#let him have his ten emotional support cats

[basicallykiyotaka]

Enji has a major inferiority complex and constantly feels the need to prove himself day in and day out when in reality he's a complete coward. He hides behind fake confidence because he's doing the classic fake it til you make it. He became so envious of heroes yet still felt so weak compared to them that part of him gave up and instead raised a child.

He, in fact, loves his family. He truly believed that he could create something happy one day and that fatherhood was going to help his wounds heal, and when all it did was make him even more scared, he pulled his walls back up and demanded control over himself that he never actually had. He didn't want to hurt his family, but he did anyway. He shut out everything that would make him vulnerable and poured all his self loathing into training Shoto.

He most certainly knew, for a long time, that what he was doing was fucked, but when you're in that mental cycle, you can't justify breaking out of it because that's what that kind of fear does to you. This created more self hatred which in turn created more stress which created more anger.

Because there's nothing to relieve it and all his wounds are torn open through Touya dying, he buries himself into the places he knows he can regulate and knows he can feel powerful up until the start of his arc where he finally feels himself calmed down. The urge is satisfied yet it leaves him hollow, and only then can he truly reflect and say out loud that he should have done better.

TL;DR - Enji Todoroki has insecurity issues stemming from not feeling strong enough after his father died which resulted in an unending cycle that took itself out on the people around him.

This is what the subtext and direct text is trying to tell you. The fact I'm even explaining this to people who love him makes me concerned for reading comprehension...

[elliesmainhoe]

Flour and Jam

Streamer!Ellie X Fem!Reader

Summary: Yours and ellies attempt at a cooking stream

Contents: fluff, fluff and more fluff, food fight, general chaos.

My Masterlist

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 (you're here)

"Welcome to my kitchen" Ellie said, looking into the camera that was situated on a tripod resting upon the islands wooden countertops.

User1: New room unlocked 🔓

User2: omg are we cooking?

"Yes we are cooking, thought I'd do something special for you guys to celebrate hitting 500k on YouTube- which is honestly insane."

User3: Been here since 5k on YT 💪

"And due to this being a very special stream I have a very very special person to keep me company!" Hearing your cue, you stepped Infront of the camera "And because I can't trust Ellie to not burn down my house." You add on, smiling mischievously at her annoyed expression.

User4: my favourite person ever 😭

User5: One chance Y/N, plssss

User6: Ima steal Ellie's girl, just you wait and see

User7: omg look at how cute they look together 🥲

User8: The Y/N and Ellie tiktok editors are already screen recording this for later lmao

"Shut-" before Ellie could finish her sentence you pecked her lips- catching her off guard and laughing as you saw the chat go at the speed of light.

User9: Stop I'm so lonely 😭

"Your so lonely? L"

"Ellie! Don't be mean?" You scold her, shoving her shoulder playfully.

"Why?"

"Because I said so, be nice"

"Yes ma'am" Ellie replies, her right hand lifting into a mock salute as she laughs.

"We are going to make a cake. What kind of cake you may be asking?" She spoke, replying to an invisible comment.

"No one asked that baby" you laughed,, reaching up and messing with her hair. Her mouth went to retort but before any words could fall out you cut in front of her "yes I know I'll 'shut up'."

"Were making a 'victoria sponge' cake, because Y/N knows how to make it and there is a higher possiblity it will turn out least half decently" she grins, looking down at the ingredients you'd laid out on the counter. Eggs, flour, sugar, butter, vanilla, cream, jam (jelly if your American), icing sugar and strawberries.

"It'll be great, we'll do so well. I 100% believe we will make an edible Cake" you affirm, lying but trying to be positive.

User10: Uhuh very convincing 💀

User11: manifest it besties

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"How the fuck have we managed this?" Ellie laughed out looking down at the mess you two had managed to create.

"I honestly have no idea" you reply looking at the copious amounts of flour and various sticky substances that coated the counters. "It could honestly be a modern art piece" you hummed

User12: Girlie said modern art

User13: #1 modern art hater for life

Ellie began spewing jokes, continuing to crack eggs and whisk, even though you'd told her to stop adding anything ten minutes earlier.

"You really have no regard for my advice, huh?"

"Nope." She said back to you, the familiar annoying grin plastered on her freckled face when she heard your disappointed sigh.

User14: she looks so done lmao 😭

You move out of view of the audience, silently searching for some emotional support for the foreseeable future. You entered the living room and the familiar ball of ginger fluff you were searching for was curled up in the cat tree you and ellie had bought him for his first birthday. After a few seconds of internal conflict on whether to leave him be or disturb him you decided on the latter.

Picking up the grumpy cat, who made his displeasure known by letting out a tired yowl as you cradled him, before coming back into the kitchen. "I needed some emotional support."

User15: Garfff 😭🐱

User16: pussy lol

User17: Everyone needs emotional support due to this chaotic asf stream lmao💀

You stood back, cradling Garfield in your arms, letting Ellie have free rein, giving a few tips and advice that were swiftly dismissed by Ellie as she continued to do her own thing, including putting salt into the batter instead of sugar, even though you had literally put out all the ingredients for her beforehand which did not include salt.

"Taste test?" Ellie asks, turning around to face you, a wooden spoon in hand a scoop of beige mixture on top of it. "Absolutely not".

User18: DO ITTT

User19: do it! do it! do it!

'User30 donated $50: 'Do it Y/N, also congrats on 500k on YT Ellie <33'

"You hear the people. Taste." Ellie laughs thrusting the wooden spoon towards your mouth.

"It's confirmed, you all hate me and I will never forgive any of you for this" you scowl, opening your mouth hesitantly, allowing Ellie to place the spoonful into your mouths. The overwhelming taste saltiness hits your tongue immediately, making you gag at the unpleasantness.

You immediately rush over to the sink, spiting out the mixture, grabbing a glass of water and washing out your mouth, trying to rid it of the after taste that lingered behind. You hear Ellie's laugh from behind you, the only thing going through your mind was revenge.

Flour. Perfect. You reach into the half full paper bag pulling out a handful. Ellie was otherwise occupied, talking to her chat and answering donations, so when a handful of flour exploded in her face, it's an understatement to say it caught her of guard.

After recovering from a coughing fit triggered by the powder, she reached into an open jar, said jar having fresh strawberry jam inside of it. You saw this and of course, you began to run away, trying to get away from Ellie and the weapon that was her handful of red jelly. Eventually she caught up to you, her empty hand wrapped around your waist pulling you into her body as she smeared the sticky substance across your cheeks laughing at the ridiculous expression on your face.

Because your body was pushed against hers, the flour that coated her body transferred onto you.

"OH FUCK!" You yelled "my new sweater..."

"oh look, Y/N's discovered that her actions have consequences." She grinned cheekily, leaning down to kiss you, the jam from your face smudging onto hers.

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Taglist: @aunslie @lonelyfooryouonly @strawberrysmoochesxo @daryldixonh0e @kittynnie @lovelyyevelyn @randomhoex @moonlightdivine @haerinwho @mufflaa @mial1l @sarahsmileslikesarahd0esntcare @moonlighting87 @escaping-reality8 @hejdevkdbdjsd @dergy @half-of-a-gay @ellieismami @cyberlainn @gollumsmygel @sseorii @kyleeservopoulos @taloulalila @ellieluhme @kiiyoooo

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[girltigerclaw]

breaking into ur house rn

top ten characters and bottom ten. reasons are optional

I just finished this chart thing i think i actually stole from your blog a few months ago <3 Slightly edited to my own prefs.

If anyone wants the template check the reblogs, and feel free to add you own. I'd love to see. I'm just rambling under here:

Leafpool: She is more special and sacred than the virgin mary. She has everything. Daughter of the first protagonist, ex boyfriend for me to hate, TONS of wlw situationships<3, a lifetime of tragedy, and some of the most gorgeous canon art to exist.

Crookedstar: Crookedstar is a trans woman to me. Her life is genuinely just so tragic and fucked, I love it. The erins asked: “How much truama, death and misfortune can you fit into a single cat?” and then they wrote Crookedstar’s promise.

Tawnypelt: GIRLS WHO HATE THEIR FATHERS. The erins dont love her like I do.

Tallstar: I love old men… I fucking love seeing older characters and how much they’ve changed from their younger selves. Tallstar is considered one of, if not the most peaceful leader in the clans. But also when he was like 19 he went on a quest to fucking murder a guy :3

Cloudstar: I rlly do not care abt anyone in Skyclan(I like Leafstar but she's not a fav yknow?) Cloudstar... he was based as fuck. Why did Starclan get away with this shit for real??

Scourge: It’s fucking Scourge. He’s awesome

Briarlight: I’m disabled and I love her. She has such a consistent fun, sweet personality and she makes me happy!!<3

RavenBarley: It deserves all the attention and hype it gets. Though I wish mlm ships didn’t overshadow wlw ones in this fandom, RavenBarley is genuinely well written and makes me very emotional even if the publisher didnt allow it to be explicitly canon.

CrookedBlue: TRANS WOMEN CROOKEDSTAR YURI. Two leaders having a forbidden relationship and kits is way more interesting than Oakheart. The angst of Crooked and Blue sitting next to eachother every gathering while the entire forest has their eyes on them. Don’t look for too long, don’t let the mourning slip into your voice. You have to pretend your lover is a stranger. You… have become strangers. You can never be together again. You're enemies now. This is what we wanted, isn’t it? …We’ll never be happy again.

Mothwing: Her novella delving into her relationship with Hawkfrost was so good and heartbreaking.

Heathertail: Daughter of leader, sister of a major villian, and former love interest of a protagonist! Why did she fall off the second po3 ended. She’s shown to be very compassionate and willing to put her own feelings aside for the sake of others. Would’ve honestly prefered her as a mate to Lionblaze or get a pov herself over the nothing we got.

Blackstar: *Murders an elderly woman trying to stop me from kidnapping children. Supports a dictator openly abusing/neglecting children and the elderly. Murders a man for refusing to kill mixed raced children- then tells said man’s sister that she will never be safe.* Man…. i sure do feel bad for abusing and killing all of those people…. Good thing I will face no consequences and proceed to be made leader, where I will have even more power over the wellbeing of others.

I hate. This guy.

The New Prophecy: A classic. My first series was actually tnp! i feel more attached to first arc cats tho, if you couldn't already tell by my list lmao

Johanna Map- Best Tawnypelt content out there

BlueQuince: My personal handcrafted, homemade Yuri. Bluefur feels terrible about Tiny going missing and promises Quince she’ll help her find him. They never did, but they had a very… fleeting but intimate relationship. Quince is grieving and Bluefur feels so overwhelmed by the duties in her clan. They’ve always thought of eachother since but never met again.

Tigerclaw: My name sake<3 The angst of his earlier life is so, so facinating to me. Starclan being straight fucked up and decided killing him is their only option? He was a kid and they saw him as a lost cause from the start. They never tried any other methods, never tried to steer him in the right direction or… even just take it into their own hands and kill him themself, which they have SHOWN they’re capable of.

They watched all the the horrific crimes he commited, entirely aware they were going to happen. Thats. Fucking. Horrifying. Starclan is scary as shit… and his death? FANTASTIC. I only wish he’d gotten lives from cats he killed so that him coming back to life to suffer over and over was an actual curse from Starclan and not blessings. They knew how he would die and they gave him the lives to torture him for his sins…

Flywhisker: Adhd girlies. Painfully relate to that feeling of the constant scolding for never being “good enough” because I prefer to do things a certain way or struggle to focus. So, SO happy for her when she left the clans! You don’t have to prove yourself to anyone! Hope she’s happy and warm indoors with her brother💕

(P.S. I was very suprised to find she actually had an official art piece!)

