#like i just dont get where its all comming from

[loveonarooftop]

well im gonna be parasocial for a second i feel like everything taylors doing rn is a cry for help and i think at this point shes doing everything to like entice joe to do or say anything about her and the fact that he isnt is just pissing her off even more and the whole "im the happiest ive ever been" bullshit is just that bullshit, like shes parading her own life around like a freakshow which shes in the past talked about how she hates but now shes making a spectacle of probably the worst break up of her life to pretend for herself that shes good but the way some of you guys are acting about it to is crazy like im not saying that i know how it feels but critically thinking like youre with someone for 6 years talking about how theyre the love of your life bla bla and then you switch it up all off a sudden theyre the worst person to ever have lived and they keep you in prision and it was the worst time of your life? its weird at best and at worst well......

[crowrelli]

ive had a migraine for THREE days and it just keeps getting worse

[venusandlotus]

Pick a pile

What are the themes that your life will have from 5 years from now on?

Pile 1 —> 2

Pile 3 —> 4

Like and reblog if u liked my reading :)

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Pile 1

Queen of swords , knight of swords , 10 of pentacles , 8 of cups

•mental health

•financial stability

•walking away from something

According to the cards the themes may revolve around walking away from something , not necessarily a toxic situation or person but it can be also moving away from a place or maybe leaving a job , leaving university and I also see most of you having a good mental diet at that time and even if you are not having a good mental state right now but in this comming 5 years you mental health will be alot of better and you will know how to choose your words wisely and you wont let anybody take upperhand upon you easily the only advice i want to give you here is to have an honest talk with yourself when you are confused about something and put ur energy only on making yourself better bit by bit each day , the other thing i noticed is that if some of you are concerned about financial stability then it will improve too. Its more like an- upgraded life in this comming 5 years .

Pile 2

The devil , the chariot , 5 of cups , king of cups

• conflicting situation ( a situation which will need full clarity )

• loosing someone or maybe leaving somone / leaving things behind

• finding hope at the end

So for this pile I may warn you not to trust anybody or jump into any projects or deals instantly in these comming years. The devil card can represent any kind of toxicity because a lot of you will be reading this and all of yall have different lives so the toxic thing can be anything in your lives it can be a relationship, it can be a friendship, it can a place which doesnt brings you hope ( smwhere u stay ) , it can be also a business deal . For those who are into work related things please read terms - agreements , rules and regulations carefully to avoid future regrets , not saying dissapointment or loss is comming or it is going to happen for sure but just be safe and alert regarding your personal and important things , this pile is more like warning for some of you and this also goes for students for education - universities related things too coz it is possible that u might even meet toxic company there and for the remaining people i would like to advice you guys to not to give in easily on new people bcoz the cards here seems fishy I know that at the end things will work out and for majority of you even if something like this happens , at the end you will be more balanced after the so called situation but some of you can fall into bad things so take this as a sign of warning .

Pile 3

Three of cups , the hermit, the sun , page of cups

•living a balanced life

•meeting new people

•isolating when needed

For this pile most of you guys will be leading on a balanced life filled with good energy , balanced mental health. I also see most of yall being with people with whom u get along with every well , if u dont have many friends its possible that u might meet people who share same intrest/passion as you or u may find yourself in a place where there are lots of people . As there is also the hermit card here but its not alone this card appeared along with the sun card so maybe some of you may even find comfort in isolating yourself ( if u are an extrovert ) but i do sense that even if you isolate urself you will be able to create a balance between ur social life and personal life easily so it wont be a mess . When i started reading for this pile i sensed lots of happy moments and happy get togethers with loved ones so its also possible that there will be celebration or addition of new people in the family . A lot of yall have different lives so take what resonates.

Pile 4

The emperor , the lovers , four of wands , the world

•getting married / finding your soulmate

•getting your dream job / getting a job that helps u alot more than u even expected

•meeting a lot of like minded people

So for this pile all these cards really pointed out towards marriage lol i was surprised at first if some of you guys are thinking of getting married then its likely to happen , its also possible that some of you may even find your soulmate within these comming 5 years and another thing is that if some of you have unresolved family issue or problems its possible that they might get a little bit lighter in these comming 5 years and for some of you its possible that you might even get the jobs that u have always wanted but these comming 5 years will be positive and favourable for you another thing i can also interpret is that even if you are living in a bad situation right now its possible that u might leave that behind soon in these comming years and u will love your life again .

[jams-sims]

Its in the middle of the night, and I just realized the cycle nature of Anya assulate and Curlys assulate at the hands of Jimmy.

I will always stand by the fact, whether Curly fully knew what Jimmy did or not. Curly inactions while offensive on the outside, what the hell was he going to do? I'm realizing now, how REALLY short the time frame is to when shit goes down. Its a 8 month voyage the crash takes 4 months. They must have been on the ship for a month MAYBE before Jimmy pulled some fucked shit. (Hell it would be even more ironic if it turned out they were only 1 month anyway from earth.)

But there are no Coms that Curly can call. The company has a robot that can send messages. But can't receive them back and if they did I bet you would cost money for them to be able to call. Theres no call this number, in case of emergencies. Nothing. They sit in a box until they land. There's not even like a jail cell, that you could use to isolate someone. (Also I dont know where the Pony Express is going out of bussiness narrative came from. They were all fired because Pony express was the last man shipping crew, its all robots now. Pony express is the shitty corpo that just laid off their crew for Robots. Its implied by Sawnsea who mentions the state of what companys like the one they are working for are actually like.)

So Curly trying to keep the peace, trying to see both sides, not understanding, not processing it all. Makes sense. How he kneels down beside Anya and tries to tell her, he'd do anything for when the reailty of it is, he can't really do shit.

Then we flip it, Curly is bed ridden, Curly needs helps. Anya can't bare to give him medication. Jimmy does it, each time is more violent then the next. Their nothing Anya can really do, she can't call Jimmy out. She stuck just like how Curly was when all this shit happened. Curly is Jimmy prefect victim, Curly can't talk, can't move, all he can do is breath and watch.

They simultaneously both get insight on what the other had to deal with. Could you read Anya leaving Jimmy to take care of Curly as Anya getting some type of Revenge or its coated in Resentment. Yes. But you could also read it like-

"Jimmy is Curlys best friend, he would never do anything to hurt him. " I can see this being Anya thought process. An her clining to it as let Jimmy take care of Curly. Just like how Curly mind probably went, "I've know Jimmy for years he wouldn't do that..." when dealing with Anya.

Its a cycle baby! Also me putting Anya and Curly behind me. We are not gonna say either one is bad or whos REALLY at fault. the man AT FAULT is Jimmy. Jimmy for betraying a long time friendship by sexual assaulting a mutual colleague and friend. Jimmy who crashes the fucking ship. Jimmy. Its Jimmy fault and all we ever see is the reactions to Jimmys actions.

[pinkandlilacroses]

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Angel - Paige bueckers

part 1

• summary {when an unsuspecting girl falls for the basketball star}

•warnings {none (for now)}

•comment if you would like to be added to the taglist

bellas pov

“Im just saying, a rom com romance would be fantastic tight now” I state to my best friend, Avery. “i mean everyday is the same thing over and over” i continue. I can tell she doesn’t care, Avery’s been in a relationship with her high school sweetheart, Jake since freshman year.

“you need to stop being desperate” she says scooting closer to me on our couch.

this may sound rude, but thats just how Avery is, ane i guess ive gotten used to it

“nobody understands me” i say dramatically as i get up and walk towards my room.

“remember, we are going out tonight” Avery yells

fuck. i forgot.

i hate going out, theres to many people

i feel like sometimes Avery relyes on me, i mean sometimes i wanna hang out with other people, not just her. Avery on the other hand, im her only friend and i understand why, i love her but she is so mean to any and everyone that she comes across.

a few hours pass and i begin getting ready. i put on a matching pink set with a tube top and a mini skirt, i feel cute, i cant wait for this to get ruined by a bunch of drunk, sweaty college students.

i know i take a while to get ready, i mean its taken me two hours to pick my outfit and do my hair and i haven’t even started my makeup yet. my excuse is that you can never rush perfection.

“bella cmon we gotta go” Avery yells, ‘how is she ready so early’ i think to myself, finishing my coat of mascara.

“ok, ok, im ready” i say 20 minutes later. i can tell shes pissed, but it doesn’t bother me.

“your so dramatic, its a 5 minute walk” Avery says, annoyed, as always.

“i am not made for walking”

its only been 5 minutes since our arrival and i want to leave

“hey baby” a clearly drunk guy says, while he slyly brings his hand to my bare waist.

“who are you” i say, bluntly

“hey loosen up princess” he says, getting closer

i do like that nickname. but i hate him.

“im gonna go now”

i dont know if im straight, to be honest. i was raised in a household where anything but straight was a sin, so i never really questioned my interests. but whenever i see a girl who is tall and strong, my straightness goes out the window, and i feel like im sinning. ive never done anything with a girl before and im scared, i dont know if i ever would.

i walk away from the drunk man and towards the bar

“oh my god im so sorry” ‘fuck. why am i so clumsy’, i say to the girl i bumped into

“nah your all good” she says, looking down at me

i hadn’t looked at her, but now that i am. i never wanna stop. shes tall and blonde.

“hi, im paige” she says, breaking my admiration.

“im bella” i say, shamelessly checking her out

she has on grey sweatpants and a black tshirt. hot.

