#lck fic

[tryhardgwen]

i think i'm going to hell

but that's okay. hopefully.

i realize i havent been posting my fics on um tumblr.. oops.. BUT IM ALIVE IM DOING IT NOW OKAY! this fic is.. 4.7k, doran/chovy, rated e, and has like. situationship kinda angst. it's set after geng's elimination to blg in worlds 2023.

it is actually a spin-off of my not yet released fic and current wip, kim suhwan vs. the world. i basically wrote the first scene in the pov of suhwan (yeah actually he's awake and sitting behind the door) and then went. wait i wanna write this! so then i stayed up until 5 am writing this bc i hate myself or something, even though im literally sick atm and SHOULD BE RESTING.

it's titled after florence + the machine's only if for a night because... i think it's fitting. also because i think maolan is weirdly like, florence + the machine coded.

i guess i dont have a ton to say about this though, idk, i hope the characters arent ooc and i hope the smut isn't horrible even though i know it is. sigh. okay HAVE A GREAT DAY YALL!

[ao3-oner]

Finished writing my GumaKeria fluff fic but I'll wait to post it until this Saturday for OPTIMAL T1 FANFIC BUFF so in the meantime take this cover art I drew for it as a teaser :)

T1 fighting and see you soon!

[ao3-oner]

Me, circling, starring and highlighting the Saturday Showdown on July 13th:

Friendly reminder to the e-sports community that since the debut of this MSI-winning GenG roster, the single team that they've lost the most games to isn't T1. It isn't BLG.

It's D plus Kia.

Throughout MSI, BLG wasn't able to take GenG to silver scrapes once. DK did it every single series they played against each other, and yes, you can go on about how that was back during the regular season, yadda yadda, but do you even realize how crazy it is that one month ago, we were one game away from having GenG vs. T1 facing each other in the lower bracket for semis, which would have resulted in one of them not making MSI? Like, that was insane! And all because Kim Geonbu has a big fat crush

being into esports as a fandom is so funny like fuckkk my ship is gonna interact next on June 16th i can't miss it. what if they look at each other after game.

[spiritblossoming]

The State of PPAU: A Really Long Post

This is gonna read like a video essay script I’m sorry 😭 and I'm serious about it being long this is 3k and says nothing really

When I started PPAU, it was more of a oneshot that I never expected to finish. Of course, I did finish it, so then I ended up posting it. At some time around then, my art teacher wanted me to draw up some sort of fictional setting, so I cheated and drew the players-as-champions universe I had been envisioning for months, inspired by the initial shots in the Burn It All Down MV of bright lights in a dark, rainy city. (That’s probably why the PPAU version of China has that same vibe of heavy rain and colorful light 90% of the time.) The first fic came out, and… it didn’t seem to draw much attention. Which, by the way, isn’t a problem, but it felt pretty discouraging back then. I came from a really close community in my last fandom where we would always be leaving paragraph-long comments on each other’s works, so getting a grand total of zero comments made me decide that I wouldn’t continue the universe like I had hinted. Much. 

The second PPAU fic was about the most popular North American team at the time, EG. At the time of posting, it was my way of saying goodbye to a universe I didn’t think I’d explore more of. Unlike my first fic, however, this one did get comments and kudos galore (I legitimately thought someone kudos-botted the fic or something since it had more kudos than hits). One comment in particular offered me more than just encouragement—it offered me a question. AryaSage wanted to understand how people got their powers, since it seemed a little inconsistent between fics. I never really answered that question very well, since magical sources of power were decidedly complicated in PPAU. But that  comment was what made me decide to continue PPAU for at least a little longer. 

My third fic was something pretty new for me. Instead of a oneshot that was mostly action or random fluff, I was going to do a multichap with a plot. You see, while trying to come up with championship wishes, I decided to give Scout one that would synergize with his champion, Zoe. I wrote down something along the lines of “boundless energy, never sleeps.” After a second of thinking, I added, “—angst?” Exploring championship wishes, the consequences of being a moron and the bond between teammates sounded like fun, so I went for it. Unfortunately for me, I couldn’t really write a vaguely emotional, character-driven story without understanding the characters. And I knew very little about EDG, considering I have been a Damwon fan for almost as long as I’ve been into esports, and I am also a petty bitch. Rather than research, I went off pictures and their champions. Meiko was Yuumi, so he was generally cheerful, a great support outside of battle, and big on physical touch. Viper was Aphelios, so he was mysterious and cool. (AryaSage later gave him trauma.) Scout had to have a reason to make his stupid wish in the first place, so I made him a little bit of a moron. Jiejie was my favorite EDG member, although that’s not saying much, and I made him sarcastic because of his smirk in pictures. Flandre… was also there. In the span of about a week, I did what I had never done before: I finished a multichap fic. Arya commented on each chapter as it came out, which reminded me of my old fandom and helped motivate me to figure out what the hell my plot was. I call one day you’ll wish you hadn’t the EDG pilot, since I clearly hadn’t figured out the characters yet. 

Going into my fourth fic, I knew it was going to be an LCK fic. One commenter, rakuyou, said they would love to read more, and suggested that I write LCK next. I agreed, since I had written about the other three major regions already. I planned to write about Damwon, because again, I’m a Damwon fan and Showmaker has been my favorite for years. (He made it into EDG’s fic. That’s how you know it’s bad.) But when I tried to write about them… no ideas came to mind. I ended up thinking about a few clips I’d seen of Gumayusi talking about proving himself to Keria, and I typed out a line: “Okay, so in hindsight, this wasn’t the greatest idea.” Since I had covid at the time and therefore nothing to do but blow my nose and sit in my room, I wrote the rest of the fic in one day. My mom chose the title when she came to bring me my Chipotle. Rakuyou and Arya appeared again to cheer me on, and when Arya suggested that I do a Viper-centric fic to figure out his Deal (see note on me making him mysterious), I decided I might as well. 

