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Is Strong!reader Harwin’s daughter? Or Larys’? im confused
Their sister!
She was born a lot later (a little surprise if you will)
So Jace and Luke are her nephews
But Larys raised her after Harwin and Lyonel died
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Bravery.
Cregan Stark x Strong!reader; Aemond x forced betrothed!reader
Summary: Aemond drags Y/n Strong alongside him on his journey to appease the great Lord Stark. Seems she's more loyal to her deceased father and brother than she cares to admit.
Warnings: cursing, manipulation, talks of death
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"You're a fucking fool, Aemond," she sneered at him.
"You don't think my conscience speaks that enough?!" He exclaimed. "I made a mistake, but my love, I did not kill my brother's heir. That was Rhaenyra's choice. Not mine."
"You killed one of hers!" She argued.
"I did not pay men to become traitors to the crown," he growled.
"You do not have to," she sneered lowly. "You have the greatest dragon alive in your claws. You're like a snake the way you spit venom on everything you touch!"
Silence filled the room, the two staring at one another in full contemplation of what had just been said.
"Aemond, I-"
"ENOUGH!" He yelled, throwing his hands up. He took a breath and continued. "I have given everything to my mother and brother. My grandsire. This kingdom. And I get nothing."
"True service is doing so without expecting return."
"I expect recognition for sacrifice." Aemond glared.
"And what of your brother's sacrifice for the kingdom? His own heir?" When his jaw ticked, she continued. "And do not think for a moment that Rhaenyra has not sacrificed, because she knows it better than you. Better than anyone."
"Better than my mother?" He dared to ask.
Her mouth opened to combat him, but she had nothing so her mouth closed again.
"I'm tired of sacrifices," he explained.
"Do you believe that your family is the only one? What of the scattered high lords throughout the kingdom? What of me?"
"What of you?" He asked, as if the thought was ridiculous.
Her jaw dropped a bit in shock. "You don't…" She then scoffed, the shock turning to anger. "You don't think I sacrifice? My duty is my sacrifice."
"Oh, and mine is not?" He asked.
"If this is your duty, then you're piss poor at doing it!"
Something flashed in his eye, the blue somehow holding red to it, as if that's all he could see. "Get out." His voice was low, clearly a final warning to her.
She took that as it was, going to leave. She paused in the doorway, "We leave on the morr-"
"Go."
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With the recent happenings, Aegon had almost reconsidered sending the two to the North to reason with Lord Cregan Stark. The thought had been questioned, as well as the girl's loyalty. But all in all, what family did she have but her older brother Larys who had taken her under his wing after the mysterious death of their father and brother? They couldn't ever see the girl daring to side with her bastard nephews. The idea was ridiculous. The Strong house under Larys refused to claim the boys, and so was she expected to.
So when they arrived in Winterfell, Cregan was surprised.
He knew they were coming. They had said so moons ago, but that was before the attacks, before Jace's visit, and he had figured it would be put aside until matters grew better.
As if war ever got better.
"My prince," the stone-faced lord greeted. "My Lady Strong."
"I thank you for your hospitality, Lord Stark," Aemond smirked. "The Crown thanks you."
Cregan gave a small nod. "Yes. I see." His eyes dart to Y/n, and back to Aemond. "Please rest and we'll discuss in the morn-"
"-Let's discuss now," Aemond remarked, dragging his betrothed along and moving past the Lord.
Cregan's eyes watched the two walk by. Though he already knew his loyalty was to the blood oath he made to Jacaerys, he would enjoy watching the Hightower squirm for his honor.
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"And what might appease you then?" Aemond asked.
"And what could the crown have that I would want?" Cregan countered.
"Gold, honor, protection… dragons," he listed.
"I have gold, honor, and though I have no dragons, I hold a direwolf that does more than enough protection." Cregan leaned back in his chair. "You are asking a Stark to go back on an oath made by my father. We do not do so easily."
"Tell me what you want then," Aemond reasoned.
"It will take some time to figure that out, I'm afraid."
"That is the one thing I cannot give you. We're running out of time."
Cregan gives a curt nod, then completely turns his attention to Y/n, "My lady, surely some sustenance would do you well. You've traveled far."