Bluestar: Get behind me women with mental disorders. I will defend you. Beautifully complex and tragic character, my favorite written in the series. Literally can't think of a single other female character in handled as seriously and with the complexity of Bluestar. (Although her super edition was a bit of an L with how others treated her, it ultimately makes her breakdown even more painful.)

Exile from Shaodwclan: Nightstar my beloved! He's such a great guy. The rightful leader of Shadowclan, always and forever.

Ravenpaw's Farewell: HE DIED IN BARLEY'S ARMS, TELLING HIM HE WILL FIND HIM, NO MATTER WHERE HE IS. FUCK.

Crookedstar art: So beautiful. I genuinely think she's one of the prettiest cats in the series. This along with her official art by Wayne Mcloughlin.

Leopardstar: As a kid I hated her and loved Blackfoot, now I hate Blackfoot and love her. #feminism. But seriously I think she has way more going for her than he ever has. Her father is a medicine cat who hates violence, the DRASTIC change in Riverclan's view of outsiders upon Crookedstar's death and her leadership. Her already having a position of power before proving she's unworthy of it. (Unlike Blackstar who gets rewarded for his racism and violence by being made leader afterwards) and the fact she has to interact with her victims on a daily basis after what she did.

The writings attempts to redeem her are really lame and dismissive of the actually damage she did, but at the very least they TRIED to do something else with her. Personally, I would have loved to see her assassinated by Mistyfoot. Just like her mother Bluestar was almost killed all those moons ago by Tigerclaw... The parallels of violence for power and violence for peace. A victim repeating the actions of the very man who killed her brother to put an end to what he started in Riverclan.... A shadow in Riverclan, if you will. (<-Pretending erin hunter has hired me to rewrite their series)

Windclan: Tunneling as a concept and inviting outsiders into their clan so friendly and casual makes the clan seems so much more diverse than the others. It always stuck out to me!

Andddd there are my current warrior cat options as of 2023! If someone actually read this whole ramble ily<3

[relatableblorbopoll]

Round 1 of preliminaries, group 18

The first two places get a place on the bracket

Little reminder: there will be 2 more rounds of preliminaries, the losing blorbos of this poll still have 2 chances of getting in the official bracket

Propaganda under the cut

Tobias (Animorphs)

"his mom left him and hes at least a little transcoded and also hes a bird for the rest of his life"

Isaac O'Connor (Paranatural)

"he's like me but specifically when i was thirteen which should tell you all you need to know about both me and him. emotional wreck of a lad who feels excluded from his friend group no matter what. drew a gjinka of a fruit bowl in art class. canonically a fan of hatsune miku. will apparently be eaten by a cat in the future and survive."

Trisana Chandler / Tris (Emelan book series)

"Grumpy girl just wants to be left alone with her books but oops she actually has such a big heart with so much love in it. Always annoyed about having to put down her book to help her friends or save a bunch of innocents. Also she's got trauma out the wazoo, her family didn't want her and she was always bullied for her weight, and then at like age ten she has to kill a bunch of people and live with THAT trauma."

Sokka (Avatar: The Last Air Bender)

"I also like meat, sarcasm, and boomerangs. On a more serious note, he's the only one out of his group of friends for the longest time without special powers (relatable when you're friends with super talented people), he really likes organization and charts (same), and he completely fumbles his first attempt at public speaking (painful, but same). We're also both just a little bit goofy."

Haruhi Fujioka (Ouran Highschool Hostclub)

"She gets into a rich kid school and immediately goes into debt. Constantly annoyed by rich kid problems (including but not limited to: buying them instant coffee instead of expensive ground coffee). She’s supportive but doesn’t let them walk all over her. The whole show revolves around everyone thinking she’s actually a boy just because she has short hair and wears the boys uniform instead of the girls one— and that’s relatable because i wouldn’t want to wear the girls uniform either it’s not great"

Shinji Ikari (Evangelion)

"THE LAST 2 EPISODES OF THE SERIES??? holy shit I've never actually related to some fictional character so much. his self image, attitude, emotions, decisions, relationships, etc; he's just. me. that's not even funny. also thank god this thing is anonymous i would've delete my blog outa shame"

[meetinginsamarra]

mayprompts2024 #6,

Read part one (using the prompt “box”) here

Read part two (using the prompt “familiar”) here

Read part three (using the prompt “fall”) here

Read part four (using the prompt “awkward”) here

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If you thought the last chapter/prompt was awkward (LOL) it's not getting better.

The testing intensifies...

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The Perfect Place - Part Five

John needed a handkerchief to deal with his sweaty fore head and since he also needed to fetch the catalogue with the type-of-boxspring-in-relation-to-body-weight spreadsheet, he went to the counter.

Opening the drawer, he saw his gun lying on top of it. He took out both, cramming the catalogue under his arm and shoving the gun into the front pocket of his corduroy trousers. As ugly as the trousers were, they had the undeniable advantage of sporting a baggy cut with spacious front pockets so the gun could vanish easily in its depths.

(To be fair, normally John would not have touched this pair of trousers with a ten-foot pole. But he had assumed they would make him look like a trustworthy and respectable salesman and they let him hide the gun easily. Also, they had cost him nothing since he had inherited them from his sister Harry and practical as John was, he would not simply throw them away.) (Which would have been better, actually.)

Anyway, the familiar feeling of the gun’s cold metal against his body gave John some much-needed emotional support in further dealing with this intense (John meant arousing) customer. It distracted him from salivating (too) openly over the client. John could not risk that the man would get cold feet because of John being creepy and leaving the shop without buying the bed. Luckily, today John also wore a long cardigan, therefore the gun was practically invisible.

(The cardigan was another piece of exceptionally ugly clothing John had inherited via Harry. His sister on the other hand had also inherited the cardigan via their grandfather who had been gifted the hand-knitted atrocity by his wife. The grandmother had been an avid cat lover and had adorned the cardigan’s front with several hand-stitched cat faces.)

John returned to the customer and found him staring into space with a dazed expression and observed a weird smile forming on this beautiful face.

Meanwhile, Sherlock had been in a daze. He couldn’t believe his luck. John had actually picked his brain earlier to learn if he was gay and single, ergo John was interested in his person apart from selling the bed.

Sherlock had also noticed that the delightful rigidity he had attested while testing the mattress had been mirrored in John’s midsection. Even the baggy corduroy trousers had not been able to hide all of the rising bump. Sherlock deduced that John had been aroused and the only source could have been Sherlock himself and concluded further that his plan was working out fine.

Originally, the steps had been to get John to move into 221b as Sherlock’s flatmate and then seduce him into being his boyfriend. But apparently, it went the other way around and Sherlock had made John fall in love with him already, putting the flatmate-thing onto second position. This was perfectly okay, just a little bump in the way of totally winning John over.

Sherlock decided to step it up a notch with the testing. He wanted to see how far John would go and how far he could push him respectively. (Sherlock assumed that it would be important for their later relationship to know what he could get away with.) He needed to see how John would react in a precarious situation.

Sherlock watched John returning with the catalogue, fixed his eyes on him, smiled and offered his hand.

“Sorry, I forgot to introduce myself. Potential partners should know each other’s names. I’m Sherlock Holmes.” (Sherlock was so exited that he got a bit ahead himself.)

John stopped dead in his tracks. What? We’re partners? Since when? I didn’t notice… his brain fired frantic questions at him. Blood pounded in his ears.

Sherlock cleared his throat, realizing his blunder. “Business partners, that’s what I wanted to say. As in you sell the bed and I buy it. Therefore, we do business with each other, right?” That was close, he thought.

“Oh, sure, sure. John Watson, pleased to meet you. Again.” John released his breath. “Great. The deluxe bed suits you, then?”

“Yes, well, all seems very promising.” Sherlock looked at John from under his long eyelashes, deliberately changing his voice to a lower register because he knew exactly what effect this had on other men. (And women, but Sherlock din’t care about that.)

“Yet, I have to test the mattress for real. May I lie down, please?”

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The Bed Shop Boys will continue to be idiots in love tomorrow!

tagging some people @calaisreno @totallysilvergirl @lisbeth-kk @peanitbear @raina-at

[mrssimply]

HIIII 3 and 14 for the fic writer ask pretty pls :]

3. how you feel about your current WIP?

OMG, Blue, you couldn't have chosen a worst question from this list ahaha. I feel awful, I hate it, I'm fighting it every step of the way, I wanna lay down and cry about it. I hate it so much, so, so much. I'm talking about The Burning of Rome, of course, not the answer to your prompt (yep, it's still in progress) though I'm also blocked on that one, unfortunately T-T.

Now, I'm just not gonna whine about my WIP, but maybe explain a little bit more. Even though it's... not fun, I know it's part of the process. First of all, I generally hate my WIPs at some point, most often I hate what I just finished writing. I think it's because, as I come down from the high of writing, I realise words and english failed me yet again and it's not as I imagined. It's never exactly as I imagined, but sometimes, this conclusion angers me. I often react with anger when my ego takes a hit, then I sulk, then I accept it and generally, by this point I read over the part I wrote and I rediscover it and hey, it's actually not that bad. So I know it's part of the process.

But... I'll admit it's the first time I struggled this hard with a fic. It never happened before. So, like a disgruntled old cat, I was reflecting on why is that, and here are my modest conclusions:

it's the... biggest work so far. Not in word count (though, if you add up the first two parts of the series, it is one of the biggest), but in ambition. I basically had to come up with so much for that series, and that last part in particular. I researched the mafias of the world, studied the Philipines geography and geopolitics, I went back to some history lesson to better integrate some part of lore into past events, and then there was the usual research about John Wick in genral, firearms, battle strategy, and of course, writing fighting scenes which is just exhausting.

The freaking cast... Like. Most of my works have around three main characters, and a few regular side characters, but most of the action happens in the intimacy of a couple, or a trouple. TBoR's middle part, which I finished with my blood and tears, only thanks to Koda infaillible support, has so many characters. There is only one main character (John) for most of that part, but he has significant interactions with like ten others characters. Thre of them are OC, and I try not to give too much screentime to OCs since, understandably, they don't interest the audience but Leonora for exemple, has been in this story for so long sometimes I forget she ain't actually in the movies xD. So yeah, a big cast to balance, to give screentime to, and to move around coherently, give each of them a role and a purpose. Exhausting.

Character developpement: I can only blame myself for that one. I mean, I can only blame myself for the previous points, too, but this one... Let me rewind a little bit: I know a lot of people in the fandom envision John as caring, understanding, patient. And he is. Our favorite Loving Husband. But he also is pretty aggressive, stubborn, and ffs he doesn't know how to grieve. At all. This "indomitable will" Viggo speaks about in the first movie, that thing that makes him get up after falling from the roof garden of the Continental... Well, when you put that into caring for his partner, it makes him a great husband. But when you put that into conflict with said partner, he's just unsufferable. And I wanted to explore that. And now, he kinda did something unforgivable, so how is he gonna get over it, I ask the audience? And the audience turns toward me: "but you're the author!" and yep. I am [nervous laughter]. So... Now I have the path, after... months of struggling to find a way out of the mess I put him and Santino into. But I have to write it, and it's hard, because I'm shit at emotional conflict, and how do you deal with emotional conflict when one character doesn't know how to express his feelings outside of violent outburst (killing seventy people because he couldn't deal with his grief~~~) and the other one is just as stubborn, and won't talk about his feelings anymore because when he tried, he got shut down. That's where I am people, and I. hate. it.

