it's a little weird to ask someone to write something for you, but especially when it relates to wanting a fantasy retribution versus what a real one looks like.
We all know South Korea has piss-poor patriarchal standards towards the treatment of women (to the point that the main entertainment industries are manufacturing a version of reality that believes in a world that either is without it or can overcome it) but in terms of statistics 90% of violence cases are against women (98% of homicides) and only 20% of all sexual violence cases are brought to court. If you're a victim of SA you know the actual cases are off the chart, largely unreported, especially where domestic violence is involved. Institutional discredit of victims by the police is understood, if not outrightly expected, and in this case especially the focus of everything related to it should be centering the person harmed.
To write justice into a story where the victim has no voice is not a just narrative. And I would never use a real person's pain as entertainment.
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cure-icy-writes · 2 months ago
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Making my own post for this but uh. There's this idea that if you only spend time with other people in your marginalized communities, they will intuitively understand you and make a safe space for you. But often, that's not the case and you have to deal with disagreements and schisms. The high support people who need help and the low support people who crave independence want different things, and fight over it. And if you try to only find people who intuitively understand you, you may be unprepared to find allyship or to have genuine and respectful conversations with people who don't share your views.
I enjoy hanging out with other disabled people. But some of them are still ableist. The main schism is mental versus physical illness.
People say if you're only mentally ill you can't reclaim crip punk, you can't call yourself a cripple, you can't reclaim that slur. you already have mad pride. But the human experience isn't a ghost in a machine. The body keeps the score. Someone with depression may have a lot in common and find solace and companionship with someone who's got chronic fatigue. Is fibromyalgia stored in the brain, or the body? It's neurological, and often triggered by immense mental stress. What if someone's gastrointestinal issues unambiguously stem from their anxiety, and makes walking a painful experience? Would you deny them a wheelchair?
I've talked with my therapist a bit about this, about how the average person doesn't understand that someone may be blind but have some residual vision. How you can try to fake being more abled than you really are, how passing "privilege" will end up destroying your body because you've denied it the accommodations it needed. Erasure is also a form of ableism, after all.
People with limb differences have the discourse of acquired versus congenital limb differences. Were you born without a hand, or did you lose it? Are you one of the good, natural ones, or are you secretly an Abled infiltrator who lost a limb and still calls people slurs?
The d/Deaf community isn't great about this either. They generally consider having impaired hearing to be a cultural thing, rather than a disability. Which is fine at first glance, until you realize that it's not always nuanced, and some of them are acting like we're crabs in a bucket, like impaired hearing is perfectly fine and natural, but no one else's disability can be like that. When the reality of the situation is that d/Deafness is just a social disability before it is a medical one.
You can't just say "oh, that person isn't Really Disabled because they were mean and ableist to me" because that's absolutely fake claiming. You're trying to warp the definition of Disabled so that it excludes people you don't like or don't feel comfortable around. You've decided that community and support are the same thing, and if you don't want them in your community, they don't deserve your support or anyone else's. But community takes work and it takes disagreement and you have to live with it. Idk I don't have some grand thesis here
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magz · 2 years ago
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ID: tumblr screenshot of only part of post, by raccooninapartyhat, that say,
“kinda confused about why the dialogue surrounding disability has changed from "we are still worthy and have personhood even if we can't do the things everyone else can, and we deserve to participate in society" to “nobody would be disabled if society was just shaped the right way””
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at some point, have to try understand what other saying and what meant, to proper respond. otherwise, community discussion become mess.
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so in case, I will explain the common intent with social model disability theory, that get simplify as or badly said as “nobody would be disabled if society was just shaped the right way”.
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the existence that there would be difference of experience and ability would stay even if society different, yes.
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but, no. if society different, disability meaning different. “disability” meaning would not exist how it does today.
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if society understanding and response to disability different, then that does a lot to what disability mean.
that include accommodation, but that not all.
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the medicalization and pathology of disability - what it mean to be sick of mind and body
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what consider normal - what “abled” is
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yes, also how it accommodate ‘disabled’ experience….
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the connotation of disability as label and “othering” of it - the ableism of implication that put into it by able society, that part….
is not need be inherent to deafness, amputation, brain damage, intellectual disability, blindness, chronic pain, or any other disability.
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disability as category in society, decided by ‘abled’ people what is too far from acceptable ‘abled’ experience, and thus what ok to alienate.
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what limitations of body and of person, to have implications of not-normal.
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of not-normal mean society not accommodate nor expect nor treat human.
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humans all history always have varied experience in ability and body and mind. it a physical tangible reality.
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but ‘disability’ also a social category.
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what decide that be amputee “not normal”?
what decide that not able hear “not normal”?
what decide that not able speak, not able understand same way, “not normal”?
even though the suffering and hardship of body and mind, what everyone able do, can happen and can be different for everyone.
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but there a decided line when it “too much” so it need be discriminate.
that is “other people, not like able people who able do lot things, that is what normal.”
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even though get old is common, and be old get disabled is common.
even though have accident is common, lose some ability common, born varying is common, and much more is common.
but it not consider “normal”. what “normal” people is, decided the way they want.
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because “not normal” carry a lot weight.
and disability a label for broad range experiences not the same. but they all disable.
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and what have common is that “able” people decided what kinds experience not-good not-normal not-like-us. and society shape around this. to disable even more.
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but they decide be disabled not good thing to be, on top of the reality experience of how be disabled would be.
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even what consider disabled - where the threshold between able and disabled - vary depend on time, place, society, and more.
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that is what it mean. disability as social label made by able people decide what to dehumanize, and that it could mean that “disability” could even not exist as mean “other people not us”.
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to understand disability a social label not contradict belief that if someone not able to do something or have difference in experience, it not bad thing. we have value.
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and yes i not able talk “normal” or type good now, but what? it ok i think. even if society make it even harder than already is, with reality of disabilities i have.
disability should not be dirty bad word, but it became so.
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golbrocklovely · 10 months ago
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Hi, so the thing about the volunteer mods on xplrclub kind of rubs me the wrong way. They absolutely have made millions in their career, I mean their channel has been blowing up steadily for years. Their channel on top of merch sales, tours, xplrclub, they're living rather comfortably. One of the other anon's said colby has admitted to spending 10k a month on just clothing?? 10k is what I make in 5 months of working full time, dropping that on clothing in one year is insane let alone one month. Plus they have 2 mansions and not just rent but own. I'm the same age as them and I'm still living at home because despite having an MA and working full-time, my job doesn't pay me a wage that would allow me to live on my own without going completely broke and ending up in even more crippling debt.
I do like snc, as people I think they're probably really nice guys, but I think they've been in the influencer sphere for too long and no longer have any grasp on the real world. We're in a cost of living crisis right now, so asking anyone to essentially work for free is a bit tone deaf. I know they're not asking for crazy work, but they're still asking someone to give up their free time to put in labor for something they pay snc to be able to access. It's just a bit icky to me. Either don't charge them the monthly subscription if they're going to mod for you, or pay them. It just kind of strikes me as snc think their fans should be grateful to them for allowing them this opportunity to mod for them, that money shouldn't even be a factor. Idk, maybe I'm being a bit too harsh, but in the economy we're currently in, asking people for free labor while you are raking in hundreds of thousands if not millions of dollars a year is gross.
