#like a physical ache
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Mommy issues this daddy issues that, where my homies with older sibling issues at?
#just saw my sister is at a concert with our aunt#no one invited me#or hell even told me about it#i would've wanted to go#but realistically i guess it wouldn't because in reality we dont have anything in common anyways and they probably just went to drink#and be fucking idiots#but its just the premise i guess#not to mention she'd rather go out with our aunt... the one who knowingly brought a predator into my sisters home#WHO SEXUALLY ASSAULTED HER DAUGHTER (my niece) IN HER OWN HOME#like... shed rather go out and hang out with HER... over me?#i really am that unlovable huh#and then she has her husbands sisters#shes closer to them than she ever has been or will be with me#has a matching tattoo with the one closest to my age#goes and gets pedicures with the one that has the same name as me#and shes not even her husband's family shes his brothers wife#i love to pretend like it doesn't bother me#but it fucking hurts my heart#my heart fucking hurts typing this#like a physical ache#hated me my whole life for just existing and nothing has changed#my post#personal#sister#family
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Nothing beats that feeling when you're reminded of something you thought you got over -maybe even years later- and you get that ache.
Reminds me I'm not a sociopath.
#like a physical ache#ah look#its still there#it never really goes away#might not think about it now for another ten years#but when i do#the ache will still be there
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i strongly believe that in any universe modern or otherwise lwj uses lan xichen as a kind of confessional like a catholic priest. he literally comes into lan xichen's room at four pm precisely because that's the scheduled time that he allows himself to share an Emotion with his brother and sits down and says in a distinctly monotone yet perfectly recognisably anguished tone 'brother i have sinned' and lan xichen sighs very quietly because he doesn't want to hurt his brother's feelings and puts down his pen and says 'is this about wei wuxian' very gently and Lan Wangji is like 'mn' because it has never once Not been about wei wuxian. and then he says something that is Kind Of Weird, But Still Not A Sin like 'he fell asleep when we were studying and i watched his ribcage moving up and down for thirty eight minutes until he choked on nothing and woke himself up; am i evil' and once again lan xichen will kind of not-sigh in a way that makes it very obvious that in all other ways except physical he Is, Indeed, Sighing and has to reassure the most rigidly distraught younger brother in the history of mankind that what he is suffering from is in fact a malady known colloquially as a crush
#the untamed#wangxian#lan wangji#lan xichen#wei wuxian#mdzs#cql#and then they never speak of any of it again even though lan xichen has to physically control the fact that he's having a Stroke#when lwj makes seventy eight Weird But Pretty Okay Really confessions about this boy for like three years and then leaves for college#and starts doing it over voice message instead#lxc sees the notification that lwj has sent him 16 voice messages in the last half hour and Knows Deep In His Bones that this is about wwx#poor man. he needs A Break#eventually the stress back ache gets too much to handle and he goes to a Very Fancy Chiropractor Spa Thing and meets meng yao and Is Happy#but it took some getting there#unfamd originals
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just kinda a thing i wanted to say since ik i have younger artists following me (its applicable to everyone really, but very important to form care habits as early as possible) i read about others artists experiencing pain from overworking and i always thought to myself, i wouldnt let that happen to me, im real young, i still have time before i have to worry about really damaging my body
but your body really doesnt care, if you push yourself, if you ignore the pain, its going to fuck you up. maybe for the rest of your life please god take care of yourself when you draw, write, game, literally anything. stretch your wrists, fingers, dont keep your elbow in a locked a position for too long, especially dont lean on your elbows. get up around every 45 minutes, drink water, eat food, use the bathroom, stretch your whole body and your hands again. walk outside and let your eyes readjust your body is trying to communicate with you for a reason when you start hurting, please listen to it, be kind to yourself, you deserve it
#source firsthand as im the idiot who drew for like 6 hours straight#like actually non fucking stop for even a second#until the pain got so bad my hand felt like it was fucking scalding#and i kept going anyway until i physically could not put any more lines down on the page#almost everyday since then my arm and hand has ached and felt weird and i literally cant do anything i used to before i did this to myself#i cant play games i cant write#i cant even use my mouse with my right hand for casual scrolling#please take care of yourselves
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I remember after Lord of Shadows someone made a countdown account for QOAAD and the wait was agonisingly long.
Silly. I was so young and naive. No real or deep understanding of the word "patience."
#TLKOF will come out 8 years+ after QOAAD and 10 years after Lady Midnight#it will be worth it though#i just need the book on a physical and psychological level rn? every cell in my body is aching for the missing puzzle pieces to be revealed#like i'm so invested in these characters lives and in the politics i need to know how it ends!!#the last king of faerie#the wicked powers#ty blackthorn#kit herondale#dru blackthorn#ash morgenstern#the shadowhunter chronicles#the dark artifices
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My favorite head-canon, is that Merlin spends so much time healing and taking care of Arthur, that he forgets to do it for himself.
Arthur, a seasoned warrior, somehow has very few scars on his body. A few scuff marks on his knees and a few marks on the side of his neck, maybe a few knife nicks along his arms from training. But other than that, nothing. It's almost inhuman how this knight who lives on the battlefield has such a lack of scars.
