#like he’s so autistic oh my god

[ineffablydestroyed]

God this is so true and it makes me feel many things. It also makes me think of the dichotomy between what Aziraphale knows of Heaven, what Aziraphale feels about Heaven, and what Aziraphale does in relation to Heaven.

Aziraphale often seems to be in a state of cognitive awareness but emotional denial, and yet sometimes that emotional denial informs that cognitive awareness, and vice versa.

From before the beginning, we see Aziraphale to be a very empathetic being, even if he doesn’t always know what to do with that empathy, and a large part of this seems to be because he experiences emotion in a pretty saturated way. He’s very expressive; when he’s got any kind of energy in his body it becomes obvious in how he holds himself. He’s tense, either overly still, or fidgety, flighty, and when he’s happy he’s loose, cheery, “exaggerated” in manner even, such as when he enjoys a meal. We don’t exactly get a direct glimpse inside his head, but we don’t need to, to understand that he’s often caught up on whatever he’s got going on inside it. He’s not exactly familiar with the complex concepts of morality that Crowley tries to teach him, but he also isn’t not familiar. When Aziraphale lacks a cognitive understanding, he tends to make up for it in the emotional one, and vice versa, even if it’s not conventional by any means—the point is that he isn’t the best at putting what he understands to be true, into actual application, and he isn’t the best at translating his emotional understandings into practical action, not without a lot of practice first, at least. He argues with himself constantly, and it’s likely that his early awareness of Heaven’s capacity for cruelty is because he was all anxious and up in his head about doing right by it that he noticed all the little things that meant doing wrong by it as well. It’s very difficult to move forward and feel confident in your decisions when your brain is constantly handing you arguments in favor of both sides, (regardless of if those arguments are equal and fair). I think this is why his choices and thoughts tend to be so polarized as well. He’s been building up all this knowledge and emotion that make up one big argument for and against Heaven for thousands of years, and the way he processes information makes what was already an overwhelming ordeal even more so.

The fact that he’s come so far is a testament to the work he has done. The fact that he refuses Heaven up until Crowley is offered a place is a testament to where his faith truly lies.

TLDR: I’m emotional and I just rambled; I don’t really think there was a deeper point to this aside from: Aziraphale’s an anxious fellow, and he’s been doing exposure therapy under the guidance of his radical goth best friend, and also he’s autistic.

Thinking very hard about how in that first scene Aziraphale is the one with less faith in Heaven. The Starmaker is bright and optimistic and full of faith and trust that asking questions is a safe thing to do. But Aziraphale? He's anxious from the start. Already worried about the Starmaker getting into trouble. Already aware of how Heaven has the capacity for, if not cruelty, apathy.

[strawberrymangosoda]

imitation is the sincerest form of flattery that mediocrity can pay to greatness.

[coffinkissez]

my favorite bird boyladything

[eebie]

Grinds my teeth to dust…. i wish touch didnt have so many Implications. im just trying to survive out here

[runawayfuture]

no but it actually is so funny that absolutely EVERYONE thinks Laios is like this horrible fucked up guy just because he really wants to eat monsters. his entire party goes through the five stages of grief plus eleven brand-new ones whenever they hear him talk about it. Kabru genuinely thinks he's on the brink of cannibalizing his friends for fun and has literal nightmares about him. all because he wants to try eating the weird plants and animals that he's obsessed with

[sillyslayer6]

genshin fandom are HEAVILY sleeping on audhd ajax childe tartaglia

(headcanons in the read more!)

i meaaaan;

stimming - he likes making stuff out of water and fidgeting with them, especially if he's bored; spinning water weapons (like he does in one of his idle animations), making little water creatures (he probably makes them fight), mimicking things around him/in his mind out of water - he messes with his cape as a stim (like in that other idle animation) - him just repeating something just because he likes saying it, like 'coco goat' or some word zhongli taught him impulsivity - THE most impulsive guy ever - impulsive to the point where he'll just throw himself into danger because he has free will - will see some big horrifying monster, think 'i wonder if i could take that' (in a fight), then will attack unless someone stops him - constantly gets himself into trouble because he reacts before he thinks - i headcanon that him using foul legacy against the traveler was him genuinely losing his shit and wasn't planned

