#like dont get me wrong he's not a GREAT parent by any measure

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"hey you doing alright?" no actually I'm thinking about Sarek again

[emybain]

Seventeen

    oh my gosh,,,i did not mean for this to take me a week to write OR for it to be nearly 7000 words but here we are. I had trouble writing this in all honesty and really wanted to write this fic well. A huge thank you to @danna-bell-is-black for being a (my first!) beta reader and helping this gorl figure things out. if you dont already follow her, youre insane because she blesses our eyes with quality art and renegades content.

SPOILERS FOR SUPERNOVA

SPOILERS FOR SUPERNOVA

SPOILERS FOR SUPERNOVA

    Nova regretted ever leaving her apartment that morning. 

    Her seventeenth birthday started out with Ruby, Danna, and Narcissa banging on her apartment door mid morning, insisting that they have a girl’s day to celebrate. Nova had protested, the thought of having to spend an entire day with a group of girls frankly terrifying. She claimed her protests were only because she already had plans to go over to her boyfriend’s house and binge a stupid sitcom with seven seasons and just be a potato all day. There may or may not have been one or two make out sessions planned in this binge-watching. This was all true information, but her excuse, and her spirits, were immediately shot down when Ruby said that Adrian was sick. Skeptical, Nova had messaged Adrian and asked herself, to which she received a reply within a few minutes that he was indeed sick and to have fun with the girls.

    Something wasn’t right. 

    But somewhere deep in her mind, she knew that spending her birthday alone was the last thing she needed, and if she was going to fake having fun with the girls, then she was going to do it with a smile until she felt truly elated dammit. 

    For whatever reason, Nova had gotten herself into a funk the past month or so. Her happiness, true and free of doubt, that came after Ace Anarchy was defeated not seven months ago was short lived. She found herself missing the Anarchists. Leroy and Winston and even Honey and Ingrid who had turned against her in the end. She supposed it was natural; they had raised her for nearly ten years, and even if their methods weren’t always the best, it was evident they had cared for her in that decade they had together. 

    And then she began thinking of her uncle, how things could have been different if Nova had taken another approach than the one she chose. But she berated herself for even thinking that way. Ace had chosen his path and had no intentions of changing it. 

    She felt like she betrayed her family for idolizing Ace all those years, looking up to the man who had murdered his brother and his family in cold blood. Nova’s stomach turned at the thought that she would’ve been murdered as well, had it not been for her gift. It wasn’t the dying part that made her sick, it was the fact that Ace valued her only as an asset and nothing more. Just another piece on his chessboard. 

    Nova always found herself missing her family immensely around her birthday, reasons unknown to her. It wasn’t like her birthdays before they were murdered were anything special; she usually received gummy snacks or a screwdriver from Ace, as her parents couldn’t afford anything and it was too dangerous outside. Her most memorable gift was a bear her father had salvaged for her when he had gone out in search of medicine because Nova had been sick on her third birthday. She remembered it being already torn up and dirty, but her mother had washed it and sewed it up so it looked brand new again; it had been Nova’s only companion before she had a little sister. 

    This birthday, however, was ten years without her parents and sister. Her seventh birthday was around the corner when the hitman killed her family, forcing Nova to run away with the Anarchists. She remembered not even celebrating that birthday, too distraught and angry to even accept the processed package of crackers Ace had gotten for her. Now, at seventeen, Nova Artino wanted nothing more than to hug her parents and Evie, who would have been around Max’s age now. She wanted them to know she was sorry for letting them down, for believing in Ace’s lies for so many years and believing in him. She wanted her father to ruffle her hair and tell her everything was going to be alright; she wanted her mother to kiss her forehead and tell her how much she’s grown, like she used to when Nova would be measured against a doorframe; she wanted to be the annoying big sister to Evie, teasing her playfully and embarrassing her at every possible chance. But no, Nova Artino was alone and without a family on her seventeenth. 

    Was making out with her boyfriend in his room as they ignored a cheesy sitcom playing in the background to make Nova forget about her worries too much to ask? 

    Apparently, so Nova had held back a sigh and bit her tongue, agreeing to go out with the three girls for the day. Ruby forced her into one of the few nice outfits Nova had in her closet, ignoring Nova’s questioning and tossing the leggings and t-shirt Nova had initially grabbed. It was nothing special, just a pair of high waisted black and white striped flowy pants with a cloth belt and an understated plain white shirt that Nova tied into a knot just above her belly button. She had purchased the outfit two months prior for a media interview with Adrian and his team and hadn’t worn it since. 

The public, much to Nova’s disdain, idolized her, Adrian, his team, and Max after the defeat of Ace Anarchy, claiming that without them, Ace would still be around. But they were wrong; without Max, Ace would still be around. Even so, being idolized was like a punch to the gut for Nova; it went against everything she had stood by for ten years. But, she had to admit, it brought her the smallest bit of joy seeing young girls be more interested in science and mathematics and self defense and standing up for themselves because that’s what Nova Artino liked. At least her small impact was positive. 

“Sweetheart, which side did you say you wanted the piercing on?” Nova blinked, coming out of her daze to stare at the dark skinned woman in front of her who held an alcohol wipe in one hand and a cotton swab in the other. Right. The reason why she wished she was curled up in Adrian’s arms right now, preferably kissing him. 

Nova licked her lips, eyes pinning on the marker. In the corner of the room sat Ruby, Danna, and Narcissa. Ruby was hurriedly messaging someone and glancing up at Nova every so often to offer an encouraging smile. Danna and Narcissa were chatting quietly between themselves, playing with one another’s hands affectionately. 

“Um...the right side.” Nova placed a finger on the curve of her nose where she wanted the piercing. She couldn’t believe she let the others convince her into doing this. Danna had said it didn’t hurt after she pierced hers a few months before, Ruby had said none of her piercings, all on her ears, were that painful. But Nova knew what ear piercings were like; Honey had taken her to get hers pierced at the ripe age of twelve. 

The lady nodded, leaning forward to wipe that side of her nose then putting the cotton swab in Nova’s nostril. Nova drew back slightly at how cold it was; it must’ve been dipped in alcohol as well. Then she grabbed a marker and carefully placed a dot on Nova’s nose, right where Nova had indicated where she wanted it. 

“How’s that?” A mirror was placed in front of Nova, and she examined the marker dot, nodding and only half paying attention. The lady put the mirror back down on her table and picked up the needle, instructing Nova to lie down on the patient’s table. 

Nova had always found body piercings to be cool and badass, but had never had the guts to go and get any done other than the one time Honey took her five years ago. Her decisions had always rested on other’s opinions, almost never on her own. Now that she was doing something that she had wanted to do, she was nervous, and all because she had mentioned it once in a conversation with Ruby months before, who had remembered it and was the one responsible for their little group being in that tattoo and piercing parlor in the first place. Before going to the back of the shop to the patient rooms, they had inquired about tattoos, another thing Nova was interested in, but they were told they needed parental or guardian consent for those under the age of eighteen. As none of them could pass for Nova’s guardian, Nova shrugged it off, saying she would just get it done next year. 

“Alright, honey, now breathe in and out on a count of three, okay?” Nova barely had time to process what the lady had said before she felt the needle piercing the cartilage of her nose. Her eyes watered instantly, almost involuntarily. A disgruntled noise came from the back of her throat, and she closed her eyes, biting back a grimace. Then the needle was pulled out the other side, and the lady said she was done as she took another cotton swab and cleaned the area around the piercing.

Nova was handed a tissue as she sat up, and she dabbed at her eyes. Ruby clapped her hands in excitement. 

“It looks great, Nova!” she said, already holding out her communication band to snap a quick photo to send to people. Nova made a face at the front facing camera, scrunching her face up. 

“Totally badass and not adorable on a five-foot-nothing child,” Danna teased, tearing her eyes away from Narcissa who nodded in agreement. 

“Five-foot-three,” Nova replied, scoffing. She hopped off the table and over to the full body mirror, leaning close to inspect the new addition. 

“Maybe in heels.” Danna grinned. “No, but really, it looks good. It suits you well.” 

Nova massaged her nose, which was starting to swell up. She sniffled, the piercing making it feel like she had a stuffy airway. “You think so?” 

“Well, do you like it?” Ruby came up beside Nova and crossed her arms, looking at the piercing and beaming. 

Nova thought about it for a moment, examining the rosey-gold jewelry now gleaming on her face. She had chosen the stud to match the bracelet on her wrist. Slowly, she started to nod, her lips stretching up. 

“Yeah. I do.” She paused before running a hand through her hair, which was getting longer and in need of a cut, although now Nova was liking the way it looked with the piercing. So many changes in such a small amount of time. Maybe it was a good thing. “I really do, actually.” 

“Then that’s all that matters.” Ruby clapped her hands together. “So, lunch? Oscar recommended this great cheeseburger place that just opened up.”

Nova had learned to trust Oscar’s judgement on food, even if she wasn’t that fond of cheeseburgers. When he said the place was great, he was serious. There weren’t many restaurants in Gatlon, at least affordable ones, that had been given such an honor from Oscar. So, Nova nodded her head, and their group set off for lunch. 

__________

Something was definitely up. 

They had gone to lunch at the place Ruby recommended, and all was well until Nova noticed that every time one of her friend’s communicators chimed with a message, it was closely followed by the other two. They tried to check the messages at different times and respond out of sync, as if they were keeping something from Nova. A few times, Nova had attempted to peer over Ruby’s shoulder at her communication band, curiosity overcoming her, but Ruby always closed the conversation quickly after Nova snooped. 

Then, afterward, when Nova had suggested running to Adrian’s house for a bit to check up on him and possibly bring him soup or ice cream, all three of her companions got wide eyed and instantly started voicing their objections. 

“You don’t want to get sick!” Ruby had said. 

“He’s probably passed out,” Danna had added nonchalantly.

“Ugh, yeah. He’s probably disgusting.” Narcissa had wriggled her nose at the thought, but Nova could see right through the lie. The bookworm was a terrible liar; it was evident through the way she never made eye contact and stammered over her own words. “Definitely too sick to see you...or anyone else for that matter! He’s probably thrown up like...five times already.” Then she got quiet when Danna shot her a not so subtle glare, to which Narcissa replied with a quiet and confused, “What?”

So Nova had suggested going back to her place, a little apartment that Hugh and Simon had bought for her under their name not long after the Supernova, after they found out she was rotating homes to stay at for short periods of time until she eventually ended up at the Everhart-Westwood residence. She knew a majority of their reasoning for buying it was that they never forgave themselves for failing to save Nova’s family, even though she had long since forgiven them and come to terms with her misjudgments and wrongdoings. She also knew a teeny, tiny part of the reasoning had to do with the fact that they were completely supportive of her relationship with Adrian, it being a little too evident in the fact that the bedroom was big enough for a queen or king sized bed and that the bathroom had two sinks instead of one. Message received. It wasn’t much, just a kitchenette, sitting area, and closed off bedroom and bathroom, but it had become a decent home for Nova, a fresh start. Plus, it didn’t hurt that the apartment complex, one built after the Age of Anarchy, was just a few blocks away from Adrian’s house. Another thing that couldn’t be accidental on Hugh and Simon’s part. 

Again, her group shot down her suggestion and began making excuses. Then Danna mentioned going into a few shops and boutiques nearby, and Nova almost had to laugh. They knew that shopping was one of Nova’s least favorite things to do, something they had all learned the hard way when they had tried taking her before. She just didn’t understand how some people got joy from running their hands over racks of ridiculous clothing, exclaiming how much they loved a top or a skirt yet putting it back with a defeated sigh after checking the price tag. At least that’s what little experience she had from shopping with Ruby. Nova supposed she shouldn’t judge; not everyone got their joy from working out or boxing, a hobby she had recently taken up, or inventing things, like she did. 

Finally, when the day was running out, the sun beginning to drift downward, Ruby gasped and nudged Danna roughly. Nova, who had been busying herself going through a rack of jeans at a thrifty second-hand store they found themselves in, paused in her disinterested scavenging to turn her head just slightly, in hopes of catching what was so important. 

She heard something about everything’s ready and we can go back now before Danna was by her side, linking elbows with her and dragging her away. 

“Okay,” she said, a little too chirpy for Danna. Nova blinked. “So, Max just messaged Ruby and said that Adrian really wants to see you.” 

Narcissa appeared beside her girlfriend, biting back a smile. “Yeah! Something about being sorry for missing your birthday and all.”

“What about getting me sick?” Nova pulled away from Danna, who had been leading her to the door. She crossed her arms, stopping in her tracks. 

“He’s feeling much better.” Ruby waved a hand. “Now, let’s go, before traffic gets too heavy.” Danna emphasized the urgency by waving the set of car keys in her hand up by her face. 

“What are you three hiding?” Nova finally said, feet planted. “You’ve been acting weird all day.”

Danna looked genuinely surprised, and Nova almost believed it, if she hadn’t already known that Danna was a pretty damn good actress when she wanted to be. “What are you talking about?”

Nova opened her mouth to protest, then closed it. Fine. She’d been playing their game the entire day, what was one more round? Clearly, they weren’t going to Adrian’s, as he was probably in his deathbed, but they were going somewhere important. Might as well get it over with so Nova could go home. 

“Alright then.” Nova shrugged, forcing herself forward and through the doors of the shop. “Let’s go.” 

______

The ride to the secret destination seemed like it was forever, but that was only because it was silent the entire way. Nova kept her attention on Danna, who kept looking in the rearview mirror at Ruby, a concerned and questioning look on her face. Nova didn’t even realize where they were until they pulled up to the curb right outside her boyfriend’s house. Her eyebrows immediately shot up. What was going on?

They went up to the front door, Ruby knocking on the door thrice. They waited a few minutes, the door remaining closed. She looked back and shrugged before reaching a hand out and turning the knob. The door opened, and their group filed in. Nova blinked a few times, eyes adjusting to the sudden darkness of the house. Dark...and also quiet. 

Nova raised her voice a little, sharing a look with the others. “Adrian? Are you here? It’s me.”

No answer. 

“Maybe the kitchen?” Ruby scrunched her eyebrows together, already pushing past to head to that room. Danna and Narcissa followed, leaving Nova alone in the foyer. Was she the only one who thought something wasn’t right? 

Her hand immediately went to her waist, where she kept a few of her inventions on hand in her pockets if she ever needed them. She also called on her power, feeling it rise up to just underneath her fingertips, waiting. Following the others, somewhat hesitant, Nova braced herself for the worst. 

When she entered the kitchen, it was as dark as the other rooms, if not darker. The others were gone, sending her body into full alert. 

Then the lights were flicked on, blinding her. Nova stepped back, just as people jumped out from just about everywhere in the kitchen, all yelling out the same thing: “Surprise!” 

Nova screeched, letting out a string of curse words and narrowly avoiding knocking out Oscar, who so happened to be the closest to Nova. 

She heard a camera snapping a photo, and she scowled. Her eyes went around the room, scanning each face there. Oscar, Danna, Ruby, Narcissa, Max, Simon, Hugh, a few prodigies that Nova had befriended in the past few months, Leroy, and in the middle of it all, with the stupidest smile on his face that Nova wanted to smack off, was her idiot boyfriend, Adrian Everhart. Who, judging from the color in his face and twinkle in his eyes, was not sick. 

“What. The. Hell.” Nova narrowed her eyes at all of them, specifically Adrian. 

“It’s your birthday!” Oscar cried, wrapping an arm around Nova’s shoulder. She scoffed and tried to push it away. “This is your birthday party!” 

    “I’m seventeen, not seven.” She bit back a frustrated huff, examining the large room. There were balloons scattered here and there, some with messages on them. There was a banner hanging against the wall that read, in all capital letters, HAPPY BIRTHDAY. Her eyes landed on the center island, which held an assortment of snacks and treats.

    “Oh, loosen up, Nova.” Hugh rolled his eyes, smiling that charming boyish grin of his. “Birthdays are a tradition around here.” He spread his arms wide. “Now you’re part of that tradition. Whether or not you want to be,” he added teasingly. 

    Nova almost said something snarky in response, but refrained. Her heart softened a little as she recognized they had spent all day preparing this for her when they could have been doing other things, and had probably spent longer planning. Now that she thought of it, Adrian and the others had seemed distant lately. 

    “Okay,” she tested out slowly. “But why a surprise party? You know I hate surprises.” She looked specifically at Adrian when she said this, whose smile ceased to falter. Damn him for just looking amused. 

    “Because you haven’t had a real birthday before, dummy.” Nova was taken aback, slightly offended but more surprised at Ruby’s name calling. “At least, that’s what you’ve told us.” 

    Unexpectedly, her chest expanded, filling up with appreciation and gratefulness and...and love for the people in the room with her. The Anarchists had never gone to such lengths for her, only ever caring about their own wellbeing and personal agendas. Her parents, as much as they tried, could never have done something like this for Nova even if they had wanted to. A small weight pressed at the back of her eyes as she looked at Leroy, who was standing a bit away from the main group, almost awkward and like he was uninvited. 

“You too?” she demanded, voice suddenly hoarse. Leroy had shown up with the other Rejects about a month following the Supernova, full of new ideas and experiments and inventions and surprisingly eager to help repair their fragmented society. While most people were still wary of him, even some of the Council, he was pardoned on behalf of Nova, who had argued an extensive amount for his freedom and rights, just as she did with Narcissa and the rest of the Rejects. She wasn’t alone, either. Adrian, Oscar, Ruby, and shockingly, Danna, had sided with her in defense of the Rejects. 

The side of Leroy’s face that wasn’t paralyzed curled up into a guilty smile. “How else would they have known what flavor cake to get?”

“Lemon coconut?” Her eyes fixed on the beautifully decorated dessert. “But how did you-”

“I’ve known you since you were a little ankle biter, Nova.” His gaze softened. “Even before that; I remember when Ace told us his brother’s wife had a baby, and they named her Nova, in hopes of her being a great brightness in dark times.” Her eyes pricked at the mention of her parents, two out of the three people who weren’t in this room with her. 

“I guess one slice won’t hurt.”

_______

     Nova snuggled closer to Adrian, shifting the blanket wrapped around their shoulders so that it covered more of her body. Nights during the spring were usually chilly, but tonight was nice enough to sit outside around the fire pit in Adrian’s backyard. Hugh had suggested it, once it started getting late and only a few people, Leroy included, had left in favor of sleep. He said they needed to use the backyard more, to which Adrian sent Nova a secretive eyeroll. 

    Adrian pulled her closer, as close as they could get on the lounge chair they were sharing; she was practically in his lap. His arms wrapped tighter around her waist, his hand accepting hers when she grabbed for it and twining their fingers together. Every now and then, he would push her hair back to press a soft kiss to the spot behind her ear, or trace small circles on the small of her back, or another small gesture of affection that would relax Nova’s muscles. 

    Max was in the middle of an anecdote from a few months before, some kind of incident he got himself into at headquarters that no one had heard about until now. Everyone was grinning; Nova was sure Hugh was about to burst into tears from laughing so much. Nova tried to pay attention, but something kept nagging at the back of her mind. 

    Despite the party, despite her friends showering her in gifts and food and laughter and fun for the past few hours, there was still something missing. Even as she was surrounded now by them, the fire before her warming her face and the boy behind her putting off a wall of heat, she was cold. Once tonight was over, they would all go home, back to their families. Nova, on the other hand, would go back to her apartment, alone. There would be no one there to greet her, no one to ask how the party was. No one to listen intently as Nova told them all about her day. 

    Nova turned her head around, planting a kiss on Adrian’s cheek, if only to distract herself and ignore the pressure building behind her eyes. His lips parted into that smile that made her knees weak. 

“Have I told you Happy Birthday, yet?’’ he murmured, as to not interrupt Max’s story. He played with her fingers absentmindedly. Nova rolled her eyes, unable to help the smile that appeared on her face as well. 

“Only about ten times already,” she teased, resting her forehead against his. “But it wouldn’t hurt hearing it again.”

He captured her lips with his, just barely kissing them before pulling back. “Happy Birthday, Nova.”

“Thank you.” Her smile widened. “And thank you for this party. I know it’s your doing.”

“I may have helped a little.” His eyes sparkled. “I like the nose ring, by the way. It fits you.”

Nova’s hand wandered up to her face, touching the piercing lightly. The skin around it was still tender to the touch. “You think so? I was going for the hot girlfriend look.” It was a joke; Nova had been wanting one for many years, but she figured it might make Adrian blush. He usually did when she said things like that. 

If anything, Adrian’s expression became mischievous. Nova silently cursed herself; she was going to have to think of new ways to embarrass him. He was starting to get used to her current ways. “You’ve already excelled at that.” It was uttered so smoothly that Nova felt her cheeks heat up. Not the reaction she had expected. “An A-plus times ten in the hot girlfriend category.” Damn him. 

“I hate you.” Her shoulders shook in a light laugh as she tilted her chin up. 

“No you don’t,” he replied as their lips met, and he was right. Truthfully, she loved him. It had been hard for her to come to terms with the feeling of being in love with someone. How could she be so vulnerable with a single person? So open and honest and raw? To know she would go to any lengths for his happiness, and vice versa. That they had one another’s backs and would protect each other. To know that at the end of the day, no matter what had passed between them, they were each other’s home. He was her best friend; Nova knew this without a doubt, despite never having a best friend before. But he was also something else...something more real and lifelong and terrifying than friendship. 

. Nova thought back to her parents and Evie again, how they weren’t here to see her. Her father would never get to meet Adrian, never get to jokingly threaten him and just as quickly turn around and treat Adrian like his own. Her mother would never get to dote over Adrian and overfeed him at meals. Evie would never tease them and declare her disgust for the male population whenever she would walk in on them kissing. An entire life, just robbed from Nova in the span of minutes. 

A throat clearing loudly pulled Nova and Adrian apart, Nova not realizing how she had started kissing him more desperately, despite there being an audience, in an attempt to block out the pain stinging her eyes. 

It was Simon, who stared pointedly at Nova curled up on his son’s lap as he said, “Well, it’s getting a little late. I’m going to clean up the kitchen a little if anyone would like to help.” Max had apparently ended his story, and Simon’s stare wasn’t the only one fixed on the two teens. Embarrassment flooded her body, and she felt the sudden need to get up. 

“I’ll help.” She hopped up from her warm spot, goosebumps immediately running up her back from the chilly air. Simon shook his head, saying that as the birthday girl, she didn’t have to do anything. “No, I want to,” she insisted. “I like cleaning.”

So together, she and Simon made their way back inside the Everhart-Westwood house. She got started on throwing plastic cups and paper plates into a trash bag while Simon busied himself with putting the cake and snacks and pizza that Oscar had ordered away. They were quiet, left to their own thoughts. Evie would have loved this party, Nova was sure of it. She had always been a bubbly baby, despite falling ill often and crying. Nova had always wondered just what kind of person her sister would have turned out to be had it not been for that one night. She wondered how different she herself would have turned out. But there was no way of knowing; there never would be. 