So I did. And posted my fifth fic. The next day. As one does. The next two fics, while fun, didn’t have as much crazy inspiration behind them. They were both actually written from prompts, since I ran out of ideas. 

And then there was someday both of us are leaving here. I wrote the beginning of the sixth chapter first as a sort of sequel to counting failures, and then decided to make it a multichap 5+1. After chapter 4, DRX beat T1, and my fic ended up getting a lot more attention as people tried to cope with those finals. Two of my readers, a certain axolotl and owl, would later become my friends. Ginger Owl in particular motivated me to make the fic’s ending as good as it could be, since it was one of her favorite fics at the time. 

It’s worth noting that at the time of posting the sixth chapter, I had been dealing with depression for about six years. The pandemic hadn’t helped, and I was convinced that I was a failure compared to who I used to be. That had just started to change, as I realized about a day before my depression’s birthday that I might be able to be okay after all. One of my friends was also struggling with self-worth in comparison to someone else, similar to Gumayusi in the fic. In the seventh and final chapter, Keria tells Gumayusi that he doesn’t have to be Teddy or any of their teammates. All he has to be is Gumayusi. That chapter wasn’t just a love letter to Ginger Owl and my friend—it was a reminder to myself, of what I’d learned. I was vastly different from how I used to be, sure, and I was worse in a lot of ways, but my current self was also better in other aspects. I didn’t have to compare myself to who I used to be or to anyone else—I was enough. 

Yeah so then my grandpa died and I wrote angst to cope. Blah blah. 

But my grandpa dying and my depression isn’t important to this story! Something more important happened: SHOWMAKER LOST IN QUARTERFINALS. Filled with mald and the spirit of NA, I wrote there’s no crown for losing. And this shit is so bad it warrants a section break. 

For the first eight fics, PPAU had a solid identity. It was supposed to be a bunch of fairly short fics, some with self-contained arcs, that took place in the same universe, were canon compliant, and could be read without prior knowledge of the universe. Obviously, this wasn’t fully the case, since someday both of us are leaving here required knowledge of counting failures, but I figured it wouldn’t be too hard for a gumakeria fan to read a short gumakeria prequel. Plus the whole universe isn’t explained at the beginning of each fic, because that would make me die inside. Anyway, these stories were never connected all that much, making it easy for someone to pick and choose which ones they read based on what teams or players they liked. But there’s no crown for losing was the beginning of the end. Funnily enough, the canon compliance (AKA generally sticking to PPAU versions of IRL events and relationships) wasn’t completely destroyed the second I came up with the idea of a DK EDG crossover, since Damwon posted about LOSER FINALS TODAY WE GONNA WIN THIS TIME BROTHERS. DK VS EDG, TIME: WHENEVER YOU WANT. I love tncfl with my whole heart, but there’s no denying it did two very dangerous things to the universe. 

It introduced the idea of what I call a “mcdonalds fic”, where the previously unrelated characters from past stories came together to make something that was decidedly less than canon compliant. A mcdonalds fic, in essence, puts characters together despite the fact that they have barely interacted at all IRL, and therefore defies canon. 

It introduced Showmaker as the main character instead of a snarky, mysterious asshole like he was in his previous appearances. 

But surely there’s no crown for losing didn’t matter, because it was a one-time thing! Right? Well, it would have been, but then brute force and style combine was an even bigger mcdonalds fic, featuring players from all four regions and all TEN of the previous fics. (I’m serious.) Worse, that fic set up a possible plot, what with the ominous ending and hint that something new was coming. Right after that came run away from the faith, which marked the first time two characters had an important interaction that was insanely non-canon compliant. And of course, then there was now I’ll never be the same, and the Ruination arc, which was so, so non-canon compliant. It literally added a plot that was so disruptive that I had to reschedule some of the IRL matches in-universe, and although that might have been fine, it, uh… It was a global crisis with lasting effects, most notably the trauma I inflicted of some of PPAU’s most prominent characters.

The Ruination arc was a little weird, since it was split into eight fics despite having the same central plotline and arc. I don’t think it would have made much sense as a single fic either, since the POVs and focuses vary wildly (which is a problem in the alt ruination fic), and seeing as I had no idea what the plan was when I posted the first fic, there wasn’t much I could do. During the Ruination, if you wanted to know what the hell was going on, you absolutely had to read the fics that came before it, which wasn’t anything like the format I had going before. I was really drained writing the Ruination, since it was such a big project that I wasn’t sure I could finish. That’s probably why PPAU started how it did—so that no matter when I stopped writing PPAU, it would have a clear enough ending. Like a moron, I even hinted at a second Big Plot in the Ruination finale.

I ended the Ruination by celebrating the fact that all the Plot Shit was over and that I could get back to crack and my regularly scheduled programming. Except… I couldn’t. My next fic, while basically a crack oneshot, referenced the Ruination. I couldn’t justify not doing so, since Keria kind of died and saved the world. It was an awkward in-between of the two PPAU styles, since it could be read without context right up until Gumayusi and Keria start talking about an old arc. Most of the next few fics—a heart full of fire, pray for glory, rise up and sing, and even legendary (the stars will remember you)—were more of a return to the oneshot, non-interconnected format. The obvious exception is what are you willing to lose, but that one kind of had to be open-ended. Even though they were more of a return to the format, all of them still at least referenced past fics and arcs, and with Faker’s fic reaching 2023, it’s going to mention the Ruination. Except for rise up and sing, because EU is fundamentally irrelevant in this universe despite being the first region I wrote about. 

