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Reuniting with a distorted past.
Extra:(New personality tested gone wrong)

wanted to play with rin living in the aftermath aus aswell and had these drawings laying around to share so yay
Panel 1: Was buried alive.
Comic 1: Who are you supposed to be?



new friends
Comic 2: Misguided protection.

obito still sensing the warning signs of rin losing her temper. anyways they proceeded to be dragged into the ocean by rin like some sea monster
Comic 3: Finding out (Now what will you do?)
obito is harshly brought back from his delusions because now its not just kushina but rin too who he needs to ripped out the tail beast from
#naruto#naruto fanart#kakashi hatake#rin nohara#obito uchiha#naruto sukea#fanart#art#my art#sketch#drawing#digital art#hope i can add something new and if not may i shall add fuel to the fire for rin!! :)#So Rin loses ALL of her memories forever (kinda)#the only thing that remains for sure is the feeling of missing something that she'll never reach it again#she's alone and is left to roam directionless until she meets an elderly civilian that is also alone#she stays with her for a year+ but she passes away. But Rin with her new identity decides to walk forward (with love comes pain#but to love at all was the greatest thing to her.) She cherishes her new memories and won't let it stop her from moving on#inbetween this time frame she meets isobu in her mind after he gains enough form within her (who is also without memories)#Now WAY LATER she meets Sukea who looks like he's about to panic and she tries to help (which uh doesnt work too well)#but then Sukea joins her on her travels (sending minato an letter through his summons of rin being alive and forgetting the mission)#they both wander around (he doesnt know how to bring up their past) but then obito appears (always at the wrong times)#At first glance he's pissed but then realizes that this isnt fake AND its both the worse thing yet best thing to ever happen#Now Rin thinks she made two new friends who give her feelings of warmth but they both also reminded her of something old she thinks#PS Minato and Kushina are freaking out back in the village but can't do anything about it (Obito hasn't acted on his plans yet so yes)
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Dysprosium, Mary Soon Lee
dysprosium, AN 66, is a silvery-white rare earth metal. its name is derived from the greek dysprositos, meaning “hard to get at”, owing to the difficulty in separating and isolating this rare earth element. dysprosium is used to measure neutron flux, to fuel reactors, and to activate phosphors. terfenol-d is a magnetorestrictive alloy, meaning that it changes shape when a magnetic field is applied, and is used to manufacture underwater acoustic systems.
jason “robo” robertson, dallas stars #21 for @simmyfrobby’s nhl periodic table poems <3
#i had a couple different ideas for poems that were taken by the time i could go deranged for a couple hours to make this but as I looked#i was like WAIT NONE OF YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE JASON ROBERTSON YOU HAVEN’T SEEN MY TEXAS CAM and had to do it. also was STRUCK with the#sudden immaculate vision of the Dallas D as part of terfenol-D and could not get it out & robo is the most dance! person i know on the team#liv in the replies#dallas stars#jason robertson#nhl periodic table poems#guys i am plagued with visions and no execution skills!! every day i come here and learn one new skill on GIMP the way god intended!!!#today it was emboss. also cannot claim any credit for the pulse to the magnetic beat photo which is so cool that was one where i had a#couple and was like maybe i can do like crayon shockwaves like the art process video kasper showed? and then found that picture and was#like thank you lord stanley for knowing my limitations. thank you for your understanding in this moment it was a trial enough to make#expand contract dance and one would THINK i would have fucking learned from the claude animorphs tragedy!! i did not. but i did use the#shear tool and 3D rotate so at least if we’re animorphing it’s SLIGHTLY better. anyway me frantically doing this like WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT#WAIT FOR ME YOU GUYS ARE SO FAST i keep seeing all of these and just spinning around in circles until i get dizzy & fall down I’m so happy#the drive folder for this is just called joy!!!!! because joy this is such a cool idea but now because it brings me so much joy#i just saw the Travis dermott one and burst into tears super normal AND someone did exactly what i wanted with hydrogen which was the water#the ice!!!!! it’s so perfect!!! and cody ofc did silver lord stanley. like does it ever make you cry how beautiful & creative everyone is?