#like i have a crush for sure but idrk if that’s what i’m trying to do rn

[dykeomania]

situationships go from a game of cat and mouse to wondering whether or not you provided her just enough information about your day to still be mysterious but not too much information such that you don’t reveal how annoying you are

[hope-drunk]

- crush | a. anderson

| abby walks in on you at the wrong (or right) time

| content warning: inexperienced but not naive reader, female masturbation, oral (r receiving), strength kink kinda, pet names (sweetheart, baby), idrk this is pretty tame, probably ooc bc my first time writing abby, a lot of the word patrol

After doing a long, long day of rounds, all you wanted to do was relax. There were more infected than usual at the checkpoints. Once you finally get back to base, you’re quick to strip off your dirty clothes and take a hot shower. After you get out, you put on an oversized t-shirt and a pair of soft shorts.

Happy to be back in your room, you lay down, shimmying under the covers rapidly. Your muscles were heavily fatigued, and you felt drowsier with every passing minute, but you knew something that would get you to sleep even faster.

Using one hand to rub your nipple, you move the other down, teasing the seam of your underwear before sinking your hand lower to rub your clit. A soft sigh creeps out of your mouth as you feel instant relief. You speed up slightly, not wanting to rush yourself, but naturally chasing your high. While you focus on your pleasure, your mind drifts to a memory.

Abby was running her calloused hands through your hair. She had been begging to braid it for a few months, always going on about how convenient it was. You eventually caved in, you were never able to say no to her for long. While your fingers were hard at work, you imagined Abby’s, gently pulling your hair, making sure the braid was tight.

She kept complimenting you while she did it.

“Your hair is so soft.”

And also reprimanding you.

“Can’t believe you’ve never let me do this.”

You had to squeeze your legs together then, to dull the ache her words and actions were giving you. Between the thought of Abby and the pace of your fingers, the coil in your stomach was wound tight, ready to break at any moment.

“Hey, I found this mov– oh shit.”

You let out a gasp at Abby’s voice, quickly pulling your hand away from your heat and covering yourself with a blanket that had fallen off of you. Abby had her hand covering her eyes, while also facing the door that she just burst through.

“Abby! Whatever happened to knocking!” you said. You were flushed all over, embarrassed about being caught in the act. 

“I know, I’m sorry! I was excited about the movie I found; wasn’t thinking. I’m sorry.” She was still facing the wall. 

“You can turn around, I have clothes on.”

She turned slowly, hand rubbing the back of her neck in an awkward motion. She stands by the door, not sure if she should go or stay, you weren’t really sure what to do in this situation either.

“What movie is it?” you say, trying to break the ice.

Abby walks over to your bed and sits down by your legs, handing you the DVD case. It was some old movie about an apocalypse.

You laugh at her. “Don’t you think it’s a bit ironic?”

“I thought that’s why it would be fun.” she says sheepishly. “Y’know, compare their apocalypse to ours.”

Your laughter intensifies, and you nod your head 

“That would be fun.”

You looked up at the same time, you didn’t realize how close you had moved to her, it felt like you were naturally pulled to her. Abby’s brows were pulled together, she had the same look on her face that she did during patrols. 

“I could help, if you want.” she says, not breaking eye contact.

“Help? With what.” you ask.

“You know, with what I walked in on.” Abby answers, no shyness left in her tone.

“Oh I don’t– Abby, I’ve never…” you say, blood rushes to your cheeks as you try not to break the intimidating eye contact.

“You don’t have to. You can tell me to fuck off right now and I’ll never speak of this again. But, I would really like to make up for ruining your orgasm.”

 Her crass language makes you impossibly redder, causing you to look away. When you turn back towards her, Abby is scanning your face for a sign. Her blue-gray eyes go from your lips to your eyes.

You feel like your throat has dried up, unable to give her verbal confirmation, you nod your head at her.

“No.” She says, taking your chin in her hand. “Need to hear you say it.”

You sit up straighter, nervous of the repercussions that these few words will have. 

“I want you to help me, Abby.”

She lets out a sigh, and pulls you in. Naturally, you let her tongue guide yours. Abby grabs your hips, pressing your body up against hers. Gently moving her kisses towards your jaw and down your neck, hitting a spot on your collarbone that has you moaning

“There it is.” she whispers.

Abby spends a few moments on that spot, long enough that you knew there would be a large purple mark there by the morning. Stopping for a second to remove your shirt, she then lays you down onto the bed. Moving her mouth lower, she keeps your legs propped open with her knee. You moan as she wraps her lips around one of your nipples. 

She comes back up to look into your eyes.

“Does that feel good?” she questions, looking down at your hips.

You cock your head at her and look down, realizing you had been grinding your leg over her knee. But she doesn’t laugh at you, in fact, she seems very serious about it all, she left no room for you to be embarrassed.

“Yeah.” you reply, barely a whisper. 

“I bet it does, sweetheart.” she says, nodding her head sympathetically before removing her leg from your heat.

You let out a light whine, as she whispers an, I know, I know, quickly removing the plaid pajama shorts you were dressed in, making a note in her head to tease you about them later. Moving her cruel kisses right above your mound, you think she’s finally about to give you what you're aching for, but instead, she moves her mouth even lower, to focus on your thighs next. You wanted to tell her to get on with it, but you couldn’t find it in you to actually say it.

Abby was so intimidating, and she always got what she wanted. After many, many, patrols with her, you knew that it was her way, or the highway. Finally, she places an open mouthed kiss to your clit through your panties before taking them off. You instinctively lift your hips for her. 

“Please.” you whimper.

“Hm? What do you want?” Abby answers, teasingly.

You move to put your hands over your face, embarrassed by the thought of begging. But Abby is quick to catch your wrists, the show of strength making you clench around nothing. 

Shaking her head at you she says,. “C’mon, shy girl, tell me what you want.” 

Wriggling your hands in her grasp, you try to get away. It was all a game to her, and it was to you, too. You knew you couldn’t get away, and you were barely trying, but it was fun to try, to pretend like you had a chance against her. Abby laughs at your weak attempt.

“Just tell me what you want, you know I’ll help you, I said I would.”

You suck in a breath. “Want you to touch me, Abs.”

It’s not loud enough for Abby’s liking, but she figures she made you wait long enough. Moving down between your thighs once again, her broad shoulders push your legs far apart, and she licks a long stripe up your cunt. You let out an inhuman groan, and Abby laughs again, sending a vibration from your cunt all the way up to your chest.

You move your hands to the top of her head, trying to grip something, but her tight braid makes it hard. Moaning as her nose bumps your clit, you feel Abby’s middle finger you, which only causes your noises to become even louder.

She comes up for a breath, her finger still steadily going in and out of you.

“What were you thinking about?” She says through panting breaths.

“What?” you question, glassy eyes coming up to meet hers.

“When I walked in on you, what were you thinking about?” She adds another finger, throwing your train of thought out the window. “Answer me, baby. I wanna know.” 

“Was– was thinking about when you braided my hair.”

Abby smirked, she knew what you were talking about. You thought she didn’t notice how quiet you got right when she started lacing her fingers through your hair. How you would only shake your head in response to her questions, and how you crossed your legs the first time she gave your head a light pull.

“Yeah? You were thinking about me while you touched your pretty pussy?” 

Whimpering, you nod your head at her. She moves back down to your cunt, sucking at your clit causing your hips to shoot up, trying to grind on her face. But Abby is quick to put her strong arm over them, forcing them down.

“Quit that.” she mumbles. The show of dominance sends a wave of arousal through you.

You didn’t know how long it had been since she had started, but it felt like it had been hours. Your head was becoming fuzzy, your hearing muffled, it felt like your ears had been stuffed full of cotton. All you could focus on were Abby’s fingers lazily going in and out of your hole, and her mouth on your clit, she gave it a quick nip with her teeth every once in a while just so she could see your hips jolt again.

You were positive you were being too loud, but you couldn’t seem to care, your stomach was in knots, the ruined orgasm from before was building up again quickly. 

“I need– I’m gonna-” you tried to finish your sentence, but nothing worthy was coming out.

Abby took her mouth off of your cunt.

“I know, it’s okay. Let go for me, baby. Let it all out.” She says, kissing your cheek and forehead.

Her words send you flying over the edge. Abby connects her lips with yours, muffling your moans. You were floating, your vision stark white. When you came back down, Abby’s fingers were still moving inside of you. Groaning, you try to push her away.

“Alright, okay, I’m done, promise.” 

Abby removes her fingers and you let out a weak sob, she was quick to shush you, planting another kiss on your jaw before leaving the bed. You watch her go into your bathroom to find a towel to clean you up with. Once she was satisfied with her work, she moved in beside you, murmuring small praises the whole time. She showed her strength once more by propping your fatigued body on top of hers, quickly grabbing a blanket to cover you both up with. 

“Thank you.” you whisper, looking up at her from your position on her chest, your shyness naturally creeping back in.

 Giving you a small smile, she kisses the top of your head.

“It was only right. Couldn’t just ruin your night like that now could I? We’ll talk about this later, get some rest.” Abby says quietly, rubbing soothing circles on your back.

With that, you drift off, feeling content in her arms.

[samyanggs]

Hello! Can u do headcanons of Buddha having a crush on a bunny!reader? Fellow Singaporean here!

Hihiii! yea I can and a fellow Singaporean? Pleasure to meet you :3 currently writing this after doing my chores so I’m a bit more tired than usual 🥲 have a good weekend btw

I js realized you said headcanons omg. Headcanons are at the very end 😭

“So goddamn hypnotizing..”

Warnings: none that I know of

Idrk how about bunny!reader but I’ll try my best! Thanks for requesting! Hope you have a great rest of your afternoon<3 I’m still having a headache so I’m sorry if this doesn’t make sense or is what you’re looking for I’m sorry for that 🙏🏽

Buddha walked through the many hallways to get to the garden. He liked the garden it was always empty and silent, perfect for him to snack or do whatever he needed. He expected it to be as empty and deserted as usual, what he didn’t expect was seeing- a bunny? No that was a person.. a bunny person?

He tilted his head to the side cocking his eyebrow in confusion. He walked up to you, you were looking at the flowers, tending to them making sure that they bloomed and flourished nicely. He walked up behind you, looking down at you, still sucking and licking his lollipop. His teeth bit into the lollipop on accident creating a sound that made your ears twitch. He saw your body tense up, making your ears rigid and straight. He eyed you as you turned around scared.

“How can I help you? Sir.” You said, softly, looking up at the other. Buddha noticed your discomfort and took a few steps back, giving you some space- that you were grateful for. He grunted.

“Nothing just wondering what a person was doing here” he said observing you. Now that he was looking at you from the front.. you were rather cute.. and pretty. You had nicely groomed bunny ears with silky, fluffy hair. He resisted the urge to pet you just to feel what it felt like. It looked extremely soft, so soft that he’d probably think it was a pillow if he was half asleep.

“Just looking at the flowers, they’re rather pretty during this time.. and because it’s quiet here..” you replied looking away and at the flowers, eyeing their beauty, the colours were bright and beautiful. “Don’t you think so?” You said, still looking at the flowers.

He snapped back to reality, he’d gotten lost in his thoughts of your prettiness.. what’s with him? He never acted like this before.. he shook his head. “Yea they are..” he said, watching you smile softly, looking at the flowers. His heart fluttered and he felt heat rising to his cheeks. He blinked. Why was he feeling like this? Why now? Why you? He questioned himself before realizing that you were now looking at him. He looked back at you. You were shocked, blushing and flustered.

“I- uh- I suppose it’s time for me to go. I’ve been here long enough.” You stuttered, avoiding eye contact. He nodded and bid you goodbye waving to you lazily as you walked away, fast and flustered.. he watched your retreating figure before looking at the flowers that you were tending too. They were beautiful.. like you. He smiled to himself. He wouldn’t mind meeting you again.. yea.. he’d enjoy seeing you again..

Headcanons!