At this point, I didn’t have my self-contained arcs or my canon compliance or my oneshots that you could read independently. It was a whole interconnected mess of plot spaghetti, and it still is. At first, the “series” title didn’t really fit PPAU, since they were all just vaguely related fics, but the Ruination really made it a series. While you can still read the first thirteen fics with little to no context, the rest of the series has required reading, and that’s just… not what I meant to do. PPAU spans 50 fics if you count AryaSage and Space_Axolotl’s contributions—which you should, because they’re a) bangers and b) related to the “plot”. You also have to count the alternate Ruination, which I wrote as a fun what-if and now has a bunch of lore for the universe that can’t be found anywhere else. So now PPAU is over 300,000 words. You have to read a bunch of shit to understand one fic. Plus, while having self-contained arcs is good, now that I’m dragging them all together, you can’t just choose to read the fics about your favorites if you want to understand a new fic. So PPAU’s old concept is working against what it’s become. Honestly, if I wasn’t the author and I saw PPAU today, I wouldn’t read it. 

Look… I’m not writing for the sake of external validation, because I know I shouldn’t, but it’s not as if that doesn’t play a big part. Passion can only get me so far, and that was clear as soon as I started, since I would have quit after my second fic. PPAU isn’t exactly new reader-friendly, so most of my readers are what I call the squad: people who have read a large amount of PPAU and are more committed to it as a universe. Which is cool. I love the squad. It reminds me of my old fandom. But—and this is going to sound bad—sometimes it doesn’t feel like it’s enough. Maybe I’m spoiled by my old fandom, because again, we had paragraph-long comments and discord servers where we would live react to fics (and still leave comments at the end). Maybe I’m not. Either way, it doesn’t change the fact that those long comments that give me motivation and dopamine like nothing else are hard to come by these days. And by the way, there is NOTHING wrong with that, or with the fandom as a whole. Well actually the fandom has an issue with not crediting people or asking permission to use their ideas (star guardian anon i mean you /frfr) or supporting authors as much as they should but whatever. Anyway, I don’t blame anyone for not leaving comments, and I’m not saying that you should. Well I am saying that but I mean it generally and not about my works in particular. Writing any non-T1 fic means that you’re resigning yourself to it not being nearly as popular, and I’m not exactly a T1 main. I think I would have more than a few fics that didn’t have comments were it not for the squad, which kind of bothers me. I love the squad, but when it’s just them commenting on a fic, I start to think that if that fic didn’t have my name attached to it, no one would want to read it. Not even me! And at that point, why am I posting it? Why am I writing it? That’s my kind of thought process when it spirals. 

Even without that, it doesn’t change the fact that I’m just not happy with PPAU’s concept. It’s not fully interconnected, but there are a bazillion plot lines tangled up in there, and it’s not a series, but the Ruination definitely is. Canon compliance is a myth at this point. It’s not the approachable little universe it was when I made it two years ago. I’ve spent more than two years writing and drawing almost exclusively PPAU things, and… this is the part where I say that it’s gotten tiring, but that’s not the case. There are so many stories I can still tell, plus a big plotline I could explore. But if I’m putting all my brainrot into this one universe, I want to at least be happy about how that universe works—and I’m not. 

There’s no easy fix for any of this, though. I can’t untangle the plot threads and fics no matter what, and my ongoing fics reflect that. Faker’s fic will eventually answer a question that was asked by the very first fic, which does seem fitting. Because Faker. Showmaker and Canyon’s fic sets up a Noxian plotline (good timing I know) that has been around since a heart full of fire. But I alluded to Showmaker’s backstory in his first big fic. See point about tncfl breaking the universe. Alt Ruination will also be related to the greater lore of the universe, which I resent. It’s meant to be a spinoff, man… Zoomer fic was initially tied to the Noxian plot before I remembered that was a bad idea, but it still introduces a possible plot going forward. JackeyLove’s fic heavily relies on the Ruination and sets up the Void plotline, because it’s him.

Quick aside, JackeyLove is probably my favorite character I’ve created. He wasn’t supposed to be much (despite me liking iG for longer than I’ve liked DK) but while considering what Kai’Sa might exist as in PPAU, I wrote that she was “a girl who underwent a risky operation to save her life,” with said operation obviously being the Void symbiote. I used the same concept for JackeyLove, which was cool and all until I realized that he might have a little trauma about that. So he’s a bit of a mess now. In a good way. He has Showmaker’s sass, Viper’s trauma, Faker’s weird power scaling and plot relevance… 

Okay anyway. There’s no way to fix PPAU, which is upsetting considering everything I’ve put into this universe. Every chapter I post only exacerbates the issues. I still fully intend to post those chapters and eventually write the Void and Noxian plotlines, which should come to a head this year anyway. After that… we’ll see how I feel. Plot sounds painful. I don’t think I’ll outright end PPAU at some point. It’ll just stop. Which is ominous but that’s how it goes ig. 

It would be nice to work on some other projects too. I have to write that T1 novel, which will be in its own universe. Then there’s the fabled “hvau” which has been cooking for forever. Featuring my favorite mcdonalds morons. 

Maybe one day I’ll at least fix the organization of PPAU… Until then, I’d like to thank the squad I mentioned previously. I appreciate all the support more than you know. Everyone who’s commented/screamed at me in DMs for 2 hours about what I wrote, I love you. Thank you for reading! 

[malsfefanfics]

OC Profile: Template

Figured I'd post a template of the layout I use for my OCs. I laid everything out like this because it makes things easier to look back on when fic writing. Feel free to copy and use this if you think it might help you with your OCs.

