#letters to RM

[rapmonkive]

good luck. be safe joon!!!

Dear River, Thank you. I promise I'll be safe as much as I can. I will learn so many skills here that you won't need to worry about me. I'll be able to protect anyone and it will only take a few weeks training. A lot is going to be crammed into a few weeks. I will be very busy and exhausted at the end of every night.

Namjoon

[bts-trans]

240912 Weverse Translation

RM's Post ❇️

안녕 사랑하고 사랑하는 여러분! 저 서른이네요. (벌써..)

스스로조차도 종종 하잘것없다 느꼈던 이 날에 진심을 꾹꾹 눌러담은 축하를 보내주셔서 너무나 고마워요. 덕분에 잘 버티고 있다는 거. 알고 계시죠? 불가에 이런 말이 있습니다. '너는 오직 너 스스로를 등불 삼아 의지하며 살라.' 멀고 먼 화천에서 마음이 위태롭거나 이유없이 분노가 치밀 때면 이 말을 떠올립니다. 지금 이 순간 해버리고 싶은 말들이 많지만 오늘은 대신 인스타에 올리는 사진 몇 장으로 대신할까 하여요. RPWP(혹은 그 다큐멘터리ㅡ)처럼 더 아름답고 멋진 방식으로 토로할 때와 장소가 반드시 있겠죠. 지금 여기가 아닌 곳. 제 군생활은 이제 반환점을 돌았습니다. 논산 훈련소에서 3km 뜀걸음을 할 때마다 숨이 턱까지 차오르던 그 반환점이네요. 무상하죠. 눈이 쏟아지고 해가 바뀌고 날이 또 ���스해지고 벚꽃이 핀 다음에 그 다음에 씩씩하게 찾아뵐게요. 좋은 날, 좋은 말들과 좋은 마음 부디 건강만 하셔요. 사랑합니다 (https://weverse.io/bts/artist/4-178740527)

Hello My dear, beloved people! I've turned thirty. (already..)

On a day when I often feel insignificant, I'm so grateful to you for sending me your wishes, so full of sincerity. I'm able to endure thanks to you. You know that, right?

There is a saying in Buddhism. 'Be a lamp unto yourself, be a refuge to yourself.'

Here, far away in Hwacheon, when my heart feels unstable, or fills up with rage for no reason, I think of these words.

In this moment, there are a lot of things I want to just let out and say. But for today, I think I'll post a few pictures to Instagram instead.

Just like RPWP (or its documentary), there will no doubt be a time and place for me to speak my mind in nicer, more beautiful ways. A place that's not here or now.

I have now reached the halfway point of my military service. It's just like the halfway point of the 3km run we do at the Nonsan training camp -the point where I'm gasping for air. Absurd, isn't it?

After the snow falls, the year changes, the weather becomes warmer again, and the cherry blossoms bloom; After that, I will come to you, full of life.

Good days, good words, and good hearts Please stay healthy. I love you.

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[coralidos]

𝗜𝗻ㅤּㅤ𝗱𝗶𝗴𝗼ㅤライフㅤ(𝑛.)ㅤ𝗂𝗌 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖼𝗈𝗅𝗈𝗋 𝗈𝖿 𝗂𝗇𝗍𝗎𝗂𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗉𝖾𝗋𝖼𝖾𝗉𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗂𝗌 𝗁𝖾𝗅𝗉𝖿𝗎𝗅 𝗂𝗇 𝗈𝗉𝖾𝗇𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗋𝖽 𝖾𝗒𝖾; 𝗂𝗍'𝗌 𝖺 𝖼𝗈𝗅𝗈𝗋 𝗐𝗁𝗂𝖼𝗁 𝗋𝖾𝗅𝖺𝗍𝖾𝗌 𝗍𝗈 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗇𝖾𝗐 𝖺𝗀𝖾.

[dark-romantics]

The right people will always bring out the best parts of you. they will bring out the sun and watch you bloom.

~ r.m. drake

[postingcards]

real photo postcards of cunard's greyhounds on their sea trials ca. 1907

[liveyun]

I GENUINELY THOUGHT NAMJOON HARD LAUNCHED HIS DAUGHTER ON HIS BIRTHDAY ☠️

for anyone wondering, she’s stylist Kim Young-jin’s daughter!

[complicatedconstellation-blog]

[lizziexmeow]

[ BTS MEDIA 🌟 WEVERSE ] 240101 - 14:18 KST

[#호비의편지] 📬Letter from #jhope

*Inside Hobi's letter

Happy New Year ARMY ♡♡♡♡

It's the year "2024" everyone!! May you receive lots of blessings this new year and I hope that in the year 2024 of ARMY will only be filled with happiness!!

