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Crack ship or not, I still love them :)
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Shhh! Be quiet guys! There having a date!
#crk#cookie run kingdom#pomegranate cookie x twizzly gummy cookie#dark choco cookie x milk cookie#red velvet cookie x royal margarine cookie#licorice cookie x clover cookie#affogato cookie x cream unicorn cookie#gingerbrave cookie x wizard cookie#herb cookie x crème brûlée cookie#moonlight cookie x mercurial knight cookie#gay#lesbian#lgbtq#caramel arrow x latte cookie#werewolf cookie x kumiho cookie#crunchy chip cookie x tiger lily cookie#wildberry cookie x avocado cookie#devil cookie x angel cookie#vampire cookie x frilled jellyfish cookie#strawberry cookie x gingerbright cookie#sea urchin cookie x caramel choux cookie
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Cookie Run FanKids pt1
#art#fanart#cookie run art#cookie run kingdom#cookie run#cookie run fankid#digital art#licorice x clover#espresso x madeleine#milk x purlple yam#dark choco x whipped cream#pure vanilla x dark cacao#herb x sparking#my art <3#oc fan kids#au#my au
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#all my ships are either super mainstream or undiscovered by mankind#cookie run#cookie run kingdom#crk#licorice cookie#parfait cookie#olive cookie#eclair cookie#herb cookie#aquamarine cookie#affogato cookie#cream unicorn cookie#licorice cookie x parfait cookie#eclair cookie x olive cookie#herb cookie x aquamarine cookie#affogato cookie x cream unicorn cookie#licofait#oliclair#herbmarine#affouni#this post has WAY too many tags#Star Polls
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Mini art dump
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(1) HerbMarine because I now ship them
(2) Totally normal Affogato art
(3) Idk if I'm being honest, I was just bored
(4 and 5) Pikmin ocs
#art dump#cookie run#cookie run kingdom#cookie run ovenbreak#herb cookie#aquamarine cookie#herbmarine#herb x aquamarine#aquamarine x herb#affogato cookie#licorice cookie#cheesecake cookie#angel cookie#pikmin#pikmin oc#wraith oc
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Yesterday in the late afternoon, I went to the movie cinema to watch the Super Mario Bros Movie 🎥 Buying tickets to head into the premium Director's Club to watch the aforementioned movie, because of the fact that it's like watching in an airplane business class version of a movie theatre 📽️ Here are several photos that I took, all while having a set of different Cookie Run characters to show up in the photo 🎀
Several of cookies that were all know and recognize are heading into the Director's Club to watch an upcoming movie! Each of them came in with their family and/or dates by their side, all excited to see an amazing animated film that'll start showing in about 30 minutes from now At the Movie Ticket Booth, Sparkling brought along his boyfriend named Vampire, and his father known as Earl Gray went to watch the upcoming movie together Espresso is asking to speak to the Cinema's Manager while Madeleine is oblivious to it Alchemist and Strawberry Crepe are simply there to see what movies are coming soon Moving towards the Snack Bar, Clover walks in with a suspicious cookie with the thought of having their little date Stardust and Kyu-Kyu are enjoying some snacks together and having fun like a lovable dad with his silly kid Princess and Pomegranate are having an argument with each other, and Cherry Blossom stares in an embarrassed manner And finally in the Director's Club Cinema, Almond walks in with his sleepy daughter named Walnut as a way to give both her and himself a wholesome father-daughter relaxation day, not knowing that Phantom Bleu (Rougefort) also popped in The polyamorous cookies consisting of Capsaicin, Kouign-Amann, and Prune Juice are also excited to be here, although the potion brewer feels like it's unnecessary to head here Clotted Cream is being cautious as he brought Custard III and Pancake to the movies for a family bonding, cautious since he doesn't want Custard Sr to show up And finally Dark Choco and Herb just arrived at the cinema, ready to have a lovable and fun time with everyone as they all watch the movie
#herb cookie#dark choco cookie#herb x dark choco#herb cookie x dark choco cookie#dark choco x herb#dark choco cookie x herb cookie#kouign-amann cookie#capsaicin cookie#prune juice cookie#prune x kouign x capsaicin#walnut cookie#almond cookie#roguefort cookie#clotted cream cookie#custard cookie iii#pancake cookie#clover cookie#licorice cookie#licorice cookie x clover cookie#stardust cookie#space donut#space donut cookie#pomegrante cookie#princess cookie#cherry blossom cookie#vampire cookie#sparkling cookie#sparkling x vampire#vampire x sparkling#earl gray cookie
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my ships
(most of which are very rare pairs)
#cookie run#licorice cookie#herb cookie#hero cookie#lemon cookie#fire spirit cookie#knight cookie#vagabond cookie#rebel cookie#sea fairy cookie#moonlight cookie#rye cookie#chili pepper cookie#princess cookie#raspberry cookie#croissant cookie#pizza cookie#herb x licorice#lemon x hero#fireknight#rebel x vagabond#seamoon#princess x raspberry#pizza x croissant
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Nine Lives (witch's familiar!Ezra x witch!f!reader) - Part 2
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pairing: witch's familiar!Ezra x witch!f!reader
rating: T (evenual E) MDNI
summary: As you came into your powers and your curves filled in, Ezra realized he feelings for you were more than just affection. The only problem? He's a 300 year old crused witch. Oh, and he's a cat.
contents: age gap (like 300 years), alcohol, jealousy, angst, slow burn, yearning, probably anachronistic witchy stuff, love triangle (quadrangle?), Ezra is a cat, he won't be forever, this isnt a beastiality thing, moth never uses y/n.
wc: 3.4k
a/n: Thank you to everyone that read part 1!! I'm so pleased that you're enjoying it so far! I really would've liked to let this part simmer a little longer but I'm holding myself to this publishing schedule. It's time to yeet this into the world. I'd love to know what you think. Your comments and reblogs give me so much joy!
Thank you @lowlights for the beta and help with witchy stuff. Thank you @moonlitbirdie @schnarfer and @whocaresstillthelouvre for listening to me bitch about this and supporting me always.
“Don’t you look nice,” Aunt Margot says.
You’re putting the finishing touches on your make up in the Page’s office. Usually you’d go back upstairs but you don’t feel like hearing it from Ezra.
“Thanks. I have a date,” you say, packing your mascara in your purse.
“Oh,” she replies, not hiding her disappointment in the slightest.
You hadn’t intended to see Connor again but when he texted you, you couldn’t think of a good reason not to. He invited you to his place to check out his vinyl collection which sounds like an insufferable version of Netflix and Chill but you have no plans to listen to a single record. You just want to fuck in his bed and avoid any drama with Ezra.
“Well I hope you’ll put as much effort in for the equinox,” she says. She flips the sign in the door from open to closed then snaps her fingers to turn off the overhead lights.
You and Margot host the coven for the equinox each year which already means extra preparations in addition to work at the bookshop.
“Why would I do that?” you ask. You don’t wear make up for moon rituals, don’t wear much of anything at all.
“Esme is bringing River,” she says with a casual shrug.
“No” you groan.
“He’s visiting from Ireland,” she tells you.
The last time you saw Esme’s grandson you were both in high school. River was built like a string bean, his upper lip dusted with the saddest mustache— if you could even call it that. He reeked of some badly brewed potion that was supposed to attract lovers. You still gagged when you smelled licorice root.
“Good for him,” you say. “Please do not set me up with River.”
“I’m not a matchmaker, dear. I’m just trying to expand your sexual horizons,” Margot replies.
Suddenly, Connor’s vinyls don’t sound so bad after all.
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Ezra pads through crystals and altar bells. Everything’s been laid out on Aunt Margot’s paisley scarves— scrying bowls and athame blades and jars of rain water all waiting to be charged by the moon of the autumn equinox.
It’s just after midnight and the witches of your coven are gathered in a small clearing far enough into the woods that stray mortals won’t stumble upon them. The air smells fresh and cold like mountain spring water. A bonfire crackles, layered with herbs and pine needles.
The waning moon feels heavy and close like it might just fall out of the sky and nick Ezra’s ear. It makes him feel uneasy. Then again, it’s hard to enjoy these rituals when he can’t participate the way he once did.
Ezra watches you offer mulled wine to Esme and River, steaming cups scented with cinnamon balanced on an antique silver tray. You look beautiful in your simple white dress. It glows in the moonlight and he can see your body silhouetted beneath the fabric of its long skirt by the fire.
He’s never cared much for Esme but, then again, he doesn’t have many kind words for any of the Elders even if the ones that cursed him are long dead. Even if he deserved that curse. She wears her long hair coiled on top of her head, a jade hair pin perched in its nest the same way her familiar, a tired old owl, watches from the branch of one of the trees.
Ezra’s attention isn’t with Esme tonight. He’s keeping a close eye on her grandson.
“He totally sucks. Please don’t leave me alone with him,” you’d implored.
Ezra would be wary of him whether or not you’d asked. River is nothing like how you’ve remembered him to Ezra. He must’ve done a lot of growing up since your last encounter. Tall and lean with thick waves of auburn hair. He’s the kind of witch that even Ezra would have taken to bed when he was human.
He sees the way River looks at you, watches him turn the charm on as he smiles. River’s eyes travel down your body and Ezra knows exactly what he sees. Waves of hot jealousy consume Ezra from nose to tail. For a moment, he worries he’ll get another thousand years added on to his sentence.
After some small talk, Esme wanders away and that's Ezra’s cue. He slinks up between you and River, rubbing up against your legs to let you know he’s ready to bail you out.
River swallows his drink with a chuckle.
“That tastes just how I remember it. Me and Moss used to sneak glasses of Ariadne’s mulled wine when we were thirteen,” he explains.
“Me too. Although I’m pretty sure Margot knew,” you say with a laugh.
“Little mage, you asked me to fetch you when the oils were ready,” Ezra says.
“Oh,” you say, throwing a self conscious smile at River. “I’ll go in a minute, Ez.”
“Margot could use your assistance,” Ezra adds.
“Why don’t you go help her and I’ll be there soon,” you suggest.
Ezra can’t help but glare up at River.
“Would that I had opposable thumbs,” he responds.
You laugh. River doesn’t. You crouch down and glide your hand down Ezra’s spine.
“It’s okay, Ez. I’m good,” you tell him and you wink at him.