“do you go here” she says, continuing the conversation.

“uh, yeah, im a junior” i say, stuttering. why am i stuttering

“are you nervous?” she says, bringing her face closer to my own. yes, i am so nervous, you make me so nervous, ohmygodohmygodohmygod

“no” i say, unconvincingly.

“you sure?” she questions again. im not ok

“your on the basketball team, right?” i say, attempting to shift the conversation

she chuckles

“yeah” she states, moving back to her original position, further away from me. come back

“have you heard of me” she says, cockily

“i think everyone has here” i say, to be honest, i dont know anything about basketball. but ive heard of her before and her eyes have me trapped, there so blue and inviting.

what am i saying

“i wanna know more about you though” she whispers, moving closer than before.

“what do you wanna know” i say wrapping my arms around her neck. i dont know where all this confidence has came from

“yo paige” some girl says, she turns around and breaks the position we were in.

“iceee” she says, dapping up her teammate

im offended.

i make my way from her and towards my friend group. i want to go home

“was that you flirting with paige bueckers”

“we were just talking, shes not interested”

“girl, paige would be interested in a tree if it had a pussy, she is definitely interested” chanel says

everyone laughs. but me

im confused, why am i attracted to her, i like men, not women.

“bella cmon, lets get you home” Avery says, i mentally thank her from saving me from this conversation.

i tuck myself into bed after taking my outfit and makeup off and get ready for my favourite activity. sleep, until.

xxx-xxx-xxx

- hey is this bella?

what the fuck. do i have a stalker

bella

- yes

xxx-xxx-xxx

- hahah thank god

- this is paige

what the fuck

A/N - first fic, how do we feeeelllllllll

[hearvex]

can i ask for this Juan guy lore :v i saw his tweet when it had like 3k and thought it cant be good but i dont know anything about him. its upsetting to see 12k likes tho like why are people fighting against human fights tho

oh this is a long one, who's Juan Guarnizo, the streamer who has recently tweeted against the french union in regards of the qsmp.

juan guarnizo is a colombian streamer (who now lives in mexico with his wife). he's participated in Tortillaland, a roleplaying minecraft series, as a wizard of sorts. He then decided to create a "spin-off" series (more cinematic/pre-planned) called "El Dios de Todo" (The God of Everything, his character's catchphrase). So he partnered with Euphonia, a popular Minecraft Studio that has created games such as SquidCraft, Dedsafio, SawMinecraftGames, and more.

He announced he was looking for several roleplayers for this project, and people started complaining on twitter because some of the requirements were pretty much insane.

Some include, full availability for 6 hours a day everyday for an entire month, good quality microphone, not being able to livestream the content, just record it to be used after the proyect was released, knowing how to rhyme/rap/sing/imitate voices and animals/general voice acting talent and being able to improv. All of that for the price of 0$. The payment? The enriching experience of being part of this unpayed proyect with your favorite content creator.

Well turns out people still didn't like this idea, justifiably so, and continued to call him out on twitter. His initial response was as follows:

(Hello, I understand that you know little about the project so I'll explain it to you: The God of Everything is a series based on a story that we will tell in the most cinematic way possible, therefore it is only possible to have one pov and not 40. Participants will be able to take advantage of the series on different social media platforms but not live. How much benefit they decide to get out of it is up to each person. The 6 hours a day thing is insurance, because there will most likely be days where your participation is half an hour and that's it. Also making it clear that professionals such as voice actors who will also be in the series will be paid for their work. We are creating an experience never seen before for me, the roleplayers and the audience, whoever wants and can experience it will enjoy it very much. It is something that we are putting all our heart and desire into for those who want to see the story. Communities that are not going to see it at all, at least don't fill it with your toxicity or bad vibes.)

Basically excusing himself by "I'm doing good by allowing you to join, please don't let toxicity ruin this". Which was still off, because professional voice actors would be getting payed but somehow the rest wouldn't, weird overall. Several POVs would be recorded but only one would be able to broadcast it, Juan. "we'll pay you with exposure" ahh deal

I haven't followed him since this happened, some claim he then did pay the actors, but even if that were the case, that would've never happened if it weren't for people calling out his exploitative bs. Which is exactly what's happened with the qsmp, only this time it's not a cancellation on twitter dot com, but a whole entire french union.

What I think their fans don't understand is that this is not a mob campaign against their faves, it's about protecting the working class from the privileged who refuse to pay them correctly or sometimes never at all, granting them rights to defend themselves when cases like these arise. This goes for people who claim Juan learned from his mistake, he clearly didn't if his immediate reaction to the union was:

(It's good that they formed a union, so they all hold hands together and fuck off)

So either he's forgotten his "lesson", or he only payed them (if that even happened) because he got caught and wanted to prevent a future cancelation).

[cherryblogss]

heyyy! i dont see if you specified anywhere wether the requests are closed or not, but if theyre not... could we, pleaseeee, get a fernando x reader with established relationship, smut, where they go roughly at it for too long and she has to use her safe word... and hes all panicked and trying to figure out whats wrong with her and some fluff towards the end??? sorry if its too much :) but im excited

I usually use Google translate for this, but this time it just sounded off even for me and I don’t speak the language so I decided to leave this here in English

hello sweetie😘 im always amazed when people from other languages message me😭 like how do you guys even end up here. I feel sorry but i'll write it in portuguese💀 sorry for taking so long to answer😞

aff to rindo da safeword que eu escolhi

O prazer intenso do vai e vem dos quadris do moreno era uma linha tênue entre satisfação e ser demais para aguentar. Já era o terceiro round e sua pele se sentia quente demais, o rosto encharcado pelas lágrimas e suas costas doendo pelas posições inusitadas que Fernando te colocava. Tudo tinha começado quando em uma crise de ciúmes você acabou por falar coisas que não deveria e seu noivo ficou ainda mais enfurecido com seu escândalo. Mas com a raiva crescia também o tesão que culminou em vocês dois se fodendo no chão da sala e Fernando estapeando sua bunda enquanto te comia de quatro, te dando exatamente o que você pedia.

Entretanto, depois de 4 orgasmo seu corpo já estava quase apagando e a forma como o pau grosso dele se enterrava dentro de ti em um ritmo alucinante te fazia perder a consciência as vezes. Apesar de tentar manter a mente funcionando e focar no prazer, só conseguia pensar como os joelhos a quaquer momento cederiam e sua intimidade ardia de tantas atividades.

"Feer-" Choramingou incoerente em meio aos grunhidos e sons estalados dos seus corpos se chocando.

Fernando completamente imerso em seu próprio êxtase, interpreta seus sons como mais um orgasmo iminente até pela forma como suas paredes internas se contraiam intensamente e os líquidos da sua excitação escorria pelas suas coxas, sujando os pelos pubianos do argentino.

Os quadris aceleraram mais o ritmo, te fazendo soltar um grito esganiçado quando a ponta do membro começa a estimular seu ponto g diretamente a cada estocada.

"cowboy." tenta sussurrar mais só sai uma sentença incoerente. "Cowboy!!!!"

No momento que você fala a palavra um pouco mais alto, seu namorado já para de se movimentar, afrouxando o aperto das mãos e agora te segurando cuidadosamente para te virar de frente para ele.

Seus olhos desfocados só são capazes de ver os olhos escuros arregalados e a cabeleira negra se movimentando conforme ele procurava por qualquer machucado.

"Meu deus, princesa, o que foi? Te machuquei? Vou te levar no hospital agora mesmo." Ele questiona nervoso atropelando as palavras e com a voz tremendo em apreensão.

"Não, não. Calma, Fer, só achei que por um minuto eu ia desmaiar." Fala finalmente juntando as palavras e conseguindo recuperar o fôlego.

Fernando arqueia uma sobrancelha, levando as mãos para o seu rosto e limpando as lágrimas, maquiagem escorrida e saliva da sua pele. Imitando-o, move as mãos para a face do mais velho, acariciando a barba grande e as bochechas avermelhadas na tentativa de acalmá-lo já que parecia que a qualquer momento ele iria enfartar com a forma que o peito dele subia e descia muito rápido e os olhos estavam arregalados em desespero.

"Tem certeza que tá tudo bem?" Ele pergunta quase em um sussurro e segurando seu rosto para manterem o contato visual.

"Sim, amor, só acho que tá bom por hoje." Responde sorrindo fraco e relaxando o corpo para se apoiar nos braços fortes que te cercavam.

"Me perdoa, porfa." Ele pede depois de engolir em seco e checar que seu corpo não tinha nenhum machucado.

"Não tem nada de errado, Fer." Fala se inclinando para dar um beijo no queixo dele, em seguida se deitando no peitoral firme.

"Promete?" Ele pergunta com a voz mais autoritária começando a pentear seus cabelos bagunçados.

"Prometo."

"Agora eu vou cuidar de você, princesa, vem." Fernando fala depois de um tempo em silêncio. O moreno entrelaça os braços ao redor das suas coxas e te ergue com uma certa facilidade ao se encaminhar para o banheiro.

"Você já tava cuidando antes." Responde sorrindo maliciosa ao remexer os quadris e se aninhar no pescoço grosso do maior.

"Para com isso, sua safada." Ele responde te dando um tapinha franco na bunda quando finalmente chegam ao banheiro.

Ele te deixa sentadinha na beirada da banheira enquanto abre o registro e mede temperatura para deixar do jeito que você gosta, até colocando as espumas que memorizou serem suas favoritas.

