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All the time we wish for.
Cregan Stark x wife!reader
SMUT SMUT SMUT SMUT just smut dude
Summary: Cregan is eager to show his wife the Northern hot springs.
A/n: Based on an ask from forever ago- I think from @princessvelaryon before we became friends but I can't remember đđ queen if it was you, you're a real one
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"Cregan, where are w-"
"-Just trust me, sweet girl. Trust me."
She eyes him, not able to stay angry at the happiness that radiates from him. "I doâŠ" she trailed off.
"Almost there. Should be rightâŠ" his head turned back and forth in search of something. "Ah." He pulled her in the direction his eyes were set on.Â
He pulls her into a cave, immediately moving to take off her cloak. She pulls away in concern at first- taking off a cloak in the dead of winter here feels like a death sentence. But his head tilted just slightly and he moved forward to do it again, to which she let him.Â
The fur dropped onto the ground of the cave. She looked over her shoulder at it.Â
At the sight of her neck exposed, Cregan leaned to her and nipped at the skin.Â
She jumped, a breath escaping her. "Cregan, my cloak-"
"The cold won't seep into your bones here," he muttered against her neck.Â
"What?"
"You're not cold, are you?" He asked.
She looked down to the goosebumps on her arms, but she knew it wasn't from the cold.Â
He lips pulled into a small smile. "My father showed me my first hot spring when I was a boy of six. Warmed us when snow fell a moon before it was supposed to. I've been hunting these spots out for years now. But this one is by far my favorite."
She took in the sight, walking further into the cave. Exactly as he said, the further she moved in, the less the cold could bother her. She looked back to him, to which he waved out, encouraging her to explore it more.Â
A light waterfall poured into a small pool of water, steam waving around it.Â
He moved behind her, now without his own cloak. His fingers brushed against her arm. "Do you want to try it?"
"You can⊠get in?"
"You can. If you want."
"I do," she breathed as she stared out at the water.
Cregan's fingers moved to her dress, pulling at the laces. His scarred and calloused fingers became gentle with her, as if handling thin glass. The laces were pulled with a gentleness she didn't even feel, but she knew from the way his arms moved from her peripheral vision and the loosening of her dress.Â
Eventually, she had to hold the dress up as he finished. It would have been hard to tell when he was finished if not for the sudden kisses he began to place on her shoulder. The rough pads of his fingers pushed away the material.Â
She let go, letting it fall to the ground. Cregan took on the next challenge of her thin layers of underskirt, but he was quick to pull the ribbons apart. Piece by piece, her clothing fell onto the dirt covered floor of the cave, but neither really cared.
She was growing impatient, and by the time Cregan had untied the last bit of her skirt, she was all but tearing at her shift. Her fingers fumbled with the buttons, the adrenaline doing nothing to help her coordination. He pushed her up against his chest, reaching his arms around to help her.Â
She watched his large fingers unbutton each one at a pace too slow for her. "Cregan-"
"-We have all the time we wish for," He murmured.
She forced herself to take a small breath, though it was shaky.Â
Cregan's hand ran down her stomach once he finished, admiring the woman against him.Â
She whined lightly and leaned her head back against his shoulder, to which she earned a chuckle from him. His hand moved down her shift, grabbing the fabric and beginning to pull it up at an agonizingly slow pace.Â
She felt the air move up her legs as the shift came up until it paused at her upper thigh. "Don't stop now."
"Should I?" He asked as his nose pressed to the side of her head, his voice in her ear. "I do love to watch you beg, my love."
"You either continue the Stark line with me in this hot spring-"
"Or what?" He asked with a smirk, pulling away from her and turning her to face him. Her shift fell back down.
Her confidence faltered for a second, then turned to teasing. "Or the line ends with you."
A low growl sounded from his throat. His eyes raked over her slowly as a new light came to his eyes. "Take it off."
She did so, dropping it quickly as Cregan focused on the strings of his doublet.Â
As soon as she was bare, she moved to help Cregan but he held a hand out as his eyes took her in. He spoke, but his voice trailed off a bit as if distracted by the sight. "I've⊠I've got it."
She tilted her head in amusement and ran a hand down his chest, accepting his decision. She moved down to the spring, sitting at the edge, and dipped her leg in. She let out an instinctive groan at the feeling.
Cregan's lips parted as he watched her. He truly did mean to undress himself, but he was distracted.Â
"Cregan," she chided at him lightly.Â
He gave a heavy blink and snapped out of his daze, "Sorry, I-"
She gave him a knowing look.Â
He made quick work of pulling off his doublet, yanking at the strings of the next layer until he stood in only his trousers and boots.Â
He stepped down to her side, standing behind her with a hesitation.
She peered up at him from under her lashes.Â
He felt the tent in his pants at the sight, one he was more familiar with than he cared to admit. It reminded him of all the nights he had returned to their chambers in a rage from planning for this war. She had always sat on that sofa with a knowing smile, asking if he was stressed.Â
She had a way of taking away his stress before he even remembered how it got there.Â
"Changing your mind now?" She asked him softly.
He shook his head, sitting down next to her and beginning to unlace his boots. "I'd like to believe I'm a man that follows through."
She kicked at the water lightly. "Follow through then."
Cregan's breath hitched as he looked to her. "I will."
He pulled his boots off, throwing them aside and pulling at his pants. He quickly got into the small pool, letting out a sinful groan as the warmth enveloped him.Â
She watched the man with pure adoration in her eyes. The way his broad shoulders flexed as he lowered himself made her brush her thighs together.Â
He turned in the water, now facing her with a broad smile. He pulled himself to her and kissed her leg lightly. He nuzzled at her knee, silently asking her to spread her legs. She hesitated, knowing his smile would only turn cocky if she did so.Â
He brought a hand up, the water dripping down his wrist. His fingers brushed up her calf to her knee, pushing that leg to the side. His eyes moved slowly to her core, his eyes lighting up.Â
She felt her entire body heat up as her husband admired her. Though she wanted to close her legs, she'd never felt safer.Â
He kissed her leg lightly, holding her leg out to give him room. He began to kiss up her leg.Â
She reached out quickly behind his head to pull his hair up before it dipped in the water. He grinned up at her and continued his movements.Â
She watched in agony as his lips moved closer and closer to the very place she wanted them. When his lips ghosted over her clit, his breath brushing over it became antagonizing. She tugged at his hair in instinct, earning a playful glare of lust from the man. His light eyes had a dark intent behind them, a sin neither of them were ashamed of.Â
Cregan laid a soft kiss to her slit, purposefully bumping his nose against her bundle of nerves. A small squeak sounded from her, spurring something deep inside of him.Â
He stood in the pool, grabbing her hips firmly and lowering her into the water against him. She held his shoulders, relaxing in the warm water.Â
He shifted her lightly, now completely wrapping his arm around her so their bodies were as close as possible, his face tucking into her neck and kissing at the skin.Â
Her head fell back, her mouth opening in bliss. As she had done earlier with him, Cregan grabbed her hair, clumping it in one large hand while pulling at the roots as well. It was a mission to him to keep her hair dry, for if it didn't, she'd surely freeze once out of the cave.Â
"Cregan, please."
The hand around her waist fell, moving down between her thighs. He rubbed at her slit through the water, slipping a finger in.Â
She gasped.Â
âŠ
It's an unspoken fact that most Starks were created in the Northern hot springs, and there's no doubt that one was created that cold day.Â
Cregan had never been more thankful for the sudden snow.
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the cons of long nails pairing: reader x stepbro!rafe synopsis: rafe's stepsister has acrylics on and can't touch herself so he helps her warnings: smut, oral (fem receiving) MDNI! wc: 700it's the second day of my birthday week celebration! was this inspired by me doing my own acrylics and being unable to do anything with them? mayhaps. real ones know the struggle (˶Ëâ€Ë˶) below are the kind of nails i picture her to have!! sheâs a lilac princess ᥣđ© âąïœĄêȘৠËâ
your freshly manicured nails were digging into the skin of his shoulders; loud whines escaping your lips as rafe's were slowly making their way down your body; leaving a trail of warmth every time his lips made contact with your bare skin, small gasps escaping you whenever he nipped at your skin.
"quit whining..." rafe groaned into the skin of your abdomen, before he lifted his head slightly, the blonde's half-lidded eyes looked up at you, his pupils blown out, a small grin creeping up his lips, "or i'm gonna stop right now."
"you won't." you said with pursed lips, no confidence in your voice, causing him to grip your thighs tightly, his eyes narrowing as a wicked grin overtook his lips.
"are you sure you wanna test that?" your stepbrother grabbed one of your wrists, looking at your nails, "just had to get your nails done so now you can't even please yourself, hm? had to come to beg your stepbrother to help you."
"i didn't beg..." you mumbled, your face feeling hot with embarrassment.
"oh, really?" rafe snorted, "rafeyy, please, i got my nails done but 'm really horny, can you help me?" he spoke, mocking your tone and the earlier words you used on him, causing you to try and turn your head to hide your face, only for him to roughly grab you by your chin, making you look at him. "don't turn away from me. you're gonna stop whining, aren't you?"
his tone left no room for argument, so you simply nodded, letting out a timid, "yes." as you leaned back on the bed, rafe letting go of your wrist, his lips continuing their descent to your aching pussy, the blonde's long fingers slipping under the waistband of your soaked panties.
the time it took him to slide your panties down your legs was almost tortuous, rafe no doubt making sure to go as slow as possible, wanting every part of you craving and aching for him.
he pushed apart your legs, a trail of wet kisses pressed on your inner thigh while you held your breath in anticipation for when you'd finally feel him where you needed to; your head starting to feel dizzier the longer he took.
but when his tongue flicked at your puffy clit, your breath escaped your throat, mixing in with a moan you'd been holding back. rafe chuckled, the sound causing vibrations to run through your body, shivers climbing down your spine.
without even giving you a moment of respite, his tongue gathered up some of the wetness from your entrance, bringing it to your clit as his lips attached themselves to the swollen bud.
you arched into his touch, gripping his hair as moans and whimpers left your lips, each flick of his tongue on your clit causing another flash of electricity to crawl up your spine as he sucked on it, drawing out sensations you hadn't experienced before that moment.
rafe was gripping your thighs so roughly you were sure it'd leave bruises in the shape of his hands. still, you couldn't bring yourself to care, not when your eyesight was blurry just from having his lips around your clit, not when the burning feeling in your abdomen was so strong even though he'd only been attacking your clit for minutes; not when you didn't even have any concept of time thanks to him.
you were trying to moan his name, but your brain was so muddled by the things he was making you feel, you weren't quite sure what you let out of your mouth, but rafe still knew the moment you came by the loud whine and the tightened grip on his shoulders, all the while you were clenching around nothing.
when your panting had turned into only slightly quickened breathing, rafe pulled back, straightening his body as his body covered your own, a self-satisfied smirk on his face at the blissed-out expression you were sporting; and before you could say anything, he brought his lips to yours, letting you taste yourself.
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There have been moments, especially when we open our hearts to a husband , where you have felt a distance between you. I know It's as if the door to your heart opens just halfway, holding back parts of you out of fear, caution, or maybe something you now can't quite understand. It struck you deeply like a slap, and you couldn't help but fee this realisation, it sounds like you are being self centred "I can't believe you would be someone so selfish. That you cant give yourself over completely to your relationship. What a dried up and broken woman you have become"
The beauty of exploring love languages and embracing our vulnerabilities lies in their reflection of real-life relationships. These concepts encourage us to examine our own connections, fostering a deeper understanding and appreciation for the complexities of love. It's an invitation to reflect on how we communicate affection and how we can better align with our loved ones, paving the way for more fulfilling relationships
Have you noticed sometimes when you do want it from a your guy , it almost feels like youâre invisible to him?
Are you nodding along?
Has this happened to you?
You already know youâre smitten. With your husband, onlyâŠyouâre not bold and slutty, so you donât feel comfortable just walking over and dropping to your knees and unzipping his pants and pulling it out, or telling him that youâre horny and need fucking⊠now!
So what can you do because you know itâs insulting to him for you to be a boring prude?
Itâs fairly easy to get attention, but that doesnât in any way guarantee that he will want to fuck you. Just something to be aware of. Once you have his attention, youâll want to really notice what his reaction to you is. Does he smile while listening to every word, or is he busier checking his phone than talking to you? The sharper your observation skills, the less time you waste on knowing how to please him.
Grow upâŠyouâre acting like youâre in middle school. Youâre not. There are better, high-value ways to get his attention. Be his wife, his woman and his lover. Show him what you have and let him enjoy you.
Never be boring or distant.
Instead make yourself interesting and be interested in him and his desires. Learn what makes him hard.
Think of each moment like the dating game, you may be insecure about flirting or expressing your interest. It will take practice, but youâve got this! Show some sexual aggression and really let him know what you have in mind. Use your brain. Or play open docile and ditzy. If it makes him hard and your feeling horny and wet, know in your heart its working for you. Remember that.
Be his good girl a figure out what turns him on and makes him hard, and interested. Usually, within a few minutes of conversation and , you can deduce this. Obviously, look for a bulge, but also keep an eye out for signs of breast gaze and lip gazing what part of your body is he focused upon! Display yourself with abandon like the women these men look at on Tumblr. They are interested atvtmhem for a reason. Forgot you self and think about why men masturbate to these kind of women pictures.
Let it change you prudish self.
Keep the conversation going once you have his attention, and make it clear that youâre not just being normal friendly (youâre being flirty friendly!). Use your language in and out of the bedroom to keep him engaged.
âYou make me so wetâ
âNever Stopâ
âThat feels amazingâ
âDoes that feel good?â
âI can feel your dick throbbingâ
âI want you here right nowâ
âI want You so badâ
âI was thinking about you todayâ
â oh fuck me, Just Like Thatâ
âYou make me want to screamâ
âFill me upâ
â I'm curious honey what porn makes you. Hardâ
âFuck me like you mean itâ
âHarderâ
âI feel tiny in your armsâ
âI love youâ
âI love your dickâ
âI want your cumâ
âKiss Meâ
âMake me cum babyâ
âSeeing you right after a workoutâ
âTaste Meâ
âYour cock is stretching me outâ
âI'm not wearing my panties todayâ
Feel free to share you favourites with me.
Oh God, this felt amazingly good to write. I am sooo ready for him.
S_XXX
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JJ Maybank x fem reader
Authors note: just had to write something for THAT scene that drove us all crazy. Gif made by me cause I could not stop thinking of how hot he was with the fucking bat đ
This is my first new fic in a long time, so I know it's not without its flaws, but I hope you guys enjoy đ
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Warnings: SMUT, mean JJ, oral (fem and male receiving), fingering, rough unprotected sex, blood
Summary: you track JJ down at Zeazy's office
The second I saw downtown, I knew he was really off the rails. Lucky for me, I knew exactly where he was headed. I broke off from the group, making sure no one was following as I sprinted further into town.
When Zeasyâs real estate office came into view and I saw the busted windows, I sighed in relief. I found him. I approached quietly, not wanting to spook him as I reached through the broken door, opening it up from the inside.
âJâ, I whisper as I enter the front office, trying not to step on the glass thatâs scattered all over the floor. I continue walking forward till Iâm grabbed by the back of my hair. I go to let out a scream and a ring clad hand is slapped over my mouth.
âWhat the fuck are you doing here?â He seethes as he releases my hair and pushes me forward. I spin to face him and heâs still holding the bat, hair disheveled, eyes darker than his normal shade of blue and I take a cautionary step backward.
âYou need to stop J, theyâre gonna lock you up for years over this.â I say, nothing but concern laced in my words.
âThey arenât taking me alive, I can guarantee you that. Just get out of here. You arenât gonna want to watch it unfold Y/N.â
âI just want to help. How can I help you, I know this isnât you.â I take a step towards him and he takes steps back.
âYou canât help me. Just get the fuck out.â He shouts as he points to the door. âIâm not gonna tell you again.â
âPlease-â He cuts me off, storming towards me and grabbing me by the throat.
âYou wanna know what I need princess? Get on your fucking knees.â He demands as he releases me and I choke as I let in a breath. Iâve never seen him like this in the years Iâve known him. Completely unhinged and it makes my stomach churn.
âWe canât stay here, take me somewhere else and-â Iâm cut off again and this time heâs pushing me down to the ground. âThe glass.â I shriek as I feel the shards cut into my knees.
âOpen your fucking mouth. Now.â He demands as he undoes his jeans. My heart is racing as I open my mouth and stick out my tongue. When he pulls his dick out, I attempt to speak again but he grabs the back of my hair and forces himself all the way to the back of my throat as I choke.
âThere we go. Iâve always wondered what youâd look like with that pretty mouth stuffed full with my cock.â He rasps as he pulls out to the tip of my tongue and plunges it back inside. I do my best to breathe through my nose as his assault continues. Tears cascade down my face as he continues to use me and Iâm relieved when I feel him begin to twitch and my mouth fills with cum. âThatâs a start.â He growls as he pulls out and I can finally breathe again. I didnât have a chance to fully process what he just said before Iâm spun around and my face was pressed into the floor. My cheek stings as Iâm cut up all over again and I canât even speak as my shorts are pulled off and panties pulled to the side. He buries his face in my pussy and I gasp as I try to pull away.
âStop trying to run away from me, you need to be wet for the way Iâm about to split you the fuck open.â He flicks my clit rapidly and I try my best to stay still to avoid the glass pushing deeper into my skin. âDidnât take much though, did it? You just love being used donât you princess?â He plunges two fingers into my aching hole and I moan into the floor trying to figure out if this is a sick dream because while Iâve thought about this, I never imagined it would be happening like this. I can hear how wet I am as his fingers slide in and out with ease, nudging that sweet spot with his rings and Iâm already on the edge.
âJ.â I cry as I start to tighten up and arch into his movements, no longer caring about the pain to other areas of my abused body.
âCum already.â He coaxes and Iâm relieved when I do. âJesus, I hope you squeeze my cock the way you just squeezed my fingers.â He pulls them out, cleaning them off before replacing them with his cock.
âFuck-I canât.â I plead. Heâs so thick and I feel like Iâm being torn open. Iâve never felt so full.
âYou need to relax. Youâre so fucking tight that youâre pushing me out.â He groans as he continues pushing in all the way to the hilt. âBreathe, I know you can take it. Iâm gonna make you.â He starts a punishing rhythm, one hand tight on my hip and the other pushing down on my back to keep me from moving.
âJJ, please.â I plead and he slaps his hand over my mouth but doesnât miss a beat as he continues chasing his release.
âThey are still out there searching for me, you really want the whole town to hear how helpless you are while Iâm inside of you?â He mocks and seconds later, heâs pulling out and flipping us over, bringing me into a straddle on his lap. âYou wanna cum again, youâre gonna have to work for it. Come on Y/N, use me like I used you.â He demands and Iâm quick to action, sliding down hard then pushing him down to lie flat on his back. âShit!â He hisses as glass cuts through his shirt, piercing his back.
âYouâre a piece of shit!â I seethe as I bounce up and down, trying hard to take the control he granted me. His head flies back momentarily at the pleasure we both feel but I can tell heâs still angry with the way his fingertips bite into my hips.
âYeah? And what does that make you?â He retorts as he tries to sit up and I slam him back down again. âBitch.â He growls and I know it hurts. I lean down, capturing his mouth with a brutal kiss and biting down hard on his lower lip. The taste of blood forces itâs way into my mouth with his tongue. If he wants it rough, Iâll give it to him. Our teeth clash together as I take him deeper and deeper. He grabs the back of my hair, snapping my head back. âCome on, squeeze me good and hard one last time.â His teeth sink into my neck and that band snaps as my body shakes on top of him. I feel him twitch and then his hot ropes of cum are shooting inside of me. In the distance, I can make out the faint sounds of sirens as we struggle to get to our feet.
âJ.â I warn.
âI know.â He quickly tucks himself back into his jeans as I put my shorts back on. Both cut up and used, he grabs my hand and we flee into the night.
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Chapter 27 - Just a Shot Away
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Author's Note: Being pointlessly confident and saying that we're going to finish with 31 chapters. See you on the other side of this one! <3
Chapter Title from Gimme Shelter by The Rolling Stones.
Word Count: 27.4k
Chapter Summary/Warnings: The team drives to DC for a meeting with Singer. Usual warnings, with a little extra violence and gore.
Tags: Soldier Boy/Supe!Female Reader, canon divergence, enemies to friends to lovers, canon divergence, very big fluff, very big angst, established relationship
Read on A03!
Chapter 26 - Chapter 28
âCan I drive?â
âThere is not a fucking chance in Christâs blue balls Iâm letting you drive, Sunshine.â
She pouted at Ben, propping her chin on his shoulder and being a fucking hazard to Benâs very good, very safe driving. âPlease?â
âNo.â
âBut-â
âIâm really fucking like my life.â He gave her a side-eyed, flat look as he said Her name. âSo no.â
She stuck Her tongue out at him, crossing her arms and leaning back in her seat as she muttered under her breath. âYou canât even die, you cockfuck asshole.â
Ben snorted. âYou know I can fucking hear you, brat. And youâd figure out a way to kill me, youâre real damn smart like that.âÂ
âKiss ass.â
âOnly for you, darling.â
She flushed at his wink, thighs pressing together with a small squirmâlike She was trying to move Benâs hand up from where it had found an easy home near her kneeâand heâd fucking won. Ben didnât even try to stop the triumphant grin from crossing his face, because he never fucking won these arguments. They usually ended with Her moaning as Ben fucked her in an attempt to regain some control and dignity after sheâd convinced him eat lunch with Her, Hughie, and Annie, or do the laundry, or thank Kimiko for brownies, or read a fucking book. But she wasnât pushing further, cutting right to watching Ben with lust-blown eyes and a pretty, gaping and slack expression, so heâd fucking won.
âNeed me to pull over?â He dragged his hand up Her leg, smirking at her small gasp. âTake care of you on the side of the fucking highway?â
âFuck you,â She mumbled, grabbing Benâs hands and turning it over between hers in a way that was somehow lot more fucking distracting than her pout. âHorny old cunt-â
âI can hear your heart,â Ben drawled Her name, twining his fingers into hers. âYou want me to fuck you, and I havenât even done anything-â
âItâs the driving.â She shrugged, but Ben didnât miss how Her hand tightened in his. âYou look hot when you drive.â
He chuckled, glancing over at Her beautiful, fake sulking face. âDriving fucking does it for you? Should I get a car, just to turn you on-â
âShut up, Benjamin.â She wrinkled Her nose at him. âYou get turned on when Iâm good with Ryan, Mr. Breeding Kink. Iâm allowed to think youâre sexy when youâre driving a car.â
Ben rolled his eyes. âI am not going fucking apologize for loving you and wanting fuck you until your full of me-â
âWell then I donât have to apologize for looking at your hands and muscles when you drive!â
âYou have a damn obsession with my hands, Sunshine.â He grinned at Her, lifting her hand up in his to kiss Her knuckles. âIâm starting to think you like them more than my cock.â
âIâm allowed to like multiple things, Pretty Boy. I donât know if old age is getting to you, but I also said muscles-â
âHow about this.â Ben held their hands in Her lap, looking between her pretty, dramatic, perfect fucking fake-scowl and the road he had to not crash on. âAfter Edgar, Iâll let me give you a blowjob right fucking here, in the car.â
âOh, youâll let me give you a blowjob-â
âI wasnât fucking done, brat.â Ben guided their hands between Her legs, cock twitching in his pants as her thighs squeezed around them. âThen, Iâll finger you all you goddamn want. Use my hands how you like them, make you cum on my fingers. Deal?â
She swallowed. âDeal.â
âGood girl.â
Ben laughed as She hit his arm, half grinding onto him at the same time. âShut the fuck up-â
âYou love it.â Ben felt that strange, radiant thing burst alight in his body. âYou love me.â
âAgainst all my better judgment,â She sighed. âI really do. Can we go over the plan again?â
He nodded, but there wasnât really that fucking much to go over. Theyâd made practically negative progress on what the keys could be forâFrenchie had tried to duplicate them, only to discover it was a magnetic skeleton key, and whatever the fuck that meant had caused Her to let out a long, exhausted sighâand everyoneâs bets on the answer seemed to live in the realm of just fucking praying that it wasnât another problem for them to deal with. Or, if they were all being real damn honest, for Her to deal with.
âItâs probably not something perishable,â Sheâd said, everyone gathered in the dining hall and glaring at the keys on the center of the table. âGiven how long it sounded like the keys were at Red River.â
âThat is why my bet is on a weapon,â Frenchie had nodded along to Her words, looking to Kimiko for agreement. âRight, Mon Coeur? Guns and bomb are not items that perish-â
Kimiko had signed something, and both Her and Frenchieâs faces had fallen.
âIt could be that.â Sheâd muttered, voice raising as She translated for the rest of the team. âSomething that is perishable, but Edgar doesnât care if it perished.âÂ
âWell, whyâd he want you and Soldier Boy to get it now-âÂ
Sheâd shrugged, cutting MM off with a tired, almost bitter look at the keys. âMaybe itâs value isnât dependent on it being, um-â
âAlive.â Ben had grunted, and Sheâd swallowed.Â
âYeah. Alive.â
âOr just ripe?â Hughie had offered, voice practically fucking desperate. âIt doesnât have to be living, they could be hiding something from the government like they did V, like food or-âÂ
âI ainât puttin money on Edgar stashin pears,Hughie-âÂ
Sheâd shaken her head. âNo, Butcher, Hughieâs actually got a point.â
âI do?â
âNo he donât-â
Sheâd turned Her eyes up to Butcher and Hughie, tone bored and amused. âYeah, he does. The keys are to the Cornucopia. In Greco-Roman cultic practices, cornucopias were often depicted with agricultural gods, and copia literally means abundance in Latin-â
Butcher has snapped Her name. âTell us like weâre fuckin idiots, Love-âÂ
Ben had frowned, because heâd been following along just fine. But She was also literally alive inside of him, so heâd either adapted to Her smart talk so well he didnât get phased by it anymore, or She was physically making Ben more intelligent. He hoped it was the former, because then it could be another testament of his love for Her. How he really fucking listened when She spoke, even if his primary motivation was how fucking hot she could be when she was talking about things she was passionate about. And given that She was somehow passionate about every single fucking thing in the universe, Ben would never make her stop talking or dumb it down for his sake. He got to learn shit, and have a boner that She usually ended up fixing. Everyone fucking won.
Heâd almost told Butcher to fucking shove it and let Her speak, but Sheâd been faster, frowning at Butcher as sheâd continued.
âCornucopias are symbols of Greek and Roman food gods. The word means Horn of Plenty in Latin.â Sheâd looked back to Hughie with a small smile. âSo food isnât that insane of a guess.â
Despite Her reassurance, nobody had ended up putting money on food. The keys were now a slight weight in the pocket of Her jacket, and theyâd agreed upon keeping the V from Edgar. If he asked about it, theyâd either playing real fucking stupid and telling him theyâd only received the keys, giving him a vial of water Sheâd put green food dye in, or saying theyâd broken them. Ben was pretty damn sure Edgar would buy that last one, because the man seemed convinced their team was made up of complete fucking idiots.
It might be. In the past two days they certainly hadnât been a bunch of fucking geniuses. Mallory had attempted to brief with them about Singer and potential new avenues for V, and Ben had witnessed some of the worst fucking acting performances of in history. For a group of people whose whole fucking job was murder and espionage, they hadnât managed to be fully capable of looking Mallory in Her hypothetically compromised face and just goddamn lie. Hughie had been all goddamn sweaty, MM and Butcher just kept grunting and glaring, Annie wouldnât stop staring, and Frenchie had been talking at a damn near inhuman pace. If it wasnât for Her and Ben, Mallory wouldâve clued in on how theyâd all finally fucking realized that She was a bitch and couldnât be trusted.
âMaybe,â MM had muttered as theyâd returned to Jersey, the air in the limo tense and wired. âWe could tell, Grace, and sheâd side with us. She didnât seem to be Mullerâs biggest fan-â
âNo.â Sheâd shuffled further into Benâs side, leaning into him with a sigh. âMalloryâs primary allegiance is to democracy. If thereâs even a chance Singer might think that sheâs just trying to sabotage Mullerâs as a VP candidate, she wonât actually help us. And sheâs not stupid. She might put together that weâre going after federal V, notice the documents are missing or something, and try to stop us. We canât risk it.âÂ
Ben had expected more pushback, but Butcher, of all goddamn people, had taken her side.
âSheâs right, Mate.â Heâd looked at them through the rear-view mirror, a sour and tight-lipped expression on his face. âWe ainât able to take big gambles on anything right now. What Grace donât know ainât gonna hurt her, so sheâll be stayin in the dark on this one.â
And that was the fucking plan. Keep Mallory in the dark about the leak, let Her and Ben get the keys to Edgar, and meet the team in Boston for the V. Then theyâd fucking kill Homelanderâno loose ends for him to know itâs coming, Annie had even bought Her a private, non-CIA funded phonesâand deal with the mess it left when the pussy was a million goddamn feet under.Â
The mess that included those two original formula Vâs, one being kept wherever the fuck Butcher kept things, and one in Benâs jacket.
Theyâd agreed not to give it Edgar. There wasnât a fucking chance in hell they were giving that V to Edgar. When this was over, theyâd likely just fucking flush it down the toilet.
But they hadnât. And Ben had looked at it in Her underwear drawer before they left, and decided that there was no goddamn way he was just leaving it here. In the FBSA Headquarters, where Mallory could just walk into their apartment with her seemingly unlimited jurisdiction and find it.
And heâd forgotten to tell Her. It was really just fucking occurring to him now, as She outlined what to do if Edgar asked them for the V, that it was something Sheâd probably want to know about. This seemed like the type of shit heâd get yelled at for keeping from Her, even if it wasnât at all on purpose.
He grunted Her name before he could forget again, and She cut off her own lecture, frowning at him.
âYeah?â
âI need to tell you something, and youâre not allowed to lose your damn mind about it.â
Her tone raised into a slight warning. âBen-â
âItâs not fucking bad,â he muttered, risking a look at Her expression. She mostly just looked concerned, and it was a lot fucking worse, so Ben had to just say it. Lock his eyes back on the road and just goddamn tell Her. âI brought the V.â
There was silence for a second, and when Ben looked back, She was only blinking. Her head had tilted slightly, and her fingers were trying to tap in Benâs hold, but her heart was natural and even, so she wasnât mad.
âOkay.â She sighed, leaning Her head back in her seat and squeezing Benâs hand. âI mean, itâs not ideal, but Iâd rather have it with you than leave it at the compound. Next time tell me before we leave,â She whacked his arm lightly. âBut I can work with it.â
Ben nodded slowly, and muttered, âyouâd rather have it-â
âWith you.â She repeated herself, and Ben could hear the smile in Her voice. âI trust you, Pretty Boy. And youâre even safer than an underwear drawer. You can yell at people, and hit them into a wall if they try to take things from you. Youâre very dramatic, Benjamin. Itâs one of your best qualities.â
He snorted, running his thumb over the skin of Her hand. âBrat.â
âCunt. I need to pee.â
âWhy the fuck are you telling me that-âÂ
âBecause you,â She nudged his shoulder, and Ben turned to see that pretty pout on her lips. âWonât let me fucking drive, and I am not peeing in the woods, so you need to get me to a gas station.â
He rolled his eyes, but grunted for Her to find one on the map and listened to her directions, parking and turning to watch Her move at his side.Â
âIâll be back,â She smiled at him, fumbling with her seat belt. âPut some gas in the car while Iâm gone, weâre low.â
Ben scowled. âNo, weâre not-â
âYes,â She leaned over him, pointing to a small, flashing light on the dashboard. âWe are.âÂ
âThat means Butcherâs low on washer fluid-âÂ
âNope. Gas.â She turned to grin at him, their faces barely a fucking inch apart. âOld man-â
Ben tangled his hand in Her hair, pulling her into a long, soft kiss. Shut the fuck up, Sunshine, I am not goddamn old-Â
Youâre so old. She let out a happy sigh into his mouth, pulling back to meet his gaze. ïżœïżœI love you.â
âI love you too, Sunshine.â He kissed Her cheek, and her eyes on his were so fucking full of adoration and want it might kill him. âGo piss. Be fast.â
âI always am. Fill up the gas, please.âÂ
âWith what damn money-â
âButcher gave me a hundred to use on gas and whatever fuckin lube you and the old cunt need, as a gift.âÂ
âJokes on that pussy, we donât need lube.â Ben winked at Her. âYou get plenty fucking wet for me, all by your damn self.âÂ
âFuck you-âÂ
âIf you insist-âÂ
She bumped his nose with Hers, brushing hair out of his eyes. âAfter I pee, Benjamin, my love, you can fuck me all you want. But only after you let go of me, so I can pee.âÂ
Ben grunted, releasing where heâd subconsciously grabbed Her waist, but holding onto the sound of Her heartbeat as she climbed out of the car. Sheâd passed him the money from Her jacket, and now Ben had to fill up the gas tank, because Her saying Benjamin, my love, was some sort of goddamn override to his brain that made body move to Her will more than his. It wasnât like he wouldnât have gotten Her gasâSheâd asked him for something, and Ben would be damned if she didnât fucking get itâbut he might have pushed for them to go somewhere else if she hadnât added that one fucking phrase.
But now he had to get gas here. At this backwater fucking washed up parking lot, with a pump that might have been installed before Ben was even taken to Russia. This whole fucking place was disgusting, even by the real damn low standards of gas stations in upstate New York. Ben wasnât even sure it was genuine establishment and not an abandoned building that some hicks has started selling dogshit coffee and stale candy bars at. If this was Benâs car, which it fortunately wasnât, heâd probably have flat out fucking refused to put their alleged âgasâ in the engine. They were selling it for a million damn dollarsâSheâd explained the rapid increase of cost of living and inflation to him several times, but $4.50 for gas had to be a crimeâand if he wasnât able to lean against Butcherâs car and keep a very careful eye on every single pussy moving around the lot while she took a piss, he wouldâve damned it and gone into the bathroom with Her, just to make sure she was safe.
But She probably wouldâve killed him for hovering, and it wasnât like Ben couldnât feel Herâeasy and content and humming a soft, natural songâeverywhere his head, or hear her heartbeat slightly muffled, but steady, across the parking lot. And it was just them, three truckers, the store workers, and a family on some sort of weird fucking road trip at the station overall, so things would be fine. And if they werenât, Ben had a fucking gun. They were going right to Boston after this shit, so even though he wasnât allowed to bring his suit, Ben had dropped his shield in the trunk of Butcherâs car and packed one of the gun ranges better pistols in his pants, along with the one Butcher had given him when Sheâd return in his pants. So if that bouncy fucking five-year-old tried anything, Ben would be ready.
The five-year-old wouldnât try anything. It was a little girl, rolling in the grass like a damn dog, giggling to herself as her mother watched her with a tired, joyful smile, and neither of them seemed to be plotting anything. A man joined them with a slightly smaller boy, passing the woman a coffee with a kiss as the boy half-tackled the girl, and something Ben fucking became radiant and soft and aching and hungry in his chest and head and gut.
