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i think my breaking point if I was told I was an elf and whisked away to the lost cities would be the leggings. like okay. my family isn't my family, there's a whole secret world, i'm the creation of a rebel organization, there's a different rebellion trying to kill me, the world is rotting from the inside out, okay. I can cope. it'd be annoying and difficult but I could cope. but you want me to wear leggings with everything? under skirts and dresses? with every outfit? no. fuck off I'm out I can't do this anymore
#kotlc#i know they don't wear leggings 100% of the time. they also have pants#but like. they wear them /so much/#look at the covers literally every girl is wearing leggings when their legs are visible#which. admittedly is just sophie and linh#but if you look at other official art. it's all fucking leggings!!#and shannon's practically always describing their outfits with leggings#i genuinely don't know if I could do that#i'd hate it so so much#and like!! sometimes it's not even covering anything!#they have skirts and tall boots the leggings are only showing on their knees!#shannon let them let their knees out!#fucking. i cannot#the sensory input...bad#i need my skin out#let me free my skin#i dislike that aspect of elvin clothing but also. it was not written for me so there's that
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acau & chunsik! [qsmp]
#my art#artists on tumblr#artist#digital art#qsmp#qsmp art#qsmp fanart#qsmp acau#qsmp chunsik#q!acau#q!chunsik#acau fanart#chunsik the egg#chunsik fanart#acau is very fun i love his streams n chunsik is very cute :)#i wanted to do smtg a lil diff than acaus skin not jus a tracksuit lol so its a lil more streetwear inspired#had fun tenderly rendering this it did take a wholde#nother day unfortunately i finished this ar 12 am i. gonna schedule it earlier tho ill post it to twt too#made sure to look up refs for hanboks but feel free to let me know if i should change anything
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mmmmmm read a disciple shen yuan/shizun luo binghe fanfic about two days ago where the first chapter was the Immortal Conference arc, and SQQ was the one who had to be pushed into the abyss (he was still the villain) except Luo Binghe was refusing and was like, lowkey losing his mind about SQQ being so close to the edge. SQQ ended up having to be the one to fall in himself because of the system's punishment system. The rest of the fic is leading up to that moment. But like, MMM i've been obsessively thinking about that first chapter for DAYS ever since.
now i've been in svsss for a grand total of *checks watch* a week. but god obsessed with that. I want to write/read a fic where disciple SQQ goes a little nuts down there. Like keep all of the things that make SQQ, SQQ, but just. Throw in a little bit more trauma in there. A little bit of a mental break. Let him go a little nuts as a treat. Just a tad unhinged. I wanna see him go, just a little, "god fuck it, i've tried so hard to change this shitty story's outcome and it feels like everything i've done has been for nothing. I'm going to die in this world no matter what I do, I've been doomed from the start, so might as well die the way I want to." and he just, breaks a little! Under all the stress.
He still retains the traits that makes shen yuan, shen yuan, like his overwhelming kindness. But he's just! yk. A little less patient. Paranoid. Jumpy. Colder. A little more aloof and closed off. A little more Shen Jiu. He's no asshole child abuser, but he was a Number One Hater in his past life and he's leaning into that old habit a little more now.
(On a totally coincidental not-at-all related note, there's not enough SJ-and-SY-are-the-same-people fics out there that i've found. This is totally unrelated...)
The Endless Abyss turns the mind into an over-sharpened blade, and SQQ is both fascinated and perhaps a little excited to explore a place that doesn't have a lot of info on it in the mortal realm, but still terrified out of his mind. And he's no Luo Binghe, he doesn't have the sheer brute strength and power to just bulldoze his way through, so he has to be a lot more sneaky and cunning if he wants to survive.
The fic itself role-swapped LBH and SQQ so that SQQ was the half-demon (which lowkey fucks) and LBH the human, but I'm equally-if-not-more obsessed with the idea that LBH remains the half-heavenly demon and SQQ the human. If only because I keep thinking about SQQ befriending some demons (particularly and specifically a group of succubi) and they grow very attached to this Human Cultivator so through magic plot stuff they create some kind of seal/illusion/talisman that makes SQQ appear as a demon because a human cultivator in the endless abyss may as well be the equivalent of putting a giant neon target on your back.