His blood turns molten as you turn back to River and continue your conversation. He wants to hiss and claw at him, draw blood. It feels like you’re slipping through his fingers not that he ever held a claim. Not that he even has fingers anymore. He’s completely powerless, standing at your feet like the dumb animal he is.
Rather than watch you moony over River, Ezra turns away and slinks off to the edge of the gathering to sulk. The fire’s warmth doesn’t quite reach and he presses back his ears to stave off autumn’s chill. He can’t run off into the woods the way he’d like to, not without raising questions from the other witches, make you look like you can’t control your familiar.
He can’t stop his eyes from wandering back to you. Your head thrown back in laughter, your hand on River’s forearm. Each moment of your joy is like a knife in his heart.
Ezra’s eventually relegated to the circle where the familiars commiserate. River’s is a jet black bird named Rhea who turns her beak up at him. He’s not one of them, not really. He was human himself with a familiar of his own but that’s not the only reason why they scorn him. They all know that he’s the worst kind of witch.
There are many reasons why a witch might be turned into a cat but there’s only one crime that was punished with 1000 years— murder. And not just any murder. Ezra desecrated the life of another witch and, no matter how loyally he serves you, he’ll always have that stain.
The rituals are done, the chanting. The embers from the fire float up through the trees towards the fat moon. Then the dancing begins. It’s erratic and joyful, Ezra can remember the ecstasy of it in his bones. Esme lets down her white hair and one by one the witches disrobe.
He hears your laughter as you spin, shoulders shrugging with the pulse of the magic that swirls around the bonfire.
He knows he shouldn’t look at you like that. Not you. Not here. You’re not putting on a show, you’re doing your magic. But the way your body moves against the glow of the fire is its own enchantment. He could worship you like the moon.
The spell is broken just as quickly. River’s right beside you, bare skin radiant, muscles rippling with his own rhythm. His fingers tangle with yours and Ezra feels acid in his throat.
The whole night becomes an assault on his senses. The sound of chanting rises, the old words frantic and savage. Amber and patchouli mix with the woodsmoke to choke him. Grotesque shadows fall over the faces of the witches like a carnival of horrors. And then there’s you— incandescent and naked and whispering something in River’s ear that has him grinning. Ezra’s hair stands on end.
“Come dance with me!” you giggle as you leave the circle of merriment. Your teeth are stained purple, drunk on wine and magic.
“I’m quite content here,” Ezra lies.
“Are you having fun?” You ask but you don’t wait for his answer. “River is…wow. He did not look like that when we were kids.”
You pick Ezra up and whirl around in a circle. He smells the incense of your skin, the alcohol on your breath.
“You’re going to get your wish. I’m finally going to fuck a proper witch!” you say.
You toss Ezra in the air and catch him. The bile has come so far up his throat it’s an absolutely nauseating sensation.
“Enough!” Ezra hisses. He swats at you with his claws bared.
You yelp and drop him. Before he even hits the ground, he feels it— a searing hot pain that makes his back arch. You’re defending yourself with your powers like a reflex. He lets out a yowl and just as quickly it passes.
Ezra staggers and looks up to find you with tears in your eyes. He’s never seen you looking so hurt, betrayed. Your jaw quivers. Ezra landed on his feet but he feels upside down. He’s realizing what he’s just done, that he tried to hurt you because he’s pathetic. Jealous.
“Ez,” you say, your voice strangled.
Like a coward, he takes off, ignoring you as you call after him.
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It’s the sound of the cat flap that wakes you sometime after sunrise. You’re sprawled out on your bed, head aching, eyes swollen. You’re still wearing your white dress, you threw it on before going after Ezra but it was no use. He was as black as the shadows in the forest and had slipped away under some bushes.
You abandoned the equinox celebration and went home in hopes he’d be there. You waited. Alone with your guilt and anxiety.
I’m sorry. Please come home. You were never very good at telepathy but you tried to reach out to him with your thoughts.
The sound that he made echoed through your mind as you paced the floor. Strangled, terrified. You tried to stop yourself from picturing him out there in the dark shaking with pain.
You hadn’t meant to hurt him. It was involuntary. As soon as his claw grazed your skin, your powers flared. Maybe if you hadn’t been drunk you could’ve controlled it. It happened so quickly you still can’t be sure of how strong it hit him.
Even if it was just a momentary shock, you saw just how much damage that moment did. His hair standing on end, his tail rod straight. But what really crushed you was the look in his eye.
Suddenly you were just as horrible as every other witch that he’d served. You’d used your powers to punish him, to harm him. Every promise you’d ever made to him had broken in that instant.
You see Ezra’s slim form dart to your doorway. In a flash, he slips under the bed and your heart sinks into your ankles.
“Ez,” you say, your voice ragged from the night’s festivities.
He doesn’t answer. You press your eyes shut and swallow hard then crawl to the edge of your mattress. Your stomach lurches as you look over the edge. On top of everything else there’s a hangover churning in your gut. You guess you deserve that, too.
“Ezra, are you ok?” you ask. Whatever words of atonement you pieced together before you cried yourself to sleep have dissolved.
He’s in the furthest corner beneath the bed, tucked against the wall with his tail wrapped tight around his body. You think you might burst into tears again seeing him cowering away from you.
“I hope I didn’t make you fret,” he says.
You want to scoop him into your arms and hold him as tight as you can but it feels like you’ve lost that privilege.
“I’m so sorry, Ez,” you say, climbing down to the floor. “I shouldn’t have done that. I'm sick over it.”
“You were well within your rights. You’re my master and I struck you,” he says. “I’m the one that should beg forgiveness.”
To hear him call you his master makes you feel even worse than before. There’s no amount of tuna belly that will make this right.
“No. It was my fault. And I promise I’ll never use my powers on you again. Ever,” you say.
His gold eyes shift away.
“Keep your apologies,” he says. “And I see I’ve kept you from your new paramour. Another act to add to my contrition.”
“I don’t care about that.” If you hadn’t been so caught up in the prospect of taking River to bed, none of this would’ve happened.
“Nonsense, little mage. You’re a witch. Be with other witches,” Ezra says.
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River’s in the bookshop when you arrive, standing opposite Aunt Margot. When you couldn’t convince Ezra to come out from under the bed, you decided to give him space. Maybe you could distract yourself re-alphabetizing the cookbooks. You were hoping for some quiet but you’re confronted by the very attractive witch you’d been flirting shamelessly with the night before.
You know you look a mess, your face still feels puffy. River, on the other hand, looks like the definition of a sight for sore eyes. Freshly showered and dressed in a well pressed shirt that’s rolled up to the elbows, the sun is streaming in the front window outlining his still-damp hair like he’s Prince Charming himself.
“There you are!” Margot calls.
You smooth your hand across your top nervously as she appraises you. You threw on a more than slightly wrinkled shirt that was languishing on the floor of your bedroom, too preoccupied to put together a real outfit.
“Looks like we had too much of Ariadne’s little potion,” she says.
“I have a tonic that’s great for that,” River says with a smile. “But coffee’s faster.”
He hands you a steaming paper cup from the cafe down the street. He and Margot have their own perched on the counter. You take a sip and are surprised to find that it’s your regular order.
”Are you clairvoyant, too?” You ask.
River blushes. “Nah. Margot told me how you take your coffee,” he chuckles.
It's so thoughtful and you’re not feeling very deserving. You swallow down a lump in your throat.
“I wanted to go foraging around here but I really need a local,” he says.
“That sounds fun,” you say half heartedly in an attempt to demure. You’re not really up for a good time but it feels like a real asshole move to turn River down considering he brought you coffee after you ditched him at the bonfire. Margot is beaming at the register.
“Doesn’t it?” she asks. “Why don’t I get you a basket?”
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River carries the basket now overflowing with mushrooms and wild herbs. You’re deep in the woods, branches crunching beneath your shoes. Nature’s sounds echo around you, starlings and chipmunks, the constant whoosh of the breeze through the turning leaves.
This path is overgrown but you know it well. You spent your childhood getting lost in these woods. They have their own magic.
Your guilt overshadows the date. If it is a date. River seems to think it is if the way the back of his hand keeps brushing against yours is any sign. It’s hard to enjoy it especially when your mind keeps drifting off. He doesn’t seem to notice that you’re only half-listening as he tells you just how mystical the vibes are at Stonehenge.
You stop at a stream, sitting on a fallen tree that’s overgrown with moss. It’s one of your favorite spots. The water sparkles where the sunlight spills though the branches, peacefully trickling over rocks. You pick up one of the smooth stones and trace its wet surface with your thumb.
You’ve sat in this very spot before feeling just as shitty. Heartbroken then, too, trying to figure out if you could call it a break up when you hadn’t actually been anything official. She hadn’t wanted anything complicated and you swore your feelings wouldn’t get involved. Unfortunately they had their own plans.
Ezra found you there, sulking by the stream, wondering if anyone would think you were worth breaking their own rules for.
It struck you how quiet he was. There were no anecdotes about what the witch scene was like in 1924 or tips for mouse hunting, indoor versus outdoor. He just padded into the water and nudged a little stone towards your feet. It was just big enough to fit in your palm and it was cool against your skin as you held it there.
“A thing of beauty,” he said and he head butted your shins affectionately.
It was. Round from years, maybe decades under the water’s friction. A dull gray cut through the middle by a wedge of some crystalline mineral like shards of broken glass. You recall exactly what it looks like because it still sits on your night stand. Each time you see it you’re reminded of how Ezra slumped down beside you, his warm body weight like a cozy blanket, a faint purr reverberating through him.
“You’ve got a big heart, little mage,” he said.
You choke up at the memory, unsure if Ezra would ever think that again. You certainly wouldn’t say it about yourself today.
“Either you’re really hungover or something’s bothering you,” River says gently.
You laugh tearfully and he rubs a circle on your back. You try to shake your head but River doesn’t give it up, looking at you with a soft concern.
“I really fucked things up with Ezra last night,” you admit. Telling him what a cruel witch you are might be a huge turn off but the feeling of his palm through your shirt makes you feel at ease.
“Ezra?” he asks.
“My familiar,” you remind him.
“Oh.”
“He scratched me and —”
“He hurt you?” he asks, face painted with righteous indignation.
“No. He barely got me. I totally overreacted,” you say. “I used my powers on him. It was just a reflex, you know? But…I just feel awful.”
