#dean talks

[pretty-boy-baby-girl]

Garcia buys her and Reid matching/complimentary outfits. Reid finds it highly amusing.

Every now and then, he and Garcia will coordinate their fits and show up to the office in the same outfit at which point everyone busts up laughing. (Partly because it's always startling to see Reid in anything even half as outlandish as what Garcia usually wears, and partly because of Morgan's reactions every time.)

Garcia does a pretty good job of getting an even number of matching outfits for both her eccentric style and Reid's more neutral one.

And yes, this does mean that Reid sometimes wears dresses, skirts, and high heels.

The first time Garcia and Reid walked into the bullpen wearing matching checkerboard dresses with chess pieces patterned across them (I'm imagining they were custom made and are supposed to reflect a moment in an actual chess match of some sort which Reid was over the moon about bc hes a dork and Garcia knows it) and little black pumps (because Reid wasn't tall enough already) with both of their hair up in half pony tails and matching glasses, Morgan tripped over his own feet and almost ate it right there in the middle of the bullpen because holy shit his Baby Girl and his Pretty Boy are stunning and hold up he needs a minute.

Spencer, walking into the bullpen with Penelope: *info dumping about the chess match modeled on their dresses*

Morgan, getting coffee across the room: *chokes on his own spit and almost drops his mug because he's busy staring at Spence and Penny*

Prentiss, walking up beside him and slapping him on the back as he coughs: lmao real smooth, Derek. *sips at her own coffee*

JJ: *enters the bullpen in a pencil skirt and an off the shoulder blouse, her hair put up in a bun*

Prentiss: *chokes on her coffee, unable to tear her eyes away from JJ*

Derek: lmao real smooth, Emily. *walks away laughing*

[python-string]

Sure you can monsterfuck and enjoy loving the monster for their otherness, but what about YOUR otherness? YOUR insecurities and idiosyncrasies? Wouldn't you like the monster to find you and see you in a way you couldn't? Wouldn't you like to be loved and feel how much it kills you not to be hated with how long it's been since you've felt something good?

[howiehans]

thinking about chimney and how he’s always tried to craft himself as “perfect” for others. he learns at a young age that his father can’t— or won’t— love him for who he is, that despite his best efforts to prove himself worthy, sang never cares. chimney isn’t good enough for his own father to stay. but at least he has his mother, right?

well, she dies a few years later, and so does the last part of his true self. then, chimney is taken in by kind, generous people who have so much love to give. he gains a brother and takes on the role of being his protector. even though he floats through life without any real purpose, picking up odd jobs along the way, he had the lees as pillars of support.

then chimney joins the LAFD because he thinks he’s discovered what his purpose is: helping people in need. but he can’t even do that because the toxic environment he’s in, his horrible boss, makes him stay behind and he feels useless. every day, kevin tells stories of his heroics and all chimney can do is sit back and listen, lacking a story selection of his own. then he starts making up tales because to him, the facade will keep his family around and not resent him for struggling.

then he loses his role of a protector when kevin falls through the roof of an apartment building, immediately engulfed by the flames below. mr and mrs lee don’t talk to him for a while after that, and chimney can’t blame them; he was the one setting an example for kevin, and that got him killed. he loses himself in a way similar to the aftermath of his mother’s death, firefighting being the only thing keeping him afloat.

hen and bobby join the 118, and chimney feels like he can be himself around them without judgment. it’s freeing. but then he meets tatiana, and the fear of abandonment rises again. so chimney lies and lies, trying to appear perfect because surely, she can’t leave him if he’s the man of her dreams, right?

she rejects his proposal and he’s left with a rebar through the skull, which acts as a wake up call. chimney heals, returns to work, but still resorts to humour rather than confronting his brush with death. he can’t let anyone know what’s wrong, how he always feels stuck in the worst moment of his life.

everything catches up to chimney and he breaks down in bobby’s arms. things calm down for a bit after that and he meets maddie. everything is great, she’s incredible. eventually, they’re set to go out on their first date but chimney gets stabbed (thrice, in fact) and spends the next 24 hours blaming himself for inadvertently bringing harm to maddie. he doesn’t talk about how doug stalked and nearly killed him, because according to his logic, he put maddie in danger and doesn’t want people to see him as selfish for talking about his trauma. so he rolls with that notion for the next few years. his heart gets stopped twice but he’s cracking jokes and being chimney since everyone expects him to be normal. he gets impaled again, in the abdomen this time, but is cheery and returns to work without a hitch. he catches encephalitis and is forced to confront doug and kevin, two of his biggest traumas. considering his track record with opening up about his turmoils, it’s safe to assume chimney didn’t confide to anyone about what he hallucinated. maybe he revealed kevin’s role, but certainly not doug’s, because he’s stuck in that mindset as he was from s2.

chimney crafts himself as a cheery, go lucky person because that’s what he wants people to see, and in turn, that is what they expect of him. if he shatters that perception, he worries his fear of abandonment will become true once more.