And iirc Shen Jiu was taught demonic cultivation by that one guy(?? i've only been here a week so im not caught up in ALL of the lore yet) so that could totally happen here.
(On the other end of the realms, poor Shizun Luo Binghe is just. losing his fucking mind over losing his most precious and beloved disciple. About .5 seconds from burning down the peaks himself. somebody sedate him.)
The Endless Abyss sucks and SQQ is having a really terrible time and can feel himself going lowkey mad, but also holy shit look at all this WORLD-BUILDING. look at all this flora and fauna, and oh if he had the equipment for it he'd be writing all of this down. ALL OF IT. He was kinda-sorta-already planning on never leaving the Abyss as some sort of fucked up self-exile and self-preservation thing, but now he might? actually just?? never leave if he can help it, like he lowkey likes it down here.
anyways the next time anyone ever sees SQQ again he's got hair so long its almost touching the ground and he's either in rags and half-feral or he's been completely dolled up by his adoptive succubi sisters and still about three seconds from biting anyone who tries to touch him. (he's also lowkey trying to book it back down to the abyss even if he has desperately missed all of his friends and shizun)
#mxtx svsss#svsss au#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#luo binghe#disciple shen yuan#scum villain#svsss#*points at SQQ/SY* i want him to go nuts. as a treat. let him crumble just a little over the stress of his fate and the stress of survival#and the stress of having a lack of autonomy over a handful of his decisions. starry craves angst and she craves a very specific SQQ angst#he was a number 1 hater back in the day and lbr being a hater takes energyyyy. ive heard that this man was the BIGGEST hater i wanna#see him rip a man to shreds with nothing but his tongue and a voice that could cut marble clean in half. skin a man alive sqq you deserve i#*mortal kombat voice* FINISH HIM#i love without-a-cure but unfortunately i dont think SQQ would be able to have WAC and also survive in the abyss.#the succubi nest that adopted him tried seducing him at first. it didn't work. but he did somehow charm them with his cringefail ways#so now they have a brand new mortal big/little brother to dote on. SQQ is frankly delighted to learn all about succubi culture that doesnt#revolve around sex. he makes quite a few friends/allies in the abyss because of his pure fascination and unbiased desire to learn about#demonic culture and all the different niches and nuances of it across species. he's still going insane tho. like that's not stopping.#there's a single LBH pov chapter in the fic and its frankly so unhinged it was fantastic. he's so possessive. he straight up goes:#'oh SQQ isnt gonna be the next peak lord. he's ascending to heaven with me when i do :)' when Sha Hualing (also peak lord) told him that he#couldn't keep his disciple in the bamboo house all the time. what was SQQ gonna do when LBH ascends and he becomes the new peak lord?#gosh that first chapter is rotating around in my mind so bad. LBH was SO unwell. like losing his actual shit over SQQ near the edge.#i so want to write a oneshot abt this where SQQ is also in hysterics (albeit over slightly diff reasons) and tells LBH on his knees:#'this disciple deeply apologizes to his shizun. for he will not be ascending to the heavens with him.' right before he falls into the abyss#this au being disciple SY is for shits and giggles but i can also see it happening for regular SQQ bc 'fuck it im a dead man either way'#frothing at the mouth at this idea also being a SY-is-SJ au too. for the extra angst of SQQ trying to bear the weight of multiple lives on#his shoulders and trying to figure out what is real and what isn't and if he's meant to suffer in all of his lives no matter what he does.#not once in his life has he ever been free to do what he likes has he? self-hatred to the max. he's going mad. poor boy :]
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Something something.....
..infatuation....