Quando satisfeito, ele volta a te carregar e te coloca na água morna, depois te acompanhando e sentando atrás de você. Ele começa massageando seus ombros, te fazendo suspirar e fechar os olhos relaxada quando o alívio instantâneo tomou conta dos seus músculos. Em seguida, move os dedos largos para pentear seus cabelos e massagear seu couro cabeludo com o shampoo. Ele era tão cuidadoso que seu estômago se contorcia com as borboletas de ter dado sorte em encontrar alguém tão apaixonante como Fernando.

A situação te dando uma sensação nostálgica de quando o viu pela primeira vez. Tão sério e intimidador, mas nas primeiras palavras que trocaram você já estava caidinha pelo jeito encantador do moreno.

"Que foi, linda?" Fernando pergunta quando escuta uma risada baixinha vinda de você.

"Lembra do dia que a gente se conheceu?"

"Claro que lembro." Ele responde indignado que você talvez pensasse que um dia ele seria capaz de esquecer a primeira vez que te viu.

"Eu acho muito engraçada nossa safeword, porque só me lembro como você ficou emburrado com aquela roupa de cowboy combinando com o Kuku." Fala entre gargalhadas e se deitando sobre o corpo do argentino, mas com a cabeça erguida para encarar a feição envergonhada do seu noivo.

Fernando não consegue se conter, se unindo as suas gargalhadas com uma risada rouca ao recordar como Esteban insistiu que eles fossem combinando fantasiados de algum jogo de faroeste para uma festa de halloween e acabou te conhecendo quando você estava vestida como o par romântico do personagem dele.

"Ele me faz passar por cada coisa... mas nunca vou reclamar, porque senão não teria te conhecido, amor." Fernando fala com as íris castanhas brilhando em paixão e se inclinando para dar um selinho demorado nos seus lábios sorridentes.

Sério galera, se alguem não parar quando vc disser não ou estiver indisposta call the police e corra pelo amor

[asteroidzzzn]

more than just a dream - spark, 004

pairing: college!ellie x reader

synopsis: you transfer to a new school where you only know one person; your childhood best friend. he invited you to a beginning of the year party to meet some new people, but one person, in particular, catches your eye... his other best friend.

a/n: dina bonding time!

genre: social media au, fluff

series masterlist -- previous chapter -- next chapter

bria 🧚

hey!

dina 💋

hi whats up? :)

bria 🧚

im bored and everyone else went out but i dont feel like drinking rn..

can i come over?

i know the two of us arent super close but this could be our chance to bond outside the group 🤞🤞

dina 💋

omg ofc!! i was feeling the same i just wanted to chill and stay in today 😭 but ya come over whenever

bria 🧚 ❤️ a message

we can watch mission impossible if ur into that!

only if u bring snacks...

bria 🧚

U HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH IVE BEEN WANTING TO SEE THATTTT OK im omw now ill put the best i have in a bag 🙏 cya!!

dina 💋 ❤️ a message

bria 🧚

hey dina, sorry i had to leave right away

i have to study for the first unit test later today

wish i didn't, this is so boring

how are u?

dina 💋

im fine

good

im good im great actually

but i really think we should talk about it

what happened last night

bria 🧚

later, ok?

sorry

i need to go right now stepping into class

dina 💋

oh ok, bye :)

dina woodward

hi y/n im literally going insane r u free to talk

y/n

omfg 😭 whats going on

dina woodward

you'll never believe what happened last night

y/n

ughhh i wish i was there! sorry i wanted to stay in to get some sleep, i have a test next period

dina woodward

oh no worries i actually stayed in too so this isnt ab the outing

do u know who bria volentas is?

y/n

yeah i do!

shes really nice ill sit next to her in history in a few minutes actually

dina woodward

oh 😭😭😭 i wanted to talk to u ab this bc i thought u were the only one in the group that didnt really know her

can u keep a secret? just need to get this off my chest

y/n

u can trust me :)

dina woodward

sooo... ive had a crush on her since the dawn of time

y/n !! a message

and we hung out last night alone!!

y/n

!!AWEEE yall will be so cute together i can see it now

dina woodward ❤️ a message

also im so glad u said that bc i wasnt ab to be the one to com eout first 😭😭

dina woodward !! a message

dina woodward

YOUW AHT?!?!?!?!?!?

i didnt wanna assume but i secretly knew.........

y/n haha a message

y/n

🤝🤝🤝

OKOK GET ON W UR STORY

dina woodward

we were watching mission impossible bc ellie ditched me (i wont forget) and she goes 'im cold' so bc shes the actual loml i let her under my blanket

y/n

awwww

dina woodward

then our feet kinda touched then our hands kinda touched and we were getting rlly close... then we fucked

y/n

AHH????

that went from 0 to 100 sO FAST

dina woodward

I KNOW LIKE IMS TILL SO IN SHOCK RN

y/n

SO YGS ARENT TOGETHER YET THO?? HAVE U TALKED AB IT ALL??? FYB? ONE TIME THING?

dina woodward

IDKK I HAVE NO IDEA

this is the average wlw experience i say while dry heaving and crawling onto the roof and howling

y/n ❤️ a message

y/n

LMFAOOO it literally is tho we have it so difficult

dina woodward

HELPPP ME AND BRIA ARE IN CHAT RN BUT WE'RE NOT SAYING ANYTHING

SPEAK UP WOMANNN FOR THE LOVE OF GOD

i said i wanted to talk ab last night and she was so avoidant so she BETTER say something rn

y/n

yall rn

lurking in chat.....

dina woodward

😭😭😭

i need to be distracted rn

eye starts twitching

tell me smth thats going on w u

y/n

ok u trusted me w ur crush so i can trust u w mine right..

dina woodward

ofc ofc

y/n

so u know her actually like really well from what i know

BLEEEH I HATE TELLING PPL I LIKE THEIR FRIENDS

is ellie williams gay..

dina woodward

take a look at her what do u think

yes she is gay! AND U LEIWFAGJEDFANJ YOU LIKE HER??

y/n ❤️ a message

y/n

angels harmonize and descend from heaven

BLESSS 🙏🙏

yes i like her... i think. its been hard to like anyone since my last relationship but im feeling rlly hopeful about us

im heavily delusional tho she was prob just being friendly when we hung out

dina woodward

she recently broke up w her ex too, and shes been kinda staying away from relationships :(

ur amazing tho youd be so good for her

if she acts like a bitch to u ONCE run

y/n

damn jesse warned me ab her too 😭 what happened with her and her ex? if u know or if ur ok with telling me

i know its not really my business

i just wanna know what lines i cant cross

dina woodward ❤️ a message

dina woodward

yeah i totally get it

i actually dont know all the details

i think she only told jesse bc theyre way closer than me and her

if u want to know everything, id ask him or get it from ellie herself

just get closer with her and she'll tell u everything, and u can decide what to do from there

y/n

ok , thats a good idea

ill just use my amazing charm and incredible beauty to captivate her in chemistry

dina woodward ❤️ a message

dina woodward

HEHEHEHE

speaking of,, she sucks at chemistry. u could get closer to her by tutoring her if youd be up for that?? shed appreciate it sooo much

y/n

#1 wingman award is presented toooooo dina woodward!

dina woodward ❤️ a message

ill def talk to her ab that ill be like heyyy u need help 💋

shit gtg now, test time!

dina woodward

good luck!! with the test and ellie🙏

y/n ❤️ a message

a/n: a lot longer than the last chapter!! but i had a lot to say in this one :D love in the future for my girl dina!!! love to see it

hope u enjoyed as always (✿◠‿◠)

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[candy8448]

Nearing the end of the dungeon meshi manga!

(Previous post)

I really like how chilchuck has a crisis and then starts to take charge lol. I love him. Dadchuck really shining through

Dadchuck! Dadchuck! Dadchuck!

Also i love the little tidbit about the cultural differences with even what to do with a babytooth. The tiny details are so cool

I like how the really powerful monster marcille makes is the EXACT SAME as the familiar she made to rescue senshi from the griffin. Same amount of wings and everything, i like that

I really dont like the labru ship but i can deffo see where people are comming from. The energy in this page is just overflowing

Also i really like the composition of the pannel with laios and kensuke being completely black. Shows the manipulation and evilness of the winged lion, its cool

I mentioned in this post how that when i saw it, i thought that it was chilchuck and his wife and what i thought about that. People however said it wasnt him due to the size of his ears and such (see the post for details on both parts) so idk, what do u think.

Oh no the hourglass eyes D:

Also the next pannel after that looks really cool, i love it

XD chilchuck knowing exactly what to get marcille to listen while everyone else's doesnt work as well, lol

These pages are amazing. Chilchuck's and izutsumi's expressions are everything. I love all of them so so much ^v^

Dang, her and laios both being like "i think the demon's powers are evil" "i think that being the dugeon lord is bad" XDXDXD

JAJSGDSJAHSB I FORGOT BUT I JUST REMEMBERED THAT "eating is a privilege of the living" :000!!

Falin's so me core...

The canaries applying sunscreen to mithrun otherwise he would forget and shiro picking up shells for falin are so cute!

I find it so funny how laios and crew just gets eaten lol

We are getting near the end and its crazy, i really dont want it to be over :( (but im deffo glad that kui decided to end it at a good point rather than drawing it out for too long. I despise series that draw it out for even a tiny bit too long)

(Couldn't marcille have asked the winged lion to change falin back to how she was before? Instead of just freezing her?)

