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i'm making myself laugh thinking about this but I wholeheartedly believe madame morrible absolutely HATES the thought of glinda and elphaba being together like the mere mention of gelphie would probably send her into immediate cardiac arrest and it's not even because she's homophobic or anything I just fully believe she dislikes glinda so so much she's just like this is absolutely NOT happening in my house.
glinda and elphaba are having their gay ass moment and she's like "I sense a disturbance in the force; the wind is telling me those fucking lesbians are at it again."
like IK this woman hates to see glinda's fruity ass coming for several reasons but first and foremost I believe it's because she's so fucking ANNOYED by how much elphaba loves and cares for her, like this pink bitch is throwing a wrench in her plans just by EXISTING and being herself.
and she can't even really do anything to glinda because it'll make elphaba upset and she really can't have that so she just has to sit there and be like
#wicked#wicked 2024#shitpost#my hand slipped oh no#madame morrible#glinda upland#elphaba thropp#gelphie#imagine being her for a second yk#like that scene just before the ballroom scene where elphaba comes to her#asks her to include glinda in their classes#and threatens to QUIT if she doesn't do it right that instant#and you're there like girl wtf???#i thought we hated her why are you up in her ass rn???#do you think she saw whatever sort of horrible homoerotic tension they had going on during loathing#and she was like yk what this is fine i can deal with this im sure this won't lead to anything#and cue elphaba banging on her door at 2am#i would've taken a bottle of aspirin and gone to bed like BYE#can't deal with these damn lesbians again#i just KNOW she was cursing glinda out#also again madame morrible's plan hinged on elphaba being so starved for love and approval she'd do whatever she and the wizard wanted#BUT WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN SHE GETS LOVE AND VALIDATION FROM SOMEWHERE ELSE#LIKE THIS WAS NOT ACCORDING TO PLAN#WHERE DID THE PINK LESBIAN COME FROM???
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why did i move so far away??????
#i think about this every single day#like i can't imagine doing anything else#but why does it have to be so hard#personal#literally i feel like i'm choosing between being a scientist and being a person WHY CAN'T I DO BOTH
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for something as trivial and simple those feelings sure are hard to get rid of
also made a gif a version for fun + alt version with no tears under the cut
the gif is in very low resolution...this is a feature (i could make it bigger but that would require saving each frame individually and than glueing it all together. also i feel like low resolution suits it better. aesthetically and fits the mood)
#hs#homestuck#dirk strider#eye strain#probably? if you think i should tag something else let me know!!#anyway hooray its time for rambling in the tags#so uhhh heres the teæ i've been sick for like a week and you know how it is when suddenly your throat becomes the main gunk warehouse#and you can't breathe lol. wish i could just pull it out. anywaaayy this is basically a vent piece for me being sick lol#also i could draw remotively the same thing with kris deltarune. oh how easy it is to project having a cold#though i have been also experiencing troubles with feelings recently as well....how fitting for dirk#speaking of the man himself (enough of me) his relationship with his own Heart...is peculiar to say the least#the thing i love about alphakids is that despite being so feral they were. so relatable. i cannot stress this enough how unwell they are an#and how they represented being a teen so well. yeah being 15 years old makes that to you#imagine being an emotional mess and trying to fit the 'norm' and act normal about your friends so youre not offputting#and then you fall in love with you friend and your ai clone falls in love with him too looool noone makes out of this one alive#uhh literally. godtiering stuff and dying remember#and speaking of it. tw for suicidal talk for the rest of tags#do you ever think dirk was suicidal. of course the part of when he teleports his head to jake was totally planned and he knew he would ->#wake up as dreamself but. don't you think the moment he cut his head off was sort of. cathartic. how much did he hate his own guts#beheading himself not only for the plan...but also because he thought he 'deserved' it#also wow he is a Prince and was literally beheaded don't you think its funny hahaa#sigh poor thing#this has ended on a not the very pleasant note hm#also fckkkkkk i didn't draw anything with rose/mary for the lesbian visabilty week#(putting the slash because tumblr search system has a dumb gag with showing you posts that contain the tag inside the other tag.#and i don't want this post to show up for the ros/mary fans because it's not!!!! its rose's father emotional crisis post!!!!)#update YOOOO WHAT THE HELL THE GIF HAS EVEN LESS PIXELS THEN I PLANNED fantastic#this your breakfast now tumblr. enjoy your crunchy flakes of dirks meltdown. mwah
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Hi guys, this is usually what a doodle page ends up looking like <3 (oh, and @ancha-aus thought you might like this! Not writing but certainly fuel to my fire lol-)
This one is New Age filled!!! (Close-ups abd Lore beneath the cut!)
