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I'm not sure if the fact that I, an areligious person, was listening to Pavarotti's Ave Maria to avoid hearing the Fox News christo-fascist bullshit playing in the breakroom counts as irony but nevertheless there's a certain poetry to it
#ave maria was just what spotify was last playing#uspol#growing up people would ask me how i lost my faith#like my brother in arms i never had it#i was raised to distrust and stay critical of any organized religion#which pissed off a lot of christians#my jewish friends were like lol yeah that's fair#my poor muslim friends seemed glad someone wasn't hurling insults at them#or rocks#post 911 was NOT kind to them#fucking assholes#i will never forget how they treated my friends#to any poor fool still lurking in my tags#first off Hi!#second important info is i grew up in the bible belt#leftists in blue areas will often express doubt that christians here are That Bad and it infuriates me#i grew up here#and hey look now they're saying the quiet part out loud
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Fun fact! This was the real tipping point that made Edgeworth run away after AA1, they just couldn't show it on screen because they didn't have the rights to Chappell Roan's music <3
(A spiritual successor to my "Hot to Go" joke from this post. Image description under the cut below)
[Image ID: a four page black and white comic of characters from ace attorney.
The Judge stands solemnly at his podium holding a gavel "Mr. Miles Edgeworth, you are on trial for the murder of blah blah blah..."
A cheerful Maya Fey leans over to Miles Edgeworth, who is staring straight ahead and looking very concerned
Maya: "Psst! Mr. Edgeworth! If you win your trial, can I show you Chappell Roan?
Miles: "What the hell, sure." Internally he thinks "Oh God I am going to jail"
A box saying "later" in the top corner of the next panel marks the passage of time.
The Judge smiles as he says "I declare you... Not Guilty!"
We see a full body shot of Maya dancing excitedly while Miles looks on, emotionless
Maya: YIPPEE omg you're going to LOVE this
Miles internally thinks "oh no, the consequences of my actions.
We see Miles standing in between Phoenix Wright and Maya looking apprehensive. Maya beams in excitement, while Nick puts a reassuring hand on Miles' shoulder
Miles: Alright, so what is this exactly?
Nick: She's a pop musician Maya really likes
Maya: You promised you'd let me show you, and it's legally binding because you said it in a court room!
Miles: That is not how the law works Ms. Fey
Maya: Shh just listen!
We see a panel of Miles' pensive face concentrating as he listens to "Hot to Go". He thinks to himself "hm".
Another panel zoomed in more. His pensive expression has grown more tense/confused as he listens to "Red Wine Supernova". he again thinks to himself "Hm" in a larger thought bubble.
We zoom out again to see Nick, Miles, and Maya standing together again. Miles stares forward blankly, eyebrows raised. Maya excitedly leans in.
Maya: Ok, that's her whole discography. So! What did you think?
Nick looks at him, waiting for his response
We get a panel of Miles, looking bewildered. He starts to speak "I..."
We cut again to see the three of them standing together.
Miles: I... don't think I like women?
Miles looks shocked and confused. Nick is bent over laughing, using a hand on Miles's shoulder to support himself. Maya looks outraged and appalled!
Maya: MR. EDGEWORTH! Just because you don' like her musi it doesn't give you an excuse to be sexist!
We see a panel of Miles looking stressed and confused. He leans his head on one of his hands, which messes up his hair, showing how he isn't his normal put together self.
Miles: I should rephrase that. What I mean is, Ms. Roan is clearly VERY assured in her feelings towards women. I was... unaware that anyone felt that strongly. I thought we all viewed these things with a vague sense of distaste and unease but collectively ignored it. Like how we do with climate change.
We zoom out again to see the three of them. Miles stands in the middle looking deeply uncomfortable and lost in thought, vibrating with unease. Nick and Maya exchange deeply concerned glances across from him.
With lingering unease, Miles begins to walk away.
Miles: Well, I should be going then. Goodnight.
Nick hesitantly raises a finger to point out an inaccuracy in that statement
Nick: It's four in the afternoon-
he gets interrupted by Miles who repeats firmly: I said Goodnight
Nick looks in the direction Miles walked off in.
Nick: ...He'll be ok, right?
Maya reassures him: Of cours Nick! I mean, what's the worst that can happen?