“Don’t beat yourself up,” he tells you with a relieved chuckle. “You didn’t do anything wrong.”
If that’s true then why do you hate yourself?
“If Rhea was out of line I’d do the same,” he goes on.
You wince at the thought.
“You’d hurt her?” you ask.
He shrugs. “I’ve never had to. She knows who’s boss.”
You’ve always considered Ezra a partner. Of course, there are plenty of witches that think of their familiars as nothing more than servants. It’s an old school way of seeing it. You hadn’t expected River to use words that remind you of the way your grandmother used to talk.
“Maybe it’s different,” you say, trying to give him the opportunity to walk it back. Ezra’s not like Rhea. Maybe you’d feel the same way River does if your familiar hadn’t once been as human as you are. Still, it doesn’t feel right.
“You’re a funny little witch,” he says with a grin.
“What does that mean?” you ask.
“Crying over your familiar. It’s sweet.” He says it as if it’s a compliment but the condescension makes you frown in disgust.
“If you want to make it up to him, why don’t you find him a lady cat that can make him feel good,” he adds with a laugh.
“Is that what you’re into?” you ask with venom.
“What? That was a joke,” River says.
“I don’t think it’s funny. You know, just because Ezra’s a familiar, it doesn’t mean he should be treated like shit. And he’s not a cat. He’s a human,” you tell him.
“He’s a witch killer,” River spits back. “So I’m sorry if I don’t have a lot of sympathy for him.”
Your stomach turns. It’s the truth. Ezra’s served as a familiar in your family for centuries, his history has never been hidden from you and he’s never shied away from it.
But his punishment has never made sense to you. A thousand years, so many lifetimes, watching his friends and family die as he toiled in servitude for witches as backwards as River. It’s cruel, that’s why the Elders changed the laws years ago. And yet Ezra’s remained a cat, a familiar, disdained.
Suddenly, the anger you’ve been tormenting yourself with turns outwards and you think your powers could set fire to the dry leaves at your feet. It’s all so unfair. The Elders turned him and witches like River scorn him and none of them feel a lick of shame. The back of your neck heats with a protective rage.
“He’s my friend,” you choke. “And you’re a fucking asshole.”
And you leave River speechless in the middle of the woods.
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Part 3
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Cracks and Gaps - The Worst Day (part I) Carmen Berzatto x Fem!Reader Mature (Explicit in the following parts) 7434 words ao3
You meet Carmen in Copenhagen through a mutual friend and bond over shared experiences. After following his rising career from afar, you reconnect in Chicago when he renovates his late brother's restaurant. As an editor, you can't miss an opportunity to find out more about the comeback of this chef prodigy.
A/N: I've started writing this story a looong time ago last year. There will be two more parts. I would like to thank @carmyboobear for being the most incredible beta and helping me out on the rocky journey. They're a very special person to me, and also a fantastic and inspiring writer themselves. Please, check their Carmy stories if you haven't!
THE WORST DAY
The first time you meet Carmen, you are both a little over twenty and in Copenhagen. He is staging at Noma, and you are interning at a design studio where everyone is very “green.” From one of your conversations with Carmen, you learn that Pop-Tarts and Cheetos are illegal here. In Europe. Most of the sodas that stained your tongue crazy colors when you were a kid are banned too. He lectures you on Scandinavian agriculture and food production.
Carmen is skinny and short—still a bit taller than you, though—with sharp, high cheekbones and bulging eyes. You don't know enough about each other to be “friends,” but he is a good companion. Your high school friend Becky knows Carmen’s older sister; that’s how you found each other in Denmark’s capital.
On two rare occasions, you get drunk together, and that happens only when he is stressed from work. Like, stressed STRESSED. You'd think he only drinks special natural wine from Lofoten or something, but his choice of poison is canned Budweiser. Maybe he misses home as much as you do. Maybe that’s what leads you to almost kiss him the second time. Carmen lives on a boat, and he takes you there, where you drink vodka mixed with herbs and licorice that Carmen concocts, his tongue peeking out between his lips as he concentrates. The drink tastes good. Weird. You don't hide your grimace. Neither of you comments on the alcohol ratio. It's more vodka than anything else, that's for sure.
Carmen is not your type, physically or character-wise—you are an introvert yourself, so you need someone to bring you out of your shell. Obviously, doing an internship on a different continent is a huge step, one that is only on you. He also smokes a lot and probably doesn't wash his hair. You've heard about his crazy mother and bonkers family from Becky, so you understand why Carmen is Carmen. Why he’s run off to Europe. It's just—his face—his eyes, when he's telling you about his dream job at Noma or Alchemist—they glow, and he becomes so animated, the quiet excitement seeping to the surface, and there's fondness blooming in your chest. He also knows a thing or two about sports, as you do, the subject bringing you back to Chicago, and the longing for “home” and “familiar” is terribly strong in the moment, enhanced by the alcohol. And Carmen, the boy sitting opposite you, with burns on his hands and ripped jeans, is both of those things put into one.
Nothing happens between you two, but the urge to press your own lips against his lingers after you leave in a taxi, not brave enough to ride a bike under the influence.
You try to stay in touch after Copenhagen, messaging Carmen on his empty Facebook profile, sending a text once in a while, mainly at Christmas, and when you have some terrible junk food, just to make fun of him. When he FaceTimes you, he’s in Paris, and you’re in Dublin. The next time, he’s in California.
He rarely ever answers messages on the phone. Usually, it's an emoji, sometimes a word or two. Soon, there are no answers, and you can't be bothered. You carry on with your life in Chicago, and it doesn’t take long before you start seeing Carmen Berzatto in the paper, on the internet. The young prodigy chef, everyone says. Reluctantly, you read the articles, thinking about the Copenhagen Carmen, smiling at his photos. He's grown up, filled out. His hair is curlier, his shoulders wider, his biceps stronger. He looks good. Good and sad, you think to yourself, and decide not to text him to congratulate him on his star career. Carmen is not one to care about what you think of it.
It's only when you hear from Becky that Mikey Berzatto has died, that you think of Carmen properly, after years full of work in the magazine office, one shitty almost-boyfriend, and summers spent in Europe, writing about sustainable travel and solo adventures. Becky says that he's inherited a restaurant from Michael. You decide against sending him condolences—too personal.
But about ten months later, there's whispering that a fancy restaurant, The Bear, is replacing The Beef of Chicagoland, and it's actually your boss who tells you that you should go check the place out.
You are not into that whole haute cuisine thing, to be honest. You never understood those tiny little portions and strange ingredients and their combinations. You prefer good pasta with Bolognese sauce or roasted chicken with mashed potatoes. Sometimes you wonder if Carmen's strange relationship with his family is what's keeping him away from his Italian roots and forcing him to work in pristine, starched whites in sterile kitchens, cooking intestines and antlers, making it art.
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Becky gives you Natalie Berzatto’s phone number to get in touch with her to try to schedule an interview for the magazine feature. Your boss, Rob, hopes that Carmen could even make it to the cover soon when The Bear takes off. You’re not sure how you feel about bypassing Carmen completely and going straight to his sister.
So one Thursday, in early May, you decide to walk there, unannounced. You corner the building, passing a big glass window, and before you make it to the main entrance, you nearly collide with a very wonky wooden stepladder. With Carmen Berzatto on top of it, fiddling with a screwdriver or a similar tool, and a signboard.
The second you make contact with the ancient stepladder, Carmen shouts, "Fuck!"
“Sorry,” you yelp, and one glance at the man high up confirms that you are indeed dealing with the Chef himself.
“Could you watch out?” he says angrily as he makes his way down, measuring every step carefully.
“I’m sorry,” you apologize again, waiting anxiously for Carmen to—hopefully—recognize you. To anyone walking by, you must look like an idiot, standing still in the middle of the sidewalk, waiting motionless and stiff for a guy to climb down a ladder.
You don’t know what you had been expecting but definitely not Carmen staring at you with his huge, bloodshot eyes for seconds that feel like minutes. You nearly turn around and walk away, no joke.
He looks—
“You look—” you start. Terrible. But also, like, gorgeous. Terribly tired but hot. Is it awful of you to think that?
“Hi,” Carmen says, one hand going into the big mess of his hair, the other one into his pants pocket. He's avoiding your eyes, which makes you even more nervous, makes you think it was not such a great idea to come here.
“Hi!” you say, probably overly enthusiastically. “You're back in Chicago,” is the first thing you can think of.
He nods. “Yeah, yeah.”
“Well, congrats on the new place,” you say, gesturing to the building behind him, newspaper covering the windows. “I'm really sorry, I thought it was already open,” you explain, tugging on the hem of your lilac sweatshirt nervously. Can he tell you’re lying? “Becky mentioned something about it.”
“No, we’re opening next week,” Carmen says, holding a cigarette between his fingers.
“I'm really curious,” you smile carefully, testing the waters, wondering how he's going to react. You haven't seen each other in more than five years, and Carmen's never been exactly friendly. Not like mean, but definitely not easily approachable. “I work for this magazine, and we would love to do a feature on this,” you say, leaving out that it's you who would be writing it. Who wants to write it. Not only about the place but about Carmen, the enigma, the quiet boy, the excellent chef.
He only nods, clearly not sharing your enthusiasm. “Maybe later,” he taps the cigarette against the palm of his other hand. “When we're ready for this kind of thing.”
“Of course,” you agree quickly.
“Might be a while.”
“So what is the big plan?”
Carmen looks at you, measuring you. Like he thinks you have some ulterior motive. He lights up the cigarette, taking a long drag from it, and you fight not to scrunch your nose in disgust. The older you get, the more you hate the smell. Especially when someone is blowing out the smoke aimlessly—almost—in your face.
“My partner—Sydney, she’s hung up on the stars. So I guess a fine dining kinda place,” Carmen says, flicking the cigarette butt in the general direction of the gutter. The second sentence comes out more like a question than a statement, but you are still processing the first one.
“You run a business with your girlfriend?” you swear you don’t mean it to sound so accusing.
Carmen takes a step back, physically—bumping into the stepladder behind him—and mentally, too. “No! She—Sydney’s my business partner.” The defensive tone tells you exactly how your words sounded though. You wince. “We’ve been working on the new concept together with Nat, and the whole crew, actually. It’s—it’s a family business, I guess—uhm. We had only like three months to finish, and—”
You can see he’s really flustered. He’s starting to stutter, hand nervously scratching his neck. You hate the sight, hate that you’ve made him feel like this.