#anyway if you see me post and delete this and then update it or change it no you didn’t it’s fine. but i wanted to be included#if i could make the dysprosium letters not have a white background i would I simply could not fuck with it at 1AM. we are hitting send#it may not look like it but i queue#pretend i spoke at length about the reasons why i picked all the pictures & the element just know that it’s there inside my brain u can ask#GUYS I TAKE IT ALL BACK I SAW NEONFRETRA’S ISOTOPES AND I COULD MAKE THE EDITS EVEN THOUGH THEY’RE THERE!! ISOTOPES!!!! YOU GUYS!!!!!!#get ready for the edits then. dylan magnesium my beloved child of stars who can never return… like i wish i could say anyone else but it’s#i KNOW number nineteens bismuth don’t make me Google how many years nolan played hockey but also there’s ej for stable so.. also half-life#actinium claude giroux my beloved… when i saw there already was a claude i thought maybe Brady too for that#I don’t know how but flerovium doubled magic is percolating in my brain as was promethium bad boy because I was like hmmm. tyler. but#couldn’t commit and THEN SOMEONE DID BAD BAD LEROY BROWN TYLER BERTUZZI TO PROMETHIUM AND BESTIE I AM KISSING YOU ON THE MOUTH!!! with cons#anyway shane wright germanium with juraj slafkovský but showing him very obviously not missing it. if jack eichel was not an asshole#the narratives WOULD be narrativing. you could argue for a sidovi here with the calder cup and potentially a best friend stealing narrative#(the most recent is cam yorke’s acquisition of jamie d from trevor zegras which would then require a yorkie one for silicon the other side)
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#☾⋆⁺₊⋆ ⸺ behind the scenes. ⊰ ooc ⊱#me thinking about everything with hsr yaya when he's a mourning actor#the loss of his mom and gallagher and misha and how he leaves penacony to grieve among the stars#how his songs have gone from something festive and cheery and fun to melancholic and grieving#how he sings and sings and sings until his voice goes raw and he loses it. only to repeat this whenever his voice recovers#but it's never the same as it used to be anymore due to how much he's damaged his vocal cords#how he fucking HATES the nameless & acheron. how he trusted lumine with his whole heart.#how he told her about his mother and her being a self-annihilator and the dream is basically her hospice.#only for him to lose her forever. how albedo reaches out to kaeya as a memokeeper. tries to be there for him while recording memories.#but yaya is just so jaded and numbed. he's tired. he's lost so much. he can't lose more if he keeps himself away.#he doesn't care if everything was for the greater good. what good *is* the greater good if he cannot keep someone for once.#and then i think about yaya and haitham. because holy shit ven has filled me with brainworms on their potential dynamic.#how haitham & yaya understand each other more than anyone else. how yaya is able to navigate convos with haitham just fine#and even finds him to be hilarious with his humor even if most people dont get it. dont get haitham.#how haitham can see yaya's masks and his different smiles. his different personas.#how haitham would know khaenriahn and would speak it with yaya and how much it devastates yaya in the best way.#how they send each other little gifts. how they sign off their letters to each other.#how they think of each other in their day-to-day lives#how *liberated* they both feel being near someone who understands them while also being afraid of being known#i just. im IN MY FEELINGS#IM GOING TO FUCKING SCREAM
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i can make speedrotting my brain and cramming some knowledge for tomorrow's interrogations COEXIST
#i'm so sorry robin i asked you to speak german w me one of these days and then i never DM you but christ#no time no time at all#gonna start sending you handwritten letters by snail mail#so you can send them back with the whole thing circled in red ink and a bunch of interrogation points like bitch ur grammar?????#broadcasting my misery
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alright lads (gender neutral) chaos posting time I need Sapphic song recs I'm making a playlist but I only have two songs bc apparently this is a particular niche that my standard music taste doesn't touch. so far I have Untitled God Song by Haley Hendrix and The Stranger At My Door by Brandi Carlile. also I'm thinking of changing my name actually and for real. that is irrelevant to the rest of the post I'm just kind of putting it into the universe to see how it feels. I've been considering the name Cedar. anyways. lesbian songs please and thank you bye
#littletalks.txt#sapphic#screaming really#idk man we're having a real one over here I spent all morning drafting a letter to my father that I'm never going to send and a letter to#the girl I like but also just want to be friends with that I might send if it ends up making enough sense god help me#I have work in a half an hour and idk if i can do this today boss im gonna be honest#YIPPEE!!!
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Oh god.
This summer you sent our mutual friend a package, to get to me. An heirloom, a bit of camp history. Passed down to me.