There was something else still bothering her, something that had been plaguing Nova for the past 6 months since she had fought against her uncle. 

“Hey, Simon?” He paused from wrapping a plate of cookies, looking up at her with raised eyebrows. Nova took in a deep breath, knowing she should just keep her mouth shut and tell him nevermind, but she just couldn’t. “Do you...do you think they would be proud of me? My parents, if they were here?”

Simon looked taken aback. He set the plastic wrap down and crossed his arms, considering her words for a minute. “Of course they would be, Nova. Why wouldn’t they be?”

Nova shrugged, the movement tiny. “It’s just...I-I...I betrayed them.” Her voice cracked at the word betrayed, and her eyes unexpectedly welled up with tears. “I was stupid enough to believe in my uncle’s lies for nearly ten years and idolized him. I was so filled with hate that I thought I was doing the right thing.”

“Honey,” Simon began, moving forward to place a hand on Nova’s shoulder. “You had no idea. Your uncle kept what he did from you on purpose. You finding out would’ve meant losing you.” He paused. “I’m sure your parents don’t blame you. He manipulated you in the cruelest way possible.”

Nova dropped her eyes. “Then why do I feel so alone?” 

“What do you mean?” Simon ducked his head, trying to regain her eye contact. 

Nova looked back up as a single tear escaped, rolling down her cheek slowly. She wiped it away immediately, already loathing herself for breaking so easily. “You know how they say you can tell someone is still around even after they die?” When Simon nodded, she pressed on. “I...I can’t tell if they’re here or not. Before I found out the truth, I had thought they were there, encouraging me to fight for what Ace believed in. Now, I know it was only in my head; they were never there.” She licked her lips. “Wouldn’t I know if they were proud of me if they were here?”

Simon didn’t answer, not right away, at least. Nova searched his face, full of conflict as he tried to find something to tell her. 

“What if they really are here, Nova, and you’re ignoring their presence because of your own guilt?” he said slowly. “Because I know for a fact that they would be proud of you.”

“How?” she croaked. 

“I’ve been a parent for almost eighteen years.” When he said it, Nova could tell how the impact of those words made him feel old. “Adrian is not perfect, and neither is Max. They’ve both made stupid mistakes. Hell, take the story Max just told us outside. He was doing something he wasn’t supposed to be doing that day, and while I’m slightly annoyed at what he did, and that he didn’t tell us, he’s still my son and I will always be proud of him.” When Nova opened her mouth, he continued on. “Think about Adrian, then. Hugh and I were pissed when we learned he was the Sentinel. That was his biggest mistake yet, and you know what we did?” He didn’t wait for Nova to answer. “We punished him, yes, but we are still proud of everything he has done. The good always outweighs the bad, Nova. A good parent always forgives their children, no matter how big the mistake, because it’s just nature. It’s unconditional love, and your parents died wanting you to be okay in the end. That’s all any parent could ever wish for their children.”

He wiped at the few tears that had started streaming down her face, then pulled her into a hug. Nova tensed up at first, but soon found herself crumpling against him, burying her face in his shoulder. And that’s how Hugh found them.

“What’s going on in here?” he asked, drawing Nova’s attention up. She sniffled and palmed at her cheeks, embarrassed at breaking down in front of the Dread Warden and Captain Chromium. 

“Nothing,” Nova said. 

“Nova doesn’t believe her parents are still here with her and that they’re proud of her.” Simon shot Hugh a look. 

“What do you mean?” Hugh frowned. “Of course they’re here, Nova. They’ll always be with you.”

Nova sighed. “It’s just...I’ve felt so alone since I learned the truth about who really killed my family, and…and I’ve been doubting that they’re even proud of me.” She bit the inside of her cheek. “Everyone I know has a family and parents that are proud of them but me, and I know that sounds childish, but it’s true and I hate it.”

Hugh shook his head slowly and pulled up a barstool beside Simon. “I only knew David Artino for a short time, but he was a brave, compassionate, and fierce man, and he cared about his family more than anything else in the world.” He looked Nova in the eye. “To not be proud of the young lady you have become would go against everything he believed in, Nova.” 

Nova knew he was right, but she didn’t want to admit it.

“As for not having a family anymore,” Hugh continued, “I don’t think that’s true either. There are people here tonight who care for you and love you, Nova.” He smiled softly at Simon, almost knowingly. “Our son loves you deeply, more than anyone else here. It’s important for you to remember that family doesn’t always have to be biological. You get to decide who your family is. Now, that could be just you and Adrian, or you and your friends, or even you and a pet. You get to define your family, okay?” He paused for a moment. “And if you ever choose to let the two of us be in that family, as well, we would be honored.”

Nova’s lower lip trembled slightly. She bit down on it. Again, he was right. Now that she thought of it, Adrian was her family. That was what was so terrifying and real and lifelong compared to friendship, and she wanted to welcome it. Oscar and Ruby and Max and even Danna and Narcissa were slowly becoming part of her family as well. Now that they were beginning to trust her again and willing to open up to her, and she to them, Nova realized that she would do anything for them. And as for Hugh and Simon, two people who she held a strong hatred for not one year ago, Nova could see them in her oddball family as well. Maybe not now, but in the near future. 

“Okay,” she whispered, feeling a fresh wave of tears in her eyes but too tired to let them fall. She wiped them away quickly. 

“Okay.” Simon smiled at her, a genuine smile, and stood. Hugh did as well. “Shall we head back outside, then? I don’t know if I trust Oscar to be alone at our house for more than five minutes.”

“Me neither.” Hugh chuckled. “Oh, before I forget, are you spending the night, Nova?”

For whatever reason, Adrian’s dads had no problems with Nova occasionally sleeping over. But, she supposed it was because they had no clue that once they went to bed, she would sneak out of the guestroom they would give her and go downstairs to be with Adrian. 

“Um, yeah, I guess.” She laughed awkwardly, and they headed outside. 

Simon was justified in his accusation, for when they went back outside, Oscar had a bag of marshmallows in his hand. Ruby sat next to him, and the two looked like they were up to no good. Danna had her face in her hands; Narcissa rubbed her back soothingly. 

“What are you doing?” Hugh asked, rather tiredly, as the three took their former seats. 

Adrian pulled the blanket back around Nova when she sat back down on top of him, stretching her legs out over his lap. “You okay?” he asked, examining her face with concern. 

Nova put a tight smile on, nodding. She would tell him later when they were alone. 

“Oscar thinks he can fit fifteen marshmallows in his mouth,” Ruby explained, looking at Oscar with complete adoration. 

“You’re a hazard to society,” Danna muttered between her hands, barely peeking up.

Oscar rolled his eyes, about to reply with something snarky when he made eye contact with Nova. He blinked. “You good? Your eyes are a little red.”

Nova swallowed, looking at this despicable group of people around her. They were a mess, truly. But she was now part of this mess, and happy about it. 

“Yeah, um, I’m fine.” She sniffled. “I actually haven’t been for a while now, but now I am. At least, I think I’ll be.” Her gaze drifted over each of their faces. “You guys know that I...I love you, right?” Even Danna raised her head up, blinking in pleasant surprise. “And…I just wanted to thank all of you for everything you’ve done for me, and for trusting me again despite what I did. I don’t know what I’d do without you guys.” A huge weight felt like it was being lifted off of her shoulders, and Nova had to let out a slow breath. 

Oscar was the first to speak. “Damn, Artino, getting soft on us after only six months?” He tsked and shook his head. “Might as well use that money you’re saving for a motorcycle on a minivan.”

Nova scowled at him. “And you’re a coward.” She nodded her head at the bag of marshmallows in his hand. “Do twenty.”

“Don’t encourage him,” Danna groaned as Oscar started shoving marshmallows in his mouth. Nova laughed, a true laugh. The arms around her waist tightened, and she twisted around to look at Adrian. He had a mixture of shock and something else in his eyes that made Nova’s insides turn upside down. 

“I love you,” she said without hesitation, wrapping her arms around his neck. “I’ll tell you everything later tonight, okay?” And she meant it. 

“I love you too,” he responded gruffly, hand going to the back of her head to pull her closer to him. “I love you so much, Nova Artino.” When they kissed, Nova felt the lightest she had in awhile. She highly doubted that she would ever forget this day, her seventeenth birthday. Compared to a year ago, her life had drastically changed, and for the better. 

At that moment, wrapped up in Adrian’s arms and surrounded by her found family, she was almost positive she felt the proud gaze of two people she missed more than anything in the world.

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quiet on widow’s peak (6)

pairing: dan howell/phil lester, pj liguori/sophie newton/chris kendall rating: teen & up tags: paranormal investigator, mystery, online friendship, slow burn, strangers to lovers, nonbinary character, trans character, background poly, phil does some buzzfeed unsolved shit and dan is a fan word count: 2.9k (this chapter), 19.7k (total) summary: Phil’s got a list of paranormal experiences a mile long that he likes to share with the world. Abandoned buildings, cemeteries, and ghost stories have always called his name, and a particular fan of his has a really, really good ghost story.

read this chapter on ao3 or here!

Hope my friends and I didn't make things weird for you yesterday. We're heading to the city around noon if you're still up for helping us with the boring part.

noon?? fucking alright i guess i gotta put pants on

lmao yeah, sorry. My parents woke us up at EIGHT like that's a normal time to be awake????

desgostang

What?

ill send u the link later and also no i didnt feel weird yesterday you guys are nice

That's good! And hey I wanted to ask. You were kind of put on the spot with introducing yourself, would you rather we called you Dan or Winnie? I just wanna make sure we aren't making you uncomfortable at all lmao

no its all fine you can call me dan idc and actually its best if you do call me dan when youre in my work lmao

Are you totally sure?

why would i lie abt this. dont be an idiot it isnt a good look on you

haha okay. I’ll see you around noon.

--

“Christopher is a nice boy,” Phil’s mum is telling him as she helps him with their fancy new coffeemaker. There are so many buttons and Phil is so, so tired. “And Sophie is lovely, such a soft-spoken thing. Why haven’t we met them before, dear?”

“Dunno,” Phil says instead of the truth, which is that he’d had no idea how he was supposed to introduce them. “You have now, though.”

His mum laughs and reaches up to pat his cheek. “True enough. I’m so happy that you’ve got good people around you, Philip. I’ve gotten quite worried about you down there by yourself, you know.”

“I’m not by myself,” says Phil. “I live with, like, thirty people.”

“Bunch of strangers, I’ll bet,” she says, because she knows him. “Aside from those three.”

The thing is, she’s not wrong. Phil’s obviously exaggerating about the number of people under the roof of the creaky Brighton house, but the truth is that he can’t keep track half the time. A lot of the rooms get sublet out randomly, or a significant other will start spending so much time around the place that they might as well pay rent, and Phil really isn’t good with new people. He gets along fine with Holly and Dave, but they’ve been there as long as he has and the closest they’ve ever come to a heart-to-heart was comparing anxiety meds over burned pancakes.

Chris and Sophie were there when Phil moved in, and they’d taken one look at him and decided to just keep shoving into his space until he liked having them there, like they were on a mission to adopt PJ’s sad, ghost-obsessed friend from the internet.

“You might be right,” Phil says, feeling a smile tug at his lips for the first time all morning. He’s already had a coffee - and a half, when PJ declared that not even Kath could make coffee taste good and shoved the rest of his Phil’s way - but he still doesn’t feel fully awake. “I’m only really friends with Chris and Soph because of PJ.”

“PJ is a good friend to you, isn’t he?” his mum hums. That slightly pointed tone doesn’t get to Phil the way it usually does, because he knows that she’s just trying to understand him.

It doesn’t escape Phil’s notice that he’s looking into a mirror whenever he sees his parents watching him carefully, waiting for him to tell them something he hasn’t explicitly said, because he’s been doing the exact same thing to his housemates for nearly two years.

Maybe he’ll tell his parents when he’s got someone serious or even, like, semi-serious. Longer than two dates would be a record at this point. But right now he already feels like he’s been one misstep away from disappointing them, and he doesn’t want to take the gamble that his sexuality will be that misstep.

He’s not up for this conversation, though, isn’t sure he’ll ever be, so he just says, “Yeah, he is.”

--

Dan is late. They’re so late, actually, that Phil’s wheel of worst case scenarios has been spinning silently and getting faster and faster the more caffeine he chugs. They roll in with flushed cheeks and a jacket that looks too thin, apologies on their shiny lips that Phil doesn’t even hear for a couple of seconds because he’s too busy staring at them.

“No worries,” Sophie says, interrupting their rambling before they lose another half hour to it. “You want something? I’m getting a refill.”

“No, no, let me,” says Dan. They shrug off their jacket and hang it on one of the empty chairs. Phil and his friends have co-opted the largest table in the place so they can spread out with their laptops and notebooks, and it doesn’t escape Phil’s notice that Dan has decided to sit next to him when they’ve got a couple of options. “I get free drinks if Gabe’s in a good mood. Anyone else need a refill?”

“Me,” Chris says, not looking up from his screen. “Not Phil. He’s cut off.”

“Hey,” Phil protests weakly. His heart rate really has picked up since they sat down, so he knows Chris has a point.

Dan grins, their soft cheeks giving way to the dimples that Phil is very quickly growing obsessed with. He just wants to make Dan smile and laugh constantly, to hear them cackle and see all the lines in their round face deepen with happiness.

Right. Phil watched a horror movie with PJ instead of unpacking this fluttering start of a crush last night, and now he’s just got to deal with it for the rest of the day.

As if it’s a compulsion, Dan clears the empty mugs from their table before heading up to the counter. Phil focuses on the EMF readings so he doesn’t get caught up on Dan holding four mugs by the handles with total ease.

PJ has got headphones on and his eyes closed, so he might not even have noticed that Dan is there. He’s been going through Sophie’s footage and his own audio recordings to try and find some anomalies while Chris looks for the weird visual stuff - they’re a great team at that, and it makes Phil feel like he’s not doing enough. Sure, he could find those things on his own, but not as quickly as they can when it’s a team effort, and they’re on a bit of a tight schedule here. Well, his housemates are. They’ve got actual jobs to get back to once the weekend is over.

Allegedly, Sophie is doing research on sigils, but it looks to Phil like she’s just doodling. Not that he really blames her if she is. He’s barely been paying attention to the chart he’s making of spikes in electromagnetism because he’s been so busy watching the door for Dan.

And Dan looks… good. They’re wearing chunky boots and a shirt that falls to their thighs - a dress, maybe, but it looks like a regular black t-shirt that got extended at the hem - with tight white jeans. The only colour on them is the plaid shirt around their waist and the shiny red product on their lips to match it. Phil watches them lean against the counter and grin at the older barista, and he’s so distracted by looking at their profile that he startles when a foot connects with his under the table.

“Stop staring,” Sophie says, quiet and smiling. “He’s going to notice.”

Phil considers correcting her, but then he remembers that he probably doesn’t have to. Dan had said any pronouns, that they didn’t care how they were referred to, so it would definitely be weirder to act like he knows better than Sophie.

He knows he won’t be able to use masculine terms for Dan. Not because they aren’t true, because he’s pretty sure they’re no less accurate than neutral or feminine would be, but because thinking of Dan as a maculine person is only going to allow Phil’s brain to fall into the familiar traps of gender in ways he doesn’t want to allow.

Gay monkey brain doesn’t need any more leeway in finding Dan attractive, that’s for damn sure.

“So, what are we doing?” Dan asks, interrupting Phil’s thoughts, and, wow, four mugs is a lot more impressive when they’re full of hot liquid. Phil marvels at Dan’s ability not to trip and spill it all as they dole out the coffee and teas.

“I’m doing the boring part,” says Phil. He turns his screen so Dan can see the Excel spreadsheet and laughs at the face they make. “Yeah. It's not glamorous, but it's the easiest way to find patterns in the EMF readings. Honestly, most of my job is just staring at things and finding patterns in them. Like, uh, what's that guy? With the butterfly splotches?"

"Worcestershire," Chris suggests.

"Rorschach," Dan corrects him, lips twitching like they aren't sure if they're allowed to laugh in Chris' face or not.

“That’s exactly what I said,” says Chris.

“You know EMF meters don’t have anything to do with ghosts, right?” Dan asks, ignoring Chris completely and leaning a bit closer to Phil to get a better look at his laptop. “I mean, none of this has anything to do with ghosts, really, but you’re more or less just measuring electricity.”

Phil is aware of that. He wonders if Dan thinks he just stumbles into haunted houses with equipment he hasn’t researched and waits to be spooked. He’s too distracted by how close Dan is and how good they smell to work up to proper offense, though. “Yeah,” he says simply. “But don’t you think it’s weird that the place still has electricity to begin with? Who’s paying for that?”

“A Wilkins, I’d imagine.”

“But why? If they’ve forgotten about the property or abandoned it on purpose, surely they wouldn’t still pay the bills.”

“Maybe they don’t handle their own finances,” Dan suggests. “How rich were these assholes?”

“I honestly don’t know,” says Phil. He taps his fingers in an erratic pattern on the edge of his laptop, trying to spark something in his mind.

It’s almost disappointing when Dan pulls away to dig out their own sleek Macbook out of their messenger bag, but Phil is also glad for it. He can think a lot easier when the warm scent of spice and mint isn’t clogging his brain.

Dan slots into the work as easily as if a space was left for them. They’ve got dozens of tabs open already and they start to go through them, cross-referencing magic things with Sophie in quiet tones and digging deeper into the Wilkins family than Phil ever would have thought to. Every so often they tap Phil on the arm and drag him into whatever rabbithole they’ve fallen down, chatting animatedly.

Phil knows, objectively, that Dan is a fan of his and that Dan is weird about research. It’s another thing entirely to watch it happen in real time, to see Dan pull up local census PDFs from the eighties and explain why chaos magic is bullshit in the same breath.

An hour or so goes by like that, all of them working on their own things with minimal words exchanged by everybody but Dan, and then Chris shouts loud enough to make the barista jump. Nobody else is in the coffee shop right now, which is lucky, because Dan’s got a hand over their chest and Sophie has slopped tea down her front. PJ, with his headphones on, simply cracks an eye open.

“What the fuck was that about?” Phil asks, putting his own palm against his chest to feel his heart race. Dan raises their eyebrows and looks at Phil, seemingly distracted from the startling, wordless exclamation.

They don’t get a chance to say whatever they’re thinking, though, because Chris is turning his laptop to the rest of the table and grinning wide like the Cheshire Cat. “I found something.”

Everybody gathers round, PJ getting up to lean over the back of Phil’s chair and Sophie getting so far into Dan’s personal space that Phil is certain they’re uncomfortable with it, and then Chris presses play upside down. It’s part of Sophie’s footage, Phil standing in the dim foyer and looking frustrated. Even without sound, Phil can tell that this is when he was arguing with Sophie about going upstairs. He squints, but he can’t see whatever it is that’s got Chris being so loud.

“What am I looking at?” PJ asks when the short clip ends, and Dan hums an agreement. Chris makes a frustrated noise like they’re being obtuse on purpose and rewinds to the beginning.

"There," Chris says, excited like he hasn't been since they got to Manchester. He taps his finger against the laptop screen. "D'you see it? D'you see the shadow?"

Now that Chris has pointed it out, Phil does see something. He moves his own laptop and notebook out of the way to pull Chris’ closer with a frown. Chris lets him do that, bouncing in his seat a little bit.

“That’s straight up a person,” Phil says slowly, tracing the outline of the shadow with the mouse. It’s behind him, in the entry to the kitchen, and it looks tall. Quite a bit taller than Phil, anyway, if he’s remembering that doorframe correctly. He decides to measure it next time they go so he isn’t going off memory. “I knew we weren’t alone in there. Like. I’m not crazy, that’s a human being.”

“That’s what I thought,” says Chris. “But press play.”

So Phil presses play. He watches the shadow stay perfectly still in the kitchen doorway until, suddenly, it’s not there anymore. He blinks, rewinds, and watches it disappear again.

Phil’s caffeinated brain is firing on all cylinders now. He grins and shoves his sleeves up to his elbows before he starts fiddling with the clip. The lighting gets played with until the shadow is more obvious and then he slows it down to 0.25 times speed to see if the shadow really just vanishes.

He presses play again. This time, with a very slow-motion Phil talking in the foreground, he sees the shadow move. It runs sideways, further into the house.

“What the fuck?” Dan breathes.

“We are not going back there without some serious protection,” PJ says, even firmer on the topic now.

“What, like sigils?” Dan asks, their pretty eyes wide even as they scoff. “You’d be better off with a fucking, like, baseball bat, mate. That doesn’t look like something that wants to be your friend.”

“I’ve got a crowbar in PJ’s trunk,” Phil says, absent-minded as he plays with the clip some more.

“Excuse me? When did you put that in my car?”

“Couple months ago.”

“Huh. How have I not noticed?”

“You’re not the most observant person I’ve ever met,” says Phil. He looks up at Chris, who’s got the same exhilarated look that Phil is sure he’s mirroring. They don’t get evidence like this very often, something so clearly there that it’s even got a skeptic’s mind racing. Phil exports the edited clip and then the original, putting them both into the Cloud and emailing them to himself. “Was this the only time you saw it?”

Chris nods, accepting his laptop back when Phil is done with it. “I’ll look through everything again, now that I know what I’m looking for and all, but I think that’s it.”

“Okay, cool.” Phil looks around at his friends and Dan, beaming. “Something weird is happening. I love it when something weird is happening.”

“I hate it when something weird is happening,” PJ says, which is a blatant lie.

“Well, we can’t go snooping around until it’s darker out, anyhow,” Sophie reminds them.

“Wait, we’re snooping?” Dan asks, their voice going up an entire octave in disbelief. “Like… you just saw that someone is there and probably not happy about people sneaking around, right? Don’t you have enough for a video already?”

“We’re spending the night,” says Phil. “It’s what we do.”

“It’s what you do,” PJ corrects him.

“Okay, yeah, you guys don’t have to come if you don’t want to.”

“No, I’m coming,” says PJ.

As if she can’t hear them bickering, Sophie turns to Dan with a sweet smile, her eyes twinkling with the same excitement in Chris’. They love this, just like Phil does. “What about you, Dan?” she asks. “Are you going to have a ghost sleepover with us?”

“There’s no such thing as ghosts,” Dan says, their eyes still glued to the back of Chris’ laptop like they can see the shadow through it.

“Guess you don’t have anything to be afraid of, then,” says Chris.

“Uh, axe murderers, maybe?”

“We know what we’re doing, Dan,” Phil reassures them. He reaches a hand out to pat at their arm, feeling a bit awkward about it. “But you don’t have to come with us if you’re scared.”

That makes Dan’s gaze shift. Suddenly, those brown eyes are staring right into Phil’s soul, defiant and beautiful and impossible to look away from.

“Who said I was fucking scared?”