(and he probably just laid on the roof of the golden house like 'owww ouagh owww' until the battle with osial was done... also zhongli was watching liyue defend itself on a nearby mountain, like how a worried mother might watch her kids cook for the first time, and just happened to see the orange cat on the roof) hyperactivity - has a brain that never stops - ultra instincts adhd, like rick riordan says - if he ever stops moving, he'll die - complains if he has to stay still - probably fidgets non-stop - the tsaritsa is an ally and has plenty of random crap to fiddle with on harbinger coats socializing - canonically the odd one out among his peers (granted, his peers are all scheming goth people) - i swear he (canonically) constantly misses social cues and takes things literally... - he misses social cues more than he misses crits - blunt and straightforward, and prefers that way of communicating - headcanon that zhongli lying to him actually hurt his feelings and his reaction was genuine... (and that reaction is a little too relatable, as someone who's neurodivergent... 😔🤨) - this is probably an english-only thing, but his little 'haha' in stressful circumstances is him masking/coping with the situation and doing a brain reset, or just his default 'how the fuck am i meant to react to that' response (citation: I DO THAT!!) - somehow masks and unmasks at the same time, like how he's wearing his literal mask on his head - will just come out with the most profound and deep truths, this jumpscares people (especially ones who think he's a total dumbass) - childe unmasking is just him with no expression, doing things in almost complete silence, even before the abyss he brought the vibe to the function that neurotypicals hate - ^ he'll never unmask around his fellow harbingers because he doesn't like them but also he likes annoying them hyperfixations/special interests - easy 'he's obsessed with battle' connection, c'mannn - and easy 'he's got an interest in weaponry', duhhhh - but imagine him just being able to identify any fish, too. - hyperfixated on liyue history, cuisine and culture during his stay there, probably kept getting zhongli to talk about whatever he was hyperfixating on that week (btw zhongli's autistic too, it's because he's hot, sorry i don't make the rules) - picks up 1 million hobbies and hyperfixates on them either for a week or until he's mastered them (the one week ones get shelved until he masters them) nerfed by celestia, AKA idk what to title this section - i just can't see childe being able to sit there and finish paperwork like a regular guy - northland bank managers fear him (he hands in paperwork one minute before the deadline) - pulcinella probably handles his important harbinger documents because childe lost too many of them - exchanged his quick moving and dodging in battle for a weekly sacrifice (he trips over something or breaks things through clumsiness; him and lynette are comrades in arms for breaking machines) - his sleep schedule is that he doesn't have one - he turns into some hunter-gatherer eater, unless someone with a normal routine is around, then he follows them and has regular meals at regular times (as opposed to him cooking borscht at 11AM

[86dove]

joey could be so, so tragic if anyone in this fandom wanted to think about him for more than five minutes

[marionmorse]

MARIONMORSE, DROP ANOTHER HELMETPARTY SCENARIO AND MY LIFE IS YOUUURSS 🙏🙏🙏🙏

do u think... Do you think sometimes when the team has a movie night, when they watch those 60's action war movies like "Von Ryan's Express" and "Battle of the Bulge" or spaghetti westerns like "The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly" and "Death Rides on a Horse," Soldier pauses during or right after fight scenes or duels or whatever to obsessively overanalyze them. Like, he'll try and turn them into strategies to use on the job, takes, uhm, 'notes', (tactical doodles,) sets up nerdy models using a whiteboard map and improvised figurines, uses these examples when he does those psyche-up pre-battle speeches or during strategy meetings.

'Cause I bet he does, I bet he does that, and it completely kills the momentum of the movie to the point where the rest of the team gets disinterested and slowly leaves him behind to do their own thing.