Jump cut to a closeup of Nick's hand holding Miles' letter which reads Miles Edgeworth chooses death in all caps. Then, below in smaller font, it says Also femininomenon was really good, thanks.
We see a panel of Nick glaring wordlessly at Maya as he holds the letter in his hand. Maya leans against the wall and looks away, whistling, trying to look innocent to avoid blame.
As a bonus, we also have a page that takes place a year later. Miles and Nick stand talking. Miles looks calmer now, and Nick smiles encouragingly.
Miles: In my time in Europe, I've been examining myself and my approach to law. Ultimately, the most important focus must be justice. We owe it to ourselves and to the people we serve
Nick: Wow, that's really inspiring Edgeworth. And, uh, hows the... the other thing going?
We get a zoomed in panel of Miles glaring menacingly at a suddenly nervous Nick
Jumping out again, Miles turns his back to Nick as he continues to talk
Miles: So as I was saying, justice is truly so important...
Nick nervously rubs the back of his neck wearing an awkward expression as he sweats nervously. He thinks to himself internally "Ooookay then, clearly still working through some things there"
/.End ID]
#Miles can handle horrifying truths about the death of his father and the nature of his guardian#but he draws the line at questioning his sexuality!#also. serious moment for a second#I think we focus a lot on moments of queer discovery stemming from attraction to the same sex#like that being the moment of panicked “oh no I'm different”. Which makes sense and is valid!#But I think it's also compelling to explore the opposite but similar twist in your gut that is:#oh my god I don't feel anything in this situation where others do. oh no something something is wrong with me#and this is something that gay and lesbian people have in common with ace and aro people!#I feel such tenderness and kinship to everyone who has been in that situation#and it's why i will never understand why aspec folks are pitted against gay or lesbian representation#we are drawn to the same characters bc we had such similar experiences and isn't that lovely that we can find solace in media?#so NO FIGHTING. We should all be BEST FRIENDS. my brothers in arms. I'd die for you.#all that is to SAY: I personally read edgeworth as asexual and like demiromantic/gay.#but YOU can read him as just gay in this comic if you want <3#Also. i just thought it would be funny if it took a lesbian to make him realize he didn't like women#I think he would have no clue how to react to chappell roan. Same vibe as giving a victorian orphan a baja blast and a crunchwrap supreme#ok sorry shutting up now#ace attorney#ace attorney comic#ace attorney trilogy#gyakuten saiban#phoenix wright#naruhodo ryuichi#miles edgeworth#mitsurugi reiji#maya fey#ayasato mayoi#my art
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ghost who sleeps in nik’s black hawk when his insomnia is at its worst
when he can’t sleep for the paranoia eating away at his chest, when every creak and sound is an enemy creeping to his door, when everyone and everything is just too loud he asks nik for the keys
personal weapons aren’t allowed in the base housing but the hangers? those are fair game. he can load himself up with enough bullets and knives to be a one man army; rifles pointed out each window as he hunkers down with only a blanket to protect himself from the cold hard metal
no one but nik knows he sleeps out here and with the base asleep, if ghost hears anyone, he’ll know it’s an enemy. that surety settles the beast in his chest enough for him to finally drift off into a solid sleep for the first time in a month
no one but nik knows on these rare nights that he stands watch outside the hanger while ghost sleeps; gun in hand, standing guard for the man who tirelessly protects the rest of them, no matter the consequences