Actually no, cuz if they tried to get her out of the dungeon the effect would dissapear and she would turn back to a chimera but outside and thats not good seeing how easily she murdered shiro's and the other parties

And to think that from neat the start, if they revived Falin with the black magic and then very soon after asked falin to teleport them back to the surface, then none of this would have happened lol, though i guess like laios said to marcille, without all of this they wouldn't have had all this fun and tried all that food and grown close together. I guess the real meshi was the friends we made along the way.

(Next post)

[sturniolo-mairead]

"Slut!"

LetsTripTour!MattSturniolo x Popstar!Reader

a/n: in this fic i dont use y/n, i may in some future fics if i cant come up with a name 😭🙏🏻 Hope you guys enjoy, its my first fic!

in which Matt Sturniolo announces his girlfriend of 6 months. Presley Evans, global popstar! Nick and Chris are shocked because they didnt even know. Shes on tour down the road from the triplets' tour. he has the camera footage that would be on the big screen of her stage. They decide to watch her tour on their screen and they figure out she wrote quite a few songs about him! they soon meet up at matts hotel room later on.

warnings: use of the word slut, like a lot 😭🙏🏻

Matts pov:

"Next question, 'does anyone have girlfriends or in nicks case a boyfriend' Well i'm very much single" my brother said. Shit. I've had a secret girlfriend for 6 months now. We have talked about going public. She said shes okay with it. It's just difficult because shes a global superstar! It's been stressing me out. I think i'm just gonna say it. I'll tell everyone here.

Presley pov:

Im about to go on stage. I talked to matt last night about going public with our relationship. It's kind of getting exhausting having to sneak around. I've been a target for slut shaming because of how many guys ive dated, but i got into the industry when i was 15! It's not my fault. My managers say it's good for 'traction' or whatever. I sent matt the camera footage that would be on the big screen of the stage. Im performing in a stadium tonight, it's my all stadium tour. I just hope he tells his crowd, thats coincidentally, down the road from the stadium. He could connect his phone to the screen behind him and his brothers and show them my show, but i don't know if he will. I understand his anxiety thats going to come with going public, especially him now going to have paparazzi following him and his brothers everywhere, and me. He's gonna be more worried about me than he's ever been before because of his female fan base, they'll send me death threats and hate, more than i normally get. It's not like I'm not used to it though. I just hope he does whats right for himself and how he's feeling. I don't want him to feel pressured to tell everyone because I am ready to.

Matts pov:

"Nah i'm still single, sadly." chris said. I stayed silent. I could just spit it out. "Matt? we all know your single" chris teased. "actually.. I do have a girlfriend." i spat out. "WHAT?" nick said, he was as shocked as he should be. "yeah, we've been talking and we think we want to go public. She is a celebrity," i went on, "her name is Presley, Presley Evans." The crowd went wild. "SO ALL THOSE TIMES IVE SCREAMED HER SONGS IN THE CAR YOU DIDNT THINK TO TELL ME YOU WERE DATING HER?!" I laughed, "i guess not, I have camera footage thats om the big screen of her tour thats going on right now, i could put it on?" i suggested.

Presley pov:

"Presley! Time to go in 5!" one of my managers told me. "Okay! coming!" i say, Matt told me he'd text me if he told everyone, and he hasnt texted me. Im starting to lose hope when, Ding! i rush to check my phone. Twitter. Not matt.

'Matt Sturniolo comes out saying hes dating global superstar Presley Evans!'

holy shit. he did it. I laugh and squeal as i jump in my bedazzled heel boots. "Presley? what happened? are you okay?" my manager asks. "HE DID IT!! HE TOLD EVERYONE!!" i scream and jump around and laugh. "Presley, are you serious?!" my manager says, she seems angry? "whats wrong?" "Presley! this could be so bad! you'll become a lightning rod for slut shaming!! His fan base is mostly girls, they'll be angry! You could be in danger! You didn't even ask me if it's a good idea!" My manager yelled. I hate to say it, she was right. I probably should've informed her i would do this. But she is not allowed to shit on my relationship. I wanted it to go public. "Listen, Trina. This is my relationship. I know where you're coming from, a place of worry. But i know i've been through worse. You were with me since i was 15, you know how strong i am. I appreciate the worry, but let me do my thing. Ive been hiding my relationship for 6 months. Putting Matt in the shadows. Im done doing that. I love him. Thats never going to change. Let me do things- no. Let me and Matt do things our way. Now i have to get to the stage. Thanks for the input." I finished. I walked away, I had on my white bedazzled heel-boots with my skirt that was tied on one side up, showing my whole thigh. the rest barley covered anything which was good because i had on a white bodysuit under. I had on a corset top. It was all white, the whole outfit. I looked amazing, i checked myself out as i walked past a mirror. I heard music start up, somebody came and handed me my mic as i walked toward the piece of my stage that moved up and down. I stood in the center preparing to go on.

Matt pov

I put on her show on the screen. I hear music start. Just in time. Everyone's eyes are glued to the screen. I look around, nobody recognized the opening notes.? I didn't either. As far as i know, theres no songs about me. As far as i know.

"Flamingo pink"

I really don't recognize this song, i feel terrible that i don't.

"sunrise boulevard, clink clink. being this young is art."

"who do you guys think this song is about?" nick asked. I know of all her exes. They all treated her like shit. I am determined to be different. I think this is a love song? she has some love songs, then breakup songs after because they put her through hell. I'd never do that, I will never.

"Being this young is art Aquamarine Moonlit swimming pool"

This could be anything, we're both still very young. Shes 20, Im 19. I turn 20 soon.

"What if all I need is you?"

So it is a love song.. i wonder which ex it's about? Maybe Johnny Orlando? (no hate to Johnny Orlando fans just needed an ex lmfao 😭) We all just stand and admire her. She looks gorgeous. Fucking beautiful, How do you fumble her? Shes like a goddess. "Maybe this songs about you lover boy" Chris says, jesus christ i hate that fucking nickname. "shut the fuck up chris! And i don't know, i don't know if she has songs about me" I say, I wish she had written a song about me.

"Everyone wants him,That was my crime The wrong place at the right time. And I break down, then he's pullin' me in. In a world of boys, he's a gentleman"

she always refers to me as a gentleman, she always says everyone wants me too.. "HOLY SHIT!" I scream, i didn't mean to, i just did. "What?!" nick said, "THIS SONGS ABOUT ME!!" "BITCH WHAT?!" "oh my god" i say.

Presley pov

I open with "slut!", a song about matt. I never tell him any songs a write about him because, well, theres a lot. I don't wanna seem creepy, but constantly writing songs about one person could be taken that way. I hope he catches on though. I always say everyone wants him and I always call him a gentleman. "And if they call me a slut. You know it might be worth it for once. And if I'm gonna be drunk. Might as well be drunk in love" I finish the song. I don't know what matts thinking, i don't even know if he was watching, i put on my best show nonetheless, just in case he was. I didn't want to disappoint him. Should i tell the crowd the songs about him? Maybe i will. "Hello! and welcome to the "Slut!" tour!"

A/N

cliffhanger! Okay so i've had this idea for a long while now i've just never gone through with writing it but i finally have! This gonna be a series and it's gonna be like every song she performs is a different chapter! This chapter is "Slut!" and thats also the name of the album! I've taken songs that already exist and made a whole new playlist/album type thing! Each song will be a surprise as the next chapter title! In total im thinking 19 parts as there are 18 tracks and then 1 extra chapter for after the tour when taylor and matt meet up 😉 I'll also be working on making my masterlist so you guys can easily access this series! See you next time 💕

[bulbabutt]

just wanna get some thoughts out about april o'neil (mainly to hype up why i enjoy her in 87) so this is an analysis of writing her in each generation of shows.

1987 april o'neil is a character who i think has more agency than most of her counterparts, and i think it lies in the choice to make her a reporter.

i can understand where the negative sentiment about changing her career from scientist comes from, but hear me out. if we understand that the turtles as characters just kind of fall into plots, whether they have a history with it or not, it lets us understand that april is here because she's a key in the story.

so originally her story is that shes the assistant of baxter stockman, and he sets a trap to kill her, leaving her to be killed by mousers and saved by the turtles, but after that her life outside of anything turtle related is kind of... non existent. dont get me wrong, being an adult woman who takes in a bunch of teenage turtles makes her anything but boring, but in that concept (and other adaptations since then) we dont get a feel for what she could be doing if she wasnt around the turtles.

in 87 april her job as a reporter is central to the premise. she is the human they hang out with, and she has a day job, so her life becomes the turtles lives. the other humans in her life become the other humans in the turtles lives.

we have her boss Burn Thompson, who’s your typical J Jonah Jameson ‘get me a story on those mutant menace turtles’, giving her that classic Peter Parker role. he often tries to get her to do more feminine stories, which she always has to fight back against.

we also get her rival reporter and occasional camera man Vernon Fenwick, always trying to prove he’s better than her at their job, always trying to steal whatever story she’s on, always failing and proving that he is not as capable or brave as she is.

and we get the secretary and her best friend Irma, who contrasts to her character very well by being the more dorky and lovesick comedic counterpart to her assertive independent serious character. you fully believe these two women are friends in that workplace way, its very real.

