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#I'm in one of those depressed state fatigues#irl is bearing down on me in a way that#just want to cry all the time#but my emotional regulators are saying no fucking tears#I just want to run away#leave all this bullshit behind#run a way n go look for you#I don't know where you are exactly#but that is no deterrent to my current emotional state#because nothing feels the way I feel about talking to you#and I always come back to the one fucking thing#if I were to abandon my responsibilities just to be with you#you would fucking hate me for it#and so I keep doing this same fucked up shit#trying to figure out a way to get out from underneath all of this#without just walking away#you're the one thing I want#everything else really is just a distraction from not being able to have it#best beloved
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If you identify as any form of lgbtqia+ and have been made to feel like you don't belong in this community by other queer people, just know that I am gripping you by the shoulders and I am telling you that you belong, I am telling you that you're queer and you're incredible, I am giving you every kind of affection you enjoy to tell you that YOU BELONG.
If you ever doubt yourself, you come back here and I will remind you of how amazing you are all over again, because you are one of us and you deserve to feel accepted within your own people.
#the shit I have seen going around recently makes me want to throw a brick#when I say I don't like discourse this queer exclusionary bullshit is usually what i am referring to#i want 2024 to be the year that we finally leave all of this behind us#we are stronger together#auv speaks#auv is gay#lgbt pride#lgbt#lgbtqia#lgbtq#queer community#lgbt community
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who knew that some agere people would be the worst type of people to exist (talking about you spinny)
#dont get your toddler army to do your anon hate and unblock me on discord if u want to talk#ik you act like a baby and thats fine but if youre bold enough to try to get me paranoid (and fail) then u should be bold enough to dm me#yknow without hiding yourself#either do that or leave us alone girl!! move on#like why do you preach about moving on to a new era and then actively seek out trouble ????#get a job or something#trying to make me think my bf is cheating on me is such a weird thing to do and a big low for you spinny. it's actually sad#the worst part youre not even good at doing it. youre making shit up from what you THINK you know & hiding behind ur friend#its okay to fall out of friendships and im not even trying to meddle with your life but you are literally actively seeking out problems#and thats so pathetic. especially when you paint yourself all high and might over us ??? clearly we tried everything for you#until we got to a point where we were literally drowning because we have other shit in our lives too#you keep losing friends and complain about it. maybe consider why??? because of lack of communication and empathy!! youre just mean!#especially to those who've always tried so hard to have your back and defend you! (buka and me!!!)#yet you didnt care. you dont communicate and expect us to read minds & you demand things#and u say that a real friend should know when to reach out & ya but when it gets to a point where i feel like im drowning? no thanks#im prioritizing myself and my mental health im sorry#not to mention i was ALWAYS IN THE MIDDLE IN YOUR BULLSHIT#so grow up. actually. and if you wanna dm me then unblock me and we can talk#if you want to keep hiding behind your toddler friends acting like youre all small and sweet and babies then go ahead but leave us alone?#at least ill have closure and finally come to terms that you're not rlly a good person and u use your illnesses to excuse ur behavior#because i still think about you and wish you were our friend but after everything thats happened (this being the cherry on top for ME)#then maybe you really just are a shitty person and you do more harm than good#soz to everyone else reading this just continue scrolling LOL#its drama cus an ex friend is sending their toddler militia on me for some reason???#delete later
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#that army fan club questionnaire floating around today#not going to reblog it because#i’m kind of over getting blocked for having spicy tags#but#man it blows my mind the toxic shit that makes it into official content sometimes#it’s one thing to leave in some of their off hand comments#from behind the scene footage but#literally the FIRST question#‘your pants don’t fit but you’re hungry- just drink water instead right?’#like who is that for#who is feeling better about anything reading that#do you ever think about all the things they’ve been told by their teams over the years#if this is what is being put out on public display#i know i know Korea is different idols have different standards whatever#eat a fucking banana then a glass of water is not a meal#you can look hot and be fit and still consume food#hybe is well aware the fandom is made up of people#who hang on their every word#a lot of whom at least FIND bts whilst Going Through A Thing#do better man#shout out to jin for being the only one who chose food#he never gives into the not eating bullshit and I love that about him#anyway that’s my two cents#just a girl having thoughts#here on my own blog in my own lane
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we don't want to get up and go to work tomorrow. we do not want to go to work