“I’m sorry!” you interrupt him. “It came out all wrong. I shouldn’t have said that,” you say urgently, hoping to see him relax back to his non-caring, nonchalant, tired-looking self. How could you mess up so quickly? Is that your special ability or a curse?
“‘s fine,” Carmen says, and he does relax a bit, shoulders dropping an inch. He doesn’t look friendly though. Or in the mood for a chat. “I just—she’s a business partner,” he repeats obstinately, face red.
The moment grows awkward. In your coat pocket, you touch a pack of chewing gum and start fiddling with it. “I—my office is nearby so I thought I could come around and see the progress,” you say into the void, trying not to cringe too much. “Maybe I would take a few colleagues for dinner.”
“The reservations aren't open yet,” Carmen says in a flat voice. You can’t call him out because it’s probably true anyway. Plus, you just lied again—the offices are not close; you had taken the L—and you feel bad about it.
There’s not much left to say, you realize. He’s not giving you any space to turn this “accidental” meeting into a proper conversation. You shuffle your feet nervously, feeling stupid.
“Alright. It was nice seeing you!” you say, as it’s about time to end this. “Hope everything’s gonna work out great!” you add in a cheerful tone, already setting to walk back to the station.
“Yeah. Thanks. Bye.” Carmen says back, lighting a second cigarette.
What a nightmare, you think as you walk through the busy streets.
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In the following weeks, you almost forget about The Bear. Rob complains about the nonexistent article on the new, already hyped-up restaurant and wasted opportunities, but what can you do? The not-at-all-accidental meeting with Carmen had been a disaster you actively try to erase from your mind. Working on your regular column and material for the website keeps you busy. Then Becky calls out of nowhere, and you two arrange lunch at The Marq. You end up swapping hilarious stories from the last two months you hadn’t seen each other, and you secretly pray she doesn’t ask about Natalie Berzatto or her brother. You're out of luck, because she does—of course she does—and you have to lay the cards on the table.
“You did contact Nat first though?” is the first thing Becky asks.
“I didn’t,” you shake your head. “I didn’t want to exclude Carmen right at the very beginning,” you admit.
“Oh god,” Becky rolls her eyes at you, taking a small bite of her salmon cake sandwich.
“I knooow,” you quickly stop her, feeling like ordering something stronger than the simple soda you’ve been drinking.
“I think you should still call Natalie,” Becky says, pointing at you with a determined frown. “I went to see her and her new baby just last week. She asked about you.”
“Really?”
“Yeah,” she nods. “Apparently they could really use some help getting the word out about The Bear. A good excuse to talk Carmen into an interview maybe? An exclusive one?” She wiggles her eyebrows, knowing how cool it would be for you to come up with this.
“Maybe,” you muse, playing it cool. Inside, you are already hyped up about the possibility of scoring the first interview with the former best chef in the world. Is he still good at all? Why did he disappear? Why is he back?
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The anxiety of the following days forces you to actually text Natalie. You’ve been checking online websites and Instagram accounts apprehensively, worried that a medium might publish something about The Bear before you get a chance. Rob isn’t a dick, but you wouldn’t want to look incompetent in his eyes. So far, you’ve been able to steer away from conversations about the new Carmen Berzatto restaurant at work. Your work ethic makes it difficult for you to let The Bear go without a fight.
That’s how you find yourself in front of Natalie’s door. When she opens it, she doesn’t hide her fervor.
“Oh, finally! Hi! Please come in.” She ushers you inside. You’ve never seen her in person, only on Becky’s Instagram, maybe, and even though the exhaustion is apparent on the woman’s face, you can spot the similarities with Carmen in her features right away.
From the dark hallway, she leads you to the sitting room. When you look around, it’s hard to find a clutter-free space. Every surface is covered with baby clothes, baby diapers, baby wipes—clean and dirty—bottles—full and empty.
“Sorry for the mess,” Natalie appears next to you, snatching away a baby muslin from the sofa. “Have a seat, please,” she nods. “The baby’s asleep. Hopefully for the next—” and she checks her watch, “another twenty minutes.”
As you sit down, Natalie collapses into an armchair, not minding what appears to be a pile of freshly washed newborn onesies and other clothes underneath her.
“Thank you so much for stopping by,” she says sincerely, and you notice the many stains on her purple t-shirt.
You smile. “No problem.”
“Becky said that you know stuff about Instagram and social media and marketing and all that?” Natalie’s eyes are wide and hopeful.
“I would say so,” you nod.
“I’m not sure what Becky mentioned already,” Natalie says as she starts pulling the baby clothes from under her and folding them absentmindedly. That definitely says something about the state she’s in, without Becky describing the situation to you—not only with The Bear but also Nat herself. “Carmy’s putting so much into the restaurant—we all are—so much hope,” she babbles, “none of us have slept properly in weeks—months! And now the baby...” Natalie’s gaze becomes unfocused for a moment before she blinks rapidly. “The timing’s not so great,” she forces out a weak laugh, and you smile again, already feeling bad for her, not wanting to make her uncomfortable.
“I understand. It’s hard,” you empathize, feeling genuinely bad—not for The Bear—but for Natalie.
“I’m not a marketing guru, but I can research things,” she carries on, more confident now. “But I can’t be there all the time, y’know? It’s just not possible. If—if someone could help with keeping the place afloat and spreading the word—” she stops talking and folding, looking directly at you. “That would be just so awesome,” she finishes quietly, her bottom lip wobbling.
You know that Nat’s not trying to emotionally blackmail you, even though the situation kinda feels like it, and you do feel for her.
“I can help, yes.”
“I’ll talk to Carm and Sydney, and we’ll figure out how much we can offer you!” The relief and excitement are apparent in the way Nat jumps up from the armchair.
“That’s alright, really,” you say calmly, putting a hand on her arm now that she’s closer. “We can discuss this later,” and you give her another encouraging smile.
The unmistakable sound of a baby crying comes from somewhere in the house. Poor Natalie freezes, her hand going to touch her chest. She takes a deep, steadying breath.
“Thank you. Thank you,” and she takes a hold of your hand, squeezing it. “I’ll tell Sydney to get in touch with you—or you can actually just go to the restaurant; they know about you.”
That makes you slightly uncertain as you remember your first attempt at an unannounced visit to The Bear.
“Alright,” you nod with a polite smile. After all, you’re getting something out of this too.
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Sydney texts you exactly 22 minutes after you leave worn-out Natalie and her baby behind and invites you to come to The Bear the next day. To make yourself appear more untouchable, you reply that the soonest you’re available is next Monday. Make them wait.
It gets you on edge, though, and more than once you think of Carmen in his tiny Copenhagen kitchen, how things used to be. How easy it is to grow apart. Not that you’d been friends exactly. Hard to be anything like that with a person as closed off as Carmen Berzatto.
On the agreed Monday, you dare to finish early at work and take the train to The Bear. Your stomach is in knots, even though you’ve been pretty brave about the whole thing. It’s just—you’re not sure how Carmen’s gonna react when he sees you, and you’re already thinking about the worst possible scenarios. Just stop! you tell yourself resolutely, forcing yourself to concentrate on the simple but well-thought-out marketing plan you prepared to present. Without being asked. If Carmen sees that you actually KNOW things, he might change his opinion about you. Not that you KNOW his opinion, but—maybe he would actually acknowledge you finally.
It’s just after the family meal when you arrive. A tall man who introduces himself as Richie lets you in instantly, and he’s clearly been informed about your arrivall. As soon as Sydney is notified of your presence, she rushes to you from the kitchen in the back, wiping her hands on her apron. You notice right away that she’s friendly and calm, and it relaxes your nerves. There’s no doubt she loves the restaurant and her job, and you see that she worries as much as Natalie does, or even more.
“We’re opening in two hours, so it’s a bit wild in the back, but maybe you wanna see the kitchen?” Sydney offers as she’s showing you around the newly restored restaurant, opening the heavy door. “A quick peek,” she adds as a loud cracking noise comes out of the exact door.
You’ve been to a couple of kitchens, and you must say that this one’s definitely on the chaotic side of the scale. People in white aprons run here and there, no one’s still, not even for a second. There’s a good amount of shouting and a huge amount of swearing. In the middle of everything, there’s Chef Carmen Berzatto. He looks like a character from Cartoon Network. His wild hair is sticking out in all directions, dark tattoos covering his arms and hands, face sweaty, eyes ready to pop out of his head. He’s shorter than most people you see circling the kitchen, but the loudest one. He shouts orders, and you notice the vein on the side of his neck—it sure is ready to burst. You wonder how far he is from having a heart attack.
“Or maybe next time,” Sydney mutters, gently pushing you out of the way and shutting the door again. She leads you to one of the brown wooden tables where you settle again.
“Is he always like that?” you ask Sydney, actually glad that you’re not in the room where the storm’s currently happening.
“Only when he’s stressed,” Sydney explains shortly, an apologetic smile on her lips.
When it comes to money, it’s obvious The Bear doesn’t have much to spare, that much is clear. Sydney is extremely apologetic and sweet about it.
“There’s a marketing budget—previously non-existent—that we’ve set aside and can offer. It’s just not much, I’m afraid,” she tells you, jittery.
You want to reassure her, to tell her that you're doing it for Carmen, for an old "friend." But from what you've gathered, Sydney doesn't even know that Carmen knows you.
So you just smile and reassure her anyway. "I'll put it on my resume. I can use more cases with social media for hospitality," you lie.
Nodding, Sydney clarifies, "Yes, just Instagram. Please. Carmy doesn't want to put anything in the press. Yet."
When a curious Richie joins you at the table, you present the Instagram plan to both of them. Even though Richie can't help making a few rather stupid remarks that only he finds funny, they both listen carefully. You see a lot of skepticism on Richie's face, probably because he doesn't understand some of the big words, you guess, but Sydney seems to be really into everything from pictures of the food and the weekly specials, to quick reels showing potential customers a little bit of behind-the-scenes action.
"Oh, I'm sure Cousin will be thrilled to have people sticking their noses into his business," Richie says, and you're not sure how serious he is. But Sydney shushes him, and you carry on, showing her the mock-up of the possible Instagram feed to set the mood for the profile.