Her eyes snapped to him, now realizing that he was indeed talking to her. "Do not fret over me, my lord. I am completely content."
Aemond smirked, reaching beside him to grab at the back of her neck. "Indeed. Don't worry over her. Let us focus on our business here." He leaned towards her, "To bed with you. The morning will come sooner than expected."
Y/n stood, giving Cregan one last look before quietly excusing herself.
The door closed behind her and Aemond gave a sigh. "Women are life's greatest pain."
"Women are images of the Mother," Cregan snapped harshly. There would be no talk like this in his halls. "That is your religion, is it not?"
"Rather she be like the Maiden," Aemond retorted.
Cregan chewed on his bottom lip to keep his thoughts straight. "And what would you wish to be, my prince? What beacon do you follow?"
"The Father," He answered without thought. "I follow the Father."
The northern man stood with a loud creak from his large chair and began to lightly pace the room. "Justice is a narrow slope. Sometimes you become so focused on it for others that you become the judged."
"Meaning what?" Aemond's eye narrowed.
Cregan shrugged, as if he didn't mean anything by it, though he clearly did. "Meaning… we all have our faults, my prince. If I lived for justice and justice alone, I'd find myself paying for every crime I committed."
"Don't Starks live by honor?"
Cregan's lip turned upwards. "Aye. But those do not compare. Not in the slightest."
Aemond picked at his nails, his hands on the table. "How so, Stark?"
He stopped and considered the prince's question- more… how to answer it without saying all of his thoughts. "Judgment can easily turn to anger. Honor upholds hope over anything else."
"You can't compare something so complex as if they're simple things like night and day," Aemond taunted. "You cannot be all honor, for you'll be the one ruled, and your people will stomp you into the ground. Judgment keeps peace-"
"-At what cost?" Cregan countered, his head tilted as he dared to argue with the man.
Aemond's jaw ticked, and Cregan quickly realized that he may have said the wrong thing. The prince's head tilted down for a moment, then back up as he decided his words. "You believe Rhaenyra has honor?" He asked, pure venom in his tone, though his metaphorical fangs weren't showing.
Stark paused. "It doesn't matter what I think. Does it?"
Aemond's lips turned up into an amused smirk. "So stuck in your idea of honor that you won't do what's best for your people?" His arm waved dramatically. "A dragon lies outside your castle and still it does nothing to your 'honor'?"
"I won't go back on my father's word. That is my answer to you."
Aemond slammed his fists onto the table and stood with a glare that could melt the Wall. "And your answer is death!"
Cregan met his glare with one of his own. "So be it."
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He let Aemond stay that night against his better judgment. He should have made him leave, but the thought of dragging the Lady Strong into their fight cause an ache in him.
The next morning, he stood on the balcony overlooking the courtyard. He had a lot on his mind, and no way to fix them.
"Jace's promise to you must have been grand," a voice piped up from behind him.
Cregan turned to see Y/n standing there with a polite smile to her. He felt himself grinning. "More of mine to him, my lady. He'll accomplish great things for the Realm."
She hummed. If she caught onto his meaning, she didn't voice it. "Tell me about him. My nephew Jace."
Cregan's face fell a bit. "My lady-"
"-Lord Stark," she said with a knowing look. "I only meant that I will be married to Aemond soon, and therefore Jace will soon be my nephew. I don't care about titles. I care about Jace."
He let out a breath and ran a hand through his hair. "The prince is… honest. And kind. And quite fair. Should he be named the successor, then I hold no fears for the Realm."
"He seems to be like his father," she quipped. "Harwin was… His very essence was beautiful. I wish I remembered him more."
Cregan ran his tongue across his teeth. He knew that Jace was no Velaryon as well, but he found himself not caring. Jace was more than the lack of royal blood that ran through him.
"Aegon holds the crown, though," she admitted heavily as if the very thought of it was horrid to her.
Cregan shuffled his weight to his other foot. "Tell me. Why are you marrying such a fool of a man?"
"Aemond is," she hesitated, realizing there was no point in defending something that has no defense. "It wasn't by choice."