Sorry for this long post, I just felt like I wanted to get it all out, haha.
you're totally fine to vent. i agree with a lot of what you're saying. i think it's ridiculous that snc would think mods should be volunteers and not paid employees.
but to defend snc just a small amount….
snc haven't stated what the "perks" will be of being a mod. so it's possible it's negotiable to ask for a free membership as a mod, if not possibly more. on top of that, now that it has been a day and i'm not as upset as i was, i think the reason snc think this volunteer system is okay is bc when they did a livestream on wednesday, they mentioned getting mods and ppl in the comments started asking to be a mod.
not to mention the amount of ppl that have already applied to be mods. i mean the last time i checked the post (and this was yesterday mind you), there was 50+ comments, and only three of them were critical about this whole thing and one of them was me. so a lot of ppl are fine with being mods without being paid.
that, tied with ppl being on twitch and streamers pick randos from their fandom to be mods, i bet snc think this is the best case scenario and way to go about things.
i would like to believe that it's mostly this, tied with a little bit of snc being cheap lol
and look, personally idc how snc spend their money. they made it, they can do what they want with it. even if i think it's outrageous to spend 10k on clothes in a month. reality is, we're just in a different tax bracket than them. i don't relate to them on that level. and i wouldn't want them to act poor, so to speak. so….. it is what it is.
that being said, they should pay for mods. mods should be ppl not in the fandom. bc even tho snc also stated in the post that there is no amount of time you have to be online and moderating, i know there are some fans that if they do it, will be on 24/7 and will neglect their lives just to be in snc's good graces assumingly. and i think that's where an extra layer of problems lie. the lack of money is an issue, the trusting of fans is an issue, the possible future problems is another, and so on.
it would be better to get rid of chat, impo. but they ain't gonna listen to me lol
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norisbeinghuman · 6 months ago
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Creativity in the age of AI
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“I Dig a Pygmy” by Charles Hawtrey and the Deaf Aids. Phase one, in which Doris gets her oats. - John Lennon on “Two of Us”
My husband and I have been watching The Beatles: Get Back documentary and it made me think a lot about creativity, art and authenticity.
I love The Beatles. Every time I hear the opening chord of the Hard Day’s Night, I am transported back in time, 6 years old, sitting in the back of the car on our way to visit grandma on a Saturday. Beatles have shaped my taste in music more than probably any other band. Despite all the difficulties and the drama that accompanied the making of what turned out to be their last album – Let It Be – it is such a treat to watch them at work. Or maybe I should rather say to watch them at play.
Once they get into a flow, the four of them seem to be having so much fun. They break out into random songs, add silly lyrics, banter and laugh. While they are undoubtedly working and creating gems such as Let It Be, the process is so very clearly play. And not only in the sense that they are playing music, which they obviously are, but they are also playing with the music, with each other and with their ideas.
I was surprised to realise how many of these spontaneous little moments made it onto the finished album, just like the quote that introduced this blog post. It’s something John Lennon says out of nowhere, making everyone laugh. It has nothing to do with any of the songs. But it is there, the first thing on the album. Ir’s far from the only example. There are many bits and pieces that were clearly improvised, created from a moment of sudden inspiration, a moment of play. Most of them are just funny, silly, little things. But as a listener, I find them to be oh, so delightful.
The times of “perfect”
Watching The Beatles at play made me confront expectations I have about my own process of creation. Art and creative expression have been becoming more and more important for me over the last several years. I am getting more and more convinced that creative flow is one of the biggest joys in life and something we humans need to be happy. It doesn’t have to be big art, there are infinitely many ways to be creative. In my case it’s mostly writing, fibre crafts (like knitting and crochet) and an occasional drawing. My talent and ambitions are modest, and my goal is almost entirely just my own fun and satisfaction.
If the stakes of my creation are so low, why then do I seem to be more afraid of being silly and making mistakes than The Beatles were, while they were producing an album they knew millions were waiting for?
I think a part of it is the times we are living in. All of us have constant access to tools that allow us to make anything look just that little bit more polished. Just that little bit more “perfect”. Filters, photo editors, auto-tune, and now most of it powered by AI in addition. Heck, just the ability to take 50 selfies so we can pick the best one is a way of polishing reality that is very new in the history of humankind.
I know there are people who are trying to fight against this on social media, posting content and images that are more authentic, but I would say these are in the minority. There are many more who will say they are posting a candid photo, but still make sure to get themselves from the good side, or make sure the lighting is just right, or whatever else.. And most will just go with it and do their best to make their creation as polished and professional-looking as possible.
The result is that we are exposed to a stream of what pretends to be the normal life of others, but in reality is highly-polished highlights of their lives. In return, we feel like that is the level we should aim for when we are sharing something of our own. Anything less feels just plain not-good-enough. And sadly, these aren’t completely empty fears, because in the day and age of social media, the criticism we might receive online can be absolutely cruel and ruthless. I just think about the women who show their normal faces and their age in an attempt to normalise the way an average 30 or 40 year old looks like without any procedures and makeup, and they get shredded to pieces in the comment sections. We are all so used to unattainable standards that we don’t even know that that is what they are anymore.
If this is happening with “normal” people, it’s no wonder that the vast majority of big-name actors and pop stars (if not all) have a number of plastic surgeries, veneers on their teeth, flawless makeup, contouring, and an aura of effortless perfection about them. I find it so refreshing to look at music videos and concerts from a few decades ago. People look so much less polished, less perfect, and (I am probably projecting here) more at peace with that lack of perfection. Skin texture, less-than-perfect teeth, body hair, nipples showing through the tops, normal faces, normal bodies, and clothes and makeup that were meant more as a form of expression, rather than a way to hide the flaws of their wearer.
Looking at The Beatles jamming in their studio in 1969, I couldn’t help but wonder what we might be losing in our hunt for perfection. Because while it might feel like it makes sense to pursue perfection, it seemed to me that we are, indeed, losing something. I think creativity might be one of the first victims of perfectionism.
Creativity requires play.
Creativity is impossible to control. It is not something we can force. We can facilitate creativity by crafting the right conditions and hoping for it to appear, but we can’t make it happen.
Creativity is something that emerges spontaneously from play. Play is one of those things that are difficult to define, although we all experience it and intuitively know it when we see it. Play means engaging with our internal and external world in the moment, exploring, having fun. It’s a state of focus and flow, that we access so easily when we are young, but it gets more difficult as we get older. While play might look a little different in adults, it is still play, and it is the state in which we can reach into the well of our creativity.
What do we need to be able to play? One of the main requirements is a sense of safety. Not feeling safe makes it difficult to focus deeply, and to try new things that might lead to mistakes. Without feeling safe to fail, we can’t play. The other thing is the right kind of challenge: something interesting and stimulating, something that stretches us, but is still within our abilities. Ultimately, play is built on trust. Trust that our environment is safe and that we are allowed to explore, try and fail; and trust in our own ability to overcome the challenge.
Perfectionism killed the cat… I mean, play
Perfectionism is at the opposite end of the spectrum from play. There is nothing easy or playful about it, and I think one of the main reasons is that it is born out of fear.
I think perfectionism is based on the obsessive belief that if you run carefully enough, hitting each stepping-stone just right, you won’t have to die. - Anne Lamott in Bird by Bird
Perfectionism is the fear that keeps us from trusting the safety of our playground. We don’t think we can afford mistakes. And perfectionism is the the fear that erodes our trust in ourselves. When perfection is the goal, we can never ever be good enough, and it’s only a matter of time before the fear paralyses us into procrastination and avoidance.
Imperfection is so very, very necessary, and being OK with it opens the doors to creativity, connection and authenticity.
