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I just think the show would have been better if they skipped the romance entirely. Why making the two main characters have romance? Show that a boy and a girl who's great friends don't need to end up together. If people still shipped them, it wouldn't be as big of a deal. Shipping is for fun after all.
And imagine them knowing eachother's identities from the start. No more will they won't they. Plus I could see Marinette helping Adrien with kagami. Like making the right outfit or even give advice on how to act. And ofcourse teasing him. Same with Adrien helping Marinette with Luka. But being more gentle and saying to just go for it. Go with the feeling. And still teasing.
(plus if the creators could, change the love interests. Yes I ship lukadrien and marigami)
I'm just saying. Then being great friends would be a lot better than what we actually got.
I personally love the concept of the love square and I'm a sucker for a cute romance, so I want it to be in the show. That being said, I still think you have a point. A romance plot is not a great fit for a formula show because good healthy romance* is all about letting the relationship develop and grow while formula shows are all about nothing ever changing.
That's a fundamental mismatch and there's really no way to work past it unless you do something like the Kim Possible route where the characters are just friends with no romantic undertones until things suddenly shift during a tie-in movie. Subtle romantic tension is also a thing, but a poor fit for Miraculous given its intended age group and the fact that subtle growing tension is usually used in formula shows that have somewhat formulaic plots, but allow for more serialized character development. For an example of that, think of basically any mainstream mystery series where every episode solves a crime while also developing the characters.
It's become pretty clear to me that the Kim Possible path is probably the only way that the love square could have worked in canon. Let them be close friends with a meaningful bond until it's time to let things shift and make dating the new status quo. Of course, that's much less dramatic than canon, but of course it is! Formula shows tend to be characterized by minimal drama because every episode stands alone, making overarching plots nearly impossible and you need solid overarching plots for drama to work.
*While it's not my preference, there's nothing wrong with enjoying unhealthy romance in fiction. However, I will die on the hill that unhealthy romance has no place in shows aimed at young children and that's what Miraculous is, so even thought my general stance is ship and let ship, that doesn't really apply here.
#jjboi12#this is not how you write a formula show#ml writing salt#ml writing critical#I swear I'm not a major Kim Possible fan it's just such an obvious match for Miraculous that it's hard to avoid comparing them
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Day 60
Wow we really made it 60 days huh?
Okay so iām not gonna yap long for this part. You saw the image, you see the read under. This is a small comic adaptation of @vanadisvalentineās āEverything Youāve Ever Dreamedā fanfic. And it adapts the end of Chapter 4 which is pretty fuckin pivotal in that story. So if you havenāt read that fic yet Iām actually begging you, please read it and donāt let this comic be your first experience.
Second warning, this is going to be a long one. How long? Who knows. I havenāt written it yet, but this Day represents one of the biggest turning points in the whole project for me.Ā
When you click the read under youāre gonna get just the comic, and then you're gonna get hit with a gigantic fucking wall of text. I apologize in advance for the amount of rambling Iām about to do but I got a lot to say here.
Okay so you read the comic, you ready? Cause not only am I gonna yap about making that comic along with all the behind the scenes stuff, (amidst other tangents), but Iām also going to talk about the fic this is based on. This is probably going to feel a bit disorganized but iāll try my best to keep this legible. Apologies in advance.
So your first thought is probably āJem why the fuck did you do that?ā and youāre correct for thinking that way. Rest assured, youāre going to ask that question again later but significantly louder and more exasperated in the future.Ā
Answer is simple though. I wanted to do something big for Number 60, cause every 10 images I wanna do something Big. For Number 50 I came out of retirement and wrote a fanfic and some art to go with it. So I wanted to go up. How do i go up? Well I am a comic artist, and making a webcomic is my general goal in life and what directs me forward. Sooo, why not a comic?
Okay but a comic of what? Well, why not a fanfic? And at the time the real answer was obvious.
There are Three Fanfics made for Junkan that are pivotal to this entire event. Without all three of them combined yaāll would not be having Junkan art pop up in your feed every day, questioning what the hell is in my bloodstream to make me draw all this. The answer is Junkan, junkan is in my bloodstream.
I plan to talk about all three of those fics in this event, in as much detail as I can muster. That said not only are we going in reverse order, as todays fic āEverything Youāve Ever Dreamedā is the last piece of the puzzle for why I went off the deep end and drew this much Junkan. But also the other two fics arenāt gonna be discussed for a long time due to their placement in the event order. Iām talking within the last ten days. Oops.
But at the time it was, pretty fucking easy to choose this one to adapt. The other two either wouldnāt really fit my style that I had been working with up to that point, or were just not made to be a comic without way more energy.
And as a reminder this was before I had actually gotten to know some of yaāll. Within the realm of Junkan Val was the only friend I had. I did have other people who liked DR and were on board with Junkan after I showed them my supply and stated my case, but Val was the only person I knew at the time who was as brainrotted for this ship as I am, granted I think she has like, a normal amount of brainrot. I think by the end of the project Iāve fully snapped and now I canāt stop thinking about these two, like I have actually tried to stop thinking about them but they keep popping up. What was I talking about- Right! Point is, you can consider Day 60, or as I would call it in casual conversation āThe 22 Page Junkan Comic,ā my most excessive thankyou to her for helping me stay motivated throughout the project and playing a massive part in its inspiration.
As for making the comic.
It was a very bold mix of āIām having the time of my lifeā and āHell,ā that's the shortest way I could put it. The longest way? Wellll
So by this point I wasnāt just showing these pics to Val alone. I had a few friends even before Val who I showed the art too. Iād get compliments and feedback and all that nice stuff that keeps me going.
As Iāve stated in the past (i think) one of the hardest parts of this project for me was the lack of validation for my efforts. I do not make art purely to be complimented, I make art in order to hopefully bring a smile to someones face. However I do still take a lot of joy when I see my art being positively received, it shows that my efforts were worth it. Seeing peoples reactions helps me remember why Iām doing this and that Iām doing a good job at it. So if IĀ donāt get a lot of that, especially on something i put a lot of effort into, it can be a little demoralizing. Itās something Iāve tried to work past during this year, but at the time it was a big issue. Day 60 took around 2 weeks to finish, as I was managing other projects and commission work at the time. The whole time I barely showed anyone, Val was obvious because this was a surprise gift for her, however the rest is because I was very adamant about not spoiling the Fic it was based on, and say for a single person amidst the people I would show these pics to none of them had read the fic. So I went from showing a small handful of people these to showing one guy (admittedly one of my best friends) for the span of 2 weeks while grinding away at the comic. It wasnāt until the very tail end that my girlfriend surprised me by reading the fic, meaning I could show her as well finally.Ā
Was it worth starving myself of a majority of positive feedback for 2 weeks when I havenāt had to do something like that for years? Oh god yes but weāre not there yet I still need to talk about the actual comic.
So when you compare the fic to the comic youāll notice I skipped a decent portion of this scene, this is mostly just for the sake of not making this take too long, I think I picked a pretty solid starting point but also I wonāt lie and say there isnāt a part of me that wishes I took like an extra week or two to adapt the whole scene sometimes. Sometimes.
Mukuro acted as the pseudo cover for the comic, both because it was a small detail noted in the scene that she was watching the door, and because I could call back to the āMukuro Notesā bit I did on the Vampire Junkan comic, which seemed like a cute call back. I also used this as a way to skip past some of the initial dialogue of the scene in terms of adaptation. Iām really happy with how this page turned out visually, I remember having to fiddle with Mukuroās anatomy and smaller details for awhile.
As you can probably tell, like usual the art for this was still being done as a sketch which I colored rather than what I do in my usual comic stuff, that being Sketch > Lines > Colors > Shading. I did shade a few of these pages cause I think the extra effort was warranted for some pages. I wouldnāt know this without like, actually time traveling to check but I think there was even a time this would be just uncolored sketches. Clearly that didnāt last because yeah, the chick whoās drawing 100 days worth of junkan art is going to make a 22 page comic and NOT color the whole thing, keep telling yourself that Jem.