Full name: Nicknames: Birthday: Age: Crest: Family: Nationality: Titles: Voice Claim:

Interests: Likes: Dislikes:

Favorite Meals: Liked Meals: Disliked Meals:

Tea Preferences:

Liked Gifts: Disliked Gifts:

Lost Items:

Item 1

Item 2

Item 3

Starting Class: Preferred Class Path: Starting classes --> Beginner Classes --> Intermediate Classes --> Advance Classes -->Master/Unique Classes Strength: Weakness: Budding Talent: Personal Skill:

Weapons Starting Levels:

Sword: E Lance: E+ Axe: D Bow: D+ Brawling: C Reason: C+ Faith: B Authority: B+ Heavy Armor: A Riding: A+ Flying: S

Base Stats:

HP: Str: Mag: Dex: Spd: Lck: Def: Res: Cha:

Learned Faith Spells: Learned Reason Spells:

Recruit Requirements:

Potential Supports:

Byleth

Crit Quotes:

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Defeat Quotes:

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Skill Level Increase Quotes:

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Level Up Quotes:

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Gift Quotes:

Liked Gifts:

Neutral Gifts:

Disliked Gifts:

[thomotomo]

To pin or not pin - Faker x Male Reader

A/N: I hope you'll like it ☺️ Took a bit of time but here it is~ I've got 5 more fics in writing for the T1 cuties and I'll try to publish 1 per week depending on how busy I am ✌️ Please leave a comment and/or reblog if you enjoyed the story 🫰

Being the first openly gay player of the LCK hadn't been easy to you, after all, many people in South Korea weren't open about that yet but you didn't want to hide who you were and even if you had been dropped by a few teams throughout your career who didn't want to bother with bad press, you had been lucky to score a spot in the legendary T1 team.

The whole process had taken a huge toll on your mental health and for the longest while, you had struggled, but now, with all of your teammates and staff being unconditionally supportive you had never been better. And it had reflected in your gameplay, you probably had never been better, basically shutting up any kind of game related homophobic comments. Of course you still had your detractors but you didn't care anymore about them, after all you were part of your dream team, playing alongside Faker. And yeah maybe throughout the time you had been playing with him you might had developed a crush on the guy but this had stayed between you and Minseok (who caught you more often than not trying to keep yourself from grinning brightly every time Sanghyeok was not looking).

The young support was teasing you at every occasion available, laughing at your misery, but luckily for you the famous midlaner was quite oblivious to your turmoil and you would love to keep it this way. Today had been no different than usual, you had been streaming your solo queue to the fans, showcasing your skills while casually chatting with the chat.

[xxxx] donated 25000wons: Hyung do you have a crush on someone?

Oh fuck you hadn't expected that and your heart jumped on your chest. You did your best to keep your face as it had been previously, forcing a chuckle out.

"Ah that's not polite to ask~ If I had a crush you wouldn't know it, it's my private life after all."

You checked the chat, luckily they seemed more interesting in chastising the donator rather than pushing for an answer. Your phone vibrated and you saw a message from Minseok, laughing at you, meaning he was definitely watching you. You bit back a snort, focusing on the game happening and no "incendent" of the sort happened for the rest of the duration of your stream. Once you had ended, you stretched and headed to the common kitchen, grabbing some food from the fridge to cook yourself a nice heartwarming meal.

"So... I you had a crush huh?" Your froze for a second before turning quickly a sending a glare towards your friend.

"Shut up Minseok!"

The younger male laughed at you as you rolled your eyes and turned back towards your cooking, some tofu jjigae, meat and dumplings. Streaming always took much energy out of you that you had to eat a lot to gain back energy.

"Waaah (Y/N), your food smells so good!", you chuckled, Minseok being your best friend, he was the one who ate most of your cooking, and you'd think that he would get tired of the smells of your food. You took a spoon and stirred the stew.

"You want a taste?"

The younger male nodded excitedly and you laughed, bringing the stew filled spoon to his mouth, grinned as he hummed as he took in all the flavours.

"This is so good... You're really the best cook man!"

You beamed at him and patted his head, continuing your conversation, oblivious to the witness who was quietly leaving the area.

Once you had finished preparing the food you and Minseok headed to the common area where everyone usually took meals. Your friend was staring at you intently and you were doing everything in your power to ignore him, knowing what (more like whom) he wanted to talk about.

"So, do you plan on confessing?", ah so he had decided to break the silence himself.

"Probably never. I don't know why you're asking this every few days, it'll always be the same answer."

He groaned in frustration, maybe because he was a hopeless romantic, he was adamant about you having to confess to your captain. You ignored his annoyed complaints and just focused on eating.

" Hm why are you ranting about (Y/N) being a coward Minseok-ah?"

And here was the object of your affections, taking a seat next to your grinning friend and now looking at you intently. You couldn't let the young support say a word about a potential crush or anything in the like so you used his silence to speak.

"It's because I don't want to try to make this new recipe because it's... Pretty complicated."

Sanghyeok looked at you in a confused manner, after all, you were renowned at T1 for being an awesome cook it didn't really make sense for him that you would be scared of trying out a new recipe.

You avoided his gaze, focusing on your meal instead. You could see Minseok trying to keep a straight face, biting his lower lip to keep himself from laughing. The meal was awkwardly quiet, Keria trying to make the two of you speak more but you were just too awkward around Sanghyeok and you didn't want to blurt random mess.

By the time you finished eating you were exhausted and you cleaned up your mess and bid the guys goodnight, quickly shuffling to your room. You closed the door behind you and immediately changed into pajamas and jumped in your bed, trying to gather your thoughts and trying not to cringe at the way you behaved around your crush.

Falling asleep you decided that it was time to put a stop to your crush. The next morning you decided to put your plan to execution, you were going to avoid Sanghyeok as much as possible until eventually your feelings would fiddle out and the problem would be solved.

It couldn't be worse than confessing and then being rejected which surely would've put a more awkward atmosphere than your current plan.

For the next few weeks, you did your best to avoid Sanghyeok or keep interaction to minimal, to the confusion of everyone since you usually liked to ramble about the meta and possible new ideas of counter of some champions and such. You could feel the confused stare of the staff and Tom even took you aside to see how you were doing, wondering if anything bad had happened, after all the team atmosphere was important to maintain a good cohesion. You assured him that everything was okay and that he didn't have to worry about it.

When you and Minseok were chilling in your room, one night, he was quite vocal about the disapproval of your plan, hitting you on the back of the head, but he knew ultimately that he couldn't do anything to reverse your decision and (in his opinion) shit plan.