Stares at you when he sees you in the garden while you’re tending to the followers because he can’t help but get lost in your beauty

Often goes to the garden just to see and talk to you and treasures all the times you talk to him in his heart

When he sees you cry or when you feel down, he tries his best to calm you down, hugging you, giving you snacks and/or gifting you something new to make you happy

Scared to ask you if he could pet you because you look so goddamn soft and fluffy he can’t help but wonder how it would feel to pet you.

He sometimes start blushing when you do something, he’s just fell that hard for you

He thinks about you a lot, thinking of your smile, the look in your eyes when you look at flowers, your eyes and everything else.

He pets you every now and then to feel the softness and the fluffiness, enjoys your flustered look after

He likes playing with your ears to fluster you and teasing you is his favourite part of his day

He thinks about how soft your ears and hair is a lot

[my-castles-crumbling]

hi! i have this friend (we’ll call her K) + i think she has a crush on me (writing our initials together, poems, etc) and idrk what to do? i know that I’ve found men attractive before but not women, but like.. I wouldn’t *mind* kissing her?? and when I imagine what it would be like, I’m not really repulsed by it or anything?

Hi!

Okay so honestly I think she probably has feelings for you lol. As far as your feelings, don't push yourself. Think about it for a while. Then, if you decide to pursue something, you should be honest with her. It's okay not to completely know how you feel, and often when people go on dates, they aren't completely head-over-heels yet!

But you also want to be clear about that because you don't want to hurt K and I'm assuming you don't want to lose her as a friend. So if you do decide to try dating her, please tell her something like "Hey, I'm not sure if I'm into girls, but I'm willing to try it with you if you are. If you're not, I completely get that, and I respect if you want to stay friends."

Notice that you give her the space to say that's not okay with her. She might not be willing to open herself up to possible hurt, and you have to be okay with that.

I'm wishing you so much luck, keep me updated if you think of it!

Naming you mind anon

[e-dollly]

Love omg guess what! I was kiiiinda flirting with w/ RJs bsf today 😏

He’s not bad looking imo and most of my friends outside of the team say he’s the hottest on the team

So we were in the same lane today and we were talking a bunch and I was being kinda flirty with him (partially cuz I kinda maybe like him a little bit??? Like Idrk but he’s a good option but also to make RJ jealous! He seemed kinda angrier than usual like his energy kinda changed you know~ his face was kinda angrier than usual, that kinda thing) BUT HE WAS MATCHING MY ENERGY SO I KINDA FREAKED OUT AND JUST DIDNT TALK TO HIM THE REST OF PRACTICE!!! So whoops 🤷‍♀️😎 oh well I don’t have a crush on him (too obsessed w Wednesday rn tbh💀)

Also my friend Alejandro said Lukas (my first ex) would get back together with me??? Like Alej & Lucy (they’re dating) and I were all talking at break today and Lucy said I should get back together with Lukas! I said “no!” And alej said that Lukas would get back together with me! I said yeah if he’s that desperate.

TW: MENTIONS OF CONSIDERING SUICIDE (not me tho, Lukas)

Basically my good friend Fin (idk if u remember her but I mentioned her a while ago) friendzoned Lukas and he’s pretty much liked her since the beginning of last year. He got so upset that he drank half a bottle of vodka and called my friend Abbi’s bf (who is also his bsf) and held a shotgun to his head! He was drunk off his ass, eyes rolling around in his head, completely gone. Abbi’s bf had to talk him out of shooting himself. Honestly, I feel pretty bad for him now. Like he has it pretty awful honestly. His parents are divorced, his dads a drunk (who also works at the school and he just icks me and my friend out) and his moms abusive and always bringing her boyfriends around. He’s still pretty nice too- like he’s not a complete and total and actual legit a-hole. He just makes a bunch of jokes and can be *mildly* offensive sometimes but he’s always joking. I kinda wanna reach out to him, but I’m not sure how and what I would even say.

Anyways doll that’s the tea from today, what’s going on with you??

Lmao you're flirting with 15 people at the same time pls 😭 making boys jealous is the reason I'm alive

Please we don't have the same love life at all I swear ! Yours is soooo messy I'd say. Also, pleaseee tell me both of your exes still like you cause omg the drama.

You see, I thought Lukas a little weird but with his parents ? Honey, it's crazy he didn't already tried to take his life ! He should try to talk to someone, and his mom is abusive right ? Like she hits him? But anyway, maybe you and his friends should convince him to call the number for kids in abusive household. And yeah, I think it would help him to feel slightly better if he had friends to tell things when they get too bad..

Me ? Don't have any real tea honestly my life has been pretty plain lately. You know I got accepted to pass the first test, I *sort of* sexted Jules *again* and huh that's pretty much it I think ( no for real I started writing down things I needed to tell you except I lost my paper soooo when I find it I'm gonna send an ask )

[genezpen]

『 neglect a queen 』

pairings: jay × afab!reader

genre: angst, fluff (ur girl is a sucker for)

warnings: first person pov(as always), drunk reader, mention of vodka, jealousy, kinda bratty reader, sweet call signs such as love, (hun)ey (idrk what to include lmk if i forgot to add sum)

word count: 1.6k+ words

notes: hi! i wrote this like last month then suddenly got tired of it so i left it unfinished and since i wanna get rid of my mental block, here it is! finished product in the house, babe lol pls enjoy reading and lmk what u think abt this. the first few scenes were actually my personal favourite ^·^ stay safe and love y'all~

“why did you drink so much? i told you to drink moderately, you barely even manage to drink five cups!” jay scolded me, but i’m so lightheaded to even care.

“stand straight or i’ll carry you right now!”

he knows i hate being carried like a baby. without a do, i immediately stood my ground holding his hand for my dear consciousness, with his other hand rested on my waist for support. anytime now i might passed out, i can’t even keep my eyelids open anymore.

i know i can’t handle alcohol like he can, at least, but i have no choice but to drink the pain away. for weeks, he’s been extremely busy, working so hard almost forgetting to stay at home. what’s funny is that he always have time to attend a night out with his bosses, be it for business or celebration, when he can’t even make plans with me. and all he said was he couldn't afford to miss it.

it’s not hard to tell that i’m jealous. with his work, yes. i want his attention more and more each passing day, and i can’t accept the fact that he can’t even tell earlier this morning!

“there’s a newly opened restaurant nearby, would you like to try it out later, hun? i reserved a seat for two people.” i smiled at him.

jay stopped at his track for a second then proceed to tying his necktie infront of the mirror.

“sorry, love, you know how busy i am lately. you can just bring your best friend, i won’t mind.” he utter fixing his hair.

i mind! i wanna scream so bad but as a mature girlfriend i am, i held back. resulting for me to drink with the girls instead of sulking in that fucking restaurant.

“who knows, he might be busy with something else other than his work?” i murmured pouring a vodka on my cup for the third time.

one of my friends gasp. “you can’t just say that! do you not trust your boyfriend? i’m pretty sure hardworking people only wants promotion so they won’t let themselves get distracted for a while. let’s understand them for now.”

“from experience?” another added, they clicked their glasses of wine.

“so, am i a distraction to him now? i can break-up with him right away, if only he told me so, you know?!” i know, i’m starting to lose control over my body– mouth right now. i need to stop drinking!

“oh no, you’re drunk. stop drinking or we’ll get scolded by your boyfriend!” my friend pointed at my other friend, “hey you, call jay immediately! oh gosh, this girl, really–”

i laughed maniacally. with hooded eyes, i lean against the front door when we reached our apartment then stare at jay. my forefinger touched the tip of his pointed nose, grinning without the teeth. i’m so drunk and sleepy, he held my waist so i won't fall.

jay stopped and stared at my current state like i’m hopeless.

“you...” suddenly, tears welled in the corner of my eyes as i remember the reason why i drank so much. i met his painful gaze, his pitiful eyes looking at me.

i want to him to kiss away the pain but can’t say it face to face because it’s embarrassing. or am i just too drunk?

“w-why did you even f-fetch me–” my voice hitched. i feel like a hand crushed my heart but it’s still beating loudly, so weird.

i gulp when his gaze turned intense.

“come again, y/n?” oh no. this isn’t good. he’s calling me by my name!

i smiled bitterly. instead of putting up a fight, i gave up immediately. i then lowered and shake my head.

“sorry...” almost a whisper escaped my lips. tears began to fall like rainfalls, my heart’s clenching so bad in agony.

you're so funny, y/n. the nerve to get mad at him then back down when he’s starting to get angry too. you’re literally hopeless. you’re pitiful.

those words stings too much i felt numb. maybe... i’m just too scared to disappoint him? is it bad to be conscious about how you make your partner feels? but then, how about him? did he really care about mine?

“come on, let’s get you change into comfortable clothes...” his voice instantly sounded calm, almost soothing this time.

i nodded weakly before letting him guide me inside.

“would you like to take a bath? i’ll help you...” jay handed me a glass of water once i was seated on a kitchen stool.

instead of answering him, i drink the water in one go. when i finished, he takes it out of my hold before putting it on the granite counter.

before i knew it, he was already squatting on the floor, leaning towards me. jay caress my cold palms carefully, still looking directly into my eyes, watching my lone expression.

“are you sober now?”

i nodded staring at the flat floor, refusing to meet his gaze.

“hmm. then are you alright? did something happened?” jay probed.

my lips twitched, “you have to rest now, jay. it’s late, you have to go to work early tomorrow morning...”

“i think the question is, are you alright, y/n?” he pulled my hands slightly making me glance at him. “you’re obviously not. can you tell me what exactly happened? did i do something that upset you? please, enlighten me, baby...” jay’s gentle caress against my knuckles makes me dizzy.

but then, even if i tell him what i feel or what is it all about, he still can’t do anything about it. work will always be his number one priority. it sucks, i know. but that's reality.

“you don’t have to worry about me. let’s prepare for bed immediately so you can rest, alright, love?” my cold palms made contact with his warm cheeks as i assure him it’s nothing serious.

he held it shaking his head and cage my hands in between his cheeks and palm.. “your eyes says otherwise, though. i won't let you sleep with a heavy heart, baby. it would only bother me as well. so please, enlighten me...” jay pressed a kiss on my fingers.

i rolled my eyes as my hands against his cheeks dropped, "fine! since you're so eager to know... it is your fault!" now i'm back to being the brat here.

jay only raised his brows. he slightly sighed in relief for an unknown reason. is he relief that i got out of my sulking but understanding girlfriend mode? well, let's see if he can handle a sulking brat!

"you're working too hard lately, i like that about you. but you rarely- no, you don't bring me to dates because of it so i also hate it!" i crossed my arms on my chest looking sideways with furrowed eyebrows.

he nodded slowly understanding why i am suddenly acting up. "hmm. is that it?"

my lips parted in shock. what does he mean by that? that whatever the reason why i'm sulking is just THAT?

"ha! are you serious? jay, you've been very busy that i had to sleep alone and wake up with you getting ready to leave the apartment for almost two weeks!. it's almost like i don't have a boyfriend anymore..."

it stunned him for a bit.

“you– did you really felt that?” now, he looks confuse as hell.

“but then again, i understand. i am a little bit immature,” i glared at him when i said that, “but i know how to handle my emotions now. you don't have to worry about me.” i pouted even tho i mean it. my feet fidgeting, drawing circles around the tiled floor.

jay shook his head then held my face close.

“no, no, love. thank you, for being honest about this matter. thank you for telling me how you truly feel. i don't want you to hold back if you feel like i am upsetting you unintentionally or even intentionally at that.”

our eyes met and i saw the longing that’s been hiding behind his chocolate brown eyes.

“i love it when you let me see through you. i love it when you bare your soul to me as i bare mine to you too. i want to know what you think of everything so you don’t have to keep all these to yourself. i promised to understand you all the time, didn't i?” jay caress my cheeks full of tears now.

i nodded, sniffing not breaking our eye contact.