Once again since I was directly adapting this fic like with Day 20, I tried to be semi accurate in what I assume Junkoās appearance would be, giving her the bunny and bow clips in her hair. I didnāt go all the way since honestly I think i would have gone a little crazy if I drew both characters in their actual Hopeās Peak uniforms for the whole thing, so I mostly stuck to their killing game designs with that small change to Junko. And yes, I did have to edit Junkoās hair to remove the bear clips multiple times throughout the first few pages because I kept forgetting not to draw them. For the first time having these two memorized was a hindrance.Ā
If youāve ever seen me draw a Question Mark with a cross instead of a dot when drawing Mikan, itās cause of this comic. Val said it was a cute detail so I decided to stick with it when applicable.
I think I have read the segment of the story this is based on like, 30 times bare minimum. Now some of those times were just because I often reread this fic to help me relax before sleeping, but the majority are because I kept looking at this scene over and over again so I could try and get every detail of this perfect. The posing, expressions, and other visuals, while a little rough around the edges were all possible after going over every paragraph to get the vibe as close as possible.
The dialogue is word for word, punctuation for punctuation ripped from the fic itself. Mildly difficult to pull off without having to extend certain pages, but in the end I managed to pull it off.
Page 7 is one of my favorite pages from the experience. Originally the visual was supposed to be Junko in literal chains of despair with Mikan coming in with a key to unlock them, however chains are agonizing to draw. Not drawing them was a form of self care, even if I think it would have been a bit of a stronger metaphor.Ā
Mikanās expressions were very difficult to get just right in this, which was half the fun. Do you know how fucking satisfying it was to draw her happy crying??? Very.
Page 10 is another one Iām really happy with. I donāt know exactly what the original plan was beyond the fact that I wanted the shot of Mikan reacting to that being a lot more visually extreme for the colors and amount of space it takes up to make it as overwhelming as possible. But I went in reverseĀ and made the initial heart stop moment of her realizing that Junko just said that more prominent than the rush of emotion hitting her right after.
There were going to be more visuals of Mikan being cute in the following page, however not only was I struggling for ideas but also my energy was fluctuating to hell and back by this point in the comic.
It took awhile to get the initial kiss to look good because by this point I was still really figuring out how the fuck to do that. I canāt remember if I mentioned it but the kiss in the Vampire Comic is one I actually edited after the fact before the post was scheduled because it looked really weird and pissed me off. Luckily this one doesnāt bother me at all. I remember being super paranoid i made the posing look too sexual, I donāt know what the fuck past me was on about but Iām not here to question Iām here to curse you all with knowledge and funfacts.
On page 15 Junkoās blush and smile are a bit more intense compared to the other panels on this page while she wipes away Mikanās tears. This is because in future stories by Val it is confirmed a few times that Junko has dacryphilia, meaning she thinks Mikan looks really hot when sheās crying. Yes Iām really working in details from other fics into this comic, you should not be surprised this isnāt even the weirdest thing iāve put in this whole event.
Peak comedy that I mentioned the question mark with the cross dot earlier and on Page 16 I didnāt do that, immersion broken, back to square one Past Jem!
Junko with no contacts!!! I mentioned during one of the Vampire AU days that while I donāt feature it in that AU alone I like the idea of Junkoās real eye color being red. Something I can never remember whether itās actually canon or just strongly implied. I think this is the page I put the most amount of effort into, both to make it look well lit, and also to make sure her god damn eyes look as pretty as humanly possible. The end result may or may not be my favorite page of the whole comic? I dunno
I said Mikanās expressions were hard to draw for this since I wanted to get them just right, she requires a lot more work on the smaller details to make everything feel right. Junko however? Oh no I was thriving by this point, her more lowkey expressions do need a bit more thought and effort, but by this point in the comic I was in my element with her.Ā
But speaking of expressions, Page 19.
That smile on Mikan in the middle panel took 20 fuckinā minutes because I had never drawn Mikan looking that happy and I had no fucking idea what I was doing. I did actually edit the page last night (as of the writing of this post), however it wasnāt for the expression. In the original version of the page, Junko looked really fuckin weird in the last panel, like I donāt know how I let that slide but her whole face and neck looked way off. These pages arenāt like, perfect quality but that one was just egregious. Also edited Mikanās blush in that panel just cause I was already there.
Junkoās surprised face was very fun.
And I think if I were gonna ever redo any page in full for this comic itād be the last one. I donāt think this one looks bad I just know that I could I could do way better nowadays even if I stuck to just coloring a sketch. Maybe sometime down the line.
And thatās the comic itself! I canāt think of any other fun facts or thoughts on the art itself at this point. Uhhhh, I guess the cover I made last minute for this post is technically a reference to a future day? What does that mean? Oh youāll fuckinā see.
So 2 weeks of effort with little feedback and rereading the same scene over and over again, was it worth it?
God yes it was.
When I sent Val the Google Drive folder with the comic I was jittery for hours as if I had too much coffee. I was nervous as shit over whether she would like it or not, since this was when I still was a perpetual nervous wreck with very little self respect who was viewing her as āCoolest Person Everā rather than āThatās bestie.ā I was also nervous because it was the first time I actually asked for a more detailed response rather than just letting her respond in whatever way she wanted.
But when she responded?
I have lived the past several years doing weed, Iāve recently quit (i think by the time this posts itāll be close to 3 months since I went clean), but thatās besides the point. Iāve had mild highs, crazy highs, bad highs, good highs, sad highs, and highs where I donāt feel anything.Ā
I severely doubt that any drug or vice on this planet will ever match the feeling of reading that response. I was shaking, I bit my knuckles until it left indents for like a full hour minimum, an adrenaline rush doesnāt even begin to describe what I was experiencing. I rode out the happiness from this moment for an entire week, I worked on comm jobs that would normally leave me feeling aggravated as hell and did so with a smile because I was just that fuckin excited over it. This probably sounds embarrassing as shit but there have been times where I go back to read that response when I just need a pick me up.
I had a fuckin epiphany at that moment. Who fuckin cares?
24 fucking years (25 starting tomorrow) Iāve lived my life as a people pleaser perfectionist with extreme paranoia problems with absolutely no self esteem and a whole wealth of other mental health issues. I would feel like dogshit if I halfassed a comm even if it was a really bad one. My whole goal in life was to make a webcomic that would make EVERYONE happy, be a positive part of their week. I was paranoid about pissing off the wrong people, starting shit, how people perceive me, about what ideas for my comic would be problematic or not. But after this? Who gives a shit?
It aināt about making People Happy itās about making Yourself Happy and the People you can reach happy. My goal is still to make a webcomic that people will come across, and look forward to every week as an escape to give them some positive vibes every week, but I aināt gonna do that if Iām desperately trying to appeal to every single person on the planet while trying to stay as uncontroversial as possible. I wanna make art that makes people happy, and if I make it the way I wanna make it then it will eventually reach the people that it can make happy.
But enough of that shit, the actual big thing that happened because of my complete reassessment of my personal values and entire goal for life is that I fucking finally stopped giving a shit about whether people were gonna throw me in a woodchipper because I shipped Junkan. And it will continue to get funnier and funnier that after all the time I spent scared out of my fuckinā mind over what people would think, that absolutely fucking nothing happened. It is day 49 at the time of writing this and STILL I have not had anyone give me grief or issues over this whole project, nothing but support and even some new friends over it. You cannot write something funnier than that.
I think if I went back in time and told myself at the beginning of the year that her fears were completely unfounded she would bleed out the eyes and pass out, and I would laugh. Iād laugh so fuckinā hard.
So yeah, this Comic and the reaction it elicited changed my entire perspective on life and being an artist, I canāt say Itās been perfect or that I havenāt faltered on certain things, butĀ I think to an extent I have been a lot happier as a result. Is it a little weird that this niche version of a niche ship is now directly tied to a drastic change in my mind? Is it any weirder than the fact that I transitioned into a woman because I binge read like, all of the Tokomaru I possibly could on AO3 and it made me think that wearing a skirt might be cool?
Alright so howāre ya'll holdin up? Drink some water we aināt done. This is already getting up to 7 pages on the google doc that I prepare these posts on and now I have to like, talk about Everything Youāve Ever Dreamed properly. So bare witness to me trying to figure out how the hell to format talking about what might just be my favorite fic of all time.