Now, I know that when I publish the final part, I'll be happy. Not just happy to be done, I'll be proud of myself because, this was huge. I knew it would be when I started, and I told myself several times that I wouldn't do it because it was too big and I wasn't sure I could pull it off, or even wanted to... I mean, I don't wanna sound like I'm whining but I know the energy this will require out of readers, it's not a fanfiction anymore, it's a book, and people have shown to have more difficulties engaging with that kind of works than with oneshots, or short fiction. Won't get into why, that's another subject entierly, but I just know this work, which is my soul and guts, will get less reactions that the one I wrote in a frenzy for a prompt. It's always been like that, I've... accepted it, I'm not complaining about it I'm just saying sometimes it's hard to swallow.

Moving on.

I've been thinking a lot about another fic of mine (from Cyberpunk) lately in relation to The Burning of Rome. The fic is called To the day I die and it was, is, my personal masterpiece when it comes to Silverdyne (Johnny x Kerry). It's also the final part of a series that started innocently as a prompt (W.A.R, the series TBoR is part of, started as a character study), and it embarked me into this huge odyssey about love, growing up, getting better, relapse and what it means to be wise. Also, some of the themes are the same : both characters hurting each other with the best intentions, one of them being a self-sacrifycing fool, and the other being stubborn because he was once hurt by his partner. They also end up kinda nearly killing each other lol I need to stop doing this (it's a lie, I'll do it again, it's my favorite trope, don't send help). I think I unconsciously used some of the same sentences, or at least the same situation. I I foolishly always thought I had no "themes" in my work but that was obviously my ego speaking! Incredible, what we learn about ourselves while writing.

So yeah.

I hate it.

But when it's done, I'll be proud, I know.

I might even print it, for posterity.

It's my best work so far, so why not?

(Fun fact, I wrote that yesterday and I think venting helped me because I kinda made a huge leap in the fic!!! Kudos to me and thank you for the ask!!!)

14. where do you get your inspiration?

Ah, that's a good question. I don't know, and it's bugging me a little ahah. I was talking to my sister about what I consider a "good movies" lately and my conclusion was "I need to develop an obsession, however brief, about it". That's what I'm seeking when I watch a movie, when I start a series or a game: I want to get that obsessive reaction, because it fuels my creativity like mad. Now, what will make me obsess about a content? No idea lol. Example of materials that should've inspired me but didn't: Mass Effect, Red Dead Redemption, the Sandman, Our Flag Means Death, Interview with the Vampire... they had ALL the ingredients that should've made me fall into a new obsession, and well, nothing happened.

On the contrary, examples of material that made me go into a frenzy: X-men:first class, Startrek, Stargate (SG1 and Atlantis), Cyberpunk, Matrix, John Wick, Naruto and lately, KinnxPorsche (thawainese drama, yeah, I was NOT expecting that one). I've tried to come up with the fomula but I've not yet found out what makes any of the above kickstart an obsession, and with it, inspiration to write or draw.

One thing maybe is the epicness: I need to feel the story is vast and world threatening. I also love element of fantasy, or science fiction. I need the story to get me out of our daily world (but then again, Mass effect checks all the boxes, and yet...).

Music can also inspire me but I'm very fickle about it. I did write with music but I stopped that a while ago because it made me too dependent on the music's mood to write the right scene. Now I write without, and it's actually easier to focus, I think I also got more control over my writing in general, meaning I can write the scene I want, when I want, not when the mood strikes.

Last but not least: other fanfictions. This is always, a huge reservoir of inspiration. Headcanons, fanons, and all the content of a fandom is generally a bottomless well of ideas, feeling and themes to explore. As such, it can be hard to be in a small fandom, with a ship with few supporters because I "lack" this source of inspiration, but that also mean I'll produce more for it, like I'm trying to fill the void xD. For example, I never wrote anything for any big fandom because I spent too much time reading fanfiction, and feeling like everything was already written and I just needed to find it to get my high. In a smaller fandom, I need to participate more, and it's really stimulating! So overall, it works out either way!

And of course, one thing that stays true no matter what: I'm an overwriter, look at that long post!!!

Thank you for the ask (and for listening to my lecture!) <3

[ll-but-its-random]

Imagine if the Loric actually had a chimaera with each of them.

Oh... oh my god. Yes.

One:

Golden retriever called Caramel.

The kind of dog who would leap on you and you just instantly fall. That's how big.

Plays a little too much.

Hessu once told her to try looking after it on her own when she was like 5 or 6 and needless to say, the first time was the worst.

She became sort of a dog mom after that.

We don't talk about what happened to Caramel when the Mogs found them.

Two:

A ragdoll cat she calls Will.

Likes being a cat, but sometimes he just turns to something like a hamster to fall asleep unbothered.

First time it happened, Maggie thought he died and the crying woke him up.

Just sits down next to her on the couch or desk.

They usually end up dozing off in some weird position.

Three:

A wild dog he named Duma.

They experimented with multiple wild animals' forms before, they also don't talk about the time he shapeshifted into a hippo.

He is generally good at pretending to be a hunter dog, but then comes into the house through the window for a snack or something.

Everyone thinks Hannu has somehow tamed a wild dog and Hannu is there like:

As much as Duma likes being out in the open, he almost always shapeshifts into a bug and hides in Hannu's hair so he can go around with him.

Five:

He calls him Marlin, because he liked to be in a fish's form on the island (finding nemo reference).

He sometimes turns to a crab or bird to go on land but any time Five is at the beach, he takes the chance to go back into the water.

Emotional support hugs were more frequent after Rey died.

He sort of liked Emma at the start and Emma liked him because he was a cute little bird, what's not to love.

The Mogs didn't let Five keep him :(

Six:

Almost always a raven that she wanted Katarina to name for her- Fiachra.

Bird sort of human-like intelligence.

The many times she saved Six's ass, but she wouldn't phrase it like that.

When Six is mad and glares at someone, it pulls on the emotional tether, and Fia comes, perches on her shoulder and gives her own glare making them 10x more intimidating.

The were separated in her capture, but she found her again- don't ask me how, she did.

Seven:

A chimaera called Buttercup who is mostly taking the form of a rodent.

Like, imagine Marina walking around with a little hamster, squirrel or mouse in her front pocket. Absolutely adorable.

Some of the girls in the orphanage found Buttercup and it was hard to pry them off after that.

Adelina wanted her to release it into the wild, so after that argument, she pretended she did, but stopped carrying her around everywhere.

Buttercup once jumped on Eight's hair and matted it down while hugging him. Marina had a nosebleed.

Eight:

Adil never stays in the same form for two days in a row.

Eight sometimes got confused which animal he was until he jumps at him on first sight.

Eight tried to mimic what Adil does when he got his shapeshifting.

They almost always sleep cuddled together because what on earth would feel safer?

When he lost his chest, he was very anxious and worried at first and Adil was there on his back waiting a belly rub (he's so out of context).

Nine:

A hawk, or a Dalmatian, called Domino. Depends on how many mud prints Sandor doesn't want on the floor.

Literally just an animal version of the dude.

Maddy probably liked him more than she liked Nine.

He would stick his snout/beak around when Sandor is working then go feral when a spark from the welding thing catches him.

The garde can now tell when Nine is internalizing something because Domino's tail falls drastically.

Ten:

One of the baby Chimaera from the ship followed in the same direction as them when they landed and Crayton didn't have the heart to leave it alone.

Ella named her Coco because she liked to be a brown rabbit.

Crayton taught her almost everything about tending to chimaera by the time she was six, so she probably has more experience than all of the others combined.

Coco huddles up with her in bed and even in the blanket she was always in during FoF.

Snuck into her shirt when the Mogs kidnapped her, got on the Anubis undetected, tried to bite off Setrakus' fingers then felt bad because she hurt Ella instead.

[watercolor-hearts]

Maxiel prompts idea

Something sweet with the cats in it

At the factory, them being cute while they need to work or during a meeting something like that

With their family

“At the factory, them being cute [...]” Well... I've been in a hurt/comfort and/or angst mood since the Singapore GP so I couldn't really write anything cute, I don't know if it's because I'm almost always sad and exhausted or because of something else but yeah, for some reason it's not easy nowadays. But I still wanted to write something because I didn't want you to have to wait even longer. So yeah. A bit of hurt/comfort with Daniel, Max and Simon. I hope you'll still like it. Thank you for the prompts. 😊❤

Max&Daniel • 534 words • sad Daniel • (after the) first sim session at Red Bull • emotional hurt/comfort • light angst • hugs • supportive characters • Ao3 link

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“Daniel!” Max exclaimed as he noticed Daniel coming out of the sim room in the factory. Daniel looked at him and smiled, not wanting to show the disappointment he felt after his first session.

“Maximus, hi,” Daniel greeted after getting closer to him, opening his arms for a hug which Max reciprocated immediately.

“Good to see you here. How was the sim?”

Daniel gulped, thinking about whether he should tell the truth. “It was… Difficult.”

Max's eyes grew huge after hearing Daniel's confession, “Wha—Why? Is there something wrong?”

“It's just…” Daniel shook his head, “It's just me. I'm the problem.”

“B-but… No, Daniel,” Max said firmly, looking around, “Where is Simon? I need to talk to him. He of course cannot say something like this when it was just your first time after years.”

Daniel put his hand on Max's arm to stop him, “He didn't say it. I said it. I… I need a break,” Daniel said, his voice sounded so broken it broke Max's heart into small pieces. “We're… We're working on it. It's just a bit difficult with my… Driving style now. It's not the same as it used to be.”

“Fucking Mc—” Max wanted to say but Daniel cut him by putting his finger on Max's lips.

“Don't say it. It doesn't matter anymore.”

“It does, Daniel! They fucked you up. They did you dirty and they didn't appreciate you enough.”

“I couldn't deliver.”

“First win in ten years?”

“One good moment in two years.”

“Fuck y—,” Max almost said but instead he just sighed and rolled his eyes.

“Yeah, fuck me, thanks mate,” Daniel agreed, “I guess I should go now.”

As Daniel took a step towards the door, Max grabbed his t-shirt. He couldn't let him sink into depressive thoughts again.

“I still believe in you, Daniel,” Max said, looking straight into Daniel's sad brown eyes, “I do and I want you to believe in yourself too. Please. You have your engineer back, you will figure it out again. I know you will. Believe in yourself, please,” Max asked, pulling Daniel into a hug and not planning to let him go for a few long seconds.

“Max's right, Daniel,” came a familiar voice, Simon's, from not so far away, and when he got closer, he squeezed Daniel's shoulder to show some support, “You'll figure it out. We will figure it out. We're a team. You have me, Max, Christian, and everyone. We'll help. We believe in you and you have to believe in yourself to make this work.”

“Thank you,” Daniel murmured, slowly looking up at Simon, “I'll try to.”

“We'll leave all those bad habits you picked up in the last few years. Give yourself time and don't be so hard on yourself, alright?”

“Y-yeah,” Daniel nodded, going for a hug with Simon after Max had let go of him. “Thank you for believing in me. I'll try and find the honey badger in me. The good ol’ honey badger. He's there somewhere.”

“Good,” Simon nodded, patting Daniel's shoulder after the hug and then he turned to Max to do the same with him. “Go and have a rest, guys, you deserve it. See you next time.”

[moonfurthetemmie]

Champion-Related Stuff. Mostly Fluff.

this is the last of what I have for now

Jasper has made homemade dog treats on at least once occasion and he immediately became Champ’s second-favorite

Obsidian is canonically a dog person, but I have a feeling Shale isn’t too keen on having a husky in the manor. Champ is pretty well-trained though, so Shale can get him to at least go away when he’s going aAWAWAAWAWAWA. Also Lucidity would probably run him through and fry him if he tried to hurt his dog, so there’s that. Other than that, tho, he does like Champ. Champ will lay down at his feet and chill with him sometimes. They’re vibing. Mostly. 