certain aspects of these news room dynamics are great, like how despite all the turtle coms looking like radios, we give april one that looks like a compact mirror. why? because if she hears news of something the turtles should check out, when she calls them she gets to just look like shes checking her makeup. she gets to use the workplace sexism to her advantage.

another aspect is, why do the turtles have to save april? is it cuz people always kidnap her? no, its because she gets herself into trouble. shes always looking for a big story, shes not afraid of the bad guys. she goes looking for danger because shes a very capable person, and her becoming the big sister to the turtles, or maybe cool single aunt, feels very natural.

i love her, i love that she's kind of a loser with only work friends, that she doesnt date much cuz shes kind of a weirdo, i love that if she's not with the turtles we can imagine what she's up to. she feels very real, and she's not a character who could be replaced by an object, her life is central to that show. and i love that they dont need to make her a fighter or anything to do that, and its surprising coming from the oldest show.

so to go into the next two cartoons and this is not to dig on 03 or 12 as characters, but in both cases the writers dont really give us much perspective on what her life is or was outside of the guys.

in 03s case, shes that same comic april i mentioned earlier. but we know a lot more about casey in this show than we do her. we know she has the antique shop, and thats where she is, but who does she talk to? does she have friends? she has casey, but she knows him because the turtles know him.

in back story, we can assume her parents died, and we know her uncle went missing, and that the episode they found him we see she has a sister who's never come up before. but neither of those characters show up again after that. not even at her wedding. we see everyone in the turtles lives, we see everyone in casey's life (even his shitty cousin) but aprils family isnt there. so who is she she if she isnt around the guys? i guess she sells antiques. but does she have a life outside of that building? we also know she's a scientist, shes as smart as donnie, but where does she use that skill with computers outside of helping the turtles?

like shes still that same loser adult woman hanging out with turtles, this time shes taken up ninja training from splinter, and we know in the future shes going to found a tech company, but that feels more like flowery language about her, as opposed to getting to see her be someone interesting on her own.

and then in 12s case she's the only april i know who fails the sexy lamp test upon debut. shes kidnapped and the only reason the turtles go rescue her is because donnie thinks shes pretty. sure, we could say its because shes a person in need, but we all know that upon introduction she is love interest first, character second (as are.... most all of the women in that show). from that point, we know she has her dad, and unlike in the previous versions (including comics and movies) its april who has to stay with the turtles for a while, not the other way around. which on its own would be fine, but shes always sort of there. whats she up to? does she have her own interests? like in 03 when shes staying with the turtles for a bit after her shop blows up, we see she's butting heads with them a bit. same as when they stayed with her. but here she kind of just takes on whatever the turtles do, whatever they watch or are interested in. they also make her special. shes here because shes different. thats not bad on its own, but it means that she very much could be anyone, shes here not by her own choices leading her here, but because the plot is thrust upon her, not the turtles, as it has been in all other iterations.

this kind of comes to a head with the introduction of casey and irma into that show. on the surface you'd think, well there we go, she has human friends, those are hers and not the turtles friends, but they never properly introduce her or us to irma. they show irma calling her in one episode (and shes labeled 'weird-girl', so whats the story there?) and then when we meet her properly its so she can be a third body in the introduction of casey jones. the running gag of this is basically whenever april isnt around the turtles now, she's with casey and sometimes casey and irma, but we never understand why. and then youd think, well thats cool if april is who becomes friends with casey, and then casey is in the turtles lives because of her, but he actually just ends up following raphael home. they do make a point of making it so he's accepted because she's there, but he's never implied to be her friend more than the turtles'.

she invites irma along to a date with casey, neither irma or casey understanding why. is it because she doesnt want to date casey? maybe. but the writers never make her intentions clear to the audience, we're left speculating. irma comes up a few times more, always in more or less the same context, and often asking who are the mysterious friends you have besides me. i truly wish we could have seen any moments of why these two are friends, how these two are friends, what they do when april isnt with the turtles, before they pull the rug out from under us and show that irma? yeah she was actually a krang all along. and she was only here to get to the turtles. and it never seems to bother april much, besides the one outburst when it happens. to me it feels like she should at least... grieve this friend? that would be traumatizing. your only friend in your own world was never real.

i like that the farm house gets to belong to april again, as opposed to being casey's family farm, so that gives her something. but then we understand why when we're introduced to her mom. we think. a real kicker here is uh. we dont even know her moms name? she's just..... mrs o'neil. because she didnt really matter, she wasnt real. like her dad got a name (because reference), why cant her mom even have a name? a thing that bothers me here is, ok we know her dad kept getting kidnapped, or mutated, or became so traumatized that he never left the house, but we never even get that kind of basic family aspect to the first teenage april. the turtles, for better or worse, are her family in this show. thats her real support system. and its frustrating because two of the characters here just oggle her. whether its an episode where april could have a crush on donnie or casey back or not, the fact she's got no support or someone to talk to about it from someone outside of those characters brothers really sucks for her agency in this story. we never get to grasp how she feels about any of it. which is why i think those romances give people the ick, theyre things that could work if the show ever cared to tell us how april feels.

and then by the end she gets to be a kunoichi with telekinesis, a thing she got into because of the turtles, and a thing she just got to be because genetically shes special. i wish this april got to be a character who had things of her own that she could choose to be. like, she still lives above that same antique store from 03, maybe she could have had a family history there like 03, but even something simple as that is just an in name only reference. theres no part of her that feels like she chose to be it, or that there's anything about her life that isn't directly related to the turtles.

now we get to rise. and honstly, rise april is a breath of fresh air. she is a teen like the previous april, but shes also just as willing to get herself into danger by her own choices as 87. shes a fighter like 03 and 12, and unlike every other version, shes just here. we dont need to know how she got here, she's part of this family and you believe it.

we have our big sister april who's not only a loser who hangs out with turtles, but she's a complete weird magnet. she's overly excitable, very willing to get into fights, who has a strong sense of justice and getting into trouble to fix it. this series is more episodic like 87, so to just get the jist, episode one. april needs rescuing because why? she threw herself into a mystic portal to save a random creature. thats what sets the turtles off on their mystic adventure in the first place. because she put herself in harms way. and when they go to rescue her, shes actually fine. she finds them a place to get new weapons, she's the first one to run in and try to attack the villain. none of the guys ever coddle her or say "oh there goes april we have to rescue her", this time we have an april who is a fully capable fighter from the get go.

we see her school life, she doesnt have any friends besides a random guy who has a crush on her, and shes desperate to fit in. then we get sunita. we see exactly why these two are friends. it starts with april thinking shes found a normal kid at school, trying to prove to the guys she can be a normal teenager who doesnt need their weirdness, but as it turns out sunita is a yokai. shes from that same mystic world, but she didnt come into april's life because of the turtles, she came into her life because they like each other. they're just two weird girls who hang out, they like laser tag and rock shows, and we fully believe they are friends.

another aspect to her is her jobs, she's like jonesy from 6teen. she gets new jobs basically weekly, sometimes hijinks ensue, leading the turtles to an event unfolding around her, and keeps getting into trouble and getting fired, but this leaves her with a plethora of skills (and keys to random buildings or machinery good for you for not giving those back, respect).

then we also get to see an entire episode where the turtles dont appear, because its about her. we see her passion for helping the world, we see her disbelief in herself, and her ability to pick herself up. theres a moment where you think splinter is going to need to give her a pep talk, but she ignores him. she's got herself. she doesn't need to rely on the guys or splinter for her confidence, shes capable on her own.

then i think my favorite aspect here is about the finale, where we get this touching moment between her and karai where she doubts her place in the family, lamenting that she's not one of them. and its not one of the guys who tells her she is, it's karai. its another woman in this story. its the woman who's history this story has been leading up to, affirming april's part in her story. in their families story. and she gifts april her spirit. which leads her to go finding ,and in a way rescuing them, from their despair.

this april is a fully realized character, with a real place in the story. you never doubt it, but even if she wasn't you know exactly who she'd be without them. she's her own fully rounded character, and i love her so much. theres a reason people say she's definitively the best april, i wish we got to see more of her, i know we were supposed to get more, just like with everything from rise. but im glad she got to shine here.

so this is kind of why in terms of writing april, i think its interesting that the most agency we get for her, in my perspective, comes from the newest and oldest show.

basically to summarize and reiterate, all april's are good april's, some writers just care more to show us who she is than others.

also I’m ONLY talking about April’s writing here, not the rest of the show

[compassionatereminders]

I'd say to just reblog the ones with the vetting in their ask sent or pinned post as you see them, or perhaps dedicate a few min at a specific moment in the day/week/etc for going through the ones in your inbox/saved from your dash (via drafting maybe?) with said vetting.

generally you dont need to do the vetting yourself as many of the people doing outreach asks will include their vetting sources with a link to show its real, and the majority of them are very legit vetting processes. there is undoubtedly also a list out there of the legit vetting orgs and individuals to verify the vetting source linked in the ask/post is legitimate

otherwise if you cannot do that, with each individual donation post, a compromise can be to add the links to the official google docs etc in a pinned or regularly queued post where vetted fundraisers continually get added to, including ones of congo sudan etc

↳ this post would be an option for that; (insert tumblr period com part here since if i do my ask doesnt deliver)/soft-zawa-png/753900486558695424/fundraisers-gazasudancongo-more-google

and perhaps since people will undoubtedly complain at you like crazy about how it i'd say to do it with another one of your personalised post distinguishing tags (like your getting personal/asks/serious etc ones) that doesn't as clearly end up filtered out automatically (as many people prefer to not have it tagged as just donation/boost etc for various reasons w the filtering and spam stuff of the site)

sidenote; i also dont doubt you'll get a crazy amt of zionists and racist people using the "everyone is a scammer dont risk it" interactions abt this discussion so do make sure to keep in mind that yknow, lotta racism and zionism abt it all n to not believe the UMMM ITS ALL SPAM!!!!! things nor give them the time of day with spewing bigoted ideology etc

I absolutely get that "doing some work to check which campaigns are real/properly vetted" would be the ideal approach here. But I am not exaggerating or just being stubborn when I say I can't do that work, and that this lack of skill also includes figuring out who to trust to do accurate vetting. I am not capable of doing any kind of work and research associated with prioritizing between campaigns and checking for proper vetting. I am not saying this means that I shouldn't share any campaigns ever, but please stop suggesting "checking if a campaign is verified/checking people's vetting sources" as the solution here. I can't do that. I already said I can't do that work. And that includes doing it sometimes/once a day and checking people's sources to see if other people are actually doing their vetting correctly. When I ask "what should I do if I can't do any of the research work associated with vetting campaigns" telling me to "just do some of it sometimes" misses the point quite a bit.