Heâd never fucking gotten that. Ben couldnât ever remember being that carefree as a kid, and heâd certainly never fucking played in the grass, looked up at his father, and gotten a thumbs up and smile of approval. Sheâd never had it either. Ben would place real good money that Her parents had never watched her with content, easy expressions, and then shared low laughs with each other about a joke Ben could fucking hear, and wasnât that damn funny. Those assholes across the parking lot seemed to think it was fucking hilarious, leaning on each other and watching each other with expressions that wouldâve made Ben scoff and make a face of like heâd smelled something foul forty years ago.
He wouldnât now. He hadnât gotten that before eitherâreal, raw, powerful fucking loveâbut Ben fucking got it now. That together didnât just mean at someoneâs side most days, and in name, with acknowledgments through teeth. Ben had thought the most together had to offer was a show. Someone he didnât like that much, but could half-tolerate for a few hours, to flash and shine with him so everyone went fuck, they look good. Theyâre smiling for us, so thatâs love.
Ben had been a fucking idiot. Together meant together. It meant at Her side, always matching Her step for step, but a fuck ton more than just a name. Together meant just them, no need to stray and no way out, because Ben didnât want a way out. He loved Herâhe couldnât stop telling Her, and it almost fell out of Ben like when he exhaled it would always come out as the words, I love you, Sunshineâand together meant Her and Ben, burning at each otherâs sides, no matter what every other pussy fucker wanted. And all the best parts of this werenât for any single camera or crowd, they were for Ben. They were how She looked wearing his shirts and sprawled over his body, a weight he could easily throw off but never wanted to. They were watching TV shows and Movies with Her, and watching her smile in the glow of the screen. They were trading smirks and winks and jokes, and bumping shoulders or walking with Ben half holding Her up as he made dirty promises heâd always keep. They were dancing with Her in the haze of colorful light provided by her beautiful, fucking enchantingvoice, and saying shit like enchanting because that seemed like a word Sheâd use.
He really fucking got that together wasnât a performance. Ben liked HerâShe was fucking hilarious and mean and smart and perfectâand when he smiled it was for Her. Not a single other pussy fucker mattered when Ben smiled at Her, because it was something that he couldnât help, and acted as another piece of evidence that Ben loved Her. Further proof that sheâd never have to be afraid of anything again, because Ben would keep her safe, and sheâd never have to want for anything because Ben would find whatever she asked for.
So Ben couldnât scowl at the man across the lot, half-hanging over his wife, because Ben knew that he probably looked that fucking stupid when he looked at Her. But anyone would look that stupid if they got to love Her. If Sheâd turned them into a fucking pussy who thought about things like would they take stupid road trips? They could. After this was over, She and Ben could do whatever the fuck they wanted. Benâs whole goddamn brain had been turned into a place to figure out what else would She want. A road trip probably wasnât the best idea, if Ben wanted to keep his sanity. Given how frequent and intense their sex was, theyâd have to pull over two or three times a day and Ben was never going to fuck his wife in a flea-ridden, stiff mattressed, peeling-paint motel room. He couldâBen could fuck Her anywhereâbut She deserved all the comfort the world had to offer.
Sheâd want to see beautiful things. Not have them, but see them. Ben would need to take Her to places that held half the beauty she had in Her own body and heart and head, just so She could see what he got to look at every goddamn day. Ben needed to show Her things like waterfalls and mountains and oceans, find Her a place where the sun was almost as bright as She was, and he could hold Her just to hold her. A place where there were soft breezes and music and good food and flowers.
There were flowers here. As gross as this place was, there were still flowers. Off the side of the lot, past where the family had been standing and where everything turned overgrown and green, there were light pink flowers.
She was still in the bathroom, and the tank was full, and Ben couldnât stop staring at the flowers. It was just him and two truckers nowâshorter men with baseball caps and slightly tattered clothingâand they were looking over at Ben with weary frowns.
But Ben still just fucking stared at the flowers.
And that was the type of fucking love-sick idiot pussy Sheâd turned him into. The type that stomped across the parking lot, glaring daggers at the other men in a silent dare to say somethingâbecause Ben would throw them right through their stupid trucks and not break a sweatâand grabbed some flowers out of the ground for his wife.
Sheâd like them. Sheâd get pretty, wide eyes and smile at Ben and it wouldnât matter that heâd just picked flowers like a fucking child, because Sheâd be happy.
He returned to the car, scowling at where he could still hear Her heartbeat through the walls of the gas station.
Youâre not being fucking fast, Sunshine.
There was barely a beat before she responded. Take it up with my asshole, Pretty Boy. Iâm shitting.
Are you almost done.
I think? Maybe five or six more minutes. Ben heard Her amusement bounce around his head, and he could fucking hear the smile on her face. Think youâll make it?Â
Shut the fuck up. Ben glared at the flowers, still in his hands. Do you need anything.Â
Like what?Â
I donât fucking know, what do gas stations sell now-
Probably the same things they sold in the 80s. Gum, candy, condoms, snack, soda, energy drinks-Â
What the fuck is an energy drink.
Like, a Red Bull or a Monster. There was a pause, and then, have you had a Red Bull?Â
Bulls arenât red, theyâre brown or some shit-
No, dummy, itâs a brand name. Like Doritos, but caffeine and sugar. Go get a Red Bull, Benjamin.
Ben frowned. Why.Â
Because I want to watch you drink it. Â
He looked down at the remainder of their money. Are you hungry.
If I say yes, will you buy the Red Bull. Â
He grunted Her name between their heads, and Her soft laugh echoed through his mind.
Iâll take whatever else you get. Â
What the fuck do you want, Sunshine-
Weâll share. Go get the food and Iâll find you after Iâm done.
Ben nodded to no one and put Her flowers in his pocket, taking one last assessing look around the lotâone more person had parked a white van, but that was itâbefore heading into the gas station convince store.
These things hadnât fucking changed in the slightest. Still flickering blue, washed-out fluorescent lights, dirty floors and walls, and messily stocked shelves. Ben stalked over to the drink fridges lining the walls, scanning the shelves for whatever the fuck a Red Bull wasâfigured out it was a silver and blue can, and decided to get the black and green one a few shelves instead on fucking principle aloneâand moved on to find Her some food.
The newer man, with the van, had walked into the store, joining Ben and the acrylic-nailed woman behind the counter, and was studying all the sandwiches and donuts near the register like he might actually find one that didnât taste like fucking shit. Ben decided to go for the snack isle instead, because he could kick the pussy out of his way, but Sheâd be eating whatever he ate. Ben wasnât that fucking hungry, and he knew if he tried to just give Her food and not take any himself, sheâd go on a strike and refuse to take a bite until he took one as well. That meant he had to figure out something that theyâd both eat, but Sheâd love more, enough to eat most of it without pawning half off to Ben. And Ben would not take a single fucking bite of a Styrofoam, gas station hot dog, so snacks it was.
He grabbed things he recognized. Potato chips and Rice Krispies and Oreos and Pop Tarts, and then a large bag of chocolates he could insist was only for Her, because he had this stupid fucking energy drink for himself. She needed to drink as well, actually, so Ben returned to the drink isle and scowled at the options. Colorful bottles and over-priced water and juices designed for children that Ben wouldnât be buying his wife-Â
Fuck. He kept doing that. Since DC, Benâs brain had decided to turn against his own interest of waiting and doing it right to just call Her his wife. She would beâheâd fucking kill the proposal, and make every other romantic thing in history look like a World Warâbut she wasnât yet. So he needed to get a goddamn hold over himself, grab one of those fancy fucking water bottles, and pay for everything so they could keep going before Ben did something stupid like asking Her to marry him in a parking lot.
He sensed Her before he even realized her heartbeat had moved. An innate feeling of closer, Sheâs getting closer, good things are getting closer, and then a ring of a high bell as the door opened. Ben had made his way over to the counterâwaiting as the cashier scanned everything in the slowest way goddamn possibleâand turned to see Her walking over to him with such a perfect fucking look of ease on her face, a small smile pulling at her lips as she assessed his picks.
She opened Her mouthâeyes meeting Benâs and full of a fucking light and sheer goddamn happiness that made him highâand that pussy fucking van idiot, mouthful of a sandwich he hadnât damn paid for yet, stepped between them.
âWhatâs a pretty little thing like you doing here, honey?â
She froze, and Ben felt his hands curl into fists as something started to twist and flail in his gut.
âI, um, I donât,â She looked over the manâs shoulder to Ben, and he jerked his head to the Van-Pussy.
Do you want me to kill him-
âYou up here with anyone? Nah, no way someone would leave you alone if you were, theyâd have to be a fucking cuck.â The man laughed to himself, and Ben took a jerked step forward to rip off his goddamn head.
No murder, Benjamin.Â
He halted, keeping his attention on Van-Pussyâs every shift and breath. Some small murder can be fucking justified, heâs got it coming-
Iâve got this. If you need to start punching holes in people, Iâll tell you.
Ben was going to break his own fucking teeth, his clenched jaw becoming slightly strained and almost painful, but he gave a small, curt nod. Swear it-
Promise. âI am actually. Here with someone.â
Van-Pussy laughed again, but this laugh was dismissive, like she was stupid. âPlease, honey. I donât see no one-â
She shrugged. âThen turn around.â
Ben coughed to cover his laugh, and Van-Pussy whipped around to meet his glare.
Then the fucking idiot rolled his eyes. âYou could do better than him, darling, youâre way too pretty for him. Come with me, and Iâll show you a real good time.â
That was an insane fucking statement. Ben had issues, but he also knew what his face looked like. He might be the only asshole alive who was close to being as attractive as she was. It was another reason he was fucking built to love Her right, because She deserved to fuck and smile and love someone who could hold even a tiny, flickering candle to the massive, consuming and cleansing inferno of life and beauty that she was.
Ben probably wouldâve broken Van-Pussyâs face for that statement alone, then his ribs for calling Her darling, and then his knees for how heâd started to reach for Her, but she was a fucking wonder of the universe and moved faster. Side-stepping Van-Pussy in a smooth movement, reaching a hand out for Ben to wrap his own around on instinct, and let Herself be tugged right up to his side, under his arm, where they both goddamn belonged.
âIâm good, thank you.â She gave Van-Pussyâs wide, almost thunder-struck expression a sweet, toxic, toothless smile, and turned herself and Ben around, back to the counter.
Ben kissed the top of Her head as she fully assessed his choices, the cashier somehow not finished scanning. âI can still fucking kill him if you want-â
She cut off his words, muttered in Her ear, with a turn of her head and full, long, kiss. âNo murder, Benjamin, my love.â She hummed into his mouth, and pulled away to rest her head on his shoulder, looking back to the food. âNo weed, huh?â
He blinked, frowning between Her and the counter. âWhat the fuck are you talking about-â
âWeed is legal in New York,â She shrugged. âAnd a lot of gas stations sell it now. It might not be regulated weed, but that doesnât really matter to you-â
âAre you fucking with me-â
âNope.â She bumped their shoulders, and turned to the cashier. âExcuse me, maâam, do you have any cannabis products-â
The cashier looked up at her with a flat, almost dead-eyed stare. âWe got joints, $40 for the bag.â
âCan you add that as well-âÂ
The woman turned around to the wall of cigarettes and condoms behind the counter, and She smiled up at Ben.
âSee? Weed-â
Ben cupped Her chin, holding her still so he could kiss her as deep and rough as he could manage without starting to fuck her on the disgusting floor of the gas station. She was fucking perfect, and amazing, and all Benâs and fuck he loved Her so goddamn much-
They only broke apart because the cashier cleared her throat, slamming a bag of weed on the counter and looking at Ben expectantly. âFifty-five bucks.â
Ben paidâhis instance that they didnât need a bag, because he could fucking carry everything without an issue being shot down by Her sharp glareâand guided Her out of the store, back to the car. Ben winked at Van-Pussy as they passed him, because She was his. Sheâd chosen Ben, and was tucked at his side with a smile and perfect fucking look of happiness on her beautiful face. She knew Ben, and got him weed, and loved him so much that Ben could see it everywhere. In the trash littered around the gas station and smudges of dirt on the windows of Butcherâs car. In the woods surrounding them and the and the sparkles of glass in the parking lot, in the reflection of rainbow in some stray oil pooling out of the pump, and Her smile as they climbed back into the car.
âNo weed now,â She glanced up at him as she pulled items out of the plastic bag, a tone of apology in her voice. âJust because we need to go, and canât afford to be pulled over if a patrol cop sees the driver smoking a joint.â Her eyes lit up, and Ben knew exactly what she was going to say before her mouth even opened. âOr-â
âYou are not driving, Sunshine.â Ben drawled, fighting his smile at the pretty wrinkle of Her nose. âDonât even fucking try to convince me otherwise.â
âCunt,â She mumbled, tossing the joints into the back of the car. âWhat do you want first?â
âWhatever you donât want.âÂ
She nodded, frowning at the bag. âChips?â
âI donât give a fuck-â
The bag of chips was half-chucked at his face, and Ben looked over to see her holding up the green can, her brows raised.
âBenjamin, this is not a Red Bull-â
âItâs the same shit, isnât it? And itâs green-â
âHoly fuck, Pretty Boy.â She giggled, passing him the drink. âYouâre like a toddler who wonât eat chicken nuggets because theyâre not shaped like dinosaurs-â
âShut the fuck up-â
âI think itâs adorable.â She leaned forwards, propping her chin on his shoulder. âAnd I love you, you old grump. Drink the Monster.â
Ben scowled, glaring down at Her as he popped the can open. âThis is dumb as shit-â
âYeah, it is. Do it, you pussy-â
He kissed Her once, just to turn her words into a soft moan, and pulled back with a smirk. âBrat.â
He took the drink in one gulp, and almost spat it out over Butcherâs dashboard.Â
âFucking Christ, this tastes like ass-â He glared at Her, head buried against him and absolutely failing to contain her laughter at his suffering. âPeople drink this shit on purpose-â
She nodded, her grin wide and toothy and unrestrained as she looked up to meet his eyes. âThey do, yeah. Itâs like dogshit coca cola, but also helps you finish an essay two hours before itâs due. It has its merits.â
âItâs fucking disgusting,â Ben grumbled, slamming the can into the cup holders for Butcher to throw out later, and She giggled again. âYou think this is fucking funny-â
âI do.â She pulled herself up, kissing along Benâs jaw and taking his hand in Hers. âI think this is hilarious.âÂ
âYouâre so fucking mean to me, Sunshine-â
âYou love it.â
He rolled his eyes, but squeezed Her hand and only muttered, âI do, you fucking brat.â
âThank you for trying that for me-â
âDonât.â Ben sighed, glancing Her as she settled back into her seat, their hands still tangled together. âI got you something.â
âYou got me lots of things.â She looked back to the bag, pulling out the chocolate with a smile. âVery good boyfriending, Benjamin.â
The radiant thing coursed through Benâs whole body, blooming over his ribs and warming his gut. It was damn near impossible to keep frowningâto keep his brow drawn and face neutralâwhen she was so contagiously happy. Like disease Ben wanted to,fucking needed to catch.
He shoved his hand into his pocket before he could pussy out, and coughed to regain her full attention. âI got you something else, as well.â
A small frown crossed her face as she titled Her head, scanning over Benâs very fucking serious expression. âWhat?âÂ
He pulled the flower out, extending it for Her to take with a stiff arm. He didnât have any fucking words for it, because it didnât need words. This flower was for Her. Ben had picked it for Her, and that was all he goddamn knew how to do. Ben knew how to do things for Her, because it was easier than breathing, and that was it, and it would have to speak for itself.
She was gaping between him and the flower, the whole world almost fucking drowning in the feeling of Herâinfinite and good and made of fire and life and love and honey and music and something golden Ben didnât have a name forâand when she reached out with a slightly shaking hand, her voice was soft.
âYou got me a flower?â
Ben grunted an agreement, trying to figure out what the fuck Her exact reaction was. Why she sounded so fucking nervous, when She was electric and overflowing inside on Benâs body.
âWhere-â
âWoods.â He muttered, jerking his head in the vague direction of where the family had stood. âThere were fuck ton of them-â
âYou,â She swallowed, glossy eyes moving to fully onto Benâs. âYou picked it for me?â
âOf course I picked it for you, who the fuck else would I pick it for-â
She practically launched herself out of Her seat, crashing her mouth into Benâs, and his words died with a groan as she straddled him. She was kissing Ben like sheâd fucking die if she didnât, grinding down onto him with moans of his name and sounds of want that made his cock grow painfully hard. Her hands were tangled in his hair, their bodies molded perfectly together, and fuck she smelled good, felt good, everything about Her was so fucking good-
âI love you,â She whispered, voice slightly unsteady as she pulled back to watch him, and Ben realized he could taste the salt from her tears. She was fucking crying, why the fuck was she crying-
âYou-â
âI love you so much, Ben.â She gave him one last, tender and sweet kiss, smiling against his lips. Youâre amazing, and I love the flower, and I really fucking love you.
Ben realizedâas he chased Her mouth back to his, feeling how every piece of Her was coated in pure fucking joyâthat the tears were happy tears. She was so goddamn happy it was making him feel fucking aliveâalive in a way that only She knew how to be, where everything was beautiful and had meaning and somehow Ben was still everything to Herâand he couldnât fight the grin from crossing his face and She settled back into her seat, fully taking the flower from his hand and looking at it like it she looked at him. Adoring and soft, Her whole face relaxed and not an ounce of pain or fear over her perfect features. She looked at the flower like it was a piece of Ben heâd carved out to offer Her, and that made the stupidity of picking his wife a flower feel more than goddamn worth it.
Heâd fucking done it again. Not his wife, yet. Ben could, probably, ask right fucking now and get it right, but they were on a time limit. They had an hour left to go before they reached Edgar, and couldnât afford to use time for Ben to pull her back over him and tell Her to fucking marry me, Sunshine, because I love you and Iâll give you a whole fucking garden if you ask me to. Iâll kiss you stupid on the grass, surrounded by as many flowers as you want, then fuck you stupider until youâre this happy all the goddamn time. Iâll buy you all the damn snacks you need, and drink a million more of those shit fucking cock-drinks if it always makes you giggle. Just fucking marry me, and Iâll love you however you ask for the rest of our lives. Forever. Iâll love you for fucking ever.Â
But stupid things like not letting America fall and crumble under Vought and Homelander made Ben have to start the engine and keep moving. His hand had returned to its home on Her thigh as she rambled about every single, pointless, perfect thought that popped into her head. She loved the color pink, and Ben wasnât allowed to call it stupid or girly, or sheâd put pink and blue glitter in his shampoo and then kick him in the balls. She loved flowers as well, and was proud of Ben for not killing Van-Pussy, and heâd somehow managed to grab her favorite Pop Tart flavor. She made him share her water, and threw an Oreo at his face when he grumbled about how he shouldâve fucking killed Van-Pussy, and started reaching between his legs to grab chips as she spoke, which didnât fucking help him focus on the road at all.
Ben had apparently gotten her a rose milkweed, which was a primary attractor of Monarch Butterflies.
âHow fuck do you know that-â
âI went to butterfly garden when I was a kid.â She shrugged, still smiling at the flower and twirling it between her fingers. âThey had these everywhere.âÂ
He gruntedâof course Sheâd just have fucking remembered thatâand let her continue on a tangent about butterflies and flowers and whatever the fuck else she wanted to talk about. She was distracted from the meeting with Edgarâ drawing closer and closer the longer they droveâand Ben got to hear her voice, so he was good. He could glance at her every few minutes and feel his mouth twitch at the eager, bright expression on her face as she spoke, and wonder if Sheâd want to go to a butterfly garden again. If that would make Her keep smiling like this, if She might tackle him and call him amazing again.
Heâd gave to figure that out later. Right now, they were parking in the back lot of Edgarâs prison, and had a fucking job to do. Sheâd slowly fallen silent as theyâd driven through the gateâher hand tapping against Benâs and teeth visible as she gnawed on her lipsâand when the engine turned off, Ben waited. Stay right at Her fucking side, holding and watching her until she took a long, heavy breath and met his eyes.
âThe plan-â
âGo in,â Ben grunted. âGive Edgar the keys, but not the V, and clear my debt. Try and get him to tell us what the fuck the keys are for, and let you take the lead if he asks about the V. No talking to anyone but Edgar and MMâs contact, no lingering and fighting if shit goes south. If hell breaks loose, get the fuck out and donât look back.â
She nodded slowly. âIf another guard asks who we are?â
âLet our insider take of it.â
âAnd if someone recognizes us-â
âThey wonât,â Ben grinned, reaching over and dropping Her sunglasses from her brow to her nose. âBecause we wonât be around long enough for a single fucking pussy to realize who we are.â
âDo you-â
Ben grabbed the stupid fucking Red Sox cap sheâd bought him from the backseat, glowering at Her as he dropped it over his hair. âThere is no goddamn reason it had to be Red Sox-â
âThe reason is that I think you look very handsome,â an infinite, sharp light danced in Her eyes, and she leaned up to kiss Ben over his beard, holding his jaw with a gentle touch. âWhen youâre so grumpy about a hat.â
âItâs fucking blue-â
âYouâll live, you massive fucking baby.â She dropped back, giving her own bodyâwearing her sunglasses, Benâs green shirt, and a green jacket Annie had gifted to herâa dramatic gesture. âAnd Iâm wearing enough green for both of us. Letâs haul ass Pretty Boy, so we can get it over with.â
Ben scowled, but climbed out of the car, half-running around the car to get her door before She could even fucking think to do it herself.
She smiled up at himâtaking Benâs hand and letting him help her out of her seatâand pressed Her palm to his chest as she gave him one last kiss. Barely a brush, just enough for Ben to have time to wrap his around fully around her waist and hold her face, dragging his thumb over her lips as they separated.
âSuch a fucking gentleman.â
She was teasing him, but the words still made Benâs heart almost pound out of his goddamn chest, made his whole fucking body wrathful and illuminated and fall in time with Her. Her, Her, Her, Ben fucking loved Her, and nothing was could have been better than this, be better than this, be better than them, burning together fucking always.
âShut up, brat.â Ben rolled his eyes, deciding to ignore how she could obviously fuck seeâand defiantly fucking feelâhow everything in his body was made of rough, permanent, immoveable affection and love for Her. âReady?â
âReady.â Her hand fisted in Benâs shirt, her head dropping to take long, steady breaths against him before looking back up, her face set and focused. âLetâs do this.â
MMâs contact was a surly, uptight man who worked for the prison and grunted more than Ben did. Heâd looked them up and down, muttered a request for proof of identificationâneither of them had that, so She set her hand on fire and Ben snapped the manâs baton in halfâand then nodded, gesturing for them to follow him. If he thought it was noteworthy how Benâs arm was resting on Her hipsâheld there by her hand over hisâthe man was smart enough not to say a fucking thing and only lead them long, twisting, empty halls to a steel-doored room, identical to last time.
âHeâs in there,â the manâheâd said his name, and Ben hadnât been fucked to remember itâtold them, looking Her and Ben up and down with a frown. âYou got an hour before he needs to be back in his cell.â
âGot it,â She was braced at Benâs side, every word coming out careful and neutral. âThank you.â
The man just shrugged, moving to stand against the wall and keep guard. âMM wouldnât ask if it wasnât serious as shit, so donât worry about it.â
She sighed, nodding, and looked back to Ben. Iâve got the keys, is it okay if I do most of the talking-
The talking is your shit, Sunshine. Ben kissed the space between Her eyes, dropping his head until their brows were pressed together and he could study Her pretty, sharp eyes. Iâve got you, but youâre doing the damn talking.
Okay. She took another, grounding breath, and Her heartbeat grew a little more natural before she pulled back, and pushed the door open.
Edgar was indeed waiting for them, handcuffed to a table and humming bland tune that halted as they entered the room.
He said Her name first, eyes not even fucking darting to Ben. âHow lovely to see you again.â
âIs it?â She dropped in one of the two metal chairs across from Edgar, pulling Ben with her. âIâd say itâs mediocre at best.â
Edgar huffed a small laugh. âI suppose the circumstances could improve vastly, but at least you have Benjamin.â
Ben got a nod, and before he could snap at Edgar to stop fucking calling him that, She did it for him.Â
âEdgar,â She leaned over the table, eyes on Edgarâs a dry, silent threat. âFor both our sakes, donât call him that.â
âAh.â Edgar hummed Her name. âI never took you for the territorial sort-âÂ
âIâm not. But every time you call my Ben Benjamin, youâre in danger of getting your head ripped off, which would be a real bummer for you, and Iâm in danger of visualizing things I have no interest in visualizing.âÂ
âWould I be able to hear an example of such a thing-âÂ
âDo you have a guess as to what three times I call him Benjamin the most are?â She barely waited a second for Edgar to think before she continued a lazy, edged smile on her face. âNever mind, Iâll just tell you. When Iâm pissed at him, when Iâm telling him I love him, and when heâs fucking me. So forgive me if I donât want to imagine my boyfriendâs cock in your mouth, Stan. I think Iâm doing us all a favor with that.â
Ben might have made sour, lip-curled face at the idea of Edgar giving him head if his brain wasnât spinning around Her calling him her boyfriend again. Husband would sound better. My husband was almost as fucking good as my Ben, and they did very fucking similar things to his whole fucking existence. Reduced everything to Her, a riot and song of Her.
Edgar didnât have the same thing weighing down his disgust, though, because the pussy just sighed, shaking his head. âYour very disturbing point has been taken. Shall we move to business?â
âWhat else are we even here for?â
âIndeed.â Edgar looked between them, Ben rigid at Her side and her fingers tapping a quick, unyielding pattern of Moon River on the table. âI trust you managed to fulfill my request without issue?âÂ
Ben wouldnât call Red River without issueâbetween Her having to move around a Vought Facility by herself, Ben being unable to do a single fucking thing but wait and try not to punch Hughie in the throat as he offered attempted words of comfort, and the whole fucking Ashley thing, it was a little damn insane nobody had diedâbut She nodded, giving Edgar a passive shrug.
âEveryone made it out in one piece. Consider your request,â She reached into her pocket and held up the keys for Edgar to see before tossing them onto the table. âFulfilled.â
Edgar barely fucking looked at the keys, just enough to acknowledge their presence before returning his gaze to Her. âIâd hazard that youâve speculated on their nature with your delightful band of misfits?â
âWeâd be terrible at our jobs if we didnât.â
âMost of you are quite awful at your jobs. But you,â Edgar said Her name with a thin-lipped smile. âSeem quite capable. Would you mind sharing with me your conclusions?â
Her eyes narrowed. âWould you tell me if I hit on anything correct?â
âIâd offer one better, and share their home and use with you. All you have to do is tell me what you believe my answer will be.â
She paused, blinking at Edgar, and Ben frowned. They hadnât expected Edgar to just fucking volunteer that information.
I donât fucking trust it, Sunshine-
I donât either. She glances over at him, and Ben could see a little hint of quickly drying blood as she chewed through her lips. But we have to play his game, and get this over with.
âWhenever you care to begin-â
âFine.â She turned back to Edgar, cutting him off with clipped words. âI think itâs for a house, or some other form of private property.â
A small, snake-like smile played on Edgarâs lips. âWhy?â
âBecause itâs a skeleton key, but itâs also magnet based, which means itâs meant to unlock multiple, potentially high-security doors. Itâs an intricate design, complicated, which means itâs probably not just as house, but all the same itâs yours. Not Voughtâs. Vought wouldâve sprung for a smart key. You chose not to.â
âDid I?â Edgar hummed, his face and tone still insufferably fucking unreadable. âPerhaps it is simply not that valuable-â
âWrong. It is.â She poked at the keys on the table with a shrug. âIf itâs a house, itâs a house with a name. Only rich assholes name their houses, and only weird cryptic fucks use fancy master keys. It might not be something dangerous, but itâs valuable. Important enough for you to hide.â
âImpressive.â Edgar nodded, his tone sounds almost fucking delighted. âWould you like to hear the real answer?â
She didnât dignify Edgarâs words with anything but a half-passive shrug, Her eyes on him still sharp and clear.
âThey are mine, but you were wrong in saying that they were not Voughtâs as well. Before they came into my possession, they were the property of one Dr. Fredrick Vought. Iâm sure youâve heard of his unfortunate history-â
âYou mean the Nazi thing?â She said, voice flat. âYeah, I might have.â
âDo you remember who the Naziâs were allied with, during Voughtâs time within the party?â
âThe axis powers were the Third Reich, Italy, and Japan. But I donât-â
âSmart girl.â Edgarâs smile twisted further over his face. âSee, Dr. Vought may have lost faith in Germanyâs capabilities and defected to America, but he returned to Europe many times after the warâs conclusion. Heâd made several friends within Mussoliniâs party, and paid them a visit from time to time. It was a retreat for him, a time to enjoy like-minded company and get extra eyes on his various projects. Even after heâd perfected compound V, Vought still made many trips back to Italy, if only for leisure. Around the 60s, he went so far as to have a villa built in one of his favorite spots, and named it the Cornucopia. A villa I inherited when he stepped down, and passed me the mantle of Vought CEO. These,â Edgar nodded back to the keys. âServe as the master key, for the master of the house. Myself.â
She frowned. âWouldnât that technically mean theyâre Ashleyâs? If the villa is traditionally passed down from CEO to CEO?â
âIt would,â Edgar sighed. âIâm afraid it absolutely slipped my mind into the chaos of my arrest to alert my successor of its location or existence. However, given that Dr. Vought and I are the only two owners, I wouldnât quite call it tradition, which is why I am more than comfortable skipping over Mr. Barrett altogether and gifting it to you.â
Ben had very fucking rarely seen Her purely shocked. Gaping and wide-eyed, her beautiful face a picture of confusion, looking at Edgar like heâd just started speaking a different fucking language.
âI, um, I donât-â
She stuttered and tripped over words when she was short-circuiting. When Her brain was overloaded with fear or lust, and had worked itself into a fucking overdrive Ben usually knew how to fixâholding Her until she was happy again, or fucking Her until she was stupid and glossy-eyed, and managed to kick herself back into gearâbut didnât have a goddamn idea how to help now.
âWhat the fuck do you mean, gifting it to her.â Ben took over, squeezing his hand on her hips in a silent reassurance, and fucking prayed that some answers would help bring her back down.Â
âI mean what I say. The property and all its contents now belong to you,â Edgar angled his head to Her, saying her full name.
âWhy.â
âBecause, Soldier Boy, I like her. A feeling I am sure you will not take issue with-â
Ben scowled. âYouâre not the gifting type, you dick, so tell us why-âÂ
âI am afraid it is no more complex than a simple an affection and well-wish. Iâve been feeling more generous,as of late, and no longer have use for a villa halfway across the world.â Edgar turned away from Ben, back to Her. âYou are clever, with a hopefully bright future, and I believe you may find worth in it.â
That seemed to pull Her back down enough to respond, thought Her voice softer, more uncertain, than usual. âWorth? What kind of worth?âÂ
Edgar dismissed Her question entirely. âYou may also keep your V. I do not doubt that youâd simply forgotten it,â he looked between Her and Ben with a raised brow. âBut it was never fully mine to begin with. I trust you wonât be foolish with such a volatile and dangerous drug, and if you are, please keep it far away from me.â
She blinked, glancing back down to the keys. âI canât take these-â
âTake them or not, theyâre now yours.â
âBut-âÂ
âIt is a gift,â Edgar said Her name, voice slightly more edged. âIt cannot be returned. Should you leave the keys here, they will be your lost property. Your responsibility.â
âItâs,â She cleared her throat, raising her still voice to a steady tone. âItâs in Italy?â
Edgar nodded. âRome. The northern area, I believe. Forgive me, I only had a chance to see it once.â
She swallowed slightly. âAnd itâs mine?â
âCorrect.â
She pulled her gaze fully from the keys, onto Edgar. âIs that, thatâs all? No hidden plans or debts or secret terms?â
âIf you are asking about Soldier Boyâs debt, it is forgiven.â Edgarâs cold smile had returned, his attention moving to Ben. âIt was a pleasure doing business with you, and Iâd shake your hand, but as you can see,â he pulled slightly on his cuffs. âI am otherwise occupied.â
Ben just grunted, and she took a long breath.
âWeâre done here, then?â
âTragically, yes.â Edgar sighed. âOur time has run out.â
âAwesome.â She stood up, Benâs arm half supporting her, and gave Edgar a small, tight nod. âHave a good life, I guess. And, uh, thanks.â
âGifts do not require thanks,â Edgar said Her name with a bored smile. âAnd I am sure we will be seeing each other again.âÂ
âYeah, well.â She grabbed the keys off the table, returning them to her pocket. âHereâs hoping we donât.âÂ
Before they left, she found Edgar a piece of paper to write the address on, Ben giving Edgar a long, angry glareâjust for the fucking sake of itâuntil She tugged him back into the hall. MMâs contact was waiting, and barely looked at them before he grunted to follow his lead out. Ben looked down at Her as they walked, a grin tugging at his face.
You got a fucking house.
Villa. She corrected him in Her head with a sigh, leaning further into his side. And itâs a Nazi villa, so Iâm not exactly thrilled.
Who gives a fuck what it was, Sunshine. Ben nudged Her shoulder, waiting for her to look up before continuing. Itâs yours now, and you can do whatever the hell you want with it.
She blinked at him as they exited the prison. Like what?
Fill it with bugs and rat shit. Or baby animals and chocolate-
Thatâs dangerous, Ben, a lot of animals canât eat chocolate-
He rolled his eyes. Then make it a fucking hospital, smartass, or an orphanage. Live in it or blow it up. Whatever the fuck you do with it, itâs yours.
Ours. She smiled at Ben, and the radiance bloomed around his heart and along his spine. Weâre fuck-buddy-brain-connected, Benjamin, so the villa is your problem as well.
He should do it now. Ben should just fucking pin Her against Butcherâs car, kiss Her until she was fully relaxed in his arms, drop to his knees, and do it. Tell Her that theyâll be fuck-buddy-brain-connected forever, and heâd never call them that aloud, so they should just get fucking married so she could say youâre my husband, Benjamin, so the villa is your problem as well, and Ben could kiss Her softly and mutter that nothing with her was a problem. She was the best thing in his fucking life, and she couldnât be a problem if she tried. And She certainly fucking had. Also, just as another damn bonus, Ben could call Her his wife to anyone who was around to hear it, and they could have world-ending engagement sex in Butcherâs backseat, until the pussy couldnât drive without smelling Benâs cum and Her squirting.
And Ben probably would have actually gone through with that plan, had they not reached the car to find Sister Sage in the driverâs seat, sorting through their remaining snacks with The Deep at her side, his feet up on the dashboard.
Ben grabbed his gunâhalf shoving Her behind him as he yanked open the doorâand pressed its barrel to Sageâs temple. âWhat the fuck are you pussies doing here.â
Sage didnât even flinch, turning her head to meet their eyes and moving the gun to her brow as The Deep started to climb over, shouting protests Ben could barely hear over the ringing in his ears.