#get out of my head#please free me from this man#i want to drink him like the soup im forced to drink now because my braces wont let me chew#this is NOT Kaeluc#thats my skin tone#thankyou#clip studio paint#digital art#diluc#diluc ragnvindr#diluc art#diluc genshin impact#diluc x reader#artist#i love the idea of just#being so infatuated and melted#for someone
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The most pick me thing about me is I don’t wear makeup most days and I actually mean that
#Like i don’t do makeup free looks#My skincare CARRIES me#On most days it’s glossy lip balm and curling my lashes/eyebrow gel but beyond that???#And while i do love my skin for letting me do that I also wanna experiment w makeup more#Just more sunkissed looks + nude lip + maybe a soft brown wing idk just a cute light look every few days for fun#I think I have a healthy relationship w makeup too like I’d def be doing it for me
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I support girls but NAH THIS IS REACHING “if you look carefully LIKE REALLY CAREFULLY 🤓☝️”
#the same people who would shriek like the witch of the north melting her skin off if I tell you haikaveh / kavetham isn’t implied because#if you actually look into our culture they’re being normal and not everyone having rivalry and caring about each other means they’re 💅#in fact Arabs are some of the worlds most hospitable people alhaitham letting kaveh live with him#is the most Arab thing I’ve ever seen#heck if kaveh was a stranger it wouldn’t be unusual for an Arab to let him in their house ☠️#goddamn#“if you look in the internet you can see how they’re implied!🤓☝️”#maybe if you had any respect for my culture or any desire to be educated when I’m handing this to you for free you wouldn’t be your mistake#your mums greatest mistake 🤗🤗🤗*#dora daily#if only ppl dedicated this level of detail to actual culture compared to pulling out their microscope at level 100x magnification lens to#observe robins spots under her eyes the world would be a better place 🙀#let me tell you btw this whole I hate you meh meh meh ( I’m so in love with you ) trope is the most whitest booktok millennial plant growing#basement dweller nonesense I have ever heard in my life don’t do that to my pookies ☹️#( the pookies in fact were 11 and 9 years older than her respectively )#guys my dad is the straightest man alive ( oh the trauma lowkey wish he wasn’t ) and he legit was putting his hand on his best friends lap#LMAOOO even I as a very logical person was like bro this is so zesty rn I am SO uncomfortable#anyways live laugh love boothill x Baizhu they’re the most canon things I’ve ever seen in my life#<- this is a joke btw it’s an ironic ship I saw on tiktok ☠️
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🍸😠.😁🍺
type of guy to loom over his so at the party glaring at anyone he doesnt like instead of conversing. i think.
bonus vers under the cut:
this is actually based on an old pic i did from last year with larry n emmet for my funnie au. you can go find it if you want idc to link it here tho. i just wanted to redraw it with kabu instead because the. vibe still fits them rly well kgshghks
ft the dress he was in from the original drawing :)
#pokemon#gym leader larry#gym leader kabu#aokabu#silverstreakshipping#larry#kabu#also i desperately needed to draw in my og artstyle again. ive been going crazy only drawing chibis recently.#dont get me wrong... i love drawing in chibi style it lets me be rly free with some things but.... lord do i love drawing detailed faces#soso bad...................... the wrinkles................ the skin squish..... argh i love detailing it all smmmm#anyway. ^_^ figuring out how to draw their hair in this style though still sucks lmfao
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twitter won't get this but i know y'all will
the felis erasure in regards to the concept arts is criminal how dare you
#fu hua#pardofelis#hi3#honkai impact#concept art#IF I SPEAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMFG.#fuki this fuki that#ohh kiana skin has cat ears don't they match??#SHUT UP AHHH!!!! like ok yeag i get it#felis was the first kitty and hua's partner back in the moths era the straight up friendship erasure hurts my soul#lowkey personal cause omgggg i been GOIN thru shit lol#just let me have this one please#my dumb fuckin ass is crying at 6:30 AM over bad tasting toast and these 2 not getting the smidge of recognition they deserve#its whatever i know they are holding hands i know the truth#manifesting either another felis suit OR.#them taking this concept for hua and transferring it to Senti one way or another. kitty / wolf senti idk...#sentifelis will be real one way or another smh#the tags with 'fuki' in it better not show up in the main tag or ill bite someone cause this aint shade on them#but feel free to throw twitter under the bus for it however
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( @hiraethwrote ) FLOWER ARRANGEMENTS — the two of you have just finished building your house! perhaps the surrounding grass is a bit bare, and yesterday was spent out in the forest collecting a variety of flowers. today, you and kageyama spend the morning planting them around your home, working together to fit them in a way that’s satisfying to the both of you. with some time, he’s picked up on arrangements that you would and wouldn’t like— a result of him always paying such close attention to you. you give him a curious hum when his hands hover over your own before moving a rose a couple squares to the right. “like this,” he says, “this is more like how you’ve been doing it.”