Merlin, on the other hand, is covered in them. Burn marks covering the tips of his fingers, deep jagged cuts that dug into his back and arms. Scraps and cuts cover his legs and arms, and a small patch of discoloration on his forehead that never quite heald right. He goes to great lengths to keep these hidden. It wouldn't make sense for a meek servant to have so many brutal scars. He covers his body even during the hot months with long sleeve shirts and thick scarves so no one will ask any questions.
The reason behind this is that Merlin will always meticulously heal any injuries Arthur faces. Always being thorough so they won't scar over. He knows the way scars ache during the cold or thunderstorms, the way the pain seems to seep into your bones. He doesn't want Arthur to suffer through that. But when he gets injured, he does just enough to stop the bleeding. He lives with a physician. Why would he do more than that? He'll get them looked at eventually... (he never does).
Point is, Merlin does the bare minimum to keep himself alive while he goes the extra mile for Arthur to keep him comfortable.
#this was promted by an old scar of mine aching during a thunderstorm#so ofc i need to project my pain onto merlin cuz why not#amyway merlin struggkes to move around when its stormy or cold#without being in immense pain#both mental and physical#arthur makes a light hearted quip about merlin getting slow in the winter#and merlin chuckles and retorts with a joke about the winter hurts his scars#and arthur is like *insert concerned himbo noises here*#bbc merlin#merthur#merlin headcanons
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I think I finally know why this shot was a religious awakening for me
more in tags because you fuckers seem to enjoy that
#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool 3#deadpool 2024#logan howlett#wade wilson#wolverine#deadpool#hugh jackman#ryan reynolds#*inhales* god adhd brain don't fail me now#IT'S A POWER PLAY.#wade is physically tired at this point#his emotions are running high and he's tired and aching and bleeding all over#same as logan#and yet somewhere through all that spandex and all that cancer and all that fourth wall breaking he decides#“Oh I'm not coming to you motherfucker. I decide the pace of this. You come to me.”#and he could have#i'm choking#he could have used his left hand the one on the other car seat to go “come get it”#it still would have been hot#me personally it's so much fucking hotter that he used the same hand holding his knife#which looks like is that a survival knife?#as if we need any more nails in the coffin of the fact that logan is a wild partner to have#and wade absolutely THRIVES with him#it's so much hotter that wade used his right hand holding the knife to dare // DARE // logan to attack him#practically saying “Bite the bait you son of a bitch. I'm ready to cut you when you're in range.”#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#is it weird if i say i want to scream into the void because they have an actual void in this movie#fuck lmao
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I know it’s 3 am and this is my own fault but feeling so sick over pony and johnny right now oh my god how do I even deal with this they meant so much to each other they would literally kill for each other I actually can’t handle it thinking about them on the train to Windrixville wondering if they’re all they’ll ever have ever again. Johnny letting Pony sleep in his lap even though it made his legs fall asleep because he knew he needed it. Thinking about how they always dreamed and planned of running away together and having their own little place in the country and being their own family but then actually being forced into that in the most horrific way possible, and in the most twisted way, only having each other like they always wished for. I’m actually so ill about them they deserved so much better they need a happy ending where they live in a little cottage with their fire and featherbed and easy garden with the homegrown plant on the windowsill. Where Johnny gets to grow up and Pony gets to have his best friend always by his side and they get to discover themselves together and have the chance to live and do everything they always wanted. Where Pony gets out and Johnny can follow him and everything just finally for once in their lives okay they deserve that at the very least
#the outsiders#johnny cade#ponyboy curtis#pb&j#read this as romantic and platonic and qpr#it’s all of them#dude I’m actually so ill about them I feel like I’m gonna throw up#there’s a genuine aching in my chest#sorry if this is incomprehensible#or too comprehensible#it’s 3 am and I physically cant move my body so I’ve been thinking#too many big emotions tonight I cannot possibly express them all
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I’m just gonna come out and say it… Byler’s best scene has gotta be the rain fight. It just is. It’s arguably Finn and Noah’s best performance for their characters’ dynamic. It has everything. Repression. Instant regret. Groveling. Heartbreak. Devastation.
Me, rewatching the rain fight to feel something that is akin to every single feeling one experiences after watching a masterful feature length romance, only in this case it’s all happening in one single scene:
#byler#rain fight#1:30 am thoughts#i honestly can’t rewatch it without my heart physically aching#no but seriously when Will says#FINE YOU GUYS WIN! CONGRATULATIONS#and Mike’s just like 😳😨😰🥺#😧 will I was just messing around 😨#AND THEN THE ABSOLUTE SILENCE THAT FOLLOWS#then followed by Mike walking around trying to convince Will to keep playing#but then suddenly Will’s yelling and suddenly mike looks terrified#then Will is walking out and it’s just literally instant for him to follow without a second thought#will come on. you can’t leave it’s raining#AND THE SILENCE AGAIN#like the angst is so through the charts I can’t take it!#and the fact that it ends with Mike looking arguably more heartbroken than Will…#with him chasing after him AGAIN#the same episode max is insisting Mike is gonna crawl back#all while he’s doing the exact opposite by prioritizing his falling out with Will instead#never gonna get over it
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Was working on something before I forgot that I can't fucking draw.