"Stay in Winterfell."
Her head shot up, her wide eyes meeting his confident ones. "No."
His nose twitched. "Why not?"
"I can't. He'll have my head. And… and Rhaenyra would never accept me-"
"-You don't know that."
She sniffled and studied him. "What you do mean?"
Cregan cleared his throat as he prepared to finally say the thing he'd been holding back. "Jace spoke of your kindness. From when they visited King's Landing just before the death of the King. You… you welcomed them more than his own family."
He was right in that. She had. And she had scolded and fought with Aemond endlessly that night about it after helping clean Luke's bloody nose and Jace's split knuckles. She shifted uncomfortably, "I suppose you're right."
"What I mean by all this is," he paused and heaved a sigh. "If you and Jace are truly made of the same blood as I know you are, then you cannot idly sit by while your brother's sons' inheritances are taken."
The thought brought back the tears from her fight with Aemond not a day ago.
Aemond had killed Harwin's boy.
How could she sit by and let herself be married to such a man?
"Larys is like a spider," she whispered, unsure if Cregan even heard it. "You crawl into his web and… and you only realize the dangers of it when your hands are tied."
Cregan gave a tiny nod.
"I'm tired of his web. I may be tied to Aemond forever if I do this."
"Then stay here. I'll get you to Dragonstone."
"Those are too high of promises. Even for a Stark."
Cregan's shoulders moved back. "Starks do not forget an oath."
"What of Vhagar?"
"What of Vhagar?" He retaliated. "She's useless here in the cold. And to unleash an attack on the North is to seal the victor of this war before it truly begins."
She let out a small scoff and threw up her hands. "You Starks and your bravery. Do you think that's what makes a man? Bravery? Bravery only makes a man dead."
"Then I'll die contently," he calmly answered. His head tilted. "Will you?"
Her eyes shifted down to the northernman's lips, noticing the small quirk to them as if the strongforce of a man was somehow holding back a smile.
"I die regardless. Might as well be for my brother's sons."
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I totally am trying to keep this blog and my other one separate, so I'm gonna plug it one more time just in case
I just posted a little summary of the novel I'm writing on @poetic-endeavor
Totally check it out or follow the page to see how everything's going!
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I’m writing a character death for my book. What’s the most twisting, gut wrenching death you’ve seen on screen/read? Like you set the book down/paused the show to really think it over
I have a good idea of what I want but I’d love to hear what you guys have seen
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Alright Cutie Pies, I truly meant it when I said I was writing right this second. TEASER!!!
This one is a betrothed to Aemond reader x Cregan. Just trust me trust me
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"I'm tired of sacrifices," Aemond explained.
"Do you believe that your family is the only one? What of the scattered high lords throughout the kingdom? What of me?"
"What of you?" He asked, as if the thought was ridiculous.
Her jaw dropped a bit in shock. "You don't…" She then scoffed, and the shock turned to anger. "You don't think I sacrifice? My duty is my sacrifice."
"Oh, and mine is not?" He asked.
"If this is your duty, then you're piss poor at doing it!"
Something flashed in his eye, the blue somehow holding the essence of red to it, as if that was all he could see. "Get out." His voice was low, clearly a final warning to her.
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see what I did there??? Duty is her sacrifice. hint hint hehe
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Whats the plot?
I'm thinking Betrothed to Aemond plot line and falling in love with Cregan
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I'm about to start writing
Tell me Cregan or Benji RIGHT NOW cause I got a plot but I gotta choose and I can't
First comment chooses
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All the time we wish for.
Cregan Stark x wife!reader
SMUT SMUT SMUT SMUT just smut dude
Summary: Cregan is eager to show his wife the Northern hot springs.
A/n: Based on an ask from forever ago- I think from @princessvelaryon before we became friends but I can't remember 😭😭 queen if it was you, you're a real one
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"Cregan, where are w-"
"-Just trust me, sweet girl. Trust me."
She eyes him, not able to stay angry at the happiness that radiates from him. "I do…" she trailed off.
"Almost there. Should be right…" his head turned back and forth in search of something. "Ah." He pulled her in the direction his eyes were set on.