1) Night and Cross!
Night is actually very clingy once he's a teen. He doesn't usually realize it, but around the castle he'll snake to be closer to his Knights so long as there's no one he needs to keep his composure infront of is nearby. Cross is the one who's not used to physical touch (when it's not Ink ofc) so Night in his personal bubble makes his heart melt but also scares tf out of him <3
2) Error and Night's Meeting!
Error was carrying his whole life on his back and trying not to get arrested for unintentional property damage at this point, so when he saw the chance to get back at his brother and prove he was strong enough? Yeah, he got that on chance instantly. And was VERY smug when Nightmare chose him. (Also, Error is wearing gloves, so less Haphephobia)
3) Dream and Blue designs!
I think these are good tentative designs! Dream probably has a more regal fit, but he likes to play up that rugged exile look- He's inspired by Archers, while Blue takes on that classic Knightly-vibe. Their equipment is mostly stolen from Night's troops or brought with them from Blue's home kingdom.
Also, Dream is approx Killer's height at this point, shorter than Cross and *much* shorter than Apple!Nightmare. (Hc that Skeletons tend to be tinier in stature thanks to weird monster beauty standards. Horror and Geno's fam are outliers.)
4) Horror and Dust designs!
Horror is naturally a very *large* monster. He's very malnourished when Nightmare meets him, but by the time he's a Knight Nightmare has made sure that's no longer the case. He actually loves comfy, simple clothes, but to play up the whole 'strong mysterious' bit he wears a more barbaric Knight's garb. He doesn't mind acting scary, it's more fun that way :]. Dust is very very small, and envies horror sometimes for his size, but his tiny stature let's him control his body and move a lot quicker. He's very much based on a rogue, and usually covers the lower part of his face w/ a black cloth, and the upper part w/ his hood or mask. Dust only removes both to bathe, eat, or relax in a safe location. (Ignore that I can't draw the stupid gaster blaster lmao-)
These last two were space-fillers, but Cross and his Borzoi (Windmill, otherwise known as Milly (Killer named her-)) and really bad first wips of Ccino! I think Ccino was a chubby, happy toddler, but lost a lot of 'weight' (bone mass? Magic?) due to stress and pressure and bad eating habits. So it isn't until a while after the Coronation that he starts to relax abd feel safe enough to eat normal meals (Nightmare used to guilt him into eating snacks together, but as his boss (and younger brother) he can encourage it more often). By the time Killer shows he's still not quite healthy, but he's better. As more weight is lifted off his shoulders, the better he is. (That 'beauty' most people saw was a more stereotypical slimness, but Killer never stopped seeing Ccino as beautiful-) I think he never looked traditionally underweight, so no one noticed, and it was only much later that Night processed it. (And maybe it's why Dream hardly recognized him later on-)
#new age au#I love showing mundane life things-#and also these designs beamed into my brain#I can't draw Ccino for anything but the others? yeag#Blue is definitely my fave. and just like every au I will draw Blue perfect the first time and draw Dust 6 billion times 😔#Horror is kinda banger too tho#makes me laugh to imagine Horror picking up Dust mid-fight out of convenience and Dust weighs nothing to him#(also this size difference is exactly why Dust and Horror fight in the non-magic training. and why Horror accidentally obliterated his#shoulder later on lmao- Dust needs to be able to dodge any enemy. Horror needs to aim for small and quick targets.)#(Meanwhile Cross is the newest and Killer the oldest and if Cross adapts to Killer then he'll adapt to the others more easily.)