#queue#hea.ss#HI HEA !!!!!! AH I AM SCREAMING AT YOU AND KAGEYAMA ))): WHAT A CUTE COUPLE I LOVE U TWO !!!!#i will make it my mission to learn about this pairing >:^)#i hope this was alright !!!!! im picturing u two so focused on this task and it makes my heart so soft#i was unsure how to include tattoos without making this a 128x128 skin so i put a sleeve on u if that is okay!!!#feel free to let me know if you would like changes !!!!
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Nightshade (my cat) is a little fucking bastard who bites my asscheek and tries to tear my sweater to shreds so obviously this means that I need to make him into a Beastformer bc he has a very Big Personality.
#daphnis.docx#Last night he slept in the bend of my legs RIGHT against my ass and the fucker BIT ME when I shifted a little to adjust my blanket#Also I buy him so many toys. Every monthly target run for toiletries results in me buying a toy for him#But half the time he just wants to play with my sweater#This is like. A street cat my grandma let me adopt if I paid for him to be neutered.#We ASSUME he was feral because there's a feral we think is his brother that we're trying to trap neuter release#But he's so docile and loves to be held and pet and come into the house#Idk he wasn't chipped when he was taken to be snipped so it's free cat if he belonged to someone#They let him run around flea ridden and skin and bones so
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I am so beyond ready to quit this job. Wednesday cannot come fast enough.
#to be fair it's bc school starts again in a few weeks#but idk. every day at this office feels like sandpaper on my skin. people always ask me shit i dont understand#and every case is so individual there's no set checklist to follow to troubleshoot#so most of the time I just grind my gears and get stuck#it'd busy more days than not.#and it was advertised to me as data entry only. client interactions was not what i signed up for.#it's all client interaction.#we're short staffed so nobody gets to take the back office and have a break.#when we weren't short staffed i was the new guy and only got 1 day in the back a week while everyone else got 2.#all my coworkers are conservative but talk like they're apolitical.#i thought it'd be fulfilling bc im helping people get benefits#but many are rude or impatient as any other service job. I'm constantly trying to direct people that don't want to listen#or explain the intricacies of something i barely understand.#and i don't want to lead people astray bc you have to start over if you blow a deadline.#but there's just nothing redeeming that i enjoy.#i hate customer service. i hate constantly asking questions. i like seldom few of my coworkers.#i can't be me at work.#and i don't care about the work itself anymore.#this job made me cry every day for weeks last month from sheer stress and overstimulation.#i almost cried myself sick several times.#the only reason I'm not there anymore is bc i dont fucking care anymore.#it took me 2 months to burn out. 2 months!#i was training for half of that!!#idk. everyone decided i was smart and could pick it up quickly so. even though everyone else got 4-6 weeks of shadowing#you can make do with 3 before you start doing stuff solo.#which feels unfair. i wasn't ready for it. and i resent the decision quite a bit.#plus it's been a nightmare for me in terms of external stressors and my generally deteriorating mental health. so.#all in all. i hate it here.#and i can't wait to turn in my notice so i can gtfo in 2 weeks#i am so tired. free me. let me go back to my music please
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just now realizing that the reason ND people headcanon "ambiguously" ND characters as ND is the same reason i headcanon anthy himemiya as desi. because even if they don't state it outright, it's not really ambiguous at all when you're someone who can look at the character and go "yes! them over there! they're just like me fr!" in that one specific aspect, so much so that EVERYTHING about them points toward being in that same category you're in
#and i'm not gonna ignore that she's the only dark-skinned character and her role is to get passed around with no free will#(i'm on ep 3)#but let me be happy abt my queer desi rep#because QUEER DESI REP???#IN THIS ECONOMY???#AND THIS WAS IN THE 90s TOO#like 2020s you could LEARN from this#fandom#fandom culture#neurodivergent#autism#adhd#desi#desiblr#revolutionary girl utena#anthy himemiya
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my recent thrift deep dives on vinted have been so disappointing atp i'm gonna save up to buy a damn paloma wool sweater
#bc tell me why this earth is unable to provide me a sweater that has no polyester in it ... TELL ME#i recently sorted out my closet to put my winter clothes back to the front and i sent away tons of sweaters to sell them and now#i am cold .. and without enough sweaters ...#and in my intensive search for new sweaters i have concluded that it's sooooo hard to find ones that are polyester free#which i need bc my skin hates it#and it's so sweaty like yeah i'm trying to stay warm but i'm not trying to SWEAT ⁉️ FOR NO REASON ⁉️#who's idea was that ....#anyway long story short i will update when i collected enough tips from work to buy a cute sweater from miss paloma#also forgot to mention that a seller on a thrifting app i'm on has been on vacation for weeks now and they have so much pw stuff.. let me in#000
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i luv ranni the witch computer show me pictures of ranni the witchoueeghh this isnt ranni the witch these are pictures of. someone else !