Sanghyeok had tried to get informations from Minseok since he was your best friend, but the younger man didn't said anything and he just wanted to understand what he had done wrong to you, but he didn't recall anything an

One night Sanghyeok decided that he had enough and one night after your stream he waited until you headed to the kitchen to join you and close the door behind him, effectively trapping you with him.

You were gathering the ingredients to make yourself some instant noodles with eggs and dumpling when the door shutting up took you by surprise. You turned around to see who it was and seeing Sanghyeok standing there with an unreadable expression was kind of scaring you.

"Why have you been avoiding me so much?"

Oh fuck.

"Huh? I... Haven't been avoiding you, I'm just... Busy."

"(Y/N)." Fuck he was using his serious voice on you which was both terrifying and hot but now wasn't the time to think about that.

"Don't lie you have been avoiding me for the past few weeks."

You sighed.

"Ah... It's complicated... Promise me that whatever I say won't change a single thing between us", he blinked at you and nodded whilst you were gathering your thoughts and strength.

"I... Kind of have a crush on you? But I don't want you to be uncomfortable so I've just... Tried to keep it down. So don't hate me for that please. And you know I don't have a good reputation in general with the public so... I don't want you or the team to be affected by this you know..?"

"Hate you? You should have told me this earlier it would've make this whole situation easier."

You were confused about the wording of his sentence and you were about to ask him what he meant, he brought his hands to your face and brought it together with his, kissing you gently. Your eyes opened wide, you hadn't expected that your feelings would be returned but you let yourself melt and before you knew it, your hands naturally found his waist as you deepened the kiss, you couldn't believe what was happening but you were making sure to enjoy every second of it just in case it was a dream.

"Oh finally!"

The two of you jumped apart, looking at Minseok who was standing in the doorframe with a wide grin on his face.

"Oh you can go on, I just wanted to fill my bottle, just don't do anything dirty on the counters please."

The two of you flushed a little at Minseok's implication and he just left while humming a song. Sanghyeok smiled a little and took your hand in his.

"Don't do that again right? I don't care what the medias are going to say, I really like you and I just want us to go back how we were right?"

You nodded, too stunned to say anything, your heart filled with love for the other man in front of you. You quickly gave him a peck, it was only the second time you kissed him but you knew you were already addicted to the feeling of his lips against yours. You couldn't help but look at him and ask in a quiet but giddy voice.

"So... Are we boyfriends now?"

He chuckled and the sound made your heart do flip in your chest.

"Yes we are." Sanghyeok had a soft smile on his lips and you couldn't believe you were the one who put it there now. You had almost forgotten the reason why you were in the kitchen and turned to the food right behind you and took out another pack of ramen to cook for your now boyfriend. You couldn't help a grin to form on your face at that new realization.

Once the meal was ready, the two of you headed to the table to eat and he sat across you and you couldn't help but reach with your feet and lock one of your legs together. He chuckled and you grinned as you dived into your meal. So maybe your plan didn't work like you had originally wanted, but the final result was definitely worth it.

[ciaran]

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[chengxians]

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[littlecoffeekitty]

Little Coffee Kitty's 2022 Fandoms Review ♡

After so many years of doubting myself if I could write a fanfic, I finally let my inhibitions go and did it as a gift to myself on Christmas! I wrote six fanfics in a week, starting from the 25th, and I couldn't be prouder! Here's to plenty more stories this 2023! I'm so excited. ٩(๑òωó๑)۶(｡>﹏<｡)(ﾉ´∀｀*)(｡ŏ﹏ŏ)(*˘︶˘*).｡.:*♡

Muted Sparks (2 chapters)

Fandom: Naruto

Pairing: Deidara x Sakura

Summary: Deidara's drunk, and someone's on his lap. He just wants to finish his drink in silence, damn it.

LCK's thoughts on writing it: I love, looooove this so much. This is the very first fanfic I ever wrote on AO3, and it'll always have a very special place in my heart. Yeah, I was very drunk while I wrote it, but it was worth it. I was so tired of always having second thoughts on writing fanfic, and I broke through it! I did it!

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Baon sa Pagtulog (Rough translation from Tagalog: "Carried into Sleep")

Fandom: Mad Max: Fury Road

Pairing: The Dag x Slit

Summary: Slit's cold medicine turns him into a sappy man.

LCK's thoughts on writing it: This fic is one of my personal favorites. It has a different flavour from all the rest, and I like it because of that. Also, I absolutely adore this pairing.

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White Flower

Fandom: Naruto

Characters: The Uchiha Siblings

Summary: Itachi gets woken up in the middle of the night by his little brother.

LCK's thoughts on writing it: Oh man, my own pain was my inspiration here. I just woke up in the middle of the night with my stomach hurting, and so to distract myself from it, I wrote this fic. After I applied White Flower on myself, of course. I also liked the particular way it turned out.

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Nightmare

Fandom: Undertale

Characters: Sans and Frisk

Summary: Frisk had a very frightening dream. Sans tries to soothe them.

LCK's thoughts on writing it: This was just a small idea I had, and I wanted to try it. I wanted to see where it goes. I want to write more Undertale fics in the future.

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Real

Fandom: Naruto

Pairing: Obito x Rin

Summary: Obito holds Rin in his arms.

LCK's thoughts on writing it: Oh boy, pain, pain was my inspiration as well. Pain on the inside. I was in a very bad headspace when I wrote this. My tears didn't go to waste.

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Explosion

Fandom: Naruto

Pairing: Deidara x Sakura

Summary: Sakura and Deidara sneak out of the party and go somewhere quieter.

LCK's thoughts on writing it: AHHHHH, I loved writing this so much talaga! I really, really enjoyed it! I went on a roller-coaster ride of emotions throughout. I got so frustrated so many times, and there were moments where I just wanted to quit writing it. But I got through it! I finished it, and I'm so proud.

