#like im not actively suicidal

[moonlit-dreamers]

hot take but i dont think sun is suicidal

i dont think hes the one with the worst mental health in this show either

besides eclipse (bc thats obvious), id say solar has the worst mental health

hes already killed 2 ppl (didnt want to kill either of them and one was on accident), is insecure about his own identity (asked computer if hes like the other eclipses, and i also bet montys... "teasing" didnt help), has no hobbies of his own, refuses to actually acknowledge his own issues, doesnt communicate to ppl and tries to "not be a bother" to others, never does anything for himself and only ever does when someone tells him to, and probably more.

but i'll analyze solar and his shit mental health later; i wanna ramble about sun

i dont think sun has ever been actively suicidal, mainly passive. in case ur wondering wut the difference is:

being passively suicidal is having thoughts and "wishes" but never actually planning to do anything. a lot of ppl will think "i wish i was dead" when in reality wut they need is a break and they have no real desire to die (this is a common thought process to have when ur burnt out or generally in a mental rut)

being actively suicidal is actually planning to do something and seeking out ways to harm urself with the intent of being severely injured or dying. this is an immediate emergency

sun never went out in search of ways to die. he never planned out ways he could kill himself. the time we heard him say "i wish i was dead" was right after he hallucinated bloodmoon and old moon taunting him. he was tired and he needed a fucking break, so he expressed that through saying "i wish i was dead". now u might be thinking "but birdcage, he did go out and do risky things knowing he might die" yes, that is true. but that does not mean that dying was his intention. he went out and did dangerous things bc he wanted to help, not die.

but if we return to the current moment; he is absolutely not suicidal. his mental health is deteriorating, yes. but from wut i can tell he hasnt shown any signs of suicidal ideation. for a while sun said he had pretty stable mental health. it was only until eclipse came back did his health really start to deteriorate again. then if u add on to how hes constantly being pushed to the side and ignored by his own family (im more than mildly frustrated by that) that is absolutely a disaster brewing under the surface. but does that mean hes currently, at the very least passively, suicidal? no. probably not. at least, from wut we can tell there isnt much to back up the idea that he is.

wut sun needs is to be acknowledged and let in on the happenings of the family instead of being ignored. he also needs to learn how to communicate better bc the severe lack of it is wuts going to cause the downfall of everyone in the show

[krotiation]

i'll genuinely never stop thinking about codependency in rhack and how it's mostly coming from jack's side. both jack and rhys treat their relationship like rhys is the one who needs jack to not just survive but also thrive, but it's really the opposite and i think that REALLY adds to how much jack twists the narrative to make it seem like rhys can't do anything without him just to keep giving rhys a reason to keep him around and trust him

[soullessjack]

i cant sleep is this anything

[ssaltlicker]

Thinking about all the on-screen character development we couldve (and shouldve) gotten from vi in s2. To actually see and hear her process things. Man

[lemonadehtwooh]

I don't have the words for it atm because emotions but I do think, to some extent, Aventurine constantly betting his life are passive suicide attempts (if we aren't counting the ones where he doesn't have a choice to do so or not), and the whole thing in Penacony was not only a gamble, but a suicide attempt

[dogboner]

personal growth is crazy because it seems like nothing has changed until you're crying because you don't want to die. you learn something about yourself that ten years ago would have actually killed you, and now you're thinking about what you can do to heal and make peace with it. nothing may have changed to you, but to the person you were however long ago, you are the "it gets better"

[mushed-kid]

i need to stop speaking forever.

[e8luhs]

i guarantee you that any job you get outside of walmart will be an improvement. i was so scared of switching jobs but when i did it was the best decision i ever made. a different environment with different bosses can make a huge difference. it’s scary but so worth it, even if it takes a few tries.

thank you ;_; its nice / comforting to know its a little scary for everyone. me when i have to do it scared i suppose and plus i know if i dont take the opportunity now im just going to be stuck because even though walmart is soooo evil its been weirdly stable for me due to the fact that unfortunately im a very easily exploitable employee (<-- chronic overachiever guy). i keep getting told by coworkers too that i just need to take the leap because even they can see im being run into the ground

[aroacettorney]

[trekkiehood]

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[isdalinarhot]

omg Oathbringer (in universe book) is basically one of those schlocky inspiration porn how-I-got-sober memoirs. He made it.

[rockafirevevo]

has anyone noticed the world is getting so much smaller lately

[sw33t-oubliette]

doing shitty again wooo yay.

[rouge-the-bat]

me: im a bi lesbian :3

exclusionists & radfems exploding into my space out of nowhere: "just call yourself sapphic oh my god" "kill yourself tra" "thats not a thing youre just bi with a preference" "get raped terf" "ew fucking bihet" "oh you poor lesbian with comphet </3" "cock sucker" "look at this fucking hetero bitch" "youre a lesbophobe, biphobe, and transphobe" "youre just a contributor to lesbians being raped"

me:

[asclexe]

what even is the house md fandom anymore. what even is anything anymore.

[kafus]

it’s good to remember that constantly suffering does not help anyone. some level of observation/witnessing and remembering the dead is human and necessary, feeling grief and choosing to act on that grief by doing what you can to protest or fight against the genocide is good, but aimless spiraling over the genocide does not bring it any closer to stopping. if you’re so in despair about it that you feel paralyzed or hopeless or cannot act on that feeling, it just is not productive, and i really do implore you to recognize your limits. do not stop speaking up and do not stop pushing for a ceasefire and for palestine to be free but do also take care of yourself if you are in a position to be able to. you are more able to be loud and productive when you have access to hope and when you are more mentally sound

this is written with the nuance and understanding that palestinians do not have the privilege of stepping away for self care while they are being actively killed, but again, people who are in a position to care for themselves who do not and then spiral out of control do not magically put palestinians into a better position by doing so