Yeah this is what a grown-ass adult's art should look like, this is the quality expected of someone whose been drawing since they could grasp a pencil. This measly scribble is worth 2 days of effort using all my free time.
#I hate myself#not to blog post or anything but my life is so stressful and I think that if I was good at drawing and churning out drawings quickly and#beautifully on the daily/weekly..#If I was like the thousands of foreign 12 year old prodigies on instagram with perfect anatomy on a mere sketch#or the soul-sellers on pixiv uploading 200 fully colored drawings at once#all my problems would be solved.#Im so hateful and it's all towards myself. I'm so painfully envious of things I'll never have...#...like a cock or artistic skill. If I wasn't so scared of not existing (to the point where thinking about it makes me physically ill)#l would have ended my shit already. But here I am.#So take this stupid ugly fucking Shane I tried to draw at midnight after a 10 hour shift. You're here to see bellies-#-not me bitching and moaning. Matter of fact I'll probably delete this part later. Whatever.#What is my fucking problem??#Enjoy what little I'm able to give. All I want is to share my thoughts and ideas and concepts and I can barely even do that.#I think I am going to pass out typing this so uh#see you later when I regret this post and delete this part haha#If I even remember#self post#Drawing#tummy kink#stomach ache#bloated belly
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his profile 😵💫
#toronto maple leafs#mitch marner#hockeyedit#egifs#2324#okay.. just had to... stare in admiration for a bit#hes so beautiful it hurts my actual heart. LIKE I AM PHYSICALLY ACHING
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i thought licking potentially dangerous things was a ten thing but the first doctor just put sweets from the fucking toymaker's world into his fucking mouth they really have always been that stupid
#also funny how it cut away from him collapsing and the title of the next episode appears on the screen “holiday for the doctor”#like “this man is clearly mentally slow and physically unwell. let's get him some sleep”#doctor who#classic who#first doctor#the celestial toymaker#also funny how it doesnt have any consequences besides him getting a tooth ache
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Happy winter every joint in my body hates me
#like I’m sorry my wrist should not be hurting because I held it at a slightly weird angle while holding something#like my back should not be aching this often when I barely do any physical activity#madurday night live
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I no longer have boobs! I am a boobless being! I've become one of those ✨self mutilated women✨ the t//erfs warn u abt! I am the trans agenda!
#I keep talking abt this but I am genuinely so happy abt it lmao#like I'm miserable on a physical level rn bc everything itches and aches and I'm nauseous despite zofran#I cannot shower until like saturday and I have to sleep sitting up#BUT GUESS WHAT I DONT HAVE? BOOBS.
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god i miss parliamint GOD it was so much fun. best part of being a breath mint
#i got to be a part of running it for the coronation era and like#it made me feel so connected to everyone <3 i love how efficient we were#god. we tried to hard and we were so coordinated but the sim HAAAAATED us so we were eternally mid#its so funny#that first season of coronation where we were so good. that was si beautiful#oh i miss blaseball i am physically aching#quincy.txt
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almost forgot about this. made as soon as i finished reading day 48 and booted down my laptop . good god. not quite sure what happened with this. it was something to the effect of 'oh. god he really loved didn't he.' in full force AGAIN. the parts of banging on the door, doors in general, just carmen as a whole other thing, the yelling, the want to die to sink to be forgotten. yeah. that was a trip. carmen... i know you meant well with your words but he took it LITERALLY......
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#lobotomy corp spoilers#ayin lobcorp#I WAS. SO UPSET WHEN I WAS MAKING THIS is so sketchy and a mess but i wasnt able to clean it up because of just how upset i was#actual physical emotional pain in my body. couldnt. croid. LMAOO yeah#god just thinking back on it again..#he was the one to find her. her in the water. in the bath. in her own blood (?)#banged and yelled and called out her name knowing it was pointless#not wanting to open that door because he knew what was on the other side#yet yanking like a madman on the handle to try and force it open#calling out her name and the only audible response being the running water#desperation fear hurt hurt open the door god open the door please have it shut i dont want to see whats on the other side#and it opened. it opened. her eyes wont open again though. they wont#he was alone when doing this to righr??? right???? just him at a door probably forcing himself against it until his body aches until the#door opens. would his knuckles have burned? would his arms have ached? his throat started to feel as if it were falling apart?#for a man who was one to be stated of few words#to now yell at the door wanting so desperately for it to open yet stay forever shut to be blind to the result#it mustve. it mustve burned.#how long was it? how long did it feel like it was?#anyways yeah. uhm. haha..#I WANT TO MAKE A WHOLE POST JUST BEING A not quite analysis i dont think anything like this could be called analysis ON ALL THE As#aughhhhfhh i fell in love with him sorry. i really really like him. and. everyone else too. man i just love lobcorp
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