[tryhardgwen]

omg my first platonic fic

this is a platonic showmaker & chovy (& faker) runeterra au with proplayers as league of legends champions (kindred). i used a lot of league of legends canonical lore and then spun it with my own ideas :]

idk how tumblr works again but i realize I can do a lot more long form messages here so I will probably use this blog to put my thought process about writing fics? i will put that below, but it has spoilers so if u wanna check it out probably read the fic first !!

named after the sleep token song:

i chose this song to name it after this not only because the obvious kindred relation with "the eyes of the wolf / the mouth of the lamb" but also because of the other lyrics!

"for so long I have waited / so long that I almost became / just a stoic statue fit for nobody" is very much the grey man coded.

"the vicious cycle was over the moment you smiled at me" would talk about the creation of the kindred, and lamb and wolf. they are each others escape.

"i know i know the way that it goes / you get what you give / you reap what you sow" well... kindred. they give death, and... ok imma stfu.

"and just like the rain / you cast the dust into nothing / and wash out the salt from my hands / so touch me again /i feel my shadow dissolving / will you cleanse me with pleasure?" i think speaks to the relationship between lamb and wolf again.

"nobody can say for certain / if maybe it's all just a game / when I open my eyes to the future / I can hear you say my name" is what I perceive to be the kindred and the grey man's relationship. :>

in the end notes i vaguely touch on the idea of the "LCK Mid" which I think is one of thee most interesting dynamics in lolesports. I've been wanting to write plat fics for a while to sort of explore. in my eyes the holy trinity of the lck mid would be faker, chovy, and showmaker. man I love them. also my grammarly keeps autocorrecting showmaker to shoemaker and its so annoying lmao.

but anyway they r SO INTERESTING! in this fic i tried to include a lot of parallels, from how showmaker as lamb knows more than chovy as wolf—because chovy hasn't won anything internationally unlike showmaker has. chovy's more hungry, because he hasn't won a world championship yet. not to mention their relationship with faker—each having a diff specialization and aspect of their gameplay. showmaker has said many times about how he doesn't want to be the next faker so i made him despise the grey man here. with faker as the grey man i again use the whole "alone at the top" trope because... oh my god I'm a sucker for that. he's got everything, but everyone hates him, and he is lonely. plus my ending + the cyclic nature of the world/of the esports... faker will always be there. it will always come back to him. there will be other midlaners, but its always faker at the end, or so it seems.

anyway! i had a lot of fun writing this fic. it was very challenging and out of my comfort zone because it was platonic and abt people I haven't written about before, and because its a lot more... abstract? it relies on parallelism and reading between the lines. idk. my brain is dumb. i am also dumb. i just vomit words on a google doc and pray for the best.

if anyone has more questions u can ask here on tumblr or on retrospring. please be nice bc again tumblr scares me. i am easily scared.

[ao3-oner]

Spy AU RuLehends Angst!!

Hi everyone! Long time, no see :)

Now that the LCK season is starting back up again (and RULER IS BACK, BABY!! AND ON LEHENDS'S TEAM FOR LCK CUP, LET'S GOOO), I expect to be more active on here once again. Reminder that my ask box is always wide open!

In the meantime, enjoy some tragic secret agent AU RuLehends that I completed as part of the Yellow Seas Fic Fest. Enjoy!

[sbrn10]

Tagged by: @hearticho

Nicknames: Dee is something only people who know me on tumblr call me lol 

Zodiac: Taurus. Extremely stereotypically so.

Height: Tall in Korea, average in the US

Last thing you googled: 한송이 배구 - I have recently started watching women’s volleyball in Korea and wanted to know how old she is lol.

Last gift given or received: I bought a cool deck of cards (Blue Knights) for a friend. Last gift received was a pair of cute socks.

First things you notice when you meet someone new: I mean... I guess their face?

Currently reading/watching: Mostly sports - women’s volleyball in Korea, LCK, some European football. Supergirl is like... it’s debatable whether I actually watch Supergirl. Mostly I just think about it a lot.

Favorite musicians: SNSD as always, lots of 그림(the林) as my personal version of elevator music (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nMHzwgawHlE no but really it’s great). Recently listened to 80 hours of the Death Stranding soundtrack because I had it on loop in the background while I played it and it was the best part of that game tbh.

Song stuck in your head: Right now, All The Things She Said. Thanks for nothing, tumblr!

How long have you been on tumblr: I don’t know honestly. Prob like... 2011 or so? (I went and looked at my archive, yup, September 2011. Oh my god, I just found an Elizabeth Warren post that I reblogged in September of 2011. Is this a sign. I hope it’s a sign.)

Do you get asks: Nope. If I ever get an anon, I’m going to assume it’s my friends trying to give me shit.

Amount of sleep: Usually about 7-9 hours (depending on whether I sleep on my commute or not) and literally CANNOT FUNCTION with any less. This is a problem whenever my brain decides that I’m going to stay up reading fic until 2am.

Most recent accomplishment: ...I haven’t accomplished anything in a while honestly. Uh... I should be less lazy in my life, honestly.

Languages: Bilingual in Korean and English. Took like six years of German and only remember conjugating sixteen versions of “the”. Can read some Japanese and some trad Chinese because, like, that’s just cultural osmosis living in CJK land, but do not have any meaningful fluency.

Describe your aesthetic: I have none. I am a basic bitch. 

Random fact: Y’all, Seimone Augustus just signed with the Sparks. This is the darkest timeline.

Tagging: no one, because I am a recluse. @hearticho is like the friend that makes you go outside when you’ve been at home for a week ♡

[hiikisekki-blog]

Smeb x Faker

Sanghyeok was more or less the one who initiated their meeting.

When he walked into that quaint little café in Seoul - bundled up in his puffy black jacket during the off-season, when people were supposed to be at home away from League and spending time with their family, or girlfriends for that matter - Kyungho was too surprised.