And on that package, your phone number and address. Your phone number, that I had long deleted from my phone because the urge to call you was always too strong.
When I last saw you in person, you said that when you finally moved to the city it would be with your girlfriend. You would move in together. And surely, she would become your fiancee and then your wife.
There it is. On the package. Your new address, in the city.
I have to keep myself from calling you right now. You probably have my number blocked, and I truly don't know what I'd do if you answered. But I would give anything to hear your voice again.
Even if it's just you saying, "Hello? Who is this?" While her voice is in the background, asking you what you want for dinner.
At this point, I don't even need to be the voice in the background asking what you want for dinner.
I just wish I could be the voice on the other end of your phone call.
#idk if this made sense. its 4am#but storytime i guess#years ago. like four now. i had a best friend#i loved her so much. truly i was in love with her. which was the problem#she had a girlfriend. im sure you can guess where this is going#she cheated on her gf with me. i felt guilty and made her tell her gf. months later but better late than never i guess#her gf made her choose between us. understandable. she chose her gf. understandable#so i got a call one night from her. where she said we could never speak again. we couldnt be in each others lives. and i deserved that#it still killed me though. it still kills me. i havent recovered#but this past summer she sent a package to our mutual friend. for me#just something from the camp we both work at. and there on the package was her phone number and address#two years after she left me she volunteered at the camp i worked at and she used to woek at#we ended up talking. and being friends for that one last week. and she mentioned that she wanted to marry her gf#and move in with her. in the city. so when i saw her city address... yeah#i took a picture of her number and address before throwing away the package. something i remembered tonight#its just sitting in my camera roll. her number and address#and i could never call her. never send her a letter#idk what the point of this storytime was#but this is some half decent writing for 4am#i hope you enjoyed
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submitted my last final now we ball (go back to working full time for a month to get those sweet sweet pick up bonuses)
#need to make money to pay for tuition next semester F#also i have to buy a fucking ipad bc i know my laptops gonna shit the bed any day now and i dont want that to happen before i get a replace#replacement#time to draft update letters so once my grades are in i can send them. grind never stops <-guy who is so tired
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i did okay i guess
#so i got a b in the other exam#it might have been a more difficult one because one person in my friend group in that course actually failed it#unfortunately i can't see the average on this exam but i might have done fairly well#i can't really complain when others failed the exam#at least i almost got full points on the quiz but the writing part let me down a bit#it's just a bit anoying because so many of the grammar mistakes were actually typos 😩🤦♀️ like i know how to write these words correctly#but i type so fast on the computer sometimes the letters of a word get switched up and i don't notice it oof 🥲#and i didn't have time to proofread it otherwise i might have noticed#altough i'm just a bit oblivious to my own mistakes if i had to read someone elses text i would notice surely#i also forgot a few commas or put them in the wrong place never were not my strong suit altough i got better with it#this might also have to do with ranting here on tumblr too much lmao 😅 i'm getting into the habit of typing too fast haha#just a bit unnecessary but i still have the 2nd exam and homework also accounts for something#an a is still possible#i keep thinking about what if only i got 2 more points on the quiz and another 2 on the writing task (if only i made less silly mistakes) 🥲#just missed an a by 3.5 points#but i have to believe i will do even better on the 2nd and get enough points for an a overall#i will bother my professor with sending him many practice writing texts before the next exam and also try simulate the time restrictions#because otherwise i can write so well if i have time to think how to correct and improve my texts but i need to be able to find mistakes#also in shorter amounts of time
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The array I've got here is so fucking wild, I swear to the gods. I get whiplash going from some muses who will smite you if you even look at them wrong -- and then there's other muses that fuck all the goddamn time with varying levels of needing to be invested in someone before they get nasty
And sometimes I have to fill out little sticker charts for when they go thirty minutes without having sex with their partner. 😐
#sorry for being weird last night. it's just because there's a bunch of shit wrong with my brain // mobile.#Muses I thought were v ambivalent towards sex originally: Amis#Muses that are the actual worst example of this bc they fuck like rabbits: Amis#Man's hornier than my cute little 'was originally a succubus' devil#APPARENTLY it's just a matter of him vibing with the right freak#Adopted children be warned: you can NEVER read ANY of the letters he sends to Ashen when they're apart#They might have their sweet moments but I PROMISE you you will regret having eyes when you get to the raunchy bits#Bc those always exist#Legitimately the funniest shit ever to me#Also ironically I think Asmo is my most ace muse#( I would say Methil but I'm not sure how much is cultural repulsion and how much is personal repulsion )#It's ironic bc he's v sex positive and is probably considered the embodiment of lust in some spheres#( pulling from the demon he takes his name from )#But also don't you DARE level any of that nonsense at him#...... Which is an exaggeration actually but??#You cannot fuck him#That's the main takeaway here
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something feral awakens in me every time i hear the intro song from a tale of thousand stars
#a tale of thousand stars#atots#atots my beloved#tian#phupha#chief phupha#phutian#i truly cannot describe how i feel when i hear that song#something in me desperately wants to have never seen it just to experience watching it for the first time again#but when i hear it the feeling i get is me remembering how i felt when i first watched atots#can you tell i love atots a lot?#i am once again rewatching atots#gmmtv should send me a thank you letter because i alone am responsible for like half of the views that atots has
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there is just something about big black car by gregory alan isakov that is sooooo capvers. as if it's my fault.