[heavenssexiestangel]

Aid Request

I am not used to making such posts, and I debated making it, in the first place... But I need help.

I have been laid off work on Dec 31st, 2023, and I wouldn't have been paid enough to pay what I need to, anyway.

I am in what I hope to be my last year of university. I need to take 2 exams and write my thesis. Unfortunately, I'm also over the usual years, which means I didn't get the state aid to pay less on the University Fees. The delay has been caused both my decaying mental health because of my family, that I live with, and other health issues I suffered in the past 2 years.

I wanted to graduate in March (which means not paying the fees), but my thesis professor said it will probably not be possible. This is due to her not answering my many e-mails about the thesis, so much that I had to ask the Uni tutor for help communicating with her... It's a whole damn saga.

Since dropping out isn't an option (I would want to, but I am not allowed to by said family, who think it would be shameful to drop out now and that people would talk, and that it's my fault for being lazy and stupid - I live with them until October, when I'm moving in with @michaelmilligan, and no, they don't have money to help me out), I need to ask for help covering the Fees.

One fee is already overdue, it should have been paid Dec 19, 2023, but I still hoped to graduate in March. It amounts to €1275 and I will also have to pay a fee over it as well, so it's more than that but I'm not sure how much.

The second fee is also €1275, and must be paid by March 15, 2024.

I can show both on my uni website if requested.

My next goal is to graduate by July.

All this said, I need help covering all of this at least...

If you can spare anything at all, please consider donating through my Ko-Fi or through Paypal (my e-mail is demonicsoulmatesart@gmail.com). If you'd like to get something out of it, I do have a Redbubble Shop. I don't have many things on it yet, but I hope to add more soon.

So here's what I need so far:

Goal: 0/2550

Thank you,

Dean

[optimusxfloatingxinxspace]

fav tf character edition

[lightningmckillme]

that's ruff buddy

[demons-i-get]

Happy Pride Month!!!

Friendly reminder that Dean Winchester is trans! Ftm! He's also biromantic and sex-positive asexual <3

Adjacent friendly reminder that Castiel is queer, nonbinary (he/him), and sex-neutral asexual <3

[demonicsoulmates-art]

I made this poll on Instagram as well, but might as well do it here too .

I'm considering opening a Ko-fi shop and I've been looking at fine art paper to print my art, which would give it better durability than photographic paper. Now my question is:

Furthermore, I'd like to ask how much you'd consider spending on a piece (without shipping included), just to give me an idea.

Thank you

[heavenssexiestangelreads]

My thoughts on: The Golden Compass by Philip Pullman

This book was a re-read for me. I buddy-read it with @michaelmilligan, who had never read it before so that I could try to get back into reading. I managed to finish it, and it gives me confidence that I can go back to reading regularly again! Perhaps not as many books as I used to before, but still, reading! Golden Compass is truly a classic for me, and I love the world created by Philip Pullman. The characters also also extremely complex and interesting, and I found myself crying or being affected by the story... Even while at work, ops. Lyra is clearly a kid, but very smart, and she tries to do the right thing. The other characters are complex, just like she is, and it's definitely a plus for me when I read a book. I hope to re-read the second book in the series soon :)

[heavenssexiestangel]

this worked for me, for the most part (there is other stuff stressing me out, there are no miracles for this)

I focused on other stuff, went out with friends, studied, worked towards jewish conversion etc etc. Slowly but surely, I got back to drawing after a slump that basically lasted years - I wasn't drawing so much anymore, just sketching here and there. Now, I don't make a lot of art because I am really busy with a lot of other stuff, but I do think resting helped, and I enjoy the process of making art much more. I branch out with other things to draw, or try new mediums, or just draw what I love, when I have the spoons to do any of that.

I see now the slump is kind of starting again. And I learned my lesson. I do other stuff, and let myself get into the urge, the will to create. And believe me, after a while, it'll get to you. You'll be at the park and itch to draw that one flower. You'll see a pose and start thinking what to do with it. etc etc. And same with writing, because I also write.