#oh! and Ccino w/ his arc? I think I really like the idea of a Ccino with a plump body-type. but that conflicts with my vidion of Ccino kinda#losing track of eating and being co-erced by adults to skip meals just enough to make him the 'right amount' of curvy#so when Nightmare takes over it's a habit he's so used to he hardly notices that he's doing it. but. Night picks up on it because Ccino is#almost akways with him. their relationship is very much Ccino giving his life to help Night#but it's also Night recognizing that and giving it back to Ccino along with more the moment he can#just smth smth this au is full of fit and exercized people and I think Ccino deserves some comfort and healing and positivity <3#also I am SO fond of Nightmare getting up in people's bubbles. he does it most to Killer and Ccino for obvious reasons but#god forbid a noble be talking behind his back because he *will* twist around and shove under his knight's arms or sides just to#read them the riot act or stare them down <3#and I think when he was an adult Night was... kinda like the big brother? like. not an experienced one by any means. but he wasn't *not*#affectionate then either. he was better at being serious about it and more discreet. but like#Nervous Cross escorting him in public? Night nudges his shoulder briefly with a Tendril to try and comfort him. Dust having a magic overload#? personal Training against just Night so there was no risk of harming anyone else. then snacks and tea after.#Horror is homesick? Woah look at that a scheduled trip back to visit with Crop and side-track back to Horror's village? huh?? wild...#Killer upset at all? Night will find a solution. just you wait. a cat. two cats. perhaps even a cat in a little sweater? or y'know. just a#chat or a combat?#Nightmare showed his affections but was just more distant about it.#Oh also. all four were used to tendrils lifting/tugging them subconsciously. usually during trainings to avoid them hurting eachother by#mistake in their early days. Killer misses it sometimes
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it's 2/2 so even though i wrote my insane palace fic last year i wanna post it here. imagine if akechi was dead and got stuck in the world's stupidest palace with akira kurusu. imagine if she watched lots of horror movies. imagine if they were both transgender. well guess what you don't have to imagine that.
may this horror grow mild and darkness light
#shuake#akeshu#gale writing#read my fanfiction. i think about it a lot.#do you like hearing people ramble about horror movies? do i have the fic for YOU.#also akechi is just transg to me. she just is. she can't be anything else. its just the Truth and i can /see/it bro.#bro.#she's so fucking tgirl i can't express this enough i would sooner explode and die.#please#please god imagine akechi and consider her being a trans girl. your life will improve. and by that i mean you will be crushed. but it wi
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ninjago seabound hurts. so much. what the fuck
#ninjago seabound#i think this might be the thing to get me drawing again#we shall see#also im very close to crying haha#she turned. into the sea. to save him#and like. the city and all their friends too but he was quite literally dying and the only answer was for her to become one with the sea an#and she#and he sees her after having the water taken out of his lungs. he sees her out the window and she sees him and they put their hands on#either side of the glass. and he doesn't yet know what she did. what it would cost#in the fight later. he sees her explode and takes on kalmaar with blind fury#and then she's back- as a dragon now- and she explodes again and comes back as a bigger dragon and#how can he think anything but good things? he knows what she did now but she's so strong. so invincible. ofc she'll overcome the odds#she'll keep herself together! she will. he has to believe that#and then she wins. and its all over. and everyone's saying they'll just have to get used to her watery body for now#until they find a way to turn her back.#she doesn't understand. she doesn't remember who she used to be. is actively losing the battle to retain her self#and they plead. all of her friends. her master. her Brother.#and him. Jay. her boyfriend.#and there's a moment. a single brief moment where she turns back.#she smiles and holds jay's hands. she caresses his cheek.#and just as quick as she came#she left. jay screaming her name as she dives back into the sea#and then the funeral. because what else do you call it but a funeral.#they call all of her friends and family. they pour seawater in an urn. they hold a service of sorts.#and i'd like to imagine each person feels responsible in some way. for not doing more. for not being as convincing to her.#some feel it more than others. Wu is- was her master. Kai her brother.#and Jay. Jay was her-#out of all of them Jay beat himself up the most. because what good is love if you can't convince them to stay?#woah sorry about that i was possessed by angst#also i feel like you could tie in Jay's abandonment issues with his birth parents here if that wasn't clear <3