âHey, dude! Thatâs not cool-â
âDeep,â Sheâd moved back to Benâs side, a light hand on arm in a silent request not to yet shoot. âShut up-â
âNo, you shut up, you traitorous whore bitch-â
Ben re-aimed the gun at the Deep, who cut himself off with a swallow. âYou watch your fucking mouth when you speak to her, fish-fuck.â
âOr what.â In a remarkable act of sheer fucking stupidity that was impossible to mistake for bravery, the Deep kept talking. âWhatâs so magic about her blowjobs that sheâs got every fucking guy who gets one obsessed with her-â
Ben clicked off the safety, raising the gun slightly higher. âI warned you.â
âHey, dude, woah, calm down.â The Deep raised his hands, cowering like a fucking pussy. âI didnât know you were serious about-â
Sage raised her hand, and the Deep fell silent.
âCall off your hound,â Sage said Her name in a lazy, almost annoyed tone, and Benâs grip on the gun almost snapped it in half. âWeâre here to talk.â
She looked between Sage and the Deep with weary eyes, and didnât tell Ben to lower the gun. âHow did you know we were here.â
âWe received a tip that the Anomaly and Soldier Boy were alone together in upstate New York, only an hour away from Stan Edgarâs prison.â Sage gave Here a flat look. âIt doesnât take genius to connect those dots. And I am a genius.â
She glanced at Ben. Fuck, someone must have recognized us-
Van-Pussy.
Who-
The asscuck that tried to hit on you. Nobody else but the cashier saw us, and she was high as tits.
Damn it. Light danced slightly in Her eyes, even as her expression remained set and passive. I should have let you kill him.
Ben knew She was joking, but that didnât stop his grunted, smug response of, damn right you should have.
She wrinkled her nose at him and turned back to Sage, who was watching them with a titled head. âWhat do you want.â
âWhat was that?â Sage looked between Her and Ben with a wolfish smile. âWhat did you two just do?â
The Deep frowned. âThey didnât do anything, they just stared at each other for like a minute
âExactly, you fucking idiot.â Sage rolled her eyes. âBut something still happened. Can I guess?âÂ
âNo.â She snapped, glancing back to the Deep. âWhatâs he doing here?â
âI got the tip, I fucking caught you-â
âYou thought it was nothing.â Sage shot the Deep a cold glare. âAnd only told me because youâre mandated to pass on any report of the Anomalyâs actively.â
Ben heard Her heart pick up pace in her chest as the Deep turned red, stumbling over his words. âWell, Iâm the one that had the helicopter idea-â
âAnd I flew it. Youâre only here because youâd have gone to Homelander if you didnât.âÂ
âYou,â She looked between Sage and the Deep. âYou havenât told Homelander.â
âOf course not.â Sage dismissed Her with a shrug. âIâm here to talk to you, not monologue and blow you up.â
Her nails dug into Benâs arm, and Her words were slow, careful. âThatâs not interesting, is it.â
A smile that Ben didnât fucking understand, but made Her lean further into him, crossed Sageâs face. âExactly. Homelanderâs a fucking idiot. I canât have him messing this up.â
âHey, donât talk about my man Homelander like that, I could still tell him what youâre up to-â
âNo, you canât.â Sage didnât look at the Deep as she cut him off, her attention locked between Ben andâprimarilyâHer. âGo to him now, and youâre an accomplice. You kept this from him, and he wonât be forgiving of that.â
The blood drained from the Deepâs face, and She cleared her throat.Â
âWhy are you here, Sage. What do you want.âÂ
âLike I said before, to talk-âÂ
âAbout what.âÂ
Sageâs wolfish grin returned, cruel and jeering and fucking annoying as shit. âYouâll see.â
Ben kept his eyes on Sage and the Deepâs every movement as he spoke, low and gruff, down the line to Her head. I can just fucking shoot them, and we can go-
No. She sighed, squeezing Benâs arm once. The only way out of this is to talk to them.
Or kill them-
Sage will have a failsafe for that. And I think she really is just here to talk.
Ben scowled. Why.
She knows she canât kill us. Homelander, She took a heavy breath, and Ben risked a glance to see her face hollow and tired. Homelander isnât here. Heâs not the wait and hide type. And Sage wonât call him until she and the Deep are far away from whatever happens after he arrives. She has something to say, or sheâd have just sent Homelander to start with. And I want to hear what it is.
They make single wrong fucking move-
And you shoot them. âGet out of the car, and we can talk.â
âGood choice.â Sage climbed out of the driverâs seat, crossing her arms as the Deep scrambled out behind her. âIâm sure we could all build a little more trust if I didnât have a gun pointed at me for the duration of our conversation.â
âTough fucking shit.â Ben growled, tracking the Deepâs stumbling steps to Sageâs side. âTalk.â
âFine.â Sage sighed, turning to Her. âI believe you have something I want.â
Her features remained passive, but her body was half falling onto Benâs. He shot an arm around Her waistâgun still set on Sageâand her hand held him there as she resounded with bored words. âI donât know what youâre talking about.â
âWell, as Iâm sure Ashley has told you-â
âI havenât seen Ashley since I left the tower-â
âPlease.â Sage gave Her a pointed look. âAshleyâs last known location was Red River, the same day that hours of camera footage were erased, and several windows were melted away. I know sheâs defected, but itâs fine. Iâve accounted for it. But she may have mentioned to you that Iâve been hounding Stan Edgar for months, and you might be able to help me get what I want.â
âWhy the fuck would we ever help you-â
Sageâs words were dry but firm over Benâs. âBecause everyone has something they want. And I could help you, if you helped me.â
âHow,â She paused, studying Sageâs face. âWhy would you help us?â
âI wouldnât be helping you, Iâd be exchanging a good for a service.â Sage looked between Her and BenâBenâs arm around Her body, Her fingerâs tangled in hisâand smirked. âIf you give me the Cornucopia, Iâll help you get out.â
âWhatâs the Cornucopia-â
âWhat Iâm looking for.â Sage shrugged. âEdgar told me he had someone retrieving it, and now youâre here. When you find it, bring it to me instead, and youâll be done. Forever.â
Ben caught it that time. The slight stumble of Her heart tipped him off, but he hadnât missed those words. When you find it. Sage didnât know they had it now.
They had a fucking advantage.
Sunshine-
I know. âWhat do you mean done.â She asked aloud, eyes narrowed. âHow is that our end.â
âBecause youâll be gone.â Sage said, a glint in her eyes. âYouâll leave New York, leave Butcher and his cohort of idiots, leave Vought and Homelander and this whole fucking country, and never look back. And Iâll ensure nobody ever finds you again.â
Ben went rigid. Out. Really fucking out, with nobody to ever bother them again. Sheâd be safe, and Ben would be with her. Nobody would ever try to take him away from Her, and nothing would make her cry anything but happy, easy tears for the rest of their fucking lives.
âWhy.â She frowned, fingers tapping on Benâs hand. âIf Ben and I go, thatâs it. No more games, or battles. Itâs not interesting.â
âIt could be.â Sage grinned, and it was fucking blood-curling. âYou could make one last statement, really fuck up everything up, and leave. You could affirm Starlightâs story, tell Homelander youâve never loved him, and Iâd have to clean that up. You could shoot Butcher up with that V you stole from Homelander, and let them go scorched earth while youâre far, far away from it. Fucking your boyfriend and never thinking about any of this again. You could make it interesting, however you want, and get out. Iâm sure you want out. Wouldnât it be so nice for you to just be done?â
It would be the be best thing in the goddamn world to be done. To leave, and never look back. To just be at goddamn peace together, and fuck on a beach or in a forest, and let some other sorry fuckers deal with the fallout of this whole goddamn thing. Ben had faith in Her ability to deal Sage one last blow that would be difficult to fix, and their team would be able get the V and kill Homelander themselves. Sage might fucking stab them in the back, but they could take extra precautions themselves. Measures to make sure that it was just Her and Ben forever.
But no Ryan. None of the rest of their team, and no freedom. Ben could hear Her heartâstuttering and rapid against himâand knew that this would just be locking Her up in a new goddamn way. And Ben wouldnât be fucking worthy of Her. Heâd be pulling her away from every single other thing she lovedâand a few things he tolerated more than othersâjust to have her to himself. And heâd never fucking do that to her. She deserved to have the whole fucking world, not just a small sliver Sage offered them. She wouldnât be able to help anyone, and She needed to help, or sheâd go fucking insane. Theyâd both be away from Ryan, and the kid was just starting to calm the fuck down and stop blaming himself for everything. Christ, She was just starting to stop blaming herself of everything. And Ben, Ben was still repenting.
He was repenting. He was fucking repenting, and this war was part of that. His whole goddamn life was about Her, and he knew that if he told Sage he was in, Sheâd love him enough to follow him. She loved Ben, and it still wasnât something heâd ever fully deserveâhow infinite and powerful and intoxicating Her love wasâso had to keep goddamn earning it.
âShove it up your evil fucking ass with the stick, Sage.â He grunted, his hold on Her hips tightening. âWe donât need your goddamn help. We can get out ourselves, after we kill all you spineless fucking pussies.â
Sage gave him an almost amused look. âThe offer wasnât for you to decide on, Soldier Boy-â
âHis answer is my answer.â She cut Sage off with a shrug, and Ben felt something hot and prideful and loud grow near his heart. âNo.â
âYouâd let a foolish, violent man speak for you?â Sage scoffed Her name, and Her hand grew warm in Benâs. âEven if you love him, Iâd have expected better-â
âWhy?â She snapped, the look of pure fucking blood and exhausted wrath on her face one Ben knew to mean danger. âEveryone keeps expecting better of me, but they really fucking shouldnât. Iâm going to let Ben speak for me, because he loves me, and he knows me. Weâll pass on your offer, but thanks.â
Sageâs face was drawn in a tight frown and analytical glare, probably trying to figure out how to talk them over to her sideâshe wouldnât fucking succeededâbut the Deep was gaping. Looking between Her and Ben with wide, confused eyes.
âYou,â The Deep cleared his throat, voice uncertain. âYou dudes are like, in love love? Not just fucking?â
Something sparked in Her eyes, and she leaned forward slightly as she answered. âYep. Love love. But we do also fuck. A lot.â
The Deep swallow. âOh.â
âReal nasty sex as well.â She shrugged, a smirk playing over her pretty lips. âHeâs good with his hands, and his dick is huge. I mean, the sex would be good regardless, I love him more than life, but he has a massive dick. It helps.â
Ben frowned, glaring down at Her. What the fuck are you doing.
Trust me. We need to rile him up.
Why the hell-
Sage canât stand stupidity. If we can get her to fight with the Deep, the dumbest person I know, then one of them might slip.
Ben looked back to the Deep, and if that was what they needed to do, it was working. The fish-pussy had turned red, and his eyes seemed like they were going to pop out of his goddamn head.
âUh, congrats. Sage, we should like, tell Homelander that-â
âDo not tell Homelander anything, you fucking idiot.â Sage hissed. âAnd shut up-â
âBut if theyâre like, really serious-â The Deep cut himself off, looking back to Her. âIs it serious-â
âYes.â Benâs words were short and firm, because heâd been five fucking seconds from proposing to Her before these two goddamn fuckheads had shown up. She looked up at him with a small smile and sharp amusement, bumping their shoulders.
Itâs serious, Pretty Boy?
Shut the fuck up. Ben rolled his eyes at Her pretty, perfect, teasing face. I love you, or course itâs fucking serious.
She hummed, a little light blooming in Benâs head, even as Sage and the Deep continued arguing. We are fuck-buddy-brain-connected.Â
Brat-Â
âIf itâs serious,â the Deep was still fucking whining, and Sage looked two seconds from punching him. âHomie should know. He thinks she still loves him, but sheâs clearly with Soldier Boy-â
She snorted. âDid you just fucking call Homelander Homie?â
âYeah, I did.â The Deepâs chest puffed out, and he shot Her a glare. âHeâs my bro, and Iâm not going to let some hot piece of ass string him along when sheâs in love with his dad-âÂ
Ben moved to gun to the Deep, and the pussyâs words stuttered off. âFucking watch it.âÂ
âHey man,â the Deep raised his hands, palms up. âI was like, fucking around before, but her head canât be that good. Homie deserves better, and youâre like, a man man. Donât let some chick control you-â
âI donât control him.â She snapped, and Sage fucking laughed. A dry, empty laugh that made Her swallow and Ben feel fucking sick as he re-aimed the gun at Sageâs head.Â
âDoesnât she?â Sage looked between them, voice dripping with a mocking, fake sweetness. âI remember Soldier Boy being an honorable, strong gentleman. But here you are, pointing a gun at a vulnerable woman when youâre at a clear advantage, letting to your girlfriend tell you what to do like a pathetic little dog.â
Ben didnât fucking care about Sageâs mocking words. He was being honorable, because he was protecting Her. He was fucking helping her, and listening to Her because she fucking had this, and Ben trusted her. He wasnât listening to a woman, he was listening to his woman. The most perfect one in history, who was half hanging off his arm with glazed eyes, her breathing mechanical as something loose and hollow writhed around in BenâsâHerâgut.
And that was what Ben fucking cared about. How Sageâs words had made everything fucking horrid and vile because She was hurt by them, and nothing was fucking allowed to hurt her. Not when Ben could fucking do something about it.
âYou are not a vulnerable woman,â Ben hissed at Sage, something like bile on his tongue. âYouâre an evil, conniving bitch.â
Sage didnât even goddamn waver, continuing as if Ben hadnât even fucking spoken. âItâs not healthy, your little arrangement. Love or not, youâre going to be lost and alone when she eventually leaves you.â Sageâs jeering, skin-crawling smile was covering her whole fucking face. âAnd she will leave you, Soldier Boy. Sheâll realizes that youâre not a white knight, come to save her and the world from Homelander, and sheâll leave you.â
âWatch your fucking mouth-â
âYouâre not an angel. Youâre not good enough to heal what Homelander did to her, and sheâll realize that soon.â Benâs vision was lined with red, his body goddamn frozen as drums sounded far, far in the distance, and Sage kept fucking talking. âThat Homelander gets all his anger from somewhere. That youâre no better than he is, because when she tries to leave you, you wonât let her go. Youâll grovel like a child, and when she says no, youâll force her to stay. Lock her up and keep her just for yourself-â
She was moving before Ben even fucking registered that Sheâd let go of his arm. Her smoking, flame-wrapped fist flew through the air and collided with Sageâs face, and a hiss echoed through the air as Sage let out a shriek of pain. Ben saw a flash of something metallicâthe Deep shouting and flying at Her with a raised fistâand shot. The fish-fuck landed in the dirt at Sageâs side, the bullet wound on his shoulder more than fucking effective as he whimpered in pain. It wasnât enough to kill the pussyâShe hadnât killed Sage, so Ben had followed suitâbut enough to bleed out if no aid arrived.
âYou manipulative fucking cunt.â She was a step in front of Ben, glaring down and Sage and the Deep on the pavement. âBen might not be a white knight, but heâs nothing like Homelander, and you fucking know it. Heâs certainly a better fucking person than you are.â
Sageâs words were unsteady and strained, but still crude. Still fucking hateful. âIf you really believe that, youâre not as smart as I gave you credit for-âÂ
âAnd I donât fucking care.â She hissed. âNext time you say anything like that to him, Iâll burn your fucking brain out of your skull.â
âWeâre not done here-âÂ
She huffed a dry, empty laugh. âYeah. You are. Ben and I are going to leave, and youâre not going to follow us. And if you try to call Homie, then it will be over. Iâll kill everyone, and that will be it.âÂ
Sage scoffed Her name. âYou canât really think Iâll fall for such an obvious bluff-â
âI donât need you to, because itâs not a bluff.â She leaned down slightly, holding Sageâs glare. âHomelander shows up, I kill him, and you, and the Deep. If that somehow kills me, then fine. At least it weâll be done. Really fucking done. No games. Not interesting.â
Sage spat out blood, eyes narrowed on Herâs. âThatâs cheating.â
âMaybe,â She shrugged, rising back up and looping her arm through Benâs. âBut I donât care.â
Something was still fucking aching and toxic in Benâs body and she pulled him back to the car. It hadnât been a bluff. Ben knew how to read Her bluffs, and that hadnât fucking been one. And She wouldnât have killed Ben. He wouldâve been left to wait in a scorched forest for the rest of goddamn time, waiting for Her to walk out of the smoke and smile at him again. Sheâd have burned out without him, and heâd never be able to fucking hold her again.
Sage doesnât know what the Cornucopia is. She slid into the passengerâs seat, letting out a long breath. But sheâs still looking for it, which isnât good-
Ben grunted Her name between their heads, his grip on the wheel white-knuckled, bending the metal under his hands. You know Iâd never fucking do that shit to you-
Of course I know that-
And Iâll never let Homelander hurt you again. Ben started the engine, holding Her attention with a glare. If he ever fucking comes for you, youâre not fighting him alone. You burn, I burn, Sunshine, that was the fucking deal. Weâd kill Homelander and Sage and the Deep, together. Got it?
She gave Ben a soft smile, and nodded, her voice in his head low and gentle. I got it. Ready?
Ben grunted. Ready. Youâre good.
Iâm good. She sighed, leaning her head onto Benâs shoulder as he began to drive. Iâve got you, Benjamin, my love. Iâm good.
Even as they drove away from Sage and the Deep on the pavement, with a whole new fucking problem that was made of what the fuck do they do about the Cornucopia now on their hands, Ben grinned. That radiance covered his chest and gut and skin, and nothing really fucking mattered but Her, and finishing this. Finally being free of this dogshit circus, and being a little more worthy of Her hand in his, forever.
There wasnât really that much shit left to do before they could be free, and together, forever.
âââââââââ
Itâs been a long, shit fucking day, and youâre only halfway done with it. Your blood is yours, and your skin barely has an itch beneath it, but youâre so fucking tired.
And youâre not sure if itâs that piece of your brain inside of him, or just how well Ben knows you, but the asshole has started to coddle you. His hand has returned to rest on your thighâitâs there so often youâre starting to think his palm has developed some sort of magnet to your legâand heâs very obviously doing everything he can to distract you from how this is your last shot. That this might end with blood in gutters and covering hands, butâif you do this rightâit will all be done. This has to be done. There are too many other battles to fight for this truly critical one to not be wonsoon.
And Ben wonât let you think about that. He seems to have decided for himself that his job is to drive you aroundâbecause heâs a dick who has flat out refused to ever let you behind the wheel of a car on account of it being dangerous to everyone on the fucking roadâand keep your brain everywhere but they imminent threat of Homelander. Sage. The CIA and Mallory, what will the after look like and who gets to have one, why would Edgar just give you a Nazi villa, and what the fuck does Sage want with it when she doesnât even seem to know itâs a villa-
âYouâre hungry.â
You look over to Ben, his eyes set on the road ahead of you. âWhat?â
âYour stomach,â he mutters. âIt growled. Youâre hungry.â
You are hungry. And it might just be Benâs deep, firm, certain voice and how your body obeys it more than you, but it doesnât really matter because suddenly you realize that youâre hungry.Youâd eaten breakfast this morning, before youâd left for Edgar, and then the snacks Ben had bought you close to noon, but thatâs it. Itâs late afternoon, the sky turning red and gold on the horizon, and youâre really, really hungry.
âThereâs a rest stop in a few miles-â
âNo.â Ben snaps, glancing at you with a scowl. âNot a fucking chance.â
You sigh, because heâs right. You canât risk being recognized again, and this wouldnât be a sketchy, overgrown gas station. This was a rest stop on an interstate highway.
âSo what should we do?â You watch Ben carefully, because you can feel his resolve ripping in half, and you think heâs fighting with himself about something.
âThey still got McDonalds on highways?â
You smile, propping your chin on his shoulder. âAre we in America?â
Ben snorts, and the resolve settles back into itself. Firm and concrete and all around you like a hot, stone shield. âBrat.â
âCunt. Are we getting McDonalds?â
He gives you a curt nod, eyes darting to meet yours and the glow inside him crossing over your ribs and blooming in your heart.
Heâs so fucking handsome. The sunset is making him look goldenâdark hair and defined features and eyes that follow you in the earth and fill you with lifeâand itâs not making it easy for to you remind yourself that heâs not an angel.
It helps to remember that angels arenât real, and Ben is very real. Heâs warm under your touch, and strong and careful in his natural hold on you. His thumb is rubbing circles on your skin, and his arm muscles keep flexing as he drives, and you want them around you, holding you to his chest as his cock hits that deepest spot inside you. You want to see his beautiful eyes watch you unravel under him, want to hear his low, teasing, affectionate voice make your stomach warm as he calls you good and beautiful and darling-
âAre you going to answer me, Sunshine, or just keep fucking drooling?â
You blink, and see his smirk, feel his whole body rushing with a cocky, bright pride. âI donât-â
âYou were staring, and itâs real fucking rude,â He drawls your name, squeezing his hand against you. âIâm not a piece of meat for you to objectifine.â
âObjectify.â You correct, even as your face grows warm. âAnd I donât feel that bad about objectifying you, Pretty Boy. Youâve objectified me.â
âWhen the fuck-â
âWhat was the very first thing you noticed about me?â
Ben pauses, brows drawn, and you realize heâs actually thinking about it. Youâd expected a small grunt of how the fuck am I supposed to remember that, Sunshine, it was over half a goddamn year ago, but his fist is clenched on the wheel, and heâs glowering at the road, so heâs really trying to give you an actual answer.
âHeartbeat.â
You tilt your head at him. âHeartbeat?â
âYour heartbeat was normal,â he grunts, his jaw set and words low. âWhen you woke me up. Mallory, Butcher, and Annie were all being anxious pussies, and Hughie was going to fucking piss himself, but you werenât afraid. Of me.â
Ben glances at you as he finished, something so bloody and powerful inside of his body, and his gaze filled with it. A twisted and pious awe thatâs all for you, that ignites your blood in a way that makes you feel seen. Seen and really fucking alive.
âI,â you swallow, fighting your urge to climb on top of Ben and kiss him all over his stupid, handsome face, if only because thatâs not very safe driving. âOh. I thought youâd say my tits.â
âI noticed your tits as well,â he shrugs, winking at you. âBut thatâs only because Iâm not fucking dead, and youâre the most beautiful woman in history.â
You wrinkle your nose at him, and try to ignore how you need to touch him, or else you might explode into a mess of Ben. Loving you and always being so sweet at the worst, most inconvenient time. âShut up-â
âNo.â Suddenly, something is tight and sore over your lungs and around your throatâBenâs lungs and throatâand when he speaks again, his voice is low and tense. âWhat did you notice about me.â
âHonesty, I donât remember.â You sigh, a little guilt eating at your heart and gut when Benâs frown deepens. âI was a little, um, out of it. I didnât really think Iâd like you all that much, let alone, uh, love you.â
You swallow, because even though Ben knows you love him now, this feels strange to say. Like youâre mostly rolling your eyes at your past self, who had truly believed sheâd be able to wake up Soldier Boy, keep him in line with powers she could barely control, live with him in a mutual contempt, and leave him without a second thought at the end. She had been a real fucking idiot, because youâre never going to leave Ben. Heâll have to peel you off of him and snap your heart in two, and even then you might try to crawl after him and beg him to change his mind.
But thatâs another reason why you love him. Ben wouldnât ever hurt you, let alone like that. Heâll keep you against him and hold you carefully and reverently for the rest of time, and if you fell to your knees and begged him to stay with you, heâd pick you up, kiss you, and call you fucking stupid for thinking heâd ever leave you.
Right now, though, heâs just nodding with almost a pout on his face, and you can feel the soreness inside him grow.
âBut,â you push forward, offering him a soft smile that you mean with all your heart, which belongs to Ben. âI think I know when I started loving you.â
Ben glances at you again, almost wearily. âYou said that didnât matter to you.â
âIt doesnât,â you shrug. âI feel like Iâve loved you forever, and thatâs all I care about. But if you want to know-â
He gives a quick grunt of affirmation, the soreness pounding and clenching over himâgrowing slightly electric, almost wildâand you take a long breath.
âThe club. That we went to with the team. I, um, I liked being near you, and I didnât want to stop being near you.â The soreness starts to ease away, but Benâs grip on the wheel is white-knuckled, and your body is still sore and tensed, so you continue. âJust the, um, just the thought of you calmed me down. And you looked really handsome, and I liked when you laughed and smiled at me, and holding your hand felt good. I didnât ever want to stop holding your hand, and that was scary, but not because of you, because Iâve never been scared of you, just because I didnât want to leave you, and Iâd never felt that before, I didnât think Iâd ever feel it at all, after Homelander, and I think thatâs why I didnât immediately realize I loved you, because Iâd never been in love like this before. I mean, it was really confusing, because my job was to make sure you didnât go rogue, but I was mostly just thinking about you and boob-drugs-â
Ben cuts off your rambling with a scowl. âWhy the fuck were you thinking about boob-drugs.â
âYou liked her,â you mumble, burying your face in his arm. âAnd I didnât want to care, but I did-â
âI didnât like her.â
You shake your head against him. âYou donât have to lie, Ben-âÂ
âI donât fucking lie to you,â he snaps, and you chance at look up at him. Still golden in the light of the sunset, impossibly handsome with an almost confused scowl and deep words you can feel in your chest. âShe was an annoying bitch, I didnât give a fuck about her.â
âBut you were, um,â you force the words out, chewing on your tongue. âYou were hungry.â
âWhat-âÂ
âFor her. I could feel your hunger for her, and itâs your lust-âÂ
âThat was for you, smartass.â
The whole world because blurred and sharp all at onceâlike it does when youâre under Ben, with some part of him inside you and getting you high on just his touch and smell and feelâand you realize Ben is better than an angel, because heâs yours. This stubborn, grumpy, impossible man is all yours, and you can feel his love hot and focused in your chest.
âOh.â
Ben snorts slightly, and you can feel an airy, smug disbelief in his head. âHave you seriously been thinking I was trying to fuck Boob-Drugs this whole time-â
âFuck you-â
âI wanted to.â Ben grins, and the soreness is obliterated by a swelling, hot and bright feeling in his chest and spine. âI wanted to pick you up and fuck you on that table, Sunshine. You were the most beautiful thing Iâve ever seen, you are the most beautiful thing Iâve ever seen, and Iâm never going want to fuck anyone but you again.â He turns his head, eyes still on the road, and kisses your brow. âI told you my dick is yours, darling, and it has been for a damn long while. I love you, not some fucking coke whore in a club.â
A smile tugs at your lips, and you press your head back into his body, moving one hand to tangle in his. I love you too. And if it helps, my pussy is yours.
Ben chuckles, and it rolls through your body, leaving everything soft and calm in its wake. Good.
You nod, a little stupidly, and start to wonder if Ben asking you to marry him hadnât just been a half-dream created by all your love for him that lived with your head. That it hadnât just been a wishful haze born from the smell of pine and taste of salt, or the feel of warm safety around you and constant loop of Ben, Ben, Ben that was everything good. If the deep words youâd felt in your bones werenât just created by your cock-drunk, Ben-drunk brain.
You donât get to ask, though, because Benâs pulling into the rest stop and demanding your order before repeating it in rough words to the drive-thru speaker. You put on your sunglasses, just for safety, and Ben leans his body forward to half-block any view of you from the cashier and serving windows.
From there, the rest of the drive is impossibly easy. Things with Ben are always easy, but you know that heâs working harder than usual to keep it that way. He lets you put on music to cover the rumble of the engine, and gives you pointed glares when your food starts to be forgotten in your hands. Heâs indulging in your every rant about nothing, pulling you out of any spiraling thoughts of three hours to Boston, three hours until youâre either one step closer to killing Homelander or dead in the water with such skill that youâre starting to wonder if heâs studied for this. If Benâs trained himself to keep your head clear, and your smile on your face instead of fading into the haunting thoughts of soon. Soon you may have to fight-
âRyan told me you got him a bunch of fucking books.â
You nod, and your smile spreads a little wider, a little more naturally. âI did. He read all of Butcherâs.â
âButcher reads?â
âAllegedly, yes.â
Ben snorts. âThat pussy doesnât have the damn patience-â
âBenjamin, my love, you donât have the patience. You have the attention span of a toddler.â
âShut the fuck up,â he grumbles, but every inch of annoyance on his face is fake, because you can feel all his affection and care in your body. Warm and innate and permanent. âI am not a toddler-â
âNo,â you hum, giving him a sweet, teasing smile. âBut you are a massive fucking man baby. My massive fucking man baby, who I love very much and takes very good care of me.â
He rolls his eyes, and the glow moves up his spine. âBrat.â
âCunt. Do you think Ryanâs okay?â
Benâs frown deepens. âOf course heâs okay, heâs got us. The kid has finally started to fly and laser at the same time, and youâre real fucking kind to him when he gets all sad about his pussy-fuck father-âÂ
âI mean with everyone away.â You cut Ben off with a sigh, even as his words make the world around you soft and vivid and lined with a light you never want to lose. âThis is all hands, and heâs all by himself-â
âHeâs strong.â Ben squeezes his hand in yours, voice firm and everything in him made of an unwavering, concrete care. âHeâs a smart kid, whoâs gotten through a fuck ton more than one day alone. Weâll be home soon, and you can fuss all over him-â
âI do not fuss-â
Ben chuckles, shaking his head as a flash of amusement runs between your bodies. âYou fuss all the damn time. Christ, you fuss over me,â he grins down at you as he says your name, and it makes everything in you a little electric. âBut youâre a fuck ton meaner about it.â
âWell Ryanâs nicer to me,â you stick your tongue out at him. âAnd youâre an asshole.â
âBut you still fucking fuss.â Ben winks at you, pulling your hand up to kiss your knuckles. âBecause you love me.â
âI do love you,â you mutter. âBut I donât fuss. You fuss.â
âThe fuck I do-â
âYou always make me eat.â You lean forwards, kissing his jaw. âAnd you make sure Ryanâs doing well in school, And you never let us push ourselves, and youâre always making sure weâre okay, and you love us-â
âWhatever.â Ben grumbles, glaring at the lamp-lit road, and you giggle.
âGrumpy-â
âShut the fuck up.â He rolls his eyes, frown twitching as you lean into his side. âYouâre lucky I love you-â
âI know.â You turn your face to nuzzle into his shoulder, ensuring that every breath is Ben. Pine and salt and gunpowder and Ben. âI really am.â
The glow returns in a full, brutal force, and itâs like a sedative. The world starts to blur in a way that you donât want to hide or run from, and Ben is muttering low words that you canât hear but still feel in your body. Soothing your head and easing you into a molten warmth thatâs just too good to fight. Your eyes start to droop, and just before everything turns into a dark, simple daze of sleep, you feel a big, rough, warm hand brush hair from your face, and rumble of words that you donât fully understand but, still make you know that everything is right here. That voice is Benâsâeverything around you is Benâand he loves you, and nothing bad can really happen as long as thatâs true.
And it will always be true, and that knowledge pulls you all the way under, into dreams of sunlight and green and something perfect thatâs just out of reach, but still yours. Still everything, and made of love so strong you feel it a little beyond your body.
Itâs all you feel until a finger you recognize as everything good brushes over your lip, and you drag your eyes open to find Ben watching you. His gaze is attentive and devout, and when you smile at him everything becomes ardor and a zealous wrath of love in your chest. Feral and watchful and protective, in a perfect time with the song in your head of Ben. The night is dark, but you can still see light everywhere because Ben.
You know youâve arrivedâthere are horns blaring in the distance, and you can smell the pungent, briny ocean of the Boston docksâbut youâre still breathing without thought because Ben is here, and you can fucking do this.
Youâre okay.
Iâm okay. You take a heavy breath, grounding yourself in Benâs solid, strong body against yoursâfingers holding your chin with a firm, gentle touch, an arm wrapped over your shoulders with a hand rubbing patterns in your skinâand his determined, concrete feeling of care. Are we ready?
Whenever you are.
You nod, peeling yourself away from where youâd slump and molded into Benâs hold, but lean back to give him one, soft kiss on the cheek. I love you.
I love you too, he mutters in your head, tangling at hand in your hair and gently moving your mouth to his. Weâve fucking got this.
You hum into Benâs kiss, holding his face between your hand, keeping his brow against yours when you separate for breath. Weâve got this.Â
Ben had parked right next to the limo, so you shed your jacket and sunglasses before climbing out, replacing them with a black hoodie that will hopefully lend you some stealth, and follow Ben out of the car.
When you knock of the driverâs window, it rolls down to reveal a scowling Butcher, his arm hanging out the window as he looks over you and Ben with contempt.
âItâs nine fucking thirty.â
âCongratulation on being able to read a clock, asscuck-â
âWe said eight forty-five.â Butcher cut off Ben with a snapping hiss âYou horny fuckin twats are late. Again.â
âThese roads are fucking dogshit.â Ben shrugs, holding Butcherâs glare with an indifference. âLet us in the damn limo so we can get this over with.â
Butcher lets out a huff of annoyance, stands out of the driverâs seat, opens the back doors, and lets you and Ben climb in before following and locking the door behind him.
âYouâre late-â
âSomeone wouldnât let me drive,â you give MM an apologetic look as Ben pulls you half onto his lap. âWeâd have been here two hours early if he did-â
âI donât let you drive,â Ben drawls. âBecause youâre a fucking criminal behind the wheel.â
âNo, Iâm not-â
âYou are, Sunshine. Christ, Hughie and Kimiko have seen it,â Ben turns to them, brows raised. âSheâs a fucking menace when she drives, isnât she.â
Kimiko just signs I donât care, itâs fun, but Hughieâs eyes widen, his facing turning red.
âI, um, Iâve only seen it once, and it was kind of an intense day-â Hughieâs stutters are cut off by Annie, placing a hand on his shoulder and glaring at Ben.
âDonât do that to him, Ben. Heâll have a panic attack about picking a side and weâll have to wait until he calms down.â
Everyone freezes, and you know itâs not just you that heard it.
âDid you,â MM clears his throat, eyes narrowing at Annie with a frown. âYou called him-â
âCâmon guys.â Annie gives a flat look around the dead quiet limo. âI mean, heâs clearly here for the long term, and itâs been getting weird to call him Soldier Boy when I talk to you,â Annie nods in your direction, saying your name with a bored tone. âAbout how much you love him and how good his dick is.â
Your whole face flushes as Butcher lets out a sputtering cough, Frenchie gives Ben a nod of respect, and MMâs gape almost unhinges his jaw.
Ben himself isnât at all helpful, kissing the top of your head and wrapped in a smug, blazing feeling of energy thatâwhen you lean back to glare at himâmakes him look almost boyish. Heâs looking down at you, nothing but want and love and adoration in his eyes, and you almost whimper at how effectively heâs pulling you apart under his gaze. He looks so happyâeven with the mission only one strict reminder to remain on track awayâand nobodyâs but Ben has ever looked at you like that before. Like heâs proud just to be at your side, as if youâve given him something just by loving him. You think you have, because his grin is so wide and handsome and cocky, and his words in you are so certain you can feel it settle in your veins and nerves.