For the next three weeks, you go to The Bear twice a week to gather some content—photos and videos. You talk to the crew and film those who are okay with it. Your presence is met with mixed emotions, but Sydney's gratitude and kindness make up for every suspicious glare and exasperated sigh when you find yourself in someone's way. Besides the restaurant, you take your neighbor's dog for a long walk every Saturday morning, call your mom and dad to check in, scroll Instagram instead of finally starting an actual book, and often wonder why Carmen is so hostile towards you.
Generally, you try not to hang out in the kitchen directly, especially not when Chef Carmen is present. Being uncomfortable in a new environment makes you positively anxious, causing you to go through a whole pack of your favorite cinnamon Simply Gums a day.
You also remember to always tie your hair up—not that the staff there wear hairnets or anything, but you don't want Carmen to find another reason to frown at you. He's been basically only frowning or ignoring you. Hard to tell which one is worse.
You always clean your hands super thoroughly, like during COVID, singing the "Happy Birthday" song to time it before daring to even stick your finger in the restaurant. Sydney offers you an apron to protect your work clothes, which you refuse. You sense from some people there that you're not entirely welcome.
But the more you avoid Carmen, the more likely you are to bump into him. You know Murphy's Law. So one morning, he just appears from around the corner, carrying a tray of mushrooms.
For a second, you're actually horrified that he's going to introduce himself. Before that can happen, you blurt out, "Uh—do you remember me? Copenhagen?"
Carmen stops and looks at you, wiping his wet hands on the towel attached to the string of his white apron. "Yeah," he confirms, "yeah, I do." He says your name, all soft and correct, along with your surname, and with his eyes fixed on you, you're frozen to the spot, affected whether you like it or not. Then he leaves to taste Tina's roasted peppers.
Obviously, your mind can't let the episode slip away. As you type copy for the upcoming Instagram posts, you pause every so often to cringe at how embarrassing you behaved. Of course, he remembers you, for fuck's sake! You're working in his restaurant—kinda.
"Hey! Copenhagen! You wanna see this?" Carmen yells a bit later from the other side of the kitchen, and you falter, deciding whether you're really going to answer to him calling you that.
You bite your tongue and trail hesitantly to the station where Carmen is with Tina and Ebraheim, gathered around a saucepan.
"Tina, chef, this is excellent. Well done," Carmen says to her as you approach, then turns to you.
"This is what we wanna share with the world. Perfect red pepper sauce. Simple but delicious."
"Okay," you respond, taking in the expectant way all three of them are looking at you. Like you're some kind of magician. Or a fraud.
"Just," Carmen adds before he sets off, "no recipes leave this kitchen," and he waits for you to confirm.
"Right."
Slowly, you start to question why you're helping The Bear. Is it because two years ago you thought of Carmen and what you might have felt for him? What could have been? More than the chef himself, you find yourself growing fond of the place and the employees—some of them! Seeing the Instagram followers number increase fills you with pride and satisfaction. Fuck Carmen.
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Mornings are usually the only time when Carmen isn’t around, and you try to time your visits so your paths don’t cross.
Wanting to snap photos of the new tableware and make a quick, fun video reel, you head into the kitchen. There's no one around—Sweeps is probably hiding somewhere, and Sydney might be in the office. Not wanting to bother anyone, you set your always-heavy handbag on a chair and start looking for everything you need. There's no reason for you to feel like you're sneaking around, but you can't help feeling nervous. That’s when your clumsiness strikes, and you manage to knock over a glass of water. Rolling your eyes, you get on your hands and knees to wipe the spilled water with a rug that you hope is meant for cleaning, as you’re very aware of every item having its particular function here.
You straighten up and stretch to get one more plate from the shelf. Then you lose your footing on the still-wet tiles. Your foot slips, and the top plate falls to the countertop with a loud cracking noise. You react quickly, trying to break the fall, but there's no use. The plate shatters to pieces.
Of course, it’s Carmen himself who emerges from the door leading to the office, and you wince—both physically and mentally—preparing yourself for a very unpleasant collision.
“What’s going on?” he asks as he approaches you, eyebrows pinched. He’s not wearing his chef whites, just a simple white t-shirt and dark jeans.
“Sorry, I—” you start apologizing as Carmen stands next to you, assessing the damage.
“What—what’re you doing here?” he asks in a very flat voice, staring at the pieces of ceramic.
“I’m sorry, I’m going to tidy this and also pay for the plate, obviously,” you ramble, reaching down for the shards.
“Don’t,” Carmy barks, stopping you by grabbing your shaking hands in his. His hands are big, the tattoos making them look harsh and crude, even though the touch is gentle. “Don’t cut yourself,” he adds quietly, holding you until you relax your arms and then a second longer.
He must sense your nervousness. “It’s fine, I’ll get it,” Carmen assures you, catching your eye. “Hey,” he lays a soft hand on your arm, “step away, I’ll clean this.”
Nodding, you step back and wait patiently, disconcerted, watching as Carmen carefully handles and discards the shards, then checks the floor for any tiny fragments. He turns back to you.
“Are you okay?” he checks.
“Yeah.” And you’re more thrown off balance by having Carmen pay attention to you, all of a sudden, than by damaging the kitchen’s equipment.
He studies you for a moment, his face unreadable, and you’re the one to look away first. Which you hate, by the way.
“You wanna see some stuff I’ve been working on?”
“Sure,” you agree, taking a deep breath to relax further. “I’m sorry. The loud noise—” you wave your hand in the air vaguely, rolling your eyes at yourself. “Just scared the shit out of me, I guess,” you finish with an apologetic smile.
“You’re alright,” Carmen confirms and disappears for a bit. In the meantime, you have a small meltdown, shaking your head at yourself for being so, so very terribly lame. Luckily, before he returns with a tray of different dishes, you pull yourself together.
Carmen sets the tray down, revealing an array of colorful and sophisticated meals that instantly catch your curiosity.
“Any allergies?” he asks.
“Passion fruit—easily avoidable. Sometimes kiwi,” you list. “And grumpy chefs,” you add cheekily, feeling bold.
Carmen pauses. “I’m not grumpy. I’m focused.”
“You weren’t like this in Copenhagen,” you say softly, leaning a bit closer to him, your body language signaling that once you had been comfortable around each other.
“I’m more focused now,” Carmen retorts, stubborn and maybe a bit offended. “Back then I—uhm—I felt comfortable around you. It was easy.”
“And now?” you almost whisper.
But Carmen ignores the question, pushing the first bowl closer to you. “Here, taste this… or take a picture and then taste it.”
And you understand that the re-bonding is over.
---
Soon, you drop the habit of visiting the restaurant only in the mornings. One reason is that spending time with Carmen, talking to him or watching him cook and explain things, makes you late for work twice in a row. That usually never happens as you take pride in being on time at the office. You don’t work at The Bear for money, but you hardly think about it that way. When you decide to pop in during the morning, Carmen shares his deadly strong black coffee that he mills himself with you. It’s bitter but heavenly. Secretly, you like drinking it while chewing your favorite cinnamon gum, which somehow makes the taste even better—smoother and richer.
The second reason—you discover that Carmen is much calmer in the evenings after service. Less jittery, more relaxed. His blood flows slower, you think. His heart pumps with more ease. Sydney and he share thoughts and plans for the restaurant with you while you all sit at an empty table. It’s nice, you think, while watching Carmen’s hands play with a napkin. His hands are especially nice.
It’s Saturday and raining as you find yourself sitting in Gordon Ramsay's Burger. Nothing could’ve surprised you more than Carmen asking you to go out eat together. Had he felt bad for ignoring you at the beginning? You’re watching the rivers of raindrops on the big glass window, waiting for Carmen. As usual, you’re ten minutes early, and after you order a Life’s a Beach, the first thing on your mind is you're just early, he didn't stand you up, and then: this is not a date, babe! Which instantly startles you into sitting up straight and looking around, as if someone could see your embarrassing thoughts. Why are you even thinking about this?? Then Carmen arrives, wet patches on his shoulders and jeans that cling to his thighs. He chooses the Chicago hot dog and three different burgers with a bunch of sides. While he only nibbles on them and writes down notes on his phone, you feel bad for wasting the food and eat more than you should. Carmen studies the buns very carefully and asks you a lot of questions about the food, some of which you find amusing and actually—endearing. When you go to bed that night, your belly’s uncomfortably full. You dream that you’re pregnant and about to go into labor, and you’re pretty sure that Carmen’s the father. And, honestly, do you need a book of dreams to explain the meaning? Fuck.
---
All goes to hell next week when Carmen sees you eating a sandwich from the corner shop down the street. Instead of having your regular lunch with Becky, you’ve chosen to run to The Bear so you could see Marcus unveil his new dessert. But before that, you popped into the nearby deli to order a mozzarella and sundried tomato sandwich. No one at The Bear had ever explicitly invited you to the family meal, and you would never dare to have free food there. But the way Carmen looks at you while you sit on the step by the back exit, eating the rather dry sandwich, is indescribable. The stern look on his face is back, with a closed-off facade. His eyes are cold. Before you take it all in, you wave at him awkwardly, chewing. Carmen retreats back inside wordlessly, leaving you confused and a little hurt.
Unfortunately, the atmosphere surrounding you doesn’t improve when you return to work, the stupid sandwich sitting in your stomach like a heavy stone. You have a big argument in the meeting room while planning the next month's issue. Then one of your co-workers makes a nasty remark about your single life. The afternoon drags on painfully slowly, which forces you to message your cousin—an astrologist extraordinaire—to check what the heck is going on with the universe.
Tuesday morning is rough. The second you wake up, you know you’ve overslept because you never get up without the alarm ringing angrily. A single glance at your phone proves it to be true. Right after, you notice three missed calls from Sydney and two from Nat. There are no text messages, though.
At first, you intend to call Rob to beg for a home office day, something you rarely ever use. But as soon as you check your calendar, you’re reminded of the big conference happening from 11 a.m. until 5 p.m. You rush to work, finishing your makeup on the train, then enter the office building to quickly run through notes with your colleagues. The first time you have a chance to make a quick phone call is when you finally go to the bathroom. It’s Natalie who you manage to reach first, as the lunch rush at The Bear is just unfolding. Over the cries of Natalie’s baby, you hear half-sentences about a recipe, Carmen, and a leak. It’s hard to put it all together. At 4 p.m., Nat finally sends you a text. It says: “Recipe’s published in Taste of Home. Carm’s mad. Says someone leaked it.”