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wait do you believe in hell as eternal conscious torment? (im curious bc that debate has been a crux of my own journey w faith & christianity)
I believe in hell as eternal disconnection from God or more precisely as defined by the Catechism a "state of definitive self-exclusion from communion with God and the blessed" (CCC 1033). How that would look like i have no idea but i do know that tearing yourself apart from the one and only source of life, love, happiness, fulfilment, goodness, and everything that is good would absolutely be the worst torment imaginable, or rather well, unimaginable. And i do know God would hate to have His beloved children be in this state. I hope with all my heart that hell is completely empty, i wouldn't wish it upon anyone and i mean anyone
Oh and since you mentioned a debate, can you tell me more about it? Cause i'm not sure what you're refering to and i'd love to learn more! God bless you anon and best wishes for your journey with faith!
#i worry sometimes that i don't do enough to help save my siblings in Christ from hell#sometimes i have this secret tiny hope that at the end of times when God comes to judge the living and the dead#that They will find a way to save souls in hell too#if there are any souls in hell by then that is#i know this could go against free will if the souls have consciously chosen to be damned forever#but maybe there's a way? an impossible illogical way accessible only to God?...#the truth is we have no idea what the eternal life is like and probably all this pondering is non-applicable anyway#yknow i always interpreted God's Judgment on Egypt and its gods in Exodus and killing the firstborns as Him coming to them and just#showing His real divine face like He *almost* did with Moses and saying “I love you. Which God do you want to worship now?”#and i can't imagine them do anything else in this moment than give up their previous “gods” and praise Yahweh#they would ofc die because God's face but they would die most blessed death and see Him and be happy with Him forever#and it gives me hope that maybe He judges other people the same way when they die idk#i'm rambling again#christianity#catholic#ccc#hell
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Juliette is very good at hide and seek
#she literally played hide and seek for like two episodes?? lmfao anyways you can imagine shirley found her and tackled her n then they kiss#or idk. idk what to caption this. i have so many thots.#silo#juliette nichols#shirley campbell#rebecca ferguson#remmi milner#hugh howey#silo apple tv#silo series#wool#wtf do i call this show so people can find it#fan art#memes#mytrinkets#jules is so awkward i love her lmao#thinking about rebecca saying how all jules wanna do is probably lie down and cry#of course she would have armpit hair#ignore jules left hand. i cant figure out how their fingers cross n shit#thinking about their matching tattoos <3#I'm gonna read the book cause i just can't stop thinking about rebecca and if i read anything else. I'll hear it in her voice#sapphic#wlw
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sleep-tight don't let any other vampires bite
#baldur's gate 3#bg3#astarion#astarion x tav#tav x astarion#Syril (bg3)#tav#tav bg3#screenshots#modded bg3#i will never stop posting screenshots#so many headcanons about how they go to sleep seeing as how only one of them actually needs sleep#like im sure astarion meditates most of the time because first and foremost he Must be in bed while syril is sleeping#because syril is a weenie and likes to go to bed together#but i also like to imagine nights where astarion is like i do not Need to Meditate tonight but he can't get up and go do anything else#cuz syril is planted on his chest dead asleep#so he's gotta master the art of flipping a page in a book with one hand
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My DID-having ass is experiencing so much world-envy for the fictional country of Vaugarde I'm going to throw up