I genuinely bet Engie wouldn't though, nah, I bet he's enough of a patient kind of gentle kind of man willing to stick through these pauses 'cause he's just that into the movie. And maybe he's just a teeny bit into Soldier's dissections of actiony chaos. Maybe gleans a bit of an understanding of Soldier's thinking that way. Admires the guy's passion about his 'research,' how thoughtfully he gathers details in an effort to help the team. Starts mixing in tapes for these sorts of movies more regularly to their movie night pool maybe subconsciously, maybe on purpose. The rest of the team doing their own movie night. losers.

[absentlyabbie]

man i remember when my time at sandrock was still in development and there was some dev update introducing the town doctor character, fang, with his pretty delicate facial features and long shampoo-commercial hair, looking like every cliche of a "cold, reserved anime pretty boy" distilled

and then the update where they said they would make him romanceable/expand his backstory due to popular demand, and i rolled my eyes in utter disinterest at what looked like the same cardboard cutout love interest we've all seen a million times, cuz that is just not my bag, personally

and then i played the game and well fuck, so he's actually disabled due to deep childhood trauma, and you help him through his struggles to a place where it's less debilitating, learn he's extremely, passionately motivated to help others not suffer the way he did, and is in fact kind and awkward and a little bit of a dork

and oh no, whoops, i've tripped and fallen and married him

[qiekzart]

drew that one guy from yugioh

[plz reblog]

[guess-i-do-art]

In case you’re having a rough Thanksgiving here’s a really shitty drawing I made on some random art program I found on Safari. I haven’t drawn mlp fanart since I was like 5 so I’m still trying to figure it out 💀

The one and only King Thorax of the Changelings! You have no idea how hard the obsession with him went when I was a kid… The Times they are a Changeling was my all-time favorite episode so I literally sketched out of the scenes in my notebook with little squiggly lines instead of dialogue (a few photos from said notebook under cut in case you don’t believe me)

Even as a kid I would always draw Thorax with heart-shaped glimmers in his eyes. I don’t really know why. For some reason it changed from blue pen to pencil after Thorax revealed he was a Changeling and ran away 🤔

I also sucked at art back then if you couldn’t tell. Sometimes I look at my old stuff and feel so proud of how far I’ve come. These drawings are from over a decade ago but even the difference between my art today and my art a year ago is crazy. Never give up because improvement will always catch up to you 🫶

[ropes3amthoughts]

Twitter Day 1: Wow, there’s so much gorgeous Kabru art here! This is awesome! I love Twitter!

Twitter Day 19: *gritting my teeth while I type* Hi, OP! I think calling Kabru a fascist who’s literally Hitler isn’t a very reasonable take. Just out of curiosity, when’s the last time you watched and/or read Dungeon Meshi and/or looked up the definition of fascist and/or looked up what Hitler did? I think maybe you should go look at those again. Thanks!

[unproduciblesmackdown]

omgg lol [guy who won't stop going "more like scapeGOATED" voice] now hold! on!! lmao [same guy just saw encanto voice] Hold on!!!

[phagodyke]

HEARTBREAKING: coworker I liked but never really chatted much with beyond work small talk who's now leaving his job after 5 entire years was actually a huge celeste fan all along..... 💔

[apocalyptourism]

my bf... hes 64 & i love him very much!!

[aleki-lives-here]

I watched an mdzs animatic with a song from wicked, and something in my mind finally clicked and now I want to scream about how similar my current and my past hyperfixations are.

"Good news, the witch is dead!" like

"No good deeds" is such a "character pushed to their limits" song. Imagine it before the nightless city. The first scream, as Wen Ning and Wen Qing walk away. The chanting as he lies there, unable to move, praying for them to be well. Memories of people he loves: Jiang Cheng and Jiang Yanli, Lan Zhan, the Wen siblings.

"Was I really seeking good, or just seeking attention?" -- as he looks at the burial mounds and leaves.

"If I cannot succeed, Fiero, saving you, I promise no good deed will I attempt to do again." -- as he learns about Wen Qing and Wen Ning's death.

Ending with him arriving at Nightless city and pulling out the flute.

I want to see it animated so much!

My skills are so annoyingly not up to the task. Maybe if my hyperfixation survives long enough that I learn drawing and animating things well? It'll be the third mdzs animatic I really wish to do one day. Maybe one day.