It is our mistakes and the acceptance of mistakes that allow us to play, to practice, to be truly creative, to develop ourselves. It is how we learn and how we become better.
It is in our mistakes and in our lows that we best connect with others; they are what makes us human, what makes us relatable, what makes us real. I feel like we live in times where we would prefer “perfect” over “real”. Maybe it’s not so strange that the use of AI tools is becoming so common for tasks that are at their core creative ones. It feels safer not to show ourselves, not to risk failure. And definitely easier to avoid having to be creative when we are paralysed by perfectionism.
Most of us know all that, but that doesn’t remove the fear, nor the pressure we feel from the society.
Perfection seems like such a noble goal from the outside, for who wouldn’t want to be “perfect”. But its pursuit is a prison. It keeps us from freely exploring the world and ourselves. Perfectionism steals our play away, and with it our creativity, authenticity and connection to others. Truth is, we will make mistakes anyway, no matter how hard we try. We might as well stop trying so hard, and we will have more fun leaning into our mistakes, rather than fearing them.
To be honest, I am not sure where I am heading with this. I am winging it as I go, because I am trying to do as I preach. I am trying to play. To be real. To stop being afraid of imperfection. And I know that I will make mistakes and be cringey and that not everyone will like me, and I am doing my best to be OK with it.
I think the tide of our times will turn. Just like the 50s were followed by the 60s, which seemed much less concerned with perfection, I think people will eventually get tired of stepping so carefully through their lives. And until then, we can swim against the tide and have fun with it.
https://noriparelius.com/post/creativity/
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chiaralibitina · 1 year ago
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How I usually go? How I usually talk? How I used to work? How I used to....
I kick around myself a lot. Scream at everyone else, for my flaws. Blame everything on someone other. Never seeing my own mistake. Then I would go to my own space: 'I am right, they refuse to accept that!'
Then the first hit came, when she left me in the flame. I cried and kicked again. Blaming her for not being able to forgive my mistakes. I threw trash and rubbish all over her. Not seeing the toxic waste I pour.
I never took the time to look back. To see the broken ways and paths I take. To see the devastation I leave behind. The destruction, the pain, the cracks after I got to talk.
Left everyone feeling helpless, making them feel like I was the center of everything in this mess. They said: 'I wish I could help! To save you! Heal your never-ending pain!' What I should've heard was: 'Maybe you should... look at yourself first.'
But... they did say that. They yelled it in my face! I turned a blind eye. Went deaf. Ignored all the facts they threw my way.
How I hurt people for my sake. How they sacrifice their needs for my health. How they cry in my name. How they wish, I would just change.
If I realized all this sooner, it might've all been different. I read my past messages. Saw my voice, noticed the mistakes.
The selfish mess I made. How I yelled: 'No one is as selfless as I!' When in reality it was all for my own gain. Nothing out of it. All for naught. I lost people, to my own web of flaws.
So I read. Read it again. Then once more.
And when the last friendship started to crack, I saw that I am the one ripping it all for my own sake. Making a case of loneliness, when I am the one who made the file in the first place.
Looking back at who I was, who I thought I am. I can safely say: 'I was and still am a fucking disgrace.'
Tearing people's minds apart. Making them feel like they are meant to put me back
part by part.
As if I was their mess to fix. Their problem to solve. Their issue to go through. I made them... feel like they are never enough.
And with that in my heart. I took some time to reflect in my mind.
If I had a time machine, I'd go back to the crucial moments. Give my past self some signs: 'Look, you are not someone else's task!'
Only now I realize how much they have struggled. The pain I put everyone through.
Dear best friend, I apologize. For all the times I made you feel like my happiness depended on whether you are or not by my side. For all the times I blamed you for being in love. For all the times I blamed you for being someone else's number one. I get why you had the need to leave. So with this, I hope you will find in your heart to hear my apology. This time a sincere one, not the fake ones I gave.
Dear first love, I apologize. For all the times I made you seem like you're supposed to fix my mental health. For all the times I made it seem like I will die if you take a break. For all the times I forced you to stay with me. For all the times I blamed you for choosing another way without me. I get why you needed for us to split. And now, I hope you find someone who won't make you feel like I did. I hope you will be happy. I hope you will be able to smile at me, forgive me. This time I apologize and I accept my defeat. You had to leave, because you knew that you were being drowned by me.
Dear mum, I apologize. For all the times I made you feel like you never tried. For all the times I yelled that you don't listen. For all the times I seemed like I don't see how hard you fight. You would bring on a world war for me. You fought the hardest for me. Just so I could walk out of my room again. To see me smile like when I was merely ten.
To all of you, sincerely sorry. I hope you all have the heart, to forgive a selfish mind like me.
Now I will fight to be better. Not for you anymore, for myself. So I don't drown someone else anymore. So I don't put anyone else, through the same shit I did to you all.
Sincerely, Chiara. The selfish person, who now knows where to start.
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kradogsrats · 5 months ago
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@its-leethee: #wondering how much of an outlier among elves lujanne's attitude toward ava was
YEAH that's an interesting question, I actually forgot about Ava because my mind just kind of glosses over her very 90s "all she needs is to be given a chance to prove there's no difference at all between her and someone not disabled!" narrative lmao
and then I wrote literally 1200 words of absolute rambling nonsense
Like, the illusion on Ava precludes her from getting any kind of accommodations for her very real disability—not even Ellis knows that she is still compensating for her missing leg in everything she does. It's also a little baffling that the answer here was "everyone needs a Very Special Lesson about prejudice" given that the original objection to allowing Ellis to keep Ava was that they can't afford to feed her, and (when Ellis argues to at least take care of her until she can be returned to the wild) that she would not survive among her former pack. I don't know enough about wild wolf behavior to know if that's true or not, but it also doesn't really matter, because the end result is apparently as soon as everyone sees Ava with four legs, it's... totally okay for Ellis to keep her forever?
(Honestly, my bet on what happened there is that the entire town just kind of quietly agreed that you should probably treat someone who receives inexplicable miraculous healing up on the local cursed mountain really well, or at least not euthanize them, and so everyone pitched in to support Ellis's family taking in Ava.)
So like... with Ava, she's essentially only disabled when people can see that she's disabled, like the opposite of an invisible disability. Obviously this would appeal to Lujanne, being particularly attuned to the aspect of the Moon primal that is associated with perceptions vs. reality. Would things have worked out as well if Ava had needed accommodations? It's not really clear, and probably would depend on exactly what she needed—there is admittedly a solid chance that people would treat the need for a basic amount of help differently from someone perceived as able-bodied vs. someone visibly disabled. (Usually that is in a negative direction, where the perceived able-bodied person is assumed to not "need" the accommodation, but it could also happen the other way in this case, with people having more patience in training and caring for a puppy who they are assured will grow up into an able and useful working animal.)
ANYWAY, given the sharp divide between Lujanne's experience of the Moon primal and the much more black-and-white way Rayla, Runaan, and others of the Silvergrove appear to experience it, PLUS the fact that even setting aside Ghosting, the punishment for surviving a failed assassination mission is literally loss of a limb? I'm not known for being very charitable toward Moonshadow culture, but in this case I don't think it's out of line to say that a lot of the Silvergrove would probably not be super keen on a three-legged shadowpaw or whatever. At best, you might get a "those of us who are able and strong are duty-bound to protect those who are not" level of cultural condescension... no one would be picking it out as their mount.