He pulls her into a cave, immediately moving to take off her cloak. She pulls away in concern at first- taking off a cloak in the dead of winter here feels like a death sentence. But his head tilted just slightly and he moved forward to do it again, to which she let him.
The fur dropped onto the ground of the cave. She looked over her shoulder at it.
At the sight of her neck exposed, Cregan leaned to her and nipped at the skin.
She jumped, a breath escaping her. "Cregan, my cloak-"
"The cold won't seep into your bones here," he muttered against her neck.
"What?"
"You're not cold, are you?" He asked.
She looked down to the goosebumps on her arms, but she knew it wasn't from the cold.
He lips pulled into a small smile. "My father showed me my first hot spring when I was a boy of six. Warmed us when snow fell a moon before it was supposed to. I've been hunting these spots out for years now. But this one is by far my favorite."
She took in the sight, walking further into the cave. Exactly as he said, the further she moved in, the less the cold could bother her. She looked back to him, to which he waved out, encouraging her to explore it more.
A light waterfall poured into a small pool of water, steam waving around it.
He moved behind her, now without his own cloak. His fingers brushed against her arm. "Do you want to try it?"
"You can… get in?"
"You can. If you want."
"I do," she breathed as she stared out at the water.
Cregan's fingers moved to her dress, pulling at the laces. His scarred and calloused fingers became gentle with her, as if handling thin glass. The laces were pulled with a gentleness she didn't even feel, but she knew from the way his arms moved from her peripheral vision and the loosening of her dress.
Eventually, she had to hold the dress up as he finished. It would have been hard to tell when he was finished if not for the sudden kisses he began to place on her shoulder. The rough pads of his fingers pushed away the material.
She let go, letting it fall to the ground. Cregan took on the next challenge of her thin layers of underskirt, but he was quick to pull the ribbons apart. Piece by piece, her clothing fell onto the dirt covered floor of the cave, but neither really cared.
She was growing impatient, and by the time Cregan had untied the last bit of her skirt, she was all but tearing at her shift. Her fingers fumbled with the buttons, the adrenaline doing nothing to help her coordination. He pushed her up against his chest, reaching his arms around to help her.
She watched his large fingers unbutton each one at a pace too slow for her. "Cregan-"
"-We have all the time we wish for," He murmured.
She forced herself to take a small breath, though it was shaky.
Cregan's hand ran down her stomach once he finished, admiring the woman against him.
She whined lightly and leaned her head back against his shoulder, to which she earned a chuckle from him. His hand moved down her shift, grabbing the fabric and beginning to pull it up at an agonizingly slow pace.
She felt the air move up her legs as the shift came up until it paused at her upper thigh. "Don't stop now."
"Should I?" He asked as his nose pressed to the side of her head, his voice in her ear. "I do love to watch you beg, my love."
"You either continue the Stark line with me in this hot spring-"
"Or what?" He asked with a smirk, pulling away from her and turning her to face him. Her shift fell back down.
Her confidence faltered for a second, then turned to teasing. "Or the line ends with you."
A low growl sounded from his throat. His eyes raked over her slowly as a new light came to his eyes. "Take it off."
She did so, dropping it quickly as Cregan focused on the strings of his doublet.
As soon as she was bare, she moved to help Cregan but he held a hand out as his eyes took her in. He spoke, but his voice trailed off a bit as if distracted by the sight. "I've… I've got it."
She tilted her head in amusement and ran a hand down his chest, accepting his decision. She moved down to the spring, sitting at the edge, and dipped her leg in. She let out an instinctive groan at the feeling.
Cregan's lips parted as he watched her. He truly did mean to undress himself, but he was distracted.
"Cregan," she chided at him lightly.
He gave a heavy blink and snapped out of his daze, "Sorry, I-"
She gave him a knowing look.
He made quick work of pulling off his doublet, yanking at the strings of the next layer until he stood in only his trousers and boots.
He stepped down to her side, standing behind her with a hesitation.
She peered up at him from under her lashes.
He felt the tent in his pants at the sight, one he was more familiar with than he cared to admit. It reminded him of all the nights he had returned to their chambers in a rage from planning for this war. She had always sat on that sofa with a knowing smile, asking if he was stressed.