Jade loooooves Champ. Lucidity lets him and Dark keep an eye on the good boye when he has to leave, though he makes sure Jade actually knows how to take care of a dog first. While Dark isn’t super sure he likes Lucidity, he doesn’t mind watching Champion. Champ seems to be very happy and well-cared for, so Lucidity can’t be all that bad. Right?

Koroit builds up some crazy static if she’s not careful, and has to wear gloves just so she doesn’t burn her own hands from her magic, so I feel like she might not want to pet Champ. He desperately wants pats but she doesn’t want to accidentally zap him. Especially since she has no idea how much might kill him. Eventually she does figure out how to make sure she doesn’t hurt him giving him pats. Out of necessity. He keeps putting his head on her knee and giving her these big ol eyes when she’s sitting down.

I think Lucidity trained Champ not to get up on furniture, but Champ’s smart enough to realize that he can get away with it with some people. In particular Jade. Jade will let Champ up on the couch or his bed and let Champ squish him. Jade’s lucky Dark’s the only one who knows so far that he’s the main one responsible for this, because Shale’s not happy with all the husky fur on his goddam furniture.

Jet feels like a cat person, but I also feel like Nightshade would be the kind of guy who goes ‘we are NOT getting a dog’ and then becomes the dog’s best friend when they get one. Though let’s be real, Nightshade is also probably letting Champ up on the furniture once in a while. He only does it if he’s not wearing his nice clothes that he goes out in public with. He is NOT getting dog fur on his clothes!!!!!!!!!

Champ will sit with Paraiba and Silver and ‘join’ their conversation. He recognizes that Silver’s hand thing is a way of talking, because he can see that Paraiba will stop making noise when they start signing things, and start making noise when they’re done. They’re rather impressed. Once Champ starts ‘talking’ though it’s just him and Paraiba. 

“AwwaWAWAAWa”

“Oh? Really? Tell me more.”

“grrrOOO”

“I see, I see. Have you considered communism?”

“BARK awawa”

“Hm, yeah, good point.”

Just. that. For like ten minutes. Silver is having a hard time keeping a straight face

Zuli’s a little afraid of Champ at first, but since he’s a very well-trained good boy Champ knows to sit and be calm, especially when someone seems nervous. Champ happily accepts head pats. Champ will trot along beside Zuli when he comes upstairs. He tries to get Zuli to play with him but Zuli doesn’t usually have the energy to. Champ is sad. Zuli gives scritches though so he’s not too upset. 

Actually, I wonder if Champ gets a little vocal if Shale’s around and he notices Zuli’s getting really nervous. Especially when Shale gets close. Champ’s not being aggressive or even threatening, but he’s clearly not happy. Zuli is now Champ’s biggest fan in the manor, aside from Lucidity himself. Champ has become his emotional support dog and he’s almost looking forward to coming upstairs now. He gets mostly left alone by Shale, there’s a very sweet dog who wants to hang out with him, and the very sweet dog seems to keep telling Shale to fuck off. 

Lucidity doesn’t even know why or how Champ seems to know what’s going on, but he’s more than happy to let Zuli go around with Champ while he’s upstairs. Eventually Shale just leaves him alone entirely. Not worth it. This might mean Zuli can just stay upstairs, but I think Zuli would be too afraid that Shale would want to mess with him again if he does. Because there’s no way Champ’s going to stay with him 24/7; Champ has all these other people, including his actual owner, to hang out with and play with and mooch treats off of. He doesn’t begrudge Champ time with the other humans who adore him, he just would like to continue having Shale leave him the hell alone.

Lucidity gets Champ a few dog beds. They’re around the manor. One’s in his room, there’s one in a couple of the shared spaces like the living room and stuff. In about a week there’s 3x more dog beds than Lucidity got and no one will admit to getting any. There’s also a bunch of dog toys, like, everywhere. Champ is having a GREAT time. Lucidity caught Nightshade bringing Champ a squeaky toy. Champ loves this squeaky toy. Shale does not like the squeaky toy. Champ can’t have the squeaky toy when Shale’s around :(( 

Champ’s presence is actually boosting the mood of pretty much everyone in the manor. This means better performance from the team, but shale doesn’t like that everyone’s so happy. Lucidity keeps making comments about him being a cartoon villain whenever Shale says anything about it, even indirectly, and it’s just making Shale more mad. Nightshade is having so much fun watching this. 

Champ probably follows Jasper around some nights. Human up??? What human doing??? What going on :0 

As much as Lucidity would like to take Champ for a trip outside of the manor’s universe, he knows that the manor is safe. The only people who know where it is are the people who live there. And he’s terrified that someone would see them and try to take Champ from him, one way or another. Fortunately, Champ’s very happy to have this ginormous house and yard to run around in, so Lucidity doesn’t feel too bad. 

Lucidity is very protective of Champ now. He’s all he has left. He’ll lose Champion one day, yes; but peacefully passing from old age is something Lucidity can handle. It happens. It’s happened so many times. It’ll break his heart, but at least he’ll know Champion lived a full, happy life. 

[boomboxboi]

Narancia Ghirga

An in-depth look at the character.

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Buckle up, folks. This post is going to be a disgustingly long one.

I’ll break it down into 5 categories;

Past

Personality

Relationships

Stand

Conclusion

This post is going to have a lot of theories presented based on facts we are given about the character. You are welcome to disagree with these theories.

That being said- there will be heavy topics addressed ahead so read with caution.

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Past

Narancia’s past was summed up in a total of 9 pages in the manga (yes, I counted).

I’ll give a VERY brief summary of his past here.

Narancia’s mother died from an eye disease when he was ten years old.

His father (unnamed) never showed affection to Narancia. Especially after his mother passed away.

Narancia stopped attending school and spent time with his friends, instead.

Narancia was framed and sent to juvie.

The cops beat Narancia.

Narancia left juvie with an infected eye.

Narancia’s friends avoided him.

He learned he was betrayed by his friend.

Narancia stays in the streets and gives up on life.

Fugo crosses paths with Narancia and takes him to eat spaghetti.

Bucciaratti brings him to a hospital for treatment.

Narancia asks to join the mafia and Bruno yells at him.

Narancia returns home and never trusts his father again.

6 months later, Narancia joins Passione.

All of this is a very glossed over summarization of what we learn about Narancia in 9 pages. And those nine pages are extremely telling.

Let’s take a more in-depth look at all of this information.

First, let’s start with the fact that Narancia, at age 10, effectively lost both of his parents. Between his mother suddenly dying from an unnamed eye disease (which I speculate to be orbital cellulitis) and his father (word for word in the manga) “never showed much affection for his son, and after the mothers death, he only became more and more distant”.

Narancia, without outright stating it, was neglected by his father.

The following are what is considered neglect from the written work “Child Neglect: A Guide for Prevention, Assessment, and Intervention” and examples that Narancia directly experienced in those short 9 pages;

Physical Neglect

Abandonment - the desertion of a child without arranging for his reasonable care or supervision.

{source 1}

Example:

Narancia was roaming the streets and sleeping at friends houses.

Nutritional Neglect - when a child is undernourished or is repeatedly hungry for long periods of time, which can sometimes be evidenced by poor growth.

{source 1}

Examples:

Narancia was stealing his dinners (pre-juvie).

Narancia was “scrounging for food like a cat through the trash cans behind a restaurant” (post-juvie).

“Narancia was hospitalized. With a real bed and proper nutrition—-“ (direct from the manga).

Medical Neglect

Delay in Health Care - the failure to seek timely and appropriate medical care for a serious health problem that any reasonable person would have recognized as needing professional medical attention.

{source 1}

Example:

Narancia’s eye infection- which was a result of the beatings he received from the cops while in juvie.

Inadequate Supervision

Permitting or not keeping the child from engaging in risky, illegal, or harmful behaviors.

{source 1}

Examples:

Narancia stealing food.

Narancia roaming the streets unsupervised or with other children.

Narancia dropping out of school.

Emotional Neglect

Inadequate Nurturing or Affection- the persistent, marked inattention to the child’s needs for affection, emotional support, or attention.

{source 1}

Example:

Narancia’s father was noted as being distant (and extremely so after his mother passed).

Narancia’s father (in the anime) did not reassure him of the eye disease that killed his mother and left him alone at her grave.

Other permitted maladaptive behavior - the encouragement or permission of other maladaptive behavior under circumstances where the parent or caregiver has reason to be aware of the existence and the seriousness of the problem, but does not intervene.

{source 1}

Examples:

Narancia goes to juvie.

Narancia drops out of school.

Narancia joins the mafia.

Educational Neglect

Permitted Chronic Truancy - permitting habitual absenteeism from school averaging at least 5 days a month if the parent or guardian is informed of the problem and does not attempt to intervene.

{source 1}

Example:

Narancia stops attending school.

Narancia only resumes school attendance (for a time) under Bruno’s directive.

Narancia drops out of school again and joins the mafia.

Failure to enroll or other truancy- failing to homeschool, to register, or to enroll a child of mandatory school age, causing the child to miss at least 1 month of school without valid reasons.

{source 1}

Example:

Narancia not attending school and only having a basic education due to dropping out of primary school and not attending up to age 17.

His father shows multiple signs of neglect in just 9 pages by being relatively absent in Narancia’s life. So much so that Narancia actively looks up to and admires a member of the mafia.

Studies also show that losing a parent at a young age through death typically has a negative impact on the child’s life.

Most notably being that kids who have lost a parent are more than twice as likely to show impairments in functioning at school and at home, even 7 years later.

{source 2}

Narancia is shown to struggle immensely with school and education as a whole. It’s likely that Narancia’s mother’s passing heavily influenced his behavior to drop out of school- coupled with the lack of parenting and guidance he received from his father.

All in all, it’s pretty clear that Narancia had a turbulent upbringing that led to him joining Passione.

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Personality

Narancia is often described as being childish, quick-tempered, and loyal towards his friends.

A lot of this is displayed throughout the manga. And a lot of this is easily explained away by his upbringing.

Let’s touch on Narancia’s behavior which clearly stems back from his childhood neglect. For this, I will focus on how neglect effects childhood development.

Children who experience neglect in their childhood often display the following symptoms;

depression

anxiety

apathy

failure to thrive

hyperactivity

aggression

developmental delays

low self-esteem

Substance misuse

withdrawing from friends and activities

appearing uncaring or indifferent

shunning emotional closeness or intimacy

{source 3}

Narancia does show signs of anxiety when he’s forced to choose in betraying Passione (granted, many would experience that. However, his response was heavily focused on at the time and he had a visceral reaction to having to make a choice for himself).

Failure to thrive is indicated heavily with his poor education. As well as developmental delays.

Narancia also appears to be aggressive. This showing in how he reacts to those he deems a threat to him or giving him any negative response.

Take for example the first time we meet Narancia as he’s studying with Fugo. The two break into a fight and Narancia is ready to stab/attack Fugo. This shows up again when he violently attacks Formaggio with his stand while also kicking the car Formaggio is in. There are other instances as well, where he kicks Zucchero’s head, attacks the man with the white suit, and other various instances where he reacts with extreme violence.

I would also argue that Narancia’s experience in betrayal from both his father and those he deemed his friends affect his personality as well.

Betrayal Trauma occurs most commonly from:

Child abuse- including physical, sexual abuse, and emotional abuse (e.g., manipulation, gaslighting, verbal abuse, etc.)

{source 4}

As discussed prior, Narancia had experienced abuse in his childhood via neglect from his father. However, betrayal trauma can occur from other instances of trauma in one’s life as well.

Betrayal trauma differs vastly from other types of trauma because it involves not just the experience of abuse but also the experience of being betrayed by a key relationship such as; a parent, caregiver, guardian, significant other, or other individual who is relied upon for support and safety.