It contains a link to the Taste of Home website, with Carmen’s perfect Berkswell Pudding recipe in the Top Recipes of the Week, marked “Chef’s tip.” You check it again to make sure, and surely—it’s one of the dishes Carmen introduced to you just last week. You didn’t dare to photograph it, much less taste it. You remember concentrating on the way his lips moved when he explained the preparation process, not much on the cooking itself.
What’s clear to you is that the "Someone" from Nat’s message is actually you.
A gloomy dread settles in your stomach as the meeting goes on and on. You barely pay attention, which makes everything even worse. You’re scared of what’s happened in the restaurant, and you’re worried that you’re going to miss something important in the meeting.
When you run for a second quick bathroom break, instead of peeing, you think of your next step. You could try to call everyone in the restaurant, try to find out what the hell is going on. But you don’t want to be seen as hysterical. You check Instagram and possible messages to find traces of a catastrophe. There’s nothing. Again, you open the website with the recipe. The photos are pretty sloppy, definitely not something Carmen would prepare. As you check the ingredients, you notice there are some major differences from Carmen’s dish. All in all, the only thing that stops you from texting Carmen is your pride. And true fear.
Absolutely dreading facing Carmen, you make it to The Bear during dinner time. Which, obviously, is the worst possible timing. You’re only praying that he’s not in the kitchen but hiding in his office, deep in paperwork.
It’s Sydney who you meet first as you sneak into the restaurant through the back door. She grabs your arm.
“Don’t go to talk to him now! He’s in a really, really bad mood. Natalie and I were trying to call you.” There’s genuine worry on Sydney’s face, her eyes big and honest.
“I don’t understand what happened,” you frown. You can feel a headache approaching from the intense day in the office. “I think he should tell me himself if there’s a problem.”
“I’ve been trying to work it out with him, to explain—”
“Explain what?” you question, more sternly than you usually are around Syd.
She falters. “It’s just this stupid thing—and we love having you—don’t let Carmy upset you,” Sydney half-explains. It doesn’t make much sense, and you shake your head, heading to the office. You’re more mad than afraid now.
You don’t wait for an invite after you knock shortly. Closing the door behind you, you find Carmen leaning against the desk, a bottle of water in his hand.
Everything inside of you drops the second he lays his eyes on you. There’s no doubt he’s angry.
“Didn’t Natalie tell you you don’t have to come here again?” Carmen asks curtly. “I’m surprised you think it’s okay to be here.”
Not expecting Carmen to be this harsh from the beginning, you swallow instead of answering.
“I hope that you’re happy now,” he says meanly, putting the bottle down on the desk.
“I don’t—I don’t know what you’re talking about,” you croak out, sincerely meaning it.
Carmen straightens up, watching you like a feline. “The recipe. It’s out. One fucking thing I asked not to get out, and now the whole of America can see and fucking even cook it at home.”
You’re frozen to the spot. From the very beginning, you knew that Carmen is not a person to mess with, hoping that you would never experience his anger directed at you. Now it’s happening.
You want to say something about no one being able to cook the way he does, but it’s pointless. Instead, you’re fighting off the flush on your face from embarrassment. You feel like a child being scolded, but you don’t want to look like one.
The muted but still loud kitchen noises bleed through the closed door. A shout, clattering. Not loud enough to stop Carmen from piercing you through and through with his ice-cold eyes.
“I promise I didn’t do anything like that,” you say, desperately wanting the chef to believe you. “I swear!”
Carmen pinches the bridge of his nose, one hand propped on his waist. You wait, breathless, for his next move, scared to death. The shirt you have on is wet with your sweat. The really badly smelling kind—the one your body produces when you’re stressed or scared. And you’ve been stressed since the very morning. You flinch when you move your arm and the odor hits your nose, hoping that Carmen can’t smell you. You would be mortified. The strap of your tote bag is digging into your shoulder painfully, but you don’t dare to move to put it down to relieve your arm.
“This all doesn’t—it doesn’t make any sense,” Carmen starts pacing, looking down at the floor and not at you anymore. You’re not sure if it’s better this way. “You come here, wanna do a fucking interview with me, or some shit, then you show up again—this time wanting to work here. For free! So, please, tell me—how does it sound, huh?”
Petrified, you realize how exactly it all sounds. When Carmen says it like this, it makes you look like a fraud. Like a terrible, terrible person. A liar. Your mind goes weeks back, back to the moment you actually thought of maybe digging some scoop in here, maybe convincing Carmen to do the interview after all. But it’s far from how he’s making the situation sound.
“Carmen,” you start without knowing what you want to say. Carmen’s stopped walking around the tiny office like a caged animal, and he’s again looking at you. There’s so much tension in his face, back hunched. “It sounds bad, but may I explain—”
“You may not,” he cuts you off briskly. His neck—normally a place you find sexy—is all red, and the thick vein there is getting more and more prominent by the second. “No one fucks with my business, you understand?” Oh—and he’s shouting now.
The natural defense, you didn’t know existed, is to make yourself smaller. Somehow, anyhow. You hang your head, avoiding looking at his face. You just can’t meet his eyes, even though Carmen’s bowing and tilting his head to force you to.
“It’s like I have to start asking the staff to sign an NDA,” he carries on.
Carmen’s getting slowly closer and closer to you, pushing you against the wall by the door. He’s not touching you but only because you’re not allowing it. You’re sick with humiliation. Lost for words, probably for the first time in your life.
“—and Nat fucking leaves me here—us, all of us—and that’s just not fair. I would expect so, so much more from my sister. Not that my brother was much better,” he chuckles humorlessly, but you see it’s more like an effort to catch his breath. “Lousy fuckers… Do you think you do your job well here, chef?”
He’s scaring you now. The hair by his temples and above his forehead is damp, and his gesticulation is wild and weird.
“Do we disgust you here, is that right, hm?” Carmen probably finally sees your frightened expression because he adds, “Why would you buy food somewhere else and then come here to eat it?!” You understand that he’s referring to the day he saw you eating the sandwich by the rear exit. Unsure whether he expects you to reply, you decide to stay quiet. Your knees are starting to shake, from exhaustion after the long day and perhaps, from Carmen’s current behavior.
“It made ME sick,” he says, his face just inches from yours when one of his hands slams into the thin wall right next to your head. The noise echoes in the room, and you’re desperately hoping it’s not loud enough for the others to hear from outside. You would die on the spot if they knew what’s going on here.
“Who do you think you are?” Carmen shouts some more, loud, by your ear. It vibrates through you and never stops. You’re shivering all over, you notice. It’s not okay, not okay!
At last, you raise your head, chin jutting out. “No one’s going to talk to me like this. No one,” you spit out in the chef’s face, taking him by surprise. “Don’t you ever shout at me again,” and you jab him right in the middle of his chest, instead of punching him there like he deserves.
When you’re leaving his office and rushing to the back exit, you hear Carmen yelling.
Everything feels tense and your hands are shaking. Your jaw is set so hard your teeth could crush from the pressure. The fresh air hits your face, and you focus on breathing deeply through your nose. The sounds remind you of a steam engine. You walk for about a minute, mind blank with the shock. Only when you turn a corner do you allow yourself to stop, which causes the first tears to fall. You’re so mad at yourself. Why the fuck are you crying?! There’s so much frustration in the crazy mixture of emotions you’re feeling. You’re completely overwhelmed with it, not knowing what to focus on at first.
Out of habit, you look for your phone in your handbag to check the screen. The fucking heavy bag that’s been killing your shoulder. Frustrated, you let it slide off your arm and down to the sidewalk. You don’t even care if it breaks, as it lands with a noisy, dull sound. It had been years since you got properly yelled at, and you’re angry that it affects you this much. You promise yourself to take a few seconds here, in the middle of an empty street, then call a cab. At home, you can cry.
PART II
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Death's Chosen
Part 4
Halsin x OC: Aspen
Summary: Halsin comforts Aspen after her nightmare. Something goes horribly wrong with Aspen’s magic.
Word Count: 1.7k
Warnings: Lots of crying, Scratch is a Good Boy™, Halsin is so so comforting, Religious trauma
A/N: I finally did it!!!
Part 3 BG3 Masterlist Part 5
Scratch’s ears perked up, and he picked his head up where it rested on his paws. Surely that couldn’t be right. But then he heard it again. A shrill cry in the night. Not loud, but recognizable. Scratch stood quickly and whined, moving to his Master and nudging his cheek with his nose.
Halsin stirred, seeing the dog in distress. He sat up, “What is it, Scratch?”
“Listen,” the animal said, ears perked.
And Halsin did. And he caught the unmistakable cry in the night. The voice was familiar, the sniffles and sobbing drew him to his feet.
“You stay here,” Halsin commanded, and Scratch sat obediently.
His strides were long and he climbed up the tree with ease, finding the source of the crying. Aspen’s pod. He stepped lightly, making sure not to disturb the others with the shaking of ropes. Carefully, he parted the vines, taking a step inside the moonlit room.
The moonlight spilled through the vines as Halsin stepped into Aspen’s pod, his gaze softening at the sight before him. Aspen lay tangled in the sheets, clutching her chest with one hand, her body curled inward as if bracing against invisible pain. Quiet sobs shook her shoulders, and every now and then, a breath hitched, as though she were fighting to keep the despair at bay.
Halsin knelt beside her, gently brushing damp strands of her coral hair from her forehead. “Aspen,” he whispered. She didn’t respond, only tucked her chin deeper into her chest. His voice lowered to a soothing murmur. “You are safe. No harm will come to you here.”
Aspen trembled, but when she felt the warmth of his hand gently resting on hers, some of the tension eased from her shoulders. “It’s nothing,” she whispered, though the crack in her voice betrayed the weight she carried.
Halsin didn’t press her, sensing that her silence held more than words ever could. “I’ll make you some tea,” he said softly, as if it were the most natural response in the world. He moved with care so as not to disturb her any more than she was. “Come.” He held a hand out to her.
She looked up at him, teal eyes brighter with the tears she shed. She hesitantly took his hand, sniffling as she fought a fresh bout of tears back. He lightly squeezed her hand as she stood, pulling it back to her side once she was on her feet. He noticed she was back in his tunic that fell to her knees. It was endearingly large on her.