Christ, you must really love me if youâve got Annie calling me my damn name-
Fuck you, Benjamin-
You want to. You fucking love me. He squeezes his arms around you, eyes dancing with cocky, comfortable light. You really damn love me.
You know I love you, you asshole. Shut up.Â
No. Iâm allowed to brag about my woman loving me as much as I goddamn want-
MM let out a long, half-groaning sigh, shaking his head and rubbing his jaw. âYou know what, we donât got the time for this. Letâs do this shit, and then Soldier Boy can be Ben to you motherfuckers all he wants, as long as I never have to hear about his dick again. Hughie-â
âThe warehouse should be clear, I didnât see anyone on their cams.â Hughie glances at Annie, whoâd dropped her hand from his shoulder to rest over his own. âAnnie, can you-â
âI can fry them.â Annie frowns into the air. âBut I donât know if Iâll be able to only fry the cams, I might take out the lights too-â
âWe got that fuckin covered, Starlight, donât worry your blonde little head.â Butcher nods to Frenchie, who pulls a bag out from under his seat.
âI have made them solar powered,â Frenchie pulls a flashlight, displaying it for the whole team to see. âAnd left them in the sun for several hours. Should we be plunged into the darkness,â he makes a dramatic gesture, grinning around the limo. âThere will be light.â
Annie leans backward with a relieved expression, and you tap your fingers on Benâs forearm as you speak.
âWe all know what weâre looking for?â
MM nods. âIf those papers were up to date, six to seven crates label RRD.â
âRed River Donations,â Butcher mutters. âBloody cunts not even tryin to hide it.â
You swallow, pushing on. âAnd the plan? Everyone got that?â
âIn and out, Madame.â Frenchie says your name with a solemn tone, chest puffed. âNo messes, no trail, no fuckery.â
âNo fuckery.â You nod, chewing on your cheek until you taste metal. âNo evidence. Annie, if you can, try to fry out a few of the other warehouses, so it looks like a circuit blew. And no matter what, weâre just getting the V.â You give Butcher a firm glare. âGot it?â
âIâm all fuckin in, Love.â Butcher gives you a sarcasticâbut not crude or mockingâgrin. âLike Frenchie said, in and out, and all you cunts can be home to jerk each other off by midnight.â
You flip him off, and look back to the rest of the group. âMM, youâve got-â
âGroupings, after we all get armed. Look alive motherfuckers, here we go.â
âHere we go.â You echo, looking around this limo with a tight, close-lipped smile that hurts your face. âMake it quick, stick together, and no fuckery.â
Everyone makes various sounds of agreement, shuffling out of the limo in silence. Ben keeps his arm around you as you separate from the groupâweapons being passed out and Butcher lecturing Hughie about how to drive a limo, and to not throw a fuckin raver while weâre gone, Ladâso you lean into his body, forcing your breathing to stay in time with his.
Iâm sticking with you, Ben grunts, popping Butcherâs trunk to grab his guns and shield. And if MM tries to pair me off with someone else-Â
He wonât. Youâre stuck with me, Pretty Boy. Get used to it. You watch Benâs stoic expression carefully, reaching up a hand to trace over the deep lines on his face. When he looks down at youâall his concern and care like armor over your skinâsomething softens in his eyes.
Good. Ben leans down, kissing the space between your eyes. I like being stuck with you. Even when youâre a fucking brat.
I like being stuck with you too, cunt. You wrap your arms around torso, burying your head in his chest and just breathing in Ben. Pine and gunpowder and Ben. Strong and certain and yours, holding you until you rest your chin on his chest, studying his narrowed, concerned frown you can feel all over your skin and like lead in your heart. If thereâs no V-
There will be. His voice is almost stern grunt in your head, and his brow drops to yours. Weâve fucking got this.
You nod, and stay hereâwith Benâuntil itâs not an option anymore. Until holding his face between your hands and sharing his breath doesnât fully stop your brain and heart from racing, but solidifies the instinct of Ben just a little bit more. Itâs already carved into you, already permanent, but it keeps growing stronger. Keeps finding its way into deeper parts of you that might have just not existed before, but are now pulling open for Ben to have. And finding a new place for Ben to be a part of youâthis one somewhere across your skin, bitten by the chill of ocean wind and beginning to come down, down, down into something green and warmâwill have to be enough.
You and Ben return to the groupâone of his arms over your shoulders, and the other holding his shield at his sideâand you take in how everyone but seemingly you and Annie is armed. Even Hughie has a gun, even if he keeps glancing at it like it might try to run away from him. But you donât think Annie knows how to shoot, and you donât need a gun. The fire is all yours under your skin, and Benâs at your side, so youâll be fine. The night air is wired and suffocating, and every distant city noise sets off a cold flare in your body, but youâll be fine.
âWeâre splitting in half,â MM grunts. âTwo supes per team, Hughie holding down the fort. Iâve got Annie, Kimiko, and Frenchie.â MM says your name with a short nod, and something lights up over your bones when you realize youâre in charge of group two. âIs taking Soldier Boy and Butcher. And if anyone tries to fight me on this shit, Iâll shoot them, so donât fucking test me.â
Butcher glowers, slowly closing his mouth with an eye roll, and you look up at the blue-tinted sky, not a star in sight.
âAnnie, can you-â
The words barely leave your mouth before the world starts to fry, crackling and sparking around you. For a second, everything is blinding light, scorching into your eyes and lingering for a painful second before youâre able to see the dark harbor and warehouse, visible in the distant lights of the city and sky.
You got lucky. Your eyes healed within half a second, but most everyone else is still rubbing and blinking, and Annieâs looking around the half-blinded group with a guilty expression.
âOh, shit, Iâm so sorry guys-âÂ
âTheyâll be fine,â Ben snaps, face slightly scrunched as his own eyes recover. âA little light isnât going to goddamn kill the pussies, Annie, donât fucking whine.â
Annie nods slowly with a little less shame in her eyes, Kimiko places a reassuring hand on her arm, and you bump Benâs shoulder with yours.
That was very sweet of you, Benjamin, my love-
Shut the fuck up. Ben grumbles your name between your heads, raising you a little off the ground as he kisses the side of your head. Feeling guilty is only going to slow us down-
You twist your head, moving Benâs mouth to yours for a simple, easy, gentle kiss. I know. But you still made her feel better. So thank you.
He just gruntsâdeepening the kiss until his tongue is tracing over your teeth and his hand his kneading at your skinâand you let out a soft, airy sigh. You can fucking do this, and then your whole life will get to be moments like this. Where Benâs glaring at you, but you know he doesnât mean it because you can feel him wrathful and fond and rough, rolling around in your chest and humming with an affection and love thatâs more real and tangible than anything else in the world.
You can do this.
Kimiko and Ben open the doors of the warehouseâblackened and filled with cold, drafting windsâas Frenchie passes out the flashlights and Butcher stomps to your side, a scowl on his face you can feel searing into you.
âI got somethin you need to answer, Love.â He mutters, and you drag your gaze from Ben to meet his eyes.
âButcher, we donât have time-â
âEdgar.â He hisses, glare narrowed and firm. âYou and the simpin cunt better have gotten some answers for me-â
You give Butcher an amused look. âDid you just say simping-â
âLove, Iâll call that puppy dog of yours whatever the bloody hell I want. Tell me what Edgar told you.â
Ben-
I know. I can hear. What the fuck is a simping-
Iâll tell you later. Iâm going to tell Butcher about the Cornucopia, but not the extra V. I need you to back me up on what-
I always back you up, Sunshine, donât be fucking stupid.
Your face flushes slightly as you return your attention to Butcher, and you have to fight the small smile tugging at your lips from how annoyed Ben sounded at the very idea that heâd ever stand against you.
âWeâve got to move,â you tell Butcher, flexing your fingers slightly. âIâll tell you while we look.â
Butcherâs jaw twitches, but he nods. âFine. Letâs get this shit over and fucked out.â
Ben returns to youâand now Butcher, both men glaring at each other like if they stop their dicks will fall offâand you look over to MMâs team with a tense, grim smile.
âIf you find it first, get it back to Hughie and have Annie send out a signal. If we get it first, Iâll send the signal. Annie-âÂ
âLong flash for regrouping, short for,â Annie swallows. âEmergencies.â
âOkay, good.â You look into the seemingly infinite darkness of the warehouse, chewing on your lower lip as you speak. âWeâll take left, you guys take right. No wandering, and donât be stupid.â
MM nods. âGood luck, motherfuckers. See you on the other side.â
They go in first, Annieâs hand lit up and everyone else holding guns and flashlights. For a second the daunting, long shelves and halls of the warehouse are illuminated, and when theyâre cast in shadows that fade back to pitch black once more, you light a small fire in your palm and take a long breath.
âShelf by shelf.â You donât bother to look at Ben or Butcher as you speak, because Ben always listens and Butcherâs a dick, but not an idiot. âTry and be subtle, and keep each otherâs backs. Ready?â
You hear two low grunts, and roll your eyes.
âCan I get a verbal affirmation, testosterone representatives?â
âStop wastin time, Love, and just bloody go-â
âDonât fucking talk to her like that.â Ben sneers, and you turn to glare at them both.
âRules.â You snap, eyes narrowing and the fire in your hand growing a little brighter, feeling a little more inlaid and pure in your body. âBenjamin, youâre the love of my life and I adore you, but if you spend the whole time pissing off Butcher you lose blowjob privileges for a month, and youâre sleeping on the couch tonight.â
âIn the doghouse Gov, tough fuckin luck-â
âAnd you.â You turn your glare to Butcher, and he falls silent with eyes wider than youâve seen them before. âIf you antagonize him, Iâll kill you myself. Got it?â
You get a crude, huffed agreement from Butcher and take it, turning back to the warehouse.
âLetâs do this.â
For the first five rows, you search in silence. Ben and Butcher keep their guns raisedâthe former directly at your side and the latter a pace behindâand you realize that Butcherâs shock and compliance hadnât just been from your words. Your fingertips are wrapped in a white flame that casts long shadows on the floors and walls when you move, and when you turn to look at Ben around the end of shelf four, heâs watching you with an awe.
Fucking Christ, Sunshine.
You frown at him. What?
Your eyes. Theyâre burning.
They donât feel like theyâre burning. Your vision is clear, and your fire is controlled like an extended muscle as the ghost-like flames light the warehouse, so you shake your head slightly. No, theyâre not-
The fuck theyâre not. âButcher.â Ben grunts, his eyes still on yours, hitting something deep in your body and unraveling it with a care you feel along your spine. âWhat do her eyes look like.â
Butcher glances at you and scoffs. âThe fuck am I supposed to say, fire? She got fire-eyes?â
Ben gives you a pointed, smug look, and you wrinkle your nose at him. âShut up.â
âLooks hot.â Ben shrugs, winking at you. âI wouldnât be mad if you broke that out later.â He pauses, then adds. âFor sex.â
You snort. âYeah, I got that part by myself, Pretty Boy-â
âCan you twats not eye-fuck each other right in front of me?â Butcher sneers, poking at a crate with his gun, glaring at it like the box is personally responsible for you and Ben. âI ainât a prude, but itâs bloody disgusting, keep it in your fuckin brain connection shit-â
âThe Benâoâphone.â You nod, not bothering to fight your smile at Benâs adorable, grumpy glare.
âWe agreed not to fucking call it that-â
âI didnât agree to anything, Benjamin, my love. And you havenât pitched anything else-â
âIâm not pitching fucking shit, but Iâll eat Butcherâs ass before I call it that-âÂ
âCome near my ass, Gov, and Iâll fuckin shoot you.â Butcher grunts, his glare turning back to you. âAnd you still need to get real bloody specific about Edgar-â
âThe debt is cleared.â You cut Butcher off with short, well-chosen words. âEdgar is, hopefully, not our issue anymore.â
âAnd the Cornucopia-â
âHe,â you sigh, bracing yourself for Butcherâs reaction. âHe gave it to me.â
Butcher freezes, looking you up and down with a taut, deep glare. âThe fuck are you talkin about. The bloody tits were the keys ever for-â
âA villa in Rome.â Your fingers start to tap on nothing, and you keep your voice neutral and even as you continue. âIt was Fredrick Voughtâs, then Edgarâs, and now, apparently, itâs mine.â
âIn Rome.â Butcher repeats, shaking his head slightly. âDr. Vought had a villa in Rome and Edgar is just handin it to you? Nah, Love, that ainât trackin-â
âWell, itâs the truth.â You snap. âI donât understand it either, but itâs all weâve got to go on. Now can we please keep moving-â
Suddenly, Ben goes rigid. Standing slightly taller, looking around the shelves with an almost feral attention you can feel raging in your chest, wrapping over your lungs.
Ben-
You hear the click of Benâs gun, and he takes one stride to stand in front of you, the barrel pointed in the direction of the warehouse entrance. Stay quiet.
Benjamin, whatâs-
âThe fuckin hell is wrong with you-â
Ben cuts Butcher off with a hiss. âShut the fuck up, you pussy. Weâre not alone.â
Your blood goes cold, a chill hitting your body that makes everything suddenly far too taut and electric around you. âBen,â you whisper. âHow many.â
âOne.â He grunts, taking a half-step back so he can glance at you. His jaw is clenched, voice low. âFast heart. Not Homelander.â
The world stops blurring, but youâre still on edge. Nobody should know youâre here, and if a single person catches you, this whole thing could blow. âWho-â
âWilliam!â A cool, angry voice echoes through the warehouse. âI know you and the Boys are here. Are you a fucking idiot?â
All three of you become rooted in place as you recognize the owner of the shout, sharing wide-eyed expression of shock.
âWhat the fuck is Mallory doing here,â you whisper, words pushed through your teeth. âHow did she even know-â
âThis is remarkably risky and stupid, even for you dumbasses.â Mallory continues yelling, and you see Benâs grip on the gun become white. âStealing government property is a felony, and I canât let you-â
Butcher hisses your name, nodding to your still burning fingers. âYou have to turn the nightlight off, right fuckin now-â
You nod, squeezing your eyes shut and trying to pull the fire back under your skin, but it keeps itching and scraping its way back out as Malloryâs words ring through the warehouse.
âI know youâre here, and unless you want to fucking abandon Campbell for me to arrest-â
âHughie!â Thatâs Annieâs voice, and itâs frantic, in a sizzling time with the wires above your head. âMallory, this isnât his fault-â
âI donât care whose fault it is, I need you all to come out so we can talk like adults and not petulant children!â
You feel Benâs body press slightly into yours, and open your eyes to see him watching you. Theyâre moving. Whatâs our play.
I donât know. You shake your head, your nails digging into your skin as you try to pull the fire back down. Ben, how did she know weâre here. Who else-
Someoneâs calling your name, and the fire flares up your arm. Itâs a nervous, softer voice, and itâs Ryanâs.
Your name echoes around you once more, and then, âBen? Butcher? Aunt Grace said youâre in trouble, I want to help-â
You start running to the entrance of the warehouse, the ringing in your ears only just quiet enough to still hear Ben and Butcher barely steps behind you.
âRyan!â Youâre half-screaming, not caring that Mallory can hear you. âWhere are you?!â
Ben overtakes you in a second, his voice in your head urgent and low. Front entrance-
You donât bother to listen to the rest, breaking into a full-on sprint until you can see the break of the skyline, dark over the ocean, and seven silhouettes in the door. You skid to a stopâBen catching your arm to prevent a stumbling fallâand take in MM, Annie, Kimiko, and Frenchie in tight stances off to the side, Hughie with a sheepish, anxious expression trying to slowly inch closer to Annie, Ryan a pace outside the warehouse, and Mallory at his side, gun raised and aimed right at your head.
âDonât move,â Mallory warns, the gun clicking. âI will shoot.â
You feel Benâs hand tighten on your arm to an almost bruising grip, his own wrath moving the earth under your feet, but your fury is hotter and brighter, zealous and unforgiving as you narrow your eyes at Mallory.
âWhat the fuck did you do,â you hiss, flattening a palm on Benâs chest in a silent signal not to move. âDid you bring Ryan-â
Mallory scoffs. âOf course I didnât bring Ryan, he must have followed me-â
âI wanted to help,â Ryan whispers, his whole face pale, his body curling into itself slightly. âIâm getting stronger, I can help-â
âRyan, this ainât something for you to do.â Butcher grunts, taking one, slow step closer to the entrance. âAnd you, Grace, are you out of your bloody mind? Tellin the kid weâre in danger just to fuckin one-up us-â
âI am doing my job.â Mallory snaps, re-aiming the gun at Butcher. âYou are disobeying direct orders from the president-â
âThat order was wrong, Grace.â MM mutters. âAnd you know it-â
Mallory sighs. âThis isnât the time for that, Marvin. We canât afford to lose sight of order right now, and you are still CIA employees-â
âWeâre not.â Ben grunts, rising to his full height as he glowers at Mallory. âYou donât fucking pay us. We can do whatever to goddamn hell we to get the job done-â
âSoldier Boy,â Mallory warns. âIâd advise you remember the conditions of your deal-â
Ben snorts, raising his own gun. âFuck your deal. Ryan, get inside.â
âRyan, donât move.â Mallory holds Benâs glare, her gun moving to not him, but you. âYouâre all going to come peacefully, or Iâll shoot-â
Itâs your turn to laugh. A dry cackle that you hate the sound of, because itâs fueled by something hateful and cruel. âGo ahead. Iâll live and you have to know that heâll,â you tilt your head to Ben. âKill you. Immediately.â
âYouâre not the type to make threats,â Mallory says your name, even as her gaze flits to Ben. âAnd you overestimate your importance to this operation-â
âDo I?â You shrug. âI donât think I do. I think youâd be fucked without me. Without Ben. Ryan,â you look past Mallory, your heart straining and turning over at the pure fear on Ryanâs face. âPlease come here, itâs not safe to stay outside right now, this is dangerous-â
âHeâs a supe.â Mallory snaps, and Ryan starts to lean forward, like he wants to run but canât. âHeâll be fine-â
âHe shouldnât have to be.â You stretch out a hand to Ryan, the fire starting to dim. âRyan, I know you want to help, but this isnât the place. Weâre not in danger now, but we canât risk lingering here. Please-â
Ryan takes a tentative step forward, and Malloryâs face twists into a sneer in your direction.
âYou are not his guardian,â she says your name, taking a side-step to block Ryanâs path. âNeither you nor Solider Boy have any claim to him-â
âHeâs my fucking grandson-â
Mallory cutâs Ben off with a scoff. âWho you tried to kill-â
âYou ainât better, Grace.â Butcher mutters, and you realize his own gun has risen back up, aimed right a Malloryâs chest. âYouâd use the kid as a fuckin weapon against his psycho cunt father-â
âHomelander?â Ryan whispers, watching Mallory with a slack, almost tragic expression. âYou want me to, to fight my dad-â
âYouâre stronger,â Mallory snaps, her voice flat, words spoken as if theyâre inherent. As if itâs obvious that Ryan must fight Homelander. âYouâd kill him, and we wouldnât have to waste time with the V-â
âBut the V would work, right? Ben said it would work-â
âSoldier Boy,â Mallory shoots Ben a daggered glare. âHas lost sight of the mission. You are our best bet, Ryan, as the Anomaly has failed to stand against Homelander.â
Annieâs mouth falls open, and you feel relief flash through you as you realize Hughie has made it back to her side. âItâs not her fucking job to fight her rapist, Mallory-â
âIf it isnât,â Malloryâs gaze returns to you, and you feel something start to bubble over between your joint and in your muscles. âThen the responsibility falls to Ryan.â
âI, I donât want to fight him.â Ryan stutters. âIâm sorry, I donât, I know what heâs done, but I canât-â
âYou wonât.â Ben snaps, jerking his head in your direction. âGo to her, Ryan.â Thereâs a pause, long and heavy in your lungs, and then Ben grunts, âplease,â and it dissipates as Ryan starts to move.
âRyan-â
âI donât want to fight, Aunt Grace,â Ryan mumbles, walking slowly past Mallory. âI just want to help, without anyone else getting, getting hurt because of me.â
Ryan reaches your side, and the flames waver almost instantly into smoke as he wraps a hand around your arm, clinging to you like he might drift away if he doesnât. Almost on instinct you pull him a little closer, wrapping him in a hug as Ben shifts his body to fully block you and Ryan from Malloryâs gaze.
âSoldier Boy, watch yourself. I will not hesitate to return you to the box.â
Your hands tense slightly on Ryanâs head, and you try to keep your breathing steady for his sake as you hear Benâs drums, watch the muscles of his back tense at the words.
âWalk away, Grace.â MM grunts, and from the corner of your eye you see his gun raise as well, and hear Malloryâs noise of disbelief. âWeâre going to take the V, take Ryan, and leave. Youâll see us again when the dust settles, but Iâd advise you take a leave of absence right fucking now.â
âMarvin, have you forgotten that this asshole killed your family-â
âNo.â MMâs words are certain, resolved and flat. âI havenât. But Iâm practicing some motherfucking forgiveness, and no matter what Iâm not letting you put the kid in the line of fire. Last warning. Leave.â
Thereâs sounds of shifting, and when you glance around you realize that everyone has raised their weapons. All aimed at Mallory, all paired with solemn, grave expressions as they move like a wall in front of you and Ryan. At Benâs side.
Andâbetween the space of Ben and Butcherâs bodiesâyou see Mallory lower her gun with a thin lipped, cold glare.Â
And you smell coconut.
And something is wrong.
Ben-
You hear him first. Behind you, with stiff steps and humming an off-key, patriotic tune. And when you whirl aroundâkeeping Ryan steady against your body, his face hidden from full viewâyour veins bite with frost, and something broken wails and twists in your gut.
âWell, well, well.â Homelanderâs smiling is wide, all white teeth, made of a rage thatâs in every tense muscle on his face, and thereâs a glint of something like poison in his eyes. âWhat a lovely coincidence to run into all you here!â His eyes scan over your group, and you donât have to look back to know theyâve all frozen. You can feel Benâs eyes looking between you and Homelander, hear the drums drawing closer as that part of him inside you begins to riot and bang on your ribcage.
Ben grunts your name in your head, and you realize youâve started to lean back. Closer to him, further from Homelander. You need to get behind me right fucking now-
I canât. Your breathing is forced, in and out of your body as you try to stifle the horrible, artificial, sickly smell of Homelander. Try to pretend heâs not close enough that you can see the slight wrinkles on his suit. If I move, heâll move.
âIt really is all of you, isnât it?â Homelander sounds delighted, and you feel sick. Cold and vile, suffocating and unable to draw in any new air. âThe whole gang is here! Oh, this is too good, we can be done in ten minutes tops!â
âHow the fuck did you get here, Homelander.â Annie hisses. âHow did you find us-â
âI followed Ryan, of course.â Homelanderâs turns back to you, his smile growing manic, and you hold Ryan a little closer. âGood flying, son, but letâs work on getting a little higher up in the air next time, huh? Donât want satellites to track you again.â
He laughsâcontinuing to taunt Annie with words you donât hearâand Ryan looks up at you with a panic in his eyes you feel scratching at your skin and heart, making everything too sharp and bright, filling the world with a terror that lives in Ryanâs chest.
âI didnât mean to,â Ryan whispers your name, and his voice pleading. âI didnât mean to, I promise, I just wanted to help-â
âI know you did.â You run a hand over his brow, forcing your voice to be soothing as your eyes darting between every rise and fall of Homelanderâs chest and Ryanâs pallid features. âItâs okay. Iâm not mad.â
âI, Iâm sorry-â
âI know.â You repeat, swallowing down a bile in your throat thatâs made of either Ryanâs fear or yours. Itâs hard to really tell the difference. âYouâre going to be okay, Ryan, I promise.â
There is no guarantee you can keep that promise. But you will do everything in your fucking power to make sure Ryan gets out of this, and you know Benâalive inside you, alert and wrathful behind youâwill do the same.
Then Homelander says your name, you have to meet his eyes. You have to keep Ryan against you, and try not to just scream as blue, cold, hateful and evil eyes carve into your head, violating and invasive and wrong.
âThank you, honey, for getting Ryan for me. Come here. Now.â
âI,â you take a long breath, and a shaking half step back. âNo. Youâre not touching him.â
âFine, you can hold him.â Homelander rolls his eyes, extending a red-gloved hand. âI mean, Iâm glad youâre finally getting into that mother bond shit, but heâs still my son. Iâll want him back eventually, and weâll get you another one once this is all just a funny story to tell our it.â
âNo.â Your voice is a little louder this time, and the cracks over your head and heart are starting to leak something like venom into your teeth, spitting with every word. âYouâre not touching either of us. Ever.â
Homelanderâs eyes narrow. âAre you still throwing this temper tantrum? I got it the first time,â he snaps your name, and you can feel Ben roar inside of you. âIâll let you outside more, and you can do, letâs call it 50% less TV appearances. But I canât kill these fucking idiots until youâre over here, and this is a family affair, so letâs get this over with and weâll talk about it more at home-â
âThey ainât goin anywhere with you, cunt.â Butcher snaps, and you see his move forward in your periphery. âAnd you donât got a family. Youâre just a sorry, lonely fuckin murderer who donât got no one.â
Homelanderâs jaw twitches. âThatâs cruel William. And wrong.I have my son, with your lovely wife, may she rest in peace, and my fiancĂ©e and I-â
âShe is not your fucking fiancĂ©e,â Ben growls, and you can feel him move a little closer. âSheâs not your anything.â
âWhat, do you think sheâs yours, Soldier Boy?â Homelander sneers. âSheâs using you to get back at me! Sheâs a lying, manipulative bitch-â
âShut your pussy fucking mouth.â Heâs another step closer, and you risk another inch back. âDonât ever fucking speak about my wi-â
âYour what.â Homelander clicks his tongue, looking between you and Ben with disgust. âYour whore? Did she turn around spread her fucking legs for you, again? Are you so pathetic that youâd pick up your sonâs scrappy seconds-â
âI am not yours.â You whisper, leaning back a little further, until you can feel the warmth from Benâs body. Kindling something inside you that makes you raise your chin, holding Homelanderâs glare. âAnd Ben isnât pathetic. At the very least, heâs never had to make me do anything.â
Homelanderâs eyes flash, his neck flexing spits his words through teeth. âThis isnât cute anymore,â he sneers your name, and you have to force a long breath so that smoke doesnât curl from your hands. âWeâre going home, and all will be forgiven. Fucking my father, being weak and letting these rats manipulate you, every childish stunt youâve pulled to try and hurt me when I love you. It will all be behind us, if you come home now.â
âNo-â
He shouts your name, and you flinch. âI have.â Homelanderâs head jerks, and he lets out a long, harsh exhale. âI have done everything right for you. I have loved you, turned you into a god, ensured that our marriage will be fruitful by asking your mother for fucking permission to marry you! We could be fucking Olympians. I could be a king, and you could be my queen, and we could fill the fucking world with children like Ryan! Stronger! You could be Madonna, the world will remember and worship you for a million years-â
âTheyâll remember me for this.â You whisper, making sure your grip on Ryan is firm, your body wrapped over his. When you run, you arenât going to drop him. âFor killing you.â
âWell,â Homelanderâs mouth draws into a sour, scoffing line. âIf thatâs what this is about, here you go.â
Homelanderâs eyes glow red, and you realize whatâs going to happen a second before it does. Your mouth falls openâmaybe to bargain, maybe to beg, maybe to screamâjust as Homelander turns, and lasers right through the warehouse. Shelves crashing down, boxes breaking open, a fire setting off deep, deep in the falling building and starting to spread before Homelanderâs even moved back to face you.
âThere.â He spreads his arms wide, half-gesturing to the wreckage behind him. âNo more V. No killing me. Now stop playing these childish, annoying fucking games and come here.â
Youâre frozen. You can feel Ben rolling and bellowing inside you, just a slight falling movement away from you crashing into him, and when you chance a look at the rest of your teamâtheir faces washed in the dancing shadows and lights of the fireâtheyâre like statues. Ryan is still clinging to you, his fear everywhere in your body, his breathing shallow and rushed, and you donât know what to do. Everything is moving too slowly around you to process, and thereâs only fire thatâs not cleansing but bloody, air thatâs choked in artificial coconut, and earth and pavement cracking under your feet as the warehouse start to fall.
Then you hear the soft click of a gun, and vaguely register Mallory, pushing forward to Homelander, emptying her rounds into his chest. Bullets that fall to the floor with a rattling sound of metal, off-beat with the drums drawing closer to Ben, off-key with the ringing in your ears, and Homelanderâs eyes glow red once more.
You feel something thatâs heatedâbut foul and sticky and foreignâon your skin, Homelanderâs eyes return to blue once more, and everything speeds back up.
Everyone is shouting around you. Plans are being made to get out, to find a way to survive this, but youâre not listening. Ben is grabbing you from behind, turning to so his body blocks you from Homelanderâs view, and grabbing your chin with his free hand.
Run. Get Ryan the fuck out and run.
Ben-
Iâll find you, Iâll always fucking find you. You feel something rotten and aching start to cover his heart, but itâs not as strong as his wrath. As the hot, resolved, concrete fury in Benâs body, thatâs wrapping around you and making the world sharp as he searches your face with an almost desperate gaze. I swear Iâll find you, Sunshine, but you need to fucking run-
You lean forward, this kiss is feral. Savage and hopeful and made of pure, raw love. Heâs everything, and youâre making sure he feels it. I love you, Benjamin.
I love you too. Ben grunts your name, running his thumb over your cheekbone with a soft, reverent touch. Run.
You nod, and donât spare more than a glance at the scene before youâMalloryâs body split open on the pavement, Ben, Annie, Kimiko, and Butcher fighting Homelander as Frenchie, MM, and Hughie mostly just dodge and try to land blows where they canâbefore you take Ryan and go.
You hear Homelander roar your name behind you, and you donât look back. There are flashes of light and heat ripping through the sky, and bangs and clatters as the warehouse begins to fully cave in, but you just keep fucking moving.
Itâs useless to go for the limoâyou hear it implode only moments after you pass itâso you pull Ryan deeper into the harbor, past more and more warehouses, trying not to drag him but unable to afford a single broken pace. Hiding is your best bet. Ryanâs shaking in your arms, sobbing and half-falling as you pull him along. Everything in his is made of pure, crippling fear that takes every single fiber of your will to push through, and youâre not faring much better. When you crumble against the wall of a warehouse that hides you in shadows and the crashing sound of the ocean, it starts to catch up with you.
How everything is cold, and you canât fucking breathe. Everything is crashing and shattering around you, and itâs constricting over your lungs, plunging you into a white-hot pain that would be numbing if it didnât feel like something was bruising and beating and searing into your skin. Itâs holding you awake by your throat, and itâs made of wrong. Ben is in danger, and the drums keep falling in and out of time, and everything is wrong. Everything is thrashing and pulling and brutal inside you, trying to pull you back to Ben, but you have to stay here.
You have to stay here. With Ryan. Itâs awful and you hate it, but you canât leave Ryan. Another blow leaves an aching, denting pain on your skin like a phantom is trying to beat you into the ground, but you have to stay here, with Ryan.
He gasps your name, and you try to curl over him a little more. You canât flinch when something hits you in your gut, or shout in pain as a foreign burn scratches over your skin. You have to keep a quiet as you can, and stay with Ryan.
âI didnât mean to,â his words are choked, and his hold on your body might crack your bones. âI, I didnât want anyone to get hurt, I wanted to help-â
You let out a soft shush, running your hand through his hair and over his brow. âI know, I know.â You sigh, and gently pry Ryan off your body. He goes with ease, letting you move him back just enough to meet your eyes. âI know you didnât, Ryan, I know. Itâs okay.â
His eyes are glossy with tears, and you think that it might be blurring your own vision. That, or the devastating pain that crashes through your chestâlike someoneâs hit with you with a bombâor the way you swear you can hear Benâs roar of pain somewhere on the wind.
âIâm sorry-âÂ
âI know.â You donât bother to try and smile at him, but you let your gaze grow soft, forcing down a sick, rotting and mold-like feeling thatâs spreading over your chest. âThis isnât your fault, Ryan. Itâs not.â
âBen-â
âHeâs strong.â You whisper, and he is. Ben is still alight and bloody and unforgiving inside of you, and the drums havenât faded. Theyâre pounding louder and louder in your earsânever quite close enough, but drawing closerâand Ben is strong. âAnd he wonât blame you either. He knows this isnât your fault, he wonât even think to blame you.â
âMy dad-â
âWe wonât let him hurt you.â Thatâs a promise you wonât let yourself break, so you pull Ryan a little closer and let him bury his head in the top of your chest. âI promise, he wonât hurt you.âÂ
âCan you,â Ryan lets out a shaking breath, and his fear doesnât fade, but becomes a little less like a disease. A little easier for you both to breathe through. âCan you keep talking? Itâs, itâs really loud, I donât like it.â
âOf course,â you push down another feeling of pain, pain inflicted on your skin by something evil and crushing against  your head like a boulder. âIs there anything-â
âHow did you meet Ben?â Ryan leans back a little, watching you with nervous, almost child-like eyes. Like maybe this is just a horrible nightmare, and heâs seeking easy comfort so he can go back to sleep. âHeâs told me, but he kind of swore a lot, and he, um, isnât a great storyteller.â
âNo, heâs not.â You huff a soft laugh, and even as something slices over your skin, thereâs a warm feeling humming in your head thatâs always made of love for Ben. âI mean, he can be, but he does swear a lot. Heâs a very vulgar old asshole.â You let out an almost dreamy sigh, and something crashes into the side of your head as you whisper, âI love him so much.â
Ryanâs nod is small, and heâs still watching you with wide eyes. âDid you, was it love at first sight-â
âGod, no.â You keep your fingers combing in even patterns through Ryanâs hair, and raise your voice just a little more when he flinches at another too-close bang. âI thought he was the worst. He was crass and rude and mean, and Iâd only been told that he was an asshole. And he is an asshole. But heâs also caring and honorable and determined and protective and reliable and loyal and rational and good. And he loves us.â The smile that tugs on your face is real, and Ryan returns it tentatively. âHe loves both of us. A lot.â
âWhatâs his favorite color?â
âGreen,â you hum, your smile growing a little bit more. âAnd he hates blue. Thinks itâs a pussy color.â
Ryan nods. âThat, um, I think Iâve heard him say that.â
âYou probably-â you cut yourself off with a slight groan, something beginning to beat into your face. And then itâs gone, and you hear a shout of your name. Itâs from a voice that makes cracks line your vision, and itâs far too close. âRyan, fuck,â you start to pull yourself up, taking Ryan with you as your whole body becomes sore, stinging and throbbing with that strange pain. âWe need to move-â
Something cracks on the ground, wind rushing past you, and you shove Ryan behind your body as the cold sets in. Reducing everything to Homelander. Nine paces away and looking at you with a callous, hateful face.