{source 4}

It’s made relatively clear that Narancia relies on his friends for support and safety when his father does not provide it. He stays in their homes, steals food with them, and blatantly states that friendship is what he deems as most important.

A few signs of betrayal trauma are:

Intrusive thoughts and images

Nightmares or flashbacks

Avoidance behaviors

Hypervigilance (constantly scanning your environment for potential threats)

Irritability or angry outbursts

Insomnia

Fearfulness

Social withdrawal

Feeling emotionally numb

Physical symptoms of tension headaches, migraines, and fatigue

{source 4}

Narancia could be stated to be rather hyper vigilant when you realize his stand has a radar to detect carbon emissions. He also has angry outbursts (as discussed prior), irritability, and even a tinge of fearfulness (when left to make his own choices).

Those who suffer from betrayal trauma may also have issues with regulating their emotions. This is something we see in Narancia time and time again. Where as other members of the Bucci Gang are able to compose their emotions (especially when it comes to their tasks at hand), Narancia struggles with this. He’s the only one who has an outburst over Abbacchio’s death, he constantly lashes out when harmed, and overall seems to struggle with handling his emotions.

The betrayal and neglect that Narancia suffered at a young age does seem to contribute heavily to his childish personality despite not being the youngest member of the team (Narancia 17. Giorno 15. Fugo 16).

I would also say that Narancia seems to have unwavering loyalty for those that he trusts. Those he does not trust immediately receive volatile reactions from him. We see this when Formaggio is in the car (constantly referring to him as a stalker), attacking Trish when they first encounter one another, immediately claiming a civilian is an enemy and attacking them, and so on. I strongly believe that this also stems from the betrayal that Narancia faced at a young age (coupled with his role in the mafia).

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Relationships

Onto my favorite part about this post. Relationships. I’m going to delve into the relationships that are presented in the manga and give my thoughts on three categories;

How the relationship is outwardly presented

How it effects Narancia

Overall thoughts of the relationship

Theories (for fun)

The characters we will delve into on this section are as follows;

Narancia’s Mother

Narancia’s Father

Unnamed Blond Friend

Bruno Bucciarati

Panacotta Fugo

Guido Mista

Leone Abbacchio

Giorno Giovanna

Trish Una

Narancia’s Mother

Outwardly Presented: He does not seem to have any ill-will towards his mother. In the anime, Narancia seems to be genuinely concerned of his mother’s well-being while she’s in the hospital. And once she passes away, he even visits her grave.

Relationship Effects: While Narancia only had his mother in his life for 10 years, the impact it left on him is a core feature of his character. He constantly dwells on his mother’s death and the eye disease that killed her. He even tells his unnamed blond friend over this and then has it used against him.

Overall: I believe Narancia was close to his mother in the way any young child would be. He does seem to be worried about his mother when in the hospital and is even seen visiting her grave when older. I can’t speculate on what relationship his mother and father had together, however I feel I can say that once his mother passed, the neglect he experienced only seemed to grow.

Theories: Because Narancia’s mother had passed from an eye disease (read my thoughts on that here: https://m.facebook.com/groups/5738337702888821/permalink/6284327651623154/?mibextid=qC1gEa) that manifests due to trauma to the eye, I would say that her relationship with her husband may have involved physical altercations. I think this compounded the trauma that Narancia faced once his mother had passed and I would even say that his mother may have originally been pressured to not have Narancia but opted to do so which put a strain on the relationship.

Narancia’s Father

Outwardly Presented: It is clearly stated that Narancia does not think highly of his father. He refers to him as a piece of shit, was neglected by him, and does not trust him.

Relationship Effects: Due to the neglect that Narancia faced under his fathers care (which was gone over in above sections), I think it’s safe to say his father was a large contributing factor as to why Narancia had become a part of the mafia. Without proper guidance or parental care in his earlier years, Narancia was bound to slip into a life of crime. Especially after the people who essentially saved his life were members of a crime syndicate. Had his father been present in his life, there likely would have been a different outcome.

Overall: The manga makes a clear point that Narancia’s father was not involved in his son’s life. So much so that when Narancia was living on the streets and dealing with an eye infection that clearly was taking it’s toll on him, he did not go home or if he did, his father did not handle the situation accordingly. This lack of care is what sent Narancia on the path he wound up on.

Theories: Buckle up because I have a few theories on Narancia’s father. I’ll touch on 3 big ones that I feel are highly possible (but do not have concrete facts to back these up).

Narancia is not the unnamed man’s biological child. How his mother wound up pregnant with Narancia is irrelevant. Where the issue stems from is that the man he perceives as his father does not have the interest of the child in mind.

Narancia’s father was abusive towards his mother and it’s how she wound up with the eye infection (and why Narancia getting beat by cops resulted in the same eye infection).

Narancia’s always been a problem child and his father was not equipped to handle this and he grew distant from his child. Especially after the mother’s death.

Unnamed Blond Friend

Outwardly Presented: We only see two brief interactions with Narancia and his unnamed blond friend. The first is when he convinces Narancia to dye his hair blond. The second is when he sees him again after he’s let out of juvie. Both interactions had forms of manipulation in them to benefit the blond male.

Relationship Effects: The effects of this relationship are, essentially, what sent Narancia into the lowest point of his life. Before, Narancia had his friends to trust and rely in. He even mentally beat himself up when he suspected his friend set him up and only accepted this as a fact once he saw his friend again after juvie and learned he was spreading rumors about the eye disease that killed his mother.

Overall: Overall, this relationship is what I think solidified Narancia’s path in life. While his father set him on that path, this betrayal from a close friend is what led to him giving up on life. After all, he had valued his friendships above all and now that was torn from him.

Theories: My only theory in regards to this man is that I think he was addicted to drugs that Passione were distributing. Hence why he beat the old woman for her money and then framed Narancia. Not to mention, in both the manga & anime, he seems a bit disheveled.

Bruno Bucciarati

Outwardly Presented: Bruno is Narancia’s hero. It states as much in the manga. Bucciarati is, after all, the one who gave his food up for Narancia to eat and then took him to a hospital. Even his harsh words about Narancia not joining the mafia made Narancia realize there are people who care for your well-being. He even wants Bruno to call the shots for him when he has to make a life-altering choice.

Relationship Effects: Where as the first people mentioned are people who set Narancia down the path of becoming a mafioso, Bruno was there to try and deter him. Of course, this did not work but only because Narancia found he had far more admiration for Bucciarati than he ever had for his father. After all, Bruno showed him he cared through actions and words. He did this by getting Narancia the medical attention he desperately needed, offered him a place to stay (though immediately told him to go back home and to school), and then told him that the mafia life was not worth joining and that he would be better off having a normal life as a civilian. He also had Narancia choose his own life path and refused to order him onto the boat to betray the boss. Which, ultimately, sparked the conviction Narancia was lacking in his life.

Overall: Bucciarati had the biggest (positive) impact on Narancia out of everyone in his life. He truly wanted what was best for Narancia and not with any implications behind it. This was something that Narancia had not experienced before in his life. His father abandoned him. His friends used and betrayed him. Bruno was there for him at his lowest and remained there for him without expecting anything in return.

Theories: While Narancia did return home after his stay at the hospital, he clearly thought a lot about what Bucciarati said and did for him. It was stated that, after he returned home, he never trusted his father again. I truly believe that this was because this is the first time Narancia saw and experienced what it was like to have someone care for you with no conditions attached. I always found it curious that it was stated so clearly that Narancia NO LONGER trusted his father. Especially up to that point in his life. And after thinking on it, I believe Bruno is what made Narancia learn he deserved so much more than he was getting.

Panacotta Fugo

Outwardly Presented: This relationship has always vexed me. Clearly, the two are very close. Both have extreme tempers and easily explode on one another. But there’s also the level of care and concern they both have for one another as well. Fugo takes on a pretty large role in Narancia’s life. After all, he is the one to bring him to Bruno. He’s also the one that helps him study. And if you count PHF as canon, he’s also the one to help Narancia join Passione behind Bruno’s back.

Relationship Effects: While I could say Narancia was impacted by Fugo, I think it was the other way around. Fugo was Impacted by Narancia. Especially if we take PHF into consideration as canon. Throughout, Fugo constantly reflects on his time with Narancia. Sure, Fugo helped Narancia with getting off the streets and helped Narancia with his education, but he also helped Narancia join Passione behind Bruno’s back and against Bruno’s wishes. I certainly think he cares deeply for Narancia but I do feel there is also a level of selfishness in his care, as well.

Overall: Narancia and Fugo both have large impacts on one another. Where Fugo helps with giving Narancia a new chance at life through bringing him to the mafia and helping his education, I believe Narancia helps Fugo by showing him that there’s always room for growth and that you can better your circumstances in life even when it feels impossible to do so- solely by having the right people around you.

Theories: Here is where the fun theories begin. Aka the ship battles. So feel free to agree or disagree because it’s gonna be a hot take (maybe). I actually do not think these two would ever work out romantically. Aside from how volatile they can react to one another from time to time, there’s also a power imbalance between the two. I do feel that there may have also been some misunderstandings between the both of them in regards to having a romantic relationship but I do not ever see it truly working out between the two. Esepcially due to the fact that Narancia, in the end, decided to follow change, while Fugo remained the same (which is an allegory I would love to touch on one day).

Guido Mista

Outwardly Presented: The two come across as friendly and very close with one another. Friendly enough that 1) they know a whole choreographed dance, 2) they constantly bicker and tease each other over little things (ie.pouring soda on the speaker, the chocolate bickering, etc). and 3) the way they hang off of each other and outwardly show concern for one another.

Relationship Effects: While we don’t see a lot of interaction focused heavily on these two, there are a lot of background interactions we see that show these two are close with one another. It’s hard to really say what effect the two have on one another aside from when Narancia passed, Guido was clearly very distraught. More so than he was with Abbacchio in the sense that he did not hide his emotions through his death. And that, to me, speaks volumes.

Overall: Everyone sleeps on these two. It’s clear that they are close to one another despite the focus of their interactions not being front and center. They have a deep connection, as they’re able to have a coordinated dance routine, and Narancia’s death leaving a large impact on Mista.

Theories: They’re fuckin’. Okay no- but if it’s not clear, y’all sleepin’ on them as a couple. One day, I’m gonna write a whole essay on these two as a pairing and you’ll be subjected to my disgusting opinions. But aside from that, I just want to say that they do come across as extremely close to one another despite screen time between them never being the main focus and I wish there would have been more interactions that focused on just these two, as a whole.

Leone Abbacchio

Outwardly Presented: These two are another that don’t have a lot of direct interactions with one another. However, it does seem that Narancia holds Abbacchio in high regards, going as far as to ask him to have Fugo stop jamming him with the keys and then being distraught at Abbacchio’s passing.

Relationship Effects: I really wish we would have seen more interaction between these two. However, I still believe they’re close enough to warrant the reaction Narancia had upon his death.

Overall: Narancia seems to have respect for Abbacchio and seemed to be touched by his death. I really wish we could have gotten more interactions between the two of them but also it makes sense that we didn’t, as Abbacchio seems more the type to keep to himself.

Theories: Less of a theory and more of just a part I wish would have been explored more. I really wish that the topic of Abbacchio being a former officer and Narancia experiencing brutality from the police at juvie would have been touched up on. I’d love to have seen how Abbacchio would react to that and how Narancia would have felt upon learning about Abbacchio’s former job. (Maybe a fic idea for the future).

Giorno Giovanna

Outwardly Presented: Another person that could have had more interaction. However, it’s clear that Narancia has no qualms with Giorno. He even views him as smart and reliable. Though, Narancia seems to tease him about the age difference between them and bragging about being older.