The two of them made their way back down to the Inner Sanctuary. Halsin led her to his chambers. They were more open than the pods, and he had a station for tea. It wasn’t infrequent that he had nights he couldn’t sleep well also.
Aspen took a seat on the edge of his bed, watching as he steeped various herbs, his back to her, though he glanced back every once in a while to check she was still there. Her tears gradually dried, and she sat sniffling, arms crossed over her chest protectively.
He joined her side shortly with a steaming mug of herbal tea---lavender and chamomile with a pinch of licorice root. “Here,” he murmured, sitting beside her on the bed and offering the mug. Aspen adjusted as his weight dipped the mattress, wrapping her hands around the warm cup, though she couldn’t quite meet his gaze. “Thank you,” she whispered.
Halsin leaned back on one hand, his presence steady. “You don’t have to carry everything alone,” he said gently, knowing she wouldn’t open up tonight---but hoping she’d remember his words when she was ready.
Aspen gave a small nod, sipping the tea. He wouldn’t like what she had to say when that time came. Her chest still ached, and her thoughts were heavy, but the warmth in the tea and Halsin’s calming presence dulled the sharp edges of her fear.
Eventually, her exhaustion overcame her, and she drifted off with Scratch curled at her side, his head resting protectively on her hip. Halsin watched until her breathing evened, then slipped out of the bed and made his way to one of the other cots. As he lay down, he exhaled softly. His mind lingered on the sorrow in her eyes. He would wait.
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The next morning, Aspen found herself standing before the small herb planters Halsin had shown her. She hadn’t thought about how she woke up in his chambers, alone save for Scratch. Not that she had expected him to stay, more so surprised he had allowed her to stay. But she was learning that was just who he was. Or at the least, it was how he had behave thus far.
Kneeling down, she focused on the delicate herbs---lavender, lemon balm, and mint. Her fingers brushed over a sprig of lavender, willing it to grow stronger beneath her touch. She willed warmth through her, natural energy and sunlight.
Instead, the flower wilted beneath her touch, its petals curling and blackening as if scorched. Her magic felt cold and hollow.
Aspen’s breath hitched. Panic surged in her chest, but she clamped it down with practiced precision. Calm. Stay calm. She forced her hands to remain steady as she scooped a handful of soil and buried the withered plant beneath it, hiding the evidence.
Her mind raced, but she kept her movements slow and deliberate, like nothing unusual had happened. If Halsin saw the dead herbs, what would he think? Would he blame her? Or worse---send her away?
The next day, it happened again. Out in the forest, she bent to gather herbs for the tea and watched helplessly as the stems withered the moment her fingertips brushed them. She clenched her fists, her heart thudding painfully in her chest. Please. Please no…
On the third day, Aspen’s path crossed with a small rabbit nibbling on a patch of clover near the riverbank. She crouched low, a bittersweet warmth spreading through her chest at the sight of the soft creature. Perhaps this was what she needed---a small reminder that nature hadn’t forsaken her completely. That Silvanus had not given up on her yet.
She held out a hand, whispering. “It’s alright, my little love, I won’t hurt you.”
The rabbit sniffed the air, its tiny nose twitching. It hopped closer, cautiously sniffing her outstretched fingers. For a fleeting moment, Aspen dared to hope, her breath caught in her chest---
Until the rabbit squealed, a sharp sound of terror that pierced the quiet morning. It bolted into the undergrowth, as if her touch had burned it.
She fell back, feeling the grass beneath her wilting and decaying. She stood, quickly scrambling away as her breaths came faster. Hot tears welled in her eyes and spilled over, her chest tightening with frustration and grief. “I don’t know what’s wrong with me,” she whispered, her voice breaking under the weight of the admission.
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Halsin noticed the distance growing between them. Aspen’s usual smiles were fewer, and she kept to herself more each day. When her avoidance became impossible to ignore, he approached her after breakfast.
“Come with me,” he said, his tone warm but firm. “We’ll patrol the forest together. The fresh air will do us both good.” As though all of the air surrounding them was anything but fresh.
This is it, Aspen though. This is the day he sends me away. Aspen hesitated, looking for a way to refuse, but something in Halsin’s gaze told her that he wouldn’t accept no for an answer. With a resigned sigh, she followed him into the woods.
The two of them walked side by side, the forest alive with birdsong and the rustling of leaves. Halsin spoke easily about the natural world, his voice carrying the wisdom and reverence of one who understood its rhythms intimately.
“As druids, we share a connection with the wild,” he said thoughtfully. “But leadership can make that bond… heavy.”
Aspen glanced sideways at him, sensing the personal weight behind his words. “Being First Druid can’t be easy,” she murmured.
Halsin gave a small nod. “It isn’t. But I’ve learned that the wild does not judge as people do. There is balance in all things---even in hardship.” He glanced at her meaningfully, his gaze inviting her to speak.
Aspen hesitated, biting her lip. She thought of the herbs wilting beneath her touch, the rabbit’s terrified shriek, and the weight of her past pressing on her chest. “I’ve always felt… out of place. Out of touch,” she admitted quietly. “Even among my old circle. And now, here…” She trailed off, her voice cracking.
Halsin slowed his steps, turning to face her. “You are not out of place here,” he said softly. “But I know the burden of feeling like you don’t belong.”
Her lips formed a thin line. She knew he meant well, but he had no idea how deep this hurt ran. Or how true it really was.
Before she could respond, a rustling caught their attention. A small rabbit emerged from the underbrush, pausing just a few feet away. Halsin crouched, his movements slow and non-threatening despite his size.
The rabbit sniffed cautiously, burrowing its head against his large palm. Halsin looked back and beckoned her to join him. She frowned, heart thudding in her chest.
Aspen knelt beside him, holding out her hand once more. The rabbit took a step toward her, but the moment its nose touched her fingers, it let out that same terrified shriek and bolted into the forest.
Aspen’s heart shattered. Hot tears welled in her eyes, and this time she didn’t bother stopping them. “Silvanus has forsaken me,” she cried, fists pushing into her eyes. “He’s given up after all this time.”
Halsin’s heart ached at the sight of her despair. He didn’t know what he had missed or not seen to make her come to that conclusion. “Whatever it is,” he murmured, “we’ll face it together.”
For the first time in days, Aspen leaned into his touch, letting herself be held. The forest stood silent around them. Eerily so. But Halsin’s quiet strength felt like an anchor, keeping her from drifting too far into the darkness as she cried into his chest.
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A/N: Omg this has been in the works forever and it's not even that much. Writer's block is a bitch frfr
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Tag List: @leiotyp
See my Non Writing OC Masterlist for screenshots and artwork of my characters and their ships!
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Clover as Sammy Lawrence for my CRK x BATIM AU!
He's way better at making axes than Licorice😇
Backstory-Clover was a sweet, music and nature-loving Bard who sang to all creatures who heard his songs but with fame he became more irritated by... Well... Everything, almost. But he loves music so why wasn't he happy about his musical talents gaining traction? He was even being payed big time to write songs and play them for others, way too often though.
But, he still loved music and nature just as much as before, same with Herb, who wasn't all that into music but loved the outdoors, maybe more than Clover himself, Licorice though wasn't fond of much of either, but they were still close in secret.
Although, one day, something went wrong, he got caught in a crossfire of a gruesome battle between Dark Enchantress and Pure Vanilla, getting hit by a strong, burning attack, disfiguring him due to it.
But things just kept on getting worse for Clover, he went more and more insane until he purposely went missing, disfiguring other cookies who came close, like something straight out of a horror story, one being a somewhat younger Cookie, although the hole in his face wasn't CLOVER'S fault.
But through this new hell, he at least has his king to guide him and his subjects!
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My Cookie Run Ships
"x" = Romantic
"+" = Platonic
Singles:
Ninja Cookie x/+ ???
Muscle Cookie x/+ ???
Alchemist Cookie x/+ ???
Star Coral Cookie x/+ ???
Peach Blossom Cookie x/+ ???
Cloud Haetae x/+ ???
Matcha Cookie x/+ ???
Rebel Cookie x/+ ???
Linzer Cookie x/+ ???
Pastry Cookie x/+ ???
Purple Yam Cookie x/+ ???
Crimson Coral Cookie x/+ ???
Wind Archer Cookie x/+ ???
Stormbringer Cookie x/+ ???
Frost Queen Cookie x/+ ???
Sea Fairy Cookie x/+ ???