#like i said im deep in my nik protecting ghost feelings#quiet support literally kills me#nik doing everything in his power to look after ghost#including not letting ghost know he’s aware of why he does this all so he doesn’t suffer from his vulnerability?#i am Unwell#this dynamic with them being platonic hits just as much#it not being about protecting your lover just the pain of a understanding a brother in arms#of seeing the protector and knowing hes never had anyone protect /him/#and voicelessly watching his back bc it what he deserves#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#we’re a team. ghost team#nikghost#ghostnik#nik cod#cod nik#cod nikolai#nikolai cod#simon ghost riley#ghost cod#cod mw2#cod modern warfare#cod mwii#cod fic#save post
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we sang in the aeroplane over the sea tgth ☆
#27% circle line with a lovely friend of mine rail tracks screeching etc etc u know the usual. im just gonna write down memories#a few weeks ago my friend read thus spoke zarathustra by the fire to the music she was dancing it was her silhouette#against the flashlight lit up gold and royal blues and tiger's silk i tried not to fall in love with her. in bordeaux we searched#for pomegranates he sent her 300 quid by the beach she cut it open with a knife her hand covered in red we each had a taste of her work#sweet red wet the sweetest grit. too barely clothed to go into the cliffside church they painted my eyes we painted hers#8 shots of gin she screamed joyfully IT'S ALIVE! at the book she said become the child i said i feel like a monster she said i was insane#i tried to believe her. fortified wine and later a red pen crossword defiled by humidity her hair in my hands two king sized beds#pushed next to each other she took her top off she told us to watch her arms raised up the musculature on her back was precise cut from#marble we saw oceans we saw the birds take cold baths the midnight sun over a wasp-infested pool our chemicals in their bodies#gold flakes dark skin gold cross shoulders against mine drawing some form of each other on the train i didn't hesitate#to say her eyes were beautiful over and over monks at the soapshop with titanium credit cards i loved you like i loved no other#he tied his hair up and walked us into the river he held a bullet between his lips i never held his hand he said what an honour#you own too much capital your mother thinks i'm a natural i realised i haven't told my mother i loved her in years she's always been mother#never mom i'll watch you watch seaweeds this is terminal akrasia i'll feel your fingers smear perfume on my lips your girlfriend grins#bite into the straw take the shot hold my hand get it all wrong draw in the sand kiss him right stab through leather shower in chlorine#you're the determinable vicissitude is all yours we won the Game AND the Battle AND the War i'm proud of you like crazy we feed each other#saffron cliffside lovers well-fallen brothers fat cats blue windows southwest sun ALife SynBio design aXAA grow us a city in silico#we've grown to the ends of glee fire-jumper ocean-eater sure-footed lists on lists hands on eyelids не устану искать тебя#...anyway ive put my face on this blog b4 but hiii again#feel free to rb btw the rants r not personal
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FREAK ASS
#art#traditional art#watercolour#fanart#synthv#frimomen#you know the other day i had a realization about body hair. i had never thought about it before but i noticed how a lot of people draw#like arm hair and stuff really straight and neat. and i thought that was just an aesthetic thing. until i looked at nearly every person#i met that day who wasnt related to me. and i realized. oh fuck. my scraggly ass arm hair is kind of an outlier here#im quite fond of it. its fun to poke and play with. its pretty long and sticks whatever direction it wants. my dad and older brothers arm#and leg hair are the similar its just a genetic thing but i found it wild that so many people irl where i live just have really straight#arm hair LOL but anyway while i was drawing this i was ABOUT to give frimo straight body hair because i dunno. now that i know so many#people have it ive readjusted my perception on how to draw body hair BUT then i also thought huh. he has light waves in his head hair#and more importantly. i wanted to draw hair like that one random like 2 inch arm hair ive got that sticks directly out at all times#because its really fun LOL but i dunno. i think my scraggly arm hair suits him.