[nobeliumoxygenoxygenmisc]

Kagaminette headcanons

just a few headcanons i came up with because i love these two too much ajskjask someone send help (also my first time doing headcanon things so I hope they’re good??)

Ships: kagami x marinette and some adrien x nino

first of all, they definitely indulge in each other's hobbies

kagami teaches marinette fencing and a bit of martial arts because "you never know when you might need to defend yourself" and when mari is better than she expected she's just ten times more impressed but also "how did you get so good?? those skills are not beginners luck" and mari just...sweatdrops

but they have a few fencing rounds together and yes kagami defeats her every single time but mari is surprisingly decent so it's not too one-sided. it's thanks to her superb reflexes

of course, when they stop and kagami runs a hand through her hair mari melts and is like ohhhhhh no she's hot 

kagami knows what she's doing come on this girl never hesitates

and when it comes to fashion, mari helps style her girlfriend for events where she's usually the plus one herself

she always makes kagami shine though and kagmai's always like "hey save the best clothes for yourself" "nope they're definitely yours"

kagami is the best model in marinette's opinion

she's unnervingly still when mari takes measurements and mari is so thankful for it until she looks up and meets kagami's intense gaze and is like oh no she's hot x2

kagami is just thinking "how is she so cute when she's focused oh my god stop great just great she's bleping she's bleping like a cat"

she barely even notices mari's noticed her but really even if she did, she wouldn't care because like...this girl is sure of herself and loves any opportunity to fluster marinette

sometimes tho, kagami talks about ladybug when ladybug and chat noir do a particularly great save that day

and she unintentionally goes on - well not on and on but mari knows her well enough to know when kagami really respects and admires someone 

and when kagami talks more than like, five minutes about ladybug, mari just slowly gets more and more flustered

warning bells are ringing and of course tikki in her purse can hear it but she's not worried about anything other than marinette's obvious flustered reaction. it's quite funny

kagami notices and is like "oh i didn't mean anything mari. you're the only one i have eyes for" and mari's not sure if it's better or worse that kagami thinks she's jealous of...well...herself

still she finds it amusing that her 'competition' is .... well. herself once more

kagami is a flirt too

they go on another ice skating date this time with just the two of them and the ice rink is much more crowded but it's fine because kagami's got her hand in mari's or her arm around her waist and she spins mari a lot and gives her a lot of intense stares

And if its a movie date kagami doesnt even bother with the yawning trick she just wraps her arm around maris shoulders nonchalantly and basically forgets her arm is there but mari does NOT forget poor girl is burning up and then kags is like "are u okay mari?" And she takes her arm off to better turn to her and mari is like "yep im fine totally fine!!!" But inside shes like "..pls..put ur arm back.."

mari hates and loves it because half the time spent on dates is just her blustering and blushing

but

but

on the rare ocassion that mari gets kagami flustered

oohhhh boy

kagami is Shocked and she's thinking "thank you lord that this girl is my girlfriend how did i get such an amazing girlfriend thank you" and she tries to hide her shock but it's not working

mari is sooo proud of herself in those moments

she's thinking "i actually made her flustered omg!!!"

tho really, it was all alya's idea - alya's pick up lines and 'training'

alya: girl we need to get your flirting game up

mari: i...really dont think we need to

alya: hustle up. alya's flirting lessons one oh one have begun

it's a mess of smolders and smirks and two-eyed winking but by the end, alya's lessons pay off and mari pulls off a smolder that gets kagami fuming in love

on the other hand, kagami is the one to give lessons to adrien

"first lesson, adrien. learn to figure out if they're just a friend or more than that for god's sake"

adrien is SufferingTM

kagami offers firm advice but... this boy doesn't really... want to use any of it

and his firm insistence that "nino is just a friend!!!" just makes kagami want to rip her hair out

but when adrien and nino finally start going out, the two fencers talk about their significant others loads during matches

it's a mess

"marinette made me another scarf today it's so cute" kagami says as she thrusts forward with her sabre

"really??? that's great!! nino made me a playlist of songs. i still don't understand how he gets them to be so right" adrien replies as he flips backwards in the air to dodge (because he obviously can)

the rest of the class stares in wonder

and if mari and nino come to watch

if it's mari there, kagami defeats adrien effortlessly and vice versa if it's nino

oh but heaven help if they both come

they did once

and the two were so desperate to Impress that the match went on forever. it was more intense than the first one they ever did

mari and nino both pledge never to watch together again

also concerning lila and chloe and stuff

Kagami does Not Tolerate Any Of Their Crap

if they so as much as glance in mari’s direction wrong, she’s whipping out her sabre that she keeps somewhere because reasons and mari’s like nooonn onono it’s okay

hell hath no fury like kagami when she learns that lila threatened mari ooh boy

(and this is since i believe that chloe would have gotten a better redemption arc if well...certain people had cared about the storyline and actual character development)

so even after chloe is ‘redeemed’ and working to become a better person and even if marinette is like “it’s okay now kagami. that’s all in the past!!” kagami does not trust her yet

if they have a group outing kagami subtly makes it that chloe stays on the opposite end and that the two are never left alone

but she really makes sure that no one is left alone with chloe because marinette’s friends are...welllll not really her friends too, but marinette’s friends are people to care about at least

so kagami’s a bit protective but when she knows the extent of how much marinette is used for her kindness she’s just....she does not want her girlfriend to be used anymore

they help each other in that account

kagami helps marinette be a bit more ‘selfish’ and learn to put her happiness equal, if not in front of other’s happiness and to ‘never hesitate’ and marinette helps kagami to be a bit warmer to those she’s just met and have had a bad first impression on and to wait things out a bit just in case because whilst never hesitating may be good sometimes it’s not good for all things

so from what we’ve seen i think we can gather that kagami’s family is like, high pressure and all?? if that’s the word because of kagami saying stuff like “second chances don’t exist in my family” and all (i’m paraphrasing tho...oof reminds me of adrien too much. are all the rich families in miraculous just gonna have bad homes....)

so i think when kagami meets tom and sabine she’s shocked 

she hides it well but it’s so....different from home... especially when they all have snacks in the lounge and they all eat on the couch whilst talking and it’s so informal but so....nice

and kagami learns a bit of baking

she’s stiff at first because it gets messy

and marinette notices a bit of dough on kagami’s face and it’s so out of place from her girlfriend’s usual neatness that she just laughs and kagami starts to laugh as well and it finally breaks the tension in her and then baking becomes fun and they do it like every week because kagami lowkey demands to do it and she buys all the ingredients herself

they make some new products for the bakery actually!! after a lot of experimentation and adjustments, tom and sabine find one of their cake recipes too good to hide away 

and the two spend a whole afternoon trying to name it

or more like, kagami puts in loads of suggestions because again she never hesitates (im sorry i mention that too many times) and that’s great for brainstorming and all but half her suggestions are.....

“the sabre” “will people actually...eat something like that...” 

“the ladybug” “the cake isn’t even red and black themed!”

“the marinette” “no” “!! why not??” “...why”

in the end, they name it something relating to chat noir because it’s chocolate and dark enough to pass as black 

kagami secretly sulks because she really wanted to honour ladybug

(chat is ecstatic and was once seen buying a whole cake of it. nadja had lots to report that day)

so marinette responds with helping her make a ladybug themed cake

both of the cakes become a hit with birthday parties

and marinette would never have realised how much trouble it would’ve actually brought her

because when chat made one appearance at a party using his cake, paris went wild

it was never spoken aloud but then ladybug was expected to show up so now she and chat have ‘surprise’ appearances at parties - not all of them of course but they make an effort and marinette knows when a party is happening because the parents obviously get the cake from their bakery

kagami is lowkey so happy though that something she made had such an impact and connection with ladybug

mari is so happy seeing her girlfriend happy but they are not doing that again

[pandawritespoorly]

With Time: Chapter 13 - Confidence in Progress

Author’s Note: Here we are, posting more With Time! I love the response to the akuma in the last chapter, it was a ...unique thing to write. Anyways, without further ado, here's chapter 13!

Chapter Summary: Marinette talks with Fu quickly. The Quantics and Co. bake cookies.

First | Previous | Saturday

Marinette knocks on the door, waiting for the Guardian to open the door. 

She doesn’t have to wait long, she’s allowed in quickly, “Ah, Marinette, we’ve been expecting you.” Master Fu speaks calmly.

“You have?” Did she mess up that bad?

“When Wayzz and I saw that The Revealer lasted so long, we were certain it would not be long before Tikki or Plagg fell ill. It would seem Tikki is the first.”

“Given Plagg’s nature to take longer breaks, that is no surprise.” The turtle Kwami shows up above Fu’s shoulder. They walk into the same room where Tikki first got healed. Marinette lifts her Kwami gingerly from her bag and gives her to Master Fu, who nods and begins.

After the ceremony is finished, Tikki munches happily on a cookie in front of Marinette.

“Master?” She’s been debating this for so long, postponing and procrastinating as long as she can, but being here already, she has no more excuses. “Yes, Marinette?”

“I can’t call on Rena Rouge or Carapace anymore.” Given how she reacted to simply seeing Alya and Lila, there is no hope that she can work efficiently as a team with them anymore. She studies the floorboards, unable to meet his eyes. She failed to choose heroes well. He’s going to be so disappointed.

He sips from his tea calmly, “Why is that?”

“I- you told me to choose someone I can trust, and…”

“And you no longer you feel that your choices are worthy of that honor.” She would have phrased it a little differently, more along the lines of fearing the wrath of a betrayed friend, but maybe she can think of it that way instead. It feels better that way.

“...yes.”

“Very well. It is understandable to come along bumps in the road. You are a smart heroine, Marinette, I will trust your judgement.”

“But what if I choose wrong again? How many ‘bumps in the road’ will there be?” She doesn’t want to mess up again. Not after last time.

“Perhaps you should consider the actions of a hero. When I looked for people to become the holders of the Black Cat and Ladybug miraculouses, I considered their actions. You, as well as your partner, proved yourselves to already being capable of heroic acts, without the jewelry.”

“So I need to find people who… already act like heroes?” She finally meets his eyes, and finds nothing negative in them.

“Indeed. Being heroic does not require magic jewelry.” He pours more tea for himself, “You mentioned that Rena Rouge and Carapace would not be fighting anymore, but what of Queen Bee?”

That didn’t even occur to her. She’d not even considered Chloe, because the blonde had been less involved in the actions leading up to Marinette’s transfer. No, that isn’t entirely right. She’d been involved, but in a positive way. She’d been the one to bring her home on Thursday, calming her down in the bathroom.

She’d even apologized for her past actions. 

“I- I think there will be a new holder for the Bee miraculous as well.” “But…?”

“But I think that having the miraculous has helped Chloe change. For the better. I think that if I needed back-up and she was available, I would choose her. I trust her - more that Rena and Carapace.”

“So in the event that you require the assistance of the Bee, or if the new Bee holder is unavailable, you would allow Ms. Bourgeois to take up the title temporarily?” Master Fu looks to her for confirmation.

“Yes. I would.” She nods.

“I will inform Trixx and Pollen.” Wayzz floats up from his snack. Marinette feels bad, he and Nino seemed to get along well.

“I’m sorry, Wayzz.”

“It is quite alright, Marinette. I was aware from the start that the arrangement may not be permanent. I do regret that Nino made the choices he did. Perhaps this will be a learning experience for him. I can only hope.” 

Marinette smiles weakly at him and he flies to the Miracle Box. Her phone dings in her pocket.

“Perhaps you should be on your way. Unless there is anything else?”

“No, Master.” She starts toward the door, “Thank you.”

Once outside she glances around quickly before looking to her purse.

“How do you feel, Tikki?” The little Kwami looks a lot better, she’s sitting in the purse looking up at Marinette with bright eyes holding a cookie in her paws.

“Much better, thank you!”

“It wasn’t a problem, you were sick, I couldn’t leave you like that.” What if there had been another akuma? Tikki would have felt even worse after that, and that would be terrible.

“Why am I any different than you?” She knows the Kwami is thinking of her behaviour on Saturday, overworking herself to get her to the point that she got to. Marinette shakes her head. 

Why is it different? It just is. Tikki is the Kwami of Creation and Marinette is just some human girl. But she’s Ladybug, she’s a hero. Maybe it isn’t that diff-

Tikki makes surprised squeak and ducks back into her bag, Marinette glances up and sees Adrien coming this way. She’s still standing in front of Fu’s place and there’s no way she could leave without catching his eye.

He hasn’t noticed her yet, due to how intently he’s looking into his bag, seemingly talking to himself. Once he reaches the massage shop, he stops and looks to the door. He finally notices Marinette and pauses, staring at her in slight confusion,”Oh, uh, hey Marinette. What are you doing here?”

“I- uh, um, tea! My… maman! Yes, my maman wanted some tea and sent me here! For the tea!” she smiles convincingly, “Wh-what about you?”

“My uh, Chinese tutor, uh wanted me to come to him today, so… yeah.” 

She nods, that makes sense.

“Actually, Mari, how are you?” He cocks his head at her slightly, looking at her caringly.

“What?” Did she worry him somehow? How did she do that? Why did she do that?

“I, um, happened to be near your school during the akuma attack. I saw Alya and Lila… it looked like you had noticed them too? I just, uh, tried to distract them. They’re back at Fr- school now.”

Right. Alya. And Lila. Do they know? Do they know where she goes now? Are they going to find her? They’re going to find her at school tomorrow. They’re going to confront her, her friends will find out just how much she sucks, they’ll hate her too, because of course they would that’s what she des-

Adrien puts a hand on her shoulder, interrupting her spiraling, “Marinette.”

“R-right. Um, I’m good. I-I’m fine.” He looks at her doubtfully, but before he can say anything more, she continues,”Anyways, I should get this tea! Back to Maman! And you, probably need to uh, get tutored! For chinese! Ummm… yup! Bye!” She turns and hurries away, waving over her shoulder at him as she goes.

The rules. The rules. She can’t just disregard the rules.

 Rule #6: If asked, you’re doing good

 She’s good. Absolutely fine. Perfectly great. No need for anyone to worry about her. Her phone dings again. 

Right! She’d completely forgotten that someone had texted her. She’d ignored someone. They were probably worried about her now. Stupid.

 Rule #11:  Adrien, Claude, Allegra, Allan, and Felix have been nice enough to put up with you, don’t make them regret it.

 Or it’s her parents, who don’t have a choice in enduring her stupidity. Either way, she’d ignored someone for longer than necessary and now they’d either been forced to check with her again or they were finally letting her know that they’re done with her nonsense.

 Kid Mime: hey if u want to come over when ur dun u can!

Kid Mime: were mking cookies

 HE LOVES US: I fear they may burn down the building.

HE LOVES US: ...

Felix: Marinette, excuse me for a moment to exact revenge on Claude.

 The Mom Friend: dont worry

The Mom Friend: there fine

 Oh. They weren’t mad. They didn’t hate her. 

Yet.

Maybe she should go? They wouldn’t hate her for it if she’d been invited. They were making cookies, that would be fun. 

You’d get in the way. You’ll be that killjoy that gets too specific about the recipe.

“You should go!” Tikki has made her way onto the girl’s shoulder, “Cookies are fun!”

Tikki likes cookies. She would go for Tikki. That’s okay, right? It’s not selfish if you’re going for someone else?

 Patiserie Princess: im on my way

 ---

 As soon as she knocks on the door, it opens and she is whisked into Claude’s kitchen, where chaos is likely about to ensue. There are, presumably, all the ingredients necessary out along with a few measuring cups. There’s a bowl on the counter that might be meant for mixing all the ingredients, but it’s probably too small. The stove has a pot on it but the stove is off. Claude already has some flour on him, despite the flour being closed. Allan is taking out a few more ingredients, while Felix sits at the counter with tea, content to watch for now. It’s probably a good choice considering his black clothing would display any and all flour that lands on it.

Something is placed on her head. She looks up to see Allegra beside her.

“Thank goodness you’re here. Claude decided I’m in charge and I don’t know what I’m doing. You’ve got the hat so you’re in charge now.”

“M-me?! Are you sure I should?”

“You live in a bakery, and regularly assist in baking goods for sale. Of all of us you will be the most capable of directing us in creating baked goods.” Felix sips his tea as he says this.

“Yay! Marinette’s here to save us!” Claude throws his arms in the air as Allan puts the last of the ingredients on the counter.

“Hey, ‘Nette.” he looks at the chef’s hat, “So what do we do?”

“I don’t know, uh… where’s the recipe?” She still wasn’t convinced that she is the best to be in charge. They’ve never seen her as a leader, are they sure they want her to do this?

Allegra hands her a sheet of paper printed from a website. Marinette skims it quickly. It’s pretty good, but being raised by two bakers she makes some small adjustments in her head. Used to correcting recipes at home, she grabs a pen and quickly scribbles them onto the paper. Something in her switches, and she steps back with a mindset she hasn’t used in her civilian life since before. Her friends see the different expression - a new one for them - and smile.

“Alright, so first we’re going to need to melt the butter. Allan, I’m going to need to you turn the stove to a medium heat and keep an eye on it. Once it is boiling, stir it constantly until it is an amber color. At that point let it cool for twenty minutes.”

She hands him the two sticks of butter and turns to Claude and Allegra, “You two should measure out and mix the dry ingredients.” She hands them the corrected sheet, “And you’re going to want a bigger bowl.” She approves their new bowl, taking the old one with her as she clears a space a little away from the others to cut up the pretzels.

While they’re all distracted by their tasks, there’s a knock at the door. Felix stands and opens it, allowing Adrien into the kitchen. He starts to speak, but stops abruptly as he takes in the scene before him.

At this point Allegra and Claude have finished mixing and are just talking. Marinette has mixed the chocolate and butterscotch chips and pretzels together in a bowl. She’s standing at the stove with Allan and they’re talking as well. Felix has returned to his tea and none of those involved in the baking have noticed him yet. A timer beeps and Marinette straightens.

“Alright, the butter is cool now. Allegra, can you put the eggs and vanilla in with the butter? Allan can you do the brown sugar? I can mix it, and Claude, you can mix in the stuff in the other bowl when we get to that point.” Marinette is entirely in her element, having been raised on recipes that were probably more complicated than this one. She knows what to do and is easily directing those around her to include them all in the process.

Adrien hasn’t seen her so comfortable and confident - especially when directing others - in, well, a while now. It’s nice to see. He decides against interrupting and sits next to Felix to watch.

Father wouldn’t allow him to join in such a messy activity anyways.

Soon enough, the cookies have been put in the oven and Marinette sets the timer for them. She takes the hat off her head, “There! All done! I told you that it wasn’t that complicated!”

“That’s ‘cause you actually knew what you were doing!” Claude exclaims, hugging her.

“I am still certain that without your presence Claude’s kitchen may not have survived this experience.” Felix stands to put his mug away and the others finally notice Adrien.

“Oh hey, Adrien. When’d ya’ get here?” Allan sits at the table with the blond.

He shrugs, ”A little bit ago. I didn’t want to interrupt.”

“You could have said something, if you want to join.” Marinette has yet to flip back to her normal state of mind. She’s channeling her Ladybug mindset for public situations.

“Father wouldn’t have wanted me to.”

At this, Marinette gets a defiant tone and her expression changes to yet another new one for all but Adrien, “Well y-” She cuts herself off abruptly, remembering herself and slouching slightly, “Well that’s unfortunate.”

“I think that you should do what you want. He’s not here to stop you.” Allegra sits as well.

“Last time I tried that we were chased through Paris by a mob of fans.” The others are confused, but before any of them can question further, Marinette drops her head to the table.

“Ugh. I still can’t believe I was in my pajamas that whole time. How did I forget to change into my clothes before leaving the house? Aaaaaah.”

Adrien snorts at that and Claude slams his hands onto the table (but gently), “Storytime?!”

“It was on the news…” Adrien supplies, wondering if that would jog their memories - if they’d seen it at all.

“Don’t remind meeee…” Allan pats Marinette consolingly. Her head is still on the table.

“It’d still be more fun to hear it from you guys.” Allegra leans forward excitedly.

Adrien shrugs, deciding to start with the news footage. He pulls it up on his phone and puts it in view of all of them. Marinette sits up to watch it, cringing every so often.

“Anyways that’s just the early stuff-”

“So not even all of it, you didn’t even see my brilliant disguises.” Marinette covers her face with her hands.

“It turned into an akuma attack eventually.”

“You got dropped off the side of a building…”

“He what?!” Allan interrupts them, “Were you okay?”

“You guys lead very eventful lives...” Allegra adds.

“Ladybug caught me. Also her cure would have fixed anything anyways.”

“Still.” Allan shakes his head. Marinette’s point goes unspoken. What if it didn’t fix everything? What will happen when she inevitably messes everything up and can’t reverse the damage? People shouldn’t trust Ladybug so much.

“I don’t think that our lives are that eventful…” Marinette tries to draw their attention away from Ladybug. It’s hypocritical, but as much she wishes they wouldn’t trust her hero alter-ego so much, she fears the day when everyone realizes how useless she really is.

Well, maybe useless is a strong word.

“The lives of spectacular people are always eventful! That’s what happens when you’re talented Mari!” Claude throws his arms in the air excitedly and she blushes.

“Well, if the heroes of Paris recognize ya’ by name your life has gotta’ be at least kinda’ interesting…” Allan chimes in.

Marinette shrugs noncommittally. She wouldn’t mind telling them those stories, but they involve her old classmates and to think about them too long would make her feel bad - which would be against the rules - one of the newer ones.

 Rule #12: Don’t do anything that could attract an akuma to you.

 She’d already messed that up earlier, but she hadn’t seen it coming. Alya showing up with Lila had been a surprise.

You should have realized that she would have shown up at an akuma attack you idiot.

To be fair though, Alya was only part of the problem, it was Lila’s presence that had really pushed her over the edge.

No. No excuses. The whole point of her rules is to have her accept these things as facts. If they’re facts, then she shouldn’t feel bad, thereby making her safe from akumas. She can’t just follow them whenever she pleases - that’s not how rules work. She’s been breaking the rules a lot recently, especially when she got sick. Maybe it would be for the best if she re-read them tonight. For the sake of reminding herself.

She’d memorized them, so she hadn’t read them in almost a week.

“What should we do while the cookies are in the oven? Board games?” Claude suggests.

“Sure!” Allegra clears the table to make room for whatever Claude drags out of his room. He brings a few different things out. It’s impressive just how many things he manages to carry at once.

“Okay! I got Jenga, Suspend, Sorry, Sleeping Queens, Dixit, Coup…”

“That’s a lot of games at once, Claude.” Allegra looks at him doubtfully, “Do you two even know how to play some of these?” She looks at Marinette and Adrien.

Marinette nods, but Adrien shakes his head.

“The only board game I’ve played is Monopoly. I hadn’t even played that until a few months ago…”

“Welp. Claude’s gonna’ introduce ya’ to all of his.”

“You bet I am!” He punctuates this statement by dropping everything at the end of the table.