Relationship Effects: Narancia seems to have respect for Giorno. Whether this is because his allies (especially Bruno) trust him or because Giorno earned his respect, is up for debate. However, he clearly thinks Giorno is smart- trying to relay the message of an enemy attack with his fight against Tizzano and Squalo. Additionally, he does try to save Giorno, as well. There’s also the point where they swap bodies and both seem relatively comfortable in each others skin. I do think they have very similar upbringings and would have loved for them to have a conversation about this on screen. There was a lot for them to relate to.

Overall: Narancia has respect for Giorno and has a similar upbringing as him. I would even dare to say that because of the similarities, they would have been extremely close friends had Narancia survived. I also want to point out that Giorno had seen something in Narancia enough to 1) become visibly upset over his death and 2) promise to take his body home at the end. Both of these were things he did not promise to Abbacchio nor Bruno. Though, it’s clear they all had an impact on Giorno.

Theories: Because of how similar I feel their upbringings are, I strongly believe that Narancia was meant to be a foil to Giorno. Not only do we see them have emotionally unavailable parents and neglect, but both find their savior through the mafia. However, Giorno has a clear dream and goal and a driving force to push him through where as Narancia does not have this until he’s forced to make a choice between staying behind or betraying the boss. Only then does he have a goal and direction and meaning given to his life.

Trish Una

Outwardly Presented: Narancia does not seem to have much of a connection to Trish until he sees her wrist and fully understands how she’s alone, like him. Once that happens, Narancia states he wants to protect Trish with his life and that she’s “just like him”. From there, the two seem to become rather close. Just under Trish trusting Bruno, I would say she trusts Narancia the most, after that.

Relationship Effects: Trish is Narancia’s biggest driving force to change his life. Without her, his life would have remained the same. There would have been no drive to become better and do better by himself or others. With Trish, Narancia has a reason to do better. He has a goal to protect her and, by default, now must put effort into his own life.

Overall: As elaborated, Trish is Narancia’s reason. His “why” for the actions that follow the remainder of the series. I also think that it was good for Trish to have another person aside from Bruno to put her full trust and faith in. Additionally, Narancia was able to learn from Trish that it’s possible to move past trauma and push forward to a better life.

Theories: I truly believe that Narancia and Trish would have started a new life outside of the mafia together (romantically or platonically) had Narancia survived. They both seemed to have formed a deep bond with one another after Narancia opted to protect Trish. Narancia often trying to give her some form of comfort (and Trish even seeking for comfort when their bodies swapped and she hugged Narancia’s body while forgetting that Giorno was in said body).

To wrap up this section, Narancia had his life impacted by multiple people. Some in a positive way and others in a negative way. The way each interaction helped to shape how Narancia, as a person, was shows how intricate the character. No matter if the interaction was shown direct on screen or implied off screen, he has a deep ness to his character that is shown through the interactions he holds with others and the lasting impact he left behind.

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Stand

In this section, I wanted to go over Aerosmith, as stands are stated to be a physical representation of the user’s soul. This means that Aerosmith, with all design choices in place, is a direct representation of Narancia as a whole. While most of this section is purely speculation (due to the lack of facts we are given), I want people to really consider all aspects of the stand design.

These are what I will focus on for this section:

Appearance

Abilities

Attitude

Appearance

Taking on the shape of a toy fighter jet, Aerosmith is small but deadly. A tiny pilot is inside (Mr. Smith), which seemingly controls the jet. Additionally, there are features of eyes and a mouth on the front of the plane and the primary color pallet used is red and yellow (though other color pallets are used from time to time).

A deeper dive on what these appearances convey are interesting to ponder.

The first thing to note is that it takes on a fighter jet. To me, this shows that Narancia could come across as having both a fight or flight mode, though he often chooses fight. It could be interrupted that, while he fights for smaller ordeals in his life, he tends to avoid or “fly away” from the bigger issues. To elaborate on this, Narancia easily fights off enemies and direct threats. However, he is avoiding the issue of a deeper purpose (until deciding his purpose is to protect Trish).

Next, the plane is toy-sized. This fits in with the fact that Narancia, as a character, is still very child-like. A contributing factor to this was the neglect he faced at early stages in his life. Both malnutrition, educational neglect, and lack of guidance gives him the air of being much younger than he is and room to grow, as an individual.

Mr. Smith, the pilot, is also what controls/guides Aerosmith. To me, this indicates a need for guidance. Someone else is piloting his life until he seemingly takes control. Or, it could be seen that he is attempting to escape living life on auto-pilot.

The eyes and mouth feature also is fascinating. It gives the plane a more threatening aura. Be this an outside mask to come across as more aggressive to ward off those who may try to harm Narancia.

Finally, the main color scheme being red and yellow. Red is often the color of passion. Passionate feelings arise in not just romance but in intensity of any emotion. And Narancia displays his emotions very intensely. The yellow color often is attributed to hope, youth, and joy. This, to me, shows he is striving to have a life of joy.

Abilities

Aerosmith, as a stand, has a wide range of abilities and uses. Between being a long-ranged stand that can shoot endless bullets from its machine guns, drop a bomb, and detect carbon dioxide on a small radar, it’s astounding how much this tiny stand can truly contribute to the team.

When really dissecting what each ability could relay about Narancia’s soul, you may find some interesting attributes to think through.

The difference between long range and close range stands always has me perplexed. What decides on who gets long range versus close range? I believe it’s a wide array of factors that decide this. In Narancia’s case, I believe it stems from his needs to wanting to be close to others but the struggles to truly allow himself that closeness unless earned. He, like his stand, prefers to keep a distance unless he trusts them enough to “land”.

Endless bullets, for me, shows Narancia’s boundless energy and constant rebuttals to life. He’s had to constantly keep his guard up so the fact that his ammunition never seems to run out is awfully convenient for a stand to have. On the flip side, it also shows that Narancia has had to constantly fight to keep afloat.

The singular bomb shows Narancia’s explosive attitude when angered. Small things can set him off and when he’s set off, his outburst can lead to irreversible damage. Much like a bomb going off, Narancia cannot undo the damage that is done when he lets his emotions get the better of him.

The radar, for me, really shows Narancia’s profound need to find those he can rely on and trust. It also shows how he has his guard up at all times, as well. A radar is used to search and locate. So what is it Narancia is so keen on finding that his stand- the literal representation of his soul- manifests a radar? For me, it’s finding who he can trust and keeping an eye out for danger. Carbon dioxide comes from living beings but it also comes from fire. Both can provide comfort but also hurt you. So the radar, for me, represents the duality of humans.

Attitude

This may be the hardest to dissect, as Aerosmith is not exactly a humanoid stand (though Mr. Smith is presumably a humanoid pilot). However, Aerosmith does have a few distinct actions that gives it “attitude”. Father way in which the stand moves, is what I am referring to. Specifically how it behaves when flying and landing. It can either fly erratic when attacking, slow and steady while hunting, or, when it lands, on Narancia’s arms like an airstrip.

Studying how the stand moves is an important key factor in understanding Narancia, as a character.

Erratic movements while fighting displays the same erratic behavior Narancia shows when he is upset. There is no regulation in his stand’s movements just as there are no regulations with his emotions.

Contrastly, when Aerosmith is searching for a target, it flies steady and with determination. This showcases Narancia’s capabilities of focusing when he puts his mind to something.

Finally, the fact that his stand lands on his arms like an airstrip is such a unique and compelling attribute. The fact that his stand uses Narancia to “land” really shows that Narancia, and only Narancia, has the ability to guide himself. Whether he thinks that or not is not the point. The fact that his soul manifestation uses him as a guide for landing shows that Narancia was the only one, in the end, who could make life choices for himself.

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Conclusion

Narancia is so much more than what people give him credit for. Sure, I may have speculated a lot, but this is just a character deep-dive of what I feel was shown through all aspects of his character.

You may have a different opinion, and that is okay.

But at the end of the day, Narancia is a great character with so many complexities that come across as so deeply human and he deserves more appreciation.

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Sources

{source 1 - https://www.childwelfare.gov/pubPDFs/neglect_ch2.pdf}

{source 2 - https://www.psychiatry.pitt.edu/news/longest-and-most-detailed-study-pediatric-grief-following-parental-loss-date-department}

{source 3 - https://www.healthline.com/health/mental-health/childhood-emotional-neglect#symptoms-in-children}

{source 4 - https://mindwellnyc.com/top-betrayal-trauma-signs-triggers-strategies-to-recovery-2022/}

Note: I wrote this and posted it on a few other sites. Also this is just me being speculative and very bored at work one day. Feel free to disagree but please don’t be rude. I just don’t have the energy for it.

[everyonewoo03]

Virtual reality AU

_Player 107 Wonwoo

_Oneshot (Part 1)

Genre: Action/Science Fic

Warning: Shooting will be mentioned.

Enjoy :)

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“You gotta be kidding me.” He laughs.

“It’s true Woo, you gotta believe me!”

“That sounds ridiculous, you know that right?” He side eyed me.

Oh come on.

“Me? Dying?” He coughs.

“It looked so real…” I pouted.

“I’m not going anywhere cupcake.” He pets my head, lips forming a smile.

“She’s just being dramatic.” Mingyu spoke from the kitchen.

“Oh come on Gyu, you’re worse.”

Wonwoo laughs.

“Shut up.” Mingyu answered.

I smiled like a kid.

“Come on guys, we need to go complete a mission.” Scoups called out.

I’ve been living with Seventeen ever since I woke up in this strange place.

They found me at my most vulnerable state, and they took me in. They’ve been my brothers and protectors ever since. Since I’ve been with them for almost a year, those nice mannered men had definitely changed. If you know what I mean.

We are currently living in 2032 where humanity has been taken over by the AI and we were a few of those humans left. Before we get on to the present, let me introduce to you to ‘The Boys’

SCoups: The fierce leader who has to take care of 13 + 1 (me) children, who can’t stay still when they are together on normal days. He may be strict and manly, but he has a soft heart in the inside and sometimes will just be a big cute softie. A great combat soldier. You can never win him in fights.

Jeonghan: The second oldest in the group. A huge prankster who also has great skills in a mission. He’s like a mom. I would go to him for emotional support.

Joshua: He’s the gentle sexy guy of the group who has good looks and is smart. He’s good in every language and also good in searching information for missions. I call him Shua hyung like the other guys. He gives me great hugs.

Jun: He’s the most naive guy in this group. But he is also very smart. Tend to find Plan B just in case Plan A doesn’t work out.

Hoshi: Horanghae of the group. Do I have to say more?

Wonwoo: A super cold guy at first. But at first sight I thought he looked like a black cat. He’s a gamer dude so killing robots are actually his speciality. He’s the ace in this. Tall, Black leather jacket, black hair, sharp eyes…you might want to stay away. (whisper) He’s actually a softie inside too, only to certain people.

Woozi: The mastermind behind all the missions. Also the smallest and fittest person in the group. Our group combat trainer.

DK: The clown. But don’t be fooled. He can kill you too.

Mingyu: The big tall athletic muscular guy. Don’t be afraid tho, he’s a huge softie that always gets bullied by his older brothers. He will protect you tho. A drama Queen too.

The8: The kungfu master. Can kill ten in one shot. No kidding. You do not want to piss him off. A advice giver too.

Seungkwan: Mr Boo. He’s my diva. He sings really well but he can be a diva at some times, no actually most of the time. He’s always talkative and I love to talk to him. He’s abit sassy tho.

Vernon: Swag. He and I share the same face expressions.

Dino: The maknae, sometimes I wonder why his hyungs treat him so badly. I mean look at him, he’s such a baby. Sometimes I have to stand up for him. He treats me the best and always gives me dance lessons.