[sollucets]

tag game for @khaopybara !! thank you for thinking of me i needed the boost 💜

1. why did you choose your url?

my url is from ‘sol lucet omnibus’, a latin phrase that means the sun shines for everyone. a lot of my urls & usernames and whatnot are sun themed, so this is just another in a long line. for a while it was ‘solclaw’ while i was in a werewolf phase. but i dont plan to change it again

2. any sideblogs? name them and why you have them

ahhh…. the secret come out. i guess? i have two sideblogs. @jinjjayo is my kpop sideblog, which i have not advertised having so far but does exist. i also have @solref, which is just where i collect tutorials & other reference stuff.

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

not consecutively, i took breaks, but my first blog was made in 2011. :0 i’ve had three main blogs over the years.

4. do you have a queue tag?

i do! i don’t use it often but i tag things that are queued with ‘ghost post (queued)’

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

the original one, i made because my cousin recommended it to me. we shall not speak of its url. this current one was made when i started seriously writing again (thank u rasmr <3)

6. why did you choose your icon?

i love ayluna. my babygirls. that’s all there is to it lol. im also quite fond of the lil stars i edited in

7. why did you choose your header?

i did a lot of work to edit the scene’s colors for my lfls episode series, so i wanted to keep that and use it for one more gif haha. also i love them terribly

8. what’s your post with the most notes?

it is currently this set of the 3wbf trio doing their puzzle piece hugs, at just over 1000 notes. 🥺 im happy they deserve it

9. how many mutuals do you have?

73! i know this because (and i am aware this is embarrassing) i keep a notes document of my mutuals with names & tracktags, so i counted manually. that is,,, thats a lot of you. i love you all very much 🥹🥹🥹

10. how many followers do you have?

i have just over 900 followers. ._. wild

11. how many people do you follow?

i follow 155 blogs. i try to keep the number down but there are simply so many beloveds.

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

sure lol. ive done textpost edits, and that disney only friends thing, and etc.

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

i check at least once a day. usually more though

14. have you had a fight/argument with another blog?

noooo. i never have. i always just blocked people or we drifted apart. i love to block though

15. how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts?

i think it’s counterintuitive. people don’t like being ordered around, so a lot of folks will instinctively scroll. then the ones you do get are often because of anxiety, so it feels cruel. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ just ask normally / say please reblog this

16. do you like tag games?

why ask this at #16 of a tag game lmao. yes of course. doesnt everyone love to overshare

17. do you like ask games?

yes very much. it always makes it feel more lively. i try to play when i have the time :>

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

ouuhh, mona @thitiponqs probably, hehe. all member of usergif and gay dot tumblr dot com and everything else. everyone should know mona u.u everyone is famous in my heart though.

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

no! >< it isn’t personal. i don’t have crushes very often. certainly you are all very lovely and cool, and i’ve had mutuals follow me who i had to go scream into a pillow about after for sure, but. it is all quite platonic im afraid 2 say. would still be happy to make out though

20. tags?

i will try! i choose u @markpakin & @lamonnaie ✨

[quillkiller]

whats ur opinion on jegulus?

for me i dont really fw it. I think it’s mostly bc i don’t like james that much and putting him w/ regulus i feel kinda takes away from both their characters. For reg I feel like the ship kinda softens his character and takes away his agency. ‘he was just a wittle baby whos mummy an daddy forced him to join a hate group 🥺’ which is very far off from how I view him. It gives james a savior sort of role. And that’s not to say i haven’t read some good jegulus fics and enjoyed them I think they jsut need to be modern day bc the whole ‘james saves regulus from the horrible fate of the desth eaters that his parents forced him into!’ Annoys me.

(ps im sorry if you really like jegulus i promise this wasn’t meant to be hate or anything)

agree with all this!!!!! 🤍

i don’t really like jegulus all that much and i have been known to mention it once or twice here on quillkiller dot tumblr dot com. honestly, for me, it’s probably just that im too much of a sirius guy and and i think both sirius and regulus deserve better than to have james juggle between both of them. james and sirius are too important to me and i dont like what happens in their dynamic if reg was added into it. in my world james is always and forever going to choose sirius if it ever came down to that and regulus deserves better !! + and ive talked a lot about this before too, im not a fan of regulus becoming part of the marauders friend group!! i think he’s a way more interesting character to delve into when he has his own life outside of sirius and his own friend group (the skittles <- which i also dont like interacting too much with the marauders). in addition to the james and sirius friendship being important to me, so is regulus and sirius’ relationship, and i don’t like what happens to their dynamic either if reg is paired with james. the whole thing just stresses me out and i can almost never enjoy it. ’best friends brother’ trope is weird and strange to me, probably because im an oldest sister myself, and i don’t see the appeal which is why i have a running theory that people who like that trope are younger siblings themselves or like….. only children ….

anyway, i don’t hate jegulus!! i just think they’re the least interesting james and regulus pairing !! i follow some jegulus blogs that have captivated me body and soul. they’re just not interesting enougj to me to like. explore further myself. i dont go looking for fics about them + i have the jegulus tag blocked and only unblock/click to see the post when its my favorite jeggy mutuals/blogs ive followed specifically because i like their jegulus… so like, im not necessarily immune to jegulus but it also takes a lot to get me interested ! ive read a few jegulus fics and ive fallen in love with some of them and there’s one (1) that i would put in my top 10 favorite fics i think !

however!! my favorite jegulus is unrequited jegulus where regulus us in love with james. to me, their dynamic is the most compelling to me in a canon compliant setting !! ive read a bunch of modern aus too that ive enjoyed, but i like the angst of jegulus the most.. the angst and unrequited vibe of it all is so hot and sexy to me.. like the jealousy and resentment regulus feels for james because he took sirius in and becomes his new and better brother. and that resentment mixed together with confused desire during your puberty years when everything is angsty and confusing and you’re heartbroken and grieving ? you’re the absolute polar opposite to your brothers favorite person and you’re supposed to hate him but his smile looks like summer and his mere presence is always suffocatingly warm and you get it. you’re not surprised your brother chose him over you and you think that if james potter cornered you somewhere and kissed you and said ’sirius doesnt have to know’ you think you would probably let him because who wouldnt. james can have whatever he wants, he proved that by taking sirius (like that IS a big deal. sirius was heir to the noble house of black !!!!!!!) and what else is there to do but grieve your brother and hate wank over his best friend, who only knows you exist because you’re sirius’ brother, he chose over you

[estrophore]

Signalis Post (barely coherent thought vomit)

So I finished signalis on Monday and i think ive just about recovered enough for me to make a gush post about it on tumblr dot com, which i think i have to do cause i dont think any other game has really hit me as hard as this one. Spoilers obvs.

Being pre-transion, with that associated depression and closing off from oneself, ive always found it difficult to get out my feelings, even in private with just myself, and yet signalis has filled me throughout with its beautiful romantic melancholy and left me genuinely sobbing for the gay robot and her space girlfriend (almost worried that if id played this game on estrogen it might actually have just killed me on the spot). the only other times i can think of where i really cried were playing We Know The Devil near the beginning of the year, which really fkin hit the part of me that struggles to accept myself, and that time i rewatched the last episode of she-ra after reading the ‘Word War Etheria’ fanfic, which brings the characters so much more to life i fell for them all over again.

Signalis is a game that calls back to a lot of classic horror like resident evil and silent hill, which i havent got round to playing any of yet, but i think nostalgia works both ways sometimes and i’ll be playing them sooner now. sometimes horror gets stereotyped as all death and violence, some games fill themselves with skulls and corpses, and big ugly monsters and basically shout ‘DEATH!’ in your face repeatedly and it all just comes off as a bit garish and ridiculous and not actually very scary really. Signalis sits at the other end of that scale (with some of my other fav horror games like soma, cry of fear) where its environs are most usually just… quiet. Still. Muffled. Sad. just as often as theres tension or creeping fear because of this i find theres a strange kind of comfort too. Maybe its just that in most other genres of games theres so much of music, UI elements, pickups and interactibles with vibrant design. Here, theres room for your mind to just occupy the space. A soft fog. A dimly lit room. An empty train. Snow out a window. Liminal spaces that dont expect anything from you.