Eventually the group settles into their games, and when the timer goes off, Marinette takes the cookies out to let them cool, turning the oven off before joining back into the game. They play a couple different games for a few hours, eating the cookies while they play. Marinette slips a couple in her purse for Tikki.

“These taste like friendship!” Claude declares.

“They’re pretty good.” Allegra says, then notices Adrien hasn’t had one yet, “Do you want one Adrien?”

“Well, uh,” he rubs the back of his neck, “Do you think I’m allowed to? Father…”

Before the rest of them can respond, Marinette hits her palms to the table, looking at Adrien intensely, whispering conspiratorially, “Rebel.”

The group laughs when Adrien eats a cookie quickly, seemingly having been entirely convinced by this.

Eventually it’s starting to grow dark outside, and it’s time for them to leave. Claude shows them out.

“Farewell, friends!” The other five smile, waving goodbye as they leave. Once they’re outside Marinette wraps her coat around herself tighter, hissing at the cold.

“You gonna’ be good ‘Nettie?” Allan cocks his head at her.

“M’ house isn’t that far.” The girl sticks close to the rest of them, which doesn’t seem like it would do much good. Her miraculous condition makes her extra sensitive to heat in the winter though, so for her it’s a little better - she can sense their body heat. It’s entirely unconscious, but she always can tell where a heat source is. It’s not super useful when she’s too tired to move, but at least it means she typically falls asleep on the warmest person.

“We’ll walk with you - just to be safe.” Allegra wraps an arm around the shorter girl’s shoulders, who leans into her.

They carry on their conversation as they walk, dropping off Marinette first. She goes straight to her bed, as does Tikki. Before Marinette can sleep, she forces herself to sit up, remembering her promise to reread the lists.

After she reads them she thinks that maybe it had been too long since she read them last, seeing as now she felt bad and that is the whole thing she’s trying to avoid. 

She goes to sleep afterwards, because she’s still tired. She can think about the lists again in the morning.

---

Author’s Note: That definitely wasn't an excuse for her new friends to put her in charge of something while still allowing her to stay in her element. No,of course not. They're just helpless in the kitchen.

The recipe is here, if you're interested. I baked it with a friend a bit ago, and it was fun. They turned out pretty well, but I feel like a bakers' daughter such as Marinette would have adjustments to make.

Did I give Claude some of my own favorite games? Yes, yes I did.

Thanks for reading, and constructive criticism is welcomed in the comments below! The comments are my favorite part of this!

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[jungwoomusings]

barista!jungwoo

jungwoo has been working in his local small town cafe for a few months now

it’s his first job since starting college and he absolutely loves it

but the poor boy still can’t make a decent drink to save his life

he’s always mixing up recipes and measuring ingredients out wrong

one day a caramel macchiato is a caramel overload one sip and you get fifty cavities but the next day the coffee is so strong you’ll be up for days

his supervisor taeil always tries to teach him new drinks when business is slow

but everything he makes ends up tasting like burnt coffee grounds but he serves it with a wide smile so taeil always takes an extra sip and tries to be encouraging

taeyong hypes him up for not spilling anything this time and he just smiles so shyly at the ground

taeil makes sure he’s always on cashier duty for this reason

he always greets everyone with the warmest smile and draws cute doodles on the cups along with everyone’s names

always gives cute kids that come in a free cookie or treat but he makes sure it’s okay with the parents first in case of allergies or diet issues and the mom’s swoon

and everyone loves him too because he’s so genuine when asking the customers how their days are going and how they’re feeling

he’d probably want to find out their entire life story if doyoung wasn’t yelling from the back for him to keep the line moving

he always remembers the regulars names and recommends his favorite drinks to new customers

which is how you two meet

it’s a particularly slow saturday morning at the cafe and jungwoo has been banned from attempting to make drinks for the rest of the month after he accidentally spilled burning hot coffee all over his hand

he’s currently doodling all over the bandages covering said hand

when you walk in timid in your oversized hoodie and even bigger backpack

jungwoo takes in your slightly frazzled state and giggles to himself when he notices your bag is almost bigger than you are

you’re still scanning the menu when you step up to the counter so you don’t notice the boy with the bunny teeth smiling down at you until

“hELLO! my name’s jungwoo, what’s yours? what can i make for you? but don’t worry i won’t be the one making it!” :D

the voice is way too chipper for it being 7 am on a saturday and he definitely said more words than you could even manage before noon

you finally tilt your gaze down slightly and notice the giddy orange haired boy who looks as if he’s already had his daily caffeine intake

“uh” *clears throat* “yeah uhm can i have a sec please..?” you manage

“of course! you’re new here huh? i’ve never seen you here before and you’re definitely one i’d remember. what do you usually drink? we have all the basic stuff”

“oh well i actually don’t drink coffee... ever...”

jungwoo cannot believe his ears

he guffaws to which you shoot him an inquisitive (almost annoyed) look that has him thinking you’re actually serious

“so what are you doing in a cafe? where we sell yknow coffee?”

“ordering coffee?”

that’s when jungwoo remembers it’s finals season and that would explain the slew of new people around his age who have been coming in for the past week trying to hurriedly and confusedly order drinks they’ve never even heard of

“well what flavors do you like?”

“uhm, i dont think i can do straight black but i don’t like anything overly sweet?”

jungwoo’s smile never falters once while taking this in trying to find a drink that meets in the middle of these preferences

“do you want to try something with mocha? it’s chocolate so it’s not all just coffee but it’s a little more bitter?”

“sure?” you answer still second guessing the reason you even came in here in the first place

“great! i’ll have doyoung make that for you right now! can i have your name?”

jungwoo practically exclaims this, excited that he thought of something for you

“oh right it’s y/n” you mumble shyly, always finding it slightly awkward giving someone your name

jungwoo refrains from commenting how cute your shy exterior is and gets to work carefully writing out your name making sure to not misspell it

his writing is taking longer than it should and you’re scared he’s completely butchered your name but you can’t help but to smile at the look of concentration on his face

he has his tongue slightly poking out and eyes wide open as if he’s afraid of missing any details

“it’ll be ready in a couple minutes!” jungwoo exclaims, breaking you out of the trance you didn’t realize you were in

you quickly look down hoping he didn’t notice the way you were admiring his face

“how much do i owe you?” you ask trying regain your cool exterior

“oh i couldn’t charge you for this! you don’t even know if you like it yet!” jungwoo says not even missing a beat

“wait no i couldn’t i’ll feel bad” you say finally looking back up to meet his gaze, his eyes never once leaving your face

“ahh too late, cup’s already going” jungwoo says turning around quickly to call doyoung from the back before he says something embarrassing

like how he doesn’t actually give new customers a free first drink or how he thinks the way your nose scrunches when you’re thinking is cute

jungwoo hides beside doyoung the whole time he’s making your drink but quickly steals glances at you sitting at a nearby table every couple of seconds

he can already picture you sitting here every evening occupying a whole table with your study materials

he’s in the middle of wondering if you chew on your pen while concentrating when doyoung is shoving the hot cup into his hands

“dude next time you ignore me i’m spilling a whole pot of hot coffee down your pants” doyoung pouts casually turning to see what or who has his attention

“bring them their drink, and don’t spill it on them if you plan on taking them on a real date” doyoung sighs

jungwoo scoffs but doyoung is already behind the swinging door before he can come up with a retort

leaving him alone with you and a piping hot cup of coffee

jungwoo prays silently that he doesn’t trip while he makes his way over to where you’re stationed

you’re pretending to type on your phone as a distraction to keep you from looking at the rather cute cashier when a cup is being shoved into your face

“i hope you like it! i asked doyoung to go easy on all the syrups for you” jungwoo says feeling even shyer now that he doesn’t have a counter to hide behind

“thanks” you say timidly blowing on the cup before taking an even more timid sip

“it’s good?” you say surprised “i think? it might still be too hot to tell”

jungwoo is relieved that you don’t completely hate it because that means your chances of coming back again (hopefully soon) are a little more likely

“not too sweet?” jungwoo asks, the flutter in his voice matches the flutter in your heart

you take a moment staring at how his eyes shyly peak through his orangey bangs and how his teeth slightly dig into his plump bottom lip

“not too sweet” you muster, wondering if anything could ever be sweeter than the wide smile he gives you in return

jungwoo notices that you’re finally smiling and his heart starts to pump a little faster as if there’s caffeine already pumping through his system

you can’t tell if the warmth is coming from the steaming cup in your hands or the way jungwoo is looking down at you

so softly as if the two of you are in on some secret of your own, the kind only two strangers who are already comfortable with each other can have

your little world is invaded by the ding of the door opening letting in a man who already looks annoyed that there isn’t someone behind the counter immediately ready to take his order

“well the morning rush is about to start, i better get back there” jungwoo says, rubbing the back of his neck hoping the pout isn’t evident in his voice

“yeah i’ve got some studying to do so i better get going too..” you say wanting nothing more than to sit here and study this boy some more

“thanks for the drink” you offer finally standing up as jungwoo makes his way back to the counter “see you around”

jungwoo’s heart perks up a little bit at your last statement hoping that means what he thinks it means, but you’re already out the door before he can say anything

and he’s back behind the counter taking orders once again hoping to catch glimpses of you walking across the street before you get too far out of view, afraid he completely dreamed you up

and you’re outside braving the morning sun when you look down at all of the little hearts and smiley faces that decorate your name on the cup

you smile to yourself, maybe you do like coffee, but only if it’s coming from the sweeter than sweet orange haired barista

[kingto-d2]

A start

So, I’ve always wanted to start a blog a place to put phrases that come to my mind or how I’m feeling that I wouldn't tell the people that know me in real life. I just don’t like people worrying about me, nor do I like having to repeat things I have said already. the username Kingto-d2 is the idea that I’m a king and I’m moving forward seeing that the D2 on the chess board is the spot in front the king piece.

I’m not a confident person in myself though I’m told I should be. I hold myself up that way but I’m not. I’m strong but soft at the same time. I have so much care a love to give that sometimes it gets to me I dont have someone I want to share that with, for its all I want just that someone. I don’t trust people and have a hard time showing my emotions at all. As cliche as it is to day I truly believe I’m not like other guys. I have a sweet, kind, and loving heart, but few will ever know that of me. they will only see me as this goofy, weird guy who’s fun to be around.

So I guess a little background on me.

When I was younger around the age of 5 I was molested by multiple people over the course of 2 years. I didn't know it was wrong I was just doing what I was told and taught. I didn't learn what was going on til I started religion classes at which point I began thinking of myself as this rotten person. I couldn’t turn and tell no one because one I was scared because some were family. Two, I was now this horrible sinner and I’d constantly tell myself its okay I didnt know better. that didnt make it any better, instead I let it eat at me and I harbored this secret for eighteen years til I finally felt comfortable with this girl I loved the first person I truly ever loved and she knew I was always hiding some dark. I had bottled it up and tried to forget it, but it was always there. It still is there the damage is done but I’ve taking measures to help. Back to being young.. my parents divorced around the age of eight. I would hold items my dad got me and cry because I thought I’d never see him again, though that wasn't the case. they tried to keep it together a few months after the separation but it didn't last. this time it didn't hit me nearly as hard. Out of my siblings I like to think im the most level headed kid the better one but no one really knows how I feel or what I think and no one ever bothers to ask me. I guess they just see me as this strong older brother. Fast forward a few years. In high school I was the class clown I liked to just make people laugh I guess in a way if i could make people laugh I wouldn't feel so down or bad about myself. I played for the school soccer team and knew a good bit of people but no one was really close to me and the I also didn't feel like i belonged the my own family. The only place I felt at home was with the soccer team. I talked to girls in high school but never really dated. some girls I’d go after because I heard they were easy but I’d always stop myself before anything happened. It just wasn't in me to be interested and have sex with just anyone. After high school I started dating a girl who I had liked but was always interested in other girls. I dated her for a little bit and broke it off with her. there was no real reason too besides I guess in a way is scared because I never had anything real before. a few months go by some bad times especially between me and her, but in the end we wound back up with each other and I loved her which love is a term I don't use lightly ever. We were together for five years though officially only three. It took two years before I told about my secret and I loved this girl. I thought I’d one hundred percent marry her. Talked about future plans together all the time. The house, how many animals, the kids we’d have, and future travel plans. Though that's not how things work out for me. Her senior year of college just a few weeks from graduation she asked for a break with a promise of getting back together. she was stressed and wanted to be single for a little while since she never really was. I agreed thinking it wouldn't take long before it’d end and she’d be back, but again that's not how things work out for me. Slowly as each day went by it started to dawn on me it wasn't going to happen the way she said. Now we didn't have this fairy tale relationship there was some ups and downs but we always sat down, talked about it, and worked it out. I watched as she struggled in her last weeks and all I wanted to do was be there for her but couldnt she had cut me off thinking it would be easier for me. I watched as she started hanging around a boy who I knew liked her and flirted with her even when he was already in a relationship. Then it was over she was my rock and kept me grounded and when I lost her, her family who I liked more than my own, and myself. Losing her was my greatest fear I’m not scared of many things but I was always scared to lose her. I began to become suicidal though I know I could never intentionally hurt myself. though I prayed for it, did reckless things with hopes it’d go bad, I’d find myself drinking large amounts of zzquil just to fall asleep only to find no escape there because she lived in my head too. This fucked me up. I felt as I had lost everything. I began seeing a psychologist whom I still see to this day just made two years a few months ago. It helps and I will always recommend it to anyone. She is still the only person I’ve truly loved but I’ve moved on since then. I think of her time to time I mean she was my best friend, but we dont talk. since then I talked to some other girls but never slept with them and nothing lasted longer than a month or two. At this point I think they just use me to make themselves feel better because of how nice, kind, and sweet I am. Most recently there is one girl stuck in my head, and she makes me angry I have such a soft heart because she honestly doesn't deserve me. We talked for a month before actually meeting in person I had made a few attempts but she would ghost me. The day we met we watched movies and it was great nothing had changed from texting to being in person. She had a dog and she told me “watch what happens” as she put a pillow in my lap and laid her head down on it. Nothing happened and she removed the pillow and her head. She attempted it again a few minutes later with the same outcome.  Though this time she left her head there longer with prompted me to begin playing in her hair. Which further lead me picking up on signals from her body as I did different things. This lead to a game of anything you can do I can do better which obviously led to us having sex (which apparently I’m really good at. Not just coming from her) It had been a long time since I had done anything like that but thankfully she was fully surprised. One because of how good I was and two because I hold myself in a fashion you could never expect something like that out of me. Continuing on we began seeing each other more often and I’d spend nights at her place. I was happy, because it had been so long since I had really connected with someone and all I want in life is someone who I can fully give my heart to. Someone I can grow, explore the world, and experience life with. Sadly this didnt last for she pushed me away and this last a week. After that week things went back to normal only for her to push me away again which is where we are at not. It’s been about 2 weeks now and shes been so god damn confusing sending mixed signals throughout. Multiple people tell me to leave her alone let her go, but its just not in me. My heart is too soft and I have such a hard time letting anyone I become interested in and begin caring for go. I’ve never even gotten a solid answer of what she want from me. My dumbass sent her flowers today though. She didnt really deserve them the way she’s been treating me toying with my emotions, but something in my head said send them do it.... send them. Nothing came from it though. Not that I really thought anything would I even put a nice little card with a sweet message on it. I put forth the effort all these weeks where she hasnt put any besides once. I should stop and I know I should but I just cant get myself to and It all really messes with my head. I want her, I want to take care of her head and her heart. The chase is real and it needs to end.

[batsysims]

didnt wanna do an actual Simself Edit™ so have an arrested development reference

anyways

i was tagged by @0cherub & i tag any1 who hasnt done this yet bc who doesnt like answering 125 questions abt themselves oh also @flavortowne im forcing you to do this sry

get to know me tag

1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? its batsy dont worry abt it

2. WHAT IS YOUR NICKNAME? its batsy dont worry abt it

3. BIRTHDAY? september 15

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BOOK SERIES?  what?? are books

5. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ALIENS OR GHOSTS? ye both

6. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE AUTHOR? ummmm idk lmfao i havent “read” a “book”” in like 5 years 

7. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE RADIO STATION? 35 & 36 on sirius are like basically the exact same station but that doesnt mean i dont constantly alternate between the two whenever im near a radio

8. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FLAVOR OF ANYTHING? pink is a v trustworthy flavor

9. WHAT WORD WOULD YOU USE OFTEN TO DESCRIBE SOMETHING GREAT OR WONDERFUL? *owen wilson voice* wrow

10. WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT FAVORITE SONG? what kinda question is this wt f ive currently reobsessed myself w marina and the diamonds so honestly any of her discography

11. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE WORD? idk any words :^/ sry

12. WHAT WAS THE LAST SONG YOU LISTENED TO? wheels on the bus im exhausted

13. WHAT TV SHOW WOULD YOU RECOMMEND FOR EVERYBODY TO WATCH? man in the high castle. man in the high castle. man in the high ca

14. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE TO WATCH WHEN YOU’RE FEELING DOWN? clerks al;dksfjf

15. DO YOU PLAY VIDEO GAMES? almost exclusively sims and fallout but every once in a while some indie game i find on steam so. yea

16. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR? never doing anything in my life and having nothing 2 look forward to!! yay

17. WHAT IS YOUR BEST QUALITY, IN YOUR OPINION? probably my resiliency, maybe?? idk

18. WHAT IS YOUR WORST QUALITY, IN YOUR OPINION? my habit of allowing bad things to happen to me lol

19. DO YOU LIKE CATS OR DOGS BETTER? cats but im sorta kinda indifferent 2 both i think i might 1 of the 5 ppl on earth who dont like having pets

20. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON? summer and fall

21. ARE YOU IN A RELATIONSHIP? yea

22. WHAT IS SOMETHING YOU MISS FROM YOUR CHILDHOOD? not being lazy lmfao

23. WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND? @flavortowne eye emoji

24. WHAT IS YOUR EYE COLOR? blue

25. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR? its natural brown but im thinkn abt going either red or blonde again

26. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU LOVE? like 3 ppl irl and everyone on discord u guys legit

27. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU TRUST? my person and @flavortowne eye emoji

28. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN? tom hardy. what is his end goal

29. ARE YOU CURRENTLY EXCITED ABOUT/FOR SOMETHING? tbh going 2 basic lmfao im!! lame

30. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST OBSESSION? as of right now,, spiderverse lol

31. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW AS A CHILD? teletubbies was fckn legit and so was old school spongebob

32. WHO OF THE OPPOSITE GENDER CAN YOU TELL ANYTHING TO, IF ANYONE? my person

33. ARE YOU SUPERSTITIOUS? im not superstitious,,, but i am a little stitious

34. DO YOU HAVE ANY UNUSUAL PHOBIAS? i cant deal w fishing poles idk

35. DO YOU PREFER TO BE IN FRONT OF THE CAMERA OR BEHIND IT? in front babey

36. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE HOBBY? sims or stitching play foods 4 the kid to use on her play kitchen

37. WHAT WAS THE LAST BOOK YOU READ? stop asking book questions

38. WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? spiderverse yeye

39. WHAT MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS DO YOU PLAY, IF ANY? piano & i try 2 pretend i know what im doing w a ukulele

40. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ANIMAL? stingrays :^)

41. WHAT ARE YOUR TOP 5 FAVORITE TUMBLR BLOGS THAT YOU FOLLOW? legit all my mutuals

42. WHAT SUPERPOWER DO YOU WISH YOU HAD? i had an oc that could read ppls memories like a scrapbook if he touched them and i always honestly thought that was. cool

43. WHEN AND WHERE DO YOU FEEL MOST AT PEACE? in my house!! the door b locked bitch!!!!

44. WHAT MAKES YOU SMILE? toddler being an idiot toddler

45. WHAT SPORTS DO YOU PLAY, IF ANY?  its not really,, a sport,, but i bike

46. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DRINK? cream soda in those glass bottles is top tier non-alcoholic beverage

47. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WROTE A HAND-WRITTEN LETTER OR NOTE TO SOMEBODY? i wrote a letter 2 my person telling him he was an idiot and by the time it was mailed 2 his house i was already living there lol

48. ARE YOU AFRAID OF HEIGHTS? nah

49. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PET PEEVE? either ppl blowing vape in my face or holding something so close to my face i cant see i just go ballistic

50. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN TO A CONCERT? nope unless u count a sesame street liveshow like 10 years ago

51. ARE YOU VEGAN/VEGETARIAN? nope!

52. WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE, WHAT DID YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GREW UP? a cop lmfao

53. WHAT FICTIONAL WORLD WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE IN? this is horrible but the setting of new vegas i just feel like id be at home there, w the radiation and constant danger and dehydration

54. WHAT IS SOMETHING YOU WORRY ABOUT? the kid

55. ARE YOU SCARED OF THE DARK? only when im looking in the mirror adlkfj start thinkn abt a different face showing up instead of mine idk

56. DO YOU LIKE TO SING? yea

57. HAVE YOU EVER SKIPPED SCHOOL? skipped a whole year adlfkj

58. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PLACE ON THE PLANET? this is basic but i miss the tri-state area

59. WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE? this is basic but i miss nj

60. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS? yea :^/ a dog, a cat, and uhhhh 14 fish

61. ARE YOU MORE OF AN EARLY BIRD OR A NIGHT OWL? night owl but honestly im just always tired

62. DO YOU LIKE SUNRISES OR SUNSETS BETTER? sunsettttt

63. DO YOU KNOW HOW TO DRIVE? i do

64. DO YOU PREFER EARBUDS OR HEADPHONES? headphones. they just work

65. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES? nah but i need em

66. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE GENRE OF MUSIC? i listen to everything tbh

67. WHO IS YOUR HERO? michael cera

68. DO YOU READ COMIC BOOKS? i used to read them religiously but not so much any more. i am reading the TAZ graphic novel tho

69. WHAT MAKES YOU THE MOST ANGRY? having to repeat myself 20 times. or being an idiot when i wanna start a new hobby

70. DO YOU PREFER TO READ ON AN ELECTRONIC DEVICE OR WITH A REAL BOOK? idk how to read

71. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL? honestly i had a blast in econ and my law enforcement class

72. DO YOU HAVE ANY SIBLINGS? a bro, another sibling, and a half-bro

73. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT? food lmfao

74. HOW TALL ARE YOU? every time i measure myself im 5′2″ but the government insists that i am 5′3″ so w/e

75. CAN YOU COOK? yeap

76. WHAT ARE THREE THINGS THAT YOU LOVE? alcohol, bike riding, wearing stupid makeup

77. WHAT ARE THREE THINGS THAT YOU HATE? ppl holding me back, bird box, when my nail breaks before i can file it so its all oglee