âItâs over,â he hisses your name, hands locked behind his back as he takes you and Ryan in. âYour precious Ben isnât strong enough to kill me, nobody is strong enough to kill me, now stop being a fucking bitch and come home.â
âNo.â You whisper, and itâs more of prayer. A plea for something to help you, because youâre too weak. Your fire has gone dormant, and your blood has begun to try and climb out of your body, but you canât control anything enough to not hurt Ryan. âPlease, Homelander, please just leave us alone-â
âYouâre fucking mine, I made you both, and no amount of prancing around and showing off your little party trick is going to change that you belong to me. You will always fucking belong to me-â
He takes a step forward, and the air feels like lead. âPlease, just, just leave Ryan-â
âNope.â Another step, and a disapproving tsk. âYouâre both coming home, and weâll get through this as a family. Donât you want a family,â he says your name, and you feel so small. You canât draw yourself up, can barely look him in the fucking eyes because they haunt your worst nightmares with how they butcher and chop and destroy every part of you thatâs yours. âI mean, fuck, you canât think Soldier Boy would give you one? He doesnât care, and heâll probably just, you know,â Homelander slices his hand over his throat with a click of his tongue. âYou when you try to leave him. Heâs not patient like I am. Also, letâs face it, your options are limited. Youâre a fucking bitch, youâre lucky youâre pretty enough for me to put up with all your fucking tricks and manipulation and how annoying you are-â
âIâm sorry, Iâll, Iâll try to be better, just please leave Ryan-â
Another step. Youâre trying to think of a way out, but there isnât one. You donât want to go back, you canât go back, youâll fucking shatter if you go back, and Ben is roaring your name somewhere in the distance but Homelanderâs too strong. Heâs malignant and unkillable and thereâs no way to kill him now. You know Ben is trying to get to you and Ryanâyou can feel him getting closer, alive and nuclear in your bodyâbut he wonât be fast enough. Heâs closerâand you feel something tear open in the crook of your elbowâso you can try to delay Homelander until he gets here, but itâs a slim shot.
Then, just after another step, something kills you before Homelanderâs even at an arms distance. The whole world turnsto agony. Pure fucking pain and horror and anguish and youâre dying. Itâs shredding you apart, and your whole body is wrapped in an unending explosion of pain. Your lungs feel like iron and your bones are burning and your skin is being flayed and ripped open and death would be better than this. Youâre screamingâyou only know because you can hear shrieks of pain that sound like yoursâand your vision is clouding with black spots as your head caves in on itself. Your blood is made of lightning, and every nerve is trying to fly off your body as this feeling pulls you apart, as your organs and muscles are thrown around inside your body, being pried open and filled with something atomic. And then they seal shut and you take a desperate, ragged breath as the world clears.
Youâre leaning against the wall, half slumping onto Ryan, and the pain is still lingering in your body. But Homelander is four steps away, and starting to reach out, and you can hear something good bellowing your name.
You canât moveâeverything moving too slow and too fast all at onceâbut you still see Ben running behind Homelander, to you. Closer, so fucking close, but Homelander turns and sees him and itâs not close enough.
Youâll have to protect Ryan. Homelander is turning back to you with a crude, violent smile, and you know youâll have to protect Ryan. Take every bullet you can so Homelander doesnât ever hurt Ryan. And youâll hold on to Ben, and youâll fight and scrape your way out, figure out a way to get both you and Ryan home.
Ben says your name again, and itâs the worst sound youâve ever heard. Itâs aching and tormented, like he, deep down, knows he wonât reach you on time. Your eyes lock onto his over Homelanderâs shoulder, and try to smile at him. Heâll fight to get you. And youâll always find your way back to him.
Homelander takes a lunging step, and youâre going to fucking survive this, and youâll let the sound of Ben roaring your name haunt you in every dream until you get to hear him say it with a soft, easy devotion instead of a rabid, dreadful, wild desperation.
You keep your eyes on Benâs as Homelander takes that last step, and then the world washes in gold. Everywhere around you, solid in a way that feels so familiar, and warm. Grounding you back in your head, clearing to world into something sharp and tangible and safe.
Homelander isnât touching you. Heâs punching against the layer of gold around you, and then flinching back with wide eyes and a strangled sound.
Then Ben comes up behind him, and smashes Homelanderâs face right into the wall of light and energy around you before yanking him away, and tossing him halfway down the ally.
You press your hand against the gold, and realize itâs Ben. Itâs so familiar because itâs simply just Ben. Itâs humming at your touchâa little extra light growing where youâve placed your handâand you meet Benâs firm, tense gaze with wide eyes.
Benjamin. What did you do.
Took the V. He glances down to where Homelander is groaning, starting to rise back up. Donât let Ryan touch it, it feels like the nuke or some shit.
Are you fucking insane-
No, Ben looks back to you, and you feel him roll in your chest. It worked, and youâre safe. Iâm fine-
You couldâve died, you dumbass-
But I fucking didnât. Homelanderâs on his feet against, and Benâs body braces, his fist clenching at his side. Stay here.
You glance back to the wallâmolding into and around your touchâand realize that if you pushed it a little more it might simply let you past. As if it counts you as a part of itself the same way your empathy counts Ben as a part of you.
âWhat, whatâs going on-â
You wrap your arm back around Ryan, trying to shield his view as Ben deals the first punch and Homelander goes flying into a wired, barbed fence. âTheyâre fighting,â you whisper, unable to tear your eyes away as Homelander staggers back up, lasers Ben right in the chest, and a searing pain pulses in the exact same spot on your body. âBen took some V. Donât,â your gaze flies back to Ryan, and you catch his hand as it raises to the gold around you. âDonât touch it. It could be dangerous.â
âBut you touched it-â
âThatâs,â you sigh, your body jerking as Homelander lands a blow on Benâs gut. âThatâs different. Ben and I are, um, weâre connected. It canât hurt me.â
Ryanâs eyes widen. âButcher told me you put your brain in him, and you can read each other minds-â
âYeah, I,â you take a heavy breath as Ben doges Homelanderâs next punch, and lands five in return. âI did. Plant my brain in him. But itâs not mind-reading, itâs more like texting. I send him thoughts, he-â you make a choked sound as Homelanderâs hand wraps around Benâs throat, and a frantic gasp as Ben kicks Homelander back, his whole body seeming to glow through the haze of gold. The drums are clearer, falling into time faster. âFuck, Ryan, cover your eyes.â
âWhy-â
âPlease,â you squeeze your arm around him, letting your gaze flick back to search over Ryanâs open, frightened expression you fell across your skin. Itâs not the paralyzing fear from before, itâs heavy. Uncertain and head-wrecking. âYou donât need to see this, I promise-â
He just nods and buries his head in your arm. You hold him there, forcing your breaths in and out as the drums get closer. So close, Benâs staring to illuminate the whole fucking world, and Homelanderâs just fumbling on the ground-
Heâs not fumbling. Heâs groping at his own suit, trying to grab something.
No.
You donât know if itâs just in your head, or called out to Ben aloud, or traded between your minds, but Ben looks up. At you.
Homelander throws something at Ben, it breaks on his chest, and you feel his panicâferal and animalistic and raw, covering every single part of your body and trying to rip out of your chestâright before his eyes widen, and then close.
Ben falls to the ground, the golden barrier around you fading away, and heâs quiet inside you. Not gone, never gone, but darkened.
Asleep.
And youâre not afraid anymore.
Youâre angry.
Youâre screaming Benâs name, Homelander is standing upâdusting himself off and turning back to youâand youâre furious.
The whole world is made of fire. Your whole body is racked with it, building and churning under your skin, sealing over cracks and making breathing so fucking easy. The air is filled with smoke, but breathing isnât an act of labor at all.
Itâs a way to focus.
Because youâre going to kill Homelander.
He doesnât see it coming. Heâs an overconfident, narcissistic, monstrous pussy, so he doesnât recognize that he did break you. A vital, impossibly powerful piece of you just snapped in your body when Ben crumbled on the ground, and your own voice sounds far away when you tell Ryan to run. To find Butcher, and go.Â
And then youâre moving. Half-flying to Homelander, and savoring the parasitic, hostile fear that rushes through you when your flaming fist collides with his face.
Youâre in complete fucking control. Homelander stumbles back, and you donât even fucking flinch. Your whole body is burning, your clothes turning to scorched ash under the white-purple flame, and youâre standing tall. Looking down your chin at Homelander as he collects himself, looking at you with an almost confused expression.Â
âWhat is this,â he says your name, running his hand over where his skin has twisted and burned, and you donât bother to hide your sneer as you answer.
âThis is it, you cunt.â You hiss. âYouâre never touching me, or anyone else I love again.â
âOh, please, you do not love Soldier Boy-â
âYou willing to bet on that?â
Homelander blinks, looking between your burning body and Benâs sleeping one, and scoffs. âYou canât be fucking serious. Youâd really leave me for him-âÂ
âIâm not leaving you. I was never yours.â You take a step forward, the pavement cracking under your feet. âI do love him. I really, really love your father, because heâs a million fucking times the man you are. Heâs never,â the fire building in your fists grows brighter. âHurt me. He always fucking respects me. He loves me.â You slash an arm through the air, and the wave of fire that rolls from it sends Homelander scrambling back. âAnd after I kill you, Iâm going to marry him. And then Iâll have his kids. And it wonât because Iâm his fucking vessel, it will be because I want to. And they will never,â the air around you is waving and electric and Homelanderâs eyes widen. âEven know your fucking name.â
It clicks. In Homelanderâs horrid, amoral, evil mind, it finally clicks. His eyes narrow, beginning to glow red, and heâs finally fucking got that you hate him.
âFine.â He spits your name, rising off the ground and sneering down at you. âHave it your way, you ungrateful bitch.â
You donât care for banter, or taunting. You just want to finish this. So when he lasers through your chest you bite down on your tongue, but both heal over in a secondâskin and muscle and organs reforming so fast you donât even stutter a breathâand your face curls into a smirk. He canât hurt you.
And then youâre moving.
Homelander is strong than you. Physically. In terms of brute force, Homelander has the upper hand.
But youâre burning the fucking world, and itâs singing for you. The fire inside you is a hurricane, itâs volcanic, itâs world ending and city leveling, and itâs all fucking yours. And itâs not razing the ground or ocean, because itâs all focused on Homelander. Your vision is lined with red, and youâre going to kill him.
You dodge almost every blow Homelander attempts to deal you, and your techniqueâthanks to Benâis perfect. Every hit you land is measured and powerful, wrapped in fire that sizzles and twists and boils Homelander alive. He lasers through you twice more, and itâs just as ineffective as the first time. If anything you brush it off faster, because it kicks your adrenaline up and the pain barely jolt through you for more than a second.
You have the upper hand. Homelanderâs falling back as your fire grows hotter, and heâs almost covering is hideous, still smoking scars. You explode in fire, hovering off the ground from the pure force, and it knocks him to the ground.
You yank his head upâgolden hair singeing black under your fingers, skin bubbling and growing marred beneath your touchâand hold his slightly fogged gaze, letting every inch hatred and loathing and fucking wrath in your body push back on whatever fear or anger lives in him. Allow every bit of your blood into Homelanderâs body like a poison, digging your nails into his skin.
You lower your face down to Homelanderâs, and hope he feels your every word.
âI hate you.â You search every inch of his pathetic, weak fucking face, your words easy but still spoken through teeth. âI fucking despise you. Youâre a monster, Homelander, and I am never going to do anything better in my life than making sure you never hurt anyone again.â
His eyes flash, glowing red and cutting through your body, but your grip only tightens. The smoke is choking his air-pipe, heâs burnt and mauled from your flame, and the roar that builds in his throat is primal.
Cold, leather hands grab your wrists, but his grip slightly slack as he gasps for breath, and he canât push you away from him.
Homelanderâs eyes on yours are frenzied, and suddenly heâs surging up. Not to his feet, but to you. His mouth moving to yours, and your hold on him loosens as you push away from him on an instinct of no. No, never again, cold and wrong and horrible and no.
Thereâs an echoing boom, and then heâs gone. Homelander blasts up into the air, and youâre left naked on the ground.
And Benâs still asleep.
You sprint back to himâbody still ablazeâfalling to his side on the ground, grabbing his face in your hands. The weight and terror of what just happened is crashing into you, and Benâs asleep. Homelander said Sageâs gas would last for three days, you canât wait three fucking days, you need Ben now. You need to feel him in your chest, to tell him you love him and adore him, to hit him and shout at him about how fucking stupid it was to shoot up the V, how thankful you are he did because youâre still here, and everything is going to be okay because youâre still together.
His face is completely neutral. Not peaceful, but blank. And when you try to shout between your heads, for him to wake up, please wake up, Benjamin, I need you to wake up now, itâs like screaming into the sky.
You know youâre crying because of the sobs that shake your body, but the tears are evaporating into your flame. Youâre weakly slapping Benâs face, trying to get his eyes to just flutter, but itâs pointless.
Hitting him is pointless. You can try one more thing.
You drop your brow to hisâyouâd worry about his skin burning, but it might wake him up, and you arenât actually seeing any blisters form where you touch himâand pray to a God you donât believe in that it can be this easy. That, as you start to grow lightheaded and the world fades in and out, itâs because itâs working and not because youâre hyperventilating and screaming choked sounds of Benâs name.
Then you feel strong, steady arms wrap around your body, and you collapse against him with strangled, pathetic noise.
He grunts your name in your head, and your fingers tangle in his hair. Youâre okay.
Iâm, you nod, even as you try and pull Ben closer, try to climb into his body so you can break in the safest place in the world. Iâm okay.
Sunshine-
Iâm okay, really, Iâm just tired. I just, Ben pulls you fully onto his lap, and you wrap your legs over his torso with another sob. I love you, please donât do that again-
Ben doesnât push back about how it wasnât at all in his control, or how youâve pulled a lot of similar stunts that might have left him as broken as you feel. He just squeezes you, moving your head to rest in his neck, and presses a kiss to the top of your head.
I wonât. And I love you too.
You nod, and thereâs more to deal with, but you canât make yourself move. You have to find the team and regroup, to figure out what to do with Malloryâs body, and work out Benâs exact new powers, but youâre so tired, and those will still be issues in ten minutes. You have one last gamble to takeâHomelander wonât face you head on, and you canât risk Ryan like that ever againâand Sageâs next move to worry about, but right now youâll just stay here. Sobbing into Benâs body, letting him hum an off-key tune thatâs meant to be Rainbow Connection until youâre only letting out shaky breaths, only feeling his warmth. He smells like pine and salt and gunpowder and something potent thatâs mostly just Ben, and itâs invading your sense and bringing you down.
There will be more to do.
But youâre just going to stay here, with Ben, for a while.
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Malleus Draconia x Reader
â„ one shot
Content warning: ...it's fluffy. Maybe that there are no established relationships? Oh, Y/n has social anxiety here and is an artist. Y/n takes yuu's place and no grim! :( he was turned into cat stew
Note: This is 4.1k words. Brace yourself ......Gosh I love Malleus, I have so many ideas for him........ I love good girl x bad boy typa dynamics I'm sooo not used to posting my ideas it's nervewrecking to share something so personal to me. I'm glad people seem to like them still!
fem reader
The sprawling stone arches of Night Raven College towered overhead as Y/n looked around, her heart a chaotic blend of excitement and unease. She was surrounded by bustling students, each one glancing her way with varying degrees of curiosity and indifference, but all carrying an air of mystique and confidence. She swallowed, her fingers fiddling with the hem of her shirt as she tried to keep herself from looking too out of place, which was easier said than done. She felt like a fish out of waterâa lost, magicless girl in a sea of powerful beings, standing out not because she wanted to, but because she had no choice.
The courtyard buzzed with conversation, but every once in a while, a murmur seemed directed her way, and she could catch bits and pieces of whispered phrases.
âIs she the magicless one?â
âShe doesnât look like she belongs hereâŠâ
âOh, she looks nervous.â
Her cheeks warmed at the attention, and she felt an urge to shrink into herself, maybe find a corner where she could hide until everything settled down. But she took a steadying breath instead. She had to be braveâsheâd promised herself that sheâd make this strange place work, somehow. After all, this was a second chance, an escape from a life sheâd rather leave behind. If she was going to find herself anywhere, it might as well be here, in this strange, enchanted school. Even if it meant being the âmagiclessâ one.
Lost in thought, Y/n barely noticed the approaching figures until one leaned in close, a familiar pair of mismatched eyes gleaming with amusement.
âHey, little guppy,â Floyd drawled, his grin wide and sharp. He poked her lightly, his finger pressing right into her shoulder, making her stumble back a step in surprise. âArenât you jumpy? You look like youâre about to pass out!â
She let out a shaky laugh, cheeks flushed. âN-No, Iâm fine! Just⊠adjusting.â
âAwww, look at that.â Jade, Floydâs twin, sidled up on her other side, his voice smooth but carrying that same teasing edge. âItâs always refreshing to have someone with such⊠natural reactions. Isnât that right, Floyd?â
Floyd snickered, leaning closer until she had to tilt her head up just to look at him. âItâs hilarious,â he said, his grin widening as he seemed to take in every flustered detail of her expression. âWhat, did no one ever tease you back home?â
Y/nâs gaze darted down, a nervous laugh slipping out. âW-Well, no⊠not really,â she admitted softly, her voice barely louder than a whisper.
âWell, thatâs a pity.â Jadeâs eyes glimmered with intrigue. âWeâll just have to make up for all that lost time.â
They laughed, and though she couldnât help the heat spreading across her cheeks, she managed to laugh along, even if a little nervously.
As the twins wandered off, leaving her to catch her breath, she exhaled, trying to release the nervous energy buzzing through her. She caught herself fidgeting again, trying to brush off the lingering embarrassment. Her shyness had always been a part of her, something she hadnât been able to shake, even here. It was hard enough to make friends back home; she could only imagine how much harder it would be in a school full of people who seemed so confident, so... powerful.
But beneath her anxious thoughts, there was something elseâan excitement, faint but real. A tiny spark of curiosity to explore, to learn everything she could about this world and the people in it. Here, she was no longer tied to the past, to the hurt and broken pieces sheâd left behind. Here, she could be whoever she wanted. She could start again.
Even if it took her a thousand blushes, a hundred nervous laughs, and countless teasing encounters.
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Living at Night Raven College and dealing with anxiety was difficult on its own. Y/N was the only female in the entire school, a fact known to everyone. Although the boys were decent enough not to be creepy or weird, they often teased her. She was always falling asleep in class or arriving late, which frequently earned her lectures from the teachers. This made her an easy target for teasing, though the boys never meant any harm (she hoped). She just wanted to stay on their good side. She wasnât able to make any actual friends; her social anxiety always got in the way, and while she wasn't exactly avoided, she didnât have anyone to confide in or talk to. She never blamed the boys, understanding that her anxiety made social interactions challenging.
Art was her only way to express herself, a cherished hobby since childhood. When she drew, she didn't need to worry about stumbling over her words or fiddling with her shirt to distract from her racing heart. It was also the only thing she had from her life back on Earth. She arrived in Twisted Wonderland with nothing but her own body and knowledgeânot even the clothes on her were from home. She felt completely empty, making her art even more comforting.
Unfortunately, her inspiration always struck at night. She never understood why, but she did her best work during those hours. This habit interfered with her schoolwork and potential friendships, contributing to her clumsiness and constant drowsiness in class. She didnât get enough sleep, being too busy illustrating the random things that caught her eye around the empty campus or the garden outside the Ramshackle dorm.
One night, she was by the old fountain, peering into the dirty water and watching her squirming reflection. The garden was beautiful, with slightly overgrown grass and numerous bushes and flowers she loved to draw. It was also peaceful, offering a gorgeous view of the moon high in the dark sky. Twisted Wonderland wasnât much different from Earth, aside from the glaring difference of magic and slightly outdated technology. She was happy they at least had art supplies and canvases, which she was allowed to borrow. No one else seemed interested in drawing, so the supplies had been rotting in the storage room. When she asked to use them, Crowley was overjoyed that someone would finally make use of them.
Sitting in peace, enjoying the silence and the slight rustle of leaves, she sketched an owl glaring down at her from a tree a few feet away. She stayed silent, limiting her movements to avoid scaring it.
However, the sound of approaching footsteps startled the owl, causing it to fly away. Y/N gasped in disappointment, standing up from her seat as she watched the owl disappear into the little forest. It was then she noticed the presence that had joined her in the quiet garden. Tightening her grip on her pen and notebook, she reluctantly turned to face the intruder, her eyes widening in surprise upon seeing Malleus Draconia.
Malleus stood silently, his eyes analyzing her with intrigue. Despite his fearsome reputation and the rumors that surrounded him, Y/N felt something akin to adoration. Under the moonlight, his horns, long hair, and calm, calculating eyes made him appear otherworldly. An urge to draw him struck her.
Without thinking, she blurted out, âCan I draw you?â
Malleusâs eyes widened slightly in surprise, a subtle reaction that she noticed. The corners of his lips curled into an amused smile, and he tilted his head slightly. The sight made Y/N's heart leap in her chest. She realized how strange her request was, especially as the first thing she had ever said to him. She felt embarrassed and stupid for being so weird, but she couldnât deny how striking he looked under the moonlight. If he agreed to her request, she would be overjoyed.
Malleus studied her for a moment, his expression thoughtful. âVery well,â he finally said, his voice smooth and resonant. âYou may draw me.â
Y/Nâs eyes lit up with joy. âThank you!â she exclaimed, her shyness momentarily forgotten in her excitement. She quickly found a comfortable spot to sit and began sketching, her eyes darting between Malleus and her sketchbook.
As she worked, Malleus watched her with a curious glint in his eyes. âWhy do you wish to draw me?â he asked, breaking the silence.
Y/N paused, considering her words carefully. âUmm⊠you looked really pretty under the moonlight,â she said softly, her cheeks flushing. âIâve never seen horns like yours before, or eyes such a vibrant neon green. Theyâre really pretty.â
Malleusâs smile widened slightly, an almost imperceptible shift. âIs that so?â he murmured, amusement lacing his tone. âYou find my appearance... pretty?â
Y/N nodded, her focus returning to her sketch. âYes! I do,â she admitted.
They continued in comfortable silence, the only sounds being the soft rustle of leaves and the scratch of her pencil on paper. Y/Nâs initial nerves faded as she immersed herself in her art. When she finished, she held up the sketch for Malleus to see.
Malleus studied the drawing, his expression unreadable. âYou have captured more than just my appearance,â he said quietly. âHow curious.â
Y/N smiled shyly. âIâm happy you think so.â
Malleus continued to observe the sketch, his expression contemplative. âDo you come here every night?â he asked, his gaze shifting from the drawing to her eyes.
Y/N nodded, her previous excitement fading into shyness now that the high from drawing had worn off. âI do,â she replied softly. âI get inspiration here, and itâs comforting.â She fidgeted with the corner of her sketchbook, her voice growing quieter. âI like drawing here at night.â
Malleus tilted his head slightly, intrigued. âYou prefer solitude?â
âSometimesâŠâ she admitted, her eyes dropping to the ground. âItâs peaceful. And⊠I guess itâs easier than trying to talk to people. Drawing doesnât judge me or expect me to say the right things.â She gave a small, self-deprecating laugh. âIâm not very good at that.â
Malleus studied her for a moment, the moonlight casting a soft glow over his features. âI see. You find solace in your art,â he said, more as a statement than a question.
Y/N nodded again, a small smile tugging at her lips. âYes. I-Itâs the one thing I can always count on.â
A thoughtful silence settled between them. Malleus seemed to understand her in a way she hadnât expected. Despite his imposing presence and the intimidating rumors that surrounded him, she felt a surprising sense of ease in his company.
âYou may continue to draw here,â Malleus said finally, his tone gentle yet authoritative. âAnd should you desire company, you have but to call for me.â
Y/Nâs heart fluttered at his words. âThank you!â
As Malleus began to walk away, Y/N's curiosity got the better of her. "Wait," she called out, making him pause and turn back to face her. "Um- can I ask you something?"
He regarded her with a raised eyebrow, a hint of amusement still in his eyes. "You may."
Taking a deep breath, Y/N asked, "Are you really a prince? And a dragon!?"
Malleus nodded, a faint smile playing on his lips. "Yes, I am. Prince of the Briar Valley and a descendant of the dragon fae."
Her eyes widened in amazement. "Thatâs so cool! Everyone always says you're super strong, but we're not in the same year, so Iâve never seen it myself. Can you⊠show me?"
Malleus considered her request for a moment, then extended his hand. A green, magical aura surrounded him, and suddenly, ethereal, dragon-like wings appeared on his back, glowing in the moonlight. He didn't transform fully but gave her a glimpse of his power and heritage.
Y/N gasped in awe, her eyes sparkling with admiration. "Wow," she breathed. "Thatâs amazing! Youâre so cool."
Malleus retracted his wings, the aura fading as he resumed his usual form. "I am pleased that you think so," he said, his tone carrying a hint of pride.
Her mind still reeling from what she had witnessed, Y/N asked, "Can I draw you again another time? I mean, like this?"
He seemed to ponder her request, his gaze thoughtful. "Very well," he said finally. "You may. It is an honor to be your muse," he said, a teasing smile finding its way to his lips. "Perhaps we shall meet again tomorrow night?"
Y/Nâs felt her face flush at his words. âM-my muse? And, yes! Okay!â
With a final, lingering glance, Malleus turned and disappeared into the early morning mist, and she returned to her dorm, with only a few hours left till school would start.
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Since their initial meeting, Y/Nâs encounters with Malleus grew in frequency, with each night solidifying their connection. Malleus had essentially become her muse, and she would show up with her art supplies, sketching and drawing him in numerous ways. He indulged her artistic passion, finding himself curious about her life while also sharing his own interests, particularly his fascination with gargoyles. She soon learned that his interest was so profound that he had created his own club dedicated to studying them, a fact she found incredibly cool.
Malleus, in turn, was intrigued by Y/Nâs attraction to the very qualities that others found intimidating or unapproachable about him. Her genuine curiosity and admiration for aspects of his personality that were often deemed dark or formidable caught him off guard. He began to test her, asking questions designed to make her uncomfortable or to challenge her perception of him. Yet, to his surprise, she never faltered. Her view of him remained unchanged, always seeing the good in him.
It was a quality Malleus found both unusual and deeply attractive, especially in a place like Night Raven College, where cynicism and mistrust were more common than kindness and acceptance.
It seemed like just any other night when they met up in the overgrown garden, surrounded by flowers, bushes, overgrown grass, and the occasional firefly or grasshopper that graced them with its presence. Y/N, with her sketchbook in hand, was prepared to capture Malleusâs likeness once again.Â
However, her curiosity had gotten the better of her tonight. She had grown so used to his company that she had momentarily forgotten his title as a literal prince.
Her eyes kept darting to his horns, the dark, curved structures that were as much a part of him as his regal demeanor. She couldnât hold in her adoration any longer. Gathering her courage, she finally blurted out, âMalleus, can I⊠can I touch your horns?â
The words tumbled out before she could stop herself, and she instantly regretted it. Her face flushed, and she began stammering nervously, waving her hands in a frantic attempt to apologize. âIâm sorry! That was so rude of me. I shouldnât haveââ
Malleus, watching her with his characteristic calm, marveled at her audacity. It was rare a person who would even dare ask him such a thing, and yet here she was, this small, magicless human, filled with curiosity and adoration, doing just that.
He found her ignorance and boldness endearing. With a soft chuckle, he said, âItâs quite alright. You may.â
She stared at him in shock for a moment before he bent down on one knee and lowered his head slightly, giving her better access to his horns. Her hands trembled as she raised them, hesitating briefly before she gently touched one of his horns. It was smooth and cool to the touch, and she couldnât help but let her fingers wander, tracing the intricate curves and shapes.
As she ran her fingers along his horns, her hands gradually moved into his hair, entangling in the soft, well-kept strands. This was clearly not what they had agreed upon, but she couldnât help herself. His hair was unexpectedly soft and comforting, and she found herself running her fingers through it, almost forgetting where she was.
Malleus, to her immense surprise, allowed her this intimacy. He typically disliked when people were too casual with him, but with her, it felt different. Her touch was gentle and filled with genuine curiosity, and it felt surprisingly nice.
When she finally pulled her hands away, her face was a deep shade of red. âIâm so sorry, Malleus. I didnât mean toâŠâ
He leaned closer to her, his eyes glinting with amusement. âMay I touch your hair, in return?â
She froze in surprise, not expecting his request. Before she could respond, he reached out and ruffled her hair gently, a slight mockery of her earlier actions. The touch was surprisingly tender, and it made her heart skip a beat.
âYou have lovely hair,â he said, his voice soft but teasing.
She blinked up at him, still flustered but now smiling shyly. âOhâŠ. thank youâŠ,â she managed to say, her voice barely above a whisper.
Malleus straightened up, his eyes still fixed on her. âYou continue to surprise me, Y/N.â
Her heart fluttered at his words. âIs that a good thing?â
âVery much so,â he replied with a small smile.
âUm, I made a new drawing of you, but⊠I forgot to bring it with me.â Y/Nâs voice trembled, her heart thumping with anxiety. âCan I⊠bring it to your dorm tomorrow? I want you to have itâŠâ
It was a big stepâafter all, she and Malleus had only ever met in the garden at night. By day, they moved in different circles, and he was two grades above her, making their lives all the more separate. Their nighttime meetings had always been their own little world, a space where sheâd sketch him and heâd indulge her, sharing stories of Briar Valley or answering her curious questions. But the idea of entering his territory, his life outside their usual routine, felt nerve-wracking.
She braced herself, half-expecting him to refuse. Their friendship, if she could even call it that, had never been formally established. He was her quiet, mysterious muse, and she was the strange, sleepy artist who drew him in shadows and starlight. Despite herself, though, she hoped he didnât see her as just a source of amusement. She cherished their time together, and the thought of being nothing more than a curiosity to him made her stomach twist.
Malleus, however, seemed blissfully unaware of her concerns. He regarded her with his usual calm, interpreting her nervousness as another shy momentâsomething she was known for, after all.
âVery well, then. Seek me out after your classes in Diasomnia,â he agreed with a nod.
Y/Nâs face lit up, her relief breaking into a bright smile as she nodded eagerly. âOkay! I will.â
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That night, after they parted ways, she returned to her dorm, her mind buzzing with thoughts of him. She often wondered how he managed to look so well-rested while she dragged herself through the day half-awake. Somehow, despite their nightly rendezvous, he attended all his classes, excelling in every subject. It was something sheâd definitely ask about later, though for now, her focus was on perfecting the drawing she wanted to give him.
The next day, her morning went as expectedâlate to class, with her uniform haphazardly thrown on. Professor Trein made her stand outside for twenty minutes before finally letting her back in, and she gratefully slipped into her seat between Ace and Deuce. Though the two were notorious troublemakers, they left her in peace, allowing her to nap behind a book she propped up to look as if she were reading.
The following classes went in much the same way: some mild prodding from her classmates in her second class, a merciless session with Floyd in the third where he wouldnât let her close her eyes for even a second, and finally a lunch break where she napped in the library. By her last class, she was somewhat awake, counting down the minutes until she could go to Diasomnia with her drawing.
As the bell rang, she set off, her heart pounding with excitement and a touch of nervousness. Sheâd spent so many nights working on this drawing that she wanted it to be perfect. Walking through the school, she felt the usual wary stares and heard the murmurs of students discussing Diasomnia and its prince with hushed voices. Most feared Malleus, but she couldnât understand why. Perhaps it was because sheâd met him alone in the quiet of the night, where theyâd spoken freely without any pretense. She couldnât help but feel that her bond with him was something rare, and maybe a bit fragile, too.
Upon arriving at Diasomnia, she noticed it was fairly quiet. When she asked after Malleus, most simply shrugged or said they didnât know. A little disappointed, she learned that the third years might still be in lessons. Deciding to wait, she found a cozy spot in the lounge and settled in, passing the time by flipping through her sketchbook, which was filled with sketches of Malleus and scenes of Briar Valley as heâd described them.
Gradually, she began to grow drowsy from the soft, warm atmosphere of the lounge. The couch was incredibly comfortable, and before long, sheâd drifted off, her sketchbook slipping onto her lap.
Some time later, the sensation of a weight lifting from her lap stirred her from sleep. She opened one eye groggily and noticed her sketchbook was missing. She shifted slightly, assuming it had fallen to the floor, and shut her eyes again, settling into the warmth of the armrest, deciding to look for it after another minuteâs rest.
As Y/N rested peacefully, the sound of soft footsteps drifted through the lounge, though she remained undisturbed. Lilia, who had been wandering through Diasomniaâs halls, paused when he noticed her asleep on the couch. With a fond smile, he tilted his head, taking in the scene. Her presence here was unexpected, yet oddly familiar; she reminded him of Silver, the way she slept so soundly, though perhaps for entirely different reasons.
Lilia's gaze shifted to the sketchbook that had slipped onto her lap, its pages splayed open to reveal a delicate, meticulously drawn portrait of Malleus. He raised an eyebrow, his eyes sparkling with curiosity. Careful not to wake her, he gingerly picked up the sketchbook, his interest piqued.
âOhhh, my, what do we have hereâŠâ he murmured, flipping through the pages with a mischievous grin. Nearly every other page was filled with sketches of Malleusâhis contemplative gaze, his horns under moonlight, the sharp angles of his jaw. Each drawing captured a different side of Malleus, showing an unusual softness to the usually distant prince.
âSo many drawings of our dear MalleusâŠâ he whispered to himself, chuckling. The comment stirred Y/N from her slumber, her eyelids fluttering open as she took in her surroundings with bleary confusion.
âHuhâŠ?â she mumbled, rubbing her eyes. The sight of Lilia holding her sketchbook made her jolt upright, her cheeks flushing.
âAh, good evening!â Lilia greeted, closing the sketchbook with a smirk as he looked at her, amused by her flustered expression. âDidnât mean to wake you⊠though it seems you have quite an eye for detail.â He gave the sketchbook a playful wave.
âUm⊠th-thatâsâŠâ She stumbled over her words, her face warm with embarrassment as she tried to reach for the sketchbook, but Lilia held it just out of reach.
âIs Malleus your muse, perhaps?â Lilia teased, inspecting one of the more recent drawings. âThis is really quite impressive. But I wonder⊠did he know about this little âcollectionâ youâve made of him?â
She stammered, her hands shaking as she reached out. âN-no, he just⊠I mean⊠um, itâs for practice! Just practice! He has, uh, interesting⊠features.â
ââInteresting features,â is it?â Lilia laughed. âYes, Iâm sure the horns and dragon scales make for good practice. Iâll have to tell him heâs become quite the artistâs inspiration.â
Y/Nâs face reddened even more, and she quickly snatched the sketchbook as Lilia relinquished it with an amused smile. Just as she was about to stumble over another explanation, a familiar voice interrupted.
âY/N,â Malleusâs calm voice echoed as he entered the lounge, looking between her and Lilia. âI apologize for keeping you waiting.â
âOh, Malleus!â She nearly jumped, clutching the sketchbook to her chest. Malleusâs gaze softened when he looked at her, though his attention soon turned to Lilia, who was watching them with a look of dawning realization and unrestrained amusement.