To give you all some good news this new year..

Hobi will be discharged within this year~!!

Of course.... But the thing is that it's almost at the end.... hahahahaha~

Also I think that time all the gifts for you will be revealed gradually....!! So please look forward to it!!

Because you're starting the year 2024 with Hobi's message, you'll start the year with hope and it will be a good start/beginning!!

Health is the first priority!!

Please don't be sick!! Let's be happy!! I love you!!

Love u ARMY ♡♡♡

240101

#ALetter_Delivered_ToARMYs_FromHobi

#HobisHeart

[letters-for-bangtan]

For Yoongi, my soft-hearted rapper Our mistakes make us human, and you taught me that being human is one of the rarest and most beautiful things on earth. You, my bright lotus flower who is an example of kindness, the one who gives us hope and love out of pain, please remember that one mistake cannot erase all the good you have brought into the lives of the people you love, the BTS members and ARMY. Please remember that bad guys will always try to steal what is beautiful, but we will succeed because we are together. ARMY and I are right behind you. I promise we won't let you fall, so let's keep flying together. Yoongi, you're loved by many. You are our home, and your music is our medicine. You were, are and always will be our eternal artist. We will always wait for you. I will always wait for you.

Everything will be okay ♡

With all my love, Jane 17/08/2024

[straykisses220]

For you… yes, you

Don’t give up. You’re good enough. You’re literally so beautiful in my eyes. Beautiful in the way the sun kisses the trees in the summer mornings. I know that’s hard to accept sometimes- for I understand how you feel. I understand you.

I’ll be here for you always, I will never leave you. As long as your heart swells and eyes glitter, mine will for you… and for that you’re not a burden.

life is beauty… you are life.

Do you not believe you are as beautiful as life itself? Do you not feel the skin melting towards your bones, do you not feel the warmth of your eyelids when you blink? You are living, so aren’t you as beautiful as life?

Think of the warmth of a needed hug. About the rain pouring down your face. Of the calmness you feel when you glare towardsthe clouds in the blue and gray skies.

I know it hurts a lot. And I know that sometimes it doesn’t even hurt. That sometimes your soul feels drained of that life you so are.

I think of you. Everyday. You run across my mind like it’s a field of sunsets and warm flowers. It gives me joy to see your real smile. The way your eyes squint and your cheeks get pink. I love your eyes, I could stare at them all eternity if I could. For when I look into your eyes, I see that life you hide.

You’re beautiful, and I know you can’t see that, not yet. I wish you could see yourself in my eyes. I love how warm you are. And I love how happy you make me.

So no, don’t give up. The world would feel too bitter without you. I love you.

[rapmonkive]

Joonnie I love you so much, I hope you're healthy and happy there at the military, I miss you so much, we miss youu🤧💔

I love you so much Namu🫶🏻💜💜

Aw, thank you so much, Fanyyy. I really appreciate this letter. Getting things like this really makes the days go by much better and faster.

Days are going by. Some days are far more challenging than others. We had the cold weather training in January, and if you don't know what that is-it's when you go out with just your gear and tents and you do training exercises for four days out in the cold and snow. Where I am in Hwacheon, it's constant snow. Even if it's not snowing, it remains cold enough the snow doesn't melt and it remains for a very long time.

We did shooting practices in the snow. We set up our tents in the snow. There was no electricity so we had to rely on making fires to keep warm, hand warmers, and our winter gear. There was huddling and pushing on each other to reach the fire.

There was a practice where you have to hike with your gear for several km in the snow, and also where you practice carrying your wounded, so we would put our bags and weapons on stretchers until it weighed about as much as a man does and carry the stretchers (or drag them) long distances.

that was January though, and weirdly February is warmer. When the temperature goes up a few degrees it almost feels like spring. I've gotten a lot of care packages from my loved ones. I'm also at the point where I can come home on weekends or at the very least leave the base when my duties are over. I've got more freedom now and my phone. There's an internet cafe on base I go to every day to eat something not cafeteria food and just be online awhile.

And fanyyy, I've seen your tarot readings before! I've run across those posts! They are interesting. Keep that up.

[bts-trans]

240912 RM's Instagram Stories

Story 1: 추억!

Story 1: Memories!

Story 2: This is a handwritten draft of his Weverse letter (https://www.tumblr.com/bts-trans/761425015095934976/240912-weverse-translation?source=share). The contents of the letter are ordered differently from the letter posted on Weverse. There are also some additional lines here.