#getting texts that set off that Manipulative Bullshit sense. detecting some bullshit behind the scenes.#would love to leave but haven't found another job#everything pays like shit around here#hhhhmmmmmmm#whatever it's. fine.#we are at least recovering from an ear infection instead of debilitated by an ear infection.#and our phone is restarting for no reason constantly. which kills its battery.#and we just#do not#want#to go to work#whatever whatever whatever#filled with hate. four hours of sleep incoming. have been dreading going back all week.#fuck having a job we all hate having a job
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being friends with byan is so weird bc they say they want you to have the balls to be bluntly honest with them, but then the very moment you're honest about something they don't like, they're peacing out, all "lmao ok friendship ended byeeeee"
#honesty is great until you're addressing their insecurities or anything they're currently in denial over#they have a... weird relationship with honesty lmao#they'll be harshly honest about almost anything and not pull a single damn punch#they will tell you easily that their biological mother didn't want them and that they've lived on the street#they'll tell you that they haven't had a foster home last more than 10 months & that one of their foster parents almost killed them#but they won't tell you about the misery these events caused & how its shaped them as a person#and then there's the way they can dish it but can't take it#they'll tell you to your face everything that's wrong with you (in their opinion)#but the moment you do the same back.... lmao fuck you what the hell kinda bullshit#they're so SO sensitive. so much more so than they let on. and they don't tolerate being called on their shit well.#but I think part of that is bc they spent a lot of their life being belittled rather than built up#and they ended up feeling like every time they were abandoned it was bc of their flaws#so if ur pointing them out........ it's only a matter of time before ur leaving too. so they better leave first.#but also they just hate being Seen. they hate when someone can see behind their facade.#if someone else can see ur pain that means it's really there or something :)#idk I have way more thoughts about this than I realized when I started typing and now the tags are gonna be longer than the post oops#might....... have to make a note to get into all this in a more in depth headcanon at some point#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ OOC ⋮ DON’T @ ME.
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...do we really need to go over how telling people to kill themselves is a fucking horrid thing to do again? i don't fucking care who you're telling to do it, just use one of the ten billion other goddamn ways to tell someone to fuck off!
#ni blabs#suicide bait mention#ask to tag#weren't we supposed to leave this bullshit behind years ago#there was a moment of time there when i stopped seeing it all over the place#and now people are just. starting up doing it so casually again.#do you fucking understand what that shit can DO to people??? b/c i don't think some people quite grasp what that does to the psyche.#i usually keep my mouth shut about shit that really depresses me about the modern internet but I'm Too Old And Tired to do this again
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Can't wait for Christmas fever to be over it's too exhausting
#Personal#Nothing ever good happens during Christmas#You have your catholic parents and relatives spewing the most atrocious bullshit and u have sit there like 🙎🏻♀️#SHUTUP#I am glad they aren't so uptight abt church & all now at least.#The fact they are converted Christians is hilarious and sad like#Christian missionaries are EVIL and I will never stop yelling about it. If something has to convince you or worse prey when you are the mos#Vulnerable then that's not a religion that's a cult. Especially led by 1 (one) person????#When that church can only ever talk abt Jesus being killed by the blood thirsty jews. Flat Earth.#or whatever bs u try to cook up. This group of missionaries have been busted on news a lot for being. funded by outside aid to#Convert more people.#I can't believe how brainwashing will have you believe the most weirdest shit.#Altho I'm thankful they weren't converted to Islam because then i wouldn't have the freedom I do now plus the horrible stories I've heard#From ex muslims#What other religion is there anyway who is so bent on converting as many people as they possibly could#To all my friends who have succeeded in leaving behind their families of both these cult-ish religions I love you and I'm glad you're safe.#It still affects me. I can't wait to finally start earning enough to leave this whole chapter behind. I've had enough.#Anyway if you can't tell or simply lack basic comprehension it's not a attack on YOU. It's a world wide phenomenon of conversion and brain#You can't deny that and I'm again NOT blaming you for it. Religious trauma is real.#The gangs or worse family members who will kill you for leaving religions is not something unknown. It's real it's true it's happening.#Anyway
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golden anime hateboard
#kommento#// there's a punchline here you have to wait for it <- I'll forget about this#// back at it with having so much beef with this thing but has marie and that's its only redeemable feature#// everything else is like. grits teeth really hard.#// now the art direction hurts me so much on a personal level now. my dearest okyakusan it's okay if you laugh at me I am a clown anyway#// sorry. pops my head out every two or three days and says bullshit and leaves. roleplaywise I am in yokohama right now.#// sending a post card. from yokohama. the sea is exploding behind me. good god I love you all.
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There's a stream up on Twitch right now that's playing episodes of Naruto Shippuden, and earlier it was showing the mini arc of how Hashirama and Madara met, and how Izuna's death drove Madara to forsake his dream of peace twice over.