Okay that was a long introduction. Oh and there me, Y/N a girl who just randomly ended up in this big family. Someone who also gets spoilt a lot for being the only girl to exist here. Somehow from what I heard, I have vision powers. And my vision tends to happen. That’s why I was concerned about Wonwoo in the first place.

“Wonwoo stay here, Gyu come with me.”

“Oh come on, you can’t expect me to stay here and wait for you guys to complete the mission right? I’m faster then all of you.”

I rolled my eyes. Him and his ego.

“She’s right hyung, we can do this.” Mingyu answered.

“Don’t worry guys, I’ll stay here and back up.” Joshua said.

“Thanks Shua Hyung.” I waved and ran off with Gyu.

The floor creaked as we entered the building. Mingyu cocked his rifle walking ahead of me, light shining into the dark dusty building. I held my rifle tightly to my body, fingers on the trigger pointing the gun straight ahead preparing to shoot anything that was going to jump infront of me. We walked quietly surveying the place, going to one of the rooms to find the piece Woozi asked us to look for. As we walked deeper in, I sensed something was off. I couldn’t quite tell. The air smelled different. Like there was humans, living here.

I shrugged it off and followed Mingyu. We looked into the room and found the piece that Woozi wanted in a cabinet.

“I got it.”

“Quick let’s go.” Mingyu whispered.

I nodded. We quietly exited the room.

“Wait,”

I turned back towards Mingyu.

Someone is coming. He mouthed.

Panicked appeared on my face.

He placed a finger on his mouth asking me to stay right where I was.

Shit shit shit.

He slowly stepped towards me silently as I slowly retreated back into the room.

Crack.

Shit.

Bullets starting flying towards us.

“Take cover!” Mingyu shouted as we both hid behind this huge slab of cement.

“Shit, how did they know we were here?” I exclaimed.

“I have no idea.” Mingyu answered.

Now what?

“Joshua, we’ve been attacked. Are you guys okay out there?” Mingyu sent a message on the radio.

Bullets we’re still flying as we took turns to shoot back.

I raised my gun towards the enemy as I saw, they were humans. Just like us.

But why?

“Gyu, they’re not AI, they are humans.”

He peek up from the slab of cement. “But they’re still shooting!”

We raised our hands up hoping they would recognise us being the same kind and stopped.

Of course they didn’t.

“Gyu watch out!” I pulled him away as a bullet flew pass my arm, grazing it in the process.

Ah great.

“They’re not humans Y/N.” He said with a serious tone.

“I saw they had blue robotic eyes, with no life in them like they were just ordered to shoot.”

The radio buzzed. “ Gyu, it’s not looking good out here.” Joshua shouted gun firing sounds heard in the background.

What are we going to do? This was an ambush. They know we were coming.

Wait. Wonwoo.

Is this what I saw in the vision?

“Hey Y/N! Listen to me!”

I looked at Mingyu face covered in dirt. He looks bad. Probably I looked like that too.

“We need to get out of here now. You got the piece right?” He told me.

I nodded.

“We can do this. On the count of 3.”

1,

2,

3.”

We held our guns up and shot any many as we can. Mingyu was right, they all had blue biotic eyes, emotionless expressions. Just walking and shooting forward. Their target was us. They were programmed to kill us. We managed to destroy all of them, one by one falling to the floor. I bend down to check if they were dead and saw on their neck there was a mark, and a chip was installed. Biochips on humans. They were creating humanoids. The AI are getting smarter now. Turning the creators into their machines.

Once the building was cleared, we ran out of the building, only to see the car we came in on fire, a pile of humanoids, and Joshua and Wonwoo nowhere to be seen.

“Josh, where are you?” Mingyu said into the radio.

No response.

Did it happen? My vision? Is Wonwoo.. gone?

I was too late.

The sound of roaring was heard from afar.

I turned around my gun ready to shoot…

Two motorbikes were coming our way, with a trail of AI running after them.

“Y/N don’t shoot! It’s them.”

Two guys in black suits, motorbikes roaring.

As one zooms and stops infront of me.

He opens his visor and I immediately recognise those eyes.

“Quickly put this on and get on.”

I fumbled with the helmet as I got onto the bike and put it on.

He grabbed my hands and placed it around his waist.

“Hold on tight.”

A sudden screen appeared inside of the helmet.

[ Player 108 ]

You have received a message from Wonwoo

To be continued…

Part 2? :)

[gatorcatally]

I need help.

My cat has anxiety but he also has a bad habit of tearing things up, carpet, walls, furniture, people if he’s in a bad mood. I’m not evil so I would never declaw him. So I wanted to try claw caps. I was worried about them originally because CJ won’t even wear a collar. If you try to put one on him, he will bite and claw at his own neck until he’s bleeding to get it off. But we needed a solution to his clawing and we tried everything else. Playing, scratch towers, scratch mats, anything his little heart desires but none of it works. He might use his scratch objects occasionally but more often then not he’s destroying my mothers house.

I thought I would at least try the claw caps, they should be comfortable enough, they wouldn’t hurt at all, no scratching. Etc.

Now, after 45 minutes of struggling to get them on him, one is still on crooked even after reapplying it twice because he wouldn’t stop squirming. I’m worried some are stuck on his fur because again he wouldn’t stop squirming, by the time I got to his last paw he was exerting so many smells (he didn’t spray at least), he was shedding heavily, and when I didn’t let him go he straight up but down on my hand and wouldn’t let go. I had to call my mom downstairs to help me. I gave him some of his favorite wet food as a reward and tried to help him calm down because he was starting to hyperventilate from being held tight for so long.

He’s had them on for less than 30 minutes and at first he was just grooming himself which was normal. He was shedding a lot and it was a new sensation on his claws, I thought he might lick them so I wasn’t concerned. I sat down for a few minutes, and he ran under my bed after I finished helping him groom. He wants space? That’s fine, fair, so I let him go.

Not ten minutes later I hear the plastic clicking and grinding. I looked under my bed and boom, purple claw cap. So I told him to stop and tried to pull him out to make sure he didn’t hurt himself taking it off. A few minutes later, two more were off. At this point, he was trying to fucking swallow the evidence! Obviously they’re plastic and could block his digestive system so I grabbed him by his scruff and dragged him out, getting bitten the whole time, but I had to make sure he hadn’t actually eaten any.

I’ve been sitting on my bedroom floor trying to get him to play to distract him but he keeps running away. He keeps biting them off and I’m worried he’s going to make himself bleed, or worse swallow some, and block his digestive tract. I have to go to sleep soon because I have work in about 8 hours and he’s starting to calm down seeing as he’s no longer trying to eat his claws. I’m worried because I work at night, when he’s most active and I don’t want him to don anything stupid while I’m gone.

I also have bad anxiety and the reason he’s my cat now, and no longer the family cat is because I formally adopted him in college to use him as an emotional support animal.

I have given this cat everything he could ever want, and I love him so much but he makes me worry just as much. If anyone has any advice on how to deal with anxious or stubborn cats please tell me. I feel like I’ve tried everything or at least all the normal things and I need advice from real people not articles.

[archiveikemen]

Ibuki Route Release Special: A Sneak Peak Into Their Groupchat!?

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Cat Sightings Community

Shigehira: *cat pic*

Ibuki: *cat pic*

Shigehira: *cat pic*

Ibuki: *cat pic*

Shigehira: Wowww so adorable.

Shigehira: How did you take such a godly picture!?

Ibuki: Don't just focus on taking the picture. You have to truly enjoy the cat's loveliness.

Ibuki: And capture that moment with your fingertips. That's all.

Shigehira: Understood, sensei!

Shigehira: Hm? Now that I think of it, I got too carried away. Whatever you just said sounded strange.

Ibuki: What do you mean, Shigehira? Don't you think that you were standing too far away from the cat when taking pictures?

Shigehira: Uhh

Shigehira: The cat didn't let me move closer.

Shigehira: This is embarrassing...

Ibuki: At this rate, we won't have enough cat content.

Ibuki: Is there anyone else who can take good cat pictures?

Tamamo: Look at the beauties I can show you.

Tamamo: *fox pic*

Shigehira: Cute!!

Shigehira: Wait, no, that's a fox.

Yoritomo: I can't help it anymore. Let me join in.

Yoritomo: *raccoon pic*

Shigehira: SO CUTE.

Shigehira: No that's a raccoon.

Ibuki: The two of you stop sending pictures of your own species.

Tamamo: Don't you think foxes are more beautiful than cats?

Shigehira: Sigh... how I wish animals would trust me.

Yoritomo: I have an idea.

Yoritomo: We can have Ibuki get down on all fours behind a shoji screen and shine a lamp on him > his shadow will resemble one of a cat thanks to his horns > we make Shigehira happy.

Shigehira: Such poor quality things aren't enough to make me happy!!!

Ibuki: You're saying that I could become a cat...

Ibuki: How insightful... as expected of the genius Seiitaishogun.

Tamamo: Ibuki turns into a block head when it comes to cats.

Yoritomo: Oh, I spot a cat.

Yoritomo: *cat pic*

Ibuki: The tail's curvature is like a bridge to the future. One million points.

Tamamo: I have no idea what the hell that means and also your grading criteria is too lenient.

Yoritomo: I knew it, animals don't approach good people.

Yoritomo: *cat pic*

Shigehira: Ugh...

Ibuki: Look at that. The way the sun is shining on the tip of its tail. It has both the beauty of a courtesan and the elegance of a princess. Ten million points.

Tamamo: You alright in the head?

Yoritomo: The setting sun is making it harder to see the cat.

Ibuki: Oh kitty kitty, you blend in flawlessly with the twilight in the horizon. Your belly against the purplish blue sky, your shiny claws digging into the earth. Oh kitty kitty, allow me to hold you–

Tamamo: This guy... he got so emotional, he turned into a poet.

Ibuki: Volume 2: Stealthy Steps of The Night.

Shigehira: There's a second part!?

Yoritomo: Is this how extreme a cat lover can get?

[urdreamgirls-dreamgirl]

Hi sweetie here are some q's for your fic author ask game!

3 10 14 17 19 29 30: Is there a fic,written by someone else, that you would love to do a remix of? What is it and why?

:) :) :) :) :) :)

3. What’s your favorite fic that you’ve written? "sorry about the blood in your mouth (i wish it was mine)" & "i can't let go when something's broken" are my two favorites :3 (and maybe also the kiki's delivery service au, that one was just so fluffy and cute and sparkly)

10. Is there a fic that got a different response than you were expecting? i'm surprised by how many people really seem to love "when i don't touch you" tbh! the mechanics/worldbuilding is vague at best in my opinion and i leave a lot of stuff ambiguous because i just wanted to tell this story of missing someone and needing them and fate and destiny. i am always surprised & very very grateful for the compliments that fic receives!

14. If you could see one of your fics adapted into a visual medium, such as comic or film, which fan fic would you pick? i wrote "sorry about the blood in your mouth" constantly thinking about how it would look if it was being filmed. that one is my most cinematic, i think!!

17. What’s something you’ve learned about while doing research for a fic? the last vcr was sold in 2016 :)

19. Give us a small teaser from one of your WIPs. from chapter 2 of "oh my, love is a lie":

Steve taps on the pink highlight around Eddie’s profile picture. It looks like Eddie uses his instagram stories like a diary, posting his various thoughts throughout the day. The first story is a poll: “Would you fuck Jeff Bezos to end global warming?” Steve doesn’t vote. The next three stories are just memes. The next slide is a picture of a bowl of soup with the words “good soup” and after that is a picture of Chrissy’s cat with the caption “this eldritch creature lives in my house.” The last slide shows the results from the original poll, an overwhelming amount of people having apparently voted “no” on Jeff Bezos. Eddie’s added the words “dang, can’t believe how selfish you all are.” That makes Steve laugh, just a little. 