Top Right: papancha (proliferation of thought)

Before the line "In this moment, there are a lot of things I want to just let out and say.": Confusion, powerlessness. The gravity of time and place. These familiarities,

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[armynoonas]

Joon in Weverse

🐨 It has been a while. We recently celebrated our 11th anniversary, but I couldn't even leave a short message due to being so busy. Ha ha ha. A month ago, "Come Back to Me" was released, and three weeks ago, "RPWP" came out. I had planned to enlist with Hoseok last April, but I kept delaying it. Finally, I enlisted* alongside my younger members. It feels like I spent the entire year of 2023 only working and drinking. I envy my friend who now has the rank of Sergeant, but I have no regrets. (Haha) This has been my first job where I couldn’t share my thoughts directly with you. I have a lot to say, but it's all written in the album... It's an album where I struggled to be completely honest with myself. I hope you'll keep it close and read it for a long time. I request earnestly Three days ago, Jin hyung was finally discharged. I brought a saxophone for fun and played it, but I was really overwhelmed with mixed emotions. I wondered if he felt lonely and struggled, being the first to go. How did he feel? Eighteen months is fair to everyone here. We're living through what Jin hyung experienced in the past. Coming out after a long time, I realize that time flows differently outside. Gravity even feels different... Everyone is living well without me, and everything is moving along fine. Although I feel a bit empty, I was so happy that we, the members, could gather and have a heartfelt conversation over a drink for the first time in almost ten months (though more than half of the conversation was about military life... LOL). No wonder I’ve missed these people so much. I’ve even called them occasionally just to ask how they are doing out of the blue. Jin hyung always used to say he missed the members a lot and that we would feel the same. Living somewhere in Gangwon-do, far apart from each other, I deeply understand that now. Seeing their faces and talking to them made me realize that some things never change, where I belong, and who I am. It’s been a precious and meaningful time for all of us. Where might we be wandering next? What faces will we have at our 12th anniversary next year? I miss you all, and because I miss you, I picture you. It's already been eleven years. It will be just another year counting down the days. I entrust the future to Jin hyung and Hobi, who have returned to your embrace. I just realize that many people still haven't forgotten us, are waiting for us, and love us. The outpouring of love. As always, I'll just think of the members and all of you, and live each day well. I love you. Thank you. Until next early summer, Namjoon

Trans. by SaraBangtan07

[240615]

[a-dreamersjournal]

16th January 2023, 8:10 PM.

If I can rip my skin off of my bones, I would. If I can shatter, burn myself to ashes right here and now, I would. I don't like that my hands are shaking, that my breath is coming out all ragged, I can't feel my legs, my body, I can't do anything about it. Just take me home please. Somewhere where I'll finally know peace. Please. I'm so sick and tired of this game, this life. I can't, do this. I don't want to. This is so unfair, so unfair. Why, just why again. I'm so numb, I can't do anything about it. I need a safe place to fall, to finally... Let go. Of everything. Everyone. This feels so suffocating. So suffocating. I just want to breathe freely. Or stop breathing at all. I wish I was dead. I wish I took that final step few days ago, why am I being like this to Myself I have no idea. But that's exactly how I feel like. Anyone who loves me wouldn't want me to suffer. So just....i want this suffering to end. How much longer? How much. No. Why again. It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. It has to be. Please let it all be okay. Who am I even pleading at this point, I don't know.

I want to destroy myself. I don't want to feel this misery and pain anymore. Just. Let it all be over please. I don't even have the courage to end it all myself. Please let me be free. Please. Let me go. Let me go. My legs my arms my mind my lungs my heart my soul every fucking part of me is so tired. They want to give up. I want to give up.

I want to shred myself into pieces. I want to leave. I want to go. Anywhere but here. It's hurting. Its hurting so much. I don't want to cry. I can't cry. I just can't. It feels so....painful. Excruciating pain. Endless. That's all I can feel. That's all I ever feel. This.. I just want-

I don't wanna lose myself again. I'm so so scared. I can't do this anymore and I'm so tired and so scared. So fucking scared. I don't wanna go back, I don't want to lose myself. I can't handle the same pain again. Please. Please I don't wanna lose myself. I don't. I can't do this anymore. I'm so scared, so scared. Shaking of my hand and numbness of my legs is scaring me. It is so... Terrifying. I am scared and in so much pain.

I want to draw blood. My blood. Just to feel that I'm alive. My voice is shaking so bad, the effort it takes to even get a word out is exhausting me so much, making my throat hurt. I feel so helpless.

It's hurting. I Cannot make it.

[postingcards]

aquitania at sunset art card by james mann. postmarked jan 22 1924

[ousnap]