But to veer wildly off of the main topic here: like I said, I literally forgot about Ava as a disabled character since she functionally isn't, compared to, say, Amaya. Amaya is incredibly competent, but she is also undeniably accommodated by her peers and culture: those close to her are varying degrees of fluent in the sign language she uses, with many of them at minimum able to fully understand her without interpretation, and then she also has a dedicated interpreter for those who are not. She also has been blessed by the narrative with lip-reading superpowers to make things easier for everyone creating and consuming this show from within a culture that is at best indifferent and frequently actively hostile toward deaf people. Could they have worldbuilt a setting where Amaya's accommodations were baked into the entire culture of Katolis, such that everyone communicates with her entirely in sign language? Sure, but I can also see why they didn't, given that dominant media culture in the west definitely isn't ready to accept that.
But my point is that, unlike Ava's disability, Amaya is a character whose deafness is acknowledged and accommodated by both her culture and the narrative (on at least some level). It doesn't happen super often, but there are situations where Amaya being deaf makes a difference in her approach to or the outcome of a situation. One great example that they put in is the captured soldier at the Breach being able to communicate to Amaya that they're in danger by signing, which is a case where her deafness and the ways she is accommodated by those around her is a huge positive that saves lives! Then there's also the opening of s4, where because of her own lingering biases and inability to communicate in the moment, she attacks a bunch of innocent noncombatants and could have seriously injured or killed them while believing she was fighting for her life.
Interestingly, the narrative treatment of Rayla's increasingly injured hand is similar—and to be fair, Rayla's injured hand is, in fact, a disability... just one that winds up being temporary. We see a lot of circumstances where Rayla is mildly or even severely impaired by pain, weakness, or inability to use her slowly dying hand. Some, like dropping the egg through the ice, have plot-derailing consequences! Part of why there's so much emphasis on it is that it's functioning as a ticking clock for s1, but it's also narratively meant to be a challenge that reveals Rayla's character to the audience, rather than a narrative-independent character trait like Amaya's deafness. One of the things that's revealed about Rayla at the beginning of s2, as she is elatedly demonstrating all the stuff she can do with two functional hands, is the value she places on her own physical abilities. Similar to Soren, she has been raised and trained in a way where her body and its capabilities are her main asset, and if she loses some or all of those capabilities, it's a potentially existential-level Problem(tm). That says a little bit about Rayla and a little bit about Moonshadow culture, IMO.
(FWIW, my estimation is that Rayla would be more impaired by losing a hand than Soren would, given her acrobatic and two-weapon fighting style. Even in a positive and nurturing environment, she'd struggle a lot with self-worth in having to re-learn new skills and limitations, along with clumsiness or total inability in performing moves that she once trained into instinct. Soren, meanwhile, would strap a shield on the handless arm and be good to go.)
SO YEAH IDK Ava is kind of an outlier in how the setting/narrative is trying to treat disability, which is understandable since she's really not even a second- or third-string character, she's basically a plot device. Lujanne is also pretty unique in terms of Moonshadow elves that we've seen, so who knows. I mean, they can't ALL be like Rayla and Runaan, right? Right?
(Or, as something I just thought of: Lujanne is the protector of the Moon Nexus, and she's confronted with the situation of a kid and a puppy who are so desperate as to have walked through all her bean-freaking illusions. To reinforce the mountains spooky reputation and preserve the safety of the Nexus, she could a) kill them so the story is that they went up the mountain and were never seen again, or b) establish another tale of weird shit happening while also resolving the issue that sent Ellis away from her home and up the mountain. A bit risky seeing as we are immediately given a direct example of people who are desperate enough for miraculous healing to similarly fight through the illusions in the main characters, but it also means she doesn't have to straight-up murder a sad kid and her puppy.)
thinking again about how Janai not only doesn’t know sign language but is unfamiliar with the entire concept and has to find a linguistics scholar to translate for Amaya—not a dedicated interpreter, which you’d expect the center of Sunfire elf governance to have if they provided any kind of services for deaf citizens—along with Sol Regem’s blindness and apparent subsequent sidelining from both the draconic and Sunfire power structures, and the overall chilling picture that paints of attitudes toward disability in Sunfire and possibly other elf cultures in this Denny’s tonight
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tielt · 2 years ago
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Heya.
I’d like to state that I would certainly be a disappointment as a guru or spiritual practitioner. If you are Christian and wish to be more open Baha’i people learn from all world religions and are Christian similar to druidic practice. If I was Christian that would be where I would be if even just for the please toss my body in a hole at my house and be done with it... strange and legal funeral, only and specifically for Bahai I think. A Klingon rite haha. She, a Baha’i, was my best friend at 17 when I left the nest; spent 1-2 years smoking and drinking coffee all night at the Denny’s, she formed more of my current beliefs than did the first 14 years of my life as LDS and she has also influenced me later in life. Helped me become slightly less naive. She has a mosquito tattoo maybe because the existence of a entity as thoroughly irritating parasitic and useless says something about god and reality, it’s seems maybe anti-Daoism, she would ask as if you really feel kinship to Trump who has absolutely no human value and yet supposedly is just another us in a different washing machine at another time. Fierce human being and honestly a harder hitter than me spiritually. Has a deaf child which has given me a curiosity towards sense disabled people I've never been able to entertain. She is a writer/teacher hardcore punk. My wife in some other life where I didn’t leave rural Oregon. (Maybe, but definitely first soulmate)
Religion/spiritual studies follow definitely skip-able just leaving access if anyone wants to know.
I have an affinity to Shinto because it’s warm bubbly paganism without any specific carnal or violence worship. Modern Shinto is for me hayao miyasaki on the positives and mushishi on the destructive, it’s acceptable stories for children to learn how to coexist in a ecosystem and the scientist bits of me approve and there’s no doctrine which is why I am openly recommending it as it is entirely non hostile and about coexistence. Shinto does believe one obvious principle that Kami pervades all things like us in that radishes are essential of the same stuff. This feels like what I learned from shaman type journeys.
I fibbed before when I said I blame objects I did that specifically to elicit a response in opposition as I want you to be on the side of your stuff as you should want to protect sacred things and have that state of mind. That rare use of false manipulation was slightly premeditated, but it is a unusual thing for me and it was done intuitively. I like to believe stuff can have magic in it. I think the guru/teacher archetype is hard wired in all of us but my relationship to that part of me is not one trained to nor would recommend to others but for fun and enjoyment of being aliveness.
The original Kino’s Journey is a really interesting combination of Buddhism and what it is to go through living and dying and how to act ethically. Little bit like Starmaker(Olaf Stapleton) or maybe Star Trek but old school. The remake is decent additionally but i stan the original. I dislike the stodgyness of Buddhism and it seems like they washed their historical humanitarian abuse from what they claim is their origin, they also believe that abortion should not be allowed which if you believe that you can be warmer there than I feel about that. I do think they are a good thing for the world in a cognitive and modern compassionate sense. Similar to why I didn’t find to much interest it Aboriginal cultures I’ve gotten to know it’s often a old dude being traditional in a lot of cases. Every tribe is different though right.