But first lemme go reread the entire thing, I know the passage of time doesnāt exist in the context of these text walls but iāll be back in like, a few hours to a day.
Okay iām back-
Iām honestly not sure where to start here. Normally with my biggest obsessions I could probably go on lengthy rambles about why I love them so much, but this? I struggle to find a proper place to start, or even how to format this. I donāt want to just give a beat for beat plot synopsis while talking about the things I like, but also how do I talk about something this good otherwise.
So fair warning this might be completely incoherent at points, sorry??
This was not like, the third Junkan fic I ever read despite it being one of the three fics vital to me becoming the inhuman machine of pure Junkan brainrot that Iāve become today. A lot of things are blurred but if I remember right the exact timeline of events was Read a cute Junkan fic which made me think āWait this ship can be soft and cute???ā and then I read Smile by Kayleen, which is funny in hindsight because I really went to tooth rotting fluff to one of the darkest Non-Abusive Junkan fics out there (dark by my standards at least and I think my frame of reference is out of sorts). I think after that I just stopped for awhile, partially because Smile wasnāt finished at the time, partially because I still wasnāt sure how to navigate the Junkan tag to find what I was looking for in the ship.
Smile comes to a thrilling conclusion and I think to myself āmaybe this author has more?ā which is how I found Kayleenās series of One-Shots for these two (along with separate three other pieces), I read through those in a day and would continue to check the tag to see if it updated, like, every day.Ā Eventually after a couple months (possibly way longer), something came over me and I finally started seriously looking over the tag to try and find more Soft Junkan, whether there were others I read before it or not, I honestly canāt remember.Ā
What I do remember is I came across āThe Marvelous Makeover of Mikan Tsumikiā by VanadisValentine. I donāt know how I found that before the fic of todayās subject, if I had to guess I wasnāt reading the tags first on this run through. I was likely reading the name of the fic, and THEN i read the tags to see if it has what I was looking for (I wasnāt a starving animal for the ship by this point so I was a lot more picky with what I was willing to risk my time on). And this ficās name was slightly more eye catching for me at the time I guess??
Fun fact when I first read this fic I wasnāt even sure if it actually was a shipping piece at first, not until finishing it at least. How? Poor reading comprehension is my only guess lol. Anyway, I finish that, loved it, and made my usual move of checking to see if the author had written anything else like this fic, and oh boy did she.Ā
This finally brings us to me finally reading āEverything Youāve Ever Dreamed.ā Took us fucking long enough.
It was perfect, it was everything. I fucking loved reading it the entire time. It had everything I could have wanted out of this ship without me even realizing what I wanted at the time. The weirdest part that my immediate response after wasnāt to go on an adrenaline fueled binge of the tag like I did for Tokomaru way back when I first got into Danganronpa. The most I did was read the other Junkan fics in Valās library at the time. Otherwise I just stopped again.Ā
It was then that I drew the first three days of this event, the original sketches. I kept them a secret between myself and a small few friends, too paranoid to let anyone find out. And things just kinda stayed like that, for awhile. And then sometime in December, of last year I decided to give that same fic another read, and something just kinda, fucking snapped?
I went up and down the Junkan Tag on AO3, reading whatever I could, I was reading stuff I wouldnāt have ever risked reading with variable amounts of success. I only skipped a small handful of fics, including one that weāll come back to way later in the project. Everything else I was scraping even the smallest crumb of fic to read at times. After that I scoured the tumblr tags, taking in whatever soft art or headcanons that I could, I went to Fanfiction.net, a website I still barely know how to fuckinā navigate to try and find ANYTHING. I went to Deviantart to try and find any art or fics, no results not helped by the fact that it would include results that were slightly related. And not to sound like a Youtuber with no personality whoās built their career on punching down at whoever they can because otherwise their audience would see theyāre a complete shell of a human being, but it being deviantart you can imagine what I was finding more often on that search.Ā
I even went to Wattpad, and that ones itās own mini story that Iām saving for Tomorrow because the art for Tomorrow doesnāt have a lot of talking points on itās own like this one does. But Wattpad had no fuckin results either.
I cannot remember the last time I had ever been this obsessed with a ship, this desperate. So, 100 Days of Junkan began, even if it wasnāt planned to be this big project. All cause of this fic turning a switch in my brain with a hammer.
Hey look weāre talking about the fic again, I told you this was gonna incoherent.
Anyway so the fic is just, perfect? To me at least? Before I had even realized why I liked the ship in the first place it did everything that I love about it at itās core. It practically set the standard for the ship in my brain, at bare minimum within the context of a Non-Despair AU. And overtime as Valās continued to write for these two her portrayals of the character are practically just how I view them at this point.
Itās not 1 to 1 but you can likely trace every aspect of how I portray Junko and Mikan whether through art or writing back to Valās writing, down to even using certain pet names for the characters because of their usage in her work. Iād worry that Iām being way too much, heaping an overbearing amount of praise and respect. But also this fic unintentionally sent me careening into the direction of drawing 150+ Junkan pictures, learning various new skills and techniques as an artist, rekindled my love of writing (despite the horrors of actually having to write), making new friends both in and out of this community including some who I consider close, coping with mental health issues, and then performing this gigantic project at the tail end of the year. So I might actually be underselling this a bit in actuality. And donāt worry when I get to talking about a few other fics later in the project Iāll be doing my best to give equal praise to them as well, itās just gonna be a bit sdlahfljasdfhas.
Iāve already said it but the fic has everything, at least of the core reasons I love this ship from the non-abusive perspective that this blog has built its foundation on.
To me I love Junkan because itās two people that could not be anymore different from one another, who arguably should despise one another finding happiness in each other. It adds a new layer of depth to Junko to ponder how someone like her, whether in canon or in a non-despair AU like this could fall in genuine love with a total wreck like Mikan and how that would affect her character. Itās fluffy moments of Mikan getting to be genuinely happy for what might be the first time in her life while Junko showers her with affection. Itās Junko being fucking hilarious while Mikan can barely keep up with her humor and teasing because sheās so flustered. Itās Junko grappling with newfound emotions. Itās Junko and Mikan bringing out the best in each other and inciting positive change through their influence. Itās that perfect blend of hurt/comfort. And so much more beyond that, all contained in this one god damn fic. I might even be forgetting things I like about the ship too, thereās just so much that goes into this!
Obviously this is all specifically in a Non-Despair context, the Evil Girlfriends angle has a myriad of other reasons to enjoy the ship which Iāve become fond of. Especially in some of the parallels it can have with a non-Toxic Yuri angle of things. But that doesnāt really apply for todayās subject and Iām not someone whoās deeply knowledgeable or equipped to sing its praises at the moment. Maybe in the future though?
Is there anything else I can yammer on about with this fic? Uhhhh- Oh. I love how it uses the supporting cast. I think Val has a really excellent grasp on how to write Mukuro and Junkoās dynamic without dipping into the territory of DR3 where it just gets a bit uncomfortable. I think thatās better exemplified in one of her other fics rather than this story, but I still do love Mukuroās portrayal and role in the story. This was my first time learning who Yasuke was, I hadnāt properly heard of Danganronpa Zero by this point so I was really confused as to who the hell he was. Certainly left a strong impression in the story though. I think Kaedeās sudden appearance and role in the plot progressing towards the stunning climax of Chapter 4 was really good!Ā
I very often go back to Chapter 1, 4, and 5 whenever I need to go to relax before bed. Iāve reread this fic multiple times as a whole but an absolute fuck ton of times as separated pieces, theyāre so god damn soothing on my mind.Ā
The fact that I havenāt left giant fuckinā comments on any chapter of that fic is quite frankly one of my deepest sins, but one of these days Iām gonna buckle down and write up on those because they deserve every ounce of praise in my scrawny lil whitegirl body.Ā
I think Iāve said everything I can for now but even now I feel like I havenāt gotten across how much I love this fic. It genuinely is my favorite fanfiction out there both just for the quality of itās writing and the comically massive influence it had on my life this year. If you somehow havenāt read it by now, please do, if you like the art Iāve drawn of this ship over the past 60 days I can almost 100% guarantee that youāll like this story. And read the rest of Valās fics too! Please!Ā
As always, Reblogs, Comments, and Little Notes in the Tags are appreciated!~ They always make my day!~
#danganronpa#junkan#junko enoshima#mikan tsumiki#enomiki#junkomikan#junko x mikan#enoshima junko#tsumiki mikan#shipping
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Hi it's me again. TMA/POKĆMON AU??? YES HELLO PARDON ME I NEED TO THROW MYSELF AT THIS OCCULUS AU YOU'VE GOT GOING ON IF YOU DONT MIND
*BUSTS DOWN THE DOOR* IāM SO GLAD YOU ASKED
Iāve had this AU simmering away for a while and but havenāt posted that much about it, so thank you for the excuse to scream about my extremely self indulgent PokĆ©mon x The Magnus Archives AU
*ahem*
Introducing:
POKĆMON OCULUS
(Hereās an illustration I did after getting your ask - Champion Jonathan and his ace PokĆ©mon, Vigitera!)