“i’m sorry if i made you feel neglected, you know i would never do that– or i would never want that to happen. i’ll do my best to be better and treat you like a queen you are.”

i wrapped my arms around jay’s nape and buried my sobs on his neck. moments of silence enveloped us that only our heavy breathing can be heard. it wasn't uncomfortable unlike what i felt with other people, more like a peaceful silence. like a home.

“promise to take me to a romantic dinner date on the weekend?” my voice quivered when i tried to speak.

i heard him laugh a bit, hugging me back caressing my exposed arms.

“i’ll take you to wherever you like, tomorrow. i finally got promoted so i have an even more flexible schedule.” jay whispered and i felt my ears clapped!

“as you should! you should never neglect a queen ever again...”

jay laughed even more. “i apologize, my queen.” i smiled.

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[fockinastro]

astro observations pt. 3

a/n: if u believe i took your comment/observation without credit, please reach out and let me know! i have no problem including you in my post (or taking it down if u ask :))

these observations are a lil wordy so sorry about that

i’ve got a nice theory/question/discussion for anyone open to talking about it :)

i’ve noticed that cancer placements tend to rlly like anime and i honestly think it’s because anime girls typically have this soft girl vibe and they may be rlly into that

gemini & scorpio placements together tend to be very curious and good at solving that curiosity

for example: they could wonder (gemini) why someone does something and be able to use their detective skills (scorpio) to find out what they want to know

moon in 4th overlays tend to create a long-lasting crush or that may create feelings of always having a soft spot for that person

similar to my last post, i think cardinal signs in angular houses are very good at achieving or going after what they want in those major life aspects meanwhile fixed signs in angular houses may be a little more fixated and expect certain life stages to go as planned and may not budge or give up when something doesn’t go as planned

these imo are interesting to see play out when different signs fall into different house types (angular, succedent & cadent)

for example: having cardinal signs in succedent houses can manifest as a person always trying to obtain or taking the initiative to go after themes of the houses

example example: capricorn in 2nd can show someone always working to achieve or taking the initiative to obtain monetary, material or inner needs, etc.

water signs in the 2nd house has a tendency to hoard things because it has ‘sentimental value’

having virgo, libra & scorpio influence in your personal planets is so powerful because historically, virgo & scorpio used to be one sign and represented the duality of humanity: feminine & masculine energy meshed together. libra then was placed between the two when they became separated as a bridge to marry to the two energies--if you look at the glyphs of virgo & scorpio, they are very similar but virgo is supposed to represent the feminine genitalia and scorpio represents the masculine genitalia

credits go to novembr-11th on tumblr because i read a post about this and thought it was super interesting! especially since it’s been circulating (not sure if it’s confirmed?) that virgo/scorpio used to be one sign that split into two

lmao bUT anyways, my point is that having these three energies in your personal planets (especially) makes one that’s very ‘whole’ if that makes sense lmao

personally, 7th & 8th house synastry isn’t always all that

i have these placements with someone and we do not mesh well 😐 but 8th house can also represent enemies so idk

sun in the fifth individuals tend to be very creative and have a powerful & sure way of expressing themselves

you tend to be attracted to those that have your moon sign as their sun sign and i honestly think this goes to the perspective of the moon person having this soft spot for the sun person because they express themselves in the way the moon person wishes they do or they’re inspired by the sun person because they admire the way the sun person express themselves (that the moon person may not be able to)

although it’s important to look at very aspect of astrology to understand it, i think beginners have a tendency to look at the signs rather than houses because it’s easier to understand but i implore those learning to study houses first before planets--idk it just seems easier because you’re learning houses & the signs in one go (kinda anyways lmao)--this isn’t even an observation lmao oop

the rising is honestly way more important than people think--i used to be guilty of this and disregard my rising until i rlly looked into it

mars in fire signs tend to be rlly selfish in bed and can be pretty similar to each other

sag mars rlly like to have their pleasure before their partners

leo mars like to have the attention on them

aries mars tend to do things fast--to get themselves off

scorpio & virgo mercuries tend to have this monotone (not rlly--it’s just dry if that makes sense lmao) way of speaking--like there may be a lack of emotions because they can be logical (virgo) and sarcastic (scorpio) that people may not pick up on that if they’re joking or whatnot

tbh capricorn (degrees especially) & aquarius influence can do this too 

interceptions can show what you lack (obviously)/misunderstand or what you may attract imo

pretty sure i literally said this in one of my previous posts but 🤷‍♀️

i remember an astrologer said that a theory of theirs is that your sun sign’s degree can show something important that has happened/will happen to you when you become that age

for example: an ex friend of mine has a taurus sun in 4 degrees and he was involved in a car accident where his father and brother died when he was 4 years old

an astrologer mentioned that the planet with the highest degree is the planet that is considered something you need to learn to do in your life

example: my best friend has trouble with communication and her mercury has the highest degree of all her other planets--she’s been doing really well though and learning to communicate better :)

i see a lot of astrologers frequently cover 0 & 29 degrees but usually not a lot of critical degrees such as 0,13 & 26 for cardinal signs, 8-9 & 21-22 for fixed signs and 4 & 17 for mutable signs

it’s assumed that it has a potent effect on that planet (or whatever i’m not quite sure because i don’t see it being spoken about in detail) but my assumption is that it maybe a focus in your life or more power is added to that

example: i have 4 degrees sag venus so i’m going to assume that there’s something going on there with my love life but tbh idrk 🤷‍♀️ pls educate me--i’d love to hear more about it and how it manifests

tbh major asteroids are so important to understand imo

i know some astrologers don’t gaf about them but i think they can be rlly important & definitely play a major role in someone’s personality & chart like pls don’t underestimate asteroids and their energies

i remember an astrologer stated that having a leo part of fortune is an indicator that it’s fated for you to become famous (or something along those lines)

dominant houses are important to your identity meanwhile stelliums may also be important to your identity but i personally think they carry lessons to be learned but idk this topic is very different per astrologer (this is just my personal take on it)

*just a theory and definitely open to discussion and idk if anyone else has spoken about this but do any astrologers here think that 3rd & 11th house can represent crushes as well--more like fast crushes vs longer crushes? since 3rd & 11th house can equate to your community while 4th is childhood--do you kinda see where i’m getting this from? lmao

i think it won’t manifest like 5th or 7th or 8th romance--it would be more likely to manifest as a person you had a crush on for like two weeks if that makes sense? i’d love to hear your thoughts :)

that’s everything i have for now :)

[reidsnose]

completely and utterly, wholeheartedly and hopelessly (spencer reid x reader)

overview: spencer helps his best friend talk through her emotions

genre: angst? and fluff

warnings: mentions of cheating, bad coping mechanisms, idrk what else reader being upset for a little bit

a/n: this has been sitting in my notes app FOREVER but idk how i feel ab this one im usually strictly fluff so yall lmk :)

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you hated talking about your feelings. you knew it was unhealthy to keep it bottled and and 'deal with it on your own' but that didn't stop you from doing exactly that.

the worst part about your feelings right now was that you isolate to cope with them. you didn't want to interact with anyone at all because more likely than not you would lash out at them on accident. it just slips out sometimes.

when you trudged into the bullpen with your head down and your hands fidgeting with your zipper, you didn't even notice all eyes on you. you werent your usual happy self. you weren't being loud, you weren't cracking jokes. you were just begrudgingly existing amongst your favorite people and they knew there was something wrong.

"good morning gorgeous, its a paperwork day! that means no traveling!" garcia informed you brightly, trying to lighten my mood.

"oh. cool. thanks." you answered back, flashing her as much of a smile as you could muster after realizing the harshness of your words.

she shot morgan a look, to which he raised an eyebrow.

"hey pretty lady," he began as he walked over to you, "whats going on? did you drink some grumpy juice for breakfast?"

"no. im fine." you replied flatly, making your way to your desk.

"what in the world.." he whispered to garcia, not knowing you could still hear.

or maybe he did know. maybe he was trying to get on your nerves. no. this is the irritability talking. morgan was just being a good friend.

you groaned at your computer, retyping the same password for the 4th time.

this time Prentiss shot you a look.

"is everything ok?" she asked, smiling slightly.

"yeah my computer is being stupid." you rolled your eyes as it finally let you in.

"oh i know the feeling. if you need any help-"

"I'm alright. thanks." you cut her off, eyes glued to the file you were working on.

JJ, who had witnessed the whole interaction unfold, stood with her mouth agape.

"spence, your bestie needs you!" JJ tapped his shoulder and motioned to you.

he watched your jaw rhythmically clench and unclench. your tell. thats what you always did when you were irritated or angry.

"hey y/n," he hummed, sitting lightly on the corner of your desk, crinkling some of your paper work.

"Reid! my files!" you cried, swatting his thigh. he got up and murmured an apology.

"are you ok?" he asked simply, crouching down to meet your height as you sat in your chair.

"why does everyone keep asking me that!"

you knew why. you were being a bitch.

"you just called me Reid." he stated.

"its your name." you replied, not meeting his gaze.

"yeah but you always-" he began.

"I'm not in the mood right now."

he sighed, "if you need someone to talk to-"

"i don't need anyone to talk to because theres nothing to talk about!" you interrupted, causing him to furrow his eyebrows at the tone of my voice.

'i shouldn't be mean to him. why am i acting like this?' you thought to yourself

"ok, ill be over there if you need me," he threw his hands up in surrender.

you mumbled an ok and went back to distracting yourself with work. you were so invested in filing these cases you completely lost track of time and before you knew it, it was just you, Hotch, and Spencer left in the office. you vaguely remembered waving goodbye to your other coworkers but you didn't remember it being nearly 6pm.

"guys go home, you've done a lot today," Hotch said as he crossed the bullpen, making his way towards the glass doors.

"yeah i will i'm almost done," you answered, not looking up from my screen.

"good night, Hotch," Spencer called from the break room.

you stared at your screen, eyes burning. you did enough. you cant escape confronting your feelings much longer. you sighed as you began packing up.

as if on cue, Spencer walked out of the break room with two cups in his hands, steam rising from the both of them. your mood softened just a bit.

"here," he handed you your drink which he had filled with your favorite tea and sweetened just the way you like it.

"you didnt have to." you replied, setting down the warm cup as you finished packing up. he mirrored your movements, resting his satchel across his torso before picking his drink back up.

"i know." he answered simply, a gentle smiling resting on his lips before he took a sip of his own tea.

"im sorry for snapping at you earlier." you apologized, finally meeting his gaze. his eyes were soft and sweet and you felt a pang of guilt in your heart as they looked into your own.

"its ok. do you want to tell me why?" he asked, walking to the elevator with you.

"no. yes? i dont know. its stupid." you replied, looking down at the floor as you recounted your reason for my anger today.

"its not stupid." he spoke softly.

you scoffed lightly, "you dont even know what it is."

"so tell me."

"but its dumb!"

"y/n." he warned.

"my ex boyfriend, Ashton, is getting married to the girl he cheated on me with." you sighed, walking through the parking lot with Spencer.

"ah so Trashton put my favorite ray of sunshine in a bad mood." he joked, breath swirling around the cool air as he spoke

you let out a weary chuckle, "its not like i miss him or anything, i just wish i had someone! not him- i just- i want- ugh i don't know how to word this!" you grew frustrated, furrowing your eyebrows and balling your hands into fists.

you knew exactly how to word it.

you wanted Spencer.

"its ok, take all the time you need." he whispered, leaning on the hood of your car. you joined him, resting as you took a sip of your tea.

"why am i not good enough to be loved." you stated the question rather than asking it, eyes filling with tears.

"you are good enough and i promise you that you are loved more than you know." he affirmed gently, turning to face you.

"do you know why we broke up?" you asked, knowing if you acknowledged his previous comment you wouldn't be able to continue without sobbing.

"because he cheated on you." he answered confidently.

"no." you shook your head, fighting back tears.

"what? he didn't cheat on you?"

"he did. and i was going to forgive him for that."