She had a way of taking away his stress before he even remembered how it got there.
"Changing your mind now?" She asked him softly.
He shook his head, sitting down next to her and beginning to unlace his boots. "I'd like to believe I'm a man that follows through."
She kicked at the water lightly. "Follow through then."
Cregan's breath hitched as he looked to her. "I will."
He pulled his boots off, throwing them aside and pulling at his pants. He quickly got into the small pool, letting out a sinful groan as the warmth enveloped him.
She watched the man with pure adoration in her eyes. The way his broad shoulders flexed as he lowered himself made her brush her thighs together.
He turned in the water, now facing her with a broad smile. He pulled himself to her and kissed her leg lightly. He nuzzled at her knee, silently asking her to spread her legs. She hesitated, knowing his smile would only turn cocky if she did so.
He brought a hand up, the water dripping down his wrist. His fingers brushed up her calf to her knee, pushing that leg to the side. His eyes moved slowly to her core, his eyes lighting up.
She felt her entire body heat up as her husband admired her. Though she wanted to close her legs, she'd never felt safer.
He kissed her leg lightly, holding her leg out to give him room. He began to kiss up her leg.
She reached out quickly behind his head to pull his hair up before it dipped in the water. He grinned up at her and continued his movements.
She watched in agony as his lips moved closer and closer to the very place she wanted them. When his lips ghosted over her clit, his breath brushing over it became antagonizing. She tugged at his hair in instinct, earning a playful glare of lust from the man. His light eyes had a dark intent behind them, a sin neither of them were ashamed of.
Cregan laid a soft kiss to her slit, purposefully bumping his nose against her bundle of nerves. A small squeak sounded from her, spurring something deep inside of him.
He stood in the pool, grabbing her hips firmly and lowering her into the water against him. She held his shoulders, relaxing in the warm water.
He shifted her lightly, now completely wrapping his arm around her so their bodies were as close as possible, his face tucking into her neck and kissing at the skin.
Her head fell back, her mouth opening in bliss. As she had done earlier with him, Cregan grabbed her hair, clumping it in one large hand while pulling at the roots as well. It was a mission to him to keep her hair dry, for if it didn't, she'd surely freeze once out of the cave.
"Cregan, please."
The hand around her waist fell, moving down between her thighs. He rubbed at her slit through the water, slipping a finger in.
She gasped.
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It's an unspoken fact that most Starks were created in the Northern hot springs, and there's no doubt that one was created that cold day.
Cregan had never been more thankful for the sudden snow.
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It hath been a rough minute in the U.S and your fics and blurbs (namely the cowboy cregan ones) have honestly been sponsoring my will to live and all I can say is thank you.
Also I hope you’re doing well and know that you are appreciated.
Oh my god things are so shitty in the US right now. Even just morale-wise. Then when you dive deeper it just gets worse
Cowboy!Cregan is God's gift to Earth and I'm glad he's been helping you out
Next time a man is shitty, just remember: Cowboy Cregan would never
I hope you're doing well, like genuinely. I've had to take a step back and collect myself, but I'm starting to get on the up and up again. I hope you're starting to get on the uphill too
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Would you ever do a nsfw alphabet for Cregan?
I've read so many nsfw alphabets in my day, and I still don't quite understand how they work? Like IM the one that picks what each letter is, or is there like a specific alphabet we all follow? I feel like a dumb dumb but I totally wanna try
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sorry I disappeared for a week or so
I'm gonna have the Cregan smut up tonight!!!
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Just checking in as i know it’s been a rough couple of days 💗 hope everyone’s doing okay.
Very much needed! That’s so sweet
I feel bad not posting as of the last few days but I think we’re all just feeling a little numb right now.
I’m starting to feel better by the day, but it’s such a slow process.
Hoping everyone else is also coping well.
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Another teaser for the Cregan/ hot springs piece!
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She was growing impatient, and by the time Cregan had untied the last bit of her skirt, she was all but tearing at her shift. Her fingers fumbled with the buttons, the adrenaline doing nothing to help her coordination. He pushed her up against his chest, reaching his arms around to help her.