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So far I'm honestly a lot better at drawing Puzzles with the big cartoony eyes than the white dot ones for the moment
#💬 rory rambles#but it's a lot of fun jdfghkhjgl#my arm is getting better little by little so I can sketch :3 yippie#btw I finished the Waluigi arc. it was. an arc#Tari was the highlight of it for me#girl lore!!!!!!!!#Meggy was so different tho... for obvious reasons. feels like a separate character#that's also true for SMG4. again obvious reasons#also back here not everyone had subtitles just the otherwise unintelligible ones which slightly annoys me#I appreciate Subtitles For All because I am not a native speaker and it helps me process#I don't care for the Wario brothers. a superpower that's fueled by receiving rejection and hate is a cool concept for a villain though#I gotta check out what Saiko's deal is#also wdym SMG3 actually has a psych degree#I'm thinking I'll do the Lawsuit Arc next because honestly I don't know if I'll care for much of the rest. Anime YouTube and Genesis sound-#-like they contain important lore but is it worth it. hmm hmm#the old designs bother me and the humor always did#but my perfectionistic ass will never start writing anything for this fandom until I feel I have an adequate understanding of The Lore#glimpsed a Wattpad oneshot where Mr Puzzles and Meggy make breakfast and the comments pointed out how Meggy can't cook for shit#and would've canonly realistically burnt the kitchen down#a variation of my worst nightmare
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The Diaz Brothers Drawing
Hello there tumblr besties! Today I finally finished the 7th item in the continuous saga of “Kaboom drawing TMG songs for fun”
This drawing.. oh my gosh I have been to hell and back to create this - I have never in my life drawn a pine tree before, this was a huge struggle. I was pretty pleased with it in the end though! :D
I hope you guys like it too :)
#Draw my arms into my hospital gown#let the sky open up and rain down#rain down!#Mercy for the Diaz brothers!#Mercy for the Diaz brothers!!#the mountain goats#tmg#tmg posting#art#artists on tumblr#digital art#doodle#tmg lyrics#transcendental youth#the Diaz brothers#ok so fun fact. apparently this song is about characters from scarface. I have never watched scarface#but I love this song with all my heart and soul#so I had to draw it#seeing it live has permanently altered my brain chemistry in the best possible way#um so yeah basically this line always kinda reminded me of dreaming and stuff#like running through a forest is something I have defo dreamed about before#the deer is kinda like a representation of visions - they’re a unique thing#although fun fact: this deer is based on a deer I saw irl#it felt like a dream seeing her#this pose is directly inspired by that#🐐#🦌
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was rewatching newsies for the hundredth time and had an intense need to draw jason like he was spot conlon. park row newsies are here!!!
#batfamily#batfamily fanart#dc#dc fanart#jason todd#really ive been planning to do a more finished piece of dick doing the newsie pose from the playbill#but everything about spot screams 'jason todd' to me and i just had to take a break from my other piece to sketch it. i HAD to.#every time i watch newsies now all i can think about is spot conlon being jason if he never went into the pit:#short; extremely muscled; and very flippy. tommy bracco u short king!!!!#(i am talking about the newsies proshoot 2017 jsyk)#when i see brooklyn newsie spot conlon all i can really think is 'arms 😳😳' they are!! nice arms!!!!!#but ye i mean what makes me think of jason is also the red and the personality and the way everyone was like 'he's scary to talk to' lol#I DIGRESS#this is niche dont mind me#i'll prob end up doing dick as jack kelly (the blue it fits!) w tiny dami being davey's brother (he is disgruntled to lie#about his age!!!) and timothy being davey ✨️✨️ but also there are plenty of newsies to choose from. like. so many. so we'll see.
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1st day of december and i'm so depressed i can't get out of bed. 😔💔
#*carly catalogs#my oldest brother decided to stop taking his meds and has been snorting coke for awhile now apparently#(he's bioplar too btw)#but instead of forcing him out to glo seek help....#my mom just keeps welcoming him over to our house with open arms claiming “all my kids are welcome into my home” bs#completely failing to understand or realize that this affects my bpd just as much#i HATE my family and i'm so fucking done with all of them#i feel like i was misplaced when god created me to be with these people bc wtf??????#bc how can you welcome a bipolar coke addict into your arms so easy???????#when she had no problem booting me out to go with my abusive father whom i've always been afraid of....#when i was going manic and spiraling over my bpd diagnosis#i fucking hate it here#i will NEVER have any strong family feelings towrds these people i genuinely HATE them alllllll#and i'm not even sorry about it i'm not sorry at all for hating them#i'll scream it from the top of my lungs!!#i hate my mother! i hate my father! i hate my brother's! I HATE EVERYONE!!!!!!!#uggghhh sorry 😞#as you can probably tell i'm not doing so well at all 😔💔#tbd
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in addition to that, remember how i found out my ex has a kid through his whatsapp icon??