This AU is set in the Ervenis Region, a relatively small island region off the coast of Galar. It closed its borders two years prior to the main storyline, shortly after its Champion went missing during a series of attacks in its major cities and his predecessor was found murdered. Since then, an acting Champion has been instated and the borders have been reopened, but the Champion still has not been found. Most Ervenisans believe he is dead.
However, the Ervenis Champion isnāt as dead as everyone thinks, and his disappearance is only the first in long chain of events that will shake Ervenis to its very core, orchestrated by a man who aims to rule over a ruined world governed by nothing but his own will and the fear of people and PokĆ©mon alike, and who will stop at nothing to bring that goal into reality.
More lore under the cut!
(Some of the AU-specific names and terms might be placeholders in that I havenāt been able to come up with anything better lmao)
(Also some of the art might be a bit old)
General Lore Stuff
Jon is the Champion who went missing, and Gertrude is his murdered predecessor.
Martin is Ervenisā PokĆ©mon Professor
Martin being the Professor is literally perfect.
Be. Because.
All of the Pokemon Professors (except for the newest ones) are named after trees.
And Martinās last name is BLACKWOOD. Which is an ACTUAL TREE.
(My first rough attempt at drawing Jmart in the PokƩmon art style)
Also jmart are extremely married
Theyāre Ervenisā favorite power couple
(Professor Blackwood for half of the main plot: *sighs.* ā¦I miss my husband. I miss him a lot. Iāll be back.)
Their PokƩmon ship name would be Londonfogshipping
Martin has a Galvantula (most likely a regional form), a Sinistea, a Frosslass, and a Togekiss
Jon, in addition to AU-specific Fakemon, has a Gardevoir and a Luxray
Jon also has a shiny Appletun on his team and Martin has a Flapple. Make of that what you will :D
Also yes there are Fakemon in this thing
I have never designed any Fakemon before except for one thirty-minute period of time from when I was ten but Iām not going to let that stop me
(Initial Fakemon sketches! Three guesses as to which characters get Sqwyrm and Manickregus and the first two donāt count)
(Also Ervenisan Yamask has another form, which evolves into Ervenisan Cofagrigus which is inspired by the Do Not Open coffin)
(I have a whole list of Fakemon designs I want to make but 90% of them arenāt fleshed out at all)
Tim and Sasha are Professors in their own right, and also Martinās assistants/fellow researchers
Tim has a Houndoom because I saw another TMA PokƩmon AU that gave him one and I really liked the idea, he also has a Ludicolo because I lost a debate with my friend who is also into both TMA and PokƩmon
Sasha has a Dartrix and a Meowstic
Most of the Avatars are gym leaders
(Yippee gym leader designs!)
(Not pictured because I ran out of steam before I could draw them: Michael and Helen, who run a double Electric-type gym; Daisy, who runs a Dragon-type gym; Karolina, who runs a Ground-type gym; and Jared, who runs a Normal-type gym)
Elias is the acting Champion in Jonās absence and the secret leader of Team Chrysalis
The current Elite Four consists of Peter, Simon, Maxwell, and Annabelle
You might have noticed that Jon and the gym leaders are all wearing (mostly) black pendants/brooches
This is part of the Ervenisā regionās āgimmick:ā
Metafestation (which is. Almost definitely a placeholder name)
Skilled trainers can use special items called Metalenses to tap into the psyches of Pokemon and Trainer to manifest the shape of their desires and the power of their emotions in reality.
You basically give the PokƩmon a JoJo Stand
Each Metalens must be specially shaped and cut to suit unique trainers and PokƩmon, and since using poorly made Metalenses may have disastrous consequences on its users, only a handful of people have the qualifications and legal authorization to do so
(Gerard Keay is one of these people!)
Metalenses are usually worn as pendants or brooches so theyāre close to the userās heart
For the Metafestation power-up to be strongest, the trainer and PokƩmon must have a shared goal/desire and a deep bond
(This bond does not have to be a positive one. It just needs to be strong.)
These Metafestations have their own typing system, though no oneās been able to figure out exactly what it is yet.
Itās the Fears. The Fears are the typing system.
Though most users of this system arenāt aware of it, Metafestation comes from achieving a delicate balance of both desire and fear.
When I first came up with this idea, it was JUST Fear, but I felt like that was a bit dark for frickin POKĆMON so I added the desire aspect
After all, what we fear and and what we desire often go hand in hand
You desire safety because you fear its absence, you desire light because you fear the dark, you desire freedom because you fear being confined, etc.
For example, Professor Blackwood desires companionship, and fears being forgotten. Most of the Metafestations he and his PokƩmon create are foggy and cold, but in a way soothing at the same time.
Though a small handful of them are spindly and laced with puppet strings and reflect his desire to wield his cunning for good.
(However, he hasnāt been able to properly use his Metalens in years. The first and only time he tried after his husband vanished, it backfired horribly, consuming both him and his PokĆ©mon in a chilling fog and sending them spiraling into unconsciousness. It took weeks for them to recover, and Professor Blackwood bears a physical scar of the incident in the streaks of stark white in his hair.)
Of course, most people donāt have just one desire/fear. The Metalens just channels the strongest ones, and most users donāt achieve more than three separate tertiary types of power-ups.
One of the biggest exceptions is Jon.
He desires many things: Safety, love, knowledge. He also fears many things: Being manipulated and controlled, abandonment, the unknown.
When he was a child, something happened to him that scarred his psyche in such a way that he could channel all of his desires and fears.
Itās what makes him such a potent conduit for the power-up system, and what makes him a prime target for:
Team Chrysalis
Team Chrysalis is a criminal organization/sort of cult disguised as something innocent: The Magnus Institute, the regionās main research institution that Professor Blackwood works at
The AUās main plot gets kicked off when Professor Blackwood finds evidence that his husband, the missing Champion, is still alive
If this were a real game, the main story on the side of doing the gym challenge would be helping Professor Blackwood look for clues about Jonās whereabouts and about The Magnus Instituteās hidden goals
Professor Blackwood also figures out that itās very likely that Elias had a hand in Jonās disappearance
(Professor Blackwood for the other half of the main plot: *slams down the Do Not Open coffin in front of Elias* Itās a coffin. Thereās a name engraved on it. āWHORE!ā ITāS EMPTY!! *grabs Elias by the collar* AND YOUāRE GOING IN IT!!!)
The Elite Four are also part of Team Chrysalis and fully on board with its plan
Though Annabelle might have her own machinations going on
Team Chrysalis plans to reshape the world as they see fit by summoning a Legendary PokĆ©mon thatās a warped physical manifestation of the fears and desires of all living creatures, and simultaneously embodies and feeds on those fears and desires
(Itās basically all the Fears mashed into one eldritch monstrosity)
(Iām mildly worried this sounds too similar to some existing legendaries but at the same time Iām just spitballing and having fun here)
To summon this Legendary, they need a lynchpin capable of channeling all of those fears and desires
This lynchpin is Jon because of course it is.
Team Chrysalisā whole plan actually only serves to grant Elias immortality and make him king of a ruined world but shhh none of the team members know that
I have zero idea what the Legendary would look like, I just have the fact I want it to have āPanā in its name
The climax of the story comes when Team Chrysalis starts their ritual and the end of the world. In order to stop them, their Vessel and the Legendary must be defeated.