He watched Sanghyeok glance around the café, frowning slightly, before his gazes directed right at Kyungho, boring into his eyes. Too late, he was already striding forward towards his table.

Sanghyeok stepped onto the elevated wooden platform of the booth, before hesitating, his eyes suddenly cast to the side like he shouldn’t be there.

“Sorry, Kyungho, can I sit here?”

A few options ran through Kyungho’s mind. He could reject him, coming up with some lame excuse like there was no space for the two of them in that little booth, or that he wanted his privacy. but this was Sanghyeok. They knew each other, and there were no other seats in the café. Kyungho suddenly realised that Sanghyeok’s brown eyes were once again focused on him, waiting for his reaction. Kyungho cleared his throat awkwardly.

“umm... of course. “ Kyungho shifted the laptop he brought with him to give Sanghyeok some of his own space, taking the bag he had put on the table and throwing it down haphazardly on the floor.

Sanghyeok slid opposite of Kyungho, taking off his jacket and throwing it around the chair, letting it hang off the back, before standing up, blending himself into the queue for coffee.

Kyungho glanced back at his queue, clicking through the different windows until he land on KaKao Talk, clicking for that one person he knew would be living online 24/7.

Smeb: “does sanghyeok not go back during hols?”

Peanut: “yeah. Says family r not nice ot be with and company of computers are better.”

peanut: “btw why do you ask?”

Smeb: “Nah, its nothing.”

Peanut: “tell me u saw him.”

Smeb: “I did not see him.”

Peanut: “seems like someone's in a mood.”

Kyungho groaned slightly, flicking back to his queue screen in hops of finding a game. Obviously to no avail.

Smeb: “I am not in a mood.”

peanut: “Apparently.”

There was a pause in their conversation, Kyungho unsure what he should say next. he should really ask Wangho what to do when Sanghyeok suddenly walks up to your table and is now sitting with you.

Peanut: “well, if you do see him, talk to him about League.”

Kyungho pondered over that suggestion. Talk to Sanghyeok about League? But, technically, by their teams and their standing, they were depicted arch enemies by OGN, both fighting for the top spot in the League ladder. Talking to Faker about the one thing they both loved most couldn’t be that bad right?

Smeb: “okay, thanks.”

Peanut: “np, good luck on yr date.”

Smeb: “it’s not a date.”

Peanut: “yeah right it isn’t.”

Kyungho groaned, closing his KaKao Talk. His queue was everlasting, his last game about 20 minutes ago. On hindsight, he had absolutely forgotten to ask Wangho what about League he should ask about. Obviously not pro league. Then what else was there?

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Sanghyeok stared at him, incredulity in his dark eyes, quickly wiped away before being replaced by an almost childlike curiosity.

He had come back with his own mug of hot latte, and one of the cafe’s famous waffles in the other. The hand that he was using to stir the coffee had stopped, and was now idly holding the plasting white stirrer, and Kyungho desperately hoped that his queue would find a game or something like a natural disaster could occur now so that he could just run out of this awkward situation. (although he realises that it would just be rather rude to wish for death to just come upon the other innocent people in the cafe.)

Then, quickly, Sanghyeok turned his gaze away from Kyungho’s, and the hand was stirring again.

“How do I think about the current meta? Well,” Sanghyeok paused, his voice already hollowing out to that famous monotone of his, “I think that Ashe following into the meta from last year was a nice surprise and especially with Camille now, there are more power picks than ever.”

“Don’t talk to me like that.” The words were out of Kyungho’s mouth before he could stop them. “I play pro league too, and I dare say that my team is one of the best in the world. So stop treating this like an interview and actually try to have a decent conversation with me.”

Okay, this is where he probably just crashed through some unseen line that he and Sanghyeok had drawn, and Kyungho ducked down the screen of his computer, trying to muster up some apology for being exceedingly rude to someone older than him, when Sanghyeok seemed to take pity of his flustered form in the form of answering with a little bit more life in his tone.

“Well, I’m not sure what to say about the current meta that you won’t know.”

Right. Kyung forgot that they were both absolute conversation killers when it came to socialising. They would usually leave it to their more, active, friendly and outgoing teammates to do it for them.

“I wish that Fiora was played more often. She’s a good carry, but I don’t think that she’ll be any match against Camille.”

“Camille has already been severely NERFed since the 7.1 patch came out, especially since there were a ton of NERFs in that patch with so few updates to other things.”

“But even with the NERFs I think Camille is still a huge threat with LeBlanc and Rengar. Even if they’re both assassins and LeBlanc has been on a losing streak.”

“Are you implying that I should play LeBlanc when the season starts again?”

“Yeah.” Kyungho hesitated a little, knowing how Faker had been so cautious on LeBlanc ever since MSI 2015 and it was a touchy subject for them both. But he had Sanghyeok’s attention, even if they both didn’t maintain eye contact. “Wangho is on a Lee Sin winning streak right now, and he’s the one who broke the curse on Lee Sin during the LCK Spring Split. And he’s still undefeated on the Lee Sin. Maybe you could do the same with LeBlanc. Make her absolute.”

“Perhaps.” Sanghyeok said vaguely, even if Kyungho could see the glimmer of eagerness in his eyes. “But the team has 4 potential hyper carries, and lately I’ve been plying a more utility and support role in mid to help either Wangho or Junsik be the carry.” Sanghyeok let out a frustrated sigh through his nose. “it’s not that I don’t like others hard carrying the game instead of me, it’s just that when Wangho picks Lee Sin he just goes crazy on it.”

Just look at MSI, came unspoken. They both knew what happened. Although not as disasterous as the start of 2016 MSI, it was a bit too over the top, playing with their opponents, have them run around in circles when SKT had a chokehold on them the whole time. When they picked a team composition that worked especially well at dismantling rookie or unexperienced teams, they just absolutely destroyed them. Wangho got 14 kills before the 20 minute mark.

“it kinda feels the same here. Just that I end up being one of the hyper carries.”