78. DO YOU HAVE MORE FEMALE FRIENDS OR MORE MALE FRIENDS? uh idk?? i dont have,, many,,,, friends

79. WHAT IS YOUR SEXUAL ORIENTATION? bi

80. WHERE DO YOU CURRENTLY LIVE? sc :’^(

81. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TEXTED? my brother

82. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? 2 nights ago the kid pistol whipped me in the chin w her phone and it just hurt so bad it legit made me lose it

83. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE YOUTUBER? ok this is dumb as shit the kid is obsessed w Blippi and i have a mom crush on him afdslfkjs

84. DO YOU LIKE TO TAKE SELFIES? ye

85. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE APP? i am currently obsessed w L.O.L. Surprise! Pop but all in all probs Pocket Camp

86. WHAT IS YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR PARENT(S) LIKE? bad as parents but theyre fine now that im an adult and they have a grandkid they can like

87. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FOREIGN ACCENT? i dont like a majority of them lmfao but idk maybe uh?? irish

88. WHAT IS A PLACE THAT YOU’VE NEVER BEEN TO, BUT YOU WANT TO VISIT? rly wanna go to nevada but im moving to the mojave soon anyways so

89. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? 15

90. CAN YOU JUGGLE? nope

91. ARE YOU RELIGIOUS? i was raised christian but i dont rly give a shit abt any of that

92. DO YOU FIND OUTER SPACE OR THE DEEP OCEAN TO BE MORE INTERESTING? outer space my dood the ocean is dumb and scary

93. DO YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF TO BE A DAREDEVIL? im jus livin my life

94. ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO ANYTHING? i mean. im lactose intolerant but thats abt it

95. CAN YOU CURL YOUR TONGUE? nope

96. CAN YOU WIGGLE YOUR EARS? no

97. HOW OFTEN DO YOU ADMIT THAT YOU WERE WRONG ABOUT SOMETHING? when im wrong abt something

98. DO YOU PREFER THE FOREST OR THE BEACH? forest ig bad choices

99. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIECE OF ADVICE THAT ANYONE HAS EVER GIVEN YOU? i dont think i was ever given advice, ever. maybe thats why im like this

100. ARE YOU A GOOD LIAR? idk i try not 2 lie unless its like. an obvious exaggeration for the lols

101. WHAT IS YOUR HOGWARTS HOUSE? wtf idk ok i just did one of those quizzes & im a slytherin?? what does that mean

102. DO YOU TALK TO YOURSELF? yeah

103. ARE YOU AN INTROVERT OR AN EXTROVERT? more of an introvert but im ok w going out there if i gotta

104. DO YOU KEEP A JOURNAL/DIARY? i keep one for the kid but thats abt it

105. DO YOU BELIEVE IN SECOND CHANCES? nah. unless it was something stupid like burning food like im not gonna ban u from the kitchen

106. IF YOU FOUND A WALLET FULL OF MONEY ON THE GROUND, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? if theres an id i guess mail it 2 the address on there?? idk ive never just. found a wallet. i think this happens a lot less than all the hypotheticals make it out to be

107. DO YOU BELIEVE THAT PEOPLE ARE CAPABLE OF CHANGE? if theyre dedicated to it. i dont think ppl can just do it over night and i dont think its ever a 100% change

108. ARE YOU TICKLISH? dont touch me

109. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A PLANE? Yep

110. DO YOU HAVE ANY PIERCINGS? 2 in both ears but thats it

111. WHAT FICTIONAL CHARACTER DO YOU WISH WAS REAL? spidr...mna

112. DO YOU HAVE ANY TATTOOS? no :^( once im cleared for them tho deffo

113. WHAT IS THE BEST DECISION THAT YOU’VE MADE IN YOUR LIFE SO FAR? i hate that this is the answer but enlisting adlfkjs

114. DO YOU BELIEVE IN KARMA? yeah ig??

115. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES OR CONTACTS? glasses

116. DO YOU WANT CHILDREN? 2 late

117. WHO IS THE SMARTEST PERSON YOU KNOW? we all b stupit

118. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING MEMORY? idk?? i get embarrassed but also get over it quick so like. idk

119. HAVE YOU EVER PULLED AN ALL-NIGHTER? yea

120. WHAT COLOR ARE MOST OF YOU CLOTHES? black & red

121. DO YOU LIKE ADVENTURES? mhm

122. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON TV? i was on nickelodeon back when they had those cuts to the Live Studio Audience™

123. HOW OLD ARE YOU? 21

124. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE QUOTE? “I wish there was a way to know you’re in the good old days before you’ve actually left them.”

125. DO YOU PREFER SWEET OR SAVORY FOODS? savory i almost never eat anything sweet

[mardukwhite-blog]

I was not raised in a racist home or environment. Living in the South, almost every White person has a small amount of racial awareness, simply beause of the numbers of negroes in this part of the country. But it is a superficial awareness. Growing up, in school, the White and black kids would make racial jokes toward each other, but all they were were jokes. Me and White friends would sometimes would watch things that would make us think that “blacks were the real racists” and other elementary thoughts like this, but there was no real understanding behind it. The event that truly awakened me was the Trayvon Martin case. I kept hearing and seeing his name, and eventually I decided to look him up. I read the Wikipedia article and right away I was unable to understand what the big deal was. It was obvious that Zimmerman was in the right. But more importantly this prompted me to type in the words “black on White crime” into Google, and I have never been the same since that day. The first website I came to was the Council of Conservative Citizens. There were pages upon pages of these brutal black on White murders. I was in disbelief. At this moment I realized that something was very wrong. How could the news be blowing up the Trayvon Martin case while hundreds of these black on White murders got ignored? From this point I researched deeper and found out what was happening in Europe. I saw that the same things were happening in England and France, and in all the other Western European countries. Again I found myself in disbelief. As an American we are taught to accept living in the melting pot, and black and other minorities have just as much right to be here as we do, since we are all immigrants. But Europe is the homeland of White people, and in many ways the situation is even worse there. From here I found out about the Jewish problem and other issues facing our race, and I can say today that I am completely racially aware. Blacks I think it is is fitting to start off with the group I have the most real life experience with, and the group that is the biggest problem for Americans. Niggers are stupid and violent. At the same time they have the capacity to be very slick. Black people view everything through a racial lense. Thats what racial awareness is, its viewing everything that happens through a racial lense. They are always thinking about the fact that they are black. This is part of the reason they get offended so easily, and think that some thing are intended to be racist towards them, even when a White person wouldnt be thinking about race. The other reason is the Jewish agitation of the black race. Black people are racially aware almost from birth, but White people on average dont think about race in their daily lives. And this is our problem. We need to and have to. Say you were to witness a dog being beat by a man. You are almost surely going to feel very sorry for that dog. But then say you were to witness a dog biting a man. You will most likely not feel the same pity you felt for the dog for the man. Why? Because dogs are lower than men. This same analogy applies to black and White relations. Even today, blacks are subconsciously viewed by White people are lower beings. They are held to a lower standard in general. This is why they are able to get away with things like obnoxious behavior in public. Because it is expected of them. Modern history classes instill a subconscious White superiority complex in Whites and an inferiority complex in blacks. This White superiority complex that comes from learning of how we dominated other peoples is also part of the problem I have just mentioned. But of course I dont deny that we are in fact superior. I wish with a passion that niggers were treated terribly throughout history by Whites, that every White person had an ancestor who owned slaves, that segregation was an evil an oppressive institution, and so on. Because if it was all it true, it would make it so much easier for me to accept our current situation. But it isnt true. None of it is. We are told to accept what is happening to us because of ancestors wrong doing, but it is all based on historical lies, exaggerations and myths. I have tried endlessly to think of reasons we deserve this, and I have only came back more irritated because there are no reasons. Only a fourth to a third of people in the South owned even one slave. Yet every White person is treated as if they had a slave owning ancestor. This applies to in the states where slavery never existed, as well as people whose families immigrated after slavery was abolished. I have read hundreds of slaves narratives from my state. And almost all of them were positive. One sticks out in my mind where an old ex-slave recounted how the day his mistress died was one of the saddest days of his life. And in many of these narratives the slaves told of how their masters didnt even allowing whipping on his plantation. Segregation was not a bad thing. It was a defensive measure. Segregation did not exist to hold back negroes. It existed to protect us from them. And I mean that in multiple ways. Not only did it protect us from having to interact with them, and from being physically harmed by them, but it protected us from being brought down to their level. Integration has done nothing but bring Whites down to level of brute animals. The best example of this is obviously our school system. Now White parents are forced to move to the suburbs to send their children to “good schools”. But what constitutes a “good school”? The fact is that how good a school is considered directly corresponds to how White it is. I hate with a passion the whole idea of the suburbs. To me it represents nothing but scared White people running. Running because they are too weak, scared, and brainwashed to fight. Why should we have to flee the cities we created for the security of the suburbs? Why are the suburbs secure in the first place? Because they are White. The pathetic part is that these White people dont even admit to themselves why they are moving. They tell themselves it is for better schools or simply to live in a nicer neighborhood. But it is honestly just a way to escape niggers and other minorities. But what about the White people that are left behind? What about the White children who, because of school zoning laws, are forced to go to a school that is 90 percent black? Do we really think that that White kid will be able to go one day without being picked on for being White, or called a “white boy”? And who is fighting for him? Who is fighting for these White people forced by economic circumstances to live among negroes? No one, but someone has to. Here I would also like to touch on the idea of a Norhtwest Front. I think this idea is beyond stupid. Why should I for example, give up the beauty and history of my state to go to the Norhthwest? To me the whole idea just parralells the concept of White people running to the suburbs. The whole idea is pathetic and just another way to run from the problem without facing it. Some people feel as though the South is beyond saving, that we have too many blacks here. To this I say look at history. The South had a higher ratio of blacks when we were holding them as slaves. Look at South Africa, and how such a small minority held the black in apartheid for years and years. Speaking of South Africa, if anyone thinks that think will eventually just change for the better, consider how in South Africa they have affirmative action for the black population that makes up 80 percent of the population. It is far from being too late for America or Europe. I believe that even if we made up only 30 percent of the population we could take it back completely. But by no means should we wait any longer to take drastic action. Anyone who thinks that White and black people look as different as we do on the outside, but are somehow magically the same on the inside, is delusional. How could our faces, skin, hair, and body structure all be different, but our brains be exactly the same? This is the nonsense we are led to believe. Negroes have lower Iqs, lower impulse control, and higher testosterone levels in generals. These three things alone are a recipe for violent behavior. If a scientist publishes a paper on the differences between the races in Western Europe or Americans, he can expect to lose his job. There are personality traits within human families, and within different breeds of cats or dogs, so why not within the races? A horse and a donkey can breed and make a mule, but they are still two completely different animals. Just because we can breed with the other races doesnt make us the same. In a modern history class it is always emphasized that, when talking about “bad” things Whites have done in history, they were White. But when we lern about the numerous, almost countless wonderful things Whites have done, it is never pointed out that these people were White. Yet when we learn about anything important done by a black person in history, it is always pointed out repeatedly that they were black. For example when we learn about how George Washington carver was the first nigger smart enough to open a peanut. On another subject I want to say this. Many White people feel as though they dont have a unique culture. The reason for this is that White culture is world culture. I dont mean that our culture is made up of other cultures, I mean that our culture has been adopted by everyone in the world. This makes us feel as though our culture isnt special or unique. Say for example that every business man in the world wore a kimono, that every skyscraper was in the shape of a pagoda, that every door was a sliding one, and that everyone ate every meal with chopsticks. This would probably make a Japanese man feel as though he had no unique traditional culture. I have noticed a great disdain for race mixing White women within the White nationalists community, bordering on insanity it. These women are victims, and they can be saved. Stop. Jews Unlike many White naitonalists, I am of the opinion that the majority of American and European jews are White. In my opinion the issues with jews is not their blood, but their identity. I think that if we could somehow destroy the jewish identity, then they wouldnt cause much of a problem. The problem is that Jews look White, and in many cases are White, yet they see themselves as minorities. Just like niggers, most jews are always thinking about the fact that they are jewish. The other issue is that they network. If we could somehow turn every jew blue for 24 hours, I think there would be a mass awakening, because people would be able to see plainly what is going on. I dont pretend to understand why jews do what they do. They are enigma. Hispanics Hispanics are obviously a huge problem for Americans. But there are good hispanics and bad hispanics. I remember while watching hispanic television stations, the shows and even the commercials were more White than our own. They have respect for White beauty, and a good portion of hispanics are White. It is a well known fact that White hispanics make up the elite of most hispanics countries. There is good White blood worht saving in Uruguay, Argentina, Chile and even Brasil. But they are still our enemies. East Asians I have great respent for the East Asian races. Even if we were to go extinct they could carry something on. They are by nature very racist and could be great allies of the White race. I am not opposed at all to allies with the Northeast Asian races. Patriotism I hate the sight of the American flag. Modern American patriotism is an absolute joke. People pretending like they have something to be proud while White people are being murdered daily in the streets. Many veterans believe we owe them something for “protecting our way of life” or “protecting our freedom”. But im not sure what way of life they are talking about. How about we protect the White race and stop fighting for the jews. I will say this though, I myself would have rather lived in 1940's American than Nazi Germany, and no this is not ignorance speaking, it is just my opinion. So I dont blame the veterans of any wars up until after Vietnam, because at least they had an American to be proud of and fight for. An Explanation To take a saying from a film, “I see all this stuff going on, and I dont see anyone doing anything about it. And it pisses me off.”. To take a saying from my favorite film, “Even if my life is worth less than a speck of dirt, I want to use it for the good of society.”. I have no choice. I am not in the position to, alone, go into the ghetto and fight. I chose Charleston because it is most historic city in my state, and at one time had the highest ratio of blacks to Whites in the country. We have no skinheads, no real KKK, no one doing anything but talking on the internet. Well someone has to have the bravery to take it to the real world, and I guess that has to be me. Unfortunately at the time of writing I am in a great hurry and some of my best thoughts, actually many of them have been to be left out and lost forever. But I believe enough great White minds are out there already. Please forgive any typos, I didnt have time to check it.

[midz13]

Sorry for being abscent tumblr, I’ve been super busy with the work! I’ll make a mega update here to get us caught up, and ill upload more photos after.

Since unwrapping the environment I have taken it to substance, got all the maps generated, made some optimisations on render time (Still some noise but render time is at 18minutes at some points so wont push it any more - waiting to hear back from Sang on how good the render time is/optimised the scene is before i send render farm requests) and done my animating!! Phew!

The substance painter stuff was good fun - I learend some lessons with the character, and knew the best way to approach this was to put everything under one material that I wanted on one map. To that end I put the entire room (walls floor etc) as one material (due to its physical size and wanting to put text on the floor) and the objects within the room - computers, piping, platform etc - on another atlas. Both atlas’ were 4k, and the only exceptions to that was a few individual maps - one for the robotic arms holding her, as I made them seperate and couldnt/dont know how to combine maps, and one for the pistol (ill show in next post) as I did that after (I decided a couple days before starting animation to test myself to model, wrap and texture a pistol in one day - I did it!! :D

I messed around with colour palette a bit with the room. I wanted a dark ominous room, but felt that showing the room with grey or dark surfaces lost the clean room/labratory feel. I think its vitally important in a sci-fi environment to try to keep real world links as close as possibly as they act like markers for the viewer to follow. I.e. by maintaing an aesthetic in this room or a labratory or hospital with the clean shiney surfaces, and the screen terminals using words like testing etc, the viewer will hopefully understand that its a lab/test facility of some description for the robot - That’s the plan anyway. By making the room darker, it might all into question the use or purpose of building. For example. is she there to be interogated? Has she been captured? As opposed to thinking oh this is a new technology...

I’ve not done any animation before, so was both excited and concerned to start, although it was a nice change of pace and helped keep me interested with a change of the usual workflow.

Luckily, as my story focuses on her being restrained for a large majority of the film, I didn’t have any massively challenging animation to do. However this didn’t mean I would coast the work and get it done as soon as possible. I wanted to make sure her acting and performance read as clearly as possible, as I need her movements to be one of the key indicators of her “state” i.e. human, or robot. I also quickly created blendshapes for her - I planned on her being unable to emote, but I felt this was a bit of a cop out. I didn’t want her to open her mouth, sure, as I felt that was a one way trip to uncanny that I coulnd’t use within the story, and would make her impossible to empathise with (if I had time, sure it would be a fun experiment to see what worked better, but time isnt on my side). This did mean that her emotions were slightly limited , BUT, because i wanted her to see trapped in her own body, and like her faculties were limited (due to the fact her head has been removed and put on a robot!!) I think it worked well. I created blendshapes for fear, sadness, anger, a blink, and a frown (to augment the other emotions). I’m so glad I did these, as the became key in a few of the shots, and really make them pop, and make her “come to life”, so I’m pleased I took the time to do them.

The animation was fun, a few issues came up however, but for the most part it was pretty straight forward. I took some videos of myself doing some of the movements as reference for the animations. I tried to do it in a week or less, which I managed, to make sure that I stay on target time wise, and as I opted to use After Effects to show the screens, I wanted extra time to learn - I want the screens to flash and change, and thought it would also be a good oppotunity to learn how to use After Effects as I’ve not used it at all.

I’ve spent a bit of time too working on camera movement and set up. I’ve weant for a 25mm focal length for most shots to show as much of the set as possible, situating the camera more. I try to frame each shot as well as possible to make it look good, draw the viewers eye to key information, and on a few shots, frame screens so that they can get plot information as to what is going on. It’s been difficult to make sure the camera looks as natural as possible, and not like a maya camera, which is tough. Camera work itself is an entire artform in itself...

So, I want to discuss a few of the issues I’ve had and how I got around them or solved them.

So, as I mentioned I had some issues with the animatiom. These came from the rig, and the blendshape.

First of all the blendshapes for her face - as I think I mentioned before, I did blenshapes for her bicepts so that when she moves her arm, her biceps will tense and relax to show that movement. It’s very subtle and probably never be noticed, but it looks cool when you look for it, and it was a great learning experience. I had to move its order in the channel editor to make sure it moved at the right time within the rig, and it worked totally fine, and easier than I thought! I did the same with the shoulder muscles, but more as corrective blendshapes as the rig/deformations isnt perfect. However, the face blendshapes wouldn’t play ball... I tried adjusting their order, I tried every combination, I tried deleting their history and their transforms, nothing worked - everytime I applied them, her head would shoot off into the distance. I spoke with both Sang and Michael and Patrick Sloan, eventually the 2 Sloans worked out that by deleting the meshes post, and applying them all as one blendshape (originally I did them one by one) it worked. I tried doing them as one BS without deleting them and for some reason it didnt work. I took it as it was and even asked Sang if he knew why (he didnt). As long as it worked though, I didnt care...

The next issue with the rig was something that totally slipped by somehow; When I rotate her global control her chest and abdomen wouldnt deform right AT ALL. I had no idea how it happened and started freaking out. The 2 Sloans couldn’t work it out either. If I grabbed her chest and her global, she would rotate better, but her stomach would twist up strangely. Eventualy Sang diagnosed that the issue was the IK Spine not twisting right, and that I must have done something wrong during the rigging stage. This was super frustrating as I took my time with the rig and followed Sang’s video perfectly. It must have been one little step, a constrain or a parent, that i missed, omited, or applied incorrectly, and more than a month later, it came to the surface. I was especially confused/frustrated as I tested the rig post completion and binding to check, but obviously hadnt used the global control to twist her. Sang found a work around, but it did mean that one of her spine controls was lost. I then realised towards the end of the animating that a few of her poses caused strange deformations, like verts jutting our, or generally not following the rest of her body too well. I would go into weight paints and smooth out the issue as best I could even though I couldnt see anything glaringly obvious, like an arm joint effecting her lower stomach, but now that I’m processing this, I wonder if perhaps losing a handle reassigne weights and didnt do it right??

Another issue I had was her armor and torso/muscles being SUPER Shiny. I couldn’t work this out especially as she looked totally fine within substance. Initially I assumed it was an arnold render setting and that I hadn’t turned samples high enough, but after optimising the samples using Sang’s tutorla (which made the render time too high unfortunately) I realised the issue remained. One day I eventually decided it wasn’t right and that it wasn’t just me - it was too much. I worked my way through Arnold’s material settings, turning this up, down, off, every which way, to see if it effected the shine. I eventually found the culprit was Diffuse Roughness and nothing more, and that by simple adjusting the exposure/alpha in the settings, it reduced this shine completely. The way I set up my materials meant that it effected her whole texture (even though muscle/skin and armor are in different graphs) so I lost a tiny bit of shine to her skin, but I think it still looks fine - if anything before hand her lips looked too shiney, as if she had on lip gloss.

I also had some issues creating the cabling for her helmet. I needed the cabes to flex and bend with her as they moved. In my head the best way would be and IK set up. Initially I tried this, and I use a cube to measure the start and end points, and used an arc to create a perfect bend over the 90 degrees. This was a good idea, and the cable could go from a 90 degree bend to perfectly straight, but any additional bend didnt work and just turned the cable. I then started thinking about IK Splines, and watched a few tutorials online but couldnt get it to work. It made sense though, a spline would allow the perfect movement! Evnetually me and Sang spoke a few times and he was able to find a solution. An spline set up that didnt work like an IK and meant I had to do lots of manual adjustments, but for the most part it looks great. So for the small cables on the sides of her helmet, i kept the simple but effective “fire and forget” IK cables, and for the rear of her head I used the spline, as this area would move and twist much more. It took a while to create and solve, but meant that it looked good and only took a small amount of additional work to animate.

I will upload some more images, such as test shots, the pistol (which barely gets any screen time, but only took a day to work on so not a massive loss.

Only a few weeks to go! Waiting for Sang to get back to me on scene set up and optimisation, once that gets the green light I’ll start sending render farm requests!

[kingressentiment]

This is a long trip my friends. If you would like the TLDR Please click here!

Tick, Tick, Tick...

The last time he had checked the clock, it was 2:55AM...

Tick, Tick, Tick...

3:00AM on the dot, he’d watched the numbers tick over. There wasn’t even really a ticking sound in his room, (just the pitter patter of rain,) it was a digital display after all, but he could hear the ticking in his head. The red glow from the display, and the full moon that snuck under the closed blinds, the only things that illuminated the room, and yet, he was awake as if it was midday.

It had been like this the past few nights... weeks... months. God, had it been that long since he’d not been able to sleep at night? Things had been different since May, ever since the end of the whole P-1 Deal. When he’d... really started to have to think about things. Yosuke was sure he’d found his resolve already, but entering a Cram School, and actually trying to focus on his school work, the stress piled on quicker than he could have ever expected. Hell, he’d faced down a Goddess, been dead, or however dead it was when Izanami had thrown them into the Yomi, but...

There was a rustling sound as he shook his head, no. It was fine, everything was fine. Sure, a business degree wasn’t really what he wanted, but it was better than nothing, and it was like, following the family tradition, business was a good, stable choice. 

Reliable, that's what he was. So it made sense to take a stable, reliable path in life.