You are challenged by The Archivist!
The Really Self Indulgent Part
I started working on this at the same time that my friend was watching through XY for the first time
So at some point when coming up with all of the story stuff my brain went āwhat if I stuck Ash Ketchum into the story?ā
So Ash is there now. For some reason lol
Heās 19 now and is just doing his thing and traveling the world
As usual, he takes on the playerās role, challenging gyms and helping Professor Blackwood in his investigation and eventually helping him take on Team Chrysalis
(I made this shitpost in like. Less than an hour lmao)
Ash is so done with these evil team leaders trying to destroy the world
Greninja is also there because tHIS IS MY AU AND I DO WHAT I WANT *MANIACAL LAUGHTER*
And I think thatās it for an overview of PokĆ©mon Oculus!
I have a bunch more stuff for this AU, mostly spitballs and WIP writing snippets, and I do plan on making more art and Fakemon designs eventually (especially now that Iām getting better at emulating the PokĆ©mon art style)
Thank you for reading this far, and feel free to ask me anything about this AU! :D
#pokemon oculus au#pokemon#the magnus archives#anipoke#tma#tma fanart#pokemon fanart#pokemon au#tma au#jonathan sims#martin blackwood#ash ketchum#my art#rambles#asks
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Wicked
~ a Wicked scholar's thoughts on the movie
Okay. I had detached myself from any feelings about the movie truly years ago, and so I walked into the movie theatre with really low expectations.
My overall opinion: it was not a bad adaptation. I'd expected to give it 3/10, it turned out as a solid 6.5/10.
Here are just a few things that stuck out to me:
The landscapes - didn't hate them but didn't like them.
The costumes - amazing. Pretty much every outfit slayed. I feel like they could have been even a bit more extravagant, but they were great as they were. - As for Elphaba, I think my favorite outfit was the first Shiz dress and the post-Popular outfit. - Glinda's bubble dress was exquisite, and I really liked her Emerald City ensemble, although I do miss the yellow dress, I feel like it doesn't get enough love
I liked Ariana's G(a)linda surprisingly a lot. Maybe it's because I know she's a huge Wicked fan, but I felt like her love for the source material really showed.
I wasn't really sold on Cynthia. Don't get me wrong, she has a truly fabulous voice, and she absolutely did shine in the big, loud parts - but overall, I wasn't a fan of her versions of the songs. She looked and acted great, though.
Michelle Yeoh, the woman you are. Fantastic casting, no notes.
Jonathan. Oh, dear, Johnathan Bailey. Looks? Hot. Vocals? Gorgeous. Vibes? Flawless. I wish he'd played the role a decade ago, because he does look forty and not college-age, but I think everything else about him truly makes up for it.
Speaking of - I liked that Fiyero got just a few tiny little additional scenes/lines, really helped to flesh out his character more.
Grammar-nazi Elphaba, my beloved.
Listen, I have shipped Fiyero and Elphaba since I was 14. And I'm not going to stop now. I stan them, I loved their chemistry in the movie, I will ship them until the day I die.
The direction on G(a)linda/Elphaba - hella gay. But I didn't quite feel their chemistry, neither friendly nor romantic. It was okay, but didn't blow me away.
IDINA AND KRISTEN???? love love love love my og queens
The movie dragged on. A lot. This is my only really big criticism, unfortunately it's a really important one. I think they could easily have made the whole musical into one 3h long movie, and it would have been much better for the pacing. - there weren't even that many added scenes; and a lot of the additions were pretty good, actually - some were totally unnecessary though. like the guards chasing Elphaba and Glinda and the whole balloon shenanigans? - similarly, many scenes were just unnecessarily stretched out; with the camera staying too long in one place or one moment being dragged out way too long - some of the songs just had slightly longer (like 2 bars?) breakes between the choruses added for no reason
Defying Gravity. This is the same thing as one of the previous comments, but I feel like it deserves its separate mention. The pacing in that scene (or, here, more like a collection of scenes) was extremely off, the song losing all of its momentum by being chopped up into pieces. And the way they made us wait for the iconic vocalization at the end; I honestly thought I'd die of boredom.
Sometimes I felt like the movie couldn't decide if it wanted to be more stage-y and theatrical, and lean into the whole campy vibe, or more cinematic and "naturally" acted; and sometimes it switched weirdly between the two.
There was one single thing that looked way better onscreen than onstage. The Lion cub. In the movie, he looked extremely cute, tiny little adorable darling baby kitten. Way better than the creepy-ass puppet they use in the show.
There were many more tasty little details that I simply couldn't remember/write down, or else I wouldn't have been able to pay any attention to the movie. Once it's available, maybe I'll rewatch and dissect it in more detail (I should also finally watch the 1939 Wizard of Oz, it's a CRIME that I still haven't! I'm sure people who know it well could also see many references in the new Wicked - even I noticed the ruby slippers in Popular, for example!).
Summing up this unnecessarily long rant:
It was not a bad adaptation; although I doubt it will make many people into Wicked fans. At the end of the day, it's clearly a story made for the stage, and even though it was transferred to the big screen fairly well, I think it still belongs in the regular theatre, not the movie one.
#broadway#musical theatre#musicals#wicked#wicked the musical#wicked the movie#wicked 2024#stephen schwartz#jon chu#cynthia erivo#ariana grande#johnathan bailey#michelle yeoh#jeff goldblum#wizard of oz#thoughts on wicked
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Demonic Catch (Jinbe x f!teen!reader)
A/N HI OMG HOW LONG HAS IT BEEN GUYS , listen writers block got me bad, I thank God for @hannahbarberra162 š helped me with this fiv and pulled me out of this block (hopefully) she is an amazing writer and her pieces brought me inspiration so go check her out. Right now šŖ
Reader here is replaced by Dokucha which stands for reader in japanese
Dividers by @/drinkthesky and @/fireflygraphics
āMan, that last island had nothing to eat,ā the girl muttered, looking through her latest gains as she leisurely flew along.
āThey did have pretty things, at least,ā she grinned, pulling out jewelry from the bag.Ā
āHmm?ā the teen paused, her sights set on a traveling vessel below her.
āThis one looks like it could have a lot of things, But Iām already tired from the last raid,ā she huffed out.
āI could use some foodā¦ā she mulled out, thinking over her options. However, this was halted as she felt something wrap around her body and Suddenly, the decision to board the ship was made for her, and the last thing to reach her ears was a feminine but shrill scream.
āYou idiot, thatās not a bird!ā
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āUgh, My head is fucking killing me; what the hell happenedā Dokucha muttered, lifting herself up from what appeared to be a small hospital bed.
āAh! Youāre awake! How are you feeling?ā A squeaky voice piped in
Dokucha glanced at the owner of the voice, blinking owlishly at the small creature.
āA mink?ā
āIām a reindeer!ā
āOh...er, my head feels like a boulder smashed it; what happened, and who the hell are you?ā she dazedly answered.
āIām Chopper! Iām a doctor! Our captain thought you were a bird and tried reeling you in, and it caused you to crash against our ship.ā
His words sank in and pulled her out of her previous stupor as she jumped off the bed, pulling off the IV that the Doctor had put in her.
āAh, You shouldnāt move yet! You had a head injury, so you should be on bed rest!ā he exclaimed immediately.
She ignored his pleas as she tumbled her way outside the infirmary into what appeared to be the shipās dining room. Two men came into her field of view, mirroring her surprised expression.
The blond one was the first one to react to her sudden entrance.
āLittle Miss, I think you should listen to the Doc; you shouldnāt be running around in that state,ā he called warily, approaching the girl.
āTch,ā she sidestepped the men and made a quick dash out of the dining room, covering her eyes at the sudden introduction of light as she made her way into the shipās deck and all its sights. However, she did not have time to take it in as the voices of the men she left behind called after her, prompting her to keep running, which took her into her current situation.
It turned out that past the green deck of the ship was the menās quarters, and below it the shipās storage room. She took to hiding in a corner, pulling her legs close to her chest as she tried to make herself as small as she could and take in her current situation.