#me through gritted teeth as i scroll past pic 10000 of scantily clad breasting boobily squishy thighed ranni:#people can draw self indulgently if they want...be...free (blood pouring out of my mouth)#scoobposting#.................................ITS JUST A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT CHARACTER THOUGH SHE DOESNT EVEN HAVE 'SKIN' ON HER CHEST LET ALONE BOOBA#WHY NOT JUST DRAW A CHARACTER U ACTUALLY THINK IS ATTRACTIVE. .......................................#whatever. ...whatever. ..4get the haters i luv ur broken as hell rigid doll body ranni. ....
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I hatched my FIRST EVER DOUBLE GEN 1 yesterday!!!! 🌟🎉💙🧡💙🎉🌟
And it-
Has
The WORST Secondary Possible 😭
I cant decide on a scry i am truly happy with!! halp! Gwah!
#both estatic and fustrated#im trying so hard but i just DONT like orangey (and orange brown) colours /especially/ not with lapis#i want to be happy with it but the more i play around the more indecisive i get and the more fustrated i feel#feel free to throw a scry this way if u think its good tho#or idk offers? i can trade this baby too if somebody really rly wants it -just let me know..#i will keep it otherwise#i might HAVE to cover up its wings with a skin after all and thats so gosh dern dissapointing#fr#flight rising#fr hatchlings#my dragons#in its description are two of the closest contenders for its scry rn
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just wanted to give my 2 cents on coco considering herself white, im hispanic and white. i know people get confused with race and ethnicity but they arent the same. hispanic can be any race so clarity is usually needed. puerto ricans are hispanic but italians are not, tho italy does not take race into account for their census the majority are white. coco could easily say shes white and since she is hispanic could also say shes poc it depends on her preference and experiences tbh
thank you for the input!! i'm under the impression that race is more of a category that society chooses based on a person's appearance while ethnicity is a person's actual cultural background. so to the original anon that asked about race, i said coco would probably consider herself white. but even that seems to be a personal preference and comes down to outside factors like where you live, who you grew up with, how people perceive you, etc. truthfully i don't know if it's very relevant for coco's story, but of course elements of her heritage, like anyone's, will come up from time to time (especially if we ever meet her family or learn more details about her upbringing). but yeah just to clarify, she absolutely would consider herself hispanic!!
#my cousins are actually the same (mexican & white) but they never call themselves white unless they're joking around#because if they did they'd have to explain everything - they have obviously brown skin & dark features#and they live in a hick town so they're never going to be labeled white no matter how they personally identify#i'm sure it would be much different in a big city or more liberal area. to bring it back to coco she grew up in (the equivalent of) LA#where she is by far not the only hispanic person nearby#so i would imagine that changes things somewhat#anyway i appreciate hearing all different insights!! if there's anything i can do to improve my depiction of culture in my story -#please let me know!! i'm always free to change things#not just in relation to coco either#asks#anonymous#nonsims#brandi answers
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