Spencer started getting riled up, "what! why? you're worth more than that scumbag! you shouldn't ha-"

"Spencer just let me finish!" you cut him off. he went silent, chest rising and falling more rhythmically than it had seconds earlier. "he wanted me to chose. him or you."

"him or me?" he furrowed his eyebrows, voice much quieter now.

"mhm." you hummed not meeting his gaze, your cheeks redder than you'd like to admit.

"i don't understand." he breathed.

"he thought i was cheating on him with you. he had no proof and it w-"

"oh this is all my fault. y/n i'm so sorry!"

"no! spence its not your fault!" you grabbed his arm to reassure him.

"it is! your boyfriend broke up with you because of me! and now you're sad and lonely and its all my fault!" he cried, looking worriedly into your eyes.

"first of all, i broke it off with him, he just gave the ultimatum. secondly, you did me a favor."

"how?"

"by showing me who i was really dating. a cheating, insecure scumbag who was quick to replace me when i left."

"i guess thats true."

"and id pick you over him any day." you admitted, looking back down at the ground. he nudged your shoulder playfully and you cracked a sad smile

"im sorry i made you sad and lonely."

"you didnt. id be sad and lonely anyway."

"why? you would still have a boyfriend if it wasn't for me."

"i don't want a boyfriend if it isn't you."

shit. shit.

the words toppled out of your mouth before you could stop them.

"what?" he asked, wide eyes and looking a little shocked. spencer was sure in that very moment that if he heard you correctly hed simply explode.

"i- no this was a bad idea. i just ruined everything didnt i!" you were speaking more to yourself, exasperated at your own stupidity.

"no," you felt him place a finger to your chin and lift your gaze to meet his, "im glad you said it because now i can admit it."

"admit what?"

"that im completely and utterly, wholeheartedly and hopelessly in love with you."

"spencer dont play with my heart like this. are you being serious?"

"yes. i am." he said with a strange confidence than you had never heard before. hesitant but sure.

"oh thats so lucky because i am completely and utterly, wholeheartedly and hopelessly in love with you too." you admitted, feeling about 100 pounds lighter, like you could fly. he pulled you into a bone crushing hug which you eagerly accepted. "i should talk about my feelings more often."

he chuckled, pressing a soft kiss to the crown of your head, "yes you should."

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[siriusmydeer]

Hi hi hi, First thing, I legit love your theme sm-

Second thing, I was wondering if I could maybe request a fic where Fred is best friends with a gryffindor fem!reader who try’s to stay in the shadows but he and George are basically her best friends who she loves with all her heart bc they treat her kindly and don’t try to over push her limits and Fred always try’s to check up on her every other night because he wants to make sure she doesn’t get too lonely (they have a really fluffy relationship) and time skip to him asking her to the Yule ball and then dancing with her in private where they can still hear the music but where ppl can’t see because he knows she doesn’t like crowds and idrk just fluffy and they end up kissing or smth

Anyway, have a good day and don’t feel pressured to do this okay! Drink some water and eat some food.

hi, darling!!! thank u so much for the request, also if anyone else has sent me a request i’ll be working on them this weekend. i hope this is what you wanted :))

not a yule ball

fred weasley x fem!gryffindor!reader

summary: fred and you have your own yule ball.

warnings: food, mentions of loneliness, mentions of claustrophobia, mentions of underage drinking, mentions of alcohol, fred being a sweet heart, TOOTH ROTTING FLUFF, mutual pining but freddie being a simp, a KISS, a light slap (like on the chest?), mentions of spiking drinks with alcohol and mentions of a panic attack

word count: 2.2k

“when are you gonna tell her, mate?” george said looking at his ginger twin. “tell who, what?” he said defensively, afraid that he had made his feelings to obvious. “are you forgetting we’re magical twins? i know everything.” george said smugly, smirking and looking back at his newest invention while fred went to lay on his four poster bed.

fred was about to defend himself, lying at the fact his twin caught him dreaming about his crush who also happened to be his bestfriend, besides george of course. “you can barely stomach the thought of her getting pranked, i know you better than yourself it’s not that hard to tell” his twin looked back to his him as fred grumbled something under his breath.

he was about to continue his plea to his fiery headed twin as you, you’re gorgeous locks framing your face, your perfect coloured irises looked for him first, the way your skin looked good in every shade of lighting and the way your figure made its way over to his sitting beside his laying figure.

“you alright, freddie? you look like you’ve seen a ghost.” you said looking at the red head confused. his eyes widened before sitting up next to you. “yeah, you alright love? look a bit fidgety.” he said as you were wringing your fingers together and george smirked over to fred before getting up going to the common room.

“alright, i guess. for transfiguration mcgonagall partnered me with people i don’t really know so i have to meet them in the library soon. i dunno, it’s stupid m’just nervous” you mumbled, embarrassed before looking at him. he scooted closer to you and placing a hand on your arm.

“darling, if you want i can talk to her, i mean she favours us gryffindors and i can tell her i’ll lay off the pranks and stuff?” he said quickly before adding, “i just don’t want you to feel uncomfortable.” he said in a sorrowful tone, rubbing his hand up and down your arm before pulling you into a hug. his hands rested on your waist as your arms winded their way around his neck and your head on his shoulder.

“no..no... m’fine i’ll just get over it, i have to go but i’ll see you and georgie later?” you said standing up, smoothing down your skirt and walking towards the door. “yeah?” “of course darling, i couldn’t leave you alone even if i wanted too.” and with that you were off to the library. a few seconds later the other mischievous twin apparated into the dorm and pouncing on fred’s bed.

“damn, didn’t know you were that whipped.” george added, with a laugh. “oh, bugger off!” the long haired ginger, yelled hitting george with a pillow.

later that evening fred couldn’t keep his mind off you, and your well being. he always knew that you tended to distance yourself, normally not on purpose but it was a habit that he always wanted to help you break. he knew like it was written on the back of his hand that large crowds made you nervous, he also knew that that when you were nervous you would pull on your favourite ring he made you for your birthday. you tended to like things homemade things rather than store bought, when you were nervous you would bounce your leg to the point where he would have to grab your leg to stop it.

he memorized every quirk, every indication of a mood change and he knew when things were good or bad. he didn’t think he was whipped, he thought this was what friends normally for other friends. that was until he saw you flip your hair a certain way, or loosen that gryffindor tie of yours and he absolutely wanted to kiss you senseless. he hadn’t told you, or george for that matter because he didn’t want to ruin the strong friendship you had built since second year when he helped you through a panic attack after snape had embarrassed you infront of the whole class.

‘maybe i should check on her... i don’t want to be to clingy?’ he thought to himself.

he opted to go to your dormitory, biding past the charm on the staircase and knocking on your door twice, an indication it was him before seeing you on your lay on your twin bed chipping away at your nail polish. “anything you wanna talk about?” he said before hopping on your bed sitting back on your headboard.

“it wasn’t bad, just frustrating.” you said looking into his brown irises through your dark eyelashes. “cormac kept speaking over me, he just kept interrupting and it was frustrating.” you mumbled before looking back at your fingernails.

“you had mclaggen in your group? absolutely not, i’m talking to mcgonagall.” he said, trying to stand up but not before you grabbed his hand pulling it back down. he got flustered at the completely innocent gesture, face flaring up, stomach getting tingly and his heart feeling like it could burst from his chest.

“you freddie, aren’t doing anything.” you sigh, “i’ll just work through it, it’s only a few days.” you giggled before adding, “plus if you’re coming to check on me, then i really don’t mind.” you say scrunching your nose in his direction before padding over to your desk to grab something.

if fred was flustered before, everything that had just occurred inside of his body exhilarated one hundred times harder. you WANTED him to come see you, and check on you. fred was of course, quite the flirt and he mostly new what to say to girls. but with a girl as gorgeous, and caring as you, you had him completely speechless.

“hey- you ate today right? drank water, took care of yourself? i know you forget sometimes, angel...” he said sheepishly fumbling with his ring-clad fingers looking at his lap. you smiled at his ability for care for someone, you of all people, “yeah... yeah, hermione brought me stuff.” you looked at him before grabbing a makeup wipe and looking in the mirror.

“i should- i should go me and george.... are working on a new prank, so i’m gonna go.” he said before walking to the door,

“see you tomorrow, freddie?”

“see you tomorrow, darling.”

the first bit of the semester quickly approached, the sooner you were to christmas, the sooner was... the yule ball. a ball with teenagers, dancing, fancy clothes and people trying to subtly drink alcohol... i mean who wouldn’t love it? you. you definitely did not love it. big sweaty crowds, with music you probably wouldn’t like, and drink spiking with god knows what liquor.

i mean as long as the clothes were ugly you definitely didn’t mind, and seeing fred in a suit was something you also definitely did not mind either but the claustrophobia of it all really made you want to lay in your bed and have a nice and long nap.

george’s reminders of fred’s pining definitely didn’t help either, fred wanted to go with you of course but he also knew that you definitely weren’t fond of big groups. so he had a brewing idea bubbling in that gorgeous mind of his, and the room of requirement. he had went to george with the idea hoping that it was a way to have a fun time in your own way, the more sensitive twin of the bunch agreed it was great idea.

after working on a 4ft scroll for potions, you were about to go find your 2 prankster bestfriends when you heard a double knock at the door and then the creak of it opening. you’re favourite fiery redhead walked in without his normal strut, and padded in nervously with his gaze strictly at the floor before sheepishly looking at you. “are you busy..?” he said before walking closer.

you set your quill down and look back at him and cock an eyebrow, “no...why?” you said nervously, hoping he wasn’t about to prank you considering he hadn’t since the beginning of term.

“i wanted to take you somewhere.., that’s if your not busy” he said interlocking his fingers together looking back at you. “no i’ve just done all my homework..” you stuck your hand out, “take me to the secret man cave where you test all your pranks on the innocent.” you said giggling while he interlocks your fingers together.

you guys roam around the castle till he guides you up the astronomy tower, the sky painted hues of red and orange.

“i’ve never looked at the view from up here...” you say flashing your irises towards him then back at the sunset. “yeah, it’s stunning.” he says, staring directly at your (BEAUTIFULLY CARVED) side profile, “oh yeah, the sunsets alright too” he said with a chuckle, untangling your fingers and brining his arm around your waist.

you look back at the lanky red head before lightly slapping your hand against his chest and looking up at him. “such a flirt, weasley.” you say looking back at the fading sky.

“go to the ball with me.”

“well that’s demanding.”

“well, get a pretty dress, do your hair all nice or don’t you look gorgeous at every moment of the day” fred wasn’t sure where this surge of gryffindor confidence came from, but he wasn’t exactly going to back down now.

“and don’t worry we’re not gonna be around sweaty, horny teenagers... i’ve got a surprise.” he says looking at you with smirk, oh he new you all too well.

“yeah freddie, i’ll go to a not yule ball with you”

then night was tonight, a pretty dress that excentuated every dip, curve and line of your body. you chose gryffindor red for house pride, even thought nobody would see it besides fred. you had done your makeup to perfectly match your completion, and done a hair style that exactly matched the hair type that laid on your head. your tresses, makeup and dress all compliment each-other. you look in the mirror a little more, wringing your fingers together before looking up at the door.

fred opened the door, leaning on its frame. his hair was long, not styled but you had always liked it better messy anyways. he was dressed in brown and black dress robes and if you thought fred was attractive before? you really thought we was beautiful now.

“you’re-... wow. everything is wow, you’re just so beautiful” fred said, looking you up and down analyzing your hair, face, and dress. “freddie, you look... really good” you nervously laughed before walking up to his lanky figure.

he grabbed your hand and brought you through the hallways, he also had made you cover your eyes and guided you once you reached a certain hallway. your movements were put to a halt when he whispered to you that were were almost there, you stood before a few seconds before you heard his footsteps again. ‘was he.... pacing?’ you thought to yourself. he grabbed your hand again before bringing you in a room.

“okay... open your eyes”

you quickly opened your eyes, a giant ballroom, with a instruments charmed to play your favourite music and fred to your left grinning like an idiot.