āHow the hell am I going to get out of here... My wing got injured in the crash, so flying is out of the question. I can try swimming, but I donāt know how far I am from the coast. My only option is finding their lifeboat.ā she muttered, taking a look at her bandaged wings, anger and fear filling her.
āThose bastards probably patched me up so I could be kept as a hostage,ā she growled.
āI wonāt let them,ā she stated, determined as she stood up slowly, taking hold of an axe from the array of weapons stored in the room.
āI would be careful with that,ā A deep voice rumbled behind her as she scrambled into a corner, once again holding the axe in front of her.
āDonāt come any closer, you asshole!ā
The Fishman hummed, a frown on his face as he took in her words.
Eventually, he sighed, and much to the teenās surprise, he plopped himself down, crossing his arms and closing his eyes as he sat in front of her.
āW-What are you doing?ā she gasped out.
āI am simply sitting down.ā
She stared at him incredulously, not lowering the weapon in her arms.
āYou are Dokucha, are you not?ā
āHow do you know that?ā
āI have seen your wanted posters.ā
āSo I was right. You just want me alive so you can cash me in.ā She sneered
āNo. Neither me nor my crew have any wish to do that.ā
āAs if I would believe that, why else would you help me?ā
āI can understand your weariness of us after being hunted down for so long but you have my word that we have no ulterior motive for tending to your wounds, Chopper is a Doctor at heart and would never leave someone injured If he could help it.ā
She stared at him a while longer, slowly lowering the axe but not releasing the tight grip on it
The two sat there for a while, no words being exchanged between the two as the tension on the young girl slowly ebbed away
āWill you allow my friend to treat your injuries?ā he spoke up after a while, and to your surprise, you agreed.
Hereās to hoping this is the end of the writerās block
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#jinbei#first son of the sea jinbe#one piece jinbe#jimbei#straw hats x reader#strawhats#chopper x reader#op chopper#one piece chopper#tony tony chopper#with: chopper#one piece strawhats#one piece#op jinbe#jinbe x reader#jinbe
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On autonomy, and what it means to be Obliged to Help.
Bonus:
#a homestuck walks into an antechamber and asks#hey is anybody going to make this dynamic wholly deterministic and thus dubiously consensual by its very nature#ANYWAY bigger ramble below. scroll down like usual#isat spoilers#isat#isat fanart#isat siffrin#isat loop#sifloop#THATS RIGHT WE'RE STILL SHIP TAGGING IT BABYYYY#in stars and time#in stars and time fanart#lucabyteart#RAMBLE START: anyway i think loop is wrong here. they have it backwards. as-- in my opinion--#the main reason they could be called back into existence postcanon is because *their* wish for help is still not complete#they still need help. siffrin still needs help. neither of them will ever stop needing help.#they will thus uphold the wish until the end of siffrin's natural lifespan.#that said. what does it mean that loop can be so wholly forced to abide by siffrin's wants?#(assuming the dagger cutscene posession is them being forced to uphold the 'help siffrin' wish via harsh universe logic)#[as opposed to something capricious and cruel the change god did. which feels out of character for the change god to me?]#much like how the island wish and duplicate objects are neutered by simply sliding off people's brains...#is loop subtly ushered toward their wish? obviously it's not a full override (see: the bossfight). but is there any interference?#and if so. so what? does it matter? if they don't notice? is it even real if they don't notice?#and even if they do notice. the universe leads we follow. how much do either of them value their free will in a belief system like that?#the whole game is dedicated to siffrin habitually NOT excersizing his free will. doing things the same Every Time.#Loop ESPECIALLY does this. predetermined predetermined predetermined even in the FACE OF CHANGE. REFUSING. ANY CHOICE.#Maybe they'd even be comforted by having a universe-ordained purpose even if it is subservient. even if its to Him.#(though. i can't see siffrin enjoying the idea that someone is subservient TO them... then all their suffering is his fault...)#loop got into this mess via WANTING too much. no more free will. can't be trusted with it. take it away from them.#but yeah. gets my greasy detective pony hands all over this. and everyone please do remember i like to make characters Outright Wrong A Lot
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i think the thing i'm most disappointed about with riordanverse fandom now versus like 2014 is not only has the fandom not gotten any less racist or queerphobic or ableist (in fact in some regards its gotten worse!) but now it's just boring too. like there's no fandom infrastructure anymore - the community these days is almost entirely source material-driven - and you deviate from canon even slightly people get weird about it. whatever happened to the post-HoO fanon boom. the fandom needs to get weirder again. and self-sufficient. and less offensive.
#pjo#riordanverse#deep and weary sigh. we need to bring back the lower ecosystem rings of fandom#prop up some good ol' community spaces especially since a lot of old ones have totally petered out#< mostly referring to stuff like ye olde ship headcanons blogs#heck even doing a quick search for ''pjo headcanons'' the most recent blog was last active in 2017 and the other two in 2013#there's an rp community floating around but im keeping tabs on the riordanverse askblog community and its a bit dire#there's been like what - *one?* maybe two major fandom aus that have floated around recently?#one moreso being one person's au that most people dont actually do much with#and the other more being like a half-hearted general concept that got kicked around for a couple of weeks#i am legitimately tempted to just go wild and start planning out and setting up like a hub for trying to revitalize the community#like the community EXISTS. it's THERE. it ebbs and flows! but now it only really does much when there's new official content#and it rarely exists outside of that#and given we are technically in a fandom boom right now with the show now is like. the perfect opportunity to set up fandom infrastructure#so that new fans have a place to go and integrate with the community and start pumping new life back into things#also i think the fandom becoming more self-sufficient could help with the offensive part since Rick sure isnt helping
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guys is this a safe space. can i admit that i do not like how caitvi panned out.
#like! i like the ship i think its got a lot going for it and i did really truly root for them from the start#but uh. my god.#vi as a character being made redundant outside cait her entire conflict w her sister set aside#the whole conflict in class just shrugged off when cait was pulling a mussolini this whole season#(goes into my wider criticism on how zaun was treated throughout s2 but nevertheless)#THE DIRT UNDER THE NAILS LINE.#and thats not even going into everything w jinx and vander#idk. idk. more thoughts to potentially follow it just felt soā¦ shallow to me#esp given how layered and nuanced their s1 dynamic was this felt like a huge letdown#canon but at what cost (jinx)#and when i think of the cost (jinx) my neutral dislike of how caitvi were handled turns to rage#lettos says#arcane#arcane spoilers
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I've been... Busy š
Trying to get all 4 arcs from season 1 into books!
(not available for sale, these are print proofs. I'm planning a Kickstarter early next year!)
#this is why i havent been posting much#ive been so busy between making episodes and doing Kickstarter prep#theres been a lot more for Kickstarter prep than i had anticipated#i mean. not really.#i knew it was gonna be a lot#but it's takin longer than i thought#cause i always forget how little time i have outside of making comic updates#I'm also thinking $25 a book#and then itd be $30-60 to ship them#so. if youre reading these tags its not an official announcement#but i want to give people ample warning#cause i know $150 is a lot to save up#also for legal reasons#i can not print all the books at once...#i have to go one at a time??#so I'm planning on making it like.. a box every few months#idk#I'm trying to think of thinfs that make it more worthwhile to do it that way#i want ppl to feel like they got their moneys worth idk#but! tbese two books look really good#I get proofs really early so i can go through for typos or color errors asap#so! hopefully I'll have the ghost and Victorian ones done by end kf year#so i can do the Kickstarter in like... jan/feb#i wanna add some scenes to the Victorian one#so. loads of work to do#printing#books#Kickstarter prep#time and time again
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worst yaoi youve ever seen
#fe laslow#fe keaton#fe14#fe shitpost#fire emblem#laskeat#????? i dont know what their ship name is i feel like thats what i normally use but who knows#guess who just learned how to use the fates text generator#it took way more steps than i thought like ive had the generator on my laptop since i got it i just. didnt use it#oh well. anyways miss them a bit. miss laslow in general but is that surprising to anyone#they go on dates in the dog park and yes it goes exactly how you think it would#except laslow tells keaton hes not allowed to use his full beast form bc its like 8 feet tall and he would scare the shit out of the dogs#but then it just looks like this normal ass dude is playing fetch in the park its a whole lot of trouble for no reason#love them
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sorry if idk this but what do you think about Wordgirl now in 2024 do you still like it do you still want to make art or talk about it or are you just done with all of it forever and plus i seen that you haven't made art of it since 2022 so you just done with all of it oh yeah and what about The Magnus Archives + Wordgirl ao3 fic too like is that just going to be and i know that your working on 2 au's now just wanting to know that's all
My interests tend to come in intense bursts and then fade. Unless something like, big happens like it gets a reboot its unlikely I'll be coming back to it anytime soon. As for the fic I don't have any current plans to finish it unfortunately.