#literally psc saying havers would be a dancer.#hope was a letter i never could send love was a country we couldnt defend#are you listening#it's directly about them. there's no way it's not.#and then later 'you were a magazine i was a plain jane'#me and all of my plain jane glory.....#cap not feeling good enough for havers.. can anyone hear me#capvers#bbc ghosts
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@beatingheart-bride
"That would be lovely," June smiled fondly, as she took another sip of her tea: Some might call her a Pollyanna for it, but she genuinely didn't want to write off the possibility for her fellow spirits becoming parents someday. Considering how many happy couples there were under the Mansion's roof, surely there had to be a good chance more than just her son and daughter-in-law would have little bundles of joys in their future!
The conversation brought out the other family album, this one dedicated to Lon and Erika's lives in the Mansion thus far, allowing for plenty of cooing over the twins, with a particular focus put on Halloween's past, and the birthday celebrations that came with it. There was especially a lot of giggling and cooing over the twins' first birthday, and the little pumpkin costumes they were dressed in.
"The cutest pumpkins in the patch!" Wilhelm chuckled, as both Lon and Erika turned bashful at these pictures of their infanthood-in particular one of Lon trying to put a crocheted pumpkin in his mouth, said pumpkin having been made by June for this little photoshoot, commemorating that milestone birthday in particular.
"Awwww, reminds me of when June was a little girl, and I made her a ghost costume out of an old bedsheet!" Josephine giggled, recalling fondly, "She ran all over the house, calling out "boo!" to everyone and everything-she even gave August a jump!"
Both sets of Pace twins, young and old, couldn't help but snicker at this (and August, for what it was worth, smiled a little at the memory) before Colin recalled fondly, "Ah, Cal and Willy and I, we all used to raise a little hell on All Hallows' Eve; before the big bonfire, we all used to go runnin' through the streets, telling everyone Stingy Jack was comin' to town! Dressed as him a few times too, between the three of us, amongst some other ghosts and goblins from our book of fables! You still have that, Willy?"
"That I do," Wilhelm smiled warmly. "Got it, and I've since passed it onto to Randall to read to his wee ones."
#((it really wouldn't be! colin and callahan; they do have established lives back in ireland with their family))#((though they'll never be separated from their brother and his family again; since in this modern age))#((they can call and send letters; so at least in that regard they can keep in touch with their family in the states))#((between visits! but august and josephine...they really don't have much of a home to go back to))#((especially once they realize what a bunch of absolute hypocrites their neighbors are!))#((they don't want a damn thing to do with people like that; and so it's just a no-brainer))#((for them to stay at gracey manor! and i love the idea of them announcing it at the birthday party!))#((it would be a very welcome surprise for everyone to hear; especially june!))#((maybe by then lon and especially erika will be very comfortable around their great-grandparents))#((and also be very excited to know they're moving in?))#outofhatboxes#beatingheart-bride#V:Two Worlds; One Family
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He wasn't even completely mine. I shouldn't be this sad, this unable to move on. But then again, wasn't he? How can I admit all those hours of texting, talking, laughing meant nothing? How can I admit I spent a year learning every single detail about someone, from his drink choice to the street his grandmother used to walk him home through, for nothing?