“oh my merlin.... did you do all this for me?” you say looking at him in the eyes, eyebrows scrunched and tearing welling in your eyes. ���sweaty teenagers, bad music and spiked drinks with fire whisky aren’t really your favourite but i still wanted you to have a good evening. so i opted for this.” he said before looking at the floor then back at you.

“fred, i cannot fathom how amazing you are.” you said with a squeal before kissing his cheek and running to the middle of the floor. “c’mon now! don’t waste the music, dance with me!”

and with that, he was off. some songs were fast, some songs were slow. but then your favourite slow song came and he knew no matter how much protesting his brain was saying, george’s little voice was much to over powering. “i can see those gears in your head moving, care to tell me what your thinking about?”

“you.”

“i’m going to need you to elaborate, please.” she always has a smooth way with words, he thought.

“everything, you’re everything. you mean everything to me.” fred definitely wasn’t a nervous, butterfly in the stomach and flustered guy but for for you we was tripping over his feet and becoming beet red at the slightest touch from you.

“kiss me.” for being such a closed off girl, you sure were bold. you said it more of a statement rather than a question but fred didn’t care, in that moment he only wanted to kiss the girl that also wanted to kiss him.

he moved his hand to your cheek, stroking it with his thumb. he moved forward engaging you in a kiss, it was slow, passionate and it was something you had been both waiting for. you pulled away for a second to let your lungs breath but not before he captured your lips again moving faster, his grip on your waist tighted.

“merlin, i’ve been waiting to do that”

[sapphosclown]

001 for tyrus and lumity pleaseee because i love them!!

from this

omg i love them too

ima put this under a keep reading cause it’s kinda long lol

Tyrus

when I started shipping it if I did:

oh idk i watched the show after the whole thing had aired but i think as soon as we saw tj and cyrus getting closer and their chemistry growing that was when i was like i love these two

my thoughts:

i don’t fully understand what this means but in general i love them i think their relationship is fantastic and the development is so well done

What makes me happy about them:

they bring out the best in each other. cyrus doesn’t just help tj but tj helps him as well. it’s a mural care they have for each other and they both care so deeply

What makes me sad about them:

we didn’t get to see them actually in a relationship doing coupley things/in their honeymoon phase. ik theyre in middle school but i would’ve really loved to actually see their relationship

things done in fanfic that annoys me:

idk if this counts bc this goes for every kids show but when people sexualizing their relationship. like gross theyre middle schoolers. but other than that idrk? maybe, sometimes authors will make cyrus over bubbly when he’s really not like that?

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: 

low key for cyrus- jonah. i thought they were endgame when i first watched the show and while i don’t actively ship it i think jyrus is kinda cute in the certain way i frame it in my head. also tarty rights

My happily ever after for them:

oh gee. idk i think i hc tj as some sort of gym/pe teacher or like a history teacher maybe? but he works with kids and tbh i’m not sure what my hc for cyrus is. maybe i’m ✨projecting✨ but idk how i feel ab him becoming a therapist but i also don’t think he ends up becoming a director or anything but he’s doing something that makes him happy and him and tj have a house and two kids and andi and buffy are their honorary aunts idk i think they deserve a domestic life

who is the big spoon/little spoon:

tj is usually big spoon but cyrus knows he likes to be little spoon

what is their favorite thing to do together:

picnic dates!! cyrus gets annoyed by the bugs so they have candles everywhere and sometimes they’ll have a book that they’ll read together and sometimes they just lay down and cuddle and when it gets dark they like to look at the stars and cyrus tells tj the names of all the constellations and tj tried to memorize them but he doesn’t try too hard cause he know cyrus is gonna tell him again next time anyways

Lumity

when I started shipping it if I did:

way before i even watched the show lol. i knew they were gonna be a thing and that was most of why i watched it lol

my thoughts:

they’re so cute!! they really captured the gay panic really well and i love how their enemies to friends to lovers arc played out. i haven’t started s2 yet cause i kinda wanna watch it with my brother but i might soon

What makes me happy about them:

good queer rep on a kids show. it’s just pure crushes and oblivious luz in s1 is absolutely precious and i love them

What makes me sad about them:

oh idk… honestly nothing i can think of rn

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: 

willow for both of them

My happily ever after for them:

they’re both fully realized witches and i always kinda imagine luz like teaching either humans or witches in general (maybe both?) the original way of magic so it doesn’t get lost again and idk ab amity. i think maybe she grows out of the needing to be the center of everything golden star student thing and is just doing whatever makes her happy. and they live in a secluded lil house kinda like the owl house but this one is theirs

who is the big spoon/little spoon:

amity is the little spoon but she wants people to think she’s the big spoon (everyone knows the truth tho)

what is their favorite thing to do together:

they teach each other spells! amity will show luz what she knows and luz will try and figure out what the rune(?) for that spell is and she’ll show amity the drawings for the spells she knows and amity is always in awe like wow i can’t believe she’s so smart and figured all this out in her own

[purplesurveys]

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Who are you subscribed to on YouTube?  Oh man, I’m probably subscribed to over a hundred, if not 200. I’ve subscribed to channels relevant to interests I’ve had over the years, and since it’s not my habit to do spring cleaning on my feeds, the subscriptions have just keep piling up even if I no longer keep up with literally like 98% of them.

Do you like to go to the farmer's market?  I don’t think I’ve ever been in one yet. They aren’t very common here and the ones we do have are pricey and mostly inaccessible to the everyday consumer, I’m sure.

What will (or was) the color of your wedding dress be?  I wouldn’t want any other color than white.

What's your favorite melon?  I don’t like fruits.

What was the name of the last pet of yours that died?  Arlee. Technically my family mostly considered her as just Nina’s pet, but the sting was felt all the same when we learned she died.

When was the last time you wished the day would just get over with?  Yesterday, because it was Friday. Pretty self-explanatory, I wanted to get to the weekend so I can finally let go of work for a couple of days.

Name one person you've never had a fight with:  Andi. I think we’re both afraid of pissing the other off, which works out for us lol.

What are you currently listening to?  I can just hear the really loud whirring of my electric fan because it’s a grossly humid day today.

What would you rather have: cat or dog?  Dogs.

Who is your least favorite person in real life?  I have a lot of uncles I just don’t like.

Do you ever watch anybody's live stream of... anything, really?  Technically, yeah. I will sometimes tune in to livestreams of lofi music on YouTube, but I do it to listen, not to watch. 

Does your house have security cameras?  No.

If you go grey as you age, would you dye your hair or let it be?  I think I might dye it for a certain period of time, but I also think I would eventually reach the point where I’ll just accept it and slowly let go of the dye.

What was the last establishment you stopped going to due to bad service? What happened?  I haven’t run into much bad service, but I’ll never forget how long my order and bill took for Mad Mark’s. I never really vowed per se to never go back there again and I definitely didn’t confront the staff, but I haven’t eaten there since that incident.

What soundtrack do you listen to the most?  Not a big soundtrack listener.

Was there a family secret you weren’t told about until you were an adult?  Nah, they’re kept from us until now. The biggest one I’ve heard about was having a kleptomaniac in the family but we were never told who it is.

Do you have an opinion most people you meet seem to disagree with you?  Yeah, my dislike for fruits.

What’s something you like to have many options to choose from?  Clothes, I guess, like bucket hats. I don’t shop a lot and clothes aren’t a priority in my budget, so when I do pick out clothes, it has to be exactly what I want so that I don’t feel it was a waste of money.

What’s the strangest decorative object you own?  We have several quirky, disconnected decor in the living room from gifts we’ve acquired over the years. One object I can tell you about is the polar bear glass figurine we have on the coffee table.

What’s a thing you couldn’t imagine doing with your life right now?  Dating around.

What’s been your proudest moment?  Managing to stay alive this year and turn my life around for the better when I thought there was no hope.

What’s the filthiest non-pornographic movie you’ve seen?  Eyes Wide Shut, probably.

Do you know anyone who doesn't seem to be fond of animals?  I don’t think so. Like any animal...? I would find that quite odd, honestly. And I wouldn’t want to be friends with them if we weren’t already close .

Are you planning any outings or trips anytime soon? Whereabouts?  No, nothing set in stone. I do want to fly out to South Korea soon, though.

Do you know anyone who has a phobia of a certain animal?  I know a few people who are afraid of dogs.

Is there a particular brand of technology/electronics that you prefer?  Yeah, Apple.

Is there a singer whose voice gives you goosebumps/chills?  Hayley Williams and Jin, especially when he’s belting; and I don’t listen to her much, but I find that Billie Eilish has a unique voice that sounds really nice.

And is there a singer whose voice you simply can't stand?  Selena Gomez for some of her songs, Meghan Trainor for most of her songs.

Are there any authors that are particularly dominant on your bookshelf?  No.

Have you seen any photographs or videos that made you smile today?  Sure.

Which item in your fridge are you most looking forward to consuming? My aunt sent over this gigantic-ass slab of salmon that I can’t wait to eat as sashimi. I already had a few pieces last night and it was hea ven ly.

Has anyone you know got into a new relationship lately?  Hmm, I don’t think so. I know my coworker Dev got into a relationship a few weeks ago but it fizzled out as soon as it started because the guy was shitty.

If you menstruate, do you experience much PMS prior to it?  Only on the emotional side; I rarely get physical symptoms. I usually feel down or emotionally heavy a few days before my period.

Have you ever had a tattoo covered up or added to?  No, I don’t have any tattoos. Can you remember the last time you had a sudden change of mind?  Hmm, like last night. I wanted to stay up to maximize the weekend, buuuut I decided against it and slept instead since I had been up since 2 in the morning.

When was the last time you did something on a whim?  Two weeks ago when I impulsively dropped a thousand bucks to have cheese tarts delivered to Angela and Reena, hahaha.

Were you raised by both of your parents? If not, then who raised you?  My mom, grandma, and one of my aunts were the main people who raised me. Dad works overseas, so he was never at home much.

Have you ever began a relationship with someone you knew for less than a week?  No, I wouldn’t do that.

Has one of your friends ever tried to ‘hook you up?’  Mik tried to pair me with one of his friends just days before I finally implied on social media that I was no longer in a relationship. It was a cool ego boost but I declined, since my emotions were still super turbulent then. Andi tried to initiate sex with me once too, but I also declined.

What is your card game of choice?  I hate card games; I can never seem to understand them lmao, though that’s really more of a me problem than anything else.

What is your favourite books series?  Growing up, I really loved the Septimus Heap series. But the thing about it was that I got into it while the series was still ongoing; and with how bad my attention span is, I always forgot the events/plot whenever the newest book came out. 

So whenever that happened I had to read the entire series from Book 1; eventually the number of books I had to reread/revisit became too many (it was a seven-part series) and I simply just lost the time to read and I never got to know about the conclusion.

Do you prefer landmarks or street names when being given directions?  Street names – more precise. Landmarks to me can be pretty subjective – a green building might look blue to me, and I could just end up being lost.

Do you read the prologues in the beginnings of books?  Sure.

What was your favourite gym class moment?  If I genuinely like or already play the sport that was being taught. That’s why PE table tennis was a lot of fun for me.

Do you think that ocean boardwalks are fun?  I’ve never been on one but I imagine they are fun, yeah.

Do you dread when people ask you to sign their yearbooks?  That’s not a tradition here.

Do you have a favourite Scooby-Doo movie?  No. I was too young for Scooby-Doo in a sense that I do remember watching the movies as a 3/4 year old as they were kept on in the background at home, but I didn’t get any of the plots/didn’t really appreciate the films.

Do you think it’s cute when toddlers try to run away and fall down?  Sometimes, yeah. If the fall looked nasty I would obviously be concerned.

Do you enjoy listening to your grandparents tell stories of their past?  Honestly, only one of my grandparents would be the type to do this but he’s been dead for six years now. It’s a big shame he passed before I could bond with him the way I had always wanted to. My three other grandparents are either too closed off or too quiet to share stories from their youth.