I have weird feelings saying it, but I’m much into liberation of bonds and freedom of choice where your choices are within proper ethical standards of harm and kindness and I didn’t really realize it till my 30s how U.S. of an ideal this is. About Buddhism if you didn’t know rebirth doesn’t work the way most external parties believe of Buddhist reincarnation. Death means heaven or hell realms and what is reborn is the continuation of the causation that was your imprint or dharma and following your death that thread is continued by another entity and that is prev/next life connection. A different person. I don’t believe in heaven or hell but just the hum of matter becoming energy becoming matter again but I disbelieve more of my superstitions than I believe. I may discuss random superstitions later who knows but a lot of them are obviously caused by anecdotal patterns. (Synchronicity aka pattern match which the brain excels at)
It seemed necessary to write this, if you want faith or devotional sources I don’t currently practice those intentionally and don’t see it happening. I was into Krishna for a while, but I like worship through what is in my presence in a complete form. I like not knowing; that can be uncomfortable if you are used to faith. I think it’s mystifying and amazing that there are so many mysteries that seem to be agnostic as the only rational principle of access. I just know I’m ruled by magic of emotions and heart and the brain forges through in disregard. Curiosity and convincing yourself to try on belief is something I hope is of wider utility to the human experience. I do not believe doubt is bad for you and I feel no need to apologize if I have created it in you. Repeating the intro I’m not an answer guru nor plan to be I’m just another curious cat.
Safe Journeys
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medicinanocturna · 2 years ago
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Pluto: natal and transit. The medicine of dying and rebirth
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Being a higher planet, Pluto belongs to the sphere of spiritual growth. It is considered to be a planet that brings complex transformations and often destructive events.
Pluto's key principle is to teach humans how to die and be re-born. As well as how to develop and own our inner power (something that we inevitably learn in the pain of transformation).
Pluto is associated with deep psychic energies, which are difficult to trace, and as a rule, its work is only visible over time.
By bringing upheavals, Pluto aligns us with our higher mission, as well as the collective karma.
It brings critical adjustments or eliminates all that is no longer valid for our further growth. Sometimes it is only possible through the entire destruction of the external (or internal) reality we are holding on to.
The position and aspects of Pluto in the natal chart show the area where the experience of critical upheavals will occur.
This is also a sphere of your chart where you have access to some hidden resources where the energy of transformation is available to you and you intuitively know how to manage it, but often can only do it unconsciously (especially before the age of 40). Instead, it feels like these hidden resources are running you through the position and aspects of your Pluto.
If Pluto is harmonious in the chart, then this point of power will attract people (Pluto in the first house, for example, can give some well-pronounced charisma), if vice versa, Pluto is aspected inauspiciously then its force can be oppressive and destructive.
The principle of Pluto's work in the transit is such that by making a deep restructuring and transformation in your life, it simultaneously makes your psyche and inner world more flexible and responsive in relation to the outside world.
Purifying the subtle bodies, Pluto clears the space for a more harmonious, powerful and precise action that is aligned with one’s higher mission.
Unlike Uranus, which acts with lightning speed and sweeps everything to the ground, Pluto always gives hints, and some backlash for a reversal, before it dismantles a certain area of one’s ​life.
The more deaf you are to Pluto’s signs, the lower is the level of vibrations it brings you at. In some critical cases, it may be a complete elimination of a person from the physical plane.
The most tangible of all Pluto’s transits occurs at the age of 38-42 when it makes a square aspect to the natal planet. 
Your personal natal Pluto is the best teacher to be prepared for this remarkable transit.
All people in our lives with who we have meaningful connections should also be viewed as transits. So Pluto’s aspects in the relationships can give you no less work to do than the transit. (Here I write more about Pluto in a synastry).
Pluto teaches us to be fully responsible and honest in the face of the unpredictability of the external circumstances and develop the adequate intensity in response to it.
One of Pluto's manifestation is when you can't no longer lie to yourself about your deepest wounds and fears.
If you do this work with diligence, Pluto will give a lot of energy to fulfil your mission. As an add-on, once its life - changing aspect is passed, it can enhance the psychic abilities of a "good disciple", such as intuition, paranormal talents and personal magnetism. 
Pluto is always considered being strong in a chart when it is in the angle houses.
A retrograde Pluto in a chart will cause psychic energy to flow inward rather than outward, and thus transformative events will often be only internal, without visible turmoil.
With proper work, this can give amazing intuition and the ability to control one's own thoughts and emotional states, as well as the gift to transmit the priceless experience of this inner work to others, which a person with a direct Pluto, even a very strong one, won't be able to do.
Drop me a line for a personal look at your chart...
Yours,
AlSheren
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the-great-horse-cocktail · 2 months ago
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TL;DR: Tears can absolutely be manipulative, but given what we know about Stolas, in this case, they aren’t. Reasoning below the cut.
Tears can be manipulative, but in this context, it doesn’t make sense for them to be. What is Stolas trying to manipulate Blitz into? Chasing after him? When Blitz does so in AT, he rejects him. Apologizing to him? Blitz tries to apologize in FM, but Stolas teleports him outside the house. “. . . it’s manipulative because despite saying that he wants to give Blitz a choice he still is focusing on what he wants and shows he doesn’t handle rejection well.” Focusing on your desires over another person’s isn’t inherently manipulative. It may be selfish and/or myopic, but unless you’re trying to get those desires met by attempting to control another person’s actions or emotions, it’s not manipulative. And simply reacting to an emotionally charged situation with emotions of your own is not the same as playing the victim.
Based on the content of the show itself, I believe that it’s clear that Stolas is not crying in order to manipulate Blitz. Rather, he’s doing it because he believes that he has been rejected by someone he was attached to. Whether that attachment is morally good, bad, or neutral is outside of the scope of this discussion. When we go back to the beginning of FM, to the Stolitz duet, we can see that Stolas is anxious about what choice Blitz will make—will he stay or go? And this is all the nuance that Stolas gives to the situation. Blitz can either reject him or he can choose to be in a relationship with him. His actions come across as tone deaf because they are. (I could go into greater detail about this, but Sarcastic Chorus already made an excellent video on the subject, which I highly recommend.) But not understanding the intricacies of a situation isn’t synonymous with manipulation. I argue it serves as an alternative explanation for Stolas’ actions, one that lines up more cleanly with the information given to us by the narrative.
So, now that we know Stolas is viewing his proposal as a yes or no question, we can see why he takes Blitz’s response so poorly. He sees it as a rejection (and likely as a mockery of his desires) because it isn’t an immediate ‘yes, I want to be with you.’ In case you’re tempted to say I’m defending/agreeing with Stolas’ reasoning, I’m not. His assumption of rejection was incorrect, based on his faulty idea of how the night should go, which itself is based on romcoms, not reality. But I am saying that this falsity, this feeling of being rejected when he never was, is what causes his tears. Because that kind of rejection does hurt, especially when the person rejecting you calls you a pompous asshole. It was never about manipulating Blitz. It was never about anything at all, aside from hurt feelings.
But speaking of Blitz’s response, you claim that no one talks about how it was also motivated by PTSD. I don’t know what side of the fandom you’re on, but I do see people talking about that. A lot. And I agree. In fact, I found his response a lot easier to empathize with than Stolas’. There have been so many times in my life where I felt like someone leaving an argument was the equivalent of them dismissing my concerns. Dismissing me. Abandoning me. But looking back on it, I can safely assume that the people I was arguing with weren’t trying to make me feel this way. Sometimes people walk away from difficult conversations because they aren’t ready for them. Sometimes people think that you’re saying something you aren’t. Sometimes people feel like yelling means you hate them, when you’re only doing it because you feel like you’re not being heard. Whether they’re wrong or right in doing so isn’t something I believe I can determine, and even if I could, I don’t think it would enrich my understanding of the world in a meaningful way.