#Its so shocking whenever anybody mentions that fic to me#like its just such a specific combo of interests how are there this many people interested in it...#I have some fragments of unfinished chapters for it laying around but I was struggling to get them to work#and I definitely dont have the motivation to finish them now#If youre curious the chapters were going to be Slaughter avatar miss Power and Web avatar Mr Big#and possibly Flesh avatar Butcher but I never got around to starting that one#The Miss Power chapter was basically going to be about her having kind of lost her thread#I wanted to leave a lot of ambiguity as to what happened with her home planet#but she hadnt been in contact with them for agessssss and her radio is damaged and her ship is in bad shape#the chapter was just going to be her being like 'pfff I dont interpersonal connection Im doing great out here. Murdering. All on my own'#Well she has her little squirl thing but she treats him like an animal#mr giggle cheeks or whatever#anyway I wanted it to imply that whatever happened her bloodthirst was destroying her#The Mr Big chapter was from Lesley's perspective#She would have been one in a long long line of assistants that Mr Big went through like candy#Lesley is his favorite though because. while she is terrified of him. shes still willing to push him. to be honest with him#but she also knows exactly when to step off. when to lie to appease him#( its always a tossup as to whether he wants a sweet lie or the harsh truth that day. He can always tell either way#its a gamble he does to be cruel. She always picks right though. or maybe he's more lenient with her than he should be)#He likes that she knows exactly how to push him without ever stepping over the line#He likes that her guilt and revulsion are slowly eating her up inside but shes too selfish to leave#She likes being special. She likes the idea of ruling the world alongside him#She'll always be second in command but shell be so much higher than everyone else#and shes willing to do anything to get that#Mr big doesnt think shell ever make it that far#but he likes her anyway#shes the one assistant he'll be sad about dying#OK damn apparently I did still have things to say about this old fic DAMN#still not gonna finish it tho. they call me the struggler becaus.e writing is a struggle...
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im so excited to see how zelda and the gerudo interact, plus how long has it been since we got a 2d zelda with gerudo in it
Anon I gotta disagree, with all current ANYTHING nintendo says about the Gerudo I will be pleasantly surprised if they dropped any of the shit they made up in totk. I mean its cool that they now keep including them in games again but going from oot which was a bad portrayal to a worse one was .......
#not excited for that aspect and i imagine a lot of people are worried on what bullshit nintendo is gonna make up now with zelda being#involved cuz after the uh.....shipping your kids off to town because its apart of their culture to never interact with men#even men of their own family#is a fucked up and fetishised version of what the historical harem is#like im sorry but correct me if im wrong but i think thats where they got a lot of shit for their chracterization of the gerudo#also the gerudo appreadred in Cadence of Hyrule and i think had a better portrayal then most of the games#ill go see if im wrong but i domt remember it being as weird or negative as any nintendo made game#so like idk its not like FSA was the last 2d game the gerudo were in
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sheesh speaking of psychic damage, bro is trying to kill himself with his mind here
#14: i get you alone without witnesses and its fuckign over#15: youre making me look SO bad rn#'as if i would ever do that! hugs <3'#14 knowing all his own tricks: i dont trust you as far as i can throw you#theres a lot of fun to be had here actually wrt like. who knows/thinks/believes what right?#like for 15 the bigeneration was Bad. for 14 we dont know#they might be doing a double act! theyve got the same dog in the fight right?#its a really good shot you should go watch this oh my goddddddd obsessed#so much to be read into this#like dont get fooled by the hugging they know Exactly who they are and they Do Not fucking like that person#15 kicks them out Immediately!#hes like okay this was fun :) get the fuck out of my house#its very ruth doctor 'i'd like it if you got off my ship now'#its very very that#14 knows its that#they know themselves well enough i dont think hes fooled by 15#i'll rewatch the whole thing to see the rest of it. in context of these thoughts. bc i havent thought abt this before#but i dont think 14 is fooled at all#he knows who he is. he knows what hes like. he knows what hes to be trusted on and what Not#'im fine bc you fix yourself' 14 is like yeah Right#'idk what the fuck is gonna happen but youre FineTM. FineTM is the best we do'
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JUST started a good Durge playthrough and I'm dying over my absolute little guy bard Tinfoil.
#bg3#bg3 tav#baldurs gate 3#(Im a tag rambler so theres a lot here-) he's got voice six and because of that I'm opting he's incredibly INCREDIBLY young#like- probably 9? Dragonborn reach 10 year old human size at 3 for them so. yeah-#human-body wise he's about 17? but he's still got so little thoughts in his head. Which is canon as well at least#not gonna romance ANYONE as Tinfoil but we're gonna all be besties.#still deciding if he'll slurp tadpoles. he gives into peer preassure very easily and is very easily bossed around.#so it depends at the moment in the cutscene i guess.#he's the group kid. i think shadowheart would mother him a lot and he looks up to Karlach A SHITTON. 'She's so cool...'#'why is the group kid the leader?'#everyone shrugs but they see Tinfoil curl up around a small pile of gold and gems as he sleeps and they can't say no to what he wants to do#Lae'zel thinks he's 'extremely weak skinned. and needs all the help a pathetic youngling like him can get'#she says; helping said pathetic kid up off the nautaloid ship floor after he ran ahead to try and get to the controls; listening to her#like a good lil guy#'Tinfoil; darling; you know we can always get *more* gold if you give up some of these precious little rubies and opals. Your hoard#will look *much* more impressive that way.'#-Astarion; trying to convince a now-teary-eyed tinfoil to give up his hoard so the party can buy health potions#'its not...its not impressive?' he starts crying and Shadowheart has to comfort him#I KNOW he's gonna go murder mode and stuff. but everyone at camp thinks it's just dragonborn instincts kicking in#so they just like chain him to a tree for the night.#its funny i think#'NO! BAD TINFOIL! STOP TRYING TO EAT THE BIRDS!'#'Raughguguhguguh. Tinfoil *NEEDS* sauce...'#he is on a leash constantly because he is enamoured with the beauty of the world and runs off- but also to not kill and maim constantly.
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Fuuta x Kotoko?
Waah I hope the fact that this ran a little long makes up for the lateness -- I really love the idea and was so excited to get the request!! They'd be so interesting and affect each other so much...... it makes me crazy...... It becomes canon divergent at the end because I genuinely think being in each others' company more would influence them both
Kotoko was nothing if not observant. Over the years, sheād found herself in ā and gotten herself out of ā enough situations to get a good read on the people she interacted with. No matter what this world threw her way, she could always rely on those abilities. And from the moment she met Milgramās third prisoner, those abilities told her he was nothing but trouble.Ā
āOi,ā heād called across the dining table during the first meal they all had shared. āWhat did you do to get here?ā
From the moment she woke up in this strange place, Kotoko had kept to herself. Itās dangerous to charge forward and introduce oneself to a group of mysterious murderers when there are no locks on the doors. She hadnāt spoken a word to anyone, the others smart enough to heed her intense look and stay away.Ā
Fuuta, on the other hand, was the first to speak directly to her. He stared impatiently.
āWell?ā
She noted his directness. His volume. The brashness and vulgarity sheād heard earlier in the day. His motivations and values heād let slip in his early defenses. His anger and his fear. The suspicion in his gaze, as well as the need for reassurance in his voice. In that moment, the information clicked together in her mind, and Kotoko realized two things:
Kajiyama Fuuta was a lot like her, in the obvious ways.