“...Nothing to be worried about.” He spoke, quiet, to no one. There was nothing to be worried about. At all. Tugging his blanket closer, brown eyes would snap shut, scrunched up, curling himself up into a small ball. There was nothing wrong, at all, so he could sleep.

...He couldn’t sleep.

3:15AM

“Fine,” he thought, “I’ll prove it to myself that everything is fine.” Throwing the sheets free, the teen stood, clicking on his lamp and pulling open the doors to his closet. Eyes would fall on the bearsuit that sat within, right, Teddie was in the other room tonight. His parents had all but adopted him now, this meant he spent most of his time here as a human, rather than a talking suit. Maybe it was habit that kept Teddie placing the suit in Yosuke’s closet rather than his own. But it caused Yosuke to pause for a moment.

Maybe this... wasn’t a good idea. When had going into the T.V alone ended up good for anyone? Kidnappings and... his heart pounded for a moment. It didn’t hurt as much as it used to, but thinking about Saki was still... painful, and it likely always would be.

He could always wait... wait until his Partner was back in town. They could go in together and sort this out. He wouldn’t judge him if -- Nothing was wrong. So there would be nothing to judge him for. But he’d humor him. Be there for moral support.

But how could he actually start admitting that he’d never.. found it easy to summon his Persona in the first place? How everyone seemed to have this... bond with their Persona, while he and Jiraiya... it always felt like a battle to just summon him, and he could always feel how much the Persona hated being summoned, especially through the whole P-1, the only time he’d even felt like his Persona was actually willing to do anything was... when he and his Partner fought...

No, he couldn’t go with anyone else this time. This was something he had to do himself. Everyone relied on him, it was better if they thought nothing was bothering him and kept focused on their own futures. They had more things to be worried about than Yosuke.

Digging into his sock draw, he’d slide back a small, hidden compartment, digging out twin kunai for the first time in months, swinging one around in his hand for a moment, letting the memories of its weight flood back to him. Just... through the T.V in the living room. Sure it wasn’t exactly safe to go into one that wasn’t in Junes, but he could make his way to the exit, if he assumed right, and he was pretty sure he did, everything felt pretty relative in location. It wouldn’t be that long of a walk, and with everything being sorted out the way it was, it would be easy enough to see the way.

Right?

Jacket was thrown on over his pajama top, and, before heading into the living room, shoes were taken from the doorway, socks dragged on as he hopped his way around, and then... More hesitation, his hand reached out, almost touching that flat screen, eyes glancing back to the staircase. Teddie can make exits... maybe he sho--

No. He had to get to the bottom of his on his own.

The ripples, that falling feeling. It was comforting in a way... a very strange way. The way how his body now moved automatically, twisting to make sure he landed on his feet, the jolt going through his body, not quite used to the landing without shoes. But they were still in his hand, along with his kunai, and it was only habit that caused him to slip his fingers into the jacket of his hoodie and slowly slip on glasses. It wasn’t really needed anymore, what with the fog all but gone, but it felt... right. If he was in the T.V then, glasses were on.

Settling himself on the ground, shoes would be tugged on, and then, he started walking. Thankfully, now that everything was mostly peaceful, the only Shadows that wiggled towards him were ones that were easily taken care of with a slash of a blade, no need to really exert himself. 

It was strange, finding the T.V World so quiet. So used he was to having the chatter of his friends around him, and so it didn’t take him too long to slip headphones over his ears, turning on music to a familiar tune, his thoughts not really focusing on the subject of the song however, just putting one foot in front of the other, a low breath leaving him as he saw the familiar pink spotlights of the Marukyu Striptease. At the very least if he can follow those he’ll work out where the Entrance Stage was from there.

One foot after another. One Shadow felled after another. There was no need for Jiraiya yet... yet. That was what he was here for, at the very least. But first, he wanted to make sure he was near the exit. Heart was beating hard in his chest, it really had been a bad idea to go in through his own living room T.V, but it was easier than trying to sneak out completely without being noticed. He was sure he had heard a light switch on the moment he had slipped through the T.V. Or maybe that was just his imagination. A hopeful thought?

It had been an hour, maybe more. He wasn’t sure, other than his feet were starting to ache, but, at last, he found himself on the familiar trackways of the entrance, giving a small sigh of relief, gazing at the drawn out shapes on the floor. He’d never really looked at it before... the image of all those bodies, lined out like police murder scenes, all in a target shape.... it was ominous. Whose creation was this anyways? It had been here when they’d come in the first time, but Saki and Yamano had obvious places. That apartment block with the creepy room, Konishi Liquors and the shopping district. It could have maybe belonged to Adachi, but he had that twisted Inaba like place beyond Yamano’s room. Heaven could have been made by either Nanako or Namatame when he really thought about it.

...Was this place supposed to belong to Teddie or someone else?

Taking a moment or two to shake those thoughts free, that really wasn’t what he was here for, it was something he could think about later, he had... something much more pressing right now. If he could summon his Persona, then everything was fine, he’d have proven it to himself, and he could go back home and go to sleep.

Clearing his throat, blade would be spun in his hand, and voice would call loud and clear.

“Persona!”

But nothing came.

His heart started to beat harder and faster in his chest, shaking his head a little, no, this was okay, it had happened with that whole deal with Shadow Labrys, maybe it was just that happening again? Sure. Thats what it was.

“PERSONA!”

Louder, clearer he yelled, but nothing came.

“Jiraiya, where are you goddamn it?!” Now, he was just getting frustrated, that thought pushing back his fear for the moment or two, or it would have...

“You can keep screaming all you like.”

Spinning on his heel that that god damn familiar voice, blades drawn and a battle stance taken as brown eyes met golden yellow, the face he saw the one that was mirrored back to him each morning when he brushed his teeth.

“What are you doing? Coming in here on your own, feeling the way you’re feeling? You’re a goddamn idiot.”

No. There was no fucking way. This... this was some kind of joke, or maybe he had just fallen asleep and this a nightmare, that would have been great. Wake up any time now Yosuke. 

“Y-You are not real.”

His own voice didn’t seem so sure about it, but there was a jab forwards with his blade of good measure. As if tempting whatever this was to come closer, to get a taste of his blades. 

“I’m very real. You know that. You’re being even more of an idiot, Yosuke. Come on, quit it.”

The Shadow didn’t even sound angry or taunting, rather it sounded, disappointed. Like Yosuke had done something to offend it, or let it down. Like Yosuke’s very words had cut it like a knife. 

“Quit what? You--” He stopped himself, it wasn’t those words, but it was a variation on that phrase. “You can’t be my Shadow.” Was the quick rephrase. That seemed, safer than saying that particular line. Though, if this wasn’t his Shadow like he was claiming then there would be no fear in saying it, right? That thought did not stop the feeling like his heart was in his throat.

“...Yosuke, don’t say anything you can’t take back. We’re here because you’re worried, aren’t we? Who better than to talk it out with than yourself. Do you need me to start?”

“Shut it.”

A heavy sigh came from the Shadow. “Fine, I’ll start. You don’t know where your life is going, it feels like everyone is leaving you behind--”

“I said shut it!”

“-- You dont even know what you want to do with your life after school, you’re gonna go for that business degree, but you dont wanna be a corporate drone for the rest of your life, you dont want to be like your Dad.”

“SHUT UP!”

A slash was made at the Shadow, but it was easily dodged, and there was nothing but hurt on the beings features. It was all lies, all of it. He didn’t... he didn’t feel that way. He loved his Dad, no one was going to leave him behind, they were friends.

“You don’t even know if there's even a point studying for your Entrance Exams, and you want to start skipping out on going to that Cram School. It’s boring, even more so than you expected it to be. Everyones got it all together, but you. Chie is gonna be a cop, Yukiko is gonna take over the Inn, Kanji is gonna take over the textiles shop, and with his talent likely become some famous toy maker or fashion designer, Rise is already back to being an Idol, Naoto’s got her detective work, Teddie has his own studies, his own decisions on protecting this world, and our Partner he’s going to do whatever he puts his mind too. Because he’s perfect. And you hate him for that.”

“I do not hate him!” Spittle left Yosuke’s lips, quite literally spitting those words. How could he hate him? They were best friends, they were--

“Right, it's not just hate, is it? You have another feeling for him that's more than hate. Something you’re so afraid to admit to feeling.”

Another slash is thrown the Shadow’s way, trying to hard to get it to shut up. Kill it. get rid of it. Why won’t it die already?! 

“Be quiet!”

But the Shadow dodged just as it had done before, stepping to the side, that same, sad look on its face. This can’t have been his Shadow. His Shadow was all taunts and snarky comments, it didn’t pity him. He didn’t want anyone to pity him!

“Yosuke, you can’t keep living like this. Are you going to let yourself be stuck in a position forever that you don’t want? Is it that hard to admit these things? It’s okay, you’re not the only one to have felt this way. To feel like your life is going nowhere, to feel things fo--”

“BE. QUIET!”

“There is only one way this ends well Yosuke. Please, just stop it, I don't want this anymore than you do. You don’t have any reason to be afraid. No one is going to stop liking you because you’re afraid of your future. Because you have an--”

“You’re not me so stop talking like you know everything!”

The words left his lips before he stopped himself from it, but, it would be fine, wouldn’t it? This wasn’t his Shadow, not in the slightest, and, for the first few moments, it was fine. Nothing happened, there was no seeming swelling of power, the Shadow in front of him didn’t shift and change into anything else, that weird form of Jiraiya, it just... stood there.

What happened next, changed the course of Hanamura Yosuke’s life forever. Standing there staring at his Shadow, he was not expecting the kunai that suddenly appeared within its fingers, nor the attack that came. Faster than expected, so much faster than his own movements, it was all he could do to attempt to deflect and dodge, his own feet stumbling over one another as he attempted. 

“Ah!” The first hit landed, a slice on his upper arm, and after that, it was just one slice after another after another, glasses flown from his face and stepped on in a singular movement, crushing under both pairs of feet. The Shadow was on a rampage, much different to the one that had happened the first time. Another slice, this time, it curved down his left forearm, and didn't stop, moving down to his side and abdomen, deep. So deep he stumbled and fell. So deep he dropped his own weapons to clutch at his side. So deep he was losing consciousness.

That night, another body could have been found strung up in an antenna or a power line, and that was the young boys fear as the being with his face straddled him, weapons dropped and a stranglehold taken in favour of them, the air slipping from Yosuke’s lungs.

“If you’re not going to use your life for anything, I’ll do it instead.”

Yosuke wasn’t in his bed. Teddie was sure he had heard someone up and around, and at first he had assumed maybe someone was using the bathroom, before it clicked to him that both Yosuke’s and Mr. and Mrs. Hanamura’s bedrooms had Western style ensuites. He was sleepy, and it was early, but something wasn’t settling well in his stomach, something whispering at him that something was wrong. So he had gone out into the hallway, switching a light on, and, thats when he’d found Yosuke’s door open, and him missing from his bed. Not only that, but his shoes missing from the doorway. It was a quick jump into his suit and then into the T.V in the living room after that. He could get into the T.V World quickly to move around that way. But the moment he had jumped in, he could smell Yosuke in there.

He ran, as quick as his little feet could take him in that direction, but it took far too long, and the scene that had greeted him when he finally made his way to the Entrance was... he wasn’t sure if he had bones, but bone chilling was the only word he had for it. 

Kunai were scattered on the floor, blood splatters and drips covered the painted floor, slashes had pulled parts of it up slightly. His glasses lay shattered and broken, like they had been stepped on... and Yosuke lay in a puddle of his own blood, limply grasping at his side, breathing heavy and fast...

All Teddie’s worry, his summoning of Kamui, and the need to tend to that horrible wound caused the bear not to notice the off smell that hung around his friend, nor the dull glow of gold yellow that settled in his eyes...

[thehiddensemicolon]

Kacchako fanfic: New Prey Chapter 17

"Argghhhh." Bakugou grunted. The young couple was walking to his parents house. Bakugou was not having it. He kept complaining, saying how this is a complete waste of a Saturday and he rather watch grass grow then to waste his time with his parents. "Oh stop acting like a teenage girl. The whole world doesn't revolve around you." She joked. He sharply looked at her. "What did you say?" He threatened. "What did I say? Do you remember? Cause I don't." She smiled. She was holding her laughter back. "So you think you can mock me and laugh it off huh?" He said. "Kinda." - Uraraka "Kinda? What the hell kind of answer is that?" - Bakugou She reached for her phone and took a photo of Bakugou being riled up. "Aww you also look so cute when you're angry. So cute you make the world stop and just stare at you." She almost cried. She was a giggly person. Holding back her laughs were painful. Tears came out and she started to laugh like crazy. "So you think that this is fucking funny. Oh haha I thought I was dating a hero not a fucking comedian." He snarled. She looked through the pictures of her phone and continued to laugh. He was curious on what she was doing on her Phone. "Hey! What the hell are you doing on your phone. Don't you dare think you are going to ignore me to like a fucking picture on Instagram!" He yelled. "Am not on Instagram. Am just placing two pictures in a layout." She hold back her laughs now. "Yeah will what's so fucking important to ignore me." He said. "Well you said that you're dating a comedian and I just thought of a really funny meme." She said. "Huh?" - Bakugou "Okay okay... don't kill me but... take a look at this. But stay right here to see it okay." She said. She suddenly ran down the street, while he stayed at the spot confused. ~~~Buzzz~~~ His cell phone rang. He opened the text message from Uraraka. His eyes transformed from his regular eyes to his pissed off eyes. Steam was flowing out of his head. The text contained a side by side comparison photo of an angry white fluffy dog, showing its teeth in anger and the photo of him (the one she took earlier of him being riled up) right beside it. With a caption saying," I don't see a difference." He glared up from the phone screen and lock eyes on Uraraka who was already running away. "HEY YOU LITTLE.. AHHH URARAKA YOU JUST WAIT TILL I GET MY HANDS ON YOU. YOU THINK THIS IS FUNNY? DONT YOU DARE POST THIS SHIT ON SOCIAL MEDIA. STAY STILL FOR I CAN KILL YOU!" He yelled. He started to sprint after here. "NOO DONT KILL ME, I WANT TO LIVE!" She yelled. Bakugou never really knew how fast his girlfriend was. He was having a hard time catching up. But he had her in his view. "Oh don't worry, when I get you I'll make sure you will have the time of your fucking life." He said. Common people glared at the scene in front of them. They were saying to each other if they should call or yell for a hero. We probably should stop yelling and running. People might think this situation as the wrong kind. The villain chasing a young girl. Yeah we should calm down. Uraraka thought. "It's not what it looks like guys! I just made fun of my boyfriend and he is chasing me. Have a good day." She yelled. She was so focused on handling the problem with the confused people that she almost forgot about the angered teen catching up to her. She yelped when a pair of strong hands had a grip on her shoulder. Red eyes met brown. Drops of sweat poured down her face. "So I know that you are mad.. but how about I make it up to you." She offered. "Fat chance Floaty. Now tell me what is so funny about this huh? Come on make me laugh." He threatened. His teeth were almost glued together and have her a crooked smile. "Okay okay I'll talk. Puppies are strong, brave, and loyal just like you." She quietly said. "Oh really. Well how is that fucking funny. I think you are lying to me. Come on am a human to. Make me laugh. Help me understand why you found this so funny. I could need a fucking good laugh right about now." He said. "Hey.. aren't we supposed to be at your parents house already, it will be rude if we were late let's get going." She said and tried to walk forward. But a big behemoth had a grip on her shirt. "Fine let's go then. In the mean time you have this whole fucking walk to make me understand this fucking meme and make me fucking laugh." He said. "Alright then." She said. She looked nervous with her eyes opened wide. ~~~ at Bakugou's house~~~ The usual yelling between mother and son happened when the front door opened. The mother hugged Uraraka saying how glad that her son finally brought her home again. The father greeted Uraraka and she waived back at him. "Whoa Katsuki, I thought you were mostly identical to your mother, but you also look like your dad too!" She said. "Well no shit! They are my fucking parents, what the hell did you think huh-" he words was chopped short. His mom smacked a newspaper on his head. "Behave you punk. She was just complementing that you look as handsome as your father." She said. "No she fucking didn't. You are saying shit like that. All she did was say the obvious." He said to himself. "Katsuki be nice to your mother. You don't want Uraraka to get the wrong idea with you." Masaru said. Katsuki just grunted and gave Uraraka the "I told you so that my parents are annoying" look. "Well son come over here and let's measure you. You have grown a bit since middle school and we need new measurements." Masaru said. Bakugou put a finger to his mouth and glared at his dad. This didn't go unnoticed by Uraraka. "What happened at Middle school?" She asked. "Nothing." Katsuki said. The mom smirked at her son and ignored the "don't you fucking tell her" look he was giving her. "Katsuki used to model the boys clothes we designed. I have some pictures if you want to see those honey." Matsuki said. "Really? Katsuki you used to help your parents out with there clothes! How unexpected to know you used to model. And of course I would like to see pictures. " She said. His dad had measuring tape around his waist. Katsuki stood still but that didn't stop him from yelling. "I didn't fucking model. That woman made me be her fucking doll." He said. "I didn't made you brat. I told you to." She smiled. "Same shit!" He yelled. "Please son. Stay still am almost done here." Masaru said. "So Ochako is modeling something you will be interested in? Like a side hobby? You got the cute face to make any clothes shine." Matsuki said. "Wow really you think I could make a see out?" Uraraka said. "Hey! Don't call her by her first name woman! And don't ask her to do stupid shit either!" Katsuki said. "Katsuki don't be rude. It's fine that she uses my first name. I don't mind, it makes me happy." Uraraka says. "Yup and I'll even throw in some cash! Of course I don't want to get in the way of you wanting to be a hero, but a few bills here and there helps." The mother said. "Hey you never paid me!" Katsuki yelled. "That's cause your father and I placed a roof over your head and food in your stomach brat!" Matsuki said. "Alright your done son." Masaru said. Bakugou angrily signaled to his mom to meet at the other room. She saw his signal and looked confused. "Ochako sweetie I'll be back soon. Just hold up and I'll get your measurements soon." Matsuki said. Uraraka nodded and sat on the couch. Masaru called her and waved off a flash drive. Her eyes widened and smiled. He brought out his laptop and plugged in the flash drive. "You should really see the video when he first went mountain climbing, I hope you find it amusing as I did." He chuckled. "Now this I can't wait to see." She giggled. ~~~Bakugou and his mom~~~ "Do you have it?" He said. "Of course I have it brat. I wouldn't joke with your future." She snarled. "Yeah wouldn't be the first time." He rebounded. "Well am glad these will be passed on to you two. It's been passed on your father family for awhile. But I don't know if these will fit her son." She said. "Well when you get her measurements just measure her finger then! Make sure you get the right measurements and don't fuck up. I don't care about this prom crap, am only doing it cause she wants to go. But I don't want the other dress to not fit her correctly." He said. "Oh so we are making the other dress too? Am so thrilled you will allow us to do that much." She sarcastically cried. "Yeah will for the time being just find out what size her finger is. I plan on buying a fucking better ring after a few hero paychecks." He said. "Hey brat! These engagements rings have a lot of value in this family. Your father gave me this when he asked me to marry him. Eventually when your own kid wants to get married they will have these. So show some respect!" She said. "Anyways have you asked her parents yet?" His mother asked. "No not yet." He said. ~~~back at the living room~~~ Katsuki and his mother walked in the living room, hearing laughter. "No way! So the reason why he loves mountain climbing, isn't because it's a great hobby... but because he challenged to beat the mountain by climbing to the top, but then he rolled down the small hill that was right by the mountain. And .. haha.. he thought the mountain was provoking him by making him "trip" off a small hill?" She laughed. "Yup he was 7 years old. So ever since this day. He goes mountain climbing to beat the mountain. When we went last time, he made it to the top and all his mother and I heard was him ranting on how much better he is than the mountain. When I find that video I'll show you." Masaru said. Katsuki stared at the two. The dad saw him and quickly closed and out away his laptop. Uraraka wondered off whistling. "Alright am ready now Ochako." Matsuki said. Uraraka stood on top of the chair. The mother began taking her measurement. "So what color did you two have in mind? To have matching attire for the prom?" Matsuki asked. He then wrote down some numbers on paper. "Black!" - Bakugou "Red maybe?" - Uraraka "Hmm we could do both. That wouldn't be hard." The mother said. The dad nodded while taking some notes. "Did you want a strapless dress, or one shoulder strap dress, or something? Long or short dress?" Matsuki said. "Hmm surprise me! I don't really have a preference." Uraraka said. "Perfect! That's just what we like to hear sweetie." The mother responded. She then began to take her left hand and measure multiple fingers (she didn't want to give it away so obviously so she measured multiple fingers) She can tell from the look of Uraraka's face that she was confused why she was measuring her fingers. "Well what if we decide to make matching gloves for your dress." The mother said. "Ohh gotcha." Uraraka said. After a few minutes. She was finally done measuring the girl. She had to double check everything (because her son will be pissed if the dress is the wrong size or the ring finger) "Would you two like to stay for dinner?" Masaru asked. "Can't I have somewhere to be." Katsuki said. "Where are you going?" Uraraka asked. "Meet up with the guys." He lied. "Well it's barely 3pm. We can make some snacks." The father said. "Yes we would love that." Uraraka said. She grabbed his hand to hold it. Katsuki blushed. "Aww young love." The parents said. Bakugou glared at them. And they walked away laughing. ~~~ timeskip 6pm ~~~ He dropped off his girlfriend at her room earlier. And now he was at the front door steps at a house in front of him. He has been there before with Uraraka feeling just fine. But now he was alone. He felt nervous (a rare sight) he knocked on the door. As the door opened. His confidence began to slowly go away. "Good evening young man." Mr.Uraraka said. The wife came and gave a gentle wave. "Good evening as well." Bakugou accidentally chocked. Authors note. Wow I never expected this story to come this far. Obviously I could have ended this story a long time ago. But I decided to have my fun with the couple. I just don't know when to stop sometimes. Sorry. I've been having a lot of messages lately and I wanted to clear something up. Am not planning on a Kacchako kid RIGHT now lol. I just like planning and having chapters ready. I was just stuck on (when I do write the story) what gender or name of their future kid. Like no joke am stuck. Hope this clears any confusion. Thanks!

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About the "Get to know me!" ... All of them? X3

//cracks knucklesHERE I GO TELLING YOU EVERYTHING ABOUT MAGNIFICENT ME!

1. What is you middle//full name?My only name is Dalia and my last name which I won’t tell you, I don’t have a middle name

2. How old are you?17 years old and dying

3. What is your birthday?May 23rd!

4. What is your zodiac sign?Gemini~

5. What is your favorite color?Red nd Black nd Purple nd that one Blue is nice too

6. What’s your lucky number?Idk if its lucky but I like 7

7. Do you have any pets?Had fish and budgies before, got a single rabbit now who is 6 and still kicking like a youngster, he is great and nice and I honestly expected him to be dead by now because the others died so early but...thats good

8. Where are you from?Germany~

9. How tall are you?Like, 170cm

10. What shoe size are you?...I have no idea if you measure shoes differently in america/anywhere but here I am a 38

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?...I am not sure but I’d guess about 10? Maybe 2 or so more?