Nevertheless, I am all too familiar with the impulse to categorize every statement, every action, every person as right or wrong. The clarity, however false it is, feels good. But in doing so, I would fail to see the nuance; I would miss the shades of grey, only limiting my vision further. Like Stolas, I would be stuck in a dichotomy of my own creation, unable to see the world around me for what it really is. Unable to understand the simple fact that some questions have a more complicated answer than yes or no.
Yes, Stolas Stans Tears Can Be Manipulative
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I came across some Stolas stans that were offended that they said Stolas' crying was manipulative and trying to justify saying that it's a ptsd reaction to being yelled at due to his abuse by Stella. Funny they don't say this about Blitzo because he could be having a ptsd reaction due to how suddenly all this was sprung on him due to the abuse that Stolas put on him. Seriously, they always say how Stolas' abuse affected him but never the abuse he has done to Blitzo. It's always Stolas' issues that come first and Blitzo's are second. And again they hide behind Stella's abuse to excuse Blitzo's abuse because this means they are ignoring how abusive Stolas has been and even his backstory can't gloss over that elephant in the room.
But going back to those tears, I really do think they don't understand what how manipulative tears can be. Stolas is certainly using this as a way to appear the victim even though he says he's changed and wants to make things right by breaking the deal and giving Blitzo a choice. However, it comes off as tone deaf because he still is practically putting Blitzo on the spot and doesn't truly understand that due to the shit he put him through he might not be ready for a relationship with him. But then when he rejects him, he thinks he's the victim of this and acts like entitled prick when he doesn't get what he wants. That's why it's manipulative because despite saying he wants Blitzo to give a choice he still is focusing on what he wants and shows he doesn't handle rejection well. He still hasn't learned anything while delusionally believing he should be rewarded for doing barely the bare minimum amount of decency.
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isthehorsevideocute · 2 years ago
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Hot Take of the Day: Animal Rights Activists Don't Actually Like or Care About Animals
The more actions and "justifications" i see out of folks who say they stand up for "animal rights" the more convinced I am of this.
First off let's talk about the false pretense of "animal rights" and why actual animal behavioralists tend to oppose the ideas pushed by it.
Let's make it clear right now, advocating for animal rights is not the same as advocatong for animal welfare.
Advocating for animal welfare is advocating for the proper treatment of animals. It's advocating for animals to be in environments that satisfy their biological and physiological needs in a way that gives them a life of minimal suffering.
The idea of "animal rights" inherently anthropomorphiezes animals by presenting animals as having the same needs and desires as humans. A lot of how animal rights advocates try to present their issues has little to no basis in how animals express themselves and what their actual needs and desires are. Some examples:
-"Animals inside of a barn with mud or manure on their bodies and say they are neglected and forced to live in unsanitary conditions"
-The reality is animals don't mind being dirty like we do and for many species being caked in mud or feces is actually beneficial for helping keep them cool/protect themselves from insects or the sun
-"Animals' young being taken away from them is just as traumatic to them as it is to humans"
-The reality: no species of domestic animal has anything remotely similar to the relationship that humans have with their children. Some are very quick to abandon their babies shortly after birth, some will attack or eat their young, and others will kick their kids out of the family the moment they don't need to nurse anymore. Animals do not hold familial relationships like we do and their success as a species often relies on them getting rid of their young asap before they reach sexual maturity or else the end result would be inbreeding.
-"Animals in any kind of service work or labor are being exploited and it's basically the same thing as slavery"
-First of all that take is completely tone deaf and shows how little you know about actual slavery. Second animals do not have a concept of exploitation. That's literally not a thing they have the necessary parts of the brain to understand that idea. Second domestic animals are purpose bred, so much so it is in their genetic makeup to perform the tasks they were bred to do. In other words they will serve those functions whether you want them to or not. That’s why dog breeds like boarder collies will try to herd your kids when they've never headed anything and have always been a housepet. It's ingrained in their biology. For these animals they need some kind of outlet for these instincts to live a happy and engaging life.
-"AI is rape"
-Again tone deaf. AI is not traumatic to animals and is the safest way to breed in most cases. The only way the animals' caregivers even know when to administer AI is when the animal is showing willingness to be bred. Animals are not "forced to be pregnant over and over" they will only be impregnated when it is deemed necessary and unlike how it would be in nature, we won't impregnate animals every breeding season. Even if breeding is the only task they are expected to perform, they given periods of rest to prevent over stressing their bodies with pregnancy after pregnancy.
-"Animals on trailers or in holding pens are afraid and stressed because they know they're about to be slaughtered"
-Travel and new environments are inherently stressful to animals of all types under all sorts of circumstances. It doesn't mean they are in any actual danger or are aware of why they are in a new place.
Animal behavioralists work closely with the people who actually work with animals, especially people who raise livestock because it benefits BOTH the people and the animals. Animals don't provide well when they aren't well taken care of.
And of course they LOVE taking things out of context to try to push their ideas that anyone who has animals for any reason is a sadistic animal abuser. More examples
-Posing a farmer using machinery to help a downed cow get back on her feet as them "taking an exhausted and sick cow to force them into the kill chute"
-owners of carriage horses in cities are required by law to provide evidence that their horses got rested in paddocks outside of the city for at least four months but people pushing the idea that horses are kept in stalls in city buildings 24/7
-posing pigs in birthing/nursing chutes as "having to spend their whole lives in cramped cages" when they are designed for the sows to be able to move in and out of freely
All that being said let's talk about what I've seen advocates of animal rights do and the ideas they've pushed to bring it all home.
-Touching and spraying trailered animals with water (obviously stressing them but claiming to be trying to "help" and "comfort" them)
-Holding up trailers with animals prolonging the stress of travel and preventing them from getting their needs met at their destination
-Stealing animals and killing them
-Throwing rocks at and pepper spraying animals and their handlers
-Literally saying outright that all domestic animals should be killed off
The whole "animal rights" movement is not a legitimate movement for the betterment of the quality of life of domestic animals. It never was and never will be. It's more akin to religious extremism than anything. It's not about helping animals, it's about control. It's about parading around with an ignorant "holier than thou" attitude so you can call everyone around you evil and feel like a hero in your little echo chamber. It's easy to sell to people because the idea of "being a lover of animals" is basically ingrained into the human brain but there's so much ignorance that comes with how animals actually work. All species have their own unique ways of expressing themselves and when that expression is foreign to us it's easy to misread or use it as a way to mislead. And well I guess that's why blogs like mine exist where people like me who understand how our species of interest behaves and can say if what is assumed is a correct assessment or not. So I guess the best I can do is to keep doing me and keep people educated.
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sokkastyles · 3 years ago
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I was thinking about the moment when Aang burned Katara's hands. It's funny that there are people who blame Katara for her injury (because she was standing too close to Aang), although it is obvious that Aang is to blame for this. And only now I realized that Aang treated firebending as a game just like he treats his airbending, which is why he couldn't stop in time and burned Katara. It seems to me that this is the reason why fire became the last element that Aang had to study, for his full growth as a character, to start taking things more seriously and responsibly than before. While Zuko is learning on the contrary to be more free and liberated, like air.