She watched his large fingers unbutton each one at a pace too slow for her. "Cregan-"
"-We have all the time we wish for," He murmured.
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I just read your post about DV/DA and I just want to say I’m so sorry you had to go through that. You’re so strong and I hope you find everything you need on your path to healing. Sending love 🫶🏻
Thank you lovely!
It's been long enough that it doesn't affect my day-to-day life as much anymore, but I found out a few days ago that he was still stalking me. And with the election results today in the US, it just turned into one of those days where everything comes back for just a minute.
the feeling will pass. eventually.
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Girly, I'm ranting.
TW: Abuse
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If you were considering leaving an abusive relationship- If it even crossed your mind today- DO IT. Love isn't painful. And if it is, then baby, that's not love.
I spent two years with a man that was selfish. He never hit me. He never raised his hand to me. He never even threatened it.
But he did abuse me.
When I left for college, he pushed me to follow him to his own college. The college that accepted me was one of the best in the nation for my degree. And he still wanted me next to him. That's not love.
I was highly inexperienced when it came to sex. I wasn't interested in it, and I told him that. He asked me angrily, "Well, what am I supposed to do about me? What about my needs as a man? Do you want me to go find it elsewhere?" And he pressured me every time I saw him. That's not love.
I've been to my church almost every Sunday since I was 7 years old. He wasn't religious. He told me he wanted to become a Catholic. I encouraged him to follow his journey in religion but to keep in mind that a marriage with him would be difficult due to their rules about other denominations. He asked in anger if I would truly pick God over him. That's not love.
I have an absolutely adoring family. I told him that it's been a dream of mine since I was young to keep my last name when I get married. He said it "made no fucking sense." And told me I would "change my mind." That's not love.
I get seasonal depression in the summer. He told me that if I really loved him, I wouldn't want to be distant. That's not love.
On my bf's birthday, my dad had an accident and was in the ER. I was crying, and my bf called me to ask where I was. While I cried over the fear of my dad's life, he said, "I guess we both know where our priorities lie." That's not love.
My college had a safety situation, and I was stuck in one of the buildings until the threat passed. As I sat in fear, he berated me about how unwanted he felt since I wasn't spending time with him like we had planned. I cried more. That's not love.
I watched the light in my eyes fade slowly over those two years, beginning to hate myself. I thought that was what love looked like because if it was abuse, he would hit me. But he didn't. So I thought it was love.
Baby, I promise you it's not.
Real love encourages you, empowers you, makes you feel like you can pursue the things you want without fear. It doesn't gaslight. It doesn't berate. It doesn't hurt you.
If "love" makes you hate yourself, it is not love.
I promise you.
Please put yourself first. If no one seems to want the best for you, please be the first. You deserve the best. I swear it.
This is unlike anything I talk about, but I have a platform and I feel responsible for telling you that abuse is hard to see. But once it's spotted, you need to leave.
Now on the other side of leaving him, I can tell you that it was the hardest but most rewarding thing I've ever done. I lost friends. I lost a part of myself. It's been months and I'm still not through all the stages of grief. But I see the ways I've grown. The light in my eyes. And I wouldn't trade this for all the money in the world, because I know my worth now.
The sky has to fall a little sometimes. But that doesn't mean it's the end.
I'm linking the National Domestic Violence website here. If you're second-guessing the term "abuse", please look at their resources to help identify it.
It's so hard, but I promise you- I PROMISE YOU- You don't deserve abuse.
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Cregan and the hot springs teaser!!!!
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The fur dropped onto the ground of the cave. She looked over her shoulder at it.
At the sight of her neck exposed, Cregan leaned to her and nipped at the skin.
She jumped, a breath escaping her. "Cregan, my cloak-"
"The cold won't seep into your bones here," he muttered against her neck.
"What?"
"You're not cold, are you?" He asked.
She looked down to the goosebumps on her arms, but she knew it wasn't from the cold.
His lips pulled into a small smile. "My father showed me my first hot spring when I was a boy of six. Warmed us when snow fell a moon before it was supposed to. I've been hunting these spots out for years now. But this one is by far my favorite."
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