Do you have a crush on someone? Nah, nothing more than a celebrity crush.

If so... what does his/her name begin with? 

What attracts you to them? 

Do they know that you like them? 

If they don't know, why didn't you tell them? 

Name two people that you miss:  Angela and Laurice.

Have you ever seen Titanic?  More times than I can count. I’m sure I memorize like 80% of the script, too.

Have you ever swam with dolphins?  No. I’m not so sure if I’ve seen dolphins, either. Maybe I have? Or maybe I’m confusing it with whales...idrk.

When was the last time you had a stomachache?  Wednesday.

What's going to bed early for you?  11 PM or midnight.

Do you want to have a big family in the future?  I used to, but I don’t think that’s the future I want anymore. One or two kids should be okay.

What was the last thing you did that gave you a rush?  Technically speaking, an orgasm, I guess?? Lmao idk

Favorite Nicholas Cage movie?  I don’t think I have one.

Have you had your Covid vaccine yet? Which one, if you have?  Yeah, I’m fully dosed. Sinovac.

If you've had your vaccine, did you experience any side effects?  I was suuuuuuper tired right after my first dose and I wanted to be knocked the fuck out, but I went right back to work after the shot because I am allergic to filing leaves hahaha. Second dose went smoothly.

What's the next item of clothing that you intend to buy for yourself?  A bucket hat or maybe one of the Fila x BTS shirts because the collection is actually quite cute!

What Facebook groups have you found the most helpful?  I join Facebook groups to be entertained, not because I actively look for advice.

Do you like your butt? Why or why not?  Yeah. It...has a good form hahahahahaha.

Have you ever personally been a victim of homophobia?  Yes, a few years ago I went to a food park with my ex-girlfriend. I was already not feeling my best that day to begin with, so having to see an old woman stare daggers at us for what felt like years really stung. I felt small under her look and almost cried, but in the end I felt angry that I momentarily felt shame about my relationship. I decided to just piss the woman off on purpose and do PDA right in front of her.

Do you think you’d be happier if you had a pet? I have two dogs at present and I know they make me extremely happy.

Who was the last person you went on a date with?  Gabie.

Were you ever hospitalized as a little kid?  No. The first and only time I was hospitalized (other than being birthed), I was about 12, I think.

What’s your favorite way to curl your hair?  I don’t do that. I rarely style my hair.

At what age did you start swearing?  I was 11.

What is something you physically can’t do?  Ride a bike.

What do like better, apples or oranges?  I don’t like any fruits; but in terms of flavored stuff, I like orange-flavored food, especially chewy candy, slightly more.

Around the holidays, do you hope for snow?  Well, no.

What are your top two favorite bands?  Paramore and Against Me!

How many people do you 100% trust?  There are a handful. I generally trust easily just because I like to believe all people are kind and loyal – but I can also take it away in the snap of a finger.

Do you care what others think about you?  Not so much.

Has anyone ever called you a bitch?  Sure.

Did you watch Teletubbies when you were younger?  Yeah but just super super faint memories. It wasn’t one of my main shows.

Do you have any licenses other than your driver's license?  I don’t.

Could you live the rest of your life without eating meat?  I doubt it. I could try, but I think I’d get cranky and start looking for meat way earlier than I would like to admit.

Have you ever had a rolling backpack?  Yup, if you mean a stroller. I think I’ve answered this on a previous survey.

Did you make any money today?  No, because it’s a weekend. What was the highest place you've ever jumped from?  Nothing dramatically high. I’ve had acrophobia-themed nightmares in the past, so even though I don’t actually have a fear of heights, the idea of jumping from a high place still makes me antsy.

Have you ever gone swimming in a river?  Not that I can recall.

What was the last souvenir someone got you?  I dunno if it counts but Andi bought merch from the AEW shop but made sure to also get a CM Punk sticker set for me :(

Do you have a favorite remix of a song?  Remixes have never been my thing. What do you think is the most saddest sounding instrument?  Piano.

Do you really pay attention to the ratings on movies?  Yeah they can definitely affect the level of appreciation I hold towards a film. For instance, if I genuinely enjoyed a movie only to find out it has average to bad reviews, it invites me to think more critically about the movie.

Do you have a favorite species of wild cat (tiger/lion/cougar/etc.)?  No.

If you had $500,000, what would you do with it?  Give half to my parents and let them do whatever they wish it. With the remaining P12,500,000, I’d probably get myself my own condo and have it fully furnished, then get braces, then get a new phone and laptop. I’ll have a bunch of money still left, I’m pretty sure – the rest of it I’ll save.

Did the last person you touched lips with have a kid?  No. I mean, I have honestly no clue what’s going on in her life now, but I know she doesn’t want kids so this is very unlikely.

"First loves are never really over." Is this true for you?  It’s true in a sense that she left me a lot of trauma and self-esteem issues that will irrevocably always be a part of me now even though I’ve worked hard to resolved most of them by myself.

Did you like Michael Jackson before he died?  Yes, because he has always been my favorite singer’s role model.

What are some things that would make you break up with someone?  I don’t know how to answer this question, honestly. All the red flags were thrown and tossed and slapped into my face and down my throat for six years yet I never left. I don’t actually know what my limits are, and I believe it’s because my coping mechanism has to just accept things and suck them up no matter how bad they get. That’s what I’m trying to change for myself now.

What was the worst breakup you've ever had?  I’ve had two breakups with the same person, and the second one was worse.

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“There you go.” Huffs you, placing the glass of water and tablets on the coffee table as Chan soundly sleeps on the couch, tucked with cushions and blankets. His face toned down from the red hue it was earlier on; he must’ve drank a lot, you figured.

You leave after once last glance at Chan, getting closer to the sound of snoring from your room.

Time for challenge number two, Choi Seungcheol.

Quietly entering, you see your best friend curled in the centre of your bed, using his sleeves to warm his hands. It was funny to you, how eager he was to go when you collected him and Chan (he seemed pretty impressed that you initiated the hookup), but once reaching to your bed — promising he’ll ‘help’ you with Chan — he was out like a light.

You observe his sleeping state for a while, reminiscing to your childhood. He practically had a guest room to himself in your hometown house, but every time he would ask if he could sleep in your room, each reason differing: I’m scared of the dark, last time I saw a big spider, maybe the ghosts will come and get me. You were surprised he didn’t grow out of that phase, though was it a bad thing?

Kicking off your slippers, you approach the bed, crawling with a lot of caution. It wasn’t like Seungcheol was going to wake up — he was the heaviest sleeper you knew — but he would typically grumble if the bed moved too much.

Taking up the offered space on the edge of the bed, your head adjusts itself to realise the close proximity you were in with Seungcheol.

Of course, this was practically nothing.

You drape a blanket over the man, tucking as much as you can reach so that he can naturally relax into the added warmth, now staring straight at his face.

Something came over you. Your face moved closer and pressed a kiss on top of the male’s head, a beat of silence responding to you. Pulling back, time feels like it slows down, giving you a chance to think.

His eyelashes are still long, you think, they’ll always be pretty…

Your eyes roam to each feature, from his cheekbones to beauty spots, tinted ears from all the drinking and rosy lips stretching out to showcase his dimples — you always loved his dimples, the childish grin followed after.

After so long you could memorise every feature of Seungcheol: every scar, every mole on his back, all the fading kiss marks from you or past relationships.

Past relationships; what a word.

It crawled with unease, some form of dislike amongst you and it never got to you of why that was.

“‘Cheol…” You raise barely above a whisper, fingers reaching to swipe the stray hairs away from his face, “What are we?”

It’s been a standby question for the longest time. Hell, you can’t even remember when this all started; highschool? New years? College? And it wasn’t as simple as asking Seungcheol directly, because that only caused more relationship-damaging for you and him.

You didn’t want that.

He had a first love, crushes, multiple relationships, and you? There was only one person.

Your Seungcheol.

Your first, you could call him that, possibly your last, but that remained to be a mystery.

Loving is a dangerous concept. The trust, the commitment, the “everything” you suppose. If ever, you wished it wasn’t a real emotion, but come Seungcheol and everything falls into its place.

Until now you had no clue what he gained out of this, he just wanted you to show that love could be something you would enjoy.

“You don’t need to block out love,” a young Seungcheol voices in your memory, “in the end, you can never really get rid of it. If you want, I can show you that there are things in life you can love.”

And a few years down the line, you remain as best friends but the area seems more grey now.

Small platonic acts turned to habits, kisses escalated something more, I love you’s became blurry.

“Seungcheol? Ow, my head,”

You roll out of bed rapidly, eyes directed to the door to thankfully see no Chan peeping through the door. Thank god he didn’t see any of that, you relieve as you walk out of the room, shutting the door.

“Chan!” You somewhat exclaim. “Did you see the water and tablets?”

He nods, smile trying to hide pain, “I took them, thanks. Where’s, um, Seungcheol?” His face slightly turns panicked. “Don’t tell me he left for a… Y’know… What do I tell Jeonghan now-“

“No need to worry, he’s sleeping like a baby in my room.” Your fingers knock on the wood lightly, Chan nodding enthusiastically before wincing in pain.

“Your room?”

“Childhood habit,”

Chan smiles at the words. “You sure know him well.”

I don’t, I have no damn clue about him, us, he’s a mystery.

“I guess I do. So, do you want another drink?”

OPPOSITES ATTRACT PART SEVEN — Hopeless Romantic!Seungcheol x Hopeful Romantic!Reader

i honestly wrote this just now sorry if its very... ew maybe i can update tomorrow? but idrk oh but anyway hi i love 95 line... okay bye!!

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pancake breakfasts (tom holland x reader)

requested: hi um so maybe you and tom (who is ur best friend) go to the bar for some fun and some guy tries drugging your drink (whether he does or not is up to u) and tom protects you and brings you home safe. (also u can add other stuff idrk how to do this)

summary: ^ i mean there it is basically HAHA

warning: some foul language, date rape drug

word count: 1776

you stare out the window and watch the people on the sidewalks. some are just standing there, some are walking, maybe even a light jog to get where they need to be.

you let out a little sigh you didn't know you were keeping in and looked to your left. tom was sitting on his phone, not paying attention. you playfully smacked his phone from behind, sending it down on his feet.

"you're a bitch," he laughs picking up his phone but this time placing it on his lap.

you smile, turning your head back to the window and see the red and green neon lights that read: HOLLYWOOD CLUB CRAWL.

"yeah, this is it on the right!" you said to your uber driver, he nodded and pulled over letting you and tom.

tom takes your hand and you both run across the street to the club. you get inside with no problem and find a spot at the bar. you both had pregamed just a little bit.

just a little.

"YOU. ARE. MY BEST FRIEND," tom yelled downing a shot and pointing at you.

"you're MY BEST FRIEND TOO," you said back astonished. "i am-i am gonna go dance now!" you stuttered, hoping off your bar stool.

you reached your hand back for tom to grab to come dance. he shook his head and you frowned. "i have to use the bathroom, i'll be-be right back," he stammered, taking his phone in hand and heading off to the bathroom.

you turned around and went out onto the dance floor. you quickly were asked to dance by a man slightly taller than you. he had jet black hair and was wearing khaki shorts and a button up.

you nodded your head because, what the hell! right? you danced with him and ended up grinding on him to the music.

"you're so hot," he whispered in your ear. you kinda ignored it and kept dancing, the alcohol in your system making you more confident than usual.

that's when the guy, who you didn't even know his name started grabbing you where you didn't want to be grabbed. that's when you stopped dancing and turned towards him.

thinking quick you said, "my boyfriend is waiting for me! i better go!" you turned to leave without letting him respond.

as you turned he grabbed your arm, "boyfriend?" he shouted over the music.

"yep!" you tugged on your arm.