I agree. I've said in the past that I feel like a lot of the hate Katara gets is because of the way the narrative positions her in opposition to Aang, both as a love interest and as the no-fun caretaker who is always trying to get him to take responsibility, and that's exacerbated when the narrative won't hold Aang responsible for things, such as the kiss in "Ember Island Players," which is why even people who like Katara argue that she really actually secretly wanted to be kissed (blegh), but Aang burning Katara is actually a place where I feel the narrative does do a good job of holding him responsible, and it's actually a huge part of his arc, so people who try to argue that it was Katara's fault for "standing too close" are not even paying attention to the show. There are other problems with the way that situation is addressed, and plenty of people have pointed out how Katara is the one who ends up having to comfort Aang over him burning her, while her pain is just magically healed, but it is something the show holds Aang accountable for and a big part of his development.
And you are right about him treating it as a game, just like he does with airbending, and this is an aspect of Aang's character that I feel is often overlooked. This isn't a criticism of Aang, it's very understandable that he is this way. He's a kid who grew up in peacetime. There's a tendency to idealize Aang's pacifism that I've seen in the fandom, and to portray him as someone who hates fighting, but that's not the case. He's a martial arts master, for Pete's sake! And he was just as hyped to learn firebending as any twelve year old boy would be. He thought the freedom fighters were super cool and didn't believe Sokka when he told them that Jet was dangerous. Even in "The Avatar State," which opens with his nightmares about the violence at the North Pole, he was totally into General Fong's plan and wouldn't listen to Katara when she warned him of the danger until Katara got hurt.
And this makes sense, if you think about it. Because Aang is a kid who grew up in an idyllic setting and was raised by pacifist monks, because airbending came easy to him, and because he wasn't there for the genocide of his people, he doesn't quite understand the real consequences of violence the way the other characters do. I'm not saying he takes violence lightly, because of course he doesn't, but he hasn't experienced things the way Katara and Sokka have, particularly how dangerous the Fire Nation can be, so it's more of a game to him until it becomes serious in a very real way, and by then it's unavoidable.
Look at when they go to the Fire Nation festival in "The Deserter:"
Katara: Aang, hold on! Where are we going?
Aang: I don't know, but there's a big crowd so it must be good.
Sokka: [Sarcastically.] Knowing the Fire Nation, it's probably an execution.
Aang: I gotta learn that trick!
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It's not that Aang is naive, it's just that he doesn't have the same experience with the Fire Nation that Sokka and Katara do. Katara is cautious and fearful, and Sokka assumes the worst, while Aang is excited. Katara and Sokka grew up fearing violence from the Fire Nation, and lost their mother to that same evil, while Aang, despite the trauma of losing his people and witnessing the devastation at the Southern Air Temple, still remembers having Fire Nation friends. He's excited to be part of the firebending show while Katara is clearly terrified.
Aang didn't grow up in constant fear of raids like Sokka and Katara did, and he didn't grow up in a violent and abusive environment like Zuko did, so it makes sense that the consequences of violence aren't as real for him (this is also an aspect of what Zuko says to him in "The Southern Raiders" and why it annoys me when people say that Zuko was in the wrong to say what he said). And because Aang is also twelve, his initial feelings about firebending are more "fire cool" than anything.
That's why he's impatient with Jeong Jeong, and also why he's so shocked and upset when he does accidently burn Katara. And because of this he does a complete 180 and is afraid to ever firebend again. I also think that both Katara and Sokka's reactions were unexpected for him. Katara's terror and hurt is so palpable and Sokka's reaction towards Aang, tackling him to the ground, becomes horribly tragic if you think about how much Sokka wanted to be like his dad and was raised to be a warrior and protector of his tribe and family, and the flashback we get later of Hakoda running towards Kya, who he will find dead.
It's also made clear by the narrative that it was Aang's fault. I mean, I'm not saying Aang should be blamed, because of course it was an accident, but the reason Aang lost control of the fire was because he was being reckless, and playing with it. Part of it is also Jeong Jeong's fault, because Jeong Jeong has the opposite problem, and I do blame Jeong Jeong largely for Aang developing a complex around firebending. Both of them, because of their bad experiences with fire, become so afraid of hurting other people that they don't know how to handle it. And Jeong Jeong was actually the last person who should have been teaching Aang, because of his fear of his own fire. Aang disobeys Jeong Jeong and is too reckless, but Jeong Jeong also is way too timid and doesn't teach Aang, who is eager to learn more, how to keep his fire from going out of control. He teaches Aang to be afraid of the fire because he is afraid of it.
(I actually also think this is tied to why Aang is afraid of Katara's desire to face Yon Rha in "The Southern Raiders" as well. When Aang is exposed to situations where he is confronted with the reality of violence, he becomes incredibly fearful and loses control. That's why he's afraid of Katara losing control and falls back on Air Nomad aphorisms that land on deaf ears to Katara and Zuko.)
This is ultimately why Zuko ends up being the perfect firebending teacher for Aang. Zuko had a lot of the same problems, and had to learn the hard way how to control his fire, but because he's had those experiences and learned from them, and decided that he wanted to become better, he's able to teach Aang how to have a more balanced view. Zuko had to learn how to be more like air, but one of the things I love about "The Firebending Masters" is how Zuko and Aang's roles are somewhat switched, and Aang is constrained by his own fears while Zuko is more free than we've ever seen him:
Aang: [Scared.] Zuko, I think the past is trying to kill me.
Zuko: [Kneeling down to inspect the spikes.] I can't believe it. [He picks the tripwire up and examines it.] This booby trap must be centuries old and it still works.
Aang: There's probably a lot more. Maybe this means we shouldn't be here.
Zuko takes two steps back and runs toward the wall adjoining the path. He runs on the wall before jumping on the other side of the spikes.
Zuko: [Dusting some dirt on his shirt.] Where's that up-beat attitude you were talkin' about?
(This is also a rare scene of Zuko bending air.)
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Because in the end, it's all about balance. Aang learns to have more confidence and Zuko learns to be more wise. There's a great message there about learning from your mistakes. Yes, you should be careful especially when you are in danger of hurting others, but if you're too hesitant then you'll always be held back by your fear, and you might end up hurting others more in the end.
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a-room-of-my-own · 3 years ago
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A while before the latest hoo-ha about Judith Butler, I had just been reading her again. Though she claims her critics have not read her, this simply isn’t the case. I read Gender Trouble when it first came out and it was important at the time . That time was long,long ago. She was just one of the many ‘post-structuralist’ thinkers I was into. I would trip off to see  Luce Irigaray or Derrida whenever they appeared.
I got an interview  with Baudrillard and tried to sell it to The Guardian but they  didn’t know who he was so its fair to say I was fairly immersed in that world of theory.  For a while, I had a part time lecturing job so I had to keep on top of it. Though Butler’s idea of gender as performance was not new , it was interesting.  RuPaul said it so much more clearly in a  quote nicked from  someone else “Honey ,we are born naked, the rest is drag”
What I was looking for again , I guess is not any clarity – her writing is famously and deliberately difficult-  but whether there was ever any sense of the material body. She wrote herself in 2004 “I confess however I am not a very good materialist. Every time I try to write about the body, the writing ends up being about language” . 
Butler from on high ,cannot really think about the body at all which is why they (Butler’s chosen pronoun) are now the high priestess of a particular kind of trans ideology.  The men who worship Butler are not versed in high theory. The fox botherer had a “brain swoon” at some very ordinary things Butler said. Mr Right Side of history nodded along in an interview. Clearly neither of these men are versed in any of this philosophy and would be better off sticking to tax law and the decline of the Labour Party. Butler is simply a totem for them.