#Didn't realize how much I needed a society built around the concepts if change and reinvention but holy shit I do. I need it so bad.#The legally normal concept of being given multiple names to transition between or change to...#the societally accepted and easy ways to craft a new body...#the traditions built around reinvention and throwing away aspects of your old life that you wish to discard#that also acknowledge that reinvention involves the destruction of something else. & the grief from yourself or others that comes with that#literally have never resonated with anything to this level and I am YEARNING#like. my life would literally be so much easier in that society#the fact Vaugarde also highly values queerness of all kinds only helps#going insane over this world-building tbh konda wanna overthrow my government & rebuild my country in its image tbh#I am Decidedly Not Normal about this fake country#no spoilers if you respond to this btw. Not done with the game#In Stars And Time#hi dev I know you have a tumblr so if you see this: I love you#thank you for creating this world and letting me have a peek into it#they say we can't build a better world if we can't imagine what that world would look like and#now i can. I know what my ideal world looks like.#textpost
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why is it that like
the first thing i've watched of tarsem singh's work that has actually had close to that same quality from the fall and the visually fun parts of the cell is a lady gaga music video i didn't know about until today
of course i haven't watched any of this shit in a while now so im probably talking pure shit
#ive seen immortals ive seen mirror mirror and i watched all of emerald city without once realizing or knowing it was him#i do imagine it's the ability to go a bit more balls to the wall weird when trying to tell a more classic narrative#like not saying it can't be done just thinking maybe he's not as great at it??#cause like granted its been a long time since i saw it last#but the more liek real world elements of the cell are also not as strong and interesting to watch#and unlike the fall he didn't write anything else he's worked on so the space to play with it visually might not be as big???#i dunno i stopped keeping up after watching mirror mirror and immortals pretty close together and deciding i didn't care anymore#and that was a decade ago
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#aaaahhhhhhh#i love that we got to see her missing and wanting and realizing her feelings for dansoo BEFORE the holly and chaebol reveal#but like dansoo doesn't know that#and neither does anyone else#not yet done with the ep#but i can already imagine her being like ''you feel so far away from me now like i can't touch you''#*classic* oh he/she's rich/famous trope!#and i love the reasons she's into dansoo: he's familiar warm reliable kind and fun#all things gonghee values#also! he supports her and *sees* her#i do think these past few eps of them being separated and dansoo being onscreen for like 3 seconds was clunky though#like i kinda can't stand her older brother#has he learned anything from his whole i have a kid debacle? nope. i don't wanna see him taking up like 10 mins of screentime!#my merry marriage#ep67
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If I'm getting sick again I'm going to be so mad lol
#my throat js getting a little bit scratchy and I can't tell if it's from all the dust in my room or if my sister's bf got me sick#I wish I lived with people who actually cared about the fact thay if I get sick there is a chance I will end hp in the er <3#anyway ummmm I really hope i don't 2ake up tomorrow with like. anything else happening#every time I get sick it always starts out with my throat being scratchy#at least I can imagine Zooble taking care of me if I do get sick lol
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what if we held on to whatever we get the idea of as Normal as unquestionable & think all you can do to this normal is apply some veneers overtop it to be more polite & also resent that. maybe we could project that everyone who seems to be Annoyingly Disruptively doing more than this must be putting on a performance to look good &/or humor others b/c that's all we ever believe we're doing, & again, we resent even that much....maybe we could use our show of More Polite language to make the same points blaming everyone who our Normal mistreats for their own mistreatment