(the kicker is, i only looked at it because my fucking grandma told me on the phone: oh you know how i kept his number, because I always thought...* well looking at his new picture I might just delete it now...)
well at christmas i wanted to send myself some pictures i took with my mum's phone (with permission of course) and what do i see? she TEXTED HIM MERRY CHRISTMAS. we broke up over three years ago! ma'am this man didn't even send you a fucking condolence card when dad died! he does NOT get a merry christmas!!
so I told her that. she was a little snappy about it, which annoyed me because sorry, this is -my- old heart break, I'm not texting your exes either?? (or my ex's parents for that matter) but then! she said: but I DO wonder what kid he's holding there...
and I was like mum, what the heck, that's obviously HIS kid, what other child would that be
and she was SO CONFUSED. MOTHER! WHAT
#personal#sorry i had to share this it was SUCH an interaction#it's like she didn't realise that yeah just because her fail daughter's life didn't progress in any direction except uh downwards since 201#doesn't mean it's like that for everyone else#maybe she understood a little better why i was so sensitive over her texting him#i ALSO had assumed my granny had already gossiped it all the way to her (i know she did to my brother)#but apparently she decided this was the moment for confidentiality??#anyways what child looking JUST LIKE HIM could he POSSIBLY hold in his arm ON HIS WHATSAPP PROFILE that he hadn't changed in YEARS before#*i am also so tired of this 'well maybe you could get back together one day!!' that's always implicit in keeping their number#or texting them seasonal greetings... because a) he just fucking dumped me so like it's not like i had any choice in the matter back then#BUT i got over it and i want to be over it and i want it to be in the past#and b) it's kind of reminding me how back then everyone always congratulated me on how great he was (spoiler he wasn't lol)#which just made me feel like i was 'lucky' to get with a guy 'like that' when i am.... not like that you know#(my other grandmother is soooooo much worse with this she literally told me i will never find a man as good MA'AM YOU MET HIM ONCE)#and i would like people to i dunno believe in my loveability a little more#especially.......... my own mother............
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Processing some things
Also the fact that he's crouching with his hands on his knees is so cute to me for some reason?? He does this in another episode too - the one where Chakotay finds a symbol on an unknown planet...it's just so adorable to me. He could just lean down but no. Also of course his fingers are spread again - GOTTA utilize the whole hand whenever you do ANYTHING (if you're Tuvok)
#anyway. he's so pretty I'm gonna bite my arm off spongebob style.#Tuvok in the Maquis: I'm gonna spy on these criminals but also?? I'm gonna try out a new eyeshadow look.#Tuvok calling Neelix 'sir'....one and only time v_v treasure it Neelix#Do these replicators make clothing? (yes.) Will they make me a uniform like yours~?? (No. They most CERTAINLY will NOT. <3)#<- also Neelix is naked and Tuvok brought him a towel in a way that was very theatric but also very 'lets dry you off'#like...not just handing it to him#I love Neelix's scrappier early seasons vibe <3<3#I also like whenever he was like 'GOD these Starfleet people are a bunch of BABIES...eat the damn leola root. It's good for you~!'#I FROGOT KES WAS HELD CAPTIVE BY THE KAZON???? KES ARE YOU OK???#Kes: I'm told I'm too curious...it's my worst quality~ <- and then the writers never let her out of sickbay#In my ideal world Kes & Neelix are like brother and sister (harkens back to Neelix's lost family and gives a slightly more sympathetic#reason for his overprotectiveness which would now not be romantic jealousy but still something he had to let go of for them to truly be#friends) and also Kes tried every work station aboard Voyager...every episode she's somewhere new but her MAIN job is still in sickbay#Kes is in a pseudo cult and she said nu uh I believe in a different pseudo cult and I love that for her#Kes: I don't want to be dependent on the caretaker!! (reasonable) Our people have magical mind's abilities that allow us- (ok Kes)#just bc she was right doesn't mean it's not a WILD thing to think HEhehehe#SNRKEHEHEHE HARRY STOP TOM CAN'T TAKE THIS#Tom: How can I let down the only friend I've got~? / Harry: Friend? What makes you think I'm your friend~? / Tom: -sobbing into his pillow-#Neelix saying 'Well...the fool needs company!' ok <3 I'm twirling my hair a little....got a bit of rizz...#literally an hour ago he was willing to leave them all for dead and now look at him#OUG hTom Paris the racism....ough the racism...not even the fantasy alien kind.......oaaau ugh oh it hurts the real world racism.....#TOM NO STOP TALKING!!! TO M NO THE RACISM - TOM PARIS !! TOOOOM!!!!! <- walter white screaming meme#(remembers its Harry's FIRST mission) a different kind of pain....#Janeway and Tuvok holding hands: We're so fucking doomed. This is a terrible position and we have to do what's morally right but#by doing this we're going to be trapped here - maybe for the rest of our lives and not just us but the entire crew. But we have to#do this horrible thing BECAUSE we're good people.#<- not enough attention is paid (including by me bc I forgor) to the fact that Tuvok was with Janeway when she made that decision#and backed her up...just a sad little moment to themselves#OOF Tom...three for three on the racism....TOM#Neelix's sales pitch...yeeAAAH~!!