There's the moment where Tobirama runs Izuna through with the Flying Raijin Slice, and Madara getting ready to book it with Izuna in tow to try to heal the wound, only for Hashirama to stop and tell him the rest of the Uchiha that didn't defect over to the Senju should stop fighting or the war is just going to continue.
And I'm over here like...His little brother is bleeding out, dude. Wouldn't it be better to. You know. Lay him down on the ground and heal him right there and then. And end up convincing Madara that there can be peace. And then go on with the speech? Like, don't get me wrong, it's cute, and I like that Hashirama fought for his idealism and his dream, but I think if he had just saved the talking for, like, five minutes later, Izuna would still be alive.
#like. just watching it all play out threw me for a loop#they're in a period that's reminiscent of the real life warring states era#and yet in that same time frame they also have electricity#if they can have electricity OF ALL THINGS then it's not too far off the mark#for something like medical science to be that far behind#like maybe the industrialization made it more advanced#but hashirama was like the second coming of ninja jesus#i'm pretty sure the mokuton healing jutsu could've sealed up izuna's wound??#dude couldn't have stopped madara from leaving w/ a jutsu and just tried?? healing his little brother??#he could've done all that instead of talking it out while IZUNA IS BLEEDING TO DEATH??#i'm sorry i don't really go here but that was just straight bullshit lol#hashirama!! you're smarter than this!!#don't just stand there! help another brother out!#but no let's have the plot make you talk INSTEAD of taking action!!#naruto
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i think all the dr1 characters get very watered down by the fandom but in reality. they are all so weird
#sayaka just spouts random bullshit and honestly so does hifumi#and its not even just all 'girly stuff and i'm-gonna-murder foreshadowing' and 'horny' its so good#+ hifumi volunteers trash duty cuz he knows no one else would want it#taka btw has NO idea what he's doing. he's lowkey a wreck#also mukuro was lovely. like she's actually so cool & sweet.#kyoko? she's so weird. the first time she smiles is when she's investigating a body she genuinely enjoys it#chihiro is so sweet and feels bad leaving a body behind; at the same time its implied she had mukuro stand in a dorm room#while she went in the room over and just fucking. screamed at the top of her lungs#when makoto says its nice to meet you to mondo he just kinda stands awkwardly and goes ''...Hell yeah.''#and when makoto first meets sakura she 'pokes and prods' at his body and then goes hm. you are weak#it is often lost that these guys are like. 15-17 (besides hiro i guess)#dgr#dr1
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#sobbing about a water bottle we’re doing GREAT tonight folks#silv.txt#it’s not the water bottle. it’s just. the same old bullshit#the same old bullshit that I *had* a cute water bottle with peaches all over it and I just had to leave it behind#like I’ve had to leave behind everything I’ve ever owned#because the moment I start getting comfortable and think maybe I can have some things that are mine#it’s the same fucking bullshit again and I’m so tired so damn tired#so tired of feeling like I have to keep restarting every few years#so tired of feeling like I might be building something and then like a failure because it doesn’t last#I miss all the cute little things I bought for my last apartment#because like an idiot I thought I would be able to keep them#it’s been over two years and im still not over it#I was so happy#I was so damn happy at the start of 2020#I just want to live somewhere I don’t have to leave.#I want my life to be bigger than what can fit in a suitcase#praying to all the gods that the good news I’m hoping for actually come y through#bc I really don’t think I can make myself go through it again#it feels like there is less and less left of me every time
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speaking of. I need some input on this.
a week or two ago I posted about the drama with some (now) coursemates. four or so months ago one of them showed me a picture of a crocheted charm she saw on a chinese app and said she wanted it but the girl who made it doesn't sell them. so I made one for her birthday. her birthday is at the end of december. it is not her birthday for another two weeks
now I have this bluebell charm that I absolutely do not fucking want to keep with me due to obvious fucking reasons but also don't think I can give it to her considering she's the only one that's outright hostile to me rn. for no reason btw
do I still give it to her and let that be the end of it, but also risk her just throwing it away, or do I just give it to someone else
#thing is i kind of want to give it to her and see her put it in the bin in my face bc i know her well enough and she would#but then im scared that she'll take it THEN throw it away when i'm out of sight which means they're pretending nothing happened#and it does seem like what's happening even though the boys have fucking caught on like#if the boys noticed something wrong and they don't even usually notice me#they're not being subtle but they're pretending nothing fucking happened which is something so unbelievably childish i can't even#they're all a whole year older than me#they mock the education course girls for being 'childish' when they yell or laugh loudly in class#honestly this might actually be more childish (and ridiculous) than being noisy in class#what are we#thirteen?#jfc#i can't talk about this with anyone irl bc all my other friends are also friends with Them and my mam doesn't know what happened#this is a huge fucking mess#does anyone want to sponsor me to fuck off to the uk for my second and third year and leave all this petty bullshit behind#daisy talks
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talking to people recently out of prison: a do-and-don't guide
Don't ask, "How was prison?" (Answer: traumatic!)