Steve shuts off the screen on his phone and sets it down on his bedside table. He takes off his glasses and rubs at his eyes, yawning. Then, he reaches over and turns out his light, before sliding down under his covers and falling asleep.

29. Share a bit from a fic you’ll never post OR from a scene that was cut from an already posted fic. (If you don’t have either, just share a random fic idea you have that you don’t plan on getting to.) a scene cut from "sorry about the blood in your mouth":

“Max,” Eddie says, cautiously. “Is there something bothering you?” 

“No,” she snaps, still not turning to look at him. She’s torn between wanting him to go away and wanting to tell him exactly what she thinks right now. 

“Max… I know you’re feeling angry right now. Is it because Steve left? I know that you feel better when he’s around and—“

“What, you think Steve is, like, my emotional support dog or something?” She can’t keep the anger out of her voice, even though she’s really trying. “Yes, I love having him around because I love him and he’s one of my best friends. I don’t need him here to do my job. This isn’t Steve’s fault, by any stretch of the imagination.”

“Okay,” Eddie responds and she can hear some confusion in his voice. Max finally turns to look at him and she can see his eyebrows scrunching up as he furrows his brow. She can’t help but wonder how it’s possible for one man to be so deeply and irreparably stupid?

“I’m mad at you, asshole,” she finally admits, jabbing her pointer finger into Eddie’s chest.

“Me? Why?” Eddie rubs at the spot on his chest where she’d just poked him.

“Because!” She throws up her hands. “How is it possible for you to be so fucking stupid? For ten whole years!”

“Huh?” Eddie’s confused frown deepens.

“Jesus Christ, Eddie. Who do you think this story is about?”

“The story? Of the movie? Uh. Lucy is you, Max. I wrote her for you.”

“Lucy isn’t me,” she says, like it’s obvious. “I’ve been madly in love with Lucas since I was thirteen and I tell him so every single day. Try again.”

“But—“

“Yeah, but nothing! Eddie, what—if I’m Lucy, who’s Delilah?”

“Lucy is you and Nancy, Delilah’s El and Robin.”

Max snorts. “Okay, that’s a little funny.”

“I thought so.”

“But Lucy isn’t me and Delilah isn’t El. And neither of them are Nancy or Robin.”

“Yes, they are.”

“What—no—Eddie,” he can hear the exasperation in her voice now and now she’s talking with her hands, moving her whole body around like she does when she thinks the person she’s talking to is being a humungous moron. “You’re Lucy. Steve’s Delilah.”

“No,” Eddie says immediately.

“Um, yes! Just like you’re Ricky and Hector and Ronan and Jamie and Peter and Steve’s Brad and Tim and Adam and Martin and Matt.” She lists off the characters from his books.

“What? No.”

“Eddie, you’ve been writing a love story for you and Steve since the beginning,” Max tells him. “Aren’t you supposed to be the smart one here? Of the two of you?” Under her breath, she adds, “how is Steve the one who’s known all along?”

Eddie’s head snaps up to look at her then. “What.” It’s not a question. “What did you say?”

“I said,” Max says at a normal volume, enunciating, “How is Steve Harrington the one who’s known everything all along?”

“What does that mean?” His voice is getting increasingly desperate, pleading. “Max, what do you mean?”

Max rolls her eyes. “Steve’s been in love with you since you were twenty years old. He’s been waiting for you to figure out your shit. He’s read all your books. He’s watched you date other people and he hasn’t dated anyone. He’s waited for you, Eddie. He’s waited for you to decide what you want.”

Eddie can’t feel his hands. His feet are tingling, like they’ve fallen asleep. He can’t breathe. “He’s been waiting for me?” It comes out as a whisper.

“Yes, but…” Max trails off, looking at him with pity in her eyes. “When he left, I told him to stop waiting. I told him he deserved to be loved by someone who was brave enough to really love him.” He looks at her, an accusation in his brown eyes. “I didn’t think you were actually fucking stupid! I thought you were making a choice. I didn’t realize you really didn’t know that you could have him.” She rolls her eyes. “Didn’t he kiss you at the Golden Globes? And you left with that musician anyway. Even after that, Steve still waited. And didn’t he confess to you three nights ago? Didn’t he tell you what he wanted?” Max kind of looks like she’s on the verge of tears now and Eddie’s pretty close behind her.

30: Is there a fic,written by someone else, that you would love to do a remix of? What is it and why? oooohhhhhh, i don't know! all of my favorite fics are absolutely perfect as they are, but! i've read a kind of bring it on steddie au that i completely lost track of, but i think it would be fun to do like a real, proper bring it on au where eddie joins the team reluctantly and falls in love with head cheerleader steve. hijinks ensue. i can't think of a specific fic that i would remix tho!

thank you <3 :3

[coquelicoq]

I'm easily summoned by every variation of "ask me about (whatever)" so for the 5 things, can you please answer for Da-Qing who I know just enough about to enjoy your answers, and maybe also Gideon the Ninth?

no pressure but i do look forward to your asks every time! always so delighted when you participate <33

for da qing:

Do you love/hate/not feel strongly about this character? i mean, he's a cat. so obviously i love him. i met a cat yesterday who bit me and she's still the most perfect creature on the planet and i love her to the ends of the earth forever, as is just and proper.

What’s your favorite trait of this character? he's a total slacker motivated only by people making food for him. CAN RELATE.

What’s your favorite moment/event involving this character? when everyone is freaking out about who's going to be in charge while lao zhao is gone and it never occurs to anybody that maybe da qing…the deputy…would be in charge? i love a character who sucks at his job and he knows it and everybody else knows it and they're all like this is our emotional support second-in-command who doesn't do anything except nap in sunbeams. a man after my own heart.

If you could have one power/attribute/etc. of this character, what would it be? not to pick the most obvious thing but he can turn into a cat. well technically he is a cat all the time no matter what he's shaped like, but you know what i mean. i want to be cat-shaped. i want to have a fun bendy spine. i want to make cat noises!

Have you ever pictured this character naked? yes. no. technically. kind of? see other ask.

When did you fall in love/hate with this character? If you don’t have any strong feelings toward them, why not? i don't remember but let's say...the first time he tries and fails to speak Cat to kittens. teeny kittens stumbling around in an alleyway while he dangles a fish on the line in front of them and grouches at them…exquisite. no notes. love a guy with amnesia who's making it everyone else's problem. meanwhile, unless i'm mistaken, cong bo is spying on him like...okay what the actual f. this show is a comedy.

Who’s your OTP for this character? i don't have a romantic otp for him. it's probably best if he stays off the dating market, if he's going to go on dates in that HORRIBLE suit. but obviously brotp with zhao yunlan. the relationship between a boy and the cat who raised him and doesn't remember having pledged eternal fealty to the boy's adult self when he traveled back in time ten thousand years ago is actually something that can be so personal.

for gideon:

Do you love/hate/not feel strongly about this character? i love her. also i would laugh at every single one of her puns.

What’s your favorite trait of this character? very hard question. i think my answer is that i love how sad she is. specifically i love the way that was communicated to us - we saw things through her narration for two books, then the first time we saw her from the outside, not only was she totally fucked up from The Horrors but she was also stripped bare of the obfuscation of her own narration. she's always been sad but she was hiding it from us. i also love her sense of humor and how much she cares about things, but those are both the same as the first thing. runner-up: her angina dentata. yes that's what i'm calling it. as of right now.

What’s your favorite moment/event involving this character? god what kind of question. probably when she takes back over harrow's body to fight the heralds and cannot stop mentioning how little harrow works out.

If you could have one power/attribute/etc. of this character, what would it be? upper arm strength definitely.

Have you ever pictured this character naked? nope.

When did you fall in love/hate with this character? If you don’t have any strong feelings toward them, why not? i don't remember but i'm gonna guess it was either when she didn't know what salad was or when she went ham on that trapdoor because she thought harrow was dead or dying on the other side of it. (she was right.)

Who’s your OTP for this character? wow i do not have an answer. this seems like a gimme of a question but if i really think about it it's actually very hard. i don't know. i don't know!

[casspurrjoybell-20]

FOOLS Fall - Chapter 3 - Part 2

BOOK TWO: The 'Fools Fall in Love' Trilogy

*Warning - Adult Content*

Samuel Moretti

At home, it was just me and my parents with Haven gone at college.

'Yes, she was still dating Zach Price. They were on and off every other weekend'.

Plus my cat, Dumbass Junior that Noah got me for our first Christmas together.

I just called him Dummy, sometimes DJ.

My parents were still at work, so it was just me and Dummy.

My cat had definitely become my emotional support animal for sure.

I couldn't even tell you how many nights I cried over a petty argument between either my sister and I or with Noah or when I was just upset over not seeing him and DJ was always there, ready to cuddle with me.

But I also had one other person who had became a good distraction from my lonely thoughts and he was opening my front door, closed it behind him and sat down on the couch.

Carter took Dummy from me and started petting him.

"You know you could knock," I suggested with a dry tone.

"Why knock when you leave your front door open for me?"

That was true, Carter almost always came over after school, after the first two weeks, I started leaving my front door unlocked.

Carter switched subjects before I could answer back with a snarky reply.

"What do you think about Elliot?" he asked, not looking at me as he scratched behind the ears of Dummy.

"Um, I think he's cool," and I also thought he had a crush on Carter but I didn't want Carter to use Elliot as a sex toy and then dispose of him when Carter was satisfied.

I loved Carter 'he had become my best friend' but I also knew how he treated women and men, like shit.

"I heard when you transition into a male, your clit grows to a mini dick, is that true?" Carter genuinely asked me as he was wondering, 'one plus one equals two, right?'

I grimaced at Carter words, not because of what may or may not happen during a transition but that word... 'clit'.

That word had the same effect on me like the word 'moist' had on others.

"How the hell would I know? I don't like... vaginas and I'm not transgender."

Carter rolled his eyes.

"I don't know how someone can not like vaginas"

"I'm gay, Carter, like a hundred percent," I laughed.

"Whatever, what do you think it'd be like to go down on him?" he asked in nonchalance.

"You're disgusting," I told him, standing up and making my way to my kitchen.

"How?" Carter let Dummy go before following me.

"Because you just want to fuck Elliot, so you can 'experience it' and say you fucked someone who's transgender."

Yeah, I may have adapted to Noah's crass language.

"That's wrong. People have feeling, ya' know."

Then, unrelated, I asked him.

"Do youu want Mac and cheese?" as I pulled a pot from under the kitchen counter.

"Yeah, I guess," Carter said like he'd rather eat anything else but I was already adding water to the pot.

Carter continued on about Elliot,

"If I told him it was just a one-time thing before fucking, then I think it's okay," he hopped up on the counter after snatching a box of Cheez-it's.

He opened the recently bought box and put his hand in the bag, grabbing a handful and shoving it in his mouth.

I didn't know how he got laid so much.

I shook my head, chuckling.

"No and I'm pretty sure he's a virgin."

Carter cringed.

"Damn never mind. He'll get too clingy."

"You're the worst," I claimed and that was basically how our friendship worked, Carter made himself at home in my house and said or asked dumb stuff while I told him it was a bad idea.

Or sometimes I ranted about my problems when I couldn't talk to Noah or when my problems were about Noah and Carter listened.

It was a good, platonic friendship.

Carter left before my parents got home a little after five PM and I did homework, hung out with Dummy until around ten PM when I Face-Timed Noah.

I felt giddy thinking about the sexting earlier and wondered if Noah would want to do something similar but when I called him, Noah wasn't alone.