Kajiyama Fuuta was nothing like her, in the ways that really mattered.
āThe same reason as everyone else, I suppose,ā she said carefully. He may have revealed his whole hand, but from experience she knew better than to do the same.
A lot of her experiences returned to her as the trial went on. She went through the motions of coaxing secrets out of quiet men, or playing along with cheery girlsā games to uncover what she was looking for. She remembered how it felt on stakeouts as she kept her eye on the wardenās door, and recalled the thrill of negotiation when she had a moment alone with them. And unfortunately, she recognized the immediate sensation of being tailed. She was used to shaking an unwanted follower out on the streets, but it was difficult to do the same when the only places to go consisted of three rooms and a corridor.Ā
No matter how inconspicuous Fuuta thought he was being, Kotoko got a glimpse of that bright hair retreating around corners just behind her. She could feel his eyes boring into her back, always conveniently whipping away by the time she turned to look. The only thing that seemed to affect his permanently blaring volume was when she was speaking nearby ā unlike a real stalker who would tactfully pretend not to be listening in, Fuuta would use the opportunity to jump into all her conversations.
Kotoko was in the middle of her morning stretches when she became aware of his presence lurking around the doorway. After several weeks of the behavior, sheād had quite enough. Kotoko knew that if you canāt shake a tail, thereās only one other option.Ā
She stepped out of her cell, swiftly reaching for Fuutaās collar. With a handful of his uniform, she shoved him back against the cell bars. For someone that had creeped on all her daily exercise routines, he seemed awfully shocked at how strong she was.
āStop following me.ā She kept her voice low and even. āI donāt know what you want from me, nor do I care. I will āā
āI donāt want anything from you!āĀ
He raised his voice in an attempt to sound tough, but only succeeded in coming off desperate. He tried to weasel out of her grasp to no avail. Sheād had practice intimidating guys three times her height ā it was almost too easy now that she had an inch or so on Fuuta.Ā
āDonāt give me that oblivious crap. Every day. Every single day, you āā
āI donāt know what youāre talking about! Youāre the one who acting fucking crazy!ā
Even after knowing it was in vain, he kept squirming under her harsh look. His eyes flicked frantically around the room, only able to take in her stone cold expression for a brief moment at a time. He kept shouting his own defenses, his cheeks growing more red by the second.
This time, the information gathered took a bit longer to fall into place. One of her conclusions was something Kotoko was very used to. The other was something sheād never quite experienced before. For the first time in long career of poker faces, she visibly started upon realizing two things:
Kajiyama Fuuta was downright terrified of her.
Kajiyama Fuuta was hopelessly attracted to her.
She hurriedly released him, jerking herself away. āJustā¦ stay out of my way.āĀ Ā
āI was never in your way!ā He shouted after her, his voice still shaking.
She should have stuck to her own demand and kept her distance; she was already aware of how much trouble this prisoner was capable of. But she took pride in her abilities to gather information of interest. And god, was Fuuta interesting.Ā
Between his constantly running mouth and his never running filter, he was always keeping her on her toes. Sheād never met anyone who pressed her for answers like that ā Fuuta was never satisfied with the explanations that could placate everyone else. He was always questioning, always pushing back. Though his talk could be as shallow as the older prisoners' melancholy musings, or the childrenās gossipy chatter, it was different when he and Kotoko really went at it in a debate.
Fuuta talked shamelessly about society, about the other prisoners, and about her. The others kept their distance from someone as quietly calculating as her, but Fuuta would pour out his thoughts right to her face. He had her back when she was trying to prove a point to the others, but was too stubborn to compromise on any of own opinions when they conflicted. It was refreshing.Ā
And that was all it was, she would remind herself. The man would be insufferable if he was ever under the impression that she so much as tolerated his company. For everyoneās sake, he should remain completely unaware.
Awareness, however, was the very thing Kotoko prided herself in. She picked up on exactly what the warden was trying to communicate by granting her innocence. She was aware of the opportunities that arose with their disappearance. She noted the best time to fulfill her duties to them. She knew the optimal order to attack each prisoner in, to guarantee success.
It was due to her beloved observation skills that she found herself in cell 003 in the middle of the night. It didnāt matter how many training sessions Fuuta had spectated, or how many sheād invited him to join ā he wasnāt as perceptive as she. He couldnāt predict or counter a single one of her movements. It only took a few moments for her to have him pinned on the ground.
āY-you were serious?ā Fuuta managed, even as her weight made it difficult for him to breathe.Ā
Sheād confided in him about her deal with the warden, one late night long before verdicts were announced. She didnāt know what had driven her to do it. It had been a rare lapse in her judgment. The current situation only confirmed why she should never reveal more information than necessary. Why she should get closer to someone than necessary.Ā
āI am always serious.ā
āKotokoā¦ā
She knew all of Fuutaās typical arguments and excuses, and she had a rebuttal for each. She wound her arm back, her brass knuckles reflecting in the dim panopticon light.Ā
ā...J-justā¦ do it fast.ā
Kotokoās arm wavered.Ā
āWhat?ā
āIām not a fucking idiot. Even before that brat called you innocent, I knew that y-you were the one in the right. I used to think that you and I were the same, but I know that was all a lie. You were always the real hero. M-more than anyone else in this shithole. Soā¦ā Fuuta closed his eyes, squeezing tears from them. āMake it quicker than you did for that asshole, will ya?āĀ
Kotoko gripped her fight tighter. It was trembling.Ā
Fuutaās eyes remained shut in fear. In trust. His breathing was erratic as he pretended not to be crying or struggling from the pressure on his lungs. He grit his teeth, preparing himself for what was to come. Kotoko prepared herself as well.Ā
Releasing a cry, she swung forward. The moment before her brass knuckles clashed with the floor, just to the left of Fuutaās face, Kotoko realized one thing:
Kajiyama Fuuta was indeed nothing but trouble.
#milgram#kotoko yuzuriha#fuuta kajiyama#0310#this was already more than i planned but i would have loved to include a symbolism comparison somehow --#the wildness and destruction of fire to a wild and violent animal#but with patience and care humans have domesticated both into beautiful helpful things#im defintiely down for a toxic they-beat-each-other-up ship but i really think it wouldnt happen#i think being around kotoko would make fuuta second guess himself and slow down (just a tiiiiny bit - not a lot lol)#but enough where hed face her punishment with dignity#and being around him would make kotoko confront her own stubborn views think about how good intentions can go awry#i was torn for characterizing kotoko... i always picture her secretive and stuff but then i remember shes very upfront in canon#so i tried to find a mix of honesty with caution#which works well with fuutas honesty and recklessness lol#also IM SORRY this is from kotokos pov and you got straight up paragraphs of 'oughghh this is why fuuta is so cool!!'#but i feel like its easy to see why hed be starstruck and inspired by her#but tougher to understand why shed fall for him back š
#anyway thank you again for the request!! i love them and think theyre so interesting!#this was super fun#drabbles
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not to be a hater for a second but i am mildly peeved at how much the internet is screaming that spirk is canon now because... it's not? feel free to enjoy unification as much as you want and there's certainly a romantic angle that's very easy to see but there's nothing in the content of the film that makes it "canon" and i highly doubt it was the intention of the creators. at the end of the day, similar scenes with romantic subtext are in pretty much every one of the tos movies. they're just like that. ship all you want but... i just don't really understand a need for ships to be canon for them to be enjoyable? spirk is always gonna be famous for being the original slash ship, it's always gonna be famous for being realllllly (mostly unintentionally) romantic, it doesn't need to be canon to be validated?
#i think this is just where i and a lot of fandom disagree#and frankly i think basing your fandom experience on hoping that a ship will be canon is just.... not a great way to engage with a hobby#idk you do you and everything but like. i truly do not care if a ship is canon#at the end of the day id much rather have a thoughtful non-romantic scene between two characters than them making out#dont get me wrong. i can enjoy when my ships do make out. but like. that isnt why im here#sorry lmao this got off topic fast#the dangers of going into the star trek tag when its trending#anyways im pedantic and spirk is not any more canon than it was three days ago#my posts#(i say all of this as someone who does ship spirk btw. im not in the trenches but i do very much believe theyre in love.)
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