Signalis is a game thats just simply, unapologetically gay, and i dont think i would have been quite so invested in Elster and Ariane’s relationship if they were a straight couple. Its why representation is important, if art’s way for us to explore our emotions then its important to have media that we can relate to. Even Adler’s role isnt typically masculine. Our replika characters are manufactured, designed for certain roles in the base. Notes from the tough Stars and Storchs in the shooting range, the dollish Eules with the fairy lights and music player in the dorm. I couldnt help but think of groups of Eules sat around chatting, together, and im yearning for that feeling of togetherness, of understanding a friend that closely. I somehow missed the couple in the mineshaft (next playthough, ill find you v_v ). Despite the harshness of life in the Eusan nation (especially for the gestalts) the characters in it are defined by their feelings of belonging and hope. With the obvious parallels to east germany, i think of posters of cosmonauts and space travel from the time. Propaganda, sure but also made with the genuine belief in something greater. When the events of the game take this away, well, we find the last Kolibri, whod rather lose herself than lose her [ah. Im not sure theres a word here to properly describe the relationship they embody]. Its a game defined by loneliness.

We dont lie up at night scared by some corrupted android. We arent stuck with horror at the flesh everywhere, not on its own. We lie awake thinking about Elster and Ariane’s love for each other, the horror of their decline, the futility of trying to hold on forever. Its existential horror done perfectly. It shows an ending postponed and stretched far beyond its limits, and so squarely reminds you that you do, in fact, have to die one day. You’ll break down. One day you’ll say your last words to the people you love and you wont even know you have. Ariane’s final few diaries arrive with the full force of the narrative behind it, like a spear through my heart. For the record, I got the promise ending. Im still sad. It's a game about raging desperately against an unfair ending. I might think about this game for the rest of my life. I would sincerely say its an artistic masterpiece, by the sure definition of video games as art.

I like that the story leaves a lot open and abstract. I think it makes the emotional themes takes centre stage more. And i havent had nearly enough time to sift through it and come up with my own takes, we’ll need a few more playthroughs for that. And theres so much more to say that cant go in just these few paragraphs! Signalis is a game about two girls who had to run away from everything to find someone they belonged with. The universe may be cold and bleak, but you have to try, you might just find something beautiful, even if it doesnt last forever. I think if anything, we should all have the chance to find love and happiness like that, and we shouldnt have abandon a world that doesnt work for us to do it.

[sakiblack]

Choose me

part 2

Neteyam x human reader

Aonung x human reader

This story will have more endings.Some of them being;choosing Neteyam;choosingAonung......

It will probably have 4 endings.

And i puted a little explanation at the end.

skxawng (Idiot) Kxetse (sun) Mawey (calm,calm down)

Words that look like this are spoken in the na'vi language.

Y/n pov.

It was the next day and i was woken up by someone shaking me.

Loak: y/n wake up come on we are late!

y/n:What? Loak shut up i wanna sleep.

Loak:No time to sleep you agreed to come with me Spider and Kiri so get your as up now.

I looked at him.Right now i remember he wanted us to go explore the forest and i said i will come with him.I mean its not like i have anything else to do so i thought it would be fun.

y/n:Okay okay im comming.

Loak:You better.

y/n:Is Neteyam ganna come?

Loak:He is going with mom and dad hunt.You know like everytime.

He said as he started to walk out of the tent.I guess i forgot about the hunting.I looked around the tent and Spider was not in it.I guess i really am late hm.

I walked out of the tent with some fruit in my hand.As i walked out i saw Kiri , Spider and Loak standing next to each other.

Spider:Morning sis someone was sleepy from last night.

Said Spider with an angry look.

Kiri:Spider.

She hissed at him.

Spider: Whatever can we just go?

Loak:Yes lets go.

Tuk: Wait up i wanna go with you!

Yelled Tuk as she ran to us.

y/n:Tuk.

I said with a smile on my face.

Loak:Tuk you cant come with us.

Tuk:But i wanna go!

Kiri:Loak let her come with us.

Said Kiri as Loak hissed a little.

Tuk:I will tell mom if you dont let me come.

Loak:Fine you can come.But dont do anything stupid.

Tuk:Yay.

Replied Tuk as she started to jump around.

Spider:Lets get going.

We all started to leave and in some minutes we were already walking on the vines.I must say when i first steped on them some years ago i was scared.I just looked down and felt fear.But now im not so scared.I mean im still careful but im having fun.

Kiri,Spider, Loak and I were all yelling out of happiness.

Kiri:Wuhu!

Loak:Bro!

Kiri:Go monkey boy!

Yelled Kiri as we were all jumping.

Tuk:Guys wait for me!

I could hear Tuk yell behind me.I stoped and looked back at her.

y/n:Come on Tuk you dont want me to be the first one there do you?

I said with a small smirk.

Tuk:I will win.

She said as she was now infront of me.

y/n:Hey wait up!

Now it was me who was last.

It did not take us a long time to get on the ground and start to run around the forest.Spider was first right next to him was Loak behind him me and just a little bit behind were Tuk and Kiri.

y/n:Im starting to get tired.

I yelled so that Loak and Spider could hear me.

Spider:Come on y/n your lucky you dont need a mask.Now come.

I roled my eyes.True i dont need one but i still need the mask every now and then if i get really tired.

y/n:Fine fine.

Loak:Tuk come on.

Tuk:Okay okay.

Spider:Bro why did you bring her?

Asked Spider as we all stoped.

Loak:She is such a cry baby«Im telling mom if you dont let me come«

Kiri:Dont pick on her.

Said Kiri as we all started to walk onec again.

We were walking for some time until we came to a  destroyed helicopter gunship that was cowered by vines.

Loak:Come on guys.

Tuk:Are there any dead bodys up there?

Asked Tuk with curiosity in her voice.

Loak:No i cant see  any.

Spider:Hey where did Kiri go?

y/n:Im not sure.

I replied as Loak was still loking at the helicopter gunship.

Spider:I will go look for her.

Said Spider as he walked away.

y/n:Hey Loak come down hire i dont want you to get hurt.

Loak:Calm down  im fine.

Replied Loak as he gived me a reassuring smile.

y/n:Loak come on i dont like this.

Loak:Ok ok im comming.

He replied slowly comming to me and Tuk.

A few minutes later we were walking as we were now looking for Kiri and Spider.

y/n:Kiri!

Loak:Kiri,Spider!

Said Loak a little louder.

y/n:Hire you two are.

I said as i saw Kiri and Spider sitting on  grass.

Tuk:Kiri we have to get back

Said Tuk as Kiri and Spider walked to us.We were making our way back home as Loak saw something on the ground. Footprints.

Kiri:What is it?

Asked Kiri annoyance in her voice.

Loak:That is way to big for a human.

Said Loak as we were all now looking at the footprints

Spider:Avatars?

Loak:Maybe,but they for sure arent ours.

Replied Loak as him and Spider started to follow the footprints.

Kiri:What are you doing?

Loak:SHHH im tracking.

Replied Loak as we all started to follow Loak.We were walking for about 1 minute as we saw some avatars walking around.

y/n:We are never soposed to come hire.Jake is going to ground you.

Loak:Shh can you stop.

Kiri:For life.

Loak:Bro you got to look at this,lets go

Loak told Spider as they started to go closer to the avatars.

y/n:Spider get back hire you skxawng.

Spider:shh its all ok.

 I was left with Kiri and Tuk.Kiri was looking at the two as Tuk was now hugging me.Poor thing she is scared.I tryied my best to make feel better by hugging her back but i dont think it worked.Soon Loak and Spider came back as Loak told us he will call Jake, to tell him about the avatars.

Loak:Devil dog, this is Eagle eye,over.

Jake:Eagle eye send your traffic.

Loak:I got my eyes on some guys they look like avatars but they arent ours,there is about 6 of them over.

Jake:What is your pos over?

Asked Jake worry in his voice.

Loak:Um we are at the old shag.

Jake:Who is we?

Asked Jake im not sure if i could hear worry or anger in his voice.

Loak:Me,Spider,Kiri…y/n and Tuk

Jake:…Son you  listening to me very clearly. Retreat as fast as you can and dont make a sound.Got it?

Asked Jake now i could hear worry in his voice and that made me even more scared.

Loak:Got it we are moving out.

Loak told Jake as we started to go back.

Kiri:I told you.

Neteyam pov:

I was on my ikran flying next to dad and behind us was mom.The hunt was pretty good today , i even got something for y/n.She does not usually go out of the camp so i like to bring her some things i find pretty for her.

Loak:Devil dog, this is Eagle eye,over.

I heard Loaks voice.Why is he calling in?

Jake:Eagle eye send your traffic.

Loak:I got my eyes on some guys they look like avatars but they arent ours,there is about 6 of them over.

I look over at dad when i heard that.Where is this idiot.

Jake:What is your pos over?

Loak:Um we are at the old shag

We?Who did he bring with him.

Loak:Me,Spider,Kiri…y/n and Tuk.

The moment i heard her name my heart stoped.I thought she was at home helping grandma.But she is out there with some avatars.Eywa please dont let anything happen.

Jake:…Son you  listening to me very clearly. Retreat as fast as you can and dont make a sound.Got it?Get the hell out of there.Move, copy?

Loak:Yes sir, moving out.