"damn, alright!" he let go and made his way deeper in the dance floor. with a sigh you go back to your bar stool and tom was just returning from the bathroom.

you decided not to tell him, knowing he would spend the rest of the night making sure you were safe and you didn't want a babysitter.

you downed a few more shots, alongside tom. finally asking the bartender for a glass of beer. and you decided that would be your last drink.  at least for a while.

tom wanted to dance now, pulling you out on the dance floor with your beer still in hand. you both danced crazily to the music alongside other drunk girls and guys who planned to hook up.

"hold on!" you scream and run to put your drink down on the table, coming back seconds later to keep dancing.

tom spun you around and quickly pulled you in close to him.

you had never really noticed but his eyebrow had this thing where is kinda swooped up. you don't know why but you found it kind of cute in the moment. you were so close to him that you could notice small details of his face.

the bridge in his nose from breaking it so many times. the small scar on his chin from his brothers and him roughhousing, his unusually small but very adorable lips, and the specs of joy in his hazel eyes. you couldn't help but just start to smile at him.

it had felt like light years of you being that close to him. being as drunk as you were, you sorta started to lean in to kiss him.

but he pulled back and started stammering.

"fuck, i'm-im sorry i-" you started saying, backing up a little bit.

"no, it's okay. really i-"

but you had already started walking away. back to the bar to down the entire rest of your beer. you can't believe you just did that.

not even because you're best friends, you both had kissed before it's not like it's weird.

it's because you sorta had feelings for him in way that wasn't just best friends. you wanted more than just friends.

you wanted pancake breakfasts after a sleep over, you wanted to cuddle while watching scary movies, for him to cuddle you even tighter during the scary parts, you wanted goodbye and hello kisses.

you wanted to go on cute dates to the cinema, having a waitress know your order at a small diner, going to the beach at sunset with him, and just be a couple.

you wanted a relationship with him.

tom just wanted to be friends. which is fine. it's perfectly fine.

you got back to the bar after what felt like ages and grabbed your beer and chugged it hard. tom had followed close behind you and began speaking.

he was speaking but you couldn't hear any of the words he was saying. it was like he was mouthing his words. you went to speak and all that came out was stutters and nothingness.

you began to look around, your vision was hazy and very unsteady but you could see the guy from before at the other end of the bar, he was watching you.

you looked back to your drink and then back to tom who had noticed something was wrong.

taking in a deep breath, you tried to take a few steps but fell to your knees. you could hear tom yell your name and try and help you up. after a while everything just went black.

**

you let out a deep groan and opened your eyes.

your head was pounding but you were back in toms apartment, laying in his bed.

you looked over and he was no where to be found, you looked to the bed side table and saw a bottle of water and motrin.

you smiled at how sweet he was. you took three motrin and downed the water bottle.

it took everything in you to move but once you did you were fine.

somehow you were now wearing an over sized t shirt and baggy sweat pants. you shook your head, not caring and went downstairs.

you saw tom in the kitchen and he was cooking.

he was making pancakes.

"hi," you said softly, squinting your eyes at the bright lights in his apartment.

"oh my gosh, hi," tom gasped, coming around the island and giving you a hug. to which you returned. "are you okay? how do you feel? did you take the motrin? i hope you don't mind i got you-"

"tom i'm fine, yes i took the motrin. thank you," he smiled back at you.

"good," he took your hand and brought you to the chair at the island and sat you down and he returned to making pancakes.

"what, uh, what happened last night?" you asked. maybe you could play it off like you didn't remember trying to kiss him, maybe he doesn't even remember he was quite drunk too.

"some asshole drugged your drink, the bartender went back and looked at the films. after you passed out they arrested him,"

"holy shit-"

"you really scared me," he said to you, looking up from the pancakes and starring directly at you. "i thought you were gonna, well, uh, die."

"i didn't, i'm okay."

"i know, and i'm thanking every god on the world for that," he sighed.

you decided to just come clean. "i'm sorry that i tried to kiss you, i was just really drunk-"

"you only did it because you were drunk?" he interrupted you quickly.

"y-yeah," you looked down, playing with your hands.

"oh,"

there was a little silence after that. you didn't want to come clean with everything just yet. he doesn't need to know about your weird crush on him.

"why're you, uh, making pancakes?"

he smirked, "because when we got home last night and i put you in bed you kept mumbling in your sleep that you wanted a pancake breakfast after a sleepover."

you laughed along with him.

"you also said that you wanted to cuddle watching scary movies, goodbye and hello kisses, dates to the cinema. you just kinda kept talking," he was fully smirking now, but only looking at the pancakes he was making.

you were utterly horrified. you kept your stare down at your hands, popping your fingers and playing with them, not sure what else to do.

he said your name and you looked up. "i pulled back last night because i was scared you were just doing it because you were drunk."

"what?"

"i didn't want to kiss you only to find out you just did it because you were drunk. i would want it to mean something.." he trailed off.

he flipped a pancake and slowly looked up at you.

he had the cutest puppy dog eyes there could ever be.

"you're right, it- it wouldn't have meant anything to me last night," he looked down, almost hurt. you got up off your chair and went next to him.

you tugged on the sides of his shirt, pulling him closer to you, reaching up you cupped his cheek. "but it means something now." you leaned up a tiny bit and kissed him.

he didn't even have to think about kissing you back, he just did it. he wrapped his arm around your back, pulling you closer- if that was even possible- and dropped the spatula on the counter with his other hand which he placed on your cheek as well.

"can i tell you something?" he asked pulling away, you nodded. "i wasted so many years by not telling you how i felt, because i think you felt the exact same  way, the entire time."

"we're really stupid, aren't we?" you both laughed and you kissed him again.

[kylo-ren-writes]

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Pairing: Kylo Ren x Reader

Request: anon requested:

“I dont know if you are still doing requests but I have one !! Kylo x Reader where they get into an argument and the reader flitches when she thinks kylo is going to hit her ?? idrk just a thought and it ends in fluff and reassurance :))) thank you, your writing is the best !!”

Warnings: Angst, fluff, might be kinda short? (Idk, I don’t really care about word count, tbh)

A/N: Thanks for the request, anon. I liked it a lot! I hope you guys enjoy this little request, and feel free to send one in yourself, if you want! :) (Gif not mine!)

He was late again, he was always late.

Crossing your arms over your chest, you stared pointedly at the blastdoor that separates you from the hallway outside of the room you share with Kylo.

Kylo was supposed to have met you, here, ten minutes ago. Like the predictable man he was, he was not here and he was late.

Typical.

You know that he is the Supreme Leader and he has the entire First Order under his command, as well as a galaxy to rule, but he really couldn’t let general Hux do something? You barely see him as it is with both of your very time consuming schedules, so, it would be rather considerate of him if he could commit to a time to see you.

After all, you miss him like crazy.

The thought narrows in your brows and down turns the corners of your mouth as you think about the minimal amount of hours you have spent with him since he crowned himself Supreme Leader. It makes you sad.

Before, when Kylo was only the commander, he was still very busy, but you both always managed to make it work. Even with Kylo’s demanding position and his extensive, time consuming training, along with your job on the command bridge as a high ranking officer. The two of you used to spend as much time together as you could, and were always eager to do so. Now, however, it was like you were meeting him your half of the way and Kylo wasn’t moving an inch.

Did Kylo even want to spend time with you? Did he even care about you? Or, still care about you?

It was always hard to tell what exactly was swarming around inside Kylo’s mind, but now you felt like it was impossible. You just felt so out of touch with him.

Not only did it make you sad, but it also made you angry.

Your frown deepens and you chew on the inside of your cheek with a grinding force, allowing your gradual anger to stew.

This man just infuriates you at most times, but you refuse to be sad over him. Not when he wasn’t going to make time for you anymore.

Another, long, ten minutes went by when the blastdoor to your room finally opened, revealing the man, who you were now pointing daggers at, behind it.

Kylo walked in with a slight hunch, his fists balled in their typical clench against his sides as he had the audacity to stride on over to where you sat on the edge of one of the couches that filled the space of the front room.

Your arms tightened over your chest and you lifted your chin, not caring that he completely towered over you with you sitting down.

“You’re late,” you exclaim, lifting your chin up more than you would like as he draws near.

One of his dark eyebrows lift up in an almost amused expression. Although, it could hardly be called that, you just know him well enough to decipher any minuscule look conjured up on his handsome face. Stupidly handsome face.

“Only by a few minutes,” Kylo replies, and you swear you can see a smirk lifting up one of the corners of his mouth. It’s so minuscule though, you could have imagined it.

“A few minutes!” You gape at him, standing up on your feet. “It’s been twenty minutes, actually. You are twenty minutes late!” The anger that flows through you is scorching. This is serious, you’re being serious. Why can’t he take it seriously?

Kylo shrugs. “I got held up.” All of the (barely there) amusement falls from his face as he senses all the anger laced within your words.

You know you should have a clear, calm head, and not push him, because even though you can have quite the temper of your own, it’s no match against the beast, standing a few feet in front of you. Anger issues would be an understatement when describing Kylo Ren.

Rationality is not on your mind as you step closer to him with a finger pointed at his chest. “You always do this!” You exclaim. “Not only are you always late, but you are so indifferent that you don’t even care!”

Kylo’s placid expression turned into a scowl as he processed your words, a spark of anger igniting inside his chest. “I care,” he said gruffly, trying to rein in his emotions. “I’m very busy. You know that.”

“I do know how busy you are.” You take another step towards him. “I know because it seems to be the only thing you care about now.”

Kylo gives you an incredulous expression. He can’t believe you could possibly think that. “That isn’t true. Yes it takes up a lot of my time; It isn’t easy being the Supreme Leader of the First Order,” he says, fists clenching tighter by his sides. “But regardless, it isn’t the only thing I care about. You know that.”

“Do I?” You counter. “I barely see you, and when I do, you barely even make an effort.” Your finger jabs at his hard chest.

Deep down you do know how much he cares about you. But you’re angry, and stressed, and the combination of both warrant your behaviour.

“You’re being ridiculous,” Kylo snaps. he glances down at your finger, wanting to swat it away. But it’s you, and he could never hurt you or touch you in a way that wasn’t loving. Not intentionally.

You scoff and pull your hand away. “Now you think I’m being ridiculous? Why? Because I want to see the man I love every once in a while. Because, even though he doesn’t seem to give a shit about wanting to spend time with me, I still go the extra mile to see him. Is that why I’m being so ridiculous? If so, then yes, I would agree. The time I’ve wasted on you is ridiculous!”

Your words are scornful and you really don’t mean them, but they do the damage you intend to inflict.

Kylo physically recoils and his whole body goes stiff. An array of emotions flickers over his face one by one, and you immediately regret what you’ve said. 

Anger is there, but mainly hurt is what leaves him vulnerable as he glares down at you. You’re suddenly aware of how far you went. Too far. Way too far.

You take a step backwards right as he takes a step forwards, newly found fear weighing in on your body. “Kylo, I--”

Kylo shakes his head and lifts his arm up to reach out for you, but your body responds first before your head does. You can’t help but flinch at the action of Kylo lifting up his arm.

Suddenly you’re not so angry anymore and neither is Kylo as he realizes what has just transpired.

You thought that he was going to hit you for a few irrational seconds. Irrational because Kylo had never harmed you before, nor would he ever dream of it or entertain the idea. But it was too late. You flinched and cowered away from him, turning your gaze down to the floor.

That fear still lingered along with a mixture of guilt, but the anger was gone.

Kylo’s hand hovered where he had meant to reach for you, NOT to harm you. His whole body was stiff, and if he hadn’t been hurt before, he sure was now.

How could you possibly think that he could hurt you? Was your relationship really so strained? He had thought that the two of you were fine, even if he never got to spend very much time with you...

This realization hit him like a blaster shot to the chest. He was at a loss for words. “I... I could never...” he stammered, trailing off.

The man that was always so cool and confident with his words, arrogant with his posture and swift stride, was gaping at you.

You glanced up at him, seeing how hurt he was. You sighed and lifted your chin, looking up at him. “I know...” you muttered, quietly.

The silence was quiet between you, strained. Neither of you knew what to say to the other.