“Nah. Well, I may be wrong but,” Sanghyeok paused, but when he spoke, there was no doubt in his voice. “I think you play a rather similar role to my own in most games. We both can be hyper carries on the champions that we pick but it’s usually the planned carry that gets all the kills, the CS, the gold. And then I just run in  to back them up with Orianna or Lulu.”

“But I don’t think you particularly like to be in the shadows.”

“I think you would. Especially if you guys won that game. That thing that you did against Samsung in Spring Split Semis? That was it.” Sanghyeok took another gulp from his rapidly cooling coffee.Kyungho took the opportunity to scroll through his windows and check his queue again. What Sanghyeok said had been partially right. After all, he knew that he was a better team player than Sanghyeok from the start, which had placed him in the top position for the best players of Worlds 2016 by the casters, garnering him more fans but also the stiff, scripted drama between Sanghyeok and himself, causing a rather unintentional divide between them. But the casters underestimated how strong the rest of SKT actually was.

“But are you not happy that you don’t get to be the carry? I mean, you’re someone who got scouted just from your ranked solo queue stats. you were meant to be the carry. Especially with your Katarina plays at the beginning of the Spring Split.”

“Sadly, it’s supposed to have all been left behind the moment SKT T1 K disbanded.” Sanghyeok eyed his mug before taking another gulp, giving Kyungho a clear view of his throat as he swallowed. “K was meant to be built around me, but we were all from solo queue. We all had talent. And Coach did a good job of blending us all together.”

Perhaps this was just Sanghyeok’s own way in saying that he did miss being the carry. And Kyungho knew how that felt. He’d made it all the way to the semifinals in LCK Spring Split, only to fall to SKT in the finals. Much reminiscent of World 2015. And of Worlds 2016, but they had made their last stand during Semifinals against SKT, and they could have beat them. Hell, they could have beaten Samsung after they supposedly beat SKT. But that was all ‘could have’s and ‘what if’s. There was only now, where that SKT mountain, that SKT house that Faker, Kkoma, and all of the other SKT members had painstakingly built up and maintained with their blood, sweat and tears. (perhaps not so much tears, but the words served it own effect.)

He watched Sanghyeok gather up his coat, saying a brief goodbye before turning for the door. He shouldn’t think that they would meet again.

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A/N: okay, so this is the first part in this 5+1 LoL thing between Smeb and Faker that i’m going on. I got the inspiration after reading a good fic on AO3 (its called “when we give enough of ourselves away we lose sight of who we are and sometimes we call that love and sometimes we call that self-destruction”. it’s centered around Deft but it has a really cute Smeb and Faker scene inside, which just made me want to read the whole fic again. Props to birdring (twoif)) i’m going to write another part, but that is going to be a maybe because my exams are coming up. So like and reblog and message if you want me to continue!

(and this style of writing for Faker and Smeb may be a little to OC for you but sadly, I've never met Faker or Smeb before, and I've never been to Korea so that’s already an issue. I hope that you can use all of your wonderful imagination and pls pretend for the sake of the story. Plus, i’m open to constructive criticism if you have any. Thanks!)

[agronadb]

I thought I didn't want to spoil myself on your Genealogy fic, but it turns out I totally want to know *everything* about Alicia's kids.

haha! Well, you’re in some luck, in that I don’t have TOO much on them quite yet. 

Alicia has two kids like the other mothers: a girl named Caitriona and a boy named Conall. They’re twins, and are born in the time skip between Chapter 3 and Chapter 4. 

Caitriona, called Riona, grows up with Seliph and the others in Isaach, and is a myrmidon, and her skills are Pursuit (class skill), Charisma and Prayer (from Alicia), and Luna (from Holyn). Her primary parent is Holyn, her father, and her growth rates come to about... 150% HP, 37% Str, 47% Mag, 95% Skl, 52% Spd, 35% Lck, 35% Def, 10% Res, factoring in that she is minor Odo and minor Vala/Fala. (This is taken from Holyn’s growths, and the growths I gave Alicia). Her Holy Mark is on her collarbone or neck area (haven’t quite decided). She ‘promotes’ into a mage fighter (or, rather, the Mage Lord class from the Inflation Path), and marries Seliph. She’s best friends with Lana and Larcei, and insists on being on the frontlines alongside the others because she’s tired of hiding, even if she hates the Vala blood in her veins (initially). She has Holyn’s blonde hair and Alicia’s green eyes. [Her classes, btw, are subject to change as I try to figure out what works best for her]

Conall didn’t grow up with the others as much, though he did spend his youngest years with them, as a raid when the kids were young resulted in him being kidnapped. As such, he was primarily raised by Arvis and ‘Diadora’ (as Deirdre is called after she lost her memories), and grew up with Julius and Julia, as well as Ishtar. As such, he knew Julius before Loptyr took over, and primarily fights in the hopes that by ‘winning’ Loptyr will let Julius go, though he’s aware that it’s likely a futile hope. He’s a ‘recruitable enemy’ during Gen 2.His primary parent is Alicia, his mother, and his growth rates come to about... 125% HP, 30% Str, 57% Mag, 85% Skl, 60% Spd, 40% Lck, 25% Def, 12% Res. He wields the Silence staff, inherited from his mother (Alicia picks it up after Deirdre’s kidnapped). I haven’t figured out just when he’s recruited, and when he’s first seen, but do know that he is not recruitable in the first chapter he appears, and that he’s firmly with the others by the time Altenna joins (as in, Altenna remains the last member of the army to join, just as will likely happen in game). He has Alicia’s red hair and Holyn’s blue eyes, and his Holy Mark is on his arm. [His classes haven’t been quite determined yet, and the same for whether or not he has a lover or not.]

[gaylcs]

Know a lot about EULCS or LCK?

Wanna help me co-write a fic? Pls message me :D (Otherwise a super NA-washed fic is coming out instead)