Butler said in the Guardian interview for instance  “Gender is an assignment that does not just happen once: it is ongoing. We are assigned a sex at birth and then a slew of expectations follow which continue to “assign” gender to us.”
So yeah? That’s a fairly basic view of the social construction of gender though I take issue with the assigned at birth thing ,which I will come back to and why I started reading her again in the first place.
This phrase “Assigned sex at birth” is now common parlance but simply does not make sense  to me. I am living with someone who is pregnant. I have given birth three times and been a birthing  partner. I know where babies come from. There is a deep disconnect here between language and reality which no amount of academic jargon can obliterate. 
Babies  come from bodies. Not any bodies but bodies that have a uterus. They grew inside a woman’s body until they  get pushed out or dragged out into the world. 
The facts of life that we are now to be liberated from in the form of denial. Only one sex can have babies but we must now somehow not say that. The pregnant “people” of Texas will now be forced into giving birth to children they don’t want because they are simply “host bodies”. The language of patriarchal supremacy and that of some of the trans ideologues is remarkably close, as is their biological ignorance.
There is no foetal heatbeat at six weeks for instance. When a baby is born , doctors and midwives do not randomly assign a sex, they observe it and they do it though genitalia. 
There is a question over a tiny percentage of babies ,less that one percent with DSDs but even then they are sexed with doctors having  difficult conversations with parents about what may happen later.
Somehow, though when I read the way in which this is now all discussed it is clear to me that the people talking have never been pregnant, never had a foetal scan, never been near a birth , never miscarried, do not understand that even with a still birth babies are still sexed and often named. 
If you want to know the sex of your baby you can pay privately and know at 7 weeks ((*49-56 days from the first day of the mother’s last menstrual cycle). A 12 week scan will show it. That is why so many female foetuses are aborted . I have reported on this. 
Talking to paediatricians about this is interesting because they do indeed have to think through these things that we are being told are not real eg. that sex is just a by-product of colonialism for instance.  Sometimes pre-conception , geneticists will be looking at chromosomes because certain diseases are more likely in men or women. Males have a higher risk of haemophilia for instance.  
One doctor told me “When babies are premature, the survival advantage of females over males is well known throughout neonatology. This is sometimes something we talk about with parents when there is threatened premature labour around 23 weeks' gestation and options to discuss about resuscitation and medical interventions. In fertility treatment (or counselling around fertility in the context of medical treatments) it is pretty inherent to know whether we need to plan around sperm, or ova + pregnancy.”
She also said that if she involved in a birth that “assigning” isn’t the word she world use. “Observed genitals a highly reliable observation, just like measuring weight or head circumference which is also done at this time. “ Another doctor said that anyone involved with a trans man giving birth  would be doing the best for the patient in front  of them. 
Sex then is biological fact. A female baby will have all the eggs she will ever have when she is first born which is kind of amazing. It is not bio-essentialist to say that our sexed bodies are different nor is it transphobic to recognise it.
Except of course in my old newspaper ,The Guardian who are now so hamstrung by their  own ideology they have got their knickers in such a twist they can barely walk.  They completely misreported the WiSpa incident , basically ignored the Sonia  Appleby  judgement at the Tavistock. Appleby was a whistle blower ,a respected professional concerned with safe guarding. She won her case. The cherry on the cake this week was an interview with Butler, themselves (?) in which they went on about Terfs being fascists and needing to extend the category of women.
Does anyone EVER stop to think that most gender critical women are of the left, supporters of gay rights, often lesbian and that this is not America? We are not in bed with the far right. This is bollocks. Just another way to dismiss us.  
As we watch Afghanistan and Texas ,to say Butler’s words were tone deaf is to say the least. But they didn’t even have the guts to keep the most offensive stuff in the piece and overnight edited it out without really explaining why : the bits where Butler described gender critical people as fascist. Perhaps because the person their “reporters” had  defended against  transphobia at WiSpa turned out to be a known sex offender,  perhaps because someone pointed out that Butler was throwing around the word fascist rather like Rik Mayall used to do in the Young Ones. 
All of this is rather desperate and readers deserve better. When I left that newspaper I said that I thought and expected editors to stand up for their writers in public. Instead they go into some catatonic paralysis. I may have not liked this interview but it should never have been cut. Stand by what you publish or your credibility is shot.
But this is about more than Judith Butler and their refusal to support women . Butler is not really any kind of feminist at all. What this is about is the large edifice of trans ideology  crumbling when any real analysis is applied. Yes, I have read Shon Faye’s book and there are some interesting points in it and I totally agree that the lives of trans people should be easier and health care better . I have never said anything but that.
What Faye does in the book is say that there can be no trans liberation under capitalism so there will be a bit of a wait I suspect. 
Yet surely it is the other way round and what we are seeing is that trans ideology (not trans people – I am making a distinction here ) represent the apex of capitalism .
For it means that the individual decides their own gendered essence and then spends a fortune on surgery and a lifetime on medication to achieve the appearance of it. Of course lots of people spend a lifetime  on medication but not out of choice.  Marx understood very well that the abolition of our system of production would free up women.
Now it is all about freeing up men. Who say they are women. Quelle surprise.  
 Nussbaum’s famous take down of Butler is premised exactly on the sense of individual versus collective struggle “ The great tragedy in the new feminist theory in America is the loss of a sense of public commitment. In this sense, Butler’s self-involved feminism is extremely American, and it is not surprising that it has caught on here, where successful middle-class people prefer to focus on cultivating the self rather than thinking in a way that helps the material condition of others. “
Such thinking now dominates academia. There is simply an unquestioning  rehearsal of something most of know not to be true thus Amia Srinivasan writes in The Right to Sex  “At birth, bodies are sorted as ‘male’ or ‘female’, though many bodies must be mutilated to fit one category or the other, and many bodies will later protest against the decision that was made. This originary division determines what social purpose a body will be assigned.”
What does ‘sorted’ mean here? A tiny number of intersex babies are born. A tiny number of people are trans and decide to change their bodies. The feminist demand to challenge gender norms without mutilating any one’s body no longer matters. What matters now is this retrograde return  to some gendered soul. This is not something any decent Marxist would have any truck with . Of course one may change over a lifetime and of course gender is never ‘settled.’ We are complex people who inhabit bodies that often don’t work or appear as we want them to.
But not only is there a denial of basic Marxism going on here , what becomes ever more apparent is  that there is a denial of motherhood. Butler said “Yet gender is also what is made along the way – we can take over the power of assignment, make it into self-assignment, which can include sex reassignment at a legal and medical level.”
Self-assignment is key . One may birth oneself. No longer of woman born but self -made. This is a theoretical leap but it also one that has profound implications for women as a sex class. We are really then, just the  host bodies to a new breed of people who self-assign.
Maybe that is the future although look around the word and there isn’t a lot of self-assignment going on. There are simply women shot and beaten in the street, choked to death or having  their rights taken  away. There is no identifying out of this , there is no fluidity here . This is not discourse. It is brutality and do we not have some responsibility to other women to confront male violence ?
Instead the hatred is aided and abetted by so called philosophers describing  other women as Terfs. It is utterly depressing.
The sexed body. The pregnant body. The dying body. The body is in trouble when we can’t talk about it . I thought of Margaret Mary O’Hara’s  beautiful and  strange lyrics and what they might mean. I await my child’s return from the hospital as hers is a difficult pregnancy and thank god they are on the case. The sex of the child she carries does not matter to me at all .
It simply exists. Not in language but within a body. 
Why is that so difficult to acknowledge? 
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