It also brought me to have a better relationship with my art. It's something I love, and I don't want it to become a constriction. Pushing and pushing to make something. You're gonna break.

if yall ever want like serious advice from me about how to solve burnout as a creative it's like...

literally ignore it. stop pushing. go do something else, enjoy your life, fill it with other things, do what brings you joy in the moment if you can.

go to the gym, take a walk to touch grass and look at dogs and smell flowers, cook dinner, watch tv with your friends, talk about your feelings as needed with ppl you trust, take a drive and blast your music, do the chores you need to do, the job hunting slog you need to do, read books that aren't for research, stop cordoning off your brain for The Craft or The Draft or whatever the fuck

forget about the project, stop thinking about it for as long as it takes to be excited again.

fuckin rest, basically

[pretty-boy-baby-girl]

PLEASE CONSIDER FOR ME:

Half the BAU are hard of hearing after all the explosions they've gotten caught in. Reid, Garcia, Prentiss, and Hotch are all autistic and occasionally go non-verbal. They all know and use ASL frequently. JJ and Garcia are the only two without much hearing loss and often translate what others are saying for their teammates. JJ signs in all her press releases/media appearances. Everyone keeps noise-cancelling headphones, aac books, and a few different things they know are comfort/regulatory items for their teammates in their go bags. The plane is stocked with weighted blankets and sensory friendly snacks at all times. After especially long amd/or hard cases, they all stay at Rossi's house for a few nights and eventually, they all kinda just end up with their own rooms there even if they almost always end up the living room to cuddle. (Rossi pretends to be annoyed but they all know that he actually loves to have them there.) Rossi often comes home to find one or more of his teammates just hanging out in his house even though he could swear that he never gave any of them a key. (They'll often come to his house if they're having a bad day. The most frequent perpetrators of this are Reid and Prentiss. Spencer picks the locks and Emily jimmies her way in through a window. Garcia made a copy of his key the one time he asked her to water his plants while they were away on a case, Morgan kept breaking the door down until Rossi started leaving random doors unlocked for him and a note with which door was unlocked for him that day under a rock by the front door after having to replace said door four times, Hotch does actually have a key that Dave gave him, but more often than not he'll just knock and then wait patiently on the porch swing for Rossi to get home and let him in even though Rossi always insists 'you have a key, Aaron, you know you're more than welcome to use it and just come in', JJ usually calls first and he'll tell her whatever door he'd left unlocked In Case of Morgan, and you may be wondering, why doesn't he just give all of them keys after this happens a few times? And to that I say, what, and deprive them of their fun? Come on.)

When they stay at Rossi's house after a long/hard case, JJ calls Will as soon as they're on the ground and he meets them there with the boys. Hotch calls his sister (or whoever he's got watching Jack) and she'll meet then there with Jack. Rossi cooks them all dinner and once everyone else has gone to bed, he sits in the living room, sipping on a glass of wine (or scotch, depending on the case), and waits. One by one, the others shuffle into the living room.

Reid is usually first, trudging into the room rubbing his eyes (its adorable, but dont tell anyone Rossi thinks that, he has an image to maintain) and he'll curl up impossibly small on the couch next to Rossi and put his head in the older man's lap. Rossi will run his hands through Spencer's hair and hum quietly. Garcia comes next, wrapped in a long, silky robe that billows as she moves because it's dramatic and she loves it, and she'll slip onto the other end of the couch to lay her head on the arm as Reid stretched out just enough to brush the soles of his feet against her thigh. Then comes Morgan quickly after his baby girl and pretty boy have disappeared, and he'll have a blanket wrapped around his shoulders as he drags an already inflated air mattress behind him that he drops in front of the couch. Reid drips a hand off the edge to brush against his shoulder and Garcia stretches out her leg until she can nudge his with her toes. Prentiss comes trudging in next with JJ hanging sleepily off her and Will right behind them with the boys on his hips. Will settles with the boys on the love seat and JJ and Prentiss curl up on the floor at his feet. Hotch is next with Jack asleep on his shoulder and he settles into the chair beside Rossi with Jack on his chest. By this time, Rossi has finished his wine and he reaches out to clasp Hotch's hand in his own and they fall asleep like that, surrounded by their family and taking comfort in the fact thay everyone is there.

This got a little bit away from me. Oops.

[python-string]

She gefilte on my fish until i Passover

[howiehans]

crazy episode last night, can’t wait for the finale (i’m in indescribable misery)

[heavenssexiestangel]

Help us keep our Torah scroll in good health

My community is doing a founding on JewCer.org so that we can have our only Torah scroll checked and repaired if necessary.

Here is the LINK to donate in Dollars.

There is also a Paypal link for Euro donations, and I'll dm that one to people who are interested.

This Torah scroll was given to my community, Or'Ammim in Italy, by the Ohev Beth Sholomo community in Ohio, USA, and it means a lot to us. It's the only scroll we have, and it's the one we use whenever we do Shabbat services or Holiday services.

It's also the one that we'll use tomorrow when I'll do my first ever aliya.

Or'Ammim is one of the very few Reform communities in Italy, and we truly need your help to keep our scroll in good health.

If you can, please help by donating and/or sharing. Thanks.

[optimusxfloatingxinxspace]

grimbee had the best interactions of any set of characters in this show tbh

[lightningmckillme]

your beauty never ever scared me 🖤💛