Partners(Platonic):
Icicle Yeti Cookie + Snow Sugar Cookie
Gumball Cookie + Cherry Cookie
Olive Cookie + Eclair Cookie
Carol Cookie + Pinecone Cookie
Macaron Cookie + Schwarzwälder
Mala Sauce Cookie + Pumpkin Pie Cookie
Partners(Romantic):
Gingerbrave x Wizard Cookie
Gingerbright x Strawberry Cookie
Angel Cookie x Devil Cookie
Beet Cookie x Carrot Cookie
Custard Cookie ||| x Strawberry Crepe Cookie
Clover Cookie x Licorice Cookie
Avocado Cookie x Wildberry Cookie
Pancake Cookie x Onion Cookie
Blackberry Cookie x Adventurer Cookie
Knight Cookie x Princess Cookie
Nutmeg Tiger Cookie x Cilantro Cobra Cookie
Street Urchin Cookie x Caramel Choux Cookie
Mercurial Knight Cookie x Moonlight Cookie
Creme Brulee Cookie x Herb Cookie
Silverbell Cookie x Sherbet Cookie
Mozzarella Cookie x Golden Cheese Cookie
Burnt Cheese Cookie x Black Raisin Cookie
Vampire Cookie x Frilled Jellyfish Cookie
Peppermint Cookie x Sorbet Shark Cookie
Black Lemonade Cookie x Shining Glitter Cookie
Tarte Tatin Cookie x Oyster Cookie
Kouign-Amann Cookie x Madeleine Cookie
Prune Juice Cookie x Blueberry Pie Cookie
Captain Caviar Cookie x Black/White Pearl Cookie
Cream Unicorn Cookie x Affogato Cookie
Financier Cookie x Clotted Cream Cookie
Crunchy Chip Cookie x Tiger Lily Cookie
Cocoa Cookie x Mint Choco Cookie
Twizzly Gummy Cookie x Pomegranate Cookie
Lilac Cookie x Scorpion Cookie
Espresso Cookie x Fig Cookie
Kumiho Cookie x Werewolf Cookie
Latte Cookie x Caramel Arrow Cookie
Rye Cookie x Chili Pepper Cookie
Milk Cookie x Dark Choco Cookie
Ananas Dragon Cookie x Mango Slice Cookie(I just named an NPC not really my oc to be honest)
Lotus Dragon Cookie x Hydrangea Cookie
Lychee Dragon Cookie x Roll Cake Cookie
Fire Cookie x Mocha Ray Cookie
Pure Vanilla Cookie x White Lily Cookie
Hollyberry Cookie x Dark Cacao Cookie
Mystic Flour Cookie x Eternal Sugar Cookie
Cloud Deity Cookie x Spinach Cookie
Tea Knight Cookie x Innkeeper Cookie(Need a name for her 😭)
Cream Soda Cookie x Cherry Cola Cookie
Agent Jjamgjamg Cookie x Agent Olive Cookie
Starch Noodle Cookie x Flat Tofu Cookie
Canon x/+ OC's
Butter Roll Cookie x Flower Petal Cookie
Rockstar Cookie x Milkshake Cookie
Royal Margarine Cookie x Red Velvet Cookie x Rainbow Gingerbread Cookie
Almond Cookie x Cashew Nut Cookie
Elder Faerie Cookie x Sour Cream Cookie
Stardust Cookie x Aurora Cookie
Capsaicin Cookie x Taho Cookie
Pitaya Dragon Cookie x Cherry Apple Cookie
Longan Dragon Cookie x Apple Cherry Cookie
Burning Spice Cookie x Vanilla Cookie
Shadow Milk Cookie x Strawberry Jam Cookie
Silent Salt Cookie x Peanut Butter Cookie
Abalone Cookie x Nora Shell Cookie
Host Cookie x Sunflower Cookie
Lord Oyster Cookie x Black Rift Cookie
Macaroni Cookie x Spaghetti Sauce Cookie
Cheddar Cheese Cookie x Carbonara Sauce Cookie
Saffron Buffalo Cookie x Mammillaria Cactus Cookie
Yogurt Cream Cookie x Whip Cream Cookie
Walnut Cookie x Caramel Bun Cookie
String Gummy Cookie x Mocha Cream Cookie
Langue De Chat Cookie x Tyro Rookie Cookie/Rook
Cappuccino Cookie x Cheesestick Cookie
Abyss Monarch Cookie x Bubblegum Bubble Cookie
Marble Danish Cookie x Cotton Flower Cookie
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Hi, congrats for reaching 60 followers! I hope you've been doing well. May I ask these prompts (8, 16, 22, 26) for Kazuha?
Always stay safe and healthy! 🙏
SCARLET LEAVES PURSUE WILD WAVES: kazuha kaedehara x gn! reader
masterlist | 60 special ml
notes: some of them are a continuation of memories; you don’t have to read it but it’s to get the characters' relationship with each other. sorry for the late reply! more under the cut! (16, 22 & 26 will be written soon + linked on the masterlist)
8. brushing knuckles softly over their cheek
you would never express it but you wonder if kazuha still shares the feelings as you do for him. the love he shows to you through poems, quotes of literature and samples of herbs in the places he visits. you looked at the letter by your nightstand: kazuha’s letter for today. you went to reach for the letter but the shiver of insecurity pricks you. overwhelmed by your emotions that plagues you, sticking by your sides, whispering lies. you leave the letter alone while hoping the love would overpower the insecurities. but lying awake in your shared bed wouldn’t do anything to help.
you went to the kitchen, opening the herbs cabinet. you grabbed the three herbs needed to soothe your anxiety as you silently thank the secretary of the liyue qixing for the recipe. you were missing a particular wheat but it’s okay since you can replace it with mai ya. you infused the wheat with licorice root and jujubes. once the tea was completely ready, you seeped into the couch, sipping onto the tea. the parasite in your head is still getting to you but yet it’s simmering down. unknownst to you, kazuha was lingering in the hallway.
“name? is that gan mai da zao tang i smell?” he asked, walking towards you. you winced, the warm tea seeping into your clothes. you didn’t expect him to be home too soon. it’s almost as if he’s similar to xiao when you call out his name. or maybe it's the lovers' sense. or maybe–
kazuha’s musky scent engulfing your senses automatically calms you down. you set down the teacup as kazuha’s full attention is on you.“yes, it is. when did you get back? i didn’t hear you by the door.” you asked as he reached for your hands, massaging them.
he hummed a tune that he said only the wind knows, “if i recall, i had written you a letter of my adventures and when i was arriving back from sumeru.”
shit. the letter that sits on the nightstand, unopened. you usually open it first thing in the morning but since you were overcome with emotions earlier in the morning, you weren’t able to open it.
he brushed the pad of his thumb over your cheek, “it’s okay,” he wiped away a tear you didn’t know was there. “do not worry… so do you have anything that’s on your mind?” your head still resting on his hand but you pulled away. the warmth of his hand is lingering on your cheek.
your lips quivered as he handed back your tea– it was cold but you still sipped it away. hoping the nervous buzz goes away, you answered, “yes, there is. i have been overthinking about your relationship and earlier, i was overwhelmed with my feelings and–” you looked at kazuha, he didn’t say anything, waiting for you to go on. “– and i thought you would leave me for someone better than me.”
he took the mug in your hand and placed it on the coffee table. he cupped your face again, his pads of his thumbs drew circles into your skin gently. “name, you know i’m not the type of person to make promises. but for you, i will. i promise to you, in the name of the raiden shogun– or any archons for that matter– i will always love you.”
you cracked a joke, “even if i was a hillichurl?” his face contorted into confusion before he laughed,
“even if you were a lawachurl or a crystalfly. hell, even a dainty amur maple sapling!”
you snorted, “thank you for cheering me up, kazuha.”
“of course, anything for you.”
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Are there any fankids that you need flavour/character ideas for?
Yeah I do. Honestly, maybe it’ll help me get some motivation to do them too
Alright, so first I’m gonna list character idea ones, along with the names I already have for them (because sometimes people suggest names for them despite me already having them)
Dino Sour/Abyss Monarch: Gummy Shark
Popcorn/Banana: Banana Chip (originally it was Popcorn Ball, but they looked too similar to Popcorn)
Coffee Candy/Cherry Ball: Cherry Candy
Mint Choco/Rockstar: Mint Toothpaste (honestly I’m half considering giving them an occupation name, but that’ll only be once I have a character for them)
Pomegranate/Affogato: Pomegranate Sundae
Crunchy Chip/Red Velvet: Blackout
Affogato/Cream Unicorn: Coffee Pavlova
Black Raisin/Licorice: Grape Licorice
Latte/Almond: Almond Milk (I do have that they use milk magic, but I don’t know what else to do)
Cherry/Herb: Spring Blossom (though open to change)
Abyss Monarch/Electric Eel: Blue Ring
Alright, I should stop on characters now, now let’s just go to quickfire flavor ones (these are the ones you suggest names for)
Raspberry/Caramel Arrow
Kumiho/Werewolf
Shining Glitter/Herb
Electric Eel/Box Jellyfish (this is oc x canon, but I cannot for the life of me come up with a good name and it’s an old request that I want to do, but I’m stuck at the name)
White Lily/Pomegranate (best I have is Poppy, and I’m using Spider Lily for Pomegranate/Hydrangea)
Cotton Candy/Fig
Cream Unicorn/Stardust
Hero/Sandwich
Shadow Milk/Lychee
Herb/Parfait
Timekeeper/Longan
You don’t have to do all of them, but some help would be appreciated please
Edit: oh wait, some parent requests I forgot but also want to ask
First off, can someone PLEASE help me with the other Dark Cacao parent? I have asked multiple times. I have one named Forastero, so that covers the cacao part, and the other one I want to give the prefix “Dark”, but she doesn’t have to be a cacao bean or anything
And then the other one is parents for Kumiho and Vagabond
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some of the ships i like in cookie run and custom names for them:
Sparkling Wine (Sparkling x Vampire)
Twilight Melody (Rockstar x Vampire)
Shining Flower (Sparkling x Herb)
Bad Luck (Licorice x Clover)
Nature Lovers (Clover x Herb)
Bittersweet Tunes (Licorice x Parfait)
Sea Shanty (Black Pearl x Captain Caviar)
Pearl Jelly (Black/White Pearl x Frilled Jellyfish)
Royal Rivals (Raspberry x Princess)
Sprite Fanta (Lime x Orange)
Most Wanted (Cotton Candy x Chili Pepper)
Burning Whiskey (Chili Pepper x Rye)
Love Letter (Pink Choco x Cotton Candy)
Candied Yams (Milk x Purple Yam)
Veggie Sub (Sandwich x Spinach)
Starry Waters (Moonlight x Sea Fairy)
Lotus Paradise (Lotus x Hydrangea)
Knight's Honor (Princess x Pistachio)
Rouge Archer (Carmel Arrow x Raisin)
Basic Spells (Gingerbrave x Wizard)
Pop Art (Strawberry x Mustard)
Humble Beginnings (Pure Vanilla x White Lily)
Hot Mint Cocoa (Mint Choco x Cocoa)
Daredevils (Kiwi x Roll Cake)
Wild Fields (Carrot x Beet)
Fashion Trend (Sour Belt x Chocolate Bon Bon)
False Wishes (Lotus x Snake Fruit)
Alt Pop Jams (Shining Glitter x Black Lemonade)
Blue Jelly (Aquamarine x Frilled Jellyfish)
Marching Band (Macaron x Marshmallow)
Dark Priest (Dark Enchantress x Pomegranate)
Honeysweet Memories (Amber Sugar x Sugar Glass)
Half n Half (Madeleine x Espresso)
PaintSplash (Bubblegum x Soda)
Booming Bubbles (Bubblegum x Cherry)
Salty Seas (Salt x Pirate)
Moonlit Sea Shanties (Pirate x Sea Fairy x Moonlight)
Dragon's Calvary (Pitaya x Hollyberry x Knight)
Cream Cherry Soda (Cream Soda x Cherry Cola)
(Love Letter was not coined by me, Idk who coined it)
there will be more than just these lot btw... i'm cooking
#cookie run#cookie run ovenbreak#crob#cookie run kingdom#crk#cookie run ships#im not tagging every single ship that's too long and i'm tired
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Y’all voted, and I delivered! :D
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