12. What was your last dream about?The one where a certain dragon king sniped an immortal black wizard and furries&co fought against gods

13. What talents do you have?Reading fast, determination

14. Are you psychic in any way?Idk if thats psychic but my gut is usually right? I dont think I am though

15. Favorite song?Right now I am Metal Gear Rising trash so....anything that played while Sam was being sassy on screen probably

16. Favorite movie?Dragon Riders probably

17. Who would be your ideal partner?Immortality, a good life, more art, all the animals

18. Do you want children?Whats a child can you eat it?

19. Do you want a church wedding?I would either go full fancy so yes w/ a big ass trip showing off how amazing me and my partner areOr just keep it lowkey, depends

20. Are you religious?Nah, on paper yes still but that will change soon because I won’t pay the church money if I don’t even go there

21. Have you ever been to the hospital?Yep, but only to visit, I myself was only at the childs doctor and dentist and idk if that rly counts

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?I tried to steal chocolate once because I didn’t have enough money...it didn’t work I am not a good thief apparently

23. Have you ever met any celebrities?Myself every time I look in the mirror~But no

24. Baths or showers?SHOWERS! Except if you wanna relax and not wash yourself, then baths I guess

25. What color socks are you wearing?Gray(should have asked yesterday, those were warm, comfy red and black striped ones!

26. Have you ever been famous?For what? My huge ego and mood swings and anxiety and depression?Idk I don’t think I ever was or am right now, but I have gotten more “famous” so that’s cool

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?Not like super big, no, but maybe big enough so that I can live comfortable or smth? I don’t want ALL the attention, only sometimes, but all the drama there...urgh no thanks

28. What type of music do you like?ALL

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?Nope

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?2!

31. What position do you usually sleep in?Right side or stomach, with head turned to right side, maybe one leg up

32. How big is your house?Lower floor, 4 rooms,bath,floors,cellar part,big enough though

33. What do you typically have for breakfast?NothingToast with something,or bread with something, on weekends though

34. Have you ever fired a gun?God I wish but no

35. Have you ever tried archery?Once! On a school festival! I wanna do it more and again but I can’t go into some club bc STRESS AND ALL THE SCHOOL AND FUCK HUMAN INTERACTIONS but i love it! I would love to actually ride on a horse doing so too because I love both, horse riding and archery!

36. Favorite clean word?Cat... karandasch sounds super nice too but it literally just means pencil(still,russian has some nice sounding words)

37. Favorite swear word?ALL OF THEM, mostly used one is fuck

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?2 days

39. Do you have any scars?Just look at my left arm/handOne on the upper arm,one on the lower, one on the thumb, on on the hands inside, one on its back, maybe one on the...pointing finger...INDEX FINGERI treasure them tbh also they are pretty small except the one on the lowert arm and inner hand

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?I think I had once? People said so? But idk myself didnt care enough

41. Are you a good liar?Yep

42. Are you a good judge of character?I try

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?No

44. Do you have a strong accent?Dont think so

45. What is your favorite accent?Ones I understand without trouble

46. What is your personality type?INFP

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?Can’t remember

48. Can you curl your tongue?Not anymore

49. Are you an innie or an outie?Innie

50. Left or right handed?Right

51. Are you scared of spiders?Sometimes

52. Favorite food?CHICKENBREAST FILET W/ RICE AND SAUCE!!!!

53. Favorite foreign food?those crunchy chicken..things you can get at a chinese place? they are like...orangy? Pdoes that count i remeber loving them i want them and i wanna do them myself °^°

54. Are you a clean or messy person?Mess

55. Most used phrased?as if I’d notice that...(no rly idk)

56. Most used word?(also dunno)

57. How long does it take for you to get ready?10mins once i actually get up,otherwise 45mins+

58. Do you have much of an ego?...Yes and also no but yes

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?Suck  them more than bite

60. Do you talk to yourself?ALL the time

61. Do you sing to yourself?all the singing time

62. Are you a good singer?....no

63. Biggest Fear?Being left by everyone I think? idk everything is going to shit anyway and here I sit, sipping a cup of cacao

64. Are you a gossip?Not rly

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?idk

66. Do you like long or short hair?BOTH! BOTH IS GREAT OMG!Long hair-you can do SO MUCH with it like style wise and short hair just looks rly amazing too its just so niiiiice to have too and aRGH HAIR IN GENERAL IS AMAZING AND I LOVE IT!

67. Can you name all 50 states of America?Bro, I cant even name all states of germany how tf am I supossed to tell americas states? We got Washington...Texas apparently exists,canada is on top of america, there is a place called new york...and other cities and states and stuffThats all thats my american knowledgeAnd OhioI know that nameprob ore when I read them but states? all 50? no

68. Favorite school subject?...the last one of the day

69. Extrovert or Introvert?Introvert

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?Nope,but would like too astho I cant get under water

71. What makes you nervous?everything

72. Are you scared of the dark?Eh, idk, depends?

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?Sometimes?

74. Are you ticklish?//backs off....no

75. Have you ever started a rumor?Nope

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?...none I remember

77. Have you ever drank underage?Have been asked to by my mum bc new years and all that but no

78. Have you ever done drugs?Also no

79. Who was your first real crush?I never ever ever had a real crush

80. How many piercings do you have?None

81. Can you roll your Rs?“A bit

82. How fast can you type?HIGHSPEED

83. How fast can you run?snail speed

84. What color is your hair?Brown!

85. What color is your eyes?Brown or green and anything in between

86. What are you allergic to?Nothing except stupid people and school

87. Do you keep a journal?A dream one

88. What do your parents do?Fuck me up?My legal guardian mum is cleaning buildings and whateverMy biological mum is driving around to assist the elderly in their homesAnd idk about my dad

89. Do you like your age?Ya

90. What makes you angry?AllBeing ignore,d not taken serious, not understood, being made fun off, my friends being made fun off, having my words twisted around, illogial thinking stupid assholes that deserve to burn in hell being around me and trying to talk to me...My favourite character being treated like shit writing wiseAnimal crueltyPeople cruelty altho I am so done w/ people most of the time that I am just like "Oh again?" which is kinda sad but its still fucked up

91. Do you like your own name?I LOVE IT!

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?NOPEBtw i read some nice names on toilet doors in school...."Why did you give me that name?""It was written on my old schools toilet door...the second one""...wtf is wrong w/ you"would be the convo then tho

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?I want a dog

94. What are you strengths?DETERMINATION

95. What are your weaknesses?LIVING!

96. How did you get your name?IDK!

97. Were your ancestors royalty?....i doubt it

98. Color of your room?White and gray and also red also some blacks there

99. Color of your bedspread?....it...changes? Bed itself is white and black but...the rest changes?

100. Make up your own questionkaro you have failed me y u do dis, y

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Family

Exercise 1: Did you feel valued, loved and respected by both parents and your siblings? Write what you felt from and about each member.

My brother

My brother is the youngest in the family and I would argue that ours is the least complicated relationship. Sometimes we spent some time just the two of us and if he’s fought with my parents, he can always find an ally in me. Do I feel valued by him? Sometimes. However, his bond with my mom is especially strong, some would say he’s been brainwashed. He constantly repeats what my mom has to say about me: That I dress like a boy, that I don’t look after myself properly, that they’re embarrassed to walk next to me. Do I feel loved by my brother. Yes, definitely. He shows me a lot of affection, even though he disagrees with a lot of things that I stand for. Respected? Well, if you earned a 12 year old’s respect, then props to you, I guess. 

My dad 

My dad has always been on the softer side. He’s always shown me a lot more affection than my mom. But as my brother, he isn’t always happy about the person I am. Whilst my mom shows her disgust face-to-face, my dad tends to hide it and talks about it with my mom. Yeah, I know, it all comes back to her. Sometimes I feel as if my dad sees himself in me. My dad used to compose songs and write poems before he started uni and I feel like he’s been forced to give up a great passion of his. When he sees me playing, he seems happy on one hand, on the other hand he seems kind of jealous. He always discouraged me from pursuing music next to my studies. And my music is very important to me and a big part of who I am. For a few years now, I have started becoming more and more resentful towards my dad, because he knew, that something wasn’t right with me. But he decided to ignore the inconvenient truth, as it would lead to confronting my mom. 

My sister

My dynamic between me and my sister is one of the things I regret most in my life. Something has always been very off, and this from the very start. My sister adores me. I have always been a role model for her and one she couldn’t measure up to, because she’s physically disabled. I wish I could say I treated her nicely, but that’s simply not the truth. I wish I weren’t as cruel as I was. My sister felt like an intruder to our small family of three when she was born. I only found out a few months ago, that my parents were so busy with work and her surgeries, that I didn’t live with them for nearly two years. I lived with my grandparents and started calling my grandpa “dad” and my aunt “mom”. I didn’t recognise my own mom when she came to visit. And since caring for my sister took up so much of my parents’ time, I think I felt jealous (I don’t remember it in particular). I really disliked my sister. We didn’t get along at all and only now it’s become tolerable. We had nothing in common, besides the fact, that we share the same parents. Also, my sister has always been the more obedient one and so she used to tell on me (my brother does this, too). I feel like this is one of the reasons our relationship is so strained: Because I never felt like I could trust her. I could never fully trust anyone in my family. 

My mom

Most of the time, I feel like my mom’s project. She nearly always has an opinion on what I should look like, how I should behave etc. And this, even though I’m an adult now. Did I feel valued by my mom? Never. She only recently started saying “thank you” and only because my aunt urged her to do it. Did I feel loved by her? I don’t know. We had our moments. Me and my mom always bonded in times of crises. When something was wrong at school, she always stood up for me. She always tried to protect me. I guess, that could be considered love. But love as in acceptance of who I am? No, that definitely wasn’t the case. My mom only likes what is presentable to other people. The fact, that I speak multiple languages. The fact, that I’m 19 and finishing my bachelors. But does she like, that I can be sensible and emotional? No, definitely not. Does she like, that I have friends I can count on? No, she feels threatened by them. Did I feel respected? Not, not yet. And I don’t feel like I could ever earn her respect. She’s always taught me, that I owe her respect, because she raised me. But as we all know, respect is a two-edged sword. You need to respect in order to be respected. 

Also, my mom constantly jokes about my appearance. I mean by now I’m really used to it. She’s also discouraged me from pursuing any friendships. Maybe because she doesn’t have one of her own. Funnily, she definitely encouraged me to be in a relationship. Maybe she just wanted to make sure I wasn’t a lesbian (haha).

One day when I came back from uni I tried to show my parents my true self. And well, they didn’t like it. They hated these parts. So I hid them again. Underneath. 

[chill-that-ur-inmyhead]

1. Do you ever give things away to your friends?
 only if i dont want something, like i got the wrong hummus and gave it to my friend 

2. Does it make you uncomfortable when your parents talk about finding people attractive? If your parents don’t make comments like that, what sort of things can your family members say that do make you feel uncomfortable? don’t like it when my brother does it because he goes too far but other than that its not an issue

3. Have you ever heard of an “alternative spring break”? Have you ever participated in one or known someone who has? lol what am i missing out?

4. Is there anyone’s friendship or relationship, in particular, that makes you jealous? yes, i dont want to be jealous but i get why i am 

5. Do you feel a sense of community among the Xanga survey-takers? If not, is it because you’re not interested in that sort of thing or is because you feel excluded for some reason? lol what

6. How often do you think about what guys will think of you? i think about what my boyf and friends would think other than that men r trash ya.

7. Have you ever made a friendship pact with someone, where you pricked your fingers and became blood-bonded? If not, have you ever made any sort of friendship pact? wooow no ive never gotten onto that kind of level with someone 

8. If you are on birth control that allows you take pills and skip your period, how often do you opt to skip it? How come? im on the pill that i take every day so i never get a period and its so much less stress than bleeding every month

9. Is there a book series where you loved the first book, but for some reason the other books in the series just didn’t measure up? i loved percy jackson and the rest were great so no

10. If you are a registered voter or are considering registering for this upcoming election, do you know which statewide issues will be on the ballot this November? Can you list some and share which way you will be voting on them? not american.

11. Have you ever been to Pride? If not, have you ever been to any sort of Slut Walk or other protest? nope.

12. Are there any stores/restaurants that you would like to shop/eat at, but there aren’t any located near enough to you? they’re loads i need to try, once i get my job back i wanna save a bit of money to go and try new places so i can be well educated on all places to eat, i live in the city so everything is near

13. If you are a part of a certain fandom or are a fan of a popular series/musician, is there a rivalry between your fandom and another one (e.g., Lady Gaga fans vs. Katy Perry fans or Marvel vs. DC)? im a massive taylor swift fan but i have no rivalries nah

14. How many people would you say you are close with? Who are they? my boyf, and then some of my friends

15. Do you ever have smell hallucinations? umm nah

16. If you were told by a professional that you were unable to become pregnant, how would that affect you? Is there something important to you about conceiving a biological child rather than adoption? And finally, if you even want to have children, would you choose adoption or surrogacy or would you go on childless? i would like to have the option to have a child so it would make me sad, right now i dont want kids but im so young so ofc i dont but i know where my life shall lead, married with kids so i think I would go for surrogacy

17. Is there something that you did not used to take seriously, that you either now take seriously or wish that you had in the past (e.g., a relationship that you miss, your education, etc.)? how much my parents worried about me and sometimes i didnt help them not to worry

18. Are there any subjects that you are interested in so much that you would read whole books or academic journals about them? maybe something to do with criminology, like the madeline mccan story or jaycee duguad i find them interesting but at the same time horrifying.

19. Are you physically affectionate with your friends? only brooke for now

20. When you were in middle school and high school, did you witness a lot of bullying? How did the teachers react to name-calling or violence? went to an all girls school and thankfully i wasn’t bullied but i think teachers were blind to it, girls mostly talked behind each others backs it was never violent,

21. If there is a specific celebrity (or two, or three!) that you dislike, is it because of petty reasons or is it because they’ve done something absolutely damning in your mind? i think kanye is out of control and a few artists that come to mind who have criminal records and i think they dont seem wholesome

22. Are any of your friends/relatives actually impressive artists or writers? Are you willing to share an example of their work? nope

23. When it comes to relationships/crushes, are you more often the pursued or the pursuer?                                                                                    maybe a bit of both tbh

24. Do you have anyone’s tweets sent directly to your phone? Whose? no.

25. Do you ever find yourself making negative comments about other people’s appearances, whether it’s people you dislike or even just people on tv? yep, its crazy but its natural i think 

[weholyperfectioncollectorme-blog]

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Last night I was at a convenience store parked (private property) and a young idiot backed into my car! Im not going to go on about how he jumped out and almost attacked me even!! But long story short we traded insurance info and today I got 3 quotes.     So I called him to say I have the cheapest quote for the damage ($1000-$2100 they range from). I said he can pay $1000.00 then cause he told me last night he would.    Well today he is claiming HE NEVER HIT ME!!  The car full of teenagers he was with, and his mother who showed up to help him last night are denying it too cause he doesn't want to pay.     (The owner of the store did not witness it happen but ran out when he heard me hoking and saw the boys car smashed into mine after the fact. And saw him yelling and freaking. Which might help?)    So I haven't heard back from my Insurance yet but I just want to ask SOMEBODY PLEASE WHO MIGHT KNOW. Wont the insurance pay for it? His insurance or mine?  What is the laws of private property?

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A little over a week ago i bought a 2006 honda civic from a honda dealership. While driving i hit a rather large pothole that i guess put a hole in the radiator. I got out to check for damage didn't see anything no smells, didn't see anything leaking figured i would continue to drive home. While on my way the car was driving completely normal but stalled out. Apparently the engine overheated and now when the car starts it sounds horrible and stalls if you put it in drive. The car is under the most protection the insurance company offers but someone said that they wont cover the engine because I continued driving on it even though I didn't know that there was something wrong. After further examination The radiator actually got dented and hit one of the fans for the engine but theres no way to tell that unless you lift the car looking at it with the car being normal you cant tell it ever hit anything.""

I just turned 19 and just got my first speeding ticket. im under my dads insurance will rates go up?

I live in Ohio this is my first ticket and we have state farm, he has been with state farm since he was like 18. How can I prevent my insurance from going up or rates from increasing. What is state farms policy on all this?""

Car insurance companies accept no claims bonus from Lebanon?

Does anyone know an car insurance company that accepts no claims from international countries? My mother wants to use hers from Lebanon (Asia) to help reduce her quote.

Recovery/treatment dates for disability insurance?

If someone was never treated for borderline hypertension, they just controlled it with diet without any input from a doctor, what can be used as recovery and last treatment dates? Could it be when the patient's current physician first had their blood pressure measured and it was normal?""

Insurance Companies?

What kind of jobs are there at insurance companies and what is the salary for those jobs?

Should I get insurance on a car loan?

It's been many years since I got a car loan, but we're in need of a replacement car. I started to get pre-approved, but during the process they asked about insurance on the loan. Things like death, DISM and UEMP . I've no idea what the last 2 are; or if I should or shouldn't get it. This may be what I've heard called GAP Insurance , although doing a web search on that term resulted in hits related to car leases, and I'm not looking to lease a car, but to buy one, so I don't know if that applies or not. Bottom line: do I need this or not? I'm sure the answer, in part, will be it depends ; well, until I know what it depends upon, I can't make any intelligent decision about this.""

I want to by a nissan s-cargo does anyone know anything about them or what the insurance cost is?

http://www.carfolio.com/specifications/models/car/?car=131516&Nissan-quote Nissan s-cargo this is the site for my car and I love it just curious what the insurance will before I make a offer and would like to hear opinions and stories about them.

Where can I find affordable health insurance?

My husband and I are both self-employed and need to find affordable health insurance. Neither of us has any pre-existing conditions, and are in good health, but we'll be trying for a baby w/in the year. I have no idea where to even start looking!!!""

How can I report my neighbors for not having car insurance?

How can I report my neighbors for not having car insurance? My neighbors were both laid off from their jobs about three months ago. Earlier last week one confided in me that they were unable to pay for their car insurance and that they didn't know what they were going to do. I didn't take action then, because they were not working and rarely took their car out. However, the husband recently found employment and he has been driving the car EVERY DAY for the past week. They are nice people and we get along great, so it pains me that I have to do this. Who can I report this to? Should I just call the police station? Is there a way for me to verify that they were unable to pay for their car insurance (they were way behind in bills, so I doubt they covered it)""

Car Insurance?

I'm 16 and I don't have a car, but am I covered with insurance on my parents cars automatically?""

Where can i find cheap no faught insurance in Detroit Michigan?

Where can i find cheap no faught insurance in Detroit Michigan?

Approx price for car insurance for 16 yr old?

Hey, I'm about to get my license and promotion for my current part time job, and i'm wondering if anyone know what how much would i have to pay for my car insurance, current car im planning to drive is a Nissan Maxima year 2000, I got my permit March 2007, but was too lazy to get my license, getting my license around next month...""

Classic Mini Insurance? Help?

Hi, I have a classic austin mini mayfair 998cc and 1989 year. I got quotes before on classic insurance at around 900 from footman james but now they have a new policy where they wont give insurance to anyone under 21. Ive tried all compare the market and other places but the cheapest i can find it for is 1600 fully comp. Can anyone help? ive tried other mini insurers like adrian flux but there around 2500! please help!""

CAR ACCIDENT INSURANCE QUESTION- Canada- Who's Responsible?

Last night I was at a convenience store parked (private property) and a young idiot backed into my car! Im not going to go on about how he jumped out and almost attacked me even!! But long story short we traded insurance info and today I got 3 quotes.     So I called him to say I have the cheapest quote for the damage ($1000-$2100 they range from). I said he can pay $1000.00 then cause he told me last night he would.    Well today he is claiming HE NEVER HIT ME!!  The car full of teenagers he was with, and his mother who showed up to help him last night are denying it too cause he doesn't want to pay.     (The owner of the store did not witness it happen but ran out when he heard me hoking and saw the boys car smashed into mine after the fact. And saw him yelling and freaking. Which might help?)    So I haven't heard back from my Insurance yet but I just want to ask SOMEBODY PLEASE WHO MIGHT KNOW. Wont the insurance pay for it? His insurance or mine?  What is the laws of private property?

Does anyone know any insurance places in california that you can get insurance for your car without a DL?

I can't get my drivers license without insurance and I can't get insurance without a drivers license. anyone know a way around this? please don't say use a friend or family members car. I really don't have anyone besides myself. I tried looking into drivers schools, but they cost 250 +. is there any insurance places that will give me insurance with a permit??""

""How many billions will obamcare cost to insure the poor ,the crack heads the people who can't afford it?

how much is the fine if you can't afford to buy obamacare

""Car insurance, UK QUESTION!!!!!!!!!!?""

UK QUESTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am researching car insurance at the moment, what do you think i can expect to pay? Whats a good insurance company to go with? heres my details... 18 year old female, New driver, Pass plus certificate, Insurance group 5 car, the cheapest ive found is 1246.00 is this a normal amount to have to pay??? Thanks :)""

How much are you paying car insurance NJ?

I just want to know, please answer with how much, every 6 months? age? and any driving history? My mom and I are paying 2000$ 6 months, both of us have had unsafe operation in our driving records. does that sound reasonable to you? I'm really new to this car insurance and trying to know. thanks""

Insurance on a Mazda miata mx5?

Would it be considert a sports car? And how much would the insurance go up from a regular adult insurance?

How much do you pay for car insurance?

These quotes are OUTRAGEOUS!

Will my motorcycle insurance really be 145 dollars a month?

i did a quote online at progressive just to get an idea of how much the insurance would be for a 2005 yzf r6. i am 18 years old had my motorcycles license for 2 years and have been riding smaller bikes for 2 years now the r6 i am looking at costs 6000 with very low miles and an aftermarket exhaust from a dealer and i will be making a 2200 trade in which will go towards the bike but the rest will have to be financed. i heard the online quote is wrong because i didn't use my social security number and is different from the real quote i should get. also the loan will most likely be under my parents name and if u know of what type of coverage i will need since it is financed ive been doing alot of studying but thought id ask on here. i live in wisconsin which isn't a very populated area which should also make a difference if u know anything or need to know anymore just ask thanks alot

Backtack on medical insurance for newborn?

Is it Normal for my job to backtrak and charge me premiums for my newborn if I didn't enroll her until about a month after she was born? She was on my wifes insurance up until I enrolled her but they took a lot out of one check. Spoke with the head of finance dept and tells me they still backtrack from when she's born even though she was on my wifes insurance

Is an acura integra cheap on insurance?

my son is thinking of buying one

I work per diem and have no insurance. do you know any good insurance that is affordable?