Kylo’s hand finally lowered back to his side, unfurled and unmoving. He visibly relaxed the slightest, but he was still wound up so tight

The truth was, the two of you had grown so distant since Kylo had become Supreme Leader. The new change and even busier lives made it so neither of you had the time to make for one another anymore. The two of you didn’t know each other anymore. Not like you had use to, anyway.

But that didn’t mean you were ready to give up on him, and your prayed to the maker that he wasn’t going to give up on you.

“I’m sorry,” you blurted, your gaze softening. “I know you would never... I didn’t mean a word of what I said...”

Kylo listened, then slowly, because he didn’t want to frighten you again, he stepped closer, closing in the gap between you.

You didn’t move away, or flinch, as Kylo brought both of his arms up and wound them around you, crushing you against his chest. Leaning into him, your eyes closed on their own, and you wrapped your arms around his waist.

“I could never raise a hand to you,” Kylo muttered against the top of your head where his face was pressed into. “You are the only person on this ship that I control my anger around. You’re the only person that matters...”

His words had you nodding your head along quickly. You believed every word and knew they were true.

“I’m sorry for what I said,” you apologized again. “I didn’t mean any of it.”

Kylo pressed a kiss to the top of your head, then shook his, frowning. “No, you were right. Of course being the Supreme Leader isn’t more important than you, and I don’t purposely make it seem like it is, but... It’s time consuming, and there are constantly things to do. I miss you and I miss spending time with you. I really do...”

You squeezed his waist and nuzzled into his warmth. “I was insensitive about it. You work so hard, I was just... angry, and I felt... neglected.”

Kylo nods as he strokes your hair. “I’m sorry. It was never my intention to make you feel that way.” He pressed a long kiss to your head. “I love you, and I’ll try my absolute best to be with you more often.”

It was a promise that warmed your heart. You love Kylo, more than anything, and to see him actually show how much he did care about you was relieving.

“Thank you, Kylo.” You smiled into his chest. “I know you love me and I love you, so I’ll try to be more understanding as well.”

Kylo hugged you tightly to him. “You’re amazing, for putting up with me for so long.”

“I know,” you teased.

Kylo only smiled the tiniest bit while he held you in his arms. And you felt the safest you have ever been with the man you loved more than anything.

[wereall-allright]

1. Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? Spotify

2. Is your room messy or clean? Clean unless you open the closets 😅

3. What color are your eyes? Brown

4. Do you like your name? Love it

5. What is your relationship status? Committed but non labeled

6. Describe your personality in 3 words or less. Lazy bad bitch

7. What color hair do you have? Brown, sometimes red in the sun

8. What kind of car do you drive? Color? A brownish/grayish/sage rav 4

9. Where do you shop? Anywhere really

10. How would you describe your style? Dainty floral but comfortable and lots of crop tops

11. Favorite social media account? TikTok

12. What size bed do you have? King

13. Any siblings? A younger brother

14. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be? Oregon OR literally anywhere not in the states

15. Favorite Snapchat filter? Whatever one doesn’t show how dead I am 😂

16. Favorite makeup brands? I think I use wet n wild liquid eyeliner? Idk I lost mine a couple months back and keep forgetting to buy more

17. How many times a week do you shower? I try every day but I wash my hair every other day and sometimes I don’t have time cause I slept past my alarm.

18. Favorite tv show? Grey’s

19. Shoe size? 7

20. How tall are you? 5’4”

21. Sandals or sneakers? Depends on the outfit, but usually sandals

22. Do you go to the gym? Probably should

23. Describe your dream date. Light joking conversation over coffee or dinner, something outdoorsy. Idk I more so care about who I am over what we’re doing.

24. How much money do you have in your wallet at the moment? A little over $300, all for bills 🙃

25. What color socks are you wearing? I’m not

26. How many pillows do you sleep with? Usually just one

27. Do you have a job? What do you do? Lol yeah in reception. I get yelled at and scroll on social media.

28. How many friends do you have? I have 4 amazing people in my life that I don’t ever want to live without.

29. What’s the worst thing you’ve ever done? I’m sure the worst things I’ve done I don’t remember lol

30. What’s your favorite candle scent? Mahogany teakwood or fresh rainfall

31. 3 favorite boy names? Landon Cooper, idk what else

32. 3 favorite girl names? Ruby, Karina, and Skyler

33. Favorite actor? Jim Carey

34. Favorite actress? Blake Lively 😍😍

35. Who is your celebrity crush? Blake Lively and Jensen Ackles

36. Favorite movie? Idrk

37. Do you read a lot? What’s your favorite book? I wish I still did, I’ve always devoured anything by Ellen Hopkins

38. Money or brains? Brains, although money would really fucking help.

39. Do you have a nickname? What is it? Kay

40. How many times have you been to the hospital? 5 or 6 for myself

41. Top 10 favorite songs. Too many

42. Do you take any medications daily? Yeah 3 lol when I remember

43. What is your skin type? (Oily, dry, etc) idk not dry but not oily either. I just love the way my freckles are coming out being outside so much lately.

44. What is your biggest fear? That literally anything horrible will happen to my daughter

45. How many kids do you want? I’d like to try for another in the future, but I’m happy where I’m at rn

46. What’s your go to hair style? Down with a middle part, usually putting the front of my hair back somehow. I hate shit in my face.

47. What type of house do you live in? (Small, big, etc.) a mobile home

48. Who is your role model? I don’t know if I have one

49. What was the last compliment you received? A special person tells me “Good morning beautiful” at least twice a day

50. What was the last text you sent? “Awh what a sweetheart. Enjoy yourself mamas, you deserve it!”

51. How old were you when you found out Santa wasn’t real? I have no clue

52. What is your dream car? A sage green Jeep Wrangler with black interior

53. Opinion on smoking? I just prefer not to smell cigarette smoke.

54. Do you go to college? I did, now I’m in nursing school

55. What is your dream job? To not have a job

56. Would you like to live in rural or suburbs? I’m cool as long as I’m near trees and a creek

57. Do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? Yeah

58. Do you have freckles? Not as many as I want but yeah

59. Do you smile for pictures? Yeah

60. How many pictures do you have on your phone? Over 3k

61. Have you ever peed in the woods? Yeah

62. Do you still watch cartoons? Usually only with Rue but sometimes

63. Do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonald’s? Neither, both? Doesn’t matter

64. Favorite dipping sauce? Spicy bbq or honey mustard

65. What do you wear to bed? Anything comfortable, depends how cold my room is

66. Have you ever won a spelling bee? Either 1st or 3rd place? I can’t remember

67. What are your hobbies? Nothing rn, but I like cross stitching, scrapbooking, reading, painting, coloring

68. Can you draw? Kinda but more doodling than talent

69. Do you play an instrument? Honestly I’ve been wanting to teach myself how to play the flute again

70. What was the last concert you saw? Beartooth

71. Tea or coffee? Coffee

72. Starbucks or Dunkin? Starbucks

73. Do you want to get married? Eventually

74. What is your crush’s first and last initial? cs

75. Are you going to change your last name when you get married? Idk

76. What color looks best on you? Idk

77. Do you miss anyone rn? Yes

78. Do you sleep with your door open or closed? Depends if I have to separate my kitties

79. Do you believe in ghosts? Yeah

80. What is your biggest pet peeve? Unnecessary rudeness

81. Last person you called? Ruby’s health insurance

82. Favorite ice cream flavor? OMG I HAVE ICE CREAM AT HOME.

83. Regular or golden Oreos? Regular with milk

84. Chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? Rainbow

85. What shirt are you wearing? A tan peplum shirt

86. What is your phone background? Ruby and I ♥️

87. Are you outgoing or shy? Depends

88. Do you like it when people play with your hair? Love it

89. Do you like your neighbors? Only one and she’s leaving me in a week

90. Do you wash your wash? Yeah when I shower

91. Have you ever been high? Usually nightly

92. Have you ever been drunk? Yeah

93. Last thing you ate? Turkey club

94. Favorite lyrics rn? “Her favorite necklace is my right hand”

95. Summer or winter? Fall

96. Day or night? Night

97. Dark, milk, or white chocolate? Milk chocolate

98. Favorite month? May

99. What is your zodiac sign? Aries

100. Who is the last person you cried in front of? I think Jeremy? Or maybe Syd

[sagksj-archive]

85 questions tag!

I was tagged by the wonderful @casiscool190 💖

last

drink: water

call: customer service of pull and bear....

text: insta gc <3

song you listened to: epiphany!! (pls stream it ty)

time you cried: an hour ago while listening to smile flower by svt 

have you ever

dated someone twice: no

kissed someone and regretted it: yes

been cheated on: no

lost someone special: yes

been depressed: yes

gotten drunk and thrown up: I did get drunk but I’ve never once thrown up

favourite colours: black and green

in the last year have you

made any new friends: yess, so many I’m very grateful for!

fallen out of love: yeah kind of

laughed so hard you cried: barely?? maybe once

found out someone was talking about you: don’t think so

met someone who changed you: yes

found out who your friends were: pretty much

kissed someone in your tumblr friends list: nope

general

how many ppl from ur tumblr friends do u know irl?: about 4

do you have any pets?: nooo

do you want to change your middle name?: yeah tbh it sounds ugly in combination with my first name

what did you do for your birthday last year?: stayed home and got drunk with my sister :)

what time did you wake up today?: around 10am??idk

what were you doing last night at midnight?: I was watching epiphany!!

what’s something you can’t wait for?: the day got7 do another concert here so i can finally see them in front row this time 

what’re you listening to right now?: peek-a-boo by red velvet

have you ever talked to a person named tom?: very often but GOSH I wish I had never met one of the toms I talked to

something that gets on your nerves: certain people’s behavior

most visited website: hell aka tumblr

hair color: I dyed my hair dark brown but it has faded already

short hair or long hair: rather long

do you have a crush on anyone: I think so

what do you like about yourself?: (I’m answering this thinking about jin’s ‘I’m the one I should love’) uhh..I’m quite smart and proud of my language skills 

want any piercings?: yess! I’ll maybe get a nostril piercing and I want a few ear piercings

blood type: I think it’s 0

nicknames: lou, loui, loulou, loui lotus and many others 

relationship status: single

zodiac sign: virgo sun/rising, aries moon 

pronouns: she/her

favorite show: reign.. or skins uk..or gossip girl (or past me: glee)

tattoos: not yet, but I’ve got a few ideas already

right or left handed: right handed

ever had surgery: no

piercings: I’ve got two lobe piercings on each ear (if that counts?)

sports: I work out regularly

vacation: my next one in october will take me to china and japan!!! ahh

trainers: huh?

more general

eating: I already had dinner

drinking: water

about to watch: epiphany and got7′s hard carry series

waiting for: another wave of motivation to do important stuff

get married: yeah probably

career: I want to work as translator!!

which is better

hugs or kisses?: hugs!!

lips or eyes?: eyes

shorter or taller?: taller

younger or older?: preferably older

nice arms or stomach?: idk arms maybe??

hookup or relationship?: relationships are so much work but I don’t really know which is better

troublemaker or hesitant?: neither??

have you ever

kissed a stranger: yeah

drank hard liquor: yes

lost glasses: I don’t wear them

turned someone down: yes :/

had sex on the first date: no

broken someone’s heart: ..yeah

had your heart broken: no

been arrested: no

cried when someone died: yeah ofc

fallen for a friend: nah

do you believe in

yourself: I’m mostly confident in my intelligence but besides that...I’m trying

miracles: somewhat

love at first sight: nah

santa: no

kiss on the first date: why not

angels: uh kind of? not certain

other

best friend’s name: I like saying I have a best friend but it’s actually not mutual so I won’t say any names

eye colour: blue

favorite movie: don’t really have one

favorite actor: not sure if I have one but maybe Leonardo DiCaprio? idrk

 I tag @1moondusted @i-am-coko @cherryjungoo @gaymegs @angellicjimin @oursparklinghearts (as always, totally voluntary and sorry if this is annoying you!!)