How can I let go of someone when their laughter is still echoing in my head; when I can still see his face so, so clearly when I close my eyes.
I gave him my time, and my heart and every single truth about me. I have nothing else to give. And he still didn't look back once.
No one ever taught me what to do when it's a good man that hurts you. No one ever told me what to do when the same person that once made me come back to life is the reason I can't leave my bed anymore.
I am ruined now, not even sure if he knows it though. I am ruined now and I would beg for one more day. I am so, so ruined but his face is still haunting me now.
What do i do? With this feeling, with myself, with him; with all those memories only I seem to care about, what do I do?
No one ever told me what to do
#mine#spilled thoughts#this is me coping#spilled words#excerpt from a letter i'll never send#excerpt from my diary#word vomit#I don't think I can
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August 30. Nung araw na ito nang nakaraang taon, ako ang pinakamasaya. Nakaimpake ang gamit, ikaw ang nasa isip. Sinabi mong mahal mo ako at di na nga nag dalawang isip. Ikaw at ikaw, araw araw. Parang tanga, marinig lang ang boses mo'y tuwang tuwa. Ngiti sa labi ay di mapawi, ikaw lang ang gustong makatabi.
August 30. Sa araw na ito, hindi sigurado ang nararamdaman. Akala ko magdidiwang ng isang taon, yun pala'y mag isa na ako. Nakaimpake ang gamit, ikaw pa rin ang nasa isip. Ikaw at ikaw, araw araw. Parang tanga, kaytagal nang umaasang marinig ang boses mo kahit ayaw mo na. Ngiti sa labi ay matagal nang napawi, ngunit ikaw pa rin ang gustong makatabi.
Naiisip mo pa ba ako? Pasensya na kung hanggang ngayon ay bilanggo pa rin ako ng pag ibig mong hindi man lang nagtagal. Sinusubukan kong lumaya, maniwala ka. Ngayong gabi ilang baso ng alak muna ang katapat, sana bukas limot ko na ang dapat.
#filipino#late night#thoughts#tagalog#poblacion#letters i can never send because we don't talk anymore
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i started writing a whole thing about mir and her mom and then i realized i accidentally gave the briadis family the perfect set up for a tragic family empire tv show
#her mom is a powerful merchant who wants to pass the business on to her kids#her oldest brother is being groomed for the job but he’s better at and prefers life as a ship captain#no matter how hard they try to bring him home!#her oldest sister wants the job TOO MUCH and tries to hard but it’s not good at it#and their mom kind of disdains her for it. lol#elaine is smart enough and good enough with people to do it but she’s too soft#and wants to burn the whole thing down bc they sold mir to the order and stopped her sending letters to her#mir’s younger siblings are enjoying traveling as part of a ships crew while they work their way up but i don’t think their mom#has high hopes for them.#ironically given mir’s personality she might have been good at it if she’d been trained!!#and their mom knows this and knew it before she sold mir to the order but she was never going to let a magianis have control of it#which brings me back to the thing that started this: mir’s mom genuinely thought it was best to sell her to the order bc she couldn’t#protect mir from the consequences of being magianis and thought being trained by the order was the best way to keep her safe#and that if they paid for her they would think of her as an investment (merchant brain logic that was also just her pacifiying herself into#thinking it was right. did she actually believe this?? would it have mattered?? well. who can say!)#they do all have names i just can’t off the top of my head remember ahdhdjsk#oc: mirren sero#i need a text post tag#when was the last time i wrote a wall of tags about her…i miss her#i should add. her mom thought it would keep mir safe but also it was a convenient way to get her out of the way. so
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I wanna cry... They devided my pc parts order. Today they did send the second one.
One pagake has 700g and the other one 5kg. There is no way all my pc parts are in the 700g ones. A monitor doesn't weigh 5kg I can imagen.
The lighter one is the one that should arrive today. The other one will probably be here next week. Tomorrow is a holiday and we normally don't get pakages on Saturday.
Luck Really hates me.
Btw the shop that told me that on late November new Jackie figures arrive still doesn't have one. The package with the little nendoroid doll body that was going to be Jackie is lost as well.
And we don't even start talking about my Jackie I sent to England for his repaint...
The day started so good, now it's just sad...
#At least it's a long weekend#And I can go and annoy mark on coral island#I wonder if it would be this cursed with Mark merch as well#Is that from the many chain letters I never send on?
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