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the fact that so many child abuse laws are like "its not child abuse unless it leaves a lasting mark" is so fucking crazy to me. You can hit a kid as long as your fists weren't closed and you hit them light enough
#It's actually so hard for someone to be convicted of child abuse. especially if what happened is under the guise of ''discipline''#yeah the kid was fighting me so its not MY fault that he hit his head and arm on a counter and was also on edge of having a panic attack.#this is the proper reaction to a kid being guilty of talking back and being bossy - my uncle#also my uncle: I've never been found guilty under the law for child abuse. you are wrong. also you are the one needing to grow up bc somehow#I'm circling this conversation about you assaulting me over thinking something bad was happening to your brother back around to the fact you#are still living with me#its so funny to me bc even if I did try to leave my mom would try to stop me lmao. ''you're mom is enabling your lifestyle for some reason''#my dude. my mom is ENFORCING this lifestyle. not to mention when you were shaming me for how old I was and still living here...you got my#age wrong??? do your research before talking to me.#literally told me I had no goals or plans for the future. lmao even. he only ever talks to me to tell me that he wants me out#quickly! name 8 interests I have that I did not have while in elementary school!!!#like I'm so mad. at least I can revel in the fact that my uncle was such a pussy you didn't commit to calling the police on me when he said#he would lmao. I can also revel in the fact that he fucking hates it here and tries to avoid being home. and that hes failing at parenting#his own children. I'm sorry brenna. I mean no slander. but you sneaking around and being found out about it and that all the adults knew#about it before he did thus making him look bad is so satisfying. its like watching him judging his gf and my mom for being bad parents#while his kids do much worse things (in his eyes) so fucking poetic#I'm sorry for going batshit crazy in the tags. I am. venting#tw child abuse
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see. the opening scene of barbie was literally how i played with those cursed baby dolls when i was younger. they annoyed the shit out of me
#idk why people kept getting them for me#it wasnt my parents because they always asked if i wanted something specific#and i was always like i want a toolbox! :)#or a spy kit#or a nerf gun or lightsaber#or those train sets you can. build#i had barbies which i made kiss each other before i knew that lesbianism was a thing#in real life#they also competed in like ninja warrior type things#which was me tying them to a string and throwing them down the stairs#i never had a ken but i had a prince charming with one arm bc my brother broke it#where was i going with this#idk#barbie#anyway this is one of several things i tell people when they ask me if i want children#ask me annoying questions and you get a horrifying image#of five year old me absolutely losing it over a plastic baby that shits and cries
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wagh.
#i never really like. had the typical feminine teenage girl phase my mom expected#ive always worn hoodies and sweaters and barely done anything with my hair and used 0 make up#and now i want to start wearing make up and jewelry and pretty outfits and do my hair cool and start to be more feminine#and i thinks its anxiety + my mom thats gonna put such a damper on that shit#once my brother learns how to drive im so gonna make him drive me places so i can actually buy my own clothes#without having to have every single item aproved by my mom#bc im so tired of that shit man#i wanna be able to dress how i want to. yknow.#cause i feel like 11 year old me still in her 'tomboy i hate pink' mood decided on a style of clothes#and now my mom is never letting that go#i wanna wear glittery eyeshadow and learn how to do eyeliner and wear pretty tops and who cares if theyshow a lil belly when i raise my arm#screaming. i wanna be able to actually express myself and my gender and my identity#i feel like ive been trapped in my middle school body for years#vent#wagh. maiming killing biting. i wanna be able to express myself#sometimes i realize my gender dysphoria goes beyond just my chest and pronouns and name and i go :(
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#i had the best and worst dream ever#i dreamt i was sitting on the beach and cuddling with louis#i mean it was like brother-sister cuddling#my cheek was resting on his head and i was sniffing his fluffly hair#our arms were tangled together as he was kind of comforting me#it felt so good and so RIGHT#it literally felt like home#but then he asked me why parents behave so strange at that sight#and when he said that i got stressed and anxious in one second#because i’m so scared of physical touch bc no one showed me how normal it is#i mean i’m 27 but never cuddled with anyone even in this type of platonic way#and then i woke up with another anxiety attack#god i wish i was normal and could feel all these good things in life 😔#why does my brain play with me especially now when i literally have been crying for 2 days straight#personal
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Jason, being a semi-canonic common hallucination in the family after his death, could lead to the stupidest AU ever.