Lilia clasped his hands together with a dramatic sigh. âMy, my, Malleus. I didnât know you had such devoted company in our dorm, coming here to deliver artwork no less.â
Malleus raised an eyebrow, glancing between them as understanding dawned on him. âI see youâve made yourself acquainted with Y/N.â
âOh, yes, indeed,â Lilia replied, giving Y/N a conspiratorial wink. âSheâs quite the talented artistâthough I must say, your likeness seems to be her specialty.â
Y/N ducked her head, overwhelmed and burning with embarrassment, but Malleus simply looked at her, intrigued. âIs that so?â he asked, a slight smile gracing his lips as he reached a hand out toward her. âIf itâs ready, Iâd like to see it.â
Flustered, she nodded, opening her sketchbook to the finished drawing sheâd been working so hard on, holding it out with trembling hands. Malleus examined it, his expression softening as he traced the lines with his gaze.
âItâs⊠beautiful,â he murmured, glancing at her with a look that held an unusual warmth. âThank you, Y/N.â
Beside them, Liliaâs eyes gleamed with silent amusement, watching the two of them with interest. âWell, I suppose Iâll leave you two alone,â he said with a wink, sauntering off with a chuckle. âJust donât keep her out too late, Malleus. Iâm sure she needs her rest for all those upcoming drawings, hmm?â
Malleus watched Lilia disappear around the corner, shaking his head slightly as a small sigh escaped his lips. Turning back to Y/N, he noticed her still clutching her sketchbook tightly, her cheeks flushed. A gentle smile softened his normally serious expression, and he inclined his head to catch her gaze.
âYou donât need to be so nervous,â he said, his voice softer than usual. âItâs only me.â
She managed a small, tentative smile, but the blush on her cheeks remained. âI know,â she murmured, looking down. âI⊠just didnât expect Lilia to⊠well, you knowâŠâ
Malleus chuckled quietly. âHe does have a way of surprising people, doesnât he? Though I find it intriguing how many drawings of me youâve created. I hadnât realized I was such an interesting subject.â He paused, an amused gleam in his eyes as he leaned forward slightly. âOr perhaps Iâm only interesting when itâs nighttime?â
Y/Nâs breath hitched as his words sank in. Her blush deepened, and she stammered, âI-I mean, youâre⊠interesting all the time, I just⊠itâs easier to focus on drawing when thereâs less going on. At night, youâre⊠well, easier to approach.â
Malleus raised an eyebrow, intrigued. âAm I, now?â
She nodded quickly, gripping the edges of her sketchbook. âYes. I⊠I feel like I can be myself more when itâs just us. I donât have to think too hard about⊠everything else.â
A warm silence settled between them, broken only by the soft rustling of the leaves in the courtyard beyond the lounge window. Malleus took a seat beside her on the lounge sofa, close enough that their shoulders nearly brushed. His hand rested casually on the cushion near her, though she could sense his attention focused entirely on her, an intensity lingering behind his composed demeanor.
âAnd I quite enjoy these moments we share at night,â he said quietly. âThey are rare moments of solace. There arenât many with whom Iâd wish to spend this time.â His gaze was steady, almost possessive as it held her own. âYouâre⊠different, Y/N.â
The way he spoke made her heart skip a beat, a warmth spreading in her chest that was both comforting and strangely unsettling. She swallowed, glancing down as she fumbled for words. âI⊠well, I like being here with you, too.â
Malleus smiled, satisfied with her response, and gestured toward her sketchbook. âMay I see more?â
Wordlessly, she handed the sketchbook over, feeling a flicker of shyness as he carefully flipped through the pages.
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To Win a Princess (the eclipse of the alliance)
- Summary: Once you come of age, the realm seeks to curry the King's favor once more by seeking a hand of his younger daughter. You.Â
- Paring: targ!reader/Tyland Lannister
- Rating: Explicit 18+
- Previous part: lion's pride
- Tag(s): @sachaa-ff @alyssa-dayne @oxymakestheworldgoround
The gentle afternoon light spills through the windows of your chambers, casting a light over the rich silks and delicate fabrics laid out before you. Rhaenyra sits beside you, her eyes alight with excitement as she picks up a length of golden lace, holding it against the fabric of your gown and studying it with a critical but admiring gaze.
âThis,â she says decisively, her tone one of certainty. âItâs perfect. The color, the delicacyâit suits you.â
You smile, taking the lace from her hands and feeling its softness beneath your fingertips. âYouâre right. Itâs beautiful,â you murmur, your voice tinged with a hint of disbelief as you look around at the array of details before youâthe lace, the intricate embroidery, the small jewels meant to adorn your gown, each piece carefully chosen for your upcoming wedding. âI can hardly believe this is happening. Sometimes it feels like a dream, one I thought Iâd never be lucky enough to have.â
Rhaenyra watches you thoughtfully, a knowing smile pulling at the corners of her lips. âThen let it be real, sister. Let this wedding, this happiness, be yours.â
You look up at her, your expression softening. âI always thought⊠that my match would be nothing more than a duty. That Iâd be married off to some lord for an alliance, as so many noble ladies are. Matches made for gain rather than happiness. Iâd resigned myself to that fate.â
Rhaenyra nods, understanding in her gaze as she places a gentle hand on your shoulder. âI know. So many of us are given no choice at all.â She pauses, her eyes darkening slightly with memories of her own struggles, her own sacrifices for duty. âI fought my battles to make sure I could find my own happiness. I know what itâs like to feel⊠bound by the expectations of others.â
You give her a small, grateful smile, reaching out to take her hand. âAnd now, here I am, free to choose and to marry a man who⊠who sees me for who I am, not just as a princess.â Your voice softens, and you feel a rush of warmth as you think of Tyland, of the unexpected comfort and understanding youâve found with him. âI never thought Iâd find that.â
Rhaenyra squeezes your hand, her smile turning tender. âTyland is a good man. And he adores youâI see it every time he looks at you. You deserve someone who values you, who would go to any length to protect you and cherish you.â
You laugh softly, shaking your head. âIt still amazes me, really. I see other noble ladies here, young women with dreams and spirits of their own, resigned to marriages that bring them neither love nor happiness. I feel as if Iâve somehow defied the odds.â
Rhaenyraâs eyes twinkle with mischief. âThen let us call it luck, sister, or perhaps fate. You are marrying a Lannister, after all. They say those lions have a way of claiming what they wantâand it seems youâve claimed each other.â
You chuckle, feeling your spirits lift as she leans in, a conspiratorial gleam in her eyes. âThough I must admit, I can hardly imagine you at Casterly Rock,â she adds with a teasing smile. âAll those stony halls and golden lionsâit will be quite the contrast to Dragonstone.â
You shake your head, laughing. âI doubt Iâll ever be quite at home there, even with all the lions watching over us. But Tyland will be here, with me, at Kingâs Landing, at least for now. And I think⊠I think thatâs all I need to feel at home.â
Rhaenyra nods, her expression softening as she hands you a delicate ribbon embroidered with faint threads of gold. âThen letâs make this wedding everything you deserve,â she says, her tone gentle yet determined. âLet it be a celebration of you, of the choice youâve made, and of the happiness youâve claimed.â
You take the ribbon from her, the weight of the fabric a comforting presence in your hands as you meet her gaze, a sense of joy and gratitude welling up within you. âThank you, Rhaenyra. For standing by me, for helping me make this choice, for⊠everything.â
Rhaenyra smiles, her eyes glistening slightly as she leans in to embrace you. âAlways, sister. Youâre not just a princessâyouâre family, my family. And I would see you happy, above all else.â
The two of you pull back, a shared sense of joy lingering in the air as you continue to select the final touches for the wedding. And as you hold each fabric, each delicate detail chosen with care, you feel the quiet certainty of the life you are buildingâone that, against all odds, has brought you both love and freedom.
The small council chamber is filled with activity as King Viserys and his advisors discuss the arrangements for the upcoming wedding. Viserys sits at the head of the table, his expression one of contentment, a faint smile pulling at his lips as he listens to the details being laid out before him. Around the table, each member of the council appears engaged, but none more so than Tyland, who sits at Viserysâs left, the faintest trace of pride lighting his gaze as he listens to the preparations.
âThe invitations have been sent to the noble Houses, Your Grace,â Lord Beesbury begins, shuffling a stack of parchment before him. âMost have already responded with their intent to attend. The Great Sept has agreed to host the ceremony, and arrangements for the feast are underway.â
Viserys nods approvingly, a glint of satisfaction in his eyes. âGood. It should be a celebration worthy of both Houses.â He glances briefly at Tyland. âThis union is more than a simple wedding; itâs a symbol of our alliance, of peace between our Houses.â
Lord Jasper Wylde nods, a smile tugging at his lips. âAnd with such esteemed guests, it will serve as a reminder of the Crownâs strength. House Lannister and House Targaryen togetherâthere are few in Westeros who would challenge that.â
Tyland inclines his head in gratitude. âThank you, my lord. It is our intent that this union strengthens the realm as much as it does our families.â
At that, Lord Lyonel Strong, ever the voice of reason, speaks up, his tone thoughtful. âIt will be a fine day for the realm, Your Grace. The symbolism alone holds power, and it shows your commitment to unity and prosperity.â
Viserys nods, clearly pleased. But as the conversation begins to wind down, Otto Hightower clears his throat, leaning forward with a slight frown, his eyes fixed on the King.
âYour Grace,â he begins, his voice calm but carrying a hint of unease, âwhile I, of course, understand the significance of this match, there is something I feel compelled to address.â He pauses, his gaze shifting briefly to Tyland before returning to Viserys. âIt has not gone unnoticed that many lords from the Westerlands have taken it upon themselves to establish a steady presence here at court. Their enthusiasm is⊠notable, to say the least.â
Viserysâs brow furrows slightly, but before he can respond, Tyland speaks up, his tone even but carrying an undertone of steel.
âSurely, Lord Otto, you donât find it concerning that lords sworn to House Lannister wish to be present to support my union with the princess?â His eyes narrow slightly, his expression calm but his voice carrying a subtle edge. âOr does the strengthening of the Crownâs alliance with the West somehow trouble you?â
Otto meets Tylandâs gaze with a measured look, his voice steady but tinged with a hint of formality. âIt is not the alliance itself that raises my concern, Lord Tyland,â he replies smoothly. âItâs the sudden influx of Western influence within the heart of the court. The Crownâs interests must remain balanced, and as Hand, it is my duty to ensure that one region does not⊠overstep.â
A faint smile tugs at Tylandâs lips, though his eyes remain sharp. âHouse Lannister has long been a loyal servant to the Crown, Lord Otto. And if my kin see fit to lend their support to this union, itâs only a reflection of their dedication to stability.â He pauses, letting the words hang for a moment. âOr is it that you fear the Westâs influence might rival that of the Reach?â
Viserys raises a hand, his expression firm but carrying a hint of weariness as he interjects. âThis union was intended to bring peace and strength, not division.â He glances between Otto and Tyland, his tone carrying an undercurrent of authority. âOtto, I understand your concerns, but I expect all of my council to work toward a shared vision for the realm.â
Lyonel Strong, ever the voice of reason, inclines his head and speaks up. âYour Grace is wise. Both the Reach and the West are pillars of strength within the realm. Surely, we can find a way to honor both without falling into rivalries.â
Beesbury nods in agreement. âPrecisely. The nobilityâs support should be a cause for celebration, not suspicion. If anything, this wedding reaffirms the unity of Westeros.â
Ottoâs jaw tightens, though he keeps his expression respectful as he inclines his head toward Viserys. âOf course, Your Grace. I merely wish to ensure that our alliances remain⊠in harmony.â
Tyland watches Otto with a faint, knowing smile, his gaze unwavering. âRest assured, Lord Otto, House Lannisterâs loyalty remains with the King and his vision for the realm. We are here to strengthen the throne, not challenge it.â
Viserys nods, clearly satisfied with the exchange. âGood. That is what I wish to hear from all my council. Let us continue preparations for the wedding without unnecessary divisions. This union is a gift to the realm, a sign of our strength.â
The room falls into a respectful silence, and Tyland glances briefly at Otto, catching the faint hint of disdain still lingering in the Handâs eyes. But he lets it go, choosing instead to focus on the satisfaction of having the Kingâs support and the chance to stand beside you openly, unchallenged.
The afternoon sun filters gently through the leaves of the garden, casting dappled shadows across the soft grass where Daemon lounges with an air of casual defiance. Heâs sprawled on a low stone bench, eyes half-lidded, but thereâs an unmistakable edge to his expression, a simmering intensity that hints at the impatience heâs barely kept in check for weeks.
Across the garden path, Tyland approaches, deep in conversation with a few courtiers from the Westerlands, their voices a soft hum in the distance. The men laugh, voices warm with camaraderie, but Daemonâs gaze sharpens as he watches them approach. A faint smile, more of a smirk than anything, curves on his lips as he rises slowly, deliberately positioning himself in their path.
When Tyland and his companions draw near, Daemon makes no effort to move aside. Instead, he inclines his head with a mocking smile, his gaze fixed squarely on Tyland, ignoring the courtiers entirely.
âLord Tyland,â Daemon drawls, his voice carrying a faint, derisive edge. âSo good of you to grace the gardens today. I thought you might be too busy⊠consolidating all that influence youâve acquired.â
Tyland stops, meeting Daemonâs gaze with a cool, measured expression, his tone even. âPrince Daemon,â he replies, inclining his head in polite acknowledgment. âThe gardens are a welcome respite from court, though I hadnât expected to find you here.â
Daemon raises an eyebrow, his smirk widening. âOh, I find the garden to be an excellent place to observe the⊠comings and goings of court.â He pauses, his tone growing colder as he adds, âParticularly when certain guests are determined to dig their roots a little too deeply.â
One of the courtiers, an older lord from the Westerlands, glances nervously between the two men, sensing the tension. âPerhaps we should take our leave, my lord,â he murmurs to Tyland.
But Tyland gives a slight shake of his head, his gaze never leaving Daemon. âNo need,â he says, his voice steady. âPrince Daemon and I merely have⊠differing perspectives.â
Daemon chuckles, crossing his arms as he looks Tyland up and down, his gaze both mocking and probing. âDiffering perspectives, indeed. Tell me, Tylandâhave you grown comfortable here, at court, or are you simply savoring the novelty? A lion in the dragonâs den. You must enjoy the thrill of it.â
Tylandâs expression remains unreadable, his tone calm but firm. âI am here because I was invited, Prince Daemon, by both the King and the princess.â His gaze sharpens, a hint of steel in his eyes. âIf my presence disturbs you, perhaps it is because you see the strength it brings to the realm.â
Daemon laughs, the sound more biting than amused. âStrength? Is that what you call it?â He takes a step closer, his voice lowering, though his words are pointed enough for the courtiers to hear. âTell me, Tyland, do you honestly believe your golden lion could ever hold its own against the fire of a dragon?â
The Westerlands lord shifts uncomfortably, but Tyland holds Daemonâs gaze, his tone unwavering. âRespectfully, Prince Daemon, strength does not always roar. Sometimes it is silent, enduring⊠and far more resilient than flame.â His eyes narrow slightly. âAnd House Lannister has withstood far more than the bite of a dragonâs fire.â
Daemonâs smirk fades, a flash of anger darkening his gaze. âI wonder if youâll keep such confidence when you realize that dragons do not tolerate the pride of lions.â
Tylandâs face remains impassive, his voice a calm counterpoint to Daemonâs rising anger. âPerhaps you would do well to remember that lions do not bow so easily, either.â
The courtiers glance uneasily between them, caught between the quiet intensity of Tylandâs defiance and the barely contained rage simmering beneath Daemonâs casual exterior. Finally, one of them steps forward, bowing slightly to Daemon in an attempt to diffuse the tension.
âPrince Daemon, Lord Tyland,â he says cautiously. âPerhaps⊠it would be best to keep our focus on the upcoming celebrations. The union between House Targaryen and House Lannister is a boon to the realm.â
Daemonâs gaze flicks to the courtier with a look of faint disdain, but he doesnât respond. Instead, he steps even closer to Tyland, his voice a quiet, venomous whisper. âIf you believe that a wedding band and a few pretty words will make you my equal, Tyland, youâre sorely mistaken. You may sit at court, but know thisâyou will never be part of my family.â
Tylandâs jaw tightens, but he remains composed, his voice level. âI am not here to compete with you, Prince Daemon. My loyalty is to the princess and to the realm. And whether you accept me or not will not change that.â
Daemonâs eyes blaze with a barely concealed fury, and for a moment, it seems as though he might say moreâsomething that would truly cross the line. But instead, he steps back, his smirk returning, though his eyes remain cold.
âVery well,â he says, his tone laced with mockery. âEnjoy your place, Lord Tyland. For as long as it lasts.â
With that, Daemon turns on his heel, his movements sharp, his departure leaving an uncomfortable silence in his wake. The courtiers exchange uncertain glances, unsure of whether to remain or leave, but Tyland merely straightens, his expression unreadable as he watches Daemon disappear into the distance.
One of the lords, still clearly unsettled, clears his throat. âLord Tyland⊠are you⊠all right?â
Tyland looks at him, offering a small, composed smile. âQuite all right,â he says calmly, though his gaze lingers in the direction Daemon had gone. âLet us continue. Thereâs still much to prepare for the wedding.â
And as he walks forward with the courtiers, Tylandâs mind remains steady, resolute. Whatever Daemonâs anger, whatever his threats, he would face them allâfor you, and for the future that now lay firmly within his grasp.
The sun is warm as you sit with your ladies-in-waiting in the gardens, laughter and easy conversation filling the air. The gentle rustle of silk skirts and the soft chatter of voices blend with the birdsong, creating a rare moment of peace in the otherwise bustling Red Keep. Youâre reviewing samples of delicate lace, choosing the final details for your wedding gown, when the unmistakable figure of Queen Alicent, flanked by her own ladies, steps into view.
The mood shifts instantly, the easy laughter fading as your ladies fall silent, their gazes respectful yet wary. Alicent approaches with a pleasant smile, her expression warm, though her eyes hold a glint of something sharper, a curiosity laced with subtle calculation.
âY/N,â she greets you smoothly, her tone polite. âI thought I might join you for a moment. The preparations for your wedding must be keeping you quite busy.â
You rise, offering a polite nod, though you feel the weight of her scrutiny. âThank you, Your Grace. They are indeed,â you reply, keeping your tone courteous. âThereâs so much to plan and consider.â
Alicent nods, her gaze drifting over the lace samples and delicate fabrics before settling on you. âItâs a grand match,â she says, her voice smooth but carrying a faint edge. âA marriage between House Targaryen and House Lannister⊠itâs quite an alliance. No doubt it will strengthen both Houses considerably.â
You meet her gaze, aware of the probing curiosity behind her words. âThat is the intent,â you reply calmly. âBoth families stand to gain from this union. And it pleases the King, which is what matters most.â
Alicentâs smile remains in place, though her gaze sharpens subtly. âYes, and House Lannister has taken a particular interest in this match. Their presence at court has been⊠substantial as of late. I imagine they must be quite invested in your future.â
You tilt your head slightly, meeting her gaze with a measured smile. âHouse Lannister has always been loyal to the Crown, Your Grace. They are here to show their support for this alliance, as is expected of any House when one of their own weds a member of the royal family.â
Alicentâs expression doesnât falter, though you can sense her curiosity deepening, her desire to uncover what she perceives as hidden motives. âOf course,â she murmurs, a hint of skepticism in her tone. âThough I wonder, what is it that Lord Tyland truly seeks? Itâs rare for the lions to venture far from the Rock without a purpose.â
You feel a flicker of irritation at her insinuation, but you maintain your composure, lifting your chin slightly. âWith respect, Your Grace, I wonder why this marriage concerns you so deeply. After all, itâs a match for a second sister, not a matter of succession. When Rhaenyra wed Laenor Velaryon, her marriage faced far less scrutiny, even though she was named heir to the throne. Yet here we are, with far more interest in my union.â
A faint shadow crosses Alicentâs expression, though she quickly masks it, her smile tightening slightly. âI am only concerned for the stability of the realm, Y/N. House Velaryon was already allied with House Targaryen; their marriage brought unity. But the Lannisters⊠they are not as close to the Throne as House Velaryon.â
You match her gaze evenly, refusing to back down. âHouse Lannister is sworn to the Crown, as are all great Houses. Their loyalty is to the King and his family, just as House Velaryonâs was. And Tyland⊠he has shown nothing but respect for me, for my family, and for the Crown.â
Alicentâs gaze lingers on you, her expression unreadable as she studies you with a mixture of surprise and mild irritation. âI see,â she replies, her tone softening slightly, though you sense she is still unconvinced. âIt is⊠commendable, how you speak in his defense. You seem to have found quite a confidence in Lord Tyland.â Her voice is smooth, but the underlying note of scrutiny remains.
You hold her gaze, refusing to let her subtle implications unsettle you. âConfidence, yes, and respect, Your Grace. Tyland is a man of honor, and I would not have chosen him otherwise. He seeks no undue powerâonly a bond of loyalty, as any union between two noble Houses should offer. That is the strength we intend to bring to the realm.â
One of your ladies shifts beside you, her gaze flicking between you and the Queen, clearly sensing the tension in the air. But Alicent only smiles, her expression polite, if a bit forced, as if attempting to regain control of the conversation.
âOf course,â she replies smoothly. âSuch a strong alliance should bring much-needed stability to the realm, and I am pleased to hear that you are⊠content in this arrangement. I am certain the King shares my hope that this union will serve the Crown well.â
You nod, your tone unwavering. âI believe it will, Your Grace. House Lannisterâs loyalty and wealth will strengthen our position, and I am honored to be part of that bond.â
Alicentâs smile falters for a fraction of a second before she regains her composure, glancing briefly at her ladies before meeting your gaze once more. âThen I am glad to see you so resolved, Y/N. Such confidence befits a Targaryen princess.â
Her tone, though polite, holds an edgeâa subtle reminder of the power dynamics at play, of the fact that your future, as much as it now feels like your own choice, will always be entangled with the interests of the realm.
You offer her a courteous nod, unfazed. âThank you, Your Grace. I have found that confidence often accompanies purpose. And I am grateful for my familyâs trust in me to make this choice.â
For a moment, there is a quiet tension between you, a silent clash of wills as Alicent studies you, her expression unreadable. Finally, she inclines her head with a tight smile, her gaze lingering a moment longer before she turns to her ladies.
âVery well,â she says, her tone cool and measured. âWe must all be certain of our roles in service to the realm.â
With a final glance your way, she gestures to her entourage, who fall in step behind her as she departs, her graceful form retreating down the garden path. As the quiet settles in her wake, one of your ladies lets out a quiet sigh of relief, her face still flushed from the anxiety of the exchange.
You turn back to your ladies, offering them a reassuring smile as you resume your seat. âIt seems, ladies,â you murmur, with a faint but confident smile, âthat Queen Alicent is far more invested in this wedding than she cares to admit.â
Your ladies share knowing glances, small smiles pulling at their lips as the atmosphere eases once more. And though the conversation with Alicent still lingers in your mind, a quiet confidence settles within you. Whatever doubts or suspicions she may hold, you know where your heart and loyalty lieâand no amount of scrutiny will change that.
In the dim light of Tylandâs private chambers, the world beyond fades away, leaving only the warmth of his embrace, the press of his skin against yours, and the soft murmur of breaths shared in the quiet aftermath. You lie tangled together, wrapped in each otherâs arms, the remnants of your passionate union lingering in the charged air. The warmth of the bed and the intimacy of his presence ground you, and for a few moments, you savor the closeness, resting your head against his chest as his fingers trail lazily over your shoulder.
Tylandâs hand finds yours, his thumb tracing gentle patterns over your skin as he sighs, breaking the comfortable silence with a faint chuckle. âIt seems, my love, that our match is not without its share of obstacles.â His voice holds a hint of humor, though thereâs an edge of something more in his toneâsomething darker.
You glance up, meeting his gaze, and he gives you a small, rueful smile. âI had an⊠encounter, letâs call it, with your dear uncle Daemon in the gardens earlier.â His fingers tighten slightly, his expression hardening as he recalls the moment. âHe took it upon himself to remind me of the fire that runs in your familyâs bloodâand to make certain I understand my place.â
Your brow furrows as you push yourself up slightly, resting a hand on his chest as you watch him. âDaemon,â you murmur, your voice laced with a mixture of exasperation and concern. âHe couldnât resist, could he?â
Tyland lets out a low chuckle, though his eyes remain serious. âApparently not. He made it abundantly clear that he doesnât see me as his equalâand that he doesnât intend to welcome me into the family with open arms.â He pauses, his gaze searching yours. âBut I assured him that my loyalty is unwavering. No amount of fire from a Targaryen can scorch my resolve.â
A soft smile tugs at your lips, and you reach up to brush a hand along his cheek, your fingers tracing the line of his jaw. âIâm not surprised Daemon tried to intimidate you. Heâs⊠protective in his own twisted way. But heâll come around. Heâll have to. Iâve chosen you.â
Tylandâs expression softens, and he leans in to press a gentle kiss to your forehead. âAnd for that, I would face dragons a thousand times over.â
You nestle against him, feeling a sense of security in his arms, but the memory of your own recent encounter with Queen Alicent stirs in your mind. Letting out a small sigh, you say softly, âYou arenât the only one whoâs had to fend off a member of my family.â
Tylandâs brow arches in interest, his hand coming to rest on your back as he listens. âOh? Donât tell me the Queen has taken it upon herself to extend her⊠concerns.â
You nod, a wry smile tugging at your lips. âYou know her well. Alicent came to the gardens earlier, surrounded by her ladies, trying to gauge my intentionsâand by extension, yours. She questioned whether House Lannisterâs presence at court was truly as benign as it seems.â
Tyland snorts softly, shaking his head. âSo sheâs taken to examining motives behind every veil and shadow now, has she? What did you tell her?â
âI reminded her,â you reply, a touch of pride in your voice, âthat as a second sister, my marriage should hardly warrant such scrutiny. After all, Rhaenyraâs marriage to Laenor faced far less questioning. Alicent didnât seem pleased by that comparison.â
Tyland chuckles, a faint smirk gracing his lips. âWell said. The Queen may play her games, but you, my love, are more than her match.â He pulls you closer, pressing a kiss to your temple. âIt seems we both have to endure our share of challenges from your family. But I would face a hundred of them if it meant being here with you.â
You smile, nestling closer to him, feeling the strength of his resolve surrounding you like a protective barrier. âWhatever challenges they throw at us, weâll face them together. Alicent, Daemon⊠they may doubt, they may question, but our loyalty and love for each other remain unshaken.â
Tyland nods, his expression serious as he gazes into your eyes. âAnd that, my love, is something neither dragons nor queens can ever take from us.â
Wrapped in each otherâs arms, you find solace in the quiet strength of your bond, knowing that, no matter the challenges, you have each other to face them withâunwavering, together.
#house of the dragon#hotd#hotd x reader#hotd x you#game of thrones#asoiaf#hotd x y/n#a song of ice and fire#fire and blood#hotd tyland#tyland lannister#tyland x you#tyland x reader#tyland x y/n#house lannister#house targaryen#to win a princess
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EPISODE CONCEPT #4
What if... SMG3 had the courage to confess his feelings for the real SMG4?
For context, this is part two of my Episode Concept #3 [link], which many have asked for! @lovesick-simp, this is for you! (this is somehow longer than #3, holy shit.) Now, without further adoâŠ
I promise.
He could never forget the feeling of tangible pixels leaving his arms. What once skin and clothes turned into mere 0âs and 1âs.
Those eyes, the ones he was willing to sink in its depths for hours, they cried. Of apology, of bittersweet farewell. He promised a lot of things, and one was to never let Four cry.
But it was never your Four.
At the time, a thousand thoughts passed through his mind. That this was simply a nightmare, or he had gotten too drunk. Or he ate a Wonder Flower by accident. Somehow, some way, this canât be happening. He wanted to deny it all, but he knew. Why deny the truth when he fading away in your arms?
Goodbye, ThreeâŠ
âSMG3?â
Three jumped at the mention of his name, turning to Tari who looked back at him with concern.
Tari: âOh, sorry. Just wanted to know if youâre okay. Youâve been staring at Lilâ Spot for a while.â
He blinked at her, and then looked down at the gray-feathered duckling nestle in his cupped hands. Ah, yeah, he was.
SMG3: âI was just daydreaming, thatâs all.â [*looks around, recalling where he was*] âIt really is a nice place. Itâs not far from the Showgrounds, right?â Tari, smiles: âYep, I always like to come down here, it helps me clear my head. Plus, I get to hang around with the duckies!â SMG3: [*nods and with a finger, he soothes the ducklingâs head*] âYou were right before, I could use the fresh air.â âEh, Tari, a little help here?â
Three looked across the way to see a couple of yellow ducklings climbing all over SMG4, who was standing by the edge of the lake. All over on his arms, his shoulders, under his blue cap. As Tari ran over to help, Four trying to not let any of them fall while giggling, tickled by their fluffy feathers.
Three began to smile, and perhaps he could let his heart feel that missing warmth.
Have courage.
But the cautious part of him didn't let him. He should've known better, he apologized to his heart.
Not yet.
Four and Tari came back with the tamed ducklings lined up in their arms.
SMG4: âIf I spent a little more time with these little guys, they're gonna think Iâm their mom.â SMG3, hums: âYou always did have a thing for being the center of the universe.â SMG4: âHey, it's not like I do it on purpose.â
And yet, you managed to become mine. But Three kept that thought to himself.
Tari: âIt's getting late, and I told Meggy I was making dinner tonight. I should probably get them back to their mother.â SMG4, handing the ducklings from his arms to hers: âYeah, we should head home, SMG3.â
Three said goodbye to Lil' Spot before handing the duckling to Tari, who promptly went to drop them off and returned. While Four was distracted, folding up the picnic blanket, Three leaned towards Tari while keeping an eye on Four.
SMG3, whispered: âTari, could you please do a simulation check?â
Tari looked at him, her concern reflecting once again. He has asked that everyday. Any chance he was with her, it was the same. The first few times, she tried assuring him, telling him, âIt's okay, SMG3. There's no need, youâre safe now.â
But it never seemed to calm his nerves. As much as she wanted to protest, she knew that it wasn't an unreasonable exaggeration. Whatever the simulation did to him must've been really horrible for him not to tell anyone what happened. To think he was back.
Tari nodded and programmed a command on the floating screen projecting by her arm. A window popped up saying, No detection of simulation.
Tari: âAll clear.â SMG3, letting out a sigh of relief: âThanks. I owe you one.â Tari, letting out a small smile: âNo worries, weâre your friends after all. Though, I wouldn't mind having one of your cookies again once youâre healed.â SMG3: [*chuckle*] âThat I can do.â SMG4, swinging the backpack over his shoulder: âAlright, ready to go?â
SMG3 nods. After saying goodbye to Tari, SMG4 pushed SMG3âs wheelchair on the path towards the Showgrounds.
Itâs been over a month since Three was freed from the simulation. The Crew wasted no time bringing him to the hospital. The rest, well, it seemed like a blur. To Three at least. The doctors and nurses, what they said, he never caught it. He was lucky that his friends were there to remember for him. Three wasnât exactly sure what to feel. Should he grieve? Should he be grateful that the Crew found him and his son?
What he did know was the promise that he kept.
The Crew was naturally relieved to see he was in good hands, but anyone could tell that they were exhausted from the stress of the search. So, while Three was going through recovery, they took turns watching over him. The rest, who didn't have the shift, took the chance to rest.
.ă»-: ⧠:--: ⧠:-ă».
One night, Tari and Saiko were walking down the quiet hospital hall, Saiko holding a gift bag and Tari a duffle bag with colorful patches all over it.
Tari: âDo you think SMG3 will like the card?â Saiko: âHeâs a big softie on the inside, of course he will. Let's just hope we can pry SMG4 away from him.â Tari: âYou can't exactly blame SMG4. I mean, don't you remember? He didn't sleep for days, or even eat. He was worried sick.â Saiko: âBut he needs rest too, not just us. SMG3 is rescued, he should let us take care of it, if he wasn't so stubborn.â Tari: âWell, that nurse did say SMG3 would be better soon. Maybe we convince SMG4 this time.â
They reached to Three's room, but they found an unexpected sight when they opened the door:
Four fell asleep on the chair beside the bed, his head resting on Threeâs lap like a pillow. A sleeping Three had a hand gently on Fourâs hair with all the tenderness and quiet reassurance in the world. What was free, their hands were intertwined. It was certainly a rare sight, and they seemed so at peace with each other.
Tari and Saiko shared a glance, a gentle smile.
Tari: âAw, that's so cute.â [*snaps a picture for the group chat*] Saiko: âCâmon, letâs them be.â
Saiko tiptoed into the room and left the gift bag on the nearby table. Peering at them one last time, she gently closes the door. They could always come back tomorrow.
There, what awaited in the gift bag, were reminders of home. A bomb from his cafe, a mini-plush of Eggdog, a record of jazz music. A homemade card, one side filled with heartwarming messages and the other a drawing of all the Crew with the Castle in the background, one of the best works Melony has ever done.
.ă»-: ⧠:--: ⧠:-ă».
SMG4: âI bet I can drink a thousand cans of Monster Energy.â SMG3: âNah uh! Youâre lucky I canât drink that stuff yet because I wouldâve totally beaten you!â SMG4: âOh, really? Well, I canât wait to see you try.â
The two laughed as they reached the Castle. Eggdog greeted them at the door, happy to see his dads (And yes, I know what I said, shh) after Three's physical therapy session and jumped into his dadâs arms for a quick hug. Beeg4 slowly followed his brother, only letting out a pufferfish noise as a small âhelloâ. He isnât usually the affectionate type. Four went to get Threeâs customized cane leaned against the wall, and helped Three get to his feet. (The cane was a gift from the Crew but Bob was the one who added neat little secrets for Three to use. Though, Bob wants it to be off the record that it isnât because heâs gone soft or anything.)
Ever since Four proposed the idea for Three to stay at the Castle, this has become second nature for them. They switched out the wheelchair with the cane at home so Three would be more comfortable walking around. Plus, he would usually hold Fourâs arm to lean on. After his physical therapy appointments, Four would cook up dinner for the whole family. Or see if thereâs any leftovers or takeout on special occasions. Three recently got the approval to eat solid food again, and Three couldn't be more glad. He was honestly getting sick of the same old soups day after day. Well, even if they tasted good. And they all sit at their usual seats at the table, not that they assigned seats or anything. It felt natural.
And today was pizza night.
SMG3: âYâknowâŠâ SMG4, setting the pizza down: âNo.â SMG3: âOh, câmon. You havenât even tried it, you big baby.â SMG4: âAnd I already know that your âUltimate Pizzaâ is a disgrace to culinary art. To your tastebuds. Who the hell puts baked beans on pizza?â SMG3: âWell, Eggdog likes it.â Eggdog, helping set the plates: [*happy bark*] SMG4: âOh, so now youâre bringing the kids into this? Câmon, Beeg, help me out here.â [Beeg doesnât respond] [*acts dramatically, like someone stabbed him in the heart*] âIâve been betrayed. Pleh.â SMG3, shakes head amusingly: âShut up and eat, idiot.â SMG4: âYeah, well, youâre stuck with me.â [*taunting*] âForever.â SMG3: âOh no, whatever should I⊠do.â
He⊠said this before, hasnât he?