Loak if something happens to her i promes to Eywa your dead.

Neteyam:Dad i know a quick way!

I said as dad and mom followed me.

Y/n pov.

y/n:Spider im scared

I said as Spider looked back at me with a confused look on his face.I rarely said that to him so rarely in fact that when ever i did tell him that he knows im for reall.

Spider:Hey dont worry little baby we are going to be ok.

Kiri:Your going to be in so much trouble.

Loak:Kiri stop.

Spider:Guys come on

Tuk:Its almost eclipse come on.

Said Tuk and just as she said that i could hear her scream.As i looked at her i could see one of the avatars grabbed her.

Kiri:TUK!

Kiri yelled,as Spider and Loak pointed theyer bows at the avatars.

Avatar 1:Put it down!Put it down or i will  shoot you!

y/n:Put it down Spider.

I said as Spider looked at me and did as i said.Just as he did that the avatars ran to us and grabbed our arms.

Tuk:Y/n!

y/n:Be calm,calm.

I said in a calm voice,as much as i was panicking i had to calm down Tuk as much as i could.Just then 2 more man came to us.

Avatar:What have we hire?

Asked one of the 2 man as he looked at all of us and then at Loak.

Avatar 2:Hey colonel check it out 5 fingers,we have a half-breed.

Avatar:Show me your fingers

Said the man that i now assumed was the leader as he walked to Loak.Loak looked at him and showed him the middle finger.God your stupid Loak i just hoped its not ganna make the man angry.

Avatar:Heh youre his arent you?

Asked the man as Loak hissed at him.

Avatar:Youre his all right.

Said the man with a smile on his face as he grabbed Loaks braid.

Avatar:Where is he?

Loak:Sorry i dont speak English…..to buttholes.

Avatar:Where is your father!?

Asked the man now anger in his voice as he pulled Loaks braid even tighter.That made Loak hiss even more.

Avatar:Really? You wanna play it this way?

Said the man as he pulled out a knife.

Kiri:Stop!

Yelled Kiri as the man pulled the knife closser to Loak.

y/n:Leave him alone!

I yealled at the mad with anger in my voice..As i said that the man pushed Loak to the ground as he walked to me.The man looked at me with a confused face.He probably never saw a human with the navi.

Loak:y/n! No!Stop!

Spider:Hey HEY DONT TOUCH HER!

Loak:Please dont hurt her!

Said Loak as the man looked at Spider.

Avatar:What are your names kids?

Asked the man looking at me and Spider.

Spider:Spider and y/n…..Socorro.

Avatar:Miles?

Spider:Nobody calls me that.

Avatar:Well ill be damned.Well i figured they sented you two back to Earth.

Said the man.Im not sure if i could hear sadness in his voice.

Spider:They cant put babys in cryo dipshit.

Now i was starting to understand who this man was.My father.Oh how i hated to call that monster my father.But it was true.

The man was looking at Spider for a little longer then got up and signed to the man behinde Spider to grab him again.

 Quaritch:Iron sky, blue one ,actual.

He said as he started to talk to someone telling them he has some prisoners.Im guessing they are us.

Kiri:Let us go

Said Kiri as they started to pull us back to the shag.As we came back the avatars pushed us down to the ground as they started to tie us.I was thrown to the ground next to Loak.

 I could see the leader and another man watching something but i could not see what it was.We were there for some time,we could not talk but Spider still did his best to give me reassuring looks.

Neteyam pov.

We got there pretty fast and just as i was about to follow dad he turned around and looked at me.

Jake:No no you stay hire with the ikrans.

Neteyam:But dad im a warrior like you. Im supposed to fight.

Neytiri:Neteyam.

Neteyam:She is there.If something happenes to her i will never forgive myself.

Jake:Im not ganna say it again.You stay hire.And about y/n she will be safe dont worry.Do you understand?

Neteyam:Yes sir.

I said as they both left.I cant just stay hire.What if they get hurt?What if she gets hurt.I looked at my ikran , turned around and started to go after them.

Y/n pov.

Soon it was dark and they all pulled us back up and we were now waiting for who ever the leader was talking to some time back.That is who THEY were waiting for,we were waiting for Jake and Neytiri.It started to rain as we were now standing in darknes,the only light were the flowers around us.

Woman:Blue one,stand by ready.We are 3 minutes out.

I could hear a womens voice come out of the thing on the leaders neck.

Quaritch:Heads up,3 minutes.

 I was trying to think about what we will do,if the back up will come before Neytiri and Jake , as i heard a sound.It sounded like an animal but i know it was not an animal.It was Neytiri.Her call that only we know.And there it is again.As the sound was heared again me,Tuk,Kiri,Loak and Spider all looked around.Now we all knew who it was.And again third time.I was standing still waiting for my time to bite the hand that was holding me.Just as i was thinking that the man holding Kiri and Spider was shot.

Quaritch:CONTACT REAR!

Yelled Quaritch as they started to shot in the direction the arrow was shot from.

Neytiri:Loak!

Yelled a voice.It was Neytiri.That made Loak pulled one of smoke bombs from the avatar that was next to Loak and made me and Tuk bite the hand from the avatar that was holding us.

Tuk:Loak!

Loak:Tuk,y/n come on.Go,go,go!

He said as we started to run but i could feel someone pull me back.It was one of the avatars and he was grabing my hair.I hissed but he did not let go.Just then the guy fell to the ground and as i looked at him i could see an arrow in his face.That arrow i know it.It was Neteyams.But how?I looked around and saw a dark figure not so far away with a bow in his hands.Neteyam.I thought as a smile came to my face.

Neteyam pov.

I was running for some time until i got to the scene.By that time dad and mom have already made their move.I pulled out my bow and looked around to see if anyone needs help or if i could do anything.I looked around and saw Loak , Tuk and y/n as they all started to run away from the avatars

Loak:Tuk,y/n come on.Go,go,go!

Loak yelled.Y/n was the last one and i kept my eyes on her.But just then i heard her yell.One of the man was holding her back by her hair.That was the moment the only thing i saw was red.I puled back my bow and shot the man.I did not know if i was soposed to do that or if dad would be mad, but i did not care.I could see y/n look back at the man in confusion.She stared at him and then a my bow for a little and then start to look around.She looked at me (tho i think she did not saw me clearly) and as she laid her pretty eyes on me i saw a small smile on her face and i as well felt one on my own face.

Y/n pov.

Loak:Y/n! Come come!

Yelled Loak as he pulled me and we all started to run again.We were runing for not much of time when out of nowhere Jake and Nateyam jumped out.That scared me and made me scream but as soon as i saw it was them the fear went away.

Tuk:Dad!

Jake:You hurt?

He asked me as he looked me up and down looking for any wounds.

y/n:No im fine

Jake:Tuk you hurt?

Tuk:Daddy!

Cried out Tuk as she went to hug him.That was it we were saved and that made me let out my tears that i was holding for some time now.Neteyam came to me and again asked if i was alright.

Neteyam:You hurt?Did that guy hurt you?

y/n:No im  im fine.

I said as i hugged him.He got to my level and huged me back.

Neteyam:Hey it ok Kxetse.

y/m:Thank you.

Neteyam:Do not thank im just happy your safe.

After some time we ended the hug as he was looking in my eyes.We could see the helicopter as it took of flying.Just then Neytiri and Kiri cam out of some bushes.

Tuk:Mom!

Neytiri:Tuk

Said Neytiri as she hugged Tuk.Jake pulled Loak me and Nateyam into a hug as well.

Jake:Its ok.We are all ok.

Neytiri:Oh thank you great mother.Thank you.

y/n:Where is Spider?

I asked with tears still in my eyes.Kiri looked at me with tears in her eyes as well.

Kiri:They took him.They took him

y/n:What!

I yelled looking at her.

y/n:What do you mean they took him?

I was crying again as my voice broke some times as i asked that.Kiri was crying as well and did not say anything.I could feel a hand on my shoulder but i just moved back.

y/n:How could you just let them take him!M.. my …my brother…They took my brother!

I screamed.Im pretty sure the whole forest heard my broken and hurt voice.

Jake:Okay.Its okay baby girl.He is a tough kid.All right.Shhh shh.

Said Jake as he hugged me.I struggled and moved around wanting the hug to end but i did not have any energy left so in the end i just stood there.

Jake:He is going to be okay.We are all ganna be okay.

Continued Jake as i started to cry again.

 Loak:Hey hey dont cry.You know that he can kick their ass right?

Loak said trying his best to make me smile as Jake leted me go.I did not reply with anything.I was just looking at the ground as the rain was now heavyer then before.I felt a hand on my shoulder again but this time i did not do anything to make it go away.Then there was another hand on my other shoulder.And then the hands hugged me from behind and someone rested their head on my shoulder.

Neteyam:He is gonna be safe.Trust me…….You do trust me do you not?

I looked at his face and nodded.

Neteyam:Good good.

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Hope you like the second part if you have any questions or requests please do ask me.Im sorry that i did not post for some time.Im just a little busy.

(Something you might not understand is that part when Spider said that y/n does not need a mask.She still is human but as i mentioned in the first part she had an accident when she was a kid.She had to pass through the eye of Eywa.And she did.But when she woke up there were changes.One of them being that she can breath without a mask.But if she gets really tired or does not gave any enery she will need the mask.One of the changes is that she is pretty much like Kiri.She has a connection with Eywa tho its not as strong as Kiris.)