#perhaps we could lecture autistic people on their; ah; Lacking Social Skills or Intelligence. it's just matter of fact#completely neutral what Annoys those who do well enough when thrown into any group settings; completely neutral how they React#like yeah can't possibly take issue w/anything Acceptable to Encouraged in the realm of even ''successful'' ''normal'' social interactions#infinite ''smh this is why nobody takes ableism seriously'' like oh you mean b/c of the ableism? is why you don't take it seriously?#infinite ways of phrasing that everyone alleged so Annoying With It is just like you but someone actively Putting On An Act too much#all it can possibly be. just as someone's Anti Ableism would be knowingly ''humoring'' / ''tolerating'' an autistic person e.g.#ah you see to this Person Who Identifies As Nonbinary's face i will try to mostly use Their Preferred Pronouns. that's that done#but it's sooo annoying. what's next; multiple &/or changing pronouns? god even worse. so Inflicted Upon my correct norm#if i'm not feeling actively malicious & devious in how i treat someone i am surely as righteous as it gets#having to improve on perfection by occasionally feeling Put Upon to perform politeness around some individuals? ughhh#that's why it's actually illegitimate. shouldn't have to be Put Upon like that. (finding the norm Questionable? out of the question Lol)#shocked ppl report that casual usage of the r word is having a revival. by shocked i mean [already clear ppl didn't care abt that]#& again just the current ''polite'' rephrasing of ableism like oh um :) disabled ppl are just a Specific kind of unintelligent & unskilled#& unprofessional & incompetent & a harmful scourge :) & maybe if they learned to be otherwise they wouldn't be punished :)#just formalized ABA vs the less formalized ABA huh. & the [the Real ableism] it ostensibly is to be saying all this i'm sure#something something not a real ally if they encourage behavior that will Make other ppl treat you badly. helpless neurotypicality :(#just as the ppl saying ableism is baked into terms & phrases used casually well beyond the [bad but lol guess not That Bad r word]#were definitely the ones Advancing Ableism by annoyingly overdoing the Polite Veneer you imagine they were Demanding#(rather than a more thorough questioning of language & accepted ''norms'' in pointing out the logics in their usage / basis)#simultaneously as being too much to ask it was also always so Frivolous as to not be worth the apparently infinitesimal effort#hmm guess we'll never solve the contradictions there....#not even with the ''openly saying 'see? i don't take ableism seriously & now it's Your Fault b/c i saw this & scoffed at it''' clues#& a final shoutout to the classic ''it's called being Realistic'' language in this & wherever else relevantly applied lol. we could go on
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Barry for the character ask game.
Similarities: –Devotion to family above all else –Strong sense of justice (and a bleeding heart) –We both have science-related careers! (A bonus fourth because why not: time blindness 😅)
Differences: –He tends to be reckless. I very much am not 😅 –He has super speed. I wish 😭 I could sure use the time buffer smh –He is sadly an only child canonically 😔 I meanwhile am the oldest of three kids
character ask game!
#barry allen#character ask game#i could keep going in regards to the similarities lol#like the fact that we both have a parent who's a doctor#(which is not my reason for being premed. but it did spark my initial interest in it as a very little kid#hilariously tho my parents tried to talk me out of medicine for years 😅 and yet...i'm still here. bc i can't imagine doing anything else)
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if people aren't going to stop being like 'wow cool thing you did! SO cool that actually it SHOULD be more/ better/ different' when I do stuff I just gotta get better at not giving a shit
#rational recognition of things that are 100% intended supportively VS emotional response to hearing 'you're never doing enough'#yeah I know I'm squandering my talent by not making children's books or having commissions open or whatever. sorry I guess.#no yeah I know just making art for myself for fun is-- at the end of the day-- always disappointing on some level for someone else#cause it wasn't The Right Thing or Enough Of The Thing or The Best Use Of That Thing or whatever else#sorry! I fucking guess!!#this is apropos of nothing I was just thinking about some art I'd like to do#and immediately getting put off imagining a 'wow awesome but have you considered doing something different 🥺' response#well if I wanted to do something different I would have#but now I feel like if I can't do the different thing I'd better just not do anything at all because nobody wants what I Actually Have#waow great job#about me
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