SMG4, mouth full of pizza: âUh, SMG3, youâre good?â SMG3: âYeah yeah, Iâm fine.â [*eats his slice somberly, looking away*]
Four kept his gaze on Three. He wanted Three to tell him what was in his mind. He wanted to reach out and hold his hand. Comfort him. They have been there for each other at the worst of times. At each otherâs worst.
There were two things they shared with absolute certainty: (1) theyâre both stubborn, and (2) they would put up a brave face for the people around them.
Four did, when he discovered Three and Eggdog missing from the cafe. He would put on a determined smile, telling the rest of the Crew that they would rescue Three. But he supposed they could see right through him. That he was crumbling. Three was the one who saved him when he went insane and was possessed by the demonic keyboard. How could he not be frustrated at the fact that he couldnât do the same?
Biting into his pepperoni slice, Four thought to himself, if only there was a way to take away all the pain Three was feeling right now. If only Three would let go of the front he has and let him show his pain in front of Four. To let Four be his safe space.
There isnât much he can do, other than to let Three come to him on his own terms. When he is ready.
After finishing up dinner and washing the dishes, they all went to Fourâs room. Eggdog and Begg decided to play Jenga, Three sat on the bed scrolling through his phone, and Four went back to editing videos since there was a lot of catching up to do. The record player was playing jazz music, the LP cover was signed âTo SMG3â. Three bobbed his head while Four hummed the notes, admittedly it was a great disc that they could both enjoy. After a while, Three reminded Four to take a break from the screen, to which Four immediately complied and sat next to Three.
SMG4: âHowâs your legs?â
SMG3: âTired. But not as bad as last time. Could you pass the pills?â
SMG4, grabbing the bottle and handing it to Three: âWell, you are getting better in today's therapy session. Just wait a bit more.â
When SMG3 grabbed his medication, they briefly touched. It normally wouldnât mean anything, but there was a tingle. Of curiosity, of warmth. The two lightly blushed, which they quickly brushed it off. They sat in silence as Three swallowed the pills.
SMG3: [*held his jaw by the hand*] âDo you know what I miss the most?â [*looks at Four, who nods as a sign for him to go on*] âDancing.â
Three didnât lie, it was one of the things he loved to do. That, and one other reason...
After some thought, Four stood up from the bed. Three didnât even notice until Four stood before him. Four cleared his throat, a tint of pink on his cheeks, and held out his hand.
SMG4: âWanna dance?â SMG3: [*puzzled, looking at the hand to Four and back*] âSMG4, I think we should get you some glasses.â SMG4: [*amusingly rolling his eyes*] ââIt doesnât have to be perfect.â Isnât that what you always told me?â SMG3: [*starstruck at the remembrance of this memory, lightly chuckled*] âAnd you dare to use my own words against me.â
Four helped Three up to his feet, his arms being his only support instead of the cane or wheelchair. At first, it was naturally awkward, being that Three is still recovering. Their dancing, if you would even call it that, was more of them shuffling their feet around the floor. They didnât care.
Fly me to the moon Let me play among the stars
Slowly, they melted in each otherâs embrace. Oh, how easily it was to be lost in the otherâs eyes, pools of ruby and sapphire. Secretly, they wished they could be like this forever.
Let me see what spring is like On Jupiter and Mars
In the back of Threeâs mind, alarm bells were ringing loudly. It isnât real. He just wants to be friends. Somehow, Three ignored it all the moment Four gave him a smile.
In other words, hold my hand In other words, darling, kiss me
What Three didnât know, Four was lost in his own mind. The romanticist that he is, heâs freaking out in the inside like a high school girl. It felt like a scene in the romcom movies he watches. But it was real. Three taught him how to give second chances. Perhaps there was a chance now.
Fill my heart with song Let me sing forevermore
Three ran his fingers on Fourâs sleeve. Itâs real. Heâs real.
You are all I long for All I worship and adore
His shooting star, his sweet prince.
In other words, please be true
His hope.
In other words, I love you
As the song ends, the two came to a stop, but they didnât part. Once again, they were lost in each otherâs world.
SMG3: ââŠWeâve stopped.â
SMG4: âWe did? Then, why is a room still spinning?â
Being so close to the other man, the tension was high. Have courage.
Even then, it wasnât enough. Heâs not your Four. Three cleared his throat, looking away before any temptation got hold of him.
SMG3: âIâm⊠pretty tired, SMG4.â SMG4: âOh, yeah. Sorry.â [*reaching to hand Three his cane, hiding his disappointment*] SMG3: âThanks anyway.â [*walks out the door, preparing to go to bed*]
SMG4 stayed where he stood, his heart skipped a beat. It felt like a dream. He danced with his⊠Well, âfriendâ was never the right word for him to label Three. Partner? Maybe.
Crush. Yeah⊠that sounds about right. Ever since Four was saved by Three, he never looked at their relationship the same way. âJust friendsâ was the stability for the longest time. The âsafeâ term. And yet, it was selfish to wish for something more. So much so that Four had dreams of a domestic life with Three. Holding hands, to lean to his touch. ToâŠ
Four shook his head. Three didnât seem ready, or even interested. It was just part of his imagination and nothing more.
.ă»-: ⧠:--: ⧠:-ă».
The concrete halls were dark, cold by the touch. All was silent except for the dripping coming from an overhead pipe leak. Light shined through, daring the shadows to confrontation.
They didnât think theyâd be back, but here they were.
Mario, Meggy, and Saiko walked down the abandoned building, remembering their way to a specific room.
Meggy: âWeâre getting close, guys. Keep your eyes peeled.â Saiko: âI seriously donât see the point of us coming back here. Whoever did this is long gone.â Meggy: âTari was telling me how SMG3 was, and⊠Look, whoever did this really messed him up. But they mustâve had some big plan for them to involve SMG3 in something. We gotta figure out what it was.â Saiko: âIf you think itâs gonna help, fine. Like I said, Iâm only here as backup.â
Finding the right door, they entered what was once the simulation room. The group split up and searched for any clues.
Saiko: âLooks like they didnât come back here.â [*examines the monitor and finds a file of plans in creating the simulation*] Meggy: [*picks up the simulation machinery*] âItâs completely busted. Find anything, Red?â Mario: âNo.â [*trips over a hidden box, spilling its contents*] âOw, my ass.â Meggy: âAre you alright?â Mario: [*rubbing his head*] âYeah.â [*looks at what he tripped over*] âHey, I found SMG3âs clothes!â Saiko: âClothes?â
Indeed, there was a pair of black overalls, a dark blue long-sleeve, and a familiar cap. Meggy picked up the cap, spinning it in her hands. Seeing the âMâ emblem, she recognized it immediately. SMG3 wore this getup before the redesigns, and she knew why the âMâ was attached.
Meggy: âThe Youtube remote. They were trying to make SMG3 into a villain again.â
Mario and Saiko exchanged a glance, seeing the situation at hand. To force Three into a villain againâŠ
Saiko: âYou guys get out of here.â Mario and Meggy: âWhat?â Saiko: âThe simulation machinery may be destroyed but it doesnât mean another one canât be built.â [*presents the file to them*] âThat personâs going to come back and get their things, maybe continue with their plan. They already hurt one of us, it canât happen again. You guys get out of here, Iâll take care of it.â
Mario and Saiko looked at each other before giving a nod. Saiko was right, the culprit always comes back at the scene of the crime after all. The two left, leaving Saiko alone in the room. She picked up a lighter and lit the file blueprints, watching these plans of cruelty burn to a crisp. She was lucky to buy one of Threeâs bombs just for a moment like this. She lit up and ran out, letting the explosive destroy it all. The clothes, the plans. The building itself. Every single bit to a crisp.
No one messes with the Crew. No one.
.ă»-: ⧠:--: ⧠:-ă».
âThree?â
SMG3 opens his eyes, widening as he recognizes his surroundings. The white void.
SMG3: [*heavy breathing*] âNo, no, no.â
He turned his heel, ready to run, when he was stunned to seeâŠ
SMG3: ââŠSMG4?â SMG4: âGod, you really are pathetic.â
Three is left stunned.
SMG4: âI mean, did you really think I had feelings for you? Iâm only taking care of you because I feel bad.â [*walks over to Three*] SMG3: âI thoughtââ SMG4: âOh, you thought? Please, get a grip on whatâs real here.â [*harshly grabbed onto Threeâs arm*] Villains donât get happy endings.â SMG3: âFour, youâre hurting me. Stop it. Just stop!â
Suddenly, Four went limp, starting to fall over.
SMG3: âFour!â [*catching him*]
Three turns Four over to see his face half of it was pixelated, fading away.
SMG4?: âYou⊠couldnât keep your promise.â SMG3: âNo⊠I⊠Iâm trying. I really am.â Digital SMG4: âI got a chance to live, to experience love of all things.â [*his voice quickly distorting*] âAnd you ruined it all.â SMG3: âNo, itâs not true. Itâs not!â Digital Four: âWhy, Three? Why did you have to be so cruel?â
In that moment, Four faded away, its code in the wind.
SMG3: âNo, no no!â
.ă»-: ⧠:--: ⧠:-ă».
SMG3: âNO!â
Three jolted up from the bed. A hand clutching at his shirt, he felt like he couldnât breathe. Four, who slept right next to his partner, also woke up.
SMG4: âSMG3. Three. Itâs okay, that dream isnât real. Itâs not real.â [*his hands gently cradled Threeâs face*] âEasy, easy, easy.â
Three finally came to his senses, grounded by Fourâs reassurance. His heavy breathing settled until his panic was no more.
SMG4: [*his thumb caresses the otherâs cheek*] âSee? Itâs okay. Iâm here. Iâm here.â
From the calmness and comfort of his hands, Three leaned into his touch. What he dreamed of, that wasnât his Four. They stayed like this, the air becoming heavy. Until Three reached to grab Fourâs hand from his cheek, but he didnât shoo the other man away.
SMG4: âThreeâŠâ SMG3: âI canât. SorryâŠâ
SMG4 sighed, once again unable to reach him. But there still had to be a way to help Three.
SMG4: âHey, do you think you can sleep again?â SMG3: [*shakes his head*] âNo.â SMG4: [*gets up from bed and grabs Threeâs shoes*] âCâmon, I wanna show you something.â
.ă»-: ⧠:--: ⧠:-ă».
Three had no idea where Four was taking him, but here they were: walking through the woods still in their pajamas, in hoodies, and shoes. They werenât in a rush but Four was seemingly eager to show him this mystery. He looked at Four without the other noticing.
Me, the Crew, everything, it's an exact copy of the real thing.
The Four in the digital world was a mere copy. But even a copy could never show him what he was about to see:
Beyond the woods, there was a field of white flowers. Open to the beautiful stars above. The two sat down and looked at the view.
Three looks at him, hanging on to every word.
SMG4: âWhenever I get a nightmare, I always come here. I just happened to stumble upon this place by accident. But it somehow clears my head. Especially after⊠the âperfectâ incident.â [*small chuckle*] âI guess there are some things we can't get over.â
SMG4: âI care a lot about you, SMG3. More than you could ever realize. But it hurts to see when youâre trying to keep it all together. I know that feeling all too well. I canât force you to tell me what happened in the simulation, but know that whatever happens, Iâll be here for you.â
Their hands got closer together. Their pinkies touched, they noticed but didnât show.
SMG3: âI donât know if you should. All the people I care about donât stay for long. Iâm unlikable, SMG4. Iâm a villain and always will be.â SMG4: [*shakes head*] âYouâve changed. Besides, I like you. All of you.â [*their pinkies intertwined*] SMG3: âFourâŠâ SMG4: âNo, Iâm not going to change my mind. I wonât leave you. Whatever you wish me to be, I will be it. A friend, a partner. Someone you can talk to. Anything.â
The air felt heavy once again, and everything became a blur. The silent wind passed through their hair. Have courage.
SMG3: [*gulping*] ââŠThen, let me ask: are you real?â
A free hand from Four held the otherâs face.
SMG4: [*briefly looking at Threeâs lips*] âAs real as you want me to be.â
Whatever stopped him several times before, Four cut those ties loose. He leaned forward, his eyes slowly closing. He was patient and ready to see if Three would reject him. But Three didnât and let Four close the gap.
A soft kiss, it was brief. It was tender. It was real.
Three kissed back, letting the other know he reciprocated. They parted for a moment, waiting for the other to make a move.
SMG3: âThen, be true for me.â
They went for a second kiss, this time with passion and longing. This. This cleared every doubt they had before. Their insecurities, whatever held them down. Three wrapped his arms around Fourâs neck while other did the same, around Threeâs back. If this was a dream, screw it, let them dream. This time, nothing was going to take it away from them.
A single tear rolled down Three's cheek. It's been a while, hasn't it?
SMG3, talking in between kisses: âI love you, Four. I always have.â SMG4, doing the same: âI love you too, Three. I wanted you for so long.â SMG3, parting from kiss: [*laugh*] âOh? Did you now?â SMG4, turning bright red: âUh.. câmon, dude, donât ruin the moment. Itâs not my fault youâre attractive.â SMG3, mischievously leaning to Four: âReally?â SMG4: âShit.â
Three nuzzled into Fourâs neck, kissing all over and leaving Four laughing at how ticklish it was.
SMG4, bursting in laughter: âThree, s-stop!â SMG3, whispered: âGlad to know I wasnât the only one who thought the same.â
Oh, how wonderful was it to listen to the sounds Four makes.
His shooting star, his sweet prince.
His Four.
After a while, the two catch their breath. They leaned onto each other, held hands, and looked back at the stars.
SMG4: âI promise Iâll be true for you.â [*gave Three's hand a squeeze*] SMG3: [*hums, returning the gesture*] âWell then, Iâll do the same for you.â
Three held many promises, one was to never let Four cry. Now, there was another: to be his truest self.
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Spiderwebs & Red chaos
Peter was working on the Sandman cure, when he stops abruptly, eyes darting back and forth in nervous anticipation. Somethingâsomeone has triggered his spider-sense. He stood up, catching the attention of Otto Octavius, and Norman Osborn.
âPeter?â Otto asked.
âWhatâs wrong?â Norman asked.
Their voices were distant and disoriented as Peter walked towards Happy's kitchen/living room. âI don't knowâŠâ It was true. Peter didn't know exactly what he was sensing, all he knew was that it made his heart want to burst out of his chest, and made his breathing shallow.
âMay? Y/N?â He calls out loud. Norman and Otto followed him into the living room kitchen area as Peter stands in the center of the villains. âWhat is it, Peter?â May asked, wondering why her nephew is so troubled. The young heroâs breath was hitched and shallow as he looked around the room, the tension in the air thick enough to cut through with a knife, getting to everyone.
âWhat's happening?â Flint Marko asked.
Peter looks at him, then at Otto and Norman, who moves around the room, and then at Max Dillon, who looks uneasy at the hero's eyes on him.âWhy are you looking at me like that?â Peter searches, on alert. What is he sensing? Is one of
them about to betray him? Where is the threat? Was he losing his mind? All these questions buzzed inside his head like angry bees. He closed his eyes and focused his spider-sense. Reaching. Feeling. Until heâŠ
THWIP!
Peter webs Norman's hand to the robot arm of DUM-E.
Norman smiles. âThatâs some neat trick. That sense of yours.â His voice was low and ominous.
âNorman?â Otto asked.
âNormanâs on sabbatical, honey.â Norman said, a gleefully undertone in his smile.
âWhat the hell?â Max asked.
âGoblinâŠâ Y/N whispered in realization. Peter and May share a look of concern.
âSurprise. No more darker half? Did you really think that Iâd let that happen?â Aunt May slips quickly into the storage room, searching for the cures as Norman, aka, Goblin, continues his tirade. âThat Iâd let you take away my power just because youâre blind to what true power can bring you. Because you and Y/N squander the potential that you have.â
âYou don't know us.â Peter said, staring Goblin down.
âDonât I?â Goblin asked.
âNo, you don't.â Y/N talked towards Peter's side, fingers twitching with power, but he wouldn't release it. Not just yet.
âHere's the real truth: the people of this city. There's one thing they love more than a hero... is to see a hero fail, fall, die trying. In spite of everything you've done for them, eventually they will hate you. Why bother?â
âBecause it's right.â Peter said.
Meanwhile, May grabs the cures, one-by-one, and shoves them into her F.E.A.S.T. tote bag.âI saw how she trapped you two.â Goblin begins as May sneaks back into the kitchen from the storage room, clutching the bag of cures. She nods at Peter. She has them. âFighting her holy moral mission. We donât need you to save us... We donât need to be âfixed!â
Sandman frowns as Goblin looks around the room of people he does, and doesn't know. âThese are not curses.â Max looks down at his cure device. Beep! Another green light flashes on the device. Two more to go.
âNorman, no.â Otto protests.
âQuiet, lapdog!â Goblin snaps.
âYou donât know what youâre talking about.â Peter said.
âIâve watched you from deep behind Normanâs cowardly eyes. Struggling to have everything you want. While the world tries to make you choose. The Spider-Man and the brother of the Scarlet Witch, so desperate to have it all.â The device on Electroâs chest beeps once again. Only one more
light to goâŠ
âGods donât have to choose.â Max looks at Norman, now really buying in⊠âWe take.â
âYou're no God, Goblin. You're sick.â Y/N said.
âGuess we'll find outâŠâ
âMay... RUN!â Peter said. May breaks for the door with the bag of cures. Electro takes the cure device off his chest, as Goblin tears free from the web holding him to DUM-E. Shooting electricity out, Electro reaches towards the storage roomâŠ
CRASH!
The Arc Reactor tears free from the Fabricator,
bursts through the kitchen wall, and flies into Electroâs hand as there is surgical electrical
contact happening. âHey!â Y/N powered up his fist that glowed red with power, but Electro blasts him into the wall, crashing upon impact.
âY/N!â Peter cried.
Goblin pounces on a distracted Peter, smashing him into the nearby stairs.Seeing this, Sandman disintegrates into a whirl of sand. Retreating. Down the hallway, May runs to the elevators, pressing the âdownâ button over and over again Electro surges with ARC Reactor power, supercharging his powers as he causes lights throughout the condo building to flicker on and off. May looks up, the hallway lights are flickering here too. As she pushes the elevator âdownâ button once more.
Doc Ock looks at Electro in horror. âOh my God. What have you done?â
Electro scoffed. âI liked you better before.â He unleashes a Stark-grade cascade of electricity, blowing Otto back through the living room wall. Otto tears through glass and steel, plummeting to the ground below before finally coming to a
wrenching stop, his tentacle arms gripping the side of the building. Down in the plaza of the condo, J. Jonah directs his camera man upward.
âUp here, heâs up there!â The camera man points his camera towards the building just in time to capture Doc Ock climbing away, disappearing into the night. âItâs the guy from the bridge!â
In the stairwell, Aunt May heads for the emergency exit door, races downstairs.
Electro and the swirling cloud of sand that is Sandman approach the burst-open living room wall. Sandman propels himself forward, Electro following after he powers up with his new source of energy. The sand swirls around the police cars, rocking them back and forth as Max Dillon transforms into pure yellow lightning, hitching a ride on the tornado of sand. The shelter truck nearby rocks violently. The side of it being slashed, until the Lizard explodes out of the hole he cut open and runs off.
J. Jonah James looks at his camera guy. â...Did you see that?!â Police and bystanders scramble for cover as Electro and Sandman take to the wind and fly off.
Meanwhile, back in Happyâs apartment, Peter scrambled to help Y/N to his feet. Peter manages to get his boyfriend upward as they both turn to see Goblin staring at them, challenge in his eyes. âY/N, find May. Protect her.â Peter said.
âNo, not without you.â Y/N said. âWe'll face him together.â
âNo. Please, just do this for me. I need you to keep her safe. Promise?â Peter looks at him, vulnerability in his brown eyes. Y/N nods and begrudgingly heads for the door. âI promise.â He flies off, a red trail of energy behind him until he was gone.
âPerfect. Just youâŠand meâŠâ Goblin cackled.
Peter charged.
#x male reader#male reader insert#male x male#spiderman comics#spiderman x male reader#tom holland#no way home#spiderman no way home#peter parker#peter parker x male reader#lbgtq#Gay#Bi#the apartment scene
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The Futureâs Overdue
Summary : A year after breaking up with Sam Wilson, he shows up at your doorstep.
Pairing : Cap!Sam Wilson x ex-avenger!reader (written with she/her in mind, but I donât think thereâs gendered language in this)Â
Warnings/tags : mentions of violence and trauma, cursing. Mild alcohol consumption. Angst with a happy ending.Â
Word count : 3.7K
Note : This fic was inspired by the song âOvercomeâ by Nothing but Thieves. And of course the Brave New World trailer. That flight suit? Phew. When he sliced that truck in half?? Have mercy on me my god. I do have a couple of other requests for Sam but I have so many WIPs and series so please bear with me. Enjoy!
You first met Sam in Washington, when Steve realised Hydra was growing inside of S.H.I.E.L.D.
It was the day three helicarriers got shot out of the sky.Â
You and Sam were initially just two operatives thrown in the mission together by coincidenceâ and a little persuasion on Steve Rogers' part.Â
When the dust settled, you found a strange comfort in each other, a kind of trust that only comes from people who've survived the same battles together. It was a friendshipâ one you had with Steve and Nat, too.
But Sam was unlike anyone youâd ever met. He was compassionate without being naive, funny without sacrificing his strength, and fiercely loyal without ever being overbearing. Everyone in your line of work fought with anger or a sense of dutyâ and Sam did, too. But he also fought with his heart, with a passion and a clarity of purpose that earned an incredible amount of admiration from you.Â
But it wasnât until after Sokovia fell from the sky that you realised just how much he really meant to you.Â
The battle against Ultron had been brutal, a mission that left you questioning everything youâd come to believe.Â
You stood among the rubble, surrounded by your teammates, and yet you felt more alone than ever.
The realisation hit you: time was fleeting. You didnât have forever, and you didnât want to keep ignoring the one thing that had started to matter more than any mission youâd ever had.
So that night, you sought Sam out. The rest of the team had been decompressing, recovering, but you pulled Sam into a quiet spot away from the others, somewhere under the night sky, where the stars glimmered faintly against the smoke. You didnât say much, just let the silence and the closeness speak for itself.
When he looked at you, something like affection flickered in his eyes, a hope that maybe he meant as much to you as you did to him. It was then that you closed the space between you and kissed himâgently, like he was made of glass.
In a way, he was. This life was fragile, and his was one you couldnât bear to lose.
After that, you spent as much time together as you could manage. Between missions, youâd crave moments of normalcy. Walks in quiet parks, stolen weekend getaways, breakfasts cooked together in your shared apartment.Â
These small, simple moments began to feel like home, like the life youâd never thought you could have.Â
Then came the Sokovia accords.Â
When you and Sam sided with Steve, you didn't realise how everything could go so wrong.Â
Your world turned upside down again. You became a fugitive, a person without a country, constantly on the run, evading governments, ducking the scrutiny of former allies. Sam stayed by your side, fighting the same battle as you.
Despite the danger, despite the sacrifices, the exile only strengthened your relationship. He was your safe haven, the one person you trusted wholly.Â
One night, as you sat together in some safe house with peeling wallpaper and torn furniture, you dared to voice the thought youâd been carrying for so long.Â
"One day,â you said, almost hesitantly, âwhen weâre done running, when all of this is behind us⊠I want a real life, Sam. With you.â
He looked at you then, his smile one of equal parts sadness and hope. âTell me more,â he murmured, smiling just a little.Â
âI want to marry you,â you confessed, voice trembling. âI want a house. Somewhere no one can find us. I want a family, Sam.â
For a moment, he was silent, his thumb brushing along the back of your hand. âOne day. When the world stops chasing us,â He pulled you close, his words a quiet promise against your ear. âIâll give you all of that.â
For the first time in a long time, the future felt like something worth looking forward to. It felt like something you could actually touch, something just out of reach but waiting for you.Â
His promise lingered: that once you were free, once you werenât running anymore, youâd be able to build that life together.
But then came the Battle of Wakanda, and the life you had both fought so hard for vanished in an instant as you were both erased from existence, dusted away by Thanosâs snap. For five years, you were gone.
When you returned, everything had changed. The world was broken and scattered, When you looked at Sam, you saw it, tooâ the realisation that so much of everything was gone. How much of the world needed fixing.
And you knew your Sam. He would want to fix it.
You saw the responsibility that had been thrust upon him. You watched him take the shield, watched him step up in a way that was brave and selfless. Everything about this was so unmistakably Sam. Your Sam.
In that moment, you knew that the life youâd dreamed of, the one youâd whispered about in the dark, wasnât possibleâ not when the world still needed him.
It broke you, knowing you had to leave, to walk away from the man you loved. But you both knew that your paths were diverging. You wanted peace, family, a quiet life that had no place in the shadow of Captain Americaâs legacy. And Sam, with Steveâs shield in his hands, couldnât turn away from the fight.Â
It happened on a quiet evening, back in the small apartment you shared. The shadows were long, stretching across the worn wood floors, as the last light of the day reached through the windows.Â
Sam was sitting across from you, his hands folded on the table, and his face was set in an expression youâd come to recognizeâthe one he wore when he was carrying something too heavy to keep inside. You saw it in the slump of his shoulders, the way his usually loving gaze couldnât quite meet yours. You reached out, caressing his arm.
Finally, you broke the silence. âSam,â you said, voice wavering. âAre we okay?â
He looked up then, his eyes meeting yours, and the sorrow there was enough to make your chest tighten. âI donât know,â he said quietly. âI donât know if⊠if I can give you the life you deserve.â
The silence stretched on, thick and heavy, until finally, you pulled your hand from his. âThen we have to let this go,â you said, voice cracking with finality. âI canât keep waiting for a life that isnât going to happen.â
The look in his eyes was almost unbearableâregret, pain, and love all tangled together, raw and unguarded. âIâm sorry,â he whispered, his voice thick.Â
âIâm sorry, too,â you replied, your vision blurred
The first tear drawn came from him. âIâll always love you,â he said, his voice a quiet, broken promise.Â
You looked at him, feeling the truth of those words resonate in your lungs. You would always love him too, but love alone couldnât bridge the gap between the lives you wanted. It was heartbreaking, knowing youâd finally found something so good, only to have it slip through your fingers.
You stood up, needing to move before you changed your mind, before you broke down completely. âGoodbye, Sam,â you whispered, barely able to get the words out.
âGoodbye,â he murmured, holding back everything he couldnât say. He didnât try to stop you, didnât reach for you as you turned and walked toward the door.Â
You both knew that if he did, you wouldnât have the strength to walk away.
â
In the weeks after the breakup, you tried to convince yourself it would get easier, that the pain would fade. But the truth was, every day only sharpened the ache. It was clear that your lives were leading in opposite directions now, that Sam was destined for something larger than either of you had once imagined.Â
He had the shield, the responsibility, the weight of a legacy that he hadnât chosen but that fit him as naturally as if it were always meant to be his.Â
And you? Well, after retiring, you finally had the quiet, the simplicity of a life youâd always craved, but it felt hollow without him.
You still loved him, of course.Â
That was the hardest part.
There was no switch to flip, no way to undo the love that had grown in the depths of your heart. And he loved you tooâ you knew that as surely as you knew that the sun would rise tomorrow, the kind of knowledge you felt deep in your bones.Â
But you both recognized that clinging to each other, seeing each other, would only deepen the hurt. So you made the hardest choice, cutting contact to give yourselves space to move forward, even if it felt like cutting out a piece of your heart.
You would go through your days thinking about Sam, feeling his absence as a phantom weight by your side. Sometimes, youâd catch yourself reaching for your phone, feeling the urge to share a thought, a joke, a memoryâ only to remember he was gone from your life now.
It was a loneliness harsher than any pain youâd felt before, and you've been shot at and stabbed multiple times. Sometimes, you couldnât help but wonder if he felt it tooâ if he missed you as much as you missed him.
Months went by, and the world kept turning, but you could never fully escape him. And then one day, you saw him on the screen. It was in the news, footage of Sam at the Smithsonian, standing before the shield as he laid it down, offering it back. You watched in stunned silence as he walked away from the legacy Steve had entrusted to him. He looked so different from the man youâd knownâtired, torn, and full of questions only he could answer.Â
Still, you knew heâd only given up the shield, not the fight. There was still that fire in his eyes, that drive you knew he would never fully let go of. He was still your Sam, the man who couldnât stop helping others even if it meant losing himself in the process.
Then came reports of his work with Bucky Barnes. You caught glimpses here and there: videos of Sam fighting, speeches to crowds, images of him standing strong and proud, still doing the work he believed in. Each clip, each mention of him in the newspapers you read was like reopening the wound, bittersweet in a way that only true love could be.
And then, one day, you saw him on the screen againâbut this time, he was wearing the Captain America suit.
The shield sat on his back, the way it once had been with Steve.
His face was calm, resilient, and he carried himself with a confidence that you hadnât seen in a long, long time. As he stood before a crowd, addressing the nation, his voice rang out strong and clear. He spoke of unity, of justice, of how much work still lay ahead.
There was something fiercely proud and unmoving in his stance, as if he had finally found a purpose that felt right, a cause he was willing to fight for as himself.Â
The people around you could hardly believe it.
But you did. You always did.
As you watched him speak to the world, you felt your heart swell with pride. He finally stepped into a role he was born for, embracing everything that came with itâ the good and the bad. You felt a deep, overwhelming admiration for himâ the same one you had felt all those years ago.Â
The man you love had found his calling. He had finally stepped into the legacy heâd once doubted. And though he was miles away, speaking to millions of people, it felt as if he was speaking to you. It felt as if he were telling you, Look, I made it. I found my place.
â
It had been over a year since youâd last seen Sam in person. But then, you heard a knockâa familiar rhythm, one you'd both come up with in those times of hiding, a signal youâd memorised to mean âitâs safe to open the door.â
Suddenly, all those buried memories resurfaced. You took a deep breath and walked up to the entrance, fingers trembling ever so slightly.Â
When you opened the door, he was there.Â
He stood tall, carrying an air of quiet confidence that you had missed.
âHey,â he said softly, that deep warmth in his eyes settling on you like it always had. âI know youâre retired, but I⊠I need your help.â He hesitated, shifting his weight, a hand rubbing the back of his neck. âThis mission⊠thereâs something I just can't figure out. Tactical consulting, just advice, you know.â
Your heart gave a painful thud, torn between the part of you that had finally let yourself step back and the part that had always been drawn to Samâs gravity. There was something in his eyes, in the way he looked at youâwas it hope? Regret?
âCome on in,â you said, your voice surprisingly steady.
Once inside, you cleared space at your kitchen island, pulling out blueprints and maps from him and laying them between you. The small counter seemed even smaller with Sam standing across from you, leaning close as he unfurled more documents. The scent of his cedar aftershave filled your home in a way that felt so heartbreakingly familiar. You poured the both of you a glass of wine.
It didn't take long for you to settle into the rhythm. Soon, you were bouncing ideas back and forth, memories and laughs slipping through the cracks as you strategized, just like old times. You caught yourself chewing on the back of your penâan old habit that Sam had always found adorableâas you debated where each exit and entrance might be. When it came time to relay the guard rotation, Sam scrunched his nose in that familiar way that always meant he was uncertain. You couldnât help but smile, reminded of countless memories just like this one.
As the hours passed, you felt yourself relaxing, dropping your guard bit by bit. You found yourselves laughing over old missions, sharing stories of close calls and narrow escapes. When Samâs hand brushed yours as he reached for a pen, there was a tension there that you couldnât ignore, something that had always been effortless between you.
Then, as he raised his glass for another sip, his gaze landed on the roses on your counterâ a fresh vase of red roses, bold and out of place in your otherwise grounded kitchen. He paused, frowning slightly.
âRed roses?â he asked, glancing back at you, a surprised smile lifting his lips. âYou donât like them. You always preferred pink ones.â
You felt a small pang of sadness, realising that after all this time, he remembered that small detail, one that even youâd almost forgotten.Â
âI didnât buy them,â you replied, trying to keep your tone casual. âA date brought them over. A couple of days ago.â
The words fell into the awkward silence between you. For a second, you saw the surprise flicker across his face. âYouâre⊠dating again?â he asked, almost in disbelief.
âYeah, wellâŠâ You gave a light laugh, trying to brush it off, âhad to fill the void you left somehow.â
It was meant to be a joke, but the words cut deeper than youâd meant it to.
He looked down, fingers trailing the edge of his glass, lost in a thought he wasnât ready to voice.
You wanted to break the tension, you had to. âWhat about you?â you asked, forcing a smile. âI mean, look at you. Youâve got to be dating, Sam. Come on. Youâre still the most handsome man I know.â
But he shook his head, his expression solemn. âNo,â he said, his gaze fixed on the wine swirling in his glass. âI guess I just havenât moved on.â
The words struck you like a lightning strike, filling the room with a tension neither of you could ignore. For a moment, the breaths you took felt too thick, too charged. You watched him, studying his face, seeing a quiet pain etched into his expression as he finally looked up to meet your eyes.
He broke the long silence, his voice low. âIs he⊠good to you?â
You let out a shaky breath. âHeâs⊠heâs alright. Weâve only been on a couple of dates. It's not like weâre⊠exclusive or anything.â You paused, trying to find the words to explain. âHeâs a nursery teacher. Sweet, good with kids.... But nothing serious.â
Sam nodded, a faint, bittersweet smile touching his lips. âGood with kids, huh?â his voice was filled with an ache that twisted in your chest. âJust like you always wanted.â
You felt a wave of frustration and sadness rise up. âYeah,â you replied softly, almost to yourself, before you could stop. âBut heâs notâŠâ
The words caught in your throat, but Sam didnât let you off easy. He leaned closer, his eyes searching yours with an intensity that took your breath away, âHeâs not⊠what?â
âHeâs not you, Sam,â you whispered, the words spilling out before you could take them back. And you didnât want to.
Something broke in himâ relief, pain, and longing all at once. Without a word, he reached across the counter, his fingers finding yours. He walked around the kitchen island, sitting on the stool next to yours. His skin was warm as he closed the distance between you. His hand moved up, cupping your face as his eyes traced over you, like he was taking in every detail, every piece of who you were now.
You were still you. But you had grown without him. You had found your peace, just like you always wanted.
He leaned in, and his lips brushed yours in a trembling kiss.
The moment he felt you return itâ the moment he felt the familiar force of your kiss, he deepened it. His hands slid into your hair, pulling you close, desperate to feel you, to make up for all the lost moments he had to go through without you.
When he finally pulled back, he rested his forehead against yours, his breath warm on your skin.Â
The kiss had left both of you shaken to your core.