I am also a student so I need something that won't break the bank and that I will hopefully be able to use after school

Help me find health insurance quick!! please!?

I dunno if I'm overreacting, but I've been researching esophigal cancer ( I was sick a lot a couple years ago, but I never thought it was long enough period of time, or frequent enough to cause any damage) and I would like to be checked out. It actually seems the more I read, the more i seem to feel like I'm having symptoms right now... I have been known to be a worrier... Could I worry myself to the point of feeling like my throat is burning? or that I'm burping a lot? (i'm probably swallowing lots of air right now ] and coughing (i've been known to gag and cough when I worry myself) I would like to go to the doctor asap, could someone please help me find an affordable health insurance plan. My zip is 16066, if that matters.. Thank you""

What can I get FIRST: a driver's license or car insurance?

I'm 19 & have had a class O learner's permit since February & my brother has been giving me driving lessons with his car since then. A couple days ago he got me this $300 car for when I get my license (so I won't keep asking to borrow his, lol) so..... I called the DMV, but this lady said I needed proof of insurance for a driver's license, plates, registration, etc.... So I called this insurance company, but the guy there said he needed a valid driver's license # to even give me a quote.... I'm probably gonna get my license in the next couple of weeks, but.... 1) Why isn't a learner's permit # considered valid when trying to get car insurance? 2) Which can I get FIRST: a driver's license or car insurance? And how?""

Car insurance and car note?

OK, I'm nineteen. I've been saving up for my first car. But the thing is, I have to pay insurance, and a car note on my own. My mother became homeless, and my father I do not know. My godparents took me in, and they can't afford to add me on their insurance. So, being that I have a part time job at McDonald's, and go to college, It seems as if I have no way of affording a car and insurance. I haven't checked the rates of insurance, but I do understand that they are high for teenage males, and always vary on the type of car you have. I don't want anything fancy, a four door car that gets me from A to B. Is there anyway I can afford this? Please and thanks!""

How much is goin to cost me per month if i own a peugeot 206?

im 19 and a student at uni, i want to buy a but im nt really sure how much it will cost me can someone help me. i will be travellin about 5miles per day with the car road tax servicing insurance petrol etc""

AA Home contents insurance?

Hello The AA Contents insurance seems good value What do you think.

What company has the best auto insurance rates for people with speeding tickets?

What company has the best auto insurance rates for people with speeding tickets?

What's the insurance price for a 10 ft boat?

I would like to know how much The insurance would cost for a 10 ft fiberglass fishing boat? Anyone can give me an estimate? Thanks

Need senior insurance advise?

my mother has a supplemental insurance health [anthem] we recently received a letter that informed us that because of the cost of living..it is necessary to more then double the monthly premiums..when my mother used a ambulance service...god bless this insurance. they paid 13 dollars and we had to pay the rest.the insurance sucks!..does anyone have an alternative supplemental insurance and has anyone tried the ARRP program..moms Aricet is 300.00 a month alone..so i found out i can get this in canada for 50.00 a month..i now order my mothers pills a little early and save the excess pills for when she gets in that infamous donut hole...its a killer out there.mom has dementia and does not have the strain that i have trying to keep her in good health.any advise would be appreciated....

What is the best way to get an insurance company to pay you what a car is worth?

My son was rear ended at a high rate of speed. He was pushed 6 feet into the car in front of him. The guy had to really be moving when he hit my son. He was driving a 1999 Chevy Lumina LS. The blue book value according to NADA is $5000. It only had 78,000 miles on the car. No rust on the body and overall in excellent shape. The insurance company offered me $3600 for the car. I can NOT find a replacement car in that shape for that price...""

""How much is this going to cost me? In IL was driving with no insurance, license & got into a car accident?""

I did however get insurance right after the accident, so my proof of coverage began the date I got my ticket. I did not have a drivers license because I was waiting for my certificate. I got my birth certificate and am taking my test tomorrow. My court date is monday. How much will I have to pay?""

Why is fully comprehensive much cheaper then 3rd party for a 17 year old?

Hello I am getting close to passing my test and i have been looking at the types of cars that i can get that will give me the cheapest insurance quote. I am planning to go on my parents insurance as an Additional driver an they would own the car. I was looking quotes and was surprised to discovered to fully comprehensive was much much cheaper then 3rd. about 1400 compared to 3200 what is going on, also a renault 1.2 Clio is more expensive then a 1.6 renault Megane. Any advice on getting low insurance and why is fully comp cheaper? thanks for any help""

Do insurance companies raise rates if they know you are dyslexic?

If you're had an evaluation and it comes out as positive. Would insurance companies be likely to charge you higher rates?

Why is car insurance mandatory but not health insurance?

Say you have mandatory car insurance but not health insurance and you get in a car accident and get injured; your mandatory car insurance covers your car but what about you?

How do I figure how much life insurance I will need?

How do I figure how much life insurance I will need?

""Would Obama's plan mean free (or affordable) comprehensive health insurance for everyone, no matter what?""

Is this what we can hope for? Affordable or even free health care for all Americans, rich and poor?""

CAR ACCIDENT INSURANCE QUESTION- Canada- Who's Responsible?

Last night I was at a convenience store parked (private property) and a young idiot backed into my car! Im not going to go on about how he jumped out and almost attacked me even!! But long story short we traded insurance info and today I got 3 quotes.     So I called him to say I have the cheapest quote for the damage ($1000-$2100 they range from). I said he can pay $1000.00 then cause he told me last night he would.    Well today he is claiming HE NEVER HIT ME!!  The car full of teenagers he was with, and his mother who showed up to help him last night are denying it too cause he doesn't want to pay.     (The owner of the store did not witness it happen but ran out when he heard me hoking and saw the boys car smashed into mine after the fact. And saw him yelling and freaking. Which might help?)    So I haven't heard back from my Insurance yet but I just want to ask SOMEBODY PLEASE WHO MIGHT KNOW. Wont the insurance pay for it? His insurance or mine?  What is the laws of private property?

Car Rental USA Insurance?

I am getting really annoyed with trying to get a quote for car rental in USA. For basic rental I have been quoted $200. But then there are all the insurances: Loss Damage Waiver (LDW) Supplemental Liability Insurance (SLI) Personal Accident and Effects (PAE) What do I actually need to have as they are really expensive!!! Adding just the first two takes my rental up to $500. I am very confused. What legally do I have to have? Someone told me the US insurance is strange cos you can get sued for an accident and end up paying thousands of dollars out to the person you hit. Can I just get insurance through my own car insurance here in the UK rather than paying $300 dollars??

""If the other guy's insurance pays for damages, does that show up as points that cost me with my insurance?""

My son was rear-ended today. Damage appears minimal, but there is damage. If he has the damages paid for by the insurance company of the man who ran into his car will that cause my son's insurance rates to increase? I seem to recall that insurance companies share information, but am not sure about this issue. Thanks in advance!""

Short-term insurance coverage and ACA?

Does anyone know if and/or how the Affordable Care Act (ACA) will affect short-term insurance coverage? My son currently does not have health insurance at work; therefore, he has been buying short-term coverage which can be purchased month by month, every 3 months, or 6 months. The downside is that after 12 months of consecutive coverage, he has to sit out for 2 months (no insurance coverage). Not ideal, I know but it's all he can afford at this point. It basically costs him less than $40 a month. Just wondering about this. I guess we don't know yet how much coverage will cost under the ACA?? Maybe he can afford something better once that takes effect.""

Should iclaim through the car insurance?

My mother in law was driving my wifes car on our insurance pollicy. She was hit on the passenger side of the car and puched in to the roundabout by the cab on a 14 wheller. MY mother in law was not to blame as the lorry was in the wrong lane and there are witnesses who saw the accident. The car is a 1996 renault clio and there is some heavy denting and scratches on the passenger door and front wing. Nothing that has effected the driveability of the car to my knowledge. since the car was pushed up over the kerb and on to the roundabout it could have knocked the tracking a little. I dont know how much it will be to repair but the car is only worth about 600 and the insurance policy on this car has an excess of 350 cause it was the named driver who was driving and not my wife. There also is no protected no claims bonus. If i was to put this claim through the insurance how would this effect the pocket and the no blaims bonus.

Car Insurance Question?

Can a 16 year old girl drive her parent's car alone without her name being on the insurance?

Will my car insurance go up even more now?

Two weeks ago I rear ended a Ford F150. There was very little damage done to their truck, but my mazda protoge was declared totaled. No ambulance was called and the people in the truck acted just fine. The driver was a lady who I thought was just obese but it turns out from the police report that she was 9 months pregnant. I was not arrested or anything at this scene but I did get a ticket for careless driving by failing to yield. I am a 25 year old male btw and I was on my mom's insurance driving her car. We called the insurance and found out that she was monitored and the baby was ok. She was due next week, but the insurance hasn't heard about the delivery or anything. The lady, however is claiming neck and back injuries. Will my insurance go up more because of the accident AND her claims or just the accident itself? I have to go to court in June just for the accident (it is mandatory here for every traffic violation). I need to know how much my insurance will go up to get a newcar""

Is a $202 Full Mouth Debridement was an overcharge? or just average?

I went to a dentist, and was ordered a Full Mouth Debridement (D4355) for $202.00. I have no idea of what exactly they have to do but they explain that it's different from a regular cleaning and my insurance will not cover such thing. I have no idea of how much is it cost on average dentist and I said yes to have it done on me. When I went home, I realize that some dental office offer it less than what I'm paying. Should I file a complain? If I should, where can I bring my complaints to.? I live at area code 92126.""

What is the approximate cost of insurance for a lamborghini gallardo lp550-2 spyder?

What is the approximate cost of insurance for a lamborghini gallardo lp550-2 spyder?

Whats The Cheapest Car To Get Insurance For?

Whats The Cheapest Car To Get Insurance For?

Is there a CHEAP car that fits my needs?

Hey, Im a soon to be 19 year old, looking for my first car, I iwll be getting my licenses next month and was wondering is there like a cheap big body cars out there sorta like the ...show more""

Why does / or should my Car insurance RISE?

Since I have changed my car insurance co, my insurance rates had dropped... only in small amounts - but they have dropped over the past few periods. Suddenly, my rates RISE! =:-o I have had no tickets, no accidents, no reason on my record leaning toward any reason to rise my insurance costs. - I am calling my agent, tomorrow to ask about this. Should I expect the reply to be all insurance rates rise... there is no avoiding it! or how should I design AN ANSWER to this issue to develop a $aving reply?""

Would insurance be cheaper then normal for this car?

Would insurance be cheaper then normal for this car, its a 1993 ford mustang 4 cylinder auto, because its old and a auto 4 cylinder? Plan is to insure it with the auto four banger in it, then do an engine swap imported v6 turbo, with manual transmission, new drive shaft, differential, exhaust, etc.. what they don't know.. they don't know lol""

Where can i get the cheapest car insurance?

Im a 16 year old male who lives in new orleans. I have a 3.8 GPA and no one in my immediate family has been in a wreck in the previous 5 years. Where can i get affordable insurance?

Do you get your credit checked for car insurance quotes?

Do you get your credit checked for car insurance quotes?

Car insurance cheapest provider?

I'm under 25 and ive got a ford focus st,am paying 170 a month for insurance just wanted to know if anyone knew a cheaper company.im with elephant insurance""

What happens to your insurance rates if your car is stolen?

What happens to your insurance rates if your car is stolen?

How much would my car insurance cost?

i am a 17 year old girl with a car in insurance group one was wondering how much it is going to cost to insure???

""After 7 years out of country, why the high car insurance rate?""

Seven years ago, I got a job working overseas. I sold my car here in the US before I left. Now I have returned to the US to live and I bought a car. I was shocked at the insurance rate - the cheapest I could find for a 2013 Ford Fiesta was $1112 for six months of coverage! I asked the agent why the rate was so sky high. Well, because the assumption is that you have been driving here in the US as an uninsured motorist for the past seven years . I tried to show proof that I was living overseas for those seven years, and that I didn't have any vehicle to insure in the US. But my explanation fell on deaf ears. Is there any way to explain my situation to Safeco (the insurance company)?""

Car insurance cost of 94 Cadillac devill?

Car insurance cost of 94 Cadillac devill?

Can I be insured on my dads auto insurance policy if we live at different locations?

My dad and I live at different houses, will an auto insurance conpany allow me to be on his plan even tho I live in the neighboring town, this is progressive auto insurance.""

How long is a quarter period in insurance?

My insurance says: Family coverage: $2,213 per quarter So how long is that? 3 months or what?""

Cheap Health Insurance?

I'm from Kansas City, MO i'm looking for cheap health insurance can anybody help me?""

I got a ticket for failure to show insurance in NJ . How will this effect my insurance rates.?

The day I got my car, I was got a ticket for not having insurance in NJ.I had insurance but paper had not come in the mail yet. I went to court and it was lowered to failure to show insurance and I paid like $185. How will this effect my points and and my insurance rates. Should I reopen my case and plea not guilty or see if I could get it dismissed and would I have to get a lawyer for that? Is it worth the money? This is my first ticket ever. I though he would dismiss my case after explaining my case but my public defender was really rude and impatient when I asked him If I could have the case dropped saying You're should be glad I am not getting your license taken for a year! which is true, but I had proper documentation so there was not way my license would have been suspended.""

How can I get health insurance?

I am a college student, and I was wondering how I can get health insurance.""

Car insurance for minors?

Abt how much would insurance cost me. Am 17 wit a drivers licence and I live in Texas ? Thanks:)

CAR ACCIDENT INSURANCE QUESTION- Canada- Who's Responsible?

Last night I was at a convenience store parked (private property) and a young idiot backed into my car! Im not going to go on about how he jumped out and almost attacked me even!! But long story short we traded insurance info and today I got 3 quotes.     So I called him to say I have the cheapest quote for the damage ($1000-$2100 they range from). I said he can pay $1000.00 then cause he told me last night he would.    Well today he is claiming HE NEVER HIT ME!!  The car full of teenagers he was with, and his mother who showed up to help him last night are denying it too cause he doesn't want to pay.     (The owner of the store did not witness it happen but ran out when he heard me hoking and saw the boys car smashed into mine after the fact. And saw him yelling and freaking. Which might help?)    So I haven't heard back from my Insurance yet but I just want to ask SOMEBODY PLEASE WHO MIGHT KNOW. Wont the insurance pay for it? His insurance or mine?  What is the laws of private property?

How can i get insurance if i am a 21 year old female with a job?

I am 21 years old and i live in California, I work at the YMCA but i only work 20 hrs. a week so i do not quallify for insurance here. I only make about $950 a month so i don't have alot of money to pay for insurance and my parents jobs do not provide insurance for me. can anyone help?""

How much would my life insurance be?

If I get it as soon as I'm 18? I am also physically disabled, have epilepsy, visual cuts, and partially deaf. Would it be higher? Or lower since I'd be considered a vulnerable adult?""

Can I go on my boyfriends health insurance florida?

I am living with my boyfriend for a year can I go on his health insurance

What is the cheapest way to get insured on a Ford Fiesta 1.2 for an 18 year old?

Hey, I just passed my driving test and the trouble is insurance :( I've found the perfect car for me which is a Ford fiesta 1.25 studio, 2006 model which has done 49000 miles and is valued at 3800 pounds. The insurance is nearly triple the amount of the car which is something I simply cannot pay. I was considering coverbox or insure the box but I'm not too sure. I've been researching online for a good few months now and all price comparison websites and insurers' websites seem to be suggesting the same price. So please if you know how to get cheap car insurance for a 18 male who has 0 months no claims, I would appreciate your help :)""

Buy a car? No License or insurance?

Is it possible for me to buy a car with no license or insurance and have my dad drive it back to the house and keep it there? I dont intend on driving it untill i get it all sorted, i just want the satisfaction on knowing its there and its mine. Im from the UK""

What is the average car insurance rate for a 17 year old female?

In the state of Michigan I just want to know what is the average car insurance rate for a 17 year old female. I am just getting my license in November,/December I won't be getting a vehicle until next April.""

""My husband and I are looking for life insurance but dont know the diffrence in term life, accidental and whole?

My husband is only 24 but was just diagnosed with Hep C.

How does an Insurance Claim work?

How does an insurance claim work. Let's say I get up one morning walk outside and my car has been stolen? The police come out and take a report, then they leave. How long would it take insurance cover this and how much would they cover? For example, if I have a car that I'm financing that is worth $24,500.00 dollars that had full insurance coverage. Basically, how does it work? Since it's being financed, I'm sure the insurance company would pay out the remaining balanced owed on the car to satisfy the loan with the finance company but what happens to me afterwards? Lets say I have $100,000 dollars in coverage that covers me in case of theft or something like that. Being that the car was fully covered and insurance was able to pay back the loan, would they give me the money to buy a new car at equal or face value of the car that was stolen? Insurance is so friggin complicated...if someone could explain the process to me I'd appreciate it.""

What's the best and cheapest Insurance Company for Motorcycles?

I want to buy a 2007 Honda CBR1000RR. I live in Georgia. I was quoting online and the prices are insane!!! I could buy a Range Rover with those monthly payments!!!

""16, got a car brought for me.. can anyone help me with an insurance question?""

i'm 17 in 3 weeks.. and my parents brought me a car, it has no insurance but we need to get it back to my house. as i'm only 16, does it have to be on my parents insurance until my birthday?""

I'm confused about primary and secondary health insurance?

My daughter is on my policy, where all of the payments come out of a fund set at the beginning of the year, so if it is $1,000 that can be wiped out by one trip to the ER. Also, she is on her father's plan which is a taditional co-pay plan. Would it work out to my advantage to use his at primary and mine as secondary? Can the co-pay requirement from his insurance be paid from my plan?""

Car insurance for teenagers?

Im 18 and I own a used car. Never a trouble maker. I have a part time job. I want to know what insurance I can get for my car that is affordable.

My car insurance renewal is due next week can anyone suggest cheap?

I'ave got 3 years no claim bounus my old insurare is asking 392

How to buy car insurance and get license plate?

I decide to buy a used car but I do not know how I am supposed to buy the insurance and get a plate? My friend told me to get some information about the car, get a quote from the insurance, purchase the insurance and get the place, then go see the seller to complete the trade. Is that correct? If it is, what kind of information do I need to get from the seller to buy insurance? My other friend who bought a car from a dealer said after buying the car he was given a temporary plate, then he went to buy insurance and got the plate later. So can anyone show me step by step how to purchase insurance and get the license plate? Thank you.""

Insurance will only cover 1000$ of dental issues?

My friend's parents haven't taken her to the dentist in 10 years. Now she has 21 cavities. She says that it will cost 6000$ and insurance will only cover 1000$. Is there anyway she can separate the fillings so that insurance will pay (almost) all of it?

Can my ex-wife insure our kids through her husbands insurance?

My ex-wife is required to carry our kids insurance. She switched jobs and is now insuring kids under her husband. My only concern is, if he decides to leave her or gets pissed off he can drop my kids from insurance. Since he is not legally obligated to insure them. He is not adopting them. He is not legally bound to take care of them. Is my concern valid?""

What's a good sport bike for a new rider? ?

I know motorcycles aren't safe no matter what but what's an affordable bike for a new rider. I really want something as light as possible. How much is insurance? I don't know anything about bikes but I've always wanted one. Never even rode or drove one.

""I need a lot of dental work done and I don't have money for insurance, is there any programs or something I can sign up for?""

I was robbed at a job and got a tooth broke in half and I admit I never took care of my teeth as well as I should have, between our new baby and our bills I can't really afford Insurance or financing. i really just need a second chance, i feel like it holds me back from getting promoted and making a good first impression and id really like a better smile all around. is there any programs or something I can sign up for? I'd prefer for it to not be at the tax payers expense but I'm not above it. I live in california if that matters, thank you""

Car insurance for the clueless 19 year old :/?

I'm nervous about getting car insurance but I honestly need to get my foot in the door. Now give it to me straight guys, how high can it go if I'm nineteen years old, male, never been in an accident, had my licence since may, plan on getting a 90s car or EARLY 2000, and only plan to use it for really just going to work and such. :/ I feel like its going to skyrocket...just because I have a penis. Man when they told me that I thought about being arrested for being black on a friday afternoon on a wednsday :/ So how low can car insurance get?""

How can I buy home insurance if I use one room for my business?

Hello there! I am a freelance web publisher so basically I work from home using my laptop. My husband and I just bought our first home. The other day I was shopping around for home insurance when an agent told me if I run my home business many carriers will mark me as not eligible for home insurance. Is this true? How do I get around that? What's the best home insurance company?

Are SUVs more expensive to insure?

I know you can't tell me for sure whether or not one will be more expensive. But, generally speaking is a small SUV such as a Ford Escape more expensive to insure than say a midsized car like a Honda Accord.""

How much does type of car vary the insurance rate?

I am 18 and am going to be licensed in about a month or so. I am thinking about buying a first car but I'm just wondering out of curiousity, how much would insuring a 2002 BMW cost more than let's say...a 2002-2004 Honda Civic? I'm looking at the civic but if they are in the same price range, I would rather buy the BMW. Yes, I know about the Honda gets 50 mpg and BMW will cost more to maintain, etc, etc but I'm just wondering, would BMW insurance cost a lot more for a old model?""

I'm 17 years old looking for a car with cheap insurance?

I have 3,000 and I'm looking for a manual car that's somewhat fast I don't want a super slow car and I know I can't find a super fast one either but something kinda fast in the price range and not a but load for insurance""

Can I save money by canceling my insurance and just driving my girlfriends car?

I got a DUI earlier this year, and naturally, my insurance rates went way up. I'm getting ready to move in with my girlfriend, and we are planning on selling one of the cars. If I sell my car, couldn't I just drive her car and not have to pay the high insurance rates? This seems underhanded and like I'm cheating the system. What are the rules and stipulations with this sort of situation.""

How To Get The Insurance Brokers Licensec?

How to get the insurance brokers licensec? Is anyone could give me website?

CAR ACCIDENT INSURANCE QUESTION- Canada- Who's Responsible?

Last night I was at a convenience store parked (private property) and a young idiot backed into my car! Im not going to go on about how he jumped out and almost attacked me even!! But long story short we traded insurance info and today I got 3 quotes.     So I called him to say I have the cheapest quote for the damage ($1000-$2100 they range from). I said he can pay $1000.00 then cause he told me last night he would.    Well today he is claiming HE NEVER HIT ME!!  The car full of teenagers he was with, and his mother who showed up to help him last night are denying it too cause he doesn't want to pay.     (The owner of the store did not witness it happen but ran out when he heard me hoking and saw the boys car smashed into mine after the fact. And saw him yelling and freaking. Which might help?)    So I haven't heard back from my Insurance yet but I just want to ask SOMEBODY PLEASE WHO MIGHT KNOW. Wont the insurance pay for it? His insurance or mine?  What is the laws of private property?

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