Imagine everyone seeing him — Bruce, half of the time, Dick non-stop, Tim more often than not, and eventually even Alfred starts seeing little boy's silhouette in the corner of his eye, but he never admits it, because someone needs to stay sane in this family.
It is a lot like real-life cases when cult families start to see collective hallucination, and it somehow syncronises in their minds, so they hear and see the same things, you know?
So, yeah, everyone sees Jaybin around.
Everyone but Damian. Damian is a normal one. He also knows his Akhi is alive and well, so whatever. And it takes him some time to figure out that his family is bat-shit insane, but when he does, he decides to use it on his advantage.
Damian, calling Jason: Akhi, you should visit me. It is getting awfully boring here.
Jason, frowning: You know I can't. They think I am dead, and I can't risk my plan, especially now, when Red Hood is gaining-
Damian: We will pretend you are a hallucination.
Jason: ...What?
Damian: So, there is a plan...
So, a few days after this call, Jason arrives at the Wayne Manor. He still thinks his brother's plan sucks, but gaslighting is one of his many talents, so surely, they will figure something out. He can lie his way through this meeting.
Expect, he doesn't even need to lie. His family is actually insane.
Bruce, bumping in Jason:
Jason, staring back: Uh-
Bruce: Wow. You look so grown-up. And we look so alike. Nice one, brain.
Jason: ?..
Tim, leaving his room: Hi, B, hi- Oh, damn. Hi, Jaybin. Nice leather jacket.
Bruce: Right? I guess his ghost just grows up with us now.
Jason: ????
Alfred, nodding along, out of nowhere: Master Dick will hate it. He looks taller now.
All of them: (peacefully leave the room)
Jason: What. The. Fuck.
Jason waits for the moment of clarity to happen as he chats with Damian in the kitchen, but... nothing changes. They really, really think he is a hallucination. So... he starts hanging out around more. Both because Damian is getting angsty, and because it is kinda... amusing.
Tim, stuck on the same case for a few nights, non-stop: Oh, it is really just me and you in this, Jason.
Jason, playing Mario Cart on the table by his side: Maybe take a nap, dude.
Tim: No, I need to figure out this case with-
Jason, rolling his eyes: Red Hood had already dealt with it. Go to sleep.
Tim: ...You are such a good self-care kind of hallucination.
Jason: ...
Damian: Your bets, when will they realise that you are a real person?
Jason: At this point, I am not sure that they will, even if I start screaming that I am real.
Damian: Fair. I bet a year would do.
Jason: ...A year and a half.
Dick visits the Manor. He cooes at Jason, muttering something about "of course, he would have grown up in a punk," and Jason almost breaks his role to hit him on the head.
Jason, arms folded on his chest: You know, you need serious help, dad.
Bruce, blinking at him slowly: Probably. You know what else I need?
Jason: Sleep? Retirement? To stop adopting strays? The list is endless, man.
Bruce: ...Coffee. I need more coffee.
Jason, groaning: What the fuck!!!
Alfred figures out that Jason is real, eventually. Solely because he catches him sneaking a few extra cookies, and hallucinations are not supposed to eat. He plays along with him and Damian until the very end, anyway.
(Damian ends up winning the bet because Jason loses it once and pushes Bruce down the stairs, when he starts reciting some precautionary tale about him. Everyone is flabbergasted.)
#jason todd#red hood#dcu comics#dc universe#dcu#batman#bruce wayne#batfamily#batfam#dick grayson#tim drake#damian wayne#alfred pennyworth
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