Samâs hands were still on your face, his thumbs brushing along your cheeks, making sure you were real, and that this wasn't just one of his dreams about you. He searched your eyes, looking for something to reassure him this was more than a moment of weakness.
âWe can do this,â he whispered, his voice raw, almost frantic. He believed now, he needed to make you believe, too. âClintâClint made it work, right? A family, a lifeâ he did it. Heâs raising kids and still comes back when we need him. Weâll talk to him. Iâll ask him, Iâll ask him anything, Iâll do whatever it takes.â
He swallowed, his breath shallow, his desperation pulling him closer to you. âIf thatâs not enough, if thisâ if me being Captain America is whatâs in the way, then Iâll⊠Iâll give it up. Just say the word. I swear, Iâll give it all up if thatâs what you need. None of thisânone of it means a damn thing without you.â
The words hit you hard, more sincere than anything else youâd ever heard him say. You saw the same unwavering love in his eyes, but this time it came with a willingness to do anything, sacrifice anything, to make room for you in his life.
It terrified you because you knew he meant every single word.Â
You closed your eyes, finally feeling the burn of tears that you barely managed to hold back. You reached up to hold his face, your fingers brushing along his jawline.
âNo, Sam,â you said, your voice shaking but unbreakable in its resolve. âYouâre not giving up the shield for me. Iâve seen you out there. Iâve watched you bring people together. And I⊠I canât be the reason you walk away.â
He shook his head, his eyes pleading. His breath came quicker. It was moments like this when you realised that he was human. Not a super soldier. Not enhanced.Â
He was human with an unnatural resilience.
âBut if this is the only way to have youââ
You canât help but interrupt him, before he dug himself a fantasy so deep that he would struggle to get out of it. You closed the small gap between you, kissing him again. His arms wrapped around you instinctively, holding you like he never wanted to let go. You could feel the tremor in his hands, the way his breath hiccuped, so close to breaking. When you pulled away, you pressed your forehead to his, calming his silent pleas.
âListen to me,â you whispered. âYou are Captain America. Thatâs a part of you, and I would never forgive myself if I took that. But that doesnât mean we have to give this up,â you added, willing him to understand. âI want to try again.â
He closed his eyes, taking a deep, shuddering breath. For the first time in a year, he was letting himself hope again. âYouâre sure?â he asked, his voice barely a whisper, vulnerable in a way youâd never heard before.
âYes,â you said, your voice steady, filled with a conviction you hadnât felt in years. âI want you back.â
The relief on his face, the gratitude, was like sunlight breaking through a storm. He leaned in, pressing a kiss to your forehead, and then another to your lips, softer, filled with a tenderness you had missed so damn much.
âIâm all in,â he murmured, his voice thick with emotion. âI donât care what it takes. We will make this work.â
As you nodded, he lifted you into his arms, spinning you around. For the first time in a year, your giggles filled your quiet kitchen. When he set you down, his gaze landed on the flowers once again.
âFirst on the agenda,â he said, smiling mischievously, âweâre getting rid of those damn red roses. Iâll get you pink ones tomorrow.â
You laughed through happy tears as he pulled you to the couch, the mission he had come to consult you for forgotten, even if only for tonight.
You watched him leave the blueprints behind to spend time with you, when he wouldâve been obsessing over a year ago. This time, you felt a conviction that he was rightâ that it would work.
This time, he was willing to compromise. And so were you.
-end.
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Interloper [Part 2]
Beetlejuice x Reader
Summary: Taking place directly after part 1, Beetlejuice and the Reader come to an agreement.
Part 1 // Part 1.5 <- ->
CW: BJ being a perv of course,
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âOh my Godâ Youâre real! Like a really real ghost- demon?â poltergeist?â
âI can be whatever you want, babes,â he smiled a gnarly grin at you. Rotten teeth decorating his mouth and cracked lips.
âThe lady on TV isnât a con artist⊠itâs all been trueâ HAH! Suck on that, mom!â You pointed into the air. The shock of what was happening suddenly washed over you. Realizing you were genuinely in presence of something no longer alive. And he had been messing with you ever since you moved in.
âSo, itâs been you this entire time? I havenât been losing my mind?â
âAhâ of course not. I couldnât resist getting the attention of a pretty young thing like you,â he magically had a bouquet of dead flowers in his hand, offering it out to you. You raised a brow, taking the flora from him.
He walked over to your dresser, immediately opening your panty drawer and prowling through it. Droning on as he went through your private clothing, âSo I guess this means youâre interested in the Ole Juicester. You sure did sound awfully pretty saying my name three times like thatâ sorry, gotta grab another one of these,â he held up a pair of your panties, âMy other ones got used if you know what I meanâ *snort*â
You stomped over, grabbing his arms from your drawer and pulling him away. âYou donât get to just go through my shit because you want to!â He held his hands in front of him in a surrender position. Soft expression looking like you just kicked a puppy.
âOh come on, babes! You were practically begging for me just a few seconds ago,â he folded his arms over his chest.
âYouâ you literally wrote your name out in front of me to read it! Itâs not like I knew who you were! Some pervert who reeks of dirt!â You gestured your hand up and down at his dirty clothing. Beetlejuice lifted his coat sniffing at his armpits, jokingly scrunching his face in response.
You picked up the paper from earlier. Staring at the picture of the man in front of you sprawled out on a heart shaped bed. Never expecting that he would genuinely appear in front of you.
âSo if saying your name three times summons you⊠does it also make you leave?â You cocked an eyebrow.
His expression dropped. Eyes widening and mouth hanging open slightly. âOhâ you donât need to worry about all that,â he ripped the flyer from your hands. Ripping it into a million shreds comically fast.
âBetelgeuseââ
âNo-NOPE,â he snapped his fingers. A padlock appeared over your mouth. Frustrating you as you clawed to get it off. âPlease, Iâll be good,â he fell to his knees with his hands clasped together, walking over to you on them, âJust let me stay. I wonât cause no trouble. Iâll even keep any creeps away from bothering you!â
âYou are the creep bothering me,â you thought unable to speak.
âYou just canât be throwing my name around like that,â he softly took one of your hands in his. Petting at your warm flesh, noticing how cold his was in comparison. You blushed at his tender gesture. Fighting off the soft spot you were already forming for him.
You locked eyes with him. Giant blue orbs stared up at you. Pleading for your sympathy. You rolled your eyes, pinching the bridge of your nose unable to believe you were about to agree to this. You nodded your head at him.
âPromise?â He pointed at you.
You nodded again.
âOh! I knew youâd come around, doll! Weâre gonna have some fun together you and Iââ he snapped his fingers.
Your fingers flattened against your mouth, taking a deep breath when you realized your mouth was free again. You held your finger up to him, shaking it back and forth to stop his monologue. âNot too fast. If youâre going to stay here, youâre going to put in your fair share,â you held your finger in front of his face.
Beetlejuice pulled his pockets inside out. Some bugs, dirt, and an old condom wrapper fell out of them. Noticing a cartoon-like fly buzzing out of one of them too. âUh. I donât have any funds, hun,â he snickered up at you.
âYou can use a broom,â you began walking away from him.
You heard him groan and stomp his food behind you.
âBetelââ
âOKAY! Okayâ gotta be careful throwing those around, babes,â he ran up behind you. Following closely as you showed him around the house. Arms crossed over his chest as he was disinterested in what you had to say. Already pretty familiar with your home. You snapped your fingers in his face to get his attention.
âI expect you to help me around the house since youâll be living here rent free. And you have to stay out of sight when I bring people over. No afterlife nonsense. I donât want you scaring all my friends off,â you closed the laundry room door behind you. Sitting at the counter of your island. Flopping over into your arms.
He was infatuated by you. He had been pining for you for months now. And now here you were. Allowing him to move in with you. He could not focus on anything except that you were right in front of him. Seeing him. Not running away.
âDo we have a deal?â You pulled him out of his daze. Extending your hand so you could shake on it.
Beetlejuice smirked. Rotten, disgusting teeth painting his smile as he gleefully shook your hand. He pulled your hand to his lips, planting a soft kiss against your flesh.
You blushed at his flirting.
âYouâre not gonna regret this! Iâm nothing if not a man of my word. Nowâ thinking of rearranging some things,â Beetlejuice turned to face your living room. Snapping his fingers and changing the layout of your entire living room. Going on about feng shui of your living quarters.
Oh, man. This was going to be a hard adjustment.
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[END//Part 2]
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058. Seduce
⥠Pairing - Vash x Reader
⥠Word count - 0.7k
⥠Warnings - none
⥠Description: You compliment Vash, and he isn't sure what to say.
Part of the 150 Bullets drabble series on AO3
In the saloon, early morning light comes through dusty windows. Thereâs only the staff of the place around right now; a busser cleaning leftover tables from last night, and a young girl sweeping the floor. You and Vash lean against the bar, against each other, the smell of bacon and sausage and pancakes coming from the kitchen. The bartender hums a sad tune while she sets up glasses and rolls silverware for the day to come.
Youâre both still tired. It always happens after a good night at an inn; you want to stay in bed a little longer, have the comfort of a plush mattress and pillows just a while more. Vash leans his head against a hand, yawning loud and proud. Your smile upticks at the sound.
âLate night?â The bartender asks. Sheâs mid-forties, if he had to guess, with crowsâ feet at her eyes and smile lines.
Vash hums and glances at you. âYeah, we always spoil ourselves when we stay in a town, huh?â
You nod and blink slowly. âItâs always hard getting up the morning after. You forget what a real bed feels like when youâre on the road like us.â
The bartenderâs laugh is polite and understanding. âWell, you have the room for the whole day. If I were you, Iâd take a nap right after breakfast. Let me go check on that, by the way.â She winks and goes back through the kitchen door to see to your orders.
Vash cricks his neck to the side and sighs when it pops. Your nose scrunches at the sound. âYouâre going to paralyze yourself doing that one day.â
He only hums, waving a hand and going back to leaning on the bar. He brushes his hand over his hair. You stare. Vash knows his hair is still a mess, and he blushes, thinking youâre about to make fun of it. âWhat?â
You shrug, the bar of sunlight on your shoulder moving with it. âDo you know youâre handsome?â
Well, that certainly gets a red blush out of him. Vash laughs, bashful, and looks at the bar, at you, then at the bar again. âWhat â uh, I meanâŠ?â
You hum and sidle closer. Thereâs been a spark of something between you two for a while now. Vash can feel it, the way it curls around his heart and mystifies his mind. You reach a hand up and gently grab his cheeks, turning his head this way and that. Like he always lets you. âHm. Yeah. Very handsome.â He feels your finger brush over his mole. Your hand reaches up and combs through his messy hair once, twice, before retreating. It leaves goosebumps in its wake. âToo handsome for your own good, I say.â
Vash is staring at you now, bewildered. Your eyes are still sleepy. Maybe you arenât awake enough to really consider what youâre doing. A doubtful smile emerges. Laughing, he asks, âAre you trying to seduce me?â
You grin, eyes beautiful and clear and so, so loving. âIs it working?â
Yes. Just being by you is enough. He shyly lifts a hand and places it over your own on the counter. He should say something, like how youâre beautiful, how his heart goes wild around you. âYouâreâŠYouâreâŠâ he stalls. Then, looking down and away, he says, âYouâre not getting my hashbrowns, Iâm not falling for it.â
He knows youâre disappointed by the way your shoulders slump. The kitchen door swings open. You pat his cheek and pull away before the bartender sees, before he can do anything truly stupid. âWeâll see about that,â you quip, smile light and graceful against his rebuttal.
Heâs left with tongue-tied words and a heat on his neck as she brings over your breakfasts. All he can do is scoot closer to you as an apology, elbows and arms and hands brushing as you eat, and letting you get a couple bites of his hashbrowns.
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Time stuck au but itâs Pacifica meeting the Anti-Cipher society. And she is becoming Abigaleâs apprentice in engineering.
I thought I DELETED THIS ASK but I DIDNT it was just HIDDEN FOR SOME REASON! anyway this idea has captivated me, I have yet to draw Pac with the whole society (I WILL) but hereâs some doodles of her and Abbey!!
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Also some extra musings under the cutâŠ..
The Northwests travel to Illinois one holiday. Pacifica takes some time off from her insufferable parents to find someplace worth visiting. Unfortunately, it seems like nothing in Illinois is worth visiting. She eventually finds herself at 333 North East West Drive, a functionally abandoned historical building, âFor Rentâ sign collecting dust in its windows. Something catches her eye on the ground - what looks to be a normal tape measurer. I say âlooks to be,â because it is in fact a TIME tape-measurer, albeit a half-broken one.
Pacifica ends up in 1901 using the half-broken time tape measurer and manages to break it completely. Luckily for her, Abigale finds her and agrees to help fix it⊠and teach Pacifica some mechanical know-how in the process!
Abigale doesnât know that sheâs Pacificaâs ancestor. Pacifica is pretty certain Abigale Blackwing is Abigale Northwest, but doesnât say anything because Abigale Northwest was always considered a bit of a stain on the family, half-buried by history. Pacifica doesnât want to let Abigale know sheâs been erased, and honestly, is still a little bought-in to her familyâs philosophy of sweeping âunsavoryâ people or things under the rug at this point.
Pacifica is actually pretty damn good at mechanics! She takes a second to get a hang of it, but once she grasps the basics she learns the rest shockingly quick. Abigale is so proud.
Pacifica actually helps enable some semblance of workshop-safety in the society, what with her modern knowledge that lead, mercury, and arsenic are all deadly toxins that you shouldnât be putting in âanti-cipher tonicâ to guzzle and/or rub on your skin.
The rest of the society LOVE Pacifica. Thatâs their collective daughter now.
Jessamine teaches her how to shoot! Pacifica isnât a very good natural aim, but Jessie is patient and knows skill comes with practice.
Horace is so charmed by her, he really takes up a sort of father figure. He would mow down entire countries for this kid. Pacifica doesnât know how to take Horace at first, since sheâs so used to her real dad sucking ass, but she becomes close with him fast!
Thurburt is SO her silly weird uncle. Thurburt was always a clumsy, accident-prone fool, but somehow around Pacifica he becomes even more slapstickly-inclined. Pacifica thinks heâs doing it on purpose to get a laugh out of her. He is. It always works.
Even OâPimm, the crotchety old drunk that he is, gets a kick out of her! He likes her honesty. If Pac thinks somethingâs daft or dull, sheâll say it. OâPimm is glad to not be the ONLY one with sense around the society anymore.
And of course, it goes without saying that Abigale ADORES Pac. Abigale never wanted to be a mother, but teaching Pacifica the ropes of engineering and working her through her problems made her reconsider that thought.
Pacifica actually manages to fix the time tape measurer all on her own one night. It takes 2 weeks for her to finally tell the society. She almost doesnât want to leave.
Abigale was the one to convince her to go home. âThe future needs you, Pacifica. It needs brilliant, talented girls like you. Youâve got people waiting on you, but more than that, youâve got a whole WORLD waiting for you! Live your life, Pacifica, your story doesnât end in this time. Promise me youâll make some change in that future of yours, rather than feel trapped in the past with usâŠâ
Pacifica is a lot different when she returns. Sheâs suddenly way into tinkering, something she keeps secret from her family. Sheâs also a lot happier, and a lot less concerned about mistakes (though sheâs more worried when her parents are in eye or earshotâŠ)
Pacifica starts to really get interested in the story of Abigale Northwest. She unearths a lot of hidden secrets about her life. Most of it isnât good, especially now. At least Pacifica knows the truth, now. (I have a VERY specific idea as to how Abbeyâs life was after the society disbanded and it is NOT pretty. When I post it Iâll add a link here)
She wishes Abigale could have had her happy ending. She wonders if she had stayed behind, could she have changed things? She considered using the time tape measurer to go back more times then sheâd like to admit. But she made a promise, didnât she? Her job is here in the future, not stuck in the pastâŠ
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idol!Baekhyun x fan!Reader: truth be told.
Word count: 2382
Date of release: 11th November, 2024
Genre: angst, slice of life, half ounce of a fluff, established relationships, mentions of break up and dysfunctional relationships, way too much emotional yapping as for barely any plot.
I'm as surprised as y'all that I wrote something like this. You know, no vampires, no action, no one's actively dying? It's very much not my kind of writing, but I was feeling very emotional at the time. Just don't get used to it.
âItâs not good for you. I donât think itâs good for me. Itâs not healthy for either of us.â
He felt as if the knife you were cutting vegetables with cut right through his heart as well. You deliberately distracted yourself with the activity while he stood nearby, staring at you blankly, but not knowing how to respond.
In the recent weeks, he felt the two of you falling apart. It was like an avalanche that started with a small rock which he didnât notice at the time, but which escalated into a disaster. Talking less, avoiding meeting up, and until today â the day you announced, as gently as you could, that you wanted to move out and live on your own. You said that itâs just because you want to become more independent, that you shouldnât rely on him this much. But what will his apartment feel like without you? Your presence here, doing small things such as cutting vegetables, became a staple part of his life.
âAre you still talking about living together? Or about⊠us?â
Your movements were more frantic than he knew you for. With one a bit too sudden of a motion, the blade cut through the skin of your finger, and you let out a low murmur to cover up the hiss of pain, putting the finger to your lip in mild annoyance. It was more than clear that the cut was not the only reason behind your frustration.
Baekhyun didnât move.
In any other situation, he would react â mock you a bit for being clumsy while being the first one to bring the first aid kid, maybe pretend to be a vampire struck by the scent of your blood, maybe even panic a little in this cute, puppy-like way if he felt that the amount of blood is greater than acceptable.
But now he didnât, and it sparked a bit of hurt in you as well, but also brought your attention to the fact that maybe dismissing things and try to make them gentle only worsened the pain that would eventually come. The anxiety of the future that you exposed him to was not like the boil-the-frog that you planned to perform. You wanted to avoid confrontation for as long as necessary, until things dropped naturally. You didnât expect him to hold onto it.
âCan you be honest with me? Are you able to?â His tone started to show that he, too, was growing frustrated. âTell me whatâs going on. Did something happen? Iâm sorry if I canât catch the clues, but if you made it obvious, then Iâm just plain stupid.â
âNothing⊠happened. And Iâm sorry, I didnât make it obvious. I didnât know, how.â
He frowned ever so slightly, taking a step towards you. You backed against the kitchen counter, placing your hands on each side â your finger stung a little, but it was merely a scratch. The real wound was growing in your soul.
âIf nothing happened, then why? Did you grow bored of me?â
âOf you?â
âYeah. Please be honest with me. Just no more sweeting things up, alright?â
His tone was calm, but it lacked softness, it was almost business-like.
âI donât know how anyone would get bored of you, Baekhyunâ you admitted in a breathless whisper. You were starting to feel foolish, really. âAnd especially myself. Thatâs why I donât think I can take it. I donât think itâs fair to you. But Iâm also not fair to myself. You just mean⊠too much to me.â
 âToo much?â The frown of the manâs face only deepened. âWhy is something telling me I should not feel flattered?â A bit of frustration was slipping into his own tone as well.
You let out a deep sigh.
âI started off as your fan, Baekhyun. I thought that with time, itâll be more⊠normal. That youâll feel like a normal person. But somehow itâs not like that. Somehow⊠it feels like my life is even more about you than it was before. I feel like a creep. Like Iâm using you to fulfill a fantasy.â
âAre you?â
âNo!â You denied right away, but your voice faltered. âI⊠donât know.â You crossed your arms on your chest, fixating your gaze somewhere down below.
To your surprise, Baekhyun let out a breathy laugh. The laughter didnât feel light and cheerful, like his usual ones â it was heavied with worry, with some sort of underlying agony.
âOkay, letâs talk about this. We need to talk about this.â
His hand reached towards you and he pulled you by your arm, almost throwing you off balance when he pulled you towards the living room, snatching a paper towel on his way and putting it into your still bleeding hand. âYouâre right. Do you think I didnât consider it? That this wouldnât work out? That it would feel fake? Heck, I talked to so many friends about it, and most of them said itâs not a good idea. But you know what?â He pushed you onto the couch and sat himself on the stool, bringing it close so that your knees almost touched â if only you let yourself relax, they would rest against each other naturally, but you were stiff and trying to almost shrink within yourself. âYou know what? Iâve known you for a year. And I could always trust you. Youâve had so many chances to take advantage of me, and you didnât. So I donât want to think about how you could â potentially â hurt me. But we need to talk about the other part.â
âWhat do you mean? Isnât it obvious thatâŠâ
âNo, no. Youâre thinking about what itâs like, for me, to date a fan.â He didnât even let you finish, but it was as if he could read your mind, already knowing your thought process. âI want you to be honest and tell me what itâs like to date an idol. Because youâre right, you could be using me. But you also said itâs not good for you. And youâre right, because I could be using you, too. So be honest with me and tell me if I ever hurt you.â
So many memories came flooding at once â not of pain, not at all, but of all things that could have led to one tragedy or another. Your whole relationship, like a videotape.
Sure, your relationship was not always perfect. Barely a year has passed. Not long enough to develop a deep understanding of each other, but long enough for many things to happen, to get to know each other at least.
Not all of it was beautiful. There were arguments, some of which almost ended in a breakup. But they made you stronger, that much was undeniable â with each and every single time you almost fell apart, it felt like you knew each other a bit better, knew what things not to do and not to say, but which helped to soothe the atmosphere and help you get back along.
You had one, most important rule in your relationship.
That no matter what happened between the two of you, you would play fair.
That one time he lied to you about being at work while he was not â that one hurt. When you found out heâs not at the office in the first place, you even thought he was cheating. Wouldnât that be understandable to assume in such a situation? You had every chance to cause a scandal on spot. But you didnât. You knew that pulling his whole career down because of your relationship wouldnât be fair. No matter how much it hurt, it was completely out of the equation.
It turned out he was with his friends â he really wanted to go out, but felt bad for not giving you much attention these days. You felt almost pitiful, seeing him crumble in front of you, all worried that you will feel like he doesnât want you, when he genuinely didnât have that much time, and it was just one evening with friends. You smacked him in the head for feeling bad about spending time with friends. And he learned that he can be honest with you.
Another time, you were all excited upon his album release. Seeing him on the stage later on made you feel all kinds of things, the way he moved, all the effects, clothing, makeup â all putting emphasis on his heavenly physique, as if you were watching an angel dance. He came back home disheveled, with remains of makeup on his face, but as excited as you were. You would give all of you to him at that exact moment, more than he would ask for, more than you would feel confident to give any other time.
But it was still early in the relationship, and Baekhyun knew that you werenât ready. That, drunk on him as you were, you could regret it later, even feel disgusted with giving yourself in this easily, that your gentle mind wouldnât be able to trust yourself with your own body. So he indulged you with kisses here and there, and then gently tucked you into bed, making sure that it all went smoothly, that it didnât feel anything like a rejection, but a gesture of utmost care.
It took a few more months before you opened yourself to him fully, and he never rushed or reminded you of how eager you were back then. He could have had it all back then, but he decided to wait. Thatâs how you learned heâs more selfless than you ever even aspired to be.
âYou didnâtâ you spoke after what felt like ages, to the point you wondered if you even responded to the correct question. âYou didnât⊠hurt me. Did I ever hurt you?â
âNo, you didnât. Youâre just hurting yourself all the timeâ he mentioned, jokingly motioning towards your hand, which you wiped hastily with the paper towel. âSo if nothing bad happened, why the ifs? You realize itâs not going to stop if we just break up?â It was a rhetorical question, and you glanced up at him with a pout, feeling almost schooled by the way he talked. âYou believe itâs a matter of just us, but, as much as it sounds ridiculous to say it, itâs all in your head. No matter who youâre with, youâre going to assume the worst. Wonât it be like that? Be honest with yourself.â
You crossed your arms again, feeling defiant for a moment, because his words were almost too much for your ego to take.
But there was some small part of you, somewhere at the edge of your consciousness, that not only knew that heâs correct, but also wanted it to be correct â because if it was just you, then you could learn to maybe keep those pessimistic parasites at bay, and⊠you wouldnât have to suffer the loss that, despite weeks of preparation, didnât feel like any less of a torment and regret that would come, were you to finish things as you originally intended.
All the beliefs, all the dogmas, that you carefully built over the past weeks, were falling apart in front of your eyes, confronted with very simple logic on Baekhyunâs end. You almost felt stupid for letting things get this far without confronting him earlier. Werenât you the one who demanded honesty? Wasnât he the one who proved you can trust him with your vulnerability?
âIïżœïżœm⊠sorry.â
You felt yourself fall apart as well. Your body slumped down, relaxed knees rested against Baekhyunâs, and he put his hands on top of your thighs, as if in this exact moment, while knowing that he has you with him, he didnât want to risk losing you again.
âDonât be for feeling like that, things are never easy, now are they?â Here it was â the signature smile, the warm one that tore through the clouds of the darkest of your days, warm and welcoming. âBut I am upset that you held it from me for so longâ he whined. With the whine, he finally moved from the stool and onto the couch next to you. His arms shamelessly snuck around you, engulfing you in the close embrace that you knew so well, felt so good within. Partially pulling you into him, and partially leaning into the back of your shoulder, Baekhyun released a long sigh against the skin of your back, warm air slipping underneath your blouse â you missed it. You almost didnât realize how distant the two of you became, and how long has it been since you felt his body against yours. But now, despite all of that, it felt good, it felt right. As if your souls have never detached from each other.
Maybe there was some form of destiny between the two of you; maybe it was not just a parasocial relationship that evolved into something that could turn dysfunctional so, so easily â maybe it was written in the stars that one way or another, the two of you would find each other, and it just so happened that you spotted him first, from afar, slowly making your way.
How else would the two of you find each other, after all?
Maybe you learned something this time, too. Maybe it wasnât much, just the beginning of a stronger, even more intimate bond that would last years and years, and light years, and through all your reincarnations, with some of them as pitiful as they could be. Maybe it was just an accident that this time you were in such a position â in another life, would you be a princess, and he be a peasant?
But these were only some other ifs, fun to think about, but not worth spilling your heart over.
In this life, in this universe, you were his, and he was yours. And everything else was just more or less accidental circumstances that brought you closer together.
Only at the back of your head, you wondered if one day, the tale of hopes and stars would fall, and that dream would turn into a nightmare, fueled by your livesâ imbalance and selfishness that neither of you knew in each other.
Maybe you just didnât have to think about it just yet.
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Excellent post as always @sgiandubh! I hope you don't mind me adding to it! I have some experience in immigration law. It's essentially a two step analysis under the Immigration and Nationality Act (INA) to qualify for a marriage visa: (1) Legal Validity (marriage must be valid under the law of the place where the marriage was celebrated) and (2) Genuineness (at the inception of the marriage, the parties intended to establish a life together). To put it plainly, you MUST PROVE the marriage is real. Showing a valid marriage license isn't enough. I find it hard to believe Sam would risk filing a fraudulent visa application because he wouldn't satisfy the legal requirements and he could face serious consequences for entering a fraudulent marriage for immigration purposes.
I'm simplifying this a bit, but people who obtain Lawful Permanent Residence/become a Lawful Permanent Resident under this visa are granted conditional residency for 2 years. The conditional residency is terminated if DHS determines the marriage was fraudulent, which wouldnât be good in and of itself. He would need to leave the US because he wouldnât have lawful status.
Also, letâs say he later obtained an O-1 visa and wanted to use that visa to apply to adjust his status to a Lawful Permanent Resident. He wouldnât be able to do so because would be inadmissible (basically barred from entering the U.S.) due to the fraudulent marriage. When you adjust your status, you have to be both inspected and admitted in to the U.S. He would meet the inspection requirement but not admissibility. He wouldnât qualify for any of the waivers either.
If he really wanted to establish LPR status, the best thing for him to do would be to apply for the O-1 visa (which may be the visa he already has) and then apply to adjust his status to a LPR. Not all visas offer a path to LPR status, but that visa does. No need to risk inadmissibility to the US in the future when this is a perfectly viable path to LPR status.
Sorry @sgiandubh! This was much longer than I intended, but hopefully just adds to your already thorough post!
Wonder if Sam will take his new legal American bride to Italy? He will be married, although unlike Caitriona's it will be a fake marriage, by 31 Dec. He needs the residency.
Dear Married Anon,
Three possibilities on this one: a) you watched 90 Days Fiancé for way too long and with no attention to details; b) you think I am an idiot, with no legal knowledge or experience; c) you are an idiot, with no legal knowledge or experience.
Your question comes with two strong biases, too: a) that you somehow are privy to such nonsense and b) the old & stale fake vs. organic marriage refrain, regarding C (that, by the way, proves that I did hit a nerve).
I am not very sure to whom exactly do you think you are talking, here. But if I do know one thing is that you, honey, are a Mighty Twat. If you wanted to be consistent with the crap the Gay Crowd spreads around, you could have gone for 'he needs a more solid/credible beard than that', instead of the completely inane 'he needs the residency'. What is he, Burmese? Oh, FFS. And by 'Burmese', I mean exactly this: are his life/personal safety in clear and present danger, in his home country, because of his ethnicity and/or political views? The answer is no, and he could still use his right of asylum. Does he need the US residency in order to secure a better paid job for himself? The answer is no: lots of other avenues can be explored and are routinely being used by thousands of foreign actors/performing artists, in order to legally work and reside in the US. I have even mentioned it before:
(Full October 2023 post, here: https://www.tumblr.com/sgiandubh/729979831079649280/mordor-says-he-returned-only-for-visa-reasons)
But let's suppose even a nanoshred of what you wrote could technically be correct. When you are an US citizen and you want to bring your significant other to live with you there, you basically are offered two options:
Scenario One: you want to bring your fiancé(e) to the US and get married there. You will need the K-1 visa, as anyone even remotely familiar with that reality show I mentioned knows. That doesn't exactly click with a hastily cobbled 'new American bride' he would marry until December 31 and this is why, according to the US Citizenship and Immigration Services (USCIS) own website:
[Source, LOL: https://www.uscis.gov/sites/default/files/document/guides/A2en.pdf]
'You have met each other in person within 2 years before you file this petition'. Who is it, then? The whore? She is French. The chatty influencer? She's 'so over him' (FFS, LOL). Alice 'he's mine and will never be yours'' Panikian? If you think so, you are aff yer heid on cheap gin. Hm? Ashley Hearn? Met her too late and you all know it. A secret lover? ROFLMAO. And psst: Raya girls are just for fun, they don't think homestead. Cross my heart, Anon.
Current and official USCIS average processing time for fiancé petitions at their (logically) California Service Center is:
But it could be as long as 26 months and a half, if he decides to settle for a Vermont beauty (LOOOOOOOL).
You should also know a couple of other things, Anon. First thing is he will not be able to enter the US under the type of visa he currently more than probably holds, in order to do so - that would be a heavily punished immigration fraud:
Mhm. Restrictions on his ability to future immigration benefits/permanent residence, fine and imprisonment. I hope I do not need to further develop, on this one.
Last thing you should have taken into consideration before writing this bullshit is that the fiancé visa would restrict his ability to go back to his own home country during all the waiting time. Why would an actor refuse work opportunities in the UK or in Europe for the sake of a fake marriage, as you called it yourself? Oh, if you only had a brain!
Need I say more about the grueling in-person cross-check interviews ? You should watch a wonderful movie starring Gerard Depardieu (a pig alright, but he is perfect, in there) and Andie MacDowell: it's even called Green Card, LOL. Few things changed since 1990, and if anything, the screw got only tighter. Not to mention the fact he will be unable to work in the US during the waiting process and she will have to prove she can sponsor/provide for him! ROFLMAO.
Scenario Two: you get married abroad and want to bring your spouse to the US, afterwards. You will need to file the Form I-130 (Petition for Alien Relative):
[Source: https://www.uscis.gov/sites/default/files/document/guides/A1en.pdf]
All this does, in reality, is put the spouse in line with thousands of other similar applicants. Residency will be granted only after extensive background checks and this is where I would like to stop for a while, Anon. You are with the Gay Crowd, right? Then how does this logically click with your long established talking point about his 'once very public gay life? Ah: he isn't gay? ROFLMAO. You see, being gay is a bit like being pregnant, Anon: you can't be 'just a little bit pregnant' and you certainly can't be 'just a little bit gay', either. Spare me the drivel đ. Kindly note those background checks are dead serious and could result in deportation - thought you should know, before you spew idiocies again.
Onwards with that residency thing:
If S were in Scotland/the UK when the 'legal fake bride' would file in the petition, he would not be allowed to come visit or work in the US: why would an actor be forced to turn down lucrative opportunities in Hollywood or elsewhere in the country, for the sake of bearding or circus only? And while S could technically apply for permanent resident status if he already were in the US at the time of the application for I-130, he would still not be able to work and therefore must be sponsored by the 'legal bride'. ROFLMAO, again.
I mean, this is so ridiculous I could cry. He would be invited to come to the US only after the petition is approved, which does not click with your suggested timeline and the seeming 'emergency situation' ('he NEEDS the residency', your ask shouts at the Entire Universe) . Why the haste? Just because you wanted to somehow shoehorn it in, somewhere before Inauguration Day? I have no words, but my paunch hurts with laughing right now.
Finally let's have a look at processing current times:
But it could go as long as...
I cannot stress enough that permanent residency will be granted only after the processing time is completed.
Why, oh, why would someone so inextricably complicate his entire existence in such an idiotic fashion, Anon? And finally, give me and yourself a break and read the damn political room, here, too. I will not elaborate, but I surely hope you do not live under a rock.
I rest my case, thank you, fuck off.
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What a plot twist you were. [x]
#Like. The narrator introduces jc to us as the antagonist#Then we got to know him. Not who people think he's. But who he really is#And we saw jc giving wwx a piggyback. Giving him soup. Rescuing him. Putting himself between wwx and any danger (madam yu/wen soldiers)#And even the staged fight. It's yk. Staged#jc wanted to protect wwx at any cost. But wwx wasn't willing to compromise. But jc did#The fight was wwx's idea. Because jc is an enabler (just like jfm and jyl)#jc is ready to bend for his loved ones sake#The point is. Every action jc takes. Is in the name of his loves ones' safety. And surprise. wwx is one of the people jc really cares about#Even after wwx' return. Aside a broken cup. jc isn't doing much to stop wwx or anything. We know that jl was able to free wwx from Zidian#only because jc - Zidian's primary master- wanted it!#And jc fling himself into danger countless times to save wwx even though wwx can't sit still with him for a hot minute#What I wanted to say it's that the jc is presented to us - the mean ungrateful man- is very different from the real jc -#the indulgent uncle who rolls his eyes at his nephew antics. the brother who buries the hatchet for his sister's happiness.#the uncle who kinda wants to help wn to get up from the floor because he was an ass to jc but he helped jl and that's what matters to jc#the sect leader who let two women speak freely their mind in a patriarchy society#People better than me have already said this. shit I can't remember my point lmao#Like. jc is presented as an antagonist but what this man wanted was an apology and an explanation#This post is a mix of a rant I wrote last year (ha) after seeing a bad take. About what I don't remember lmaoo. And me wanting#to make gifs of wzc in this scene. Why does he look so good. It should be illegal. Seriously#jiang cheng#*mgifs
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