Do ask, "What are you most looking forward to doing again now that you're out?"
Don't ask, "How long were you in for?" (Answer: too long!)
Do ask, "Is there any technology or pop culture I can help catch you up on?"
Don't ask, "How are you going to avoid getting back into bad behaviors?" (Leave the paternalistic bullshit to their PO.)
Do ask, "How's your support network? Do you have people helping you adjust?"
Don't ask, "Do you have a job yet?" (Their PO is asking them ALL the time, don't worry.)
Do ask, "Are there any opportunities I should keep an ear out for and let you know about?"
Don't ask, "Do you have an ankle monitor?" (And definitely don't ask to see it - no one likes to be gawked at.)
Do ask, "Do you have parole restrictions we need to accommodate when making plans?"
Don't say, "Hey, you shouldn't be doing that - it's against your parole!" (A lot of parole restrictions are bullshit, and they are an adult who deserves agency, even the agency to take risks.)
Do ask, "Are there any bullshit parole restrictions you need help working around?"
Don't ask, "Are you an addict?" (Not everyone in prison is, and they'll tell you if they want you to know.)
Do say, "If there's stuff you might get in trouble for, like empty alcohol containers, I can throw them away at my place."
Don't say, "It's probably best if you put your whole prison life behind you and start fresh." (Just because it was traumatic doesn't mean important experiences and relationships didn't happen there.)
Do say, "If you have letters from friends on the inside that you don't want your PO to find, you can keep them at my place."
Don't say, "You paid your debt to society." (Regardless of what they may have done, harm cannot be repaid through senseless suffering.)
Do say, "You are more than the worst thing you've ever done."
Do not ever ask "What were you arrested for?"/"What did you do?"/"Were you guilty?"
People are more than the worst thing they've ever done.
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hmm
feel like I've lost myself somewhere but not sure where and what to do about it
#shut up ray#its so annoying cos i have all these things ive wanted for so long#i should be happy and be able to do the things i want to do#but i dont want to do anything#i feel so much anxiety every day abt how few hrs i have to do all the things in#but then i just put everything off#because i cant get myself to do it#havent touched my guitar since i stopped the adhd meds#they were great at focusing me#but only for a few weeks then idk i started to feel wrong#like i wasn't myself anymore#but even after stopping i still feel kinda off?#rlly hoped my ongoing identity crisis wouldve stopped by now...#is this just what your 20s are??#ive heard ppl mention it lmao#just rlly feel like im lagging behind again#but this time i dont even know what im lagging in#ive achieved all the achievable life goals#i dont rlly have any other goals#i wonder if it hadnt been for the gender bullshit i couldve gotten this identity crisis over with earlier#perhaps in my teens when everyone else seemed to be figuring shit out??#but i just seemed to be delayed over and over again on the whole teen development years deal#ugh idk man#cant even keep hold of friends anymore#i think i have one#count em ONE#at this time. and i dont seem to be much of a priority anymore#i worry that i may have finally started succeeding in pushing even her away#someone who forced her way into my life back in 2011 and has refused to leave it#fucking hate this asocial shit ive inherited from my parents
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i feel like Tim's the kind of person to say random cryptic bullshit just to fuck with people psychologically. especially post-timestream, with his new Red Robin reputation.
Tim, sitting silently at the Batcomputer, working a case:
Dick, fifteen feet away training:
Tim, suddenly slowly turns to look at Dick: "They know." *walks out of the Cave*
Dick, terrified and trying to follow him: "Tim? What? Tim, what do you- Tim, Timmy, what do you mEAN-"
Jason and Tim on patrol:
Tim: "Do you see them, too?"
Jason: "Who?"
Tim: "Them, of course. They see all, but few see them." *points behind Jason, then slips into the shadows when he looks away*
Jason, seeing nothing, turning to find himself alone: "Tim, what the fuck-"
Batfam at movie night:
Tim halfway through: "They're watching." *again, leaves (for more popcorn, but the others don't know that)*
Everyone, thoroughly disturbed: "Tim, what the fuck does that mean get back here TIM EXPLAIN-"
#tim drake#richard grayson#jason todd#bruce wayne#damian wayne#batman#batfam#cassandra cain#red robin#red hood#nightwing#black bat#robin#dcu#dc universe
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